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hor4ngshi · 1 month ago
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vnti-vnxiety-recs · 9 months ago
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Mr.NotSoRighteous (M)
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★  PAIRING: BadBoy!S.coups x RichQueenka! reader, Princess Complex!reader featuring:Joshua
☆ WORD COUNT: 18k
★ GENRE(S): smut, fake dating, Hate to love, slow burn
☆ SUMMARY: When your boyfriend Joshua breaks up with you and gets with your sworn rival, you are determined to get him back. You seek help from the known bad boy on campus who's not too fond of you. Can the campus outcast help you win your Mr.Right back?
★ ☆ WARNINGS: panic attack mention,smut/unprotected sex, y/n is a bitch, swearing, sexual acts, super brief mentions of drugs, poor description of a game of golf. 
☆★ NOTES: DONT LIKE DONT READ. wrap it before you tap it. Leave nice comments please or else <3 
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Spending a Saturday night waiting for a text from a man was not one of your top priorities. It was a Saturday evening, and instead of being out with your girls, you're lazing around your dorm, waiting for a text from Joshua. This was your fifth fight all week, and all of this arguing was definitely not good for your pores. You were laying in bed, fluffy designer slippers kicking in the air. You scrolled aimlessly on Instagram, liking and comment on a few posts.
Normally Joshua would have taken you out over the weekend, but now that your schedule was clear, you figured you might as well take this to try and do some networking. Your father would always scold your social skills in formal settings; he said you were too “wild” and needed to “tone down the partying for the sake of the business's image.” Your figured you might as well take the opportunity to prove him wrong.
As the daughter of Carat Co., a diamond manufacturing company, it was in your best interest to keep a pristine image. The media was always attacking your family. Bringing a good image to your father’s company would benefit everyone. 
Normally you and Joshua would go to the mall over the weekend, and he would let you max out his cards by buying designer bags and shoes. Instead of him spoiling you rotten, you are back to ignoring each other again after another petty argument. 
You couldn't really blame him; you knew you could be a handful, and with his father giving him more control over the company, Joshua was more sensitive to your attitude. Joshua was the grandson of a CEO and his grandfather was hellbent on him undoubtedly inheriting the company. You tried hard, you swore you did, to be on your best behavior. You knew how stressed he was and your princess complex wasn't making it any better.
Normally your little quips didn't bother him; he was used to your bossy behavior, but earlier that week he had enough. He was late to pick you up from brunch with your mother, and when you called him a lousy driver, he blew up on you. Unbeknownst to you, he had just come from a failed business proposal. His grandfather was extra hard on him so he was already feeling down. In the moment, you did feel a sliver of guilt for not noticing his sour mood. You were so used to the ups and downs in your relationship with Joshua you expected him to call or text you back by now with an apology. 
He was usually the one to apologize first, even if you were in the wrong. (Which was never.) In your eyes you were perfect and when he didn't come crawling back to you, that knocked you off your high horse. For as long as you could remember, you had always gotten what you wanted. Joshua was one of those things. He was your white knight, and you were not done playing princess. 
As you're scrolling, you pass a post by Seo-Jun, the daughter of one of your father’s business rivals. Seo-jun has been your rival since grade school. She joined all the same teams you were in during middle school, participated in all the same extracurricular classes you took in high school, and applied to the same university as you. Seo-jun was like a bad cold you just couldn't get rid of. 
 Seo-jun was obsessed with proving she was better than you. Your father had outperformed hers in terms of annual business revenue once; apparently, that's all she needed to make it her goal to take everything away from you. If there was anyone more entitled than you, it was her. She wanted everything you had and made sure to get it—everything except for Joshua. 
You both had a crush on him in high school; granted, Seo-jun had a crush on him first. You really only started liking him to piss her off. You both fought to get his attention, but somehow he ultimately chose you.
In the present, you can't help but quirk a brow at your screen and let out an incredulous laugh. You almost scroll past it, but when you zoom in, you're certain. It's a post of Seo-jun and Joshua in a golf cart parked in the lush grass of your favorite country club. The caption was full of heart emojis. 
Was this bitch soft-launching your boyfriend?
That asshole knows how much you hate her! He was definitely doing this to get a rise out of you. You scoff and angrily type out a comment under the post. You hesitate, but ultimately erase it. You throw your phone in frustration. There was no way you were letting them know they got under your skin. You stare at your ceiling, deep in thought.
 You had to think of a way to get back at him! Screw that; you needed to find a way to get back with him. Not only would it piss off Seo-jun, but being with Joshua was just too beneficial. He was basically your little lapdog. If you told him to jump, he would ask how high. Too bad he grew a backbone; you roll your eyes. And Seo-jun! She's probably over the moon. Joshua was the last thing she could take from you, and she finally got it. You would die before you let her win.
If he wanted to play that game, you would just plug in a controller. You knew you had to make him jealous, but you honestly didn't know who you could use for the task. You didn't have many close guy friends; men gave you a headache. The few you did have were also close with Joshua and definitely wouldn't be up for the challenge. The other option was choosing a guy your father had been trying to set you up with for ages. He said it would be good publicity, but you knew getting mixed up with someone like that was trouble. It was too risky and could damage your father's business relations, so that was out of the question.
Maybe you could just pay one of the less fortunate students on campus to play your new boyfriend. You chuckle at the thought. Yea right, you were desperate, but not THAT desperate. You don't think any of them would even be up to the task, given that whenever you saw the scholarship kids walking the hallways on campus, you made a point to stare in disgust. 
You went to a prestigious university that normally only the wealthiest families could afford, but a few years ago, they started a scholarship fund to let in underprivileged  students. You figure they should be lucky to even breathe in the same air that you bless when you spray your high-end perfume.
 There was only one out of the unlucky bunch of outcasts that you had ever even held a conversation with, if you can even call it that. 
Choi Seungcheol was a mystery to some but a nuisance to you. He was never in class, caused trouble everywhere he went, and always started arguments with the snobby, well-off students. Well, maybe they picked on him first, but regardless, he should know his place. There was even a rumor that he sold drugs behind one of the old lecture buildings. Even with all the rumors surrounding him,. He was still able to maintain his scholarship. You deduced he must either have a brain in there somewhere or is bullying some poor kid into finishing his class work. 
You tried to steer clear of him, but somehow you ended up being one of his targets. You were one of the wealthy students he would throw jabs at, resulting in many arguments. He was the most insufferable man you had ever met. One afternoon, as you were walking to class, you saw him coming your way. You would have gladly taken a detour, but if you were late to class, your father would kill you. Time is money. You roll your eyes as you pass him, and he scoffs in return.
 “You can roll your pretty eyes as much as you want sweetheart; you’ll never find a brain up there,” he chides, making you stop in your tracks and turn to face him. The audacity of this man! 
“Animals speak? Science sure has come far.” You bite back. 
“Yeah, real mature,” he said, clicking his tongue.
“You started it, you mutt.” You continue walking, throwing the insult over your shoulder. You were so over this exchange, 
“Takes a bitch to know a dog, huh?” He spits at your retreating back.  You whip back around at the insult. You stumble over your words in shock. No one would get away with talking to you like that.
 “I knew you were trouble the moment I saw you! You're no good, and when I tell my father about this, you’ll be sorry!” 
“Oh? Big girl can't handle her own problems. Gotta have Daddy take care of them for you?” he smirks. You were beyond flustered as you stormed off. That's how a lot of your encounters would go, with him somehow leaving you at a loss for words. 
You curse yourself; there was no way in hell he would accept your offer, and even if he miraculously did, he was definitely going to make your life a living hell. You weren't even sure where to find him, and there was no way you were going to go around campus asking for him. 
In the present, you sigh. It is going to be hard to track him down now that you are willingly looking for him. You were just about to give up on the whole revenge plan once you realized how much work it would be, but then a ding from your phone caught your attention. You look at your screen, and it shows one new message from your friend Lia. She sent you a new post from Joshua's page.
 "Girl, you gotta see this,” her text reads. In the picture, Seo-jun was now sitting in Joshua's lap as they locked lips.  
WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND HARD-LAUNCHING THIS BITCH?
You audibly gasp. And here you were about to be the bigger person. If they go low, you go to hell, and who other than Satan himself to help you with your scheme? Somehow, he always seems to appear when you least expect him. Who knew the day would come when you were hoping to hear his crude remarks? If you had to turn the campus upside down looking for Seungcheol, you would. If you had to get on your knees and beg for his forgiveness, you would probably bend your knees a little bit, clasp your hands together, and say please, maybe once? That was all he would get out of you,  but you had high hopes that he would play along. You knew he would love to have some type of power over you; knowing your fate was in his hands was enough to please him.
“I'll see you on Monday,” you plot.
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It's Monday morning, and you're already off to a terrible start. You have scoured high and low looking for Seungcheol in between your classes, but he was nowhere to be seen. You hoped he didn't skip class and stay home. You're almost tempted to ask around, but decide against it. Asking questions would raise too many red flags, and Seungcheol was not well-liked on campus; you doubted anyone knew where he was.
You trudge into your biochemistry class dejected, so tired that you collapse onto your seat. You lay your head down on your desk and close your eyes to rest. After a few moments, your professor finally shows up. You should probably pay attention as he explains today's lab, but you're still too tired to even bother. Luckily for you, you sat at the back of the class. 
You don't think he would notice if you took a quick nap and got comfortable. You are almost completely under when you hear the professor scoff. You think he's about to reprimand you, but what he says instead has you sitting up straight just the same.
“Nice of you to join us, Mr. Choi; I thought I'd only have the joy of seeing you during testing.” 
"Sorry sir, I was feeling a little under the weather,” he yawns unabashedly, like he just woke up from the best nap of his life. 
"Well, it's nice to have you sitting in on a lab for once; these are also a huge percentage of your grade.” Your teacher nags.
You almost don't believe it—that bastard was in your biochemistry class the whole time? Your professor, who doesn't look impressed at all by Seungcheol’s story, tells him to quickly find a seat. Seungcheol begins to walk towards the back of the room. He locks eyes with you as he approaches the empty desk next to you; at least that's where you thought he was going.
“Get up; this is where I always sit.” He instructs 
You blink twice at his impudence. You have sat here every day…all year. You have to bite your tongue; if you want his help, you have to be nice. You fight the scowl from your face.
 “Of course.” You get up reluctantly and move one desk over. 
He gives you a weird look. The you that he knew would have put up more of a fight and called him out on his bluff. He's convinced you've been a victim of body snatching, and the person in front of him was an imposter. He sits cautiously, eyeing you up and down.
You expect him to at least take notes given the fact that he's missed months worth of class, but you should have known better. Instead, he just sits there, lying back in his seat, arms crossed over his broad chest, as he inspects you. He partially sat here to rile you up. He wasn't interested in what your professor had to say; he would do the lab after hours. As much as the professor nags at him, he will allow the makeup. Seungcheol just liked the eerie quiet of an empty building; he worked better. It was seldom that he came to class; he did his own independent studies and just showed up on exam days to ace them and keep his grade afloat.
The desks were closely packed together,which is another reason why you sat in the back away from others. You liked your space. Seungcheol, who was manspreading so much that his knee was against yours, seemed to enjoy your space as well.
You're tempted to knock his knee away in disgust, but you remember again that you actually need him, so you keep yourself in check. You don't realize your glaring eyes have started to wander from his invading knee to his face. You rake his body over and can't help but stop at his thighs. They were so thick, you wondered if he had to jump to put jeans on. Your eyes continue up until they reach his smug face. He waits for you to blow up at him, but you just blankly study his features; you never noticed how handsome he was. His obnoxious comments were really taking away from the view; he should learn to talk less and smile more.
He's more than a little disappointed that you didn't respond to his knee nudging yours; you were no fun.
“What's wrong? Why is Miss Princess being so quiet today? I didn't know you could be so docile.” He jokes, and he wonders what's gotten into you.
“Wait for me after class. We need to talk.” You demand. 
“That's not how you ask for favors, pretty girl.” He shakes his head. “You were being so good to me earlier; what happened?”
You sigh as you think to yourself. You hadn’t even gotten yourself involved with this man yet, and he's already working your patience. He's already making you regret this. You pinch yourself and breathe in deeply. You can tell Seungcheol enjoys watching your internal struggle. It's not like it's the first time you’ve ever had to be polite; you could do this! The only thing that could account for your peculiar behavior today was whatever you needed from him, so he is figured it must be pretty important.
“Puh-” You stutter
“almost there, you got it!” Seungcheol says
“Puhleeee” You stammer again. This time, he says nothing as he waits patiently, gesturing for you to continue.
“puh-lease,” you let out a staccato beat, finding it easier to say if you split up the syllables. 
You pat yourself on the back. That was enough strenuous activity for today. You look up at Seungcheol, meeting his gaze. He looks satisfied enough but you're unable to tell if your hard work has paid off.
“Ok, let's talk after class,” He says nonchalantly as he turns back to face the professor. He's given up on bugging you, so he pretends to at least pay attention during the lecture.
Class is over, and you pack your things slowly, waiting for everyone to clear out. You can't risk anyone overhearing you, or else it would be over before it even started. Once the classroom is empty and you're sure you're alone with Seungcheol, you look over to see him looking bored, pushing his pencil back and forward on his desk as he waits for you to speak.
“We need to go somewhere more private.” You say.
Seungcheol rolls his eyes at that. “You're losing me love; I don't have all day. No one’s even here.” He gestures to the empty room
“Then give me your number,” you continue. “If you're busy now, just text me when you're free! I promise it won't be a waste of time.” You don't want to go into too much detail; you're too paranoid that someone was curious to see why you were hanging back after class with a scholarship kid. Maybe someone was listening outside; you don't know, but you refuse to take a chance. You reach out your hand, gesturing for him to hand over his phone.
He unlocks it, handing it back to you, and you quickly send yourself a message. Satisfied with your handiwork, you grab your things, wave goodbye, and leave. Watching your retreating back as the click of your heels sounded throughout his ears, all Seungcheol could think about was how peculiar you could be at times and just what it was that he had agreed to.
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It wasn't until later that night that he texted you, letting you know he was finally free. You send him the address to a restaurant he didn’t recognize and instruct him to be there in the next hour. The restaurant you picked was completely off campus; you wanted to make sure it was a place that presented zero chance of you running into anyone you knew. 
When you arrive at the slightly run-down mom-and-pop shop, you find Seungcheol already sitting in a booth. You approach and notice he’s ordered a shake and fry. He's too busy munching on his food and scrolling on his phone to acknowledge you. 
Even if he wasn't preoccupied, you doubt he’d be able to recognize you by the way you're dressed. You're dressed in a cheap party city wig that was haphazardly slapped on your head. You wore a trench coat that definitely stood out in the warm weather of spring and thick-rimmed sunglasses. You look ridiculous, but it had to be done. If you wore any of your regular clothes, someone would definitely recognize you; you had a very distinctive style. All your clothes were custom-made and tailored to you. You sit down in the booth in front of him, clearing your throat and drawing his attention. A look of confusion crosses his face.
“It’s me.” You pull the shades down just slightly to give him a good look at you.
“I know…” he deadpans.
“I didn’t want anyone to notice me,” you explain, snatching the wig from your head in embarrassment.
“It's almost 80 degrees outside; you look stupid.” He can't help but laugh as the initial shock wears off.
“You think I don't know that!” You reach for a fry and snatch the shake out of his hand, helping yourself. Your mood changes in an instant upon tasting the flavor. "Omg, I love chocolate shakes.” You sip happily on your new drink. 
Seungcheol sighs heavily but lets you have it without a fight. “What did you need to talk about?” he reaches for a few fries and dips them in your shake before eating them. 
“I need you to ask me out,” you state plainly, taking a long sip of the shake, hoping the chill can stop the heat of embarrassment from crawling up your neck. You hated this feeling; you were never anxious. What really made you nervous, though, was Seungcheol's laid-back demeanor. 
“And why would I agree to do that beautiful?” he smirks, observing you nervously chew on your straw.
You rolled your eyes at the compliment; you knew he was being patronizing. He was trying to get you worked up, and it was working. Suddenly, the fire that he was used to was roaring behind your eyes again. 
“Because you are a selfless person who helps people in need,” you say with a condescending smile.
“You? Needy? When have you ever needed anything from anyone, let alone me?” he asks. 
“We just have to pretend for a few months. I just want to make Shua jealous so he comes back to me.” You cut to the chase. 
“Oh? Lapdog ran away from home?” He redirects
“Jus’ means a new position has opened up,” you shrug
"You once told me that breathing the same air as me was a biohazard because I was poor." he furrowed his brows in disbelief.
“And in debt.” You correct.
“Shitty scholarships,” he shrugs factually.
“And if I can cover what they can't?”
Now you seem to have his attention. He wishes you would have said that from the beginning; it would have saved time. You knew he wouldn't do this out of the kindness of his heart.
“How much are we talking?” He licks his lips.
You were already ahead of him. You pull out a folder from your trench coat and slide it to the other side of the table. The action reminded me of the old noir movies your dad used to watch. Seungcheol can only narrow his eyes at your antics. This couldn't get any more cliche.
Seungcheol takes the folder and skims the contents. His eyes grew in size, betraying the poker face he wore. He knew you desperately needed his help, but he didn't think you were this desperate. You must really, really love Joshua, he thinks.
“I know I'm asking for a lot so I'm not afraid to compensate.'' You continue to explain. “If more is needed, don't be afraid to speak up.” 
He skims over the details and reads the agreement. After the contract was up, he would receive a lump sum amount for his time, and on top of that, every time you needed him for an official public appearance, he would receive additional payment. He continues to read and sees that physical contact is also in the contract. You would also pay for each kiss, and anytime he had to hold your hand. Seems excessive, but there are no arguments on his side. At one point, you go over a set of rules. Seungcheol had already skimmed over them but listened anyway. The rules were as follows:
No unnecessary kissing or touching 
No unnecessary hangouts/meetups
No pursuing other people romantically while the contract is active
The contract expiration may be subject to change in the event that Joshua Breaks up with Seo-jun sooner
“I want to add a rule,” he adds confidently. 
“no,” you scowl.
“Then I'm out,” he says nonchalantly.
“Ugh! Fine.” You throw him your pen. He takes it happily and begins to make changes to  the page. He hands the pen and paper back to you and you review his notes. You give him a look before rolling your eyes. You were ready for this whole exchange to be over so you accepted the added rules with no further pushback. The rules now read the following:
No unnecessary kissing or touching 
No unnecessary hangouts/meetups
No pursuing other people romantically while the contract is active
The contract expiration may be subject to change in the event that Joshua Breaks up with Seo-jun sooner
No swearing at Seungcheol or else punishment will be received 
No name-calling Seungcheol or else punishment will be received 
“Sign the bottom dumbass,” you smile.
“Did you even read it?” He groans
“We haven't signed anything yet so I still have free reign to call you whatever I want.” You quip as you poke your tongue out at him.
“Just give me the damn pen,” He huffs.
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The next couple of days were spent easing into the fake relationship, trying to be as natural as possible. You couldn't just show up to class the next day as a couple, not when everyone knew your history together. They had all bore witness to your many scuffles. You needed to make sure you were seen having more friendly encounters, so that meant no more insulting words as you passed each other in the halls. You were going to have to start staging interactions. You made a point to wave at each other and eat together in places that everyone could see. People couldn't help but gossip and started to speculate if you guys were dating. When you guys were spotted walking to class together holding hands,  people could not believe their eyes. It wasn't until the rumors reached their peak that you bothered to confirm them. You uploaded a new post to Instagram. It was a simple picture of Seungcheol and you at a local cafe. You decide to confirm the rumors with a simple heart emoji in the caption; there is no need to say more.
Hows that for a hard launch, Joshua?
You almost had everyone fooled. Your friends are the only ones who don't believe the rumors. They knew you hated Seungcheol, and they were constantly trying to get the truth out of you. To them, this was completely out of character, and you knew you had to come up with something to get them off your back. Eventually, you told them that your dad had cut your allowance short and you wanted to rebel and piss him off. They reluctantly bought your story; it didn't bother them very much; they were used to you dropping things once you were bored with them. 
Now that your fake relationship has taken off, the real game could finally begin. 
It's the week after establishing your relationship in the public eye, and you invite Seungcheol over to your apartment. You want to brief him on the next thing you have in mind. You get a text from him letting you know he's in your driveway. You have to jog across your dorm to get to the door in a timely manner. The dorm you're staying in doesn't hold a candle to your family's home, but it's big enough to be a hassle to have to cross.
You open your door and greet the man waiting. He was dressed very comfortably; he had told you earlier that he would come after mixed martial arts practice. You're a good host, so you show him around before leading him to your office and sitting him in a swivel chair. 
“Ok! Tomorrow is Monday. This means Joshua will be going to Spade Oaks; this is the perfect opportunity to make him jealous.” You begin drawing stick figures on the whiteboard that spans the back wall.
“What’s spade oak?” Seungcheol yawns. He looks tired; practice must have taken a lot out of him. His hair was ruffled, no doubt from the sparring that took place earlier in the day. You almost wanted to grab a comb and fix it for him, but you had more pressing matters to attend to.
“It's the country club I'm a member of. I only got the stupid thing because Shua likes golf,” you shrug offhandedly, drawing more details on your figures
“That sucks.” Seungcheol remarks.
“I know, I prefer tennis,” you shrug
“I meant the drawings,” he says, stifling a laugh.
“Just pay attention!” you huff. “This is important business," you said, setting the marker down with a clack.
He takes a deep breath to ward off anymore laughter. "OK, OK, continue.” 
“Tomorrow I'm going to Spade Oaks to show off my new boyfriend, and hopefully we can catch Shua in a friendly game of golf.” You finish.
“Lucky for you, I actually played a little golf in high school.” 
“Really!” 
"Mini golf," he says, laughing at his own dad joke.
You throw your dry-erase marker at him in reply to his stupid pun. You almost swear at him but hold your tongue. Seungcheol stares at you expectantly with a raised brow, challenging you to break his rule. He was more than disappointed when you didn't take the bait. You let out a sigh and collected yourself before returning to the whiteboard and using the extra marker that was attached to draw a new figure into the scene.
“If Shua really is there, Seo-jun is likely to have tagged along. She would never pass up a chance to try and one-up me.” You turn back to Seungcheol 
“Got it, golf. This was great, but you really could have just texted me this.” Seungcheol gets up and stretches. 
His shirt rises slightly during the process, allowing you to catch a brief glimpse of his happy trail before it returns to its proper position. You are even more annoyed by his ability to look good in sweatpants. That was enough for today; he was clearly over it, and so were you. You usher him to the door, but before pushing him out, you give him a stern warning. 
“If you screw up tomorrow, you're not getting paid!” And just before he can complain, you slam the door in his face. 
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Seungcheol meets you first thing in the morning. When you arrive at Spade Oaks, you look him over one more time, making sure his appearance is perfect. He's dressed lightly for the warm weather. He’s wearing khaki slacks and a black polo shirt that almost looks a size too small as it constricts against his arms and chest. His ass is definitely fatter than yours in those slacks, and it's making you mad. Get a grip. You shake the thoughts from your mind and loop your arm around him as you walk.
“Are you ready to have fun today, babe?” You ask jokingly, making obnoxious kissy faces at him. Seungcheol smiles bitterly in return.
He grits his teeth and puts on a false smile to match yours, "Of course, sunshine."
You guys compliment each other so well
You show him around the grounds. Your little tour not only introduces him to some of your acquaintances but also serves as a good way to look for Joshua without being too obvious. After another impromptu introduction, you finally spot the man you were looking for alone on the outside deck. A crooked smile makes its way onto your face as you casually lead Seungcheol outside. 
 “Oh, Joshua? What are you doing here!?” Of course he would be here; you two used to frequent this place all the time. You were together so often that the staff looked Seungcheol up and down like he grew another head before they realized he wasn't Joshua.
“Oh, I'm just here with Seo-jun. We're about to head down to the golf course.” Joshua was a bit taken aback at your sudden appearance, especially with a new man in tow, but he couldn't help but smile in triumph when he saw your nose scrunch up at the mention of Seo-jun. “Who's your friend?”
Before you can introduce him, Seungcheol extends his arm for a handshake. 
“Im Seungcheol, I assume you're the ex?” 
Joshua lets out an incredulous huff at the statement. “Yeah, that ex,” he states bitterly, shaking Seungcheol's hand in a tight handshake.
You're sure he's making reference to how long he and you have been together. He's the ex of 4 years who she tells you not to worry about.
This was clearly working, and you could jump for joy, but your joy was short-lived because you happened to catch a glimpse of the Incarnate Devil out of the corner of your eye. Seo-jun emerges from the restroom and immediately rushes over to Joshua when she realizes it is you he is been speaking with. 
“I'm so sorry to keep you waiting sweetie,” she pouts, then places a quick kiss on his cheek. 
She turns you like an afterthought. She looks you up and down. "Hello y/n, long time no see. We should really catch up, yeah?” She doesn’t ask; she simply pulls you off the deck and inside the bathroom.
 Once you're far away from any prying ears, she lets you have it.  “What the hell do you think you’re doing here?” She smiles despite her harsh words.
“I'm here to play golf.” You smirk nonchalantly as you walk up to the mirror in the bathroom, fixing your hair.
"Oh please, you hate golf.” She stands beside you with a huff, touching up her makeup.
“Guess things change, unlike you. Still chasing after my shadow?” You ask, making eye contact with her through the mirror.
“I know why you're here. Stay away from him,” a calm washes over her features in seriousness.
“He's all yours; don't worry.” You raise your hands in defeat. “If we're done here, I've got a game to start.” You say this as you turn to the door.
“How about you and your new little boy toy play us in a quick game of Two-Man Best Ball?” Seo-jun successfully stops you in your tracks.
“You're on.” You smirk.
You and Seo-jun walk back to the deck, and she fills Joshua in on the game you agreed to play.
“You don't even like golf.” He states.
“I guess I just like playing it with Seungcheol,” you shrug. You can see his eyebrows furrow in betrayal; you never played golf with him.  
Seungcheol takes your hand in his and kisses the top of your head. “I like playing with you too baby.”  
Out on the course, Seungcheol plays a lot better than you expect. You can tell it's his competitive attitude that drives him, rather than the prospect of trying to impress you. The score is a lot closer than you would like, but you take what you can get. You had no interest in golf, but you at least knew the basics, so you were grateful you could at least keep up.
Joshua's turn is next, and he swings his club, putting the golf ball off into the air. Even though he doesn't score well on this swing, Seo-jun makes sure to encourage him just as much. You would not let her out-girlfriend you, so whenever Seungcheol scored well, you would give him a kiss on the cheek with some words of encouragement. 
You were starting to have fun. You had almost forgotten that the reason you were doing this was to make Joshua jealous. Words of affirmation were slowly becoming genuine, and you even found yourself anticipating the short kisses you shared. It was the last thirty minutes of the game, and you weren't even looking back to see Joshua's reactions anymore. You found that you could only focus on the way Seugcheol would either hug you or kiss you on the top of your head, following with a “that's my girl” whenever you would score well on a hole. You had to snap yourself out of it. Every time you guys had some form of skinship, he would be getting paid. 
Of course he's being extra affectionate. It's his job, dummy. You chide yourself in thought. 
You are the last player to swing, and it is neck and neck at the final hole. If you scored well, it would put you ahead of Joshua and Seo-jun. It wouldn't be by much, but it was still a win. Joshua wasn't as good as you expected if a bunch of newbies were keeping up with him. You steel your nerves and make your final swing. It was a beautiful swing that ended the game in your favor. You immediately drop your club and run into Seungcheol's arms to celebrate. It seems he has the same idea because his arms are already open and waiting for you. He picks you up effortlessly and spins you around in a tight embrace. When your feet touch the ground again, Seungcheol kisses you without a second thought. He pulls away just as quickly, and you're left dazed. Seo-jun's annoying voice brings you back down to earth.
“Winning isn't everything guys,” she grumbles. 
You roll your eyes then you finally remember Joshua. The look on his face made everything worth it. On the outside, he was calm, but you knew him too well for that to be true. He's upset. The tight smile and deathly grip on the golf club were dead giveaways. Now the real question was if he's upset about losing or if he's jealous. After a moment of debate, you decide that you don't care about the reason. As long as you were able to get under his skin, you consider that a win.
“Good game,” he grits reluctantly. “Let's go, Seo-jun,” he states as he packs up his equipment. 
Seo-jun, ever the follower, runs after his retreating back, “coming sweetie!”
Seungcheol already had your things packed up as Seojun and Joshua pulled off in their golf cart. As soon as they are out of earshot, you turn to him.
“So I guess you're good for something,” you say.
“Don't start princess; we were having a good day,” he exhales exasperatedly. 
He was right; today had been fun, but that was the problem. You were not supposed to have fun with Seungcheol, You were not supposed to like his touch as much as you did and you sure as hell were not supposed to crave his kisses. The one you were supposed to want  was Joshua but right now all you could think of was Seungcheol. You had to put a comfortable distance between you two again so you did what you did best and threw a wet blanket on all the fun you had.
“I was only pretending to have fun! How could I have fun when Seo-jun is all over Joshua? In case you forgot, he's supposed to be mine, not hers.” You grit out, suddenly finding it a bit hard to find your words. The hurt that flashes in Seungcheol's eyes almost makes you regret opening your mouth. It's not like this was new; you say stuff like this all the time but for some reason, after a day of joy and laughter, the cold reminder that this was all just temporary was not welcome.
 “Whatever.” He throws the equipment in the back of the golf cart, not wanting to argue anymore. “Get in.”
 You followed his lead and got in the cart. The ride back was a silent one. 
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After that day, Seungcheol’s attitude towards you completely changed. There was no more playful banter or flirty pet names; it was straight business. When you were in public, he played his part and immediately pulled away when the coast was clear. When you had paid him the sum that you owed him, not even a thank you was muttered; he just took the funds and went on about his day. This shouldn't bother you, but it does.  You shouldn't care about his feelings, but you do. It's not like what you said was wrong! Why are you being treated like such a bad guy when all of this was a lie? Still, for whatever reason, you find yourself trying to be in his good graces again.
You're slightly late to your biochemistry class. Since you started dating, you have made sure that Seungcheol and you walk into class together. Appearances were everything. Today, though, you told him you would be running late. You come into class with two frappuccinos instead of the usual one. You sat on his desk, forcing his attention up from his phone and onto you.
“Is this your way of saying sorry?” He relents but accepts the gift. 
“Don't get ahead of yourself; they just gave me an extra one,” you state matter-of-factly.
You were apologizing. You would never come right out and say it but you did feel bad. There's no better way to fix problems than to throw money at it. You would rather do that than talk about the cause of your little outburst on the golf course. Seuncheol doesn't expect much else out of you, and truthfully, he's surprised he even got this much. He had already decided to let it go; he just wanted to see how much you would grovel first. 
Answer: Not a lot
And just like that, he's walking you to your next class like nothing happened. He mentions offhandedly a judo match he has later that day; he even invites you to watch him spar.
“And why would I want to watch two sweaty men throw each other around?” you inquire. 
“Because you're my girlfriend, and you're supposed to support me.” He extends his arms, handing you the books he's been carrying for you, marking your arrival at your next class. You take them without a word and kiss him on the cheek for show.
“Of course, how could I forget.” you smile sarcastically. 
“I'll send you the address later.” He swats your backside as you walk into class. You turn to face him, but he just sends you a shit-eating grin. You figure it was his form of payback. You try your best to hide the small smile that breaks across your face.
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He said he would text you but he ends up calling after you finish all your classes. You thought it would be a quick exchange of information but you end up staying on the phone with him all the way until you get home. It was the longest you had ever spoken to each other without throwing around insults. He tells you about how he trained in taekwondo for 7 years and that he recently picked up judo. Today's match would be judo; it would be his first one upon picking up the sport. As he tells you more about himself, you find that you enjoy listening to him speak. When the conversation switches gears and it's your turn to talk, you don't say much. You're not one to open up easily; what could he possibly want to know? You're rich; that's all that matters.
You have to end the call to shower and get ready for the match. After you shower, you get ready to put on your favorite designer skirt, pairing it with a frilly crop top. You don't forget to accessorize with a rose gold Cartier bracelet and matching necklace. You throw on your Celine Ave shoulder bag and grab your shades. You top it all off with your favorite pair of Louboutin heels. 
Earlier over the phone, Seungcheol told you to dress casually because he knew you would stick out like a sore thumb otherwise. You hate being casual; casual was boring, and casual didn't get your attention. For all you knew, this was casual; it was just designer casual. 
 It takes you about 20 minutes to get to his martial arts gym and when you step out of your pink Porsche 718 boxster, all eyes are on you. You pull your shades down over your eyes and smile at the attention. You walk inside and Seuncheol is already waiting in the lobby for you with a disapproving look on his face. 
“What's the matter, babe?” you smile 
“You're causing a scene,” He groans  
 “Sorry, should I have driven the Pink Audi instead?” you shrug and grab his hand. “Lead the way,” you urge. 
Seungcheol scoffs in amusement but follows your order. You hear a few whoops and hollers as he takes you to a matted sparring room, but one glare from Seungcheol shuts it all down. When you enter the room, his opponent is already warming up. As soon as you step from behind Seungcheol, his opponent coos upon seeing you.
“It's a shame you brought your girlfriend; now she's going to have to watch you lose.” He teases playfully
“We’ll see," he replies coolly. He turns to you and grabs your face, placing a gentle kiss on your lips. Maybe all the gawking really did bother him.
“For good luck,” he whispers and releases you. 
Your face begins to heat, and you're afraid he could feel the heat seep into his palms, which still cradled your face. You nod dumbly before finding your seat. It's not long after Seungcheol finishes stretching that the match begins. It's exactly as you had expected—two sweaty men throwing each other around on a dirty mat—but you couldn't keep your eyes off of Seungcheol. You surprised yourself at how loudly you could cheer. 
The way he forces his opponent into submission and pins them to the mat made butterflies erupt in your stomach; you kind of wanted him to throw you around next. The way he uses his strong thighs to lock onto his opponent to ensure they don't move and the way his chest heaves at the extraneous task makes your mind wander to unholy places. You are so far gone that you can’t even remember how the game ended. You assume Seungcheol won with the way he helped his opponent to his feet. They make small friendly banter as you watch from the sidelines. Once he's done, he approaches you with the widest grin you've ever seen. You have grown accustomed to his scowl; you didn't even know his face could do that. His face lights up when he smiles. Under his tough exterior, a soft light shone. You wanted to see this side of him more.
“I just need to help clean up, and we can leave, ok?” He's dripping in sweat, still trying to catch his breath. 
 You smile and congratulate him. He looks like he wants to hug you but decides against it. He knows you’d throw a fit if he got any sweat on your designer. He gives you one last smile before heading back to the changing room.
 When he comes back, he starts straightening up. You're sitting on a bench watching him put up the mats and clean the area. You enjoy the silence that settles, and you enjoy just being in his presence. Once he’s done, he comes over and sits down next to you.
“I’m proud of you princess; you didn't complain at all today,” he teases. “Who knew you could be well behaved?”  
You were just as surprised; today taught you a lot about yourself. First and foremost, you would kill to be manhandled by Seungcheol. Second, you learn you definitely have a thing for his thighs. Lastly, you learn that praise makes your stomach twist in all the right ways. 
“You smell; go shower. I'm tired and ready to go,” you utter, never finding it easy to agree with him.
“Why don't you join me princess? Give you a reward for being good.” His voice drops to a whisper. “What are you thinking about, huh? Want me to throw you over my shoulder and take you with me? Ask nicely, and I might be gentle.”
Your breathing picks up, and you want to disagree, but you can't find your words. All you can do is stumble over a response.
“wha-I don't,” you stutter
“Just kidding, doll.” He teases with a smirk. Then he leaves for the showers and you're left trying to figure out what just happened. 
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An emergency meeting is called later that week. You decide to meet at Seungcheol’s place; he lived closer to campus, and you were too impatient to wait until you got home to go over the details. You make your way up the stairs of his apartment, him not too far behind, as you ramble about how important it is to pay attention. You both make it to his apartment, and he unlocks the door, trying his best to tune you out. He enters first, and before you can even step through the door, a white fluff ball bounds to the door. You immediately step back outside. 
“What is…that?” You don't even attempt to hide your disdain. 
“I told you I had a dog,” he shrugs, picking up the dog and cooing at her affectionately. 
Now that you think about it, he did mention a dog. “Oooh, Koda?” you try. 
“Kumma,” he glares. “She's my little princess; isn't that right baby?” he coos even more affectionately. 
Being jealous of a dog was not something you wanted to admit. You already don't like dogs but you especially don't like this one.
“Cute, but I don't want her getting her dirty paws on my Louis Vuitton,” you snide. 
Seungcheol rolls his eyes and he walks further into the house with Kkuma in his arms before disappearing around a corner. A few minutes later, he returns empty-handed. 
“I put her up, now come in; your letting the air out.” 
Once inside, you scan the house and you take your shoes off by the door. “At Least it's clean,” you say
Seungcheol stayed in a small apartment on the second floor. Granted, little furniture occupied the space, but even so, it was roomy. You wouldn't give it too much credit, though; it was still far smaller than the space in your home closet. Seungcheol can feel your judgment.
“I'm never inviting you over again,” he says with a shake of his head 
“I didn't even say anything!” 
You both sit down in his living room and get comfortable. He leans back against the couch and waits for you to begin your rambling. 
"Tomorrow, my father is hosting a rooftop dinner to celebrate the expansion of the company.” You start off, “Shua's father and my father are business partners, so that means Shua is bound to be there.” 
He doesn't know why, but hearing you call Joshua by that nickname upsets him. You only ever call him by his name. But when it came to Joshua, it was still Shua this, Shua that. He wanted to Shua’t himself in the head.
"Ok, so you want me to attend this dinner party with you, is that right?” Seungcheol recaps.
“Precisely,” you smile and pat his head.
You tell him he's probably going to have to meet your parents. Honestly, you were more nervous about that than anything else. It really shouldn't matter to you because you guys would be breaking up by the end of the year anyway, but you still want him to leave a good impression on them for some reason. You coach him on all your parents favorite things to help him if he ever finds himself stuck in conversation with them. 
“Any questions?” You finish up.
“What do you have against dogs?” 
“Important questions” 
“This is important.” 
“important to me.” You correct
“I guess not,” He sulks. 
You sigh and give in, “they’re loud and obnoxious.” You deadpan.
“Just like you?"  Seungcheol smirks 
“Do you want to get paid or not?” You roll your eyes at his comment. 
“How about instead of paying me this time, you grant me one wish?” he says
“Fine, do what you want; just remember tomorrow to come dressed in your best and be on time.” You can already guess what his wish may be as you get up from the couch and collect your things.
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You arrive at the party early to help your mother set up. You spent the whole time trying to win Seungcheol some brownie points with your mom. You rambled on about how sweet and charming you found him. Your mom would adore anyone you brought home, but you still felt the need to sell it. Shockingly, it wasn't hard to talk about his good qualities; you didn't find yourself lying like you thought you would have to. Soon enough, you knew your mom was won over before he even got there. Now it was time to worry about your father.
Your father was already upset that your relationship with Joshua ended on a bad note.  He was working on closing a deal with Joshua’s father, and the breakup made closing negotiations a hassle. Your father had adored Joshua, so you knew Seungcheol would come in with 10 negative points already in your father’s book. 
You're almost finished setting up when guests start to arrive. The party was about an hour in when Joshua and his father showed up. You were starting to get antsy with no sign of Seungcheol. You tried to keep your temper in check, but you told him to be on time! He wasn't picking up his phone either. You didn’t have time to worry about him; you had to jump from circle to circle, making sure everything was in order. Even though your parents were the ones hosting the party, they left you in charge of greeting guests. You're making your rounds and you run into Joshua and his father.
“Oh! Mr. Hong, such a pleasure to have you!” You put on your best hostess voice. 
“So nice to see you again, Y/N. I'm finding everything just fine,” Mr.Hong responded. Joshua's father loved you as much as your father loved Joshua. They were both devastated when you two broke up.  
"Shua, don't be rude; say hello.” He nudges his son. Joshua gives his best smile and greets you, “I'll leave you two to catch up, ok?” Mr. Hong says he is making his leave. He was probably hoping you two would use this moment to rekindle.
“Where's your boyfriend?” 
“He's late,” you say worriedly. At first, you were upset but now as more time has passed, that feeling has shifted to worry. You wonder if he was okay.
“What about you? You came here alone?” You change the subject to keep the thoughts away.
“Seo-juns in Paris for fashion week” 
“I hope she's having fun.” Joshua knows you don't mean it. 
This was the first time you and Joshua had been alone since the breakup. You think he looks handsome in his suit with perfectly styled hair. “Hey, can we talk?” He looks at you seriously. 
“About?”
"Us,” he says, hopefully.
This was the moment you were waiting for. The moment he comes crawling back. You wait patiently for him to continue. You are on the edge of your seat, but before he can speak, you feel a pair of arms wrap around your waist, pulling you into a firm chest. 
“I'm sorry I was late love.” A voice says  and places a kiss on your neck. You can't see it, but from Joshua's face, you can tell Seungcheol is staring him down. “I was picking something up for you.”
You turn around in his arms and smile, “its ok, I was just catching up with Shua.” 
There it was—that stupid nickname again. He doesn't even properly greet Joshua as he pulls you away. You're not sure if you're relieved or upset that he pulled you away from the moment. Part of you wanted to go back and hear what Joshua had to say. The other part was afraid of the outcome. If he wanted to make up and get back together, would you? Could you just "break up" with Seungcheol on the spot, never seeing him again, and returning to cold stares as you pass each other in the halls? But that's how this was supposed to end anyway. It's not like you had feelings for Seungcheol.
Right?
It isnt until after he pulls you away that you take him in. He wore a sharp royal blue suit and carried a bouquet of daisies. He looked unbelievably good. You took the flowers without a thought and gave a faraway smile.
Seuncheol wonders what you were thinking about—was it something Joshua said? Where are you upset that he was late? He knew you were planning to kill him later, and that your smile was just for show.
“What were you two talking about?” he inquires. 
“It was nothing; we weren't even talking for long.” You explain.
“Why do you call him that?” 
“What?”
“Shua. you always call him Shua.” 
You shrug “It's just a nickname; what's the problem?” 
"Well, how are we supposed to be fooling anyone when you're calling each other cute little pet names like you're still together?” 
"Fine, cheol, don't throw a fit.” You wrap your hands around his neck and kiss his nose. “Who would have guessed you're the jealous type?”
You wanted to at least try to pretend to be a little angry at him, but it seems like all your frustrations wash away when you're in his arms.
 “Don't call him Shua anymore.” He sulks.
“Yes sir,” you joke. 
He looks down at you for a couple more seconds and smiles. He is about to lean in for a kiss when your mother comes over and coos.
 “So this is Mr.Choi? I’ve heard so much about you! How are you?” Your mother greets you two.
You break away from each other so Seungcheol can greet your mother properly. 
“He brought me flowers, mom. Aren’t they beautiful?” You brag.
Your mother takes the bouquet and gasps once she notices the flowers that sprinkle throughout it. “Oh my! This is great news! Let me get your father!” Your mother scuttles off, leaving you a bit confused; They were just flowers?
“I think she likes you,” You smile 
“One down, one to go,” He jokes 
“Yeah, about that~'' You chuckle nervously. Not only was he already negative 10 points with your dad but his tardiness didn't really help his case. 
“I'm almost certain he wont like you,” you half-joke. If Seungcheol is discouraged, he sure doesn't show it.
“That's ok; i'm used to disapproving parents,” He shrugs 
You had almost forgotten that he was an outcast on campus. You suddenly feel bad for all the times you picked at him and made him feel lesser. Sure, he had a reputation on campus for being a bad boy, but the worst thing you had ever seen him do was j-walk. He could be a bit of an asshole at times, but he was likable once you got to know him. You hate that you have been one of the many people to judge him.
After a few moments, your mother is dragging your father over, speaking enthusiastically about something. Whatever it was had your father frowning deeply. This didn't look good.
“Mr. Choi, was it?” Your father extends an arm for a handshake. 
Seungcheol puts on his most charming smile and gives your father a nice, firm handshake. 
“Pleasure to meet you, sir,” he says, returning the greeting
“You're a few hours late, son,” your father quips. Your father wears a smile, but you know it's just for show. "And I hear your bringing us some shocking news as well?”
Seungcheol falters. "I'm sorry for my tardiness, sir. I make no excuses," he responds. 
Your father appraises him for a second longer before letting out a breath “While I do think it is irresponsible for you to get my daughter pregnant, I hope you are planning to marry her; a child out of wedlock would not look good for the company.”
You choke on air, and you swear your eyes almost burst from their sockets. You snap your head to look at Seungcheol, and he wore a similar expression as you.
“Excuse me, sir?” he sputters out.
“My wife says you bring daisies? I don't know much about flowers, but she says they can symbolize childbirth. Was she mistaken?” Your father tests.
“Im sure thats true sir, but I think theres a misunderstanding. We are not expecting a baby,” he laughs
Your father's shoulders relax, and he laughs the nerves away. Your mother sends an apologetic smile your way and rubs your fathers back to soothe him. You were sure he would have had a heart attack if you really were pregnant.
“Im so sorry, dear! I must have misunderstood.” She says.
Your father finally smiles and claps a hand on his shoulder. “Thank you for joining us today; we really appreciate it.” He says
Your father turns to you and gives you a hug. “His tardiness does not impress me, but he's not the worst.” He says this to you, pulling away from the hug. He bids himself farewell as he goes to chat with some colleagues. 
You turn to Seungcheol. “Why daisies?” 
“The shopkeeper told me they meant new beginnings and love and some other bullshit. I didn't know they could mean childbirth!” Seungcheol explains in disbelief.
"Well luckily, my dad didn't kill you; I think that means he likes you?”
“Thank God,” he sighs.
Following the minor hiccup, the rest of the night went smoothly.  Seungcheol is like a natural; he's able to follow along and make small talk with a few of your father's work colleagues, even managing to get a chuckle out of a few. 
You enjoy the rest of the night socializing by Seungcheol’s side and having a few drinks. You had seen Joshua storm off earlier; you could only assume your plan was working, but you couldn't find it in you to care. It was starting to get late, and you're ready to go. Seungcheol offers to drive you home since you had come with your parents. You quickly find your parents and bid them farewell, and you two leave the party together. Mission Success!
“Even though you were late and almost gave my father a heart attack, you did pretty well. I guess I’ll keep my promise. Whatever you want, it's yours.” you say. 
"Good, because I want you to promise to go to the dog park with me. I want you to get along with Kkuma.” He smiles wickedly at you.
 You instantly regret giving him that wish coupon.
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Was this outing breaking one of your rules? Possibly, but it was essential that your closet stay in season. It was time to buy the latest fashion collections, and you would die if you had to carry all of your bags.
Cue seungcheol. 
At first, he protested, but after waiving around a little money, he folded. You had honestly expected him to complain a lot more, but this was your third store you had gone to, and he hadn't complained yet. He was a lot more vocal about your outfit choices than you thought he would be. He told you what he thought would look nice on you. No matter how many bags you handed him, he took them without a word. 
“You’re being nice today,” you say in passing.
“You look cute when your in your element,” he shrugs nonchalantly.
You dont know why you do it but the next store you lead him to is a lingerie shop.
Maybe it was his good behavior or his comment earlier, but you think he deserves a treat. When you look back at him over your shoulder, you can see the tips of his ears burning red, even though he tries his hardest not to show it on his face.
“Its fine if I try something here, right?”
“Pick up whatever you want, love.”
The pet name has your heart doing cartwheels. 
This was going to be fun.
Now normally, you would never try on a set in store, but you planned to buy whatever you brought into your fitting room. You have Seungcheol drop the bags off at the front so he can trail behind you comfortably. 
“Why dont you pick out something for me to wear”
“What, so you can wear it for Shua?” he says, rolling his eyes before crossing his arms over his chest.
“Joshuas’ not the one standing in a lingerie shop with me.” You challenge, "Are you scared?”
He was standing toe to toe with you now, leaning down slightly to meet your eyes. “You gonna let me see it?”
“That and more if you impress me,” you say, giving him a sly smile.
That gets him moving and his eyes scan the store, You think hes going to pick out the slutties thing he could find but after walking around the shop for 10 minutes looking at all types of sets, you realize he was looking with careful consideration
Finally, he hands you a lacey pink corset with thin bows on the shoulder that also laced up the middle. It was part of the set, the other part being a pink garter belt attached to matching lacey pink panties. It was very pretty and delicate, while still being sexy. You nod your head in appreciation. You could work with this. You take the fabric from him and you walk towards the changing room. You stop and look over your shoulder.
“You coming or not?” 
“You cant be serious,” he says. You could tell a part of him still wasn’t taking your invitation seriously and that you were just messing with him.
“Dont tell me you all bark”
"Actually, its the opposite,” he says, sending you a smile “im afraid i might bite”
This was soooo breaking a rule.
You know you were the one who boldly suggested it, but you still make Seungcheol stand in the farthest corner of the dressing room, turned away from you. You make him pinky promise to keep his eyes closed until you tell him to open them.
You change silently and appraise yourself in the mirror. The set hugged your body in all the right places. The color complemented you so well that you praised Seungcheol for his taste in your head. You turn towards his back, and after a few seconds of debating, you tell him its ok to look.
When he turns around and opens his eyes, he immediately drinks in your figure. You suddenly became shy under his gaze. You could feel your heart pick up, and you almost stumbled over your words when you asked, “h-how do I look?” 
“Can I take a closer look?” Before you can answer, he has his hands on your hips, pulling you closer and looking at you from up close. His eyes slowly trail down your front before he spins you around in his hold to have you face the mirror. He's looking at you, and your looking at him through the mirror. Through the mirror, you can see his eyes admiring how your ass looks wrapped in the pink lace. He has a tight grip on your hips, and the way he bites his lip makes you clench your thighs. Suddenly, he's pulling you back, flush against his chest. You meet his gaze in the mirror, and you almost gasp. His eyes were hooded and shadowed in lust. He hooks his chin over your shoulder and wraps his arms around you, laying one palm flat against your abdomen while the other rubs your side affectionately.
“You look good enough to eat,” he says while holding your eye contact in the mirror.
He noses at your neck, inhaling your sent “you gonna let me show you I can bite?” he chuckles from behind you before nipping at your ear.
You try to come up with a response but all you can do is trip over your words
“Whos all talk now?” He says light-heartedly.
“The contract” is all you can manage
“Right. Your right,” he pulls away from you with his hands raised at his sides  "I don' want to break our contract,” he says sarcastically before turning around again and facing the wall.
You hurry, get changed back into your normal clothes. You pay at the front and collect the bags you dropped off earlier. The ride back to your house was silent but only because the air was so thick with sexual tension that you thought if you opened your mouth, you would choke on it.
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You won't see him again until the next weekend. He decided to use his wish coupon to bring you to the dog park. He doesn't mention your last meeting, and your grateful because you're in a living nightmare. There are all sorts of dogs running around, spit-covered tennis balls flying through the air, and loud, annoying barking sounded throughout the park. It would be an understatement to say that you were not thrilled to be here. Seungcheol, on the other hand, looks like he could stay out here all day. You can just imagine his imaginary tail wagging. He takes Kkuma out of her kennel and leashes her to bring her to the park. He then hands you a few toys to carry.
“You're really making me do this, huh?” 
“Stop being like that; it’ll be fun,” he says, leading you into the main area of the park and unleashing Kkuma. She seems to be well trained and doesn't run far.
Seungcheol takes one of the toys from you and plays with Kkuma. He's playing a game of tug of war with Kkkuma and lets her win. He seems to be having so much fun with Kkuma you almost think he's forgotten about you. He takes a break to give her water.
"Alright, now it's your turn.” 
“I'm not in the right attire for this,” you try to make up an excuse. Your over-the-top outfit drew attention the moment you stepped into the park. Someone was probably wondering why you would wear something so expensive to a dog park.
“That's your fault,” he shrugs. Seungcheol had warned you the moment he saw you step out of the house. Maybe it was time to start listening and stop being so hardheaded.
You cautiously approach Kkuma with the rope, and you crouch down to offer it to her. She stares at you before hesitantly going for the toy. You play a short game of tug of war, letting her win almost immediately. 
“Ok done! We played; can we leave now?” you conclude. 
“You promised!” Seungcheol frowns in disappointment.
You sigh; you're already here; you might as well try. You reach out to pet Kkuma, and she rolls over cutely. You coo at her and rub her tummy. OK, maybe she was precious. You hold up a ball. It's like she's frozen as her eyes lock on the ball. She springs onto her paws and wags her tail. You throw the ball, and she chases it, bringing it back. You do this a few more times before trying out the other toys.
You're having so much fun that you forget that your wearing heels, and when you go to playfully chase after Kkuma, you lose your balance. You’re able to right yourself before falling and let out a sound of relief. You step forward, but something slick causes your foot to slide forward slightly. You lift your foot to discover that you’ve stepped in dog poop. 
“Just wonderful,” you say to Kkuma with a tight smile. Seungcheol is watching from afar. You have to squint to see him, but you're sure he's laughing at you.  
“Your daddy is an asshole, you know that?” 
Kkuma barks at you in retaliation. 
“What do you know?” you argue back. Sticking your tongue out at her childishly.
You hobble back to Seungcheol and plop down on the bench next to him. 
"Is this what you wanted? I got dog shit on my Choos." You pretend to be a little annoyed; you were only joking.
“Here” He pulls a few wet wipes from an attachment on Kkuma’s leash. He pulls your legs over his lap and wipes the poop from your shoes. “Are you ready to go?” Seungcheol can guess you're probably reaching your limit for outside activity for the day.
You would have been out here for at least an hour and a half, and while it was nice to see Kkuma having fun, you were already sweating more than you would like. As you head out, you offer to play with Kkuma for a while longer indoors.
Once you arrive at his house, Seungcheol lets you have fun. You're sitting on the floor and although Kkuma jumps all over you, you don't seem to mind. This was definitely not something you would have allowed a few days ago so Seungcheol is proud of your progress. 
“Should I buy her a bow? Won't that be cute?” You mention. 
Seungcheol finds it cute that you're already ready to spoil her. “I think she's spoiled enough,” he argues. 
 "Well, I'm her mommy and she can have whatever she wants.” You say defiantly.
“I thought you didn't like dogs, “ He teases. 
You ignore him and continue playing until you tire yourself out. You are just lying on his floor, too exhausted to straighten out your rumpled clothes, but he thinks you are the most beautiful in this moment. When you're relaxed without a care in the world, those are the moments he can peek through the gaps in your defenses.
“It's getting late; I should head home,” You declare, giving Kkuma a few more pets before finally standing.
“You could stay the night,” Seungcheol Proposes.
This was a bad idea. Staying by Seungcheol's side for longer than necessary would only make your confusion about your feelings toward him worse. You're ready to decline but one look at his puppy eyes and you couldn't find it in yourself to say no. You agree to stay the night and he gives you some of his clothes to wear guiding you to the shower. When you close the door behind you, let out a sigh. This was going to be a long night.
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You shower and put on the borrowed clothes. You glance in the mirror and, although it's not what you usually wear, you love it nonetheless. You loved how the too-big clothes draped over your frame; you never wanted to give them back. You tell him to freshen up as you leave the restroom. He gets in the shower after you and tells you to grab something to eat before you lay down. It was late, so you grabbed something quick and  headed straight toward the bedroom. It wasn't hard to find, given how small the apartment was. You make your way into his room and crawl under his blankets. It was like having your own little haven; you felt safe and secure. His bed was wonderfully warm and smelled just like him; you never wanted to leave. However, something in the back of your mind kept reminding you that you were breaking one of your most important rules.
Rule #2: No unnecessary hangouts/meetups
Well, this was necessary, you argue. It was far too late for Cheol to drive you home. What if he fell asleep behind the wheel on the way back? You reason. Yup, you were doing this for his safety! How selfless of you to worry about his well-being! You pat yourself on the back. 
“What are you doing in my room?” A topless Seungcheol inquires.
“Getting ready for bed? Why are you naked?” You try not to notice how he dries his still-wet skin.
 “It's my house.” 
"Well, then you should be well acquainted with your couch.” You raise an eyebrow, not making a move to unwrap yourself from the blankets. 
“The couch was for you.” He says.
You? Sleep on a couch? Never in your life.
“You meant for me to sleep on the couch?” You laugh incredulously, and here you were worried about his hypothetical safety.
Seungcheol doesn't respond, just going to settle in behind you on the bed, pulling the blankets from you, leaving you cold, and wrapping himself in them. He had really bad insomnia already; he could not deal with sleeping on the couch. 
“I can't sleep on the couch; I need proper beauty sleep; if I knew you were gonna make me sleep out there, I would have gone home,” you whine.
He lifts up the blankets and reaches to wrap an arm around your waist. He pulls you into his chest and wraps you both in the blanket. “Then sleep here,” he says, closing his eyes and getting comfortable. 
Your heart will not stop pounding out of your chest. Your head spins from the close proximity and his heady scent. You try to help your case by turning away from him, but his arms remain wrapped around you, causing him to spoon you. You can breathe a little easier, so you scoot closer to him. You must have scooted too far back because his hand suddenly grabs your waist, halting your movements. 
"Stop moving," he says breathlessly. 
You can only manage a sheepish "sorry." He relaxes his grip on you and settles in.
Your mind wanders, and you can't help but notice that all of the dirty things you have ever thought about him come to the forefront. You recall what just happened: how he only needed one arm to stop your squirming, how he gripped your hip and pinned it in place. You wonder if he would pin you in other positions as well. You think back to the time of the sparring match and the way he threw his opponent to the ground. You wanted him to manhandle you and treat you like nothing. Seungcheol brought out your darkest desires. 
It was later in the night, and your racing thoughts were keeping you awake. You never thought you would do what you're about to do, but you couldn't hold back. You take a small peek over your shoulder to look at Seungcheol. He was sound asleep, his chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm. A trembling hand slips down the front of your shorts. You try to be as subtle as possible as you circle your clit through the fabric of the boxers Cheol gave you to wear. You push your face further into your pillow to try to muffle your noises. When you inhale, you can only smell Seungcheol’s cologne, and you almost moan.
You slip your hand into your underwear, collecting your juices and using them to coat your fingers. You quickly ease a finger in and thrust shallowly. You wanted to get this over with quickly, but you would need more. You slip in another finger. This time, you use deep thrusts to work yourself up. You shyly grind your hips into your palm, stimulating your clit, biting your lips at the pleasure. You move carefully. You roll onto your back, and use your other hand to pinch your nipples. At this point, you didn't care how obvious you were; you just wanted to come. You hoped against hope that Seungcheol was a deep sleeper. 
You have to bite back moans as you picture your hands as his. You add a third finger, and you almost whine; it was barely enough. You knew his fingers would stretch you farther than this. You craved his rough touch. After a few more messy thrusts, you cum with a shudder. You have worn yourself out; you wait a breath to make sure you’re off the hook before you carefully remove your hand from your shorts. That's when a hand grabs your wrist. Turning your head, you see Seungcheol staring back at you. 
“You dirty fucking slut,” he rasps, sleep still coating his voice.
As you open your mouth to defend yourself, he licks the tips of your drenched fingers, causing you to gasp. The argument dies in your throat as he looks up at you, moaning at the taste. 
“What do you think you were doing, huh?” Your hips automatically roll into his touch as he reaches over and shoves his hand down your shorts.
You cry out, your face burning with shame, "I’m sorry."
“No you’re not; you're practically dripping all over my fucking fingers, baby. Don't lie to me.” Your juices make a soft, wet sound as he plays with your folds teasingly.
"Tell me what you were thinking about," he orders, circling your clit. 
Your first orgasm has left you sensitive, so you try to squirm away. He sits up more and uses his other hand to pin your hips to the mattress. 
"Uh uh, baby, you're not going anywhere," he says, slipping his middle finger into your heat and thrusting experimentally. “Your so fucking wet. Such a dirty little pussy.” His ring finger joining in next, fucking you harder. 
When the sensation gets too much, you can’t help but squirm and moan. With a cry, you grind up into his touch as you grab hold of his wrist to keep it there. You can feel your thighs shaking
 "Cheol, please I can’t take it,” you cry.
"Yeah, you can princess; be my good girl," He kisses you to muffle your sounds. His walls were thin, and he didn't need any noise complaints from the neighbors.
Your moan gives him the chance to put his tongue in your mouth. Your entire body begins to tremble, and just before you let go, Seungcheol pulls away completely. Your eyes well up with tears as you look at him.  
You cry, "Please, Cheol, please, I need you so badly." Tears stream down your cheeks. 
He kisses your tears away and gives you a gentle kiss. “You ready to be my good girl?” 
"Yes, I'll be whatever you want me to be." You weep.
He pulls your legs apart and wedges himself between them. "Then tell me what you were thinking about." 
He circles your clit teasingly, coaxing you to answer him. When you attempt to move your hips to feel more of his touch, he uses his own hips to pin yours down. The thought of how he would feel inside of you makes you groan. You can feel his length straining through his sweatpants. He felt so thick and heavy that you could cry. 
“I'm waiting princess.” He kisses your neck slowly.
Breathing deeply, you tell him how much you want him to talk down to you and toss you around. You wanted him to break you and use you. You did not want him to think of you as a porcelain doll; you wanted to be his personal fuck toy. 
He smiles wickedly at you. "Has my princess been corrupted? Am I a bad influence?" 
You shake your head. “No, I’ve always been like this.” you admit. 
“Is that so? Don't worry, I’ll give you what you need." He licks his lips before returning his fingers to your heat. 
He pulls your shirt over your chest, leaving love bites all over it. You can hardly breathe; he was giving you too much and not enough at the same time. You can feel your high approaching rapidly. He pulls away from your chest and places a hand on your neck, not quite choking you but rather testing the waters. You nod at him, pleading with him to choke you. Seungcheol applies just a little more pressure and you moan. He's fucking you so fast that a loud, squelching sound echoes throughout the room. If you were in your right mind, you would be embarrassed. You try to warn him of your impending orgasm, but your voice gets stuck in your throat as you cum all over his fingers. He lets you ride out your high for a little while longer before gently pulling out. Your eyelids become heavy but a light slap against your cheek brings you back.
"Wake up baby were not done," he warns.
You could barely keep your eyes open; all you could make out was his messy hair as he positioned his head between your legs. You whined in protest; you were too sensitive for oral. He slaps a hand against your thigh, and you bite your lip in a silent cry. When he licks over your clit you break.
Your back is arcing off the bed, and your thighs are squeezing together. He uses his strength to pin your thighs down as he eats you out. There's nothing stopping your loud moans now. Tears flow freely down your face as shock waves pass through your body. You're a babbling mess.
"You ok, baby? You want to take a break?" He asks, his face covered in your slick. His eyes are hazy with lust, and your gut tightens at the sight.
"I need you inside, right now," you say.
"Are you sure, baby? I don't want to break you?" He asks
Suddenly, your energy returns at the comment. You want him to break you. He has already broken you. You push his head away from your core and tug him up to meet your lips. He's kissing you until your last breath before you pull away.
"Should I ask Shua?"
That nickname would be the death of you, but it did the trick. Soon enough, he was manhandling you onto your side. He threw your leg over his shoulder (pretzel position) and teased himself at your entrance.
"Say his name again while I'm fucking you, and I'll send you back covered in bruises." He says it with a harsh slap to your thigh. He was gripping on so tight that you were sure he would keep his promise.
You were sure that the sight awaiting you in the morning would have you wet all over again. You loved the way love brusies looked against your skin. It was a reminder to you that you were not the perfect princess you made yourself out to be. There was something darker lurking underneath.
He pushes inside, and despite his efforts to stretch you out, it still stung. You reveled in the feeling; you loved the way his girth split you open. This angle had you drooling. He was able to hit deep as his hips rocked into yours. You could not keep up; the position had you effectively pinned to the mattress. All you could do was take.
He kisses the knee thats over his shoulder before gripping your thigh tight. He shoves it against your chest before slowing his thurst down to a more sensual drag.
"Look at me. Let me see those eyes," he moans.
He's moving you around like a rag doll again. He has you completely on your back now, switching to missionary to be closer. He leans down and kisses you again. You don't think you could ever get tired of his lips. They were so plump and soft that you couldn't help but bite at them a bit. You could feel your release twitching in your gut, and the power of it scared you. You try to warn Seuangcheol, but he will not let you pull away from his lips for more than a second. You were certain he was completely pussy drunk at this point because he was mumbling nonsense against your lips.
"Feel so good"
"You can take it.”
"You're so wet"
"Good girl"
Those were just some of the ones you could make out. A harsh tremor runs down your spine, and you cum violently. You're pushing him out as you squirt all over his abdomen. You can barely come down, but Seunhcheol recognizes you're at your limit, so he strokes himself as he finishes all over you. Both of you are gasping for breath by the time you're done. This time, sleep hits you like a brick.
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When you wake up, you almost think everything was a dream, until you look down and notice you’re still dressed in his clothes. These clothes were different, though and so were the sheets. He must have cleaned you up from the mess you made last night. Your face heats up at the thought of what happened. You carefully look to your side but find that the bed is empty. You breathe a sigh of relief. This was not good—not good at all. 
Rule #1: No unnecessary kissing or touching 
You had now broken two of the contract's most important rules! Do you regret it? No, but still! You had to find a way out; you could not confront him right now. 
As you scope the room for something more appropriate to wear, you find he has laid your clothes out on the nightstand next to the bed. You dress quietly and sneak down the hallway. You peek around the corner and see the front door—your ticket to freedom. The only problem was that the door was just past Seungcheol's kitchen, where he was making breakfast. You can't help but feel bad when you notice him making two plates. He was trying to make sure you ate, and you were plotting your escape. You just needed some time to gather your thoughts; you would face him later. Before you can make a break for it, Kkuma notices you and barks, alerting Cheol, and his voice calls out to you. 
"Have a seat princess; you can leave after breakfast," he says without turning to face you. 
You curse the dog under your breath and head for the kitchen. “Good morning, Cheol.” 
He gives you a plate of eggs and toast in return for your greeting. “Don't make it weird; we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to,” he says before sitting down and eating his food. 
You take a seat in front of him and eat silently. As you try to think of something to say to ease the tension, he speaks again before you can get a word out. “Let's just forget about last night, ok?” he says. "When we're done, I'll take you home.” You just swallow your food and nod; you can't lift your head to look him in the eyes.
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 It's been five days since the incident with Cheol. You ended up telling him some bullshit excuse as to why you were acting strange. You lied and said you were just missing Joshua's touch and that you apologized for using him to get off. Even you didn't believe the excuse, but he said it was fine, and you have not spoken since. 
Why can't you just be honest with him? You had not given Joshua a second thought since the family dinner, so to hell with him. While you can’t pretend to have never loved him, you were aware that your feelings had changed a long time ago. You knew deep down that you wanted Seungcheol, but you couldn't bring yourself to say it. 
The "what ifs" frightened you. What if you screwed it up, like you did with Joshua, and drove him away? You knew you were difficult to deal with at times, but what happens when he just can't take it anymore? You were afraid of losing him, but you knew that if you did nothing, you would lose him regardless. You couldn't bear to think about it any longer, desperate to escape the thoughts that had flooded your mind. 
You text your friends and ask if they have any plans for the night, and they let you know about a party they are going to later. This was exactly what you needed—a night out with friends to remind you of who you were. Hopefully, you will realize that choosing Joshua is the right decision. That was the way things were; you had to maintain the status quo. You let them know you were on your way. 
You meet up with your friends and get completely shitfaced. You had come to this party expecting to forget about him, but all you could think about was Seungcheol and his stupid, cute dog. You could not live without him, and if this party taught you anything, it’s that you would never be able to move on from him.
A few hours passed, and you were starting to feel extremely overstimulated. The music was too loud, the flashing lights were too bright, and the random bodies pressed against you from all sides were not helping. You tried not to freak out. You just need to leave and find somewhere quiet. You are going to be okay. You quickly push through the crowd and rush up the stairs. You had no idea whose house this was, so finding the bathroom was difficult. In a state of urgancy, you simply open the first door you come across. This was not the bathroom, and the couple who occupied the room were not pleased. You close the door and feel your breathing quicken. You need to be alone right now. You try another door and find a different bedroom. You curse your state of inebriation. If you weren’t so drunk, you would probably be able to navigate the house a little better. You open the door next to it and finally find the bathroom. By the time you cross the threshold and lock the door behind you, you have had a total breakdown.   
So much was happening, both physically and mentally. Your physical senses were still reeling, and your mind could not find a single coherent thought to focus on other than Seungcheol. You crawl into the tub, and the cool surface soothes you a little. Feeling lost and unsure of what to do, you take out your phone and dial the first number you find. Maybe someone else could make sense of your thoughts if you couldn't. When a voice responds, you dump everything on them.
"Why do I feel this way?" It really hurts." You slur and can hear the voice on the other line worrying, but you can’t make out what they are saying. 
“I hate him so much. I should be with Joshua, but he had to go and ruin everything! It wasn't supposed to be like this, but no matter what I do, I can’t stop thinking about him. I think I love him, but no matter how I feel, he will never love me back." You ramble.
The voice speaks again, but you can only make out the word "who."
“That dumb Cheol! He's so stupid! I hate him. Why did he have to go and make me fall in love." Your voice cracks, and you start crying. 
Your makeup was undoubtedly ruined by this point. You no longer hear the voice on the other end of the line. You check your phone and see that they have hung up on you. When you realize you are alone, you cry more. 
You must have cried so hard that you fell asleep because you kept slipping in and out of consciousness. When you wake up, someone pulls you out of the bathtub and carries you in their arms. You fall asleep against their chest. A car jolts you back to consciousness, and as you drive away from the party, you discover that you are strapped in the passenger seat of a familiar car. The alcohol in your system is still too strong, and you are asleep again. When you wake up again, warm, gentle hands sweep the makeup from your face and tuck you into a warm, cozy bed.
You didn't open your eyes to see who the hands belonged to; all you knew was that you felt safe in their presence. You drift off to sleep again with a smile on your face 
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You groan in agony as you awaken to the sun shining on your face. You bury your head under your pillow to get some more much-needed rest. You try to drift off again, but you realize something is wrong. These sheets felt familiar, but not in the sense that they belonged to you. You sit up in bed, taking in your surroundings. You were in Sungcheol's bed! Although you were still wearing your party dress, your makeup had been taken off and your hair had been taken out of its tight ponytail. You do not see Seungcheol anywhere, so you get out of bed to find him. If anyone could explain how you ended up here, it would be him. 
As you enter his kitchen, you are confronted with a familiar scene: Seungcheol is cooking breakfast with his back to you, his broad shoulders flexed as he beat the eggs. You clear your throat and he turns towards you. 
"You’re not gonna run away from me this time, are you?" He jokes, but there is a hint of sadness in his eyes.
"What happened last night?" You ask before taking a seat at the table. Still too exhausted to think clearly, you yawn and rest your head against the table. 
"You were so messed up when you called me last night; you refused to answer any of my questions. I had no idea where you were or who you were with, so I called some of your friends, and they told me where I could find you," he explains as he continues to cook breakfast.
Your face immediately warms up as memories from last night flood back. You pray that you didn't really confess to him and that you were simply remembering incorrectly.
"Do you remember what you said on the phone?" He hesitates to ask as he plates your food.
There is no point in trying to hide it; you might as well rip the bandage off.
"I remember what I said—or at least some of it," you admit nervously. "If you are asking if I remember telling you that I love you, then yes," you respond. You don't think your ego could take it if he rejected you.
He sets a plate in front of you and leans down to kiss your forehead.
"I’m proud of you for not running away this time," he jokes affectionately.  
“Did you know this whole time?”
“No,but I knew you needed time to sort something out.” 
“Do you love me?” you Say hesitantly 
“thought i made that obvious when i ate you out?” 
The eggs you have been pushing around your plate suddenly catch your attention as your face instantly becomes heated.
“Dont get shy on me now princess. You didn't get the message? Do i need to show you again?”
"Oh, i think i got it,” you sqeak
"No, come here baby, let me show you how much I love you,” he teases. 
"Let us eat first, then I am all yours," you promise. You knew the food would have gone cold by the time he was finished with you. You did not want his hard work to be in vain.
Later, Seungcheol has you pinned to the bed. After your breakfast conversation, you could not keep your hands to yourself. As you two became entangled in the sheets, you were stripped down to your bare skin. 
You had been craving his touch without even realizing it. He had big, rough hands, and you loved how they felt on your skin. Seungcheol appears to be taking his time with you, kissing every inch of your body and leaving no part of you unseen. He trailed kisses from your collarbone all the way to your ankle. Despite being rough around the edges, he could be surprisingly gentle. You enjoy how he treats you like a goddess, so you just relax and accept everything he has to offer.
At last, he moves back up your body and gives you a passionate kiss. As soon as he pulls away, he cannot resist admiring your face. He studies your features and plants a kiss, first on your eyelids, then on your nose, and lastly on your lips. He seals his lips with yours in a quick kiss before he pulls away and spreads your legs to plant kisses where you most need them. You were practically ashamed of the mess he would discover. You had been dripping all over his sheets while he worshipped your body.  
“so dirty, I really need to teach you not to make such a mess,” he teases. “Dont worry, I'll Always be here to clean it up.” 
The way he sloppily eats at you has your back in a permanent arc. your legs shake at the harsh slurps and the deep thrusts of his tongue into your pussy. You despised how easily he could rile you up and have you wrapped around his finger. It was supposed to be the other way around.
No matter how hard you tried to will your hips to stay down, you couldn't help but grind against his face. Seungcheol was not helping your case either, as he drew you closer, wrapping his arms around your legs and laying his warm palms against your stomach. He massages the skin there before moving his hands up and groping your boobs.
All the sensations were becoming to much, and you knew you could finish on his tongue alone. You grab his hands and intertwine your fingers as you brace yourself. Your climax hits you like a wave, and you try not to drown as you hold on tight. Your legs shake pathetically around his head as he places a few more kisses on your clit before pulling off. He gives you a few moments to catch your breath as he places wandering kisses against your hot skin. Once your breathing returns to normal, he lines up at your entrance, waiting and silently asking for permission with his eyes. 
You nod hastily because, if he wasn’t seven inches inside of you, you would bite his head off in the next five seconds. He slips inside, grinning at your impatience. You make an effort to keep up with his thrusts, despite the fact that you are already sensitive after your first orgasm. He presses his hips into yours repeatedly while nestling deeply in the bend of your neck. He was breathing heavily in your neck, and you could hear him straining to keep his moans at bay.
The way your wet pussy claps against his abdomen and smears all of your juices on his skin is really messy. Your skin makes a wet applause as his hips chase yours. 
Gripping the powerful muscles of his back, you were unable to keep your hands still. His thrusts picked up speed, and you could sense he was getting close to the climax as you held on tightly. He moans as he finishes inside. His sounds were heavenly, and you cum again at the sensation of being filled with his cum.
You are definitely going to pass out. His arms comfortably encircle you as you feel him draw your body up against his side. You fall asleep, and when you close your eyes, you know you will wake up right where you need to be. 
A/N: Thank you for reading! Honestly, this was a fic idea that I have had for awhile. This has been sitting in my drafts for at least a year. I really wanted to trash it, but I stomped on business and finished. Hopefully you enjoyed it, because I'm not really feeling this one. I really didn't feel like writing a full scene for this, but I didn't want to leave you hanging, so excuse it if its rushed.
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leo-kinnie · 6 months ago
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Unrelated to turtles, but I’m going to college for BFA in studio illustration. Do you have any advice? /nfta
Been meaning to ask for some time now but kept psyching myself out of it TvT
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Yes, All the art supplies are overpriced. I didn’t even bother doing my freshmen summer project (never got in any trouble for it/had it mentioned), I never did the summer reading, etc etc.
Make an instagram of your art if you don’t already have one, you will be spreading that around to peers.
General rule of college for All freshmen is that the first week is the most important. Make friends. Make friends. Lord, make friends.
If you’re colourblind at all (like me), do NOT let your classmates figure that out. Tell your teacher discreetly. I got bullied BADLY for this.
Do not be afraid to explore other majors. You’re majoring illustration, but there may be times you take a glass blowing / sculpting / animation class. People change majors all the time.
Have a sketch book on you at all times. I’m not kidding. Idc if you’re not going to school. Take a sketchbook.
Avoid charcoal in anything but a plastic baggie and honestly i wore gloves when touching mine bc i fucking hate charcoal stains
Art schools are SUPER liberal. You gotta get cool with a lot of shit real fast. “Lin trust me I’m pro lgbt/blm/etcetc.” Get cool with the fact you’ll find mcyt merch, people having awkward personalities, problematic person’s number one stan, etcetc. Things you’d avoid people for here or in the general public, you cannot avoid there.
If youre into any fandoms EXPRESS THAT VISUALLY. Get pins. Decorate your sketch book. Draw your fav character. There’s a 50/50 chance the person besides you will see this and start convo over it / feel the want to be your friend.
You’re gonna be doing things like dealing with wood cutting machines, getting on ladders and using a power drill, etc etc. just forewarning.
Art is expression. Dont be afraid to bend the rules of your assignments. I’m a little rule follower so I did my assignments to a T by the rules and everytime I came in, all my classmates had done something unique and a little loose with the rules. My teacher loved that shit.
Don’t participate in any selling tables your first year if you’ve never sold merch before.
Thats all i can remember at the moment 🧐
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taiigaatea · 2 months ago
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hi guys im posting from my phone today because i dont wanna get up,,, heads hurting and i think something is very wrong with my throat
i participated in lucatober this year!!! BUT i felt bad for skipping edluca week (personal reasons) so i did the entirety of lucatober as edluca sketches!!! im not gonna post them all because Some are really bad (auditorium im so sorry.) but ill post my favorites here THE REST ARE ON MY INSTAGRAM IM BEGGING YOU please follow its the same usernmae
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this was a fun one i love drawing golden ratio… actually i lied i really dont like electroratio ITS NOT BAD i just have. Other favorites,,, “hey tai you fucked up luca’s body” I KNOW i was fixing it in csp because i wanted to color it but my free trial ran out #lol also ignore how dark the picture is its like 1am right now
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i would try to upload a high quality image to tumblr but this postit note is somewhere in my backpack which is not with me rn!!! and i forgot which notebook/folder/packet i put it in so instead youre getting the low quality instagram story screenshot
RACING MECHANIC… i missed you so much… anyways the image caption is really all the contrxt i can give. i think auditorium is so ugly i HATE it but its canon(ish???) coa edluca so whatever
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i changed the prompt for this day a little and i still feel really bad about it but i didnt eant to do 2 idv screenshot redraws… ANYWAYS this is Edgar Valden kikis delivery service au!!!!!1!! i have so many ideas and not enough creativity/skill for it... i will make a separate post about it. eventually
i still owe you the aphmau rhythm doctor au post. whatever im done rambling my phone is about to explode (does tumblr even support ios 15 anymore)
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wheresmymilliondollarman · 2 years ago
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heyyyy🫶🫶 for something quick, do you have any hc of certain AUs for warner? also good luck with prom dress shopping!!💗💗
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omg hi 🪷!! thank u for the luck i need it cus im sewing some of it and im still a beginner LOLL
for au’s i do have a few that have crossed my mind recently, im sure i can do more that this if i put my mind to it
so i had this idea i scrapped before i even wrote the ferrars! reader hcs and basically its a tangled inspired au (ik super ironic bc kenji is the one tangled obsessed)
reader was hidden away at a young age because of her powers and the restablishment uses them to control the word (like how they utilized emmaline basically) so you live in this secluded tower away from sector 45
so aaron is finds you accidentally when he’s on a mission and he gets separated from his soldiers for a bit and sees the tower
then he climbs up and scares you so you hit him with a pan (LOL) and then you explain that you lived there forever but leave out your gift
aaron reintroduces you to the world and secretly keeps you at the base to hide you from his father (once he learns about what you can do)
then for your birthday he takes you to a festival thing but then your both caught by aarons dad
the rest isnt that planned out but rough synopsis of my idea
and then i often think more abt aaron and reader in present times like
imagine reader and aaron going to the met gala (aaron is ur stylist no one tell me otherwise)
or just any red carpet event, you both tend to match
paparazzi pics of you both
being rumored to break up every week or “cheating” scandals
you both arent really into social media but both def have a pinterest / instagram / maybe twitter
your instagram feed is just pictures of aaron, places, and friends and occasionally yourself
aaron’s feed is literally only pictures of you. he posts like once or twice a month. but his stories are active because he likes to post his outfits or yours.
if you post on any media platform aaron is ALWAYS the first to like & comment no matter what
people constantly asking aaron if he can fight (he always responds he can)
kenji’s the type to make u both participate in tiktoks or prank u with current trends
also you have a group chat with juliette, kenji, nazeera, and adam (he was added by accident but then stayed there)
aaron sends you random pictures of things that reminds him of you. anytime your not tigether he’s going to message you a bunch.
sugar daddy! aaron warner is literally the dream. this one is set in modern era
you are a college student struggling financially, and if you dont get money for tuition you can go to school/will be kicked out. your parents kicked you out for following your own dream, so you have no one to turn to
aaron is a ceo, happens to find you at your job as a barista. he immediately thinks tour the most beautiful person ever and wants to know you. so he shows up almost everyday to the place even though its out of his way to work.
you two get to know each other a bit and you let your financial situation slip out, so aaron offers you money, but you decline and such.
you think thats it, but then you later get an email to let you know your tuition is covered.
you feel bad and offer aaron anything to let ypu repay him in some way, so he bargains that you let him take you to places and basically date him.
so that starts your arrangement.
buys you quite literally anything — even if you dont say you want it. if you glance at it in a store, you’ll see it on your bed the next day.
you even get to move into his apartment because he hates the idea of you in those ugly small dorms, and i’ll be easier for you both to see each other. (he’s clingy)
you go with him at any event, he literally never went to any before he started seeing you now he wants to take you everywhere in pretty dresses
even when your officially dating he won’t stop buying you things, if anything it doubles.
this ones dark so TW but with the the hype of the scream movies going around it got me imagining ghostface! aaron warner working with ghost face! kenji (i imagine this set in the 90s type era bc 1st scream is so iconic)
in this au aaron’s abusive childhood enabled him to have psychopathic tendencies so he starts off with random killings then later gets into the ghostface thing after wanting to get revenge on juliette for cheating on him with adam.
aaron enlists kenji because kenji’s the one that figure out it was him, but he’s doesn’t want him to turn aaron in, he wants to help. but kenji is kind of easy to manipulate so aaron is the master mind.
aaron makes the calls and kenji does most of the killing.
aaron and you are already dating when the killings start happening
you were originally meant to be killed bc you’re bffs with juliette but then aaron fell in love with you so now he protects you (#couplegoals)
if anyone messes with you or a guy gets too close with you, they’re gone. if a person is involved with you then aaron is likely to kill, especially if he already doesn’t like them
adam is the first to go (LMAOO), then its brendan, ian, nazeera (queen was a fighter im sorry
your so oblivious to it all and very scared that ghostface going after you next. and aaron thinks that’s so cute. so much that he calls your house as ghostface just so you can call him all scared and run into his arms for protection.
and if you somehow figure it out he’s just going to kidnap you and lock you somewhere you can’t escape and leave him <3 (i’m insane for wanting that)
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chiisanaka · 5 months ago
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Since ArtFight is already coming to an end, I will show you my attacks for this year!
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character cr: iced_vaneella (Instagram)
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character cr: @ttangel333
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character cr: @we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono
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character cr: kalenya (Telegram)
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character 1 design cr: bug_biog1rl_art (VK)
character 2 cr: iced_vaneella (Instagram)
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character cr: patiencespiral (Instagram)
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character cr: Rabid_Plushy (Linktree)
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character cr: KHEVIZY (ArtFight)
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character cr: sharky_colmillos_ (Instagram)
And, of course, revenges on me!
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art cr: huck23333 (Instagram)
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art cr: kalenya (Telegram)
Alice Savitsky's design cr: @kingstonlink
There was also an attack from @we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono, but I already reposted it here, so I don't see the point in adding it again. You can find the repost itself on my wall! ^-^
Honestly, I realized that participation in ArtFight is like a kind of practice for me, and I think this month I have discovered something new for myself here.
I think that if I don't do anything bad to myself, and I have the desire and time, I'll also take part next year. It's even cool, haha.
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watashime-ciel · 5 months ago
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rhythm heaven headcanons because im more sad than i should-
but first of all i have an announcement. and its that today, august 18th in argentina, its children's day and as im 16 im still technically a child to i asked my mom to get me something very specific as a gift. so, in a few weeks or months, dj yellow plushie is coming home! i wanted both yellow and blue, but she could only pay for one, so i chose yellow. hes gonna be with me in conventions from now on, either being tied up on the table so people buy me stuff to free him (/lh), or being my cosplay pal. thats all. if you wanna follow the dj yellow plushie adventures, follow me on instagram berry_lemon_arty, and if you cant find it, try with watashime_vkipper. its the same acc, but im changing the user soon to watashime_vkipper when i go back to my showroom. ANYWAYS lets go with the headcanons (and idc if i repeat some from past posts, i cant remember what i said)
-J.J is someone very insecure, actually. and lets out his anger on others (ahem, Yellow). but when he met Cecil, things changed a bit. Cecil allowed him to be angry, sad, disappointed, and make questions that were a call for reassurance
-Yellow has worked restlessly to buy a ticket to see Kikuo, no matter if he was in another country. and he never could- something happens everytime hes going to buy a ticket, and the money goes somewhere else. he cried for days because of that (reference to Kikuo just leaving argentina in this instant, although im not a fan lol)
-Cecil is also a germaphobic, but not as much(?) as Blue is. Cecil can at least touch whatever is contaminated to throw it away or clean it, whilst Blue cant because he feels like hes gonna pass out
-Yellow has been more time in a mental hospital than in school.🧍
-for a time, Blue was convinced he only signed up to Yellow's dj classes because he fell in love with him at first sight. it was during the time he was unsure how to express himself
-remember that Yellow's spirit animal is Len Kagamine? but its also Angel Dust, and possibly Spinel for how flexible he is. breakdancing? he can do it. pole dancing? he can do it. parkour? he can do it. lyra dancing? he can do it. dance trapeze? guess what. HE CAN DO IT. has he ever broken a bone or something? surprisingly, no. the only time he did was his right ankle at a comic con, participating on the cosplay contest as Kokoro Tsurumaki dancing Egao Sing A Song. Kokoro uses heels, and he loves them, and knows how to dance and do acrobatics with them. but he jumped and didnt get down very well, breaking his right ankle, but finishing the performance like nothing and winning the best performance prize. he only felt the pain once he sat down, but he did feel something wrong after not getting down properly
-you cant use your fingers to count the amount of times Blue got back home from work and saw Yellow in a female cosplay. and you cant also count the different reactions he had. dont use your imagination that much.
-Cecil is obsessed with Final Fantasy (a reference to Soushi)
-J.J may or may not accidentaly call acoustic guitars, "autistic guitars". most of the times he doesnt notices that
-whenever Cecil went to J.J's house (to his parents', actually), J.J's mom would do that classic "mom-embarassing-son" conversation thing. that way Cecil found out stuff about J.J that he couldnt even imagine lol
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wooyoungmybelovedhusband · 2 years ago
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Build Jakapan Puttha
It's just so weird that POI is the one who started the drama and backed down from participating in the press Conference which turned out to be a pre-recorded 10 minutes video.
But Build looked so confident that he will win the case and at this point i dont know who to support but the things I've noticed from all those videos between Build and Poi, i have many questions
1. If she really wanted her so called justice and wouldn't she come out and expose Build, the day she was kicked out of Be On Cloud.
Or when she got the chance to be in front of the camera atleast.
2. So with that being said, why did she start releasing all her statements and 'expose' Build just when the teaser for the new BibleBuild series '4 Minutes' was released? Isn't it like she's jealous that he is living a happy life and is successful?
3. Main Point. We can see her dragging and pulling Build to her side and recently after the issue has started, there was a video that went viral. A video where we can see her 'playfully' threatening to push Build off a Building. And then she accused that Build was abusive towards her.....
If you're abused by someone, you try to run away or stay far away and get distant with that person, which is normal behavior for a person who is abused. But why does it look like the tables are turned and it was POI who abused BUILD. (Let's not make assumptions.)
4. And she also posted a pic of her 'child she was pregnant with' but fans soon found out that it was taken from Pinterest... I'm speechless. And people if you don't know....
5. Last year she was the same author to have been seen sexually harassing the actors of KINNPORSCHE and even harassing a minor : Barcode. So Do you really believe in POI? That she's saying the truth?
The truth will only be revealed after the case is fought in the court but I honestly don't support any side. And if you think that, from this post, I'm supporting Build... No I'm just stating what POI has done and the questionable behaviour on both parties. Thank you.
(And no one is noticing Bible. Man literally got the opportunity of his life but it has been stopped because of this case. And if Bible posts anything on Instagram, the comments are flooded with whereabouts of Build, why isn't no one thinking from Bible's perspective?)
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pastelstarmie · 7 months ago
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considering going to one of your shows but i dont have any friends who are concert sort of people so like is it a safe enviroment to go to alone or ?
That's awesome, we'd love to see you there!! I am gonna be honest and say this is a little tricky to answer, but I would like to say our shows are generally safe for everyone, and although we can only control so much we do as much as we can to make our gigs safe and inclusive! As a band we are anti-bigotry in all its forms and promote that in our lives, actions and music, so I would hope no shitty people would even want to come to our shows and engage with our audience or ourselves! Hopefully we just attract lots of like minded really cool people so it is a really lovely and inclusive environment!! Like literally if you are a racist, nazi, zionist, terf, homophobe, transphobe, misogynist, sexist or bigoted in anyway at all like don't come to our shows stop listening to our music and fuck off! We have also never had any reports of anyone getting hurt or endangered at our shows, and we really hope it stays that way! We do not however manage security directly or anything venue related that is usually the venue itself, with the promoter being responsible for who comes in and out. We will call out anything shitty we see and will resolve and support anyone that feels unsafe or has had a negative experience, and work with the promoters and venues to make sure people who would harm others are not at our shows! There is moshing, jumping and lots of movement, and people do get pushed about knocked down and maybe a little bruised, but nothing serious, but this is often in an area of the crowd so you can find a safe space away from if you do not want to participate! If you fall during a pit you will most likely get picked up and checked on that you are ok! People or ourselves generally return lost stuff too, so if someone finds a shoe or phone we can hold it up and stage and make sure it is returned, and again people have been very good at this and is the normal behaviour in our scene! You are always welcome if you feel unsafe or are alone to let one of us horses know or our friends or crew, we will try to sort the issue and if wanted you can stay near them/us! We just want everyone to have a fun and safe time, enjoy some music and maybe make new friends at our shows! Also if you wanna contact us more directly either here, or Instagram, Facebook, TikTok wherever feels comfortable for you about which show you want to come to or anything like that we can do some more research and let you know more direct info too, and help you out however we can! I hope this was helpful in making a choice!!
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rivernyx1 · 5 months ago
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social media sucks rant (that no one's going to see most likely) pt.1
Disclaimer: these are just my opinions if you don't agree or have stuff to add then feel free to comment, respectfully ofc, what your thoughts are. also ik this might be a bit long but I have faith that u can hang in there :))
social media sucks. and I'm tired of pretending like it doesn't. specifically short form content, like??
first of all, I'm losing my ability to SPEAK. how is that even possible?!
before I could easily express what I wanted to say with no problems. now I stutter through my sentences like an idiot and I have to pause while speaking bcs my mouth gets filled with saliva rly quickly. and I can't even remember simple words. what is happening to me?!
also, i dont even LIKE scrolling on Instagram ( my parents didn't let me download tiktok, at first I was pissed but now I'm genuinely so grateful) I just do it as a habit. cheap dopamine feels so awful once you get over the excitement of seeing ppl in situations relatable to yours long enough
another thing, all of these trends serve no benefit to us at all. i cant lie and say I haven't participated in some of them (not online and mostly slang) but still. i think I really started noticing it when crumbl cookies started getting really popular. most of the people that do vids abt the cookies usually eat all six (or four? i cant remember how many cookies come in a box) of them when the alotted amt is a QUARTER of ONE cookie!! i mean you do you but at some point ppl have to admit that its just gluttony. also the "I'm just girl thing" (which I have said as well) sometimes gets used so wrong. like no, u can't just "I'm just a girl" yourself out of everything.
a trend that popped up really recently too, the whole "demure" thing. I'm usually not bothered by words becoming really popular really fast especially in light of gen z's relationship with slang but for reason this time it really irked me. idk why but everytime I see something mentioning demure I just scroll. i think it might be bcs this is the first time I was fully aware of what was happening and I wasn't just subliminally being fed to me like I feel the word "rizz" was.
one last thing, have you noticed something throughout all of the stuff that I just wrote? like like like like like like like. every time I try to phrase a sentence without using the word it just feels so off and incorrect and I feel as if what I'm saying will come off as "rude" or "passive-aggressive" without all these filler words. did u notice the other thing? common letters common letters common letters + shortened/ abbreviated words. even when there should be capitals. any capitals u do see are courtesy of my good ole (annoying) friend Grammarly. i specifically remember the time in my life (during covid ofc) when I forced my self to write like this while I was msging a (ex) friend of mine bcs she texted like this and I (whether I admitted it to myself or not) wanted to fit in and be like her (she was and still is a terrible influence btw).
i'll have to do a part 2 to get all my thoughts out but thx for sticking around (if you did:))
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hollybollybingbong · 6 months ago
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my issue with family content
big long infodump under the cut, read at your own interest
1) children are not tools to make money off
there are so many channels on youtube, instagram, tiktok etc that make content predominantly surrounding their children which get thousands of shares, likes and comments
when you are posting this content daily, said interactions rack up quite quickly
and as a result, a lot of money is being earned from these children's (willing or not) participation on these videos
this leads to point number 2 of:
2) can children consent?
so your child says they want to start being in tiktoks, like xyz does
this is consent, right? well, no. children cannot give informed consent.
sure, your child wants to make videos. great! but can your child comprehend the sheer number of people who will see their content? who will share it, save it, upload it elsewhere, make their own content based off of it? does your child understand the idea of a digital footprint? that this content will follow them for the rest of their lives?
assuming the answer is yes (which its probably not, but the parents dont care), how do you protect the child from exploitation?
3) children and work
there are lots of industries where children do work, for example, film, tv, theatre etc etc
however, the children in these industries are (vaguely) protected by child labour laws (in theory. this is a whole nother thing to go down another day.)
children are only allowed to work a certain number of hours per day, and some of the money they earn (at least in the us? probably other places too) is placed in a trust that they and only they can access when they turn 18
but in family social media content, who is regulating these childrens work hours? nobody.
these children are spending hours in front of a camera, having to be "on" and performing (which is what they are doing), often having to act in certain ways or do certain things because that has become their "brand".
they are not allowed to simply exist as a child, because everything they do is filmed and will be scrutinised by not only their parents, but also strangers on the internet
speaking of strangers on the internet
4) the internet is full of creeps
the internet can be a wonderful thing. it can also be the opposite. there are hundreds upon hundreds of stories about parents who posted photos of their children (not even in a content way, just in a, oh wow look at how cute my child is way) in small circles, only to find they ended up in vile and unsavoury places. places that children should be nowhere near.
are the majority of people on the internet creeps. no! of course not! but when you put your child out there, and make it so. easily. accessible. to find information about your child i.e their likes, dislikes, hobbies, school they go to, friends names, teachers names, their full name, even their address? and then get defensive whenever this is brought up as a problem, with parents, and supporters often saying, "oh well if you think like this, then maybe you're the creep!".
bringing up factual things that have and will continue to happen does not make you a creep. parents should be aware of it (and tbh, honestly probably are but wont do anything about it)
people share far too much about their children online, especially in content creation circles. whether its lilys first period! or johnny needs surgery , or content with infants who are literally months old. strangers do not need this information
i have seen far too much content about children i dont know pop up on my feed. i dont follow these families. i dont interact with family content. and yet i still saw it. can you imagine how easy it would be if i was actively looking for it?
some people argue that, oh well there are creeps everywhere, you cant keep them locked up forever!
to which, yes, unfortunately, there are lots of weird people in the world. but in your neighbourhood, in, idfk, western texas? gonna be a lot less chances to interact with weird people there (okay maybe texas wasnt the right example), than for example THE ENTIRE WORLD!!!
i live in the uk. a lot of these families happen to be american. would i have interacted with them in any way if they did not share their lives on the internet? no! im halfway across the world! but thanks to social media i can. and so can weird dave from california. or janet and her 3 cats over in estonia. or greg down in australia. so many more people can find this content!!
5) social media and disabled children
i've found that family accounts tend to solely focus on their disabled children (often non-verbal, usually autistic or have a rare disease)
now, i can see some argument, where parents of disabled kids can see other families and how they go about their daily lives with children who have similar disabilites to them
this might be helpful? and if it is, great.
but i worry that with non-verbal children especially, these children are at greater risk of exploitation
a lot of these children will never have the understanding or tools to be aware of what they are participating in (some dont even seem to be aware they're being filmed half the time), or the ability to say no, i dont want this.
a lot of the time, parents will film every doctors appointment, or at least tell their audience about in, since the child's birth.
thats a lot of medical information being shared about a child who isnt aware of what their parent is doing
and, of course, the content that features the disabled child(ren) is often the one with the most shares, likes, comments etc.
and who is protecting these children from being exploited? once again. absolutely nobody.
6) do i think all content with children should be banned? no
look, kids are funny. kids falling over is funny. small german children complaining about the traffic in the car with their dad is funny. two very northern girls complaining about the price of ice cream is funny. children and entertainment will always go hand in hand. but children should not be content.
i think there should be far stricter rules about family content on social media. you should not monetise your children. comments and shares should be limited or straight up not allowed, similar to on youtube. children should have the right to have all the content they appear in removed if they want (i think this is a law in some places, im not sure how wide spread or put into action it is though)
children deserve to be children, and deserve privacy. there are plenty of parents out there who make content about children and about their own children, without showing their faces or even showing them at all. this content still resonates, and gets the engagement that a video with children gets.
at the end of the day, it is the safety and privacy of the child that is most important.
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ilhoonftw · 1 year ago
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i found out those 'apply to get shit for free in exchange for instagram review' sites have bo barrier entry anyone can make an account so even tho i will never qualify for free shit (i dont run shilling ig account) i monitor what type of campaigns they are "recruiting" for...
sometimes they licherally tell you to run a 10 participant detailed survey in exchange for some new vape system ??? like you get a box full of product, you're supposed to give it to your friends and fill forms etc. Free Labour if you ask me. bc the cost of sending 20 people product they already have in stock anyway vs hiring marketing agency to run those consumer tests professionally...
often it's ipl and shit like that. no wonder home ipls are all over sns. and when they do 'beauty product' campaign i always check wizaż month or so later to see it being full of technically not paid but still dishonest reviews. pretty sure leaving 5 star reviews whenever they ask you is one of the things you agree to do when you apply for "free shit"
those sites are not a new thing, but i feel like since 2019ish there was a shift and some marketing companies would pitch 'sponsor 30 small 10k follower accounts instead of 5 100k' to clients. going by the logic smaller following but higher engagement rate might mean the audience is more trusting and will be more willing to actually purchase the product. if you have a bigger name do a 5th sponsorship in a month their audience is either used to seeing ads or won't even consider buying that thing. 5% people out of 100k follower base will maybe make a purchase? tops. maybe the brand will get exposure and gain better brand recognition but that's like long run effect brand want quick profit. if someone has 10k but people trust them then even half of them might buy something. and if it's one of first ads the user is doing they might even hear 'congrats on sponsorship!' as there's yet no ad fatigue. and they have lower rates than big names. or of they aren't super experienced in doing ad deals they might agree to getting things for free in exchange for review. almost as if they are taking advantage. lol
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dawn-eyes · 1 year ago
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wiztober is the wizard101 version of inktober. the original inktober was like some daily artist challenge that spread around on instagram where every day for the month of october you get a different prompt and you can create stuff for it :D most people draw but any kind of art is fair game, the point is to just have fun with it.
omg that sounds so fun maybe i'll participate once in a while 🤗 (even though i dont really do art lmao)
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urban-orc · 2 years ago
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No answers, just anguish
I don't know exactly where in the way I got from been a 19 years old freak, with zero respect to the status quo and showing my conceptual art in vernissages or the street
to become so mentally fucked to stop making art almost at all because I think everything I do horrible.
But it happened. And I have some insights about different things that brought me to this.
First is, the last time I was called to participate in the local art circuit was during my pregnancy - because they didn't knew about it. At that time, I still presented myself as a woman, and mothers are automatically considered things that don't create.
I remember that last vernissage, and how people treated me differently when I was with my son, 50 days old, or without him.
Quite contrary, the literature gang embraced me, my kid, and whatever I did (and when I got out of the trans closet, they again was the first to embrace and rejoice, and accept me as the man I I always was). Sounded pretty logical to focus on the writing part of myself. I still did fanzines with graphic stuff, mixing drawings, collage and writing, for a while.
Other thing was the internet. No one is guilt of it, but this is a place where, for most of its history, only illustration or figurative painting got friction. Rarely sculpture, because only classic sculpture was not treated as "craft" in a pejorative way. People in the internet are still having the stupid arguments about what is art or not that the dadaism discussed more than a century ago.
And I'm awful at traditional art. I mean, I did a lot of traditional art, but woodprint and woodcut was "minor art forms", made by common people. Embroidery too. Collage is frowned upon too much, even more when shit got digital. I'm not a traditional painter, and I'm not a drawing master or illustrator.
Social class is a important thing here: after college, I had to choose, because money and time: improving drawing skills, or improving writing skills - and the second was mostly inexpensive for several factors. I missed the drawing classes, I still miss don't having them, because there is so much I can do alone, and I was at a point where someone pointing me ways was the only way to go.
But my college teachers always said that I had what is needed to make art. I knew sufficient technics to send my message, a solid research, I knew how to provoke and to touch. Art is this, much more than been just technically sound, it needs to bring comfort and discomfort, and provoke reaction.
I know all of it in a rational way (Geez, I was an art teacher for 13 years). But I don't feel like anything I can do will be relevant, because it's not illustration.
And in the webs, that is the social accepted art form. Things are getting better today, but remember I'm in this place since 96. I follow brutalist sculptors on Instagram, something that was unthinkable 20 years ago. And even today, most of the things that are not painting or illustration, are framed by the internet as craft DIY, not art pieces. Art dolls, sculpting, embroidery, printing.
Printing on t shirts to sell is great, but I want to cover a wall with dramatic shit made in 5x5 cm tacos about the experience of been othered by society. (in this case, taco is a kind of wood piece of hardwood floor, reclaimed to make woodprint)
What brings the third reason I stopped making art. Art projects are expensive. If you don't have where to show it, you don't have money to make it. But if don't have exhibitions, you cannot get a sponsorship to make other exhibitions.
I did a lot of street art because it was a way to handle this vicious circle. Not ideal, but I could make lambe-lambe, and been seen.
(lambe lambe its called wheatpaste poster in english, but I dont think its an exact translation of the cultural meaning)
But then... Chronic pain and fatigue, and there is not a single chance I will spent the dead hours of the night walking and pasting posters, with the eventual "run like hell" moment from security or cops. I just cant do it anymore, my body just collapse if I try.
I must say that as an anarchist devoted to direct action, nothing is worst than knowing I cant do it anymore. My street art was heavily political after all. Well, to me, all art is political, in a way or another. There is no neutrality, even a still-life have a political background.
I digress. But how I said. No answers, just too much anguish.
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tossball-stick · 6 months ago
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im feeling sentimental so idk ill write about personal experience here. the outer worlds fandom was like. especially bad for me when i first got into it. i soooo so badly wanted to participate in fandom but it felt like id get hung in the town center for shipping millsoto 😭 everywhere i went in that fandom i constantly saw people shipping their 20 something captains with max just fine, but the second you ship max and felix suddenly thats predatory and why would you ever ship that and youre a disgusting freak. there was maybe like..... two other people millsoto posting back in like 2020. there was a bit of a fanbase for the ship when the game launched, but it quickly shrunk to some people barely keeping the lights on. at least, on tumblr, ao3 and instagram, where i was online at the time. it burned me out so bad, wanting to be a part of the fandom but knowing the thing i had the most fun with from the game was gonna be seriously judged and id be hated in whatever space i walked into, unless i just stamped it down.
borderlands is another fandom thats made participating in it exhausting. the entire fandom is divided on whether or not you like or relate to or sympathize with whats considered the best games' primary antagonists. i have to loudly wave flags, screaming from the rooftops, that i lile handsome jack and that i can sympathize with him and that i like exploring every facet of his character and yes that includes the way he abuses people. if i dont, and i make a post thats not about jack, and the small dead fandom at large starts enjoying it, not just my circle of jack likers, it feels like ive got this insane pressure to make the callout post on myself first. i feel weird about changing the icon and theme of this blog despite borderlands being on the back burner, just in case i make a borderlands post and someone thinks im one of the "normal" ones. it feels like a betrayal when im not normal. i feel slimy, like im going behind their back. and its solely because of the fandom culture. callout culture was so bad in borderlands, it feels like every week back in 2020 or 2019 there was some post ranting about how xyz is actually a huge rhackie or jackothy shipper and clearly they must want every abuse victim ever to stay with their abusers. i mean fuck dude the people who shipped jack and rhys were literally labelled as rhackies. no other ship got this treatment. even jackothy shippers were called just that. but rhackies, even willingly, were completely separating themselves from the rest of the fandom. gee, i wonder why.
getting into a new fandom is always miserable. will i lock myself away into the freak category and never have any friends in the media or will i so violently repress myself into someone im not just to talk about the tame stuff i think about with the media
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