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Happy Together (Five Hargreeves x Reader) (The Umbrella Academy)
A/N: OOOOHHH MY GOOODNESS HELLO EVERYONE!!! So before y’all read…lemme say that Five is not 13/14/15 in this imagine!!!! He is a normal 20 something year old human…and so is the reader!!! This is kinda like an alternative universe sorta thing…idk…it was a request. (also my 17 year old self has a huge crush on Aidan Gallagher now uwu…he’s turning 16 this year…and we’re like a year apart so ITS OKAY YALL CHILLLLLLLL) I love The Umbrella Academy…and more imagines will be coming. ALSO THANK YOU FOR 900 FOLLOWERS AHHHHH!!!! Okay…now enjoy :)
Summary: After altering the timeline to save your life, Number Five gets in some trouble with The Commission…which prompts a not-so-welcomed visit from The Handler.
Warnings: LANGUAGE, angst, blood, fighting, implied violence/murder, FLUFFFFFFFFF
Word Count: 2,413 holy shit i went IN LADIES AND GENTS
Rays of sun reach their fingertips through the ancient curtains above you. The dust particles that had accumulated upon the books surrounding you glow as each individual spec basks in the light. To your right, sitting properly next to you on the plush couch, was a well-read copy of The Great Gatsby, your favorite novel.
You look down at the coffee that rested between your hands, the steam radiating off of it slowly dissipating, cueing you to finally take a sip of the bitter liquid. Grace hums a tune as she passes through the dark library, duster in hand.
“Grace,” You call out, and Grace immediately stops to face you, “Do you know where Five is?” Just as Grace opens her mouth to answer your question, a loud clanging sound erupts from above you.
“Goddamn it!” A familiar voice shouts, followed by the violent thumping of footsteps down the stairs.
The footsteps continue, the sound of the dress shoes against the cold tile echoes throughout the academy, until finally Five appears in front of you. He looks disheveled, exhausted, and incredibly angry. You hadn’t seen him like this since you saved the world together. He looked so distraught, something was clearly wrong.
Five begins to pace back and forth, his hands traveling to rub his eyes every now and then. You want to say something, but you know he’s far too lost in thought to answer. Finally, Five stops, and walks towards the bar at the end of the library.
You hear Five rummaging through the bottles of liquor. You turn around to see an expensive bottle of whiskey in his right hand. With his left, he grabs a short, crystal glass, and he begins to pour away.
“F-five, is everything okay?” You ask quietly. Five stops his pouring, and slams the bottle of whiskey on the counter.
He looks up at you, a vulnerable haze of fear presents itself across Five’s face before once again masking itself in an angry and distant gaze. “Everything is just golden,” Five remarks sarcastically, taking a generous swig of alcohol from his glass.
You decide to ignore his tone as to not start a fight with him, and instead stand up from the couch and walk over to him. You pull out a stool, and sit down. Five remains where he is, on the other side.
“Are you going to tell me what happened, or am I going to make it come out of you?” You ask, jokingly. That was your power, you had the ability to make people tell the truth. You could also read minds and freeze time, which made you a perfect foil to Five, who could move through it.
“It’s The Commission…” Five trails off, taking another sip of his whiskey. “They know what we did.” Your jaw drops. How the hell did they find out so quickly? You think to yourself.
A month ago, you and Five had altered the timeline. To be more specific, Five had altered the timeline in order to save your life. While searching for Five, who had saved the world from the apocalypse once and for all, the Commission came across you. They knew that you were important to Five, and decided to kidnap and torture you.
When Five had found you, it was far too late. But, that was a thing of a past. It was a memory that you were never able to experience, since Five took it upon himself to change the timeline and save your life.
You two had grown close since Five had met you, since he had helped you learn to use your powers. But, you didn’t realize how much you meant to him. He risked so much by altering the timeline, and that was becoming increasingly evident.
“Look, things can’t be that bad,” You say reassuringly. “There has to be some sort of way to fix th-,”
Five cuts you off. “No, things aren’t bad, they’re terrible. They’re going to kill me,” Five’s voice is firm and filled with anger. “Or worse…” His voice is soft as he trails off, his eyes drifting down to the glass of whiskey on the counter.
“Or worse, what?” You ask as you search Five’s dark brown eyes for some sort of an answer.
But he gives you none, shaking his head in contempt, refusing to say a thing. He picks his drink up, and begins to walk towards the other side of the room. Just as you think he’s about to stop, the pacing begins again. You roll your eyes.
“Five, stop, let’s talk about-,”
Five cuts you off a second time. “There’s nothing to talk about, (Y/N)!” Five shouts, his eyes widening. “Things are going to absolute shit!” He knocks back a final, generous swig of whiskey before violently slamming the empty glass on the end table to his left. Five darts back towards you. “We lost! Don’t you get it? They’ve won! They’re going to find me, or you, a-and, a-and…”
You shake your head. “You’re being ridiculous, Five,” You pause for a second, collecting your thoughts before continuing. “You just need to calm down, we haven’t lost just yet, we haven’t even started fighting.”
“And there’s no point in fighting back to begin with. They know you’re here, they know everything, (Y/N),” Five says, swallowing harshly as he closes his eyes tightly. “And don’t tell me to calm down.”
You scoff. “I’m just trying to help. We can fix this-,”
“Stop! No we can’t! I’m going to lose you. Don’t you understand that?” Five yells, his voice booming throughout the library. Silence looms over the room. You don’t know what to say. “I can’t lose you…not again. I just can’t,” Five finally croaks.
Your heart flutters in your chest at his words. “Five you aren’t going to lose me,” You say, your voice is soft and sweet as a smile stretches across your face.
“On the contrary, darling, I think he just might!” A sarcastic, shrill voice rings from the opposite end of the room. You look to where the voice came from. A tall, gray haired woman stands near the fireplace, holding a gun in her hand. “Hello, Number Five. Long time no see.” Her smile is wide, almost reminiscent of the Cheshire Cat.
“I swear to god if you touch her,” Five points a finger in the woman’s direction, “I won’t hesitate to take you down, for real. In fact I thought Hazel already did that for me,” Five taunts.
The woman cackles loudly. “Oh Five!” She slaps her knee. “God you crack me up! You know silly stuff like bullets, or grenades,” She raises an eyebrow, “can’t kill me. But it can kill you, or her.” The woman nods her head towards you, aiming her gun at your chest.
A shot rings out, and a flash of light appears in front of you as Five pops in front of the woman, pulling his arm back to punch her in the face. But, before anything happens, you close your eyes tightly, clutching both hands into fists. Suddenly, time freezes. You walk forward towards Five. The bullet is inches away from his chest, suspended in thin air. You push it to the right, making sure that when time starts up again, it won’t even have the chance to hit him.
The woman scoffs, surprised at your abilities. “Who the hell are you?” She asks, staring you down.
“(Y/N), Number 8, also known as Eon, and you’re about to be so fucked,” You stare deeply into her eyes as you begin to search the woman’s mind. Her alias is The Handler, she’s killed thousands of people, and she isn’t one bit scared of you in this moment.
Well, that’s about to change completely, You think to yourself. You tighten your hold on her mind, and you watch as the Handler winces in pain.
Part of your mind reading ability was to allow the person you were reading to relive the memories you came across as you searched his or her mind. In this case, you went for the traumatic experiences; for instance, murders, attacks, and other crimes The Handler committed, watched, or experienced. You had found through previous ventures that making someone relive the past was overwhelming and draining, to the point of death.
God I hope this works, You think to yourself, taking a deep breath as you swallow harshly. You had one shot, one chance to make this work. You begin to search through her mind, picking out memories that seemed horrendous, even to you.
“Wh-what the hell are you d-doing?” She stutters, her fingertips reaching up to either side of her head. You force her to see each and every person she’s ever killed, which slowly but surely begins to have an impact on her. “S-stop,” The Handler pleads. “I-It h-hurts.”
But regardless of her pleas, you don’t let go. The gun in The Handler’s hand falls to the ground as she begins to tremble. You don’t know how much longer you can stay where you are. Your grasp on time begins to weaken, and things slowly start to move again. You’re losing energy.
“F-fuck,” You whimper, trying your best to stay strong. You search deeper into The Handler’s mind, seeing even more murders, more traumatic experiences, forcing her to relive each and every one.
The Handler screams out in pain. “Shit!” She screeches, collapsing down to the ground. She wheezes, and coughs roughly. Her breathing weakens, just as you thought it would.
“How does it feel?” You manage to shout, regardless of the fact that it feels as though every ounce of energy has been drained from your body. You continue on nonetheless.
“I-I c-can’t b-breathe,” The Handler chokes, grabbing her throat. “S-stop…” Her eyes flutter shut. “I-I’ll l-let y-you l-live…” She struggles to speak as her eyes open up again.
“Bullshit,” You say firmly, walking closer to her. “Any last words?” You question, going deeper into The Handler’s mind one final time. Her body seems to tense up, and she writhes in pain one last time.
“I-I’ll b-be b-back, k-kid…t-trust m-me….I always e-end up c-coming b-back…” She trails off, her eyes shutting tightly. Then, the writhing stops. The tension in The Handler’s body seemingly disappears. Her body goes completely limp. You did it. It was all over. She was gone.
You let go of your hold on The Handler, since there was no longer anything to see or do in her mind. It was blank, a black hole if you will. You let go of time, and things begin to move yet again. You collapse to your knees, absolutely exhausted.
“(Y/N)?” Five calls out, and you hear the bullet you had directed away from Five hit into the wall. “What the hell happened?” Five chuckles a bit. You feel his hand rub up and down against your back.
“I-I took care of things…” You say, breathing heavily. “You don’t have to worry about her anymore, or at least I don’t think you will.” You look up at Five, a confused expression spread across his face.
“How did you…” Five doesn’t know what to say as his eyes frantically search yours for some sort of an answer.
“I made her relive every shitty thing she ever did, or experienced. It wasn’t a silly thing, that did the bitch in,” You explain nonchalantly. “It was natural causes, in a sense. She did it herself.”
Five smiles widely, his brown eyes catching rays of light. Just as quickly as his smile appeared, it slips away. “They could still come after us…” Five trails off nervously, standing up and walking towards the bar.
You shake your head, gathering your strength and following behind him. “Don’t worry about that, okay? With The Handler gone, things will be easier. We can take down whoever stands in our way.” Your voice is calm and reassuring.
Five stops in his tracks, his eyes studying your face thoroughly. “All I can do is worry. Just because she’s gone doesn’t mean I won’t lose you,” Five says, his voice firm, yet still laced with fear. “I care about you too much to lose you again. Last time, my heart…it…” Five can’t seem to finish his sentence as his voice becomes shaky. His eyes become glossy, and he turns around so you can’t see his face.
“You can talk to me Five. Please, just tell me what happened,” You beg, walking closer to him, extending a hand out towards his, your fingers colliding with Five’s.
He turns around to face you. “Fuck I hate feelings…” Five complains before continuing on. He takes a deep breath. “My heart felt like it stopped beating. I-I sobbed over y-you…” Five tightly closes his eyes shut, a single tear falling down is cheek. He wipes it away with his free hand. “I can’t go through that again. I won’t, I refuse to. I care far too much about you…I-I…” Five looks down at the ground and back up towards you. He steps closer to you, the gap between you and he closing. His eyes drift back and forth between your eyes and your lips.
Suddenly, a pair of soft, warm lips come crashing down on yours. The kiss is slow and languid. You can’t help but smile against Five’s lips. This was something you had wanted for such a long time.
You’re left wanting more as Five’s lips part from yours. He smiles widely as he steps back from you. You’re almost a bit shocked, as Five rarely ever shows affection to anyone.
“I didn’t know how to say how I’ve been feeling,” Five explains. “You know I’m terrible at emotional shit, but (Y/N), you make things seems so natural. I’m happy when I’m with you.”
A smile stretches across your face. “So let’s be happy together, then. You don’t have to hide things. We can be a team.”
Five nods, grinning as he closes the gap between you two once more. “Happy…together…two words that I’d never thought I’d use to describe my life.”
“Well I suppose you’ll just have to expand your vocabulary, then Five,” You say sarcastically, giggling lightly.
“I suppose so, (Y/N).”
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Well anyway the umbrella academy is golden. Really worth your time. Complex characters and amazing actors, humor and despair. In a very thought out mix.
I must also admit. GERARD FREAKING WAY. Thank you
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Number 5
This is in no way a fully analyzed and researched statement but from my limited intake and my total fascination of the TV adaption of the umbrella academy. Right of the bat I fell in love with number five. I always seem to fall for the smart arrogant ones. So after some rather mindless thinking and browsing on here I came across a thought in my head... "fives weakness is attachment". He could have gotten so much but he couldn't leave his messy family, he couldn't leave the world to burn so he made a sacrifice. Now they are traveling back in time. With Vanya in their arms. Oh five
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Why can't people just stand for human rights?
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The only reason my memory is so good is because my anxiety has to remember every embarrassing thing I’ve done, which is my entire life
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When I was young I never understood why people would take their life’s I always thought that they were just being selfish Until I truly understood what it was like to be in that horrific mind state where you have no control The pain consuming you day after day Drowning in self loathing to the point where it’s all excruciatingly unbearable Where you truly feel that you’re a nuisance to everyone And that they would all be better off without you All you want is peace and the thought of having to battle with it forever is exhausting Leading your mind to places you never thought it ever would
melindacarolinee (via melindacarolinee)
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THIS IS TO THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN GREY
this one is to the people who never had ‘proper’ eating disorders, the ones who feel bad when they are full, the ones who for sometimes maybe lived on one meal and so many more.
to the people who never picked a blade but want to, the ones who’s self harm isn’t valid because they don’t have red evidence.
to the people who experienced something scaring in their childhood but it is not on the list of all the bad things that happen.
to the people who have suicidal thoughts but aren’t suicidal.
to the people whose gender make it difficult for them to ask for help.
to the people who have good life but are in a way tied and cant be themselves.
I am so sorry for you. please know that I care, know that I love you. i know what it feels like. you don’t need validation for your problems, your problems are real and should never be compared to others.
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The seven characteristics of life include: maintaining homeostasis. She tried so hard to stay level headed. Deep breaths, calm thoughts, staying grounded. None of it ever mattered. Is it really such a big deal? Are you really that upset? She knew it wasn’t a big deal. She knew she shouldn’t be upset, but none of it ever mattered. You need to stop crying already, you’re too old for that and it’s embarrassing. Didn’t they know she wanted to stop? Didn’t they know it embarrassed too, probably far more than anyone else? Didn’t they know it wasn’t her fault, that for all her controlling tendencies this was the one thing she couldn’t get a hold on? All she wanted was for once in her life to feel stable, but nothing she wanted ever mattered.
the characteristics of life, part five // c.r.h. (via carpelanoche)
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i hate when people ask what my hobbies are like… hobbies? you mean, actually doing and enjoying things? no, you don’t understand, i spend my time avoiding shit!
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When YouTube celebs/heroes support their fans 💕
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me, beating my depression with a stick: not today you emo fuck
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Reblog if you want anyone considering suicide tonight to know that they are loved, cared for, and so valuable.
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I just went on a 40 min walk and spent 4£ on cookies and chocolate because of anxiety
#anxiety#anxiety attack#panic attack#chocolate#cookies#candy#walkingaround#cashflow#not really#sad#eating and crying#idiot#i feel like shit#i feel horrible#heinous#heinous night#pund#help
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Anxiety
Anxiety is when you feel like an idiot for doing something approximately out of your comfort zone or feeling like a complete loser for not taking that small step barely out for your comfort zone.
#anxious#failure#stupid#comfort zone#loser#depressive#depression#sad#idiot#panic attack#anxiety#anxiety attack#feeling stupid
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I’m thorn between what’s real and what’s only in my head. The lines which were so clear before seems to be almost transparent. I can’t hear right. All sounds feels so far away. What happens when my imagination will overlook reality.
#poetry#poem#sad#pain#hurt#lost#numbness#empty#feelings#lots of feelings#but not really#but also#a lot#losing someone#no sleep#story#makes no sense#messy thoughts#thoughts#writing#writer#spilled words#words#my writing#my words#what is real#reality#stop
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I’m sitting alone in my kitchen eating pizza sauce out of the bottle (with a knife if that’s intriguing for anyone) while I wait for those sweet, cheesy gooey treasures…. Let’s play with the thought that it’s also 2 am… Yeah
#pizza#pizzzza#i like pizza#I really like pizza#Okay#i'm not okay#pizza sauce#Food#eating#cheese#dough#Im just tagging ingredients in pizza#why#why am i like this#maaaan#be nice#everyday#im crying#theyre so beautiful#my babies
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