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feeling really ill about frank but not in the cool way
#not in the media literacy analysing the character kind of way#not in the uhh right way one could say#i just. im just. god how do i explain without sounding stupid#do you. do you ever love a character so deeply and so sincerely.#and i dont mean love as in like oh i love this guy i mean the real genuine thing. the real thing#and yk on most days you can be normal about it but then sometimes it makes you so so sick#'hes so lonely he needs someone with him' like ME!!! PLEASE ME but its not ij this#its not in this teehee im their biggest fan way its literally laying on tbe floor nearly incomprehensible like#please please let it be me please dont leave please just please just a minute#saying literally when you dont mean literally but mean it for emphasis. it feels that way tbh#and nobody!!! understands!!! well no im being dramatic. im sure some people understand#but it feels very isolating in fandom spaces. for good reason i suppose i mean it is weird#and i do isolate myself in a lot of ways too#but. yk. yeah. yeah.#tldr im unwell about frank but in the obsessed fangirl way and not like. correctly
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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It
#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the ‘personality’ of their steam review and like a bunch of HC#i developed them with the implication that they’re Real but i’m a bit iffy on it#because all my friends have theories about how they’re from the narrator’s consciousness which is sick as hell#and i’m unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3#my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i don’t know anythinggg#gggggggggggg#like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( i’m not smart#or good at writing or even media literate#whatever that term means#all i have is love in my heart for them i don’t know anything at all#ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and it’s all i have#like all my cookie9 stuff works on the ‘what if their blog self Was Real’ but i’m not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl#stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works#and people probably don’t think i know enough and i don’t think they’ll approve if i try. so i Don’t#tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons#but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but that’s incredibly hopeful#i’ll be stuck here forever i think#<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to ‘oh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidents’#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that i’m stupid because i didnt try#even though i’m trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else i’ve ever known#and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t#think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends ☝️#man i can’t even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review#girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around#her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3#tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasn’t allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem#more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit#cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine#<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.
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@asterismas (Amy) Liked for a Starter!
The fox-kit was a transparent one. Never was he good at lying, never had he been one for masking that which his heart feels so fiercely. And, as such, it was quite obvious when the young one had a chip on his shoulder.
Now, it was a rare occurrence, this much was true. He was wise enough to know that issues formed were better dealt with at the onset instead of letting them pile up in the far-off gutters of your mind. Even if it was hard, even if it was scary... he knew it was important to see things through. If such was performed, it would spare him and his friends a bit of grief in the long run.
An anxious mind fought itself all the way to Amy's door. Did she even remember? It was so long ago, after all... Maybe it's better to just let the water under the bridge flow undisturbed? Would it be like digging into old wounds? Amy is the source of the passion he can now call his own. It was always terrifying when faced with the prospect of being on the bad side of Amy's passion.
Apprehensive hands clamored around themselves. He really hoped she hadn't noticed the fox's recent reticence. Though, once again, it's not like he hid it well. The way sky-blue eyes failed to find a grasp in her emerald greens. The way conversations had lately been cut short from a lack of things to say, that awkward silence usurping until each party moved onto whatever task they next had in front of them. He didn't want her to feel bad, never was that his intent. He was just taking the time to prepare his words.
That script of his was run through a thousand times. The plausible reactions she could have. The hypothetical end result to be produced from this action. ...Most were worse-case scenarios fueled by burbling anxiety, he'd be a fool to not acknowledge that. So the only thing to do was enact the plan and see how well it survived on the field.
A light wrap of his knuckles knocks against her door. And when it's pulled open?
"Hi, Amy... Sorry, this might be abrupt and stupid, but I've been... i-it's been on my mind recently and it hasn't gone away, so I feel like that means it's maybe a bigger deal than I had thought. You might not even remember, I dunno, so... just disregard this if it's just small potatoes."
A scratch to the back of the head. He's stalling. Just spit it out, genius. "Do you, uh... do you remember when we got in each other's faces about science and magic? It was way back, and it hit me like a G.U.N. truck when I realized that I... I never apologized to you for all of that. I was too hardheaded to realize that you were genuinely upset by my dismissal of something you take very seriously. All because I perceived it as different and weird.
I'm so sorry about that, Amy. After how many times you guys've allowed me to ramble ad nauseam about a bunch of mechanical technobabble, it sucks that I even theoretically disallowed you to comfortably do the same about the things you're passionate about. So, again... I'm really sorry about that. If you're willing, I wouldn't mind hearing about how magic works. I've semi-recently discovered some compatibility between magic and my equipment, so... a fundamental understanding of how it works wouldn't hurt. I-If you wanna, of course."
#(IC.) ''Just call me Tails!''#asterismas#((digging through the Archives for the basis of this starter))#((so basically i wanted a thread that could have amy talking about magic because magic cool and i wanna hear her talk about it))#((it's always the coolest when amy writers take it that she's straight up a magical girl. especially since it's CANON after frontiers))#((but that made me remember that tails is the stereotypical ''magic bad because science good'' guy))#((which made me ALSO remember that. oh yeah. he had a real spat with your amy over it. it was played for laughs but yknow))#((that genuinely hurt amy's feelings. we technically //did// had a small and short interaction of them apologizing way back; but ehhhh))#((i want a do-over on it tbh. tails would be way more sorry than how i wrote it back then i think))
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pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this
#tomgreg#where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go.#so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him.#who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal.#who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now.#he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that#would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out.#he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love?#a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case.#and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl.#you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you.#you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you.#the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic.#and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god#they are so annoying. anyway#the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!!#what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul.#then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE#or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye
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ahhhhhhhh guess who made the mistake of getting a haircut
#i was planning on growing it out for real i swear#but then the back of my hair got to that length (like it always does) where it starts touching the back of my neck wrong and i cant stand it#so i figured I'd juuuuuust get a trim maybe only the back so it wouldn't keep bugging me#and it started off pretty good too she was doing well with everything and i liked the way it looked#then she asked me a question with two options. and i answered the question. and she repeated my answer. good enough right?#well i think she maaaay have forgotten my answer in the span of like 2 seconds bc she started cutting SUPER short suddenly#and now my perm is completely gone lol#i think she's used to going a bit shorter so it looks good in like a week when it's grown out a bit#and you don't have to go back for a haircut every 2 weeks#but like. i would rather not hate my reflection (more than usual) for a week or two while it grows out yknow#eurghhhh it's not that bad tbh ive had haircuts where i wanted to kill myself and this is just 'hmm maybe i should wear a hat for a week'#but still. very annoying. and especially so bc i was actually feeling optimistic with where we were going at the start#anyway there's this weird phenomenon that keeps happening where I accidentally get my hair cut too short#then i decide this is going to be the time i finally grow my hair out for real#and after a while the back reaches that length where it starts bothering me again#and ill get a haircut juuust for a trim#then i somehow end up with a bowlcut#it's an emo bowlcut to be clear. so im not super hung up about it bc i still love that haircut for reasons i cannot comprehend#but everybody else seems to go 'ew a bowlcut why' except for the alt queers who go 'omg gender'#which i consider to be one of the biggest compliments i could ever get. and have gotten. seriously that moment will never leave my mind#like having someone that you consider Gender to look at you and say *you're* very gender? my crops have been watered my cattle have been fed#etc etc. anyway this currently has the shape of a bowl cut but it's too short esp on top#so im back in my 'okay im gonna grow it our FOR REAL this time' phase again. as it goes. like fucking sisyphus.#anyway. im gonna be tearing it up in the pit at origami angel tomorrow so if anybody's also going feel free to join me there#just gotta let off some steam. goddammit i knew i should have gone the queer route and just done it myself. in my defense i still had a perm#and i didn't trust myself to cut curly hair. turns out i shouldn't have trusted the barber either bc she just held it straight out#and chopped right across. and soon the curls were gone and everything was straight. ...that sounds like a metaphor for conversion therapy#'yeah just head into that place by the time you leave you'll be straight'#anyway. sorry for the waterfall of tags if ur still here kudos to you and may you have a wonderful day#mine
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ROSE QUARTZ/PINK DIAMOND GOT DONE DIRTY BY THE SU FANDOM, AND THE SHOW ITSELF
Quick disclaimer: I will admit, upfront, that part of the reason I’m even making a vent post of ANY kind of all is because I’m just not in a good place right now in general, and I just need to scream at something. That being said, that doesn’t make my feelings towards this any less real.
I’ve already talked about this a couple times before in the past, but I really do, legitimately, hate the treatment Rose/Pink got in the later parts of Steven Universe, both the main series and Future.
Look, I almost feel that it could have been a good thing in a way, since Rose was kind of put on a pedestal for most of the show’s first half, and seeing as how the series was about Steven discovering himself, and trying to step out from his mother’s shadow, I feel like, if this was handled better, it could have probably been really good.
But dang, this was NOT the way to do it.
Did Pink Diamond, both as herself and in her guise of Rose Quartz, do awful things? Absolutely.
She hurt her Pearl.
She abandoned Spinel.
She made impulsive, and even selfish, decisions.
But she also turned against her fellow Diamonds, her FAMILY, to protect the earth.
She faked her own shattering so she could keep fighting for the same planet she was originally meant to colonize.
She looked after others and cared for life, both human and gem.
Pink did a LOT wrong, but neither her past actions from when she was still a Diamond, or the mistakes she made as Rose Quartz, change the fact that she spent the entire rest of her existence trying to do good, to change, and become a better person.
And it really DOES strike a chord with me that the fandom, and even the SHOW ITSELF, act like she’s some horrible reprehensible villain especially since it seems to ring very true for how some treat people in the real world who used to do/say some not-so-great things, even if it’s been literal years since then, and they’re genuinely different people from who they were back then. Yeah...it kind of hits just a bit close to home for me...
It just doesn’t sit well with me that someone like WHITE DIAMOND can be forgiven, while Pink, the one Diamond who dared to turn against Homeworld and fight to protect the life of a planet that wasn’t hers, is the universally-agreed upon hated character.
Whether her reasons were ultimately altruistic or selfish, that doesn’t change the fact that she protected the earth and cared for the people she came to love, the best she could, until the day she gave up her physical form.
TL; DR: PINK DIAMOND WAS A VERY FLAWED, BUT ULTIMATELY NUANCED AND HUMAN CHARACTER, AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THE SU FANDOM, OR THE SHOW ITSELF, FOR TREATING HER LIKE A MONSTER WHEN SHE WASN’T.
#rhys-ravenfeather signing on#steven universe#rose quartz su#pink diamond su#do NOT go into my askbox or notes to bash me i am NOT in the mood#real talk though--the show's been over for a couple years now; i know this is stupid#and like i said i've talked about this a couple times before#this is just something that's been on my mind for a while especially with some stuff i saw fairly recently#and i needed to get it out#tbh pink/rose might very well be one of my favorite characters of all time because of how interesting her story was#and like i said how REAL and HUMAN (for a literal space rock) she feels#and i hate hate HATE how she's been treated#also yeah like i said...not in a good place right now...i just needed to vent
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i will never be personally over the speedy among us video in the etho secret life playlist,,,, like it genuinely is the only thing that will ever matter to me
#astro talks#im actually such a secret life enjoyer. its jsuts so silly and fun#tbh whic his crazy bc imkinda wilde life hater. and often they get lumped together#but fr me and teh creator of ethos secret life playlist will always be connnected i a way they dont know#like hell yeah i fucking love that the person making that playlist was also watchign speedy among us videos. and just misckled#and never fixed it <333333#its not even a particulary good video. but dude i just have so many feelings about it. its an inside joke i have with myself and i just yea#im drunking tongith and wanna rewatch ethos pov <3 rewatched sscars pov last week. we're havign a time#and judt god that spedy video being there <233 so real so good#the person who mad etehe playlist has like a 1k subsceibers which hell yeah good job dude#but like only makes halo videos.... and i dont care abt that. nevertheless i love you#ther elike some guy.... and i love it
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new years vibes
#in the city for thr fireworks woo and everyone is worried bc my mum lowkey threatened to kill herself..#cant tell if we are all over or under reacting#eiee i hope she will be ok tho im texting her rn. should have gotten up earlier to get ready with her#so she could come along to the city too#but anyway. all should be fine. hopefully#the fireworks are really good#the 9pm ones were decent and it isnt long til midnight now#idk i feel mostly unemotional abt the new year but it also makes me feel like a particularly unaccomplished loser#but then. being upset over all i lack does not make me work toward improvement. so there is no real point ij being upset#anyway. happy new years everyone#i am a bit concerned about some friendships. and about the slight crush stirrings#bc i swear im not delusional. he was always the one to approach me and keep in contact. more so than any other friend ive had#which is firstly just yay nice friend but now were joke friend flirting except hes come out to me? helloooo#like. after the initial spiral i mostly don't feel super emotional about it#but a bit confused and stressed#eeee#anyway hope my mum is ok.. tbh i think my brothers gf shouldn't be so upset over it#like yeah its concerning and kinda inappropriate to say to a child#but isn't being upset over this indicative of the privilege we have of this being uncommon#oscar.exe
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6 weeks of breathing clean air, I still miss the smoke…..
🏝️🤙🏄🏾♀️🏄🏼♂️💔
#seemed appropriate to use t swift lyrics since I associated so many of her songs with them &haven’t been able to listen to any of them sinc#I don’t even want to say their names#if you know you know#purging them from my life has been depressing as hell#I’m so fucking sick of behind the scenes bullshit ruining my favourite ships#this is the THIRD TIME this has happened to me btw#I’ve genuinely been in mourning#I’m not even exaggerating when I say that finale triggered a days long anxiety attack for me#it’s so ridiculous how something that wasn’t even real caused me to have physical symptoms of distress but it’s true#my heart wouldn’t stop racing. chest was tight. started shaking a few times. felt lightheaded. couldn’t sleep. eating made me sick#it was awful#but now I’ve mostly moved on to anger#I’m angry at a lot of people involved for different reasons#I’m also angry because I’ve lost my inspiration to write#I was solely committed to writing about them the past few years and now that they’re over I have no desire to write for them or another shi#I’m crushed that I’ve lost my joy for writing those ficlets but it’s too painful now. probably always will be tbh#feeling pretty lost creatively…#thank god I made a new friend on here before shit hit the fan#she and I have been venting out our sadness and frustrations together and it’s helped a lot#I hope everyone else in the fandom was able to find support like I did#I know my exit from the fandom was abrupt but I had just finished watching and was reacting purley on raw emotion#but I still think it was my best way to cope with it all#apologies for the rant and to everyone following me who don’t know wtf I’m talkimg about but I was thinking about them today#and I needed to unload a bit#I’m not going to tag anything but I do miss this fandom terribly#I’m still at a point where I don’t want to hear anything about this show or ship ever again… but yeah… I really miss those good times#take me back to the season 3 hype#THIS is the bad place#personal#laura says things
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#it's quite a while that i do a really long rant here#but i really need to get all the shit out from my mind and clear everything inside my brain#and yeah it's actually related with yesterday's race actually#i mean we all always saying that never let sports ruin or dictate our own emotions and other phrases that related with this#but in a serious matter it really really exhausted my mind and honestly yesterday is the peak of it#and the fact is before the race start i was feeling so happy that srg wins mpl malaysia for 2nd time#and i say to myself that whatever happens during the race i should be happy that my fav esports team wins another title this year#but yeah....the race happens and it all just chaos...i mean not that usual chaos but i feel it's even worse#especially after the race#like seriously i should have stay away from any social medias for a while today#because i know how awful the vibes and environment there (and here as well tbh)#but yeah 🥲🥲🥲#like i really expecting that f1 is the only sports out of other sports that i'm getting into with#that i really feel mentally drained and doesn't makes me feel any joy by enjoying it at some point#but yesterday...that's the peak of it#i'm just getting more and more tired of the whole thing happens in f1#and the real life 'job' (more like uni life) doesn't even help me brighten up my mood either#where during app development my group is having a really though situation to going back from the start#in which we had some conflicting on some of the solutions are as same as other one group#and forreal all my groupmates were just fed up thinking about how to came up with new ideas#so yeah it's just this past few hours are just mentally emotionally physically drained out#like i really need to take a break for a while but idk i'm sure#i'll starting to get more and more tasks and assignment for the next few days *sigh*#nahhhhhh i know it's really long rant but i just want to be in a good headspace rn
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#smisoverparty is REAL because Taemin and Onew said so‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
#breaking my staying off kpop tumblr streak for this#taemin you are always that bitch!#just like last week (? idk time isn't real)#i was feeling a little apprehensive about taemin's future direction cause sm is literally in shambles#and after i saw that clip of 10 saying that he decided to postpone his own solo debut because he didn't find any good songs....yeah#i was kinda worried to say the last#atp i think staying or not staying in sm is more or less the same tbh#given how neck deep sm is in their shit#and its only gonna get worse#or atleast that's what i think#also i think jinki will be able to put out music without having to deal with the typical idol lifestyle if he wants to now.... i think?#this is such a slay for them honestly#this is actually the final nail in sm's coffin. they're DONE.#ira.text
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bad day today but hopefully this'll be the worst of it and it'll go away soon -v-
#this sucks but the nice thing about colds. is that they don't last forever#the chronic illness obviously will but this won't and thank god because this sucks ass. way worse honestly#maybe just because I'm not used to it but. holy shit go away I hate you#lol I've been so overdramatic about it I feel. for no real reason tbh I think I just get grumpy kinda easily#I mean it is a pretty bad cold to be fair#but also I am. the whining whinerrrr#ANYWAY my parents have already recovered from their colds and I only got mine a little after them I think#so logically I should probably recover pretty soon too#this fucking congestion. hate you hate you hate you#have gotten some headaches and I'm more used to headaches so that's not too bad#honestly I don't think the cold has affected my usual symptoms much?#which is kinda wild but good because I don't wanna deal with that combination#sore throat seems to be gone today and I hope that lasts because I hate her. get out.#but tbh I'd prefer that over this I think godddd this sucks ass okay#barely slept last night it kept me up all night I'm going to kill something#but yeah my usual symptoms have been chill actually. idk if this is just distracting me from noticing them but. hey
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see i have all these spicy takes in the drafts that i don’t post out of self-restraint but then i see a spicy take that i hate SO MUCH and then i want to post mine out of revenge. it’s a terrible cycle tbh.
#it is actually and fundamentally not good for my weaknesses to be here lol#but I also love it! And love the community and the support and don’t find a ready-made replacement for that in real life#so yeah. I wrestle with it#if I could always use it as an opportunity to practice charity and restraint and shutting up it would be a good thing#but I have to be careful with any known potential irritant because I have such a temper and get so genuinely pissed off so easily#while also having poor impulse control#and like. it isn’t fair of me to be out there baiting people with my opinions and being provoking with takes I know will be upsetting#to the circle in which I move on here#but I also love to say a thing I think is true or feel is true and talking my way into a more nuanced opinion is how I do it!#but also like. the simple truth is that it also isn’t kind or charitable or necessary most of the time#no matter how I try to dress it up with comments on my personality and how I learn/like to analyze things#I really wrestle with it. there was a part of me that so at peace when I was gone from tumblr (essentially) for half a year#but again. I missed it#teaching helps a lot. my personality can take the very age-appropriate obnoxiousness and idiocy that comes with talking about literature#to teenagers#but I’m kind of so over trying to have a nuanced conversation online#it’s just so hard. I need the body language and the one to one you can only have in person for certain conversations#and disagreements. tbh it’s better and kinder and just BETTER if i stay out of it online#but I never do it perfectly#I’m just rambling. But yeah#thanks for listening#this has been#3 text posts in a row with Maria
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What type of vitamins do AraSawa take
arakawa has a mini cvs in the bathroom cabinet. very religious about taking it, definitely had masato do the same while he was growing up. prob started because of masato in the first place and just continued even after masato was out of the house tbh. you have to physically pry open sawashiro's mouth to get him to take a vitamin c fruit gummy.
#snap chats#like you know how with dogs you have to fuckin :V their shit Yeah#yeah thats him.#if the doctor tells him he needs medicine he'll bin the prescription but if arakawa tells him to take it he'll do it Begrudgingly#just thought about the very real possibility sawashiro would dry swallow his pills im gonna throw up#YALL EVER DRY SWALLOW FISH OIL there was a phase in my life where i regularly took fish oil and thats what id do#that olive-oily-ass dry-ass stick-to-your-throat-ass fuckin feeling WHY. kinda miss it tbh#pill takers in the crowd who else dry swallows. im moving on now#yk what arakawa probably got in a cabinet them lil fuckinnnnn ginseng shots#i ssssWEAR to god when i was a teen my dad would make me take one of those shots before i left his place#im cringing remembering the flavor and how bitter it was but also i miss it 2x#anyway yeah arakawa does that to jo when he visits sorry. imagine taking that shit at fucking 8AM#right before driving to work where you kill people and hide their bodies your boss giving you the most wack shit ever#if its good for your health why is it like drinking battery acid#im ramblng way too long turns out i have a way more personal history with vitamins and the sort than i thought LMAOOOOO
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tw: abuse discussion, intimate partner violence, grooming discussion, power and control. Trying to be vague here and not fly too close to the muse Sun
Re: red tv and the manuscript discourse, I wonder if people realize that it is actually possible to have abusive/toxic/harmful relationships with people your own age, too? Like even if Taylor and jg were 2 years apart, harm still could’ve occurred….? Like it was obviously not grooming bc that is a very specific set of experiences usually involving a child and a person in a position of trust/power like a parent or teacher or coach etc (I know this bc I lived it!!!). But like… that is not the only kind of harm that can happen to young people???? Her youth/naivety was definitely a factor in how fucked up the situation was but it was not the only element. Power dynamics do not begin and end at age. Adults can fuck each other up, too…
#This is not a vague post I promise#I’m just in awe of some anons other blogs get about this#And I think what lots of people are calling “grooming” is actually what we call “love bombing”#training someone to ignore harmful behaviors by showering them with affection/praise/apologies after tension building and explosion phases#You wear your best apology type vibes#The last time#and that behavior often occurs without the love-bomber realizing they’re doing it#People who cause harm rarely set out to do it with evil in their hearts#But it can still be abusive#And that gets murky when the only perspective we take on harm is from the carceral system#Like oh but he didn’t mean it and he loved her and he didn’t force her so it obviously wasn’t abuse (not necessarily jg here! Generally)#but like the truth is that people do have real love for those they hurt. And they often do genuinely feel guilty and apologetic!#Doesn’t make it okay or excusable! And people should feel safe/empowered to leave but that can be Uh.. challenging#But yeah it is extremely clear to me what happened with jg and it is at best toxic as fuck and at worst… coercion and manipulation#Taylor has every right to be traumatized by that situation like it was Very Bad and lasted So Long and deeply influenced her self-image#“He said that because she was so wise beyond her years everything had been above board… she wasn’t sure” is all I need to know tbh#He knew exactly the ways that midnight rain and dear john had changed her and he used all of that to play The Good Guy#And used that to convince her to sleep with him repeatedly (off and on at his whim for years)#Like!!! Not good!!!#C#relationships#abuse#ipv#gbv#trauma#would’ve could’ve should’ve hours#The manuscript#all too well#dear john#jg
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really want a house md 2024 reboot where house is still a callous and insensitive cunt of a man, but like, where his awful treatment of marginalized and vulnerable people isn't largely ignored by the people around him, or even just. where house is still a piece of shit, but said minorities are treated with empathy and nuance by the writers instead of being treated exclusively as their goddamn punching bags.
#it is kind of like this. i love house as a character. but irl i would want to Kill Him.#and the thing is. like.#it's not even because he's an asshole doctor who should have his license revoked for malpractice.#it's because the episodes dealing with this shit is written in such a way where it's clear that the writers don't see the people they're#treating as the butt of the joke as anything more than that.#like. it is completely possible to write characters who are horrible scumbag pieces of shit without making the#marginalized people in your viewership feel like u want to actively commit a hatecrime against them. 😭#house md#hatecrimes md#<- that fandom tag is so so good. it's so real.#i probably won't be posting a LOT about this series in the coming days but i am rewatching it.#and enjoying it a lot tbh. but yeah.#vi.txt
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