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WRITING

Writing on keys. Fulfilling my own need's. Taken by the backseat. I boiled low in the pot. Sticking to the background cause being seen is too much. Emotionally restricted. Too many mouths to feed. Escaping my digression because I was tamed to ease your needs. BX

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INSECURE SECURITY

Insecure about my security I let their voice's get the best of me Told to stand out so I chose to blend in People only love you if you make yourself less than them ~ BX

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WASTE

You were a waste of time. I boiled myself alive. I wish I could say I didn't mean it, but you know we'd both have to disagree. I wanted love, but I chose lust. I couldn't believe you so I knew you could be someone to trust. ~ BX

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O N E OF A KIND

Distressed by my own self hatred

I stare into mirrors to try to explain creation Lonely from the inside

From the outside it would seem I am doing just fine You wouldn't be the first to tell me I am one of a kind ~ BX

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MAGICIAN

I am the magician Adult's always told me I was spiritually gifted Gifted with thought's Gifted with desire I am everything that they aspire ~ BX

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I CAN

He's used to their doting

That's why he believes himself to be holier than I am

Pump the breaks, baby

It's not your fault you don't understand what I can ~ Bx

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SANDS OF TIME

Insecure little man You get off by your own hand Gambled with fate on too many people's dime Plagued by your own scrutiny You dig your own feet into the sands of time ~ Bx

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LeSsOn

Grateful for the lesson

I am my teacher's favorite pest

Blanking on a description of when to get you back. ~ Bx

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DeStInEd `

We do not have to think We do not have to do I give myself the strength to sit & receive the thing's I'm destined to ~ Bx

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LoViNg

Loving my flavors. Salt soaks in old wounds. My sugar level is low. My feminine side is all in bloom. Learning to attract what I wanted to chase. Life is happening from me & I take my rightful place. ~ Bx

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PeStIc

Holding onto to me. Forcing myself out of the need to please. Other people's plans are not my loss. They wanted me to suffer till they added up the cost. Organic by nature. They drowned me in their pesstic side. Going for my own glory. I'm ready to leave you all behind. ~ Bx

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HaRdEnD

You hardened me as a child I never stood a chance in this wild Dropped to a planet programmed to believe in other's thoughts If you don't follow their certainties, they'll crucify you like they did their own god ~ Bx

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OPENLY

Openly sadistic I have no need for masochistic's Turning my frenemies into traitors one at a time Leave me to the wolves It's my turn to stand up to you & reap your demise Attitude with purpose You know what it cost It is part of your plot to live with my loss ~ BX

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DuLl

Mind numbing I like to stay dull Like a blade made for killing Life has made me feel small ~ BX

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ShOrT sToRy 2.0

Short story. You got the glory. From your lungs I was ripped in 2. You never broke us you fixed us with glue. Stuck to each other I wanted to stay attached. My mother taught me to always be on the attack. Waiting for the other shoe. I slept while you cursed. Your very existence is the reason I came to this earth ~ Bx

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BaBy MiNe

Baby you were mine. A hostage to your crime. Blocked the road to save me from your lies. I'm the one I despise. Love really is blind. Used my care to feed into the addiction. Bumbling through the thank you's never given. ~ Bx

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DoWnEr

Today has been a downer Before I awoke it was already decided It all comes from a place of unrest Constantly doing I was taught to always be at my best The sad tragedy of a daughter turned mother taking the place of a runaway father High expectations that I could never reset My legacy is hidden in my death ~ Bx