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me and my hot water bottle against the world xoxox

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Hunger hurts but starving works

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i feel hungrier when i’ve eaten than when i haven’t

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only 5 more kg until im half the body weight i used to be 🫡

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change of plans i didn’t weigh myself yesterday bc i didn’t wna trigger myself bc my mom forced me to eat bc i ✨ passed out ✨ in front of her lol

ate an entire bowl of low fat yogurt with 5 raspberries and some cucumber and carrots but it feels like i have protein stomach LOL (ik thats not it but it feels the same) im so bloated so im just going to try to eat as little as i can, so she can’t say im not eating but still little enough to HOPEFULLY be 55kg by christmas

i also walked 25k steps on sunday, yesterday 21k and this morning already 10k and planning on doing at least 10k more so that might help tooo

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soooo i did this before 8am because i keep waking up around 4am bc im manic so i might as well just walk every early morning bc let me tell u how mf peaceful it is with no people on the streets looking at all the christmas lights walking in my pyjamas listening to banger after banger 😭 also im gonna go for my sunday walky later with my bf and maybe a little evening walk too can’t wait to weigh myself tmrw

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im just gna try to fast until christmas not saying im making it but curious how far i can come plus im also weighing myself everyday 2 days instead of every day multiple times bc im drinking more water and i don’t wna be triggered by the water weight lmao

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no but its all about the details

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I am getting skinny but at what cost (I have no tits now)

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reminder for if you messed up / binged today ♡ ⋆｡

don't beat yourself up over it. take a breath, drink some water, and try again tomorrow. results won't come overnight and if they did, everyone would be doing this.

acknowledge that today didn't go as planned, and wake up tomorrow with a better outlook

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i hope we all survive this

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this is so stupid i just wanna be skinnyntjfewfkwmndrnbfjafnecjecwfdddndjj

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does anyone else isolate themselves for scary long periods of time because they don't wanna be seen until they're skinny enough

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no but who would i be without fasting for weeks instead of days???? its a literal addiction i can’t stop it feels so good to be able to have control for that long it feels SO powerful

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I ain't addicted I'm committed 💯💯💯