#// but lol fear is intense

[pixlatedvampire]

*fires a beam that kawaii-fies your horror game*

😘💗

[amir2018]

I know the point of loving is not it being reciprocated but also i’m having a difficult time reconciling with that because…really? Not even once…lol?

[lunasilvis]

Sometimes I am so close 🤏 to convincing myself I carry around the weathered lonesomeness found only in old vagabond musicians in smoky dismal Parisian cafés. Like the unshakeable curse since birth.

Then I meet up with friends over lunch for longer than 10 min and I realize again I was actually carved from unblighted puppy material and sprinkled rainbow muffins 👋

[naffeclipse]

Heya Naff, slightly late but Happy New Year!! 🎆 Hope you’re doing well and I wish you much inspiration and many good things this coming year! <33

I had a little query pop to mind recently if that's okay:  what if reader in the Deep Dreams universe had megalophobia and/or perhaps even thalassophobia? 

I know this might make less sense for fisher Y/N as we know them, so it could hypothetically be some other person, a friend or a future Y/N who makes friends with juvenile Sun and Moon and then only later discovers they've grown to be big sea beasties - maybe seeing them in their dreams is fine but for real it's a different matter, at least until they get used to them :)

How might the boys react?

Having a slight bit of megalophobia myself, the best way I can describe my experience is a gentle anxiety with the need to seek shelter and cower there, but people's experiences can vary (and possibly change depending on the conditions). Also that kinda makes it 10x funnier that I have an affinity for giant creatures xD

Hi, Piixel! Happy New Year to you, too, babe! ♥ Thank you so much, ahhh, you're much too kind! :D I hope you have a beautiful year and an abundance of lovely things happen to you!

Oh ho! Fear of big things and of large bodies of water? I'm sure that totally wouldn't be a source of great fear and conflict with a poor little reader soulbond to a couple of mers hehe (The Sea Beast is an excellent movie btw!! ♥)

Y/N with megalophobia and thalassophobia wouldn't be caught dead on the ocean. You have dreams about two massive mers, and those creatures are always sweet and gentle and attentive, but you're still convinced it's some weird nightmare (even though no real spooky events unfold in said dreams). The mers coax and plead with you to go out to sea so you can all meet, but that's a solid no from you.

Then through a very terrible chance of fate, you're on a boat for whatever reason but very much against your desires, before you get swept away by a rouge wave and left behind. You're alone, struggling to swim in a massive ocean when—oh goodie, that looks like a giant mer floating right below you. What else could go wrong today?

Needless to say, after seeing Moon, then Sun, and realizing that these massive mers you've had dreams about are here in the flesh, you pass out from sheer fright. It's a lot for you to wrap your brain around, but when you come to, you're on Sun's back as he floats gently along the surface, keeping you dry as you begin losing your mind out of the horror of it all while Moon watches you from close by. You can't jump into the great wide ocean to escape the mer carrying you but you can't stay on the thing's scaly back either, so you may have a panic attack. Sun stops and turns his head back to give you his full attention while Moon tries to take you in his hands but that does not help your situation. They can feel your panic and horror, but you can feel confusion and distress at not being able to help, and in fact, them being the cause of your fear.

Their attempts to calm you down are met with resistance as you want to be anywhere but here in the ocean with two giant mers.

Sun and Moon are bewildered and upset, to say the least. You did often seem nervous in your little dream rendezvous but they thought they did a lovely job of reassuring you it was alright and that they would never hurt you and there's nothing to be scared of. Turns out, not quite. So, they take you safely back to the island shore where you more or less escape from the massive monsters and flee inland. But, there's not a whole lot of places to go on the little island and you've got to sleep eventually, so Sun and Moon decide to spend more personal time with you and show you that really, they're the two baby mers you happened to scoop up one summer day when you were just a tot and didn't realize how scary some things could be.

They'll be patient. You'll see that there is no place safer than with them in the water. They'll help you face your fears and then reunite with you.

If you ever leave your house again, that is.

[sysig]

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[maliciousalice]

omg i booked driving lessons im going to be sick!!!!

[zerodaryls]

[raiiny-bay]

thinking about the monster boyz AU & how kel never gets to be truly happy in it...

[dr-gaytorius]

i understand that the experience of feeling like a prey animal is very common on this website but i just am not very sure what you all mean. you're an apex predator? your body is a weapon. you can kill the vast majority of living creatures with you bare hands. what are you afraid of? i hope one day you realize how easy it is to make people blush

[silverislander]

ive been reading a few lesbian books recently (just finished tomboy survival guide, almost done butch is a noun, read sbb last summer) and like. damn. yeah i guess weve always been the same hhuh

[gxlden-angels]

Sometimes working through religious trauma is a heartfelt hour talking about reclaiming your bodily autonomy after being sexualized and shamed from a young age with your religious trauma coach and other times it's this text message from your therapist then a caption suggestion to "show my tumblr friends":

[saving-people-haunting-things]

hello! i saw your tags on /post/730907115184586753 and i would love if you could talk a bit about your thoughts on why the "applications for sainthood" line applies to dean because it's one of those few lines i've never really understood 🥲 very interested in what you think about it!

Omg my first ask! Hiiiiiii!

Okay so the line said by Leviathan!Dean is, "And he doesn't have relationships. No, he has applications for sainthood."

I feel like this describes Dean's self-sacrifice for the people he cares about. For example, he spent his childhood and early adulthood being John's main emotional support and taking care of him and Sam. He has wants and dreams but he basically gave them up for his family. Heck, he sold his soul for Sam!

I think there's also a factor that Dean tends to the one making the most effort in his relationships, and when others don't treat him right he still stays loyal and devoted. I'm not saying that Dean is so mistreated or that nobody loves him because that obviously isn't true, but I do think that he often ends up in the emotional crutch role in his relationships just because that's what he's used to because of John. John admits that Dean took care of him and comforted him, but he couldn't even pick up the phone when Dean was dying. And there's just kind of a trend where people expect care and loyalty and trust from him, but fail to return it (for instance Bobby's "boohoo princess" speech, all of Cas' late s6 behavior, Sam's s4 behavior, etc).

Basically, Dean often has push aside his own emotions and hurt to take care of those around him which is something that I'm sure a Leviathan would pick up on and mockingly refer to as "saintly."

Or you know, it's just a commentary on his relationship with Lisa and other women and I'm thinking about this wayyyyyy too much lol

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

so i'm contemplating a fun example of anxiety runaround i give myself (particularly when unmedicated): document signatures

i have to do a lot of paperwork and don't always find getting to a printer doable. to that end, i'm reasonably sure nobody would care if i signed my docs digitally via tablet pen in an art program, but bc they always request for me to print, sign, and scan...

i still sign it in an art program lol, but make it look identical to ballpoint pen using my colorpicked palette for scanned ballpoint pen ink and a couple of textured brushes

then i slightly alter the image angle and offset from the original, add noise, save as a slightly crunchy jpg in a stupid resolution like a scanner would output, and then purge all the metadata just in case

sample of just the writing since i'm not gonna show y'all my docs:

it's not forgery or anything bc i AM signing it. it's my signature on my documents. there is no reason this should matter. but my brain is convinced that if i don't do it this way then i'll be In Trouble

[ishouldgay]

I’m going to roll a Druid that’s been raised by wolves. She knows nothing. Who is Baldur and why are people obsessed with his gate? Shadowheart is a cleric of Shar, should she be upset about that, who is Shar? What do you mean a city got dragged into the hells?

[sol1loqu1st]

catching up on fantasy high junior year and Oh Boy Lads, Riz Is Going To Continue To Hit Close To Home For Several Reasons Huh

[camelliagwerm]

i'd be lying if i said i wasn't a big sucker for the black knight x dark lady* dynamic ngl.