#you just. cease to exist.
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Putting the word dissociate on a high shelf where no one can reach it forever and ever sorry
#actually dissociative#“lol i love to dissociate by making up stories in my head when im bored in class#DAYDREAMING THAT IS CALLED DAYDREAMING#you don't choose to dissociate because you're bored#and you don't make up stories in your head when you dissociate#you just. cease to exist.#time goes on without you#you lose hours#days even#and if you do “make up stories” they aren't distinguishable from reality#you don't remember what's real anymore#and then you wake up#you're seeing through your own eyes but you don't control where they look#your body moves without you#you hear yourself talking but the words aren't yours#your body needed someone to fill the void you left behind and your mind gave it someone#and when you come back that person resents you#constantly whispering in your ear “when is it my turn?”#and you don't want to give up control again#you don't want the world to go on without you#but it does#and it will keep going on without you until you can take back control#maybe you pass the time by pretending you are in control somewhere else#you forget it's not real#and when you come back you're confused#you need help to figure out what's real#it's not fun#it's not something you choose to do
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i really gotta wonder what goes through the heads of people that are adopt don't shop EXCEPT when it comes to service dogs. as if this somehow makes them noble? as if service dog users are the only people in the world that deserve dogs with stable temperaments or dogs that are bred with thought towards their health and structure? it's a really bizarre way of thinking that really, to me, harkens to the ARAs that are anti sled dogs until it's somebody doing it for fun only or until you mention indigenous people. are you so afraid of looking ignorant for your ill held beliefs? is challenging your currently held beliefs about what's 'morally right' for dogs that uncomfortable?
there are so many other jobs that dogs currently DO for us that require balanced, stable, healthy, purposeful dogs (including companionship!) and on top of all this dogs deserve to exist with thought and care put towards their existence. Dogs do not deserve to only exist if they're random happenstances from backroad strays or somebody's ill conceived backyard litter with zero health testing. dogs deserve responsible breeding just as much as humans deserve to have dogs with responsible breeding. how is this remotely hard to grasp?
#dogblr#dogs#responsible breeding#if responsible breeders do not keep breeding responsibly bred dogs will cease to exist btw#you cannot just pause the breeding of dogs and expect to pick it back up with dogs of quality#especially when many breeds are thousands of years old and developed organically#you can't replicate that. you just cannot#the number of rare Indigenous breeds i have seen barely come back from the brick of extinction like....guys.
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I’d give anything. Just let him live.
#my art#hijack#frostcup#rotg#httyd#jack frost#hiccup horrendous haddock lll#what’s up googleybears😘#long time no hijack#but I come bearing art#forgive me y’all I took a sabbatical#back to business tho~#the au: what if we were soulmates and you’re a winter spirit who’s slowly dying as magic ceases to exist but I just found you and I’ll do#everything in my power to make you live#even if I have to fight the gods and sell my soul to the moon
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i still think a lot about how technically, it's implied Anubis and Walt started dating each other before they asked out Sadie, and if Sadie had said she wasn't interested they would have gone "Entirely fair have a nice day" and proceed to just go continue to date each other.
Cause like, that was the entire thing. They decided that themselves. That things would work best if they were together (as in both physically sharing a body and also relationship-wise). The "asking Sadie about it" part was secondary. If she had said no, they would have stayed together, because among other things Walt would kind of die if they didn't. Walt and Anubis are technically the first gay couple in the Riordanverse. AND they're in a polyamorous relationship with Sadie. Why does no one talk about them ever.
#tkc#the kane chronicles#riordanverse#walt stone#anubis tkc#sadie kane#saltnubis#< great ship name btw#and for anyone who says ''i dont think Rick intended that'' mind you this book was released like#six months before HoH came out (and. subsequently also. Nico.)#like. Rick was not ignorant of queer stuff at that time. he was actively writing it into HoO/HoH while writing both simultaneously#if Sadie had said no they wouldn't have just gone ''okay Sadie pick one of us and the other will cease to exist on the mortal plane''#they would have gone ''okay well good luck we have a coffee date scheduled so we're gonna go do that''#saltnubis is still probably the most entertaining solution to a love triangle in middle grade media i have ever encountered#even some YA media. just ''yeah so we solved both our major problems by dating but like. we know you like both of us sooooo...?''#also hilarious that meanwhile Carter's romance arc is ''so turns out my first girlfriend was a clone made of pottery''#''and the actual girl has never met me and this is kinda awkward''
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as if it was never there at all.
#undertale#deltarune#utdr#gaster#ok little bit of rambling bc ive been catching up on a LOT of deltarune stuff#something something guy(s) who cant be perceived without also ceasing to exist#i had the thought yesterday that. gaster is sort of the anti-chara in a way. if you say his name he ‘disappears’#the game crashes or resets etc. literally the opposite of invoking chara lol#plus how chara is so associated with deletion of worlds. and here gaster is wanting to create new ones#creating new worlds. creating a vessel for the player. creating connections#and its so much more sad when you think about how deltarune is like. fundamentally his attempt to connect with the player#he can maintain a connection with us. but we can’t see him. or show him his own name. or acknowledge his identity in any way#or else that connection will be severed. or he’ll disappear. or he’ll cease to have ever existed#mystery man goes away the moment you interact. egg man was never there but he gave you an Egg#etc etc#the white egg noelle was given in her game makes me think about this too because#that egg remained there the whole time she was afraid of it. it couldnt be thrown away. it wouldnt hatch. it was just There#and then when she comes back later and decides to take care of it like any of her other pets. THEN it disappears#’_____ left home due to happiness.’#how do you form real lasting connections when the connection itself makes you disappear
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kit comforting ty by asking him "tell me what you need" and ty replying with "there’s only one thing" and kissing him senseless [audible scream]
#BRO BE SAYING “i only need one thing and that's YOU” AND THATS-#JESUS ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT THAT FOR A SECOND?????#UM???????#CHANCE OF SURVIVAL: 0#HOLY HELL IF THAT HAPPENED I WOULD JUST CEASE TO EXIST#kit herondale#ty blackthorn#kit x ty#kitty#the dark artifices#the wicked powers#tda#twp#tsc
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Different choices.
The ending is still an calamity.
They would fight over different ideals (I love making utter nonsense)
I also survive off videos clips of boruto. I have no clue what’s going on but mitsuki is trying his best
An Uchiha’s Love & Grief
(they wouldn’t get along either)
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#boruto#boruto fanart#boruto uzumaki#sarada uchiha#mitsuki#sharingan#art#fanart#my art#digital art#sketch#drawing#nonsense drawings of mine#can’t (technically) kill kakashi unless you want the timeline to cease from existence#Mitsuki everytime Boruto just casually dies#Boruto leaves the purelands out of sheer embarrassment#young obito and sarada look at each other and go literally not me#my longest post yet i shall never do it again. (ill do it again. i now know the picture limit)
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I'm actually so done with people (including "allies") using trans* men in order to attack trans* women. There is no trans liberation without all of us.
"Oh, you don't see trans men doing [x], but you see trans women doing it!" Actually, that just tells me that you intentionally leave trans* men out of this specific bias against trans people. It tells me everything about your attitude about trans* men and trans* women.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#transphobia#transphobia tw#transmisogyny tw#going to actually steal something out of y'all's houses if i see that EVER again#'trans men aren't invading manhood!' every time y'all say that i ~invade~ manhood even harder#genuinely saw somebody like 'trans men know they're too weak to go after [cis] manhood' and y'all are so sexist it hurts...#...like y'all really just think women(/anybody you force into womanhood) are INHERENTLY weaker...#...and people wonder why transphobia is so tied to things like racism/antisemitism/white supremacy/so many others...#...because rhetoric like this RELIES and DEPENDS ON people believing in the idea of a lesser class of peoples...#...without the idea that there is a Lesser Class/Less-Than-Human Class these ideas (eg transphobia/homophobia/sexism/rascism) CEASE to exist#scratch a transphobe and a fascist bleeds
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i agree sm with your ais post and your takes are always so good. When it comes to writing i really hope the devs dont have in mind the fans reaction 😭😭😭 i have already seen so many complaints about vere killing us and if thats the darkest the fandom can handle then we are DOOMED ✋️✋️✋️✋️
"we need more dark romance!!" and they can't even handle getting killed by a beautiful mysterious fox. fake ass fans
also yeah i too hope that they aren't getting influenced by the fandom (like the marketing is) in the full game.. darkness aside i think the most awkward moments of the demo seem like what the writers expected the player to feel like if that makes sense(? ("i want to kiss their mole" from the alley scene with mhin, paying too close attention to vere's body when you first meet him). overly trying to cater to fans just ends up being. really unsatisfactory
in short, less fanservice more murder 🙏
#can you consider the romance fanservice?? that's literally the game's genre so i dont think so??#i've heard some horror stories about the subreddit people (biphobia transphobia all that good stuff)#the ts subreddit might just cease to exist once the game is actually out#there needs to be at least 10 endings in which you get killed. in every route#and at least 5 AT LEAST 5 needs to be the lis#i dont want to be pampered i want to be in the trenches with my pookie
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‼️ JJK MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD ‼️
⚠️ proceed with caution ⚠️
this is just me theorising, and I rly hope it doesn't pan out like this, but I think yuuta is gonna lose. while he will go out dealing some heavy damage to sukuna, all chapters previous to the gojo-corpse comeback were dedicted to yuuji (the MC) levelling up his power and skill.
all previous jujutsu kaisen MCs, (yuuta in JJK0, Gojo with the Hidden Inventory Arc, Maki with the zenin clan arc) were allowed victories against their primary oppoonents. (geto, toji and naoya respectively) in the process, they lost someone they loved (gojo lost geto, yuuta had to let go of rika, mai sacrificed herself for maki) and after this loss, their loved one came back as a shadow of who they were (kenjaku in geto's body, rika as a shikigami, mai's gift of the soul split sword.)
what we tend to forget, is that while sukuna is an enemy of the jujutsu world, he is itadori's opponent. Jujutsu Kaisen as a story began with sukuna, yuuji's character developed due to sukuna's malevolent nature and all the loss in yuuji's life is due to the king of curses.
JJK is also inherently cyclical in nature, we see this in the multiple parallels drawn across generations, with a primary theme being breaking patterns of passing down trauma.
now, the genesis point for all the catastrophes in JJK was the existence of toji zenin, and as pointed out by yuki, he is the ideal of how humans should AKA net zero cursed energy. to achieve geto's ideal, another key point of the storyline, all humans should ideally become like toji.
but toji isn't the only cause of imbalance in jujutsu society, it's gojo as well. his birth caused curses to grow infinitely stronger and have an overall negative impact on the death rate of sorcerers. his status as a special grade caused chaos in the jujutsu world and forced the impossible burden of loneliness onto him.
as the story currently stands, yuuta is the only special grade remaining. I don't think yuuta will die, but I do think he will lose rika, lose against sukuna and all his cursed energy in the process. to dissolve the ideal of a special grade sorcerer will be pivotal for the story.
maki in the cinchpin; her contemporary began this mess and its only fitting that she play a role in ending things, but at the end of the day this is yuuji's victory. as per the repeating narrative of JJK, he's already lost megumi, and megumi has returned to itadori as a distorted image of himself.
but I don't think megumi will die, because what JJK has always been about is breaking cycles of abuse. objectively, sukuna is exploiting megumi right now, and I think the story will end with yuuji somehow breaking this cycle of abuse and figuring out how to harness cursed energy in a way that achieves geto's ideal of a curseless world.
anyway, those are my two cents. for all this analysis I still want a gojo nobara geto nanami comeback so all my pookies can hold hands and live happily ever after. I miss you gojo my gorgeous blue eyed king. I miss you nobara my femme sapphic queen. i miss you nanamin my father figure 9-5 king. I MISS YOU GETO MY PRETTY PRETTY PRINCESS. I MISS YOU THE MOST. YOU DESERVE A LIFE WITH YOUR HUSBAND AND YOUR 4 ADOPTED KIDS. GETO MY LOVELY POOKIE WOOKIE KING I CRY FOR U EVERYDAY.
#jjk 263#why geto's ideal? the reason suguru haunts the narrative is that his ideal#no matter how twisted the execution...#is the safest way for the world of sorcery to exist#the only way to secure gojo's student's futures.#either everyone becomes a sorcerer or cursed energy ceases to exist at all.#kenjaku choosing geto as his vessel#yuuji being a child of kenjaku#and sukuna killing geto's children using yuuji's body are all incredibly symbolic#geto has always been instrumental to how jujutsu kaisen unfolded as a story#or maybe that's just me protecting...#can yall tell he's my fave 😭😭#ANYWAY GEGE KEEP COOKING#yes youve caused me grief but im grateful for the story#they could never make me hate you gege#but when i catch you.#gege when i catch you gege#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen 0#gojo satoru#geto suguru#okkotsu yuuta#maki zenin#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#mai zenin#fushiguro toji#sukuna ryomen#jjk theory
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Transmigating into mdzs to make Nie Mingjue read "On the permanent Impression of our Words and Actions on the Globe we inhabit" by Charles Babbage. Despite the profound impact i suspect it will have on him, this will not fix anything. As he instead becomes so annoying that Jin Guangyao kills both him and me instantly.
#you know the philosophy student who's just read a text they think is so life-changing they can fix the entire world with one book#yeah. that's exactly what he'll be like#'meng yao meng yao every single one of your lies is a wave of air that continues to affect the world long after anyone stopped hearing it'#'the atoms of your victims will remember your crimes and seek justice for long after you've ceased to exist meng yao'#'MENG YAO THE EARTH ITSELF REMEMBERS OUR ACTIONS'#actually jgy extrapolating the text and discovering atomic determinism would be even worse.#how can he be GUILTY of ANYTHING if it was just the inevitable consequence of natural forces da-ge?#mdzs#nie mingjue#meng yao#jin guangyao#what's more nieyao than murder over a philosophical concept
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i am nothing but a mosaic of every time i've lost you / my life exists only within an outline of you
#digital#every now and then i think about the opposite side of the time loop 'i love you so much i devote every loop to saving u' fuckery#and that is. the life of the person youre 'saving' ends up only being defined by what you make it to be (eva will cease to exist without#julian willing him to exist)#and in turn your own life is only defined by this person existing#a really bad double edged sword that the person youre saving will. neve rbe aware of fjjdkgh#ocs#eva#julian#anyways can you guess whatgame i just watched my friend play thru#man im so fucked upppp over it
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People defending David's words like "he doesn't literally mean he wishes she doesn't exist" are valid
On the other hand... This woman literally believes his kid shouldn't exist so personally I think he has every right to wish she weren't here.
#let's just be clear: i wish people like her didn't exist#i wish they would all cease to exist#whatever way you think i mean that is what i mean#David Tennant
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The dichotomy of listening to moments of happiness really is just “Oh, I want to live forever” directly followed by “I am going to fucking kill myself.”
#can you tell. can you tell I’m going through it#I want to die so bad#on one hand oh. what do you mean the interconnectedness of the universe#and the beauty of music and the world around us#and the stars wink at down at the earth from millions of timelines away#and time is a flat circle and we’re all simultaneously the oldest we’ve ever been and the youngest we ever will be again#and sometimes a new day will bring happiness. and we just have to wait for the light in the sky to shine upon our face#and on the other hand#I AM NEVER GOING TO SOUND LIKE JEMIMA!!!!#ILL NEVER BE THERE ON THE STAGE!!!!#ILL NEVER FADE INTO THE BACKGROUND OF A SET AND BECOME THE MOMENT AND FADE WITH THE ORCHESTRA#two years left on this mortal coil#I’ll sing moments of happiness for my choir teacher and she’ll tell me she’s proud of me#then I’ll simply cease to exist like I was never there in the first place#like a note resounding from a piano until the sound waves have dissolved like smoke#maybe I’ll delete this in the morning#and maybe it’ll simply be buried#moments of happiness <3
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saw a deeply rancid take this morning about how amatonormativity isn’t real (especially in slash fandom contexts, lol) because all mainstream media focuses on platonic relationships so what do we even want. and was tempted to write a big thing breaking down the various prejudices at play in the way society (and thus the media reflecting it) refuses to treat women and queer people and other minorities as Real People deserving of stories, and how this leads to all this media focused on men whose only meaningful relationships are with other men in a way that does nothing but support amatonormativity along with every other status-quo bigotry. but actually i think this sums it up:
Mainstream Media to Aros (& those who believe in their beliefs): You’re platonic because you value friendship. I’m platonic because I hate everyone who isn’t a cishet white man. We are not the same.
#i get that if you are using zero critical thinking skills#it can look like mainstream media loves platonic relationships#(between men)#but it does not#it's just forced itself into that corner because it thinks that men are the only people who can be protagonists#and of course gay people can't be protagonists either#so the people who are allowed to have Rich Inner Lives and Emotions do that with each other#but if you look at any relationship outside of that framework#women who are friends#men and women who are friends#queer people who are friends#family members who are friends#you will immediately see the way that these are de-prioritized in favor of sex & romance#sometimes one bigotry will mask another under certain circumstances#that doesn't mean that the one being masked has ceased to exist
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#isn't it sooo fun when your body decides to warn you about your impending period#by making you want to crawl into a deep dark hole and cease to exist#especially when it's paired with the alexithymia-flavored kind of autism#where it takes you 2-3 business days to process that yeah you're feeling like absolute shit#and in the meantime you're left contemplating if you're actually fine and you're just the weakest whiniest mf on this planet#it's not even like this is news to me but i swear to god i better not still be feeling like this for omar's concert#bc if a fucking period gets to ruin the one (1) thing i've truly been looking forward to in well over a year#i'm getting a fucking hysterectomy as soon as i come back from sweden#i never even wanted a uterus in the first place#sorry for the rant#i'm sad and pissed
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