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I know I made an analyze on that before but genuinely, the laugh is not what is the most terrifying in that scene.
Think back to the elephant graveyard when Shenzi and Banzai are throwing puns around and Ed points out the cubs are escaping, meaning he had them in his sight the whole time.
Here?
We have Shenzi and Banzai grinning at each other but Ed? Not once did he leave Scar out of his sight, not even when his input was asked. Not when he started to laugh. His eyes were entirely focused on him that whole time. He was quiet this whole time - his laugh only sealed Scar's fate.
#ooc#this scene gives me chills every time#friends? i thought he said we were the enemies#yeah. that's what i heard.#the voice acting in this is creepy#but ed takes it up to another level because unlike the others he is not acting amused about it#he is just mad#and like i said before#if Ed has you in his sight and is entirely focused on you#you are pretty much screwed#don't go on ed's bad side#seriously we don't give ed enough credit i would love to write a whole analysis regarding his behavior at some point
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Look what came through the mail today! The letters & ( •̀ω•́ )σ 3 little gremlins from letterstoear.
Just wanna say i adore the flower stickers on the letters too much, they are that much worth mentioning.
#letterstoear#nui#twst#twisted wonderland#sebek zigvolt#malleus draconia#twst grim#mod posting#okay but i love squishing the bears with my thumb; they just have the right thickness to be pressed on#i really like the flower stickers; they look like romantically artistic wax seal#the letters are pleasantly nice#i love the part where cheka personally request for an audience with yuu thru sebek 🥺🥺🥹🥹 too cute hnggh .......#sebek becoming our little mailman for our little invitation aw 🥹 for those who wanna know the context of the letter;#i requested a letter from sebek that he sent home while he was away accompanying malleus on other country duty#my other favorite part is just him simply opening the letter with 'My love'#i'm sealed 🥹 the first paragraph is written so sweetly#i enjoy reading the letter slowly outside in peaceful afternoon today; i ran it through together with sebek nui#this will be my treasured keepsake from now on 🥹; it seriously made me miss letters and wish i have someone to send this kind of letter to#it was a bit funny how the envelope sebek's letter came from is sticked with the guys from free! sticker fhsdsh 🤣😂#and me with the white haired guy like WHo are u?? fsjdsdjsd (´つヮ⊂); but it's a really nice service#the thank you letter came with such a cute and yummy folding paper; thank you for the stickers too#i feel like there's a bit whoopsie on grim's winky eye fshfh like i think the sharpie just blurs the separating space '<' supposed to have#and just combine it all together into one angry eye; and sebek bear's eyes are just a little bigger than i expected it to be#but the more i look at them i think they are just having a little individuality & still cute#i embraced it all together while knowing the fact none of handmade thing would always be the same one with the other; hehe sebek nui has fr#i kinda forget that there's this kind of clip earring fshd; because i always get the ones that work like screw from aliexpress#i know that the literal clip one would just be literal meaning of pain fsh; just like the magnet one my father once got me when i was a kid#it was painful but pretty; tho i lost it quickly bcs magnet easily get loosed once one part of it moves around when u touch ur hair or face#anyhow i had a pleasant day because of this; thank you very much ! sebek nui said 'thank you' too! ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. ❀ ✿ 𖤣…
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I HAVE NO IDEA IF I'M FITTING FOR THIS I HAVE 0 PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE, DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO WORK WITH SOMEONE WITHOUT EXPERIENCE?? I MEAN I AM READY TO DO SOMETHING IF I CAN DO IT BUT I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT I REALLY CAN DO SOMETHING FOR IT I HAVE TIME, ENOUGH TIME, I DON'T NEED MONEY, BUT I'M JUST SCARED THAT IT MIGHT BE DIFFICULT DUE TO THE FACT THAT I HAVE NO EXPERIENCE AND LACK IN A LOT OF THINGS I AM AN ENJOYER OF THIS SERIES, NOT A CREATOR, I AM EXITED TO SEE THINGS FOR IT, I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS GOOD OF ME TO GET INSIDE OF IT LIKE THIS
#JUST LISTEN#I'M SCARED TO TAKE ON SOMETHING#Sorry for so much caps I am still very emotional#I'm scared that I might screw something#I'm scared that I might not get something right#I'm scared to disappoint#I want to make my work good#that means time effort passion experience#The only things I might fit for is... animation?.. but again I'm pretty sure there's not just a sketchy kind of line#These things are literally more complicated than they look like#because they need to be clean for final product and bigger screens#In their recent animation IT'S JUST DID YOU SEE IT?? COME ON???#I think I'm better as a watcher because it is VERY complicated to work with a non experienced human being#Sorry it all might sound strange HA-HA you see I am so ready to do something for it#but what I literally can do for it?? That's another question because I will need to be led in EVERYTHING I'm a nood that will need a teache#and it will be HELL
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i’m sooooo late to the spidersona trend but who cares!! i made a clown spider man :]
#animation ref sheet type pose….#the webs they shoot are rainbow like tied together handkerchiefs(haha get it like the magic trick)#although the giant clown shoes and frills makes gracefully swinging around pretty difficult….#when they fall it’d make a squeaky toy noise#i love colors so much you don’t understand this was sooo fun(ignore that i was using the wrong layer modes and screwed up the values)#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#oc#original character#spidersona#sona#character design#clown oc#clown art#clowncore#clown#my art
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It always tickles me that the elevator kiss arguably isn't even the gayest moment in the movie
#like there's 'i've still got my pretty face you see?' 'that you have!'#and 'it's like screwing - once you know how to do it!'#and 'i feel like there's so much...that hasn't been resolved you know?'#and 'we were partners since we were kids and then you were spending all your time with yoko!'#and 'i see a frightened man who doesn't realize how beautiful he is' and john turning away overwhelmed#and them in bed with john resting his head on paul's shoulder#and them singing sh-boom to each other in the park and#mclennon#two of us 2000#the beatles
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I love being a Jemily fan who doesn’t want Jemily to ever be canon, actually
#you KNOW they’d screw it up#and the only way to do it would be to retcon so much of what’s already happened#that it would just feel like fan service#read fic and look at pretty fanart instead it’s gonna be ok I promise
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It's me, back again, just in time for the weekly progress report that I definitely didn't forget about until just now! 🤡
Next Update (Chapter 3? Quite Possibly!):
Intro Scene (if not on music fest route): 100%
Music Fest Routes (Solo, V, and Amara): 100%
Club Pyre Path: 100%
Editing: 60%
Coding: 65?% (Possibly even more!)
Bug Testing: 0%
Another big chuck of editing has been completed! At this point, I'm fairly confident the next update will be ready for release next month!
Hoping for the first week or two, but the bug testing will be the deciding factor there, so we'll just have to wait and see if my code behaves itself...
#redo; rewind if#interactive fiction#if game#progress report#i was hoping i might have even gotten enough finished for a (very) late august release but alas it seems to be impossible#to be fair. that was pretty optimistic to begin with lmao.#oh well. a couple more weeks or so is still pretty good considering how much i've got to go through.#unless... i do run into a major bug... then...#you know what. screw estimates. the update will be out at some point™
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vlc media player glitch miku (context)
#unlabelled drawing tag#vocaloid#hatsune miku#i pretty much just looked at the screenshot i posted and went ''you could make a miku out of this)#anyway in other news. OWWWWWWWWWW MY FUCKING EYES#i like that she looks kind of fucked up and ugly but i wish i redid her sleeve#i was going to but the hair took way to long so i just said screw it#eyestrain#id in alt text
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really like how this panel came out but a chunk of it's gonna get covered up by the speech bubbles so I'm making a keepsake
#not art! yet!#cip#yes this is a riz piece. I think he Would be into vietnamese coffee#pretty cheap to get the tools for saves a lot of space AND you can squeeze so much caffeine out of any coffee#the amount of caffeine in this shit will rot your bones and irreparably fuck with your blood pressure (from experience. haha)#but maybe this can be MY power fantasy too. in my ideal world I can drink any amount of fucking coffee I want. gods. man#mm. I love drawing glass. am I good at it? fully debatable. but will I stop? never#also the soft knowledge that there's a glass box screwed to the underside of this table with a pack of cigarette in it#with IN CASE OF EMERGENCY lettered in red paint marker on top#it does not show up in this comic or anything else for that matter. but its important to me that you know that exists
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How I would adapt House of Leaves to television
A miniseries with three segments:
The Navidson Record. It is this found-footage-esque horror of the weird house itself.
Zampanò's comments and reenactment of the Navidson Record.
Johnny's vlogs and reenacted events and stuff that happened to him.
As the episodes go on, these three parts shift between each other. As in the book, more and more screentime is taken over by the third one, eventually forming a meta-arc.
An entire episode that starts with the Navidson Record, interjected by Johnny's in-the-corner commentary, which eventually turns out to be longer than the actual footage of the Navidson Record in the story itself.
Screen next to screen, with multiple different arcs going on at the same time.
Will Navidson says a sentence, cut to Zampanó's reenactment of the same scene being different, which stops mid-sentence to Johnny's comments, which then turns into a short story, then we DON'T finish the second layer of reenactments.
Maybe even a fourth layer on top, a "making-of", which starts straight enough, but turns out to be a fictionalised version of the very series itself.
But that is just my take. Maybe others got better ideas. I mean, there is a reason why Mark Z. Danielewski doesn't let us into this house.
#house of leaves#idea#idea proposal#adaptation idea#the idea of futility of an adaptation#I mean#consider that House of Leaves is pretty much impossible to adapt#so if you want an adaptation#but what is the soul of the book?#what is the core#The very form here has to change to another medium#in television you don't see anyone else's image but the director's (except if it is being screwed by the network)#in a book you have your own vision based on what you read AND see#Oh dear it seems I am running out of rooms here#what a pity isn't it? But alas#I wonder if anyone reads these tags and thinks of me
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That LCSYS and OoA crossover got me wondering about Fuuta.
How does he feel about being in Mahiru's place and Amane being in his place? How does he act around them?
How does he act during his interrogation?
Poor guy isn't cut out for this role, but he's doing his best! I had some format fun with this one -- I took your OoA chapter of his interrogation and put Fuuta's LCSyS thoughts in between, I think it worked out well! I discovered some new things about Fuuta's mindset in the au through the process of writing, it was really interesing :0
(Trigger warnings for suicidal thoughts, including a brief mention of Haruka's situation. There's also something about Fuuta repeatedly stopping Es from getting Shidou.)
Fuuta heard Es' footsteps approaching. He took a measured breath. In and out. His exhale trembled a bit from nerves. He figured he could use that to his advantage.
Es entered the cell and took in the layout. Fuuta was propped up in a hospital bed, his neck and torso securely braced and his left arm in a sling. He was kneading a Jackalope stress toy with his right hand, digging his nails into it. More stress toys stood on the table to his right, and Es almost tripped on one a few feet ahead. As Fuuta saw Es approaching, he dropped what he was holding and swatted the rest out of his reach.
"Been a… while, Warden," Fuuta said. Es was expecting more malice in his tone, but he sounded like his life force was draining.
Fuuta hadn't liked the idea of playing the damsel in distress. He wasn't some sickly bedridden patient with a quivering voice and trembling limbs. Thankfully, Mahiru and Mikoto had talked him into taking a different angle: some of their favorite books and movies featured a battle-weary hero, weak from the fight and scorning the cowards that didn't fight alongside him. That seemed doable, he thought. He put an extra pant into his breath, hoping to evoke the thought of messy wounds from his brawl with Kotoko.
"Fuuta… you…" They pulled a chair to the side of the table and took a seat. "Are you okay?"
That's their opening? What kind of fucking question is that?
He kept Mahiru's pointers in his head, picturing a bloodied and bandaged knight, or maybe an action hero resting up after getting riddled with bullets. He forced his voice to come out more tired than he felt.
"…look like it?" Fuuta responded. If he was angry, his voice did a terrible job of showing it.
Es didn't know how to respond. Do I look like it? was obviously a rhetorical question, but they needed to show some tact.
After a moment, Fuuta spoke up again. "…look awful… don't I?"
Still unsure of what to say, Es nodded slightly.
Heh. Good. Time to twist the knife a bit. Play the confident card, make them feel guilty. They'll see how strong I am -- how strong I've always been -- and what a mistake it was to let me fall so far.
"Could've been worse. Could've died."
Es stared down, pondering their next words. Several seconds passed.
Fuuta watched them. He felt a sinking in his stomach. Their sullen silence wasn't what he'd been anticipating. He wouldn't have been satisfied with a lot of possible responses, but he'd still been expecting something. Where was their respect? Their remorse? Their pity? Anything? He reached his arm out.
A loud knock on the table got their attention.
"Oi… talking to you." Fuuta's irritated glare met Es as they lifted their head.
"I'm sorry," they said, "I'm… I'm not sure what I can say."
"Don't know what to say? I almost died because of… you don't know… Even so, it's a miracle I … If Shidou had taken any longer, would've been over for me. Don't blame him, though.
I think I've said too much -- Shidou said only a few sentences at a time...
It was impossible to keep it short, though. Es just told him that they have nothing to say in defense of his near-death. Did he really mean so little to Es that they wouldn't even dignify him with an explanation?
"…Oi, say something."
"Sor-"
"Sorry won't cut it." Fuuta sounded more pained than angry.
That was easier to accomplish now that he was actually feeling some pain. After everything, all Es had to say was a half-hearted "sorry."
So, they really don't care about me...
Es took a breath. "…Kotoko did this to you?"
Well then, I guess I'll just have to make them care.
"No sh… agh…" Fuuta gasped for air.
"Fuuta!" Es got up and walked to his side. "I'll go get Shidou-"
"Don't!" Fuuta's eyes betrayed his desperation.
Only when my pain is thrown directly in my face do they give a damn. And they were going running off to Shidou, anyway! Though maybe...
After they locked eyes for a few moments, Fuuta let out a chuckle. "Look … you … down on me, like always. Must be so happy to see…"
"I- no, I'm not. I didn't mean for this to happen. I didn't think Kotoko would-"
"Beat me to near-death? What'd you expect … you affirmed her…"
"I…"
"…thought she wouldn’t have … same crime here in…"
It seemed Es was finally listening, finally trying to open themself to him. And all of the sudden, Fuuta hated it. He felt paranoid under their gaze. He wasn't sure if it was fear of them seeing through his false injuries, or fear of another judgement from them. Regardless, he felt his pulse race with the way they were watching him.
"Oi, quit standing… staring…"
"I’m sorry, I didn't think-"
"Useless… apology…"
But what else could Es do besides apologize? Stand their ground and contradict Fuuta while he was in that pitiful state?
Fuuta was tired of their weak apologies. If Es had the conviction to name him guilty, they should toughen up and admit it.
With a deep breath, Fuuta forced himself to stay slumped into the bedsheets. He was getting riled up, but couldn't afford to look to strong.
"Really didn't think it'd… turn out… Me too. All I did… call some bad person out… say what's wrong was wrong…"
Es' gaze had become intense again. Those eyes, staring into his. Studying his injuries. Studying his expression.
Staring.
Staring.
Staring.
"Their reasons were b-" Fuuta gasped and clutched his chest. Es began to turn towards the door, but Fuuta grabbed their cape with his right hand.
Why can't they just offer help themself? Why do they go running off to someone else at the first sign of trouble? Am I really so disliked they can't face me?
Es swatted his hand away. "Hey, you can't just grab me like that."
"Don't dare…"
"Fine, I won't get Shidou. Yet." Es stood in place and waited for Fuuta to regain his voice.
Fuuta pretended to catch his breath, using the time to muster up something to say. If he wasn't so insistent on Es taking some responsibility for themself, he'd consider letting them call Shidou and just end this whole interrogation. He was ready to jump up and start swinging.
He itched to leap out of bed and give Es a real piece of his mind. He repeated the others' advice and pleading for him to keep his temper in check for the sake of the experiment. He thought of Amane -- how eagerly she awaited her own interrogation. All of this had been her plan, after all. As miserable as he was, he wouldn't ruin everything before she got her turn.
No, I will not steal her trial.
"You judged me… said I was unforgivable… without the whole story… How's that any different?"
"Excuse me?"
"That's so hypo- khh!" Fuuta slammed his hand on the table, trying to play it off as an emphasis, but that didn't mask his pain.
"Careful, Fuuta! You'll hurt-" Es gave up on that concern when Fuuta glared.
Pssh, like they actually care.
"Someone died because of you. You're saying I'm the same?"
"I didn't think they'd die!"
"But you knew people would dogpile them."
"I wasn't acting alone. Anyone else… out of my control… Why'd you pick me…"
"Milgram has judged-"
"Milgram doesn't make any f-"
Maybe Es should have put their foot down and called Shidou regardless of Fuuta's wishes. But something compelled them to hear him out. "Don't push yourself."
He tried to gauge if they were being sincere. He wasn't sure if he only mistook it as genuine concern since he was hoping for that so very badly.
Fuuta was clearly annoyed, but he took a breath and continued. "Still don't see it? We're just the same!"
"Me? The same as you?" Es couldn't deny Fuuta's point. They both made their judgments without thinking that someone could be seriously hurt—or dead.
That's got their mind turning, huh? I've got 'em now -- even if they don't feel like taking responsibility for my condition, I can subtly get them to take responsibilty for anothers'.
Fuuta was not known for his subtlety.
"I'll tell you. They were just in middle school. Maybe closer to Amane… than you…"
"Amane…" Es already knew this from what they gleaned from Fuuta's first video, but it didn't register how close in age their victims were. Wait, why were they thinking of Amane as a victim? "Amane… huh… I noticed you two have been spending a lot of time together lately."
"You kidding? Don't change the subject... You don't talk about her like… Only one who cared before everything went to hell. You made her go through it. Decided she wasn't forgivable… painted a target… She could've died too! Then we'd be exactly…"
"Don't put me on the same level as you."
He took another moment to calm himself. His "broken" arm clenched into a fish underneath the blankets. It made sense that Es wouldn't want to talk about the other prisoners during his interrogation, but their avoidance of Amane made his blood boil.
"Are you not-"
"I'm just doing my job. Nobody told you to go online and decide who are bad people and harass them. You made a game out of judgment. This is what I'm supposed to do."
Fuuta laughed at Es for still failing to acknowledge their similarities. Then he winced in pain. Then he kept laughing and mocking Es for taking their job seriously.
It was difficult to keep up the act the whole time, but he was always quick to recover each time he slipped up. He was doing this for the others. All hope for himself was lost, but at least he could do this for the others.
Es snapped back. A pointless, cyclical conversation. Fuuta stopped Es from calling Shidou no less than three times.
If he had to sit here and suffer through this interrogation, so did Es.
Eventually, the bell brought the conversation to a halt.
Silence.
Why was Fuuta so quiet?
"Hey… Fuuta?" Es leaned over to get a better look at his face. His eyes seemed glassy, and he seemed to be breathing more slowly. "Fuuta… I'll go get-"
"Don't. Not worth…"
"Worth what?"
"If you're not going to… forgive… what's the point… living?"
Fuuta would just chalk it up to getting too in-character, when the others asked.
"Don't say-"
"Everything hurts so much."
This feeling of betrayal. Of loneliness. The fact that I was the first named unforgiven. The fact that I'd be the first attacked, making me the victim -- not a hero, nor a warrior. The fact that you knew all along. You knew I was none of those things. You saw right through my act, to the real me, the one who is a victim. And that's why you acted the way that you did. You're trying to do your job without hurting me any more, as if I'm something fragile to be handled carefully. And that hurts most of all.
To keep things on track, he added,
"Painkillers don't help… Strange wonder I survived. Is it really worth it?"
"Worth it…" What could Es even say about that? Anything they could think of was either more unwanted pity or…
A cold accusation that Fuuta was bargaining his life for forgiveness. Es's thoughts flitted back to Haruka's interrogation- no, that comparison was unfair. Haruka's loaded intentions were worlds away from Fuuta's resignation. How could Es dare…
"I understand… this job requires resolve…"
"Resolve? You really have resolve… just kill me. With your own two hands. Don't hide behind the rules."
Look who's talking...
"I can't do that. I can't sink to the prisoners' level. It's my job as the warden to make a fair judgement. I… I have to judge each and every one of you… no matter how much they plead, cry, or bargain… even if they are dying right in front of me."
"What is even the point? You give a damn about my life, forgive me! If not, kill me… get it over with."
The words came tumbling out. Fuuta tried not to think so hard about what he was saying. It was all in character. That was it.
For some reason, he got the sinking sensation that he'd be pulled aside later to explain himself. He wasn't sure who'd get to him first. Yuno? Shidou? Kotoko? Now that he thought about it, it would probably be Mahiru.
"Bargaining tactics won't work with me."
"Not like I care. Or… if I get out of this alive, I'll… kill… you…"
"Fine by me. If we truly are the same, then I'll have had it coming. Now, Prisoner no. 3, Fuuta, sing your sins."
Fuuta breathed a sigh of relief.
Fucking finally...
#milgram#au combo!!#es#fuuta kajiyama#order or attack#lights camera sing your sins#we are fuutaposting (FOUR posts across blogs??) then going to SLEEP its past my bedtime -_-#i was busy today so i stole some peaceful me time to write >:3 but i stole too much and now its 1am.... alas......#it was really fun setting this up like directors commentary asdfsdf (which i have an actual one to do from you still)#i expected for him to have more anger and impatience but i realized hed be pretty emotionally hurt still#also yeah. i think hed be in a bit of denial about his self-harming thoughts and unsure why they just start spilling out#then has to unpack A Lot behind the scenes#i think if it were anyone else hed go 'screw it - im going to ruin this experiment and call es out and everyone can go home'#but because he was moved by amanes mission specifically he has the bare minimum of self control to keep the act up ;--;#i wanted to include more of the fun behind the scenes mv details that hes aware of but it never really came up 🤔#thank you for the ask - this was so fun! :0#drabbles#maybe? more like a parasite drabble latched onto your writing 😅
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One of Most devastating moment watching J-Decker again
⚠️⚠️Spoilers alert⚠️
As Regina says this
AND
YOU
You've been absent from the scene for so many episodes why are you here when Regina says crap like this??!
YOU SHOULD NOT BE HERE
Go on a mission or an overhaul, whatever, you're the last one who should be here at a time like this.
You're the LAST one who SHOULD be here at a time like this. STOP LISTENING TO HER AND IMMEDIATELY LEAVE
And YOU.
YOU.
You're not supposed to be here to listen to this shit as well. Go out on patrol or just take a ride on the Gun Bike.
That's not what worries me the most. It's that after Regina went out Power Joe complained, Drillboy complained, EVEN Dumpson complained, and Gunmax and Shadowmaru didn't say a word.
McCrane doesn't say a word it's understandable because he's rational. Deckerd speaks for Duke.
So what about you two? The mental state that worries me the most my boys?
I'm lack of the arts of language to express my anger.
Damn it MPD you guys should be paying for Brave Police's mental health🙂🙂🥲
#Most devastating moment for me tbh#you should not be here and you should not listen to her fk off boy your mental health is pretty much screwed!!#i'm screaming#i'm crying#me: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#Even Gunmax have Toudou to teach him how to love himself and you?#and you??#Where's my boy?#SHADOWMARU!!!#bpjd#brave police j decker
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Great googley moogley it’s all going to shit! Every day becomes exponentially more terrifying!
And all perfectly timed to just right at the start of what’s supposed to be my adult life where I get my shit together and be useful and productive!
#we’re cooked#we’re doomed#idk the end is nigh or whatever god damn#I just wanna be able to live in my own house and draw a guy sometimes without the ever present threat of the horrors is that too much#apparently yeah cause houses aren’t achievable anymore but man#m a n#especially if you didn’t/couldn’t go to college and aren’t capable of working most jobs#doesn’t help there’s the chance some part of my existence might be suddenly illegal or extremely dangerous yippie!#the options are literally 1. people die 2. people die what the hell do you even do man#how the fuck is this the election I’m gonna get forced to be a part of we’re living in hell#and nobody around me believes it’ll get bad yay great oh so wonderful#I can’t wait to lose rights and cause millions of deaths regardless of who gets chosen#I think one of these days I’m literally just gonna die of stress#it’ll either be a stroke or a heart attack or cancer or uh well ya know#we’re fucked#we’re screwed#I wanna have some kind of an actually visible break down but ive suppressed everything so much that I don’t outwardly emote much anymore :)#and the constantly dissociating thing too I guess#if you ever think ‘oh yeah I can just think of guy in a situation that’s so cool’ don’t it’s a trap—#although tbh this would be significantly worse without it so uh law of equivalent exchange I guess#fuck fuck fuck anyway#not putting this in the main tags#definitely deleting this later#if anyone in my house got any hints that I may or may not have different opinions than them well uh I’m financially dependent on them so um#literally wouldn’t have anywhere to go if anything happened#oh we’re really in it now Simon#hell world#there’s like what 7 genocides going on too I hate everything I hate everything I hate everything#I can’t do anything to help anyone either cause I don’t have a job and I could get kicked out or treated badly at home for it#not that anyone thinks very highly of me at home anyway I am kinda family disappointment number 2 I pretty sure
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Ep 5!!!
#Episodes that make me go “The author has never talked with a woman ever” 😓😓😓#I don't like how Lucy's character is handled at all. And I feel like I can't talk about it because I'm just going to sound like a bitter–#ss/kk shipper... But I really don't like it. And if it can help my case I'm a multishipper so I really don't take any–#issues with atsu/lucy I like the ship quite a lot actually.#So you're telling me there's this girl... Who meets this boy who pretty much ruined her life by directly causing her to lose her job...#And the next time she sees him she's going to sacrifice her own freedom for him as well as tell him “when you're done doing your things–#come and save me” (longest ewwww ever)... And when she regains freedom (author didn't bother to explain how because they don't care)–#she goes to work... As a waitress at the café beneath his workplace. So he can keep doing his Cool Superpowers Job while she literally–#must serve him every time he visits the place. It's just ?????????????????????????????????#Look‚ I don't dislike Lucy and I feel general affection towards her. It's just that they make her act like no one ever would#Just for the sake of the plot I guess#And like I knoww it's (probably just a little) more nuanced than that. I know Lucy is living her own fairy tale fantasy.#It's just that what I've said about her story is still true‚ you know?#I'm sorry but as sweet as atsu/lucy can be. I really hate the author for making Lucy a waitress. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.#It's so weird. This anime has women writing standards that feel like dating back to the 20s#Same with Katai and the ideal woman tbh. Like why are women to be seen as this abstract impersonal entities? Why can't they just be people?#Ideal for WHO. It's like super screwed up of a concept. What even is an ideal woman? What does it mean to be a woman anyways?#They just want to say “ideal wife”. But women aren't made to be wives their existence isn't functional to another person.#Sorry. I derail. Next episode is going to be even worse on this front ughhhh#Back to the episode: once again it really shows they were running out of budget with this season‚‚‚ the animation looks very suffered#Too many flashback also... I feel bad for the animators tbh#I don't really like the shift in art style :( Not even Atsushi I found particularly pretty this episode my heart cries#The nail pulling thing made me feel like throwing up afhsjyabfsbfwasfvb I feel like I can bear worse gore but there's a couple of little–#specific things I can't stand and this seems to be one of them pffftttt#I like Higuchi I think she's both very funny and cool. I really wish she was explored more (but then again looking at Teruko... )#The relationship between Kunikida and Katai looks so interesting even though we only get glimpses of it. Kunikida regrets Katai leaving–#the ada but is also happy for him but also worries for him. He comes to his house seemingly to check on him and starts cleaning around.#The way he loves him and cherishes their friendship and shared history is really evident and it makes for a compelling dynamic.#Perhaps I should read their short story... In any case. Going to someone's house and compulsively start doing the dishes half out of will–#to help out half because he can't bear the mess sounds a lot like something I'd do lol
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Wanting my dad dead is not enough for real
#he got mad because i called him on his vacation because i needed help with something hugely important like not to exaggerate it was pretty#much life or death. and he got mad and said I'm gonna hand up on you and my mom was like nooo don't say that to our daughter and i was like.#ok screw you! and i hung up. my cousins were there with me so he left once again in evidence that he's an asshole in front of my mom's fam#which. they know but a reminder never hurts
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i know in OBT, damini is clearly the worse parent because she didn't even attempt to raise dielle and clearly sees her as a failure, and she wouldn't have been a good parent even if she stayed.... but damn it, the deviantart comments are so annoying about mateo that i'm this close to stanning her anyways. very epic of her to subvert gender roles by being the deadbeat dad. hashtag feminist icon.
#tbf it seems like other sites are more nuanced and sensible#but people on da straight up insist mateo did nothing wrong and even if he did do wrong... uwu its okay bc he has a broken heart#he couldnt helppppp but hit and neglect and abandon dielle because shes soooo out of control like her mommmmm#and hes just so saaaaaad... he did nothing wrong you guys he only fucked up bc his BITCH EX screwed him over.... hes a good boyyy :(#.... if i catch any of you saying that shit about bruno when we get to him....... it wont be pretty........#hate hate haaaate this attitude that shitty dads are given all the excuses in the world but shitty moms are not allowed to be nuanced#that one atla post that was like ''uwu bad moms are different from bad dads bc bad dads are normal but bad moms are UNIQUELY awful''#did so much damage to fandom discussion#tbc dielle's wish itself and obt are great about mateo. none of this is on woo herself. she did a great job at making him a nuanced#and tragic guy while still making him a good source of tension and hurt and trauma in dielle's life that still haunts her#this is exclusively frustration towards other comments that wont stop defending him and saying he did nothing wrong#hey i wonder why we're being much harsher on the female characters here than the male character who did the same thing. hm.#echoed voice#also having a sad reason for doing what you do isnt an excuse to be shitty to your kids. this is like. parenting 101 you guys
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