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My kids & myself

What are you most proud of in your life? When my kids were young, between 14 and 10, I became seriously ill with depression after the divorce of their father and me. I soon after became addicted to drugs and ended up in prison. Their father drank a lot but provided a safe home for them to grow up in and they are young adults now that don’t use drugs, they are all in good jobs. They work hard and…

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Quilting

What have you been working on? I’m narrowing this down to quilting. I made a quilt 25 years ago that my youngest has kept. Over the years it’s worn out so she asked me for another. It’s a fun thing to tackle and each stitch I can’t help but think of her. Also, since my other kids might feel slighted, I’m also working on projects for them❤️

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Forgetting

Don’t look back, forget it Let go, let it go and Don’t look back Look ahead. That’s all new Press on, strive for it. Reach Focus on now, not then Don’t try to remember, remember when? That’s been done, it’s over. Finished This is now. Right now. To begin Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay…

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I value being alone

What’s something most people don’t know about you? I am outgoing, always smiling. I’m easy to talk to and I listen really well. I listen really well because I don’t care to share, I keep my inner being to myself. I prefer solitude to a party. People are surprised when I tell them I’m introverted because I’m so outgoing open and friendly!!

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Learn Who You are

we can move beyond our regrets and love ourselves

Your ‘Who” is different than your ‘Do’ I am frail, I am weak, I fall short. That, however is not WHO I am! I am chosenI am calledI am forgivenI am justifiedI am lovedI am a Royal PriesthoodI am a child of GodI am the apple of His eyeI am alive with ChristI am HolyI am without blame before Him in loveI am a joint-heir with ChristI am an overcomer I am a new creature in ChristI am the light of…

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Judge Not

forgive yourself, love yourself

Do not judge yourself harshly. Without mercy for ourselves we cannot love the world. — Gautama Buddha Don’t forget, forgiving yourself includes not judging yourself So here I am, so focused on my sin, what I think I am doing wrong, that I forget I am loved. That His blood covers me, I am loved and I am loveable! Recently a friend of mine sent me a devotion on judging ourselves. I have a judge.…

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Facing the Truth

In order to keep your self respect you have to learn to say no

I need to be honest I was shown something today. I have to take responsibility for my own actions. When you are in a relationship with a controller it is our responsibility to follow our heart and follow what God says. I let my fear of rejection and fear of being alone keep me in an unhealthy relationship. I never said no. What he wanted for dinner was what we had. Where we went was wherever he…

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Revelation

Facing my truth today and I find that I am ok, I am on my way, life is just beginning. Healing my soul will bring healing to my life!

The Word is Truth When I read this scripture in Psalm 4:2 it jumped out of the page and settled into my heart. It resonated with my soul. I wrote last night about me chasing love in my relationships and they always fail. Love and acceptance come from my Lord and that is where I am right now. I am still mourning the man I love but I know that I am not a failure. I am not a loser. I am not…

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I am not alone

God has a plan for you. Surrender your will. You can choose to not follow your emotions and trust God.

This is my first post in a long time. I am undergoing a transition in my life. I once wrote about my first experience with God at age ten. Psalm 23. I read it and I cried. I knew he was speaking directly to me. Later in life I looked toward men for my approval, for love, for acceptance. I lowered my standards, I did not set or keep boundaries. I ignored the voice inside me that said no. I quieted…

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Thirsty Thursday

Just as your body needs water so does your spirit need to be refreshed! s the deer pants for water so my soul longs after You!

In your thirst for knowledge, be sure not to drown in all the information. … Ecclesiastes 12:12 KJV: And further, by these, my son, be admonished: of making many books there is no end; and much study is a weariness of the flesh. K.I.S.S. Keep It Simple Stupidrehab So many theories, so many opinions John 14:6 ... “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto…

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Wednesday's Wake Up

There comes a point when we have to stop blaming others for lying to us and stop letting them lie, learn to let go

Everything he ever said, every promise…. “If your actions don’t live up to your words, you have nothing to say.”― DaShanne Stokes “…they speak great swelling words of emptiness…” ― 2 Peter 2 18 With every broken promise There comes a time when the person lying can no longer be responsible for the breaking of your heart. You are responsible for your own heart ache. When I realized this I was…

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Tasteful Tuesday

The first bite of a harsh truth can set your teeth but once swallowed you will find sweet freedom

Taste and see that the Lord is good Isaiah 30:20 New International Version Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. In my life I have tasted much adversity and drank deep from the cup of affliction but God has never left me. He uses this diet to strengthen us. To test and prove our…

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Monday Monday

Every Monday I have physical therapy for my knee. Well, I missed last week but continued my exercises. This last Friday I woke up with lower back pain, muscle spasms and that led to frustration. Getting older apparently also means recovery slows and I really haven’t accepted that part of the aging process. Anyhow, I went today and as I write this, I’m laying down with my knee elevated above my…

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Ninety Nine

Oh how He loves us!

Luke 15:3-7 Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell…

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Set Your Clocks!!

Don't forget the time! Its time to love yourself!!!

Love What God made in YOU

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People Places & Things

When I was ready to change everything in my life, these scriptures became the outline to my recovery.

Come Out From Among Them I am a recovering addict. The first thing you do when you quit or stop using, is decide to change. You start thinking about it, unless of course the law gets you and you are forced to stop. Or it kills you. They say the second thing you need to do is change your “people, places and things” Stop hanging with your old friends, then you stop going to the places you used to…

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Smile! It's Saturday

Forgive yourself. Love who you are! You can love who you are and not like some of things you do or say. Be you!

I hope you have a wonderful day! “Anyone who has a continuous smile on his face conceals a toughness that is almost frightening.”― Greta Garbo I just read that quote and decided it is my favorite! I have been told I always have a smile on my face, I have been told I am too emotional. I agree with Miss Garbo. I am tough. I feel things strongly and that is OK. I am able to feel things, face…