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nemolfc · 1 year ago

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𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐬 - 𝐫𝐮́𝐛𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐬

• 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲: 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 ( 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐚𝐦 𝐢 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐧𝐨?

[ 𝐬𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫 ]

𝐬𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐚𝐟𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬

𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: 𝐚𝐦 𝐢 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐮𝐛𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝? 𝐲𝐞𝐬, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲.

previously on 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫

a few kisses later, they adjusted themselves ready to sneak out when all of a sudden they hear their names uttered with a confused tone, causing them to turn around simultaneously to find bernando standing there with a confused expression, " what -uh- .. . what is this? "

the pair stand there dumbfounded, as they are finally coming face to face with the consequence of keeping their affair a secret, now they had no choice but to admit everything.

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( now )

" you're dating him!! since when? "

to say that bernando was seething would be an understatement, he had never truly cared for rúben's dating habits, knowing well enough that it was his preference and his preference alone - yet the last thing he expected was for rúben to after her, his sister. " i ... this can't be happening " he mutters.

" nando, calm down please " ines sighs.

" no! " bernando interjects. " how can i be calm when my best friend was sleeping with my baby sister? "

ines rolls her eyes, " your baby sister is no longer a baby "

" ha! good luck getting that through his thick head " she murmurs under her breath.

bernando shot her a deadly glare, " i can’t let this relationship continue "

" nando, for the love of god she’s a grown up and rúben loves her " ines said.

" he doesn’t know a damn thing about love ines, have you not seen his past flings? " bernando said.

" ironic that you’re talking since before ines you weren’t exactly a saint " she retorts.

ines shot her a glare, silently asking her to remain quiet as she turned to her husband and said. " nando, listen … your sister, she’s not a kid anymore, she’s in her twenties and is responsible for her decision, plus the way i see it, rúben seems like he cares about her "

" no … i won’t be convinced no matter what you say " bernando ststes then turns to his sister, " if you love me, you’ll end it with rúben, because i will not sit here and watch him toy with you then throw you like you were nothing to him "

" you’re joking? do i look sixteen to you? i love rúben and so does he " she said.

" either you break it off or you’ll lose your brother " bernando said.

ines gasps, " nando what are you doing? you can’t do this to her "

" i can, when it comes to my sister, i can so … " bernando turns to her, " what will be your pick? "

her eyes gloss as she observed the determination in bernando’s eyes, " i … " she couldn’t even speak as she stormed out of their house.

ines tried to stop her yet failed to, she then turned to bernando. " i cannot believe you, she’s not a child, she’s a grown up " she cried.

" ines you don’t know rúben, ever since things ended with april, he hasn’t been the same — he sees women as a mere way to pass time and i won’t let my sister become a notch on that belt of his " bernando states.

ines sighs, she reached for her phone to try and call her yet to no avail, she just hoped that she won’t do anything stupid, and boy was she in for a treat.

that night, rúben was in his kitchen when the sound of the doorbell interrupted his train of his thoughts, confused — he made his way to the door to check; with a broad smile, he opens the door and was about to greet her with a kiss when he noticed her dejected expression. " meu amor " he whispers.

" i’m sorry " was all she could whisper as she embraced him, " i’m sorry, i’m sorry … "

to say he was confused would be an understatement, he shuts the door then leads her into the kitchen while she continued to sob quietly — he grabs a glass and fills it with water then hands it to her. " what’s wrong baby? "

once she was able to calm down and even her breath, " rúbes, i’m … i’m sorry "

" for what? why are you apologizing? " rúben was both confused and concerned over her.

she inhaled then exhaled before she blurted out, " we need to break up! "

his eyes widen, " pardon? " he whispers.

" i’ve fallen out of love with you " she said with a shaky voice. " so … we need to save ourselves and end this "

he chuckles dryly, " you can’t be serious "

" i am … i’m sorry rúben " she whispers with glossy eyes, " i’m really sorry "

before he can even manage a response, he watches with an aching heart as she departed his home that night, signifying the very end to their love story, the love he knew he wouldn’t feel again with anyone.

since that night, things have shifted yet not to a brighter note — rúben’s performance on the pitch had seemingly declined, so much so that he’d begun getting subbed off at halftime, often times not even considered for a match; if he did, he’d end up either fighting a player or violently arguing with an official much to the dismay of pep who had given him a few weeks off to sort himself out.

suffice to say, that didn’t work as well.

he had shifted into a completely other person which arose concern in his teammates, john had brought it up during training, " have you guys noticed how off rúben has been? "

jack shrugs, " not really, he seems normal to me "

erling rolls his eyes, " you barely notice anything " he then turned to john. " what do you think happened? "

john remained silent before his eyes widen, " he must have split from that girl he said he was into? "

kevin raised a brow, " i think i’ve heard him a few times talking to her, whoever she is, he was definitely in love "

as the players conversed, bernando overheard them and frowned — could it be …? no, no. this is for the best, my sister deserves better, he shakes the negative thoughts away from his head.

during break, bernando received a message from ines, it was a candid photo of his sister who was laughing with his mother as the women were having lunch together, he smiled for a brief moment until he noticed what ines had written underneath.

i heard her crying before we sat down for lunch, figured you’d like to know 🙂

his smile falls immediately, he zooms in on the photo, noting how dejected and worn out her eyes were despite laughing alongside their mother, he shut his phone then let out a ponderous sigh just as jack sat across from him. " you alright bernando? "

" yeah i … — " bernando hesitated before shaking his head. " no, i’m not "

" i don’t suppose it has something to do with rúben and your sister " jack remarked.

" how did you …? " bernando raised a brow.

" i’m not a damn bonehead as everyone thinks i am " jack chuckles. " plus rúben didn’t exactly hide the fact that he was in love, he had her picture as his lock screen "

bernando was bemused as he said. " i don’t know if i did the right thing "

" what do you mean? " jack wonders.

" it’s complicated, let’s just say i made a mistake " bernando sighs.

that night, as bernando returned home — he walked in to find ines in the kitchen yet his sister was no where in sight, " ines, where is she? "

ines didn’t look at him, " she’s asleep, she said she didn’t want to eat "

bernando sighs, " this is the sixth time she skips dinner "

ines sighs, " i wonder why? "

bernando covers his his face, " i don’t know … i mean this is the right thing, ok? my sister deserves better "

ines turns to her husband and says, " did you ever stop to think that rúben is her better, that he’s the one for her "

"wh— no, no way? " bernando shakes his head. " you’re not serious … "

" no i’m serious because if you would have gotten your head out of your ass " ines said with an incredulous tone, " you’d see that she was actually very happy around him, and vice versa "

" how would you know? i know rúben " bernando said with a defensive tone.

" no bernando, you do not know rúben " ines said with a sigh, " you think you do but you don’t and from the looks of it you do not even know your sister "

bernando sighs, his heart twinging from the guilt he felt — " what should i do? "

" go and talk to her " ines said.

bernando was conflicted, he then decided to walk towards the guest bedroom, where he heard the strums of the guitar followed by her angelic voice singing, he hesitated the knocked on the door, and waited until a soft ' come in ' from the other side , he pushed the door open. " irmã ? " he said.

she musters up a weak smile, " hey "

he couldn’t even smile back, " are you … are you ok? "

she nods, " mhm … i’m working on a new song, how was training? "

he couldn’t believe just how detached she was, " i … it was good, we’re ready for the upcoming match "

" how’s erm … how’s everyone there? " she asked.

" everyone is good " he responded before adding, " but erm … he wasn’t there "

she nodded, " ok "

a wave of uncomfortable silence fell between them before he decided to break it, " are you ok? "

she forced a smile on her lips and nodded at his inquiry, " don’t worry nando, i’m perfectly fine "

" then why don’t you go out and eat with us? " he suggests with a soft tone.

she smiles, " i am not hungry nando, and plus you and ines need all the alone time you can get "

he sighs, " irmã … "

she raised her hand, then replied with a soft tone, " don’t worry, ok "

he nods, then stands up. " if you change your mind we’ll wait "

she nods then hums before returning back to songwriting, " ok "

bernando was devastated to say the least, the weight of his actions finally registering after the interaction he had with his sister causing him to make the decision of visiting rúben the very next day given that pep had given them the day off to rest.

bernando knocks on his front door — around five minutes later, the door opens to reveal a disheveled rúben, with his stubble crossing on to become a full beard and his hair unkempt, his eyes were bloodshot evidently from crying and the lack of sleep, " bro, what the hell is wrong with you? "

" i … uh … " rúben scrambled to find a reasonable cause before shrugging. " i lost her, i lost her " he whispers.

" you love her? " bernando asks with a surprised expression as he enters to come face to face with a messy flat.

" you probably wouldn’t believe me " rúben said with a sad smile. " but she's the first girl i’ve ever truly loved and still love "

bernando grows silent then says, " let’s just … " he sighs, " go to the bathroom and shower while i clean the flat "

" oh no … no " he shakes his head then adds on, " you’re not gonna do that "

" rúben, please … just go clean up " bernando interjects.

he grows silent then says, " alright "

bernando watched as rúben disappeared into his living room; then, he pulls his cellphone out then dials her number — " hey, i … i need to see you, i’m at rúben’s house, ok, i’ll wait for you "

around an hour later, rúben steps out feeling much more refreshed and it was then that his nostrils picked up the scent of fresh cooked food, a contrast to the disastrous junk food he was gobbling. but what captured his attention was the familiar soft voice, he froze in place —unsure whether he was imagining things or if she was really there.

he saunters outside of his bedroom and peers into the kitchen; indeed, there she was standing with bernando, being the first to notice him beamed — " hey bro, i figured we can all sit down and eat "

he stood there speechless as bernando set the table up while she stood there awkwardly, once the trio sat down together, bernando deciding to be the first one to speak. " i guess we gotta confront the elephant in the room "

she raised her brow, " nando? "

" irmã " bernando interjects, " let me finish, i … ever since you were a little girl, i had always dreamt of becoming a dad and taking care you was the closest thing i had to experience it , that’s why i’ve been harsh with you but i love you, so much that i never saw anyone worthy of my baby sister’s love until … rúben "

he sat there shocked by bernando’s words.

" nando? " she tries again.

" let me finish please " bernando said, with a shaky voice. " i’ll admit, i’ve been suffocating you this entire time thinking i was doing the right thing when in reality, i broke the hearts of two people who love each other "

she looks at rúben who was as equally as emotional as she was.

" it took me seeing you two so distressed to realize my wrong doings so … " bernando sighs. " if you really love each other, then i will not stand in the way, but " he turns to rúben. " if you break her heart, i don’t care what club we play for, i’ll hurt you "

he chuckles, " i know "

bernando then turns to her. " i’m sorry for suffocating you, for not letting you live your life and for having you secretly chase your love, i hope you can forgive me "

she embraced bernando and sobbed, " i can never be mad at you nando " she then turned to rúben and said. " i’m sorry rúben "

" it’s ok meu amor, i’m not mad " he smiles.

bernando smiles at the sight before him, " you two deserve each other and …. the first child better be named after me "

she laughs, " don’t worry, you and ines will be the godparents "

it was then that bernando realized, watching the love radiating from his sister and rúben that despite the pain and hardships, true love triumphs.

#ruben dias #ruben dias fanfiction #ruben dias fic #ruben dias fanfic #ruben dias imagine #ruben dias one shot #ruben dias fluff #ruben dias angst

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mrsjavierp · 1 year ago

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Where you belong?

Chapter 9 - I'll be your Dirty Little Secret

Javier Peña x latin!f!reader

Summary: Running away from life as you always knew to start a new position as Head Chief on a DEA Office, far away, on Colombia. There, you'll face violence, as you never thought you could. There, you'll meet Javier Peña, your stubborn agent...

Warnings (to the whole fic): +18!, angst, smut, cheating, last relationships, drug dealing - Narcos Universe (not so accurate), bad spanish, english is my second language, use of Y/N and Y/LN. No physical description of the reader, only your clothes (sometimes). The POVs are shifting between reader (first person and Narrator - 3rd person)

(If I forgot anything, tell me, pls!)

Word Count: 3.3k

A/N: Thanks for your feedback, hope you enjoy this chapter! Hope to hear from you all soon! I gotta say I'm really fucking horny for Javi lol

Narrator's POV:

“Oh, cariño, you're never off the hook, not with me.” - he responded to you, joining you in the bathtub. - “Fuck, cariño, are you trying to cook us? This water is insanely hot!”

You laughed, still feeling fuzzy.

“I like it, Javi…” - you coo.

Your bodies glue as if they were magnets. Your skin, even with hot water, crawls. He sat behind you, covering you, feeling you, getting drunk on you again.

“God, I could stay like this forever, cariño…” - he kisses the back of your neck, softly.

“Me too, Javi… Me too.” - your words come out slowly.

He notices how you melt on top of him. He is relieved that you don't seem desperate to leave him again.

His hands start to touch your waist lightly, with the tip of his fingers.

You groan, Javier smirks.

“Cariño?” - he whispers in your ear.

“Yeah?”

“You know you didn't follow my rules, do you?”

“What do you mean by that, Javi?” - you answer, clueless. You didn't recall that had just happened, your mind was still kinda foggy from all those orgasms.

His smirk grows.

“You came without my permission, cariño. I didn't forget that.”

“And what are you gonna do about it?” - you tease.

His hands started going down your body. You shiver.

“Javi…” - you try to form a sentence and fail.

“Cariño, don't make me be meaner that I intend to… Is how they say: don't do the crime if you can't do the time.” - his hands are on your thighs, avoiding where you need them the most.

“Oh, fuck… But Ja-javi, I-I-I warned you…” - you try to argue, your voice barely came out.

He laughed.

“It wasn't yours yet to take, cariño…” - One of his fingers got inside of you, without any warning. - “You're mine now, cariño.” - A second finger enters.

You bite a moan.

“I wanna hear you, cariño. No more denying what's mine from me, I already told you that. I hate repeating myself.” - his tone was serious and he put in a third finger.

“Holy shit, Javier!” - you exclamate. He barely let you get used to his fingers before he put them inside of you one by one.

His smile is growing by the second.

“That's what I wanted to hear…” - his other hand went to your throbbing clitoris, circling on. - “I know you can be a good girl, cariño. You just needed me to help you get there…”

“Javi, please, I'm still sensitive from all of it, I w-won’t be able to ho-hold…” - you didn't want him to stop, but let you come without any permission. Your legs closed, trying to figure out how to obey him.

“Cariño, I know, that's why it's a punishment.” - his tone was so… Arrogant. The hand on your clitoris circled a little faster. - “If you start to get closer, tell me, okay?”

“Javier, for God's sake!” - you yell again.

“Your pussy is hugging my fingers so tight, I already miss you on my dick, cariño.”

Your mind is still foggy. Javier seemed delighted to see you so… So his. His cariño, his baby girl.

A couple minutes later, you held on the bathtub’s rim and yelled, mixing English and Spanish, to Javier have mercy on you.

He smiled widely and responded:

“Promise me that you're not leaving me again, that you're mine…” - his circular motions on your clitoris got even harder and faster. - “Promise me!”

“I promise, Javi!” - you yell.

“Oh, do you? Are you sure, cariño?” - Javier mocked you.

“Yes, Javier, I do! Please, please let me!”

“Let you what, cariño? Use your words.” - he continued in a ruthless rhythm.

“Javier, for crying out loud, let me come!” - you yell so loud you're sure someone heard you.

Not that any of you cared per say. You can't remember the last man who made you shake like that.

You can feel Javier's smirk behind you.

“I don't know if I believe you, cariño…”

“Javier, I swear to God…” - you manage to respond.

“You can come, cariño.” - he whispered, like music to your ears.

You come hard, squirting in the bathtub, still holding the rim.

You come screaming Javier's name.

And Javier, at that moment, could die a happy man.

You both took an actual bath, after. And one that cleans you.

After a few minutes, you both get out, get dry and go to bed.

As you both walk naked back to your room, Javier asked:

“Do you mind if I sleep here, cariño?”

“Peña, for the fucking love of God, you just fucked my throat and pussy and you're asking if we can sleep together?”

“Of course I am!” - he said, as he joined you in the bed. - “It's your bed, your room, your apartment…” - he leaned towards you and his mouth right next to your ear. One arm held you close to him and the other held your pussy, cupping her. - “But you belong to me, cariño. And this pussy is mine. I'm not letting you run away again.”

You tremble under his hands.

“Javi…”

He had a smile on his voice, you could feel it.

“I love when you call me, you know?

“Oh, yeah?” - you moan.

“Yes, cariño. When you do it, it confirms where you belong.” - he whispered, in a way that made you shake under him. - “Yes, cariño." - he repeated. - “You belong here. Don't forget about your promise.”

“Javi, I won't…” - you managed to respond.

“Good to know, cariño. Buenas noches, Hermosa.”(Good night, beautiful.)

“Good night, Javi.” - you respond.

He kisses you lightly and you both pass out.

***

You wake up alone in your bed.

Fuck, it was payback for leaving him… God, I'm so stupid... - you thought

But then, you smell coffee from your kitchen.

You get up naked, without realizing it and walk towards the smell.

Javier was wearing only his boxers, preparing coffee on your machine.

He turns to you, with a wide smile and a lustful look in his eyes.

“Good morning, cariño.”

He hugs you and feels you against skin. You're so soft.

“Good morning, Javi… I thought you left without saying goodbye.”

“I couldn't do that to you… Not before coffee.” - he jokes. - “Let's have it… I think it's ready.”

He served you and poured himself some in your white mugs. You both drink it, sharing an intimate glance.

“God, that was good, Javi. Future coffee duties are your responsibility in my apartment.” - you smile at him.

He seems genuinely happy to share that moment. His free hand went to your cheek and fondled you.

“Cariño, it's still early… Do you mind serving me breakfast?”

“Sorry, I didn't get it, Javi… You want to eat something?”

“Yes, cariño. Sit on the table and open your legs, please. I'd like to have your pussy as my first meal.”

You look at him, in disbelief.

“We don't have all day, cariño. Go ahead.” - he sat down, waiting.

With your still very much naked body, you sat down in front of him, just like he said.

Javier devoured your cunt as a starved man.

Again.

***

Walking back into his office with a huff, carrying a file with some information on one of Pablo’s Sicarios, he hands it to Steve, who sits at the desk in front of his.

“Got this from the FBI’s archive.” - and hands it to Steve. - “Seems that our boy Luiz is more than just a sicario, look.”

Steve passes through the file, interested.

“God, I need coffee.” - he complains. - “You and your lady friend didn’t let anyone sleep in the fucking building…” - he mocked.

Javier looked at Steve, with his eyes widened.

“What the fuck, Murphy?”

He laughed.

“Dude… You should really keep it down. Seriously. Our boss is our neighbor, if Connie was here, she’d kick my and your ass. Stop this kind of shit.”

Javier stared at him, without saying any words. You both were actually really fucking loud. Seconds later, the phone on his desk starts to ring.

“Agente Peña.” - he picked up.

“Hello, you…” - you say to him, in a sexy tone.

You’re looking through your office window, as Javier’s posture flinches. He’s not expecting you to be this bold at work. He knows you’re really uptight about these things.

Javier clears his throat and tries to put on his usual stoic act.

“What do you want?”

“Not saying my name, pretending to be annoyed so as not to alarm Steve… You’re better at sneaking around than I thought, Javi.”

“You know me so well… What do you need this time?” - Javier responded, ironically.

Steve looked at him, confused.

“You, Javi. I need you. This morning wasn’t enough… Come here to my office.”

He looked at your window, observing your sly smile.

“Well, that certainly gets my attention. I’ll be there in a bit… You should know I’m in a terrible mood, I did not get much sleep last night” - he teases you in the same annoyed tone.

Steve looked at him, shocked.

“And that’s your fault… You barged into my place, did you forget about it?”

“I didn’t forget. I’ve been remembering every minute of it.”

“Oh, you've been remembering?” - you're a little surprised.

“I certainly have…” - Javier tries to hold back a smirk.

“Control your face, Javi. No one can know about us… Not even Steve.” - you recall him.

“I may not be able to do it if you keep talking to me like that.” - his tone is serious, but you know what he actually meant.

“Stop it…” - you laugh.

“You’re the one who called, you stop it!” - his tone sounded harsh, but his eyes on you were full of lust.

You’re both having so much fun with all that teasing.

“That’s true, I did… So stop fooling with me and come to my office, Javi.” - you whisper.

Javier holds back a smile and respond:

“I’m on my way.” - he hangs up.

He gathers some random files, to help him disguise his visit to your office. As he does it, Steve asks:

“Hey, where you going?”

“Y/LN’s office.”

“Good luck and I hope she doesn't kill you...” - Steve snorted.

Javier rolled his eyes and knocked on your door.

“Come in.” - you tell him, in your normal voice.

Peña stepped in, closing the door behind him.

Without looking at him, reading a file in front of you, you demand:

“Lock the door and close the blinds, Peña…” - the same cold tone that hid all your arousal.

His face holds a smug grin, anxious.

You get up, look at him, sit on your desk, as he is across the small office, after he closed the blinds.

He stared at you, you can tell he's holding back his urge to pull you into his embrace.

“Did you miss me?” - you teased Javi.

He gives up on the little self control he's got and comes closer to where you're sitting on the desk. His fingers softly moves along your legs and then your back, as he leaned down your ear and whisper:

“I did, cariño…”

“I missed you too.” - you coo. - “I know it’s not like me to act like this while we’re at work, but… I can’t think about anything else besides how you ate me up on my kitchen table…”

Javi smiled like a kid on Christmas morning. He pulled you closer, kissing your neck before leaning his head back, breathing in your scent.

“I don’t see how that could possibly be a bad thing… I was looking forward to doing a replay of that for the entire day, I couldn’t think of anything else… Oh fuck, you smell so good… Please don’t tell me it’s the same fucking perfume you used in the first night we’ve got together…”

“Okay, I won’t tell you…” - you respond, with a sly smile.

“Fuck, you’re gonna kill me, cariño…” - he whispers and kisses you passionately.

The way he touches you is so addictive.

“Oh damn, you’re wearing that shirt that smells like me… The one from the first night…” - you observed.

Javier chuckled.

“I thought it’d be perfect for today… It smells like you and you’re all I can think about.”

“No one noticed, right?” - you question him, kinda afraid. - “Not even Steve? You know we have to be careful…”

“Calm down, Agente Y/LN.” - he said. - “Steve didn’t notice, I’m sure he thinks we’re arguing. Changing the subject a little, to help you relax, I was thinking…” - Javier starts, as his hands move to the flounce of your dress and slowly lifts it. - “We could go on a date tonight, would you like it?” - His hands go to your pussy, to find out that you’re not wearing panties. - “What a dirty girl, cariño… You forgot about wearing panties, when you picked this dress today?”

“I’m not Agente Y/LN for you and I’m not providing evidence against myself to you, Agente Peña…” - you mumble, as he felt how slippery your pussy was, so wet for him already.

“Oh, you’re not, Agente Y/LN? Interesting…” - he coats your folds, moving his fingers as you slightly open your legs and and looks at him.

“Oh, fuck…” - you moan almost inaudibly. - “It’s no-not ‘Agente Y/LN’ for you, Peña… It’s Jefe Y/LN.” - you answer.

“Oh, I’m sorry.” - he pretends to be remorseful, as his index finger teased your hole. You know he’s not sorry. - “Jefe Y/LN, tell me…”

“Ye-yeah, Peña?”

“Did you or did you not forget your panties on purpose this morning, so you could mess around with me?”

You moan, looking at Peña’s smirk. Sometimes, you wish to punch and kiss his face at the same time.

He inserts his index finger on you, slowly, torturing you.

“Yes, I did.” - you confess, between moans.

Javier’s smile grows and he puts his middle finger.

“That’s it, cariño… I just wanted the truth.” - he responded to your confession. His fingers continued to work and you could feel your orgasm building on your gut. Javier seemed to know your body better than any man who ever touched you.

“Oh, Javi!” - you moan softly. - “That’s so good, keep going.” - you demand.

“Do you think you can demand anything in your position, cariño?” - He asked. His voice was arrogant as usual. - “No, cariño, I’m done with you calling the shots for the past few weeks. It’s my turn now.” - he toys with your pussy for a bit more and takes off his fingers.

“You’re mean, Peña.” - you groan, missing his touch.

He smirks, looking deep in your eyes. Without saying a word whatsoever, he pulls you off the table and spins you, so you turn your back on him. He lifts the remaining fabric covering your ass and slaps you.

“Fuck!” - you hiss. - “What are you doing, Peña?”

You hear his belt opening and zipper going down.

“Giving you what you asked for, but in my way.” - answer. - “Hold on the desk, cariño.”

You obey, as he slides into you, with his big fat dick.

Javier’s hands traveled, one tapping your mouth and the other on your throbbing clitoris, circling it fast.

He bit your flash, to shut him up and not alarm what was going on behind your office’s doors.

Both of you came just a few minutes later, holding back all your noises.

Gasping for air and tucking himself into his pants, Javier asks:

“So, I pick you up at 8?”

“Yeah, knock on my door at 8h… But where are we going, Javi?” “Será una sorpresa, cariño.” (It’ll be a surprise) - he said.

At 8 PM sharp, Javier knocks on your door, wearing that black leather jacket that fits his broad shoulders, black pants, boots and button shirt. He was sweating, but had nothing to do with the weather: that night was, surprisingly, a bit chilly.

You opened the door, with a big smile on your face. His eyes widened when he noticed your pretty dress: a bit different from your work clothes, your dress was short, loose and white, hugging your waist and loose in your hips.

You two, as a couple, were almost a Yin and Yang picture.

“You’re gorgeous, cariño.” - Javier recognized.

“Thanks, Javi… You’re not so bad on the eyes yourself.” - you respond. - “Wanna come in for a drink?”

“As much as I’d love to, I’d rather just go… I’ve got no self control, cariño.”

“Okay, lead the way, Javi. I’m quite curious.”

* Javier takes you to a bar downtown, however, he didn’t know that was a reggaeton dancing night. You insisted on staying, as you were eager to see him dancing.

A few drinks later, you begun your plan:

“Come on, Javier! You’re Tex-Mex… You’re telling me you can’t dance?” - you tease him.

“It isn’t a can’t, it’s a won’t dance.” - he rolled his eyes.

“Oh yeah? Let’s see.” - And you simply get up and start dancing by yourself, luring looks.

Javier was astonished at how bold you were… Your body moved sensually and naturally as the music played.

A random guy tried to approach you, inviting you dancing, and the fire from Javier’s desire turned into a sea of jealousy flames.

As you’re about to turn the guy down gently, Javier finished his drink in one sip and he scared the guy off.

“I thought you weren’t dancing with me, Javi.” - you whisper in his ear, provoking him again.

His hands pulled your hips to touch his, leading you to dance with him. To your surprise, Javier was actually a good dancer. He spins you, making you stay at the same position he fucked you earlier, but with all those clothes dividing you.

“Well, I wasn't, to be honest… But you’re something else, cariño.”

Javier's voice was so full of desire… Since your ex, you couldn’t remember the last time he or any other did that to you. Javier not only expressed you by using words, but by showing you, touching you.

“Oh my God, Javi… You’re making it so hard…”

“Hard?” - he asked.

“Hard for me to resist you.”

He spinned you, so you could look at him. His eyes were warm, burning for you. At that moment, it felt like only the two of you were there, at the bar, with those sexy reggaeton songs playing.

“Why are you still holding back, cariño?” - he asked, in a tone that made you feel something else in your chest. He wasn't demanding, he wasn't angry. He wanted to understand you, make you feel comfortable with him. One hand was on your waist, holding you against him and the other fondled your face, not letting you look away. You could feel his big body embracing you, holding you firmly, not in a way as if you were fragile, but as if you were precious.

“Javi…” - your voice was nothing more than a whisper. - “How about we continue this somewhere more private? We can go back home… My place or yours?”

“Yours, cariño… Let's go.”

***

Arriving at your place, you both are a bit nervous, not knowing exactly what to say or how to begin an awkward conversation.

“Care for a drink, Javi?” - you ask him, while serving you one more shot of whiskey,

“Sure. Neat, please.”

“My kind of man…” - you joke, smiling and handing him the drink.

You toast, in silence.

“So…” - you start. - “Are we gonna talk about the elephant in the room or not?”

“Well… We can do it, of course. But if you don't wanna do it right now, it’s okay…”

“We kinda have two options: we could actually talk about it or we could do something more… Interesting, per say…”

“I’m listening, cariño…” - Javier lifted his chin and eyebrows, his eyes full of lust, his mind going through possibilities on what you both could do.

You just look at him with a mischievous smile, not responding to him verbally, also fantasizing all the things you’d wanted to do, without knowing how to begin.

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faeskiss · 9 months ago

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THE EPIPHANY

note: an AU fic where the trials don’t exist, zaros and earis are on good terms ( zaros is DOWN BAAAADDDD for the earis)

synopsis; The earis realises they are in love with zaros!

The weather outside is rather sweet, a bit sombre, Serullian rain is always beautiful, and you are it’s biggest admirer,everyone knows how much you adore the gloom of the skies and the soft chill of the air

You find yourself standing on the sheltered platform surrounding the royal garden, your head is resting on the pillar as you gape at the wondrous sight before you, your heart full and content

The flowers look vibrant and alluring, almost as if the droplets have replenished their colour, the leaves look alive with greenery, the same dazzling green that reminds you of Zaros’s eyes, his eyes, they feel safe, home, the remind you of home, you feel a soft wave of calm crash against your heart leaving you with a gentle smile

There are rumours, oh so many rumours of what people think is going on between the two of you

Many think you two are caught up in some secret affair; some are absolutely certain he’s madly in love with you, the latter belief began when you both were just teenagers

It would be nice to say, with full confidence of course that you don’t believe the rumours and you don’t, mostly don’t, the thing is, you’re not entirely convinced that the talk about him being in love with you is false

There’s been a noticeable shift in your relationship, the way he speaks to you is sweeter, whenever he meets your gaze you cannot help but notice his green eyes gleaming with a certain desperation..whenever he hugs you he makes sure to linger and his heartbeat feels faster, every time the two of you dance he pulls you closer, closer than ever before

No matter how hard you try, you can not forget the way he was flirting with you a few months ago, it was reckless, desperate and worst of all, it made your chest flutter, your heartbeat quick and made it immensely hard to focus on anything but the thought of his lips for the next few days, torture is an understatement to describe that experience

Much to your surprise the flirting didn’t stop there, it only grew more and more, every gaze, every word, every time your skin accidentally brushes against his, you can feel the tension consuming you whole, so much so you wonder that one day it might just kill you

“I knew I’d find you here”

A familiar voice creeps up at you, lost in your own daze, you failed to notice Zaros’s footsteps approaching you

“Hello Zaros!” you greet him with a cool smile trying your very best to hide your nerves

“Are you alright? You look a little-“ he asks

“I’m fine! it’s just a bit cold that’s all” you interrupt him

You give him an assured smile as if you weren’t absolutely losing your sanity over him a few moments ago

Suddenly you feel a warm cloth being draped over you, you turn to face him but he’s too busy enveloping you in his cape

“Zaros you didn’t need-“

“Shh, we don’t need the future eminence of Serulla catching a cold now do we my sweet, sweet Earis?” He hums in a hushed voice

There’s that devilish smile again and it doesn’t fail to bring a swarm of butterflies in your stomach that probably won’t leave any time soon

“So do you have a date to the charity ball next week?” He asks

“No, not yet” You reply

“Good” He smirks

“Why?” You add in an annoyed manner

A sudden gush of an icy breeze flows in your direction, your hair sways with the wind, leaving a few strands displaced

He steps closer in your direction and tucks a few strands of hair behind your ear as he says

“Because I’m taking you to the ball, so be ready” his voice is hushed and soft, his eyes gleam with that same desperation, the warmth of his touch reverberates through your entire body making your knees grow weak, and it’s all made worse by that feverishly flirty look on his face

That’s when the realisation hits you and you realise how deep your desire runs for him, you lied to yourself everyday hoping this feeling would go away, but it didn’t and it won’t, you finally realise that you’re in love with your best friend.

#sakuverse #zsakuva #zsakuva zaros #zaros #zaros x reader #zaros atha’llin #this was very rushed #I’m sorry if this sucks😭#miss my husband so much🙏

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rainparadefromhell · 2 years ago

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How Never Have I Ever Uses Music to Hint at the Future

I’ve always loved the way music tells a story, especially in movies and tv shows. These things usually go unnoticed unless you’re a college student trying to ignore homework on a Tuesday afternoon. I have been aware that NHIE has been whispering a secret story through its soundtrack for a while now but never had time to actually compile it into one monster of a post. So I’m doing it now!

This is where I try to convince you that the show has been hinting at Devi ending up with Ben all the way since season one. There are over 100 songs in the official soundtrack and of course, I can’t go through them all so I’ll just stick with the most important moments from all three seasons and lyrics that I think encapsulate the core message of the songs.

SEASON 1

The Pilot – Introductions

Paxton’s intro song (Dancing On My Own – Robyn) makes a lot of sense for both characters. It talks about trying hard to get someone’s attention and failing at it. It is a song with a dramatic, pulsating beat that plays over Paxton’s big entrance into Devi’s class.

I'm in the corner, watching you kiss her, oh

I'm right over here, why can't you see me? Oh

I'm giving it my all, but I'm not the girl you're taking home, ooh

I keep dancing on my own (I keep dancing on my own)

Ben is introduced with a softer melody (Rubia – Juan Wauters). It is in Spanish, a language I don’t speak as well so I won’t try to translate it but I will leave you with this Pitchfork review of it written by Steven Arroyo :

“Rubia” still succeeds wonderfully on these terms, a longing love letter to someone with a memorable nose in a far-away country…

Te guardo un lugar en mi corazon

No quiero irme, chequeo hora son

Me iré pensando que

Muy pronto contigo yo estaré

There is an important moment near the end of the episode when Devi goes to talk to Paxton (and asks him to have sex with her) in which Playing Games by Anna of the North plays.

I've been playing games with your heart

Left you thinking in the dark

Just to make you feel unsure

Then I know you want me more

This whole song is very interesting to me. The singer seems to describe a situation in which she has the upper hand in a relationship.

I’ve been playing games with your heart, so I know I’ve made my mark is a lyric I think perfectly shows Devi’s desire to enter a relationship. It is not because she actually likes Paxton. In fact, she doesn’t even know him yet. I think it tells of Devi’s reasons to have a boyfriend – to make a mark not just on him but the school, and her peers as well. She wants to stop being “invisible” as to somehow regain some power over her situation in s1 (the death of Mohan) as well as distract herself from it.

Episode 2

The song Dancing on The Limit (by Prizes) plays as Devi dreams of Paxton coming into her room to have sex with her. It is the first “love song” of Devi and Paxton which I find genius since it doesn’t actually depict reality.

I'm never gonna quit it

Back in love within a minute

We're dancing on the limit

But I love the way you're making me move

It is a fantasy, something Devi feels when she imagines what would be like to be Paxton’s girlfriend.

Episode 6

In Ben’s episode we get so much more insight into who he is, and not just that shell of an obnoxious overachiever he built for himself. We also get insight into his feelings for Devi when he is having dinner with the Vishwakumars where after choosing not to “nuke her back”, he actually has a fun time with her family as the song (Call Me by Sarah Rebecca) in the background goes :

Call me angel, I could save you

I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you

At the very end of the episode when Devi Venmos Ben so that he never has to “accept food from a pedo again” another love song can be heard (Lost – Boy Harsher).

I’m the one that holds you

In the middle of the night

I'm the one that wants you

Forever til we die

Episode 7

In this episode Devi and Paxton kiss for the first time to Fire For You by the Cannons which at first seems like a really sensual song… until you actually read the lyrics.

I could've died for you

How could you not know?

I was alive with you

But you brought in the cold

Was I being lied to? Wish I never met you

Started to regret you

Episode 10

Boys Like You - Kids at Midnight

We’ve reached my favorite NHIE song. I love the synths. I love the 80s vibe. I love everything about it (No wonder why that Malibu kiss got an MTV nomination).

Certainly the most interesting thing about this song playing during this scene is right as the camera lowers on Devi’s phone, we cut to Paxton leaving a voicemail with these lyrics in the background :

She said, "Boys like that should be in second place”

Now do with that what you will but this is the most intentionally placed lyric in season 1, in my opinion.

I know it hurts right now, one day you'll realise

There's no need to hide yourself from the world

All my life I've been hiding myself

Just waiting for a boy like you

SEASON 2

Episode 8

In the scene we see Devi apologize to Ben about the cheating when the song Up All Night by The Undercover Dream Lovers starts playing. The song is seemingly about second chances and not letting someone go. I thought the theme of driving was interesting considering Malibu.

Caught up on the freeway

You test my patience all the time

Find another exit, ooh

Blocking you from mine

Episode 9

Heat Waves – Glass Animals

During Paxton and Devi’s kiss Heat Waves plays and I have to admit the song as well as the scene are amazing. However, I’ve seen this song misunderstood by Daxton fans so much, probably due to the scene trending (mostly on TikTok where people enjoy quick content without much context).

The writer of the song, David Bayley says this about what it means, mentioning another song called Your Love : “They're both definitely two of the songs that are about relationships and sort of knowing that they're doomed,"

Bayley uses the term Heat Wave to represent an illusion of a highway mirage (the air that rises off asphalt on extremely hot days making it seem like the road is wet).

So the love that the writer describes is just like the heat waves – an illusion.

Now I gotta let you go

You'll be better off in someone new

I don't wanna be alone

You know it hurts me too

You look so broken when you cry

One more and then I say goodbye

Episode 10

GOLDEN – Running ; Ben comes into the girls bathroom to try and make Devi feel better after she is rejected by Paxton. As he is saying “When are you gonna to realize that that dick doesn’t deserve you” the lyrics playing are :

But I get these feelings

That I can't explain

It’s in my veins

being the underdog all the time

Hello Pongo – Summer Love

Another love song that plays when Ben and Devi see each other at the dance.

I've been lookin,

for you my summer love

forever summer love

Sam Smith – Love Goes

This song is – do you wanna guess? Not a love song. It is a sad one.

I hope you understand that I have to send you away

You may not understand, but I know that you will one day

You're broken, I know this

And if you knew it, you would love me a whole different way

But that's how love goes, goes

I also think it’s funny how just as Devi and Paxton are about to slow dance the DJ plays a different, more upbeat song which tells us they aren’t really that compatible with each other. They just never manage to catch that love song!

I wonder if season 4 brings us a Ben and Devi slow dance…

SEASON 3

Episode 1

Josha Daniel – Dream of You ; We finally get something close to a love song for Daxton in the first scene of season 3 even though it it pretty vague and repetitive.

We are never gonna waste our time again

I can't sleep when i dream of you

Ilo Ilo – Clementine ; Devi and Paxton almost have sex

Clementine

Trying to erase you from my spotless mind

Hit fast-forward but I'm stuck in rewind

Episode 3

Afternoon Bike Ride – Before The Fall ; Devi tells Nalini she and Paxton broke up

After an autumn of ends lеd to silence

Winters cloak covered the tracks of the tyrants

Spring couldn't bring on the promise of June

With no voice to sing and nothing to bloom

I found the mention of June interesting even if it wasn’t intentional because it almost seems like an answer to Heat waves (Sometimes, all I think about is you, Late nights in the middle of June).

Mel Blue – Finding You; Ben tells Fabiola Devi broke his heart

I lost you love

You lost you too

I lost myself

I’m finding you

Episode 5

Carla Morrison – Eres tú ; Ben and Devi say goodbye to each other after their bet at the coffeehouse

(I found a translation for this one)

Today I woke up wanting to kiss you

I have a thirst to caress you

Entangle myself with you and not let you go

You're so intoxicating

It's you

Episode 10

“Because I’ll miss you. A lot.”

“Wait. There’s the stomach knots.”

Jaguar Sun – Car Keys

Oh, how you've grown

Look back now

And move on

Don't worry, about a thing

Just grab those car keys

And drive into the rain

Another song involving cars, driving… I’m starting to think all of this makes sense! Also I love how the song mentions growth because Devi did grow so much in season 3.

Prinze George – Take off

Saw you in the living room

You were wild with light and I wanted you

Tried to do the woman thing

I was eager, young and abandoning

I would force you to love me

I would force you to stay

I would force you to love me

I would stand in your way

And you can't take off without me now

After Boys Like You this has to be my favorite NHIE song. It also has an 80s vibe to it and the two songs feel very much connected in my mind. The lyrics talk about standing in a lover’s way. Preventing them from leaving you and closing that chapter of their life.

I am still in your way

This lyric that appears later in the song shows that after everything that happened to them in season 4, they are still in each other’s way. They can’t forget about each other even after actively pursuing other people.

After analyzing so many songs, I really have to give credit to the show. Most of these were chosen so carefully to fit certain moments. You can really tell the show was made with a lot of intention and love, at least soundtrack wise.

As far as proving who the main couple (endgame couple, whatever you wanna call it) in season 4 is, to me that is pretty obvious even without the support of the soundtrack. I’m very curious about the songs we’ll get to hear in the new season and I also wonder if we will hear some old ones again.

Let me know what you think!

#never have i ever #never have i ever netflix #never have i ever season 4 #nhie #nhie s4 #nhie netflix #ben gross #devi vishwakumar #benvi #ben x devi #music analysis

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ash-and-books · 2 years ago

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Rating: 3/5

Book Blurb: To exonerate her best friend, one woman must mastermind a jewelry heist during the wedding of the season in this hilarious romantic-comedy caper from the author of The Dating Plan. Simi Chopra is on a bad-luck streak. She’s lost yet another job, her student loan debt won’t stop growing, her basement apartment is a certifiable flood zone, and now her best friend has been accused of stealing a multimillion-dollar diamond necklace. To put it lightly, she’s desperate for a break—that’s right when Jack waltzes out of the bushes and into her life. Jack is just as charming as he is mysterious. When he offers to help her find the missing necklace and steal it back, Simi jumps at the chance to clear her friend’s name and collect the substantial reward. But every good heist needs a crew. All she needs to do is transform a ragtag group of strangers into an elite heist crew, infiltrate a high-society wedding and steal the necklace from a dangerous criminal before the happy couple say "I do." Meanwhile the bride is keeping secrets, a detective with a slow-burn smile keeps showing up at her door, and the ultimate robbery might not be the wedding con, but the way Jack is stealing her heart.

Review:

When your best friend gets framed for stealing a priceless jewel whats a girl to do than set up a jewelry heist, become a fake wedding planner, and possibly fall for a very charming and mysterious thief in order to exonerate her? Simi Chopra lives a pretty mundane life, she tends to lose her jobs, her student debt is growing, and her best friend has just been accused of stealing a multimillion-dollar diamond necklace. Simi is ready to just break into the museum and try and get her friend out whens he is suddenly taken into a bush by a very handsome and mysterious stranger named Jack who says he did it to help her avoid getting arrested and says that he can help her find the missing necklace and steal it back but he wont tell her why or how he knows all this. The first thing they’ll need to do is get a heist crew together. Soon Simi finds herself befriending the most unlikely people, pretending to be a wedding planner and planning the wedding of a mob boss’s daughter... and dealing with the feelings she has for Jack. Jack is full of secrets but she can’t. help but feel drawn in, yet can their relationship really work when she knows so little about him? Can she save her friend and pull of the ultimate heist or was it doomed to fail from the start? This was a pretty good rom com, it felt a bit all over the place but it was interesting and it had some fun moments. I do enjoy a heist and the romance was very light but thats okay. I enjoyed the assortment of characters in the heist crew too. Overall, if you enjoy rom com heist then give this a go!

*Thanks Netgalley and Berkley Publishing Group, Berkley for sending me an arc in exchange for an honest review*

#book review #bookish #book #to have and to heist

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ruminate88 · 7 months ago

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High Stress Cortisol??

08/16/24

Aside from the dopamine hits, the stress my ex Andrew brought me was frustrating and hurtful… All I wanted was to spend time. I felt I loved him so much but he was bread crumbing me and yet he loved the attention I gave him too. College was his main focus and excuse every time he ignored me…

Whenever he couldn’t spend time with me it was, “Oh I have to study.”, “Oh I have a meeting”, “oh im mentoring freshman at the library.” Or he was at the frat house and claimed how stressed out and tired he was… I noticed he partied A LOT. He would send me selfies from the frat house but yet he was always sitting by himself…. Weird. He never included any of his bros or his lil bro. 😝

and I just felt like he kept me soooo secretive!! It was hurtful cuz I was trying to incorporate him into my life. I tried so hard!!

When it was time for him to take his finals, WOW. He was a monster 🤪 All he talked about was “I’m gonna fail” and “I have to study or I’m gonna fail.” I would say the most encouraging things I could think to say to this man and he would not receive it and make me feel like becuase I wasn’t in college, that I did not understand him….

Also, I would be trying to send him loving messages and spend time but he would cry, “I have to focus!!” SOOOOO, I would get upset and disappointed and say to him, “If you’re too stressed, I don’t wanna cause you more stress. We can take a break and you can focus on your finals.” I OFFERED HIM SPACE despite my disappointment and frustration and he would cry, “You’re making it worse!!!” Wow…. I told him, “I’m trying so hard to help you!!” Ugh 😣

NOTHING helped that man. He was purposely making feel bad. He was purposely saying hurtful things and he wanted to upset me but wanted the attention.

WAS he really upset cuz he was afraid to fail his exams or was he upset cuz he’s got a new girl and hes hiding me from her?? Idk…. But he would get defensive that he didn’t wanna breakup and promise me he was just stressed about his finals and homework. Okay but, I would offer him space and he would say, “It’s ok… you can text me I’m just really busy.”

He was always busy 😭😭😭 and I told him over and over AND OVER he’s too busy for our relationship that he should just focus on school. I meant that out of true love for him. Even though I didn’t wanna break up, I didn’t wanna be selfish but that man is VERY selfish. The way he held me hostage in that relationship!!

Even when I found proof that he cheated on me and confronted him, he denied it, blames me for “catfishing him” and STILL makes excuses not to break up. Talks circles around me…. The day we were on the phone for 3 hours straight trying to break up but he won’t and my stomach was shaking and I was on the verge of a breakdown. I KNEW he didn’t love me but I was so confused why he would not end it with me 😭😭😭😭 he even asked for more time to think it all over 💔💔💔

Ultimately I had to end it with him but he had NO EMOTIONAL RESPONSE!! 😞😞😞 It literally felt like even though I said “it’s over” he was the one who made it real. He asked me to still be friends with him 🥴🥴 I said okay but I was stunned at his lack of emotion. It SUCKED for me and made NO SENSE at the time. (I understand more now) He ultimately stopped responding to my text and I spent the rest of the night locked in my bathroom with my fan on, crying and shaking so hard!!!!!! That boy shattered my heart.

Gosh the way he kept gaslighting me and making me crushed. I wanted him!!! I wanted to love him so wholeheartedly but it just wasn’t possible with him ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 sad but it’s life. I’ve been accepting that every day since I blocked his number. 😭😭😭💔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 one day at a time I’m getting over him and healing the wounds. It’s been a long and difficult journey but I do see light at the end of this ❤️‍🩹 I still care about what happens to him but I’ll never trust him again and I know I can’t ever let him back in cuz he’ll only continue to crush me. 😭❤️‍🩹

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5sosfanfictioncatalogue · 7 months ago

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Fic Titles That Start With K Masterlist

Karma’s a Relaxing Thought (Aren’t You Envious That for You It’s Not?) (ao3) - Anonymous luke/ashton E, 2k

Summary: Ashton sighs again, “No. It was me trying to be discreet. But I guess that failed.” He drums his fingers on his thigh in thought. “It was sexual, Luke. In fact, it was a wet dream - I had a fucking wet dream.” In his neurodivergent trainwreck of a brain, Ashton believes that truth is embarrassing. He shouldn’t feel ashamed or have any kind of negative sentiment, yet he does.

(Or where Ashton has a wet dream and tells Luke all about it. Luke makes it a reality.)

KawaiiCalPal (ao3) - TheLarryDiaries michael/calum, luke/ashton M, 25k

Summary: Calum is an adorable YouTuber known as KawaiiCalPal. He’s most known for his oversized sweaters and matching flower crowns. Also, he’s in love with the world famous punk rock band, Swallow the Goldfish. But more accurately, the lead guitarist, Michael Clifford.

Luke, Ashton, and Michael are the three band members of Swallow the Goldfish. They all happen to be jelly beans, Calum’s name for his subscribers. It’s also quite obvious that Michael believes Calum is his ‘soulmate’. It’s also remarkable as Calum is very open with his homosexuality, and love for Michael.

It really started when Calum had the opportunity to interview the band for a video.

keep these dreams (ao3) - galacticsugar luke/calum T, 5k

Summary: When Luke wakes up on Monday morning, he has a hazy memory of a dream, and he forces himself to try to remember it, to focus on the memory enough to keep it stored safely in his brain for the foreseeable future.

Because the thing is, Luke’s been having some really nice dreams lately. The kind where he has butterflies in his stomach and warmth in his chest over little touches and secret looks. It almost feels like the actual dream is happening around him and this dream person, the one who’s making him feel the butterflies and the warmth.

It’s driving him crazy, though, because the dreams are so nice, but the other person in them is a mystery to Luke.

Keep You Like an Oath (May Nothing But Death do us Part) (ao3) - carmillacadaverous (orphan_account) ot4 E, 4k

Summary: Basically Michael gets gangbanged.

Kill My Time (ao3) - Headgehog_Louis007 michael/ashton T, 1k

Summary: Ashton and Michael have been together for three months and maybe it's time for there relationship to move to the next level.

Kinky (ao3) - wastedheartmuke michael/luke M, 43k

Summary: While moving into their new apartment, Luke finds a list of kinks Michael wants to try.

Seems like vanilla sex isn’t enough for his boyfriend, but is Luke willing to try some kinky things?

kiss away young thrills (ao3) - orphan_account michael/calum N/R, 5k

Summary: (401): He’s pretending to be my boyfriend so that my family won’t bother us when we sneak off to smoke weed.

Kissing and cuddling instead of partying (ao3) - Emma_Davis680 luke/ashton, michael/calum

Summary: One night Ashton and Michael are getting drunk and Michael bets Ashton he cant sleep with Luke for $100 dollars so Ashton takes the dare. What Ashton didn’t plan on was falling in love with Luke and fucking everything up when Luke found out. Michael and Calum are totally gone for each other.

kissing at the stop signs darling (ao3) - fffearless ot4, luke/ashton T, 7k

Summary: “I think, guys,” Ashton says finally, and everyone is all ears. “We need to get away.” He gives Luke’s knee a quick squeeze. “Let me just get us some more milkshakes.”

(Or where the boys hate how boring everything is and take a self-realisation road trip to help sort it all out)

Kissing In Cars (ao3) - orphan_account luke/ashton N/R, 4k

Summary: Luke sneaks out to meet his hot senior boyfriend. Luke is not very patient.

kiss in the kitchen like it’s a dance floor (ao3) - bellawritess Michael/Calum T, 4k

Summary: Calum hums. “I could stay with you.”

Again Michael’s heart gives a lurch. “Really?”

“Yeah, why not?”

Kiss me hard before you go (ao3) - kittenmichael ot4 N/R, 2k

Summary: Ashton should’ve seen it coming really. All he wanted to do was have a write-date with Alex and John, who were not to find out about their relationship. It wasn’t something that hadn’t happened before. Usually it was no problem, the boys could survive by themselves for a day. But if one of them slipped into their headspace, it often resulted in Ashton having to put up with three baby boys.

Which is exactly how Ashton ended up on Louis’ doorstep at eight in the morning.

or, ash has work to do so louis plays babysit

Kiss Me, Kiss me (ao3) - orphan_account luke/ashton, michael/calum M, 11k

Summary: where in luke and ashton like each other and the only time they show it is when they’re on stage

“You’re just jealous that you only get to kiss Ashton when you’re on stage,” Michael retorts. Luke’s eyes widen, and he looks away from Ashton.

“N-no what. I’m straight,” Luke mumbles.

Kiss Me Like Nobody’s Watching (ao3) - simplecharli luke/ashton N/R, 24k

Summary: Luke is bullied at his high school. Enter Ashton, a guy he met at a bar and who he didn’t know was going to be his new teacher. Complications and heartbreak ensue. Will they be able to get through it?

Kiss Me On The Battlefield, Show Me What It’s Like To Feel (ao3) - senioritastyles luke/calum E, 3k

Summary: Luke was in temporary heaven, knowing the small moment of tenderness with Calum would never last but he was content for the moment. Calum had graciously given him what he wanted and removed the cock cage, leaving the ring around the base that was meant to keep Luke hard, and he’d even gone so far as to use his perfect hands and jerk Luke off very slowly so as not to overexcite him too fast. Luke was the personification of blissed out, lying on his back on the couch with Calum next to him, just this side of breathless at the feeling of being touched after so long without it.

Or: Calum plays with Luke.

Kiss me on the mouth and set me free (ao3) - 5sosismylifee michael/calum N/R, 1k

Summary: “I have an idea” He said with a kind of shock that only comes when you are surprised with yourself.

“What” Calum said, still lost in his thoughts.

“We could-we could kiss”

kiss me under the mistletoe (ao3) - mukelftv Luke/Calum T, 2k

Summary: calum comes over for some holiday fun.

kitten (ao3) - orphan_account michael/luke N/R, 1k

Summary: michael has been flirting with his new friend calum, and luke has to show him whose kitten he really is

Kneel Before The Lord (ao3) - orphan_account luke/calum, calum/niall, michael/ashton E, 101k

Summary: Calum belongs to the most religious family in town. Everyone knows about the Hoods and their habit of showing up to church every Sunday, on time. But one morning, they’re running late and that’s when Calum sees him. The blue-eyed boy, with blonde hair and black clothes sitting alone in the back of the church.

Knee Socks, Sweaters, & Kitten Boys (ao3) - KiribakuBabe michael/luke E, 5k

Summary: In all the whole of four years that Luke and Michael had been married, he’d never once let the other man know about his habit. That habit being that he loved wearing knitted knee socks around the house with nothing else on but Michael’s sweater.

That is, until he got caught…

The one where Luke loves wearing stockings whenever Michael isn’t home and then he gets caught wearing them..

#5sosfanfictioncatalogue #5sos fanfic #masterlists #ficsk #ficsk masterlist

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christian-perspectives · 1 year ago

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The Day Of Judgment Is Coming

The Lord of Heaven’s Armies says, The day of judgment is coming, burning like a furnace. On that day the arrogant and the wicked will be burned up like straw. They will be consumed—roots, branches, and all. Malachi 4:1 Will the day of judgment affect Christians? Maybe we should ask that question a different way. Should Christians be concerned about the day of judgment? After Malachi, God stopped speaking to the Israelites for about 400 years. So, with that in mind, shouldn’t we take what the Lord said to this prophet seriously? I think we should. Before we go any further, let’s talk about our faith. What should faith look like in the life of a Christian? Too many people who call themselves Christians want to keep it private or a secret. The New Testament, however, teaches something entirely different about Christianity. James makes it clear that faith doesn’t exist by itself. You say you have faith, for you believe that there is one God. Good for you! Even the demons believe this, and they tremble in terror. How foolish! Can’t you see that faith without good deeds is useless? James 2:19-20 Some versions say, “Faith without works is dead.” In other words, faith can’t stand alone. Our works and actions will confirm our commitment to the Lord. Malachi mentioned something of that nature when he spoke about the coming day of judgment. At that time I will put you on trial. I am eager to witness against all sorcerers and adulterers and liars. I will speak against those who cheat employees of their wages, who oppress widows and orphans, or who deprive the foreigners living among you of justice, for these people do not fear me,” says the Lord of heaven’s Armies. Malachi 3:5

God Honors His Word

God reminded the descendants of Jacob why He had not already destroyed them. He said, I am the Lord, and I do not change. Therefore, He honored His covenant with them. Ever since the days of your ancestors, you have scorned my decrees and failed to obey them. Now return to me, and I will return to you,” says the Lord of heaven’s Armies. “But you ask, ‘How can we return when we have never gone away?’ Malachi 3:7 Many people going astray never even realize it. They will allow pleasures of this world to slowly creep into their lives until they become acceptable practices. Then, their relationship with the Lord becomes non-existent. They may continue attending church, but God knows their hearts and wants them to return to Him. Some people believe you can’t walk away from God. Would you want to take that chance? He doesn’t want you to be religious. He only wants your faith in Him to shine through. The Lord asked His people to return to him. Then, He confronted them with another issue they needed to address. Should people cheat God? Yet you have cheated me! “But you ask, ‘What do you mean? When did we ever cheat you?’ You have cheated me of the tithes and offerings due to me. You are under a curse, for your whole nation has been cheating me. Malachi 3:8-9 Why would God bring money into this conversation? Because paying tithes and giving offerings are spiritual issues motivated by faith. Who wants to cheat God? I hope no one, here’s why.

Who Wants to Cheat God?

Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, or are thieves, or greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people—none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God. 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 God listed thieves and cheaters right up there with sins of immorality. But let’s look at the other side of the coin. God would rather pour abundant blessings upon His people. Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do,” says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies, “I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won’t have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test! Malachi 3:10 Earlier, we asked if Christians should be concerned about the day of judgment. If your faith in the Lord leads your actions each day, then you should have no concerns about it. But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings. And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture. Malachi 4:2

When the Day of Judgment Comes

When the day of judgment comes, or the day when God acts, we will rise above the wicked. On the day when I act, you will tread upon the wicked as if they were dust under your feet,” says the Lord of heaven’s Armies. Malachi 4:3 The prophet Malachi recorded a final instruction given by the Lord. This instruction may seem impossible, but after we read it, I’ll tell you why we can easily obey it. Remember to obey the Law of Moses, my servant—all the decrees and regulations that I gave him on Mount Sinai for all Israel. Malachi 4:4 Jesus said the law and the prophets are contained in two commands. Love the Lord your God and love your neighbor. With those two commands, we can obey the entire law of Moses. First, by loving the Lord with all of our hearts. Then, by loving others like we love ourselves. Our love for God will keep us away from the day of judgment. So, focus your biggest concern about the day of judgment toward your loved ones who don’t know Christ. And on those who act like they do but don’t. They may not respond to the message of salvation from you. Instead, pray for them. And pray that God sends a person to them who can speak into their lives. The day of judgment is coming. Make sure you are ready. Don’t allow yourself to get distracted by continually examining your heart so you don’t float away from God. Lord, thank you for giving us fair warning about the coming of the day of judgment. Help us to stay on track. Let us recognize when opportunities arise to tell others about you. Check out some other posts on God's Judgment. - The Judgment Of God Is Real - How To Survive The Judgment Of The Eternal Fire - God's Judgment And Its Consequences - The Destruction Of The Earth - Punishment from God Because of Sin - Who Will Judge The World And When Read the full article

#BibleStudy #Devotions #EndTimes #Evangelism

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kazumiwrites-originalfics · 2 years ago

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Thoughts

SUMMARY: My thoughts that I’m scared to say. Put into a poem. WORD COUNT: ~500

WARNINGS: Crippling sadness, rambling, worrying about love?? I don’t even know.

A/N: Did I get the ideas for this while in the shower because apparently that’s where I get all my good thoughts? Yes. Am I writing a poem because if I write it in actual text, I will probably sound so effing cringy? Yes. (Though I still do sound cringy but yk) This probably doesn’t even make sense because I didn’t read the whole thing through so it’s very choppy Anyways this feels way too personal as a person who rarely talks about their personal emotions (like, the deep ones) Maybe I should write poetry more often.

Am I an attention seeker? Am I too clingy?

Though I wonder Sometimes Why they stay

In a world full of pretty people Where they’re the prettiest of all Why would they stick With the most average of them all?

I’m not the funniest Or the smartest Not the prettiest Nor the best

I just try I’m a people pleaser I love seeing others happy And I’ll do anything -Anything- To see their smiles

People hurt me (But I just bare it) It’s not their fault But still I’m scared of falling again What if the same thing happens We fall out of love?

And though I know it’s normal Every person has felt it That loss of joy That you used to feel When you saw You got a notification

“It won’t happen this time” I told myself Yet it kept on happening Maybe I’m not As good at love Maybe I should just Wait I’m too young for this

But then they were there They were funny Sweet Always making me smile Every time though I shut It Out

Hoping this would disappear Because I promised myself No more love for me Not until I’m older Not until I’m wiser

I can accept that im pan Without dating anyone Right?

I craved the feel of a relationship Of having someone to hold Someone to love Someone to share all of My secrets to

Not just a best friend (Though they are precious too) Someone more intimate But that makes me wonder Am I now immature?

Seeing my peers date left and right Laughing, not taking it all seriously Was it so wrong of me To want something pure so desperately?

Or am I just craving love and attention? Do I actually deserve it at all? Love is complicated, that is for sure To be clear, to focus, I don’t think I can do

Maybe I am clingy Texting them, spamming them Maybe I should stop

But I know the feel I get When people text me Spam me And it’s a happy feeling I love the attention And I hope they do too

But I’m scared that I’m just trying To keep something going When nothing will work The relationship soon to be in ruins

I don’t want it to fail But I’m just afraid Afraid to fall again Hoping that they’re not doing it Out of pity Out of something they regret

I’m not The only person in the world For them But I still give my all Hoping Trying For a day That we can meet And I can love them In person

Without overthinking Look into their eyes And see, confirm That they do accept me That they do love me If only to put My shaking mind at rest

But only time will tell If this will go on And if my fear Won’t make it not last

#kazumiwrites #poem #original poem

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palajae · 3 years ago

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cat’s out of the bag?

PAIRING... nishimura riki x gn!reader | GENRE... secret-enemies-to-lovers, secret relationship! au, graduation! au, fluff, humor | WC... 0.5k | “yeah well, you already know that i’m not most people.”

the bouquet in your hands, the cap on your head, the emotional chatter surrounding you, it all feels too good to be true. indeed, it’s surreal, having made it this far and being where you are now- diploma and achievements all safely stored away (to be admired at plenty more later, you’re sure).

but if only, if only there was one thing- no, one person- that would appear before you like magic and make this day even better than before.

and as if the world decided to be kind to you, even if it was just for today, said person on your mind reveals himself in your line of sight. you think he sees you at the same moment you see him, a flicker of recognition in both your eyes.

you clutch the bouquet in your hands a little tighter while your body stands there, unmoving.

niki strolls over to you nonchalantly, putting up an act as if he almost didn’t want to approach you (but you obviously knew the truth).

the teasing smile on his face, the glint in his eyes, you can’t help but return the favor with a raised eyebrow.

“so you didn’t fail chemistry, after all.”

you shake your head in half-amusement and half-exasperation. “you know, most people would say a simple, congratulations.”

niki leans closer to whisper in your ear, “yeah well, you already know that i’m not most people.”

but the way you shiver involuntarily and avoid eye contact at the proximity, he can’t help but forget where exactly (and what position) you two are in.

perhaps that’s why he, without even thinking much about it, lays a sweet and simple (as you basically requested) kiss on your perfect lips. in front of everyone- might as well have been the whole world to see.

you stare at him, utterly dumbfounded. niki thinks a hush falls over the surrounding area, witnesses with absolute dropped jaws and parents giving confused stares.

there’s no way… -they’re probably thinking-

you and nishimura riki?

“idiot,” you hiss for only him to hear, “last time i checked, we’re still in public!”

niki only then realizes his mistake, and lets out a curse while you internally freak out. he pushes your side playfully, although to you it feels more or less like a punch in the gut.

“h-haha, surprise! i got you good there, didn’t i… y/n?”

you sigh, “just… just no, riki. it’s too late now considering all the people taking photos of us- and will you stop holding onto my hand?!” you practically growl at him by the end in frustration, only then raising up your intertwined hands as proof.

he blinks, cocking his head slightly to question the strange occurrence. niki didn’t even realize he had grabbed your hand while in a panic to fix the situation.

“is it too late to say happy graduation?” niki scratches the back of his neck and you squint, trying your hardest to ignore the stares and (not so quiet) whispers coming from quite literally everyone around you.

“idiot- it doesn’t change the fact that everyone knows we’re dating now.” you say that and yet you can’t prevent the smile arising on your face, probably because niki still hasn’t let go of your hand. and you know he won’t, not when you suppose your forbidden secret is out.

“well, at least they know i actually don’t hate your guts? and you don’t hate mine?“

“not helping.”

a/n ▸ am and always will be a black hair niki enthusiast- esp for the new comeback and you can't convince me he looks better in any other color !?)#@';./.'/.

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agentgumsh0e · 3 years ago

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he doubts his growing crush on you (cypher, sova, yoru, phoenix, kay/o)

word count: 850+

warnings: little bit of angst throughout

agents having a crush on you, pt. 1

confessing to you, pt. 3

cypher

once he slowly gets closer and closer to you after realizing his crush, he slowly backs away. it's like a game of push and pull; you attract him with everything there is to learn about you, he pushes you away because of everything there is to learn about him. he can't let you get too close to him, since he could end up putting you in danger if all his crimes catch up to him, especially if all his secrets, which he put so much effort into hiding, are revealed. not to mention the kind of emotional stress he would be putting you under if he let you share some of his burden by opening up about his past. and when he loses you, he loses you forever. for such a clever guy, he fails to accept that these are things that couples work out and brave together, so he distances himself from you because of it. he hurts him just as much as it hurts you, but he thinks disappearing for a few days at a time is for your own good (as much as you would beg to disagree).

sova

he doesn't have much doubts about his growing relationship with you, besides it getting in the way of missions. though he doubts that'll happen, since he believes the two of you work well together. other than that, he hopes that he won’t scare you off by being too unreadable. there's many feelings beneath his stony surface, mostly warmth and content when he's with you, but he finds it difficult to openly express them. he also hopes you don't find him overbearing or cloying from all his acts of service and affectionate words. even worse, you may discover his other nature. though he's definitely still a good-natured guy all around, he has hunted man and animal alike outside of missions. if it ever comes to it, he doesn't want you to see how brutal and predatory he can be. despite all this, he doesn't think these things would stop him from being with you; he doesn't think anything could. he's as confident as he always is, and if anything, he believes facing them with you would strengthen your relationship.

yoru

though he's boastful with everyone and everything else, when it comes to you, it's easier for him to spot his weak points. sometimes, after he's said something a bit more insensitive than usual, he reflects deeply on it. he does see that he can be a bit too mean, but he's not humble enough to apologize. he's also aware that he’s inexperienced when it comes to the whole relationship thing. he’s not emotionally available, for one thing, and doesn't know how to deal with his crush and feelings in general. when he sees you retreating from him after he's screwed up or snapped, he's honest to god scared. was that really his fault? why did he have to let his pride get in the way? he’ll brood and put some space between the two of you until he's ready to face you again. when he does, he'll say quietly, “(y/n), i'm sorry.” he's trying his best, and he won't let you forget him just yet.

phoenix

oh boy, underneath his proud demeanor and cheeky grin (both prevalent when he was first crushing on you), he's scared for a number of reasons. do you think he’s boring? lame? clingy? though you've done nothing to suggest you think this way, he prematurely thinks someone else would be a better match for you when it's simply not true. at this, his smile cracks and his stature falls. he also thinks that you don't want to see him, so he gets more reserved for a while. however, if you knock on his room door or tap him on the shoulder to invite him to hangout or just talk, he instantly brightens up. it's like the sun peeking out from the overcast skies as he takes your hand to drag you around protocol.

kay/o

when he’s finally informed that it's a ‘crush’ that he's experiencing, he is beyond confused and also a little concerned. after all, what if it interferes with his mission to protect this earth? he's duty bound and dedicated to his task, so if these feelings become a problem, he'll need to keep his distance to prevent any further errors. at the same time, why should he let his mission stop him from being with you? hanging out with you and defending earth-1 don't have to be separate, right? and of course, the overarching question and the elephant in the room: would you reciprocate a robot’s feelings? someone who is made of metal parts and components, instead of flesh and bone, and who is driven by lines of code and systems, instead of a brain. he hasn't felt the pain of rejection yet, and he certainly doesn't want you to cause the feeling. he's once again left clueless, thinking about what to do about you. however, he decides that he's been through too much before to stop himself now.

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Stolas stated that the only reason he put up with Stella's cruelty is for Octavia to have a normal life, but I dont quite buy it. Im assuming he meant give Via a mother. Because if shes never been kind to Stolas why would he trust Stella to be a good mom? Abusers usually weaponize kindness to convince their victims to stay with them, making them trust the abuser and hope the behavior will stop, and so far it seems like were supposed to believe Stella never makes it a secret she hates Stolas.

but to give the show the benefit of the doubt, we dont know how she acts around Octavia. Maybe she does act kind to her daughter and I hope we get to see their relationship.

Ive seen the theory that Stolas wants to avoid the negative fallout that would come from two nobles divorcing, but we have yet to be shown any negative consequences of the divorce yet, maybe they will show it when Andre shows up.

That’s just it, I don’t buy what Stolas said either because the show never SHOWED us any of that and never build anything up to this argument scene. Stolas has some hilarious nerve to say that all he’s done is “try to make the family comfortable” for Stella, when all we saw him do in season 1 was fuck blitz repeatedly, having the time of his life while his angry wife secretly plotted to kill him. Meanwhile Stolas puts his dick before his daughter, inviting Blitz too Loo Loo Land, and despite trying to care for her, he never changes or improves his actions and continued to screw Blitz until he got called out for it.

And yeah, kinda doesn’t help if you’re tying to make an emotional scene about parents and their daughter if you’ve only shown the FATHER’S perspective of the relationship and not the mothers. Like I said, all of this is one sided, and due to that it doesn’t fit with anything the show is telling us or trying to set up when it comes to Stella. I feel like that line where he says he only takes Stella’s shit for Via’s sake is mainly just the writers guilt tripping us into believing that he’s the good parent that would do anything for his daughter, even though the show failed to make any of that believable, aka SHOW us. Stolas knows Stella isn’t a good mother, he just takes her shit so the fire won’t get bigger, (according to the show) even though it already has because of HIS actions. Basically don’t try to make sense of the show’s writing, ESPECIALLY when it comes to Stella and Stolas’s rift because all it is is the writers making Stolas out to be the good sweet guy who cares for his daughter, even if it doesn’t match up with what we’ve seen, or isn’t believable. It doesn’t matter, as long as they TELL you he cares and shows him worrying for her, that means he’s the good parent no matter what.

There’s also no point in the theories, like you said the show hasn’t even shown us the negative consequences of two Goetia members divorcing, they try to make it a big deal but then forget that Stella literally openly talks badly about him in front of other Goetia members, so what’s the point of introducing the idea that two higher ups divorcing would cause controversy if Stella is so open about how much she hates and doesn’t care about him??? Andrealphus as well is probably just going to be another snobby bad guy, Stolas already stated that he doesn’t give a shit about what he thinks so I don’t think Andre will really add anything interesting or make sense of it. They’ll probably just say what we already know, that the two shouldn’t divorce even though the show can’t properly explain or show what exactly the Goetia family’s believes and purposes are.

#none of it adds up man there’s no point in trying to make sense of the writing #vivziepop critical #spindlehorse critical #helluva boss critical #anti vivziepop #helluva boss critique #Stella #anti Stolas

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watchmegetobsessed · 4 years ago

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The Hottest Avenger - Bucky Barnes

a/n: im warning you, i will probably not stop for a while with the bucky fics so... brace yourselves lol! also i wrote this before ep 5 came out so its placed in that time

pairing: Bucky X Reader

warnings: TFATWS spoiler, some violence? nothing extreme

word count: 1.8k

summary: Being locked together with Sam and Bucky brings the worst out of you, picking on each other constantly. Following an arguement Bucky accidentally calls you his girlfriend in front of Sam when your relationship was supposed to be a secret.

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“Did you fucking eat the last dumpling?” you accuse Sam, holding up the empty takeout box where you thought were one more dumpling, one you’ve saved for yourself, but now it’s gone as Sam is eyeing you with his mouth full.

“Thought it was mine,” he mumbles, his words barely understandable from all the food in his mouth.

Taking a deep breath you’re trying not to jump at his throat right then and there. You’ve been locked up together all damn day in the trashy apartment across the street from the building where’s Zemo supposed to be hiding. Sharon had a tip about a possible place where he might be found, but you’ve been waiting to no avail for now. You’ve been growing stressed and impatient. You lost track of Karli and her people and now you can’t seem to find Zemo either. If it wasn’t for the Dora Milaje, you wouldn’t bother to be so after the asshole, but Bucky said if Ayo finds him first, he is dead and every useful information he holds goes to the grave with him so now you are forced to look for him. One failed mission has been following the other these days, that incompetent dickhead John is on the loose too after murdering that man in front of civilians and you feel like control has slipped out of your grip a long time ago. Now you’re stuck with Sam and Bucky in this crappy place, waiting by the window, watching out for Zemo and on top of everything… Sam ate your last dumpling.

Just when you’re about to snap at him, you feel a strong grip on your shoulder. You don’t have to look up to know it’s Bucky right behind you, but not just because he is the only other person in the room beside you and Sam, but also because you know his touch probably more than anyone. Only that most of the times it’s not your shoulder he is gripping…

It’s been going on for a long time between the two of you. Started with just some innocent flirting and you never thought it would grow into something more significant, but it did. And now you are officially in a relationship with none other than the Winter Soldier, only that no one else knows about it and you plan to keep it that way. You don’t need the teasing and jokes and the Avengers are known to be dicks sometimes, especially Sam.

Glancing up your eyes meet Bucky’s blue irises and he sends you a look that says “just let it go”, and though every fiber in you wants to whoop Sam’s ass, you let it slip.

“Don’t tell me you’re gonna get mad about a dumpling,” Sam chuckles as he chews on the food that you should be enjoying right now.

“I can get mad about whatever I want to,” you growl back, growing quite irritated of him at this point.

“Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed,” he huffs under his breath, clearly not as bothered as he should be. Before you could do any harm in him, you leave your spot by the window, needing a breather from… well, from him.

“Hey, it’s still your turn!” he calls after you.

“I need a break,” you growl back.

“Get your ass back here, we agreed to switch every two hours!”

“Sam! I’m walking out because I’m way too tempted to punch you in the face right now!” you snap at him, losing your patience. He rises from his seat with a hard expression, not quite a fan of the way you just talked to him, but you couldn’t care less.

“You think you could actually throw one? Because last time we fought you couldn’t really get a hold of me,” he narrows his eyes at you, coming to stand tall in front of you, trying to intimidate you with how much taller and stronger he might be, but you both know you’re a better fighter.

“It’s easy to talk with your fancy tech stuff. Why don’t we see who wins in a simple battle?” you challenge him with faked boredom.

“Guys, stop. We should be looking out for Zemo, not tearing each other apart,” Bucky tries to end the staring contest, sticking his metal arm between the two of you in case any of you decides to launch at the other one.

“Then tell her to stop bitching!” Sam nods in your way.

“I’m not bitching, I’m just fed up with your bullshit!” you spat back at him, leaning closer, your chest coming in contact with Bucky’s extended arm.

“Don’t talk to her like that, Sam,” Bucky warns him, but Sam snorts dryly.

“Don’t tell me you are taking her side, she is throwing a fit for a fucking dumpling!”

“I’m not taking sides, just trying to settle this stupid disagreement here,” he defends himself and you roll your eyes.

“You can’t tell me she is not overreacting it, Buck!” Sam laughs in disbelief, taking a step back, dropping the act that he wants to fight you. He probably knows he would come out as a ridiculous loser. “This is fucking insane, I’m not in the mood to deal with your shit, Y/N,” he shakes his head.

“Hey!” Bucky snaps at him. “Don’t talk to my girlfriend like that, okay?!”

“I’m just—wait, what?!” Sam’s eyes widen and you freeze too.

Your dumbass boyfriend didn’t just out the two of you, did he? What else is about to come?! Sam’s shock turns into a cocky grin as his eyes shift between you and Bucky.

“You guys… you guys are fucking?” he asks with a delightful laugh and you close your eyes sighing, already tired of his shit.

“That’s not—We’re not fucking, I mean… It’s not like that,” Bucky stutters, but it’s just making it worse. He looks at you with terror in his eyes, but you are way too drained to deal with it the right way.

“Yes, we are fucking! And we are in a mature adult relationship! Get yourself over it!” you bark at Sam before turning around and walking out.

You faintly hear the two men talk inside, but you don’t make out the words. You don’t go too far, sitting on the steps leading up to the third floor. Soon enough you hear the door of the apartment open with a creak and a moment later Bucky shows up in your sight. He sits beside you, remaining silent for a little before speaking up.

“Sorry for running my mouth,” he mumbles, his head hanging low.

“It’s… fine,” you breathe out. Bucky fidgets with his fingers and you know he wants to touch you in any kind of way as a reassurance that it really is fine. You don’t want to hold a grudge, it was an accident, you’re just a little bummed it’s not gonna be just the two of you anymore. Reaching out you take his hand, the real one that’s flesh and meat and you lace your fingers together as he peeks at you, still reserved and hesitant.

“Is it really fine or are you just bottling it up?”

“It really is fine,” you chuckle softly and leaning closer you kiss his scruffy cheek. “The only reason I wanted to keep it a secret is because you know how vickery the guys can get. I just didn’t want them to pick on us.”

“They do it because they are just jealous,” he smirks playfully, his shoulder bumping against yours.

“Yeah? Of what?” A soft chuckle slips through your lips.

“That I scored the hottest Avenger,” he replies smugly and you can’t help but laugh with your head snapping back.

“I didn’t know you were fucking Thor!” you retort and immediately see his smirk vanish from his lips as he stares back at you, not enjoying your joke as much as you are.

“Thor? Really? Not this shit again, Y/N,” he narrows his eyes at you. Back when you were just skirting around each other, you loved pulling his leg, joking about how much you are into the hottest Avenger, aka Thor. He never appreciated it, usually earned you a tight-lipped smile before he mumbled “Tarzan’s got nothing on me” before walking away, leaving you laughing like a hyena.

“Come on, you know I’m more into super soldiers,” you grin, leaning closer as he pepper his sharp jawline with more small kisses.

“You know, it’s not the best thing to say to your boyfriend when there are now about eight more super soldiers running around,” he huffs.

“But none of them has a metal arm,” you point out, finally making him laugh.

“So that’s your kink? A vibranium arm?” he asks with faked shock and you curl your arms around his bicep, resting your chin on his shoulder.

“How haven’t you realized yet?” you chuckle. Bucky turns his head until his lips can capture yours in a sweet, lighthearted kiss that makes you forget about everything that’s been clouding over your mind these past days. All the failures, the mistakes and chaos fades into nothing, because you have him and he has you.

Walking back into the apartment Sam stares back at you, neither of you entirely sure how to act after what just happened. He then grabs his phone from the dusty table before holding it up.

“I could order some extra dumplings,” he offers and you crack a smile shaking your head. This was his peace offering, both of you knows he won’t straight up apologize for the way he talked, but this is already more than what you were expecting from him. Bucky must have had a few words with him before joining you outside.

“It’s all good.”

The three of you get back to work, taking your previous spots, returning to the task on hand as silence falls on the room once again. You catch Sam glancing at you and the Bucky and you can tell he is about to make a snarky comment on your relationship. And just as he is about to open his big mouth, Bucky moves to silence him, but you’re faster. With a simple move you throw Sam to the ground, keeping him down with your hand wrapped around his neck.

“Don’t even think about teasing, understood?” you hiss at him as he gasps for air, his hands wrapping around your wrist as he tries to fight you off, but you hold him a second longer to emphasize the importance of your words. Then you finally let go of him and he coughs for air, fixing him up from the floor as you simply walk back to your spot by the window.

“Hottest Avenger, huh?” he breathes out, revealing that he heard what you talked about out on the stairs. “More like the Avenger with the most anger issues…”

You just grin, glancing over at your boyfriend who is now standing with his arms crossed over his chest, not even bothered by his friend’s struggles on the floor as he smirks back at you, nodding proudly as if he was saying: “That’s my girl.”

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landinoandco · 4 years ago

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Our Love is a Game

Lando Norris x Reader

Request from @jamieeboulos

Warnings: pinch of fluff, cute ending because they are the best

Word count: 2.7 k

Requests are open :)

It all started with a phone number, an innocent exchange that would subsequently change the world you knew; mostly for the better. When you had met Lando, as far as you were concerned you had just met a 21 year old who lived in London and had a passion for cars. How wrong you were. It was only when things started to get serious that he sat you down and explained everything that came with being a formula one driver; more importantly the fandom that he was involved in.

You had always been a private person and admittedly this piece of information almost broke your relationship but after some time to think you had decided that he was worth it all. You both decided it was a better idea to keep your relationship as quiet as possible - you took every precaution to make sure you stayed a stranger to the fans.

For the past 2 years, you thought you had managed to stay clear of the cameras, the photos and the twitch streams but it wasn’t until a fan-made compilation caused your world to spiral out of control.

You and Lando were out for a run, it was a part of your morning routine - a great way to start the day and it was time that you two could escape the motor sport world and act like a normal couple without worrying about who might be watching. It was time you both valued and appreciated. On this particular morning, Lando had decided to add to his Instagram story, a short video of his morning adventures - the mist still hanging around the trees as you ran under a heavily graffitied bridge, the early birds song chirping animatedly. At the time you didn’t think much of it as you were too busy tying your hair back up to notice.

It wasn’t until you got home and looked at his story that your heart stopped, rushing over to the kitchen island you placed your phone down and ran your fingers through your hair. It was a blink and you’ll miss it moment but in the corner of his video - the last millisecond before it ended - there was a flash of a purple top (the purple top you had been wearing) and a swish of brown hair as you chucked it back up into a ponytail.

“Lando.” You called out, trying to keep your voice as calm as you could. You didn’t know why it had affected you so much - or why you were so desperate to keep your identity a secret. It wasn’t like you wanted to hide your relationship; you were the happiest you ever had been, everyday was exciting and offered new prospects - it was more that you were so used to being in this bubble with Lando, the idea of it bursting seemed rather unappealing. Usually you didn’t care for how others saw you but seeing some of the words that people used to describe him, it would be enough to trouble even the thickest of skins.

Lando’s close proximity broke your thoughts as he stared down at your phone, pausing on the flash of brown and purple. “I am so sorry, love.” He almost whispered, his eyes widening at his carelessness. He picked your phone up to take a closer look.

“It will be alright, won’t it? I mean, it’s a blink and you’ll miss it.” You had said, more to reassure yourself than Lando. He didn’t answer, anxiety building in the pit of his stomach because he knew exactly what he had started.

The fan-made compilation didn’t go viral until a few hours later - as it turns out that flash of purple was the perfect cherry on top of an unappetising cake. Lando was sat on stream - not that this was out of the ordinary and Max had decided to join him, leaving you alone to rewatch Friends for the umpteenth time.

The pair were sat reacting to videos on YouTube when a clip of a seal swimming into a shoal of fish started playing - the amusing part was that they kept quickly dispersing away from the seal in question. Unsurprisingly, they laughed and Lando spluttered: “This is me trying to find a girlfriend.” What the fans didn’t know was the apparent irony of that sentence and this was what caused the major meltdown; whilst Lando and Max were busy crying with laughter - that chat had filled up with the same link and references to the video you would be redirected through.

Max was the first to stop laughing, tapping Lando on the shoulder as he pointed at the chat. Hundreds of the same message filled the screen: “That’s not what this compilation shows.” “Lando, what are you hiding from us?” “Lando and Max laughing knowing very well he has a girlfriend.”

“Chat what on earth are you waffling on about.” Max chuckled uneasily, looking at Lando out of the corner of his eye. Lando sat with a forced smile, his nostrils flaring as he continued through the comments. He could only let out a tense laugh as he swallowed thickly - his throat feeling suddenly dry. You were still sitting, completely engrossed and unaware that Lando Norris was now trending on twitter.

Max had come up with an excuse to end the stream not long after, Lando uncharacteristically quiet. His thoughts were with you in the other room, had you seen it? Did you know? How would you react? He felt as though he had lost all control, like he had failed you entirely - all he wanted to do was protect you yet he was the one to screw it up.

“Hey,” Max nudged his shoulder, “It was bound to happen at some point. Let’s go and see if she’s seen it - if not then -” He took a deep breath, “We will watch it together. We need to know what we are working with here.” Lando nodded, unable to reply, his body went into automatic pilot mode and too quickly he was standing facing you.

Pausing the tv, you looked at Lando - his jaw tightened and facial expressions set as though he had just seen a ghost. “Is everything ok?” You asked apprehensively.

“There’s something you need to see.” Max reached for his phone, pushing Lando onto the sofa. You offered your arm to Lando, pulling him into a hug. Max pulled up the video and pressed play. A tense atmosphere held the room hostage - breath restricted and gazes fixed onto the tiny screen in front of you.

It started with a clip from this year’s Goodwood - Lando preparing to drive his last hill climb - you remembered it well, a McLaren hat placed on your head mainly to cover your identity; knowing that there would be more than a few fans around. The clip moved to 3 separate stills - all of you in your McLaren hat. One with your back to the camera, you hand placed around Lando’s waist, the other two a side profile as you spoke to Max.

The reaction was immediate, you slapped your hand to your mouth, Lando looked horror-struck and Max was watching you carefully.

The video moved on, this time a clip from the quadrant video where Niran trains like Lando for 24 hours - Lando and Niran were in the kitchen preparing to eat their breakfast when once again the video moved to stills. This time they were of your reflection in the oven - holding the camera. You had thought at the time, if you were behind the camera it would stop every chance of you accidentally being caught on camera. Apparently not.

The video had moved on again, this time to stills of Lando arriving on track - of course there was no way for you to get on track without being photographed and you were fine with that because you would just arrive after Lando either with Jon or Charlotte. Photos of you arriving with Jon and Charlotte flashed up - with them you were just another member of staff but put with those other stills and it really did yell out that you and Lando were romantically involved. Finally the flash of purple from Lando’s story. The game was up.

“Oh my-” You stuttered as the video came to an end. Fortunately your Instagram hadn’t been shown but judged by how skilled you knew the fans to be - it would only be a matter of time. “I feel sick.” You admitted, wiping your hands across your face. Lando still hadn’t said a word, staring blankly at the floor. Max was the first to come up with something logical, turning to you and Lando.

“It will blow over.” He started, “The fans will soon lose interest and move onto the next big headline. We just need to ignore anything we see regarding the subject.” He moved his attention to you. “Maybe avoid social media for a few days. Let everyone cool down -” Sensing your means to interrupt, he held his hand up. “I know you shouldn’t have to and I know none of this is fair but unfortunately people have no boundaries and believe because it’s on social media it is their business. If they were in our situation, I’m pretty sure they would be the first to complain. Let’s just go along with it for now. It will give you time to think about what to do next.”

Lando cleared his throat, pulling you closer into him. “I’ve failed you. All I wanted to do was protect you.” At this, Max got up and left.

Shaking your head, you pressed your lips to his forehead. “You could never. Think about how long we kept it secret for. Besides, until we announce or admit anything - it isn’t confirmed.” You offered, trying to soothe his worries. He nodded, still not convinced.

“Our love is like a game and it’s not a game I enjoy playing.” He croaked, lacing your fingers together.

“I know, Lando, I know. Let’s let everything calm down and then we can think about what our next step is.”

Weeks later and it was the night before you were due to leave for your summer holiday. You would be spending it with Lando and some of his friends and family. Due to the current pandemic, it had been so long since you had been away - even if it was a bigger group of you going; you were still looking forward to spending that quality time with Lando.

Max had decided to take himself and Tom off to the streaming room - leaving you and Lando to sort out the remaining items you needed for your time away.

“I have a present for you.” He said suddenly, his hands behind his back. You beamed, taking a step closer to him. He shook his head, “If you want it - “ He pointed at his lips.

Rolling your eyes, you pecked his lips then held out your hands like a child. Lando chuckled, “Close your eyes.” Hands still outstretched and eyes closed, you waited for Lando to present you with your surprise. He grasped your left wrist and attached something to it - “No peeking.” He added. A moment or two later, he dropped his hold of your wrist and said: “You can open them now.” You could hear the smile on his lips. You opened your eyes and looked straight to your wrist - he had given you a pink watch. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked up at him, his eyes twinkled as he then pointed to the orange watch on his wrist.

“Watches?” You asked, confusion laced your tone.

Nodding, he said, “We all have matching watches but in different colours - they are for our holiday away.”

You gave him a lopsided grin and wrapped your arms around his neck, “I love it. Thank you.”

In the streaming room, Max was having to ignore the majority of the comments because they were all asking the same thing: “Who was the girl from the compilation.” He was trying his hardest to keep moving off the topic, instead showing off the watches - it had been his idea, blue for him, orange for Lando, a child’s watch for Tom and a pink watch for you. He had listed off all of the colours and said who they belonged to: “And then pink-” He paused, mentally face palming. He looked over to Tom for assistance - he hadn’t meant to say pink at all. “And pink is for someone.” He cursed his poor excuse but as if by magic - Lando walked through the door.

Distracting the stream from his slip up.

Croatia was a dream come true, the hot summer sun on your back and the time to just relax and recharge. Days spent with Lando sunbathing on the boat or stuck in a tense game of Uno. Not being the only female was brilliant as well - as they got to go off and not feel guilty about leaving you on your own.

Currently, you and Lando were standing in each other's arms - the afternoon drawing into the evening as the sun began to set. You had your arms around his neck and his arms were around your waist, sighing contentedly you broke the silence: “This is nice.” He pressed his lips into your hair, a sign that he agreed with your statement. In that moment, it was just you and him - everyone seemed to disappear from around you and all worries vanished. It was the simple yet affectionate moments that had always meant the most to you. You felt as though you could relax every muscle in your body, listening to his steady heartbeat - you wished for this moment to never end, to forever be in his arms and to not worry about who sees you there.

Ever since that compilation had been made, the thought had been on your mind a lot. Were you ready to go public with Lando? At the end of the day you were both happy and surely that was the most important thing.

Later that night, you were sitting eating your meal when a phone was handed to you, displayed on it was a picture of you and Lando - in each other’s arms.

Instantly you knew what this meant, looking at Lando you were met with the same expression. He did as well.

You and Lando had decided it was time to announce your relationship, there was no point sneaking around anymore if people knew and were looking out for you. You had agreed that the best way to do it was if you joined him in a stream, that way they got to know you a bit more for who you were.

“Is it ok to feel as nervous as I am?” You asked him, pulling up a chair beside him. He was setting up the stream, two mugs of tea placed in front of you. It seemed completely unnatural to sit facing the camera.

“I mean, this is kind of a big deal so yes I would say, it’s completely natural for you to feel nervous.” He reached for your hand, rubbing his thumb over the back of it. Nodding, you took a deep breath.

“Ok. I’m ready.” You said, your heart beating at a million miles an hour. The corners of his lips turned up, leaning in to leave you a kiss on the lips.

“I love you and I’m so proud of you.” He admitted quietly, as though you were the only person in the world, his eyes flickered with complete adoration.

“I love you too. Now, shall we start it?”

Lando went to press the start stream button but paused. He turned back to face you, his eyes wide and offered an apologetic smile.

“What did you do?” You asked, a smile toying at your lips as you had an idea of what it might have been.

“Stream, meet my girlfriend.”

He had already started it...

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