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OOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THEY WERE MDNI I JUST SAW IT ON MY FEED AND STARTED GUSHING 😕 deleted it im sorry!!!!! sav stfu and check profiles before spilling your guts in reblogs hello
#sav's journal#so im gonna like#say some of the stuff i had on that rb in these tags for yall bc that post was rly nice to see#you are NOT a bad person#stop convincing yourself otherwise#the very fact that you're feeling remorse for your previous actions and thinking that those actions make you a bad person?#such a big sign that you're a good person#+ have a good conscience#so!!!#you're awesome#please don't think of yourself as a bad person#cause you're not#we all make mistakes and it will happen again and again and again thats just life#cause GIRL me too i make way too many mistakes (this post is a result of me making a mistake!! shocking!!)#you're awesome <3#have an amazing day/night and take care of yourself today!!#ok bye
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took 3 tries but i think i am finally free of korra plagiarism in yuuji's water tribe design
jjk atla!au with @philosophiums
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#yuuji#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk atla!au#lmhs#timelapse#atla!au: design#atla!au: art#this au's power....literally ws like I Do Not Have Time To Draw today and yet . here he is#I think water tribe clothing leans symmetrical thus me fiddling w his lower hem a bunch ghgjhfgsdf#i love u asymmetry but we must make sacrifices ive spent too long bashing my head in over how to fix this design#i simply could not in good conscience have him cosplaying korra . i think their time in th water tribe is too important#n when the time comes fr me to illustrate fr th later chapters i want to . u kno.#actually be Happy with th design GJHFGS#and i am !!!! finally !!!!#i think i managed 2 accomplish my goal of keeping his short sleeves n armbands while Not making it look like walmart korra#long suffering sigh yuuji Why Do You Fight Back :(#megumi voice whatever !!!!#my un-korrification mission ws a success in my eyes and thats all that matters
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jon val jon or something
#jean valjean#les miserables#les mis#meme#no bc i just read the part where FIRST of all he's 'so happy his conscience began to bother him' and immediately goes 'can't have that'#and then he 'lived in the backyard like a dog' OF HIS OWN HOUSE WHILE COSETTE IS IN THE MAIN BUILDING#and jvj my beloved i am obsessed with you king but it is SO unhealthy to intentionally deprive yourself just so someone else can tell you..#'no no don't do that you need to take care of yourself' like bro i know you want to be nurtured and have someone prove their love for you#but it's really not great that the only way you keep your room at a liveable temperature and eat good food is when cosette is making you#i say this without judgement bc that was me once too but good GOD man your identity cannot be her!!!!#and stop with the preemptive self-inflicted harm!!! stop with the self-protective and yet -destructive distancing!!#you're only doing that because you want someone to tell you to stop!!!!!#alternate chapter title: in which an old man finds himself at home among the youth (2014 tumblr)#ANYways all this to say jvj is a projectable 10000% and i hate him because i love him because i hate that version of me bc i love me#or: SHUT UP AND BE LOVED YOU SILLY OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#kay has a party in the tags#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#kay is a classical literature nerd#my meme
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(I'm a security guard.)
#There is an overwhelming number of traumatized people who work in security#So many of us have histories of abuse#Or other things#And I wonder so often#I'm good at my job#But am I attracted to power?#I like helping people#I don't like hurting people#Or picking on anyone#But it's hard to know what the right answers are sometimes#Part of my job is working with police#Even if I disagree with them#I tell myself it's better that I'm the guard here#And not someone malicious#Or cruel#But how much am I really changing?#And am I using my power correctly#Or will I become the unreasonable authority that made me the scared person I am#Is it already too late?#What if the calls I'm unsure of are the warning signs#Maybe I'm already too late#Maybe my sense of morality and justice is eroding#To fit the hole I've placed myself in#Maybe I'm not chipping at the walls fast enough#Maybe I'm being reshaped#Just being here#Maybe my conflict of conscience is the internal monologue of a sympathetic villain#Maybe I'm the bad guy#Teablart
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firstlovelatespring.mp4
#another unposted doodle#love listening to my kat and everlark playlists to hurt myself#something about katniss having to carry the whole world at 16/17 and taking care of her family since 12#and never experiencing being carefree and youthful joy until shes an adult#can you tell shes in a meadow#my art#sketch#katniss everdeen art#katniss everdeen#thg#thg katniss#thg art#thg fanart#REALLY OLD but someone on two asked for vault art#there’s also a toasting piece but itsbsooooooo bad i can’t in good conscience even post the sketch
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I feel ill. All the fools and villains who ever fell for my ploys, they're — they're here!
#gamingnetwork#vgedit#videogameedit#gamingedit#dailygaming#gameplaydaily#bg3edit#bg3#bgedit#bg3 astarion#astarion#astarion ancunin#:(#i think this scene is so interesting and speaks to why i get so annoyed by the 'any portrayal of astarion#as having an degree of a conscience or goodness in him is stupid and woobifying. hes chaotic evil and thats IT' thing#the grief and guilt. the way he tries to talk himself into it. the way he removes HIS OWN autonomy to do it. pretends theres no other choic#esp in the context of other moments where he preens when hes called good. he LIKES being smth other than what cazador made him#but hes so SCARED. he spends this dialogue talking himself into killing them and he HAS to talk himself into it BECAUSE this kind of evil#isnt easy to him despite it all. theres still scraps of a conscience there yknow? and he hides it from himself by pretending hes less free#astarion is fun BECAUSE hes weird and contradictory and a bad person with the capacity 4 good. BECAUSE he doesnt know what he actually want#also i love the idea of him in this moment rly thinking abt the player....like whether theyre friends or romances#a player whos been really kind and loving to him...kept him safe....trusted him....#thinking about how they let their guard down for him and how in his old life THIS would have been the life#hed been damning them to....years and centuries in a tiny cage somehow even worse than his
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Another bit on the pro-Pal fandom, this one axiomatic
Being a good person is not the same thing as pretending as though you believe you are a good person.
Being a good person takes work. You have to do stuff. Doing stuff is hard. Doing good stuff is harder, because you have to put thought into determining what you think is good beforehand. That requires self-reflection, honesty, a willingness to challenge oneself, and taking in information from other people to verify that your concept of "good" is, well, good.
The nice part is that once you evaluate what is good and start doing good things, it becomes easier. You gain inner calm, peace, and even joy.
("Good" is not always the same as "necessary". Necessary work can be a slog, or it can be horrific. But there can still be a calming satisfaction at the core, the security that this is necessary and therefore worthwhile.)
Pretending to believe you are a good person takes less immediate work. You don't have to do anything that positively impacts the real world, and you don't have to do any of that annoying, time-consuming self examination. But in the long run, it's more exhausting. By far.
You are insecure about whether or not you are a good person. You're pretending to believe you are good. You can't feel secure in something you pretend to believe. That insecurity gnaws at you, especially when you engage in bad behavior--harassment, doxxing, posting gore, swarming tags, encouraging and promoting suicide among your fellow "activists", telling your opponents to kill themselves, stalking, spamming unrelated content with literal Nazi propaganda.
None of those are good things good people do. And you understand that. You would think someone was bad if they did those things to you. The cognitive dissonance between who you want to be and who you really are, as determined by your actions, is scary. It's painful. It rears up every time someone you have labeled a Zio colonizer scumbag asks you to please just stop and you remember a time when you begged someone--an abuser, a troll online, a 4channer, your parents--to just stop please just leave me alone.
That must feel terrifying, and again, it makes you insecure. It makes you question if you're doing the right thing.
So you do the work to pretend to believe you are good. And that's far more work than goes into being good.
You recruit others, and all of you agree that you will pretend together. Tabletop gaming has taught us how powerful this imaginative play can be. You all reassure each other that you are good and you are right. But since you're all lying to each other, that means you must spend more, and more, and more time every day telling each other that you are good, chasing that high, that feeling that you are a good person and your actions are justified.
You tell each other that your "opponents" in this "battle" are not people, so anything you say or do to and about them is okay. You look at lists of "dehumanizing tactics" and instead of internalizing what those lists are teaching you, you go: "Ah, so if I don't use the word 'vermin', anything I say should be fine!" And then you say it.
You do not smile over good news. You only smile when one of your opponents logs off Tumblr because you made the site unusable and unsafe for them. (The expression you make there isn't really a smile, but we'll call it that, since the corners of your mouth do turn upward.) You tell yourself you're just attacking Zionists and pretend you do not see how you're really going after Jews.
No self-examination; that would mean admitting that you're lying to yourself and others. Instead, you traumatize and exhaust yourself until you're psychologically incapable of self-examination. You watch snuff films. You stare at mangled bodies until you're weeping and physically ill (certainly, you're too ill to check whether the video is real, or if it was taken from this conflict).
You force your beliefs into your fandom spaces so that others, the bad people, cannot escape their complicity in genocide.
But more importantly, you do that so you can't escape.
You cannot engage in any fandom but the pro-Pal fandom because that takes imaginative energy away from your biggest pretense--that you're a good person.
You are NOT hurting people because you are striking a blow for Palestinians. You are hurting people, including yourself, because you do not want to do the work of becoming a good person. You are afraid that self examination, at this point, will reveal to you that you are exactly the sort of person you believe you are fighting.
That fear, that insecurity, that dread, that restless sense that if you ever rest or stop or think for just a moment, you'll discover something awful? That's your conscience.
I do not ask you to change your mind about your political opponents. Your defenses are already on your lips and in your mind; a thousand How Dare Yous for me hinting that you look at other people as people. What I will ask you is to consider this.
I came to young adulthood just as Bush was elected, and the Iraq War post-9/11 was the first war I really followed as an adult. I did what you're doing now. I forced myself to look at photographs of destroyed bodies. I looked at photographs of torture perpetrated by US soldiers. I blogged about it obsessively.
I told myself that I was Doing My Part to end the war. But really, it's that the anxiety of being an American during the war made me insecure over whether or not I was responsible for all of this, and therefore, a bad person. If I pretended my looking at snuff photos was activism, and that it was good, then I could pretend to believe I was good and shout "Not in my name" at protests. I could deny my responsibility.
What I really did was traumatize myself. It's been almost twenty years. I can still see some of those torture pictures in my head. In the end, that is the extent of the impact of my online activism. The blogs are all long deleted, and nobody remembers them.
Only my trauma remains.
I do not want this for you. I want you to be wiser. There is still time. You can stop.
Stop hurting yourself and other people. Do the hard work. Examine yourself and your actions. Consider what your own heart is trying to tell you whenever you start to get the shakes and your throat gets tight. Do not take that feeling out on random people online because they have a Magen David in their pfp.
Once you have done the hard work, it gets easier. You will be able to advocate and work for whatever causes you believe in because you know they are good, not because you're joining your friends in cosplaying goodness. You will still be traumatized, and you will still be sad, and you'll definitely still get angry. You will have to face how you've acted exactly like your own past abusers, and that's a real tough row to hoe.
But at the end, you will be able to advocate and work because you want to, instead of feeling as though you must in order to keep up the masquerade.
#free gaza#free palestine#palestine#politics as fandom#suicide#torture#trauma#worse than slacktivism#abuse#is-the-fire-real original#g-d damn it you've got to be kind#i understand you won't listen to this. it's okay if you don't#i may have addressed “you” but i was soothing my own conscience#because i think it's a good thing to tell people to stop harming themselves and others#and it's not my responsibility to change your behavior#it's yours#i'm also not addressing your antisemitic actions#not because you aren't doing that#but because that is between you and your dark night of the soul
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if we go by the theory that some number of the people who come to fromville are reincarnations of the original townspeople who are destined to come back again and again until the children are saved (jade, tabitha) and others are basically unlucky bystanders in their current life who get trapped with them (jim) then let’s think about other characters. namely, i agree with the theory that abby was maybe someone who was reincarnated. it’s implied she dreamed of the town when she was a child, and what was her final act? she was about to kill her son, believing she was doing the right thing (an echo of the event that kicked all of this off, something that would have ensured everyone was doomed until the next cycle because no one is free until the children are saved) but she couldn’t. because boyd, someone outside of the cycle, stopped her.
i’m quite enamored with boyd as a character who fights desperately against fate. he is adamant about how he refuses to be broken by the town, and although he knows some things like his Parkinson’s are inevitable, others he feels compelled to change. but the thing is, if my theory holds, he never should have been there at all. he was a total rando who got sucked up into this cycle of death and reincarnation and horror but he started to make things different. he made a difference in people’s lives, and most significantly, he stopped the story from repeating itself. what if jade and tabitha need someone like him to truly end the cycle - someone who was never involved in the first place but tries so fucking hard now that he’s a genuine threat to whatever controls fromville? i mean, why else would this place try so hard to break him if he didn’t pose a danger to the evil there? sure, it’s a very petty evil, who likes a cheap shot, and he did directly challenge them. but i think boyd needs to find tabitha and jade asap because i really believe he might be the key they’ve been missing in each round
#and now we need to wait two years to see if this holds up#this is my Boyd Ode although after this last episode. hoo baby. town might’ve got him a little#it’s so brutal to see the effects that this seasons events have had on him#we are far far past the boyd who could barely confine someone to the box#and beyond just the measured cruelty of what he did to elgin it’s also like. he’s so terrified that he’ll lose the last bit of family he has#from being forced to watch with tian-chen and seeing fatima suffer and like. idk it just shows this is a man truly on the brink#khatri was so damn good as the ghost of conscience i hope we get him in s4#from spoilers#from mgm
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NYT is genuinely out there being like "is kamala harris too crazy liberal left wing socialist to win? i mean we want her to because we're democrats but if she could please be an incredibly right wing one we would love that." how out of touch can you be. all the momentum she has with young people (who are providing the free advertising and clout that is also getting everyone else on board) because she hasn't had a chance to adopt biden's most right wing policies as her own and people are marginally hopeful she can be convince to be a smidge to the left of him.
#I wish i totally lacked a conscience. i would have so much fun dominating democratic politics.#i'd be so good at this because these people literally still do not get it
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been getting back into tokyo ghoul lately bc i've been feeling nostalgic and am still hopeful (lying to myself) that one day we'll get a reboot. looking for tg mutuals who've stayed despite the tumbleweeds around here :)
#i first got into tokyo ghoul in 2015#and have lurked on tumblr ever since#i made a blog for [REDACTED] before returning to my roots over here#because i could not in good conscience allow myself to make a tokyo ghoul blog a sideblog#but anyway i'm here now#missing the high of weekly updates lately#tokyo ghoul#tokyo ghoul re#tokyo ghoul manga
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what are some of the scariest/most fucked up pieces of horror media you've ever seen in your opinion? like podcasts, movies, stories, etc.
hmmm perfect blue is classed as a thriller but it's the one that fucked me up the most. would definitely recommend heeding the content warnings before checking it out.
#honestly i dont think i can recommend the genuine most fucked up media ive ever seen in good conscience lmao#tbh im not recommending perfect blue unless youre an adult and have a strong stomach
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i’ve been thinking about her for a while so this is the kid mario and peach would have IF peach ruled openly as a toad 🙏🏽
her name is apricot! when she gets older she also goes by the nickname albie :]
due to the circumstances regarding her existence she has quite the magical reserves and has the potential to eclipse her mom as a mage
but for now, she’s just a kid
#gari draws#gari’s ocs#oc: apricot#nintendo#smb#mareach fankid#fankid#toad peach au#like. technically but not really#i can’t in good conscience have her in the actual au bc 1. headache 2. i can’t think of a situation where she would willingly do this#the relationship issues would go crazy#anyway in my canon toads mostly reproduce asexually using spores from their tails#in this instance peach also used magic etc o7 since mario is obviously not a toad#her name is directly inspired by my study abroad in italy#while i was there i saw so many apricot (albicocca) flavored things#literally like at a cafe or rest stop you could get croissants filled with nutellla pistachio blend or apricot#bags of mini croissants with apricot filling etc#i also ate a lot of apricots while i was there it was insane (and so good)#anyway the prevalence brought me to the headcanon that mario’s favorite fruit is apricots#coincidentally a stone fruit 👀#and perfect for naming the daughter of a peach#sorry but mario will never have sons i tried it like 10 years ago#i really didn’t have plans for the toad au mareach to have a kid but my ass was like ‘ok but what if’ 💀
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lord i am always thinking about him
#i want him so bad. i dont need him. i dont need him. i dn#rotates him in my mind.#bay. byaby. baby.#bbbabbY. bbabayy.#BABY.#sci speaks#one day i will have you.#he is like £40 and that is homophobic. i cannot in good conscience spent that much money on one single funko pop.#how could i look myself in the mirror.#but look at him. look at him. LOOK AT HIM.#one day the planets will align and i will find him at a reasonable price.#in the meantime i will cry over him.#theres also a spider-man in the spider-mobile funko i'd die for. i'll kill for him. sci show them the spider-mobile funko.
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There's a strong link between the way moids treat cattle/animals and the way they treat women. Believing they're here for moids to use as they see fit, keeping them in enclosures to extract from them while claiming to protect them when they've forced them to be dependent on moids, forcing them to reproduce so they can have more fodder to exploit, and domesticating them.
Saw a video of torture devices that were used on women that were anything but quiet docile submissive slaves. Considering this and things like the witch trials, authorities turning a blind eye most times when moids kill women but imprisoning women who fight back against abusers, moids impregnating -raping- girls whose bodies hadn't developed yet (which could be a contributing factor to why we have a huge gap inbetween our physical strength) moids seeking younger women & girls to reproduce with because these women wont have reached a level of self actualisation to realise how pathetic the xy is, etc. I believe that moids have -attempted to- domesticate women through femicide as well as social punishments & torture.
Emphasis on "attempt" because I dont think women are naturally the empathetic emotionally observant yet mindless mommy bangmaids moids want them to be. There are a few far gone but most just act in a manner that pleases maIes to survive. The difference in womens behaviour when there's maIes around vs when there's not is the biggest telltale sign of this.
Women who weren't useful to maIe supremacy were killed off or brutalised into conforming. Women who conformed went on to reproduce.
This reddit post from the (rip) blackpillfeminism sub explains this concept so well:
This is all something that explains our environment. The war has been fought & the damage has been done. What we see/live today are consequences of the aforementioned. Moids have taken everything from women they are literal terrorists they wont change & cant be forgiven idgaf. Most we can do is save possible lives going through this by refusing to add to it.
Side note; I'm not saying this to absolve anybody of responsibility. In the end moids choose to be evil & women choose to love n worship them so long as other women to be shields are around. My point is about how maIe terrorism has shaped womens behaviour/being as a whole. Those who are separatists/blackpilled wouldn't reproduce so our ideologies & systems die when we die. Sure there's outliers of every batch so I dont think the concept entirely will die but it's maIe supremacy that has systems guaranteeing its ingrained continuation.
#I personally in good conscience cannot and will not contribute another life to this male terrorist hellhole I'd rather unlive instead#to protect my offspring from this mess but most other women feel differently. They'd still want to find their nigel & pass their genes.#blackpill feminist#blackpill feminism#moids are terrorists#female separatism#female separatist#domestication theory#there are no words for how evil moids are#Behaviours that often make me think of the domestication theory is when I see women be polite to creeps.#Every woman knows the fake 'not interested/thats disgusting but please dont kill me' laugh/smile women do.#This is behaviour moids have moulded ruthlessly. Women who fight back or kill violent moids are punished or killed themselves meanwhile#women who are docile survive to reproduce which repeats the cycle. I'm sure there've been far more self-sufficient women in the past#but moids killed most of them & moulded whoever they could as women not needing them is a threat to their existence.
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S3! Mahidevran sultan + The burden of love and duty
I'm ready to burn in hell to keep you safe.
Orla Gartland / Anne Carson / Japanese Breakfast / Benjamin Alire Sáenz / Margaret Atwood / Sarah Kinsley
#this is a messy mix of a web weaving and a mahi edit but anyways. just trying something new#is this about the burden of her old memories?#or is it about her duty as mother of mustafa & the burden of just being alone as a parent & as a counselor with a sehzade thats is learning#and a Sultan that will never get it#or maybe the burden of feeling you need to do anything for your sehzade's future. at the cost of your conscience#??? well actually is about mahi carrying the burden of the whole show on her shoulders /j#I'm not really sure tbh. but there's really something about having your whole life dedicated to raise a good ruler to the empire you're an#slave of#that's crazy to me like oh god#and having NO WAY to win because you're just doomed by the padisah's favouritism and your son's love for his father#like when is my girlie resting. she gave her all#sisyphus type of role as kosem's...#mahidevran sultan#magnificent century#muhtesem yuzyil#perioddramaedit#my edits#mc edit#graphics#graphic edit#web weaving#(kind of)#forgot to say I kinda tried drawing thingies here#they look weird when you zoom so don't look at them very much. they only work if you see them from the distance#filter credits to crownedfilters in ig
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The New Titans #55 (1989)
Batman (2010-) #641
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Batman (2016-) #138
They sure do bAT&Tman. They sure as hell do.
Yet Jason never thought this way about you.
#Don’t you dare kill them with a simple headshot Jason! I have to keep them alive so I can torment them until they wished they were dead#they’ll never use their hands again. this is the superior way#and you should follow in my footsteps as any self-respecting non-criminal vigilante would in order to keep your conscience squeaky clean#also how dare you not be more understanding of the fact that I completely betrayed your trust#and threw your unhealable trauma in your face and shamelessly admitted to it#after I slit your throat in front of the murderer responsible for that same trauma while he laughed in your face a few years back#god you are a terrible son u are so selfish everything I ever said about you while u were dead was true ur being such a burden rn#also I just love how in batman 640 Bruce was going around interrogating Ollie and Clark (ppl who died + came back)#to find a *~rational~* explanation for how Jason was even here#instead of yk. just being glad your child is alive#and when Damian died he does all this shit to Jason to figure *how to* bring Dami back#after he burned his artwork the same way he emptied out Jason’s room#god you flaming turd of a father never change#the fact that lobdell boiled down Jason’s reasoning to ‘he’s the bad guy and you’re the good guy Jason’#already shows we’re starting off on the wrong foot but#Jason coming back to Bruce in every new comic and saying the same ‘I tried it your way. or sucks’ thing is so silly because#it*#he already learned that decades ago#all the way back in batman 424 lol#you’re just. making him. look like an idiot. but yk what maybe that’s still better than the self-deprecating diversion bs#that’s actually convincing more people ‘yay Jason want redemption this is revolutionary & has definitely never been done a billion times b4#and is a step in the *right* direction’#my post
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