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gregory house “try not to make every interaction with wilson into a gay sex joke” challenge: impossible

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i think about this episode to an unhealthy extent

they're so stupid for each other

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why did they do this

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queerbaits will really have the most tragic, heart shattering, life altering relationship dynamics and then be like they’re just really good friends 😇 nothing more 😇 this is simply how besties act 😇

canon mlm rep be like "i like a boy..but im!?!? also a boy!? >-<??" meanwhile queerbaiting "if you die i'm alone".

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watching house is like being high. like yeah the patient is dying but also my silly little doctors are being so babygirl rn. they’re so cute! and i simply cannot help but be filled with glee whenever house and wilson interact they are so in love

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Dr. Lisa Cuddy 😍 RUFF RUFF ARFF BARK BARK

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bestie introduced me to House MD and i don’t think i’ve ever been into a show this much. i’m OBSESSED like actively shaking while writing this obsessed. all of the characters are well thought out and have more to them than just being part of house’s team (and they’re all hot) and there are puzzles each episode like this show has got me HOOKED oh yeah and house and wilson are so obviously in love it’s ridiculous they need to just kiss

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just finished chapter 9 of just lovers (like we were supposed to be) and i think i will never recover

i cannot believe i am this emotionally attached to these characters that even the thought of regulus possibly dying and the fact that james doing something he never thought he was capable of doing made me break apart like that (side note i have not read crimson rivers yet and although i planned to i honestly don’t know how i will handle it if this one chapter from a happy fic tore me apart) genuinely as someone who relates heavily to james the thought of him losing control like that for regulus had me so distraught. if i were put in that situation is that what would happen? in the end though these are made up characters in a made up story and i unfortunately just can’t help but to empathize with them. james potter you can do no wrong and i wish i could understand that within myself as well. ITS A MADE UP STORY WHY AM I SO AFFECTED BY IT GOD DAMN IT

bizarrestars you absolute menace please spare me (jk i love you and your writing is so magical and impactful i can’t help but philosophize about it sometimes)

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do you ever just start like convulsing while reading a really good fic because it is simply that amazing and impactful?

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Rip to the people having a fit over queer and racial diversity in Bridgerton, you could never have handled Anne with an E

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so incredibly upset with some of these bridgerton fans at the moment. just because michaela is a woman and not a man like in the book doesn’t mean the entire plot from the book is going to be thrown out the window. the book deals heavily with infertility, which is a very important issue that women face INCLUDING WOMEN IN LESBIAN RELATIONSHIPS and I am quite excited to see how the show incorporate elements from the book while still having this wlw representation.

it’s terribly frustrating seeing all these fans get upset over francesca when they are also praising benedict for being bi. the fact that fans were expecting eloise to be the lesbian rep in the show and are now upset over fran makes it clear that they were just projecting stereotypes. being of the mindset that only benedict, the 2nd son free to do as he pleases, and eloise, who hates society and men, are the only bridgerton siblings fit to be lgbtq is an outrage. it is clear that some fans just want another straight relationship that they can project onto and do not care at all about lgbtq rep. francesca does not fit a specific queer stereotype and it is so refreshing to see that in media today.

the show has not always been accurate to the books so when you go ‘oh but the plot won’t be like the books’ you’re right. it won’t. and that’s okay. these books were written 20 years ago and the show is adapting them for today’s screen. i hope fans who have this mindset are able to understand it is more important to show this representation rather than to be book accurate.

i personally am so excited to see where francesca and micheala’s story will go

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desperately need to eat some bread and drink some ale and just have a merry time with the hobbits in the shire

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fanfic writers are really out here creating POETRY like goddam

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the way i will be so unwell when benedict bridgerton gets his season

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sometimes i just wanna slap sam winchester across the face like wtf is going on inside that head if his

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the grip that desert duo has on me like- every time they interact i’m either kicking my feet with glee or running laps around my room with the zoomies or screaming at my phone screen like they can hear me

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gonna rant here for a bit </3

it’s been months and i still can’t seem to get over this. she was my best friend and now it’s over. she broke up with me and didn’t understand that i needed space. i also didn’t totally understand at first that i needed space which made it even more difficult. she wanted to stay best friends and i tried but it was hard, especially since it was the end of the school year and i had so much to do. now she practically hates me because she thinks i abandoned her in her time of need. i tried to help but there was only so much i could do when i was also handling my own issues. i wish there was a way for her to understand my perspective. when i finally told her that i had been trying but i was just very busy and stressed at that time, she blew up at me. she told me it was my fault she got bad grades since she had spent more time with me than on her work. i don’t understand how that could me my fault and those words really stung. it’s been months now, i have new friends and am quite happy to be honest. being back home for the holidays has brought these feelings back up though. i wish she wouldn’t hate me. i don’t hate her and i don’t want things to go back to the way they were. i just wish i could get over it and for some reason i can’t. my life has been happier without her but she was such a big part of it for so long. it’s hard to move on from someone you shared so much with.

i still sometimes think i was the poison in the relationship. she truly made me believe it too. in reality what caused all the issues was probably more a mixture of us both. i hope she can forgive me one day.

i forgive her. she hurt me and i don’t want to forgive her if i’m being honest but i need to move on. she isn’t a part of my life anymore. she was dealing with stuff and unfortunately i couldn’t be the rock she needed at that time so she took her frustration out on me. i was someone to point blame on. i understand that and i forgive her. i hope she can move on as well.

xx