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Putting the word dissociate on a high shelf where no one can reach it forever and ever sorry
#actually dissociative#“lol i love to dissociate by making up stories in my head when im bored in class#DAYDREAMING THAT IS CALLED DAYDREAMING#you don't choose to dissociate because you're bored#and you don't make up stories in your head when you dissociate#you just. cease to exist.#time goes on without you#you lose hours#days even#and if you do “make up stories” they aren't distinguishable from reality#you don't remember what's real anymore#and then you wake up#you're seeing through your own eyes but you don't control where they look#your body moves without you#you hear yourself talking but the words aren't yours#your body needed someone to fill the void you left behind and your mind gave it someone#and when you come back that person resents you#constantly whispering in your ear “when is it my turn?”#and you don't want to give up control again#you don't want the world to go on without you#but it does#and it will keep going on without you until you can take back control#maybe you pass the time by pretending you are in control somewhere else#you forget it's not real#and when you come back you're confused#you need help to figure out what's real#it's not fun#it's not something you choose to do
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Look what we've become.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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Yeah sure I'll let this one free into the wild
#I cannot stress enough I made this in about an hour as a joke#But um. Animation practice I guess???? It's rotoscoped from that one gif. You know the one.#I can definitely do better than this but I'm artfight prepping and also was losing my shit the whole time making this#Minos prime#Ultrakill#<- Wasn't going to maintag but. By request apparently. Here#Hrokkall shitpost#1k#<- WHY.
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What happens when a stream goes far beyond the point it should've been turned off..? This is, THE DARK HOUR
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What if there was a "podcast" that could never be recorded intentionally? One that only occurs when the clock's arm enters its most dreaded position… This is. THE DARK HOUR. A new variety series from RTVS that will showcase what happens when a stream goes far too long, what comedy horrors are born from a late nite chat with the Boyz…
In this first episode, Scorpy's Kingdom Hearts stream enters strange territory after his energy is spent besting Riku. After accessing the Royal Toddlers wiki, everything changes. Talk of sad lives in a circus leads to a wish to visit Gimbel's Toy Store. And then we realize our collective, deepest, wish. PLEASE LET US MOVE IN WITH YOU, PHARELL!
#rtvs#radio tv solutions#wayneradiotv#socpens#trog#spaghoner#baaulp#the dark hour#pharell i will lose my balls for you#Youtube
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#slowly but steadily losing my sanity#drawing some epic clownery#I think it will be the final part of the third episode#I think..#jsjdkfkgmg#Tapa I see you sent this ask half an hour ago#I hope you are sleeping rn🔫
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It's Shin Soukoku Starting
#We got the sskk. We got the Akutagawa lives. We got Atsushi soft smile. We got the Akutagawa outfit change. I can't do this.#Okay now running to not lose another train please wish me luck#See you in one hour to scream about the rest that isn't sskk (also lie)#atsushi nakajima#ryūnosuke akutagawa#sskk#shin soukoku#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd s5#bsd season 5
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the marauders fandom is dangerous it will suck you in. you think ur safe from harry potter’s dad and his gay friends fanfiction. u think i dont care about that. thats not me. im safe. but ur not.
#im fighting a war against my brain not to get sucked in#i miss the harry potter universe so kuch#im running off of 1/4 of a au fanfiction and hours worth of tiktoks and fanart and nothing else#i will NOT read atyd#i have things to do in my life its too LING#thats where i put my foot down.#sirius black i missed u…. jegulus i never knew u but ive come to adore you#i am fighting a losing war#marauders fandom#marauders fanfiction#marauders era#marauders#jegulus#wolfstar#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#peter pettigrew
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texts with boyfriend sim jaeyun
pairing: jake x female reader genre: comedy, smut-ish, fluff au: established relationship rating: 18+ mdni warnings: veerrryyyyy suggestive, dirty talk, impreg kink, talking about birthday sex and not using condoms, strong language, jake is a loser but a very silly goofy lovely loser, pet names, he's very sappy and down bad for y/n a/n: happy birthday to best boy jake! he's the reason i even got pulled into the fandom and the why im stanning enhypen now. even though i've been listening to their music since debut, i always found myself making fun of jake lightheartedly without even knowing who he was. from the post malone song "this is not it" live to the border carnival holo pc, i hope i can always be here to joke lovingly at this silly boy who holds such a special place in my heart. thank you for being my bias for two whole days, im sorry jay came and swooped me up like that. but you'll always be my favorite bias wrecker 🫶 thank you for showing up on my fyp so many times and influencing me to buy tickets two days before the concert in seattle. seeing you live changed my life in more ways than i can begin to explain. so thank you jake for being the person you are. i hope this year is filled with a lot of smiles and happy memories for you. happy birthday jake 💛
a/n: ♡ pls like, comment, and reblog if you enjoyed! ♡ masterlist all rights reserved jayparked 11/15/24 do not copy, repost, or translate
#enhypen fake texts#jake fake texts#jake smut#jake x reader#jake x you#jake x y/n#sim jaeyun#sim jaeyun smut#jaeyun fake texts#enhypen smut#jake hard hours#jake hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#jake has me going crazy lately im literally losing my mind#experiencing the omega verse thanks jake
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my text disappeared here when i posted. what happened
#annyways whats the deal with the panicau. im not talking about like popularity or anythin g#why does n have the evil triangle solver and uzi is a ghost thats evil but also not and theres teeth??? in visor??????#i dont understand anything about it but the artstyle looks cool so i can ignore that#havent drawn this large in a while but i needed to do it for the pc screen to not be Totally crushed#a little crushing is ok. as a treat#i think i took this idea from a post i saw once but i cannot find it again for the life of me#and very intelligent prior me decided not to link it to myself so. lost media#still trying to figure out how i want to draw drone heads slash visors and have been since i started drawing md stuff#losing it#spent like an hour trying to draw something else before giving up and doing this instead#if youre lucky ill actually do it eventually#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones n#serial designation n#do i even tag mdpanic?? does this count???#constantly afraid ill mess up tagging#which is something you can do and i might be doing#and also thats a joke. hopefully
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anyway laerryn would've released predathos by now
#critical role#cr lb#literally do it who cares break the world#can laerryn come back in the 11th hour just to release predathos lets do it#hear me out the absolute hilarity of vecna being like i've RETURNED!!! FOOLS!!!! and IMMEDIATELY getting eaten by predathos is hilarious ok#and i THINK***** if the divine trammels lose divinity whatever banishment vecna would come back so of course he's like do it >;)#laerryn is SCREAMING like what are you guys DOING a GODEATER. PROVING the illegitimacy of the divine and y'all aint gonna pop that lock?#could never be her
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one thing about ik is that she will always reach out
#obey me#art#i had the idea for this and managed to bulldoze through drawing it all without losing motivation halfway through#but Do Not expect me to post art this frequently in future#idk how to do panels so if the middle bit with the text might be laid out weird#i added the stars and feathers and stuff because there was a bunch of empty space around the boxes#obey me satan#jtta ik#(btw the crumbling symbol next to the exploding feather is the wrath symbol from in-game)#(with the pride symbol attached upside down at the bottom)#(not so much symbolism as it is just me whacking you over the head with the point but it looks cool)#i had a lot of fun doing satan's more monstrous design so i might try my hand at some of the other demons later?#i do have some ideas for levi (deep sea creatures are just really fun)#also happy nightbringer release day!! it showed up on my homescreen like half an hour ago and i was like “wait what”#for some reason i thought it wasn't releasing til next week??#the new genshin patch is today as well so looks like i'll have plenty to do with the rest of my free time for the easter hols#(i promise i'm also working on the next chapter of jtta but i am so stuck on how to get lucifer actually Talking)#anyway. here's a gold star for making it through all my rambling in the tags for anyone who did so: ⭐
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[GOLDEN HOUR : Part.2] JACKET: Seonghwa (2/3)
#ateez#seonghwa#don't talk to me but also talk to me cause they're gonna make me lose it#consider this my 'help i've fallen and i can't get up' era#*wooyoung bungee jumping sound*#@ stylists yall make me feel like you love us and hate us at the same time cause body chain + crop top + pink hair gollllyyyyy#choose your fighter: black hair supermodel husband. pink hair rock drummer husband. pink hair gardener husband#kpop#에이티즈#ateez gifs#kq entertainment#atiny#golden hour part 2#park seonghwa#seonghwa gifs#pink hwa#pinkhwa
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Danse Macabre
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#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#marcille donato#winged lion#better drawn mdzs#<- art tag I really need to change.#Turns out the secret to drawing better was having someone offer you money to draw.#I jest. I just had a blast with this prompt and I seriously appreciate the commissioner for letting me have the chance to push myself.#And for giving me permission to post! Hi! If you're seeing this: thank you again!#Let me be clear: no I don't quite know where this came from. It just happened. My chakras unblocked for a few hours.#You too can unblock my chakras with money and commission me to draw cool art B*)#We are so far off from when this is relevant so this one is really just for the manga readers. *****Spoiler notes ahead:#So...As someone who read dungeon meshi monthly for many years....I admit to not seeing Marcille becoming the dungeon lord coming#Hilarious too; re-reading and watching the show made me realize that this outcome is pretty strongly foreshadowed.#Ryoko Kui distracts you by putting the focus on Laios being the 'one to break the curse' but nope!#This was the culmination of her goals and desires.#And - for those who did not have to suffer as us monthly readers did:#YES. WE NEARLY ALL THOUGHT THAT MARCILLE HAD TO DIE.#The last 20 or so chapters were a constant spiral of: 'Oh this story isn't going to have a happy ending is it?'#She just keeps losing herself! The winged lion plays her like a puppet and she is his perfect doll! So full of conviction!
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#ice on my teeth#his last insta post made me lose my mind#so#here you go#ateez fanart#midnight sketches#ateez art#kpop fanart#ateez fan art#ateez yunho#jeong yunho#ateez#çizim#sanat#golden hour part 2#yunho
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soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart
sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers
and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure
the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish
soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down
he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill
we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan
he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost
he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them
he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted
he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much
#i cant believe i never posted the soap meta that got me twitter famous™️💅#as with damn near every piece of characterisation in this franchise soaps is only apparent in subtext and connecting tiny little dots#it is very easy to just pick up his surface personality and think thats all he is#but soaps not a sunshine character#hes not super friendly or bright#hes just willing to talk to people and hes paired up with ghost who never wants to start a conversation#every time i see soap presented as this bubbly airhead thats super sweet and just blows stuff up i lose a year off my life#and i dont blame people for getting this vibe from him but im begging you to look a lil deeper#this isnt getting into his anger or the fact that he is a soldier which automatically makes him a wee bit fucked up#like he is hyperviolent and takes joy in it#we all know ghosts snuff film joke but soaps the one who responds positively to it#he returns the joke and only calls him out on it when he says he wont watch it more than once and even then its teasing not grossed out#and if we take the ‘he tried to join the military at 16’ factoid from 09 as current canon then he very easily could have a rough home life#no one tries to repeatedly join the military early without having some kind of problems#soap knows his worth and his abilities you dont get to be as good and specialised as he is without being completely sure of yourself#we know ghost has an ego but soap constantly butts up against it with his own affirmations#‘you wanna be better than me johnny’ ‘maybe i already am/i will be’ ‘a little helps not so bad eh lt’#being a sniper makes me hate the ‘cant sit still’ hc hes literally an sas sniper he wouldnt be complaining after a few hours of overwatch#i like the adhd hc and maybe he fidgets in his day to day life but the second hes at work hes At Work#tldr soap could be just as complex a character as ghost if cod would stop treating their campaigns as an afterthought and actually commit#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#talk meta to me#john soap mactavish#soap cod#cod mw2#soapghost#save post#call of duty modern warfare#cod meta
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When you need to lie, but you're a good boy.
#Lies of P#lop#neowiz#pinocchio#fanart#comic#comics#interrupting your local d2 art fever for puppet time -- we shall return soon#I'm not done with the game yet so i ain't checking tags#steamrolled this one bc i still wanna do another d2 comic for the weekend#cant lose momentum yet yelp#as i prepare this post i'm stuck on the cathedral boss for two afternoons already#like-- i am having progress with the battle and improving my timing so i guess that's something?#i'm not a souls player -- that's my brother -- but when i doubt myself he pats me and#'nah you are a souls player - you have persistence' and honestly he's not wrong#i'm actually enjoying the learning process of the battle even tho i'm stuck for two afternoons#i mean i spent 37 hours on the demo so at least i am taking my time sdfghjhgfd
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