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valgeristik · 3 months ago

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sorry for a big post but i just found those again recently

huge throwback to these little things i did while bored out of my mind between calls on my tech support job i had in 2017 🌞 the phrases are whatever i could think of at the moment, from phrases i heard on calls to what i saw in google search to personal observations...

i did these with a mouse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have not been able to replicate this style since. it will forever stay there, on that imac with that weird apple mouse and a random art app i downloaded that they later locked me out of bcs u know ur not supposed to download third party apps on work computers but i was also not allowed to have paper like what are yououuuu expecting me to do GOD i hated that place they made me work for 6 days in a row then ONE (1) ☝ day off and then SIX MORE DAYS AGAIN with sometimes less than 12 hours between shifts but i was young and stupid and didnt complain. this went on longer than i thought it would.

I was also (unsurprisingly) sososososososo depressed and this song was a big comfort (and hey, its an english one for once!)

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bonus thing i like but it didnt fit in with the rest of them

not. translating everything but if u really really want to know feel free to shoot me an ask i suppose. russian knowers will find some of these funny tho. esp the всё понял, иду нахуй (it was a positive customer review on one of the calls our trainer told us abt LMAO)

#kunst huli #how do i even tag these 🧍‍♂️#art #??????#lineart #i dont fucking know #flowers #animals #insects #man i dontttttt know tagging things is such a chore #i tried to put them in as much of a chronological order as i could but u know its hard to remember. the sloppier ones r def earlier tho #but they have their charm #i miss it sometimes. ive tried to recreate the brush in photyshop but never quite could #the pixelation-but-not-quite is so hard to capture #and i dont remember which program it was that i downloaded #it was apple only anyway so fuck that #a certain nostalgy about a time that was so bad for me i guess is weird to have #but that song will forever remain very special to me #its kind of not. comforting? technically?#but it helped. i dont know #anyway tried to get another call center job recently n had a trauma response after just 3 hours on the line so👍#hated the place anyway so nothing lost #for THAT paycheck?? get the fuck out of here #but thats a whole another story. what is it with call centers n terrible scheduling skills anyway...#oh wait i know how to describe the feeling.#its close to what i felt playing disco elysium sdSDFSDF

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phagodyke · 7 months ago

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at its core dorohedoro is abt what if there was someone whose special interest was making gyoza and also someone else whose special interest was eating them. and they found each other in this crazy world to be besties <3

#all the other worldbuilding stuff? thats just for show. this is the central focus #just up to volume 18 so no spoilers please but i love LOVVVEEEE nikaidos devil manic episodes being triggered by gyoza related shit #like yeah all this wild shit going down and the world possibly ending qnd half the ppl they know might be dead etc #but on her mind at all times is her business. priority number one i love her so much #and every dream she n caiman have abt each other theyre just in her shop and shes cooking gyoza and shes eating them.. cries #also every time someone mentions they know aizawa theyre like oh yeah that guy i remember. he was always hungry as fuuuckk.#hayashida knows how to write a character consistently 😌☝️#has anyone ever matched each others freak like nikaido and caiman. well. apart from noi and shin who both just love mindless violence #i think NOT!#i hope the ending is just nikaido going full gyoza devil and its enough to satisfy [redacteds] appetite so he becomes Normal again #and the moral is just that youre not u when ur hungry..#ANYWAY. much to digest. when i finish the series i should reread it from the start again its so good n i bet theres so much i missed #dorohedoro #.diaries

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heffrondriving · 16 hours ago

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this is how i'm gonna fucking die i think

#POST CIRCA 2022 CAPTION AND ALL I HAD TO DIG THIS OUTTA MY DRAFTS TO SHOW Y'ALL THE EXTENT OF MY JAMETT BRAINWORMERY #i never posted this in fear of judgment and knowing nobody gave a shit about this ship but now...i offer my soul chat don't let me down pls #it's been a while so the details are fuzzy but i believe this is from a breakup fic inspired by All Time Low's Once In A Lifetime???#it's pure angst fodder ofc i loved putting my boys through the wringer and have them come out on the other end mangled but together <3 #also confession time i started writing this bc i got so disgusted at a lojett fic and this was the only way i could flush it out my system #love how i know this was from 2022 bc the caption is purple and that was my dale pa'ya-inspired blog theme colour at the time lmaooo #and i matched purple kenlos icons with my btr bestie liz and it amazing;;; liz if ur out there hiii fren ily i miss u too much 💜#n e way. what was i saying. oh yeah [incoherent madman ramblings]#might fuck around and actually post a 10k jamett fic. i've been meaning to post this one for a while but yk. The Horrors *gestures vaguely*#did anyone the fukc asked for it??? absolutely not. will i pull a fandom midwife and deliver it anyway???? ABSOLUTELY #btr #big time rush #james diamond #jett stetson #jamett #james diamond × jett stetson #himbo boyfriends #stop it forever #do pretty girl don't speak #the line that starts the whole story #not in my mirror #(what noooo i totally didn't have to search up my old blog posts just so i can remember how my tag system works wbu sexy ahah 🙈)

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cryolyst · 6 months ago

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#they speak!#it's probably just the illness that's making me extra irritable but like.#roommate kept coming up to me this morning going oh did i wake you up? i'm sorry if i did. did i do that or no? i'm really sorry.#and i kept telling him to stop saying sorry because i didn't have the brain power to phrase #'you could've been more considerate of your volume but you also have the right to use the common space so it's whatever'#but he said it to me again before i went to my room just now and it's like. ok. shut up.#if you actually cared that much u would've just been quieter in the first place actually.#anyways. annoyed. there were some annoying customers in the store today but it was whatever.#i feel like my fucks to give had already worn out with all the ppl in my social circle/my parents and the recent ongoings of that #[redacted] was being passive aggressive to me in the group chat and it's like. ok! idk what u want from me.#and i'm grateful for them for coming over and helping me with cleaning last week #and it's those sorts of actions that let me know they care and want good things for me #but like. i haaaate telling them anything because even innocuous non-private things get turned into judgement with them.#also. more and more i can feel how i'm drifting away from h and now with retrospect i can see how we mutually hurt each other :)#i keep coming back to this one period where i really wanted to take them to try dimsum and they kept saying they were too scared to try it #and in their new friend group they regularly go out n get dimsum together. which on the surface is like. why didn't you want to go with /me #i told you i wanted to share what i liked and i would explain what things were and i could do the talking and you still said no #but it's also very much a reflection of how i always rolled over and enabled them. i never challenged them. i was always passive.#i also feel like i'm heavily neglecting e and a recently and i can tell how the physical distance is affecting us and idk. it's weird.#anyways. another post that should've been a journal entry! lol!#when [redacted] helped with cleaning they also buried my journal under my like #300 packets of sesame candies and i can't be bothered to dig it out. also my bandaids are missing now. <3 #ik this also sounds passive aggressive but genuinely appreciate the help i just kinda hate how they think hidin everything in boxes is good #'we need to get you some more storage boxes and containers!!' actually i think that will be the opposite of helpful.#i need everything visible and on open surfaces so i can 1) remember they exist for me to use and 2) not have barriers for me to get to them

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deus-ex-mona · 7 months ago

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such is the tale of a ✨chronically online hypocrite✨

#(please forgive this old folk’s rambling for a hot min bc i need to get this off my chest somehow and in some way)#tl;dr: come and get into the hw idol series!!! we have ship discourse; more ship discourse; even more ship discourse #(yes ik people should be free to ship what they do b u t claiming a noncanon ship as canon and forcing it on everyone else is. not cool.)#yes yes friday’s mv was visually cute and ino.rin’s singing was peak b u t i feel like it has caused more harm than good in some way???#i cant b e l i e v e the jp hwtwt beef over friday’s mv is still going on mannnnnnnnn #no less than 3 separate people have made posts along the lines of #‘p l s stop using [official tags] to post about *[unnamed] non-official ships* p l s there’s a time and place for everything’#and n o n e of them even remotely run in the same circles yet they’re all banded together against a *certain* group lmfao never change hwtwt #lhy (esp yhy) shippers are always at the scene of the crime mannnnnnn #i cant see anything on their end of the naval battle (has every single lhy tag+account that i could think of blocked)#b u t it’s still really funny to witness on my twtdash against my will. i think i need to touch grass #‘kyhn isn’t canon either so why do you like it while being such a hater towards lhy—‘#great question!!!!!! it’s bc (disregarding the movie) they actually interact really well together~~~ like the honeypre event y k—#and also bc yukki treats hina really nicely all the time (even when she was being tsun and literally running from her feelings for him)#a n d hina loved him for who he truly was; even before his image change arc. and she also does her best to appeal to him and such~~~~~~~#but lhy. uh. they just bully hiyo 95% of the time and while they do look out for her bc they’re pals #they’re just pals. guys. and lxl have gone ‘uwu it must be u uwu’ to each other one too many times so shoehorning hiyo between them would.#be pretty weird ngl? esp since the ‘widely accepted’ portrayal of lhy as a trio is p much just hiyo x 2 dudes who dont even like each other #and. like. a branch of such portrayals usually seem to have aizo waft away from the ‘r/s triad’ to date mona instead which is. very weird.#some people just pick and choose aizo and mona interactions dont they. all they see is the umbrella scene and go ‘ah yes. canon’#they dont even read further to see how mona doesn’t even use the umbrella after aizo leaves (clear rejection)#a n d how aizo doesn’t even remember giving the umbrella to mona + mona’s entire existence in general after that #and that’s not even counting the grudge mona refuses to let go of even after what looks to be literal months #so for certain shippers to just casually shoo aizo out of the hiyoharem and into mona’s unwilling arms for the sake of yhy is. weird.#and like. shouldn’t he and yujiro have a say in this?? they’re more interested in each other than hiyo so just how are they being commonly #portrayed as hiyosimps in fanon? im so confused… like. wouldn’t they be equally obsessed with each other (as w/ hiyo) if they were a rstrio?#aaaaaa get this off my twtdash plsssssssss pls see this post twtapp pls let this affect your dumb algorithm im tired of the ship discourseee #as funny as the ‘lhy vs the world’ naval warfare is it’s getting. um. very annoying!!!! and now im missing nagisa more than ever s o b s #plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls influence the algorithm ragepost; ik big brother is 👀watching👀 so do your thing—#(pls feel free to duke it out with me too if y’all read this i need my birdsite algorithm to le a r n that i dont wanna see stuff like this)

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makkie-is-screaming · 8 months ago

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I want to puke and cry

#I think she’s ignoring me #I miss her so fuckingmuc it hurts but I barely know her anymore #I miss her voice and her face but I’m struggling to remember them and I feel sick #I love her more than I’ve ever loved anyone and I miss her so much it physically hurts #I don’t think she’s missed me in a long time #and I’m jealous bc I know she’s hanging out w this one girl n she likes her more than me #fuck it’s 2 am and I’m about to have a mental breakdown over this #screaming

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hoshizorax · 3 months ago

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just a reminder that lily's bestie is zoro. if you don't know how chaotic she can be, just let her go off with him and they will come back with a helluva catch and a group of marines on their tails running back to the ship. she encourages him to get lost. let's not forget about that.

she also enjoys annoying him sometimes. but she always let him rest his head on her thighs while she reads and he lets her cuddle him when she can't sleep so she can sleep.

#𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖼𝖺𝗇𝗈𝗇𝗌. // lilibet skoglund #kaizokugaris #// i love when soda and i talk about their dynamic #// it's adorable as hell #// i remember and i miss them so much ;n;

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thorninyourpaw · 22 days ago

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my existence makes me feel awful for my family

#they really wanted someone so much better. im 21 ive done nothing with my life and i cant tell anyone im disabled #mum hid it from everyone but her entirely and now i cant say a thing or ill get her in drama and ill have to keep lying anyway #i had to lie about all the abuse and they saw through it but i still have to lie anyway for all of us i cant say i dont have a job #bc i have no id no nothing to my name no bank account no literally anything and that i have to take care of mum bc they would all just get #mean and give me a million questions and yell at me and dad already stopped talking to me for weeks bc he wouldn't listen when i was trying #to say the id stuff is convoluted ''why cant i just get it with you'' LEGALLY I DONT EVEN HAVE A DAD BC YOU REFUSED TO BE A PART OF IT AT #AT FUCKING ALL AND MUM HAD TO DO EVERYTHING ALONE AND DIDNT WANNA HIT YOU WITH SINGLE MOTHER TAX #I DOCUMENT WISE JUST STOPPED EXISTING I HAVE NO SCHOOL CARDS EVEN LIKE NOTHING AT ALL SHE LOST MY BIRTH CERT BOTH OF OURS AND I JUST?????#im sick of getting into fights about everything. my granddad is dying and i barely see him because dad doesnt like me anymore and its scary #trying to talk to him at all bc he'll yell if i stutter he'll yell if i tell him ive gone out snywhere at all he thinks everyone in the #world is just drooling to assault me but he's violent and scary so i cant tell him that anything has ever happened to me bc the one time i #even just vaguely told him someone wasnt nice to me he threatened to tie them to the back of his car and he's attacked my stepdad with a #screwdriver and thankfully he wasnt hurt badly hut like. im so scared of my dad. and it breaks my heart bc he used to be so gentle to me.#hes always had a bad temper i have haunting memories of him chasing me and mum in his car but he never once hit me. but the more i remember #the more i realise that he fucked me up honestly just as bad as mum did. im constantly scared of getting yelled at i cant be loving with #anyone not sincerely bc im terrified theyll leave me theyll hurt me and im always proven right and i miss my best friend and i miss my dad #i wish i could tell him about anything in my life i wish i could tell anyone anything all the secrets all the expectations n the way i know #everyone views me is killing me inside my family thinks im fat lazy selfish worthless dull stupid they think i dont even like seeing them #but they actively push me out every single occasion i see them i barely even have any photos with anyone i never get happy birthday messages #or calls or anything they all just forget i exist until they have to remember and i cant trll them any of my life bc ill get yelled at by #dad or called a liar or ill have one of my deepest secrets spilled to the entire family while im sleeping again.#whatever sorry

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neixins · 1 year ago

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ngl i don’t think any of my irl friends care about me all that much…………

#i’d chalk this up to being awake at ungodly hours of the night but i’ve been thinking about this for days now #like literally not a single one of them remembered my bday which like. in isolation wouldn’t bother me that much #bc i’m terrible with dates and i Know that sometimes u miss the day on accident and then when u realize it’s too awkward to bring it up etc #but i’m also always Always the one asking everyone to hang out #and whenever it’s a group of us they’re always referencing things they did/talked about without me and it just. feels so isolating #(bowling for soup voice) middle school never ends oh-oh oh-oh-oh-oh :(#i could go on but i might start crying and i don’t wanna deal with that rn tbh #N E WAYS time to stop thinking about this and start reading yet another book until i get sleepy. nighty night gay people in my phone <3

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ivnscribbles · 10 months ago

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leaving secondary school & no longer doing English classes has made me realise that I actually really like English Lit just the stress of a timed essay made me loose my shit so bad that I fully did not want to go to classes for 4 years.

#dyslexia #like i actually remember alot of the poems we did in the poetry unit & some of them do influence my ideas #and i do genuinly enjoy trying to understand media & characters n shit #like thats fun. i like that #i want to understand stories #just the idea of having to write an essay made me HURGH #(i did go to my classes anyway btw skipping was hard at my secondary & i was a goody two shoes)#like i remember during my yr11 i had the best english teacher ive ever had (wish id had her all 4 years)#(my teacher the year before somehow missed the memo i was dyslexic. ripped into an essay i did at parents evening-#- made me cry and then told my mum she should get me tested for dyslexia 😐)#we did 'an inspector calls' and i had so much fucking fun lmao. She'd have us all have discussions about the book - ask us what we thought #and would take our awnsers seriously! she was so fucking cool man.#ramble #i am rambling

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sadlazzle · 11 months ago

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also idk how i did it but i skipped most of the descent into leyndell somehow. i lov second playthrus

#first playthrus r a lot of fun but i like the proud feeling of a second playthru #remembering where things are. not getting caught out as much. even finding things u missed first time #i love it #n i love making different characters and builds #im thinking of going for a pure strength build at some point #i usually do them first. but i wanted to try something new so we went sorcery #i hav no idea abt any strength weapons in the game either. im excited to explore some options #also tempted to try ng+ w the poleblade .. good weapon #plum plays elden ring: mohg madness

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whomturgled · 2 years ago

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i have so many feelings and i hate it