#//Also he grew up idolizing and wanting to be like his childhood heroes.

[kingspuppet]

Something else I want to touch on in regards to chess symbolism is the pieces being black and white. In both the anime and in the image from the end of the false reality, Goro is playing the white pieces and Joker is playing the black. And awhile back I had seen someone ask if there was any meaning behind it. I didn't see what the response was, but I do have a theory of my own. Goro's thought process in itself is a very black and white mindset. That there can only be one or the other. It's how he views his plans against Shido and the Thieves themselves. There's a right and a wrong way in his mind, and you can see how he struggles with that concept when he's asked to join the Thieves after their fight in the engine room. Because there hasn't been a way for him to deviate from his plans and ideals before. He never thought that was a possibility for him so he never considers it. As for the pieces he uses, I think a similar concept follows. To Goro the white pieces are the heroes and in turn the black ones are the villains. It's a very cut and dry thought process that follows the one or the other thread. So in his games against Joker he plays the "heroes" because that's what he's always wanted to be. He needs to be that hero. He wants to be that hero. It's his justice, which he thinks is right, against Joker's, which he thinks is wrong. That's not to say that Goro actually thinks of Joker and the Thieves as villains. He knows that they're similar, to a painful degree. But it all falls back to the black and white thinking of there can only be one or the other, and that anything in between is useless.

[star-ocean-peahen]

The more you think about Jason Grace's life, the more fucked up it gets.

Like, the whole "joined Camp Jupiter as a three year old" thing. We already know Camp Jupiter is fucked up because it places heavy importance on a child army, despite having plenty of demigod adults at hand, but they straight up recruited a three year old into the military. He showed up and got promptly stuck in a barrack for the rest of his childhood.

Like, why?? Why on earth would they do that instead of giving him to someone in New Rome to raise and inducting him into the legion at a respectable twelve??

And who raised him anyway?? A rotating cast of nineteen-year-old demigods?? His bunkmates in the Fifth?? If he was a young teenager I could see that, but he arrived when he was three, was he even potty-trained??? Did he just grow up being educated by bored teenagers and ghosts, watching as demigods arrived and served and retired, being told that he had to be the greatest of them all?? Did he have any other children to grow up with?? Did the legion even consider him different than the other recruits, or did he have to shovel unicorn dung when he forgot his phonics and live with the constant threat of perhaps being sewn into a bag of weasels??

I find it odd that Jason, as a demigod who grew up in a demigod's world, doesn't have his unique perspective explored more. I find it especially odd that the difference between his childhood and everyone else's is ignored. However difficult and varied everyone else's backgrounds are, they've at least attended a school. They had parents, and family, and a home, at least at one point. They had mortal toys and dwellings and communities that weren't merged inextricably with the myths. They knew where they came from. Do you think Jason, with his powerful, kingly father and impending destiny, ever felt like he didn't know who his family was?

I also find it strange that he doesn't seem to have a very wide network of friends from Camp Jupiter? He has Reyna, who he trusts and works with and depends on. He lists Hazel and Frank among his friends, but they look up to him as a role model. He mentions Bobby and Dakota familiarly, but never again. He's familiar and on good terms with basically everyone—but the only person he seems to consider as a close friend is Reyna. And that wouldn't be odd if he hadn't grown up at Camp Jupiter. He doesn't seem to have any constant companion—anyone he considers his family until he meets Leo.

Maybe he and Leo bonded so well because they both knew what it was like to grow up transiently. To have any constant in your life, and know that the day you would move on or they would move on was fast approaching. Maybe the reason he looked at Camp Half-Blood and admired how united and familial they seemed, and wished Camp Jupiter could be similar, was that he could see in them the family he wished he had.

Honestly, I feel like meeting Thalia should have left him in a lot more turmoil than it did. He grew up with no family but a god for a father, and here's a person who wanted him. Someone who always wanted him because he was Jason, and not the demigod son of Zeus. Maybe even someone to whom he mattered more than his destiny.

I really, really wish we'd gotten to see more of the contrasts between him and Percy. He is explicitly the Romans' version of the hero Percy is, except he's the hero first, and the person second. Jason did everything right! He did everything perfectly, and Percy still got where he did without being trained for it his entire childhood. He's got such a better reason to resent him than "bad vibes". They could have been foils for each other hhhhhhhrngh.

Just. This lonely, idolized, child soldier's life hurts me.

[feketeribizli]

okay wait marci questions. how does he feel about media stuff? press, sponsored posts, the obligatory slash forced social media goofing etc. actually what's his social media presence like in general. also does he have pets..... did he grow up idolising anyone currently on the grid? how does he feel about racing his childhood heroes if yes? also, what's his favourite colour? capping it here but i want it known that he has eaten my brain 👍

hiii thank youuuu absolute bangers from you as always mwuah mwuah 😁🫶

nearly wrote a thousand words LMAO im putting a readmore somewhere to save yall... thank you for your time everyone 🫡

with all the live cockslip talk i thought itd be fun to delve into his social media presence for real... team and personal brand posting he doesnt mind per say, he got that goober in him that doesnt take oneself too seriously so hopping on silly trends hes almost looking forward to it. aston socials esp their tiktok is like my fave thing in the world lol id love to see him recreate the adam security & gf trend with padre

marci mostly uses instagram and its a mess... i barely follow any drivers but ive noticed they almost always got a certain aesthetic they try to keep up and well. marci dgaf. theyd try to put some color grading filter on the first photo in his dumps so at least theres some harmony to his page but its atrocious

he obviously has an official account on every other site but its usually for stuff his management posts on there (and an empty tiktok profile where his reposts are public. surely nothing weird or suspicious to see)

back to press and shit... hes not a fan 🧍‍♂️ he prefers the scripted stuff and when he can have like three takes to say something cause when its just him and twenty cameras broadcasting live... he still gets nervous and then the accent slips in and he stumbles his speeches and words things in a way people could twist what he said around easily (moment of silence and empathy for little lando norris). hes a small scale driver so the world doesnt hang on every word he says but yknow how it is

oh now im yapping like crazyyy... this part could get a whole new post but its kinda media related and ive been thinking and wanna talk about it a bit... if youve read this far kisses xx 😘

but yeah since im inserting marci into the canon events of real life theres bound to be loud media frenzy around his arrival especially since its aston. and in lances place (gotta work more on this but i was thinking lance has a kinda bad crash somewhere in the beginning of the 2024 season and my guy gets summoned out of thin air colapinto style to fill his place in until recovery but out of nowhere lance is like id like to temporarily step back lol 😋✌️ and the world explodes and marc is full time employed now)

and like idk how the hungarian public would react to a hun on the grid after twenty years (hes faggy so id care. otherwise idgaf about hungarian athletes for the most part) but that combined with the guy the world seems to hate a lot finally stepping down (NOT ME LANCE I LOVE YOU this is me trying to help this is me putting you in good situations) the commotion would be a major event with marcis name in the tabloids for a bit

all im trying to say is that his f1 entry would probably be very overwhelming and hes this shy guy no one has ever heard about before blabbering at stupid fucking press questions while glued to fernandos side. who is he whats his deal

ok lets put a hold on media for now 🧍‍♂️ as for pets... an old bernese back at home :-) marci kind of grew up with her (as much as he was at home. or the country even)... management posting ten-year-old marci at his first karting event with the puppy in his hands and then twenty-year-old marci after his first grand prix facetiming his family in the aston garages with the dog on the phone too... ack

about idols... his big thing is michael schumacher i know that for sure. marc generally looks up to everyone and has immense respect for most drivers. the more i think about it the more im like maybe bro got a thing for psychosexual warfare kinda drivers (schumi, vettel, alonso...) like yayyy to on and off track terrorism when its not aimed at me 😁

confession i kind of made him to deal with my conflicting feelings about aston martin as a whole lol and well. anyway he still shivers hot and bothered sometimes when fernando is around. gets a bit self conscious about it too but nothing that taking it up in the ass couldnt fix

fave color is greeeeen 😁 as i said match made in heaven with aston. team merch is glued to his body

WHEWH what an essay and i dont even know if im making sense lol ! marci is taking shape and becoming rock solid in my head im very happy about it 😋🫶 shoutout again to everyone intrigued i love cooking up the guy im having sooo much fun ‼️💥❣️

[mysticstarlightduck]

Ten random sibling questions!

Thank you so much for the tag, @thelovelymachinery (here)!

I'll go with Arden and Fabian from Crash Stardom! for this one (ps. context: Those two are biologically cousins BUT they grew up together and Arden raised Fabian like a brother).

Arden's pronouns are He/They Fabian's pronouns are He/Him

TW. Mentions of past SA in Arden's "Biggest Fears" section and very questionable stuff happening to Arden in the past

1. Biggest fears

Arden is absolutely terrified of Lenny, the son of a capo from the local mob who once stalked and took advantage of Arden in his own apartment (after Arden had broken up their and Lenny's toxic 'situationship' from hell and told Lenny to never come back). That incident left both Arden and Fabian severely traumatized - because Lenny essentially broke into their apartment and did whatever he wanted to Arden - then 18-19 - while Fabian (WHO WAS 12 AT THE TIME) was locked safely in another room, so he luckily didn't see anything but he still heard the scuffle.

Arden is also terrified of something bad happening to Fabian. They fear they have failed Fabes as a guardian, because they were unprepared at the time they took him in, and also because Arden blames themself for being (in their words) "too broke" to give Fabian the life they wanted him to have. Arden also spiralled pretty badly after everything that happened. They are also afraid that, if they wipe out the mob with their serial killing, something terrible may happen to Fabian too.

Fabian's worst fear is being helpless or unable to protect the people he loves the most. That incident in their past left Fabian with a deep fear of being trapped or helpless while someone needs his help, and he tends to also be afraid of being unable to prevent Arden from losing themself in that need for revenge.

2. Pet peeves

Arden can't stand the smell of whiskey, and also hates repetitive, annoying sounds like constant clicking, people chewing (they will smack a bitch if they hear that) or old clocks ticking. They also dislike the feeling of not having taking a shower in a day, and hate being constantly interrupted.

Fabian hates too-greasy food, or eating soggy things that aren't supposed to be soggy, like cereal or cookies. He hates that feeling of being too tired but unable to sleep, and also dislikes songs that get annoyingly stuck in his head for too long.

3. Favourite after school snack

Neither of them really went to school. Arden ran away from home at 11 years old, with a 5 year old Fabian in tow, to escape a dangerous environment. They got by as homeless runaways/street kids on their own for years, until Arden started working as an errand boy for the mob when they were 14, and Fabian was 8, and was able to afford a small, slightly questionable, apartment. When Arden was 16-17, he started working for the mob's clubs to pay off their debts.

Besides that, Arden's favorite snack is pizza rolls, and Fabian's favorite snack is chocolate chip cookies.

4. Favourite after school activity

Same context as before, so I'll answer this simply as 'favorite pastime/hobby'.

Fabian loves watching old cartoons and has a collection of pirated CDs with his favorite childhood sitcoms, animated movies and romcom films. His favorite pastime is to watch those movies in his free time.

Arden likes shoplifting beauty items, like nail polish, makeup and hair creams, which they store at home, and take great pride in how it helps them feel they've improved their appearance. Arden also loves sleeping whenever they can, and often can be found scrolling aimlessly through his phone.

5. What is their relationship like with each other?

Growing up, their bond was incredibly strong. They were all each other ever really had, and even if Arden wasn't the most well-equipped or overly responsible guardian, they cared more about Fabian than they ever cared about themself. Fabian always idolized Arden and looked up to them, seeing them as a hero.

However, after the incident with Lenny, Arden spiraled badly, resorting to drinking and becoming addicted to Elixir as a way to drown out the trauma of what had happened. Arden started spending more and more time at the clubs and less time at home. Soon after, they (Arden) turned to hunting down mobsters and killing them in both an act of revenge to let out their pent-up rage but also a desperate vigilantism to keep Fabian from ever becoming a target of those people. At first, Fabian kept trying to be there for Arden, and Arden didn't mean to push him away, however, by the time Fabian was 17, Arden's assassination missions started becoming bolder and more dangerous, putting their own life on the line again and again. Fabian couldn't stand the constant worry, and when he tried to convince Arden to let go of that revenge quest, they both argued badly, which resulted on them becoming estranged for a year.

6. Were they raised together?

Yes, they were. Fabian ended up under the guardianship of his uncle and aunt (Arden's parents) when he was 3, after his own biological parents died in a freak accident. However, Arden's parents were very abusive/toxic, and Arden ended up running away from home at 11, taking 5-year-old Fabian to safety too. Arden raised Fabian under their wing like an older brother/sibling would.

7. What did they enjoy doing together?

Fabian and Arden used to love watching old comedy movies and shows together and even staying up late to watch cartoons. Whenever Arden would come home late from the clubs where they (Arden) worked for the mob, they would pick up Fabian and take him to either get some ice cream or order cheap take out. Arden also was the person who taught Fabian how to shoot, and how to pick locks.

8. What is their favourite thing about eachother?

Fabian's favorite thing about Arden is how they always know how to deal with any situation that comes their way, no matter how jarring. He also admires how Arden had always been so resilient and confident - how they never let anyone talk shit to them and how they always snap back at insults with a smirk, no matter what storm they're dealing with behind the scenes. He also is deeply thankful for everything that Arden has given up and gone through in the past just to give him (Fabian) the childhood they (Arden) never had.

Despite Arden having a more jaded, 'shoot first ask questions later' kind of worldview, they admire how Fabian - despite everything that has happened to them both - is able to still dream about a brighter future and trust people, an ability Arden was never quite able to recover after everything that has happened. Arden also appreciates how Fabian always seems to find ways genuinely cheer them up - as well as anyone around them - no matter how bleak a situation is.

9. What do they hate about the other?

Fabian hates how self-destructive Arden can get, because while he understands that Arden didn't deal well with the crap that happened to them, he hates how they have such a low self-esteem where destroying themself for the sake of feeling numb or even getting even seems like a reasonable option. He also can't stand how sometimes Arden gets so reckless and blinded by rage, that their revenge seems to matter more than anything ever would to them.

Arden sometimes thinks that Fabian is overly naive and that he sees the world through rose-tinted glasses, and that he doesn't understands - what Arden understands - that sometimes bad things need to be done for good reasons or to keep them both safe. They also hate how Fabian wants them to 'think things through' when it comes to making the people who hurt them pay, something that Arden sees as stifling.

10. How do other people see them?

Everyone knows not to mess with either of them - estranged or not, they are the definition of 'never one without the other'. Even the most hardened criminals know that if you mess with Arden, you'll have to handle Fabian's revenge (even if he doesn't kill, he can be QUITE the thorn in the side to have) and if anyone hurts Fabian....well that person won't wake up in one piece, and will probably have a very, very painful demise by Arden's hands.

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[kevlarcrack3d]

I'm gonna write headcanon pasts for the One Piece admirals! They're just so damn interesting and I love their mobster/rebel/yakuza theme! Kinda reminds me of the games lol.

BEWARE OF ANGST!: MENTIONS OF CHILD ABUSE, VIOLENT CRIME, UNDERAGE DRINKING, AND SELF-HARM

So, I looked at the childhood images of Akainu, Aokiji, and Kizaru and made what I could make out of what I can see in the images. No kid photos of Fujitora and Greenbull yet, do I used canon events as refs.

Akainu (Sakazuki) 🐶:

He had a turbulent childhood in a crime-riddled place. His father was a crime boss who abused him for seeing Marines as his hero, because his dad knew more that the Marines and WG were corrupt and shit. After all, the dad was a criminal, while Akainu genuinely wanted to serve in the marines and stand for his "justice".

A Marine he idolized gave him the tattered cap shortly before he killed his father because that Marine brainwashed and gaslit him into believing in his twisted justice during his stay in that area while searching for pirates. Akainu saw the battle and was instantly INSPIRED. He would become like his hero and blow up his shithole hometown.

Akainu has seen crimes, vices, violence, and all sorts of moral decadence in his place, so it's not surprising his views on justice got fucked up. He learned street smarts and how to fight due to his environment. He met Aokiji after killing his dad (it's anime logic where the young kid can kill an adult with fighting experience) and both had a rocky, love-hate (yes, I used to ship these two) relationship while wandering and doing odd jobs before being taken in by the Marines.

Since both grew up in turbulent, violent environments, they had the physical and mental strength (and fuckedup-ness) to fight in the Marines, and it'd be a waste to just let them toil while doing household chores, right?

So, they were taken in and trained. All the time, even until they were admirals, Akainu and Aokiji were arguing, always. Their opposing views, personalities, and justices didn't help either. Sometimes, they'd even be petty, like, Aokiji just moves Akainu's bonsai vase a little and Akainu is in a real foul mood and then shit hits the fan. It's very hilarious to see, especially when they were kids, they always had to be disciplined because they were always fighting 😂.

Akainu always had to deal with Aokiji's apathy and laziness. Akainu was the kid always angry and serious, so he was a rather amazing student - always "upright" in the Marines' eyes. Aokiji was the lazy but smart one, as in, super lazy. During teamwork training, Aokiji was kind of a slacker at first and Akainu would fight him always. It kinda died down over time as they became adults, but Akainu is still pissed about it, as always 😂.

Soon, Akainu burned down his pirate and criminal infested hometown. Fuck the innocents and everything. There are criminals there and he will send them to hell. And he succeeded.

Akainu also had a rather romanticized view of the Marines as a child due to his circumstances. Anything about spreading justice, order, and punishing criminals, and he'll be pumped up. This is the shit for him, and he's quick to plan and act when it comes to these. Despite his angry, wild nature, ever since he was young, he was ever so PASSIONATE about being a ROUGH, STRONG Marine man. Hence, the rose of the fuckin' lady killer sheesh 🥵. Something here's burning hot and it's not just the lava!

Yah, yah, I just spent over half the year creating yakuza/boryokudan OCs and well, I guess the dashing underworld outlaw prince swept me off my feet 🤩🤩🤩...

Aokiji (Kuzan) 🐦: Aokiji had deadbeat parents who always let him get beat up. He lived in the same area as Akainu. Due to his family being deadbeat, he picked up vices and began to drink at an early age. He decided to wander away, doing odd jobs. Despite his apathy towards most of the world and anger towards criminals, helping people with chores kind of softened his heart. This has helped him develop a sense of compassion, unlike Akainu, who did these chores as a way to work towards being accepted by the Marines. Sometimes, Aokiji would be dog tired and sleep a lot in his free time.

Soon, he met Akainu and they accompanied each other. Being alone was boring, and besides, they were kids. They'd argue a lot, even while working, AND especially when sharing a sleeping space. Oh boy, they'd get violent when one starts pressing agains the other.

And that's the definition of true love according to what my shipper brain said

The Marines soon took them in and they began to train. Aokiji was rather apathetic to this at first, but then actually began to warm up a bit to his job. Sometimes, it was even entertaining, especially arguing with Akainu or simply bullshitting his fiery frienemy. But, as Aokiji became an adult, cracks began to show.

Aokiji began to see all the misery and corruption. The causes of poverty and crime, a lot caused by the WG. He saw innocent people hurt due to the WG. Soon, he fell back to his apathetic ways. But, despite being so jaded and weary, he still had that kind-hearted side for those with benevolent intentions, regardless of them being pirates or otherwise. Soon, he wanted to be free to do this and resign from the Marines. Deep down, he had a heart like the snow, cold, and yet beautiful.

Dagnabbit, I'm crying why the fuck do I do this to myself 😭😭😭?

Kizaru (Borsalino) 🙈: Kizaru's family was the type that placed all their hopes on him to achieve their broken dreams for them, so they encouraged him to learn and study. He was rather pressured sometimes, but he did truly enjoy his studies and reading. He'd happily skip to the library sometimes and told them his stories. A light to their world, if I must say. Aaaand the feels are back 🥲.

Kizaru then decided to join the Marines, a decision his parents supported, seeing he could finally give them an ego boost, like "HOLY SHIT MY SON IS A MARINE, NOW, CLAP, GUYS". Not really his dream or what he wanted, but he just went with the flow. He was an easygoing, cool, chill dude anyway.

Soon, he met Akainu and Aokiji in training. He ALWAYS had to be there to calm these two down if they started arguing. One mean look from Akainu to Aokiji or vice versa, "woah there, now stop my dudes" Kizaru was the pacifier between them. He was also the quiet, cool, but very smart kid who always was in the topnotchers. However, he was the type to suck up to the government's ideals and decisions of the majority of the top brass and whatever view a certain faction of theirs chooses as right. He was like a ship bobbing on the waves without someone to steer it.

Soon, he got to meet Vegapunk due to his knowledge on some certain machines thanks to his childhood of reading. He would keep a VERY CLOSE EYE ON THE SCIENTIST. That's what he was tasked to do. He had no problem with that anyway. Then, he met Sentomaru, Kuma, and Bonney, and maybe, just maybe, his nonchalant, neutral personality slipped away, having seen the innocence of a kid who viewed him as an uncle and the sweetness of a father and his daughter. He found himself having fun for the first time, but maybe, he just didn't know it. But the memory stuck.

To thisbday, Kizaru is still nonchalant as ever, but maybe, I hope, something might happen in Egghead arc now with him. Could be good development for someone so dull, yet so bright.

Dammit. Them 2D cartoon seamen making me cry.

Fujitora (Issho) 🐯: Oh God, this is a dark one. Fujitora was a very unfortunate lad. He had an, abusive, overpopulated family who hated him and beat him to near death. They saw he was durable when he fought back and decided to sell him to the Marines. It wasn't fair. But the world's not fair. Always, Fujitora saw poverty and very VILE bastards in his place. It was not surprising to him. But, his hell was just going to begin.

Fujitora had a strong moral compass (besides his gambling) and trained hard to spread justice in the Marines. But, as his rank got higher, the more horrible things he saw in the WG. Corruption, slavery, hatred, and all things unpleasant. Ugh, he wanted to leave. Why? Justice is for everyone, right? So, why can't he bring it to those above him, who abuse their power? That's right, it was the world being unfair.

All the shit he has witnessed made him sick to the stomach. Are these the people he was working with and working for? Yuck. He decided to resign last minute before a promotion.

But, before he left, Fujitora reflected on his life before being sold to the Marines and after being sold to the Marines. Just the same. It was just the same back there. It was just unfair, so unfair. Wherever he went, there were always bad people oppressing the lass fortunate like he once was. Fujitora was unable to take the gravity in that moment and cut his eyes. He decided to cancel his resignation and return to the Marines. That way, at least, he can rise up to a position where he can stand for fairness. But if any sign of humanity comes before him, Fujitora will be unable to see it clearly again, despite his kind heart. He may feel it, but never see it, so he can only partially feel it. A prize to pay for justice.

This one was sad. And when kindness did come to his heart genuinely in the form of Luffy, he couldn't see those kind eyes 😭.

Ryokugyu (Aramaki) 🐂: This dude seems to have sucked according to the fandom, but screw that.

So, since he's quite the simp for the WG, Aramakiwas bought as a baby by the Marines, so all he knew was the WG's ideals.

Though unruly and wild, he was valued because he was loyal, even when he did things outside anything approved, like not asking permission to deal with certain peeps. He was also very destructive as a child, so he needed lots of discipline, too. In fact, this wild boy has been chided more than anyone could count they stopped scolding him altogether ��!

[loganofthenorth]

Feels like I just can't have heroes anymore.

For the longest time, JK Rowling was my hero.

Then she turned out to be an outspoken transphobic, racist, ableist, with a borderline nazi rhetoric

And now if you so much as like Harry Potter you're part of the problem

And I know it's just a book

I understand that

But it was weaved into my identity for the majority of my childhood

To the point that my parents still buy me Harry Potter stuff as gifts because seeing Harry Potter stuff makes them think of me

And they make comments about how my taste in clothing, colours, etc remind them of Harry Potter because I (used to?) like it

And then I have to explain that my attitude with Harry Potter is complicated right now because of JK Rowling and how much hatred everyone has for her and by proxy her stories and by proxy anyone that likes her stories

And they aren't as chronically online with a constant stream of information on the subject like I am

So they dismiss it and tell me I shouldn't let the internet bully me into not liking something that I love

But there's so much language suggesting that you're a horrific person if you like Harry Potter and that scares me

Because I know the things JK Rowling has said and done is wrong, and that she's using her immense privilege and wealth for terrible things.

But I grew up, a child, loving her books. My writing is inspired by her. I've now become afraid of becoming a successful author because of her. Because what if I slip up? What if the influence her books and other main stream medias have on my writing upset people enough to see me as evil?

My writing is also inspired a lot by the Author Judy Blume. Thankfully she has never been labeled as a committer of atrocities to my knowledge, but I never thought of her as a hero since I didn't relate as much to her characters as I did to JK Rowling. I just found her (Judy Blume's) books funny, entertaining, and helpful to understand a normal person's perspective on the world.

Then I finally worked through my fear and anxiety and rejection sensitivity dysphoria

Put aside the fear that I should give up my writing career

Let go of JK Rowling and of my love for Harry Potter, and just leave it as a fond memory of a book series I used to love and...

Well basically I act as if Harry Potter was a phase I grew out of

Even though I didn't but... anyways

Once I had made myself move on, I considered Neil Gaiman as my hero...

...

Coraline is my favourite movie

I started watching Good Omens last year and it was ingenious and I've been meaning to finish it

Neil Gaiman is an active member of Tumblr's community

And is a hero to many

But now I can't go on any social media's without seeing posts about how he's a sexual assailant and a predator

And everyone talking about how he's actually always been one and everyone is an idiot for liking his books

And...

And...

I don't know. Maybe I'm simply cursed.

Temple Grandin was hated in the Autism community for a short time when I thought of her as a hero

I wanted to become a psychologist because of her advocacy

Mozart and Vincent Van Goph have not turned out to be secret mass murderers or got dismissed completely over something out of their control from what I know thankfully. Albert Einstein is ridiculed a lot but not considered evil, just responsible for the atomic bomb but it's recognized that it was out of his control.

Arnold Nobel is pretty safe because he made the Nobel Prize to make up for his greatest achievement/mistake thus why he is a hero of mine

Though Nikola Tesla turns out he was a eugenicist...

Just... *ugh*

I've stopped calling Thomas Sanders my hero because several people were attacking him in the fandom at one point and I was paranoid it was because of this 'curse' my anxiety seems to think I have so while I still love Sanders Sides I'm careful not to think of Thomas Sanders as a hero or someone I idolize because then if he either turns out corrupt or gets his name dragged through the mud based on a misunderstanding I'll have to deal with the rejection sensitivity disorder telling me everyone will hate me because I associate myself with him vaguely

Even though there's so many people I want to look up to I won't let myself because I'm paranoid that I'm cursed

I'm paranoid when I write that I'll become someone's favourite author

That my books will mean everything to them

And then all of a sudden I'm deemed evil

I don't know what I'd do to be labeled that

But it's happened to me in High School where I slipped up and said something that got twisted and then everyone was at my throat about it

What if I say something I mean as supportive and it gets taken the wrong way?

What if people use AI to claim I did something I didn't do?

What if a story really similar to one I publish exists and I don't know about it so I get charged with copyright?

What if because it's so hard for me to understand mob mentality I don't jump on a bandwagon quickly enough and people think I side with whoever has been deemed as evil?

I'm very logical and analytical and also have a lot of empathy

I try to look at every side of the story before I make a judgement

It's hard to figure out how I'm supposed to react when overnight suddenly videos calling your childhood hero a monster go viral

I don't want to say people are wrong for hating JK Rowling

Or even that they are wrong for hating Neil Gaiman

But I'm confused when people feel guilty for having enjoyed their books

When people start to attack anyone that likes anything associated with the person or anything the person benefits from

Why does a few bad actions taint everything a person has every done?

And why should people be shamed for liking a story?

Yes, books are a part of the author's soul, and the author benefits from you liking the book

But I don't understand how a soul considered evil takes a part of themselves they believe is good to put into the world, then another soul takes that and loves it and transforms it through their own interpretations, until it becomes part of them, how does that then corrupt the second soul into another evil soul?

I want to understand, I really do

But the way I see it art is far too complex for the black and white thinking of 'if you're not part of the solution you're part of the problem.'

It's like being on the other end of a game of operator.

If the first person says a nasty thing, and it goes down the line until it's converted into a funny wholesome joke, and the person on the other end laughs at that joke, are they then judged for laughing at the nasty joke?

I don't know.

I try not to say any of this out loud

I don't want to be dismissed by my family for caring so much about what people online think

I don't want to be misunderstood by people online as defending the people they probably rightfully hate? And then get attacked for not understanding? I've done a lot of research, read a lot of takes on it. I don't know. It's just not making sense to me.

Also how does the general public decide who is and isn't evil? Because for most of my life I thought it was a sad and terrible thing, but normal for the world to be corrupt and for people to do bad things. Why do people have to be completely and morally perfect for it to be okay to like a book they wrote?

I'm not trying to say separate art from the artist. That's what people have said to reassure me and it doesn't sit right. I still believe that the artist's wrongdoings shouldn't be ignored, and that it's okay to be upset about the book by proxy. I just don't understand getting mad at anyone that does like the book or even someone that used to before they even knew. Why are people feeling guilty for something they couldn't have possibly known? Why are they feeling guilty for enjoying a story that they obviously enjoyed for reasons unrelated to the things they hate the artist for?

I don't know.

I know Neil Gaiman puts himself in his works. You cannot separate art from the artist.

But I don't know how you can link liking Coraline to condoning sexual assault.

[ladystoneboobs]

y’know, whatever the true parentage of aegon vi aka young griff, in a way he is more like rhaegar than jon snow is. by which i mean their attempts to force themselves into archetypal roles, rhaegar as the prophesied hero against supernatural dark forces and yg as the hidden-prince-in-exile come to save the country and restore peace and harmony by taking the throne.

rhaegar’s very existence is owed to a prophecy, when the ghost of high heart said the ptwp would come of aerys/rhaella’s line they were forced to get married by their father. his destiny was decided and agreed before he was born, as just a hypothetical male prince. bc ofc this promised prince must be a son born with a cock, right? no one ever looked for or expected a princess for this. and when he was born during the mysterious tragedy at summerhall, what could be more of a sign that the prophecy was fulfilled? no need to keep waiting for any more kids, anyone further down the line, this baby had such a dramatic entrance he has got to be the specialest boy of all. rhaegar likely knew all of this from a very young age. grandpa jaehaerys ii believed enough to force his kids to marry, so he wouldn’t want this important planning to go to waste by taking it to his grave, now, would he? was rhaegar reading all the time bc his favorite genre was old prophecy scrolls or was he always doing homework to become the hero he knew he already was? does it really matter when either way he never really had much choice in his role in life? one day he finally goes to train with the master-at-arms only bc he realized from his reading that he “must” be a warrior. he became as great at that as he was at anything else, according to ser barry, but he never enjoyed knighthood. 

to me that’s all a far cry from jon, who grew up idolizing daeron the young dragon and dreaming of glory and conquest. jon, who spent most of his waking hours training in the yard even when injured at the end of asos, just bc he didn’t know what else to do and it helped him blow off steam. jon, who had a nostalgic “hunger” in him when hearing the sound of swords in the yard as lc. the same guy who as of acok still couldn’t get why sam would consider old books and crumbling scolls to be treasure. jon, who has nothing but doubts once he does rise to power and herodom as lord commander and can’t conquer them. and most importantly, jon, the hero who chanced into his role as shield guarding the realms of men only bc ned won the fight at the toj after rhaegar died and took him to be raised in the north. if/when jon does return to life and take his place as a heroic head of the dragon, that role can only be his own choice, not one he was raised for his entire life, just as his membership in the night’s watch was ultimately his own choice based on his northern childhood. (jon’s conception may have also been prophecy-related, but beyond that, his path and rhaegar’s sharply diverged.)

know who was shaped for a royal destiny “since before he could walk”, though? that’s right, aegon in essos aka young griff. his destiny was already chosen for him by the schemes of illyrio/varys just as rhaegar’s was by grampy jae ii and other dragon prophecy nerds before him. he studied his scrolls and trained with the royal master-at-arms just as aegon studied in the routines of his entourages and was trained by knights of the golden company.

and, at some point, we know rhaegar realized he wasn’t the ptwp and decided it was his first son, aegon, instead. mostly bc a comet was seen the night of aegon’s conception. i remember seeing a post years ago saying rhaegar must have spotted the comet that night, run naked straight to elia, and declared they had to get babymaking asap bc the comet was a sign too significant to be ignored. a joke post, prob, but i feel like there’s prob a lot of truth to the idea of rhaegar desparetely forcing the signs to add up, concieving a child on that night after he’d already seen the comet rather than just happening to have sex with elia on the same night there just happened to be a comet sighting. i believe this bc why would it all just be lucky coincidence if aegon vi was not the ptwp? lbr now, whether he indeed got his head smashed in by the mountain or was switched out and sent to essos, rhaegar’s elder son was/is not the promised hero. (just like rhaegar himself could not be the pwtp, after all.) a previously-thought-dead-for-16-years newbie with shaky parentage credentials introduced this late in the game is not going to steal both jon’s and dany’s thunder like that, c’mon. so a comet appearing just for his conception feels about as likely as red rahloo actually killing 3 kings just for the sake of frickin’ stannis. it’s even possible that rhaegar later decided aegon might not be the ptwp either and put more stock in dragon head #3 bc of the whole ice and fire union aspect with lyanna. we just don’t have enough info about that part of the story to know for sure. but there’s no suggestion he was unhappy with elia beforehand or that either of them thought she could not bear more children until the maesters actually said so after aegon’s birth. and even if he was “right” about lyanna’s child being the most important one (ew), he was still counting on both aegon and rhaenys to be the other two heads of the dragon, and presumably planned to raise all 3 of them for their destiny together in kl as he had been. in which case his plans utterly failed, because that is just not at all what happened with any of those kids.

in that sense, death is what jon and his bio dad most have in common as they both walked fairly boldly and blindly into their doom. but the circumstances are still a bit different as jon was murdered in a mutiny rather than killed in battle, not to mention his likely resurrection as an actual hero of prophecy. despite being around 10 years older than either jon or aegon is presently, i’d say rhaegar was even more naively overconfident in his plans than jon was in his final moments. to go that quickly and without any known hesitation through each change of plans from simply being ptwp himself to becoming a warrior as well as a weirdo nerd to fathering 3 heads of the dragon to truly fulfill prophecy to organizing a political coup at harrenhal to honoring lyanna instead to eloping with her after aegon’s birth to make her wife #2 and mother of dragon head #3 to riding off to one definitve battle against cousin robert after hiding in his lovenest with lyanna for months, idk, that does not read to me as someone suffering the same questions and doubts jon did in the nw. rhaegar told jaime “when this battle’s done�� not “if i return in victory” in their farewell. he had no back-up plans in case of his defeat, leaving elia with aerys and lyanna in the toj, no plans for how to protect either wife or any of his all-important prophesied progeny in the event of his loss, just as he had no immediate plans to deal with aerys yet. (compare that to idealistic young king robb stark, thought to be recklessly honorable and accused of thinking himself invincible in his youth, yet he still managed to make plans for his succession should he die childless in battle, and planned to put his wife and mother in strongholds held by trustworthy (sane) allies who could defend their positions for some time in his absence.) all that only makes sense to me if he always thought he’d still have time for all that later, never truly envisioning the possibility of house targ being overthrown so soon when all his hero kids were still babies. 

after all, whether he was the ptwp himself or only meant to raise the 3 promised dragon heads as heroes, surely their destiny was already written years before and he couldn’t go out in such a mundane way, right? i’d say aegon/yg shows the same kind of overconfidence in going along with all the gc’s changes in planning, from whatever varys/illyrio originally wanted with viserys iii alive to finding dany and marrying her after the birth of her dragons to leaving for an invasion of westeros first to conquer the stormlands himself before wedding dany as equals. he never imagined she could refuse him until tyrion told him so, and imo is still not grasping that his female relation could prove more important than him in westeros with her 3 dragons. rhaegar may have known he was doomed since his tragic birth among so much death and later knew he wasn’t the pwtp, but he likely still expected a higher doom, one as dramatic and magical as his birth at summerhall. he couldn’t imagine his chest being caved in by lyanna’s dumbass ex, his boorish cousin robert, just as aegon/yg can’t know what doom could be in store for him in westeros either. 

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for lying to my field trip partner and ruining his dreams?

Alright so, for context - I was in this field trip to a village to learn about the local legend for my assignment and I partnered up with a boy from another school that grew up in the village (Let's call him K).

He was awfully shy, but he seemed very nice, and it was really, really obvious that he adores the legend... though he was self-conscious talking about it since he was a big fan of the ogre that everyone was afraid of instead of the heroes of the story the townsfolk adored. But I didn't see anything wrong with having an opinion and I liked how happy he was talking about it and wanting to be its friend so I thought we were off to a good start of a friendship.

Now, here's where it all starts; At the local festival, I somehow ran into the actual ogre from the legend with K's older sister (let's call her C). The ogre dropped her mask and ran off scared. And the first thing C said after we realized who we just met was that she wanted to lie about encountering K's literal childhood idol because she was worried he'd act recklessly like chase after it in the mountains during the middle of the night.

I thought that was unfair but... guys, C has some serious anger management issues, she freaked me out too much to try risking it. Even if she wasn't actually planning to shove a ball of poison gas in my mouth, I was scared she'd get a stroke or something with how often she shakes in rage.

Not only that, but when we brought the mask to their grandpa, he came to tell us a whole bombshell about how everything we know about the legend is a complete lie... and then proceeded to ALSO tell us not to tell K the truth.

At this point, this felt more like a family matter that I wasn't sure I had the right to intervene on. So when he came up to me afterwards and asked me what I was up to... I went ahead and ended up lying to him.

He... really didn't take it very well.

He thought we were maliciously leaving him out on things and making fun of him behind his back... Which wasn't true - the ogre just dropped her mask and we wanted to have it fixed and return it to her - but considering how harshly C speaks to him, I can't blame him that much?

I apologized when the cat eventually was out of the bag, but then the ogre was intimidated about meeting someone new and hid behind me when K tried to give her mask back... He didn't take that very well either...

He challenged me to battle a couple of times but each time, he didn't take the losses very well. It wasn't like it was from a lack of trying because his team was genuinely getting better from every challenge. K was getting so upset about things that it was starting to make C worried.

A looooot of things happened throughout but it'd take too long to cover it all. But long story short, we all came to set things right for the ogre, clear her name, and went to return her home. But it turned out, she actually wanted to stay with me and have me become her new owner. K.... REALLY didn't take that very well.

K believed that the ogre would've acknowledged him and be his friend if he became stronger. So he wanted to battle me for the right to have the ogre as her new owner. C tried to talk him down about it since it was the ogre's choice but he really wanted to prove himself.

I thought it would've been much more worse if I held back since he was taking this very seriously, so I had my team hit his with all we got on that battle.

Well... he accepted the loss. But he was very obviously upset about it, and the next day he refused to come out of his room or even say goodbye when he and C had to go back to their boarding school. So it's been kind of a lot to take in these past few days...

So uhm... guys, AITA?

[softer-ua]

Imagine you get into your dream school but all your peers think your the equivalent of rotten garbage

your childhood idol is your teacher but he can’t wait for chance to beat the shit out of you

You win the schools sport championships you grew up watching, they chain you up as you have mental breakdown on global news and your childhood idol signs off on and exacerbates all of this

One of the top hero’s in the country personally requests you intern for them, it’s just for them to tell you that they don’t like anything about you and you can’t be a hero the way you are

Then you go to camp, you get teamed up with the guy you blame for your globally broadcast mental breakdown to go into a haunted forest to face ghosts aka the one thing you’re a afraid of and get kidnapped

Your idol, your class presidents, your first potential real friend in 10 years, the guy who you’ve felt inferior to your whole life, and the guy who “caused” your break down save you

Your idol nearly dies, loses his powers and secret identity while saving you and the entire world including your mom blames you for it

You finally work up the nerve to admit to yourself what you’ve know for a while now, you were completely in the wrong for hating your childhood friend, you pushed them away when all they wanted was to support you

so you try to change and be better, someone worth that kinda support, but you’re feelings for them are a whole mess so you still wanna keep them at arms length

But now they’re most popular kid in the country and also the most wanted, you realize that you would die for them but that’s not enough to save them, an arms length away was too far and they’re constantly slipping through your fingers

All the refined skill, raw power, and once in a generation talent doesn’t save you from being only another teen casualty in another war and it may not save anyone else either

[zingaplanet]

I'm curious if anyone else feels sad at the rise of Carlos Alcaraz...part of me wants to root for him. More than his brilliance, he seems like a really nice guy. BUT...I don't want Rafa's supreme legacy challenged in any way, shape, or form. I selfishly want Rafa to always be Spain's biggest icon and for his tennis records to be untouched. So I find myself rooting against Alcaraz. I just miss Rafa...

Anon that's completely normal! I completely get it. I think the feeling of idolation we have of someone is very unique, it's love, it's respect, but most of all it's wanting someone to do well (without any discernible reason or direct benefit to us!) I think tbh being a fan is one of the most positive acts (except when you over-imposed on their privacy of course!) one can do, you shower someone with love, support and admiration without expecting anything back. So you are definitely not being selfish, in fact, you are being selfless for the sake of another (although unfortunately since this is competitive sport and not the music industry where the winner takes all principle doesn't really apply, this might clash with other people's interests).

I think for me at least in sports, a good practice is to try and support/love with no expectations or demands. Our heroes don't really owe us anything nor us to them. There will always be another person, another winner, another number one, and there's nothing really we can do about it! History is always rewritten because nothing is ever eternal. But that also doesn't mean that it's not emotionally difficult. A bit like you always want your childhood memories to stay the same, your best friends to remain close to you as you grow old, and your favourite tv show to always plays on Friday night for the rest of your life. But time always moves on, especially in sports when career expectancy is very short! This past 5 years we're already seeing generations change not just in tennis but in all sports (And what a generation it has been!), no more Phelps, Serena Williams, Vettel, Federer, Kobe, etc. I personally think it's painful because these athletes are not just who we support but they've also become parts of our lives to a little bit (and maybe our youth), ways we remember good memories with! It's completely alright not to support the new generations, maybe that's something our children will have the privilege to discover (Someone their generation that they'll grow up watching!). But the danger maybe is when that fear of change turns into negative thoughts and actions, and for me I guess maybe that's why I kinda stopped watching tennis since awhile now. Players I used to watch growing up are no longer actively on tour, and that's ok, they grew up too! I just don't want to find reasons to irrationally hate anybody because I think I hate it the most when sports become a divisive force instead of a uniting one.

I think the key is knowing that records can be broken but legacies are forever. Because legacies are so much more than physical achievements (tournaments won, grand slams gained, etc), but how somebody is remembered in the memories of many! For me I'll never forget how watching the Wimbledon Final 2008 made me feel, the adrenaline, the rush, being surrounded by family during a nice, warm summer, or the inspiration I felt when watching Rafa get back up and up again from his injuries! That's what matters, I think, and that's what he said he wants to be remembered most by, not the guy who wins the most grand slam title, spain number one or anything, but just a good guy who competes fiercely and fairly, who are kind to his friends and fans, and who leaves the sport better than when he entered it! In a way, I think that's how they themselves as athletes make their peace with this, and why Federer was able to have such a happy retirement.

I don't know if this helps at all, sorry for accidentally being your tumblr psychologist, this is prob a weird answer to an ask! hahaha just giving you lots of mental support and hug <3 (Also sorry for the late reply! just had the time to go through tumblr properly now)

[seaofwine]

nostos

I think that everyone has their media of choice that they carry around with them since childhood. Mine was a copy of The Adventures of Ulysses, a small copy reprinted in the 80s that my dad had on one of the bottom shelves of his office. After borrowing it often enough I put it with my own books, it was small enough I trusted he would never notice. I carried it with me in the bottom of my backpack, slept with it on my nightstand, and tucked it into my suitcase when leaving home for the first time to visit Europe. I read it over and over again until my copy nearly disintegrated, memorizing passages that to this day still cross my mind. 

As a child, I idolized Odysseus. I wanted to be like him - clever, crafty, inventive. I thought he was The Coolest and couldn’t get enough of his mythology. It was this inexplicable obsession that confounded the adults around me. It was my comfort book. I too grew up on an island with its own stories of monsters and vicious tides when the wind turned - I lived for the sea. The ocean was home. I learned to tie fisherman’s knots from my Navy-vet grandfather, and picked out jelly fishing lures to play with and get stuck in the bottom of my pockets. I went kayaking with friends through the waterways and cut the bottoms of my feet so often on oyster beds that I have several permanent scars from their shells. 

This all is coming back to me now, after leaving home about ten months ago. In May it will have been a year. I’ve come down with a fever this week (thanks again Ms. Rona, just can’t get enough of me it seems) and in an attempt to reconnect with the story I have always loved, I’ve been reading sections of the Odyssey for the nth time. As I’ve been reading, I’ve been taking care to refer back to the Greek (when I have the energy to do so) and this word keeps catching my attention - νόστος. In its context, many translators keep it as ‘returning by sea from the sack of Troy’, while others give it a looser definition that applies to any return of a character or hero by sea from an adventure. This term, νόστος, also gives us the word nostalgia; this heartwrenching combination of nostos and algos, where algos ties this longing for home with not just an ache or sadness but with systemic distress at a lack of viable options to return home.

Sometimes these stories stick with you for a reason, a lesson or comfort you seek at different times in life. I am very fortunate that mine comes from my religion, where I can reach out to my gods for guidance when that pain and longing for a home that I cannot yet return to hits a little closer. 

[art-n-rot]

It’s so beautiful and I also thoroughly believe that it’s because Leon inspired him to be the knight he’s always wanted to be but never was.

Luis is far from perfect. He joined an evil pharmaceutical company to escape the horror story that was the town he grew up. We know now from the remake that he worked on Nemesis. And when he returns home it’s not exactly the kind of setting where a hero is rewarded. Instead opting to work more covertly similarly to Ada.

But then there’s Leon. Literally a knight on a mission to save the princess. And he’s everything that Luis has dreamed of and idolized since he was a kid. And I think that’s what inspires him to step up and try to take on the role of the hero.

But the tragedy is that he doesn’t live in Leon’s world. Luis’s life is filled with tragedy and deception and so so many mistakes. He doesn’t get to be the knight. That was always Leon’s role.

Because Luis doesn’t just like any knight. He grew up idolizing Don Quixote. And just like his childhood hero, it was always a fantasy.

sometimes i think about how luis appoints himself as leon’s knight and forcefully places leon in the role of prince charming because for leon’s whole life he’s always been the protector.

then here comes luis, taking that role away from him. now leon is the one being protected. he’s being treated as someone to be kept safe. for the first time in his life, someone else picked up the sword and shield.

it’s all a fantasy of course, luis dies like every good saviour does but the small acknowledgment from leon, calling luis a fine knight and effectively taking his role back hurts. it’s just painful to remember that someone saw at you at your lowest and despite everything, believed you deserved to be saved too.

[capsicrew]

30 WoL Think Thonkers

3. How do they feel about being Hydaelyn's chosen? (Feel free to break it down from ARR's "Champion of Eorzea" all the way to "The Savior of Etheirys" as much as you like. Have those feelings changed, or just grown more complex?)

J- Mostly, Jalliim takes it as a great honor. Something he strives to act as a great influence on others. Though, the reception has been harder--he is rather humble and still just wants people to see him as normal, and not with the hero idolization. This started out fitting his hopes. But as their deeds grew greater, he started being put more on a pedestal--and that's the part that makes him more uncomfortable. This position has helped him do a lot of greater good, but he doesn't want his position overblown. But he can't give it up--not when there's so much good to do.

C- Hard to say. If asked on the prospect, Capsisi would say its really annoying. She's not big on being the "plaything of deities." And she holds a certain disdain for Hydaelyn's manipulations. However, this likely would not stop her from doing hero work--its just convenient, then, that her goals align with Hydaelyn's intentions. More than Jalliim, she does not like being in the spotlight as a hero, however. And also unlike Jalliim, she's not too bothered with entertaining folks' ideation and avoids being in attention--keeping to the shadows and hidden from sight.

K- Truly, being Hydaelyn's chosen is like great childhood dream. Perhaps not in those specific terms, but she's always wanted to be the greatest and strongest--and being personally chosen by Hydaelyn (however it came to be) is just proof of how great she is--especially early on. As the stakes have grown and grown, the pressure of being the world's hero grew heavy in her heart--so its convenient that the occasional DRK quest has provided some good therapy. Working through these new conflicting feelings combined with her original, and still ever-present enthusiasm--that's what really pushed her to carry on the last stretch of Ultima Thule alone. She'll be the hero because she IS the hero.

B- So much of the early quests, for Beutiq, felt a lot like he was just being dragged from one horrible situation to another. He hardly said anything, and just kept going. But, in truth, he was only sorta being dragged form place to place. Deep inside, there was a part of him that wanted to see everything--the whole adventure. The horrible dangers and magical highs. So many wholly unique experiences that so few will never see. All coming together to inspire his artistic endeavors. And all his own experiences. It took him a long time to get there, though. Again--even up through Shadowbringers, he didn't know how much was what he wanted and how much was him being flung around by the wind. Befriending Krile in Eureka, and eventually becoming good friends with G'raha really helped him find his way. He's gonna be a practically new Beutiq going into Dawntrail!

E- Ejvi falls in a similar vein as Capsisi, but comes at it from a different emotional angle. All she cares about is doing what she wants--any coinciding with Hydaelyn's intentions is a convenient coincidence. She's happy to do it, but doesn't do it because Hydaelin wills it so. And the turn-out is great. As stated before, she's more than happy to flaunt her notoriety to put pressure in the right places and get what she wants. Of course, it's fortunate she has a good heart--and she would never try to, like… actually harm or manipulate others. Just more along the lines of, "hey I'm the Warrior of Light, buy me a round, wont you?" and then, like… just hope they do and let it go if they don't, lol

[canaryinfishnets]

Is that [Lily-Rose Depp]? No, that’s [Dinah Lance], AKA [Black Canary]! [she] appears to be [26]. [she] has the abilities of [canary cry, master martial artist, armed/unarmed combatant, acrobatics/parkour] which makes them a powerful [hero].

CHARACTER BASICS

CHARACTER’S FULL NAME: Dinah Laurel Lance

NICKNAMES: Pretty Bird, Di, Canary, Songbird.

MEANING OF NAME: Justified

AGE: 26

ZODIAC: Leo

SUPERPOWER: Canary Cry

ALIAS: Black Canary

NATIONALITY / SPECIES: American / Metahuman

LANGUAGES SPOKEN: English, Chinese, Mandarin, Japanese.

ORIENTATION: bisexual

PRONOUNS: she/her

PERSONALITY

GOOD PERSONALITY TRAITS: compassionate, protective, adventurous, idealistic

BAD PERSONALITY TRAITS: jaded, vengeful, reckless, stubborn

PERSONALITY TYPE: ESFJ

ARCHETYPE: The Consul

GOALS/DESIRES: to continue fighting crime as Black Canary. To one day retire safely.

FEARS: to end up like her parents due to her career of choice.

WHAT WOULD MOST THROW THIS CHARACTER’S LIFE INTO COMPLETE TURMOIL: losing a loved one due to her own mistakes.

CHARACTER’S SOFT SPOT: robin hood types, Italian food.

HOBBIES: shopping, working on her motorcycle, singing, training.

HABITS: N/A

PAST

HOMETOWN: Gotham City

CHILDHOOD: Dinah Lance was born to Dinah Drake and Larry Lance. Her father a Gotham Detective and her mother is the original Black Canary and part of the Justice Society, Dinah was always around heroes. However, there was a strain in her childhood as her father was killed on the job, her metagene activated uncontrollably and her mother was against her becoming the new Black Canary.

EDUCATION: American High School Education; further teaching from Ted Grant, Richard Dragon and Lady Shiva.

FAMILY

PARTNER: n/a

CHILDREN: n/a

MOTHER: Dinah Drake Lance

RELATIONSHIP: Dinah Sr and Dinah Jr have a difficult relationship. Though she idolized her mother, she also resented her absence due to being a vigilante. It wasn't until her metagene activated when she was a teenager she thought she could be a vigilante herself but her mother was set against it, especially after her father passed away. The two would often bicker about it, with Dinah wanting to show she could do this while Dinah Sr believed that the world of crime fighting had gotten considerably darker. After her mother was injured and died on the job, Dinah decided to take on the mantle of the Black Canary to honor her mother at 18 years old.

FATHER: Larry Lance

RELATIONSHIP: Dinah and her father was close though, much like her father, as she grew up, she began to resent the time away from home. It seemed her parents were often more interested in the streets of Gotham than her. However, it wasn't until he was murdered in a shoot-out when she was 13 that she truly regretted her feelings of anger toward him. Before his murder, Dinah did want to be a cop like her father until her metagene activated.

FATHER-FIGURE: Ted Grant

RELATIONSHIP: Ted Grant adopted Dinah after the passing of her parents. He was the one who guided Dinah when her metagene activated and after she declared her wanting to take on the mantle of the Black Canary, Ted was the one who taught her how to fight. How to operate on the streets and to be effective as well as getting up after she took a blow. Dinah holds a great amount of respect for him.

SHORT BIO

Dinah Lance was born with justice running through her veins. Her father was Gotham Detective, Larry Lance and her mother were Dinah Drake Lance, who was turned down by the GCPD and instead took her training to the streets as a vigilante in Gotham. Her mother also ran a florist. She was also raised around her mother’s friend and sometimes partner Ted Grant built a special bond with him after her father passed away from cancer. Despite her fascination with heroics, she began to resent her mother more due to her missing out on things in her life due to her commitment to crime-fighting. The fact her mother didn’t want Dinah going out there and into the same business only spurred her on more.

She took things into her own hands, taking a strong interest in athletics and signing up for Judo lessons which her mother promptly stopped when she found out despite Ted insisting that Dinah was a natural. Dinah eventually convinced Ted to train who taught her self-defense techniques before she convinced him to up the training to more extreme measures to get her fighting ready. As a teenager, her metagene activated and with no control, Dinah heavily damaged the school she was attending in Gotham. Her mother agreed to let Ted help train her scream if it meant Dinah could live a normal life. Dinah shared a touching moment with her mother who agreed to hang up her costume and retire from the crime-fighting business. However, she was killed on her last job which devastated Dinah.

Adopted by Ted Grant, Dinah continued training with him and by the age of 18, she went out on the streets of Gotham as a vigilante. Wearing a costume inspired by her mother, she ran out there in heels, fishnets, a black bodice, jacket, and mask. Ted insisted that she was not ready but came back, bruised and hurt, but with the crooks in way worse shape behind her. However, Dinah was struggling to make a name for herself in Gotham and she had too many close calls with deadly situations. Her mother was right in that the crime in Gotham truly had changed.

Selling the family florist business that truly was on its last leg, Dinah bid farewell to Gotham and decided that she would take a gap year traveling East Asia before returning to simply live a normal life. It was in Japan she met Richard Dragon who gave her brutal tutelage on how to fight, almost killing her several times. It was here Dinah really upped the ante of her fighting skills and she also met someone who would become her rival, Lady Shiva. Learning from both of them as well as holding onto Ted’s teachings, Dinah felt like she now truly had the skill to make a difference.

When moving back, Dinah decided to not settle for Gotham City. She had heard the news of a vigilante running around there and how crazy things had gotten. That and Gotham had taken her mother and father from her and there was no way she was going to let Gotham take her.

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Tenshi Zokukurai

Tenshi Zokukurai, codenamed Heavenly Heroine: Angelina and later to Archangel, is one of the main characters of the Giftedverse. She is a student in Miss Parker's class. She is the younger sister of Archangel.

Description

Tenshi is a short, fat college aged Japanese woman with pale skin, white hair, and gold eyes. Her hair is naturally curly. All over her body are gold freckles. Tenshi has an angelic appearance with a halo floating above her head, feathers in place of ears, and a pair of golden wings with red and yellow layers.

Two things she wears no matter what are the necklace she got on her 17th birthday and Gargoyle's (@calciumcryptid) scarf.

Personality

Kind and caring, Tenshi is someone many people find pleasant. She has a cheery, upbeat attitude and is quite energetic. Despite all that's she's been through in her personal life, she remains hopeful and optimistic. She knows there are many people out there who will try to crush her spirit but she will never let them.

She is naturally empathetic and feels things deeply (when others cry, she cries too). It's easy for her to sympathize with other people and relate to their struggles or feelings-- especially if it's something she's also experienced.

Despite always bring willing to lend a helping hand, Tenshi knows that not everyone can be redeemed; but also knows there are a lot of people who do deserve a second chance.

Do not mistake Tenshi's kindness for weakness. She can and will stand up for herself and others when the time comes for it and doesn't hold back her anger either.

History

Tenshi was born in Sendai, Miyagi Prefecture to Rentaro Zokukurai and Amako Tenhou. Tenshi had a relatively normal childhood save for the fact that her and her older brother Tensen weren't close. In fact, he outright rejected her when she was brought home from the hospital.

Growing up, Tenshi had a huge admiration for heroines and wanted to be just like them. One heroine she was a huge fan of was Glimmeria because she was strong and brave but kind. Whenever there was coverage of one of her battles on TV, Tenshi was there to watch it.

She showed potential for incredible power at a young age and a doctor's appointment revealed that she had a combination of Rentaro's Angel and Amako's Phoenix Gifts. Both her parents helped Tenshi gain control of her powers by training her.

Tensen's cruelty and mistreatment towards her grew as she got older, particularly whenever she expressed getting stronger. This behavior prompted their parents to send Tenshi away to her aunt Sachie out of fear for her safety. Tenshi returned home after Tensen left for college.

On the night of her 17th birthday, Tenshi was gifted a necklace by her parents with a picture of the three of them inside. That would be one of the last times she'd see them alive.

In the evening hours of the day after, Tensen broke into their house and attacked Rentaro. Amako and Tenshi quickly escaped and headed to Sachie's house. However, Tensen caught up with them and attempted to kill his younger sister.

Amako interfered and told Tenshi to hurry to Sachie's house. When Tenshi got there, all she could do was cry.

In the early morning hours of the next day, police found the bodies of Rentaro and Amako. Sachie was granted custody of Tenshi since she was still a minor. In the wake of her parents' deaths, Tenshi received a letter from her idol Glimmeria telling her to be strong and honor her parents memories.

This drove Tenshi to further push herself to become a Hero and she applied for Templar College of Heroics towards the end of her senior year.

Gifts

Holy Angel

Tenshi is a hybrid of an angel and a phoenix, combining both her parents Quirks. She has an angelic appearance and powers including purification, light based powers, and flight. She is also able to use her halo as a boomerang.

Some of her phoenix based powers (from her mother's side) include fire mimicry, a small but fast healing factor (not regenerative though), and fire manipulation. When both powers combine, Tenshi's might seems limitless.

While she is incapable of using her plumage as blades similar to her brother, she can use them to pick up far away sounds and to create shockwaves by flapping her wings with enough force.

Relationships

Tensen Zokukurai | Archangel

Tenshi has nothing but contempt and anger towards her brother. Not only did he kill their parents with no remorse, but he did it all because he was jealous that she was more powerful than him. She knew he would come after her one of these days and prepared herself to be ready to face him.

After Tensen is defeated, Tenshi takes his hero name for herself. When she learns he was killed before he could stand trial, she feels nothing about it and says he deserved it.

Hishi Tenhou | Phoenix

Tenshi sees Hishi as more of a brother than she ever did Tensen. The two have a great relationship and Hishi has always been there to support her alongside his mother and cousin Akisada.

Akisada Zokukurai | Nephilim

Akisada also acts like a big brother to Tenshi. He looks out for her and supports her whenever he can. They have a good relationship.

Emma Seiza

Tenshi and Emma are best friends since they both came to Eden Island for heroics training. The two first talked at orientations when Emma noticed that Tenshi had a Glimmeria charm on her bag. They then ran into each other again during the entrance ceremony and that's when they really began talking. Emma praised Tenshi on how strong she was during the beta combat trials and said she looked forward to sparring her one day.

Since then, they've been joined at the hip. They do a lot together alongside the other girls in both their class and year.

Ritsumi Tatsumaki

Ritsumi and Tenshi originally started out as roommates but soon progressed into friends. At first Tenshi was a bit put off by Ritsumi's hyperactive nature but came to appreciate it over time.

Gaultier "Gargoyle" Caulderfield (@calciumcryptid)

Tenshi's boyfriend and future husband. Ever since the day he saw her across the courtyard with some friends of hers, she's been the subject of some of his paintings. He's the one who made the Renaissance level painting that she has in her room, which was presented to her shortly before he broke a window and flew off in embarrassment.

Quetzalli Rosario Solano (@opalofoctober)

Ever since Quetzalli laid her eyes on Tenshi, she has been itching to have her as a trainee. She finds Tenshi absolutely adorable and would love to have her as a sidekick in the near future.

Hoshi Akiraka | Aureole (@floof-ghostie)

Aureole was Tenshi's freshman year mentor.

[dumbassalex]

I am a month late but i will happily answer all these questions....this is gonna be a long messeage

So firstly, comics are a completely different universe and timeline than any comic book movies, so there's barely anything you can take from the movies and bring them to the comics.

So while we know pretty little about Wades childhood, as his memories kinda come and go and not all are real, we know he grew up in Canada with two parents as a single child, joined the army (whitch i think was because he wanted to be like Captain America) but was discharged.

He became a mercenary after his time at the army, and he very much killed wrongfully during those times, whitch he mostly did for money.

Vanessa is a character in the comics, she was a young girl and a sex worker who fell in love with Wade, planned on escaping somewhere with him but he left in a hurry after his cancer diagnosis.

After that came Weapon X, where they wanted to introduce Wolverines DNA into his system so he can have his healing factor (as comics Wade isn't a mutant, he's a mutate, whitch is a person who was given powers rather than being born a mutant.) His motivation if I remember correctly was because they promised him to make him a hero, Canadas own Steve Rodgers (who he idolizes and is a super-fan of).

After that seemingly failed he was thrown into the workshop (where Francis/Ajax appeared along Killbrew, basicly an evil scientist), there they tortured him and tested his powers, here is where Wade met his next love, Death...an entity, also known as Lady Death. Also here we got the Deadpool, where the workshop inmates made bets on who dies next.

He breaks out after left unchecked (because his heart was torn out by Francis, whitch was lethal and Wade would stay with Death, but refused as he found a will to live again, to protect his buddy from Francis) and kills Ajax and names himself Deadpool as a tribute to the deadpool.

He gets his suit, finds Weasel and makes him make tech and get weapons for him, kidnaps Blind Al and makes her a prisoner in her own home where he now lives with her in and Vanessa was left alone.

Speaking of Vanessa, she is a mutant, called Copycat, she can shapeshift into anyone and get their powers with that too, she met Wade while he was hunting Cable and the X-Force (originaly Cables team, where Deadpool was the enemy of), they later kinda made up and split apart and 'Ness didn't like who he was as a person, these days i think she's still dead.

So here are kinda the answers to your questions. You can get most of these informations from Deadpool/Death '97 Anual, really good reading, New Mutants issue 98 (his first appearance), fairly alright, he has appearances during the X-Force series, and also Deadpool: Circle Chase, a pretty good read imo.

If you have any more answers i will happily answer if i have the answer. Sorry for the long rant too tho.

I wonder how doomed i am cause of the fact Deadpool is my new favorite character, what angst have i brought upon myself this fateful March?

He’s very likable even though he has done wrong, but in his defense he had begun killing wrongfully cause of what had been done to him by weapon X in order to rid himself of the cancer in his liver, lungs, prostate and brain. I’ve yet to find out who his parents are, nor have i heard of any word of them in the comic’s yet. which are really good btw, although it is very confusing since he has a wife and child in the comic’s. Which doesn’t connect well with what happened in the movie, where his lover, Vanessa, had been tragically killed in the beginning of Deadpool 2. So he couldn’t very well have had a wife and child in the comic’s for this reason.

Unless of course the Deadpool comic’s take place in an alternate universe, which means that Vanessa could’ve never existed at all in the comic-verse. but then if that’s the case, what had given him the motivation to go though the process of having the X chromosome in him activate? unless he had somehow been kidnapped, and that he had been given no choice but to go through with it. which would be really sad, cause the main reason he wanted to get rid of his cancer in the movie is so he could spend the rest of his life with Vanessa. So not having any kind of motivation would drive anyone mad.