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Comment for links to this outfit collection aesthetic of Morticia Addams.

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Is this rock bottom? Or am I doomed to fall in a bottomless pit of despair?

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I'm a Disappointment: The Paradigm of the Eldest

Oh to be loved and sheltered. To be swaddled and clothed. To be taught and read to.

What else can your independent parental figure want in return for providing the basic human rights granted the moment you entered this world?

Absolute fucking Perfection.

The loving gestures such registering as forms of investment. The shelter provided becomes nothing more than a reminder to be grateful. The swaddles slowly evolve into a chokehold of reminders and the clothes a sort of bribery.

From being taught to be kind to being taught how to hustle. From reading books about prince charming to reading the cues of a very fucked up mindset.

The eldest mindset. The passive mindset. The sheep mindset.

When things fail to play out the way you imagined and you start worrying. Is the voice inside your head that is worrying yours? Or your parents? Talking down on oneself and self-loathing has been hard wired since before you can speak, that the voice inside your head doing this is automatic.

And if you listen closely, it's not yours.

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College girls who have been pregnant. Give me a reason why you didn't abort when you first found out.

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I will never understand how some girls will ALWAYS bring up the past of a person you mention.

Like I can tell a girl I know that I am talking or starting to see this guy and she will say things like, "Oh you know he..." or "He's really not the type..." It may seem as girls having girls backs, but it's not.

Everyone has a past, everyone has done things they aren't proud of, everyone hates to be associated with the bad things.

It's just funny and ironic how they give shit of being in such situations like that but when subjecting others they're more than ready.

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*giggles in consent *

Need you to interact with this if I have consent to send random voice messages of me jerking off to you

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A cruel thing to be given in a world like this...

– Audrey Hepburn

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Random Slogan Idea

Don't worry, I'm bisexual. It's more environmental-friendly.

I love it. It's so random and so unrelated that it feels like it can be related, but the more you think, the more you get afraid of finding out.

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I just love a man that can pick you up like you weigh nothing.

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Two weeks ago I stopped talking to a person I thought I would have grown old together. A person I thought would always have my back and never bring me hurt.

Two weeks ago my best friend told me she was embarrassed to be associated with me. The part of me that was attached to her died that day.

I've never felt more at ease than right now.

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But I've realised Iet faith and trust make those precious to me destroy me....why is that?

“Never let fear and stupid pride make you lose someone who’s precious to you.”

— Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

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i need to hurt to forget.

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so i wonder if he would've still called me beautiful if i hadn't taken my clothes off on our second encounter.

if he would've still spoke to me if i hadn't kissed him back on our first walk.

if he would've still texted 'i miss you' if i never had to get on my knees whenever we met.

but it's all for nothing because I know the truth. He wouldn't have known me like he does now if I had said 'no'.

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I have downplayed so much, my real problems seem fake.

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I hate how my entire life is deduced down to a single decision made by a group of higher ups who value money and convenience over hard work and growth.

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Man I love being slut-shamed for doing things I haven't ticked off my bucket list yet.