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While I know Andrew is not perfect, a lot of people are swinging the other pendulum and acting like he's just as evil as Ashley if not more and the real abusive one of the situation or outright downplaying any nice trait he has (or any justified reason for why he acts the way he does)
Like, even if avoiding the consequences of his actions is a primary motivator, he really did feel bad about Killing her as well as Ashley's nonchalant reaction to it and the fact she used Nina's death to blackmail him, most of the venomous words for her are because said death and what she forced him into (which likely carries to how he treats her in high modern day)
Also the fact he knows what guilt w
I've been marinating in TCOAAL analyses, and the takes on both characters are fascinating.
My take is that Ashley is immoral, while Andrew is amoral. There is a difference between the two. The conflict comes from the fact that Andrew is aware of this, he's aware that it's "wrong", and tries very hard to be Ashley's moral compass to compensate. Ashley, ever since she was a kid, was made painfully aware that there was something "wrong" with her, no one except her brother loved her (and even then, who said that he wasn't pretending?), and her reaction was to embrace it.
(I'd really love to talk about their childhood, how Leyley displays behavior that she could have only learned from others, how they seem to have learned the lesson that "bad children don't deserve love" and how they cope with it)
The crux of the matter seems to be... did Andy really feel bad about Nina, or was his primary concern going to jail and being separated from Leyley? Is the trauma that stemmed from the incident from the feeling of guilt and remorse, or because that was the point where he became his sister's plaything and could not escape from her anymore? This seems, from what I've seen, what split the fans.
Rewatching the scene, Andy's first coherent dialogue is all about how the situation looks. "Why would have she clawed the lid if she was there willingly?" "She'll start to rot" "They're gonna know!". This once again hints at how Andy's first concern is "can this be traced back to us?". But to be fair, Leyley was the one who first said "you took off the stick, so it looks like she went there willingly", so he's responding to her.
But then he says "they'll throw me in prison for the rest of my life!" Which is very. Mh :)
Interpretation 1: Andy is being as self-centered as kids are prone to be. Nothing more to look into.
Interpretation 2: Andy only cares about himself and the consequences he's going to suffer. His sister's fate is up in the air. Lowkey implies that Andy didn't care much about her before this mess happened.
Interpretation 3: he genuinely thinks he's the main culprit of this incident. I want to add that this line happens before Leyley starts to hammer into his head that now he's bad and no one will love him anymore :) this would imply that Andy felt actual guilt.
There is probably not a concrete answer as of now. I hope episode 3 has more flashbacks because man they are so fascinating.
Anyway, to get back to the point. Andrew is not "evil". Andrew is a profoundly damaged person who was forced to become the everything of his even more damaged sister. Ashley is the "criminal mind", as it were... but to me, it looks like Andrew is on the same wavelength - remember, Ashley mused to herself that the dead neighbour was "a lot of meat", but Andrew, after the initial shock, immediately started to consider the implicit proposal of eating him. While Ashley wears her heart on her sleeve, is painfully honest, and couldn't care less about what anyone (except her bro) thinks of her anymore, Andrew is profoundly in denial about his own "abnormal" thoughts, and the difference between Decay and Burial is how he decides to accept himself.
Does that make him a better person? Well, he seems to be able to fit in more, at least. He's charming and can seemingly attract girls very easily, much to Ashley's chagrin. Maybe, without Ashley, he'd be able to live a normal life without crimes and all. But again, to me it looks like he lacks a moral compass in general, even though he has a strong sense of guilt and responsibility (which to me stems from being Leyley's sole caretaker since a tender age).
As to him being an abuser... well, he does threaten to slap and backhand Ashley a few times. She even calls him "wifebeater" at one point. Not enough to call him an abuser, but the threat of him becoming physical is always there. He's more than capable of subduing Ashley, when he wants to. Ashley's abuse is much more overt and constant, with her manipulation and guilttrips (and she got physical at least once too), but Andrew calmly choking Ashley and making her make a case for her life... has some implications.
I don't think I'm making sense lol. TCOAAL is a fascinating game that hides all sorts of moral questions underneath its over-the-top tone, and I love it.
#the coffin of andy and leyley#yeah i went on a tangent sorry#there is *so* much to dissect in this tiny game#i'm so glad i found it
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Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?
actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.
my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.
#sci speaks#i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me.#i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men.#i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring.#also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life.#this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed.#lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??”#“why are you together??????????”#i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror.#i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better.#the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified#but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships.#just an observation.#i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but.#of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does.#it makes a difference. it does.#which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body”#im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me.#i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have.#my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here.#sorry this went off on a tangent.#but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues.#i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous.#i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got.#once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that!#couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.
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Anakin truly set out the goal to marry Padmé as soon as he first laid his eyes on her. He didn't even interact with her that much to come to the conclusion that he wanted to wed her. As soon as they met again 10 years later, he wasted no time and put a ring on that finger. They didn't even take at least a month; they went straight to marriage. Their romance is essentially a Disney fairytale 😅❤️
#anakin skywalker#padme amidala#star wars#pt#meta#sw meta#txt#my characters differ from them in many ways but they too got married just a week after meeting each other#it was love at first sight#anakin had love at first sight padme didn' for obvious reasons but she still developed a fondness for anakin#it wasn't until anakin was already an adult that she went “oh damn you are hot now”#mine originally met each other as children (of the same age) but i eventually decided to change it to when they were already in their 20's#he is 3 years older than her. i changed it to make it even more fairytale-ish#they are the only couple in my story that experienced love at first sight#the rest have a more “realistic” approach to romance and took their time until they decided to get married#but these two? oh yeah they got married even though they just met#i know elsa would reprimand my oc for marrying a man she just met but i'm sorry but he is fine af and would do anything for anybody#it's a fairytale it's not meant to be taken literally in many ways#it's not a realistic depiction of reality but it teaches you about reality it's meant to be a metaphor more than anything#i went off a tangent again but yes#anakin and padme's relationship is essentially a fairytale#star wars is a fairytale it contains a good chunk of the elements. it's just deeper more detailed and extensive but the core is the same#anyway ramble over
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help your ib post 😭
everytime i see something mention ib in the wild it’s always shocking bc i forget it wasn’t just a personal fever dream
help ib sure does feel like that from start to finish 😭
#ask#anonymous#nonnie if youre comfortable come off anon im always willing to commiserate about the ib o7#also this will be the only time i mention him on this blog but did you know that nico rosberg has most likely done the ib?#he went to (and graduated from) isn nice and at present day they only offer ibdp and ibcp and cp is a new programme#the more you know. also he mightve failed ib history the interview this is from is unclear if its talking about highschool or not#and yk. i dont know 100% if he actually DID ib or not it is just the most logical assumption. afaik he did get offered a spot at icl#and you need 40+ points for that so yk. maybe he did do the ib. but then that contradicts failing history... yeah idk lol#sorry for the tangent drivers/athletes education is just endlessly fascinating to me lmao. i got horribly sidetracked here
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as an Australian you American blokes have got to stop talking about huntsman spiders like that. don't diss my weird little lanky wallclimber friends, they're not horrible awful freaks of nature who chase you and bite you on contact. they're actually very docile and timid and they're very reluctant to bite. like, all they really want to do is hang out on your walls or your ceiling and eat bugs all day. huntsman spiders are way more likely to run away from you and go hide away in your pantry than they are to go out of their way to bite you. biting you would probably put them in even more danger than if they just ran away, and if you are messing with a huntsman spider enough for it to bite you, you were likely being an asshole to it. they do not want to bite people! they don't chase you either, not on purpose anyway. the reason it might seem like one is running towards you is because huntsman spiders have pretty bad eyesight and literally cannot see you properly. it can absolutely be frightening and jarring, yes, i would understand as i have arachnophobia and have expereniced the fear of a huntsman unintentionally jumping or sprinting towards me, but they do not want to chase you or scare you. they are trying to run away. they are in the same boat as you, they're scared out of their wits and are trying to avoid danger. huntsman spiders are not these horrible dangerous freaks, they're just little (and sometimes not so little) guys. they can be scary, but all the miconceptions about them are not warranted or deserved in the slightest! and anyway, they're not even "only in Australia". we are home to many huntsman spiders, but they are also present in Asia, Africa and some places in America. they're not even exclusive to this country so i don't get why "only in Australia" gets hurled at them a lot.
actually, the whole attitude Americans have of Australia having weird and dangerous wildlife and the same old "only in Australia!!1!! kill it with fire lol!!!!1!" reddit drivel is pretty shitty overall tbh. every continent on the damn planet has weird and dangerous wildlife, why are we acting like it's JUST Australia you should stay away from???? America has some fuckin strange animals living there, you don't see as many people making a big stupid spectacle out of that. Australia's wildlife is unique and beautiful and wonderful, no Australian wildlife slander in my notes.
#americans be normal about australia challenge (impossible) /jjjjj#nah but seriously though. as a huntsman liker i will not stand for these lies#the only spiders you really need to worry about are widows funnel webs and recluses if you live in adelaide#also slightly unrelated to spiders and more about americans being weird about australia:#do... do americans genuinely think australia is mostly empty desert...? do they really???#do they get shocked when they learn people live all over australia and not just the coasts......#yeah more people live around the coasts but that doesn't mean there aren't people everywhere. australia isn't just barren land wtf#sorry that was a side tangent i went on. actually i'm not sorry cause that's still an important thing to say#anyway. huntsman spiders are really cool actually and i wish people would stop insulting them all the time#they're timid and gentle. they are not out for blood. they're really good for controlling certain pests!#they are also some of the coolest spiders ever. did you know the biggest type of huntsman is gold?#gold huntsman spiders are really cool because the hair on their bodies makes it look like they're glowing and shining#some huntsman spiders are white and black and they look really cool :D#huntsman spiders' eyes are reflective and if you shine a light on one in the darkness its eyes will glow like a cat's eyes#and i just think that's neat!!#there is one thing i will say about huntsman spiders being dangerous though...#they can be dangerous when one suddenly falls on you or scuttles into view when you're driving#cause you get startled and momentarily lose control of the vehicle which can be disastrous#but even then that isn't the spider's fault and it's not your fault either. that would be a freak accident#anyway yeah huntsman spiders are great i love them :)#spiders#arachnids#huntsman spider#australia#if i gotta see one more redditor say ''kill it with fire'' in response to a huntsman spider im gonna explode
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I /am/ anticipating when future England and co. finally figure out that North is in the past! My guess would be traveling back in time to get him. And, I imagine that some confusion/mistaken identity would happen? Also, if the future co. somehow met their past selves? Confusion and chaos would abound! And I would love to see how it would be resolved! :)
OMG I'm as excited as you are for the moment of Present bros realizing where and when North is. I know when it happens, but I haven't written that scene yet and ksjhfjashdfh I can't WAIT to get there. Like, the dawning realization, the angst, the worry, the hope, it's *chef kiss*.
A thing I still struggle with when it comes to time travel is the meeting your past/future self trope. On one hand, it would be amazing and chaotic to see the bros meeting each other. But on the other hand, I really want to keep the logic that there can't be two you's at the same time. I feel it breaks the immersion or something.
Like in Outlander, when Claire meets Captain Randall for the first time, she thinks it's her husband Frank from the present, but it's actually Frank's descendant (the husband and captain are played by the same actor btw). And even though the captain is a total monster, like the worst of the worst, she still makes sure to let him live long enough until his son is born, so the bloodline continues up to Frank's birth.
I like the logic of that kind of time travel. It's similar to the one seen in the third movie of Harry Potter. You can't interact with your past/future self, but you can change things indirectly because it already happened. That's why I chose North to be the guinea pig of my story instead of an older nation, there's no risk of meeting his past self. He's just a wee baby lol
So would the bros ever meet in person? Not directly, that's for sure. At least, that's not the plan at the moment, but who knows, maybe I'll find a way to let them see a glimpse if it works in the story ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#omg I went into a tangent sorry lol#but yeah time travel is so weird I'm always tweaking the mechanics#though I'm sure I'll still end up with plot holes in the end xD#sot ask#outlander au
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Just looked up Edwards and idk, his face looks too KIND for any of those evil Ma men??? But you're right that he does resemble Sam Reid in the jaw so could be our Marquis. Whoever gets cast as Magnus should get tons of makeup to look completely horrifying and unrecognisable.
I don't know why but I think they'll cast an actor in their early 40s for Marius. Looking older but not that much older than AMC Armand (27).
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I actually think that him having a kinder face could potentially work with the Marquis / Lestat's father?
Sam actually talked about it a bit in his interview with Autumn, but they do have a little narrative conundrum to address in that they've aged Lestat up. He's only 21 when he's turned in the books, whereas they've made him 34 in the series and there is the question of where they put those years. As Sam says, there's kind of two options, first is that they have him in Paris for longer, or second is that they have him stuck in the Auvergne with his family for longer, and he thinks the second option makes more sense, and I totally agree.
Lestat is so subjugated and abused by his father and his brothers, but the reason they keep bringing him back every time he tries to leave is because he's the only one who's any good at hunting, and as a result the only one who can keep them afloat. They're aristocrats in title, but they're totally broke and his father as he ages goes completely blind which makes him, in this era, extremely dependent on his children. I think it makes a lot of sense to draw that period out into Lestat's adulthood and to really explore the complexity of the relationship between abuse, responsibility, servitude and perceived shifts in power versus the actual feelings of that. Especially given the context it can offer potentially for Lestat's role in Rue Royale.
It's important too that Lestat hasn't really had a chance to figure out who he is or live for himself yet, because that's not just a vital part of the tragedy of his turning, but also the key catalyst that has Lestat going to the US specifically to create a family for himself. So yeah, I don't know! I think casting someone as the Marquis who has a kind face isn't necessarily a bad thing, because I think it could play really well into the Marquis becoming dependent on Lestat (and Lestat still searching for any sort of acknowledgement from him) as he grows up.
But yes, haha, the description of Magnus in the book is basically body horror between his face being like a white mask set in a jester's grin and his black eyes and only having the two fang teeth, and I'm curious to see how literally they approach that? I wonder if there's a chance they could make him border on a revenant given he stole the dark gift and wasn't actually willingly turned by anyone. It could be an interesting way to explore how different types of turnings create different types of vampires, which is a factor in the books, and obviously something the show's already introduced given 2.01.
I could see them casting someone in their early 40s for Marius, for sure, especially given that's how old he is in the books. I do kiiind of personally see them going a little older though, just because I think they'll want him to look visibly older than both Armand and Lestat. They might get around that though with casting an actor who just has that sort of authoritative presence, or as I've mentioned before, just casting someone tall. Lee Pace has been a fan cast I've been intrigued by and he'd definitely fit the bill with the latter, haha.
#i have two friends who are supporting friends / partners at the moment#who are having to help abusive parents in end of life care#and it's pretty harrowing tbh#one of my friend's partners hasn't seen his father in 15 years since he went no contact with him#and has been called in by an aunt to help because there's literally no one else to do it#and his brothers are all living overseas so it really is just him locally#it's been a deeply unpleasant experience for him and one i've been thinking about a lot lately#it's such a Thing to get to this age and really start to know the people around you better as they go through these things#anyway that's neither here nor there for this ask exactly sorry this was a bit of a tangent!#but yeah it's interesting to think where they might go with the three ma-guys this season#cw: abuse#iwtv asks#magnus casting#marius casting#marquis casting#welcome to my ama
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Its tragic that Regulus died but it's more tragic that he didn't have to. Kreacher could Apparate him from the cave. And if Regulus wanted to protect his family, his secret death achieves this how? He just disappears and Vold isn't looking for him or punishing deserter' family? Isn't worried that the boy whose house-elf he borrowed to test horcrux protection vanished? But the again, Vold wasn't shook when Kreacher showed up at Bella's in 5th book though elf supposedly died in that damn cave. XD
everything about regulus feels like an exercise in didn’t have to tbh
like yeah i know heroic teenager sacrificing himself blah blah but,,,,after reading a lot of fics that actually focus on worldbuilding/plot/side characters--im not entirely convinced that'sd what it was. like. if harry & co hadn't found the locket by sheer luck, then there's a v good chance things wouldnt have ended the way they had. reg ended up making things harder in his quest to vanquish the dark lord or wtv.
and like, im not even trying to bash here, but when i look at regulus the top character traits i see are arrogance, ambition, inflated sense of self worth, recklessness, and single mindedness (if thats valid). i mean,,,our boy could've easily asked sirius for help, he knew for a fact that his brother was on the other side, but he didnt. why? i cant see anything but ego there. he didnt even try. he was nowhere close to putting the cause above his own self.
but also,,,the fact that he actually went in the cave, presumably knowing he would die,,,that kinda indicates something much sadder for me. like, why else would he be so ok w the fact if he wasnt, say, unbearably suffocated and hopelessly over his head? if there wasnt latent suicidal ideation or, at the very least, a desire to get out, get away, not be here.
like, idk. i cant think of why he wouldnt ask kreacher to apparate him back/help him escape when he knew house elves could bypass the magic until he'd just fully accepted (perhaps even wished for) his death ykno?
#regulus black#i feel like i went off on a tangent there lol#but like. idk. i see reg as an interesting character#but he's still very much a kid for me ykno>#unless its au andpeople have put effort into it--i cant see him as some kind of suave chessmaster who was masterfully manipulating things#the way he wants them#his decisions indicated a high degree of reckless thinking#arguably even more so than sirius id say#and i dont think he used any kind of foresight either#all of which r super normal for teens yeah?#so coming back to the ask: yeah. i feel like a lot of what he did was basically 'didnt have to'#but he was also a possibly self centred teens (as they usually are) who felt like he was all alone (which in a way he was) who valued#his pride and also wanted to make a statement#his letter felt more like someone wanting desperately to leave a mark on the world theyre leaving behind#possibly bc they feel like theyve never done anything lol#actually looking at reg in terms of an inferiority complex is so interesting#sorry for fully psychoanalysing the guy im just rambling here lol#pen’s asks#pen’s notes
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🫥 Have you ever felt invisible? What was a way that the RP community made you feel better?
Oh, I've felt invisible more than a few times during my rp career. But that's also kind of the story of my life 😅 I'm a very low-maintenance person so I always feel bad for asking for attention because I don't want to seem needy. But there are times that I worry I unintentionally put out a vibe that I'm unapproachable...? Which is not the case at all. I'm just very socially awkward lol
However, I remember there was one time on my old multi where I wanted to add Vaggie to my muse list but I was also following people at the time who were basically saying that if you shipped her with men you were a bad person actually and I was torn. My anxiety about it got so bad that I was on the verge of having a panic attack but several of my friends and mutuals reached out to me asking if I was okay and just encouraging me to add her and portray her the way I wanted to. I don't think I ever felt more seen than in that moment and I decided to just say fuck it. It's my blog, I can portray my muses how I want. If someone doesn't like it, the unfollow button's right there.
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I feel like anyone who thinks Coryo is just a deranged monster who does bad things for funsies forgets that Suzanne hasnt ever written an entirely evil character in thg. Katniss herself has so many fucked up moments as wthe. Like when she literally tried to drown and kill Buttercup, Prim's cat, all while Prim was begging and pleading with her not to. Like the whole point is people are products of their environment and are trying to survive. EVERYONE is fucked up and has fucked up thoughts cause they are in a fucked up world where noone is really happy. I love how the book expands on the guilt alot of capital kids feel and the things they try to do to rebel, like one of his classmates starving herself cause her father cut food supply to the districts.
I feel like alot of people went into Tbosas expecting President Snow and so they had an inherit block to see him as anything but purely evil instead of taking a moment to understand where his desperation for his own survival comes from.
Having a reason behind an action does not equal to providing an excuse, and a lot of the people in the Fandom don't realize that. You can acknowledge why something was done and still understand that that something is bad.
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you said this so much better thank you🫶and I think Suzanne plays around a lot with the whole nature/nurture argument in all of the hg books as well as like what makes a human, human.
I think Tom also mentioned it in interviews but he was like talking about the heartbreak of seeing Coryo become who he becomes and im like !!! Thats it!!! It’s heartbreaking because you can root for him and see the opportunities of goodness in him but then it just takes that all away the more actions he takes.
Like smth else I saw that was weird to me was that it was harder to sympathize with him in the book? Which I think the opposite I think it’s much easier to do so in the book compared to the movie because we’re given so much more context on him. And idk, I feel like as someone with anxiety, it’s very easy to relate to that part of Coryo.
Also I think this might change as the book goes on, but like im also over the Coryo never loved Lucy Gray stuff and only wanted to own her. I think in the beginning at least, he does make comments that suggest he has an ownership but that’s also contradicting SO many of his other thoughts about her that are not about ownership AT all. And again maybe this (probably) changes as the book goes on but I hate this being used as a reason he didn’t love her in some capacity, at least in the beginning.
#asks#🐭 anon#sorry I went on tangent#also side note do you guys think he did wanna like#keep her ‘locked up in a cage like a bird’#probably more towards pk Coryo and after ? idk#but yeah it’s a huge disservice to the book and character to limit your perception on snow as only a villain#god I saw one comment that was about coryo being a step away from r-wording lucy gray and I know I haven’t read the whole book but im#not sure that tracks#kill her yeah#but I don’t think that?#sigh#cw rape#< gonna tag it just in case
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anonymous asked: For the mun: Do you think Adam should come back in S2?
hot take apparently! yeah, i think he should come back. they don't call it "man's immortal soul" for nothing lmao nah nah but i digress. i wanna see him wake up in hell as a demon, as punishment for everything he's done in show canon. i wanna see him being a little fucking pissbaby about it. i wanna see him grovel at the front doors to charlie's hotel, begging for a room, "please please please i just wanna go back home". and yeah. i wanna see him grow as a person and learn to be better. that's like the entire point of the show. hell, that's the entire point charlie's been trying to make, like it's the main character's biggest goal. everyone should have the chance to grow and change and do better, living or dead. frankly i don't understand why anything changes just because adam's in that position? like... yes, people like him are awful and disgusting and more often than not don't change (and that's most often due to some sort of societal privilege). but it's not like they CAN'T... like. god forbid a shitty person genuinely works on themselves and stops being shitty??? cmon now.
#// but yeah. this whole notion is like. a big part of why i write a.dam the way i do#// i mean. being a big dumb gay with big dumb feelings also contributes to how i write him. BUT THATS NOT THE POINT AFDGHY#// ALSO SORRY I WENT ON A MILD TANGENT THERE. I JUST HAVE FEELINGS EFDRGTH#// those feelings are not in reference to tumblr people btw. genuinely#// there was someone on my college campus...grew up very conservative. edged into the friend group bc one of us was in history club.#// joined the friend group with unsavory vibes. we spat him back out into society with a much much healthier mindset lmao#dust × 𝖔𝖔𝖈 — ˖ ✦ * ˗ˏˋ𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒖𝒏𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒏ˎˊ˗#inbox × 𝖔𝖔𝖈 — ˖ ✦ * ˗ˏˋ𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒓𝒆𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅ˎˊ˗
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It seems people are getting hype about Magical Girl As Horror Lately? and idk the main concept ive been revolving around- for an au I prommy ill write something for soon ok- is, like. Not exactly magical girl as horror but magical girl as. It is so so unfair. Imagine you had a falliable, human, imperfect body- imagine, even, it was unsatisfying, not fitting to you, or misfunctioning in ways that impair your life. and imagine being granted the ability to loan a perfect body made out of light and flowing with power and perfection, a poised, radiant body- only to turn back .only to have that other form only validated to help others. only to have a real actual mystical voice which claims important in the universe claim that to be or do good your own body really isnt enough?
Just. Having a good body you can turn into as if thats ok to do to someone, give them that and take it away
#this is a trans disabled reading but also its not as if even just your most basic Teenage Girls is not a category of a deeply policed body#cmon.#like yes magical girl is a beautiful celebration and defiant embracing of everything good and holy about frills and femininity#and i do very much love that im very femme#but the idea of tying that with EFORTLESSNESS is something to explore#i would like to poof lolita fit n accesories on and off it would save me a lot of money and spoons#but umm. yeah no Being A Femme Light Warrior is a lot of work. i have warrior armor montage w my fits#AND THIS IS NOT JUST THE POILITICAL AUGH I WENT DOWN A TANGENT IM SORRY#the original point is#if we want to explore the transformation sequence as a place of distortion in a horrror llike manner#lets PAINT AROUND THE EGG. lets talk about the emptiness of the minute after you poof back.#lets talk about the GAP of the change
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Having a real "*freeze frame**record scratch* oh hey it's me you might be wondering how I ended up here" kind of moment rn
#i left the house one (1) time for the entirety of wednesday through saturday#skipped two of my classes did not write the requisite discussion post for either and also didn't turn in the project abstract for one#completely disappeared off the radar for all of my social obligations#and instead went down an insane research/writing rabbit hole for The Blorbos#methinks something has to give. we cannot continue like this#and like when i say this i need you to understand that i spent perhaps 12-14 hours per day for four days#on this extremely sillygoofy writing tangent#what in hell is wrong with my brain but like actually#the most interesting part is that i feel completely fine like i mostly just needed to be let out to see sunlight and get exercise#but i feel like in the past this has caused/been a sign of major depressive episode#and i now really don't know how to explain it to anyone#like i mean it's literally 'yeah sorry i didn't come to [x] i was having a grand old time writing fanfic'#except i don't think that's an adequate description of my last four days. like i don't think that explains the degree of hyperfixation#i think i need an autism and/or adhd diagnosis but also i'm really not sure how that's going to help with anything#but idk it might (and i'm going to look into it anyway bc this can't continue as it is)#perce rambles
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I hope u have fun w/ scarlet !! also sad h.zoroarks aren't found ingame I was hoping to use one :( esp since it's implied they aren't only native to hisui
I'm having fun! it's a little confusing and I'm running all over the place but I'm having fun! 👍 h.zoros are supposed to be available via transfer when scarvi gets hooked up to pokehome next year I heard so I'm v much waiting for that ^^
#h.zoros probably are! native to wherever u.zoros can also be found since its less a regional variant and more#an adaptation??? that can happen to any regular zoro huh#its kind of crazy to think the dark type zoroarks are not apart of the modern sinnoh pokedex because they all died#well if im thinkin about the time right anyways thats what it sounds like#but yeah i dont think h.zoro can solely b native to hisui and i feel like seeing one in modern day unova.paldea.etc wouldnt be odd#i wouldnt even think of it as an anomaly id be like oh shit that dog went thru it that sucks n go abt my day#sorry abt all the tags u brought up zoroark so i had to go on a tangent#asks#anon
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I think Nimueh is my fave underrated Merlin villain just because she could've been So Much More than what they did with her. Tbh she should've been a multi-season villain, or, just as a thought, gotten a redemption arc to mirror Morgana's descension. Because she has SO MUCH POTENTIAL to be a very complex character in terms of her relationship with magic, her loyalty to the Old Religion, but also her history with Uther (and whoa, kudos to the actors for making their 30 seconds of shared screen time so obviously charged with Backstory) and her relationship with Ygraine and how that would translate into her relationship with Arthur as well. Like, she helped create him in a way, and this is the only son of a woman she clearly felt deeply for, so why could she not have some very conflicting maternal feelings about him? Does she care about Arthur and want him to be safe? Yes. Does she want to fry Uther like an overgrown skeeter on a bug-zapper? Also yes. These two things can and should coexist, and I am salty.
you ever wonder if Nimueh was the writer's 1st trial for Morgana? just because i feel her character fits with the Morgan Le Fay in the mythos (to me at least). because our first introduction to her is "evil witch lady out to harm Arthur" and then you learn she's super powerful and is Merlin's arch-nemesis in s1.
THEN she has beef with Uther and said beef could be used for like a complicated relationship with Arthur because she definitely cared for Ygraine and Arthur has that issue of clinging to anything that's related to his mother.
because you know Morgan Le Fay in the mythos had like a complicated relationship with Arthur. she, too, represented the pagan religion in britain versus the christian religion that Arthur sort of represented (because these legends were written around that point; i think the earliest account we have of Arthurian legends is 900s??? could be wrong) so you got that Old vs New Religion thing going on.
i think in one version with Morgan Le Fay, she's the one who helps take Arthur to Avalon and by this point she's "mellowed" out and isn't as inclined to kill Arthur but rather she will sometimes help him.
anyway, my thing here is that I believe (to an extent) that Nimueh was the writer's Morgana 1.0 but then they later decided to create a Morgan before she was hardened and evil so we got Morgana.
and maybe (speculation) that is why Nimueh is only a one season villain because she's was supposed to represent who Morgana would become later down the line and possibly a little cameo for the behind the scenes people.
but yeah, she definitely had more potential for more seasons in this show.
#but that's just a theory#A MERLIN THEORY#THANKS FOR READING#yeah this is just me rationalizing to myself why nimueh died at the end of s1#her character in the show compared to her character in the legends is very different; like when i learned i barely recognized a resemblance#which is why i always saw her to resemble Morgan Le Fay more so than the Nimueh from legends#so yeah maybe she was trial 1 for the show's morgana#maybe not and i am reach way too far#but it was fun anyway#sorry i kind of went off on a tangent there#idk your ask just made me like remember that theory i had for her#anyway you wanna know a villain character i think deserved more potential??? Cornelius Seagan#the bird dude ep1 of s2#that dude you remember#the so called greatest sorcerer of his period and trapped his spirit in a stone bc he's obsessed with immortality#he was defeated that very episode and they put his stone or whereever they trapped him back in this vault full of magical items and#never talked about him again? that guy yeah. i have my own spin on him actually being a big bad for the show but *gunshot noise*#bbc merlin#nimueh#bbc merlin theory#arthuriana#asks
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replying to tha word thing..........i'm so fuckin lucky i got robot <3
oh lucky you!! ideally i would've got "butterfly" or "whimsy" or something, but master works too. now i can start my journey to becoming a pokemon master!!!!!
#melonposting#ask#soapfriendotake2#i have no clue what a pokemon master is and neither does mr ash ketchum himself even though that's what he wants to be#our boy is just running around doing everything...#that's honestly so like me though#wanting to do literally everything so when people ask you what you want to be when you grow up you just make something up#like yeah when i'm an adult i wanna work 9 to 5 as a wuzzle-wazzler. oh? wuzzle-wazzlers happen to get to do every cool thing ever actually#sorry i went off on a tangent about ash pokemon. typical ellie behavior
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