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[porcelainpinkpetal]

so this is what i ate today:

-can of chicken noodle soup without chicken; i can’t have gluten (150~ cal)

-celcius (10 cal)

-rice cake snacks (90 cal)

-25g blueberries (15 cal)

-protein bar (170)

-half a hard boiled egg (40 cal)

-tiny bit of brookies batter… (50 cal to be safe)

-tiny bit of broccoli and carrots (50 cal)

total: 575

and like i can’t tell if i should feel bad for eating so much today because 1) the total was barely above my absolute max for the day, 2) the past few days i’ve been binging a lot (as in like over 1800 cals yesterday) and today was my first day back at restricting, and 3) i managed to bake brookies for my friends and the little rice cakes, protein bar, and brownie batter are much better then me eating an actual cookie as i usually do, which im proud of myself for being able to avoid

what do you guys think? should i be proud or dissatisfied with today…

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someone please help…

i was doing so well at eating less then 300 cals a day (or maybe more like 500) and i had lost like 6 pounds, but then i had to eat over my limit (which actually didn’t do much) and told myself i’d just start again but then i had another day like that and although it made me lose weight even quicker (metabolism days i guess), now ive gained all the weight back and i can’t stop eating…

idk what to do anymore. i don’t know how to just fast because im scared id pass out and i hate feeling dizzy cuz i used to always be dizzy due to a heart condition which ive mostly “recovered” from, and idk what to do with my parents around because i dont always have the opportunity to put stuff in the garbage disposal.

i really wanna fast and/or barely eat but i can’t feel dizzy because i have tennis tryouts in less then a week and if i pass out i might not play as well as i could. and yeah, my coach already knows about my condition and says i can sit out, but last year i felt so small (not size wise..) and i hated having to sit out.

idk maybe if anyone wanted to do a diet together or a fast? so if you do lmk i guess!

and plz guys help ur girl out and gimme some tips!! 🙏🏻😭

[porcelainpinkpetal]

I met my younger self for a coffee today.

She looked at me and went "we're still not skinny??"

I sighed and said "damn girl we're trying, okay??"

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[porcelainpinkpetal]

i love my family so much but sometimes i need them to just like go on a week long vacation so i can actually lose weight in peace 😭

like a few days ago i had to go to the doctors and the night before i decided to eat to gain some weight because my doctors (and parents) already noticed my weight loss. and unfortunately im not old enough to go by myself so as i was getting weighed my parents were watching…

and then for valentine’s day me and my fam went out to eat together at a restaurant…and because i’ve been ordering the same thing for years, if i didn’t my family would notice…(they’ve noticed before)

AND THEN today i went out with family again to plan a wedding which meant eating breakfast together, cake testing, and then going out to lunch…thankfully i managed to barely eat my meal because i didn’t like it much, but at that restaurant ive gotten the tater tots everytime so i had to eat them because my family know me too well to turn them down, so i couldn’t skip them like i wanted…

last week i lost 6lbs, no problem, just ate some fruit which i love and thats it. i was doing so well but then i had to gain weight for the doctors, didn’t have time to lose it again cuz next day was valentines, and then again no time to drop it again before i went out to eat even more…

im back where i started. i hate it here sometimes…

[porcelainpinkpetal]

a binge always starts with "one bite won't hurt" remember being hungry hurts less than the disappointment after a binge

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“stop skipping class, there’s no way you’ve been sick for this long! 🙄”

oh i’m sorry, you’re right, i’m not sick! i’m just a lazy slob who doesn’t wanna get out of bed in the morning! its not that i feel so bad that even rolling over is difficult! it’s definitely not because i ate just a little too much yesterday and every time i look at myself in a reflection all i see is the extra 0.5 lbs i’ve gained! it’s definetly not that i can’t go a minute without thinking of what others might think of me when they see my fat little body! it’s definitely not because im so scared of people noticing the weight i’ve gained or haven’t lost yet that im terrified of going to school and being around anyone even my best friends! you’re right, im not sick. i shouldn’t be “skipping” school! after all, im just lazy!

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“you attract what you fear” ahhhh bmi 16 i’m so scared oh noooo ahh

[porcelainpinkpetal]

kinda binged today…but it’s okay because it’s valentine’s day and since he won’t love me i’ll “love” food for a few hours!! (i was with family and friends all day and couldn’t go without eating a ton…) probably won’t feel good in the morning or for the next week since i basically just had cookies, grilled cheese, and just hundreds (maybe even thousands) of calories…but that’s a future me problem so fuck it!

also does anyone wanna be buddies? i wanna start fasting again but i have ZERO motivation when i have to do anything by myself…🎀

[porcelainpinkpetal]

Reblog if you're an active 3D blog in 2025 and are okay with teen mutuals

(I need mutuals)

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unfortunately i could do all this and still give in…

111 things to do instead of eating

go on a walk

drink water

clean your room

reorganize your bookshelf

learn to draw/draw something new

learn to knit/crochet

apply for jobs

do yoga

paint your nails

do laundry

do your makeup

take a nap

design a new phone layout

change your bedsheets

skincare

wash the dishes

read a book

deep dive into a niche topic

go to the mall

online window shopping

clean out your closet

meditate

do online quizzes

play coolmathgames

empty your email inbox

make a bullet journal

scrapbook

plan a fake vacation

look at expensive houses on zillow

do your duolingo lesson

make a mood board

sing karaoke

learn an instrument

burn a cd

make hyper specific playlists

bake things to give away

go swimming

make a funny powerpoint presentation

watch movies

start a new tv show

listen to a podcast

hang out with friends

paint something

make decorations for your room

make stickers

write a book

learn to sew

upcycle clothes

make a bucket list

write a diary

look at thinspo

start a youtube channel

start a podcast

do a puzzle

plan out outfits

make a collage

scroll tumblr

learn a new sport

make a new friend

study

do your homework

watch a video essay

do pilates

take a bubble bath

create a website

create an aesthetic ed journal

watch diet vlogs

watch mukbangs

make a style book

make a tiktok

learn origami

learn morse code

learn scratch coding

write media analysis

play geoguesser

plan your meals

dust everything

learn a dance

do a coloring book

update your resume

clean your car

find a pen pal

clean your makeup brushes

try new makeup styles

make a tier list

write love letters

make slime

call a relative

start a free course

critique old philosophy

plan your dream house

learn how to invest

go grocery shopping

make an amazon wishlist

scroll twitter

brush your teeth

write a poem

stretch

listen to asmr

do some manifesting

go to the library

play just dance

play random free steam games

make some tea

play with your pet

go people watching

start a garden

go for a drive

do some volunteering

play a board game

have a photo shoot

[porcelainpinkpetal]

i baked so many cookies for valentine’s day because i just love my friends so much…but i ate like three cookies and so much dough. and not only is that HORRIBLE because of all those extra calories but i also cant have gluten…like whats wrong with me?? am i that much of a gluttonous pig that i just had to eat even though i know i cant????

[porcelainpinkpetal]

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Intro🌷

hi guys! i’m sami, i’m almost 16 and i’ve been trying to lose weight for like 4 years now…

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

stats

height~ 5’5” (166.37 cm)

cw~ 108lb (48.9 kg)

hw~ 120lb (54.4 kg)

lw~ 103 (46.72 kg)

gw~ 100 (45.4 kg)

ugw~ 90 (40.8)

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

some fun facts abt me!~

- i speak English, Korean, and i wanna learn German and French

- i have the cutest dog who is my pride and joy (nothing is cuter then her. nothing…)

- i love baby pink, yellow, light blue, and navy blue. so basically any pastels!

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what motivates me?~

- clothes. i love shopping and seeing all the clothes i would look SO damn good in if i just lost a few more pounds motivated me soooo much

- sports. i play tennis and seeing all my teammates who seem to have perfect bodies (even those who way more then me) motivates me so much because as much as i love them, i want nothing more then to be better then them

- boys…okay look, i’m a hopeless romantic and i want nothing more in life then to be rich, skinny, and loved. i’ve had so many talking stages (well more like the same three guys over and over…) but they’ve never worked out and im convinced it’s because of my looks. what better way to have better looks then to lose weight? less fat on my legs, flatter stomach, no round cheeks, nice sharp jawline, just perfect…

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also as much as i know how toxic this type of wl is, i do not wish this upon anyone. i myself simply have always felt so much joy and comfort by losing weight like this, but id dont condone this in any way. to anyone reading this, i hope you know you’re so incredibly beautiful (or handsome) just the way you are both inside and out!

and yes, i do seem do be on the toxic side of all this, so if you’re seeking recovery, please do block me so that you can succeed!

any tips would be appreciated! 🌷

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

[porcelainpinkpetal]

him: “have you eaten today?”

me: “have you asked me to be ur valentine?”

np but seriously, how can i eat if that means gaining weight…guys i need a boyfriend so bad and i can’t get one cuz i look even more chopped then my dinner before i throw it in the garbage disposal! like what!!

i swear on the scale i have hidden in my vents, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT AND GAIN LOVE!! 🙏🏻

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yeah well i’m also uglier then the average person so those extra calories add up

“Omg I ate so much” You ate 1500 c4ls, less than the average person, don’t beat yourself up!