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This is a good time to remind everyone that in order for a series to be finished, it has to sell. If you don't buy the books in the series you want to read/pirate them instead, the chances of you never getting the next book from the author, or the series being finished, grows, and it's not small growth. The number of Stephen Kings who can afford to not have you buy their book because you'd rather pirate/wait for a series to be finished is minimal. Most authors need you to buy their books so that they can give you more, and not just because they need to earn a living (they do).
To put it simply, publishers buy books with advances, and the publisher cares only about your book selling enough to earn out that advance. They may give you the next book in a series before it does, but now you have two books that have to earn back their advance. And if they don't? Well, they're not profitable. Why would a company keep buying something that will only lose them money?
See, most of the time the problem isn't authors going 'well no one is reading this, so I might as well not write it', it's publishers going 'well no one's buying this, so it's a waste of our money and resouces, so we're not publishing more of this'. You need to understand this if you want to keep reading books.
If you want a series to continue or an author to write more, you cannot pirate books, and you cannot wait for a series to be finished to buy the first book. And if you do, you're not allowed to complain about series being cancelled or how there are no new interesting books coming out, because you are part of the problem.
just saw someone reviewing the erin hunter books like, âthey should publish the whole series at once, i donât want to wait a whole year to read itâ. like babe i hate to break it to you but,,,, go touch some grass and think about your relationship with consumerism okay, because itâs gotten really weird on you
#yes I'm very passionate about this#I also know that the average reader doesn't know how the industry works#and that's by design btw#but yeah#buy the first book in the series#it's not like you have to read it immediately#it can just sit on your shelf until you've bought the entire series#writing
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haunting the narrative -> haunted by the narrative -> haunting the narrative -> haunted by
#adventure time#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#fan art#fanart#art#digital art#my art#just a lil something something i did for fun#adventure time has always been the show that makes me want to draw (i have SO many AT drawings from 2015 it's ridiculous)#but now I'm coming back to that ye olde passion with new digital art skills and many more evil tragic thoughts (thank you fionna and cakeđ)#i couldn't get the thought about them haunting and be haunted by the narrative out of my head so I had to make some art for it#the caption for this was almost: so who wears the haunted by the narrative in the relationship?#they take turns of course because damn these guys really do be having that tragic romance huh. hot potato cursed existence#never quite on the same wavelength. always out of reach. their love the very thing that dooms them to be apart. a love defined by absences#like two ships in the night passing each other by. except they keep trying to seek the other out. and so end up going in circles#the tragic dance of madness and sadness. lead on and i shall follow. ....so anyway...these two amiright?#/might/ have to write something at some point...maybe...#because like... ghosts are my thing. and these two...well. even when they aren't haunting the narrative they are still ghosts#never let themselves live in the present and okay I'm going to stop now. enjoy the art byeeeee#...AND they'll never be at peace because they'll always be reaching for a version of each other that no longer exists andâ#(i am dragged kicking and screaming from the room before i can devolve into a full blown meta)
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In defense of late-canon x files (including the revivals)
I was thinking about this poll after I commented on it, and I kinda want to be brave and say more.
Short answer to the poll's question before I go any further: If you're a new fan and a sensitive sort who thinks you'll struggle with your blorbos Really Going Through It and you really need a happy ending, I suggest you stop at the end of season 8. Do not pass go, do not look at spoilers. Disregard this post entirely, close the internet, and go look at something that makes you happy. (Also fuck every part of society that characterizes sensitivity as inherently weak and bad and some kind of personal failing, you are valid.)
That said, "quality" as a concept is entirely subjective, and the question of whether or not there's a decline in quality for any story is wholly subjective, too. In the case of x files? I'm not convinced there is a decline. I am going to be upfront that I haven't yet watched past season 8, though I am almost completely spoiled on events after that - and the reason I haven't watched yet is not because of how I know events are going to unfold, but simply because I don't want it to end!!! Ohh, the tension between "I CAN'T WAIT!!!" and "Nooo don't be over D:"
When I first came to txf fandom on tumblr and gradually became spoiled about what happens in late canon though, I was often left uncomfortable and tbh kinda queasy about it. As I said in my comment on the poll, the hate for especially the revival and IWTB, or to a lesser extent even seasons 8 & 9, is very well documented. But! There are other takes to be found here on tumblr if you figure out where to look, and my feelings have changed!
The thing is, I have yet to find myself in any fandom where there isn't a vocal subset of fans who dislike the story after a certain point. I am not joking when I say that no one hates the things they love as passionately as sci-fi and fantasy fans. In my experience, it often hinges on the extent to which a viewer has strong notions on where they would like the characters to end up. In particular with series where shipping is a dominant component for the bulk of a fandom, I have almost universally found that there comes some turning point in the story where "let them be happy you cowards" is the dominant view, and things that compromise the attainment of a degree of romantic stability and/or domesticity are, to many fans, annoying at best and despicable at worst. But! As one tagset on the linked poll said:
and I think for any fandom, that last tag especially is so so so important. (I think that's harder for people watching a weekly series live, bc you have so much time to analyze and speculate and dream before the next breadcrumb drops, but I digress.)
So why am I saying this and how do I apply it to x files? Well, I eventually found that there are also a subset of fans who find redeeming things right up to the very end and actually quite like the whole thing! The things that I had seen people rage and ventpost so much about honestly never quite sounded to me as "out of character" or "untrue to the story" etc as those same ventposts made them sound. And I've discovered I'm not the only one who felt that way. Do I love that the spooky squad had to go through all of those things? No, those poor guys D: Life is hard and they have been through so much trauma. But do those events and their choices make sense to me in light of everything that came before? Yes! And I honestly can't wait to see them fight to overcome those things, breaking, healing, always learning, always growing, always getting better.
So if you're wondering "where does it go wrong"... well, I'm a completionist, as many people who've answered that post are, but also my personal opinion is that I don't think it does go wrong. If you're new and interested in exploring why I've gone from "vaguely queasy" to "excited" about the whole thing, or want to maybe balance out the impressions you're getting about the later seasons before deciding whether or not you want to see the whole thing, I'll put a few blog names in the comments.
Final admission: even once I started feeling a little more confident in the possibility that "actually ok maybe I'm not crazy, maybe this all kind of is in character and does make sense", there was one big plot point that I was NOT looking forward to and I thought I would never be comfortable about. In hindsight, I think my discomfort came from the negative responses being SO seemingly universal that I hadn't stopped to let myself truly consider other possible interpretations on that point. (I mean my initial instinct when I first read about it was, why are we mad about this?? CSM is literally the most unreliable narrator in history???? it's obviously fake news?????? this must be either a fever dream someone's having or it's a misdirection ploy against whatever shadowy forces might still be lurking?????????????? but for whatever reason I guess I had halfway written that off.) Happily, just last month there's a new post-s11 novel out, and although reviews for the book as a whole are mixed, it seems to have laid the groundwork for resolving that plot issue in a way I think most fans would be broadly happy with. If you're interested in being spoiled about that and seeing how, I recommend searching #perihelion on @agent-troi who liveblogged reading it with receipts, scroll back chronological-style to the first post on the subject and see how it unfolded. (And never forget that Dana Katherine Scully is the queen of denial as a coping mechanism lol)
Everyone's mileage will vary. Each person can feel however they want! But for anyone new, I wanted you to know that the very many ventposts you might be seeing are not all there is to this show or its fandom. Some of us love it despite - or even because of - all the things that went "wrong". I think we just don't talk about it as much.
#i don't talk about it much because tbh it can get *fraught*. and i've had that in other fandoms too.#i added and deleted so many qualifiers from this post over it lmao#people are passionate about fandom which is great! as a concept#but it sucks feeling like most people hate the thing you love or that - however diplomatically it's phrased - you should hate it too#or that folks think maybe you *would* be mad if you just looked at it a certain (sometimes seemingly cast as the 'correct') way#basically it's insane that half the time when i see people standing up and praising the revival i'm like 'damn bruh. you brave'#and feeling that way is partly a me thing. but i've seen posts that also lead me to believe it's not JUST a me thing yaknow?#i always wonder whether the 'vocal subset' in any given fandom who hate a thing are really the majority that they appear to be#or if they just appear to be the majority because they've needed to be vocal about it as a sort of internet support group thing lol#which fair enough i mean anyone's entitled to be disappointed or have feelings#for me? i don't think i can remember ever being mad about a series i liked#i'm just here for the vibes man i very rarely have fixed notions#i say to the writers: go ahead and surprise me. i'll make sense of pretty much anything they throw at me#i also think about a dd quote i saw ages ago that as an actor you (paraphrased): can't say 'the character would not do that'#...because if it's in the script then by definition they *did* do that. it's right there on the page.#and that's kind of me as a fan too.#p.s. i fucking love season 8 i love angst and holy shit it delivers. the new characters are fantastic the journey is *chef's kiss* and#yes i consider certain temperamental even assholeish behavior to also be *chef's kiss* there's so much trauma so much reason for it#it's be-yoo-ti-ful đ season 8 my beloved đ#anyway watch it all watch none do what you want. just know that there are people who would cuddle the whole damn thing from start to finish#like a floppy wet lil raggedy ann doll if only they COULD#x files#the x files#txf revival#txf thoughts#i love you floppy wet raggedy ann doll
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Pretty clothes for you! âš (Patreon)
#My art#Solanaceae#Satine#Ahh!!! Even with this one being done I'm still so nervous about it somehow!! Haha âȘ#It's been so so soooo long since I've participated in an Event that I've forgotten everything I've ever learned or done in one haha#But yes! This is an event piece! DCS put out an art call and I wanted to join and I'm very glad I did! :D#I would consider myself a very casual fan of Solanaceae like it's been way too long since I've reread in earnest but I like to stop by#Lovely art and characters and interesting movement and feelings and problems everyone runs into it's quite cool :D#Satine is probably my favourite of the bunch even if it has been too long since I've properly caught up with everyone!!#I remember always feelings very positive and like - mixed-love? They're complex in a way that I really like#Ahh all the more reason to catch up again! So I can properly express how I feel about Satine /now/ not just partially remembered haha#I'm also just generally a fan of DCS' art style and passion and ah <3#I don't think I've mentioned it anywhere but DCS was one of my Very Big - maybe even Main inspirations to make VargasLovingHours#And then I also get to draw their pretty lad in Satine! Yes!!#I have a lot to feel thankful for inspiration-wise haha â„#This was a fun outfit to design :D I really wanted Satine to feel pretty 'cause they are!#A kind of cool pink and scalloping I will always choose scalloping if there is an option for scalloping to be chosen#And I got to bring back a bit of the rainbow-opal look I used for Winter King a bit back as well! :D#And mirrors and sparklies and just - yes! Many good and fun things!!#I do think it's a bit funny since those were supposed to be thought bubbles but then I just - forgot to make the little bubble tails lol#Remembered them on the flowers! But not the thought bubbles! Haha oh well âȘ#Does not diminish the cutes or the pretties â«
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Uncle Charlie is criminally underrated. Him and Tommy?! Hello, those scenes are absolutely fucking masterpieces. The relationship those two have, their dynamic. I'm so mad we only got breadcrumbs.
AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON CHARLES SHELBY. I'd like to reach through thr screen and slap Tommy across the face. He robbed Uncle Charlie of it. I refuse to acknodlewdge he named his son after Charlie Chaplin. In my heart that boy is named after Uncle Charlie and no one else!
So i just finshed all of Peaky Blinders. And the fact the uncle Charlie doesn't get enough love in thos fandom is bullshit. Like we get conformation this man was the closest thing the Shelby's had to a proper father figure. And looking at all the little scenes where he's acting like their dad and no one points it out?
Like everyone's favorite scene is the "no fucking fighting" bit but seconds before that Thomas tells Uncle Charlie to "stop spin yards about me" Charlie responds "i was only trying to sell yah to them Tom" he's honestly trying to make Thomas look like a decent man. Thats so sweet.
There are absolutely more scenes but , awww Uncle Charlie being all like "my nephew? Yeah hes the best person. the kindest most caring individual, you wouldn't believe it"
#yes i'm very passionate about this#even if i don't mention it a lot#gotta start talking about pb again#peaky blinders#brilliant show#but sometimes it makes me mad with the stupid stuff happening in it
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things that are hard to find: writing advice that isn't condescending.
#ambie.txt#I've been really thinking about this story in my head and wondering what caused me to get burned out from writing#and realising it's all the formal bits. planning an outline organising things into a timeline. I'm more of an impulse writer#and having to think about all those dry and formal things makes me quit before I even start#this is my autism but I hate having to stop and figure out all this before I write because that way I won't write at all#ever since I started free writing I discovered that I still love writing. I love it so much#but I hate doing all of the other things because they are not my special interest and they keep me from pursuing my special interest#it's just very hard to find writing advice that isn't condescending in this aspect#people stressing out you need an outline first are very common unfortunately#I'm more of a vibes no plot person and like to just discribe the vibes in vivid detail#before worrying about the plot too much. and yes in a story there had to be a plot#but if worrying about the plot and connecting all the scenes is killing my creativity#I want to just go from details first and bigger picture later#again. autism. also writing dialogue is the worst. idk how people talk. I don't understand body language etc etc#I have written some pretty good dialogue before so I know I'm capable. it just really sucks when I have to scrutinise everything#and think âwould people say this? do they talk like that?â its draining#so I was thinking about writing dialogue separately. maybe write it as a script for a play#which is essentially just dialogue. and then match it with the scene descriptions I have written#like. I know I'm a good writer. I very good one. but the way I have been writing so far has burned me out#because it was too much focused on all the boring bits and not enough on the freedom and joy of just writing#which is why I love free writing. it allows me to focus on a few tiny details and then develop them into something bigger#also I hate writing on a computer so I got some notebooks so I can write on paper instead#it's where I'm most creative I've found#anyway this all just to say that I think following writing advice is not for me at least not now when I'm rediscovering my passion#and that I need to trust myself more and do things that make me happy#so um yeah. best writing advice is to just write and worry about it later
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i've been in a very "nostalgic for SpongeBob" mood lately and that's warranted a lot of reflecting on Baby Me being a Sponge fanatic and thinking of what she'd think of now. and i have to say that one of my favorite parts of doing what i do--and also the most stupidly niche--is that one of my first online hyperfixations i recall having was SpongeBob production music. i remember animating magical girl transformations in Flipnote to SPONGEBOB MUSIC. i remember feeling so smart researching all the songs and getting to hear them without any dialogue on top. very gratifying to 11 year old me. i was and am still very fixated on production music, and so i always get very excited when seeing uploads of these songs and spotting a screenshot of a scene i worked on among them. one of my favorite aspects of watching episodes premiere is seeing what music they added on top of scenes i touched. it's just neat how many facets my thankfulness for Doing What I'm Doing gets to reach. i'm never not thinking of how grateful i am to be doing what i'm doing
#i have a life dictated by cartoons and it is genuinely so wonderful#it can be very stressful and usually i am my own worst stressor#but i'm lucky that stuff like 'i don't have enough time to draw these cartoons' 'i can't write about cartoons fast enough' 'i have too many#cartoons to draw' are my issues#it's hard and taxing work and not easy but i never once have not been in love with my job or my hobbies or my passions#i've been having difficulty managing my time lately and getting into a funk because of how i can't draw enough or write quick enough#and i think i just need to SLOW. THE HELL. DOWN. nobody is going to crucify me. i'm drawing hundreds of individual drawings a week of cours#i'm not going to be drawing as much as i once was#but i'm very aware of how grateful i am to be having such an issue#and so i'm rambling incoherently about it here!#so: thanks for reading! thanks for your support#i know i've been awful keeping up with messages and i really am making an effort to manage my time better i am always always on the go#but your support means so much to me and i read every tag every ask every DM. yes even that one#it's just important for me to stress because i often don't have the capacity to respond but i am so grateful for my followers and your#support and presence. so thank you
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*on the floor trembling through gritted teeth* this made me grow as a person. this made me change for the better. good things have come out of this.
#all this bullshit changed me a lot in ways i'd argue were necessary#i learned i shouldn't take what i see in online leftist spaces as gospel and that i should stand by my own stances#i learned i can't rely on the internet to keep me company and that having friends and doing things irl is more fulfilling#i got in touch with my people and my culture as opposed to how passive i was about my jewishness before#i discovered my passion for sociology and psychology (and decided to major in sociology in hs because of it)#did i mature and grow a lot? yes. did this change my life for the better in some ways? yes.#but was it worth going through all this shit and losing pretty much all of my previous comfort? HELL NO#and ofc it's not worth this horrible war either. nothing is.#i feel bad but i'm trying to focus on the good things that have come out of it and telling myself it was necessary i come to these changes#(ALTHOUGH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN VERY NICE IF IT WAS UNDER DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCES)#because it's what keeps me sane#hila has spoken
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i think the part i like the most about jem, tessa and will as characters is that they show love is what makes them human, what keeps them grounded. jem, throughout tid, has to live with the knowledge he will die soon, but the love he feels for the people around him, specifically tessa and will, is what keeps him sane. we see that even more with him as a silent brother, when silent brothers block their emotions and become almost robots, the thing that keeps jem human is remembering the people he once loved and still does. remembering tessa, will, their children, the people he cared for and the people that cared for him. it is what keeps him grounded, what makes him feel human again. and with tessa, tessa who is immortal and outlives everyone she loves, and has and will have to watch them die again and again, she continues to love. she chooses to do so. it is what makes her human, and it is rare for a warlock to continue being attached to and loving mortals. and will who believed himself to be cursed so that everyone who loves him back would die, he shut off a part of him to the rest of the world, the part that loved freely. but he didn't do it to jem. he allowed jem to love him, as much as will loved jem. their unconditional love for each other was what kept will sane. it was what kept him human, and not the emotionless farse he had around everyone else.
#to me will is definitely the most passionate tsc character and the one who loves strongest#he is so loving and we can't see him act upon that throughout tid bc of the âcurseâ#but it's still there and it becomes so much more obvious throughout tlh#jem carstairs#will herondale#tessa gray#praying someone out there understands what i'm talking about#herongraystairs#the infernal devices#tid#the shadowhunter chronicles#tsc#this is very much a stream of consciousness yes this was not very well structured#the core of this series is truly love and respect. the love they all feel and the respect the hold for each of them#(and that is also what made the love triangle work so well)#btw herongraystairs isn't necessarily inherently romantic to me besties bc i could look at them through so many different perspectives#and take away many different things#not to talk about the fact that i can't really place will and jem as only platonic or only romantic or both or neither (or even filiar-#if we take that route)#anyways have a good day or night besties#to me it is night and i should be sleeping but i am listening to the prophecy!! oh how i love suffering đđ
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Have some drawings of Emmet !!
So 1st one is based off a screenshot from the anime, I just thought he looked adorable. He looks so serious ! It was interesting to see him with that kind of expression ! (And very very cute too !)
Last one is based on a thought I had while watching the anime about the fact that Eelektross worked really hard to help the twins and the protags and I thought Emmet would definitely be bery proud of him and give him a lot of treats afterward !
Aaand that's all for today, it seems I tend to draw him a little more than Ingo. I don't have favorite tho, I'm just addicted to Emmet's smile and I absolutely love to draw it !
Btw I just found the screenshot I mentionned earlier
ISN'T HE PERFECT ?!!! I-
#submas#pokemon subway boss#subway boss emmet#kudari#emmet#subway master emmet#pokemon fanart#sketches#my art#cheesecake801art#the pile of Joltiks on Emmet's head in the 2nd one cracks me up#is the 3rd one a Jojo refer- YES#the 2nd last one is also a redraw from the anime#this post got a lil bit long#i ended up fangirling a little too hard haha#now people won't believe me when I say that I don't have a fav twin#but I assure you I can be very passionate about Ingo too#been thinking about him a lot lately#(also making a lil animation of PLA Ingo that I hope will turn out well)#i'm talkative today#i wanna talk about them all night#i will casually mention that I personally took around 80 screenshots of them in the anime so I can look at them at all times
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Fictober 2023 Day 12 - Prompt: "You're the smartest person I know." Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3
âAstarion, I am taking you up on your request to learn magic.â
Astarion blinked, and he slowly looked up from his book. His mouth twitched after a moment. âGale, darling, I appreciate your ardor, but you do know I was just trying to get a rise out of you?â he asked, shutting his book. âWeâre at the point where I can admit that now, arenât we?â
âAh, butâŠâ Oh, oh dear, the finger was up; Gale was serious. âI know that every barb tends to stem from a place of truth. Besides, it never hurts to have another tool in your arsenal.â
Astarion sighed. âIs there really time for this?â
âAlways. Now, no more trying to get out of it.â Gale motioned for Astarion to follow him and, though he gave an almighty eyeroll as he did, the vampire did indeed follow him. âIâve just one spell in mind. Itâs second level, which may be a bit tricky if youâre not practiced, so it may take a few days of work. But between your natural knack for magic and your keen mind, I think youâll catch on quicker than you expect.â
Astarionâs mouth quirked. âYou think I have a keen mind?â
âWell, you were a magister, werenât you?â Gale said, sending a wry little smile over his shoulder. âAnd you come up with lies quicker than anyone Iâve ever seenâitâs impressive.â
âThat actually means something, coming from you.â Astarion sighed as they reached Galeâs tent, crossing his arms. âAll right, youâve won me over with flattery. What spell are you going to teach me?â
Gale grinned, and with a quick movement of his hands and a flash of purple light, there were suddenly two Gales in front of him. They moved in sync, one a perfect copy of the otherâAstarion wasnât sure which one was the right one.
âMirror Image,â he said, voice echoing between the two. The two Gales glanced at each other at the echo, then lifted their hands with another quick movement. One Gale dissipated like mist, and the real one was left behind. âIâve seen the way you look in mirrors and windows, and truth be told, I was trying to find a way to cast it on you, but it only works with the casterâs image. And I thought, ah! What a perfect way to give you the magic lesson you asked for and a good look at your face.â
Oh. That wasâŠnice. Of course, Astarion knew Gale was niceâthe looks he sent at some of Astarionâs preferred methods of conflict resolution said enoughâbut this wasâŠactually nice. Kind, even. He crossed his arms tighter, unsure of how exactly to respond.
âBut I donât know what I look like,â he said after a beat. âI wouldnât know the image to put out.â
Oh, the finger was up again. âYes, but thatâs the thing! Mirror image doesnât rely on your mental image of yourself. It relies on magic creating a kind ofâŠmold of yourself, however you look in the moment, then putting it there in front of you. I actually have a hilarious story about how I found out I was sporting an embarrassingly long streak of sauce on my face at a party when I cast it to show off.â When Astarionâs doubt didnât subside, Gale reached forward to grasp his arm, giving a little smile. âLook. With this, the Weave does the work. Iâve seen you in action, I know you still have access to it. This will work. I promise.â
A few complicated emotions flickered across Astarionâs face. Doubt, hope, curiosity, disappointment. His eyes finally met Galeâs, and he gave a long sigh.
âGods damn it, you give Scratch a run for his money with those eyes,â he grumbled, then held up his hands. âFine. Iâll try. But if youâre wrongâand thatâs likelyâIâm never going to let you forget it.â
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Gale hadnât been lyingâthis was work. The better part of their time in camp for the next week had been spent reaching into the Weaveâworking with it, playing with it even, and learning how to harness it to do what the caster wanted.
It was by no means easy; the first couple times, Astarion had thrown up his hands and stormed off in frustration as he couldnât make it work. But Gale was nothing if not patient. He didnât needle Astarion into staying outside of a gentle, âLetâs try just one more time. Then you can go and eat a boar.â When Astarion refused, he let him go without a fight. When Astarion came back a few hours later (and significantly bloodier than when heâd left) and asked if they could try again, he always obliged.
And finally, after several days, the work paid off. Just as heâd done before, Astarion did everything Gale instructed to cast the spell, but this time a shimmery shapeâroughly the size and shape of Astarionâstood before them. It only lasted a moment, but a giddy laugh escaped Astarion all the same.
âThat wasâŠdid you see that?â he asked, looking to Gale with a broad smile.
âI did, very well done! But I knew it wouldnât take you long.â He gave Astarionâs back a congratulatory pat. âLetâs celebrate.â
âBut I think I can get it stronger if I try again.â
âOh, Iâm sure you will. But take it from me, rewarding yourself for a job well done is excellent incentive to keep going.â Gale ducked into his tent, rustling around, then returned with a bottle and two mismatched cups. âNot as excellent as the Elverquisst was, Iâm afraid, but still,â he said as he poured, then handed one cup to Astarion before clinking his against it. âTo your success.â
Astarion smiled, tipping the glass toward Gale before he took a drink. He leaned back against a nearby stone, looking the wizard over. âYouâre actually a good teacher, you know.â
âWell, itâs a little self-serving. Magic, the Weave, is my foremost passion; getting to talk about it to a willing audience is just as much a boon for me as it is for you.â Gale gave a smile around his cup. âSo thank you for indulging me.â
Astarion waved his hand with a scoff, then went quiet for a very long moment as he drank. âMystra has no right to be so cruel to you,â he finally said, voice soft.
Gale choked. âWhat did you say?â he wheezed, patting his chest.
âMystra has no right to be so cruel to you,â Astarion repeated, voice stronger. He waved his cup irritably. âSo you got in over your headâwho wouldnât if a god made them their lover? And clearly youâve already had to deal with the consequences even before she told you toâŠto commit ritual suicide as your only way to forgiveness. You donât need her forgiveness. She doesnât deserve it.â
âShe does.â Galeâs voice was very soft, and he was steadfastly avoiding Astarionâs gaze.
âWhy, because Elminster said so?â Astarion set his cup aside, then strode right up to Gale, grabbing his arms and forcing him to make eye contact with him. âListen to me, because Iâm only saying this once. Youâre the smartest person I know. The only reason Iâm not saying youâre also the kindest is because Wyll is twenty feet away. You, Gale of Waterdeep, are literally fighting against Illithids and the Three Dead Gods with just us, a tadpole, and your wits.â He leaned in, voice lowering to something almost dangerous. âYou donât need Mystraâs forgiveness. She should be begging for yours.â
Gale had never been very good at holding a poker face, but now, it was nearly impossible for Astarion to get a read on him. There was something brewing in his eyes, something straining against his lips, but neither quite made it to the surface. He shut his eyes and swallowed it down, then let out a long sigh as he looked up at Astarion again.
âLetâs give it another try,â he said quietly. âSee how long you can hold the image.â
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Mystra did not come up again in their lessonsâcontrary to popular belief, Astarion did know when to back off. Besides, Gale was so enthusiastic when Astarion showed a bit more progress that it feltâŠmean to bring up something clearly so painful. And not at all mean in a fun way.
And, really, who cared about gods and bombs when he was this close to mastering Mirror Image? He was getting closerâthe shimmery figure was a little more solid, matching Astarionâs movements like a shadow (been a while since heâd had one of those, too) and sometimes there would be a bit more detail: a flash of pale curls, a clear image of his shirt.
And then, out of nowhere, everything seemed to click. He focused on feeling the Weave, moved his hands just the way he ought to, said the right words with just the right inflection, andâŠ
There he was.
He knew Gale was praising him, vaguely heard the impressed noises from the few members of camp that had gathered around to watch him as heâd gotten closer and closer to mastering the spell, but none of it was registering. Instead, he was transfixed at the vampire standing in front of himâa little shimmery at the edges, and wearing an expression that clearly wasnât Astarionâs, because certainly he couldnât look so softly surprised and, of all things, misty-eyed like this fellow did. But it was him.
The image mimicked his movements as he went to touch his hair, his lips, his nose, watching to see if they matched what he felt. He tugged the skin of his cheeks back; gods, he really did have laugh-lines, didnât he? Had they always been so prominent?
He swallowed down the tightness in his throat, then gave a weak little laugh as he looked over his shoulder. âFal, my love, you are shit at descriptions,â he called back, then looked back at the image for one more moment before it dissipated.
âThere you are, your reflection as needed,â Gale said with a smile. âNo mirror necessary.â
Astarion swallowed again, looking up at Gale. âThank you,â he said, voice very, very quiet but emphatic. âYou canât possibly know what youâve given me.â
Gale held up his hands. âAh, ah, this was all your work,â he said, then gave a warm smile. âAll Iâve given you were instructions and a little encouragement, same as any friend would do.â
Astarion gave a wobbly little smile in return, then took a deep breath before rubbing his face. âGods, I am exhausted,â he suddenly said after a subtle clearing of his throat. âDoes magic always take it out of you? No wonder you get winded after sneaking for thirty seconds.â
âSome of us have knees that actually match our age, thank you,â Gale said, catching on. âBut I think weâve more than earned a nice rest by the fire withâŠwell, not excellent wine, but whatever we have available. Come on. Letâs reward a job well done.â
Fictober 2023 Drabble Master Post
#fictober23#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#gale of waterdeep#Yes it's long but I had emotions#Also welcome to ASTARION WEEK at slush's#I didn't mean for so many Astarion-centered drabbles in a row this just happened#anyway if you want to read it as bloodweave I won't stop you#I'm just very passionate about their interactions#ALSO I RESEARCHED TO SEE IF MIRROR IMAGE WOULD WORK FOR VAMPIRES AND IT /DOES/
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my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me
#this goes doubly for fans of color if i'm honest#i say this bc a lot of my mutuals either currently or in the past have been very upset about how the fandom acts#and ive Done My Rounds with that ok#ive survived great wars even. and they did not make me happy#yes i was right and yes i should have said it but ultimately there was no material harm to choosing to have fun instead#lifes hard as it is in the real world where real things happen why would you waste your precious fun time on fighting crusades#and trust me i understand deeply the wish to fight crusades. Ive Fought Them. it got me hate mail and#an overall loss of passion for something i held sincerely in my heart#theres nothing more worthy than your enjoyment im serious. none of this is real and the world is hard out there#you need to get a good thing while u can#i dont remember a single time where ive actually felt vindicated by arguing with people online about. anything really but even more so aftg#but i remember in perfect and fond detail every time the (now defunct) kandreil discord server came up with an au#or even just normal casual conversation#i remember asks i got years ago about kevin day hcs that i hardly even agree with now but still love#trust me you will Not remember these squabbles what you will remember is what you loved and if youre lucky thats a lot of memories#so have fun ok. for me#txt
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I say this as a hoarder in recovery, but i feel like a lot of the stationery/art supplies nerdery scene is a lot like the book buying scene, in that it's not really about what you're going to use/read but about what makes you look the most serious about your hobby, to the extent your hobby is less stationery/books and more just having stationery/books
#like do i feel very passionate about pens and have way too much of them? yes#am i a nasty little freak when it comes to paper type and quality? for sure yes#but like i have nothing to prove with it. i don't need or desire a drawer full of pens with aesthetical acrylic dividers#were hobbies always like this? just geared to be aesthetically pleasing and not enjoying of the thing itself?#like I'm not being superior to hoarders because again. I'm a pathological hoarder. this isn't about this#something something purity of the hobby isn't it either#i just wish these hobby circles were less full of aesthetic setups and more about the enjoyment of the thing itself#like I'm a geek for good organization of my hobby space too ngl. but i feel like I'm being advertised fashionable organization#rather than having the space be gushing about the hobby#I'm barely old enough to remember a world without social media so i don't know if hobbies were always about aesthetics rather than enjoyment#or if it's a new thing#anyway
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Still though, buries my face in my hands because thank you guys for always being so kind to me. I appreciate it, I really do! Thank you. And thank you for letting me write with you -- and to those I haven't quite written with yet, I can't wait to meet you and get some interactions going!
#Out of the Flames#silly PSA is silly alkfjgdl#but no yes thank you guys so so much for your kindness and patience#I'm really honestly an anxious wreck like 98% of the time -- so thank you for making me feel welcome and for encouraging me with this blog#I really do love this muse so much. I haven't been this attached to a muse in like. close to a decade#and the last one I loved this much and was this passionate about was the protagonist from Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs so#needless to say the fandom was very tiny and more or less dead#So again -- thank you guys for everything#You're all wonderful beans and I'm grateful
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spontaneous expressions of wynnstannery (re: winston quant kid 2 billions)
#i'm like man and the little a gnc quant doesn't also have rendered facial hair. gotta take it up with the spontaneity#i do need those stache scribbles following fairly precise rules lol#reminding me like right yes imagining the Energy of [like; kompenso messiness and Thrill of Successful Big Progress#on an Area Of Passion] like au winston & taylor mathematicians working on the same project / theory whatever#they care very much. they get riled up making a breakthrough. visualizing the Fired Up Quantitation of all of That#messy hair & [!!!] energy alike after like twenty consecutive hours of work or whatever. and then they have sex about that too#also remembering an even more half baked little a gnc little a queer eroticism (is there any other kind (no)) visual concept#can it even be fully baked? i dunno i haven't yet rotated it thusly. follow your heart that's what i do#winston billions#corned beef
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Three Act Tragedy - Dress Rehearsal
Egg, Charles and the others attend what was supposed to be a dress rehearsal, but unfortunately it takes a dark turn....
#martin shaw#sir charles cartwright#egg lytton gore#kimberley nixon#three act tragedy#my gorgeous babies!#look how happy they are!#for all I care the ep could have ended there and I would have been alright with it#just let them have a fun night out and plan their wedding in peace#and Charles finally feeling secure enough to put his hand around her shoulder#now that she already said yes to his proposal#my poor darlings - you deserved so much better!#even mama Egg is all smiles#she can tell her daughter is excited and in love#and then the Belgian penguin has to ruin their night!!#Shame on him for thousand years#and you know that slimy little lurker in the background was slobbering over her again the second they left the theatre#my gifs#I'm still so very passionate about them#even though my writing is stagnating right now#but they will have their story told eventually#not giving up on my sweethearts - don't worry!
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