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seeby s1 dino gaang :)
#look i swear i can also draw atla stuff that isn't dinos#i just. dont have any ideas for that ahdnhsjf#HINT HINT INBOX OPEN SUGGESTIVE EYEBALLS LOOKING SIDEWAYS EMOJI#who said that#no but really if the dino au is getting me drawing again then fuck it#woe dinos be upon ye#yknow im trying to write a fic for it#it's not going well agejhdjg#but! there is zuko whump :)#so it's all i could ever ask for agjdhjf#atla#atla dino au#ALSO IM. please appreciate the bush the right of and behind sokka. it's so sexy i forgot how to draw bushes after that one
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thinking so long and hard about joyness once more…like yesss they are very cute and sweet and all but i think them getting together even after their History is sooo interesting. like, does joy first start hanging out around sadness and talking with her more often out of guilt? is it performative? when does it stop being performative?? and at what point does joy realize it’s stopped being performative? how does joy feel when every single interaction she has with sadness after the events of the first movie are just like…constant reminders of how she screwed up with her prior? liking someone who makes her feel that bad when she normally never lingers on what she's done wrong just seems so counterintuitive (fun fact: joy has literally never genuinely apologized for anything she's done, across both movies. she's acknowledged and fixed her mistakes before, sure, but she has never expressed guilt so straightforwardly like that. is she simply incapable of it? or has she just...never given importance to feeling guilty before so long as she can just Fix her mistake? just something very interesting i've noticed...)!!
like, joy’s canonically admitted that she’s literally tried to kick sadness out of headquarters before. that’s truly how little joy thought of her before she got to know her better…she totally would have been fine with just. never seeing her again. imagine disliking your coworker THAT much since the very first day you met her and now you have feelings for her…?! not a possibility joy ever would have considered, and i think joy would struggle a Lot with coming to terms with that initially. she is the Queen of cognitive dissonance. of being Delusional. it’s HARD to shake off old habits just like that!! joy is someone who very much doesn’t fully acknowledge how she feels until it gets so intense it bubbles up to the surface and breaks through her usual demeanor (we’ve seen that both with how she’s gotten sad and angry before…who’s to say romance would not be the same. i think she’d just keep denying it until she just. has an Ah Shit moment with sadness one day. probably over something completely mundane).
and it certainly doesn’t help that sadness is, well. Sadness! she clearly admires joy from the very beginning even when joy treated her so poorly (knowing her she probably thought she deserved it…sigh). she’d literally just assume absolutely nothing would come out of her feelings. and you know she probably might even romanticize and Enjoy it in a weird way…i mean think about it. she canonically likes sad romance novels…this is her own "tragic romance" (apparently. SUPPOSEDLY) so i think she’d kind of insistently cling to that. define their entire relationship as unrequited and reallyyy lean into it and warp anything that happens otherwise to fit her little Doomed Yuri vision. she's observant as hell for pretty much everything, normally, but she just has goddamn Horse Blinders on for just this one thing specifically.
she’s just completely unaware of how fundamentally she’s changed joy and shattered her entire worldview (meanwhile joy is just busy having a whole crisis about exactly that). and NOW she has to deal with actually being treated like she matters, both by joy and the other emotions?? helloooo? she’s definitely got a lot to process by this point because Her entire way of living has changed too now in an entirely different direction.
AND then you add to that how it's pretty clear that sadness knows joy pretty well, but joy still has a Lot to learn about sadness because she never gave her a chance before...very much a recipe for guilt and confusion and miscommunication and other such weird occurrences to arise.
BASICALLY tldr theyre both kind of idiots and i think their dynamic is a little more complicated than people give it credit for. joyness is a veryyy. She fell first (sadness) she fell harder (joy) type of dynamic. To Me.
#nebposting#IS ANY OF THIS COHERENT. PROBABLY NOT BUT THAT'S FINE.#adding this to the long list of thigns i wanna draw out eventually. chanting to myself IM NORMAL IM NORMAL IM NORMAL#SORRY TJEYRE JUST. SO INTERESTING....opposites attract trope sure but opposites also. KINDA fundamentally clash!!#ugh been obsessed with them for 9 years atp i feel crazy#.............#okay yknow what sure joyness tag could always use more posts LOL#joyness#joy x sadness#joy#sadness#<- those last two are for personal organizational purposes lol#side note i feel like i'm just. explaining my thought process for both of my fics so far pretty much HDJKHF.#i definitely had a lot of these thoughts floating around trying to write for them....
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there's somethin strange abt those boys......
god brother au sketches for funsies :]
#gonna stop promising that i'll like...... get back on this#BUT ILL UPDATE IT WHEN I UPDATE IT YKNOW#i do feel bad for bein like “oh im back on it!” and then just completely losin inspo#its just hard to present an au unless im doing a comic or something#maybe i should try writing out an ao3 fic or smth#God Brother AU#art#philip wittebane#the collector#the owl house#toh au#au
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important aspect of shadowgast To Me is that caleb thinks it's cute when essek's being a bitch and visa versa
#oh to have someone who listens to you bitch and reminds you it's not the end of the world#also oh to have someone who sits vigil with you when you grieve and/or get angry at your lot in life no matter how deserved it might be#also important for them. To Me#essek gets into a really tetchy terrible mood bc he bitterly misses the comforts of being rich and not having to run for his life and#caleb silently hands him a basket of green beans to snap and essek realizes halfway through said basket that he's doing it#yknow what i mean.#i think for them. when im writing or reading or thinkin about em. the biggest importantest theme is that#1. they are terrible people who are trying very hard to learn how to be good 2. they are equally matched in their terribleness and very#unimpressed with one another. unstoppable force and immovable object. north star.#where is that fic. it's called out of season. it's so good its my thesis for them
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writing sanji pov in sugarspun really is just such circular introspective spiralling and five rhetorical questions a paragraph and contradiction across side by side sentences and its so messy but i hope everyone knows its MEANT to be like that. like yes hes inconsistent and all over the place and he says one thing and then says the opposite almost right after but thats just how it is yknow
#this post is just to convince myself its okay to write this way fhdjcn#im like hm is it stupid to write this thing. well no bc thats just how it IS sometimes yknow#when youre trying to figure shit out and youre trying to hang onto your old conceptions even though you hate them and you desperately want#someone to just say 'no its okay' but when they do its too difficult to accept#etc etc yknow<3#i was gonna say thats just how i write sanji in any of my fics but thats not true hes worse in sugarspun
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idk if this is a good prompt but put doomguy in myhouse.wad I think he would find it enriching
Right, so I've been mulling on this one for a little bit now, n I'm not opposed to writing something for you, I'm just not... entirely sure what to write? Because the thing is, myhouse.wad doesn't actually really have anything to do with Doom as a story. Sure, Doom is important in that it's the vessel through which the story is told and one of the connections between the narrator and his dead companion. But as far as Doom itself goes, and the story about a man who was too angry/stupid to die, fighting demons and saving earth, none of that is at all relevant to myhouse.wad and its story. For all intents and purposes, Doomguy isn't actually a character in myhouse.wad. So I'm not really sure how exactly to fit him in there.
#pikspeak#bc like. ok so if u say write dg as if he is actually the character in myhouse.wad#then the problem is that theres a pretty huge meta element to myhouse.wad and having some of the outside context- even just the context tha#its supposed to be the creator's dead friend's childhood home- is important. youre not MEANT to 'immerse' yourself in it or pretend you are#the protag. part of the impact comes from knowing youre just an observer and this is just a videogame on your computer.#writing dg as a character inside myhouse.wad would rob it of a lot of context and therefore impactfulness. hed just be walking around an#old house looking at things that have no meaning to him.#so ok then not dg as the protag of myhouse.wad but what about just like.. him in the funky liminal space of myhouse.wad? the non-euclidean#reality breaking shifting house of leaves place of myhouse.wad? i *could* do something like that if thats what youre looking for#but then considering this is the character whose reaction to finding himself in literal hell was to go 'hey??? this is stupid???? anyway im#gonna kill everything here' he probably wouldnt be too exceptionally ruffled by finding himself in a sorta funky reality breaking space.#hed probably still just go 'oh weird. funky. anyway back to killing demons.' and that would be it. which yeah i CAN write if its what u wan#it just. yknow. doesnt quite seem like the right tone? just kinda flat by comparison#i have considered doing things in the right tone before. since it is also canon that on his way back to hell dg has to run through the#burned out ruins of his own hometown. something similar to the visiting an old place thats been twisted by time and grief and coming to#terms with its loss or something to that effect#but. if im being honest i dont know that i have the writing skill to pull that off well much less as a short fic for a prompt response#uhhh anyway where was i going with this.#im happy to write something for you; possibly even something myhouse.wad related if you want!! im just not sure how to do that hdfbhdj...#anyway sorry for letting this one sit for so long without an answer. have another fic prompt where the fic is getting a little longer than#anticipated n combining that with rotating this to try n figure out what i could write for it...#guess time got away from me a little bit. sorry about that!
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i very rarely get a sense of satisfaction from completing tasks. ive heard people say this is an ADHD thing, but idk. personally i think i might just be bad at being alive
#anime life#i wish i could do something for myself but it just feels so hollow. like why fucking bother yknow?#i wrote a lot of my fic Book of Red Murder and then started to lose steam#and i thought maybe posting it would encourage me to finish it#and it did at first#but then there wasn't a lot of readership or energy around it#which like. is fine and not weird. it's not a big deal and it's not like it's something im OWED#and also i had. a bit of a mental breakdown and had to stop being active in the fandom#so now DEFINITELY no one's gonna read it lol#idk i feel bad even posting about it because i don't want anyone to feel bad or like im trying to guilt anyone about it#i just have trouble articulating what i feel and why and it helps me to try to reason it out#no one did anything wrong but i think it's still understandable for me to say that i was discouraged#when it felt like people didn't really like my writing. or. to be honest. me as a person#i guess the lesson here (if there is one at all) is that if you like a fic you should probably tell the person writing it
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hellooo tumblrinas i have a question for you. if postcanon gus had the opportunity to go to human college, what major(s) do you think he would study. i need your opinions for science
#i think definitely sociology or anthropology bc. studying humans#but i ALSO think he would be so excited by the concept of human college in general he would try to do like#either a major and a minor or two majors#he wants as many degrees as possible#a few ideas my friend had were journalism or Spanish but idk how I feel about those#im writing a fic where gus goes to human college (if I finish it is an unknown answer) so I need research#in my other modern college au i have gus studying animation#bc illusion -> animation yknow#but that doesnt really fit here i think sooooo#anyways thats why i am asking YOU GUYSSSS#please share your ideas. please. i need some brainstorming fuel#lilac post#toh#gus porter
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i apparently lied molly is NOT going to appear in the next chapter but jason will. no i do not know what im doing. i may write outlines but they like appear in the story after so much fucking meandering oh my god
#sophie speaks#series:www#this guy keeps popping up why is he here#yes i am writing a fic about him but like hes not supposed to be here#god i wish my brain worked#this is too hard#T-T#one day this chapter will be done and then the next one will take 7 months im sure but yknow by the time we're all like 500 years old and#part robot im sure ill finish arc 1 of what we want#kill me#just fuckin. fuckin try :))
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today i will write a gojo fic . i will do it (spoken through tears)
#ive been out of writing juice for so long PLS BRAIN WORK W ME </3#yknow what it is though. like genuinely. im out of tiramisu#i dont know why but i can only write for gojo when im eating tiramisu#im gonna try to get the fic out …. this weekend …… im gonna do my best . for Him.
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I have to write a relatively long German paper, and man its just so difficult for me. The pro side is that I can pick any topic I want, so of course I picked Charles VI. But I've literally not written any German in months, and I'm almost 100% sure our prof doesn't actually read them. I should just write and submit boy king fic....
#i wish it was in English#bcs i would be very happy about it#but i have lost so much capacity for any German writing#bcs he sucks so much as a prof and has dropped the ball on actual language learning imo#how am i supposed to suddenly write a 7-8 pg paper after youve spent all our class time just lecturing at us#and giving us no real opportunity to really learn or test our skills#i shall.. probably just cheat.#LIKE i want to learn german so badly#but what the fuck is the point of even trying when i know im not going to get actual feedback on my writing#why should i even try at that point. put that much effort in and know that he doesnt really care at all#it just sucks so much bcs i genuinely love and am so fascinated w the topic#but the idea that id put so much work into translating it only for him not to read it really kills me#again. just submit boy king fic and see if he notices sjfkgllblb#but do you know what i mean? like im sure ill write a good version in english that i think is actual good content#but translating it is such a lost cause bcs all the effort is reallt for nothing#like atp im jusy interested in the history more than making an effort w the language#ugh i wish i wasnt this way but yknow lack of stimulation anf feedback really kills my enjoyment and interest#like see i can convince myself that thr eng version of teh paper is my typical personal research#<- i mean im making a fucking family tree for funsies so this isnt that far off#but the translation part is so difficult bcs my german has been eroding a bit SOB SOB#lol anyways i say this bcs i was plotting a boy king fic in my head as i was goong to bed#and was like oh i shoulf write it out tmr! and then remembered I HAVE AN ESSAY UGH#well yeah. suffering. we'll see how i feel abt i write the original copy and if i have the capacity to germanify it#i just feel so guilty about it. cheating. I dont want to and it feels so low effort and terrible#but why would i force myself thru all that for a guy who barely reads it#catie.rambling.txt
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sorry i saw someone talking roman angst and remembered im obsessed with this guy
#OUGHHDYIJTSITEYEO#roman hold my hand ill take you out of there !!!!!#also low-key im trying to conjure up the motivation to actually yknow write my roman angst fic#it's that hes not in this scene i think. if he was id be writing IYDXJJTDSTHDTI#unfortunately in stories more than one character exists 😭#cherry chats 🍒
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Yknow something that gets me abt certain fanon depictions of kai is that he’s portrayed with no sense of self preservation, as if he’s self sacrificing and burned out, and I think I dislike it bc it feels like the opposite of his character most of the time.
Yeah some of the actions he takes are harmful to himself in some way, but it’s never intended to, they were ways of coping and making himself feel better.
Like the green ninja plot, he is insecure in his place, so he strives for the highest title to make him feel better.
The red shogun isn’t him beating himself up and not caring about his own well being. He was winning fights, fully engaging in the job, taking his frustration out on others and drinking away his issues, and yeah there’s self loathing in that, but there’s also him trying to make himself feel better, to redirect hurt away from himself.
Him prematurely concluding his parents were the bad guys in s7, is (imo) his way of rationalising his mixed feelings, in order to keep himself okay.
He’s not a reckless war machine who throws himself into battle with no hesitation, he tries to keep himself safe.
Kai is self-prioritised and yknow I think people in general really demonise that kinda of trait both in fiction and irl and that’s actually kind of harmful. The self sacrificial trait is so grossly over romanticised and idk it’s a breathe of fresh air when you see a character who doesn’t start out that way or end that way. Like nothing wrong with that trait being written, it’s just like sometimes it feels like people are only allowed to prioritise themselves if they previously have no sense of self care, bc then it’s seen as a healthy improvement. But in any other case, it means you’re selfish and that’s a bad thing apparently.
Like no. Being selfish and loving yourself and thinking you are hot shit and the smartest person alive and prioritising things that make you happy. None of that makes you evil or morally wrong. If in attempts to meet your needs you try to hurt someone else, or end up hurting yourself, then the action you took was bad but the intent isn’t! Fuck the media that finds people loving themselves as immorally wrong! Fuck it! It is not sexy to hate yourself actually.
I want more fanon Kais indulge in activities that make him happy, Kais that make bad decisions in trying to protect himself and Kais that have good coping mechanisms because he’s still trying to protect himself he’s just found better ways of doing it.
Bc it’s canon and it feels like it gets erased a bit because people somehow don’t find self love appealing unless the character was self hating first.
#tangibly related but the people who think that kai sacrificed everything often forget that Nya#every fucking season she is sacrificing and giving up shit#like she is right there#she’s not AS bad either but like she does so much for the sake of others yknow#can someone#someone write a fic#where kai teaches Nya to have more self preservation and to not get flung about by others needs#pls#anyways half way through this post I realised I have So Many Issues TM#Like oh god#the whole ‘I don’t matter! my only purpose is to be there for my friends’ fucked me up so hard that like to this day#i cannot see when someone crossed multiple boundaries that they probably shouldn’t#because my brain is lazer focused on trying to be convenient to them#like oh man#im traumatised#and Ik there’s definitely so many of you on tumblr who are probably the same#because we live in a capitalist society where the walls subtly remind you that you must be convenient#and so many of you are queer and used to having to repress your identity for other people’s comfort#and so many of you are neurodivergant/disabled and are told every day that meeting your needs are inconvenient for everyone else#BUT THIS IS WHY WE SHOULD BE PROUD OF BEING SELFISH AND LOVING OURSELVES#BECAUSE ITS HARD SOMETIMES AND THE FACT THAT WE CAN FIND LOVE FOR OURSELVES IS SUCH AN AMAZING SKILL#AHHHHH#sorry for cutting so deep into this#i need a therapist maybe#ninjago#Ninjago kai#ninjago analysis
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WIP ask game!
Jason + Avengers! Critical question, which Avengers. Because I blue-screened a little at the idea that you might be writing something that has Jason + Black Widow and/or Hawkeye. 🙏🤤
it's like you're in my brain or something
this one is literally all bullet points rn but essentially:
natasha, steve, and clint are infiltrating a hydra facility
nat is looking for the guy running the facility and finds him in a room in front of this guy strapped to a chair (like the winter soldier chair. y'know, the place where they wipe his memory?) ((its jason))
the memory machine turns off, nat slips into the room and jason sees her and says "hey, can you fuckin' tase this guy?"
and she does, happily
anyway, jason is red hood, and they figure that out but he's also, like, so much younger than they expected? like this guy cannot legally drink
so they're getting him out and may or may not run into some bats, who may or may not be there for jason
and the avengers may or may not refuse to hand him over (bc nat thinks jason is afraid of batman and she doesn't like that) ((she doesn't like batman, bc that's a guy who raises what are, in her eyes, child soldiers))
anyway it may or may not turn into a custody battle between batman and the avengers
#bc im convinced hydra would try to turn jason into another winter soldier yknow#bc if anyone could figure out he's a guy that came back from the dead its them#anyway#hopefully ill actually write it#kindlingkeen#ily thanks for asking about it!#ask game#my fic!!#technically
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devastating: the good fic that ends on a cliffhanger and will never update
#see also: the good fic that last updated a year after the original media's release#I'm not gonna write for the fuckjng gay werewolves fandom. Im not. Im stronger than that#.... I am not in fact stronger than that. however because it already has werewolves I cant go off the wall on worldbuilding#gotta have at least some basis in canon for my wellbeing but also I hate how they do werewolves in canon#so like.... canon expansion ig#I also. dont have a specific plot idea. because typically my plot ideas go “canon but werewolves” and uh#idk what to do when canon is... already... werewolves...#like do I just expand on the Boy (like everyone does because he's absolutely the best)?#theres this semi-recent fic I liked the concept of that I could borrow the general idea of ig but like. idk how Id do that#its pretty much just taking canon and going “nothing has been fixed they're all werewolves” and then expanding the werewolf lore#like. I can do that! I can expand upon some cool friendships and explore the inevitable werewolf related trauma#just. maybe slight more nerdiness and slightly less abo dynamics#(the thing Im most disappointed about is that when they said “were like captive wolves” noone said “oh dear god life is omegaverse now”)#like. I can see dylan or abi being in fandom spaces. tbh I can also see jacob in fandom spaces but he needs to be pushed into exploring tha#also. yknow. less weird about it. just lean aggressively on the “beast within” thing and the Creature vibes#((everyone trying to sneak up on dylan. who is apparently the tallest. to give him scritches. as vengence for him giving them all scritches#((they uh. dont manage it for the first while. what with the entire wolfdog superhearing bit))#(((they would get him eventually tho. kaitlyn gets him first bc I like their friendship most)))
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*holding your face in my hands* listen- listen- Usopp's Snake Fireworks are not canon. They are not canon. I know that. You know that. We all know that.
But what if- and hear me out now- what if I gave him them anyway
#one piece#usopp#hebi hanabi#snake fireworks#nemotime#this struck me as i was trying to figure out certain logistics in a fic#did i write a whole thing to justify myself using Snake Fireworks in future fics?? yes. yes i did. not here. but i did.#if anyone doesnt wanna search the wiki about this and doesnt care about the Stampede movie. pls ask#i would love to have an excuse to share about the beloved snake fireworks#like. im just. god. how can you show me such an amazing pop green that shows the trust usopp has in luffy#that COULD show the trust he has in his other crewmates. and then. not have it be canon. are you kidding#its RIGHT THERE pls i am BEGGING oh my god#i get it would put a damper on one-on-one fights but like??? mr sniper giving support to the heavy hitters??? my fucking beloved#it doesnt even have to be the monster trio man. it could be franky. or chopper. like. pls#like. its like. imagine there's an Oars scenario again. or just some bigass dude and its not about pride or honor anymore#its just about winning and surviving and aaaaaaaaaaa#in conclusion. give him his goddamn snake fireworks#fuck. i could write an essay on this if i'm not careful#not a formal one but. yknow#knowing myself im probably gonna end up writing it anyway. and probably in fic form rather than essay form dfkjghdfg#eh we'll see#not now though. bed time
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