there is something wrong with me.
there is something ugly following me, it must be, because why else would everyone leave me. something is wrong with me and that's why everybody leaves. and i tried, i tried so hard to make peace with how ugly this part of me is. i tried to keep it at a distance, keep it separate from me. but any time somebody caught even a glimpse of it, it frightened them and then they left.
there is something wrong with me and it makes people leave me and so they can never find out. they can never see that ugly side of me because then they will leave. except i'm hiding it and they still leave. what am i doing wrong? did it slip through somehow and made them leave? or is the ugliness in me still?
i try so hard to hide it because i don't want to be alone, i don't want to be abandoned dammit, but the ugliness won't leave and the ugliness is all i can think about. i think about it more than i think about my partner, my friends, my family. in a way, it's the closest thing to home i have now
and then something happens and i think to myself - this is it. this is what all of this has been for, something is wrong with me and everybody leaves me. but. if i can be useful then maybe this awful ugliness will finally leave me alone. yes i want to be left alone now, please abandon me like everybody else, please prove me right
and then i'm useful and the ugliness stays. i sigh
years pass and people continue to leave me. i don't know if it's because of me or her anymore, it doesn't really matter. everybody left, but she is still here. i can always see her out of the corner of my eye. her presence brings me comfort. she stayed. despite everything she stayed. she is my closest confidant, my best friend, the one that will stand with me when nobody else will
she is me
and i won't abandon myself anymore
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Have a concept.
Wheeljack gets ahold of glitter bombs. Chaos ensues.
WHO THE FUCK GAVE WHEELJACK GLITTER
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do you know how to get rid of fleas bedbugs and mould i am in a pickle
now why would you ask me, a ray toro blog, this? if you want advice on household cleaning you're gonna have to ask ray himself sorry
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disabled culture is having people tell you you’re collective conditions like Pokémon and you just want attention when in reality you’re actively in denial about multiple conditions you have because you already have so many and don’t want more
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