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Caspian IX & Caspian X
There was a time / I used to look into my father's eyes / In a happy home / I was a king, I had a golden throne / Those days are gone ... I remember how it all changed / My father said / Don't you worry, don't you worry child / See Heaven's got a plan for you /Don't you worry / Don't you worry now
- 'Don't You Worry Child' cover by Kurt Schneider & Sam Tsui
For @an-angels-fury because this song has been making me feel things.
#you are king of a hard people#you are one of the few to take your throne in peace from your father before you#for kinslaying runs in your bloodline#and your son is born#at the cost of your beloved's life#but you love him all the more for the part of her that lives on in his eyes#and you name him after yourself you give him your name so he will be the tenth and there is something special about that you think#he is destined for much good you think#and you will raise him different you tell yourself#he too will take the crown in peace when you die honorably#you dream of stars and a lion and you hear the nursemaid's tales sitting with your boy and you begin to wonder#your brother dismisses the nursemaid without your permission#'the boy is too old he does not need her anymore' miraz says#'i will teach him to be a strong warrior as a telmarine should be'#your little brother has his good moments. he is a powerful soldier. he has more time to teach the boy than you.#you allow it#you regret this later when your son's arm is broken and your brother is the reason why#but your son begs to continue his training#so you allow it#he has a way of looking at you with his big brown eyes#your heart beats unsteady in your chest like it hasn't since you were a boy#you don't want to die with your child only 10 years old#you want to see him for so much longer#you are not ready#the boy knows you are ill and insists on sleeping with you most nights#death comes quiet in the night and leaves the boy alone#you are caspian#you are named after your father and your father will not wake#caspian x#narnia
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God why is my mother such a terrible human being
#ollie talks.txt#ollie vents.txt#I'm just not getting better while I live here#no matter how hard I try to move past it she's still digging it up#she's still trying to justify hitting a 10 year old child#she still thinks she's the fucking victim here#I think I'd feel safer on a mindfield that I do in a room with her#it's really just gonna fucking be like this isn't it?#abusers who 'get better' never really let go of it. they still think they're in the right. now they're just afraid you cat hurt them back#why do I still love her. my fatal flaw is the fact that I still love her. she made me into a hollow husk of a person who attempted suicide#at 11 and I still love her. she told me I'll die if I ever leave her house and I still love her. she told me I'll die a drug addict on the#street and I still love her. she ripped my favourite clothes apart because I didn't wabt to do my homework and I still loved her#she never let me leave the house until I was 14 and I still love her. she told me I'd be raped and kidnapped if I did like it's a normal#thing to say to a child and I still love her. she told me I'm the only friend she has and I still love her.#how am I supposed to be normal about love after this? is it even love or just complacency? I'm not even sure anymore#just fucking stop. why can't you be normal. why must you dig and dig into my trauma until I lash out and hurt you#yeah I do wish I was never born! but I can't say that to your fucking face because you say you'll slit your throat if I do say it!#who the fuck do you think you are? what gives you the right to do this to me?#you're not trying to be better for my sake you're just haunted by the guilt of what you did and want to be oh such a good parent#guess what you don't get that. you don't get that privilege. not after what you did you have blood on your hands and it'll ALWAYS stay there#you'll die and I'll remember you for the abusive and cruel and violent and hateful person you were to me#I don't fucking care about your child trauma. you can guilt me into feeling sorry for you anymore. feeling sorry for you never made you#change. if you were capable of it you'd done it at this point.#cptsd is truly one hell of a drug. I'll never have children. never
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OK, but really, I'm genuinely so sad this fandom doesn't talk enough about Vinsmoke Reiju. She's legitimately one of my absolute favorite characters in the entire story and a lot of people don't see how absolutely tragic she is.
Just. She had to stay behind. She had to stay behind so Sanji can be free, she could never join him. She can only live her dreams of escaping her horrible, horrible family vicariously through him, the only person left in that household she loved. And she had to let him go. Because if she left, an army would follow behind her to get her back; she's a "success" after all. And also because she had already deemed herself a monster. After Sora died, Sanji was all Reiju had left. And then she was alone. Stuck with them for 13 years. Stuck with the wolves. The only way to survive being to mould herself after them.
From the beginning, it was never slip up, never make a mistake, always be perfect or you're next. Pretend to laugh at the misery of the only person in your family you haven't lost hope in, knowing that he might hate you forever after this, feeling like a coward. But you're a child. A mere child, a little 10-year-old girl, and you're scared. And she already saw herself as unworthy of that freedom at that age. She's not like Sanji, she was born to play the role of a monster. Even with her intact emotions, she's still trained soldier. She has the symbol of Germa tattooed on her, how could she ever escape it? She has blood on her hands; not because of her own choices, but because of the commands she's physically incapable of disobeying. She looks at him and tells him he looks so much like their mother, but she denies to accept that so does she.
She's the firstborn, dad's perfect little girl, his first success, his obedient property. The man who she grew to hate so much, when she found out he was going to be assassinated, she didn't warn him, because she hoped it would actually happen. Even if it meant throwing her own life away as well. When she saw him beg for his life she just, rightfully, felt no guilt or remorse. Just anger and satisfaction, even as she herself was about to die, something that seemed she wanted happen. But when he got attacked later on, she showed concern, because unlike Sanji, to her he still is, dad. He's dad, who held you and called you his wonderful child. He's dad, who raised you and showed pride in you. He's dad, who potentially put some sort of authority chip in your brain and forced you to stain your hands in blood. He's the man who killed your mother. She hates him. She wants him dead. She can't stop seeing him as family, and shows concern when he's hurt. It's more complex than how her brother sees him, and it's visceral and real and upsetting.
She had to stay behind. And after all of that, she had to relive the goodbye to the only person left in her family whom she ever loved. God. I hope she gets to see Sanji again. I hope she escapes. I hope one day she finally gets to taste his cooking. She never got the chance to do that, didn't she?
#one piece#vinsmoke reiju#one piece meta#one piece reiju#vinsmoke family#whole cake island#black leg sanji#reiju they could never make me hate you. youre so underrated
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hashiras x reader hashira single mother platonic (or not), the story would be more or less like this, the reader is more or less the same age as gyomei and has a 10 year old son, she was previously married and her husband abandoned her when she was pregnant, she discovered her potential to hunt demons and trained to be a demon hunter, and be able to give her son a decent life, the reader is somewhat rude, what hashiras would respect and admire her? or which ones would be interested in her?
Summary: You’re a fierce Demon Slayer, but you are a single mother first.
Warnings: Cursing
A/N: Reader, Female Reader, Sanemi Shinazugawa, Giyu Tomioka, Muichiro Tokito, Mitsuri Kanroji, Shinobu Kocho, Kyojuro Rengoku, Tengen Uzui, Gyomei Himejima, Obanai Iguro
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3
Hashiras, all of them, are impressed by you and your abilities. It takes a lot to be a single mother while learning to hunt and slay Demons while still breastfeeding.
Seeing your potential, Master Ubuyashiki was more than happy to provide you and your son an estate, a home you could call yours. You get servants that will look after your son while you are out there hunting.
You are a tough one and many younger Slayers view you as a mother figure, but you don't cut slacks on anyone. You know that it's kill or be killed in this line of work you have.
You try to keep your son out of Demon slaying, wanting him a better and healthier life so you work hard to provide that for him. You would kill anything and anyone if it meant that your child would be safe.
He may or may not want to learn the way of the sword because his mother is so cool when training in the backyard, but you insist that it's only for his self-defense. You have a habit of saying that you would rather die than let your son turn out as a Slayer like you.
The Hashiras admire you, but their opinions about you are mixed. Some think that maybe you aren't supposed to be a Slayer while others fully think so.
Sanemi who lost his mother thinks that you should retire and be the mother your son needs. While some Slayers do see you as a mother figure, Sanemi can't see it. His mother was a gentle angel while you are rude and have a nasty mouth when you are caught in a bad mood.
"What's that you little punk!? Come at me when you have more years under your belt!"
Mitsuri thinks you are super strong, but she is a little sad and worried about you and your son's bond. How is he supposed to know his mother if you are always hunting Demons? While it is not her place to say anything, she thinks that you should cherish your son's youth with him.
"I appreciate your worrying, but don't stick your head into somewhere where it doesn't belong… You might get hurt."
Muichiro doesn't really have an opinion on things… But this time he thinks that you should cherish the bond you have with your son. He doesn't reprimand you or is snarky, but he does tell you that it hurts to lose something you may love. How would your son feel if he lost you?
"My son is my world! I will never make him go through that pain!"
Obanai is on your side on this one. He thinks that the only way you can truly make sure that your son will be safe is to make sure to destroy and eliminate every Demon there is out there. He will offer you his support, whether you want it or not.
"Tch! Fine, but don't get in my way!"
Shinobu understands you and your motivations and promises to support you and your decisions. As someone who has lost so much to Demons, she knows how you want to make a safer place for your son, even if it may cost you yourself.
"Everything I do, I do it for my son."
Giyu also understands you and is ready to offer his support to you, but he won't force it on you. If you don't want his help then he will give up and won't offer it again until he thinks you might need it again. He secretly keeps an eye out for you.
"Oi, come out. You're no ninja, you think I don't see you following me around?"
Kyojuro holds huge respect for you. You even remind him of his father a little, minus the alcoholism! You're strict, but only because you care… And maybe you even got a little hurt on the way to where you are now. His younger brother is a little older than your son, but he has a feeling that they could get along.
"I don't want to mix my son with work… But I will think about your offer…"
Tengen understands the importance of family and despite not having the best relationships with his own deceased one, he cherishes his wives like you do your son. You get full points for being a caring parent, but your attitude could use some improvement.
"I'm unflashy? If that makes you leave me be then so be it."
Gyomei prays for your and your son's sake. Each day he prays that you make it safely home to your son from a night spent hunting Demons. He lost everything he held dear and it nearly destroyed him… He will make sure that doesn't happen to you also.
"I appreciate your prayers, but you are better off praying for Demons that I kill them quickly."
The Hashiras that would be interested in you are Tengen and Gyomei.
Tengen thinks that you would make a great fourth wife, despite your bold personality and he could offer you and your son a safe loving home. Hinatsuru, Makio, and Suma would adore your son and happily look after him while you and their husband would be out hunting Demons.
Gyomei would want to make sure you will be alright, no matter what. He wants to protect you, hold you, and tell you that things will turn out alright if you try together. Gyomei wants to learn more about you and what you are protecting behind your snarky remarks and rude behavior… Because he can feel you smile when you talk fondly about your son, and that is like a gentle hum of music to his ears.
#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#gyomei himejima#tengen uzui#muichiro tokito#obanai iguro#mitsuri kanroji#shinobu kocho#giyu tomioka#sanemi shinazugawa#kyojuro tengoku#reader#reader insert#Fem!Reader#female reader#Writing#my writing#Headcanon#headcanons#single mother#anon#ENJOY!
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True Son of Horus
-holds up frying pan as shield- look, I'm just as much a victim to these sad things as you guys, I wake up with terrible ideas and they just appear on my phone. If I don't share I think I will face 100 years of curses. I don't make the rules (I do make the rules)
It's super short
Taglist: @sleepyfan-blog @undeaddream @scriberye, and thanks for dividers @squishyowl
Horus x F!Reader (Sort of)
CW: Death, Sad, very sad, mentions of blood and wounds, Loss of an adult child
Song: Youth- Glass Animals
Fly Feel your mother at your side Don't you know you got my eyes? I'll make you fly You'll be happy all the time I know you can make it right
Legion mother.
Thats what they'd taken to calling you, once upon a time. Their gene father's wife, their Legion Mother.
Then you'd became a real mother. You'd raised your boy and he became the pride of the Luna Wolves. The apple of his Father's eye.
You wish you knew then. You would have run. Fought. Cried, screamed, escaped. Oh, you had loved Horus. But if you only knew what he would do.
He stands over the body of his brother, The Great Angel, as his own Father confronts him about his treachery.
You didn't know of course. He didn't tell you anything important. It was always don't fret over it my love. Always placating you, pampering you, hushing you. And you let him, because things were so easy.
You can't hear what Horus is rambling about through the ringing in your ears. Your vision tunnels as you scoot forward on your knees over the hard, textured metal floor of The Vengeful Spirit.
Your shaking hands brush the cold, pale cheek of the boy you made with your own body, so many years ago. Forgotten by his father now, left aside in a pile of other corpses of forgotten sons. But those were Sons of Horus in name only. Gene Sons.
This is The son of Horus. The son of the Legion Mother. Your son. Forgotten, eyes wide and staring at nothing.
With trembling hands you lift his head into your lap. You hear the conflict nearby escalate, but again cannot hear the words. You close your son's eyes. There, he's sleeping now. You can't kill an Astartes afterall. They are strong and fast and heal so quickly. That's how Horus convinced you to let your baby boy be modified at the tender age of 10. He will be strong, invincible, immortal, he'd told you.
Yes, he will heal. He just needed his eyes closed so he can rest and heal. He's sleeping. He's sleeping. He's slee-
You don't realize your lips are moving, repeating the phrase aloud until someone touches your shoulder. You yank away. They want you to abandon your baby boy at a time like this? When he needs to rest on his mothers lap and heal? Just like when he was small and got a flu- something he hadn't had to worry about in decades thanks to his geneseed implant- he use to come to your side and lay in your lap, seeking the healing warmth of his mother's embrace. You'd pet his hair like you did now, murmur lullabies to help him sleep, just like you do now. He's so peaceful. You'll need to get him a bandage for the head wound, it looked like a nasty one, but that is alright, you will mend him just like when he had a scraped knee-
The hand on your shoulder starts pulling harder, tearing you from your sleeping boy.
Through the echoing ringing of your ears you hear a new sound over the shouting of Horus and his father. A wet, screeching sound like a metal sheet being torn in half, or almost what your old planets tales might call a banshee's wail. It was not good to hear the cry of the banshee, it means someone you know or yourself will die soon. You worry for your sleeping baby boy in the back of your shattering mind.
A hand clasps over your mouth and the wailing muffles.
"Please, Legion Mother, we have to go now-" and insistent voice urges you. Was that Levi? He's your son's best friend, and a good boy, you've known him nigh most his life. He was a neophyte with your son.
"Levi, he's so tired, we have to take him to his bed-" you say, trying to crawl back to the motionless form.
Levi picks you up, and the banshee starts wailing again in the echos of your ringing ears.
"Legion Mother, enough! We have to leave now-" he damands, clamping a hand back over your mouth as he throws you over his shoulder.
You reach out as your sleeping boy grows farther and farther from you. Distantly you hear shouting, and metal on metal. Levi turns a corner and your son is torn from your eyeline.
You'd go back.
You'd warn yourself.
You would find the day you sobbed and held the tiny, distinctly human baby in your arms and you'd tell yourself to run. Horus hides things. Horus wanted to make your baby into a wepon. Horus would fight his own father over the corpse of his brother, yards from where his own flesh and blood son lay lifeless sleeping on the cold metal ground of a warship.
Your baby boy. You'd have gone back and told yourself they would take your baby boy, and you'd have to watch.
#Wh40k#wh30k#my work#horus lupercal#Horus lupercal x reader#Im sorry please don't hurt me lol#I read too much about the tragedy of mary not knowing her son would be slain
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Unexpectedly, I decided to roll out a huge text on a topic that still hasn't let me go
The Dofus movie as a whole is a work of art, but I'd like to tell you how much I admire one particular scene. Then there is a mention of loss and the process of experiencing it, so if this topic is extremely painful for you, I strongly recommend not to read further
It is about the moment of Kerubim's death. How well and correctly the reaction of little Joris is described here simply amazes me. At first we are shown a small child who is not even initially able to accept the fact that his father is lethally wounded and nothing good will come out of it, because at such a moment sometimes a person just can't imagine such an option as "my parent will die", because it is impossible and "a parent lives forever, he/she can't die". Then we hear a scream, which still lives rent free in my head, so well done in terms of dubbing (in general, the voice that the voice actress gave to Joris is just beautiful)
And then comes the main part: we see how quickly Joris picks himself up and continues on his way. Yes, this outcome is directly related to the timing and the need to continue the story, but I see it differently. It reflects very well how in real life many people (especially adults) really behave when faced with the death of a loved one. You may not be able to "go through the loss" in the beginning, because you don't have time for it, you have a huge pile of duties and responsibilities that force you to push your emotions inside, because there are more important things to do. In the case of the cartoon, that "responsibility" for Joris is saving Lilott. This 10-year-old realizes that there is no time or opportunity to grieve, his friend is in danger and he has no time to mourn his father's death.
The moment with extremely inappropriate comments of Khan is just a joke, but again I see here quite an important message: many people trying to help a person who has lost a loved one do not take into account that at this moment "Joris" does not need any moralizing and especially words like: "Well, nothing can be done, this is fate, you just have to move on" There is nothing simple in this and cannot be. Joris's aggression at this point is something extremely natural and expected. He doesn't need to listen to some supposedly good thing about the situation, because there is nothing good there. On the contrary, Bakara does the right thing, she lets Joris know that he is not alone and that she is ready to support him and help him in any way she can. At the moment of grief, a lot of people need this protection and care, need to understand that they are not alone.
And in the end I want to say that during the second viewing of the movie I saw in Jojo myself: a little lost child who is trying his best to get back on his feet and live on, even without them, without the only person who was everything to you, your parent. You don't have time to grieve, and many people around you can't understand that you don't want to talk about it, you don't want to listen to extremely "helpful guidance" that you didn't ask for, you just want to forget. But don't forget that everyone's experience is different and that this is not the only way of dealing with loss, I'm just sharing my thoughts as someone who has experienced it.
I want to say that if for you some form of escapism and reflection becomes a conventional cartoon about a blue magic gnome, it is not only normal, it is wonderful, because you are on your way to becoming stronger and breaking out of the shackles of your problems.
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December 2023
"Home Alone?" Chim says the title like a question he doesn't really want answered, with a not insignificant amount of trepidation.
"What's it about?" Buck asks innocently, fiddling with a pair of craft scissors, the bright pink plastic of the handle a stark contrast against his dark blue uniform pants.
"It's about a boy," Chim explains. "He's home alone."
"He almost murders two burglars," Eddie adds helpfully, because that seems like a pretty crucial detail.
Buck hums. Then, after a few seconds of hopeful silence, he shakes his head. "Doesn't ring a bell."
Chim groans. There are two stacks of DVDs on the coffee table, the one on the right drastically higher than the other. Home Alone quickly joins the looming tower, another entry in the seemingly endless list of shows and movies you simply have to watch, according to Chim and probably several Buzzfeed articles, unless your name is Evan Buckley and your childhood sucked.
Chim's desperate eyes meet Eddie's. Eddie shrugs. He doesn't even try to hide his smile.
"I don't know what you expected."
Chim sighs, because of Eddie's comment or maybe just the general situation, and turns back to the coffee table to survey the stacks. Though, given that the left one consists of exactly one DVD, stack is probably not the right term.
"How is Die Hard the only Christmas movie you've seen?"
"Maddie made me watch it," Buck replies, opening the scissors and closing them again, cutting the air with cheaply metallic little snipsnipsnips.
"I guess that's my legacy," Chim says morosely, and gets up. "I have more DVDs in my locker. Don't go anywhere."
"Who even uses DVDs in this day and age?" Buck calls after him. "There's this thing called Netflix, old man. You should give it a try."
Chim is still flipping him off when he gets to the stairs and the dimness of the 10 PM app bay swallows him whole.
"What are you doing anyway?" Eddie asks, nodding at the mess Buck has made of his half of the couch. Paper cuttings cover the leather like snow, leftovers from the pile of strange sculptures he's gathered in his lap.
"I'm making snowflakes," Buck informs him. Eddie levels a—pointed, doubtful—look at one of those sculptures, misshapen and strangely bug-like in nature, and Buck amends, "I'm trying to make snowflakes. I want to make some with Jee, so I looked up, uh, child-friendly crafts, but—this is way more difficult than I thought. And if I can't do it, there's no way a two-year old can do it."
Eddie thinks back to a sunny afternoon in his kitchen, to two very different kinds of heart drawings spread out on his kitchen table. Chris got an A on his sketch. Buck's had a heart-shaped button nose. Jee will probably do just fine.
"Practice makes perfect," Eddie tells him cheerfully, patting his shoulder. "If you keep it up, you're gonna have the fine motor skills of a preschooler in no time."
"Screw you," Buck replies. "I'm holding scissors. I could stab you."
Eddie glances at the scissors, eyes the childproof rounded tip. "Sure."
Before Buck can prove to him just how dangerous those craft scissors can be—and he looks like he's definitely considering it—a shrill ringing interrupts the relative nighttime peace that has settled over the firehouse. DVDs and ugly snowflakes get abandoned, gear equipped and the truck boarded, and just a little over ten minutes later, they're standing on the set of some Hollywood blockbuster Buck probably won't watch either, and for a moment, Eddie forgets to be professional.
"Holy shit."
The set in front of them, a fake street hemmed in by fake brownstone facades, might have looked festive, maybe, at some point, but there's not much left of that now. It's all buried beneath white goo, glittering ominously under the studio lights, more horror flick than Hallmark movie. What looks like the grayscale aftermath of a Slimer attack is the result of a bunch of fake snow machines gone wild, and next to Eddie, Buck has stopped dead in his tracks too.
"Holy shit," he echoes.
Bobby, strutting through the mess with the grace of a former figure skating star, calls for them, and they start moving.
Truth be told, there's not that much they can do here. The machines are already turned off, and there's no fire that needs putting out, no car wrecks, no stuck elevators. They're here because three of the crew members fell unconscious after they came in contact with the goo, but it's probably some type of allergic reaction, so Chim and Hen have it handled. That gives Buck some time to look around, his face painfully open with curiosity and that strange, enviable love for life that comes so naturally to him, and it gives Eddie some time to watch him do it, watch as his eyes, bright and blue, take in the scene.
"Did you know that the largest snowflake ever recorded was 15 inches wide? They found it in Montana, in 1887."
"No," Eddie says honestly, because what the hell. "Nobody who isn't you would know that. And I call bullshit. 15 inches? Come on."
"I didn't come up with it," Buck tells him. "Otherwise I'd have a Nobel prize."
"They give out Nobel prizes for that?"
"They should," Buck says, and at Eddie's dubious look, he quickly continues. "Snow is fun, Eddie. People like snow."
"I don't like snow," Eddie replies. It gets below freezing in El Paso, but usually only at night, and even then it rarely snows. He doesn't miss much about Texas but he does miss that. Then again, Southern California isn't that different. Which may or may not be why he picked Los Angeles over Chicago.
"Snow is beautiful," Buck argues. "Magical, festive—"
"Cold, slippery, dangerous—"
"Come on."
Eddie spreads his arms, look around, and Buck does, but only so he can look back at Eddie and roll his eyes.
"That's not snow," he says, kicking his foot as if to prove a point. He sends a clump of goo flying in Bobby's general direction, and Bobby glances over his shoulder to give them a long-suffering look.
"Snow is snow," Eddie says, just to be contrary.
"One day I'll show you," Buck decides. "I'll take you to Hershey. Then you'll see."
"Sure, Buck," Eddie says. "Sure."
December 2024
At the time he'd laughed it off, but now, a year later, Eddie understands that suggestion for the invitation it was. Buck invited him to spend Christmas in Hershey—his hometown, where his parents live. That feels significant, somehow, even though it probably wasn't meant to be. Buck was probably just joking, probably didn't mean anything by it, just wanted to introduce Eddie to the dubious wonder that is a snowy winter. Even now, a year later, it's a ridiculous suggestion. Eddie doesn't even like visiting his own parents over the holidays, and he doesn't dislike them nearly as much as he sometimes hates Buck's.
It's a ridiculous idea, but if Buck brought it up now, a year later, Eddie would say yes in an instant.
Because now, a year later, Buck's smile has faded. His skin is pallid and bruised, his large frame looks strangely small. A hospital gown will do that to you, Eddie thinks, as he stares at the wires, the tubes, all those foreign objects attached to his best friend's too-still body.
What a difference a year can make.
Written for the @911countdowntochristmas - this was supposed to be 24 drabbles but the Buddie NDE speculation going around pre 8x08 inspired me and now it's a 24-mini-chaptered fic instead. And definitely more hurt/comfort than fluff. Oops.
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#911 countdown to christmas#buddie#buck x eddie#buddie fic#buddie fics#buddie 911#evan buckley#eddie diaz#mine#911 spoilers
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Mrs. Goebbels said to the children: "Children, don't be afraid, the doctor will now give you an injection that all children and soldiers will now receive." With these words she left the room.
8:40 p.m. (on May 1st). After 10 minutes, Mrs. Goebbels, accompanied by me, went into the children's room, where she stayed for about five minutes and placed a crushed ampoule of cyanide in each child's mouth. (Each glass ampoule contained 1.5 cm high 3 cyanide.) When we returned to the anteroom, she said: "Now it's all over."
Then I went with her down to Goebbels' study, where we found him pacing up and down the room in a very nervous state. As she entered the study, Mrs. Goebbels said: "It's over with the children, now we have to think about ourselves." Goebbels replied: "We have to hurry, because we have very little time." Then Mrs. Goebbels said: "Here in the We don't want to die in the bunker," and Goebbels added: "It's clear, we're going out into the garden." His wife replied: "Not into the garden, but to Wilhelmsplatz, where you have worked all your life." (Wilhelmsplatz is located between the Reich Propaganda Ministry building and the Reich Chancellery.) During the course of the conversation, Goebbels thanked me for making her fate easier, then he said goodbye to me, wishing me success in life and a happy return home.
Words of Dr. Helmut Kunz where he recounted the situation in the Führer's bunker before and after the murder of the children. He was arrested after the war and interrogated about the fate of the Goebbels family.
On May 2, 1945, in the center of Berlin, on the Wilhelmsplatz, lieutenant colonels and majors in the presence of Berlin residents - Germans Lange, Wilhelm, the chef of the Reich Chancellery, and Schneider, Karl, the garage master of the Reich. Office - at 5 pm someone discovered the charred corpses of a man and a woman. They were Joseph and Magda Goebbels. Two pistols Walther no. 1 (damaged by fire) lay at the head of the two bodies.
A singed gold cigarette case was discovered on the Frau Goebbels' body, a gold NSDAP party badge and a singed gold brooch were discovered on the body. In addition, when the cigarette case found with the woman's body was examined, the monogram “Adolf Hitler - 29. X. 34” in German was discovered on the inside of a lid; As Voß explained, the case had been used by Magda for the last three weeks. Voß recognized the charred female corpse as Magda Goebbels and justified his statement with the information that the female corpse was the corpse of Goebbels' wife due to its stature (a little over medium size) and because of the NSDAP's gold party badge. (Magda was the only German woman to wear this badge; it was presented to her by Hitler three days before his suicide.)
On May 3, 1945, the corpses of children were discovered. Children's corpses lying on beds in a separate room in the bunker of the Reich Chancellery. They were dressed in white nightgowns, the girls had ribbons in their hair.
To identify the bodies on site, the prisoners of war - the personal representative of Grand Admiral Dönitz in the Führer's headquarters, Vice Admiral Voß, Hans-Erich, born 1897, the garage master of the Reich Chancellery, Schneider, Karl Friedrich Wilhelm and the cook of the Reich Chancellery, Lange, Wilhelm – who knew Goebbels, his wife and children personally well. Vice Admiral Voß, Lange and Schneider clearly identified the corpses - during interrogation and when the corpses were presented - as Goebbels, his wife and children... On May 1st. J. saw Voss Goebbels for the last time at 8:30 p.m. in the air raid shelter where Hitler's headquarters was housed. Goebbels explained in a conversation with Voß that family would follow Hitler's example, they would end their lives by suicide.
When viewing the children's bodies, Voß identified all of them as Goebbels' children, as he had seen them several times; One of the girls, Goebbels' daughter Heide, who was four years old, had been to Voß's apartment several times with her parents.
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at this point i'm wondering what sarah is thinking when writing her love interests, like ok it's clear she finds them hot but like....are they good people
Rhys:
UTM lap dance shenanigans
throwing Feyre into danger constantly (Weaver, destroying cauldron, getting the book from Adriata, etc etc)
Still not doing jack shit about wing clippings in Illyria?? Emerie is right there, Rhysand, go enforce your damn laws
Insulting his wife's sister constantly
Almost killed his wife's sister cause she dared give her important medical information
Locked Lucien (MY BOY!!) in the house of wind
Locked Nesta in the house of wind
Didn't give Mor any warning that time he made her face her abusers and she cried i think (ngl i forgot most of it)
Ignoring Hewn City even tho...Kier is like the only bad guy we've seen from there?? Surely there's decent people in Hewn City, don't gotta make everyone suffer
Nesta windhaven kidnapping intervention so she stops spending Rhys' money (if it was really about her own sake, they would've put a stop to it much earlier)
Seemingly alienates everyone in Feyre's life that could and would stand up to Rhys for Feyre's sake. Lucien? Nah, shoo. Nesta? Nah, shoo. Weird thought but Tarquin? Yeah, makes her steal his book.
And last but DEFINITELY not least; demon baby wife death
HE COULD'VE TOLD FEYRE... OR ATLEAST NOT THREATENED TO KILL HER SISTER FOR TELLING HER WHEN HE HOULD'VE TOLD HER IN THE FIRST PLACE??
THERE'S PROBABLY MORE BUT MOVING ON
Cassian:
Barely ever stands up for Nesta in the IC
Aids in kidnapping Nesta to Windhaven so she stops spending whysand's money
Laughs at Nesta when she falls down the stairs
Aids in punishing Nesta for daring to tell Feyre important medical info
Constantly going agaisnt Nesta's wishes and trying to "save her" when she doesn't want him to
That one time Azriel asked Nesta if Cass had pushed her down the stairs...Like are we gonna ignore that?? Personally I'd have a quarter life crisis if my closest friend, who is like my sibling and has known me most of our lives, seriously entertained the idea that i would physically assault the girl I like
general aggressiveness all of ACOSF
aids in bulldozing Nesta's apartment
Rowan goddamn Whitehorn (Who I've yet to see people bashing him somehow,,, HoF rowan was like if ACOSF cassian had a horrific murder baby
Left his pregnant mate alone during a war cause he wanted to prove himself....like..idk man if i had the choice between war and taking care of my pregnant wife i'd pick the wife (did he know she was pregnant? i've kind of forgotten by now)
Rowan's kid would've been hundreds of years older than Aelin.....just think abt that
Literally everything he did to Aelin during training in HoF
Their argument where he PUNCHED HER IN THE FACE
Threatened to whip Aelin...I repeat....Threatened to whip Aelin, an ex-slave....
Told Aelin it'd be better if she died 10 years ago (unprovoked?? bitch you met her like 2 weeks ago just cause she's getting on your nerves doesn't mean you gotta wish DEATH upon her)
Literally was relieved to find out she was only 19 because if she was a few years older she could've been THE CHILD OF HIS BEST FRIEND.
No issue with marrying the cousin of his best friend's child....Imagine if he hadn't met Aelin first.. If he'd met Aedion first, Aelin would've always been the relative of his friend's son to him
FOR THE RECORD i hate all of the SJM age gaps but rowan and aelin's specifically irks me because Aelin LITERALLY CALLS HIM OLD throughout the WHOLE SERIES
Literally tells Aelin he doesn't care about what she's been through and that she is nothing to him after she confronts him for leaving her
Puts Luca in danger by sticking him on to a frozen lake with a monster inside where he'll DIE if Aelin can't save him
Funnily enough, some of the only seemingly decent person guys in SJM 1. Are completely forgotten about in the books or 2. SJM had to make them violently unlikeable
Like we've got:
Tarquin, seemed like a pretty good guy, rightfully pissed that the IC stole his family heirloom, shows up like twice in the books (LET HIM COME BACK SARAH I LOVE HIM)
Tamlin, was pretty decent in book 1, was made violently unlikeable in book 2 onwards
Chaol, very strong morals, generally a good person, loves his wife, made violently unlikeable and boring in late CoM, HoF, and QoS (ToD is one of my favorite books in the series, will praise ToD till the day I die, my boy EARNED his own book)
Aedion, seemed like a good person, strong morals, spent years trading his dignity for the sake of Terrasen, loved his cousin above all else, made violently unlikable in KoA (even tho I think he was justified in being angry about it, i'd be SO pissed)
Sartaq, good guy, strong morals, Nesryn's chapters were some of my favorites in ToD, Sartaq is one of my favorite SJM love interests, i'll never forgive author lady for forgetting about him in KoA (tho i guess she forgot about everyone from ToD? Yrene and Chaol are the only important ones, she barely even mentions Nesryn even though Nesryn's BEEN an integral part of the gang since QoS, giving her the Suki from ATLA treatment)
#acotar#sjm#sarah j maas#throne of glass#tog#anti rhysand#anti rowan#anti cassian#anti nessian#anti feysand#chaol westfall#sartaq#tarquin#tamlin#aedion ashryver#nesta deserves better
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The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions
You know, for Go Rush (and Sevens) being the lighter and sillier Yugioh series in tone it really does have moments of sorrow.
OKAY I wanna talk about Sevens and Go Rush and how both series have this weird underlying of tragedy in it. So uh spoilers for both series below. Oh and it will be long.
My boyfriend @siromany and I watched Go Rush first because we were fascinated that one out of the three protags (I will die on the hill that Yuamu and Yuhi are protags along with Yudias) is an alien. We were watching it and wondering the series' connection to Sevens especially when we would see shots of Yuga. We did eventually figure out it was in the past. After we watched the episode where Yuga, Yuamu, and Yuhi go to the future as cats seeing the time period where Yuga came from we discussed the possible turmoil that Yuga feels. At this point what we knew about him was that he made rush duels in his time, somehow ended up on the past, and had to make rush duels to help prevent the valgerian's war. Seeing one of his friends inform him that the game he created, rush duels, also went through the same thing like in the real yugioh meta. Overly complicated, unfriendly to new players, and pushing out children who are the main demographic from the game. We both felt sadden for him finding this info out but it seemed like he was able to take it in a "Well that just means someone else has to come by and fix it again" sort of positive view. Not long after watching that episode I suggested we watch Sevens since this series is going to have more references and connections to it. That and there is context we are missing. So we did just that and I will say I am glad we watched it the way we did because it gave a unique perspective on both series. Watching Sevens we were able to see how the Go Rush counterparts are inversions to how each dynamic was different which was super cool. When we were getting to the ending of Sevens both of us felt the pain of knowing what was going to happen to Yuga. We kept thinking back to the Go Rush episode where he returns to his time and now that episode is more painful with full context.
Returning to Go Rush and watching Yuga's journey it truly sunk in that him going back to the present for a bit only to be told that what he did in the past did not change the present but in fact CAUSED what all happened was NOT good for Yuga to find out. Yugioh in 7 out of 8 series has always had the theme of going against destiny and being able to fight against it, Vrains being the exception, and how the main characters can prove the antagonists wrong in some way. Sevens and Go Rush seem to have more of the theme of "You can fight against destiny but there is a consequence to it and you may not like what that is". I vaguely know there are people who don't really sympathize with what Yuga did in the later half of Go Rush which like I can kind of get. However lets put ourselves in Yuga's position, shall we?
You are a 10 year old child who has been thrust into the past after trying to protect your creation from a man who wanted it destroyed. A creation that was made from joy and love of duel monsters. Trying to bring the game back to the demographic it was made for, children. Making rush duels simple to understand but also fun to play. You a stranded in a place that is both familiar and unfamiliar and you need to find a way back home. But you are stopped by a man and his crew who are demanding you to create rush duels. You don't want to do this, you know this could affect the past. But you overhear that his man's species have been fighting in a big war for a long time and that the conflict has not ceased. Dueling from your experience has brought people closer and you can communicate through to people's hearts to make them understand (a common yugioh staple about dueling) and while you may not know why this guy wants rush duels to exist or how he knows of them, you have hope that maybe this could help stop strife. Maybe making them this early wouldn't be so bad? That and maybe making it early that could mean you could change the past of dueling and therefore the future of it for the better. You not just do such but along the way meet the ancestors of people who look similar to your friends. But they aren't the same people which logically makes sense but doesn't hurt any less. They remind you of home, a place that now you have kind of given up going back to. But hey, chin up! Rush Duels ending up saving the Velgearian and ending their war! That's great, you DID have a positive impact! Making Rush duels in the past was for the better.
Wait, now these two random guys have created Maximums by turning people into cards? Uh, that is a lot worse than how they were originally made. You get turned into card and two whole years pass while you are in that state. But no worries, you know you can trust you ancestors and their Velgearian friend to solve this. It'll all be fine. You then get sent back to the present just for a bit to observe your friends. But going back you are told by one of them that Dueling became complicated and out of the reach of kids. What you did in the past didn't change it. In fact, YOU caused the same cycle to happen. You try to ignore that thought and tell yourself that it can be fixed, you can change this. You head back to the past promising you will return home...hopefully. unbeknownst to you, your presence is creating a rift between two best friends because of their feelings for you. Feelings you are unaware of because at this point you are a 12 year old boy. One of them is the ancestor of the six ceos of Goha company, a company that in the future creates duel monsters, while the other is the ancestor of the Mutsuba company that deals with construction and is of now the owner of the city. Where you came from the town was called Goha city, not Mutsuba, the descendant of Mutsuba talked about how her family lost power and how Goha took over everything. In the past both companies were super close but then everything fell...and that falling is happening before you but you aren't even aware of it. But well at least the Maximum situation has been sol-oh a prototype of the Velgearian species is causing issues? Great, okay that can be solved. While it does get solved...you find out that the Velgearian are dying and fast. They are being wiped out, but why? You thought they were immortal, what could possibly be causing their extinction? They are using their energy while rush dueling which is shortening their lifespan. The thing you created to help them is what is going to end them. You are responsible for their demise. But then you find out that proto-Velgearian was trying to find a way to stop this. That he was looking into a way to revive the Velgearian but that research stopped. Your friends are trying to complete his goal but you begin to put the pieces together and realize what is being made, Monster Reborn.
The card that began the domino effect of the destruction of Rush Duels in your time. A card that alters the memories of others. The card that caused strife between siblings where they decided to destroy rush duels along with each other. It is now sinking in how everything is repeating itself and how this could be your fault. You have to, no, you NEED to stop this. Even if it means hurting those you care about. Even if they see you as their enemy and you are alone, you have to do this. You have to destroy what you love, you have to become the person you tried stopping before coming here. You now understand why he was trying to stop you those years ago. What other option is there? You can't tell them why making this card would be bad because your Velgearian friend wants his comrades back. He won't listen. No one will listen. The needs of the many out weigh the needs of the few as they say. You fight your ancestors tooth and nail only for the card to be used and now all three of you can see each other's memories. Your ancestors now know what all will happen. You loose against them and the card is now unleashed. You couldn't stopped it. Your duel caused a rift in reality to open where now you can go home but you are leaving behind a road of the damage you have caused. Made worse with the fact that Monster Reborn can't even revive the Velgearian which is why the proto-Velgearian stopped his research. Making the card was pointless, and trying to stop it was utterly pointless. Your fighting to change the future only caused it to happen. You have to live with that. But not just you, but your ancestors too.
I know this is the goofy card game show but what the fuck. I didn't expect Yuga to become one of the most tragic yugioh protags. Watching his desperation of trying to stop the pain that is going to happen in his time and in turn having to destroy the very thing he loves was just heartbreaking. Anyway, I hope whoever reads this enjoyed my ramblings on Sevens and Go Rush. That and I hope people who weren't sympathetic to Yuga try to at least understand my perspective and such. Though I tend to like tragic characters a lot so maybe that is why I am sympathetic to him.
#yuga ohdo#yugioh sevens#yugioh go rush#yugioh#fanart#traditional art#Velgearian#the relic#pierce draws#mineral vulture art#fandom frenzy free
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‼️🍉I KNOW WE WILL ALL DIE EVENATALLY 🇵🇸‼️
Guys, your money will go to save my family😔🇵🇸
Hello, I'm Eslam from Gaza, a mother of two girls, Hanaa, 5 years old, and Alma, 1 year old. My house, my car, and my husband's job were destroyed. I lost 11 people from my family in GAZA'S GENOCIDE and I cannot bear to lose more.
Imagine that my 5-year-old daughter surprised me by saying that she feels that she will soon die from a missile that will tear her apart.
Is it fair that my daughter dies while she is still dreaming of life?
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I hope that one day, your child, every child in Palestine will only think of the memories of fear and pain as something in the past and forever in the past. Tell Hanaa to dream of life no matter what, I struggled similar feelings and still do, wanting to do it, but always hold on to even the tiniest happiest moments. "I want to experience this again." , "I want to eat this again." Even if you are close to death hold on to life.
This family is also vetted.
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Why did Dick leave?
So there’s this take that has been bothering me recently: it's often framed that, in current versions of canon where Dick Grayson is fired from being Robin, that while, yes, him being fired from Robin can be acknowledged, it's not like Dick Grayson was kicked out. So, it's seen as Dick choosing to leave, and the conversation is often centered around Bruce being emotionally insensitive and wrong, but Dick should've known better and recognized this as Bruce just lashing out from fear of Dick getting hurt. Maybe if we were going with really old canon (like 40s, 50s), I could see that interpretation, but I feel like that's quite disingenuous interpretation of these events based on the various canonical versions of Dick getting fired from being Robin. I think there's an interesting angle to this when you consider the fact that this isn't the first time Dick was fired.
Ok, so I understand everyone has different opinions shall we say about Robin: Year One (spoilers ahead), but I think if you choose to engage with this canon, it changes the way I at least viewed Dick's final firing from being Robin. Just to bring you up to speed: in the comic, Dick gets nearly beaten to death as Robin in front of Batman by Harvey Dent, while Batman is tied up and watching until he's able to free himself and save Dick. Following this, Bruce Wayne chooses this very emotionally mature response:
Yes Bruce, let's not be compassionate to the child that was nearly just killed, let's go straight to "you're fired." Not surprising but definitely disappointing. I think what's not talked much about is the aftermath though. The point is often made in fandom that even if Bruce fired Dick from Robin, he would still want Dick to be there because he values Dick as a person himself, not just as Robin. However, after Bruce gives this speech, he makes no attempt to engage with Dick. Sure, in the comic, it's written as both of them not saying anything to each other, with Alfred saying "The young sir adjusts his schedule to normal working hours." However, remember: Dick Grayson is a literal child in this comic- he doesn't have the onus of communicating with Bruce. And it's clear that as Bruce takes no initiative to talk with Dick.
And the comic couldn't be more explicitly clear that, as a result of this, Dick runs away from home since he feels that Bruce doesn't need nor want him.
I think from this, a clear and explicit line can be drawn from the past to present, where it is seen that Dick sees his place in Bruce's life as being explicitly tied to Robin. And I'm sure that throughout their time living together, maybe Dick started to feel differently, but an insecurity like this doesn't just disappear. When such a similar situation happens years later where Bruce decides to fire him again, what would stop Dick from thinking the same thing?
As a matter of fact, in this same comic, there is no real resolution of this conflict. Bruce says nothing to the effect of loving Dick or viewing him as a son, instead as soon as they're both back in the cave:
Who reads a letter where your pseudo-son is like: hey I don't think you want or need me so I'm running away, and has this response? Basically, Bruce says "I'll let you be Robin again but only if you follow my orders always, even if that means I die." Wonderful Bruce, 10/10. This fear is never assuaged at all, so I get confused when people speak on how Dick should've been so sure in his place in Bruce's life. Like, this boy literally could not have been clearer about his insecurities and Bruce sidesteps them in this moment and more than that- reaffirms that Dick's role in his life is only as a Robin that follows his orders always.
I understand a lot of people don't like this comic or don't enjoy to engage with it, but I feel like the parallels between this comic and any comic that deals with Dick Grayson's eventual firing are so strong that I couldn't not speak on it. I understand that other comics could lead to different interpretations on their relationship and center more on Bruce showing how much he cares about Dick outside Robin, but I feel like this point is still valid as in other comics, Dick has expressed this insecurity of not feeling secure as his son.
Tales of New Teen Titans #50
In this case, Dick is affirmed as Bruce's son, but this still speaks to the lingering insecurities Dick has about his role in Bruce's life in my opinion. As spoken on earlier, these insecurities are not unfounded and make a lot of sense for Dick to have because Bruce doesn't speak on his love for Dick as a son much at all because he's emotionally insensitive and because of, frankly, the way Bruce centers Robin over Dick.
So yes, Dick left but not because he was just very angry about having Robin taken form him (which I still think is very valid) but also because he has reasons to believe that Robin being fired is a rejection of Dick Grayson himself.
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Hyper Specific Poll Time
Is it too late for this? Has this trend died? Don't care, I remembered some shit I think would be fun to have in one of these...Some of these are so long I need to have the full sentences underneath. I'm a yapper with details, what can I say?
1*(Slight edit) When I say >3 I mean less than three years old, not less than three popcorn kernels. I don't know how many popcorn kernels were in my ears
3*Recently had to remove a LOZ wall tapestry only to find underneath a smaller, hidden Homestuck Kankri Vantis picture taped to the wall
4*As a six-eight year old, had to drag a very small baby cousin(10-14m small) out of a fire ant hill so they wouldn't die cause the adults weren't paying attention
5*Got incredibly attached to a cheery, sunshine anime protag when your depression was worsening, only to realize as an adult their character ark is becoming depressed
6*Once traded smutty art commissions(plural) of a woman and her husband for shiny pokemon(plural)
7*Once put up with a guy who sent you a dick pick long enough to get a version exclusive of a pokemon, then blocked him
8*Recently was being gunned for by an actual demonology cult because you happened to know some shit about demons
9*In high school had a class with your elementary school's ex-best friend's girlfriend and had a huge gay crush on her and melted when she gave you a decorative key
10*Unable to comfortably drink from a can unless you 1000% have a safe cover for it cause when you were a child you took a drink from your soda and got a mouth full of roach
Reblog for reach if you wanna
Also if you want more details about any of them, feel free to ask
#poll#my poll#hyper specific poll#these are so much fun I wanna see what people say to this one#proship safe#not proship specific but yknow
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I don’t think you know genuinely how much you adventure time Hongjoong means to me. What’s his full story like in his head?
what’s his canon event pre and post ateez?
what haunts him? with his magic, is their anything that can genuinely make him terrifying?
He seems distant from the rest of ateez, does he show he cares? Do they know? or is he trying to prevent that?
what’s the thing that Mingi so special to him :>
just your adventure time Hongjoong. I’d read their biography.
I LOVE JOONG IN THIS AU SM
Ok I can give some details off the top of my head!
He's the younger brother of the current Demon King at the time of the main story. Despite being a prince, he really never cared for taking on responsibilities and learning how to be in charge since he was the younger sibling, he likely would never have to be in charge ever. He was pretty spoiled and self absorbed, because not only is he a prince but he's the prince of what is essentially Hell. He never really "cared" for anyone. Affection and love and such weren't really openly showed in his family either, except for with himself and his older brother, who he's always had a good relationship with. They have friendly competitions with each other. Before he meets Mingi he had a pretty much entirely carefree life. About as much angst as a rebellious teen. Wanting his parent's approval but not wanting to have anything to do with running their realm.
Post canon he takes over as Demon King, he couldn't bring himself to kill his brother (the royal Demons cannot typically be killed. They live to 10000 and die, unless they are killed by other royal blood), despite everything, his brother is only this way because they don't care about others in Hell. Hongjoong has learned to care, and he cares about his brother too. So while Hongjoong needs to learn how to run the kingdom, he essentially has his brother in a cage, and he asks his advice on things related to being a King. It's a very complicated relationship because of course, The Demon King killed Seonghwa. And Hongjoong really liked Seonghwa, and he'd been under the impression he'd have several years to get to know Seonghwa better, so he feels lost when suddenly the other isn't around. Hongjoong has also never felt sad about someone dying before, so it's a lot of confusing feelings. Yeosang disagrees with the decision to keep Joong's brother alive, so their relationship stays at least a little strained for probably ever, though Yeo tries to understand.
Incasing Mingi in a crystal prison haunts him.
On that note, Mingi is special to him because Hongjoong had never felt real affection for anyone before. Or at least he never understood it. He likes his bandmates, he likes his brother, but if one of his bandmates were to disappear Hongjoong would replace them, in his mind, he's very far above them, as the Demon Prince. His brother and him were friendly, but not friends. Then he meets Mingi, who is like 10 years old, and lost and innocent. Mingi has no magic, Mingi is so small, he's basically useless. He would rank so far below Joong in his mind there was no reason he should've wasted time helping the kid get home. But for some reason he wanted to, maybe he was bored that day and just wanted something to do. Mingi was so endearing, the kid had a terrible sense of direction, and so did Hongjoong, so it took a really long time to find their way back to Mingi's village. In that time the kid went on and on about everything and nothing. Things he liked, things he hated. He fidgeted with Hongjoong's bracelets when he'd decided to cling to Joong's wrists while they walked. Mingi didn't know that Hongjoong was someone "special". He talked to Hongjoong like no one else ever had, he wasn't afraid of him, he'd even bluntly insulted the Demon's pointed ears and teeth, saying they looked funny. Mingi was just interesting to Hongjoong at first. He'd also never interacted with a mortal child before so it was very new to him. He keeps visiting Mingi and the kid is just so loud and bouncy, and then shy and quiet its hard for Hongjoong to keep up. Mingi clings onto Hongjoong, hugging him, tugging on his clothing, snagging his accessories, etc. No one has done that to Hongjoong before, and it's endearing. When Mingi gets cursed, Hongjoong takes care of him for several years until Mingi decides he'd rather be frozen forever than cause more damage. At some point in their years together, Mingi had said Hongjoong felt like an older brother to him, and Hongjoong decided that in turn, Mingi feels like a younger brother to him. Imprisoning Mingi was so hard for Hongjoong because it felt like saying goodbye to the only person in the world he'd come to genuinely care about. It didn't help that Mingi was clearly so afraid during the process. Even during the main story line, when they're both adults, Hongjoong still see's Mingi as a sweet 10 year old kid that showed him how to feel.
Hongjoong's powers include: soul sucking, body/mind manipulation, transformation (into his demon form. he might have another, larger, scarier, form that he almost never uses) and he can use dark magic. He knows like ancient spells that are not written in most spell books wizards like Wooyoung would have access to. (the crystal prison spell for example is not something that just anyone knows) Hongjoong needs a book to cast spells cus he can't remember the incantations (cus he never cared to study them). He's honestly not that great at magic like this, Wooyoung is better at dark magic than he is. The most useful power to himself is just that he cannot die unless someone in his bloodline kills him or he gets super duper old.
He is a bit distant to the others for a while, but he grows fond of them over time. He becomes quite close with Wooyoung, because Wooyoung is always being sent to Joong's shack for breaking house rules. Hongjoong, also becomes close with Jongho, as they spend time where it's just Joong, Hwa, Mingi, and Jongho. For months Seonghwa makes him feel nervous, so he tends to put distance between them, they have a push and pull relationship. Closer to the end of the main story he's more openly showing he actually likes the others. He's gotten closer to everyone, and he enjoys hanging out and playing around with them. It's not that he was trying to seem like he didn't care in the beginning, he just like. actually didn't really care that much when the other half of the guys show up. He just needs a little bit of time to get used to them!
Thank you for your ask!!
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HUgE April 2011
HEDI SLIMANE
"ANTHOLOGY OF A DECADE"
All Photos by Hedi Slimane
Hedi Slimane.
This genius photographer, who created a frenzy in the men's fashion scene in the 2000s, has produced numerous photographic works to date.
A photobook that brings together all the work he has recorded over the past 10 years will be released.
The world that Hedi captured through his viewfinder is an anthology of his memories that will be passed down to the next decade.
"I have only one style, and will have it, and repeat myself until I'm gone, but this style is my own."
"My style is always the same. And it will never change. So I will probably continue to go back and forth until I die. But at the same time, it's something that only I can do." (Hedi Slimane)
words from Hedi SLIMANE
--- I believe you are currently residing in the United States. Could you please tell me where you are and what you have been up to recently?
"I moved to California in 2010. Not only is the nature and history here amazing, but I also love the free atmosphere that's unique to California that Europe has lost. I'm currently based in LA. No matter where a shoot or project takes place, LA is the base. That's because LA has a somewhat European feel to it, but at the same time, it's a city that has the perfect balance of the rapid development and energy of Asia. I'm not sure if this is simply because Asia is just across the Pacific Ocean, but it's a really fascinating place." --Has anything changed since you started living in America? Please tell us more specifically.
"Nothing has changed about me. For better or worse, I don't think I've changed at all since I was 5 years old... (laughs). But since I was absorbed in fashion, it was necessary for me to distance myself a little. For me (who has drawn the line at fashion), LA is a very comfortable place. It's a place where I feel at home. Also, since 2007 I've been working on a project called "Representation of Americana," and America has always been a place I've been interested in."
--Why did you decide to compile your past photographic works again at this point? "It felt like it was inevitable that I should compile my own work at this point, which is also the first decade of the new century. In 2000, I was doing everything from 1 to 10.
"I felt like I could do anything. But I think that this free and positive attitude, and the willingness to try new things, was the most important foundation in creating this anthology. It was also one of the reasons I wanted to leave a record of my work in fashion and the masculinity I felt at the time. It is important to express the fashion and scene of the era that was born from indie rock, which I was able to reconnect with. Also, we are now in an age where people all over the world can access my work. Around 2000, I became interested in the Internet as a medium, and I published my designs and photos online. In the mid-2000s, blog culture and social networks started to become popular at around the same time, and my homepage naturally spread to the public."
--Your works seem sentimental, but also very emotional. What state of mind are you always in when you look through the viewfinder and capture your subject?
"When I take portraits, I am conscious of protecting the subject from the concept of 'time'. When it comes to this way of thinking, I become as sensitive as a child and create a clear image in my head. Time flies by and disappears in just an instant. I always have this image in my mind when I approach the subject. So I focus all my energy on capturing the unstable fragility and danger that comes with youth, and the fragility of the vitality of life, which can be glimpsed in such a moment."
--Among the works are musicians' kits.
Your photography ranges from portraits of young people to landscapes and still life. What is the subject that interests or fills you with the most passion at the moment?
"I'm most excited by the unexpected encounters I have every day. Just two days ago, I met a skater boy on the streets of LA who was incredibly charming. It wasn't something that anyone planned, it was just a coincidence. But from the moment I saw him, I wanted to use him as a subject for my work. I think it will become a shot film. Such coincidences are one of the reasons why I can remain passionate. I believe that nothing great comes from a rational way of thinking where everything is calculated."
--Your black-and-white photographs have a minimalist, edgy originality that overlaps with the fashion image you previously designed. When completing your black-and-white photographs, especially
What are the points you are particular about?
Do you want it?
"Ever since I was a teenager, I've always had a certain tone and depth of black in my head, so for decades I've been trying to express that in prints myself, and that's been my biggest obsession. I don't go that far with the silver halide photographs I'm currently dealing with. But recently I've often been unsatisfied with my own prints, so I'm thinking about finishing my own prints again and holding a solo exhibition for the first time in a while."
--On the other hand, I'm not interested in color photography these days. If you want to take color photos now, what kind of subject would you like to photograph and how would you like to photograph it?
"Of course I take colour photographs, but I feel more comfortable with black and white.
"There was a time when I only shot in color. But now that I'm only taking black and white photos, I feel like I'm able to approach photography with a much higher awareness of color than I did back then when I was taking color photos. Recently, I've been taking a lot of color portraits for magazine shoots. It's fun, but the more I take them, the more I feel like I'm a black and white person. I feel like the element of 'color' isn't necessary for my work."
-- Many of your works give the strong impression of a certain kind of "music" playing in the viewer's head. Do you have any sound inspiration in mind when you shoot?
"Music has always been my source of inspiration. In fact, it's the only thing that has meaning to me. Music is energy and it's time. It's through music that fashion becomes a vivid memory. I still listen to UK indie. I've been listening to Egyptian hip-hop, The Heartbreakers, and LA's The Waves a lot lately. I also like anything from Gainsbourg to surf music, and old rock like Gene Vincent and Buddy Holly."
-- Recently, I think a lot of photography is done with digital cameras. This is true for the entire photography industry, but do you feel there is a difference between digital and analog film photos?
"I started taking digital photos around 2005. But actually, about half of the photos in the photo books being published today were taken with film. It wasn't until around 2004 that the technology of digital cameras started to improve.
After the techniques improved dramatically, I started to use digital media. As I said before, it was around the same time that social networks became popular and my website became widely known. So, in a way, it was the right time to try new things. I'm not a nostalgic person, so I always try to work with machines and technologies that are on my wavelength. By doing so, I think that the work from that time becomes part of my memory and I can express the relationship with the work of other artists."
--Your photo books seem to be very particular about the quality of the paper and the cover design, but to what extent do you personally direct them? Also, are there any art directors that you trust (or pay attention to)?
"No one in particular. I direct everything myself. What's strange is that there are photographers who aren't obsessed with layout, typography, the paper they're printed on, or the textures. My photography and fashion design are inseparable from graphic design. I've been working on graphic design for as long as I have on photography and clothing design. Everything is my idea. To be honest, I don't want to rely on anyone creatively. I feel more uneasy if the other staff involved in my work don't understand my ideas. In that kind of environment, you can't create a true sense of the moment, or the uniqueness of the creative process and expression."
---As a photographer, how do you view the current men's fashion scene?
"I tried out the 'New New Wave' at Dior Homme, but I don't think there's been much movement since. It seems like the current men's scene is like my last collection from 2007 A/W."
---Please tell us if there are any photographers you personally like or whose works you collect.
"I like reportage photography. August Sander, the iconic work that captures the social dynamics of the time, early Will McBride, Ed van der Elsken, and avant-garde photography from the 1920s like Rodchenko."
--What kind of camera do you normally use?
"I'm not a particularly fetishistic person, but I often use lenses that I've had for a long time. I process them so that they express the nuances I want to capture. But it doesn't matter what kind of camera or lens you use. What's really important is your own eyes and your vision."
--Now that you've been an artist for 10 years, do you want to change your style in any new ways?
"I think that people who can be called truly creative are people who pursue one thing to the fullest. Therefore, I don't think there is any need to change yourself. Even if you try something new and change yourself, you will only be going around in circles and will end up coming back to the same place. My style of photography has not changed at all since 1983.
It's clear if you look at my previous photo books. The photo I used on the first page of my pari photo book this time is one I took in the summer of '88. I put it on the opening page because I wanted to show everything I've been working on since then. There's just one consistency, one emotion, one energy, one feeling, in both fashion and photography. My style is always the same, and it will never change. So I'll probably be going back and forth between the same places until I die. But at the same time, it's something only I can do."
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So,
There really is nothing on system littles. And what I mean is, despite how long I've been searching I can't find much that helps us actually raise a child. System hosts will mention it, sure, or they'll have a specific alter who is great with kids. But we don't have any of that, and I bet other systems are struggling with this too. So, I'm compiling what I've learned in the past year or so and sharing it as an attempt to help.
This is written from my experiences with my little brother, a traumatized headmate around 10 years old. This might not apply to everyone.
Traumatized children require constant reassurance. They might be easily scared or startled by anything, and hold irrational beliefs that everything will hurt them (me too buddy). They can be the most vulnerable and emotional part of a system. This makes them really important, and in a unique position. They DEMAND attention. Even if they are quiet, if they are dissatisfied, it will come back and bite you in the ass. They require patience and special consideration.
You have to make your child headmate feel safe and comfortable. This is easier said than done. It's a lot more complicated than simply buying some toys and watching cartoons. Children have emotional needs, we all do. They need to feel love and feel like they are part of a family. This is why communication is very important. Communication is different with every system, and we communicate via a variety of writings, pinterest boards, dreams, co-fronting, and more direct but vague ways of throwing emotions at each other, and asking questions and receiving a vague response. This is all to say that even if you literally can't hold a conversation, there is many ways to talk to each other.
In order to meet your littles needs you have to know them first. You can assume the basics, yes, but that will only get you so far. Children also aren't known for their excellent communication skills, so this is a process. My little benefits from a pacifier, which was easy to figure out. But it took longer to realize he also wants his own clothing, and he refuses to wear black because it's a color that is worn too frequently by other alters, and he needs to feel like his own person. This might be a bit ridiculous. A color is just a color, right? No one is going to die by wearing black. But to him it is very important, and he will be distressed if he is not wearing clothes comfortable to him.
And the way our system works is it's easy to feel another alter's distress, so there is no point in wigging a systemmate out for no reason. You want to work together to reduce stress. It makes an easier time for everybody.
Anyways. You will have to make compromises. You make compromises just by being a system. I adjusted our living space to be more "child friendly". I removed the animal bones we had on display. I don't buy decor that my child alter would find scary, even if it's a horror movie character I like, even if I think it's not that bad. If you can make your little feel comfortable even by one percent, it's worth it. I adjusted our room to feel more cheerful. I have a shelf of easily accessible toys. I decorated our house more with cute things. Fridge magnets, goodwill figurines, a printed photo of a puppy, anything to make your syskid feel like this is also their space will help .
This is all I have for today. Thanks for reading!
#syskid#little alters#child alter#actually plural#dissociative identity disorder#osdid#actually dissociative#if you!! have any information or comments or anything lmk. but be normal please.
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