#you went to the concert to see them

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when a character says the name of the episode

[statementlou]

forgive me if this is too serious for an anon ask.. feel free to ignore it..

but this week shook me in ways i didnt see coming. i wasnt a one direction fan growing up.. tbh im still not, i listen to only a few songs. im same age as louis. so, i found one direction through him.

i have great affection for all of the boys though. and even in my short time in fandom, i've always been surprised and saddened by the bullying liam has gotten.. he just always seemed like a good person with really poor communication skills. to understand his point, you had to give him some space and context.

but this year has been a constant worried watch over liam. it was so plain things were desperate.

stan twitter got to me so bad that i left twitter the day louis' tour ended. so i was very peripherally aware of his recent harassment, but i did worry.

and now the unimaginable has happened, i am just at loss. not just in the sense of how to make sense of this loss, but also the complete lack of empathy for him still? even for other boys' fans.?? after they've seen how all of the boys' are hurting?

and just in the bigger picture.. how is this real? what loving god/higher power/whatver has allowed this to be the state of the world? he was so kind, so generous, just a boy. JUST A BOY. just trying to find a place to fit and feel safe. why was he dealt such cruelty? just while he was pursuing something he loved? something he was gifted with? in life and in death?

im just at loss. heartbreak doesnt even begin to cover it.

for me I've felt it was a constant worried watch over Liam for many years now, but other than that, yeah. It's hard to feel hope or faith in the face of so much senseless cruelty and pointless loss; all I can say is I would hope the millions of people who are shocked and saddened by this take away something lasting both about the fact that there are real people on the other side of the computer screen and cruelty has a real impact, and that addiction can afflict anyone. Nothing can make this other than tragic and regrettable forever; but I would love to see the amazing power of fandom mobilized to support programs for addicts and to fight stereotyping and dismissing of people who use drugs in Liam's name. To see people use this as a realization to really understand that it wasn't strange or exceptional that someone talented and worthwhile could succumb to addiction and ultimately die of it, but rather a plague that our society is allowing to run unchecked because of stigma. IDK, maybe I'm just grasping at straws trying to find something remotely positive that could come out of this situation but what else can you do? It's just so sad.

[faunandfloraas]

Nothing funnier to me than a fansite that horrifically white washes pics of the guys until they genuinely look like walking corpses but then will have DO NOT EDIT in all their captions like baby.... if there's anyone here who should have the editing software taken away, it's you...

[thatsgonnaleaveamark]

booked a hotel and got the concert ticket aghhhh

[deus-ex-mona]

happy mona solo concert day!!

#SupremelyCute #UnyieldingAngel

I’ll Fanservice You at My Solo Concert♡

mona: A student in her First Year of High School who is also a newbie idol. She is 160cm tall and her foot size is 23.5cm long. She strives to achieve her goal of becoming her ideal “idol”. Although she looks as cute as an angel, according to her self-admission, her true personality may not be the best…?

Hey readers, haven’t you heard? This is the kind of idol mona is! 

She’s Cunning! She’s Cute! She’s a Newbie Idol!

Despite her adorable angelic smile, mona can be a little too cunning at times, but, on the contrary, that very contrast is great! She sings, dances, makes speeches, and delivers fanservice to even those who are standing in the very last row, all in the name of expressing her feelings of “love” towards her Monacas (what mona calls her fans) with everything she has... With how utterly adorable she is, you absolutely have to support her!!

mona’s real name is Narumi Mona. Her older sister, Sena, is a famous model. In order to be seen for who she is, rather than just as “Sena’s little sister”, mona keeps their sisterly relation a secret as she carries out her idol activities. Incidentally, her older sister is a hardcore fan of hers.

Supremely Charming mona

~Please Remember These Little Secrets~

#Unyielding

Even at times when she feels crushed by her own ugly feelings and the words from her haters, mona is able to stand back up with the unforgettable love from her fans and family as her support. With how determined and unwilling to lose as she is, having honed her skills through her various lessons, she is now able to take to the stage as the happiest idol in the entire world. That strength of hers is truly dazzling!

#Humane

She wants to receive more recognition. She does not want to lose to anyone else. She envies and resents those who appear to be better than her, and even hates herself for feeling that way…  The way she openly embraces that humane side of hers, down to the feelings that are not just sparkly and cute, makes her just so lovable!

#Love

She is generous with her fanservice during her performances. She reads the fan letters she receives over and over again. And she will undoubtedly deliver such an exceptional love from her spot onstage that it will never lose to the feelings of love that she receives from her audience in return. As long as her fans, family, and supporters are around, mona’s love will never waver.

#Proud

Loving idols as much as she does, mona holds her head up high as she strives towards her goal of becoming her ideal “idol”, for the sake of proving herself to the world, and for the sake of the people who love and acknowledge her. mona will definitely be sure to continue to enchant everyone from beneath her spotlight for the foreseeable future.

Natsukawa Shiina Interview

Wanting to Deliver a “Supremely Cunning Fanservice”, Just Like It Says in the Title

Q: Beginning with the release of her album, “Your Supremely Cunning Princess”, 2024 sure has been a spectacular year for mona. Please tell us your thoughts about it.

Natsukawa: We recorded the songs for “Your Supremely Cunning Princess” from April to June, and since most of the tracks were newly recorded, we had to record every single week! Though, around that same time, I had my own solo productions to do, along with works for TrySail, a group that I’m a part of, so I think “I sure got to sing lots of songs this year!” (laughs).

Q: mona’s first solo concert, “#I’ll Fanservice You Supremely Cunningly♡”, will be taking place on the 14th of December. How did you feel when you first heard the news about the concert?

Natsukawa: To tell you the truth, back in May, the president of my agency, as well as some staff who work on projects involving mona, came to watch a stageplay I was in. I was in the middle of recording the album at the time, so I said “I wanna perform onstage as mona, y’know?” while we were chatting with each other. And then, a few months later, I was told “Let’s hold a mona solo concert.”, so my very first thoughts on the concert were “Wow, these incredible guys sure work fast!!”! (laughs)

Q: Please give us a hint as to what you have done to prepare for the solo concert!

Natsukawa: I’ve been singing the songs from her newly released album, “Your Supremely Cunning Princess”, as well as the songs from her previous album, “#Even If It’s Just By Name, Please Remember Me”, a ton! I’ll be thrilled if you look forward to the concert while reminiscing on all of mona’s works up till now!

Q: What do you keep in mind when you’re singing as mona? 

Natsukawa: While mona is the definition of a sparkly mainstream idol, at her core, she’s Narumi Mona, a girl who seriously hates to lose. She often lets her true personality shine through in the lyrics of her songs, so I keep her strong competitive spirit, her unwavering heart, and her slightly weak side in mind whenever I sing her songs!

Q: What has left the biggest impression on you during the time that you have portrayed mona up till the present day?

Natsukawa: It has to be how her song “Fansa” is loved by both idols and creators alike, and that many of them have sung covers of it! (laughs) Mona is a girl who loves and looks up to idols, and is even striving to become an idol herself, so the fact that there are so many real-life idols who can relate to her song makes me really happy too!

Q: What do you think mona/Narumi Mona’s charm points are?

Natsukawa: I think her biggest charm point, which applies to both mona and Narumi Mona, is how she never wavers. Regardless of what anyone else may say or think, she’s able to strongly declare “I want to be an idol!” and “I am an idol!”. And even though she seems to be a typical modern girl, she shows off her tenacious side in the most unexpected of situations, which reveals how interesting and promising she truly is!

Q: Lastly, please give a message to the fans who are looking forward to mona’s solo concert, “#I’ll Fanservice You Supremely Cunningly♡”.

Natsukawa: I’m so excited to perform onstage as mona, and to be able to deliver her songs to her Monacas! I’m going to deliver “Supremely Cunning Fanservice” to everyone in the audience, just like it says in the title, so please come to receive it!

A Special Question for the New Year!

Q: The January issue of Animedia also doubles as our New Year’s issue. Which of mona’s songs would you like us to listen to for the first song of the year?

Natsukawa: “No.1”, not just because it’s the first month of the year (laughs). I picked this song as it could motivate us to strive towards our goals of becoming No.1 in the new year! Let’s all “Live our lives to the fullest” this year too!!

[gnomeantics]

me (starkid fan) 🤝 my sister (henry danger fan)

joey richter from MY SHOWS is in HER shows as well??

[gentil-minou]

wangxian rookies in showbiz au where newbie idol Wei Wuxian is on set of a commercial wearing a ridiculously uncomfortable outfit getting yelled at for dumb reasons by his incompetent agent while bottom-of-the-totem-pole production assistant Lan Wangji is being bossed around by the awful director

Except wwx isn't actually a newbie he was once popular child actor Wei Ying seen everywhere, the golden boy of the industry known for his upbeat personality and the smile constantly on his face.

That is until his final role when he was 13 where he played a dark jaded teenage psychopath in a psychological thriller and was forced to perform intensely emotional scenes without any counselor or anyone there to keep an eye on him (his manager at the time Madam Yu's focus was always her other children's careers, Wei Ying was just an extra way to make money you see). He even got badly injured on set, and now has an ugly burn scar above his heart from a poorly done fire stunt.

But the movie flops and things just keep getting worse from there...

It gets no attention from critics that is until former golden boy becomes the teen misfit all the gossip rags talk about, with constant cover stories showing him at 15 doing drugs and partying and eventually getting kicked out by his manager/aunt at 16. The narrative becomes clear that Wei Ying is a flop and another failed child star turned deplorable diva

He disappears for a few years, only ever coming up in a low budget TMZ special or some commentary youtuber's videos, but Lan Wangji never forgot him.

Lan Wangji had often worked with his uncle when he came on as a consultant on set and so was able to watch and admire Wei Ying from afar. He's especially fond of Wei Ying's role as the happy go lucky middle child on a popular sitcom role and his smaller movie roles where he played a genius child inventor and solved crimes alongside a precocious bunny rabbit.

So well Lan Wangji has always been a fan of him so he's shocked when the new idol on set of their cheap commercial stage looks so similar to Wei Ying.

But at the same time, they're not the same at all. While Wei Ying was known for being friendly and silly, Wei Wuxian is acting like a pompous and cocktail overly confident ass, flirting with the director and everyone else while making a show of whiny and being cutesy with hopes for more screentime.

It's very unnatural and there's a moment where LWJ thinks he must have been mistaken but there's a moment in between when he's running back and forth on the producer's order while balancing cups of coffee when he spots WWX sitting by himself, huddled in a corner of the soundstage deep in the shadows where no one else is around.

He's staring at the fingernails they've painted and stuck gaudy fake jewels on and fiddling with the ridiculous black demon wings he's wearing, as he picks at the layers of makeup and stickers they've put on his face. He's tugging on his red crop top, cut indecently short and revealing so much, as watery eyes dart back and forth in front him like he's worried someone important might see.

In general he doesn't seem anything like the person he was under those lights just minutes ago.

As lwj approaches he sees that actually wwx shoulders are shaking his hands are clenched into fists, his eyes shut tight so that his makeup doesn't run

Wei Wuxiann watches as the director is barking orders for someone to fix the set as another idol takes wwx's place and finishes the shoot. Apparently his acting wasn't "peppy enough" so they've replaced him with someone else

But this was his first gig in months, years actually but months since he tried to come back and for it to fail like this, so fast without anything to show for it is absolutely devastating. He'd tried so hard to give them what he thought he wanted, desperately hoping for his big break. Only to fail again.

What does he do? What can he say? Why does he even bother?

He's staring at the floor like it might have the answer to all his problems when a pair of white sneakers appear.

He tracks those sneakers up to meet the stonefaced stare of one of the PAs he's seen running around, the youngest one who's been doing the most menial tasks. He looks somewhat familiar but his face is impassive and wwx can't tell at all what he's thinking

The PA hands him a bottle of water that wwx takes with both hands, too taken aback to do much else. Then the PA slips his headset off and sits next to him, the black faux feathers of wwx's wings brushing against the PAs arms, though he doesn't seem to mind

And so they sat. Two nobodies hidden in the shadows of a forgotten corner in a busy studio, far from the reach of the shining spotlights and stage. Little by little, wwx finds it easier to control his breathing and stray sniffles.

Eventually, the PA starts taking off his hoodie, revealing a plain white t-shirt underneath. He reaches into his pocket and holds out a marker for wwx to take as he turns so his back is facing him.

When wwx, understandably confused, doesn't do anything, the PA glances over his broad shoulders and just says "Sign, please."

Wei Wuxian blinks waiting for the punchline but it never comes. He's not even on the roster for any boy group, just a trainee idol whose only fans are the diehards who follow the trainee circuit and his sister. And this guy doesn't seem like the former and he definitely isn't the latter.

But the PA just sits and waits, back facing wwx.

Eventually, almost mechanically, he signs his new autograph, the one where he uses the 2 W's to make a smile.

He asks for a name to make the signature out to, and the PA answers in a quiet hesitant voice that he can barely hear over all the background noise, "Lan Zhan."

That name sends a spark up his spine like it should be familiar but wwx can't figure out why. So he finishes his autographs with a star and a flourish. He hasn't gotten to test out the new signature yet. He thinks he likes it better than he'd expected.

Wei Wuxian beams up at him, heart beating a beautific beat against his ribcage and asks, "Why would you want a signature from a nobody like me?"

He means it as a teasing joke but the PA, Lan Zhan his brain corrects him, gives him a grave look that steals the breath from his lungs.

"You're not nobody, Wei Ying"

Lan Zhan takes the marker and slips his hoodie back on, covering the autograph with their two names side by side, and with a final nod he walks away, melting into the general chaos of the production floor.

It takes a long moment for Wei Wuxian to realize he'd never told the guy his real name.

(originally a threadfic here)

[itsjaywalkers]

saw wallows tonight and i'm still processing

[starbuck]

we didnt sit near each other at the goats show but you had so much energy it made me so happy !! you were the only other people getting tf into aisle and you just looked so happy i hope you enjoy life like that a lot more. also the cowboy hat BANGED it looked sick as hell

THANK YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

i *WAS* so happy!! i was honestly trying to keep my hopes low for this show bc it was a john and peter duo when i booked it and i wasn’t sure how the change would change the vibe of the setlist but, needless to say my expectations were WILDLY exceeded!!!!!!!

i hope you had fun as well!!

[blue-eli]

Ink October day twenty-six: Share

To accord a share in (something) to another or others.

To divide and parcel out in shares; apportion.

[carcarrot]

OH MY GOD A YEAR AGO TODAY .

[seekingthestars]

little floof has the best possible time at con, proceeds to spend the next month crying about it

[snarkmodeactivate]

thinking about blorbo from my dnd campaign again

[sunlightfeeling]

I genuinely feel like I dont have a right at all to complain or talk negative about Japanese fans but like……..the evident cliqueish-ness of honestly what looks like a very unfortunate larger chunk of them ……😮‍💨

like i gotta be honest the concert was a lot more isolating than it actually already was in itself because of the vibes at least a couple of clusters of fans gave me

[nihiltism]

very funny situation I'm in where I got notifications of not one but Two concerts happening in like, 5 months, both in the sameish location and 3 days apart from each other. I would die

[smollandkindaannoyed]

Just saw Bang Yongguk live and omg I can die happy now! Like sure I am 1.5 hours in my ride back home and have to do another 1.5 hours but HE WAS SO GOODDD!! Like it was so worth itt!!