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Putting the word dissociate on a high shelf where no one can reach it forever and ever sorry
#actually dissociative#“lol i love to dissociate by making up stories in my head when im bored in class#DAYDREAMING THAT IS CALLED DAYDREAMING#you don't choose to dissociate because you're bored#and you don't make up stories in your head when you dissociate#you just. cease to exist.#time goes on without you#you lose hours#days even#and if you do “make up stories” they aren't distinguishable from reality#you don't remember what's real anymore#and then you wake up#you're seeing through your own eyes but you don't control where they look#your body moves without you#you hear yourself talking but the words aren't yours#your body needed someone to fill the void you left behind and your mind gave it someone#and when you come back that person resents you#constantly whispering in your ear “when is it my turn?”#and you don't want to give up control again#you don't want the world to go on without you#but it does#and it will keep going on without you until you can take back control#maybe you pass the time by pretending you are in control somewhere else#you forget it's not real#and when you come back you're confused#you need help to figure out what's real#it's not fun#it's not something you choose to do
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Yeah sure I'll let this one free into the wild
#I cannot stress enough I made this in about an hour as a joke#But um. Animation practice I guess???? It's rotoscoped from that one gif. You know the one.#I can definitely do better than this but I'm artfight prepping and also was losing my shit the whole time making this#Minos prime#Ultrakill#<- Wasn't going to maintag but. By request apparently. Here#Hrokkall shitpost#1k#<- WHY.
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#slowly but steadily losing my sanity#drawing some epic clownery#I think it will be the final part of the third episode#I think..#jsjdkfkgmg#Tapa I see you sent this ask half an hour ago#I hope you are sleeping rn🔫
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It's Shin Soukoku Starting
#We got the sskk. We got the Akutagawa lives. We got Atsushi soft smile. We got the Akutagawa outfit change. I can't do this.#Okay now running to not lose another train please wish me luck#See you in one hour to scream about the rest that isn't sskk (also lie)#atsushi nakajima#ryūnosuke akutagawa#sskk#shin soukoku#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd s5#bsd season 5
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my text disappeared here when i posted. what happened
#annyways whats the deal with the panicau. im not talking about like popularity or anythin g#why does n have the evil triangle solver and uzi is a ghost thats evil but also not and theres teeth??? in visor??????#i dont understand anything about it but the artstyle looks cool so i can ignore that#havent drawn this large in a while but i needed to do it for the pc screen to not be Totally crushed#a little crushing is ok. as a treat#i think i took this idea from a post i saw once but i cannot find it again for the life of me#and very intelligent prior me decided not to link it to myself so. lost media#still trying to figure out how i want to draw drone heads slash visors and have been since i started drawing md stuff#losing it#spent like an hour trying to draw something else before giving up and doing this instead#if youre lucky ill actually do it eventually#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones n#serial designation n#do i even tag mdpanic?? does this count???#constantly afraid ill mess up tagging#which is something you can do and i might be doing#and also thats a joke. hopefully
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Danse Macabre
[Commission]
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#marcille donato#winged lion#better drawn mdzs#<- art tag I really need to change.#Turns out the secret to drawing better was having someone offer you money to draw.#I jest. I just had a blast with this prompt and I seriously appreciate the commissioner for letting me have the chance to push myself.#And for giving me permission to post! Hi! If you're seeing this: thank you again!#Let me be clear: no I don't quite know where this came from. It just happened. My chakras unblocked for a few hours.#You too can unblock my chakras with money and commission me to draw cool art B*)#We are so far off from when this is relevant so this one is really just for the manga readers. *****Spoiler notes ahead:#So...As someone who read dungeon meshi monthly for many years....I admit to not seeing Marcille becoming the dungeon lord coming#Hilarious too; re-reading and watching the show made me realize that this outcome is pretty strongly foreshadowed.#Ryoko Kui distracts you by putting the focus on Laios being the 'one to break the curse' but nope!#This was the culmination of her goals and desires.#And - for those who did not have to suffer as us monthly readers did:#YES. WE NEARLY ALL THOUGHT THAT MARCILLE HAD TO DIE.#The last 20 or so chapters were a constant spiral of: 'Oh this story isn't going to have a happy ending is it?'#She just keeps losing herself! The winged lion plays her like a puppet and she is his perfect doll! So full of conviction!
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anyway laerryn would've released predathos by now
#critical role#cr lb#literally do it who cares break the world#can laerryn come back in the 11th hour just to release predathos lets do it#hear me out the absolute hilarity of vecna being like i've RETURNED!!! FOOLS!!!! and IMMEDIATELY getting eaten by predathos is hilarious ok#and i THINK***** if the divine trammels lose divinity whatever banishment vecna would come back so of course he's like do it >;)#laerryn is SCREAMING like what are you guys DOING a GODEATER. PROVING the illegitimacy of the divine and y'all aint gonna pop that lock?#could never be her
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one thing about ik is that she will always reach out
#obey me#art#i had the idea for this and managed to bulldoze through drawing it all without losing motivation halfway through#but Do Not expect me to post art this frequently in future#idk how to do panels so if the middle bit with the text might be laid out weird#i added the stars and feathers and stuff because there was a bunch of empty space around the boxes#obey me satan#jtta ik#(btw the crumbling symbol next to the exploding feather is the wrath symbol from in-game)#(with the pride symbol attached upside down at the bottom)#(not so much symbolism as it is just me whacking you over the head with the point but it looks cool)#i had a lot of fun doing satan's more monstrous design so i might try my hand at some of the other demons later?#i do have some ideas for levi (deep sea creatures are just really fun)#also happy nightbringer release day!! it showed up on my homescreen like half an hour ago and i was like “wait what”#for some reason i thought it wasn't releasing til next week??#the new genshin patch is today as well so looks like i'll have plenty to do with the rest of my free time for the easter hols#(i promise i'm also working on the next chapter of jtta but i am so stuck on how to get lucifer actually Talking)#anyway. here's a gold star for making it through all my rambling in the tags for anyone who did so: ⭐
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soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart
sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers
and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure
the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish
soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down
he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill
we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan
he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost
he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them
he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted
he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much
#i cant believe i never posted the soap meta that got me twitter famous™️💅#as with damn near every piece of characterisation in this franchise soaps is only apparent in subtext and connecting tiny little dots#it is very easy to just pick up his surface personality and think thats all he is#but soaps not a sunshine character#hes not super friendly or bright#hes just willing to talk to people and hes paired up with ghost who never wants to start a conversation#every time i see soap presented as this bubbly airhead thats super sweet and just blows stuff up i lose a year off my life#and i dont blame people for getting this vibe from him but im begging you to look a lil deeper#this isnt getting into his anger or the fact that he is a soldier which automatically makes him a wee bit fucked up#like he is hyperviolent and takes joy in it#we all know ghosts snuff film joke but soaps the one who responds positively to it#he returns the joke and only calls him out on it when he says he wont watch it more than once and even then its teasing not grossed out#and if we take the ‘he tried to join the military at 16’ factoid from 09 as current canon then he very easily could have a rough home life#no one tries to repeatedly join the military early without having some kind of problems#soap knows his worth and his abilities you dont get to be as good and specialised as he is without being completely sure of yourself#we know ghost has an ego but soap constantly butts up against it with his own affirmations#‘you wanna be better than me johnny’ ‘maybe i already am/i will be’ ‘a little helps not so bad eh lt’#being a sniper makes me hate the ‘cant sit still’ hc hes literally an sas sniper he wouldnt be complaining after a few hours of overwatch#i like the adhd hc and maybe he fidgets in his day to day life but the second hes at work hes At Work#tldr soap could be just as complex a character as ghost if cod would stop treating their campaigns as an afterthought and actually commit#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#talk meta to me#john soap mactavish#soap cod#cod mw2#soapghost#save post#call of duty modern warfare#cod meta
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what do you think about the idea of san having a noona/mommy kink? hehe <3
oh my godddd that baby boy would absolutely have a mommy kink grrrrrrrrr got my mind spinningggg…..
like he’d just be balls-deep in you, whimpering and crying out each time his pulsing cock rubbed against your tight walls, his heavy body pressed against yours, his wet hair tickling your face. He’d look at you so intensely, just a few inches away from your face, and purr, “Mommy, is it good for you? Am I fucking you just how Mommy likes?”
You wouldn’t even be able to think, let alone speak from the way he had you folded up in such a way that you were only able to take his cock each time he fucked it into you, the lewd shlick sounds of your now cum-filled hole filling up the room along with your joined high-pitched whines.
San would be an absolute mess, dripping sweat and drool onto you, his pretty flushed lips parted so that he could moan out, “Unnnh…aaaaah…Do you like the way I’m filling you up like this? It’s so much, fuck, I’m gonna turn you into a real mommy, huh?”
San would press kiss after kiss onto your lips and neck, slowly pulling out, only to push himself back in, inch by inch, making sure he was plugging your cunt back up with his hot load. He’d look at you with hearts in his hooded eyes, a lustful smirk gracing his lips. “Do you want that? Should I fill you up with more cum, Mommy, to make you mine forever? ♡”
#ask#anonnie ♡#almost wrote an entire essay just now but i held back ksjsh#listen if you bring up sub san i’m going to lose my mind each and every time#ateez smut#san smut#ateez hard hours#ateez hard thoughts#i love queue ☆〜(ゝ。∂)
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i’m terribly sorry it’s so embarrassing to have gotten it so wrong. of course THIS is jamie roy and keeley when they start dating
#ted lasso#roy kent#jamie x roy x keeley#can you tell i'm losing my mind by the increasingly derivative and obscure edited memes#i'm going to work in 4 hours. and instead of sleeping. this
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What’s Toxic situationship simon when reader comes home from the pub making out with another man, cuz if he’s not exclusive to reader, why should she be exclusive to him? Right?
Simon just standing in a shadowy corner awaiting for his presence to be known.
you know the fucking deal. he's toxic aka extremely possessive. if he could piss on you to mark his territory he would but can't so naturally he does the next best thing which is ignore every boundary you set.
kissing to a minimum? kisses you like a long lost lover while fucking you like he missed you.
marks? littered with love bites and only where you can't cover them (fuck your concealer it's his now)
he leaves things at your place so you're forced to explain whose they are when you bring a date. a big, worn leather jacket thrown over your only gaming/desk chair. extra toothbrush with the bristles almost completely flattened. pair of work shoes you hadn't even known he'd left behind. (he bought another pair the morning he left your place, walked into academy with socked feet.)
he calls you at the worst time (aka tracks your gps and if you're at any sort of restaurant post 5 pm he's calling)
if youre real adamant on going on this one date, he's sending you with his cum dripping onto the sheer knickers you'd bought just for the occasion and will await your return. let him know if you need a ride. (will wait downstairs for you to pull up to get you out of that pathetic little car. "as small as he is, eh?" the guy can't/wont say shit unless he fancies picking up his own teeth off the sidewalk.)
#ghost then sends the guy a vid of you begging for him to touch you#while still wearing the same dress/outfit you had on hours earlier#says lose 'er bloody number 'fore you lose somethin' else#but yeah no he doesn't want anything serious or whatever simon said
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Tom Iceman Kazansky did not snap his teeth at another man in that locker room to be seen as the normal one in IceMav
#top gun#icemav#shit Andy says#listen I’m right that man is DEEPLY strange#he passes as a normal dude but you put him in a room with Maverick for an hour and he loses all ability to act like a normal guy
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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)
Sure has been a year.
#terri#niart#got my wisdom toofies out#well 2 out of 4#still got stitches#idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless#also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash#i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet#I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for#the difference is like night and day#old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day#new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day#i am sobbing#the right people are out there#don't lose hope#i've never felt this platonically loved honestly#also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd#just#a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out#this piece was such a strain and i just#don't have patience for art rn#this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers#i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh#ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH#i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now#Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man
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!!!!!
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(Clip starts at 3:10)
#happy beetlejuice beetlejuice release week everyone!!!#I have been losing my mind over this part of the interview/podcast for at least two hours and counting#THEM ENDING UP TOGETHER WAS HER BIG PITCH TO TIM#WHAT?!#winona is so real for this honestly#also I really like this interview/podcast in general#go listen/watch it when you have the chance#original side note: george and martha were characters from a series of childrens books -#- they were best friends and even though they bickered alot they always made up in the end#I don't know if that is the george and martha she referenced but if it was 👀#side note 2.0: george and martha are also characters from the film Who's Afraid of Virgina Wolfe?#thank you to angelsthriveforever for pointing that out!#check out the notes for more of their commentary#ok i will stop yapping now#beetlejuice#beetlejuice beetlejuice#beetlejuice sequel#beetlejuice 2#beetlejuice spoilers#potential spoliers#winona ryder#interview#podcast#lydia deetz#beetlebabes#beetlejuice x lydia#lydia x beetlejuice#beetlelyds
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I’m literally drooling over the thought of sensitive Bucky whimpering and whining while fucking your tits and thighs he’s so pathetic and needy all he wants is to make you feel good and to fill you with his cum even if it overstimulates him
Okay, tit fucking is great and all but thigh fucking is SO underrated in my humble opinion. Could just be the fact I've got a small chest though lmao
It's so fun when you're already really into it and the insides of your thighs are all slick. I feel like Bucky would lose it, getting to see your face and look in your eyes and enjoy your body.
It's a nice one to do while laid on your side, facing each other. Although the angle isn't quite right for him to slip inside you, it's fun to explore the other ways your bodies can steal pleasure from one another.
"This isn't going to work, sweetheart." You can't help but laugh, having already tried everything you can think of to make the height difference work. There's no way to keep this romantic and intimate in that position because there's just no chance of aligning your bodies properly to allow him to press inside you.
"Maybe not. But it feels nice anyway." His eyes flutter shut, gliding his dick over the smooth, soft, warm insides of your thighs, encouraged by how slick and easy your arousal makes the movement.
You adjust yourself to bring your other thigh on top of his length, closing him in on both sides.
You're wet enough that friction doesn't impede his movement too much and there's something oddly romantic about it. Maybe it's his hand smoothing the back of your head or his other hand up your back, pulling your body closer to his.
It's so intimate, watching his face as he whines your name, rutting senselessly against your thighs. The little flush to his cheeks is beautiful and you can't resist kissing the thin sheen of sweat on his forehead. The thick duvet on top of you both, coupled with your combined body heat means the room is far hotter than you'd planned.
You take a second to reach between your bodies, spreading your wet folds and readjusting his length, letting him drag his cock against your neglected clit with each stroke and oh, that's pretty mind-blowing.
"O-oh my God." He whines, desperately fucking himself against your wet cunt, rather than into it. It's a different kind of pleasure to being inside you and while they're not comparable sensations, it doesn't stop this from feeling fantastic.
"Fuck, that's good." You groan, rolling your hips to meet his. Your fingers dip between you once more, gathering some of your slick arousal, using it to glide your fingertips over the underside of his shaft and over his balls.
"Holy shit, that's - fuck." Bucky's hardly got a coherent thought left in his head. He's closed in on both sides by your wet, soft thighs and now your fingers are giving him a different sensation underneath while pressing him against your soaked sex.
"I know, baby. Feels good, doesn't it?" Your fingertips trail lightly back and forth over the underside of his shaft, focusing on the inch or so beneath the tip.
"I can't... I need to cum." He groans, thrusting frantically, clinging to your body to keep you close. Within a few seconds, you feel his dick pulse under your fingertips, his cum coating the inside of your thighs in hot, thick, messy spurts.
He doesn't waste a second, kissing your forehead before kissing your neck and whispering "Good girl. Now let me watch you get yourself off with my cum on your fingertips."
#asks answered <3#becca writes spice#anon#needy!bucky#Bucky Barnes x reader smut#bucky barnes smut#sub!bucky#was this one something I've been fortunate enough to try? Absolutely.#and has it bounced around in my head ever since?? yep#I've got so many 💦sports asks#and I've been really hesitant to answer them bc I have people I know irl on here now#but honestly if my interests so far haven't freaked you out#those probably won't either#I made the best overnight oats last night I've been thinking about them all day#white chocolate chunks with raspberries and peanut butter#with oat milk#and I'm using that to distract me from the fact I'm locked out of my work emails and I can't do my Sunday evening email clear up#it's freaking me out that I can't get into them#that'll mean I have so much to do tomorrow morning#I'll probably lose my hour home on the train tomorrow trying to catch up#I love my hour to work and my hour home from work on the train#that's my me time#where I read my silly little book and chill
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