#yes I know this would be ooc

[thatstonedwriter]

Don't mind me, just thinking about if Blitzø had a kind/compassionate partner, how he might call them "angel"

[arazend]

this came to me in a dream

[windywriter]

This is in reference to this post it turned out longer than I thought it would so I put it under read more.

The first time Baji realizes how much of a different world you live in compared to his was when he had to be hospitalized for a fight he got into. It wasn't the first time something like this happened. The punk got lucky, but Baji made sure that he didn't go down without a fight.

When he finally was discharged he was greeted by the usual heckling and boisterous welcomes at school. All the usual stuff, except when he finally came to you. Your eyes were red and puffy, contrasted by the heavy dark circles that had begun to form under them. Usually, you'd run into his arms, fussing over him and every little scratch or cut he had gotten. At first the whole ordeal just annoyed him, but soon enough he had learned to love those moments. But now, you stood before him, just out of arm's reach, your body trembling from was it sadness or perhaps rage?

"Do you have any idea ho-how worried I was for you?"

You sniffled out, wiping away burgeoning tears. The answer was obvious, but for some reason, Baji just couldn't seem to grasp it. I mean, he's still here right? This wasn't the first time you've seen him hurt, so what's the big deal? Frustration tickled the back of his throat, but he knew better than to give in to that right now. Taking a tense breath, Baji slowly reached for you with his good arm. All he needs to do is just calm you down so he can show you once again, that everything's fine and you-

"Don't touch me!"

Instinctively Baji immediately rescinded his hand, his eyes snapping to you in attention.

"You were gone for a week! Do you even understand how scared I was when I found out you were in the hospital?! How could you!?"

And before he could even muster up a reply, you had already run past him, your sobs trailing behind you as you left. Normally hed chase after you, just like in those boring shojou mangas chifuyu kept recommending him ever since he started dating. But, something felt off. And then it hit him. You...you weren't used to this, were you. The violence, the blood, the bruises. All things Baji had grown accustomed to, and perhaps even began to enjoy. Those were things you had never known. And suddenly, the hall you had sprinted past him seemed to only grow longer. A deafening silence filling his ears even as the school bell rang.

Later that day Baji skipped the rest of his classes with Chifuyu and went to your favorite bookstore. You had mentioned once that you were looking forward to pick up a new book that was coming out. Though his foul temper did little to help with his concentration in finding it. That coupled with the throbbing of his broken arm made the minutes seem to stretch into hours. What volume was it again? Was it even apart of a series?

"Baji san, you okay? You've been looking at the same shelf for a while now." Chifuyu asked.

Letting out a sigh he didn't even know he was holding, Baji clenched and unclenched his fist before grumbling out.

"I fucked up."

[evocatiio]

if chibnall was the one writing this season you lot would be talking VERY differently

[feroluce]

Thinking tonight about Caelus, and the nature of his loss and his grief after the Everything that went down in Penacony during 2.0.

Because Acheron, Black Swan, and Misha kind of knew of Firefly, they at least met her, but they didn't like really know her, and Caelus never even got the chance to introduce her to the rest of the Astral Express Crew. The only person who would have talked to her much was Sparkle, who is. Probably not really someone Caelus is interested in grieving with skznmsks

Anyway, all this to say, I like thinking about how alone poor Caelus is in his grief, because he was the only one who knew Firefly. He's the only one really mourning her. There's no one to talk about her with. There's no stories to trade or memories to reminisce with anyone over. It's not as though he knew her for long, but still. No one else knew her at all.

And I love the thought of all of this coming bubbling up, hot and acidic and bitter, during a conversation with Sampo, who Caelus just so happens to run into in the Golden Hour. Poor Sampo is kinda blindsided, he knew shit was going down in Penacony, but yeesh. And he just. Isn't quite sure what to say about it all, because he's never really encountered this before. His feelings about the Masked Fools are...a mixed bag, but he's been a part of them for a very long time, and when you're with a close organization like that, it's hard to feel alone, in grief or otherwise.

So Sampo sits there on their little bench that the two of them have occupied, and he thinks of his old friend April, how she'd died in his arms cackling and spitting her own blood after a heist gone wrong, and how after he'd dragged himself back to the World's End Tavern they'd all held a Fool's Funeral- which is basically just a big party where everyone gets really really drunk and reminisces and toasts the dead and celebrates their life.

He still thinks about her a lot, and he remembers how the time he'd most keenly felt her absence was on Jarilo-VI, the one place where he couldn't talk about her because he couldn't say anything to give himself away as an alien. The Fools still tell stories about her every time he goes back to the Tavern. His first toast of the night is always in her name. Even now, all these years after she'd died, Sampo is still learning new things about her. He's never had to grieve her alone.

Caelus doesn't have any of that.

He might never have that. As they speak, Caelus has no proof that Firefly was even her real name, or if she dreamt with her true appearance. He might not ever find out who she even was.

And just imagining that kind of loneliness hollows out a strange little pit, right behind his sternum, deep between his ribs.

So Sampo claps Caelus' shoulder and offers him a deal. Come find him outside of the dream. He knows a guy who can get them a lot of beer for really cheap-

("Is that guy you and your five finger discounts?" "Whatever do you mean, dear friend, I don't even know the meaning of the phrase, hehee.")

-and they can hole up in a bar or a hotel room or something, and get completely shitcanned. Tell him all about Firefly, tell him everything, and he'll tell Caelus about April and everyone else he's ever lost. Sampo will carry Caelus' memories of Firefly with him, and at least this way, Caelus will be a little less alone in remembering her. And the next time they cross paths, Sampo will be the one to bring her up, and to tell her stories, and Caelus can get to be the one listening. He won't have to be the only person to talk about her anymore.

Caelus rolls his eyes when Sampo avoids another remark about sticky fingers, but...ok, yeah. That sounds good. Nice, even. Thank you. Caelus bumps his shoulder against Sampo's. Sampo bumps back.

(They find each other again the next day, and true to their word, get themselves completely and utterly shitcanned. Caelus talks more than Sampo has ever heard him; every minute detail, every word choice, Firefly's every odd little mannerism and habit. Because Caelus wants to make sure this will outlive him, that even if the Stellaron dwelling within him finally burns him to a crisp and he really does up and kick the bucket, or even, godforbid, if he forgets, he wants to make sure someone remembers her. She deserved that.)

((And it takes quite a while, after that. Caelus doesn't see Sampo again until after everything has settled down. On his last day in Penacony, he finds the guy slinking out of a seedy back alley and all but runs right into him. Sampo happily leads him to some dive bar in an even seedier back alley that Caelus has never even heard of, and Sampo raises his glass. "To Firefly! Who sounds like she probably would have hated me at first, but I would have liked to have met her anyway."

And Caelus stares at him, almost looking startled, long enough that Sampo worries that he's read him wrong and brought this up too soon. He's halfway into planning how to talk himself out of this situation when Caelus finally throws back his head back and laughs, tells him that yeah, Firefly would have politely called him out on every lie he told, and all their conversations would take twice as long with the way Sampo is so full of shit.

And he can see it, the same way he watches and sees through everyone, that Caelus' eyes have a tightness to them, his knuckles are nearly white around the handle of his mug. But he smiles. He hits his glass against Sampo's far too hard and throws it back and gets foam everywhere like he does every time they drink because the guy's about as elegant as a raging bull, but those things don't lessen the genuineness of his smile.

The grief is there, but so is the elation, and those emotions aren't a sliding scale between one or the other. It is all of both and both at once, and that's what contents Sampo enough to throw his own mug back when Caelus makes a toast of his own, "to April!!".))

[nightviator]

Brisket Five!

[storfulsten]

The way you draw bf is so cute and i love it, can i give him a lil kiss on the forehead

aw thanks, I'm glad you like the way I doodle him and such ha

as for the lil kiss on the forehead...

don't think whitty'd like that very much sorry lol

[faethons]

Like for a little something to kick the blog off?

[noel-levine-fan]

this line has always baffled me genuinely what is she talking about. what book

edit: anon helped me with this one, apparently this an idiom...! oops lol. see, i have heard things like "you could write a book on x, you know so much about it...!" but never "you wrote a book on x," like, in the past tense, like you actually wrote it. perhaps this is common and i just don't know about it, but either way, i'm happy my question is finally answered...

i'm afraid i do look a little silly now... but that's alright

NOOOOO GUYS STOP LIKING THIS POST ITS EMBARASSSINGGGGG (not genuine go ahead I find it funny)

[veecantswim]

I was looking through my old files and found a drawing related to "media naranja" (my other half/soulmate in english) but it literally means half an orange...it was right there

[dutybcrne]

Thinking abt Kae’s Fatui verse,,,,

[marc--chilton]

(wcau) due to his patch of territory being on clan borders, house has plenty of neighboring clan enemies (plainsclan territory and his overlap but since he's an ally and codstar's close friend, he's safe to hunt there even in winter when prey is scarcer; hunting on other clan territories is not as easily overlooked)

the deputy of this other (as of yet unnamed) clan has a particular bone to pick with him. ternstorm (tritter, name may change) isn't afraid to harm a free-roaming medicine cat, nor is he worried his torment -- more than is necessary for chasing someone from clan territory -- could end in his demotion as volestar (vogler) doesn't like house either. volestar, however, doesn't sign off on house's death either, as doing so would end in war

[eggtargaryenii]

reader internally: haha jace is being so funny suggesting that he could marry me just to annoy his uncle. what a fun little joke!

jace internally: please let me wife you

[magitekelite]

personally i would have preferred to see c.loud as e.dgar and t.ifa as c.eles and s.ephiroth as s.etzer ( a.erith as t.erra Makes Sense to me ) , but i will not deny the f.igaro bros their time to shine

[gravesung]

>makes a big blog decision >satisfied a few days later: >thinks about making anothe—

[ricopop]

im emotionally downcast 😭😭😭 @superbellsubways @cephalonheadquarters