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arickaandherfictionalothers · 4 months ago

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Sebastian Stan f/os

Part 2 of 3?

Hal Carter; the picnic

Aricka x Hal, as you wish, I love you

Lance Tucker; the Bronze

Aricka x Lance, Times Square can't shine as bright as you

Chris Beck; The Martian

Aricka x Chris; my love for you is out of this world 🌎

Clay Appuzzo; I’m dying up here

Aricka x Clay, I want all your midnight fantasies

Dayton White; Logan Lucky

Aricka x Dayton, love at the finish line 🏁

Steve; I’m not here

Aricka x Steve, forever family

Chris; the destroyer

Aricka x Chris, I need a cool rider

Charles Blackwood; we have always loved in the castle

Aricka x Charles, you got that James Dean daydream look in your eyes….

Frank; endings, beginnings

Aricka x Frank; you’re my end and my beginning

Scott Huffman; the last full measure

Aricka x Scott, show me the power of love

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ohitslen · 1 year ago

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College (uni??) AU catering to my own interests as it should always be hehe :)

#projecting my major on Vash because them mfs who have changed from the med field majors to that one have some tragic things to tell #and also because I think that Vash would be such a wonderful designer I don’t know why it’s a gut feeling #Nai the law major because of course he would have you seen the guy #he would be a personal injury lawyer because lore #fun fact Nai rested for a semester after the incident with Vash while Vash took two.He never told Nai he would be changing majors #so it was a big big shock for him. they fought again but yk I’ll explain more on that if anyone is interested #as to Kni and WW I thought it’d be funny if they shared a common subject that required a lot of team assignments #and they can NEVER work out together. being an absolute nightmare to the rest of their group #separately they are great to work with. even if Kni can come off as too bossy sometimes he is actually a great leader #and WW would always deliver things on time exactly as it was asked from him #but Kni and WW just never really matched. Kni was too rude at times when WW made a mistake and WW would always clock him if he passed a line #like insulting his reasons for wanting to study security #one day Kni tells him at the beginning of a new semester where they both have unfortunately landed on a shared subject again #“you are not suited for that sort of job Wolfwood. you should simply give up and why don’t you go play role model to your little kids’’#then WW beats him again and then is like hey yk what you’re kinda right. and changed majors and he feels so much more at home studying #education/teaching than security. he fucking hates some things but the end goal makes it worthy #Trigun Uni! AU #because I don’t know how differently a college and a uni work #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #vashwood #trigun fanart #wolfwood #vash #Nai saverem #millions knives #lenssi draws #pen!

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nextstopparis · 2 years ago

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‘cause all of me loves all of you.

—for anon<3

#ive been in an editing slump for months SO this was really nice to do i got really happy seeing the ask this morning!!:)#even when i lose im winning bc the magic but at least arthurs safety ohhh anon youre a genius #ALSO ITD BEEN YEARS SUNCE ID LISTENED TO THIS SONG. also got a merthur brainrot (shocked silence)#(no one was shocked actually)#i also just adored the lyric ‘you’re my end and my beginning’ idk ithought it fit them i hope its ok that i includedt!!!#bbc merlin #merthur #merlinedit #merthuredit #shaking fist curse you 5.05

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aroaessidhe · 22 days ago

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2024 reads / storygraph

Don’t Let The Forest In

YA horror

an anxious Australian boy whose only friends are his twin sister & best friend/roommate returns to boarding school in the US - but his sister is ignoring him, and his friend is acting strange, with rumors of having something to do with his parents’ murder

he follows him into the nearby forest one night - and finds him fighting eldritch monsters from the dark fairytales & art they create together, desperate to stop them from hurting anyone else

ace MC, m/m

#Don’t Let The Forest In #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #asexual books #i mean not to be influenced by a book’s cover to love it immediately but like #yeah pretty made for me. i thought this was great.#dark forest fairytale vibes & horror based around the exploration of (not) processing trauma #and some messy gay codependant yearning (and beginnings of some nice friendships)#there were a few directions I was worried the plot was going to go in at certain points which would have dampened my enjoyment #but it bypassed those thankfully #i really wanted to see his relationship with his sister because we didn’t see much of that #but I also got the impression there was a reason for that and it would be addressed eventually….which it is.#Maybe the ending is a little rushed? I would have loved to have more of it.#“he could cut me to bloody pieces if he wanted. i couldn’t stop him even if i tried” bitch you’re in high school. it’s not that dramatic #(kidding I love that kind of prose and messy codependency is fun to read)#also there’s a trope I dislike in other books where an ace character is all self hating about it #then another person is like it’s ok to be ace :) and then they’re suddenly proud and happy.#and this Could have done that but I think it explores his feelings about accepting his asexuality with more nuance so that’s nice

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satoruxx · 2 months ago

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it’s been a few hours and i’m still very angry and upset at this ending like wow ofc i’m mad about gojo not coming back but the overall downfall of this series has me baffled…

#[𐐪— jjk spoilers. 𐑂]#like wow why did i invest four years of my life into this just for such a shit ending #like even if gojo had to die #why couldn’t we acknowledge him???#after everything he’s done #and he specifically said he didn’t wanna be forgotten #and that’s what happened #but even aside from gojo #SO MANY PLOT HOLES #like wdym you’re gonna tease kenjaku/suguru and then never elaborate????#we don’t even know which one it was #and then why is there still one sukuna finger???#what was the whole point of the story #we went back to the beginning???#i’m so confused #and never talking about megumi’s full potential like gojo was talking about early on #ugh there’s so much #i’m sad bc i didn’t get satoru back #but i think it’s worse that the ending of my literal favorite series could end up so horrible #idk #i’m very tired #jjk spoilers #jjk 271 #jjk leaks

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squuote · 14 days ago

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I wish I knew more about music or like how to talk about it in depth because the tsp soundtrack literally makes me feel so many emotions and I don’t even have the words to express why it makes my heart claw out of my chest (major rambling in the tags lol)

#crow thoughts #LIKE. ITS NOT JUST ME RIGHT.#THE MUSIC IN THIS GAME HITS GOOD #like. rn I’ve been nonstop thinking about the epilogue music that plays while you’re traveling to the memory zone #(the video from earlier played a bit of it and it’s been looping in my head)#AND IT JUST. DOES SO WELL AT CONVEYING THE EMPTY LONELY WASTELAND THAT WAS ONCE THE MEMORY ZONE……#like it’s not chipper or upbeat like how it usually is #it’s empty. it’s lonely. it’s looking for something.#<- AND MAYBE ITS A REACH BUT. it sounds eerily close to the freedom ending track #the way it opens at least has that same sort of tone but just the beginning parts #and like. idk if that’s just me feeling that way but. I AM THINKING ABOUT IT.#also a very fun neat one but the bottom of the kind control facility song-#-having a cute simple version of it playing in the background of the bucket version of that ending #idk it’s just so fun I love it. I love it A LOT #(is that a leitmotif? I think so. when a song reuses parts of another song right?)#also I love the way they use the music within the game if that makes sense #such a good navigation between when and when not to play the track #like when you first start up/restart and stand in Stanley’s office it’s got the music playing in the background #and it follows you till you get to the two doors; your first choice and when the music fades out/stops #I know there’s the coward ending as a choice but the two doors is like yknow. the first big choice the game introduces to you directly #<- IDK…….I JUST THINK ITS GOOD……….

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deus-ex-mona · 1 month ago

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pretty minor thing to think about, but i find it interesting how chapter 7 is the first chapter illustration to show chizuutan as chizuru (instead of chuutan)

like, i get it’s a flashback chapter, but we hardly got to see her as chizuru in the previous few chapters thus far… maybe we’ll get to see more of her as her true self after the hiyori fight/make up? only future chapters may tell, i guess…

#there’s like 5 weeks to go till chapter 6 is released into the rest of the world and i m n o t r e a d y—#man. chapter 5 still manages to ruin my mood no matter how many times i read it… man.#i was having so much fun with renren and concon and the 3 stooges and th e n.#imagine putting on a (somewhat) perfect/cute act to hide your true self because you know you’re unlovable the way you are #but then someone else runs along and screws up every step of the way without putting on any airs and is adored for it anyway…#i imagine chapter 6 will be much worse. especially since the start of the flashback begins there…#i sincerely hope the flashback ends in chapter 7 bc aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #though. considering where we are now in the series. i think there’s a chance that vol 2 will come out at the end of december #ch 8 will prolly start to drop somewhere around the later half of november so it seems about right…#b u t if there’s the preorder bonus manga for vol 2 in dec can we have santa girl chuutan in it p l s—#i think we’ll need an incredibly cute bonus feature to lift the mood from whatever the heck’s going on with vol 2’s chapters #bc. idk. im sensing some self hatred with this one chizuchan… it’s as though she can only love herself if she’s dolled up as chuutan…#like. even in her aizo self-insert delusions she’s thinking of herself as chuutan… maybe im reading too much into this. hm.#but then again she even puts on makeup when she’s at home in her own room…#w a i t a sec what if this wack behaviour only came about bc of what’s about to be revealed in the flashbacks. wait. no. w h a t if—#i hope manga chizuchan will be able to love herself properly soon… we all love you chizuchan~~~~~~~~~~#this. too. is our oshi no—#dammit why is something set in the same universe as the [redacted] anime making me feel things??? i hate itttttttttt #anyways. wh. what if one of the h10w turns out to be an anime adaptation of the chizuchan manga #and they’re just waiting on. like. the final vol to announce it.#it’d make the most sense for an anime series at this point… since chizuchan is marketable and it’s set in the same anime verse #so there’s no inconsistencies to retcon and such…#but!!!! most importantly!!!!!! we’d be able to see animated renren and concon!!!!!!!#…but something like this will only appear in my delusions huh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~#mousou dake no kawaikute gomen anime #ok that’s enough thinking for the day; back to kimikawaii mv g o o d b y e~~~~#chizuutan chizpost

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 9 months ago

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oohhh i know you did an ask on who every teachers favourite child is but who are the kid’s favourite? out of the teen parenting trio, who were tsumiki and megumi’s favourites? or atleast the one they were individually closest to?

This is a legitimately hard one and there is no exact answer to it. Here’s the best approximation.

Tsumiki:

When she was little, it was Shoko. This was not for the best reasons.

I don’t want to delve too deep into this because we’re gonna find out a lot more about how Tsumiki felt about the teen parenting trio as a kid in the fic itself, so I’m leaving a lot of context out. But she liked Shoko as a kid because Shoko was a drug addict, and so was her mom.

It’s not that she liked that Shoko was addicted to drugs. I think Tsumiki violently hates drugs for what it did to her mom and, later, Shoko. But there was a safety in familiarity for Tsumiki. She liked Shoko because she knew how to deal with her and what her problem was. She’d take the monster she knew over the one she didn’t any day of the week, and she just could not understand why Gojo and Nanami were hanging around or why they pretended to care. She was too afraid of anything new to feel comfortable around Nanami or Gojo for a long time. She kept waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Shoko was good to her as a kid. Better than her own mom ever was. And Tsumiki really, truly liked her for that. But she also liked her because she thought that if things went sour with Shoko, she would know how it would and how to handle it. She felt most comfortable around Shoko as a result.

When Tsumiki grew up, I don’t think she had an exact favorite. She was comfortable with and trusted all of them equally, which shouldn’t be confused with her trusting all of them entirely.

She loves her family. And she trusted them enough to bring megumi to them at the start of the fic. But we also know that Nanami found something to make him think she thought they would cut her off from her brother. She’s got a bit of a distance from all of them.

I think she’s spent the most time with Gojo. He was around the most as a kid. I think she likes how he always pushes megumi to be out of his shell. I think she trusts him to take care of them. All of them were really a team in raising them, but Gojo was the closest they got to having a dad. She called him “Dad” once by accident and then immediately tried to drown herself. Megumi had to follow her into the ocean to get her to come up for air. Gojo was insufferable for a month trying to get her to do it again and moped for ages when she wouldn’t.

But I also think that she still has a soft spot for Shoko in the present. They have a little bit of a girl's club. And Tsumiki's unspeakably proud of Shoko for getting clean, and a little bit emotional about it. Shoko got clean for them. Her mom didn’t get clean for her.

It means a lot to her.

Megumi:

When Megumi was little, it was Gojo.

He would never, ever admit it, but it was. He was the one that Megumi trusted to save him from the Zenin, and it fucking broke him when he didn’t. He thought Gojo was a pain in the ass, don’t get me wrong. But Gojo appeared first. Gojo took care of them first. Gojo went to their stupid school recitals and walked him home from school and ruffled his hair and gave them a stupid house even when they said he didn’t have to.

Megumi thought Gojo was just some asshole with ulterior motives when he met him, and it took a long time, but Gojo was the first person he ever thought would take care of him unconditionally. He was a pain in the ass. But he never hurt him. And he always took care of him. It was like gravity, and Megumi trusted it would still be there when he asked for help.

And it fucking hurt when Gojo didn’t.

He took a huge amount of distance from everyone, after, but Gojo especially. He’s most comfortable with Nanami. Nanami has judgment he trusts and has a quieter energy that Megumi is most comfortable with.

He believes that Nanami means it when he says that he won’t let anyone hurt him again. He doesn’t believe Nanami can do it. It’s nothing against Nanami. He just knows how badly he can be hurt, and how hard it is to stop people from doing it. It took a Herculean amount of trust for megumi to trust that anyone even meant it when they said it, so Nanami does mean a huge deal to him.

He believes Gojo would protect him. He doesn’t necessarily believe he will.

It took a long, long time for him to trust Gojo again, but he does. He wouldn’t say it out loud, but he does. He believes Gojo would absolutely intervene on his behalf if he knew Megumi was being hurt. He just doesn’t have the same confidence of him finding out in time.

I can’t find the post again, but I touched on this a little in a different ask about Megumi’s delirium, when he kept insisting that he thought Gojo was busy—he wasn’t saying that because he thought Gojo wouldn’t come and save him, he was saying that because he was certain Gojo would save him if he found out in time. He just didn’t think Gojo would find out before the Zenin killed him.

If Gojo knew, then he’d come save Megumi. The Zenin could only get away with this because he was too busy to realize Megumi was missing.

Gojo was busy. Gojo was busy. It’s not that he didn’t care; it’s that he didn’t know. He’d save him if he just weren’t so busy.

I think Megumi would really struggle with this question if you asked him this in the present day. Not outwardly—he would say Nanami because that’s the safe, obvious answer, and he’d leave it at that.

But he’d struggle, because I think he knows that Gojo was actually his answer once. And I think he is afraid of looking too closely at whether that’s changed.

#sea glass gardens #in my head theres all these ridiculous family shenanigans we don’t have time for #Tsumiki had some guy flirting with her at the beach #she’s however hella gay and was trying to blow him off #and there comes Gojo. The Humiliation.#he simply writhes with a need to embarrass his children particularly when they’re getting hit on and Tsumiki snapped at him ‘dad you’re #embarrassing me’ before simply blue screening in unadulterated horror #then she just. walked into the ocean. ended it all then and there. she was not coming out again. she was returning to the sea because #evolution was wrong to leave it to begin with. Megumi had to go in after her to get her to not kill herself over this #then Gojo was Insufferable for Ages #he cried to Nanami about it for like a month and then wouldn’t stop trying to get Tsumiki to call him dad again #she was despondent

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florbelles · 2 months ago

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finished hera & started lady macbeth and we have got to start blaming women for shit again for real

#this is a joke. but.#if i have to read one more retelling~ that’s just #‘but what if the woman was ASSAULTED ALL THE TIME and had NO AGENCY so everything bad she did was JUSTIFIED or a LIE???’ please stop #when you’re actively taking agency away from women written and portrayed in deeply patriachal cultures you’re not giving them a voice #youre taking the voice they had away.#women worked around and within the patriarchy while having feelings and ambitions and wants and dreams and flaws and virtues forever.#without the necessity of ‘but what if the MAN in her life was just SUPER EVIL and NOT NUANCED and she was just ASSAULTED’#what if no women wanted anything but SAFETY ever what if they were never power hungry or jealous or predatory ever themselves?#yes circe did this too if i have to see one more person say ‘oh except circe’ i will scream.#circe is literally like. the worst offender here.#pivoting back though sorry but it also all feels very bioessentialist PRESUMABLY without meaning to but ‘oh men are just inherently evil #with no nuance. nuance is for women and by nuance we mean was just super oppressed and wronged’ is uh haha actually terfy as fuck #good ol lady macunsexmeherebeth who definitely didn’t plot the whole thing to begin with for sure needs to be Given a Voice #i haven’t finished this one yet btw. i like this author’s work on the whole i just think this one is a swing and a miss because like.#this is not a woman who didn’t do anything and who didn’t have a voice.#if you want to show us her perspective in terms of her psychology and her inner workings and how she got to this place excellent wonderful #but not when the answer is just ‘but actually nothing was her fault ever!!!!!!’ like. lol let her want that crown for reasons that aren’t #my husband is abusive.#like oh my god.#same with hera you’re gonna go with the ONE tradition where she didn’t want to marry zeus #and all her rage is just about Injustice and the Patrairchy and not actual envy. okay.#she & zeus were an og most toxic couple of all time but they WERE in virtually all tradition a couple still who had times of reconciliation #and attachment.#like you know. actual toxic and abusive relationships do.#also it completely erased rhea who was actually the character whose story this more closely resembled #(warrior goddess with flop husband she finally schemes against)#instead she just. uh. went away oh no hera’s so afraid of being weak like mama she must break the cycle.#like okay this is the story you want to tell stop superimposing it on mythical entities from thousands of years ago then.#justice4rhea.#okay sorry. end rant.

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starryemeralds · 6 months ago

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missing my dnd campaign a little extra today, so wanted to share the chaos of my life —

maydae la croix 💜

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd campaign #tielfing #bard #starry art #if you’re wondering about the peach charm — they had a sibling named peacherella who tragically passed #then in then when they reconnected with their twin in the campaign.. she found out by singing peacherella’s favorite song #peaches from the mario movie #at the beginning of the campaign they had also recently escaped prison and all their aliases are different water brands #all of the party knew me as poland springs for three or four sessions #their cat is named muna btw #i don’t have any new art to share so i got this for y’all #since my last art post i graduated college!!!#also my contract for work ended so job searching :)#the :) is to hide the pain

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a-muscle-the-size-of-your-fist · 1 month ago

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Treasure Chest Opened! You Acquired DogDay's Collar! (for catnap)

“Treasure Chest Opened!”

[ CatNap ]

Blinking his large eyes at the collar in his paws, CatNap tipped his head to the side in confusion. DogDay's collar was in that treasure chest? Did he lose it?

Well, CatNap would just have to return it to him, then!

Hopping up onto all fours, the large cat paused, wondering where to put the collar for now… He had to walk with all four of his paws...

Ah! He had an idea!

With it jingling around his neck, CatNap started for the door to the weird basement he'd found. It had been an odd find, and finding DogDay's collar down here didn't seem right. Then again, the only place that it belonged was on DogDay. He didn't like the thought of them being separated.

He didn't really like being separate from DogDay, either.

Stomping was how he moved these days, loud and deliberate as he tried to let everyone else know he was coming. Each step rattled the renovated Playcare as he searched for DogDay, starting with his usual haunts and ending up in the play center. He couldn't really use the tubes himself, but he could poke his head inside and yell. Well, yell for what CatNap was capable of.

“Dog…Day…? Are you… In here…?” That deep voice and its slow speech echoed eerily through the tunnels of the play structure as the enormous cat swayed on his back legs. Bent up as he was to be able to get his head into the tube, he was hardly comfortable while he waited for a reply. What he did hear was some small, skittering paws. The little critters must be playing inside, he assumed.

“I have… Some…thing… That belongs… To you…” Maybe that sounded like a threat, but he didn't mean for it to, “Dog…Day…?”

#Yeah Okay Well Here’s The Twist (Answered Asks)#It Skulks Around In The Shadows Watching Me; It’s Waiting! It’s Torturing Me By Waiting! (ℂ𝕒𝕥ℕ𝕒𝕡)#Don’t Be Scared My Friend; Death Is A Beginning Not An End (CatNap & DogDay - suniside-crossing)#V: Everything Is Alright; Yeah Tell Me That You’re Alright

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werentloyaltome · 10 months ago

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I want to make an actual edit with it but here’s my crosshunt playlist

#crosshunt #it’s in chronological order from the betrayal -> back to friends -> to lovers (?)#thousand eyes is a tone setting prologue #plainsong is to act as a bookend to cold’s intro #‘i was cold as I mouthed the words… your name like ice into my heart’ ->#“’it’s so cold it’s the cold like you were dead… sometimes you make me feel like I’m living at the edge of the world’#i tried to keep the songs tonally similar to one another ik if you’re not familiar with TS then it’ll seem jarring but it all makes sense #within da plot of the playlist….#hurricane is the midpoint and signals the beginning of the end aka eventual reconciliation #also I’m your man into cardigan is just too good especially if you listen with a fade #posing for cars is the penultimate track. giving an ambiguous sense of closure. will they won’t they type of thing.#plainsong closes them out and answers that question. for me at least.#crosshair’s the cocky sob who says it’s just the way he smiles #crosshair #hunter tbb

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luminouslotuses · 4 months ago

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i miss qsmp

#the community aspect of it specifically #maybe controversial opinion but i never felt that sense of community with dsmp lmao. probably cause i got into the fandom at its tail end #and by then it was like a ‘you had to be there’ kind of situation so i felt like an outsider✌️ yippeee #it’s always hard to insert yourself into fandoms that are either Much Bigger than what you’re used to #or that you haven’t been a part of since the beginning. and if you haven’t been whoo boy you better catch up!#i’m sure qsmp fans felt that same way too🥲 mcrp lore is always so overwhelming to try to learn no matter what server LMAO #anyway . this ramble was pointless nobody come for my neck please🙏#my ted talk

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thuganomxcs · 4 months ago

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❝poltergeist report: 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃 ☎ 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄' 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎 | 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 : ☎ | client: @belovedblossoms | 𝙰𝙲𝙲𝙴𝙿𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶.

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄: Dropkick Diva 𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐓𝐎𝐍𝐄: Haruka - Lacco tower 𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄:

𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐃: "Hey there's this thing on the news about a guy knocking politicians out..this isn't you isn't it?" 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓: "Cat talk..fighting."

#❛ mail ━━ hit me with that bull again i’ll get violent.#❛ hiyosuke ━━ you’re the place my life begins and you’ll be where it ends.#belovedblossoms

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peemil · 5 months ago

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btw if they hadn’t missed it wouldn’t change anything he’d still be a martyr and we’d get desantis or whomever instead. you need to understand who your enemy is here. i mean that in the broadest of senses.

#they’re gonna parade my head in town square for saying it like this but i don’t care.#you’re putting so much priority on taking this one pawn you are completely unaware that you are going to be put in check the very next turn.#the problem neither begins nor ends with this singular man. i’m struggling to understand why so many people do not seem to have grasped this

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tomatoluvr69 · 5 months ago

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#Spotify #music for when you’re driving to ace hardware to buy mousetraps so you can kick out that mouse like Nick Cave says #and when you get there you give him your best friend’s phone number bc you unfortunately have it memorized and he goes to ace hardware all #the time for work #and the guy on the register squints at you and confirms the very male name on the screen #and you resist the urge to squeak out an excuse and just confirm #and then you stop by aldi on the way back and buy two tubs of Greek yogurt and two bottles of synergy kombucha #bc even though you brew your own and actually have way more than you could possibly handle rn bc it’s so hot in your house #you are a sucker for limited edition flavors and it will cause you to spend $8 on kombucha #so you buy pomelo lemonade and cherry coconut lemongrass #which is the summer flavor named unity or something #and you usually get one every year #but you still feel ridiculous walking out of aldi with two tubs of yogurt and two bottles of kombucha and nothing else even though no one #you know sees you even though west ********* is crawling with acquaintances #and then you get back in your car and you’re proud of the rare burst of executive function which allowed you to finally put the new battery #in your car keys even though you stole the battery from target like two months ago you just couldn’t figure out how to open the damn thing #and the convenience is novel and you think wow maybe I should injure my ribcage more often if it’s forcing me to take care of all these #tiny tasks like buying mousetraps and replacing your key battery and cooking figs in honey et cetera #and you drive down the hill and see low clouds snagging in the blue ridge mountains and feel alright for a moment #and go to the scratch and dent where you buy butter and a couple 33¢ seltzers and a diet ginger ale as a lil treat #and when you get back home you drop it on the gravel road and the ginger ale begins to leak out so you put your mouth to it even though the #thought of what nonsense is on the outside of the can from the manufacturing and shipping process lingers #and by the time you get to the kitchen and pour it over ice in a mason jar it’s fairly flat from the burst of bubbles when you poured it #awkwardly with one hand #and you drink what remains on the porch where it’s a post-rain subdued sky sort of dusk #and you think about how much it’s gonna hurt to leave and how you have no other option because of how entwined you’ve become with someone #who is the entire city and the entire vast forest and possibly the entire ecological region #and then you’re still hungry so you eat some meal prepped overnight oats that were for tomorrow morning. the end #journal

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