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isagrimorie · 1 day ago
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The person who would hate reintegration the most would be Helly R. Not Helena, Helly R. Because as it’s becoming obvious Helena is actually getting more and more envious of Helly R and her perceived freedoms.
I think everything Helly knows about Helena, would make Helly hate Helena more.
The part of Helena that said she was ashamed of who she was on the outside? That’s Helly.
Helly would hate to be reintegrated with her outie, she doesn’t want to be burdened with the knowledge and the shame their father drummed into Helena.
Because even as Helena, she thinks the Kier legacy is some bullshit nonsense.
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realtacuardach · 2 years ago
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One difference between the Lord of the Rings books and the Peter Jackson films that I find really interesting is what the hobbits find when they return to the Shire.
In the books, they return from the War, only to see that the war has not left their home untouched. Not only has it not left their home unscathed, battle and conflict is still actively ravaging the Shire. They return, weary and battle-scarred, to find a home actively wounded and in need of rescue and healing. All four launch themselves into defending their home and rousting those harming it, and eventually succeed. But their idyllic home has been damaged, and even once healed, is never quite again the Shire they set out to save.
In contrast, in the Jackson films, they return to a Shire shockingly untouched by the horrors of war. The hobbits of the Shire talk, in the Green Dragon in Fellowship of the Ring, about not getting involved with issues "beyond our borders," and it seems those issues have not invaded their sanctuary. After having been bowed to by kings, dwarves, elves, and men alike at the coronation in Gondor, their only acknowledgment upon returning home is a skeptical head shake from an older hobbit.
One of the most poignant scenes to me in Return of the King (and there are a considerable amount) is the scene where Frodo, Sam, Merry, and Pippin are sitting in the Green Dragon. The pub patrons bustle around them, talking loudly, clapping excitedly, drinking cheerfully, just as they had in the beginning of the story. But the four hobbits sit silently, watching almost curiously at what was once familiar but is now foreign to them. Their home has not changed. But they have.
Which is the deeper hurt? To come to your home to find it irrevocably changed, despite all you did to keep it untouched and the same? Or to return home but no longer feeling at home, because it is only you that is irrevocably changed?
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purpleminte · 11 months ago
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Not me getting secondhand anxiety looking at the absolute chaos of this hypothetical discord user’s life based on these messages-
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This person is apparently
• Travelling internationally likely very soon
• Currently having homework for an active biology class
• At least somewhat present in the moderation of a server
• Actively involved in competitive sports
• Has an engagement or event currently planned (that is understandably being ignored)
Maybe I’m lazy or something but this is enough to make me curl up and die
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thebibliosphere · 1 year ago
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With hindsight, I probably should have realized I was polyamorous/ambiamorous sooner than I did. (And to be clear, I realized it pretty young. I just didn't have the terminology for it.)
Ignoring the fact that five-year-old me used to watch Signing In The Rain! on a loop and was already making up stories about Don, Cosmo, and Kathy all living together in Don's big house and *gasp* holding hands (maybe kissing), I was never any good at shipwars.
Like someone would ask me, "What's your OTP?" and I'd be like, "Well, I guess I like X/Y, but also Y/Z is good too..."
And they'd be like, "No. I mean your one TRUE pairing," and I'd just blink at them like, I'm sorry, I don't understand the question.
I'm sure they thought I was trying to stir shit or being deliberately annoying, but I just... couldn't wrap my head around it. Why did I need to pick one thing? There were multiple options with different things that made them appealing. That's like going to an all-you-can-eat buffet and just drinking water. Which is fine! If water is all you want, great. But you don't get to go to an all-you-can-eat buffet and judge people for eating different foods...
And when I eventually found out multi-shipping was a thing, I was like, "oh neat, that's what I do!" and while there was a definite feeling of having found my people, it was weird having the moral judgment from other people who seemed to think multi-shipping was a symptom of a greater moral character flaw. Like my inability to settle on just one thing meant I was more likely to cheat irl.
This wasn't helped by the fact that I... kinda already didn't care about monogamy? Not the way my friends did. I didn't mind that my then-boyfriend liked Sarah, too. What I minded was that he went behind my back and kissed her when he'd told me I couldn't kiss anyone else.
It was the betrayal of the agreement that hurt. Because we'd agreed. He'd asked me to be exclusive with him, and I did. And then he... didn't. And my friends couldn't grasp that.
It was all, "How could he kiss someone else?!" and my chief complaint was, "Why didn't he tell me first?!"
Anyway, if I could go back in time, I'd tell teenage me, you're not weird and amoral, you're just queer, polyamorous, and have ADHD, lmao.
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memorizingthedigitsofpi · 2 months ago
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I've been doing some introspection to try to figure out why I have such an intensely strong emotional reaction when someone takes a post with a hopeful or positive message and reblogs it with negativity.
I've blocked a lot of tumblr users for calling an OP stupid for being optimistic or hopeful. You know, people who are just being mean and hateful because it's edgy or cool or whatever. I think that's a reasonable reaction and a way to keep toxicity out of my feed.
But I've also blocked folks who read a post about being kinder to oneself and they respond to that with, "That's okay for other people, but I'm not allowed." They don't usually use those exact words of course, but that's the message. And that message cuts me to my core every single time I read it. Blocking those people isn't about avoiding trolls. It's about protecting myself from being hurt.
Because that's the thing. It hurts to see that and feel helpless. To see someone being so cruel to themselves and know there's nothing I can do to show them they don't have to be.
I'll write a post about how oneshots are amazing, or I'll see one talking all about how doodle art is so expressive and charming etc. and I'll see in my notes or in the reblogs a lot of people agreeing and a lot of people appreciating someone sharing that point of view.
But I'll also see a lot of people who say things like, "Maybe so, but my writing still stucks." or "Sure, OTHER PEOPLE's doodles are cool but mine are dumb."
When I see that, I just want to tell them they're wrong. That the post applies to them too. That they're allowed to love themselves, and they don't have to wait until they're better or perfect to do it.
Except you can't just roll up into a stranger's ask box and say, "I don't know you and I've never read your writing or seen your art, and the only piece of you I've seen are one set of tags on one post on this entire website, but you're wrong."
I think part of the reason why it hurts so much to see that is the feeling of wanting to help and knowing that I can't. But I think another part of the hurt comes from recognizing that feeling and remembering what it was like to be stuck believing my own lies about myself.
I don't think those things anymore. Or if I do, it's pretty rare. But every time I see those comments the pain wells up inside of me and brings back that feeling of hopelessness I had once upon a time. The feeling of shame that went along with it. The guilt and the anger and the frustration and the desperate need for someone to tell me I was really okay.
I wish I could do that for all of you out there who need someone like that right now. I wish you'd believe me if I tried. But I guess, for now at least, I'll just wish that when you see those posts that you let yourself believe them. Let yourself apply them to you too. Just for a little while.
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tarysande · 5 months ago
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The best part about coming back to the source material after a looooong time is you sorta get a fresh look at canon in comparison to whatever the dominant strains of fanon have become. Or, in fact, whatever your own dominant strains of headcanon have become.
I mean, yes, Garrus “I’m not a good turian” Vakarian gets infinitely cooler (and more competent!) by pretty much every metric as the storyline progresses. He does. But fresh out of ME1 and into ME2 through his recruitment, I find myself genuinely amused by how thin the veneer of badass is over a pretty dominant core of straight-up nerd sprinkled with idealism mixed with self-doubt.
When you have Garrus in the squad all the time (and thus get all his ambient dialogue and remarks), you really pick up on the number of times he calls out bad behavior, unethical actions, cruelty, and rule-breaking, especially in ME1.
He’s not actually a hothead who can’t abide rules of any kind. In fact, most of the time he’s pretty pro-law-and-order, and he gets amusingly hall-monitorish when people are breaking rules he considers important and worth following.
Fundamentally, Garrus chafes when his sense of what is just is at odds with what the authorities do about that injustice (or what they stop him from doing). And I would hazard a guess that the reason his actions seem so intense or harsh or "of course we should have shot down that ship in the middle of the Citadel" is indicative not of his impatience but of the degree to which he thinks the authorities have failed to uphold that justice. We know he can be patient. He's a sniper. His whole modus operandi on Omega is precision kills without civilian casualty. But when that long fuse finally burns down, he goes from zero to shooting down ships in the middle of the Citadel in what looks (from the outside) like a heartbeat.
And yes, injured pride hastens the burning of that fuse; he doesn’t like losing. Or admitting defeat. Or failing.
Having just replayed his recruitment mission, a few things really stood out to me this time.
The merc bands really hate him--and they also reluctantly admire him (he's described as smart, resourceful, dangerous, idealistic, brave, slippery; they all agree they only way they managed to get this far is by isolating him and employing dirty tactics). I mean, there's literally a station-wide announcement that Omega can return to "business as usual" once Archangel is out of the picture because he was disrupting things so completely.
The way Garrus blames himself for the deaths of his squad is so freaking turian. Failure reflects on the leader who places his people in danger they can't handle, not the individual who fails. Heavy is the head that wears the crown. Yes, Sidonis betrayed him, but the person Garrus blames the most? Is himself. For trusting Sidonis in the first place. For raising Sidonis to a position where he had the means and opportunity to harm others--and the weakness of character to turn coat, to save his own hide, instead of dying to protect the others.
Garrus mentions more than once that he was trying to emulate Shepard. And his tone always implies that he knows he failed because Shepard would never have let a Sidonis into the fold. Again, he's blaming himself. Like a good turian. Yes, he wanted to avoid the red tape and bureaucracy of C-Sec, but his code--Archangel's code--certainly aligns with Paragon Shepard's morality (with a Garrus Vakarian twist).
And since it wouldn't be meta without adding a Tara's Headcanon Twist ... I've always wondered why "Archangel" when it's such a ... human concept. But this time, when I noticed how he spoke about Shepard's influence, and how quickly he brushes aside the name when she asks him about it, I wondered if it wasn't actually his way of honoring the mythology of the dead woman whose example he was trying to follow. Not that Shepard is a God he's worshiping, but ... there is something about the way he talks about her. Garrus doesn't make himself over in the image of a God, though; he's the soldier, the right hand, the avenging angel responsible for carrying out divine punishments suited and proportional to the crimes committed, the rules broken, the selfishness or cruelty of the perpetrator.
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froldgapp · 1 day ago
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I am someone who stands accused here, your honour!
I actually first "met" Tim by reading Red Robin. It was also my first ever Batman/DC run. And I loved it! But...
When I went back to the beginning of Timothy Timberlain Time, and devoured Robin (1993), following all the little paths into other books, I saw RR in a totally new light.
Reading it again the second and third time, it's just so powerful and it also plays with the kind of narrative rug-pulling that's really hard to do with properties like, say, movies, where you have a finite 120 minutes as opposed to literally years of history to build on (and tear down*.)
.* (Affectionate) As in, Tim's descent into cynicism, for example.
So, I agree with OP. Building up that bedrock makes Red Robin into such a delicious and devastating payoff.
If I had my way, no one would touch Tim's Red Robin run without having read Batman: Prodigal, YJ 1998, and Resurrection of Ra's al Ghul (at minimum) first. I understand why people do, but also…..you miss soooo much of the story's depth if you don't read those books first
there are just so many callbacks and references and character nuance and background context that you will NEVER EVER GET if you don't understand how Yost's run is the deliberate culmination of 20+ years of stories that rewards readers who have followed Tim's character and relationships and growth since 1989
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ao3commentoftheday · 5 days ago
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While looking for something else, I found an old ask I answered about "ideal chapter length" in terms of word count.
I've been asked this probably a dozen or more times, and each time I need to take a moment and adjust my thinking to take the asker's point of view into account. Because the thing is? The only time I ever try to factor the word count into how I write a story is when I'm aiming for a true drabble.
For whatever reason, this difference in thinking stuck with me today and I actually considered why that might be. And I think it's because I'm in my 40s and the first 25-30 years of my life, any stories I was reading were printed on paper and bound into physical books.
When I imagine a novel, I still think of a mass market paperback on my bookshelf. An average one would be maybe an inch thick, probably in the neighbourhood of 300 pages. A long one would be maybe as much as two inches thick and 500 or more pages long. A short one was always nice to have because it filled in the gaps in the shelf because 200 page books were so much narrower. Or so it seemed.
When I started posting my fic online, I still thought in terms of pages. I'd type them out in whatever word processing software I was using at the time, and I'd usually get a chapter's worth of ideas into 3 or 4 pages. Turns out that's about 1000 words, which makes sense with the number of 1000 word essays I wrote in high school. I'd been trained to encapsulate an idea into approximately that length.
And that's what it comes down to. The thing that always made that question seem weird to me. A chapter isn't about how many words there are in it, just like a cake isn't about how many cups of flour exist in each slice. A chapter is a an idea that helps make up a bigger idea called a story, and it needs to be however many words that idea needs to be to get it out.
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stagefoureddiediaz · 11 months ago
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So these pictures are gonna be an end of episode Eddie reassuring Buck that nothing will ever come between them isn’t it - it’s the I love you to the core scene.
This is the shift in things that we’ve been waiting for and need - because Buck getting jealous is gonna push him into looking at why he’s jealous.
Is it next week yet?!
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madlori · 4 months ago
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So one of the reasons fans get frustrated with the writing on their show is that they are operating from a different mindset than the writers.
Generally, fans are operating from what I call a developmental mindset. How does this plot point affect the characters? How will it affect their relationships? How can it be used to illustrate broader themes or personalities?
This is how you write BOOKS. And most of us interact with fandom via fanfic, and fanfic writers or readers engage with a lot of this kind of storytelling.
I'm not saying TV writers DON'T do this, but it varies, and is somewhat genre-dependent. A lot of the time, they're operating from a more situational mindset. How can I set up this next plot point? How do I get this story from A to B to C in the time allotted? How do I get to use this joke or plot twist I wanna use?
Buck's conflict over whether or not he lunged at Gerrard to save him or kill him is a PRIME example of this.
Here's the difference:
Buck: expresses doubt about his own motivations and worries he tried to kill Gerrard.
The fans: How will this affect Buck going forward? Will it make him feel guilty and more likely to go along with Gerrard? Will it create conflict with the team because of that?
The writers: This will enable us to play a moment of suspense when Gerrard returns when Buck and the audience will be wondering if Gerrard will be mad or not, and then we'll whip the uno reverse on him when Gerrard hugs him. That will be funny and a good way to end the episode.
Aaaaaand that's probably as far as they took that line of thought. They viewed that plot point (Bucks' doubts about his motivations) as a means to the end of getting that stinger at the end of 8x03. We viewed it as a character beat. It's not impossible that it could be both, but it's probably the last we've heard about it.
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the-barefoot-hatter · 5 days ago
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thinking about Billford again and besides the obvious toxic yaoi and doomed betrayal and mutual obsession appeal there's the like... soft hopefulness of it happening post-canon, post-book of bill
'cuz... no matter how much Bill wants to stay the exact same and never ever EVER change himself... he shouldn't. It's bad for everyone else of course- but it's ALSO clearly bad for Bill. He looks awful in Theraprism. And he should. Bad guy defeated and at his lowest point. But I don't want that to be the forever for him.
That's a mean ending.
Gravity Falls is all about growing up and forgiveness and letting go of things that hurt you. Changing your priorities. Rotting in eternal failed therapy or reincarnating into a completely different creature with no memories of everything is just death with extra steps. It's not satisfying.
But seeing Bill be genuinely sorry and want to get back in Ford's good graces but know how bad he messed everything up and definitely doesn't deserve any forgiveness- and the Pines extending a hand anyway? That's the good stuff!
idk it's just nice to think they COULD make it to a good place
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shaylogic · 7 months ago
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Is he doing the teenage girl thing of "sigh can't wait for that handsome guy to burst in and fight my mom for me and whisk me away!"
Do you think he daydreamed these things all day long perched on that stool?
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isagrimorie · 4 months ago
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One thing I want clarification on. Did Agatha use other witches' life forces to prolong Nicky's life?
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Nicky's colicky and maybe sick, and they both haven't eaten for days. I don't think Agatha could produce a lot of breast milk because of that.
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If Nicky had grown up, would he have inherited Agatha's siphon powers?
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After that, Nicky's settled and even looks a little better.
Six years later, Agatha uses Nicky to lure unsuspecting witches to kill them, but they comment on how sickly and frail Nicky looks:
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Then later, Nicky asked Agatha why she killed witches:
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How does killing unsuspecting witches help you survive, Agatha? Or how does killing witches help Nicky survive?
And why does Agatha say that witches would kill them if they stayed long in their company?
The one time they don't kill witches when Nicky is sick... was the time Rio fetched Nicky from Agatha.
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Nicky was not alarmed by Rio's presence and even went to her willingly without a fuss. This tells me, that when Agatha is not around, Rio and Nicky have met. Enough for Nicky to go to Rio without hesitation.
Rio reminds Nicky to say kiss Agatha goodbye.
Agatha loved Nicky so much.
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Agatha can't heal, not for long. She can just stem the bleeding.
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might have been right, if they stayed with a coven they could be safe and the coven could help Agatha with Nicky. But Agatha let her mistrust and fear of her fellow witch rule her.
Agatha and Nicky had six years. Really, though what is six years in the 350 years Agatha lived? A drop in a bucket. But it's a wound that's never healed because Agatha refuses to even process that grief.
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Ghost!Agatha claimed that the Ballad she and Nicky created didn't mean anything.
The self-delusion and the lie. 'The song doesn't mean anything. It never did.'
The hugest of lies.
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realtacuardach · 2 years ago
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One of my favorite takes on Frodo, and why I value him so much as a character: unlike so many central characters in fantasy, he was not a Chosen One.
Instead, he was the One who Chose, and that made all the difference.
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froldgapp · 3 months ago
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I'll write a one shot with the "winner." It'll be sad and nostalgic and hopefully a little fun too.
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boozles · 22 days ago
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I was telling my brothers how a lot of people are negative about Love You Teacher due to the age regression of Santa’s character and how it’s uncomfortable. I was saying I felt that’s a little ableist because there are some conditions that can cause age regression, and even other similar conditions. Plus, it’s not like Pobmek is going to be ‘romantic�� with Solar when he’s in regression.
To me, I felt the negative reactions a little hurtful? I’m a full time carer to a disabled parent who has had moments of slight regression.
To me, this series is gonna be about a guy who has to become his boyfriend’s carer and there are times when their relationship cannot be ‘normal’ (for lack of a better term) and he needs to become more of a parent than a lover, and that is extremely common in many relationships - especially in the LGBTQ+ community. My brother’s partner has to be his carer due to his disabilities.
So, whilst I can get people automatically jump to HES A CHILD but he’s not. He’s an adult that has a disability, basically. I don’t see how that’s as predatory as people have been saying. If it was an age play type thing I could understand people being uncomfortable, but it’s not. It’s a disability.
I just feel like perhaps people could be a little less mean about a series that hasn’t been filmed yet? Like I said, I can understand that upon first hearing the plot it might sound odd, but when you boil it down it’s really about a couple who are dealing with one of them having a bad accident and ending up with a brain injury - this is not an uncommon thing, yet some people reacted like it was something predatory and gross.
I’m not saying that you all have to like it and support it, and it’s totally okay to not be comfortable with it! There’s plenty of shows out there with content or themes that make me personally uncomfortable. My only ask is that you not be mean to those who end up liking the series, or perhaps can relate to it.
(This isn’t aimed at anyone on here btw - I saw some nasty comments elsewhere on other hellsites and I just had to vent ❤️)
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