libertine-lioness

[libertine-lioness]

142✨May7,2021

Last Friday I drove 3 hours to feel the Ocean. I drove 3 hours to try and cope with life. I drove 3 hours to feel Rob’s presence. I wanna go back.... like right now.

[libertine-lioness]

141✨April26,2021

I can’t Handle This

Why wasn’t it Dallas?! He’s been doing hard drugs for years, he’s the literal worst, and He threatens suicide every other week?!!!!!

I’m not okay. I can’t fathom what’s going on right now. Rob wasn’t supposed to check out like this! If it were me, that would make total sense. But not Rob.

Not someone who radiatiated positivity! Not someone who helped heal others. Not someone who boosted egos at their absolute lowest! Not someone who I loved so much! Emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually.... he got me!!!!!! He understood me. Not many do. And His embrace meant the world to me! My heart is fucking broken. This is bullshit. I’m gutted. I’m defeated. I’m broken beyond repair.

One of my best friends is gone! He’s fucking never coming back! How does one recover? How does one come back from such a Heynis bitch slap from life?!

No more laughs. No more blatant sexual tension. no more flirting. no more therapy sessions. no more trio. No more spontaneous trips to ocean city. No more casual platonic sex that blew my mind...EVERY TIME! No more camping. No more blunt rides. No more dancing. No more hope.

I can’t handle this feeling in my chest. It’s beyond agonizing. Please just stop! You win universe! You fucking win!!!!!!!!!!!

[libertine-lioness]

140✨April 24,2021

I can’t believe this devastating news. My heart is broken Rob. The world just lost one of the most genuinely cool humans that I’ve ever had the pleasure to know and love. I wish I would’ve hugged you tighter, the last time we casually said “see ya later”. I wish I would’ve never let you get out of my car that day. Never in my wildest dreams, did I think that would actually be goodbye forever. I’m going to miss you so fucking much man! Thank you for being a consistent light in my life over the last decade. I’m eternally grateful for the friendship we shared and will never ever forget you. Rest In Peace, my dear friend. I love you💔

Robert Figueroa

November 8,1993- April 22,2021

Dear Universe,

Congratulations, you win. My white flags are up. I’m officially defeated and deeply devastated. Yesterday my spirit was wounded; and today... you crushed it entirely. Bravooooo👏🏻 I’m an easy target though, so don’t flatter yourself too much.

Sincerely,

Monica Leigh

[libertine-lioness]

139✨April 7,2021

WTF NETFLIX?!!!!!

Why the Fuck did you get rid of

Silver Lining’s Playbook?!!!!!!!

And

Her?!!

And

V For Vendetta?!!!!!!!!

And

The Office?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😭🤯💀💘💘💘

This is madness!

[libertine-lioness]

138✨April 7,2021

August 2015-April 2021-?

👩🏻‍🎤👨🏻‍🎤🦁🦁

He’s a Blunt Ride Gem!

Fallout- Catfish And The Bottlemen

Car Radio- Twenty One Pilots

Migraine-Twenty One Pilots

Hometown- Twenty One Pilots

He’s a Serenader!

First Day Of My Life- Bright Eyes

Twin Size Mattress- The Front Bottoms

Jesus of Suburbia- Green Day

She- Green Day

Welcome To Paradise-Green Day

Whatshername- Green Day

And 7/8 others I can’t think of at this moment!!!!

His movie exposure moves my soul!

Jojo Rabbit

It’s Such a Beautiful Day

Moonrise Kingdom

The Grand Budapest Hotel

V for Vendetta

Her

He shares the best songs!

Moral of the Story- Ashe ft. Nail Horan

Rich Friends- Portugal The Man

Stand Too Close- Motion City Soundtrack

The Nightmare Before Christmas Cover Album!!!

I’m going to Philly again this weekend...

My heart is exploding, but I’m going to do my best to play it cool😌

Typically, I don’t need anyone...

BUT I NEED HIM. This Leo has had me for almost 6 years and I cherish every moment together💘😈🤯😳😵💀😻😻😻😻😻🦁

[libertine-lioness]

137✨March19,2021

🆘No Vacancy🧠🫀

This temple of mine

Has lost most of it’s charm.

Year after year

It suffers more harm.

There is no silence

Inside of my mind.

No quiet room

for me to go hide.

My thoughts are squatters

With no intention to move.

My heart has no tenets

Because it’s been used.

The only spot vacant,

Is deep down in my chest

Where past love’s lost interest,

Turned this place to a mess

I’ve got to fix this.

Or else I’ll go under.

But how do I do it,

When my mind always wanders?

I’d truly give anything

To bring back the serenity.

But I fear my temple’s doomed,

to a life of calamity.

[libertine-lioness]

[libertine-lioness]

135✨March16,2021

Tryna feel fierce again🤷🏻‍♀️🙃✂️

[libertine-lioness]

134✨March16,2021

I’m in deep with another Tinder Flame

He’s a Pisces. He’s met Tyler Joseph and Josh Dunn. His favorite Twenty One Pilots’s songs are Glowing Eyes, Kitchen Sink, and Holding On To You. He’s fully tatted and 6’2. He’s an incredibly sexy barber. He’s wildly respectful yet super devious. He’s actually into me. I’m smitten as fuck.

[libertine-lioness]

133✨March16,2021

Inspiration of the day...

Love Song For No One

“Staying home alone on a Friday

Flat on the floor looking back

On old love

Or lack thereof

After all the crushes are faded

And all my wishful thinking was wrong

I'm jaded

I hate it

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it

When I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Just staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one”

- John Fucking Mayer

[libertine-lioness]

132✨March11,2021

Name a better writing duo than Jerome Garcia and Robert Hunter. Go ahead...I’ll wait.

Alsooo

Happy 311 Day Ya’ll!😘

🤘🏻😘✨😻🔮💞💞💞🤞🏻🎶💘

[libertine-lioness]

131✨March11,2021

🔮Naked🕉💞

I used to take my clothes off...

Simultaneously and secretly,

Just hoping for love.

But that’s not how it works.

This repeated life lesson’s not gentle.

It’s callous and rough.

I still take my clothes off...

Only I’m much more selective,

With the men that I choose.

I play it cautious and cool.

Cause nothing feels worse than

Feelin’ lonely and used.

Some day, I’ll be naked...

In front of the love of my life.

Our souls will connect.

The stars will align ever so perfectly.

A union so sacred,

Joined by trust and respect.

[libertine-lioness]

130✨February28,2021

🎶Radio- Bumpin Uglies

[libertine-lioness]

129✨ February26,2021

Ok...last one... for tonight. This song hits harder than most.🦁💘🦁✨🎶🫂🫀🧠💘

🎶Ashe and Niall Horan- Moral of the Story💘

The Lion who showed me this song... will never leave my heart’s good graces. But damn...it sure does torture my brain.

Fools really do rush in.

[libertine-lioness]

128✨ February26,2021

Of course these words too....always.✨

🎶Grateful Dead- Truckin🔁💞🤘🏻

I am Sweet Jane...

Only Living on in Blacks, lots of caffeine, and prescription only cocaine.

[libertine-lioness]

127✨February26,2021

This one also!

🎶The Show Must Go On- Pink Floyd

[libertine-lioness]

126✨February26,2021

🎶Here’s Your Letter- Blink 182

I feel everything... all the god damn time. It sure does hurt. But hey.... at least music exists. Without the lovely poetry I have always abused my ears with, I would have been dead before my teens. True story. Words and “letters” are literally everything to me. I’m a whole ass fool.

When you put your whole heart out there, via handwritten letter, you deserve reciprocated reactions. Your time is valuable and anyone who treats it like it isn’t.... can suck a chody cheese dick.