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venusscore · 2 days ago
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Damian Wayne x Reader Drabble
(Damian’s age is meant to be the same as yours in this, so basically anyone can apply it to their age group so it won’t be weird.)
Contains: Gn reader, Batfam pool day, pre-established relationship between Damian and Reader, Damian being embarrassed, you cutting up watermelon, and basically just fluff
Based off a real interaction I had that I thought fit Dami. Lmk if yall want more. My requests are always open!
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Today everyone was bored- really bored, so Steph suggested to hang out in their pool!
It started with Tim inviting Conner and Bernard, then Dick of course had to invite Wally, Jason brought Roy, and then Bruce agreed to just bring all the Kents, which led to a couple JL members, then Jon asked if he could bring his partner, so Damian was then asked if he’d like to bring his, and here you are!
During the party, you decided to get a treat for everyone. Alfred decided to make a big seafood dinner, so he was preoccupied with that. You figured it’d be fine if you just cut it yourself.
You were cutting each piece, starting with the middle. You had a big knife in your hand, cutting into it as best as possible. Damian (you asked him to join you, but he would’ve followed you anyway) and Dick (he was grabbing a beer) were watching. Dick suddenly said “You use a knife like it’s a sword.”
You chuckled and thanked him, then chatted a bit before suddenly saying “You know those people who exchange swords rather than rings at their weddings?”
Both looked a bit surprised. Damian was slightly interested. After all, it was swords.
“Really?” Dick tilted his head.
“Yeah.” You nodded. “It sounds so cool. I swear, if I’m engaged to someone who won’t do that at our wedding, I don’t want them.” You said jokingly, but then noticed Damian’s staring.
“I’d do that.” He blurted before thinking.
You looked at him, surprised and slightly flustered. “What?”
He just stared at you some more. “For… For a wedding. I would exchange swords with you. For a wedding. Instead of rings. Or also rings. I like rings. Rings and swords… what a combo.” He rambled. It was quite cute, honestly. You could see the red in his face.
You offered him a smile, making him redder. “I’d like that.”
Dick watches this interaction, finding it adorable.
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Fun fact: Damian and Dick are my favorites. I like Damian in general as a character, but literally every x reader fic of him I’ve read has been so cute so I got it stuck in my head.
Again, I love requests! Please ask some 💕
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stinkyboyfaliure · 3 days ago
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alternate autism reader reality where youth trauma made them really good at masking and gave them people pleasing tendencies; the house likes them just fine but they are basically never themselves and do not feel any gratification from the social interactions they have to the point where if E&V ever say they're in love reader goes "no you're not, y'all would hate the real me, thanks for the compliment tho" and then proceeds to have an identity crisis. Idk I like the idea of both extremes being fucking cooked
I love this so much
Also if like to add on, the only person reader unmasks around is Beverly because no one’s ever at her bar and she’s alone most of the time he can actually be himself around her, the him no one else gets to see.
Reader is forcing himself to be nice to everyone, social, happy. And that’s the idea everyone except Dorian and Beverly has of him, that’s the version of him that Eddie and Volt fell in love with.
When they confess readers like “no you don’t, you like my mask.” They’re like “what do you mean?” Reader responds “my mask, the fake me I made to be likable, everyone likes that, they don’t like me. People dont like the actual me, you’d hate the actual me if you knew him”
Reader actually has crippling social anxiety to the point where he wishes he never had to leave his house, he gets overstimulated by loud noises, crowds, and bright lights. But because he’s been masking for so long he felt that the pain, chronic exhaustion, depression, and feeling of general worthlessness and not knowing yourself was normal.
Or at least he had to put up with it so people wouldn’t hate him.
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What's your most bad faith, hate filled, slanderous Weld take?
Essay on why i hate weld
if i'm being honest the thing i hate the most about weld is that his power, a really cool power, one of the most interesting and potentially creative ones in all of worm, is just so utterly wasted on being weld's power.
straight up, in some Bad universe where taylor died during leviathan and wildbow had to pick a new protagonist, on powers alone, weld has a genuine shot at being decent pick for the new protagonist. on strength of his power alone! (it wouldn't be as good as the one we got but the concept is not entirely devoid of potential)
if you recall, when I was asked to pick my favorite power in every category back in april, I said that weld was my favorite Changer. I still stand by that. Weld has a really cool power, with tons of interesting facets, potential expressions, interactions, and potential themes and symbolism!
You can see this back in my ward liveblog posts. I am firmly of the opinion that a bad thing is merely bad, while a bad thing that has the potential to be amazing, incredible ideas let down by terrible implementation, is infinitely worse than something that's just bad. The most torturous thing to read for me is something with these incredible potential themes that are literally never explored. Weld, just as a character, is this.
So Weld is really fucking cool on paper. He's a case 53, but managed to luck into being a case 53 with mass market appeal.
It's such an interesting idea for what worm wants to do with case 53s as both a unique twist on the x-men formula, and how case 53s are supposed to represent a visible otherness. Like if you want to go for a queer reading, "normal" capes have passing privilege and case 53s don't.
So weld is such a neat idea for that! He's a pick-me, a One-Of-The-Good-Ones, because unlike other case 53s, he's just Some Guy, but he happens to be made of metal. Case 53s I Do and Do Not Respect, that sort of thing. Because of that, because he, out of all the case 53s, is the one best able to Pass for normal, people can tolerate him!
And that's cool! The metal shapeshifter is constantly contorting himself for mass market appeal! Like i'm gonna make up a scenario. So weld's talking with the image department at boston PHQ, and they're like hmm your mouth is a little big, can you make it smaller? and he fucking can! He can just. change what he looks like! It's useless for disguising, since there's One Fucking Guy Made of Metal but like. he can make himself into a generically attractive white guy!
I fucking love the idea of a character going like "i'm wearing so many masks i'm not sure there's a real me underneath it all" that's so fucking cool! And during the echidna fight, there could be a moment where he finally has to make his own path, for once!
Even the fact that his character's so utterly bland could be something! He's so dedicated to being such a Good One that he's basically responsible for public perception of all case 53s. He could make people like Case 53s. He's carrying the world on his shoulders. In order to do that, he makes his personality into one designed by committee--not just in public but in private too! The metal shapeshifter sanded down the rough edges of his personality so he wouldn't cut anyone on the edge!
But this is all just wasted! Because Weld is JUST SOME GUY! All i've read of worm and ward, and i never once got the impression weld was ever actually invested in something! Weld feels like the parahumans equivalent to harry potter. He's, like, a passive milquetoast observer. Weld never chooses to do something, Weld never wants to do something. Things just happen to weld, and nobody, least of all weld, is interested in what he thinks about them. And he never questions this either, because again that could be interesting, that could be a neat character, and weld is just boring.
Honestly, the thing that bothers me the most is this moment in early ward, when he sees victoria again after years, never learning she was even alive, sveta's hugging vic and sobbing because she just found out her best friend was alive and weld's response is just. Yeah. This Is Great. And seriously this might actually be the most emotion we see from the bastard in the whole fucking day. "wow, doctor yamada. this made my day."
Basically, my biggest problem with weld is that I could do better (most anyone could do better). Give weld's powers to some other character, almost any other character, and it would be more interesting.
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pupcarisi · 2 days ago
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Ok am I reading too much into the fic someone just posted anonymously in the Barisi section of ap3? It is basically Mia writing incest fantasy fiction and her mom thinks that it’s about Carisi and accuses him of grooming her, even though he isn’t. and the rest of the fic is spent bashing reader and dark fiction or kink with taboo subjects and the characters are all calling it predatory for even existing. I’m trying to read the fic in good faith but it feels like it’s just an excuse to call out people who enjoy fantasy writing that involves anything problematic in kink? At first it felt like a real Barisi fic but by the end it felt like it was trying to call ‘x reader’ fic writers predators and I can’t tell if I am reading too much into it or if it’s just a ‘you’re gross for enjoying this kink or writing about it and you should be in prison if you enjoy any of these things’ essay disguised as a Barisi fanfic? Like I don’t want to comment on their work or ask for clarification because it feels so much like bait but I genuinely don’t know if I’m just overreacting to it? It feels like it’s very much pointed toward certain people so I’m side eyeing in pretty heavy but don’t want to judge it poorly if that’s not how they meant it, ya know? It feels like they are vague posting about the ‘stepdad!sonny x reader’ fics and trying to call it out without saying so directly. Figured it directly relates to you so I thought I’d get your take and see if you read it that way?
attaching anon's follow up ask below too! as warning, this answer has discussions about like, everything. so minors do not interact (MY WHOLE BLOG IS 18+ PLEASE), mentions of abuse, pedophilia (NOT partaking in it. it's the context).
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BREATHES. okay. where do i even begin? omg. but thank you anon, for telling me about this and also for speaking out your thoughts! i also appreciate what you said. it's unrealistic to think that the things i enjoy must be the things someone else enjoys. part of being ONLINE, having mutuals, is yeah you won't always have the same tastes but we still #respect it. tbh it means a lot to me that even though you don't necessarily enjoy the content, you still thought about the implications of everything and you're having a discussion here #ally
so before i go on, two things:
as a disclaimer, whatever i say in this ask is solely my Opinion so *glances into the audience* please lower any lasers pointed at me or anyone else... i am also NOT a kink expert, but i know what healthy boundaries are. and i also know what is FICTION.
here are two very insightful posts, on the topic of taboo fics that i align with (exhibit a and exhibit b. exhibit a VERY NICELY covers all the important questions people love to ask when it comes to content of this nature so i suggest you read that!!! because i fear my words below are not enough of a justice)
ok back the programme. you see, when i was first reading the fic, i really had no issues with it because it seemed like your typical case fic, plus we literally are watching a SHOW called law & order:svu but god. the last bit was the one that really threw me off. more on that later.
firstly, i am someone who BELIEVES everyone has a right to like whatever they want and also dislike anything, without having to justify why or why not. especially when we are talking about FICTIONAL characters that are OF AGE. (and if u like rpf whatever sure like that's none of my business LMFAO you do you!!! <3) so i was FULLY trying to keep an open mind when i was reading this. because right, it's totally valid that someone wouldn't like the same things as me and that it just so happens to the plot of the fic.
and second of all, as what you mentioned anon, that this is also /just/ a fic so technically, by default and as per aligned to my beliefs, fiction is FICTION and so it's reasonable to believe that the content isn't a direct critique of morality and not meant to actually target anyone. because simply put, people can enjoy murder stories without being a murderer and a murder victim, it's Fiction. so MAYBE... just Maybe. the original author just felt randomly inspired and decided to write this with no intentions. so yes, this train of thought made me very hesitant about forming my opinion. because again, I AM someone who is very open and i like to hope and believe that everyone has the best intentions.
but mannnnn..... i've talked about this to several people already and so far everyone is thinking the same thing. that it felt too... personal? i really do not want to directly quote anything they stated in their fic because yeah, as much as i feel Weird about it, i still stand that everyone can like/dislike whatever they want and write whatever they want, even if some things mentioned were oddly specific.
HOWEVER, i really did NOT enjoy what it implied, and hence i just wanted to clear the air, in case people out there DO actually take FICTIONAL work at face value. my biggest gripe about the whole thing is the part about minors do not interact + the whole line about childhood things. first of all, things that REMIND you of childhood (e.g. plush toys, bedroom) does not equate to CHILDREN. like oh heavens forbid i be a 24 year old trans man who has a bed full of plush toys and that i still live with my parents. and oh! i can't imagine to be innocent now? okay.... hm. maybe i just enjoy this manifestation of VULNERABILITY. i'm NOT a pedo for enjoying stuff like ddlb (daddy-little boy), because... you guessed it. i'm an ADULT and i only want to do it with another adult. anyway, i was trying to get a sense about how i should further structure my argument and came across this small discussion about the cognitive dissonance surrounding consent in little space.
and if this was more about the dark nature of the fics like abuse, dubcon, etc. then um. *points again at the sign that this is all FICTION, literally the same as your usual horror/thriller/murder stuff* exhibit a explains it better, but people also don't need justify that they have gone through XYZ (insert trauma here) etc. so that it excuses them to write about dark topics. again, we are talking FICTION. it's invasive to expect and have this particular "criteria"
lastly, i just want to close off and say that we are on the Internet. like this is a space that you choose to curate and have the power to. don't like something? simple. mind your business and just don't go biting at people who are enjoying it. if anything is NOT your fancy, it's literally easy to just click/scroll off and block. things of that Nature ALWAYS come with disclaimers.
and maybe you may say i am biting back by airing my thoughts here, but i think it's justifiable. plus, i'm not calling the person out directly? because if you have READ whatever i have said above, i still want to give them the benefit of the doubt out of my goodwill because of i stand for, that your writing is not a direct reflection of your morality..... otherwise, if that really does reflect their pov, happen to chance upon this and have something to counter, feel free to do so LOL... i'll be down to have a RESPECTFUL and POLITE conversation.
lowkey i feel like the joke is on me now because yeah, i did spend a considerable amount of time reflecting on this the whole day. it's not wrong to have discussions and reflect, i think that's how we learn from each other. but boy did i feel like i just got rage baited. but whatever, i'm not guilty of anything! so yeah. will i still write and enjoy my gross icky sonny x reader things? yes.
that's all from me :) again, to reiterate, these words are MY PERSPECTIVE. thank you for reading! if anyone has any other things to say, feel free to drop them below, in the reblogs or in my ask. but pls be nice to me.
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fellasohphii2 · 1 year ago
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my dad will drive by you in the parking lot, immediately assume you're homeless, abusing drugs, and trying to scam people for money. if you're wearing a jean-jacket, or have any visible piercings, you're a hoodlum.
"nobody is judging you" wrong, my mother is seemingly always judging every single stranger she sees
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bunnieswithknives · 11 months ago
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As much as I love angst I think it would be funny if he just didnt give af
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ahsoka-in-a-hood · 3 months ago
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Occasionally I find it mildly annoying when Palpatine is posited as the one Anakin had always trusted the most, tbh. There's a noticeable shift in how he interacts with Obi Wan and Palpatine in between aotc and rots, and there's an obvious reason why: the events of aotc themselves. He and Obi Wan had plenty of friction, but they were still close, and Anakin did in fact confide in him in his grumpy teenager way. About his feelings for Padme, about his worries for his mother. It's after his trip to Tatooine that he turns to Palpatine instead.
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buttercupshands · 1 year ago
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can you even call it a warm up if I'm going to bed without drawing anything big
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and a sketch I made while sitting in the park today
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equalperson · 6 months ago
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I fucking hate being traumatized because why am I bawling the hardest I've bawled in god-knows-how-long because someone I didn't even like that much berated Me. gasping wailing trembling and snotting over this for several minutes.
#personal#sanism#abuse mention#child abuse mention#I'm still not entirely done crying really. I'm just trying to stop and calm Myself. not doing well at the moment#because someone on the discord server mentioned trump's inauguration and I basically said 'I don't like trump either#but it's still important to keep pushing for change. who's in office doesn't change that' and he just. immediately escalated the situation#accused Me of not caring about oppression. I explained Myself further but he told Me to go fuck Myself and capped it off with#'you already admitted to being a fucking narcissist so why would i want to be around you' (exact quote BTW)#and I just can't stop sobbing. I don't know if I've cried this much since I was 13. I keep having to pause My typing because I start crying#I didn't hate him but I wasn't attached to him either. it's just that I have so much fucking trauma along these lines#so many instances of My mom putting words in My mouth. getting short-tempered with Me over benign remarks that I didn't understand#because I'm autistic. dismissing My opinions. making Me hide My feelings and issues from her#because she's made it clear that she doesn't trust people like Me#it's made Me have so much trouble handling even friendly social interaction. I've only just learned how to do that#I just can't handle having that same mistreatment forced onto Me by anyone else. especially with so little warning or build-up#and what makes Me break down even worse is the fact that I know I'll have to deal with him again#he wasn't even punished while this was happening. despite the server owner and other mod being online. the owner just said 'stressful day'#and the other mod started talking with a regular user about how it was uncalled for once he had already left the conversation#nobody even checked in on Me. even though I stayed online for a good half-an-hour afterwards. I only just logged off a few minutes ago#because the notifications from unrelated conversations started overstimulating Me#regardless. I don't even want to see him again. I don't want to be in the same server as him I don't want to talk to him I don't want to#but it's not a real formal server. it's a 'friend group.' and they've shown before that they prioritize keeping the peace#over actually punishing hostility. just a week or so ago I told them I wasn't comfortable with them using the R-slur#and someone freaked out over My complaint being 'politically correct' and left. he was brought back just a few days later. and before that#he had already derailed a previous discussion I tried to have about the word by sending gifs featuring it and redirecting the conversation#that sucked but at least it wasn't outright triggering. but I just can't stand the thought of having to be around someone#who treated Me so much like how My abuser has. that's the most I've ever had to relive My trauma because of someone else#that's the most anyone has ever mirrored it to Me. I just can't stand it but I know I'll have to be around him#I don't even know if he's gonna apologize. he's made it clear how little he thinks of Me as a human being. PLUS
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666writingcafe · 1 year ago
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The Adventure Begins
Levi's overacting. Again. The only reason it wasn't obvious during the school play was because Simeon kept him reined in. Levi gets excited quite easily, and it causes him to get lost in whatever role he's playing.
I'll have to ask Simeon, but I don't think he intended the Lord of Shadow to act so...dramatically? badly? I don't know how to describe it, really. It just isn't very good.
Unlike MC. I'm not sure why I like their acting better, especially since they're currently matching Levi's energy. Maybe it's because they're intentionally hamming it up. They did mumble an apology to me before they started talking to him, after all, so they must know that Levi's acting isn't the best.
Satan's isn't much better, either. He's not as over-the-top as Levi, but I don't find him convincing as the "villain" of this story. If anything, he'd make a good anti-hero, but Solomon probably didn't want to make things too complicated.
Solomon's not a very good author.
However, I'm choosing to keep all this to myself, because the point of all this is to help MC get their first star. Lucifer, on the other hand, is having a hard time suspending his disbelief. So, I understand why MC told him to shut up. I just hope they're prepared to get their ass handed to them once Lucifer's back to normal size, because while he has a soft spot for MC, he doesn't like being silenced. Messes with his pride.
Speaking of which...the stars.
They represent the seven virtues, which are direct opposites of our sins. For me, that virtue is temperance. Solomon probably knows this, but he may not realize the full extent of my relationship with temperance.
Once upon a time, I was able to control myself and my urges. Until I wasn't. For my brothers, their sin was triggered by specific events; that wasn't the case for me. It just...happened. And I didn't realize it until it was too late.
Now, it's what most people know me for. They think I'm a meathead that only thinks about food. Even my brothers.
Which isn't fair.
Why are they allowed to have complex personalities, but not me? Why can they participate in mentally stimulating activities, while I'm cast off to the side and dismissed as too dumb to understand any of it? It's never made sense to me.
I think that's part of why I like MC so much. They're the first person in a really, really long time that sees me beyond my sin. They actually listen to what I have to say and seem to value my opinion, even if it's not related to food or sports.
Yet somehow, deep inside, I don't fully trust them. I think it's coming from my subconscious. Somewhere in there lives a hurt angel that feels like everyone he cares about will die and leave him behind. And in a way, it's true.
Lilith may have been the only person in our little family that actually lost their life, but my brothers barely resemble what they were in the Celestial Realm. It's weird. They wear the same faces, but they're completely different people. Sometimes, I feel like they're complete strangers, or perhaps taken over by aliens.
Oddly, the one person I can rely on to stay the same is Satan. Then again, he didn't have his own form until we arrived in the Devildom, so this version of him is all I've ever known.
"Beel?"
Shit.
I missed a lot, didn't I?
"Are you okay? You seem out of it."
"I could say the same to you." Why is that the first thing that comes out of my mouth? I sound like a jerk.
MC merely sighs as they sit next to me on the...bed? I take a proper look at my surroundings and realize that we're in a hotel room of some kind. Lucifer appears to be sleeping on the nightstand, using tissues as both pillow and blanket.
"Wanna go first, or shall I?" Interesting question. They don't seem upset at me.
"Your call." MC rests their head on my shoulder.
"Simeon needs my help making an important decision." Their tone indicates something serious.
"With what?" MC sighs again.
"His future." Huh? Why would an angel need a human's help with that? I know that the two of them are fairly close, but still.
"But that's neither here nor there," they quickly add, sighing. "It's not like I can do anything about it now." They glance up at me. "What's on your mind?"
"My past."
"As an angel?" I nod.
"Back then, the only thing that mattered to people was that I was strong. I wanted to be useful, so I decided to become a soldier and fight for the Celestial Realm. Problem was, I had trouble controlling my powers."
"Like I did before receiving the Ring?"
"You know, I hadn't really thought about it until you said it, but yeah. I suppose we have that in common. In your case, everyone had your back, which is good, because I wouldn't have wanted you to go through that experience the way I did." MC sits up and properly looks at me.
"What do you mean?"
"Every time I would destroy something--even though most of the time it was a complete accident--Raphael would make some sort of sarcastic remark about it. I think he started calling me the Hulk at one point, but it was meant as an insult." I pause.
"At least he had the decency to do it to my face. Lots of angels would talk shit about me behind my back. They thought I was too stupid to pick up on it, but I knew. They acted overly sweet towards me whenever I would walk in the room. Condescending, even. It was like I was a dumb kid to them." MC places a hand on my thigh and pats it.
"Sounds depressing," they remark.
"It was. Oddly enough, the one person in authority that didn't treat me that way was Lucifer. I initially thought he was too busy with his duties to really care about much else, but then one day he approached me and started talking to me. We had a legitimate conversation."
"About?"
"He told me to keep in mind that being a Celestial Realm soldier wasn't about attacking--"
"--but protecting." We must have woken Lucifer up. "You had the power to protect everyone--to keep them safe--and that you shouldn't feel bad because you were special. If you learned to control your powers, I'd recommend you to the cherubim and have you serve as a Celestial Realm gatekeeper. You did, and so I kept my promise." Lucifer beckons MC to pick him up and bring him closer to me.
"MC and I may be connected by the Ring of Light, but the two of you have a strong connection as well," he continues. "You're both motivated by the need to protect the ones you love, even if it means sacrificing yourself in the process. Drawing on that similarity is going to be the key to pass Solomon's test."
"Are you saying Solomon knew we had that in common?" MC asks incredulously.
"No. I did. I simply passed the knowledge along to him."
"How long--"
"The rooftop."
"Of Dogi Magi?" I'm glad MC understands what he's referring to, because I'm completely lost. Must have been something I wasn't involved with.
"You knew that Belphie would hurt you if you went against his order to reject me, but you did it anyway."
"I didn't want to lie to you."
"Because that would have meant hurting his feelings." Asmo may have used his powers to pick up on Lucifer's crush on MC early on, but I knew pretty much from the moment they set eyes on each other. Granted, he was more attracted to their soul initially, but who could blame him? It was bright and shiny, even back then. If we weren't under orders to not eat them, then they wouldn't have made it out of the assembly hall alive. Even Diavolo was struggling to contain himself.
Anyway, the point is MC cared enough about Lucifer in that moment to feel the need to protect him.
Just like I felt the need to protect Lucifer after I became a cherub.
MC's going to get their star.
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death-rebirth-senshi · 2 months ago
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*Ezra voice* it's not enough that I need to keep up with tech advancements and security hacks mostly on my own through the space dark extranet because I can't trust Alliance R&D to keep up, it's not enough that I'm the best at fine-tuning the mako and fixing or hacking any tech we come across whether I was trained for it or not, it's not enough that I have a million programs on my omni-tool some of which I created myself to hack and disable weaponry more efficiently, no I also had to take bonus medic training because I'm one the only one actually expected to properly maintain their omni-tool so it can actually deploy medigel quickly and interface with hardsuit diagnostics. All Ashley has to do is shoot her damn guns like I can't do all that and shoot a gun too.
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ruvviks · 1 year ago
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toying with the idea of making yancey's friends not real. would that be too evil
#personal#hear me out. the diner is a mimic and it's toying with the entire town and making people oblivious and just. stuck in time metaphorically#it's known to make people hallucinate it's known to show things that aren't there. it can fuck with technology#yancey has. problems. he's sick with grief and pain and regret and sorrow from his past moving into a strange new town#and there's all these people there in the diner and they all remind him of some part of his life#stevie quite literally reminds him of his ex but stuck in the state before anything happened. stevie is a constant reminder of like#what could have been had they not crossed the line of getting together#his relationship with daphne (friendship mostly but he has a little crush on her at some point) is like#the romanticized version of the life he had in mind for him and his ex. yeah he gets a little bit insane with it but he loves very deeply#freddy is what he wished for his older brother to be like. their friendship is what he wishes he and his brother would be like#rafiq is basically yancey's ideal partner. yukiko reminds him of his younger sister#hell even teddy is connected to him because he and teddy are basically the same person. dealing with a situation very poorly#but teddy WOULD be real since he is part of CALAMITY so his connection to yancey if anything is like. on purpose#he is SUPPOSED to mirror yancey because that will make yancey realize things about himself#that only leaves morrigan as the only other real person in all of this. because she is the only one not connected to the diner#(freddy isn't either but since he's first introduced on the radio as radio host he is sort of connected to the town)#(in like a way the diner could influence that too. you know what i'm saying)#and morrigan's whole deal is that she's so so stuck in the past. trying to get back what is no more. and daphne is her sister#so daphne could even be a manifestation of yancey's and morrigan's shared grief#for yancey the romanticized relationship with his ex. for morrigan her sister who died in the wildfires#are you seeing my vision. the diner is defeated and it's just yancey morrigan and teddy. it's always been#no one else has been real the whole time. they've only interacted with one another or yancey. never with teddy or morrigan#(with exception of daphne who would have interacted with morrigan bc of shared manifestation)#and yancey acts like the others have never existed. because they haven't. and now that he's no longer#under the influence of the diner. he doesn't remember. haha#idk if i wanna go with this because some of them aren't as solidified as concepts as others but man. MANNNNN
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namazunomegami · 10 months ago
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“Kindly consider the question: what would your good do if evil did not exist, and what would the earth look like if shadows disappeared from it? Shadows are cast by objects and people. Here is the shadow of my sword. Trees and living beings also have shadows. Do you want to skin the whole earth, tearing all the trees and living things off it, because of your fantasy of enjoying bare light? You’re a fool.” - The Master and Margarita
#aaaand here we are with the ship moodboard#I think I’ll call them wolzebub#yes I can tell that they’re rotting my brain that I’m like my 4 year old self smashing my dolls head together screaming ‘now kiss!!’ but#but they’re truly a refreshing dynamic ngl#I usually write my ocxcanon ships with an underlining opposites attract kinda thing#like opposing values opposing characteristics opposing concepts and such#and the ship itself is basically a particle collider when it comes to writing interactions#but this girlie and woland are different parts of the same thing they’re both the devil#the seven deadly sins are basically the seven faces of the devil because all cardinal sins come from pride#yesterday I spent a lot of time to somehow figure out which sin woland represents because even tho the novel calls him satan#satan and lucifer are not the same entity they don’t even represent the same sin#satan is the sin of wrath while lucifer is the sin of pride and woland is rather proud than wrathful#his goal throughout the novel is basically exposing cowardice and false knowledge which is much more fitting for lucifer to do#anyway back to these two#shipping them is like shipping unohana with kenpachi but they’re old money and doesn’t want to fight each other to death#I mean they do fight a bit but it’s just play fighting and bickering#bc I apparently can’t ship anything if there’s no throwing vicious insults wrapped with a coquette bow and said in a loving manner#there’s still some respect for each other buried really deep like REAL deep#ok maybe not that deep#bc as I said you say something bad about one of them you’re dead you’re dead meat#I can make such a cunty yet hella gothic playlist for them#also I wanted a quote from the tragedy of man but the screenshot fucked up the whole thing I had to scrap it#my moodboards :3
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talaok · 3 months ago
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Be the one to do it
Pairing: Joel Miller x f!reader
Summary:  You've always had a crush on your neighbor Joel, and once your friend Jordan suggests you ask him to help with a little "problem" of yours, it turns out he had never been such an unattainable dream.
Warnings: basically pwp. smut| big ass unspecified age gap, virginity loss, oral sex (f and m receiving), fingering, unprotected p in v sex, creampie, kinda breeding kink and size kink, dirty talk, he talks you through it, Joel calls reader with a bunch of pet names and probably more stuff but i need to go to sleep.
a/n: this is the farthest it can get from original. you've probably read 10 other fics with the same premise but i just wanted to write some sweet and filthy virginity loss sue me
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"I can barely get a sentence out around him and you think I'm gonna ask him to have sex!?"
"well yeah" Jordan laughed "It makes sense"
Your friend was looking at you like she'd just suggested getting ice cream, while what had really just come out of her mouth was really, exponentially different.
"you're out of your mind if you think-"
"just shut up" she interrupted, rolling her eyes "It would be a fucking walk in the park"
Your eyes widened exaggeratedly at that.
Did she have any idea about what she was suggesting?
The last time you'd interacted with Joel Miller all he had to do was ask how summer break was going for your face to get as hot as the sun and for you to end up muttering some nonsense and running away.
"He'd never say yes"
Again, Jordan's eyes rolled back.
"Y/n listen I love you but sometimes you can be real fucking dumb," she said, fighting a smile "The guy probably hasn't gotten laid in years!" she huffed a laugh "And with you? With a hot young piece of ass like you!? No guy on the planet would say no"
"You-you're just saying that... and you don't know him"
"I know men"
__ __ __
You didn't even remember how you'd gotten there, all you knew was that Joel Miller was right in front of you, opening the door to his fucking house.
"Hi"
Your face was already getting warm and your voice was just an inch above unhearable.
"Hi darlin'" he greeted you, smiling with that slow, easy smile that made you want to cry every single time.
How could a human being be so hot?
"Come on in" he nodded behind him "What's goin' on?"
Now here was the problem. You had no plan whatsoever, and this was setting itself up to be a complete shitshow.
"I..."
You weren't even meeting his eyes, you could see him trying to catch a glimpse of your gaze but you couldn't do it- to be quite frank you were already starting to panic... and to regret your decision.
"you want something to drink?"
You looked up at him, your mouth slightly open as your words died on your tongue.
Jesus, he was handsome.
You hadn't gotten the chance to really look at him before, but now there he was in all his glory… huge strong muscles fighting against his shirt and all.
"c'mon, I'll get ya some water"
You didn't miss the smirk on his lips as he caught you ogling his arms.
Definitely not off to a good start.
He handed you a glass of water, and you took it, willing your hands not to shake.
The golden light of the afternoon sun seeped through the curtains of his kitchen windows, illuminating the space with a calmness that completely contrasted with your state.
"boy problems?"
You almost flinched at the sound of his voice.
"gotta beat somebody up?"
He must have thought you were dumb with the way you were staring at him all wide-eyed, not daring to speak a word.
You needed to think of something, preferably right now.
"n-no, nothing like that” you shook your head, forcing a smile.
A beat of silence passed before you decided to take back already what you’d said.
“well actually sorta"
He frowned, shifting his stance from one foot to the other.
He was waiting for you to expand on your words, but the birds chirping on the nearby trees were the only sound in the room.
"you can talk to me doll, I ain't gonna bite"
You could feel your cheeks get hot.
Jesus it's like everything he did was scandalously sexy- every time he spoke with that sweet drawl of his, every pet name he used for you... he could have peeled his clothes off slowly as he gave you a lap dance and the effect on you would be the exact same.
"Well I just..." you started "I've got a... problem"
He looked even more confused.
Were you about to tell him you're pregnant? No that would be impossible, he'd never seen you with any guy around here... but maybe at college.
For some reason, the thought of you with another guy... with a boy... didn't sit right with him.
Actually, he knew the reason, throughout the summer he'd caught himself staring a little too long at you more times than he'd like to admit- it was like all of a sudden you had grown, and the sweet little kid living next to him was now suddenly a gorgeous woman. He didn't really know what to do with that information, with the inappropriate feelings and urgings weighing in his gut every time his gaze fell upon you and you squirmed embarrassed like a shy little thing.
"alright..." he urged you to go on.
"Sarah's not home right?"
His brows drew closer together as he frowned.
Why would you ask that?
"She's at a friend's"
You nodded, suddenly looking more resolute, even if the way your teeth tortured your poor bottom lip was enough of a tell of how nervous you were.
You had decided. Jordan was right. There was no harm in trying, and if it didn't go right you'd just avoid him for the rest of your life.
"I'm a virgin Joel"
You saw his eyes widen before your own words had even registered.
"O-oh"
That's all he could stutter. I mean what was he supposed to say? That seconds before he thought you were about to tell him you were pregnant? That he could not understand how someone as beautiful as you, with the billion contenders he was sure you had, still had not found a single one to have sex with?
"And I... well the thing is that I don't want to be anymore"
He tried to get back to how cool and collected he was before- you were here to talk to him after all, the least he could do was be as helpful as possible.
"right" he cleared his throat "you want some advice on how to navigate this thing?"
The silence and the look on your face told him quite the opposite.
What were you here for then?
"No- I- the thing is that... I was wondering if maybe you'd agree to-" you bit your cheek as you finally spat it out "to be the one to do it"
Joel was sure his heart had stopped.
"babygirl-" The words had barely left your mouth and he was already stopping you.
You felt tears prick your eyes... you knew that tone.
"I'm sorry it was a stupid-"
Goddamn you Jordan.
You were already planning to run out the door when he spoke.
"darlin' I'm pushing forty here"
That's not what you expected him to say. He wasn't disgusted, or amused, or angry...
"yes but-" You tried to speak but he was talking over you again.
"you're twenty... you ain't even old enough to buy a six-pack, I-I- that ain't something you're supposed to do with me"
Joel would have never admitted it, but he was saying those things mostly to himself- to desperately fight the instinct that took over him the moment you explained the reason you were at his house... the instinct to take you up the stairs and fuck you so good no one else would ever compare.
"b-but it's what I want"
You weren't giving up. You didn't know what, but there was something about the way he was going about it that told you there was still a sliver of a chance.
Only there was a lot more than a sliver... and the way you were looking up at him with those desperate doe eyes was upping your chance as you spoke.
"I trust you, Joel," you said "You're the only man that I know that I would trust with this"
He sighed, shaking his head "If your dad found out- Jesus I wouldn't live to see another day darlin'"
Your hand found his chest, strong and solid as rock beneath your palm.
"I won't tell" you murmured, your words verging on pleas "I-I won't tell anyone Joel I promise" you swore, looking up at him as his own eyes bore into yours.
"You're the only one I want to do this with... the only one I trust"
You could see the resolution, the fight, leave his face.
How the hell was he supposed to say no?
Christ, not even a priest would have that amount of self-control.
"fuck sweetheart" he shook his head before looking up, a long breath leaving his throat "You're gonna get me killed"
You didn't even try to hide your excitement.
Your heart was beating a mile a minute as you asked "Is- is that a yes?"
His eyes- his beautiful, big, hazel eyes were back on you.
"'f course it is"
You smiled so wide your cheeks hurt.
It was really happening.
You were gonna lose your virginity to Joel fucking Miller.
"A-are we gonna do it now?" you asked, almost breathless with joy "I-I mean only if you feel like it of course"
"If I feel like it..." Joel couldn't help but laugh "You really have no idea do ya?"
Your mouth parted in confusion.
Did you say something wrong already?
"About what?"
A beat passed as he stared down at you, almost amused.
"About whatcha do to me, sugar"
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The door to his bedroom closed with a soft click, and all of a sudden, you were the only two people on earth.
His eyes didn't leave you for even a second, and although you felt very much on the spot, you liked his gaze on you.
"If you change your mind at any point darlin'," he said, walking closer to you until his right hand could gently move some hair out of your face "You tell me, and I'll stop, ok?"
"mh-mh" you nodded, although you were more than sure no changing of mind would happen... God, you didn't even know how long you'd dreamed of this.
"Don't gimme that doll, use your words" he corrected you, his thumb drawing circles on your cheek "Later too"
"O-ok, yes, I-I understand"
He smiled, amused.
"there's no need to be nervous sugar, we'll go real slow ok?"
"y-yes"
He couldn't help but chuckle.
"what can I do to make it better?"
You had an immediate answer in mind. The only thing you had been able to think about since he got this close.
"Can... could you kiss me?"
Jesus H. Christ.
Joel had to fight the urge to laugh. He'd drop to his knees and lick every inch of you if you asked, and you were wondering if he could kiss you...
"I can do whatever you want, babydoll" he murmured, as he slowly leaned closer.
You placed your hands on his big strong chest as you raised yourself on your tiptoes, and before you knew it... his lips were on yours.
You were holding your breath as the sound of your beating heart pounded in your ears.
This was really happening- this was real-
But before you had time to take it all in, the sweet feeling of Joel's lips on yours, of his beard, his nose, his hands, it was like something switched, a knob turned in his brain, and Joel wasn't kissing you anymore- no, he was devouring you.
He'd tried to go as soft and slow as he could but the moment you let out a little whimper... it was like he got possessed.
The hand on the back of your neck forced you impossibly closer as the one on your waist tightened enough to bruise, and he was... his tongue was desperately savoring every inch of your perfect mouth, swallowing all your pretty sounds.
His lungs screamed for relief but breathing was the last thing on his mind.
He'd never kissed like this.
Your panties were soaked once he finally pulled away.
He was about to apologize for losing control, but by the way you were looking at him, there was nothing to be sorry about.
"I'm gonna take off your clothes now doll, ok?"
You nodded, your breathing ragged, your cheeks on fire.
With just one kiss, he'd rendered your mind an empty mess. You doubted you could remember your address at the moment.
"What did I say 'bout usin' your words?" He murmured, his thumb tracing the shape of your swollen mouth.
"Sorry," you whimpered weakly.
He wouldn't have heard you if he had been but an inch away.
"Y-yes, you can take my clothes off"
He smiled at that, leaving another soft kiss on your lips before both his hands reached underneath your shirt.
His big, warm hands detoured to caress your sides, leaving shivers in their wake, before he brought your top up until he slid it off.
His eyes fell on your tits, still covered by your bra, and he looked up at you to check if you were alright before oh so slowly undoing the clasp and letting the garment fall to the floor.
He had to stifle the groan climbing up his throat because Jesus, he wanted nothing more than to take each of your perfect fucking nipples in his mouth and suck until begged him for more...
but he didn't, he let his self-control win this time as he reached for the waistband of your shorts.
He watched like a hawk every inch of skin that he uncovered until the shorts pulled at your feet and you stepped out of them together with your sandals.
Your breathing still hadn't gotten back to normal, and every fucking inch of your skin was on fire, burning with the intensity of his gaze.
He didn't say anything as his fingers slid past the waistband of your panties and with a quick movement pulled them down, leaving you completely bare.
Not able to stop himself, he groaned this time, his hands taking a tour of your body from your collarbones, to the valley between your breasts, to your belly, until his thumbs were but an inch from where you were burning with desire for him. But he didn't touch you there, no, his hands reached your waist as he stared at you 'cause god bless his heart, but he couldn't stop looking.
He liked his lips, as if he was hungry- starving- and you let out a small whimper, realizing you had held your breath all this time.
"You're... perfect babygirl"
You prayed he wouldn't judge you when he saw the mess that had become of between your thighs.
He can't say stuff like that and expect me not to melt.
His eyes were finally back on you, and the pure lust in them almost made you gasp.
He looked like a completely different man.
"Sit on the bed"
Your brain took a second too long to register his words.
I mean it's not every day you're naked in front of Joel Miller.
Joel's old mattress creaked as you sat on it, and you stayed there, diligently frozen in your spot as he took his sweet time to come closer.
He wanted to preserve the image of you sitting on his bed, naked, waiting, looking like a damn dream, in his brain for all the lonely nights of the rest of his life.
He stood there, towering over you, looking down at you as you looked up at him, and you felt even smaller.
You were about to speak, to beg him to please do anything, touch you in any way, put you out of your misery, when he crouched down, his eyes now level with yours.
His hands found your thighs and another whimper escaped your chest.
"Spread your legs f'me, doll"
And so you did, your heart pounding in your chest.
"Good girl"
This time, it wasn't a whimper that fled your mouth, but a small little moan.
Fuck
Heat rose to your face again and you looked away, embarrassed.
Of course, you liked to be told you're a good girl.
"None of that" Joel tsked, his right pointer forcing you to look back at him "Eyes on me"
You were so turned on you wanted to cry. But you didn't, you nodded, and just like that... Joel was leaning closer and his mouth... oh god his mouth had found your neck.
You gripped the sheets as your whole body started going on fire- as his mouth left hungry wet kisses under your ear, on your pulse, on your collarbones, on your tits, and when his lips wrapped around your right nipple... when his tongue toyed with your hard bud you swore you saw heaven.
Soft little moans started spilling from your mouth as he sucked and sucked and sucked, his hands going to support your boobs, pushing them together as his mouth went from one to the other again and again until you didn't even remember what it meant to breathe like a normal person.
It felt so good.
Who knew it would feel so fucking good?
Joel only stopped when your nipples were swollen and utterly drenched with his saliva, and you were about to protest when you felt his mouth traveling south...
"Joel" you whispered.
He looked up at you with that sexy fucking smirk on his face, not stopping the trail of kisses down your belly.
"Yes, doll?"
"What are you-" your sentence was interrupted by a gasp when his lips found your mound "W-what are you doing?"
His smirk only widened as his mouth dived lower.
"I'm gonna lick your pussy now darlin'" his low and lustful voice was enough to make you orgasm alone.
You could only blink, and then swallow, and then open your mouth... just for no words to come out.
Joel chuckled before kissing your inner thigh, sending a shock of pleasure to your core.
"'s that ok with ya?"
"Yes," you heard yourself blurt out before you even knew it, which made him laugh, a soft, vibrating laugh that fanned your core and rendered you all the more desperate.
"That's good to hear" he grinned, his mouth lowering until he was kissing your lips... your other lips.
Oh Jesus Christ
You spread your legs wider to accommodate him and he hummed in approval, taking them in his hands and forcing them on his shoulders.
Oh sweet Mother of Christ
He granted himself one look at your perfect, beautiful fucking pussy, before his eyes were back on you, and his tongue darted out without warning and licked your whole core like an ice cream cone.
"Oh"
Your hips spasmed for a second but before you had time to feel embarrassed, his tongue was back in action, only this time he was eating you as if he were starving.
He groaned in pleasure at your taste as his tongue explored every inch of you he could physically reach. His nose was rubbing against your clit and his beard felt so nice against your skin and oh god if you thought you'd seen heaven before you were wrong because the moment his lips wrapped against your bud angels opened up the pearly gates for you.
"Oh my god" you cried, your left hand getting a mind of its own and grabbing Joel's soft hair "Oh my fucking- Oh wow"
This was nothing like what you'd experienced before- nothing your own fingers had ever produced, this was... so so good.
"You taste so fucking sweet sugar" he groaned into you, sending another wave of pleasure through you "y've got such a perfect lil pussy babygirl" he continued in between lapping at your core "wish I could have it for breakfast every day"
You could only moan in response, and you could feel his smile on your skin as he watched the effect he was having on you.
Goddamn, you looked like an angel biting your lip as you moaned for him, your face flushed, your hand in his hair... this was the best decision he ever made- who gave a fuck if your dad put him in the ground, at least he got to see this.
"Gonna come for me doll?" he teased once he heard your cries get louder and your grip on his hair tighten "Gonna let me taste all your sweet juices like a good girl?"
Those words, once again, had their effect because in no time your hips were grinding onto him and breathless gasps were forcing their way out your throat as the best orgasm of your life shuttered through you,
"Just like that" he praised you as you rode the high "thatta girl- give it to me baby"
You were only partially aware of where you found yourself as you came down from the orgasm.
you were breathing heavily, your eyes closed as Joel made his way up your body, his lips pecking every inch of it until he finally kissed your mouth.
"You ok darlin'?"
Your eyes opened at once, the dreamiest look in them,
"I'm great" you grinned, making him smile before he kissed you again, slowly this time, letting you taste yourself on his tongue.
He only pulled away when you whined, your hands gripping his arms desperately as your body begged for more.
He sat up on the bed against the headboard, and it was then you finally realized he was still fully clothed...
You were naked from head to toe and he was still dressed... you had no idea why but that made you even hornier, which is why you hastily sat up.
"A- are we gonna do it now?"
He huffed out a laugh as his hand invited you closer.
"not quite yet sugar," he cooed as he guided you to sit on his lap, your back against his chest and your ass against... oh wow.
You could very much feel through his jeans the print of what felt like his huge cock right against your backside.
You couldn't help it, you shifted your butt, not so subtly grinding against him, and when his only response was to grab your waist, you couldn't help but do it again... and again, until you not only heard, but felt a groan rise up his chest.
"babygirl..." he murmured against your ear, making you shiver "You might wanna stop that"
You bit your lip, doing it again "Why?"
He inhaled sharply, his grip tightening "'cause baby, if you keep on goin' I'm gonna come, and you ain't gonna get what you came all this way for"
That made you want to stop and keep going at the same time.
The thought of Joel Miller coming because of you doing what you were doing...
"Don't ya even think about it sugar" He anticipated your actions as if he'd read your mind. You felt him smirk as he kissed you right under your ear.
To that you surrendered, stopping your movements at once.
He hummed, satisfied, inhaling your scent as his right hand slowly moved down your belly.
You held your breath as his fingers found your clit and his mouth your neck.
You couldn't see Joel from this position, but you didn't need to, you could feel him.
His ring and middle finger started circling your clit in a slow and precise motion and moans were already spilling from your lips.
"Joel" you breathed.
"'m right here" he promised, his voice husky, clouded by his lust.
His fingers continued their torturous path until he found your hole.
You could only gasp as his fingers dived inside of you.
Oh god.
"You ever done this to yourself doll?" he asked, his fingers thrusting in and out of you lazily.
You could both hear how unbelievably drenched you were, but that was the very last thing on your mind... what seized your attention at the moment were the sparks of pleasure Joel was igniting in your core.
"mh?" he hummed once you didn't answer, still kissing your neck.
"I-I did" you swallowed, your words interrupted by yet another cry when his fingers curled, sending much more than a spark of pleasure to your brain "Like... like twice"
"just twice?" Joel asked
"It just... it doesn't feel good"
His movements continued, making your breathing get more and more uneven.
"How does it feel now?" he accentuated his words by making whatever gesture he made that had your walls tightening around his fingers.
"G-good"
"Now that ain't gonna do" he cooed, his fingers all of a sudden leaving your core.
"B-but-" you were about to protest turning his way, but his voice took over.
"'s alright darlin', gimme your hand"
You looked down to see his hand waiting for yours, and without even thinking you did as he asked.
He placed his palm big palm on top of your hand, engulfing it, and he guided it down your body, past your belly button, until you were right where he was seconds ago.
"use these two fingers" he instructed, showing you the ones he was talking about.
"good, now get 'em all nice and wet" he murmured, guiding them through your slick folds to do just what he'd said.
You were back at your hole and your mind had stopped working.
You were just a doll, following his every instruction, watching closely his hand move yours as your core ached with desire.
"Now slide 'em in" he whispered, his honeyed voice hypnotizing.
And so you did, you pushed your ring and middle finger inside of yourself.
Why was this so fucking hot?
"Now go in and out" his words were your command, literally.
Again, the sound of your slick pussy spread through the room as you did as he asked.
"how's that feel?"
You weren't gonna lie, not to Joel.
"It's... it's ok" you breathed "Not as good as before"
He smirked, his tongue darting out to lick your pulse as his free hand traveled higher, finding your boobs.
Well of course it felt better before his fingers were two times yours.
"curl your fingers" he ordered, his palm caressing your tits "Like this," he said, showing you exactly what he meant.
He did almost like a "come here" motion, and although skeptically, you replicated it, and well... Joel Miller knew what the fuck he was talking about cause goddamn...
You cried out at the sudden burst of pleasure.
"Again"
And so you did it again, only this time, Joel's fingers had found your left nipple, and the way they toyed with it just as you fingered yourself made the feeling triplicate.
"Keep doin' that babydoll" Joel breathed, his mouth leaving hot, wet kisses on your neck and shoulders as his fingers tweaked your pretty nipples.
"just like that" he hummed as you cried out louder and louder, as you squirmed above him, your free hand gripping his thigh to have something to hold on to.
"that's it... look so pretty like this sugar" he continued "making yourself come like a good girl..."
Jesus his cock was begging for attention... this was the hottest fucking shit he'd ever seen.
Your legs were starting to close as your orgasm approached, and your voice, calling out Joel's name, was getting more and more desperate.
"so good" he groaned, his fingers pinching your nipple without warning "Y'look so perfect when you come babygirl".
That's the last thing you heard as a tsunami of pleasure overtook your whole body.
You were pretty sure you were shaking and wailing like a madwoman, but all you could really be sure of was what happened once you finally reopened your eyes.
You felt so very spent and you hadn't even done what you came here for yet.
Joel's eyes were boring into yours, his hands caressing your sides.
"Still with me?" he asked.
"Yeah," you smiled wide once again.
You felt like you were lying on a cloud, no thoughts or worries going through your head... just pure bliss.
"You still sure about this sugar?"
You had no hesitation.
"Yeah"
He smiled, kissing your lips for a brief second before leaning away.
The moment you realized he was finally taking off his clothes you were wide awake.
You sat up just as he discarded his shirt to the floor.
Je-sus.
This wasn't the first time you'd seen Joel shirtless. It wasn't a coincidence you chose to sunbathe every time he was mowing the lawn...
Yet, the breath was still knocked out of you.
He was broad, like seriously so. He was big and although you couldn't say he had a six-pack it was plain obvious the man was strong.
You didn't think it was possible, but you were getting even wetter.
You wanted nothing more than to let your palm caress his chest, the sparse hair on his pecs, the v lowering towards his pants...
Speaking of which, a gasp fled your throat the moment he took off his jeans, and by the time his boxers were off your mouth hung open in awe... and worry.
"you're..." you had to swallow to try and get some water to your dry mouth "Joel you're-- huge"
You weren't looking at him as he laughed, but at the big scary cock against his stomach bobbing with the movement.
"how would ya know, babygirl?"
You had to force yourself to look away from his manhood, and once you did, you found his gaze again.
"I... I've watched... stuff"
A side of his mouth twitched mischievously at the confession.
"Oh yeah?" he teased "My good little girl watches porn? 's that whatcha telling me?"
Why was it hot in here all of a sudden?
"N-No I just..." heat rushed to your face as you bit your lip "I-I mean-"
He laughed, cutting you off "'s ok sugar, I won't tell"
You could only offer him a little smile because to be honest, your focus was still on the reason you'd even broached the subject.
Your eyes were back on his dick, and while yes it was a worrying size, it also sparked curiosity and need deep inside of you. Which is why you moved closer to him, kneeling on the bed so that his cock was right before you.
And holy mother of God.
"Can I..."
You didn't even need to finish the sentence.
Jesus, if he were to be honest even just seeing you in this position was getting him close to coming.
"You can do whatever you want babydoll, I told ya"
You nodded, hesitantly leaning a little closer.
"I-I've never..."
"As long as my dick is in your mouth I'll be a happy man darlin'"
You gulped, biting your lip as you tried to understand where to even begin, and just then, a tiny bit of precum leaked from his manhood- so naturally, you acted on your first thought... and licked his head, tasting the tang of him.
You heard him inhale sharply as you continued licking, first just his head, then the sides, every ridge and vein... but it was only when you finally wrapped your lips around him that he lost it.
"Fuck"
He groaned like an animal and that only gave you all the more reasons to go further, forcing his dick into your mouth until it hit the back of your throat, causing you to gag.
"Fucking- Jesus Christ"
You looked up at him now, your hands finding his legs as you bobbed your head up and down, sucking so very well every inch you could fit... which was barely half.
He'd gathered your hair to the back of your head, but he wasn't guiding your movements, it was all you.
"Babydoll" he rasped, "I think that's enough"
But you didn't wanna stop. This was so hot... feeling him in your mouth, hearing him moan for you...
"Baby" he grunted "I ain't gonna be able to fuck you if I come down your throat"
Those crude words brought you back to reality... and made you even hornier.
You pulled away from his dick, letting it slap back against Joel's stomach.
"Lay down f'me"
You did, without question.
He stifled a groan at the sight, at the fucking image displayed before him once you obeyed his command and spread your legs.
Fuck.
He looked at your eyes, watching for any sign of doubt, of a second thought... but he found none.
It was then he finally took his cock in his hand, giving it a much-needed pump and making you swallow drily.
He was silent as he guided his tip to your folds, making it slide between them and catching on your clit... but you weren't.
You were letting out all sorts of little cries and whimpers and moans as he toyed with you.
But you too, fell silent once you felt him stop at your entrance.
"Mh-" you were starting to hum, biting down your lip as he began pushing inside when he suddenly stopped.
"Fuck- forgot the condom"
You blinked, trying to make sense of what had happened as he reached into his night table.
"Joel" you called for him, making him turn around, condom in hand.
"'m sorry darlin', should've remembered sooner"
But that's not what you wanted to say.
"Joel can we..." you gulped "can we not-- use it?"
He frowned as his dick damn near exploded.
You wanted him to fuck you raw?
"Jesus sweetheart you tryna kill me today or somethin'?"
You smiled, your hands fidgeting.
"N-no I just... this is my first time... I- I wanted to feel it, y'know?" you murmured "A-and I'm clean and if you... if you use it with all the other women then you must be clean too, so..."
Joel had the urge to laugh.
"That ain't what 'm worried about, pretty doll"
It was one thing your dad finding out he'd fucked you... a different thing if he'd fucking got you pregnant.
Your mouth formed an o shape as you remembered.
"O-Oh no, I-I'm on the pill"
I shouldn't do this.
There's still a risk.
I'm old enough to be her father I shouldn't be doing this for countless different reasons.
I shouldn't.
I really fucking shouldn't.
And yet Joel had already gotten rid of the condom and had made his way on top of you.
You smiled before he kissed you, taking away all the oxygen from your lungs.
"I need you to relax now sugar" he murmured, his hand guiding his dick to your entrance once again.
"O-ok" you nodded, feeling the very tip of him push inside you.
"Just like that" he praised, kissing you again "Doing so well f'me"
It burned.
The stretch got more and more demanding as he tried to push himself deeper into you.
"Ah!" you gasped, your hands gripping his biceps as he kissed your neck.
"I know baby, I know"
"I-it's big" you cried, planting your feet on the mattress to try and ground you.
"You want me to stop?" he asked, looking you in the eyes, although yours were shut close.
"N-no" you shook your head "I just... " you hissed from the pain as he slid in an inch further.
"You can do it babygirl" he whispered, still planting kisses everywhere he could reach.
"B-but it's too big" you whimpered desperately as he still kept going. It felt interminable.
"Don't ya worry 'bout it honey" he said, moving some hair out of your face "I'm gonna make it fit"
That got him the first little moan of pleasure, which coincided with you letting him get an inch deeper.
"Yeah you like that?" he cooed "You like the idea of me filling you up with my cock to the very brim?"
You moaned again, louder.
"I know you do sugar." one of his hands had traveled between your bodies to find your clit, making you cry out even louder "Want nothing more than to be full of me, do ya?"
"'s ok sweetie, we're almost there" he promised, his breath sending shivers up your spine "You're taking me so well... letting me stretch this perfect little pussy for the very first time..."
It still burned, but the worst was done, and his words were making you forget half the pain.
"such a good girl" he cooed "There we go, like that, lemme in babygirl... fuck"
You'd done it.
"Oh my god" you gasped.
You felt utterly and completely full, like your body had been missing a part of it all this time.
"Joel" you cried, your grip on his arms tightening.
"You ok sugar?" he asked, although you could hear the restraint in his voice.
"Yes" you breathed opening your eyes to look at him "Yes please do- do something"
He smirked as he gave you a quick kiss.
"I'm gonna start moving now, ok?"
You nodded hastily "Y-yes- please".
And so what could he do, if not exactly what you'd asked?
He retracted his hips just to thrust in again, and... wow.
"O-Oh my god" you cried, as he did it again, finding a slow and oh so very deep pace.
He was rolling his hips, grinding against your pelvis every time he trusted in, making fireworks explode in your body.
"Fuck, doll" he groaned, his pace quickening "Y'feel so good... so tight for me"
You could only moan at his words, your legs wrapping around him.
"it's like you were made for my cock" he said, staring at you although your eyes were closed.
He didn't want to miss even a second of this.
"To let me fuck you like you need" he hissed, having to refrain himself from coming too soon.
That had been a danger since the very first inch of him had entered you.
You just felt so fucking good.
"You're such a good girl baby, y've got no idea" he groaned, kissing and licking your neck "Taking me so well"
"J-Joel!" you basically screamed once the fingers on your clit resumed their work.
"I know baby" he cooed, continuing to fuck you thoroughly "I know it's a lot, but you can take it"
The sound of your skin slapping with his bounced off the walls with each thrust together with the creaks of the mattress.
"I-I- Joel" you kept on crying, your breathing getting more and more ragged as your belly tightened expecting the approaching orgasm.
"what is it darlin'?" he purred, "need me to fuck you harder, softer?" he murmured "Tell me what you want and I'll give it to ya baby"
"M-more"
He could only smirk as he picked up his pace, now slamming into you harder, feeling your walls tighten with each thrust.
"Oh god- O-Oh shit--"
"C'mon doll," Joel groaned as your nails dug into his skin "Be a good girl and come for me- let me feel you come around my cock"
He didn't even need to ask.
"like that" he rasped as your eyes shut tight and you cried as loud as your vocal chord permitted "Just like that- good fucking girl"
Each molecule of your body rearranged itself as the orgasm overtook your body, mind, and soul.
You were sure you had ascended to another universe, the only thing that grounded you was Joel's words as he reached his own peak.
"Fuck doll, 'm gonna come" he grunted " 'm gonna fill you up babygirl- like that- take it sugar-- take it all"
It took a long while for you to gain back consciousness, and when you did, you found yourself lying under Joel's blanket, his hand gently drawing patterns on your arm as he... he was watching you.
"There she is"
You could only find it in yourself to smile as you leaned closer to him, leaving a soft, quick kiss on his lips.
"Thank you, Joel"
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twilightofthesandwiches · 25 days ago
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There’s a lot of stuff in Deltarune, especially Ralsei’s arc, that is, I think, kind of an exploration/critique of common Video Game tropes about Player Character-NPCs friendships. Mainly the simplification of good/bad options in friendship progression and the concept of the blank-slate protagonist in the context of video game friendships.
I mean, that whole thing of having a Player Character being a stand-in for the Player and so building friendships in-game is much more focused on flashing out the NPCs and making them lovable to the Player. While explaining which traits in the Player Character the NPCs likes or what they would like to do together is given less focus and a lot more ambiguity. Because… well… that character needs to stand in for any person ever who plays the game and they need to feel like this character likes them whatever their individual traits may be. As well as how this whole thing interacts with choices. Like gamifying the idea of friendship into just picking the nicest and most pleasing and placating option until you ‘win’ the status of being friends with them.
Like, that’s also kind of a thing in Undertale (as certain elements in Deltarune are based on or built on the audience response to Undertale). I hardly think it’s a detriment to that game, to me it’s more of a thing of “a game can’t be Everything at Once. Part of Undertale’s greatness is that it knows what it wants to focus on”. But many fans have already poked fun at how, because the idea of Frisk not being a total Blank-Slate-Self-Insert is actually kind of a twist - most of the other characters’ friendships with Frisk involve these wonderfully-written fully-rounded adults trauma-dumping on this silent blank child and then going “Wow you’re such a great friend, I’m so happy you’re here to support me!”
Papyrus’ character was already kinda a Tounge-in-Cheek acknowledgement of the absurdity of the situation. A Guy who is both extremely self-absorbed and extremely wholesome to such an absurd degree that he basically cannot help himself but befriend you, no matter what you do (I mean, unless you kill him)
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And I think a lot of Ralsei’s arc in Deltarune, in the ways he relate to Susie and Kris, is meant as a more serious exploration of these tropes.
Because Ralsei starts out with a very… video-gamey idea of how friendship works. He thinks that it’s just about being nice and making sure others are happy
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And is shocked to realize how much he appreciates Susie, a person who… if she was the Player, she would absolutely not be choosing the nicest most placating choice each time. She can be a bit prickly and abrasive…. but it doesn’t actually diminish of his fondness of her.
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Because, you know, that’s what actual real-life friendships are like.
And yet Ralsei is still surprised to learn that the same is true of him. That his friends also don’t demand just generic niceness, placating comments and gifts from him - they like his personality, not a blank slate. That’s the important part.
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And, of course, that also connects with the whole thing of Choices That Don’t Matter and the disconnect between Player and Player Character. While Frisk being their own independent person that you had to leave to have a happy life with their friends is kind of a Twist in Undertale, we know Kris is their own person from pretty early on.
So first of all that creates more situations where despite our control Kris can let their unique personality shine through regardless. Kris’ friendships feel real because Kris is a person separate from the Player who therefore has their own personality that their friends like.
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Plus, like with Susie, Kris isn’t necessarily the nicest and most accommodating person. They’re kind of an Edgelord WeirdEnby, so the interactions that show their personality and endears them to their friend often stands in contrast to the nicey accommodating tone of a Player trying to always choose the ‘Good’ option.
Sometimes the ‘right’ answer with Kris isn’t the nicest one, even when they’re with their friends. Because they like Kris, and that kinda comes pre-packaged with a little bit of emotionally-detached teasing.
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And our choices don’t really matter, because outside of the Total Terror that is the Weird Route, the Player can’t really choose in a way that changes Kris’ relationships. They will rebel against words that are too cruel or too saccharine for them.
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And the actions they take on their own will always be the most important to the development of their friendships.
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It’s kind of the most heartwarming twist Deltarune has on the idea of ‘Your Choices Don’t Matter’. Your choices don’t matter because when it comes to friendship, Kris’ personality will always triumph over your choices.
And of course, the general conceit of Deltarune makes the idea of an NPC liking the Player over the personality of the Player Character to be an especially chilling conceit. It makes people inherently more open to the idea because the alternative feels like such a grim concept in-universe. This is one case I am very thankful my choices don't matter and I would like it to continue that way!
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suiana · 6 months ago
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twitch streamer reader x yandere! lawyer who watches you in his free time. he didn't expect to get this attached to some streamer who basically plays games for a living but here we are.
"chat you can't call me a loser, i bet you guys don't even touch grass."
oh?
he decides to take this as a chance to finally interact with you outside of his online stalking and numerous donations. perhaps you'll even find him interesting, ask more, your chat ships you both then you and him get married-
okay he's daydreaming again.
"im not a loser."
misosoup has donated $25!
"lies! everyone who watches me is a loser rotting at home!"
misosoup has donated $50!
"yo misosoup guy! thanks so much for the donations dude what the heck?!"
he snickers, shifting on the leather chair of his office. the chair creaks under his weight, his hands flying across his keyboard as he focuses on your response to his words. so cute.
he really hadn't expected to get this attached. not when he had watched numerous other streamers and not feel a single thing for them. in fact, he'd get bored easily within the first... few seconds. he thought his dopamine receptors were fried 💀
nope, it just turns out he hadn't met you.
"actually im a lawyer :)"
..
...
silence washes over you and you immediately tweak out. the lawyer could only watch in amusement as he pulls out his credit card to donate yet another absurd amount of money to someone he hasn't even met in real life. soon though. soon.
"what the balls i have a lawyer in my stream?!"
yes, and this lawyer especially loves you. have fun being spoiled by him! and make sure not to sign any weird contracts without reading everything first too! wouldn't wanna... accidentally sign your life away! haha!
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