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this is the most pain i’ve felt in a while ♡

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so what’s it like to let people go?

i’m meant to be sleeping or taking a lil rest at least but i’m feeling really overwhelmed at the moment. its just hit me how fast life actually goes lol and soon i wont be seen as a kid, ill have responsibilities and my head makes everything so much bigger than it already is and i don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t know how to stay calm, idk how people do it :/ its weird because i’ve always been the one who was there to listen to others and it helped and comforted me to understand that there’s ppl who experience the same things but i’ve started to compare my situation to theres. it isn’t healthy at all and i feel like i’m suffocating myself. i gotta stay positive tho ik ill be ok eventually because most people go through a similar feeling, like i’m not good enough or i’m not strong enough to live life like i’m expected. i’m scared of failing and i’m scared of letting people down. i do hope everyone i know now will be ok in the future and it hurts to look at their faces everyday and realise one day they’ll just be another forgotten contact in my phone. we’ll move on and forget each other growing into new people with new people. we’ll be different. too different to make it work. i still remember them i still remember how we’d laugh at things that wouldn’t make sense to us now. i still remember the walks we would take admiring the roads and life passing by. i still remember the weekends catching busses and running errands to make sure we’d got everyone. we had each other and the whole world felt safe. i feel like i’ve lost the ability to trust and make relationships like that again because i know what’s to come in the future. they won’t remember me as much as i do of them. so whats it like to let me go?

[floatingintospaces]

so what’s it like to let people go?

i’m meant to be sleeping or taking a lil rest at least but i’m feeling really overwhelmed at the moment. its just hit me how fast life actually goes lol and soon i wont be seen as a kid, ill have responsibilities and my head makes everything so much bigger than it already is and i don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t know how to stay calm, idk how people do it :/ its weird because i’ve always been the one who was there to listen to others and it helped and comforted me to understand that there’s ppl who experience the same things but i’ve started to compare my situation to theres. it isn’t healthy at all and i feel like i’m suffocating myself. i gotta stay positive tho ik ill be ok eventually because most people go through a similar feeling, like i’m not good enough or i’m not strong enough to live life like i’m expected. i’m scared of failing and i’m scared of letting people down. i do hope everyone i know now will be ok in the future and it hurts to look at their faces everyday and realise one day they’ll just be another forgotten contact in my phone. we’ll move on and forget each other growing into new people with new people. we’ll be different. too different to make it work. i still remember them i still remember how we’d laugh at things that wouldn’t make sense to us now. i still remember the walks we would take admiring the roads and life passing by. i still remember the weekends catching busses and running errands to make sure we’d got everyone. we had each other and the whole world felt safe. i feel like i’ve lost the ability to trust and make relationships like that again because i know what’s to come in the future. they won’t remember me as much as i do of them. so whats it like to let me go?

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How to make potato stew ( “women need to make the potato stew” is the equivalent of “women belong in the kitchen” in japanese).

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affirmation for today,

you’re enough <3

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You’re doing so well :) I’m so proud of you for making it this far <3

Thank you for existing （＾ν＾）

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You’re not responsible for people. Let them know you’re there and you care to listen and support them, but don’t make it your responsibility to keep them happy. Never forget yourself. Eat well and stay hydrated, i’m so proud of you :)

No negativity, please.

Via @weheartit

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My life note

Sometimes it’s hard to imagine people around me without me in their lives. I wonder whether i’ll be forgotten, or thought of, or maybe missed. But as i’ve lived these almost 17 years, I have learnt to understand that life moves on. Life lives on because that’s the meaning of it’s existence. Some people spend their whole lives waiting for the day they can finally leave and experience the unknown. The unknown sounds promising i guess. Every single year someone dies. They get recognised for the fact that they are no longer here. Their name rings death. Their name is a symbolism for loss. Depression is their memory. I don’t want my memory to live on in a negative way, which is why i understand suicide isn’t for me. I’m young. I have emotions that I think no one else understands. The truth is, we’re all the same. We try so hard to seem different or special but it’s no use to be honest. We all live, laugh and love. Ok, ok. I’ll cut that bullshit lmao. But for real, we’re all the fucking same. We’re born into a world that prevents difference but makes us feel like we’re alone. At the end, everyone is alone. After all, the only escape- which is believed to be death- happens alone. You’ve only got yourself. People care, don’t get me wrong of course they do. But you shouldn’t dwell upon their care. You’re better off alone. It’s ok I guess. I don’t really mind it because i’ve kind of always felt alone. whether i’m with people or not, I think i’ve matured too early or maybe i’m just at that stage in life when everything feels like it’s against me. I’m just a teenager lol. We all feel like this. I didn’t always understand. I’ve always been there for people. To listen. To advise. And well, it’s helped me realise that everyone’s emotions are the same. We all go through the same shit. No one’s special but we feel like we are. I’m glad i’m who i am because i truly understand how important living is. At a age when most people feel that being alone and depressed is the end for them, I feel ok. This is experience. Life is an experience. I know i’ve just got to try and see the best in what I have now. I’ve got to work with what i’ve got. Make the most out of everything that comes my way because, life moves way faster then we thought. I reflect on old memories wanting to relive them so bad lmao. But, if i keep spending now thinking about the past, I’ll waste it. I know that life goes fast. There’s nothing I can do but enjoy it. And that’s what i’m trying to do.