#yall are on some shit fr this is ridiculous

[evisxerate]

Ppl on Tumblr will really sit here and act like sexuality can't actively be flexible or change over time. like okay lmfao

[tewwor]

get to know the rper questionnaire .

tagging: stolt from @rcguish ! tagged by: EVERYONE!!

NAME?: ro, kc, kermit, whatever yall want

PRONOUNS?: she/they

MOST ACTIVE MUSES?: uhhh cruor, jie, jackrabbit, spencer (?)

RPG CLASS I'D BE: a little bitch— bard, lets be so fr

FAVORITE COLOR: orange! green!!! purple.....

FAVORITE TYPE OF THREAD: now, if you take a look at my powerpoint and pie chart ( points to blog ) — the consensus is fighting/action, ridiculous silly scenarios, hidden angst, hallmark romance moments, found family, and integrating your muse into one of my lores :o)

FAVORITE THING ABOUT MY MUSE: i'm just going to blab about cruor, because jie's had his time on the other blog BUT LIKE —i just think he's neat! and it's interesting ( fucked up on my part ) how his phobia of blood wasn't innate, but rather a result of having experienced death first hand and coming to realize 'oh shit, i actually died, and i can still feel flashes of it in my head, and now i'm panicking'. also, how overachieving for him isn't something necessarily good. yes, it's wonderful that he's able to heal people. but to push himself beyond what the marked tell him to look after? just because there's this drive he's applied to himself to heal as much as he can, as if he can heal himself or his mother's grief in a way? yeah, no, it's doing more harm than good. and he's kind! the sort of kind that most people might think of a too much or silly. and he's shredded as hell, lets be real here.

HOW YOU LIKE TO RP: i'm holding everyone's hands as i say this.. it's just like consulting a magic 8 ball. i'm so serious ( pensive ). sometimes quick one liners work! other times random ask memes are good! half the time it takes some plotting and getting to know my writing partner's character a bit more! a lot of time it's just yelling in dms. just depends on my brain, your preference, and the stars aligning or something.

FAVORITE PLOTS: injured or sick + someone helping them....... oh shit, i guess we're stuck in a Situation....... literally any dumb hallmark scene ( i think it's so funny )........ fake! dating!!!!!!!!! arguing / trying to pull someone's head out of their ass to help them...... showing care, in just about any form.... horror :-)

WHERE YOU GET YOUR INSPIRATION FROM: ahem, ahem, YALL!!! we're all lil' creative generators here, even if it feels like you're in a slump! i can say with full confidence that all of my mutuals have wonderful, fantastic characters and worlds they bring to life!!! also, podcasts, the few films or tv shows i come by, books.. sometimes......... fever dreams and dreams in general tbh

FACT ABOUT YOU: the ogs know this, but i thought i could crack a glowstick with my teeth. i was right. i also happened to ingest half of the liquid inside because i bit into it too much :o)

[bangtannism]

did i fr log on to see not only antis complaining about the new trailer (expected) but some jkkrs too? some of yall really cannot enjoy anything.

besides the fact that jk can be having the time of his life with jimin, and miss the members 😭

SOMETHING ALL OF BTS HAVE SAID AT SOME POINT

but taking into account WHEN jk said this, it makes it even more stupid to be upset over imo

jikook had more than enough content form ct/ny and jeju for the travel show

jikook knew they had been approved for companion enlistment and would be spending the next year and a half together

jin, hobi, and yoongi had enlisted already

namjoon, tae, and jikook would enlist soon

the remaining members spend time with friends/family, work on music, and do other things before enlisting

and jikook go to japan together....

i'm tired of antis and jkkers picking apart any and everything jikook (especially jk) say and/or do to "debunk" jikook.... even as friends

ANYWAY, happy 'are you sure' main trailer day 🫶

oh god do not get me started on the way jikook are not even allowed to be friends. 🙄 it is so ridiculous and i cannot fathom the level of cognitive dissonance going on in the heads of people who want to pretend they dont even like each other.

also you are very correct that you can miss someone even if you're having a good time with someone else, especially familial or familial-like relationships such as ones in bts. if i say i miss my dad, does that mean i hate my mom? no? so why would jk saying he misses the other members means he doesnt want to be with jimin? humans are capable of feeling for multiple people at once. but most of the shit people latch onto to "disprove" jikook is nonsense, so there's no use expecting them to listen to logic or use common sense.

happy main trailer day to you too, anon. 😌 cannot wait for the show to be here.

[hoshigray]

okay im gonna day a LOT because its been 8 years since i been here

1. fic was great but u always write good shit so lets pretend to be shocked

2. lmk when ur requests are open again bc i got a freaky one

3. i saw megan live and wow i love that woman

4. i genuinely keep crying everytime i see gojo with them stitches pls just let toji comeback to live so he can tag team sukuna w maki w a glock and we can ve free

5. gave up on my main nigga so now im talking to his friend and i like his friend a lot!!

6. everyone tryna act like they understand shoko to where they can criticize her decision of her being ok w yuta using his body is so upsetting to me bc yall dont know my wife

7. i miss when jjk was silly n fun

- megan anon

It's so wonderful to see you after a whole decade, Megan noonie 🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️

1) omg YIPPEEEEE, you read the fic!! And awww, stop you're too kind, Megan, mwah 🤧💕 bye "let's pretend to be shocked" you got jokes, lmaoo

2) I will !! Lowkey, I think they'll be open sometime next week, but idk, we'll see how fast I can get to finishing reworking my rulebook.

3) LUCKY ASSSSSSSS 😭😭😭😭😭😭 Omfg ik you had a grand time, seeing the fancams have me jelly!! My time will come!!!! I need to see my Queen fr

4) NAH I'M SAYING THO, LIKE IF THIS MANGA IS GONNA KEEP GETTING RIDICULOUS, MAKE IT EVEN MORE ALL OVER THE PLACE!! bring toji back for one last scare for whatever reason, and have a mentor-apprentice vs kuna fight w/ maki and and he's just gonna blow this mf with the Mac (yeah ik this is delusional and they would be nerf3d but shiiiiiit, would've been a lot more fun than all this fiasco we've been undergoing for the past 10 chaps, lol).

5) Oh my, so you dumped the main guy (even though you said he's not really ya mans lmfao), and now you are hopping to his homie!?!? Well, as long as you're having fun, then that's all that matters 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️💟💟 (and hopefully, your ex doesn't be an ass about it if he knows)

6) Mmmm tbh yeah, ngl in the beginning I was a bit too critical of th3 decision planning (prob bc I was so bombarded with the information about the plan + her being one of his last dear friends and not showing a bit of restraint/reluctance to the plan); but now, that's just how Shoko is since she was neutral on Geto becoming anti-sorcery, so it makes sense that she's the Gojo body plan (and I'm sure she has feelings about the plan as a whole, but is probably pushing them aside as we're dealing with a huge threat to the modern world right now). But I get it, tho bc the hate she and Yuta got for that was so unwarranted like???? Calm tf down????

7) bro, I'm just waiting for this manga to end for me to turn around and make Canon convergence and rewrite some of this tomfoolery, starting with after Hidden Inventory arc 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

[blasphemyisjustforyou]

out of curiosity I went through the comments on a "We should free the nipple like fr fr this shit dumb af" post and like. The amount of people trying to frame the OP as a pedo for saying kids shouldn't be forced to wear shirts if the kids don't wanna was frankly more than it should have been. I know tumblr is known for its rather unique take on reading comprehension but the way these people were acting you'd think OP said "I think I should be able to see 5y/o's nude when I want :)" instead of "Kids shouldn't be forced to wear a shirt 'Because its indecent' because thats ridiculous to enforce on a kid". Some of yall (not my mutuals) genuinely need to go back and learn how to parse sentences.

[stellardeer]

Tbh I haven't personally seen any of the people who are saying that they don't like rap because it's violent or because it's about sex and drugs or whatever, but I have seen all the response posts and I absolutely believe those people are out there.

And while I've already reblogged posts that have much better thoughts on it than I do, I feel like some people just need to admit to themselves that they aren't willing to engage with content that isn't relatable to them. Also that they are being super racist and biased about it, but it's ridiculous to write off an entire genre of music for subject matter that is found across literally all genres. Just say "I don't personally connect with this because it is not directed at me" and move on. You don't have to deride the entire genre just because it doesn't resonate with you, personally.

I'll be honest, I like rap, but I don't listen to a lot of it on a regular basis, and the majority of rap in my library is female rappers because they just tend to have things to say that resonate more with me as an AFAB person. I don't listen to a lot of the songs that get played on the radio, but I don't really listen to much of anything that gets played on the radio because the subject matter is usually shallow and generic, especially in pop music. I don't really like music with a lot of bass unless I am specifically wanting to dance or party, if Im just chillin in my home I dont like EDM or pop or anything too flashy. I don't listen to a lot of music (of any genre) that talks about wanting to make a lot of money or stunt on people or whatever because I do not share those goals/feelings. It doesn't mean I think that music is bad or that the people performing it or listening to it are lesser in any way. It doesn't mean I'm gonna say "rap is bad because they just talk about getting money", as if that's the only thing anyone has ever rapped about. Like idk I think it's fine to admit that you prefer certain subject matter in songs because you relate to it more but to say that all rap is violent or sexist so you don't like any of it is literally just racist.

I don't really like Drake because the lyrics that he himself writes and speaks in his songs give me the impression that he views women as something to own and he wants to be the next R Kelly or some shit. The groomer rumors weren't surprising to me in the least, I saw it coming from a mile away. So even though I used to think his songs were good I stopped fuckin with him. I've never heard a Kendrick song that I didn't like though (but I did think it was a little corny that he did a song with Taylor Swift cause I just don't like her 🤷) But like.. the fact that some of yall won't even go listen to their music and form an opinion of your own? The fact yall just hear "rapper" and immediately turn away? "Oh I don't care about this because rap is violent", like for real? You don't even fucking know who they are or what they rap about you, you've just already decided you don't care?

And at the end of the day, yeah, you can say "well not ALL rap is violent, here's such and such song that isnt!" but, again, as others have put it, that's just throwing gangster rap under the bus fr, like there's a reason people listen to it, there's a reason it resonates with its audience, there's a reality to it, it isn't glorification (well, maybe for some rappers it is) but they are literally just talking about their lives. To say "I don't want to listen because it's too violent" is like saying "Sorry I don't want to hear your story because it makes me uncomfortable, you should just keep it to yourself." Yall get how racist that is, right?

[rosaline-black]

Hiii there! Hope everything’s good with you and congratulations on the follow count!! I’m happy for you, not surprised tho, cause your writing is 😗🤌 amazing!

Ok, so I’m a girl, she/her and straight and I’d like to request a 🌼 with a guy from the marauders.

I’m an introvert, hard shell to break, I isolate myself a lot, mainly in new friendships, which gives me the smart-quiet-goody-2-shoes stereotype. Socialisation haunts me and I’m shit awkward at interactions. When the shell is broken, I get very talkative. My mind is chaotic 24/7 so I shuffle between topics very fast and I stutter a little and get tangled in my own sentences, mainly when I’m excited. Im blunt and VERY sarcastic and ironic and like to dramatize stuff to make fun of it. Im very kind and put others above me sometimes, which beats my very high empathy and sensibility to pieces but oh well. I can also get very fired up in arguments cause I’m very passionate about my beliefs and values but I won’t cross the line and offend anyone as no matter how stubborn I am (extremely btw) I always try to make amends after cooling down and mediate when I’m not involved. I’m a romantic and a daydreamer. I’m smart and I like to learn stuff and to know how things work and understand them but am an extreme overthinker. I think far too much about every little thing and get insecure. Parties make me really anxious and loud people annoy me so I’d rather stay in. Sometimes I think I’m a little too mature. Like, can we talk about politics and the economic state of the world?? (Pls forgive me, i had to). Im curious but scattered so I’ll easily start a night-in (sponsored by YouTube!) by watching a video on “the most memorable Eurovision entries of all time” and end it with “inside the mind of a psychopath: a deep psychological analysis”. ✨It’s a little bit of everything all of the time✨ which reminds me of how much I love Bo Burnham. In a lot of my free time i listen to his songs or whatch his shows. I love how he’s genially funny but also #deep (I’m sorry) and brutally honest and makes you think. It’s also a good clutch for my anxiety. I consume books at a crazy speed but always love going back to some classics. I love sitcoms and rock music. Sometimes I like to spend time doing online timed questionaries about general knowledge cause I like challenging myself (and I also don’t have a life). Oh, this is very important: my pet peeve is loud chewing and gulping. Please do not eat and drink loudly yall, I beg of you. I’m very observant and have a ridiculously selective memory, I won’t remember my lunch from yesterday but I’ll remember the first words someone spoke to me 10 years ago. Im a firm believer in empathy and doing what’s right and on a completely connected note, I’m a big cuddler. I cant ever tell something funny as I’ll just laugh my ass off and I also have a very long list of musical and cinematic and ¿memematical? references that I sometimes insert all over (initially) nice conversations :) Yeah. Important information right there.

That’s it ig. Can’t think of much more rn. Sorry if I didn’t choose the most helpful information!!

Okay first of all are we the same person? Like fr I’m convinced we are omg. Please dm or something cause I screamed at the jaden smith reference.

Right so I found this one kinda easy but I match you with…

Remus Lupin

- first of all let’s say this is modern day, Remus would be such a big bo burnham stan like come on

- you both would spend long ass days reading together, imagine you resting your head on his lap reading your respective books. Omg maybe you even have book clubs with just you two (and maybe lily too)

- I think your bluntness would coincide with Remus perfectly. Sometimes this man just needs to hear the honest truth, and he loves you for it.

- you’re both a little awkward, but with Remus having friends that are so outgoing, you benefit just like he did when he met the other marauders. They help with your socialisation problems, weeding you into the idea of a party (which I tbh just headcanon is just you all getting drunk and James turning into a deer for bants)

- imagine you and Remus being the parents of the group; you hear Sirius chewing too loud and talking with his mouth full so you both simultaneously throw pillows at his head

- Remus is also used to putting people above his own needs so he recognises quickly that you’re doing the same. He’s there to be like… no no no, eat this damn chocolate and relax right now!!!

- also one final note; cuddling Remus post full moon>>>>

[jennrypan]

Why does MLB bring out WEIRDEST ANGRIEST most BITTER kids ive ever seen like?? Damn bitch you live like this??

Is the show perfect, nah, do the main protags do real annoying shit sometimes, yeah. But its not salt worthy ever?? Cuz also..theyre 14-15 and Ive never met a 14-15 yr old that isnt cringy and annoying. I was, you were, everyone was..but we grew up after we learned and shit

Also going out of your way to scream at people or..rant to them cuz you think their opinions wrong is so..sooo stupid.

Literally its not hard not commenting on a post that doesnt concern you.

Im not a big fan of Marinette, I personally find her annoying but am I gonna go on her tag and the main tag screaming about how shes evil and shit? NO. Am I gonna comment on peoples post to say how shitty MArinette is?? NO. Cuz thats ridiculously stupid and unnecessary.

I hate adrien salt and class salt, cuz some of it is reaching and very..very weird, ESPECIALLY when it comes to Alya and some of yall making a black girl some italian chicks attack dog for some reason?? Fucks up with that.. But am I gonna comment on their posts?? NO. I black list the tag and go, but for those who make Alya like THAT. Fuck yall specifically cuz it always happens to black charActers, the fandom makes them into this aggressive antagonist for no reason.

Fucks wrong with yall, its a damn french magical girl tv show.

Also.

If some..random accs wanna comment on this to give random opinions that have either nothing to do with my post or the point of it flew over your hand.

Dont. Think "is this necessary?"

"Will this be useful?"

If the answer is no, and you decide to be a little bitch anyways, Ill curse you out or clown you..depends on my mood.

But fr.

Calm the fuck down, yall are mad weird sometimes.

Maybe drink some tea then pet an animal and maybe youll feel better <3

[kouhaiofcolor]

Yall be out here modifying yall whole ass figures & faces performing for niggas (lbr) who are genuinely convinced they know how to give you sum as simple as a real legitimate orgasm & no thx. What the actual fuck happened to women? Like..... what happened to us? The plummet has been ridiculous. Give a damn if it sounds misogynistic at this point; women have a responsibility to themselves & their actions just like men do.

Yall be out here openly cosigning being sexually disrespected by men & all yet stay talmbout how out of pocket, socially underdeveloped & expectant men are but........... ion know. Some of this shit we absolutely do to ourselves. Women ain't never wrong tho 🤷🏽‍♀️so it is what it is ig. Men ain't wrong all by themselves tho. We gotta stop singing that weak ass song fr. We too damn grown. Women do dumb, self-destructive shit, too. Bout time we own & be real ab that cus women ain't even real ab how shitty we can be toward even each other. Like goddamn.

[astralaffairs]

w/ midnight approaching i j wanna let yall know that this blog was genuinely the best part of my 2020. it's been a hellish year, but getting to meet & know writers like @deja-you (girl ur writing has a SPECIAL place in my heart istg. i know we don't talk much but ur presence on this site and on ur blog makes my life a lil brighter. even if the feeling isn't mutual i think of u as a good friend 💞❣) @daveeddiggsit (an actual ray of sunshine 🥺) @iknowthekoolaidflavor @wreakhavoconmacroissantdiggs @tinywhim & @biafbunny all of whose works ive been reading for as long as (or longer than) ive been writing for this fandom has been so incredible and heart warming <3 ur all such damn sweethearts and ilu

& then there have been the new mutuals that have popped up and brightened my life like @commandersmiley @braidedchallah @ramp-it-up & @moondustmemories @summerofsnowflakes @raiseaglasstothefourofus (i know we don't chat much but ilu all sm 🥺)

& @id-do-it-for-free-babe @peoniarose @ohsoverykeri-blog (idk where the hyphens go in ur url ill fix it later) & @cloudynblw

then there's @einfachniemand who literally hypes me more than ANYONE else and is probably the most supportive person on this entire goddamn site ❣💕 i would give u the world if i could but alas i do not have that kind of power

and @youunravelme whose asks and notifs MAKE MY ENTIRE LIFE. u don't even know and i can't explain bruh i get like 80% of my serotonin from getting notifs from u and hearing ur thoughts in my inbox. it's the absolute best. u have made my 2020 like 80% better. i can't emphasize this enough you make me so happy.

and maybe (just maybe) im abt to mention @tinywhim again who is absolutely the kindest most gracious person alive i swear 🥺 also she wrote my absolute outright favorite thom fic that i have ever read (and yes, i have read quite a number of them since 2016) and im now enamored w demon!thom

and ofc @the-lost-marauder 🥰🥰 as much as i adore every single one of my followers and mutuals, ur by far one of my favorite ppl to hear from on this site. your thanksgiving ball oneshot is still one of my favorite things to read on here and u have absolutely excellent energy. i feel like we'd probably vibe irl (also pls more secret relationship vp!thom content!!! pl ease !!!!!! i need it asap)

and yes im abt to mention @deja-you again bc she's such a fucking sweetheart. the literal embodiment of sunshine and cotton candy. idk what else there is to say here u just have the purest vibes i feel like ur the type of person to save a cat from a tree or have a bird land on ur shoulder. u just have that energy 🥺💫 then again you outright broke my heart w foreign affairs so idk i might have to retract all that 😤

& special s/o to @fentinatalin for having shitty taste in men. that's all.

jk jk ily natalie 🤧❣ have i ever told u that when u hmu on ig i almost didn't dm u back bc it gave me anxiety and i thought you'd think i was uncool on main??? anyway im glad i did hit u back bc ur a ridiculously excellent friend and i frequently forget ive only known u for a couple months???? i realized recently that ive picked up some of ur texting habits and idk how to feel abt it . anyway ily thanks for existing

also mega shoutout to @maniacmichele bc ik i haven't answered ur graph theory ask but that's bc ive been watching math yt videos to try and dissect it until i can figure out wtf it all means. ur smart as shit and i am in awe of ur math brain ty for taking the time to explain that graph theory thing bc i have spent literal hours nerding out over it

also to @marioverthere bc i know we don't talk much anymore (FUCK time zones) but meeting you and getting the chance to know u literally made me so happy (also ur the reason i started staying current w/ the hk protests so ty ao much for making me aware of that darling)

and to @softclowninghours for having THE PUREST energy. u probably give excellent hugs i can just feel it. i just know it.

and then all my anons w ur lil emojis and signatures, who i love and cherish -- i won't try to list all of u bc i WILL forget some and im not tryna do u like that but some honorable mentions:

🐥 anon, for being like half the reason i ever touch my draft of lobsterback (ur my motivation, inspiration, muse, etc. thanks honey)

🍬 anon, for being absolutely fucking adorable and an enormous sweetheart

🐺 anon, for being friendly as hell and also kinda fucking hilarious. ur asks always make me smile

💙🖤 anon, for being so so so damn kind and supportive all the fucking time (ily)

there are so many people and blogs and anons that have made an impression on me this year, so believe me when i say this is very, very, VERY incomplete; if we've ever talked, or you've sent me an ask, or you've ever interacted with my post, you deserve a spot up here so pls forgive me for having 3 neurons and not remembering to mention u as i hastily write this post

literally though i love and appreciate every single one of you so much. this sounds like a huge platitude but i don't know how else to say it because there are genuine thousands of u who id list if i had more time or energy. you're all excellent. thank you so much for being alive at the same time as me.

also s/o to disney and lin for releasing the obc tape bc fr thats the only reason this fandom came back to life

+ also HUGE shoutout to the person who venmoed me ten bucks for the fotp smut. i don't have ur tumblr @ since u sent everything on anon but yk who you are; your generosity means the world to me and i hope the smut lived up to ur hopes and expectations

++ also the anon who encouraged me to actually write my art museum au 😌❣ ik it isn't up yet but ive been loving it so much and i hope u like it when it drops

[dramarising-replacement]

imma bite.

i haven't met one single person that looks at trypophobia-esque images and goes "ah, yes, i can look at this just fine". 99% of the time people reel back in disgust and look away. cause it's unsettling. that's not a phobia. (yes i am aware some people do have the actual genuine phobia)

im not sitting here screaming and demanding blurred images when seeing spider familiars. or spider anything. cause that'd be ridiculous. i have sensory issues- i don't go "hey can everyone in the room shut the fuck up so i can be okay?" i remove myself from the environment. the people in the room aren't being ableist for being loud (unless they were purposefully making noises to trigger me). if im going to a party i mentally prepare because im aware ill be somewhere that could throw me into a panic attack- but i dont stop myself from going every time. 

genuinely don't know how yall can navigate the site if your phobia is supposedly triggered that bad when seeing such genes. yes, people can be considerate and blur them and that's great, whatever, do you. to get mad at others for being unaware or choosing not to is just...shitty. please consult w a therapist/MHP if possible then because holee shit.

this is the same blog that whines around RoR when we can't get as gross as we want with blood and infections, and also take to this blog to say "Don't like it? Don't participate in the festival! Just don't look!" that's pretty much how i feel with my dragons with jag/rose/tapir/strai/opal/okapi/tiger/stripes ect. it's not like yall dont know those genes exist and that you may encounter them while browsing the site or Fr related spaces. 

[moralambigutitty]

so i have Thots about the stupid multiverse theory or whatever it’s called

i know this probably won’t even show up in the tags but i love rambling into nothingness so here we are! honestly this is the most Articulate i can be on this subject bc it is literally so ridiculous to think about but We Love It. 

anyway i’ve been thinking about the isaks and evens meeting up recently and who would like who and who would hate who and how they would all react to each other’s differences. so i have compiled my thoughts into a post starting with....

The Isaks

so when the idea of the isaks and evens meeting up was first brought up in the fandom, it was originally theorized that the isaks would all hate each other’s guts while the evens would get along swimmingly but i tend to disagree. how i think it would play out under the cut

you see, i can agree that the isaks would definitely be weary of each other at first. our suspicious kings (and queens)!! they would all at first be collectively staring at each other with those Eyes (you know the ones), thinking shit like “this guy really thinks he’s that cool, huh?” because you know all isak’s have that Thing where they think they’re smarter than everyone around them?? but you also know that every one of them finds that exact trait incredibly annoying in other people. oh shit can you imagine them all around each other!!! their slytherin minds!! they’re like “who does that guy think he is? fake fake fake fake.”

so the isaks and evens have separated to different areas of the room they’re hanging out in and all the isaks are quietly just smoking together while the evens are going off about some film shit that doesn’t interest any of their boyfriends. matteo like laughs to himself softly and all of the isaks look up at him like “what” and he’s just like “oh david just hasn’t shut up about this vampire movie in forever, im glad he finally has some people to rant to who understand what he’s talking about” and all of the isaks like take a minute to fondly giggle at how silly all of their art hoe boyfriends are and suddenly it’s like all inhibitions are gone!!! these boys cannot shut up about whose manz is the most dramatic and theatrical!! isak talks about how even ran across oslo in 2.5 seconds to reunite with him. lucas lallemant pulls up eliott’s art finsta that’s literally dedicated to him, describing the significance behind every single post in detail. matteo opens up about how david let him see his Private drawings on literally their FIRST DATE and the other guys are like “brooooo wtf!!!” martino breaks his silence (idk i’ll talk more about martino’s Energies later but i just feel like he wouldn’t be talking much around this group of guys. he’s so very different from all of the other isaks in my head) to tell the story of when nico stole his mom’s car and drove for like six hours or whatever to wherever marti and the boys were. oh and also they skipped a whole day of school that one time to go to milan? and they like jumped over a fence and trespassed on like private property or something to smoke together (honestly is it extremely obvious that i have little to no idea what happened in sk*mit lmao) and the other guys are like......nodding along.....just kind of going with it like....”yeah dude woah how crazy! yall really uhhhh yall really Did That” and then martino just goes back to being quiet and staring at his hands. honestly, his personality is just so......different. idk if the other guys would vibe with him tbh. like while isak and fr lucas would obviously take the lead in the convos, i see martino just sitting there, his head constantly switching back and forth between the two of them like in the cabin scene where gio’s telling him how to text nico lmao

also!! yeah no isak and fr lucas become fast friends. they’re constantly making points and just aggressively agreeing with each other like!! imagine the conversations these two would have about science! matteo would jump in every now and then with some random comment about idk evolution or whatever the topic is now and isak and fr lucas would just bust their guts laughing like idk but they definitely think everything that comes out of matteo’s mouth is like the funniest thing in the world ya know like they have that energy. justice for isak and lucas lallemant and their Chaotic Best Friend Energy. then matteo just goes back to smoking and staring at david across the room like he hasn’t just won the dundee award for Funniest Isak.

lucas vdh is there too and he’s like 100% keeping up with the conversation and adding his own little quips every now and then. isak thinks he’s funny but he’s still like Suspicious of him (bc ofc he is i mean it’s vdh!! very on brand of him!!) and they like Smirk at each other every time vdh says something Snake-like bc isak lowkey respects the hustle?? vdh reminds isak of a younger version of himself. like honestly, out of all of the remakes, lucas vdh has the STRONGEST og isak energies to me. idk why he just like exudes season 1 isak snakeness. like look at them!!!!

The Same Face.

also, robbe gets a honorable mention in the category of Remake Isaks Who Make OG Think Of His Younger Years And Tear Up A Bit. robbe’s like the little brother that somebody was forced to bring along but secretly they all love him. vdh and shay are constantly making fun of the silly tv shows that he’s always rambling on and on about. isak and fr lucas just punch them in the shoulders and shake their heads disapprovingly but don’t tell them to stop cuz they think it’s funny too

AND SHAY MY DAUGHTER dude you have no idea how amazing the guys would think she is. so we have some Class A misogynist kings in this group BUT shay might just be the exception. yall this is the girl who was talking about doo doo streaks. like she makes the other isaks laugh but in a different way than matteo does and she loves the validation! she highkey thinks they’re all annoying and is constantly saying things like “bro nah once i get my gf WATCH i am never gonna talk shit about her like yall do with all your bfs” and they just go pfftt like yeah wait until she blasts katy perry or some shit in the kitchen at 9 o’clock in the morning and you have pretend like youre into it just WATCH. WE ALL HAD TO GO THROUGH IT. YOU WILL TOO! shay says “watch me bitch!! katy perry’s bomb!”

fr lucas says he and eliott still listen to dubstep sometimes and then proceeds to get roasted by the squad when they find out that he plays classical piano lmao

also can we take a moment to appreciate our king lucas rubio bc let’s be honest he would sit down with the isaks for one second, listen to matteo talk about how he told david he loved him for the first time while discussing their favorite kermit the frog memes or something and scream into a pillow. like our one (1) mature isak king would just look over at cris who happened to tag along and roll his eyes but nope!! she’s actually like into it and immediately, she pulls up her secret meme instagram and now they’re all following each other and ugh! anyway lucas rubio gets up to go join the evens in their discussion about the fall of the 1920s noir film genre around the time shay, robbe, and vdh start arguing about who’s hair in the group is the best. he’s sensitive okay???

bro i gotta make a whole other post about the evens someday i have SO MUCH TO SAY

[ayyponine]

anyway my dad has now also read the big pdf on abuse i sent him and i feel so valid??

im finally hearing both my parents say it’s outrageous my sister’s abuse went that far for so long without them seeing it and stepping in. i sort of started crying halfway through the conversation and said i still feel an enormous amount of guilt fr not being stronger in the past or the present (eg earlier this year, when ellen wanted to stay here over the summer –> my mom says she can’t stay at our house though for my sake and should see if she can stay at our dad’s or a friend’s place –> sister stays in mexico and is PISSED at mom fr choosing my side instead of hers –> refuses to speak to my mom for MONTHS meaning my mom cant talk to or even see her one grandchild on skype for months. all because i can’t get over the way she treated us and feel unable to let her back into the same house again). he said i really shouldnt, that he, my mom and especially my sister are to blame. fr yall dutch speaking ppl my mom said before that my sister altijd al heel egoïstisch geweest is, my dad today said shes meedoogenloos en rancuneus :)))) while ive been feeling weak and ashamed and guilty and disappointed w myself for years?? ive never felt this valid in my fucking life

did i mention hes going to mexico in october and he’s planning to give her a stern talking to :))) idk what to think abt it tho im like one half extremely anxious whatever he says will only make her angrier and feel more entitled to take it all out on me (i mean, the example above clearly shows that she thinks even now i am STILL a villain and everyone who’s even a bit considerate twrds me and what’s best fr my wellbeing deserves punishment). but im also one half 👀☕💁️👏👏 and finally feeling like

i mean i mentioned the thing abt her cutting contact w mom bc of choosing my side, plus i mentioned it’s hard fr me to be faced with her “happy new life w a guy and a kid in mexico live laugh love natural organic sunshine no stress xoxo :)” knowing it all started with mom and i being afraid to have her in the house (mom always getting just a bit anxious coming home frm work bc any day felt like it couldve been a day i unknowingly crossed a line to provoke another violent, possibly lethal outburst frm my sister) and agreeing to send her on a permaculture course across the atlantic to keep her happy and far away frm us, that she forced my mom to pay fr spontaneous spiritual trips she didnt have the dough for and my dad got angryyyy bc he didnt even know abt that shit :)) so it kinda feels like not only that ^ meme but also

just sort of spilling tea and sitting back as the shit she’s purposefully manipulatively done to me to wear me down finally boomerangs back to take its fucking toll on her. knowing she had it fucking coming while im finally starting to believe she has no business blaming me for her habitually shitty behaviour, that she needs to step the fuck up and take some of the fucking blame shes been deflecting because the shit SHES caused, her own words and actions, are bouncing back to bite her in the fucking ass.

one regret i do have is not adding photo proof of her being a dick even at a ridiculously young age bc at one point my dad was like “this has been going on for years, frm you were ten, eleven years old” so i wish i had preemptively added that shit as a title page image or smth. sort of like “hey anyway, check out this picture frm when she was seven and hating on her five yr old sister fr having a picture taken while it was HER first communion so i wasnt allowed to have anything :) remember we had to take it twice because she didnt want me to have anything so she stuck her hand out to ruin the shot :)) anyway”

another regret is not having found an even crazier picture. because i know theres a photo of me as a newborn being held by one of my family members while my sister just looks at me with an expression of clear and complete disgust. much like the pictures above we’ve always kind of laughed it off like “haha she really didn’t like her younger sibling taking the spotlight huh” and like it probably is just a kid being weird, we can’t say if even then, frm the start, she had decided just to fukn loathe me and it probably is just a weird and random but forgivable kid thing but damn if it isn’t poignant re: the slow build of dislike and bullying to me crashing bc of her complete hatred and long term abuse huh.

[dainty-business]

bro i can’t-

yknow i’m usually fine with multis but the way some of yall deny at all cost that u aren’t biased against bts is ridiculous cuz all i ever see from yall is shit on bts and praise and defense for ur other group 😭

i have this mutal, who i’m gonna unfollow, who never has anything nice to say abt bts or the fandom 💀like always just negative shit and devaluing the stuff bts has done for other groups/kpop and just straight up discrediting them on everything :’] like unstan if u have NOTHINg nice to say bro??

they’re also a stray kids stan and i’m fine with yall but this one in particular just gets on my nerves so much 💀claiming they stan bts AND stray kids and then just defending their mutuals(stays) who make disgusting tweets abt bts?? like bro gtfo😭 ur not subtle, literally just an undercover hater fr

why i’m ranting abt this here is cuz they just tweeted how bts doesn’t actually work on their stuff as much as armys think they do?? 🙃 they also just twist every little positive thing bts does into something super negative and i’m just like bro, ur reaching so hard i’m worried ur arm might break off

like the bts asking their male fans to make some noise and they were just like ‘i’m so upset with them rn, i will never understand why they value their male fans more than the female ones-’ WHERE TF DID U GET THAT OUT OF??😭

istg some of yall are just trying to make everything as miserable as possible for no fcking reason 💀 just stfu and focus on the group u actually like then??😭

[turquoisequiche]

BTS IN SYDNEY: MY EXPERIENCE

This is overdue but I desperately need to write about to get it out of my system. So on Friday, 26th May 2017, I went to my first ever concert, and a BTS concert at that (my second favorite kpop boy group). I was looking forward to that day for the longest time, because they FINALLY come to your country (and you’re there!), and getting to experience the rush of purchasing tickets, watching all their videos again and just listening to their songs non-stop up till their concert day.  I went with 2 friends from uni and all 3 of us got VIP seating tickets. (this was how the staged looked from where we were sitting: pic below). 

This might? get a lil cringy and long winded so bear with me or don’t read it lmao. SO LET ME CUT TO THE CHASE:

It was supposed to start at 7 but lights didn’t go out till 7:15. So prior to that there were projectors playing all their music videos and when time drew close to 7pm, all of us started singing along to the songs being played and cheering when we saw our biases on screen. Fast forward 10 mins later, lights dimmed, crowd was losing their shits and the CURTAIN FALLS REVEALING BTS (HOLY FUCKING SHIT). And they started off with Not Today which was absolutely LIT. Ok believe it or not but I fucking cried. I know it sounds ridiculous af but I was feeling really emotional lol. Just imagine seeing your favourite group right in front of your eyes and finally being convinced that this, THIS is REAL. They are real and they are performing LIVE. After years of watching kpop groups through my computer screen and countless fancams of them, they are there in flesh and blood. This isn’t a dream anymore. And what’s even greater is that you’re in a place filled with like-minded people and all of you share the same love and affection for these boys. It’s surreal. Just recalling the memory right now is giving me goosebumps omg. After they performed their first song they did their member introductions which was beyond cute I stg. I couldn’t record those because I was still shaking from all the excitement lmao. I did record after that tho, but I didn’t wanna focus too much on recording and losing out, I wanted to live in the moment. So I only recorded when I was sitting down or when slower/ less hyped songs were being played.

Now I’m going to talk about the members. Min Yoongi holy fucking shit man I still can’t believe I saw him tbh. If yall didn’t know Suga and Jhope are my BTS biases lmao (tho Suga a lil bit more). AND HE’S SO SMOL I FEEL SO SOFT. His solo stage JESUS CHRIST it was emotional af. Before he came out they were playing his VCR on the projector and the whole arena chanted “Min Yoongi” till he came out. That itself had me ShoOKed to the core. Needless to say I screamed like shit every time it was his part lmao. I stg my 2 other friends weren’t even as hyped as I was, in fact this Korean girl on my right was as turnt as me omg. Anyway, Cypher was groundbreaking. Fucking legendary. Rap line was slaying so so hard. ALSO HE THREW A SWEATY TOWEL TOWARDS THE MOSH PIT I STG WHOEVER GOT THAT IS THE LUCKIEST HUMAN BEING ON EARTH RN. When he spoke English I was crying In the CLUB it was so pure lord help my soul. He was tryna say “you guys were legit” but the first time he said it no one really understood lmao so he looked to rap mon for helped and he got all shy and rap mon shouted “YOU GUYS WERE LEGIT” LMAO.  If anything, this concert just intensified my love for Min Yoongi tbh.

Now my second bias JHope. Man he was LIVIN IT UP I swear his stage presence was no joke. NGL but he had the best stage presence that night and if it weren’t for him it wouldn’t be as hyped. Hobi was giving fanservice left right and centre and just running around the stage making sure he wouldn’t miss any of the audience. He was the one hyping the audience up as well with his gestures and everything. I really have the best biases :’)))))) im so glad people are woke asf to him and appreciating him more  (but shame on yall for needing a concert to wake yall up). OK BUT BLESS THE STYLIST THAT NIGHT BECAUSE HOBI WAS SERVING IN THE LOOKS DEPARTMENT WITH HIS BLACK HAIR AND FOREHEAD (ALSO RAP MON, JIN HAD THEIR FOREHEADS SHOWN TOO). I am really impressed because hobi was almost performing back to back. Right after he did his dance solo for Boy Meets Evil they performed BST immediately like damn RESPECT. His solo stage was the most fun because Mama is quite an upbeat song so the crowd was singing along the whole way and it was just a good time overall. I feel so blessed, because Hobi is an actual angel/eternal sunshine and just such a happy pill!!!!!!!! PURE!!!

Kim Namjoon said that this concert was special to them because its right after their billboard music awards (the crowd lost their shits, and ofc, me) and was talking bout how beautiful Australia is and he would like living here next time lmao bless u. Kim Seokjin was the most extra human being I have laid my eyes on omg. Everytime he had the mic he wouldn’t hesitate to mention “worldwide handsome” jfc. His visuals are stunning holy shit I was awake but now im woke even more. Prettiest solo stage tbh. I was also looking forward to Taehyungs’ solo the most because Stigma is my favorite song out of all the solos and boy he did not disappoint. That man was glowing omg. I love his skin so much?????? It’s a golden brown color and im ?????wow. HE’S A WHOLE MEAL. Also he needs to stop smirking that aint good for my heart man. JIMINNNNNNNNNNN. One word: SOFT. His “make some noise” was the CUTEST SHIT EVER DO NOT FIGHT ME ON THIS. IT WAS SO SOFT my hearteu is omg fr. I was swearing so much during “Lie” because I cannot believe he just did that!!!! Performing with a blindfold during the second verse and having a chandelier come down from the ceiling (albeit tiny but still). 11/10 vocals, and actual mochi. Also he touched a fans’ hand in the mosh pit and im :) not :) jealous :))) JJK god of singing and absolutely lethal with his looks and gestures how are kookie stans alive????? Overall I thought he was so shy throughout the whole concert???? His solo footwork had me shooked I ascended tbh (and he was really professional when some fan threw the Australian flag in his hands, he just chuckled and put it down nicely :’)))

One of the most memorable performances for me was Run. The transition from Danger to Run was beautiful, and before the chorus dropped in Run, the members were telling us to get ready to jump. And so we did and it was so so so lit/turnt/ALIVE. I cant even describe it tbh I felt like I was in this GIANT party with Armies and BTS fans (I say this cause not all bts fans are armies lmao). The Korean girl next to me (shes a stranger lmao) and I was jumping at it SO HARD. It was truly memorable and every time I think about it my heart feels fuzzy and warm im cry :’) ive never been to a party before and honestly I don’t feel the need to anymore after this concert because nothing could ever come close. Blood Sweat and Tears is my fave song and by the time they performed that they were already so tired but still gave it their best I FEEL SO BLESSED. And last but not least, was Spring Day. The crowd sang along, there was confetti everywhere,  the members were bowing and it felt so magical.

I really wanted to write this because no one irl would want to listen to what I say lmao and the two friends I went with I just felt like we weren’t on the same hype level??? Im having post concert depression rn and I just wanna binge watch all their videos but I have to catch up with uni u feel me ??? Overall, definitely the best experience/night of my life and I know that this is going to be so special to me (being the first concert and all). Im glad I went all out and payed for VIP cause in the end it was more than worth it. Pictures don’t do them justice, they really are statues irl. Their voices sound even more amazing irl and just being in the same place as them and with the fans… indescribable.

[themindofcmoney-blog]

Mental Clarity

Been clean for while still want that green nonstop but ive got peace on lock even when the odds against me i stay focused and calm ever ready hold it steady until the days of armageddy come knock knock knockin my blessings in life still be cock blockin i guess i shouldve got it while the getting was good no matter what happens to me i got faith in the hood understand where i stood from that perspective all i saw were confessions made by younger versions of me reppin the game till they d i e'd now i can say i sleep better eat better lookin back a fuckin g weathered the storm for peeps that i can say i never let you down dont expect a thing to come with your handmade crown we all carry til its our turn to bury the hatchet raise it up and bet ill match it with a bro fist pop lock and pound it explode with mouth sounds my love for yall abounds even though my family keeps on sayin i was a fool i was mistaken yeah maybe my faith was shaken yet my life wasnt taken now i take life one day at a time thats the only way i keep on the grind because if the worst already happened and i survived and made it then wtf gon happen when i afford my crime and paid it off in full with a better job whos the fool now im dyin of one thing only thats laughter at your ridiculous concept that all things matter only way i know to be is by what happened after i could study your face how you move no blinkin understand i comprehend what you're not saying i feel for you just dont get caught in ya lies after that theres no way to disguise the fact that even though ive fallen back into the familiar ways of youth i still aint had to lie about who i was and thats the truth fr.

Bipolar opposites is a thing be on guard because one day tragic gon happen to you things get dark but will you sell your soul for a taste of that life or will you cling that shit like its the last ticket to light bite off more than you could chew but one day someone might name they son or daughter after you and thats some real shit real quick straight shot to the heart warming positive happens without warning just like a curse till then keep calm stay humble and mutter that favorite verse that got you through the troubled times you're stronger than your iron bonds i never say it enough but im grateful to my lord on high you dont have to believe cause god still gon love you and thats a beautiful thing honest