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hey new moot :) may I request some shuggy hcs? I am unhealthily obsessed w them. could be fluffy or angsty or spicy or anything in between <3333
Hi everyone, this is @kilucore one of my new best friends. They've only really seen OPLA but already loves Buggy. Now I just have to brainwash them into believing his full name is Buggy D Clown and he's the true King Of The Pirates.
This isn't what they asked for but it's what my mind gave me. Later, I'll do a Buggy/Shanks AU. It will involve Shanks in a poly relationship and Buggy being a jealous bitch.
I love thes idiots.
The Captain Gets The Hat
"I used to know a pirate who wore a hat just like this... We served together on a pirate crew when we we're about your age.... "
"Until he betrayed me."
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"But why not go to the South Blue? There's tons of treasure there!"
"But we're already here! And who knows, since there are so little pirates here in the East Blue, there could be all sorts of treasure that no one has found yet! "
"But it's boring! Even Roger said it was-"
"Don't say his name!"
A while ago, before the crew broke up, before they all just abandoned them, Rayleigh had gotten Buggy a new pair of shoes. They were big and red and Biggy hates them, but Rayleigh said he should wear them anyway. "They're harder to slip in. Safer."
Right now, Buggy doesn't want to be safe. He wants to be pissed off.
Still even as he storms across the wooden pier, the shows made almost no sound at all. It didn't matter how much weight he throw into each step or how hard he brought his foot down. His storming away sounded more like a gentle breeze.
The worst part is he could feel Shanks watching the whole time.
"Hey." At least the shoes don't stop Buggy from being able to swat Shanks's hand away when the other boy tries setting it on his shoulder. "Come on, don't be like that. Why do you want to stay in the East anyway? "
"Because-" Buggy stops, even as he turns to glare at Shanks. The boy has such a bright infectious smile, he makes you feel like everything would be alright.
Only it wouldn't, would it? Not even Shanks's smile could bring back Roger, bring back their FAMILY. Even old Crocus is gone and the last place any of them knew that any of the others would be is in the East. Is in Lougetown.
Is standing below the tower where they-
"Because the East is easy pickings!" Buggy argues, motioning around to all the sailors, the shoppers, the passing Marines not paying them an ounce of attention. "We can do whatever we want and no one can stop us!" And if the others do come looking, they'll be here. Waiting.
Shanks puts on his "serious" face for a moment, though truth be told it's not very serious. "Hmmm... Well, I'm the captain and I say we're going North!" He declares with a huge, cocky grin. The kind that looks like their da-
Like Ro-
Like a pirate.
"You just said So-" Buggy starts to correct before Shanks's words really start to creepy in. His eyes go wide. He did not just say that! No way! "What make you think YOU'RE the captain!?"
Shanks can't be captain! There is only one captain! You can't have two captains and they all know-
They all....
He can't be captain!
"I have the hat!" Shanks declairs in his same light hearted tone, patting the Strawhat Roger had given him WAY before Shanks had been old enough to be captain. He's only 14 now! He barely even has facial hair (Buggy knows, him and Shanks have been comparing for years now waiting to see whose would grow in first) ! "That makes me that captain!"
"That's not true!" Buggy argues, swinging to grab for the stupid Strawhat. Shanks just laughs, taking a wide step back. That is unfair! Buggy hasn't had time to his his growth spurt yet. "Give it here! I deserve to be captain!"
Shanks sticks out his tongue. "Hey, maybe if you're really nice I'll make you my first mate!"
Buggy's face went as red as his nose. He isn't first mate!
Roger is the captain! Rayleigh is first mate! Shanks and him are just- are just-
"Give it here!" Buggy demands, jumping for the raggy hat again.
"That's a very rude way for a first mate to act."
"I said give it here!"
"Maybe I should demote you to cabin boy."
"Grr, I wouldn't be your boy if yours was the last ship in the se-"
SPLASH!!
Buggy tries to draw in a deep breath but the water is already sucking him down. Ocean fills his lungs, weighing him down even more. Trying to push the water aside is like trying to swim through concrete. He can still see the sun twinkling above, reflecting the blue of the water all around him but it's fading. Everything is getting darker.
Is this how Roger felt? No! No not Roger! He must have been brave! He wouldn't be scared or drowning or poleaxes or death. Roger isn't afraid of anything.
Bubbles float out from his mouth, the last of his air leaving his lungs. They pop silently before even hitting the surface, but Buggy heard them in the ocean all around him.
Shanks don't be a captain. Don't be like Roger.
Don't leave me.
The next thing he knows, Buggy can feel the splinters digging into his back, through the worn out shirt he'd owned too many years. The one that didn't fit Nantoto anymore and had been passed along, first to Shanks than to Buggy.
Two worried brown eyes stare down at him, with Shanks's hair a dark, wet red, sticking to his pink cheeks.
Buggy coughs water upon him. "Ehh!" Shanks laughs it all off, brushing it away. "Hey no spitting! And here I thought Raylogh gave you those shoes so you WOULDN'T end up in the sea!"
He can joke, about Buggy is still mad. "I hate these shoes!" He screams, ripping them off and chucking them in the sea. Without him in them they float. Just like everything, he is what is bringing them down. It's him. It's him that got sick, him that stopped Shanks seeing Laughtail. "I hate this fruit! I hate this stupid, stupid sea and it's stupid Marines!" Him that ate the fruit that could have maybe been the fruit Crocus always talked about, the one that could save Rogers' life. Its his fault they're all gone! No wonder no one of the crew came to see them!
He pushes himself up swiping at Shanks's leg as he does so.. the boy trips slightly but keeps from falling into the water.
"Hey, wait!" Shanks scurries to his feet as Buggy starts to march off. "Where are you going? The ship is that way? Wow, you must be really water logged after-"
"YOUR ship is that way!" Buggy snaps, not even turning around to look back at the other teenager. "I don't need you, you know! I can be my own captain!"
"Buggy...."
And maybe it is there is something in Shanks's voice that just reminds Biggy so much of Roger, of his old captain, he has to stop. And maybe it's just because it's Shanks. But in an instance Buggy found e couldn't move forward, not with out one last look back.
Shanks is taller than him. His hair is the same color as Buggy's nose, though he'd give you a black eye if you said so. His face is as bright as the sun and his heart as unpredictable as the sea. It makes Buggy's stomach hurt just looking at him.
And in that moment, Shanks wouldn't look at him either. His face was hidden, the shadow from the brim of his hat covering whatever he might be feeling. Buggy wishes he could hide away like that. His emotions feel as obvious as the nose on his face. His heart feels like it wants to escape his chest and run back to the sea.
Maybe to drown. Maybe to see if Shanks would jump in after it a second time.
"Do you know what this means?" Shanks asks, slowly lifting his chin, meeting Buggy's eyes. He feels so young compared to the other boy in the moment. He can see something in Shanks. A spark. A future. Something Buggy wants to steal but not to take it from Shanks.
Just so he can hold it, just so wherever that spark goes, Buggy will too.
"We'll be rivals!" Buggy shoots back, trying to muster his anger. "We'll both be captains and-"
Shanks shakes his head and Buggy finds himself choking on his own words. Its the boy's smile. "No," he says, taking a step closer before that smile blooms into something larger, something beautiful.
And before Buggy can react Shanks has thrown himself across the dock and right into Buggy's arms. Its so forceful Buggy nearly trips backwards right into the water but even without his special shoes, Shanks holds tight, and he stays on the dock.
"It means we're allies!" Shanks declairs, pulling back only to pat Buggy's shoulders. He is absolutely glowing. Like this is what he wants. Maybe this is what he'd been waiting for. "From now on, we're our own captains, but we're also allies! And whenever you need me I'll be there and when I need you, you'll be there! I'll cheer on all your greatest victories and you're revenge all my worst losses! Just like the best allies!"
And the way that spark shown in Shanks, Buggy couldn't help but smile back. "Yeah!" He agrees, taking Shanks'e hand in his own, sealing the pack. "We're going to be the greatest allies the seas have ever seen!"
"Like two captains but one crew!" Shanks promises. "I'll always be there fore you! No matter what!"
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The applause dims as Buggy sweeps back into the backroom of his ship. The smile he'd worn for the crowd immediately slips away. "Well," he demands, snapping at Cabaji before.... Well, ignoring Richie altogether. You could never tell with Richie.
"it was great boss!" Someone cheers and the rest are quick to join in, heaping on the praise. Buggy just keeps sauntering on the back of the ship. To their poster board, listing all their upcoming preformance. "The best anyone in this sad little town has ever seen that's for-"
"Yeah for US!" Buggy snaps, the sarcasm dripping from his lips even more than his make up. "BUT WAS HE HERE?!"
His hand slams down on the poster.
Shanks is older now. He has three scars, ones Buggy int see him get. He's taller but it's the same smile. Buggy would know that spark anywhere.
A silence falls over the preformers. No one wants to say it. They all remember what happened to Kiki.
"What is the POINT!?" Buggy screams, turning his ire on the freaks, these losers, this pathetic lot who couldn't get the attention of one stupid, childish man in a silly hat. "Of putting on the greatest show if it's not seen by the greatest PEOPLE!?"
"Well...." Lionel suggests gently after a ong pause where Buggy looks at each of them , eyebrow raised. Huh? Well... Come on. Is there a single. Solidarity idea in those stupid heads of yours!? "You know, maybe he just hasn't been to the East bl---" The knife to his throat cuts off whatever he had been trying to say.
"Are you saying I can't get his ATTENTION!? That somehow, because I STAYED WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSE TO, WHERE ROGER LEFT US THAT I-"
Buggy pauses, looking out the porthole of the ship. Waling back into town where happy families, kids with Cotten candies, stuffed dolls held under couple arms. Such a perfect, happy little picture. Like a spark of sunshine.
"Don't just stand there," Buggy snaps without turning around. " Help your fellow freak. This is why I can't have SAG members on this crew, I swear, " Buggy jokes as a few of the underlings rush forward putting pressure to Lionel's wounds.
All while Buggy watches a happy little family heading back. The dad with his daughter in the shoulder. The other holding her stuffed toy, ruffling the girls hair. Such a happy little couple. Such a happy family.
"I think...." buggy says, tearing the wanted poster from their billboard, letting it crumble in his fist. "You're right. If we want attention we need to go... Bigger."
His laugh fills the boat, and then the ship, and even as the canons start to ring out and the buildings collapse you can still here him. Laughing.
You want to be allies, Shanks? Why not come see his latest victory with your own eyes. He promises. It will be bigger and badder than even you can ignore.
#one piece#buggy villian backstory#buggy the clown#buggy d clown#you'll never take that away from me#akagami no shanks#shanks x buggy#ask and you shall receive#opla#one piece live action#sorry this wasn't sluttier#next time for sure#my writings#one piece fanfiction#oh I added some Buggy daddy issues with Roger#opps#RedNose#my writing
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I....would like to see Eli and Boone.... holding hands........π³
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#asks#anonymous#craig boone#fallout tag#boone x courier#boone/courier#oc: eli#doodly thingy#:^D#the zoomed in reaction but its exactly the same as the non zoomed in version is funny every time and you'll never take it away from me
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YELLOWJACKETS APPRECIATION WEEK 2023 day three: favorite dynamic β£Β SHAUNA x GHOST JACKIE
#yellowjackets#*#yjweek2023#jackie taylor#shauna shipman#jackie x shauna#jackieshauna#shaunajackie#ella purnell#sophie nelisse#melanie lynskey#flashing gifs#i was just going to do regular jackieshauna but then i was like no. let's not be completely predictable.#let's be quirky let's be funky and fresh#even if ghost jackie is just mostly shauna's imagination. she is soooo real to me#you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you!!#ghostjackieshauna just takes the most toxic crazy elements of jackieshauna and amps it up and that's why i love it so much i think
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i luved ur burning cheese fic on ao3 especially bc no one posts ab them..im somewhat inspired to post my own burning cheese content
Which one? I've written a bunch of them haha. Whichever one it is, thank you! It always makes my day when people come tell me they enjoy my work β€οΈ
And I understand your pain... Not enough BurningCheese content of any kind, at least on the Western side. Asian side of the fandom is filled to bursting with fanart and stuff. I think the problem is that most people on our side of the fence are terrified to ship it publicly because there's a risk of harassment and ostracization from the others, because boo hoo toxic boo hoo abuser x abused (and then they'll turn around and ship Hollyt4ya and ShadowSp1ce like the cowardly hypocrites they are lol). I'm tempted to assume most of my asks are anonymous for that reason. It's a shame, really. It's all a shame. Shame that BurningCheese doesn't get the love and attention it deserves and shame that anyone who tries to give it is burned at the stake for it
But I really do encourage you to post content! Pretty please! The world always needs more BurningCheese stuff. I'm only one person, I can't do it all alone haha
#(if the fic you're referencing is... that one. I'm super sorry chapter 3 is so late. I'm working on it currently and hoping to post it soon)#(I didn't abandon it I promise! I've just been too busy to sit down and write anything properly. I never want to leave works unfinished)#it's weird. sometimes i lament that BurningCheese isn't as popular as ShadowVanilla#and then I remember what was done to ShadowVanilla by new fans and think BurningCheese remaining niche is probably for the best#if there was a way to give BurningCheese that popularity while also removing the flanderized slop then that would be great#otherwise I think we'll all just have to put that monkey's paw down and walk away. painful as it is#oh well... I'll always be here. I'll always ship them. no one can ever take them from me#and I've got plenty of stories left to tell so you'll all have to deal with me for a while still haha#cookie run kingdom#burningcheese#goldenspice#merchant asks
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Speaking of "The City on the Edge of Forever," I've been thinking about how my femslash Spirk AU winds out through the canon TOS episodes, interacts with gender expectations of the show, etc, and am mentally organizing episodes by how drastically affected they'd be.
I'm also thinking of S'paak hiding her ears beneath a beanie in 1930 :P
#s'paak and jessica in a piece of the action too! damn. i didn't even think of their mobster suit chic era when i was planning but...#still. poor s'paak freezing while trying to build a computer out of 1930 materials and also passing as fully human AND pining#iirc there's canonically only one bed in their flop (no really) and she's torn between staying as far away as possible when they sleep#(for lesbian angst reasons) or huddling near her (for lesbian angst + living space heater reasons)#i think s'paak is obviously ice-cold when jessica's skin brushes hers but she blatantly lies about being fine and stays 6 in away at night#jessica (exhausted but trying to think of how to convince her. suddenly struck by genius): i don't understand why you're being illogical :(#s'paak: *affronted cat look*#also poor s'paak not only has to watch jess fall for edith but keep them from smashing into homophobia in the usa c. 1930#on the bright side both jessica and s'paak look very cute and i think s'paak finds she likes the music of the time#it once slips out when all three of them are talking that s'paak is musical and when edith is like 'oh what do you play?' s'paak is '...'#and jessica promptly says: oh she's a wonderful harpist. the first time i heard her play with some - uh - friends i stopped in the hall#and stood outside the door and just listened because i was on my way to somewhere else but it was so beautiful#edith: oh how lovely <3 i hope you'll be able to find an instrument to play someday - if things get better. i really do believe they will.#s'paak: ...i hope so. (and then edith goes away and with some not quite concealed exasperation s'paak is like#i have never understood how you manage to manufacture narratives out of nothing. and jessica just says 'well it's easier#if you take something that really happened and change a few details. it was your lyre instead of a harp of course.#and not all friends but just the rec room on *makes a gesture obviously meant to mime a starship. possibly with sound effects*#but i did get distracted and stand listening until our... mutual friend wanted to know what was taking me so long to get to the hospital.'#s'paak: .......i see.)#anghraine babbles#fic talk#fic talk: the lesbian spock agenda#s'paak#jessica kirk#star peace#genderbending#c: i object to intellect without discipline#c: who do i have to be#otp: the premise
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things I wish I could relive for the first time again:
that magical window where you finish a new piece of media, having watched/read it all by yourself with no fandom contact whatsoever, and you are just so happy about it, and full of interesting theories and takeaways, and just in love with it as a gorgeous piece of art.
because I swear to god as soon as you join the fandom for anything, you're bombarded with how you're supposed to view characters and their arcs, how you're supposed to morally and ethically judge the plot and the ways it apparently failed to present the right message, and if you don't you'll either be shunned for not sharing the popular headcanons or you'll be harassed for not criticizing the source material enough.
like how is it that the fans of a piece of media are also the ones being the most negative about it? If I like a show or a movie or a book, well, I liked it. That's kind of the point. I'm actually not here to tear it apart and talk about how it didn't live up to standards other people had! I enjoyed it for what it was, and forcing myself to find negative things to say about it doesn't actually bring me more enjoyment of it or reap any benefit to me. Fandom's a double-edged sword; you want to join a community to share your love for a piece of art, and the price you pay for a modicum of joy is a mountain of negativity. that's one main reason that I never engage with fandom until I'm completely done with a show, because if I was plugged into all of that commentary and discourse during the process, I'd be completely colored by how I'm expected to interpret everything this piece of art is presenting to me without being able to even form my own opinions.
#this is currently about arcane but it's also every fandom i've been in since the dawn of time#there is so much political discourse about how the show handled the piltover zaun conflict and class struggle and i just#like i don't even know what to say besides. art doesn't have to provide the correct answer you know#it's not asking you to accept their explanation as the right one. it's just presenting a story. a scenario. a nuanced one at that#which of course the internet is the enemy of nuance as we know#especially in arcane i thought it was fairly clear that the end wasn't the bright shining future anyone hoped it'd be.#was anyone right in their actions? did anything turn out the way they wanted? or was it just as messy and gray as real life#we're living in such a myopic time for art where it's believed every story must take the correct stance or be invalid or even harmful#instead of just offering a perspective. a lived experience. a hypothetical. a story.#and when it gets to be headache inducing all I can do is take myself back to how I felt when I watched the show for the first time#and I came away from the whole thing being incredibly moved and captivated by the entire story and its nuance.#i had no qualms and no criticisms and i was very impressed with the depth of storytelling surrounding the political parts of the plot#as well as the character arcs. i guess people like to dunk on viktor's s2 arc nowadays and i just. shrug. i was blown away by it#for me at least i have nothing but pure love and admiration for art after i've viewed it. it's only after interacting with fandom#that the criticisms seep in and now i can't unsee it and even if i don't agree with it it still muddies my ability to enjoy the art#fandom is a curse in that sense. like i seek out art that i enjoy. i have no desire to make myself dislike that art. whats the point#why are the biggest haters of a piece of media the 'fans' of it idk.#me finishing a show: wow i love all the characters and the plot and the cinematography! I want to talk to others about how cool it is!#meanwhile the fandom hating characters to the point of death threats to their creators#after 13 years in fandom i can say this - if you don't need to join the fandom for smth then don't lmao.#you'll be able to retain your genuine enjoyment of the thing.#that whole 'if you didnt like what i made then make your own' philosophy people use on fanfic/fanart should be applied more#to actual published art too. you should be able to meet art where it's at and if you don't like what it's saying or how it looks then#just move on and find something else. another branch of the 'the greatest enemy of the left is the left' tree imo#a show has a lot of queer rep? bash it to the point of making the creators go into hiding for not doing it how you think it should be#no artist will ever be able to satisfy everyone's demands. they just want to put their experiences and ideas into the world#creators that try to do good get more vitriol than those who never try. they're scrutinized harder and judged more harshly#it's just. one of those 'real fucking tired of fandom' nights. the best cure is just going back and rewatching the source material#all on your own and falling back in love with it. just you and your genuine connection with the art.#anyway what happened to steven universe was unforgiveable and it really ruined fandom for me. like. yall don't deserve nice things
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"Looks like you've got a right shiner this time."
It's a voice you recognize, even through the thick of the fog. With bottle of brandy in hand, opening to your bottom lip, you've managed to cool the swell of your ego better than you have your bruise. Tongue darts out, pushing at your upper lip.
His glove rests to your cheekbone, index finger trailing softly over tender skin. Never tender enough because you flinch instinctively, expression pulling tighter. Guarded was never a flattering expression on Shay and it certainly wasn't now. Nose wrinkling, you incline your head away, the cold now freshly stinging.
Even though it's been a few hours, the tenderness hasn't gone down, still bitter and sitting coloured beneath the flush of your skin. At least you've managed the swelling some. The ghost of Shay's fingers on your skin lingers. You turn away, nursing the bottle with another sip. With a low, wanting creak of wood, the saloon's deck groans beneath Shay's weight as he shifts, back turned towards the banister, eyes always on you. Elbows resting over the rails, fresh snow lines the roots of his dark hair, skin still unbothered by the cold. So he's the one you heard step out after you.
"Did Hope give it to ye?" He asked, voice low and careful, eyes still impossibly dark, even when the warm tavern light dances over his features. Your mouth twists, sour line worrying into the skin.
"Liam."
"Ah." Then, "Well, he's always been a right git anyhow."
Looking at him like this, an air of familiarity drifting between you two, it almost tempers the sorrow and grief that still echoes in your bones. The insisting song of rage and injustice. Your fingers curl tighter around the bottle- and you see it too. How Shay's eyes don't even dart away but a barely perceptible twitch. Always watching each movement. A biting scoff rises in your throat before you can stop it.
For everything that Hope and Liam had trained you for, for all the burdens you bore, memories and lessons drilled into your head- this was not how you thought it would go.
Because every scary story told to you, every drill and hasty explanation- it was all because of him. Every bruise and aching joint- every nasty remark and lessons forced well past their dues. Even Achilles, as senile as he seemed, remarked upon the force the Brotherhood trained you.
All to avenge ghosts of Assassins you didn't know, never had a chance to know. All for a Brotherhood that had been tarnished before you joined.
You were meant to replace Shay, you realize that now. A bitter truth that had come to a head earlier that night, when Liam saw how you held your blades. Accosted you for it, demanding where you learned it from. 'From Shay', you had wanted to say, because it had been the truth. Then the rest of it followed, with Hope pleading with you to leave for the night while everyone cooled down. While they cooled down.
Looking back, you should have known better than to accept some strange man's friendly banters in taverns. Known better than to walk his boat, learning its knots better than you learned your knives.
It makes sense. Shay befriended you to sniff out the Assassin's plans. It made sense. Just as it made sense that Liam tried building you into a better tool, trying to outpace the losses that the Brotherhood had suffered.
'It's not fair.'
You think how his hands felt on your sides, careful in his guidance. Teaching you with a far greater patience than Liam had, with far kinder methods than Hope's. You had learned better under Shay- and somehow, that made it all worse, stinging more than the betrayal did.
"I hate you," you tell him. Shay tilts his head, little more than an acknowledgement. Eyes studying you, judging your reaction. Fog puffs in front of his face with his slow exhale. The wind blows it back, dusting across dark eyes before disappearing into the night.
"I know."
Still, even though you know, even though he knows, neither of you move. It's just the slow tilt of the bottle against your lips, burning motion of liquor down your throat. Cold seeping through your clothes, always too thin, never durable enough for the winter. Something that Shay had tried to correct you on but Kesegowaase didn't care for. Always too busy for your innate questions.
You want to hate Shay for everything. Pin it all on him. It'd be the easiest way. Give in to what your mentors had been trying to drill into your head: enemy, enemy, enemy.
Glass presses to your lips again. Shay's fingers ghost over yours, leather pressing light to exposed fingers. A grip that remains solid - but not insistent... and with the patience of a man that wouldn't exist in the Shay that the Brotherhood knew.
But he lets you take another drink anyway. You weren't a lightweight. Shay had made sure of that.
"Are you going to kill me?" You decide on saying when the fire has tempered in your throat. All that's left is the chill in your eyes, the nip of frost and frozen winds on your cheeks.
His fingers remain on the bottle and with a light tug, you concede, letting him bring it to his own lips. Cleanshaven, unlike the scruffy remnants that you had been sworn to. In all the ways that matter, he's unlike the man you've been told about. But you can see where the threat lies, the careful way he tilts his shoulders, languid but prepared. That part of the stories are true.
"Only if our blades cross," Shay responds, swallow audible, eyes dark as he peers at you over the neck of the bottle. He passes it to you, fingers brushing over yours.
Fingers connect. You try not to memorize how they feel.
"They'll order me to kill you," you decide to say.
Shay blinks, then blinks again when the snow lingers on his lashes. "Aye. And I won't let you." You scoff bitterly against the bottle. You both have roles to play. You just wish yours wasn't this.
You turn your eyes away, skimming over the balcony, out into the rolling hills of snow. More powder falls from the sky, dusting across your shoulders, frozen kisses upon cold-flushed skin. It'd be easy, you know, for Shay to just reach over and slide his blade into your neck. Nobody would hear you. Even with gold light dusting over the white expanse ahead, there's still dark shadows. You're both still isolated.
The music in the other room sounds so far away.
He doesn't move and you get to take another drink.
You think, then, that this isn't all there is. That there's more to the man that you were told about. That words uttered with hate or hellfire don't amount to the hours you've spent by his side, listening to some bawdy tale that Gist told him.
Then, in the same breath, you think: he doesn't have to kill me and I don't have to kill him.
Then, in another: what if there was another way?
Because for all the assassins are, good teachers aren't one of them. That you still swore to protect the innocent and your blade hasn't known flesh. In all these moments, caught between the Homestead and someone you had thought you had known, there exists things that you don't know. Impossibly, that there might be kindness beyond this rage and suffering that everyone has been dealt.
Again, in your mind's eye, you feel the shadow of Shay's gloves on your arms and waist, correcting your stance. Think of Achilles' words, heated and grave. Of Hope's flattering gait as she leads you through her warehouse.
"Shay, what-" You turn, throat tight, shadows and aches lingering in your mind still. There's nothing there, the impressions of his boots filling with the drifting of snow. Only gloves left on the railing, cuffs rimmed with fur. Still warm, even as you press chapped and shaking fingers inside, leather cushioning your palms. Because this is who Shay is, always watching out for you.
The next sip of the bottle goes down tasteless, no longer satisfying. The despair doesn't run as hot in your blood anymore, though the sense of betrayal lingers. Except now you wonder, just who exactly you feel betrayed by.
#assassin's creed#shay cormac#shay patrick cormac#the man the myth the legend#shay x reader#assassins creed x reader#assassins creed#assassins creed imagine#shay cormac imagine#reader insert#x reader#ac imagines#assassin's creed x reader#ooc: // you'll never take shay away from me copper#ooc: // (anakin voice) you will not take him from me!#ooc: // rogue and syndicate are my top fave ac games#ooc: // successfully dethroned ac2#ooc: // may ezio rest in pieces#ooc: // brothers I was going to end it with comment of ''wondering if shay wouldve let you join him but you already knew what the answer wo#ooc: // would be''#ooc: // (it would've been yes btw)#assassin's creed x you#assassin's creed x y/n#ac x you#ac x y/n#shay cormac x you#shay cormac x y/n
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MAE: And then also her implementing that change and breaking that pattern in her familial relationships that her mom was having of taking back these guys who do not treat them right and her sort of not only saying no to that, but also "I'm not doing that in my life" with Riggins! SCOTT: Big move. Big move. And a lot of Tyra-Tim scenes haven't been making it into the episodes, but have been in the scripts, but a lot of them are the show trying to figure out how to same the same thing and get Tim to the place where he's so honest, and he is in that scene. He's like "I did." And she says "This is exactly what somebody would say before they just revert back to who they were." And I'm like, ah man, can Tyra not believe that people can kind of change at this point? Maybe not until she fully changes her situation. MAE: She's also, like, I think, to a degree that's such a tricky thing about relationships and people in general, like yes people can change, but at some point- at what point does it not work for you anymore? And being- I think that's like a really grown up thing- another kids having to grow up thing to realize that look, you're on your own journey, and I support you and I'm glad you- I understand you have to do this as many times as it takes for it to make sense to you to actually implement this change in your life and have it really be yours, but I can't go with you on that journey anymore.
-ITβS NOT ONLY FOOTBALL: FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS AND BEYOND
#YOU'LL NEVER GET AWAY FROM THE SOUND OF THE WOMAN THAT LOVES YOU!!!!#fridaynightlightsedit#fnledit#tyra collette#tim riggins#adaptationsdaily#cinemapix#popularculturesource#tvarchive#tvedit#tim x tyra#mystuff#her wanting soooo bad to be able to forgive him and take him back and believe things will actually be different this time because all shes#wanted from him is to love her the way she loves him and just be a good boyfriend to her but hes absolutely incapable of being good to#anyone even jason had his gripes about what a bad friend tim is and its not that he doesnt CARE its just that hes incapable of fostering#anything good in his life and the people who love him most are the ones who end up suffering#and maybe if he had come to her like this a day or two ago she wouldve taken him back but timings everything and he waited too long and she#drawn a hard line in the sand shes done putting up with this she wants better for herself she knows she deserves better and she hopes one#day tim can be that guy but she can't wait around for him she's got her own life to live she's got dreams she's got plans she's gonna go#make something of herself she's finally her first priority#tyra collette i love you forever i would start wars for you i would unspeakable things in your honor give me once chance PLEASE
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i think the frustrating part about holding so firmly onto the notion that i must have DID is that in no way does it serve me to have this disorder or pretend like i do.
Like, people who are physically disabled dont get treated better because people can physically see they are disabled.
And i know that having a mental diagnosis of any kind does not make the people around me more understanding.
So it doesnt make sense for me to keep pointing at one and going "Look, I know you told me i only have CPTSD, BPD and Severe anxiety and Depression. but that isnt the whole of it, youre wrong, youre wrong, you are wrong."
As someone who was repeatedly abused into not believing the reality around himself growing up, I can't express enough how fucking badly believing in something like this just never happens to me. especially when the denial hits because some part of me, some deep, core part of me knows i have DID. But I just cant let myself have that or be content with that because i dont have an offical diagnosis. because my therapist, who flat out told me and admitted that while i do have alters, said i dont have DID.
What the fuck. What am i fighting so hard for. why is this so important to me? because the description and symptoms of DID match me so much better than any other diagnosis? i dont know. i dont know anymore. im so tired. my tarot cards were not fucking joking.
#vent#dissociative identity disorder#you'll never believe it but i got a headache writing this. yippie.#im sorry.#i am angry and confused and ive been gaslit by the medical#community my WHOLE life.#i believe everything everyone else tells me but i refuse to let them take this away from me .#please.#i dont know why im so sure i have it because i know#tomorrow or in an hour or two days i wont believe myself all over again#i dont know what to do#i dont know how to help us#because i do experience derealization and depersonalization too#and gender dysohoria that flips on a dime but no im just βGenderfluidβ to her#despite never labelling myself as genderfluid
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when the competition is making me cry in 10 seconds and your opponents are my parents
#bro wow this has to be some kindof personal record twice in one day#morning for mom evening for dad#did thy talk aboit it discuss it that you take these points I'll take these we'll be done in 10 secs flat#i don't understand what's happening period is over but i still can't stop crying i cried yesterday too#it usually is like numb numb numb period week numb again#but why won't it kick in this time#he's just so fucking efficient man wow#literally he said 3 things in 10 seconds and the dam opened#first he shouted about something and i tried to defend myself but then he got soo mad and even tho i hd a perfectly#reasonable exception i had to shut up and accept my mistake because at that point i was already on the verge of crying#and i knew if i dragged it out i wouldn't be able to say another word without bursting and then he'd get even more mad for crying in public#and embarassing him#and then it was about something related to my brother and he was like#talk to him properly what's wrong with you he's going to go away in a few months then will you ever even see him#which fuck is such a big fear of mine something that's already made me cry because ive fucked it up#and he hates me now and i think we'll never reconcile he thinks we should be the kind of siblings who meet on festivals and that's it#and i tried to like bond more but he just hates the entire family and wants to leave us behind no exceptions#and then in the same breath dad is like your sister is already gone abhi dikhti hai kya aas paas#like bitch?? could you be less efficient what the fuck that was the killing blow#i went from confused to trying to not cry so fast like fuck she's the only person in the world who made living with you#bearable of fucking course i notice she's not here i miss her all the time#like yeah just tell me i will keep losing everyone why don't you see if i can hear it without breaking down#and i just felt so fucking helpless like can't stand up for myself because i will lose and i have to play the long game#take his money get my education but fuck man the education i can't breathe under the pressure of it all his demand#for full tests and these fucking subjects im not made for this and trying to do it all alone because he#shifted us here in the middle of nowhere no friends and yesterday he was like oh yeah we'll move back home im bored now#like fucking hell man how many times will you do this? already did it when i was 15#and on top of that mom is complaining about him to me like bitch you won't leave him you'll make#us suffer through hell because you're a coward and you want me to console you?#god fuck this i hope he dies i hope she dies i hope we all die
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The dust may settle on one matter, but a Captain's work is never done. Noah had the expertise of working alongside new colonies, and he found himself helping on several committee boards despite his intention to take a step back from responsibility.
Life, at least, was familiar. Though there was a routine, there was no concern of days looping or, worse, time freezing to a halt as the universe collapsed on itself. His injuries on his face and neck were finally healing, though the path to regain what little movement in the fingers in his left hand he could was a long, slow path.
He could make do. He was right-handed, and so he didn't need to sacrifice his hobbies or reduce his workload. A hand incapable of flexibility still made for a great weight to hold things in place, after all! On the other side of things, one of the Crew Leads had noticed him hesitate as he caught sight of his scarred reflection and reassured Noah that he still looked handsome.
Saturday had been his birthday. It had been his plan to take time off and go somewhere, but there had been an issue with the installation of heat pumps in the newest housing development. Noah wasn't entirely sure why he had to help solve the issue, but it took three days to figure something out.
Once things appeared to be settled, he felt comfortable enough to make an announcement during the Tuesday morning meeting of the Crew Leads and Department Heads:
"I shall be taking the rest of the week off."
There were mixed reactions to this.
Those who had worked alongside him on the first Invincible were thrilled. Taking time off was always a good thing for them. The Head Engineer in particular was glad to see Noah wasn't stuck in the mentality of being on the go non-stop.
Those who had been in cryosleep and who only got to know Noah once the colony was being established were exasperated. This was terrible timing - granted, there was never a 'good time' to take off when anyone would call for Noah's input at any given moment. Dinners had been interrupted in the vital and urgent quest to get his opinion on matters such as which colour door handles should be installed first.
Tensions were high, and the last thing Noah wanted was to be the cause of another argument between the two sides of his expanded team. Today was not the day to try and help them find middle ground. Instead, he told them that he simply couldn't postpone it and further because he was being kidnapped today and that kind of plan cannot be easily rearranged.
Before questions could be raised, the meeting was dismissed, and Noah stepped outside. There, a large hulking figure stood, attention fixed on the puppy snuggled against the crook of his arm.
Noah approached and tapped Wug's other arm, giving the signal that it was time to go. Bandit had promised that Noah deserved birthday drinks, and he couldn't wait any longer for that!
#a written report (monologue)#(putting this one post-space for once instead of pre-space)#mobile post#(I missed the birthday with e.aster shenanigans ;n; )#(Noah's out of office besties are Wug and Bandit and you'll never take that away from me)
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Semester so bad, i have developed new illnesses on top of already existing ones. Yippieeeee
#Had a conversation with a friend where i was like#βMan i feel so bad procrastinatingβ#And they were like#βIt is 9 pm on a saturdayβ#Made me take a step back and ask myself wtf i'm doing#Ugh....at least the walk to the pharmacy isn't too far away from my house...#*dramatically leans back with my hand on my forehead* won't a charming knight ever fight for my life?#(Go to the pharmacy and fetch me my medicine because i am too lazy to go out)#Is this about sena or cain? You'll never know (it's both. i'm greedy)
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"Why does Ruby have to be butch??" why not. next question.
#BUTCH RUBY MY BELOVED#I WILL NEVER LET THE OTHER WR SHIPPERS TAKE YOU AWAY FROM ME#PUT HER IN AS MANY GIRLIE OUTFITS AS YOU WANT YOU'LL NEVER CRUSH MY SPIRIT /J#Ruby rose#rwby#spook txt#unironically tho butch Ruby and Yang are so so so good
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#SORRY im mad about my stupid college again#WHY do they require so many internhip hours??????#no wait i KNOW why. bc the chef who runs the program is EVIL AND STUPID#he literally thinks he as a chef is gods gift to this earth. he thinks CHEFS are gods gift to this earth but only if they agree with him.#however. gods gift to this earth do NOT deserve breaks. ('chefs dont get breaks' is a direct quote)#he thinks all chefs should work like dogs and SUFFER. and the industry should never change#and he loves the power of being the program head. (and most students' advisor)#and he can say im preparing you to be the best!!!!! and get away with it#and he doesnt respect pastry chefs. and guess what i am hahahah#like i know the culinary industry is toxic and most chefs are jerks. but bakeries are very different from restaurants#so i thought i could handle some jerky chefs during school and get my degree and go work in a bakery#(i can handle some jerky chefs)#the problem was that a jerky chef ran the program as if you were already working in the worst restaurant environment imaginable#and he only taught like everyone wanted to be world renown chefs of 5 star parisian restaurants that take 4 years to get a reservation#(which is crazy that he thinks hes qualified to get other people to that level but ok.)#and thats great for people who want that! but some people (me) just want a cute little bakery!#also ! its advertised as a 2 year associates program#which. is true that you'll only get an associates degree out of it#but 2 years is including summer semesters. sorry i don't think thats how that works. i think thats 3 years#2 years for people who decide to do extra and take summer semesters.#and i think the only realistic way to complete the internship hours is to take an off semester and only do the internship#so you're not doing it at the same time as classes#but that adds a minimum of 1 semester and maximum 2#or if you cram the spring and fall semesters to have summer off and do the internship during summer#summer semesters are shorter. so youd have less weeks to complete the same amount of hours#it is simply not a 2 year program for the average person!!!!!!#i was IN COLLEGE FOR 2 YEARS!!!!!! AND I ONLY TOOK 1 (ONE) PASTRY CLASS!!!!!! I SHOULD'VE BEEN ABLE TO GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!!#and what do you MEAN you expect me to be in college for 3 years and only get an associates degree out of it. no thank you#its almost like...... an associates degree requires 2 years of schooling........ and theres too much happening in this program.......#bc the man in charge of it is power hungry and wants to control people and thinks chefs need to be beat into shape.......
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not twitter saying gay men aren't allowed to call women bitches even in the most light hearted context and calling it a misogynistic slur
#you'll never take bitch away from me i'm sorry#bitch is a derogatory word sure but i'll eye roll ppl so hard when they call it a slur#there's a special way cis men say it where it really packs a punch and i'm not denying that#but ppl really act like it's not the first word women also call each other in a fight#as a vagina-haver i would hope i have the bitch-pass from these people but even regardless cis men have my personal permission to say bitch#in certain contexts at least#and gay men especially have permission fuck u
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