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Relatable

VENT (don’t bother reading if you don’t want)

This is how my mother is

The second I gained weight from her forcing me to eat, she stopped caring about me

She treated me like a child when I was underweight and now like crap

Im not fat at all, infact im pretty thin but at one point i had binge eating disorder for a short period of time and ever since she always blames me if food goes missing or anything

My whole life she’s had so many food rules

No more than 1 piece of bread

No meat

No more than one teaspoon of honey or sugar

No butter at one point

No maple syrup

No pretzels, popcorn anything like that

My diet when I was little was basically veggies and I’d constantly steal food so did my sister

I hate living here

I can’t wait till I’m out

Im deficient in protein and a few other things and I can’t even eat those foods without getting in trouble

There is constant notes on food

I need to be smaller

Because she only care about me when I’m basically dying

I can’t stop crying I hate how much she hates me

I was an accidental pregnancy and she reminds me of that a lot everytime we get in fights

She takes her anger out on me all the time and her anger issues are so severe nobody wants to be around her

And even neighbors tried to call social services

Like I don’t want o be 18 soon but at least I’ll have more freedom because I can’t handle this anymore

And I’ve had this stupid ed since I was little

( my dad even sides with her sometimes because he doesn’t want to get yelled at)

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Been under400 this whole week 😩

300 this week 🤞

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The feeling of water entering your empty stomach >>>

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1 week to go

No more than 300kcal and exercise everyday

He said it won’t work and I won’t lose weight

So I’ll prove him wrong

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Nothing like ur boss telling you that I’m looking unwell as motivation

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Cannot wait for him to come back and have the shock of his life

Wait she wasn’t lying…

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My sisters anniversary today, I wonder if I make her proud or I’m a disappointment and the fact I’ll never know absolutely kills me

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I have 3 weeks to he’s back I need to do this

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Is it just me that’s scared to take vitamins in case they make u gain weight even tho you know they won’t 😩

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I really just need someone to be my personal meanspo message like ask me what I ate then tell me it’s too much on a daily I’m praying 😭

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Massively binged the past 2 days after 1 month of doing so well

I hate myself so much wtf is wrong with me why do I do this to myself

Couldn’t even throw up cuz people were asking questions and awake I want to actually just end it now

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If you ever want motivation just go clothes shopping and try on skinny jeans

Trust me I want to die

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I ate sm today and yesterday ruined it all istg I want to die

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Happy birthday!!! 🩷

Lots of love tysm 🩶🩶

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Doing it to make them realise they should never have opened there mouth, should never have done what they did

Look at me now let’s hope u feel bad