#you dont have to put 200% in everytime

[thebucketpail]

"Uh, hello. My name's Sparrow and- I don't wanna be like this anymore-"

[itsatorchwoodthing]

how many times did jack go “and now the doctor is going to show up and save the earth like they always do” but they dont, they dont show up, no blue box, no screwdriver, nothing, and it gets worse, abbadon, no doctor, 456, no doctor, the miracle, no doctor, do they care? do they really love earth, humans, like they say they do? maybe they’re only capable of loving one at the time, show them the beauty of the universe, let them burn bright before they burn out, but do they really love humans like you do? did they spend the last 200 years protecting the human race? not really, not like you did. you spent every waking hour praying to them to show up, because they solve everything with grace and wit, and everytime you try to solve anything you end up covered in blood, you succeed but it’s always at a cost, and they’re nowhere to be seen. do they care? maybe not, but you do, and you’re going to do anything to save the planet you now call home. and it’s ironic, right? they put you in this position, do they know? you’re immortal and stuck there, forever. you’re a fixed point in time because you have to be there, it’s your job, it’s your duty, immortality is not a mistake, it cant be, it has to have a higher purpose, right? right. so you wake up every day, shakes off those feelings of ‘they’re gonna come, one day or another’ and get to work, because no, jack, they’re not gonna show up, you have to save the earth, you have to remember everything they taught you, roll up your sleeves and do it. do it messily, but do it. save the earth, cause they’re not gonna show up. you learned your lesson, you’re alone in this.

[themoodyestj]

If Jared had done to a woman, what he did to Misha ( pin her to the ground, pretend to have sex with her, and kiss her without her consent. Not to metion pinching her thighs, grab her ass or put his hands on her crotch) he would probably be facing charges for sexual harassment.

and yes there is footage for all of the above.

Misha has done a lot to make this a better world, he has helped lots of people, built schools, cleaned rivers, rised money to help several causes, he inspired people all arround the world to help others and to be kind to themselves as well.

Jared is just another entitled white guy who thinks he's entitled to stop a train because he's more important than the other 200 people in the same train as him, he literally thinks that avoiding his own discomfort is a priority over the lives of all those people! and also, he was arrested for beating up a person!

OK Anon, let me see if i can express my POV well here. I'm not shy on putting responsibility where it is due (not even my fave, if you know the post that got AAs wanting to torch my tushie). EVERYONE SUCKS. Jared sucks because sometimes he's a bit of a airhead and makes mistakes (like stopping a train), and too emotional that he beat up a guy and he sexually harrassed Misha (your words). Honestly, I have never seen footage of that, but sure, I'll take your word for it. Jensen sucks because he did a prequel without the person that helped him build what we know as Supernatural and his wife instead, who had no business trying to milk a cow she didnt raise or put any kind of input on something that wasnt hers. Misha sexually harrassed Jensen (I mean, if we can call it for Jared, it's only fair to call it for Misha), he made jokes about slavery, rape, mental health, dropped slurs, called Musk a snowflake, also pranked Jared, incited Destiel, a subject that makes Jensen extremely uncomfortable and sided with Jensen's vapid wife to make jokes about him. The list goes on and on, and I don't want to waste a lot of time throwing accusations. My point is: Jared apologized, owned his mistakes, did therapy. Improved himself as a person. He's doing a lot better now. Misha, on the other hand, apologizes for nothing. He drops bombs at cons and when people get offended he basically calls them idiots because they "didnt get the joke". He uses controversia to make himself relevant. I bet not even Misha believes in Destiel, but it serves him oh so well, that he will feed it to any idiot who will do anything for a morsel. He constantly makes himself the victim, builds a world where everyone is a villain but him, because he always means well, no matter how disgusting he is. He will always be "misunderstood".

GeeksforHarris was a joke, as someone living in another country who takes democracy seriously. I would have admired Misha if he spoke about laws, and rights, and his view of the world, not freaking Destiel! He made a post about something he saw in his rug, for God's sake! How can someone with the average IQ even respect this man? If I were Jared, I wouldnt have shown up either. I would paint my face black before going to a political campaign to talk about TV shows. You can say all you want about Jared. Making Jared a devil wont make Misha a saint. Like his bestie Dee, he's a parasite. He got this opportunity to work in a famous TV Show, he saw an opportunity to prolong his fame by queerbaiting, and he's milking it to the max, while being stupid not to see how it's harming his own career. At this moment, Misha is a musician, playing the world's smallest violin as he still hangs on to grudges from over 4 years ago, but chnging the tune everytime it's convenient to him. Because that's all he's got. I could go on and on, to be honest. The man is desperate for attention and there is no shortage of idiotic things he did to stay relevant. But I dont have that kind of time.

[tacodemuerte]

could use some advice on how to make fun art shamelessly and also. how to. where does uh. the drive. where do u get all that drive. i hav lots of inspo but jts hars to turn it into real drawings and then even if i manage to it takes so much thought and effort that i just stop after that bc i know i would have fun or do well if i go on

the biggest key to drive AND shamelessness is to just stop carING MFIOSMFOISHJD

like u gotta stop caring about what people think and what your work looks like! sometimes we think TOO much, because thinking is easier than actually putting the paint down. but then we over think and we've spent 2 hours on pinterest and suddenly we are out of steam!!

IM GONNA SHOW U SOME UGLY THINGS.. THAT I MADE..

if youve been around my blog youve seen this! but tese were super ugly little things that i drew bc i was trying to draw christian cage..i still didnt get a good grasp at him and started to feel like everytime i drew him he just got uglIER MOIFSMFOISHF

so i just like..was like ok FINE.. this WHOLE PAGE isgonna be ugly I GUESS!! and i ended up having so much fun making these ugly doodles! it made me excited to do more and draw him again in the future!

once you like , put away that 'butwhat if its bad' and pull out the 'ok its gonna be bad whatever' , you ironically give yourself more fuel and drivE MFIOSMFISH cause its like well if its gonna be bad, and you DONT care, what's stopping you? and you end up making something that's pretty nice! or ok, or just fun to look at!

this page was another case of that, where i just drew while falling asleep MIFOSMFOISD. i did this a lot for a short time, not the BEST for your health but if you can like the stuff you did half asleep, then you can give yourself some grace and not worry about your work when you out in 200%...

somethings are just irredeemibly ugly but making it is just fun.. remember that art should be fun! it's not all about getting gud..look at this ugly little man, i hate him, but i had fun making him hehe

[sbk-zgvlt]

Hiii how you doing?

I'm like very interested to know if u have any headcanons about sebek family, like what are their personalities, appeareances, relationship to sebek, etc

I have a few of my own but Idk, i would love to hear about yours

The Zigvolt Family

Esme Zigvolt (Mother Zigvolt)

Get ready for a bunch of french names man

Black hair! I've seen that faes seem to have more "bland" hair, so I like to think that Sebek's hair color comes from his dad instead

Taller than her husband, that's for sure. Stands at a proud 212 cm (7'0 ft)

Stubborn and passionate about the things she loves. Or rather, the people she loves

Closer to Sebek than her husband, as always. Although, she's much more closer to her older son and daughter.

She wasn't really there everytime since she helps her husband handle the clinic. Most of the time Sebek is dropped off at his grandpa's due to this

Most drama comes from her side of the family, so sometimes she feels embarrassed that her husband has to put up with their bullshit

They met each other when her husband got lost in the woods 💀

Lidaeus C. Zigvolt (Father Zigvolt)

THANK YOU TO MY FRIEND FOR THE NAME YOURE A REAL ONE FR!!!!!

179 cm 💀 (5'9 ft)

GREEN HAIR, GREEN HAIR, GREEN HAIR, GREEN HAI

LOVES ESME!!!! LOVES HIS CHILDREN!!!! HE'S A FAMILY MAN

His children think he's a loser L. But he loves them all very much!!! (HE HAS A FAVORITE AND ITS SEBEK)

Scared of Esme's dad SHITLESS but after a lot of visits he likes to think theyre in cool terms now (They are not but only Grampa Zigvolt and literally everyone else in the family knows that)

Timid but also a huge nerd. Ask him about dental procedures and he would go on a full tangent

Has photobooks of his kids. Sebek has the most pictures and has more photobooks

Sylvie Zigvolt (Sister Zigvolt)

The eldest, the strongest, and the tallest at a proud 200 cm (6'6 ft). 21 years old

Has her hair tied into a high ponytail. It reaches just above her waist.

Was actually a troublemaker as a kid, and always gets into heated debates with her mother's side of the family when it comes to fae and human relationships

Now she travels around the world as a public speaker of some sorts. Sometimes the Zigvolts catch her on tv

Likes to send back souvenirs and trinkets to Sebek whenever she can, along with postcards

Is not impressed with Malleus and Lilia and does not like the fact that her youngest brother is being trained as Malleus' retainer

If you put her in a room with her grandfather it'll just be ENDLESS screaming matches

Her grandfather actually respects her to some degree though. Still thinks she's a brat

Soleil Zigvolt (Brother Zigvolt)

The middle child, 199 cm (6'5 ft), and also 21 years old

...surprise surprise, Sylvie and Soleil are twins. Both of them got their looks from their mother

Takes after his father in terms of personality though

If Sylvie constantly got into fights as a kid, Soleil was cunning and used underhanded tactics instead. You could call him a schemer

Both of them dont hide the fact that they like to dote on Sebek

Doesn't really care for his mother's side of the family, and thinks they're close-minded idiots

Has a bit of a sarcastic streak, but it's unintentional

He's content with staying behind and helping around in the clinic, but if he were to pick another occupation it would be becoming a teacher

ALSO not impressed with Malleus and Lilia, but thinks it's pretty cool that Sebek gets to train under them

The kind of guy who would always give up his pieces of candy to Sebek as a kid but also snitch on him whenever he snuck out

If you put him in a room with his grandpa it's just pure awkward silence. His number one intimidation tactic to scare the old geezer

[rakishhellion]

i just got all the achievements on neo twewy after weeks and heres some stuff i learned (no spoilers btw)

lets see

the one for being a frequent customer you get when that repeat option shows up on their menu

at tokyu hands you can trade 2 gem pins for another one, the pairs are rare metal and tektite, adamantite and orichalcum, and shadow and dark matter scarletite is an ultimate drop only

if you want to grind stats:

style - 300 cap (you only need 222) - air in a can (vegelovers - tower records)

attack - 500 cap - that spicy black ramen i forgot the name (suzu slurps - dogenzaka)

hp and defense - 999 and 500 cap respectively - tuna head (sby bbq - tipsy tose hall)

scramble slam sucks but heres how you get the rewards:

put the game on ultimate and reduce your level, you get more points this way

the way you get points is by doing beatdrop combos which means you need a lot of enemies that last

also theres a multiplier that goes up by 0,4x everytime you do a combo in battle up to a max 5x, save the enemy with the 3x until you max the multiplier

make the biggest chain you can with JUST ONE slam noise, thats enough to make the whole chain track points, also you can do chain battles with rival players too just let the noise get you then walk up to the player, once youre done, leave the area then come back so the noise respawn

anyways, equip the basic shockwave and force rounds pins so you slowly kill enemies, equip the rest of your party members with pins you want to grind just make sure they dont have x or y inputs

start attacking with shockwave, once the beatdrop circle shows up switch to force rounds only when its past half (delaying a pin gives it a bit of time to regen, enough to give you one extra full use), repeat the process with force rounds, you can make the most of the pins this way, its like, 5 uses of shock and 4 of rounds, a lot of combos

youre gonna make a fuckton of points this BUT chains are gonna be LONG AS FUCK, 40 minutes up to an hour, be warned

second slam is going to be a massive pain in the ass it took me 8 chains to do it (would be less if i remembered to reduce level)

theres a limited amount of the ion trade pins, theres a few you can miss, look it on gamefaqs i dont remember them, youre gonna need all of them for all the pins and threads

you cant get all the fp you need to complete the network by just doing quests and gold dives on regular days, youre gonna need some extra 15 points you get from a LONG dive in another day, its 10 rounds long and kinda hard, the last round is the worst, its two angry bears and a t rex noise (also angry) save a killer remix for this round, the t rex deals a fuckton of damage and if it eats one party member you wont survive the roar that comes next, watch out

hog healer and affinity weaknesses are your best friends for tough fights remember this

for the love of god grind pp on easy on another day, difficulty doesnt change the pp you get (i think the same applies to xp)

the noisepedia completion gives you a graffiti when you hit 80% but youre gonna need 100% for it to count on the save file complete percentage

ive seen ultimate shibuya hikarie w3d5 and ultimate cat street another day be recommended for money grinding but for the most part i disagree (bc i died often, you need high drop rates for these methods)

the way i do it is ultimate o-east w1d5, the chains last less than a minute and only give like 180 to 200 thousand yen, a lot less than the other methods but the short chains make up for it, this method is also good for grinding food (you do need to take the longest route for the tuna heads which can be infuriating considering the load times)

most secret reports are unlocked by defearting boss noise, 3 of them unlock by network completion, the last one only when you get all others, also boss noise respawn if you come back to the area so you dont have to redo the day like in og twewy

its safer to increase drop rate by threads than decreasing level remember that for annoying fights dont worry most abilities arent that good anyway (I NEVER GOT THAT ONE THAT SAVES YOU FROM A FATAL ATTACK TO WORK FUCK THIS GAME)

plague noise only show up on story fights so you cant chain them, go in with high drop rates, you fight almost all of them in quick succession in the day you have to go after that guy, w3d6 i think?

the last boss is the only boss noise you cant chain also for some reason you can soundsurf when it starts throwing balls at you, use that to get groove

for the superboss on another day i recommend using hog healer (to heal), fang defender (to protect yourself from its HIGHLY damaging dash attack wich you can also dodge, but i found it harder and using this pin fully heals you if you get it right), and a lot of pins you can use at once in an all out attack, if one party member gets attacked the other ones will keep going, i recommend using darkness pins since they can stun and pins with easy beatdrop conditions, use killer remixes only when the armor is up, most of the fight is dodging

just do the time trial on easy no one cares anyway

for the remind graffiti theres like one or two you can miss, again, look it up on gamefaqs bc i forgor💀

you dont need to get 100% drop for the worst fights, thats what killer remix is for, 75% is fine, its worse to make a long ass chain than it is to just do another fight

i need to explain how the killer remix drop rates work so heres how:

YOU DONT GET 0,5x PER PARTY MEMBER

thats why youre probably wondering why it isnt always 3x

the way it works is that you get a 0,5 per pin that has that little ready above it (thats what its for, i always wondered that) to get that ready you need to use that pin in a beatdrop combo either as the one that starts or the one that ends it

synergy abilities apply for the whole party strangely enough

theres a thread that gives you more time with pig noise, anyway brute forcing with killer remixes usually work no matter what

shiba is a toxic bottom

anyway thats all

as for what i think abt the game now that im DONE with it, love it honestly, and despite the fact it didnt meet sales expectations i think, im still hopeful for it, twewy survived bc it was so beloved by the devs i guess so theres that, also imagine if next games were on other cities famous for their urban culture that would be so fashion like

[dogshit-enchantment]

thoughts about totk

i dont know if its just me, but does anyone else feel like the story direction for this game is kindve ... bad? like the actual plot itself was interesting at first but everytime the characters try to deliver a serious line of 'my secret stone' I can't help but laugh at them. It sounds like a mistranslation you would see in a 90's port of a game, not a multi-million dollar triple A title in 2023.

Not only that goofy nature of it but like, why is Zelda so british? No one else is, not even her dad. Why did they chose a VERY british direction for her voice and no one else? It's so distracting and every time she talks I don't pay attention to what she's saying cuz I wish she would just stop talking. (I still hold a grudge over her for feeding Link a fucking frog and then people have the audacity to be like 'oh theyre in love' like no thats fucking sibling behavior at best.)

There's so many aspects of the game where it feels like they want a very specific series of events to happen and there's a very intended player experience. But then... you can go anywhere. Do anything. You can EASILY miss important things (I missed several of the Dragon's Tears because I wasn't aware there was something I was supposed to be grabbing from them I just thought it was scenery) and you can easily find yourself in areas you're not meant to be in yet. "Just teleport out!" Why didn't they just make a linear game that wasn't built as a wanna-be DLC expansion pack?

Having to re-explore a world I'd already put 200+ hours into is frankly tiresome. And to make it THREE TIMES as large??? Exhausting.

I wanted to like this game so much. I preordered it. I went to the midnight release. I played it for six fucking hours the first full day I was able to play it. And after leaving the Great Sky Island all I'm left feeling is... frustrated.

Frustrated at the unclear, hidden direction of where you're supposed to go. Frustrated at the massive size of the map that doesn't have That Many Changes to make it worth going through the nooks and crannies. Frustrated that they turned botw -my favorite climbing simulator- into a gimmick-based game that doesn't like you to use its own gimmick.

The constructs break apart too easily. If you build a flying construct that works well it breaks after about a min and a half of flying. If you build a car to traverse the land it despawns if you hit any cutscene trigger - which are often invisible and unavoidable.

This felt more like a Zelda game in the general flavor of it; you get the classic enemies back, you get actual bomb flowers again, Link is wearing green for fucks sake, and you get actual temples. But the actual heart of it doesn't feel like a Zelda game. The plot feels sloppy at best, rushed at worst, and the voice acting is so genuinely bad it's distracting and embarrassing. The only voice actor I didn't hate was Rauru (Chris Hackney, Legend) and Tulin (Christina Vee, also a Legend), even Sidon felt incredibly stilted.

It feels like the game punishes the player for using the mechanics it gives you to use and play with. Even the fuse mechanic feels like such a back-hand. "Oh we heard the players got frustrated at weapons having a limited usage, so instead of extending it or offering a repair service, we just made Every Weapon Shitty" like wtf. And even for the fuse mechanic theres only ONE PLACE that lets you unfuse and it's through a clunky dialogue menu! (my favorite!!! totally not the reason I stopped playing acnh!!!!) I played for 50 hours and was positive you couldn't unfuse weapons. Wow.

botw was fun and I thoroughly enjoyed it and the fact that your tools were simply on a cooldown. totk feels like a resource-scavenger except the resources are so hard to actually acrue. Not only that, but I've seen other ppl complain about how much harder it feels to upgrade your equipment. As if they needed some way to bloat the game even more.

This is just me rambling about my feelings and maybe talking in circles about it but I feel annoying trying to actively discuss my feelings with anyone so I guess this will do.

I've only beaten half of the bosses and 3 of the temples, but I don't know if I'll be able to keep going. I got stuck at the fire temple boss and I would argue its the worst temple in the game and I haven't even gotten to the Gerudo one. That's just how strongly I feel about the fire temple. I hate the minecart layout, I hate the lava puzzle mechanics, and I literally rage-quited after my 10th attempt at the boss. The water temple boss was annoying but it was mostly just learning patterns and having good reaction time. The fire temple boss is JUST rng.

which sucks cuz the wind temple was sick!!!! it was so cool!!! and the boss was probably one of my top 20 bosses!!! and then I did the water temple and Sidon kept glitching out and wouldn't accompany me for half of the trip up to it, and the GRAVITY!!!! UGH!!!!!!

I'm trying to think of points of the game I've truly enjoyed and I think the highlights of it have been: got to keep Epona from my botw save. But then that turned out to be a nothing burger since you can't have her tow anything. (also the fucking towing minigame that feels so insulting. "please take us to the great fairy!" YOU COULDVE JUST WALKED ITS LITERALLY A FIVE MINUTE WALK)

uhh, other good points uhhh, the new armor is pretty cool. I really like the Ember and Miner set. I really like the cave system. (shouldn't really be a feature but whatever) and uhhhhhhhh, yeah idk. I'm struggling to find points I truly enjoyed past the introductory level. like yeah building a car is cool! ... until it despawns and you lose 40min and work, and yeah I know autobuild can rebuild it but I'm not made of spare parts. And like, the korok puzzles were cute! Until you find one every 15 min and they take at least 10 to get them to their friend.

I think the most enjoyable minigame was the one with the sign dude on the side of the road where you help him hold it up. That was one of the better, more enjoyable parts of the game for me so far. It felt like it actually tested your building skills while not being truly punishing. Just start over if it doesnt work.

botw was a strong like 8/10 for me, and I think totk is gonna unfortunately be like a 5/10. The direction is janky at best. The gimmicks of the game are viable for most of the game. Exploring the same world with minor changes is frustrating and boring. Exploring the Depths makes me want to personally throw up since I have a phobia of dark, open spaces with Things lurking inside. Exploring the sky is fun but I didn't realize you could *reuse* the sheikah tower until 45 hours in because why would I think it would let me do it again??? So it felt inaccessible and frustrating.

The ability to fuse anything to anything and have it run and work well is a technical marvel! I'm not saying its not. But does it make a good *game*? Does it make the story direction work? Does it make the boss fights and dungeons work? imo... no. It doesn't. It makes a good tech demo. It makes an impressive piece of programming.

maybe i'll have more thoughts but I just needed to get all that out.

if you read it all thanks if not you wont be seeing this lol

[thesolotomyhan]

benjamin arellano felix nsfw alphabet

a/n: wow ok i was starting to miss my soft amorsote de mi benjamin and i want to kiss whoevers forehead requested this because i loved writing this for him:(( anyways here we go again i hope you guys enjoy this one :))

warnings: nsfw! +this somehow ended up being long af (5.5k) lma00 so heads up! 

a- aftercare (what theyre like after sex)

if this letter were to be identified with someone,, it would pertain to pinche benjamin because If theres anyone here that is into aftercare so much its a fucking necessity to always be doing it afterwards,, it just screams benjamins name like no other,, because theres no other way around it,, my soft ass benjamin would put in a 200% effort into aftercare for you because when i imagine aftercare with min,, :( it brings me to my knees because this man at first would be caressing the side of your face,, leaning his forehead down onto yours and kissing you while hes still buried inside of you after you both came,, just the both of you trying to catch your breaths him just repeating the words “te amo” over and over again,, him smiling against your lips when he hears you repeat them back to him wow

And i feel as though he would be one to love to have you laying on his chest afterwards after he makes sure youre ok and if you needed anything he wouldve gone to go get it, but him having his  arm around you holding you against him while his other hand holds yours over his chest,, just talking about everything and anything because i feel like he would be into pillowtalk,, him running his hand softly down your back with his finger and just relishing on the feeling of your skin on his :( him occasionally planting a soft kiss in your hair. and him having this soft glow in his eyes when he looks down at you and you would already be looking at him :(( just the both of you saying i love you at the same time it would have you both laugh as he pulls you in even closer if its possible :( wow 

b- body part (favorite body part)

If you gave the choice of asking him what his favorite body part of yours is,, this enamorado of a man would literally say everything about you,that  there is no distinctive body part on you that is his upmost favorite because in his eyes, you are the embodiment of perfection, he wouldnt change anything about you,, im not sorry im not making the rules here im just enforcing them  but its just the truth since there is no way he has an exact favorite part on you when hes always kissing you everywhere everytime a new part of your skin is revealed to him when hes undressing you or even when hes thrusting into you,, the way his hands would be wandering everywhere he can like up your legs, all around your torso, even up to your face while he plants random kisses on you,, his forehead leaning down onto yours just focusing on your face while he moves his hips,, like with all of that he just loves everything about you and theres no arguing with that because even when hes not being intimate with you,, if he isnt kissing your lips,, hes planting a kiss somewhere on your face,, your wrists, your knuckles, your neck anywhere he deems fit in that moment his lips are there while he gives you this little smile afterwards when he pulls away to see your face,, all with this small glint in his eyes,, or even when hes holding your hand just idly running his thumb over your knuckles because your hands would be so much softer than his,, or just him staring at you lovingly whenever he looks at you it doesnt matter if youre dressed up or not because :(( asi te ama :( he wouldnt change anything about you whatsoever and he makes that known to you everyday,, because his favorite thing about you is you  i- 

c-cum (anything to do with cum)

I know you can see where im heading into with this letter from a mile away because there is no other way he cums without it being inside of you, i dont care what anyone says here because its something about it for him about the feeling of wanting or more like needing to finish inside of you when he feels you squeeze around him, the way you dig your nails into him a little harder, and say his name a pitch higher while your eyebrows scrunch up when he makes you cum,, he gets stuck in that memory and moment and he just feels the need to see the way your face relaxes when you feel his cum spill into you coating you everywhere on the inside- 

d- dirty secret (a dirty secret of theirs)

wow when i was thinking about this,, a dirty secret mi min would have?? i came out to blanks because what secret so bad could this mf keep??? but you know what hit me? a thought many of you have sent me?? when you act up with him or when you start to get on his nerves just to get him to fuck you into next week because i can’t,,,  i just cannot be the only one that feels some kind of way when his temper starts to shine through and his soft side is no where in plain site right? because agarrense mis reinas the day you tick off this mf and push him into not being the soft man he is with you,, and you might be asking? Well what pisses him off then? i can honestly imagine some ways like maybe you making him jealous,, or when you tease him all day long just pushing his buttons until hes to the point of tipping over,, or maybe even him just already having this built up tension from putting up with all the things he has to do and coming home to you giving him a little bit of an attitude wow not only would it be his final breaking point to push you back into the wall but it would also initiate him to be bringing his hands to wander roughly everywhere on you, his lips urgently pressing into your own it would have both of your breaths running out quickly, him moving as fast as he can to take your clothes off while walking you back into the nearest surface wow ok and when i imagined this,, when hes not in the mood to be soft and you pushed him over the edge,, i just know hes not going to be taking his time building you up like hes always doing, the foreplay doesnt even exist at this point, because i can just see him tearing off both of your clothes,, pushing your body down to lay in front of him,, one of his hands finding themselves already in between your legs as he quiets any retort you may have with his lips on yours, him moving to come closer in between your legs, raising them to bend them a little and pushing into you with no warning whatsoever it  would have you muffling a loud moan into his lips,, your hands coming to hold him by the shoulders as he pumps slowly but abruptly into you at first ,, but the way your grip would gradually become tighter on him,, your moans becoming louder and the way your body starts to thrash a little under him while he holds your legs open would have him him progressively bringing his hips to plow into you rougher and deeper by lifting your hips up a little higher with his hands,, wow you just letting him take out his frustrations out on you,, fucking you into submission again if you made him jealous or gave him an attitude,, no longer the soft side of benjamin anywhere in site,, and that- that my friends would start to become a favorite thing you do to him,, that you let him be rough once in a while with you - 

e- experience (is he experienced or not)

I feel like he would know in a sense what to do,, but at the same time he isnt a fucking freak that has had multiple women in his bed  you know,, he maybe,, maybe not might have had someone before you? Ill let you take your pick but i just lean into him being an expert in getting to know your body right away when he has you in front of him,, its why i feel it in my soul he would love foreplay,, so he can take his time getting to know your body with his hands and mouth just so he can hear how and exactly where he can hear your breath hitch when hes exploring you, because then when hes finally inside of you,, he knows where he can place his hands just to have you gripping onto him a little harder than before and watching your face react to what he does lets him know what hes doing exactly right to get you on a high for him,, hes a quick hands on learner- 

f- favorite position (basically his favorite position)

agAIN you cannot argue with me at all because you wont change my mind that his favorite position is missionary because he isnt horny and kinky (like pinche ramon would be) because benjamin would always stay with his comfort position because it lets him stare down at your face while he fucks you, getting the perfect view to see how you would fall apart around him,, and this position just allows him to run his hands down every part of your body,, and it just lets him have this control over how you react with the pace he sets,, th e way he can angle his hips down further into you when he brings your legs to wrap around his waist and bring one of his hands down onto your hip to lift your lower half up a little to feel the way he slides into you a little deeper and  feel the way you would squeeze around him a little tighter everytime wow- him being able to hold and have his thumb stroke your cheek with his other hand on your face while he leans his forehead to drop onto yours,, the both of your breaths mixing in with the others,, him telling you how hermosa you look taking him in and the way you would have your eyebrows creasing together your whines becoming more elevated with each stroke he does while he moves his head away from yours to start kissing and nipping down your throat and all over your chest as you feel your orgasm approaching,, him slipping one of his hands down towards in between your legs so his fingers can stroke at your clit and bring you to fall apart around him- wow im so sorry i let myself show through but im just saying this position while it may seem vanilla,, because he is,, he just always manages to find so many ways he can ruin you in his favor while he praises your body and everything about you completamente excuse me - 

also before we move one i obviously couldnt forget you riding him would be another one of his favorite fucking positions because wow not only does he still get to see your face and body while he’s inside of you but because he can literally choose to lay back, place his hands on your hips and continue to stare up at you at how affected he has you when hes inside of you but with you setting the pace,, just telling you words of encouragement as he helps you guide your hips down onto his,, his eyes breaking away from yours for a split second just so he can roam them down all over your body,, just watching the way he sees your breasts bounce with every rise of your hips you do,, the way your hands would be planted on his chest and your warm pussy would be swallowing his cock i - so SORrry for that but wow ok and when he sees you toss your head back,, your moans becoming louder, the way he would move his hands to place them on your back,, lightly pushing you forward so you fall down towards him,, both of your chests together and your faces mere inches away from eachother wow,, him moving one of his hands back onto your ass,, his other wandering up the expanse of your back as he continues to thrust up into you watching the way react ,, him grunting into you when he feels your hips push back onto him to meet his thrusts midway ok - im just very much explaining why he loves these two positions so much bye -

g-goofy (are they more serious or goofy during the act?)

i dont necessarily see him cracking jokes in the middle of a session with you while hes thrusting away into you but i also feel as though he isnt serious/has a neutral face to him when hes fucking you because i feel like,, sex with benjamin would be this whole course of action that he wants to live and engrain into both of your minds so i tend to see him showing you a genuine enamorado smile down towards you when he leans his forehead down onto yours as he pumps into you,, maybe even letting out a small little chuckles when he whispers te amo mi amor when he holds the side of your face as he snaps his hips into yours and he does these actions because you both are already vulnerable and haciendo el amor so he wants you to be as fucking comfortable and relaxed with him in that moment as he is with you and i dont know why that makes me so soft for him

i- intimacy (how are they during the moment?)

and here it is again,, a letter destined to be written under benjamins name because intimacy is this mans calling,,  go ahead and try to fight me on this you wont win because as much as he would love expressing and showing you in any way how much he loves you out in public all day everyday,, sex is just the cherry and sprinkles on top to show you how in love he is with you,, its like his bond and love for you truly outshines and connects you both in a stronger sense,,, 

Which is why,, his intimacy is through the roof because this is where he would love to take his time with you,, truly fucking show you why hes so in love with you and why he thinks youre too perfect for him,, worshipping your entire being both physically and mentally through being intimate with you,, and this is also where his random kisses to your body,, the caressing of his hands wandering all over your body, one of his hands eventually coming to hold one of yours when hes deep inside of you,,, the smothering of his lips on yours when hes leisurely sliding his cock in and out of you while he whispers sweet nothings into your ear of how good this feels, how good you make him feel and how much he loves you,, wow just know hes there with you encouraging you and coaxing you through your build up and orgasm- 

j-jack off (how often does he jack off?)

I dont think its a thought or action for that matter that crosses his mind on the daily,, because when hes with you thats all he ever needs,, you make him feel good and nothing else ever makes him feel the same things he does when hes with you,, youre everything and more for him but maybe lets say the times he doesnt have you around,, maybe hes on a business trip or whatever that requires him to be away from you for a time,, sure maybe the thought has crossed him once or twice and perhaps he did it once and acted on it by jacking off  but it just wasnt enough because he doesnt get the same pleasure as when he has you,, so i feel like he would always wait no matter the time apart to come back to you so he can take care of his problem,, but in plenty of other cases hes always to busy and stressing out anyways on the business and all to even think about jacking off when hes away from you so he very rarely ever does it. 

k-kink (one or more of his kinks)

If you could ask me to name just one,,just  one kink that would describe or have benjamin be the definition of one,, it’s would without a doubt be the breeding kink no one fucking touch me because how are you going to argue with me that he definitely doesnt have this?? because this whole ass of a kink could easily make this man go from loving and sweet one moment where he wouldve been softly plunging into you that it had you gently gasping for air,, just a sweet and soft moment hes always doing during sex and wow the way all of this shuts down immediately like a switch was completely flipped inside of him when either you tell him to fuck a baby into you if your vocal about it or if youre not and you just dont want to break the moment between the two of you,, so you would be bringing one of his hands down to your stomach,, your hand going on top of his and just staring at him with this look in your eyes and oh my god,, if he wasnt worshipping you before,, hes going to double all of his fucking efforts and bring everything to you on a damn pedestal because not only did he just have both of your bodies in tune with the other, but the way you let your minds both connect in that same moment too and literally ask him to fuck you until there was for sure going to be a bebe on the way would not only cause him to stutter his thrusts midway into you but it would also cause him to keep one of your legs tightly wrapped around his torso and toss your other leg up over his shoulder and pound you into the bed until all thats filling the rooms once silent space is just both of your moans mixing together, the slapping and lewd sounds of both of your skins coming together repeatedly with the beds creaking all coming together is just out of this world- 

l-location (his favorite location to have sex)

I dont know if its just me but my mind tends to always associate benjamin waiting to fuck you at home when its just the two to you,, no dangers of having some wandering ears tuning in or the risk of someone walking in and seeing the two of you,, he just wants a private atmosphere between you and him,, so what better location is there for that? your shared bedroom where he can always have a calm and focused attention solely on you with no worries about anything else- 

but you know where else hes has his way with you outside of the bedroom? his fucking office at roxanne or just his office in general because dont you dare lie to me he hasnt had you whimpering out for him while he has you lied back onto his desk,, where you have nothing to hold onto other than him while he has his hands placed on your hips to keep you in place for him while he thrusts into you,, him watching the way he glides in and out of you,, your slick coating him, and him being able to see the way you would have your head thrown back struggling to keep your moans down as your body recoils from his movements,, the slapping of skin becoming more erratic from both the risk of someone seeing the two of you but also from the adrenaline of seeing you laid out in front of him,, half clothed and half naked on top of his desk with his things on the floor,, him bringing his thumb to play with your clit so he can help bring you closer and faster to cumming around him - wow ok i - 

m-motivation (what motivates him)

ill just say this now,, it does not take much convincing much less a whole sentence to get this man motivated for you,, because the way i imagine it,, you could walk up to him and hes already wrapping his arms around you giving you a smile like que paso, mi amor? and you could very much lean into him,, kiss him until one of you needs to pull away for some air and just go “te necessito” and hes already picking you up without question ready to fucking complacerte because he is not about to disappoint you in any way and if he can make you feel better by touching you or being inside of you,, you bet hes already on his fucking way 

n-no (something he wont do)

hurting you

and this could honestly go both during intimacy with you or just in general because during intimacy hes showing and expressing to you through so many actions how much he loves you and appreciates your forma de ser both physically and mentally so in his mind it just clicks together why would he cause you pain if hes only here to give you pleasure ?? of course you could always ask him or even tell him its alright if you have an idea and it might take a good minute for him to give in,  so you might have to initiate it and convince him that it wont hurt you but other than that no,, he just doesnt want to hurt you ,his alma entera,, and this also goes for generally as well because hes never trying to make you upset or feel sad around him,, hes always showing you through actions how much he loves you,, and just how absolutely fucking whipped he is for you,, mi enamorado bebe would feel so,, but so fucking guilty for the rest of the week if he ever makes you upset or hurts you in any way because he never intends that,, he loves and respects you and that makes me so soft because HES SUCH A SOFTIE

o-oral (is he into oral? recieving? or giving?)

Wow ok- him giving oral?? to his mujer,, his amor de la vida??? he would forever without question always choose giving over receiving do not talk to me about this because he lives off of making you happy all the time,, he wants you to be contenta when youre with him and if he can give you a moment where youre in a total state of euphoria because of him then you already know hes all for giving because the way he would have satisfaction and the feeling of being proud written all over his chest for making you feel all sorts of pleasure when he watches the way you would writhe,, desperately raise your hips to chase his mouth, your hands not knowing if you want to grip his hands that are wrapped around your legs trying to hold you in place for him or if you want to tangle them in his hair where his eyes are just staring at your face in amusement seeing the way your pretty chest rises rapidly with each breath you take,, his smile hidden in between your warm legs when he brings his tongue out to stroke your throbbing clit and just feeling the way your legs would shake around him, your moans of his name the only thing he hears as he keeps burying his face into your slick heat- i m 

wow but also dont get me wrong because my stressed out man also wouldnt push you away if you ever wanted to give him a blowjob :) especially :)) when its at his office :))) and hes just on the verge of lashing out but then here you come :) to visit him and make him feel better/put him in a good mood :)) and wow because the way he would tell you and just reassure you that you dont have to,, that your mere presence comforts him but he also isnt going to put up a fight when he sees you already kneeling down,, unbuckling his pants :))him just letting out the deepest breath when he sees you waste no time on wrapping your lips around him,, your hand on the base of his crotch and your eyes looking up at him while you push his cock as far as you can take him in your mouth,, his small whispers of agradecimiento as he tosses his head back a little and omg ill just - ok thats all ill say 

p- pace (is he slow and sweet? fast and rough?)

Ohh please,, you dont even have to ask me this twice much less once because are you really going to question me when i say and state in my case that benjamin is the one that will always be the slow and sensual type ?? try me because as i have very clearly stated,, benjamin loves to take his time with you and showing you his soft side with you both intimately and out in public,, so you bet hes going to keep steering in that lane with slow and sensual strokes that just eventually build up to him doing slow and rough if you feel me? Like at first i imagine him doing soft and slow,, whispering words of love to you and holding you close but as he just progressively watches the way your face keeps scrunching up from pleasure,, your nails digging into him harder and feeling the way you start to squeeze around him harder and harder,, it would make him start to thrust into you a bit rougher but at the same time keeping the same momentum and speed just with more powerful thrusts it would have you whining his name out and getting more reactions out of you to keep him motivated- 

q-quickie (is he into quickies?)

benjamin probably doesnt even know what a quickie even fucking means because the closest thing he might even consider a quick session with you would be in his office when he only does one round with you just to satisfy the both of you for the time being but even then the way this man would always be taking his sweet ass time caressing your body,,, slipping your clothes off carefully because everytime he watches a piece of your clothing fall off of you,, hes always leaning back letting out a small deep breath because you,, his reina de todo su corazon y alma entera is showing him something so intimate and im crying again- he just cant do quick sessions with you where hes not kissing you anywhere or showing you how much he appreciates you,, he just physically c a n t fucking do it,, he loves intimacy and he forever wants to show that to you by taking all the time he has in the world to make that known for you- 

r-risk (does he take risks or experiments?)

Ohh my sweet benjamin,, my soft fucking daddy, he would not even begin to think about fucking you somewhere else other than the privacy of his own home in the bed you both share im not sorry because i feel like he’s really into privacy and really loving/wanting to take his time when he’s with you,,, so hes not really one up for having his way with you somewhere thats not the bedroom,, and sure he might do it once or twice or maybe a handful of times just for the adrenaline :) but it would take so much convincing from you to actually get him to do it,, because hes already, barely  comfortable doing it with you in his office,, a place someone could easily waltz in and see the two of you but he considers that already one of the biggest risks hes done and is going to do unless you actually convince him and make him fall if you ever wanted to do something more risky . 

s- stamina (how long can he last?)

i want to say that he can last for a good while here,, like he can definitely last long enough to make you cum more than once and fullfill his promise of hacerte el amor toda la noche but i dont think its crazy enough,, but i do want to say, if its been a while and he hasnt been with you, its natural his build up/stamina  grows overtime that he can go for a some good rounds,, but i feel like he has this motto of “quality over quantity” that within the first round hes fucked you so good you both dont even need another round- 

u-unfair (how often does he tease?)

what even is teasing for this man? Besides his need for building you up before he ruins you,, he cant tease you for too long ya know? But of course :)) if you want to do it to him :)) then go right for it because he loves it when you tease him and push his buttons :))) 

v-volume (is he loud while doing it?)

i want to say that yes hes vocal but not so much everyone in the house hears it,, he can control himself from groaning too loud ya feel?  because again he loves privacy and this intimate moment is just between you and him so really the only one that needs to hear how good youre making him feel is you, because i just see him always either whispering in your ear the words he wants to spill out to you or if hes grunting from how deep hes inside of you and how tight you squeeze around him,, i imagine him dropping his head down onto your skin wherever he may be and groan into you,, but with you,, its a whole different story because he lives off of hearing the pretty noises he can induce out of you, its what guides him to make sure youre feeling absolutely good and on cloud 9 with him because he wants you to feel the same way he does with the things you do to him . 

w-wild card (something random)

I just kind of want to throw it out there about office sex again because get this,, one of his biggest most upmost worries he has when having sex with you thats somewhere not in the privacy of your shared room is the fucking fear of someone walking in on the two of you,, and his fear skyrockets even more at the thought of one of his siblings being the one to walk in at the wrong time as he plows into you because he knows hes not going to live it down for the entire year with them,, and you know maybe its karma catching up to him or just fate deciding to fuck with him one day because the one time,, the one time he actually insisted to you that he would rather wait to go home with you and take his time with you there but ended up giving in to you would be the day one of siblings decide to talk to him about something,, because i have to laugh imagining benjamin having your lower half of your body hanging off of his desk, your breasts having spilled out from the top youre wearing,,  your legs wrapped around his waist, one of his hands planted right next to your head as his other hand has his thumb rubbing insistent circles onto your slick clit,, his hips rutting into you at a steady pace and his eyes staring into yours as you both quietly groan out so no one catches an idea of what you both are doing together,, and i just imagine francisco or even ramon being the unfortunate one to open the door,, not even thinking about knocking because what harm or secret action could benjamin possibly be doing lol- and im just imagining mon or pancha going “oyes benjamin, dina dijo que-” and omg the way i can picture benjamin feeling his whole world crash,, him scrambling to cover you up and send a fucking glare of daggers to his brother like “que te pasa cabron, que no sabes que primero tocas la pinche puerta antes de abrirla” and lol the way they would be screaming at min why he didnt lock the door in a public space while walking away as min is already running his hands down his face on how hes going to get out of this one is something i love to think about when i imagine office sex- 

y-yearning (how high is his sex drive?)

I honestly feel like hes got it average you feel me?? because its not like every morning he has to get one in,,unless you want to of course then hes all for it,, but he isnt that fucking needy that he requires a minimum for the week alright? as long as youre fine then hes fine,, but if you ever even think about wanting/needing him then hes all ready for it,, its really your call most of the time but other than that,, he can wait until he actually does need it. 

z-zzz (how quickly does he fall asleep afterwards?)

He is not even closing one eye until he sees that you did because he just loves relishing in the feel and moment that he has you in his arms,, the both of you still coming down from your highs and enjoying the sweet aftermath thats coming in,, his happiness radiating off of him because youre happy with him,, i just feel like he would also be into pillowtalk and being able to hold your body close, like he would love it when you lay your head on his chest,, his arm that would be under you just wrapping you closely into him,, absentmindedly letting his finger trail down your back and arm,, his other hand resting on his chest and holding one of your hands too,, wow him always,, never skipping a beat after sex with you to whisper to you “te amo con mi vida entera, mi amor” and hearing you say it back to him just makes him so happy as he kisses the top of your head,, dozing off when he sees you close your eyes - 

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My problems with DreamTale

First off, i don't care if all of @jokublog 's hardcore fans come and witchhunt me. This rant is my opinion (+ facts) and why would i care if a bunch of random people i dont know hate me? In fact, go on and hate me! Hate me all you like! Everytime you interact with my blog in any way thats free promo for me. Also i don't care if DreamTale is independant of Undertale nowdays or not because it started out as an Undertale AU and i will treat it as such.

Anyway lets get to it.

Let's start at the beginning with the childhood of Dream and Nightmare. After Nim merged with the tree she left them behind without a proper caretaker and she put the responsibility of taking care of the balance between positivity and negativity on their shoulders. May i remind you that they were basically children back then? And when the village came to be (or it already existed idk one of these) no one, absolutely no one, decided "hey there's these two kids that are basically homeless and live by a tree! Why don't i care for them?" even if they hated Nightmare, someone would've surely taken them in. To the homeless factor, sure they were fine when it was dry but what the hell did they do during rain, storms or snow? You can't tell me that it never rained or snowed in DreamTale. That is absolute bulshit. Also how did Dream and Nightmare provide for themselves? Did they work? As far as i remember the thing with giving apples to villagers was unpaid. Did they have a part time job? If yes, oh dear- If not, did they steal? Did the villagers just provide them with everything they needed to survive for free? I need answers.

Then lets move on to something i literally did math on. The apple incident. The story goes that Nightmare ate 999 black apples under peer pressure and Dream ate the last golden apple. First off, 1000 apples on a tree? Max an old and big Apple tree can carry is 800. Oh well it's magic, who cares. It's only 200 off. But can we talk about how incredibly nonsensical it is to have Nightmare eat 999 apples? He ate them, not ansorbed them. Well lets do the math then! The average time it takes to eat a whole apple would be around 11 minutes, lets round it to 10 for simplicity. 10 x 999 = 9990 minutes. 9990 minutes = roughly 7 days. These villagers pressured a kid with a panic attack for 7 days straight to eat apples, and thats not even counting possible breaks! Do these people not have anything better to do that insult and yell at a crying kid for 7 days straight to eat 999 apples? And the thing where Dream froze up or smth idk whatever reason he had to not stop Nightmare. 7 days. He had 7 days to do something and he didn't.

So, after 7 days of forcing a kid to eat a stupid amount of apples he corrupts. The story goes on as usual and we fast forward 500 years to when Dream and Nightmare fight. How does Dream even have a slight chance? If we go with videogame terms i assume the apples boost the stats of the one who ate them, otherwise they'd be pretty useless if they only increased positivity or negativity each. Nightmare had 999 black apples plus the corruption that altered his mind and body. The man's pretty much an elder god. Before we continue, how did he not manage to take over the multiverse or destroy or it whatever his plan is in the past 500 years when no one was actively opposing him? Was he waiting for Dream to break free? Did he simply not try? What DID Nightmare even do in the past 500 years? Whatever. So we have pretty much an elder god and then theres Dream. He has 1 apple. If the apples make you stronger how can one apple rival 999? Does the stat boost not stack? If yes, i remember there being a thing where Dream and Nightmare protected the tree from bad people who wanted the apples for themselves. If more apples don't increase your strength whats the point again? Or are golden apples simply so OP that 1GA = 999BA? If yes, why did they give out golden apples to others then? Or did Dream simply have way higher base stats than Nightmare? Then that's unfair as fuck and Nim is an even worse mother than she already is. The 1 = 999 ratio is bulshit and makes no sense.

Then let's go to the fun part! The personalities and they don't make sense! Look, i can forgive their personalities at the beginning of the story because they were pretty much children but holy shit are they awful later on-

Let's start with Joku's favorite, Dream. Dream is as bland as a brick, dense like one too. His entrie character is "perfect uwu boy" and Joku acts like he has no flaws and would never do anything bad. Thats not the case and that is not how you write a good character. Why do y'all think everyone hates on Mary Sue characters? Everything resolves around them and their only "flaws" the creators gave them are that they're "too good for this world". And thats the same case with Dream. He has no personality other than that he's perfect and a good guy. The only character depth is that his brother is evil. Thats it. And it's not good character design. Funnily enough in the original story Dream has a shit ton of flaws that Joku decides to ignore lmao

Let's get to Nightmare, a character who only exists to be hated by everyone and even his creator. His personality did a complete 180° after the corruption and i don't mind that. But the execution is dogshit. The original Nightmare (from now on referred to as Passive) apperantly died due to corruption. That makes no sense? What? If a plant is corrupted with a parasite it'll eventually die, sure, but then the parasite living on it will die too. Thats entire point. Passive wasn't corrupted by a virus or fungus or whatever but it's still the same concept. The parasite needs a host. If the host dies the parasite is screwed. If Passive is dead, so is the corruption. Because it needs the soul and if Passive is supposedly dead, so is the soul. So the "Passive is dead and there's only corruption" is bulshit. He's dead in spirit at least. Moving on, apperantly Nightmare became sexist after the corruption? What? From what i caught up he gained alot of traits simply to make him hateable and that is not how personalities work? If he wasn't sexist before why would he be sexist now? Did a woman wrong him in some way or why does he hate all women all of the sudden? Everything in a person's personality can be explained with psychology. Give me me the psychological answer to this, Joku. I get other shit in his personality because he's quite literally traumatized by a life of bullying and abuse but what the fuck are these new traits that make no sense? Also i remember reading somewhere that he can't feel positive feelings anymore. That is quite literally impossible because not all feelings can be categorized as positive and negative. Too much of positive shit can also quickly turn negative. What about neutral feelings? Please someone explain.

There's a good reason why everyone rewrites these two to fit their interpretation of them. They write them in a way that actually makes sense on levels other than surface level.

Conclusion: DreamTale has alot of plotholes and flaws, but nothing that can't be fixed over time. Characters and stories develop over time and the longer you use them the better they get. Unless you stubbornly believe your first draft is the perfect version and refuse to change anything despite some critism here and there. I'm not saying that i hate DreamTale, quite the opposite. I love the concept and what the fandom does with it. I just hate the original execution and the fact that Joku believes that it's perfect the way it is when it really isn't. Dear Joku, criticism isn't a bad thing and can cause alot of improvement because you hear the opinion from people with different points of views. But you'll reach nothing if you stay in your echo chamber where everyone looks up to you like you're a god and agrees with everything you say.

[miss--aura]

Saw your requests were open! I too love Fatgum so maybe an +18 plus scenario with some angst? Like maybe you were good friends but now both are stuck in limbo after sleeping with each other one night. Confused about what they are. Sorry if I'm not making sense.

Stuck In between

Pairing: Taishiro Toyomitsu x Reader

Warnings: angst, bad smut because I had a headache while writing the ending, idk what to put for warnings, banana milk sucks

Requested by: ness-is-a-vanillabean

On a serious note I decided I don't know how to wrote angst or if this counts as angst lmao.

It was a spur of the moment decision, at least that's what you kept telling yourself. You were drunk, and let your lust get the better of you and now you didn't know what to do.

You shouldn't have let Midnight convince you to go, you shouldn't have taken the wine glass offered to you. It was all just some big mistake that you made, and it landed you where you are now.

You haven't left your house in a week and you certainly havent been checking any messages on your phone. Luckily you could work from home, but you couldnt hide forever.

"God, I'm so stupid!" Slamming your head on your desk with a groan, tears forming in your eyes as you choke out a sob.

No matter how hard you tried it kept replaying in your head. The way his eyes seemed to drink you up, his hands caressing every inch of your body, the way he filled you up hitting the spots that made you forget your name.

Part of you didn't regret it at all, getting out all of the lust filled emotions was such a nice release to something you've been holding onto for god knows how long.

Yet, you couldnt look back on the memory in a fond light. Because in the end, you said I love you. You said I love you to your bestfriend, and now you couldn't even talk to him.

He'd called you at least 15 times a day since then, over 200 messages being left unread. You just had to go and be selfish, didn't you? Ruin the one good thing you had in your life.

You wondered how he was doing, not that you'd ask. But at the same time, you were his bestfriend and you confessed your love to him in a drunken haze and haven't spoken to him since.

All the ways you could've confessed, you had to go and do it when you were drunk out of your mind and being pounded into a mattress. Going back to work at the agency would be a nightmare now.

One week left until you actually had to go back to the agency. Meaning one week to figure out how to avoid Taishiro for the rest of your life. Did you want to avoid him? No, but you'd rather avoid him than own up to your own emotions.

Picking your head up off the desk you decide to actually do something productive for once. You needed groceries anyways and right now was the perfect time to do so, considering Taishiro would be patrolling the other side of town.

You quickly freshen up and head out the door, the grocery store being only a few blocks away so you could manage walking there and back.

It was a short walk, being about 15 minutes give or take a few. Now that you were scanning shelves you realized how long it had really been since you've seen, well, another human.

It almost made you laugh, how seeing really people made you feel better about the situation your in. Sucking in your cheeks you put a small case of banana milk into your cart.

Taishiro didn't really care for it, but it was almost a comfort item for you. He always said it just tasted like a banana, and it'd cost less to buy regular bananas instead. Though you'd disagree everytime he brought it up.

Sure, it tasted like bananas, but it is banana milk so whatever. Plus it came in cute boxes with a straw and who were you to deny something that looked so cute.

Making it to checkout, you place your items on the counter. Allowing the cashier to do their job while you let your eyes wander around the store.

It wasn't big, but it had a comforting feel. Maybe it was because you'd been feeling down, or maybe it was the way you'd been here so many times that the familiarity was comforting to you.

Never the less you give a small smile to the cashier, finishing the rest of your items as you pay. Fishing the bags into your arms as you start the short journey back to your home.

"Need help carrying those bags?" The voice made you freeze in place. There was no way this was happening, he wasn't supposed to be here. He was on duty, right?

"Listen we need to talk, you can't keep ignoring me."

"I don't wanna talk right now, aren't you on duty anyway? I have to go put these away." You start walking off, hurrying to get away.

"I'm a hero, I help people in need. You aren't feeling like yourself which means it's my place to help. Is it not?"

"I said I don't want to talk, I said something I didn't mean, and I have to face the consequences for that. Okay?"

"So you don't love me?" You swear you could hear the hurt in his voice, but you told yourself you were hearing things. You can't ruin this anymore than you already have.

You can't bring yourself to respond, quickening your pace as your eyes fill with tears. Trying to blink them away only causing them to slide down your face. Not that you bother to wipe them because you know Taishiro is still watching you walk away.

He doesn't like you like that, he's a pro hero, you're just an office lady. That's what you have to remember. Whatever you thought you had, was just you trying to convince yourself that something could happen.

It didn't matter if you wanted to run into his arms, nothing would change. You'd be the hopeless romantic who had feelings for a hero who didn't have time to waste on a relationship.

"Y/n wait! Stop walking so fast I can't keep up!" Taishiro's voiced filled through your ears, your heart melting at the sound. But for once, your head was in control. Head over heart, that's what your mom always said.

"Go away 'shiro." It came out more broken than you wanted it to and you knew he could see right through you as much as you wanted to hide away from your feelings your feet plant themselves no longer letting you move further.

Two arms wrapping around your waist in the tightest hug you've ever experienced. Stealing the air from your lungs as a small whine of pain escapes your lips.

"Y/n, listen to me. You can't keep avoiding me. I've been worried sick about you, can't you tell? I thought I was dreaming when you told me you loved me but just as soon as that happened you dissapeared. Please Y/n talk to me."

You shook your head more tears streaming down your cheeks as you tried to speak without sounding like you were dying. Though it felt like you were.

"You don't love me 'shiro, I gotta get over you but whenever you're near me it makes it so hard. No matter how hard I try I keep falling harder."

"Who said I don't love you? Angelcake, you never asked me if I loved you. Look at you, what is there not to love about you? When you said you loved me I'd never been more happy in my entire life. So please, stop running away from me, I hate not being with you."

"'shiro..."

"Shh, let's get you home, I wanna show you how much I love you."

Arriving at your house, you force the key into the door as quick as you can manage. Taishiro taking notice to how desperate you were to enter.

Pushing the door open you realize how messy your house was, an awkward smile spreading across your face as you let him in. "Please excuse the mess, it's not usually like this I've just been having a hard time recently."

"As if it's any worse than mine, besides I'm not here to judge you." He grins placing his hand in yours and leading you to your bedroom. Seeing as he'd been here enough to know the lay out of your house.

Just as soon as you were in your room, he was all over you. Kissing you with so much passion you thought you were dreaming by the way he seemed to be bleeding out lust.

Taishiro opted to use his normal form in moments like this, his fat body not working when it came to the more intimate moments. Not that you loved him any less in any form.

You whine into the kiss, your body on fire from the arousal building up within you. Clawing at your close to get them off, desperate to have Taishiro's hands be on your bare skin.

"Someones needy, aren't they?"

"'shiro, please I want you. I've been waiting for this."

He hums, giving you a small nod as his hands sneak up your shirt. Helping you strip out of your clothes before falling suite with his own.

His hands grope your breasts squeezing lightly to get a reaction out of you. Which you give through a small moan. The noise is just enough to get him going though.

Spreading your legs and holding them open with his knees he slides his fingers over your folds, getting a grasp for how wet you were for him.

The more he teased the more you squirmed under him, small begs passing through your lips. Begging for him to hurry up.

"Taishiro, please stop teasing me I cant wait anymore~"

He only smiles in response, placing his cock at your entrance. Having done this just a week ago he was more than ready to plunge into the depth. Slowly thrusting into you allowing you to adjust.

You whine out his name, back slightly arching off the bed in ecstasy. Clenching around him your eyes clouded with list at the sensual yet familiar feeling of him filling you up.

He thrusts harder, finding a sweet rhythmatic pace that made the both of you feel good. Not too fast, but not too slow either. The perfect momentum between the two of you.

Leaning down to kiss you, he finds himself smiling like a little kid, happier than ever to be with you in this moment.

"'m close baby, where do you want my cum?"

"Anywhere, I dont care."

Satisfied with that response he thrusts into you a few more times before pulling out and letting his cum cover your lower abdomen.

"I told you I loved you babe, is that enough to prove it?"

"More than I could have ever asked for."

[c4-weeb]

Obey me boy head cannons!

Skater!Mc x the demon boys + undateables!

Alright so background! Human mc had invited one of the boys to go to a skating rink with her in the human world, since she is one of the main racers and a very frequent attendee at the place since she was 10. She knows the regular skaters and owners pretty well. Shes held with high respect there and is pretty talented. She has skate races and a whole team of great skaters, so what happens when one day she invites one of the boys to go on a date/ support her during a competitive roller derby? Also please do keep in mind I'm taking inspiration off the monster high roller derby cause that race was pretty cool and difficult to do so make it more modernized and human. You know... no swinging axes or kraken's trying to grab you as you skate. Though in reality that sounds like something Diavolo would put together for devildom roller derby's...

Lucifer

When he heard you beg him to come support you for your first race back in the human world he was a little taken aback. A roller derby? Him? I mean he wasn't going to be the loudest but he did find the thought of watching them succeed and wanting his praise amusing nonetheless....

....in reality he missed the Mc dearly and would appreciate the time with them, but he'd never say so out loud.

When you looked up to him from the stands he smirked at you, the pressure was on... that smirk was the one of judgement and "let's see how you do" which wracked your nerves with enough anxiety that it helped fuel the fire to make sure you succeeded.

When the Mc took off, being shoved by people bigger than her on each side, he was surprised when you fell back and the two idiots collided and she hopped over with ease and sped towards the front with amazing speed.

When The Mc and their team won, she came speeding to him and hugged him from behind and thanked him.

Later he took you out to eat in congratulations, the smile on your face from getting praise and food? All the stress from the day was relieved by that small gesture.

"I dont know why I thought I had finally found out everything I could about you, yet you just keep surprising me...."

Mammon

When the you asked for his support during a casual race at your local skating rink, with just your team mates going against eachother in a regular speed skate with a few obstacles, he wasnt so interested, saying he wants money in return for his support, when in reality he would have went anyways. But when you told him that since it was a casual race, people could bet on the racers, he agreed so fast and even begged to be summoned right then and there.

Expect him to be screaming at the top of his lungs for you to win

Isnt against calling you baby this loud in public

May or may not have tried climbing the fence when you got pushed

Definitely bet on you, and a huge sum of money too. So much faith 😭❤

Once you've won expect him to come flying at you, poor baby forgot you where on skates tho so you'd end up falling backwards to your friends amusement of your cuddly demon.

Tried threatening the owners to do another race so he could get money and failed

Sulked till you dragged him by the hand to skate in the neon lights since most people left it was just you two

Later he would drag you to either go to bet on races with him to gain more money or go to shower you in gifts, really depended on how well you could convince him to not go gambling, which had a 50/50 success rate.

"If I'm not going to get more money I might as well shower you in what I have, make you the prettiest gem for the whole world to see!" "Mammon you only won 200 dollars not a mil-" "sh, sh, shhhhh, shhh, no arguing! The Great Mammon is going to treat his treasure right tonight, ya' hear!?"

Leviathan

Now getting this otaku outta his room was an absolute struggle. So like a cat trapping their preh, you had to summon him to your house and put a blindfold on him for a special surprise.

Dragged his unsocial ass to the car and road down to the skate rink and took off his blind fold once you both got inside.

It took a lot of coaxing, but you finally got him to calm down enough to get a pair of skates.

If your skater friends said hi to him he'd hide by your arm like a scared 5 year old

The jealousy he felt of everyone in the room was unbelievable, because the poor boy has no balance for skating. On wheels or ice, his body just refuses.

You offered to help him learn and the poor boys face was fuming red, thankfully the neon lights and darkness hid it well.

He held onto your hand for balance throughout the whole date, only stopping to eat some pizza and play some arcade games.

After a few hours you headed back to your house to binge some Starwars, wanting to watch something different with him.....which eventually led to the both of you getting bored and going back to the new ruri-chan movie you guys binged countless amount of times on the phone together.

"H-hey! Hold on you're going t-too fast! No now you're so close I-....um... ack everyone can see us...so many people... but its worth it to show that your mine!"

Satan

Now Satan isnt much of a skater, nor a loud supporter, but with enough coaxing you finally got him to at least try and relax with you, doing a nice small couple's night at the skate rink

Really wanted to try human customs with you so there was little resistance

He would hold their hand as you'd skate

Even think of skating away from him and he will chase after you

This man's rage in his bones makes him a natural speed skater

Will tickle you when he catches you, starts a very one sided tickle war tho

If you wanna sit down, it's going to be in his lap, no rejections.

Will find it adorable if your friends make fun of how blushy you're getting as you hide in his chest

"Come now kitten, dont run away or I'm going to tickle you so hard that your face will hurt too much to smile at anyone else but me"

Asmodeus

This sweet baby was already dragging you to your room to glamor you up before the race.

Honey no need to say anything, he will make you the most gorgeous skater just tell him the vibes you wanna give off and he will hit the nail straight on the head and match your aesthetic.

Best expect victory photos.

Will record your victory and show it off to the group chat with the brothers.

Absolutely head over heels for you, hanging off your body in a hug and then going for a really close skate together

Might try to convince you to have some celebratory seggs but will 100% be making it known how much you excited him.

"Sweetheart look at all the likes our photos are getting! Everyone's congratulating you! Awe look at how viral my baby is! That was a VERY thrilling experience watching you, and you do need to take care of that body....shall we take this home and undress you so I can congratulate you the right way~♡?"

Beezlebub

Immediately agreed when you brought it up that you wanted to bring him to the skate rink, someplace you enjoyed going.

He knew skating was like a work out but was worried about finding skates his size there so he brought his own customized skates.

You better have snacks cause baby is gonna be starving.

Thankfully since you also work there and know the owners, you where allowed to hop over and take his order, putting it on your tab. 4 pizzas 2 Turkey legs 7 hotdogs and a pint of water (remember to stay hydrated)

If you bumped into a few of your friends and he WILL get along with them. He wants to be apart of your life, all of it, so he'll make it a point to get along with everyone in it for your sake.

If you ever look like you're going to fall he will be so close behind you it would be like slipping and falling back onto a brick wall who grabs you before you hit the floor.

If you fall forward he will grab your shirt but try not to choke you in the process

(If you do choke poor baby with be hugging you apologizing profusely)

You two try racing eachother but no matter what you dont win cause hes just too fast

Finds you challenging him over and over endearing and adorable.

"You're so adorable when you're chasing after me trying to win, but I'm hungry now...can we go eat again?"

Belphegor

Will complain once you ask him to go skating for date night in the human world

Wont stop till he finds out it has a sunroof along with the neon lights so he can look at the stars while skating with you.

Will only skate for an hour or two then passes out on your lap

Will not help at all when you fall, just laughs cause he is probably the reason you fell in the first place.

When hes skating he will take your hand in his the whole time and sorta lean on your shoulder while skating from behind you.

You two will stop periodically to sit at the small felt covered benches in the rink to look up at the stars (may or may not fall asleep on your shoulder so you're stuck there with him sleeping for 20 minutes)

You will be the last ones out

Must grab some food for Beel cause belphie promised to bring him home food.

Skating (more like you dragging him by the hand while hes in skates)back to your place and looking at the stars together at like 3am

Wont go back till he can officially cuddle you till the morning and leaves at 11am

"Hey look...theres Ursa major...*yawn* come on let's sit down again, I'm tired..."

Luke (only as siblings you take him skating)

Doesnt know how to skate

You end up teaching him and hes the happiest little boy ever.

If you take him to a race he'll be all worried that you got a scratch and starts to get protective over you when the person who pushed you comes near

Definitely eating cotton candy

Playing claw machines and you win him a stuffed piggy and he holds it near and dear to his heart cause it's from you

"Mc! Mc! Look I'm doing it! I'm skating! Sir oinkers and me are skating together! Thank you so much haha!"

Simeon

Happily joins to cheer you on during your races everytime. Got a race? Simeon will be there.

If you dont win he will comfort you and make the best of the situation by taking you to the food bar till it turns to a free skate again.

If you're injured he will pamper you and be ready with his first aid. Little angel kisses on every scrap and bruise.

So many forehead kisses of encouragement and praise 🥺😭

Can speed skate, so if you want to practice he'll help but if you want to relax he'll do that too.

Inlines? Regular skates? No matter what hes great at them.

Somehow he has great luck and every stuffie you showed interest in or every candy or prize there was that you would even look at, he would win on the first try.

"Dont worry! I'll carry it all. You just relax alright? You got pretty bruised from that fall."

Barbatos

Getting this man to stop working and go on a date will need a ton of patience, even Lord Diavolo has to convince him the little d's will do their jobs right while hes away.

Will take care of every scrape and bruise you get.

Man has glowsticks prepared to cheer you on

When it turns back to a free skate he will try his best to impress you and teach you little tricks he's picked up in his many years.

You try to convince him to eat some of the food there and he will politely decline and proceed to take you out to a nice fancy, but quaint restaurant.

"You were really quick to dodge them back there, yet you still got a few bruises, truly amazing for humans to get to that speed and dodge so fast. You're really a fascinating one arent you?"

Lord Diavolo

This man.... he made SIGNS

WILL be hollering when you win

The loudest in the stands

Glowsticks, glowing necklaces, bracelets, man is even wearing a glowing necklace around his head for you, glowing head to toe

So happy and proud 🥺😭❤

Definitely brought barbatos to help hold up the glittery signs him and the little d's made

Barbatos will leave with the signs after congratulating you and leaving you two to your date.

He will be a little off balanced when first skating cause the man went straight for the inlines 😂

Will be smiling the whole time, nothing can or will ruin it.

Absolutely in love with the skate rink because of you and even wants to add a few to the devildom so they can hold tournaments like the one you where in

Can get sad if he cant get you a stuffed animal while you're in the bathroom so he summons Barbatos again to help him while you're away.

Sends Barbatos away so you wont know he helped him get the prizes

Ends up getting you 6 stuffies and a phone case that doesnt fit your phone but it's the thought that counts right?

You win him a medium sized dragon from the claw machine and he sleeps with it every night and loves it like it's your guy's kid.

If he meets your friends he will find out just how much you've missed him as you get embarrassed, makes a mental note to see you once a week after that encounter.

Will eat 2 Turkey legs as you eat a slice of pizza and share a pitcher of soda with him

(He makes a mess of his face so you clean it off for him)

Will not want to leave and go back to the devildom so he'll insist on staying the rest of the night and walks you home

Will. NOT. LEAVEEEE! Master of excuses for why he should stay.

"But I dont want to leave! Theres still so much to do!" "Can I at least see your house?" "I wont leave until I see you're safe at home!" "Please can I stay the night, I miss having you wake up in my arms." "I want to see the morning sun rise with you before I go back"

[kewltie]

the nerd and jock cliche, where bakugou is a frat boy on an athletic scholarship and deku is the clumsy nerd but nothing is whatt it seems because bakugou is all the professors' fav honors student) and deku is on a first name basis w/ the campus police because he keep getting arrested for various illegal actions around campus.

deku feels extremely passionate about the environment and civic duty etc and wants the world to care as much as he does!!! so he get tangled up in various issues around campus and caused all sort of problems even as he fixes them. katsuki is the v v tired bf who has to bail him out lol

ppl knows midoriya izuku before they even met him because he's famous around campus for his many colorful 'deeds' and that one time he released frogs from the biology building in protest of finding out that the school dumping their waste in the restricted woods. he's a good student but he got a rebellious streak a mile wide. rules are good only if they serve the betterment of society otherwise deku usually said fuck it which is the most hilarious thing to katsuki because izuku gets stupidly shy trying to hold katsuki’s hand but he has no problem getting right up in a bully face before getting someone punch him lol /o\.

Katsuki is the campus golden boy: stellar academic records, incredibly athletic, and tho he's blunt and prickly the school hold him high esteem because he get shit down without raising hell over unlike izuku. esp the profs because he's their star student w/o fail but he got a major flaw—his bf who all the profs dread and begrudgingly loves!!

izuku is small in size and soft in heart, but he got the soul of a harden soldier who never came back from war because he somehow always find a cause to fight for as though he cant stop fighting or he'll die. it just means he loves and cares too much for you, me, everyone, and the world!!! katsuki knows that well enough, that's why he doesnt stop izuku from doing what he does. also, because he thinks it's fucking funny to see his smol bf go up against giant foes like that sleezy sexist fuckboi in their chem class to pharmaceutical company with clenched fists. katsuki's life is just perfect growing up: good school, good friends, and annoying but supportive parents who let him have free reign so when he met izuku in their first year in college, this kid w/ the bleeding heart & bruise fist, his life got royally wrecked and he loves it.

izuku makes his life 200% more interesting with all the often weird and/or troubling things he get up to. katsuki's life was perfect but boring af until izuku steamrolled into it and fucked it up the only way he knew how—izuku may starts fight but it is katsuki who ends them. While izuku loves katsuki absolutely. he thinks katsuki is the raddest person on earth because he never hesitates, if he wants something he'll go for it w/o fail, wont even consider anything less. They actually met before this, but katsuki doesnt remember the boy he'd saved years back and now inspired.

izuku's life was a series of compromise from the ticking time bomb in his chest (literally) to the unfairness of the world because he's either too frail, too much, or too diff to ever be accepted properly but katsuki doesnt give one iota drop of fuck about it when they first met as kids. He’d moved at his pace, uncompromising and unknowingly saved izuku during one of the worst times of his life. So after finding out his savior's name, izuku cant stop looking at him and LOOKING UP TO HIM. izuku tries desperately to emulate katsuki’s no nonsense attitude just so he can have a drop of that fearless determination because he got only one life, however limited it is to save ppl, help the world, to do something and be w/ katsuki.

He’d followed katsuki to his college, reinvented himself, and finally caught the heart of the boy he'd secretly loved. he's living his life to the fullest now, no hesitation or regrets now. if he die today... he would be ok w/ it because he did everything he could. katsuki would be proud.  EXCEPT izuku fights for everyone else but not for himself and katsuki once he realized all the secrets izuku have been hiding he's gonna kill him and reminds him that he isnt a one person army and that katsuki too will go to war for him so DO NOT QUIT! DONT GO GENTLE INTO THE GOODNIGHT.

Heres the thing: izuku was born with a weak heart that he inherited from his father, so he spent most of his childhood in and out of hospital. in one long hospital stay, he met another boy. blond hair, a scowling face, and a mean mouth. he'd broke both of his legs playing a game w/ his friends. they were not the only kids of the same age in the hospital but izuku was too quiet and too shy to get along w/ the other kids and katsuki didn't want to be trap in a hospital and certainly didnt want to make any new friends so ofc izuku found katsuki interesting right away.

he was drawn to katsuki's strength and his determination because even he was wearing a cast and told that he won't be able to walk in till a couple of weeks but he WANTED TO WALK SOON AND SO PRACTICE AND PRACTICE. everytime he fell he got up again and made forced his away to be better. izuku never met such a brazen soul before so he stuck close to katsuki even though katsuki ignored him and yelled at him to go away everytime but izuku persistent eventually paid off. katsuki tolerated him by his side, insisting he can't be friend w/ someone who pussyfoot around.

"just because you're sick shouldn't stop you from doing what you want. there are more to life then the four walls of your hospital room!" it's the kind of things kids who don't fully know the consequence of his actions would say but izuku took that to heart, BE BRAVE LIKE KACCHAN he thought to himself.

They’d only known each other for a few weeks before katsuki was eventually released, but izuku never forgot that boy or his vows, "when you get better, come and find me and we'll play again!" he said it was as though izuku's doesn't have a hole in his heart. LITERALLY.  and he didn't watch his father die of the same disease!! look, izuku may be young and his mom and nurses coddle him but izuku knew ppl like him dont live long. there was an expiration date and he had been living w/ waiting for his heart to give out,,, but then katsuki came along!

now, with renewed interest in life izuku tried to get better and underwent several surgeries to aid his heart and maybe keep his alive just a little longer. he took HIM YEARS AND YEARS to finally be able to live some semblance of a normal life, but he still that same hesitant boy underneath all that bravado. when he tried to find katsuki again, katsuki had not only thrive outside the hospital but he was living his life to the fullest—excelling in class and in sports and he always surrounded w/ friends and ppl even though he put a fuss about them. all the while izuku was healthier now, stop relying on the hospital but he remained ever stagnant because while he was removed from the hospital and all that entailed, death still clung to him and he still hold reservation about himself, the world, and what it mean to live.mthe next time they meet, izuku promised that he would change for the better so katsuki would turn his way!!! because right now izuku wouldn't be able to stand equal to him and he couldn't face katsuki w/ the way he was now so when they meet again izuku would be a diff and better person

so HE WORKED SUPER HARD ON HIMSELF and his studies to get into the same college as him, pleading his mom to let him go to a school far away and that he would be v v v careful about his heart meds. izuku put his life on the line for this chance to change himself and be someone worthy. so it's not that izuku IS FEARLESS AND BRAVE, but it's that he's so terribly scare of dying that he's risking his one SINGLE life to live however he please right now because he doesn't know how much longer he has to live. he wants to do everything he could with w/e time he has left.

izuku is the way he is now because of katsuki and his fear of losing out on happiness if he never seize the chance for himself. it's,,, not a good prospective but its what keep izuku going and going even when his heart sends him back to the hospital again w/ katsuki glaring down at him.

[hwajin]

disclaimers: this is f!reader angst, expect nothing from me i have bad grammar and im mentally drained. tnx -lorelei/🥟

* minho made an update as i was writing.

心做し (224) ft. 이민호

day 1

to say the least, you were annoyed. too annoyed at the fact you couldn't concentrate in the first day of class. "you should really talk it out with him." jeongin said at you with a concerned look. "i'm not angry i just, hate being second all the time. c'mon ayen, you know that since the first day we became friends."

you were once y/n, the transferee girl. you sat beside jeongin on your first day, who thought you looked cute on your first day.

coincidentally, you liked his friend. a senior who was named minho. assuring to yourself and jeongin that it was nothing more than a crush was the hardest part. being drunk at a party and confessing to him had become what you quote "the best thing i've ever did".

after class ended, you decided to stick with jeongin who became class president and now is tasked to clean the classroom. why were you there? you really trusted him, a lot and as a friend.

"hyung!" jeongin called out to your supposed boyfriend who was walking toward your classroom.

"y/n-ah, bubs, cutie" he said, ignoring the male and rushing to give you a warm hug. "if you feel less, remember i love you so much. today tomorrow forever, remember?" he told you and you just stood there, uncertain how to react.

"y/n you should go home, i'll be waiting for seungmin too." jeongin said with a warm smile, looking at your annoyed face that contrasts minho's neutral face.

for some reason, you and minho walked home not even talking. "i'm-" "please dont remind me again." you coldly said. "i'll make it up to you. iced coffee?" he asked as you shrugged, thinking of your answer but your heart said yes after a second he asked the question.

"i'm super sorry i've been insecure." you muttered while intertwining both your arms. "no big deal. remember that she's a friend." he said as he rubbed your fingers.

you've never really been anyone's first choice, in middle school you never really had a permanent set of friends that treated you like a friend. you were always rejected and your parents never really cared for you as much as other parents do. you knew you grew up quickly, and you're trying to fix yourself as much as you can.

"oh look, the theme park is open today." he said, pointing outside to the moving ferris wheel. "come on, we are fixing the blue, making it color yellow." he said while dragging you outside the coffee shop as you silently drink your coffee.

he put your bangs down slightly, smiling at what he did and ruffles your hair softly. "my y/n is so cute. she's pretty, nice and she is the first person in my mind. "

"minho?" there she was, the girl you hate the most. minho's first love. his family loves her that sometimes you get compared to her. you knew of her existence, unsure if she knew yours though. "ah this must be your new girlfriend!"

noticing your uneasy gazes, minho spoke up. "hi, yeah and we're leaving." he said. "i really don't know where the entrance is, can i come with you? i'm meeting up with my friends." she pouted as you nodded.

"yeah, you're y/n, super cute. minho and you were together since last year? congrats!" she asked and minho was the one to answer. "yeah, here's the entrance to the theme park." he scoffed and held your hand tighter while you walked towards the ferris wheel.

day 2

the next day, you had to bring it up to jeongin and seungmin, people you trusted the most. "yeah its kinda like in a teasing way, i absolutely hate it. its like she wants to punch me in the face and move me out of her way!"

"oh my god, never be a punch bag you can move around." jeongin said. "i'm not a punchbag!" you said in an enthusiasic tone "Y/N ISNT A PUNCHBAG." seungmin accidentally said too loudly, causing the librarian to look and he bowed his head to say sorry. "my bad." he said and the three of you laughed quietly.

day 94

and, you knew it was coming.

after months, she always found a way to be closer to him. after all, she did know him better. while losing time for you, he remembered all the points on why she was his first love after all.

"minho... please dont hurt me anymore mentally. if you want to break up with me, im sorry. i dont know. i just feel too conflicted. i... hate this so much. i want to die. " was the first words you said as he opened up to your door. "i love you y/n." "its always i love you y/n, i love you y/n, fuck do you even mean them?! words aint enough, atleast spend some time with me. i... absolutely hate this."

collapsing to his arms, he felt his tears rushing down his cheeks. "i never knew you felt like that." he said as he caressed your hair. "now you know." you said, as he kissed your tears away. "can we move somewhere else?" he asked, talking about the awkward position you have on the doorway that made you smile.

day 156

"wow, it's snowing!" you said as you tugged minho's arm. "babe, please pay attention to me." you say to your boyfriend over and over again, who has been focusing on his project. you knew it was hard for him, but it was a sunday. and it was a group project. "you done your part yesterday-" "let me finish this first." he said with a scary tone, realizing what he said he decided to let it be for a few moments.

why am i being like this? he asked himself, looking at his girlfriend. his girlfriend, he reminded himself. perhaps he forgot? is his first love comig back to his life?

day 183

"and... thats what i knew. " you said over and over again. "y/n..." "stop messing around with me! you knew i couldve told hwang hyunjin from class c that! i couldve told your friend jisung, i had a crush on them too, but i chose you, and i never regretted it for, one and a half year. you dont even remember our anniversary? could you just ever..." you said, walking away.

"but i wasn't your first choice either." he spit out, and that made you get very angry. "what about now? who is your first choice now, my first choice now would be you. after that day i confessed it became you, i didnt even force myself to. it was because, you were minho i loved. can i... get him back. but fuck no, you played me." you said, and he breathed in and out.

after hours of silence, you left your phone, he noticed. opening the chats and backreading everything, that was the time where indeed he was wrong, he was wrong in all aspects. he never says sorry, its always her. and his phone rang, it was the girl again. he felt a jolt in his heart reading her name, butterflies in his stomach, but he knew there was y/n.

"ah fuck, this is all my fault."

day 192

a week or so since you havent gone to school, thats when you realized your mom cared and told you advice, went online shopping with you. its just that you always view everything negatively.

"someone wants to see you." she said, you hoped it was minho who would tell you sorry.

"y/n... its jeongin and seungmin. i have notes here compiled, even though im from another class. jeongin has english here, are you fine? " they asked while you explained everything.

day 194

deciding to go to school although minho was there was a bad thing. the day consisted of you being mentally unstable, and that wasnt the cherry on top.

"why are you here?" you said once you went out the school campus. "because, i want to. iced coffee?" again, blindly saying yes.

day 200

if you love her, dont be nice anymore. chanted in your head, but cant be said.

" why are you so nice, i know you've fallen out of love. " and he smiled as he looked again at the movie.

"minho. please, give me closure. stop being nice. treat me like a servant. swear at me. tell me im a bitch, whore, i dont know degrade me! please leave my heart alone, i cant cry anymore."

and so he thought for a moment, i cant do that.

day 210

holding you close again while you violently react, he caressed your face softly. tracing each feature and wiping your tears.

screaming, crying, like the storm. but he still held you up, like how he does to you everytime. "it's fine now."

day 224

"if i had a hole in my heart, how do i fix it?" she asked him, the man who she hasnt talked to in 2 weeks. "you've known what it is." he replied subtly.

"its not today tomorrow forever anymore huh. two day, two morrow and four ever. and its feb 24. fucking want to collapse or you just hit me and degrade me like what i said." and you watched him shake his head. "you cant split a heart into two and think it would still work, cant you?"

"but, you can break one into pieces and then they'd pretend its fine." she says with a bitter smile. "please be happy." and those words, those simple words were the confirmation. it was such a bitersweet love, everyone finds their way out of this somehow.

oof wait a minute i gotta read this later I DON'T HAVE TIME RN BUT EVERYONE GO READ

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curiouscat won’t let me answer this question because my reply is too long so imma post it here (because apparently, i can’t shut  the f up ) 

question:  from your shigadabi fanfics which one do you have the most fun writing? [  🐱  ]

%&/$%%/ thats like asking a mother of three which is their favorite child but hmm, let me think.

i can't give a specific answer so imma give a long rambly one no one asked for.

i'm sorry, i'm trying: has a special place in my heart for being my first chaptered shigadabi fic. a couple months back i would have probably answered without hesitation that this is my favorite one to write but now i'm not so sure. it has fallen a little into the backburner recently, not because i no longer enjoy writing it, but because i know i'm nearing the end of the story and i get anxious over it. but i do look forward to completing it and then having my first completed, chaptered work in my ao3 portfolio. what i love about writing this one specifically is approaching the societal issues of the canon universe through a different perspective— and then some. i have some regret about some directions of this fic that make me a little sad about it but thats a topic for another time.

the idea of you: i honestly thought would become a crack fic when i started it. this is why one of the tags just is "shiggy is simping for dabi, that's the plot" or something. but it became a lot more than that. seems to be the most popular one with readers and i can kinda see why, just as much fun as i have writing about this universe, people seem to dig the universe as well. i love getting to explore this modern-day setting with characters like shiggy and dabi cos it seems kind of unorthodox. and i've always been intruiged about the whole social media topic. as someone who is on a lot of these platforms and follows different streamers, youtubers, influencers etc it's just something i enjoy and know a thing or two about it (from a outsider perspective anyway but), enough to feel confident having this the central point of the story. i have the most ideas for this fic, i feel like i'll never run out of them. (lit i have like 200 plans for the next chapters cos i've been thinking of so many things and it becomes more with everytime i see something happen on social media that inspires ideas for this fic) i deffo looove writing it.

lowlife: newest baby. the youngest and most spoiled. i feel in a weird way i put extra care into this one. not that i dont in my other fics but there is just a little more delicacy at how i approach this one. when i typed out the first chapter of this fic it happened literally outta nowhere. i sat there like "but what if... shiggy... but on drugs" and then just opened a doc and went ham on this. and now, i'm absolutely consumed by that universe i created. this is the fic i frankly think of the most when i lay in bed or have a quiet minute. idk what it is with this one, it's on my mind a lot. it hurts me a lot. it makes me a little depressed, ngl, but not in the bad way? like it makes me feel but from the comfort of an outsider.. i can't explain it well. oh and i also have hella ideas for this one. i have the most drafts for this one sitting in my drive as well, waiting to be turned into chapters. so yeah, very eager to write more for it.

that didn't answer the question at all, i'm so sorry lol. but the truth is that i just have fun writing all of them.

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Bro we already follow because of your ur skill, it's honestly Amazing the way you line without sketching and you coloring skills! Everytime you draw something I can tell the character's personality through the way you draw them, and I'm not gonna be surprised when you reach 2,000+ followers based in that alone! You are so amazing and you've inspired me to get back into drawing both traditionally and digitally! There's so much that you do amazingly that I can't really get it out! UR AWESOME ❤️❤️

(sorry 4 late response, been busy all day)

i appreciate this a lot and the compliments on my stuff makes me ahh!!! im glad i could inspire u and thank u for sending this in

i didnt mean for that post to be a pity party though, its just a bit of frustration, possibly because of the state tumblr is in nowadays. its just that i have like 4200 followers, and i can hardly crack 100 or even 200 notes on my pieces, which i spend a really long time on most of the time! i know that wanting attention often comes off as selfish or attention seeking but when you put something out in the public, you hope that you can at least get something back to satisfy that.

OBVIOUSLY not everyone thinks like that but its what a lot of people do when they post their stuff online! they want to build an audience, they want some interaction. tumblrs the best site for this imo but somehow you can barely get any of it anymore. it feels so awful having to ask this from people who really dont owe you anything but its not so hard to make an artist feel like their work is worth more than just a follower count that means nothing in the long run

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"admins who put in the effort"..? sis you do realize running an rp is something people do FOR FUN, for FREE, right? you members arent paying admins so stfu. sorry that u dont think gmt/aest admins deserve sleep but take your entitled ass to a diff rp if u dont like the admin's timezones, or paypal me £200 and then ill GLADLY stay up til 4am to accept your fucking app or whatever. headass

moodt! start paying admins , each admin should start putting a kofi button on their main and everytime an obnoxious anon comes in they automatically have to put money in the douchebag jar (aka the kofi)