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moontropy · 6 months ago

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#personal #i like to think that on the whole i do a pretty good job of quelling any recovery-resistant behaviours #and this one isnt even a behaviour so much as a thought process but i know that even if im seeking help that the mindset i bring can #yknow. set me back #anyways. all this to say that like. i know i am kind of just a shadow of a person and i am getting in my own way with social interactions #bc i am so sure/terrified that i am the worlds most annoying guy to ever live #and while recovery in general is scary for a plethora of reasons #that is probably the biggest. because if i feel annoying NOW as a person who is often so depressed they dont even participate in talking #then how fucking annoying will i be when i have actual real energy and feel joy and shit #or maybe it will just feel like when im on an upswing and whether or not im being annoying isnt even a category in my brain #whos to say #sick and twisted how fun and not depressing being on an up is #i dont feel annoying i feel so confident nothing is ever bad. dont look at the insanely risky thoughts and uncharacteristic behaviours #vs now coming down from it #which is ofc worse than the general baseline depression bc its fresh off an up #sighs #idk. rambling i guess #yay psych eval in july

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lupins-hehim-pussy · 5 months ago

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he giggles

#wriothesley #neuvillette #wriolette #neuvithesley #genshin impact #he goes aheeheehooheehoohee #i think once neuvillette figures out how to make him laugh. he'd do it all day. and the formula is simple too he just gotta say something #really stupid. and absurd. in his usual super serious iudex voice #and wriothesley is in stitches. it's so easy. he just gotta say 'yippee' and profit. 'slay queen' and wriothesley is incapacitated #also. imagine he's ticklish. but i dont think Neuv would tickle him intentionally I think he's like. 'i heard tickling gets violent fast'#'i will not resort to that to summon moethesley'#he doesn't want to Hurt Him he just wants to see him smile and laugh and be all pink in the face. but I do think he accidentally #sets him off all the time. with kisses (neck/ears) or just like grabbing his waist and suddenly wriothesley violently Wriggles yknow.#the tickled reaction. wriothesley laments the destruction of his scary big dog image every day #but. neuvillette would only make jokes at home anyway. and to be clear it's the simple fact that neuvillette is trying to Be Funny .#that's really funny to wriothesley. or just like his awkwardness. back before he figures out he can Intentionally make wriothesley laugh #he'd bewitch him with his his gap moeism #the layers to it. Wriothesley gets embarrassed later on when he catches on because he Knows Neuvillette likes seeing him all tickled.#and flustered. and that's like so mortifying bro what do you mean you're happy just seeing me being moe #and he's embarrassed because he should not be falling for it every single time. it should not be this funny #the nerves just makes him laugh even harder. and the whole time neuvillette is just sitting there. silently delighted. waiting for the #perfect comedic timing. so he can drop a 'cowabunga!' with the exclaimation mark and all. wriothesley can't even catch his damn breathe #art #my art

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 2 years ago

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more of the dapper lad! i Cannot get him out of my brain

#i sit down to draw dragons and/or ocs and OOPS my hand slipped its wally #hes so. bites him bites him bites him #but affectionately <3 #but also with affectionate intent to maim <3 #every time i feel like my feelings about him are starting to level out to a normal baseline....#....i feel a heart squeeze and im back to insanity #welcome home #scribble garnish #wally darling #welcome home wally #welcome home puppet show #also i am once again imaging that he is modeling for sally #this is alternatively titled 'consistency? dont know her'#his hair confuses me so much #no matter how many times i look at references or draw him it still baffles me #which way does it curl? how does it floof? fuck if i know!#yknow before i drew this i set out with the intent to put Other neighbors in schmancy outfits #and then i saw that colorblock shirt. and it all went downhill #its 2 am now.#i spent a solid hour making a fancy background but i scrapped it bc it was Too Much

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bacchuschucklefuck · 6 months ago

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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #not art #fhjy spoilers #its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical #like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real #like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this #yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out #meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it #its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started #the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show #which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them #and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear #that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others #thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and #a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he #wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude #its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others #and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT #Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere #Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually #Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!

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artystaroc · 4 months ago

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Mew :3

Listen, dont- dont look at me?? I can't count, apparently, so July has snuck up on me hnviadonvn

But yeah, I haven't forgotten one of my favorite Dangan boys! He get's the birthday-cat hoodie treatment (even if a day late)

#danganronpa #drv3 #ryoma hoshi #arty draws #i dropped out of the dr fixation ages ago by now #but i cant help making something for my favorite tennis boi #this is a bad trend for me to set.#i did almost this exact thing to teruteru last year #maybe i should start doing his next bday piece now #since its coming up in a few months #yknow. have it ready ahead of time lol #anyway i'll go back to drawing puppets nowww

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paradoxbeta · 5 months ago

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I'm curious, how would your Suns design look during more serious situations, such as one of the Spearmaster broadcasts?

something like this

and now for a (slightly long) addendum: i know i depict SRS as jokey and kooky, but when it comes to not shitposting and actual characterization, i have Thoughts and Feelings about them. the entire story, they just want to do what they hope will help the people around them, even though it all ends up horribly, HORRIBLY wrong. that's tragic, and it has my interest. considering the heaviness (and intrigue) of SRS’s storyline, for me to only ever depict them as a goofball be way too shallow of me, and unfaithful to their canon characterization.

so to answer your question: they hold themselves together, of course, but the shame, regret, and embarrassment is still evident.

#i dont wanna get my characterization of srs from other peoples headcanons #but im admittedly a little too preoccupied to sit down and meticulously comb through their dialogue to see what each sentence reveals #my srs personality is usable but its not as detailed and tailored as id like it to be yknow #cause. just. MAN i really need to sit down and obsessively pore over those broadcasts and pearls sometime okay #also not saying that looking at other headcanons is bad. it set me straight way back when on a couple of my own minorly dogshit ones i had-#-when i didnt have a full grasp of the story #but i also just want to come to my own conclusions on srs #UGH. rain world is so good. the horrible events that happen dont happen because of some big bad shallow villain #but just people making bad decisions sometimes. because of concern. because of desperation. because of love. which happens with people.#auuuugh #my art #ask #rainworld #wait why has this been sitting in my drafts for over a week? be free my child. ill schedule this to post in an hour or something

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telebeast · 2 months ago

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"His nephew stood with his back partially turned to him, a heavy, now-dented bat clenched in both hands. His shoulders were shaking with sobs, tears streaming down his reddened face that was twisted in what Ford could only describe as agony. His arms and knuckles were bloody, crimson dripping from fresh wounds and splattering on the grass at his feet, as he stood over the remains of the now obliterated tombstone statue of Bill."

I've been reading I Grow, Unforgiven (To Be Otherwise Is Madness) by @barbaricjester, and man it has been a fun fic to follow. I love it when a fic just feels so in tune with the source material, while still telling its own story! Anyway, I wanted to do an illustration of a particularly punchy scene a few chapters in... I encourage folks to check it out :) [ID in alt!]

#gravity falls #dipper pines #stanford pines #ford pines #fic fanart #This is SO NOT PERFECT but god I need to just be done with it and stop fixing things lmaoooo #Anyway Yay this fic got me checking for updates every day that's how you KNOW you're hooked #Totally not me just using this as general scene setting practice shhhhhh #It has been YEARS though since I last made fanart for someone else's fic.... Man #It feels good to participate in fandom with other people again though :)#Yknow what? Posting this at night who cares #Looking back I am actually missing so many details OOF oh well

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accursedvoid · 1 year ago

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#wishful thinking that it might but if it does OH BOI THE ONE FEARING #Danny phantom #Danny phantom agit #a glitch in time #Danny phantom a glitch in time #not spoilers but idk? should I tag?#my faith in studios running franchises is in negatives i realky worry that if DP ever came back to the screen #that this is what would happen which would endlessly frustrate me bc the comic is GOOD and I wanna see where it’d go from here gdi #part of me is like ‘man I miss Dp on screen’ but the other wolf in me post-agit release is like ‘ONE FEAR’#accursed posts #I am very sceptical it would revive it but you never know #I’d be happy with a revival via more comics that follow this storyline though!#the ultimate good timeline is a new cartoon that follows the comics set up but yknow that’s very wishful thinking but I can dream

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polyshodivorce · 3 months ago

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EnaKasa my disaster couple. They’re both stubborn as hell, I think they argue at the drop of a hat and at least twice a week Ena goes “That’s it. We are DONE. Get OUT!!!!” (<- He accidentally woke her up at 6am being loud) and to win her back Tsukasa has serenade her from the window after she locks him out of the apartment and she either goes “awww… so sweet” and forgives him or lets him back in because his singing is EMBARRASSING her (bonus points if he manages to get Rui to come too for special effects to impress her. Fireworks and everything outside of her window. So romantic and so unnecessary❤️)

Tsukasa is a great model to paint because he is happy to pose for her as long as she needs him to and afterwards he praises her art so much. How she’s so good at what she does and she caught all of his best features. Tsukasa’s actually crazy about her, hyping his loser gf up so much, happy to do anything she asks when she’s too lazy to get up, introducing her as his wonderful talented partner then Ena is like:

“This is my boyfriend, Tsukasa. he’s fucking annoying. But he’s kinda sweet🥰. But like for real he’s annoying as hell😒.”

#i love them because I cannot imagine a moment of peace between them. some shit is always happening #Akito hates hearing her complain and is practically begging her to dump him #Rui is more than happy to continually involve himself in the drama like #Yknow maybe Ena will take you back if you set off these flower bombs in the house for valentines trust trust #txt #Radioactive waste land EnaKasa is the only EnaKasa for me #enakasa

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isa-ah · 29 days ago

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met a really cool queer stranger today that i thought was just so fucking neat i wanted to talk but if we were playing tennis they were, with the most gentle and earnest voice ive ever heard, shoving the tennis racket down my throat. every compliment or joke i made was turned away but in the sweetest way possible that made me sound like an absolute asshole lunatic. it was so scary.

#i tried so hard to be funny and nice but the way they replied to each thing i said made me feel like a scumbag LOL #ive never had that happen before. im very polite when i talk to strangers and i was being very polite then too!#i dont think they even saw it happening in realtime bc they were so calm and even keeled about it #but my god. still thinking about it. absolutely rattled me.#'ur so cool' 'oh its not the olympics. everyones cool. ur cool too' 'haha ur right yet ur still winning' 'hm. its not a competition.'#i was trying to make you laugh im sORRY i was being goofy when i said that i promise i did not say it straight #'you have so many cool tattoos' 'oh ive got a couple tattoo artist friends' 'oh thats so cool. maybe i could get a foot in the door'#like obviously as a joke but they replied gently 'you shouldnt seek friends out just to get something from them.'#NO I KNOW I KNOW IM SORRY IT HAPPENS TO ME CONSTANTLY I KNOW TRUST ME #i panicked and was like 'oh haha no i wasnt serious dont worry. im an artist so i know the feeling.' but i guess it came across as like #yknow. bc they just went 'hm.' and pulled out their phone #FUMBLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so embarrassed #the worst part was id been talking to someone in the back who makes familiar plushies and shed set a few out #so i was talking to them while i was trying to pull up her insta to look up more info about one of the familiars #bc it looked SO FUCKING COOL and i stood there saying that to my husband right in front of them after this legendary fumble #finally pulled up the insta post for it and. they own that one. its theirs. they dressed it like that. i was so fucking embarrassed skdjfks #i wanted to look at the pricetag bc i assumed it was there bc she HADNT sold it yet #god. legendarily embarrassed.

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fjordfolk · 2 years ago

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sneepers

#fuck iso honestly #fuck focus too #the problem with a new-to-me camera is that i am no longer relying on settings i made 8 years ago and no longer remember exist #yknow from back when i sometimes used my brain

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sophiethewitch1 · 1 month ago

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So sick of being the only one who comes up with my sorts of fanfic ideas like wth...

#sophie speaks #i have an idea for a twst fic #had it for a while actually but the new skully character is making me think about twst again because nightmare before Christmas peak #where reader is yuu from twst obviously and like the stories over ur finally going home and then instead of ending up home #u get told that u screwed up the worlds balance and now in all the fairytales the bad guys won #and like the queen of hearts chopped off alices head snow whites poisoned and disfigured etc etc #and ur told u have to go in and fix the plots and basically revive a bunch of dead heroes and set things straight if u want to go home #and then the guys dont remember u at first but as u go along the story u make friends/lovers w them again or whatevers and they remember u #its very much inspired by shinyjr's damnation au because i loved a lot of her ideas but its still my own thing yknow #idk i just think itd vibe heavy #its on the mind ngl #ill finish the chapter today tho then i can daydream lmfao... hate editing might just go back to grammarly

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vamprnce · 2 years ago

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shoving my two interests together bc I'm unhinged ehehehehe this happened bc my hyperfixation of rdr came back full force then all the sudden me and some friends are talking abt a hackett quarry western au 🤠✨

these are some of my hc's plus designs I have of trio atm! imma try to draw out the rest of the gang too, prob Emma and Abi is next :) (some notes from discord under the cut lol)

these are a lil bit unorganized adsgs but some general ideas ig also Dyl still has his kitty, I can't separate them 💕