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For a laundry list of reasons I never even thought I'd ever have to cross the bridge of wanting to be a parent. Yet here I am. Taking steps towards it.
Anyone know anything or have gone through IVF and gestational surrogacy?
I'm trying to do a little digging beyond what the websites I've been on give me.
#gestational surrogacy#ivf treatment#ivfjourney#ivf#also inb4 yes ive been thinking about this for over a year#yes I'm working with drs on it#its just big scary bc little me was convinced i shouldnt do it bc of various extremely eugenicist kind of thoughts#im beyond that now and i would like to raise a human in the world#seeing my niece and nephew grow has been the greatest pleasure of my life so far
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super high school level BESTIEEE
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I would pay such good money for confirmation of whether Ratio and Aventurine have worked together before Penacony. How did it happen??? The talks that went on before Final Victor... The initial spark of inspiration to stick Those Two Guys together...
Like, I just have to know if someone in the IPC deliberately tossed Aventurine and Ratio on to a team together (with or without good intentions). Are any of the higher ups in the IPC or the Intelligentsia Guild out there counting on this partnership working out for the best?
To be a fly on the wall when Ratio found out who he'd been hired to "consult" with...
And Aventurine, getting the IPC mission orders across his desk like "Ah, yes, finally. He's here. My Government Assigned Boyfriend™."
#honkai star rail#aventurine#dr. ratio#ratiorine#aventio#golden ratio#I'm just mentally cackling at the idea#not sure what's funnier#AVENTURINE being the one to take one look at Ratio and going#'I am about to devise so many plans that need the Intelligentsia Guild's input'#OR#the higher ups setting them up instead#Aventurine was just minding his own business#hustling for the Stonehearts#makin those deals#and then all the sudden BAM#Genius Be Upon Ye#No wait!!! Please also consider#Ratio taking one look at Aventurine and suddenly coming up with#a ton of research ideas that just absolutely needed the Strategic Investment Department's direct funding#poor gambler did one (1) group presentation and it changed the trajectory of his whole life#some people get an end-of-year bonus after a big work project#Aventurine got a husband#nooooo#Now I'm just imagining a scenario where they have a chance meeting#and then BOTH keep coming up with RICE PAPER THIN excuses to see each other again#while the other Intelligentsia Guild and IPC members are just watching like#“This is kind of embarrassing”
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I love these blogs
Posts from here and here
#art#doodles#fanart#psychonauts#psychonauts 2#razputin aquato#sasha nein#dr loboto#raz psychonauts#sasha psychonauts#I'm still sorta figuring out how to to draw them#but I think looking at reference helped a lot :]#also yes I'm still working on the other things. I just drew these as a reward for drawing the guy I don't like#caligosto loboto#comic#<- forgot those
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They're everything to me <33
#i never mentioned this but morro is human in these dr doodles yes he came back to life#spoilers to that morro story I'm working on ig#anyways back to gushing about the father n daughter ever <33#thems <3333#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago euphrasia#ninjago morro#blue's doodles
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I have a question: what is the thing you are passionate about? What is the thing you can't live without? The thing you think about all the time and make your life about it (or wish you could have done)?
I want to know the thing that makes you feel the same way Hinata feels about volleyball, or Senku feels about science. Or, if not in the same way, how does that makes you feel? What is your relationship with this thing?
I'm genuinely curious, and would like to have as many answers as possible. If you could help me, I would be very grateful. Also, if you could reblog to reach more people, it would help a lot.
#this is for something I'm still working on#but I sure hope it reaches a lot of people#and yes I put Hinata and Senku there so I could tag them and reach more people im sorry#idk how to tag this#hopes#dreams#sports#life#?????#idk#hinata#hinata shouyou#haikyuu#haikyu!!#senku#senku ishigami#dr stone#thanks for listening
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Okay, I know Keppler AND Mr. Cutter both either outright say or heavily imply that Dr. Hilbert never was successful with Decima and that it was still a deadly virus...
BUT...
Keppler and Mr. Cutter both have clear reason to lie about this fact. Keppler has a known hatred of Dr. Hilbert AND wanted to undermine him at every opportunity. While it is clear that Lovelace's blood helped heal Eiffel- it could still be true that Decima was in fact working as well.
And Mr. Cutter threatens to use Decima to destroy the world- but that's because he only knows of its negative record- but by the time Decima could have hypothetically been working, Dr. Hilbert had long since stopped informing command of his work. There's a chance that Mr. Cutter is only working with old data and information on Decima (alongside perhaps what Keppler has told him) and merely believes that Decima is this mega-virus that could kill everyone.
Like... YES I'm probably wrong but through the narrative we get very little DIRECT proof that Decima never truly worked at the point of Eiffel's improvement. We are just redirected to another reason as to why Eiffel could be improving health-wise.
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Got diagnosed with "spots all the way down" and they didn't even give me a space worm???
#they gave me steroids this some bs#not even inaprovaline smdh#trill posting?#never doubt my ability to make anything about Star Trek#still pretty spotty though#lolol skin is mottled like a Borg but just less grey#the doctor said I had a beautiful rash and my reply was thanks I made it myself#can't take me anywhere#why yes I do think I'm funny#sonic shower thoughts#fun fact taking famodadine makes your antihistamines work better? gotta fact check the dr still#betting cash money I don't have that the rash will stage a comeback#I'm just annoyed I've been on allergy shots for 6 years and I can still have a prolonged massive allergic reaction#melts into oblivion
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absolutely insane that May 1st is a (wip) Wednesday
well, it's not really that's just how time works but... i was thinking about adding my stupid mer andreil thing to wipw for MerMay and now i'm like HELL YEAH THIS IS A SIGN TO DO THAT
i just have to get my notes together and make a proper outline and sacrifice 100---
#sighs dreamily#yes i love making more work for myself.#but it's MEANT TO BE don't you see?!#(who tf am i? dr suess? oh god... i'm taylor swift...)#(it's meant to be/ don't you see/ you're never gonna get away from me) (i just wrote her new song)#anyway... lol Switfie girls please leave me alone it's just a little jokey joke#diaerie
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GUESS WHO GOT A VOICEMAIL ABOUT SCHEDULING MY TILT TABLE TEST
#i'm too sick to call them back today and work out scheduling but HOLY SHIT#my dr started referring me to places for this like a YEAR ago and this is the FIRST place that has offered to schedule me#they are far enough away i may have to fundraise for a motel stay but#I MIGHT FINALLY GET MY ORTHOSTATIC SHIT DIAGNOSED#i have had problems with this for almost TWENTY YEARS#and like yes my neuro said she'd prescribe me beta blockers even without testing but#i want to know for sure i've got the right diagnosis#also talking to a dr who might have tips i dont know yet for dealing with it would be amazing#most drs just look at me blankly about it and one suggested i was just kind of a lost cause#updates on my boring life
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when children go to war.
a drabble: following round 1 of boel this year. word count: 353 words
Valter didn’t stick around after his victory.
There was no point—to waste time on waiting, on watching when he could be out there in the brawl. Already, this year’s bout was turning out better for him than the last: he’d even had the chance to avenge himself, in part, about his prior loss to the Golden Deer. (He would not be satisfied, of course, until he brought the Lions to victory as well.) The task was a simple one, really, and he would continue this road until the end.
Lance shatters the grass, crunching dirt; an odd angle. (It’s mostly the result of the suddenness with which he sent it flying.) Iron stood not too far away, easily within hand’s reach if he dashed, but for now–
‘You know, I still treasure that flower crown.’ (A self-absorbed scoff.)
For what was the purpose of such an asinine comment? To remark to a stranger that you ‘cherished’ something from them—really, it only spoke of her more than anything. (To value it to begin with was a foolish thing, but to bring it up as they were opponents, combatants, enemies–)
A crunch from a near distance. Head jerks around, spotting pink—flames conjured to descend; the Moonstone steps back, using the magic as cover. The crackle becomes footsteps, the light casting shadows—he always had thoughts on forests, but for now, it was the sight of an attempted ambush. Hand draws the new weapon acquired from the Golden Deer.
Click.
And the student falls—not dead though, importantly. (It didn’t take much analysis though for Valter to recognize the ease with which it could happen.) Instead, they are only disarmed; rendered incapable of fighting but not of committing the long trek back to camp. It is not the priestess, of course, for he had already defeated her. (The thought isn’t even worth having, to be frank—that somehow, he had not succeeded.) Eyes widen in the shadows, locking for but a moment before Valter smiles, stepping back.
Because in the end, the fight is all that matters. (Sentimentality could find a place in the heart of a weaker man.)
Imitation Dakka acquired!
#[ ‘i will rise to glory once more.’ ] (drabbles)#[ drabble: 'when children go to war.' ]#TOAboel2024#[ support: sakura ]#[ gentlenekomata ]#// despite me putting sakura's support tags here she doesn't actually show up in this drabble#// that said this IS about her and what she said to him upon defeat#// so if i were to go back to try and understand valter's opinion of her this would be something i'd want to rediscover fnjkngsfg#// (tl;dr - my blog my rules /lh)#// also thought it'd be cool to broadcast inventory updates bc y'all can find that pretty easily anyway#// so let's go!! we're headed into round 2!! :]#// (also yes this is titled not after a line in the drabble but instead Pray by The Amazing Devil#// (bc i didn't think any one line in particular made a good title for this#// (but i WAS listening to the song as i finished this up and i thought it worked so NFDSJGNSDGJ#// (ok i'm done rambling in the tags now ciao ciao!!)
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among the boundless billions zaniness like laugh track as it definitely has that moment of expressing "rolling my eyes as The Left makes a kerfuffle of Acting like they have a stance as a veneer over the true belief that [xyz] is cool & chill actually" like what, approximate 0.000% chance wendy isn't, as usual, given the Objective Stance of "yeah yeah ohh we are cancelling involved parties talking about how we Don't watch this But. we all love this damn epic movie & already have it memorized so shut the fuck up, kids today" like. don't wanna really delve into how much billions thinks taylor or anyone is "really" trans / nonbinary like not too much benefit of the doubt in this material including what does provide info abt that specifically
& the general like [head in hands. what do you think any of this could possibly be about (you're the one that made your show at all about Power)] of "yes, it's bad/wrong to be someone that someone has done something to / victim of something" like that to be anti misogyny All Women Must Be Epic Winners b/c there's something to be proved: that they don't Deserve to be victims (of misogyny), not taken as a Given. while when we see some epic winner men stepping on other men (who need not all be guaranteed Winners so as to say misogyny is wrong), that's often Good, well beyond any assumption that various forms of basic disrespect / violation / patterns of emergent/entrenched power difference as Bad (for being things done to people, not for there being people they're being done to), & generally billions has to take an extra step when ppl get shitted on & tell us the Specific Cases when it was undeserved actually & someone was being mean to a specific person who didn't deserve that. & the specific cases when hey guess it wasn't that bad(tm) or when hey It's Okay that you're someone something was done to, in this case. & tell us what we were supposed to know all along like when someone who something was being done to (wrong Of Them, whether b/c they inherently deserve it no matter what, &/or b/c they failed to be someone who could make it Impossible to do anything to them, which, how do you do that besides being The Authority / Superior yourself, exactly? nonrhetorically? what if the in group vs out group / fascism / authoritarianism protected Me?) was actually being treated Too Well b/c ah well the abuse meant you were getting any attention, maybe it meant you were claimed as any superior's property, maybe it meant you weren't Already disposed of, as all Losers were in the end, You're Welcome.
obviously referring to winston where it's spelled out all the abuse towards him was deserved, & More than he deserved in the case of rian having more access & taking advantage of that, all for billions' enjoying its own sendoff there of, again, maximizing violation & violence short of [real violence is physical & leaves bruises / draws blood / Literally kills] which would be distasteful in general But doesn't it make wags look like the winner & winston the loser is that the former's completely unrelated completely impersonal ego blow gets way amplified taken out on winston, the most vulnerable recurring character when spyros as [first & ultimate Everyone Hates Him role] is more entrenched in there & billions still magnanimously pities tuk, as it does winston too, just not quite as much. again that like completely surface level realized power fantasy of forcing the mirror up to the Inferior so they're like nooo my inferiorityyyy & in doing so like, the projection in that lmao, we get it re: the valuing of & need(tm) for such Power Tripping & Reaffirming My Superiority & My Ego Restored; Everyone Claps like good god. & then for all ben & tuk are the slightly softer Two Too Nice Boys duo to the rian & winston quant duo, also like too nice i guess but not as much, ben is in charge of tuk but Any instance of rian being in charge of winston outstrips them in that "yay interpersonal abuse" dynamic, like then in the end billions may be like "yeah it's possible to be mean to them unlike how being mean to winston is actually Nice b/c he deserves everything he gets, we only vicariously enjoy it vs Feeling Bad for tuk & ben sometimes (still magnanimously & it's Not That Bad / just goofin)" like ben & tuk still Fail by not being people it's impossible to do anything to. & not Exceptions who anyone is really being Too Mean to. like if they were women, in which case, no problem surely with a "positive" kind of victim blaming where there is something Inherent that Will be victimized so hey how about to cancel that out there's this special Paternal Protection you Need always, Or Else? :) but instead they are men who are asian & is ben gay & w/tuk & winston nobody mentions glasses or fatness but billions doesn't really do much or very in depth textual mentioning of Anything, even w/nonzero mention that there may be gender & race in this world. a gay man, once. no disability. we just Know who are the inferiors who deserve it when they're treated inferiorly, or if they don't, they start deserving it when they fail to stop/avoid it, but if you start mentioning the factors behind who we all totally agree is inferior like whoa nobody was Saying any of that? being the real agent of oppression on the basis of the factors only You spelled out, much? nonbinary? i never say anything about the Gender Binary when i'm subscribing to it, sounds like You've created & enforced it. obfuscation & deflection onto [so Just Normal nobody has to label, explain, or argue it] couldn't serve a purpose & protect the existing power differences as they are. maybe You're the problem? perhaps you brought it upon yourself & now you're causing too much trouble standing up for yourself while everyone else's criticism is laser focused on you as the prior & continuing negative actions done to you are taken as a given / unquestioned / covertly protected to overtly encouraged?
anyway so wild if the Completely Normal(tm) Victim Blaming is uncritically recreated & oft embraced for "if you're watching this & don't wish you were axe / find him appealing" [billions as a sequence of vicarious power trips] purposes in this series....but a bit wild considering like this is your multiseason show that wasn't just purporting to be those power trips for [enough demographic & apparently specific personal tastes overlap w/creators] & was at all purporting to question the matters of power at play in the material, or yknow, at least to not be completely superficial material while said material is textually & thematically all about power difference being leveraged, how, the consequences, & so on. thus i will have to intermittently talk about it forever like this like lord unbelievable. & the funny little & sometimes less funny less little characters it has trapped in there so that those of us who were never meant to be in the audience can be cursed with this knowledge. like i have some feedback. "imagine not victim blaming" & "imagine adjusting your perspective can go beyond superficial layers added to politely defer to some other ppl while they're present but really like cmon do they deserve that. am i not just saying what we're allll thinking"
#another random night another Verbal Effusion of [forehead to hand]#winston billions#who needs actual questions about power or the consequences of getting to consider others Lessers & acting accordingly#when we can last minute be like uh wendy is god actually. take it away wendy (wait she just does whole other shit half the season)#okay Now take it away wendy i guess b/c the series is dead set on you being the Moral Center#if mostly b/c gosh everyone either loves owning you as pseudo wife or correctly recognizes & defers to your superiority#the scene i couldn't bear to sit through at the start of s7 way too long sequence of wendy Going To Work to the ''cuz im awesome'' song#i was like. lol. i was like okay that is wendy's mood / perspective then. Wrong. it was billions conveying Fact to the audience. rip#abt as great setup for ''the only other shoe that finally dropped was that of Yeah It's This Completely Surface Level'' as possible (:#prince has exactly the same attitudes & actions as wendy does? uh well you see. it's just bad when he does it#if only more wendys were in charge. if only we go ''well even if it's bad if wendy does it? or axe or whoever? Could Be Worse''#nothing to analyze in the [but at least it's not worse] dead end re: justification of Power Leveraging & minimization of its consequences#tl;dr just the victim blaming embraced everywhere & the idea that everything that Deviates from the Norm Too Ethically Mindedly#is just that veneer slapped on overtop of [haha but truly: the norm] like no but seriously we all know It's Not That Deep(tm)#even for the characters written to exercise this [my Extra Mile Ethics] trait regularly it's expressed as this Polite Addendum#to the [what's Really at play] normal. the And Enbies tacked on; that's that on that & it Is an extra veneer to the norm#prince asking if taylor's changing up their pronouns; no more Meant a red flag than him immediately shitting on winston i'm sure#yet yknow why tf suppose taylor more than anyone else would Change Pronouns. taylor who the series also only ever shows as being#misgendered As A Woman. whose drag / cisguise As A Woman is not treated in the same way a man's would be / is#whose emotive / expressive affect isn't either. billions like [the genders are m/f] to [perhaps also amab/afab] Tacked On#as something politely Extra you do to their face that doesn't actually change (threaten) your idea of what's just Normal & True#like it's normal & true that ugh god don't you hate the autistic people around you? don't you wish you could go sicko mode on them#so that they couldn't be around you anymore & they'd have brought it upon themself & really it was good of you b/c The Group Cohesion#thanks you & b/c you just gave them free ABA? yes yep Surely Unquestionably#problem isn't abuse & concomitant violation in & of itself. it's Bad to be someone that's done to. we will announce Exceptions#rest of you either you brought it upon yourself or you failed to Correct that you're not someone who inherently deserves it#that is: someone who just can & will Stop It if done to them. well so you see winston pushing back is ignored or treated to further#backlash & then he withdraws (expression of his experience / creation of a consequence which tells the other Stop Doing This)#&/or otherwise conveys displeasure / being hurt (same as before. ''uh well push back / express xyz'' ppl did & were steamrolled/ignored)
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Tagged by @seoksao to do the "which character" personality test and post my results and honestly thank you so much for tagging me this was so fun because i'm obsessed with comprehensive personality quizzes (shocker) and i got a bunch of my coworkers to take it too and i loved seeing everyone's results! i could fit my top 46 in the screenshot so that's what you're getting
i could also see which character i was like from specific shows so they're not on the list but i was also similar to eric from that 70s show, jonah from superstore (a callout), peeta from the hunger games, and reid from criminal minds <3
Tagging: don't be nervous you can do this @courtthisdisaster (if you wanted to post it!), @blueside-hobi, @cheekyquokka, @hopeinthebox, @mutedstring, @not-so-secretly-mairon, @stardiviner13, and anyone who sees this!
#tag: i'm it!#seoksao#courtthisdisaster#blueside-hobi#cheekyquokka#hopeinthebox#mutedstring#not-so-secretly-mairon#stardiviner13#i haven't done this in so long sorry if the tagging doesn't work#if you've already been tagged just message me i'll tell you where i live so you can come punch me in the face#i thought charlie swan at number 1 was the funniest possible result until i saw the guy from ratatouille was an option#dr. james wilson is also a callout. for me and all my fellow type 9s#i watched degrassi religiously and idk why i scored so high for connor the ONLY storyline i remember from him was the panty raiding#why yes i do have an excessive amount of repressed internal rage thanks for asking#i don't agree with my score for ann perkins but i sure am flattered!#i've never seen arrested development but i immediately knew i got michael cera#please never ask me to make a decision. i'll cry#the text is all different sizes but fixing it seems complicated#if you're reading this you should probably drink some water <3
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the pure brainrot i subject myself to when i constantly re-watch the same 360p videos of the animals to just barely catch the act of alan glancing at eric and paying close attention to his body language when performing to know how to approach certain portions of the songs, or end the song in general...
#guess what i was subjecting myself to last night#alan does it all over the place in the 'around and around' and 'talkin' 'bout you' performances..........#eeeeee yes some of the few videos we have of them actually on screen together i wonder why connie watches this so much 😐😑😐#the way in which alan uses his keyboard to back up eric's voice to the point of calling himself eric's 'translator' and amanuensis........#wAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PERPETUALLY EXPLODING.......#them... thank you for sharpening my analysis skills in such a profound way i will forever dedicate my braincells to making sure the world#knows that you two are silly and kind and homoerotic with one another and legitimately enjoy the other's company and musical influence#aGGGGH i need a dr pepper and i also need more animals footage featuring alan some day to study like a peer-reviewed textbook#alan price#eric burdon#the animals#classic rock#gif#60s rock#british invasion#things i said today#animusings#that tag is from my animal blog 😔🙏 animusings everywhere including when i'm at work
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It cost me 4 years but I finally found an endocrinologist that isn’t a raging transphobe 🥰
#ooc.#the shit I’ve had to endure from doctors since I got here lmfaooo#transphobia and fatphobia bc good lord my bmi ( the most Outdated Concept Ever ) wasn't up to snuff. listen dr. i'm muscular!#and (bridget jones vc) yes i will always be just a little bit fat#he rlly said ‘your blood work looks good and you say you feel fine so see ya’#medical //#transphobia //#fatphobia //
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Becker and Chris, Season 4, episode "Parannoyed"
#becker#chris connor#ted danson#nancy travis#listen#the older filming quality makes it tough to gif this show#but I'm choosing chaos and doing it anyways#the subtitles are horrendous#but I'll make it work#what I'm finding is#Becker is grumpy#we all know#like an early version of Dr. House#BUT#Chris is spunky and energetic as hell#hmmm#where have we seen that later on?#a grumpy angry character vs someone with spunk and energy for days#yes it's finn and db#one could argue finn represents both personalities#and you're right#but she's more anger when she first starts#and he's like#why you mad?#I didn't think I'd spend this much time comparing two shows and four characters so much#two of which are played by the same guy#but here we are#yes I know I am insane#and it doesn’t have anything to do with the fact that Nancy Travis and Elisabeth Shue give off the same energy and hair styles#in these respective shows
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