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The Winner Takes it All: Anakin Skywalker x Reader (Enemies-to-Lovers Modern AU) | Chapter 4

NSFW! Minors DNI!!! Summary: The moment the thesis competition was announced, you knew your biggest threat. Anakin Skywalker, golden boy of the engineering department. He's the only other person smart enough to beat you, and the only other person insane enough to stay in the lab until midnight every night. He's also an asshole, but you're starting to think maybe he's not as bad as you thought he was... Pairing: Anakin Skywalker x Fem!Reader CW: oral sex (m receiving), praise kink, maybe mild degradation. semi-public sex WC: 6.7k AN: sorry this took so long to churn out y'all! i'm currently at a crossroads where i could make this fic end at 5 chapters, or extend to 10 and really cook the plot. please let me know which you'd prefer!! i really love all the responses from every single one of you, and, if you all want to see the crazy shit (and smut) i have planned, i'd love to hear it! until then, enjoy this self-indulgent chapter. requests and asks are open, as always <3

Ch. 1, Ch. 2, Ch. 3, [Ch. 4], Ch. 5, Ch. 6, Ch. 7, Ch. 8

Chapter 4: Breaking

Anakin woke up first. Because of course he did. Because of course the universe tortured him with the beauty of your sleeping face, naked in his arms. Last night was the best thing that had ever happened to him, and that counted winning Nationals and his first Lego Robotics kit. The previous night, when you lay down on his chest and said all those sweet things, no anger in you at all, he felt his stomach do a full flip, and he accepted right then that he loved you. Once he let the thought in, it was done. He loved you. And that was pure torture, because he knew he wouldn't do anything about it. The two of you were too delicate, too breakable right now.

He watched your sleeping face in the morning light the way a moth watches the moon, bright and so unattainable, with your peaceful eyes and full lips. Those same lips that sneered at him, that told him how smug and horrible he was. He really didn't know how he could be so stupid as to sleep with you. Anakin knew he was never someone who could keep his feelings and his dick separate. He knew it. But the second that you seemed interested, he offered it so freely, probably because he was already done for at that point. Last night, he wanted nothing more than to make you feel pleasure, to make you shake under him and say his name. And now, he was aware of what he had done to himself. What he had been doing to himself since freshman year.

The thought propelled him to get up, to move around. Anakin never could stay still for long. He closed your bedroom door softly, trying to avoid waking you up after he put his clothes back on, then sat on your couch to have a moment to think. A moment where he couldn't smell your shampoo or feel the skin of your stomach against him. Fuck. He leaned his elbows onto his thighs and put his head in his hands.

What was he going to do? Could he even do anything at this point? If he told you how he felt, that he wanted to be more than just someone you slept with, he genuinely didn't know what you'd say. What was the probability that you had feelings for him? Something other than just carnal, animal desire? He'd been noticing, lately, that you were less likely to snap some rude comment at him. That you were, maybe, just maybe, softening towards him. Maybe he was just deluding himself into reading into the soft touches last night, or the fact that you didn't kick him out. But maybe he wasn't. And maybe you'd be scared away by the suggestion that he had feelings for you, for any one of a million reasons. You were only six months from graduation, or some ex still had your heart, or maybe you just didn't want to be seen with him. There were infinite possibilities, and he didn't know which, if any, would happen if he told you. The uncertainty was killing him.

But the biggest thing stopping him was the competition. It made everything so hard between you, and maybe he would have said something if he didn't have to see you every day for hours until he graduated. If he could just run away if you rejected him to lick his wounds in peace. But, if you said no, he'd have to watch you ignore him, watch your perfect, deft hands build something brilliant.

He felt like an idiot. He had put himself in this position. And he couldn't really afford the time commitment of spending hours a day with a fuckbuddy/girlfriend/whatever this was right now. He hadn't fucked you without thinking about it, it was just that he was weak around you. Sure, he was horny and repressed and hadn't gotten some in a while. That's what hands were for. But, in all honesty, he hadn't been interested, really interested, in anyone since sophomore year. Then you came along, the one person he should hate, always next to him in the lab. As he got to know you better, he felt that lump growing in his chest, the one that meant that he was going to be hurt, inevitably. That much love never ended well.

Oh, fuck, what have I done?

He heard hinges creak, and, for a second, he thought you were up, but it was Ahsoka, heading out for a run based on her joggers and jacket. And he was wearing last night's clothes in your living room in the early hours of the morning. Shit. It didn't take a genius to figure out what happened, from the timing to his messy hair.

"Hey, Snips." His voice wasn't as confident as he hoped it would be, but Ahsoka took pity on him.

"Hey, Skyguy," she said, sitting down next to him on the couch and wrapping an arm around him. Anakin hesitated for just a moment, before leaning his head onto her shoulder. She was his second-in-command, and she knew things he didn't tell pretty much anyone else. Ahsoka was dependable, if annoying. She was who he imagined his little sister would be in some alternate universe where he had a bigger family. It irritated him to no end that she could read him like a book, especially with the look she was casting him. She knew the slump of his shoulders, the faraway look in his eyes.

"You caught feelings, didn't you?" She said into the silent room. There was a peace, a still serenity to the morning, and he found himself tired of hiding.

"That easy to tell?" He let out a little snort. Of course it was.

"Yeah." For her, at least. She'd seen him cry in pain after a competitor dislocated his shoulder, and she'd seen him go through his breakup with Padme. "Well, why don't you say something?"

"I'm scared that it wouldn't work out, that it would end badly." The confession was quiet, vulnerable. Anakin could practically hear Ahsoka rolling her eyes affectionately.

"You're already enemies. You literally hate each other. How much worse could it get?" There was a smile in her voice, but Anakin was serious.

"So much worse. You don't know--I don't think I could handle silence. Anger, hatred, that's whatever. But silence, not talking, that would kill me. When we're just casual--it's safer. Even if it fucking hurts." He'd never been a guy for casual hookups. He'd never had one before. Anytime he had sex with someone, it had to be emotional for him. Deeply.

"But you already have feelings, so you're going to get hurt if it ends, regardless of what label you put on it. Just… say something, Skyguy." Her arm wrapped around his shoulders squeezed him comfortingly. He nodded, still far away in thought. The possibilities spun around in his mind like debris in a hurricane, smacking him around like a ragdoll. Everything was chaos, and he just wanted to learn more. To know more about how you felt.

"I think I just need more time. To figure out what this is. If there's anything I can do. And I can't let myself get distracted from work," he said. The problem was that, when he got like this, he knew you would be the only thing on his mind, night and day. The only thing that kept him from going insane would be his work, what he was building, but you would always be there when he was working. And that would throw him off his game by a country mile.

"You work too much, Skyguy." Anakin barked out a laugh, a resentful sound.

"Maybe." What was too much? He didn't know the concept.

Every second, every iota of willpower within him was dedicated to getting through college and getting a good job. To making a future. To making money. He swore to himself, when he learned what a bill was and why his mom would cry in her room when the envelopes with the red stamps came to their door, that he would never let her worry about money again. She had done enough of that for a lifetime. Whenever she got him a gift that he knew was expensive, his heart would break. After she bought him the Lego Robotics set, he said he didn't want any gifts for Christmas anymore, only his birthday. Said he didn't want to celebrate consumerism, or some bullshit like that. He used the set until it stopped working. And then he fixed it, and wore it out again. For years, he was angry about how unfair it all was, how the world could punish his mom this way, but all of it boiled off until all that was left was determination, thick like syrup. Then he started the odd jobs, fixing computers for people with small bits of equipment he borrowed from the school robotics team. He worked part-time at the dojo in exchange for lessons, and collected every scrap of prize money he could. He'd slip the twenties he got into his mom's wallet in the middle of the night, his bare feet padding on the tiles, hoping she wouldn't notice.

He only accepted Coruscant University because of the full ride they gave him. If they had offered any less, he would have had to go to Tatooine State University. And now, if he won, $10,000 was enough that he would probably have to make up some excuse for her to accept it, like a thank-you gift for being a good mom. Or maybe he'd invest it and take out small chunks once a month that he could slip into the family bank account, maybe pretend he got a new part-time job. That is, if he won. If.

Whenever he thought about not winning, about what that would mean, he felt a pit open up in his stomach, sucking him up whole. But if he won, a different pit opened up. You'd never forgive him for it. He knew you'd never be able to get over the resentment, the anger at him if he won. You held grudges longer than anyone he'd met before, and this would probably be unforgivable in your book. That was, if he even won.

"When did life get so complicated? If I win, I feel guilty because it'd ruin everything that we're doing. If I don't, I don't even know--I have to win. I can't afford not to. I--I just wanted to make robots." The feelings spilled out of him, letting some pressure off of his heart, but he could feel his eyes prickling. Anakin blinked quickly, getting rid of even the threat of tears. Ahsoka could tell, he knew, but she had the decency not to mention it. The arm around him rubbed his shoulder, saying I know. It's okay.

"It doesn't seem that complicated to me. All you can do is your best with your project, and with… other things. It'll all work out, I promise," Ahsoka said, with such authority in her voice that Anakin believed her.

"Thanks, Snips." He pried himself off of her shoulder, though it was a Herculean task, and threw her a forced smile.

"Oh, and if you tell anyone about this, I'll make you do sprints at practice," he added, and she laughed. Ahsoka pushed off the couch and grabbed her water bottle, then was at the door in a moment.

"I'll see you later, and… I do mean it. Say something," she said as she opened the door and slipped out of it.

That left Anakin alone on your couch, thinking and turning the possibilities over in his mind until he lost his patience and came back into your room. You were still laying in bed, and his heart ached. Anakin came up to you and pressed a gentle kiss to your cheek. Something you probably wouldn't have let him get away with if you were awake, honestly. You shifted a bit

"Good morning, sleepy. Let's get to work," he said.

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Anakin spent the rest of the day distressingly far from you. First, after you had breakfast together, which made his heart race in an almost embarrassing way, he had to leave immediately for a meeting at the Jinn lab. Then, he had to race to TKD practice, because he was teaching the intro, the intermediate, and the advanced group today, which was definitely evidence that God hated him. He shoved some kind of sandwich from a dining hall down his throat on the shuttle back to the engineering department, where he then sat for four hours working on replicating the results from some test Obi-Wan had run that morning. At some point, he ate two protein bars from his backpack. Anakin was so busy, he almost didn't have time to think or feel, and that soothed him the slightest bit.

Then came the thesis lab, at 10. It was packed to the brim with students. All twelve of your cohort apparently found their way out of the woodwork tonight. He checked the calendar. Seven days until fall semester submission, so that made sense. Most of them probably hadn't even started. Whatever, that just meant less real competition.

When he entered the lab, his eyes found you instantly, the way they always did. You'd saved the workbench across from you for him, a gesture which almost made Anakin pass out. He tried not to read into it as a sign of affection, he really did. He did not succeed. You gave him a little wave and a smile, asked him how his day was, and he went almost dizzy with joy.

By the time an hour passed, he realized that he had done remarkably little. He thought back to that morning, when he was sure having sex with you had been a bad idea precisely because it felt like such a good idea. Anakin decided that he was correct to feel that way, because he couldn't focus on anything right now. You bent over your lab bench to reach something in the back, and he wanted to walk over and sink his fingers into your soft cheeks. Maybe something else. When you lent over your workstation, which was across from his today, and he got a perfect look down your shirt to your perfect bra and tits, he tried to hold back the flashes of how your nipples felt under his fingers and tongue. Each stretch of your lithe neck reminded him of how desperately he wanted to suck a deep red mark right there, then watch you walk around with it.

He really was trying to resist, but he wasn't good at it. Anakin already knew he was weak when it came to you, but this was a whole new level. He was hard, in public, because of you. While he pretended to read an email sagely, a hand crept under his lab bench to palm himself, just to take the edge off. Somewhere around his hip, he remembered Obi-Wan could be watching, either now or years down the line, and his hand retreated to the desk. So much for that idea. But he could deal with a little erection, right?

Wrong. So, so wrong. Because, right in his line of sight, you were trying to unplug a stuck power supply, and you were making these sounds, these grunts and groans, that went straight to his cock. Fuck. Each sound that escaped you sounded almost like your little moans while he ate you out. He could practically still taste you, feel the nub between your legs under his tongue. When you finally got it, you let out a little celebratory yes! which was definitely something he heard last night when you were riding him. The weight of your body on him, the way your tight pussy swallowed his cock whole as he looked into your eyes, the smell of sex in the air.

The image was too much. Anakin's resolve crumbled, and his hand went down all the way until it reached his sensitive head and applied just enough pressure to satisfy the itch. Apparently, that wasn't nearly enough, because his body immediately demanded more more more, greedy and obsessed with what you were doing to him. He had never been this hungry for someone before, like you were the very air he needed to breathe. Since you arrived at the lab, it had been sheer torture. It had gotten him to the point where it might just break him not to fuck you, and soon.

Anakin took a deep, ragged breath, then turned to his project. He inspected what he had done, and he found that he had connected the wrong resistor to the top of the circuit, as well as put the input cable in the wrong place. If he had turned it on, it would short the whole thing. Probably blow out the MPU6050-6 gyroscope and accelerometer chips he had spent hours soldering on yesterday.

Okay. Enough was enough. If his horniness was getting in the way of his work, he had to go take care of it. Nothing could stop him from winning. Anakin muttered out that he was going to the bathroom and rushed off down the stairs to the basement, to one of the private bathrooms.

As soon as the lock clicked behind him, his right hand immediately locked onto his cock through his pants, stroking it as he popped the button with his left. He barely had enough willpower to take his hand off of his cock while he unzipped himself and pulled it out. He was hard, leaking, desperate. He spat in his hand, then pretended it was you stroking him. Slow, languid. Those eyes looking up at him through your lashes, telling him you how badly you wanted him. Fuck it, he thought as he sped up and twisted at the top, just like he imagined you would. He didn't have his cock in your hands or mouth last night, and he was starting to wish he had, if not for the feeling, but to have the mental image stored away. Or maybe an actual image. What if he pulled out a camera while your pussy swallowed his cock whole and wrung the life out of it as you bounced on top of him? Or maybe while you played with yourself for him, fingers shoved within you as you mewled about how badly you wanted him inside you instead?

Anakin nearly came from the image alone. He stopped, just for a second. He wanted to take care of himself quickly, but, when it came to you, he wanted to make it last. Spend time in that space where he meant so much to you. Anakin leaned his body, already sweaty with need, back on the cool metal tiles, his hand on the safety rail. He counted down from 10, just to let his breathing slow and wipe some drops from his forehead, then started fucking his fist again.

Less than five seconds in, his phone buzzed in his pocket. Motherfucker. He pulled it out, just to see, hoping it was you. It was.

Hey, you ok? You've been gone a while

You were worried about him. Fuck. Anakin sped up on his cock. What would you think if you knew he was thinking about you and jerking off? One-handed, he typed out a quick yeah, be back soon, but his phone buzzed again a second later.

If you have some kind of stomach flu and give it to me, I'll smash your bot right now

He breathed out a laugh, but it got caught in his throat as he rubbed his thumb across his frenulum. Anakin almost made a few mistakes as he was typing out his response, but managed to write back.

thanks. but i'm just taking care of something. b back soon

Less than a millisecond later, you sent him a response. How did you type so fast? How would those fast, precise fingers feel wrapped around his shaft?

Does that mean what I think it means?

He sent a quick response without thinking. No, he was not jerking off in the work bathroom because just being near you turned him on beyond belief. Nope.

get your mind out of the gutter, he sent back. But, even if you suspected what he was doing, why would you ask? Maybe you would join him, if he asked. His hand got frenzied at the thought. Twitches jolted his cock. He sent another text.

maybe

Would you want some help with that? Your text flashed up on his screen and hit him like a truck. So you were interested. Maybe you were kinkier than he thought. Maybe he should have asked you to come down here with him, whispering in your ear in the lab so you could follow him, and only him, wherever he wanted so he could fuck you until you couldn't walk.

He typed I bet you'd enjoy helping me. Being on your knees for me, but then deleted it. Scaring you off was the last thing he wanted to do now.

if u want, he sent instead.

You instantly responded. Where are you?

This was happening. It was actually happening. Anakin gripped the base of his cock violently to make sure he didn't cum while he waited. He had to be patient.

basement bathroom, down the hall from the motion capture lab, he typed.

I'll be there in 2 mins, I'll knock 4 times

Those two minutes might just have been the worst two minutes of his life. Waiting, cock in his hand, for you to get there, precum dribbled out of him like a fountain. His cock was already slick with his spit, but it had dried while he waited. Despite the fact that it had been a bit since he last touched himself, he wasn't getting any softer. It was like his body knew you were getting closer, about to touch him. Like it knew you were about to put your soft lips around him.

When the knock on the door came, he did up his pants, unlocked it, and stepped to the side. On the off chance it was someone else, randomly using this exact bathroom.

But it wasn't. It was you, your hair pulled up, away from your face, breathing just a bit heavily from the way you had obviously run down the stairs. You were excited for him, and a thrill shot through him as he realized that he knew you well enough to recognize that.

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In the lab, you had noticed Anakin was off, somehow. That morning, he was so tender to you, helping you up and getting breakfast with you. The way he made you laugh over your off-brand cereal squeezed your heart. When he left, telling you he needed to go to work, you flashed into some future where the two of you were at a run-down kitchen table in some tiny apartment you shared, spending a few precious minutes together before you had to rush off to your jobs in the city. You shook it away.

You spent most of the day working on a thermo problem set in your room, trying desperately to understand how this would ever matter to you. Sometime before lunch, Ahsoka messaged you.

Hey, I forgot my water bottle at home. Can you grab it? I'm at the athletics center xx

You rolled your eyes. Of course you'd bring it. You found it by your little kitchenette area (which was comprised of a definitely-against-the-rules hot plate and microwave), probably discarded last night when Ahsoka was studying. You grabbed it, the metal cool under your fingers, and filled it with water from the Brita in your fridge for good measure. She'd probably forget to fill it during practice if you didn't.

You decided to wear some comfortable slides for your walk to the athletics center, which was only two buildings down from your dorm. The concrete of the imposing building always felt threatening and harsh. The machines were a bit run-down inside, and it wasn't your favorite gym of all time, but they had a pool and volleyball courts, so you found yourself there sometimes for intramural sports, if one of your friends convinced you.

You scanned your ID at the front, and the student attendant gave you a look which questioned why someone wearing sweats and slides, carrying nothing but a water bottle, would show up to the gym at noon on a Sunday. Whatever, you'd be out of here soon. You bounded up the stairs to the second floor, which housed the aerobics room, where Ahsoka told you the team practiced. You saw some of the others--Cody, Vaughn, Rex--in the corner, talking to Ahsoka in their kits. You cracked open the glass door and waved her over. Her bare feet smacked on the wood flooring as she plodded toward you, a bright smile on her face. Once she met you in front of the door, she grabbed the water bottle and guzzled it down until little rivulets slipped past her lips. She was sweaty, and, even though her white and blue braids were tied back, some had fallen out and hung loose around her face.

"Hey! Thank you so much, I was literally dying," she said, winking.

"Yeah, I can see that," you said. Ahsoka let out a little laugh and told you she needed to get back to it, so you were about to turn to leave when you saw a familiar figure.

Anakin. He was in front of a crowd of students, almost all of them wearing black belts, with some smatterings of red belts, as he demonstrated some sort of combination of kicks. You didn't really know that much about taekwondo, even though your roommate was really dedicated to the team, and your whatever-Anakin-was had won about a million championships. You'd never really seen Anakin do anything, though, but you almost had to stop your jaw from physically dropping.

He moved so precisely, so agile and sleek. And then someone took out three boards, thick, wooden things, and he smashed them clean in half with one kick. Details flooded you. The way his standing foot corrected itself to support him, so well-tuned to his body. The furrow of his brow, the beads of sweat collecting on it. The taut muscles in his chest that peeked out from the slightly open vee of the kit. The way his mouth opened in a yell you could hear through the door, an angry, powerful sound that sent shivers down your soul.

You were wrong about him. He wasn't just otherworldly. He was so much more. When he moved like this, you imagined him on a battlefield, cutting through a swath of enemies with those strong limbs like they were nothing. He was ethereal, battle itself come alive, strategic and controlled and precise, but vicious.

Whatever he was showing ended, and the pupils started attempting some mimicry of it. But none of them would ever come close to him, to the way his body moved. You wanted him all to yourself, in that moment, when you realized how incredible he was. You didn't want anyone else to snatch even a fraction of him, of his brilliance. As the jealousy of some imaginary people tugged in your gut, you turned and left. You had work to do, and this was… distracting. Hard to look away from. Hard to stop thinking about. But you could manage it.

Even in the lab that day, when you'd found a bench and saved him a seat, the image of him, snapping out his hand at the wood, didn't leave you. It was like trying not to think of an object, it just kept popping up in the screech of the bandsaw, in the wood flecks that speckled the ground near the drill press. It was everywhere.

It only got worse when Anakin arrived, a few hours later, shooting you glances that made your body simmer. When he sat at his computer and typed, you wondered how you'd never seen that side of him before. How you didn't see that those hands, the ones that had been inside you just hours ago, were so strong. So dangerous. Something stirred within you. That chest that you'd run your hands over held so much power, and the thought of him using it on you, to lift you up and throw you around, made you far wetter than it should. Your clit twinged when you remembered that this very desk was the one he had lifted you up on that first night. Jump. His hands were so strong under your legs, like you weighed nothing. Not that you were tiny or delicate, he was just that strong. You looked across at the table at him. Anakin was precise in the lab, too, his hands twisting the wire in his hands under his fingers just so. Could he grab your clit like that too, and pull and twist? Watch you squirm under him?

Fuck, you had to snap out of it. You caught him looking at you, and he smiled when you made eye contact. Shit, you'd forgotten how cute that smile was when it wasn't full of contempt. It was only turning you on more.

You threw yourself into work, pulling off a horrible plug that wouldn't release no matter what you did, then typing out some words into your running lab log. When you looked up, Anakin was looking at you and breathing heavily, his face suddenly deadly serious. You suddenly felt like his next meal, and the thought made you shiver. After a few seconds, he told you he was going to the bathroom, and asked you to keep an eye on his prints.

The twelve people there had dwindled to six, counting you and Anakin, so you started to wonder if you could get away with going home early once he returned and either fucking him the second you got home, or fucking yourself silly on your vibrator when you got home.

So, when he implied in a text that he was, in fact, jerking off downstairs, you needed to find out where he was. Immediately. His strong hands wrapped around his cock would stay in your fantasies for years. And, you hadn't had him in your mouth yet. And, fuck, you wondered how he would taste, now that he had been teasing himself for so long.

The basement was quiet, empty. You didn't see anyone in the motion capture lab on your way over, so you two would probably be safe. A thrill bubbled through you--fucking in semi-public was something you'd always wanted to try, but no one you'd been with had been willing. You were sure that your panties were more than a little wet at this point, but it wasn't just that you were doing something so daring, it was the fact that you were doing it with Anakin.

The four knocks on the door came quickly, and you heard the tell-tale click of the lock. You opened the door, then found Anakin leaning up against the wall.

"Hey," he said, nonchalantly. That charm was really serving him now, distracting you from the red in his lips and the heave of his chest. You noticed anyway.

"Hey."

"So, uh. I don't have a condom or anything, so we probably shouldn't--y'know," he said, seeming a bit unsure what you wanted to do. His index finger rubbed the metal bar protruding from the wall that he was leaning on.

"Yeah. I was hoping that, um," the words fell short on your tongue. Was there a sexy way to ask this? One that would guarantee he'd say yes?

"What is it?" Anakin was suddenly curious, not ready to accept your pause, or the "I-uh" you uttered as you searched in vein for some innuendo to use.

"C'mon, tell me." His tone had more of an edge to it, one that made you blurt out what you were thinking without a question.

"I was hoping you'd fuck my throat. Hard." You looked up at him, and he was looking at you a bit like he looked at those boards at practice. Like a goal. Like something he wanted, something he'd get. Anakin stalked over to the door and clicked the lock so that no one could get in, then turned to you.

"Get on your knees for me, baby." His voice was so gruff that you did what he said immediately, and dropped onto the hard tile floor. You were on your knees, and all that mattered in that moment was him. His pleasure. "Take it out," he told you, his eyes fixed on you. Your hands came up to his thighs, shaking in anticipation, then ghosted along his hard cock in his jeans. It jumped under your fingers, eager, but you continued up and undid his button. While Anakin stared down at you, you glanced up at his furrowed brow and tightened lips before slowly, teasingly, drawing down his zipper until it showed you his boxers. You hooked a finger under the waistband and drew them down until his cock, hard and heavy, bobbed in front of your hungry mouth.

His head was dark, leaking precum. Anakin had clearly been playing with himself for a long time before this, and you could see some wetness along the shaft, probably spread across his hard cock by his hand. The veins were defined, angry and desperate. One of his hands came up to your jaw, caressing it, then trailed to the back of your head to pull your mouth closer to him.

You reached up and grabbed around the middle of his shaft experimentally, just to test his reaction, and he let out a huff. The skin was so soft and silky under your fingers, and you wondered if the head would be smooth and warm in your mouth. You tested that theory immediately, taking the entire head in your my mouth in one go. You were both too impatient for teasing right now.

"Ahhffuuuck," he groaned as his other hand braces him against the wall. You hummed, but your jaw was open as wide as it could go, so it came out incoherent. Your tongue darted to his slit, lapping up his precum, which was salty and musky, like the rest of him last night. It was Anakin's smell, something masculine and sexy that made you get even wetter. Your tongue started brushing over different parts of his head, feeling the spongy head and the smooth bumps of his frenulum. He really liked it there, it seemed, based on the sharp inhale and small eye roll you saw him give.

You loved his reactions, you loved watching him lose that filter that pretended he didn't want to do horrible, rough things to you. Your head started bobbing as you worked your lips over and over across the rim of his head, letting the whole thing pop out of your lips over and over. Words would probably start pouring out him soon like last night, and the memory of him saying ride me was enough to propel your hand down to where your splayed out thighs met.

"What? Is blowing me in the bathroom turning you on?" There it was. You nodded, his cock still in your mouth. Yes, it was turning you on more than it had any right to. Knowing that someone could be right outside the door while you stuffed him deeper down was everything you wanted. You took more of him in, going as far down as you could, before he hit the back of your throat.

You gagged on him, your body begging for air, but then he used the hand that was behind your head to shove you off him. His fingers wrapped into the hair at the base of your skull and turned you up to face him. He was completely disheveled, the sweet Anakin still there, but a kind of sweet that terrified you, that would ruin you while whispering how good you were in your ear.

"Well, go on. Touch yourself while I fuck your throat, baby," he said, his voice commanding but caring, which only made you wetter. You didn't waste a second, dipping your fingers into your pussy, which was almost shamefully wet. As soon as he saw you sink down on them, he used the subtle opening of your mouth to shove his cock deep down inside your throat, then pulled back and thrust in again, harder. His cock was practically thrumming under your lips, needy and insistent.

The feeling made you speed up your fingers slamming the walls of your pussy, but it wasn't enough. Nothing other than him was ever enough. Desperate for anything to dull the need, you thrust your hips into your palm, grinding against it while your fingers were still buried inside you. The extra friction made you whine around him and squeeze your eyes shut as he worked you back and forth. Suddenly, his hand in your hair wrenched you off his cock.

"Eyes open, beautiful. Look at me," Anakin growled. You instantly opened them, staring up at him. He was wrecked for you. His open mouth huffed out hot, ragged breaths, and, under your fingers, his thighs were clenched so hard you thought they'd give out. As soon as he saw your eyes on his, he lowered you back onto his dick, this time even more frenzied when he saw the devoted look you were casting him and your cheeks hollowed out. You were doing your best to suck the life out of him, and it was working. Quiet grunts started ripping out of his chest every time your tongue passed the bottom of the head of his dick.

"Ffffuck yeah, suck my cock--You like when I pull your hair hard like that? Like it when I use you?" The words were unfiltered, wild. You nodded as best you could, but his brutal pace moving your head was too much, so you tried to say yes, please, I love this so fucking much, but it came out as a series of incoherent noises around his length. Anakin smirked, ravenous, when he heard your desperate cries, but quickly had to squeeze his eyes shut and let his mouth drop open in pleasure. You loved seeing him come apart like this, just because of you. Because of your mouth. He recovered quickly, and words, dirty things, started pouring out of him.

"Yeah, I know you do. Can you feel how much I wanted to bend you over that fuckin' table in the lab? How much I wanted to--shit--slide my fingers inside you and watch you fuck yourself on them?" You whimpered around him, his words going to your head. Your pussy was on fire, heat spreading to every part of your body. He sped up, and you could feel his head smacking the soft flesh at the back of your throat. Your lips ached, your knees ached, your pussy ached, but you would do anything for him at that moment. And he knew it. He cursed under his breath. "Fuuuck, you're so fucking good at this--just like that, baby." It only took a few more seconds before you felt his thighs seize, his balls tightening and his cock starting to jerk and twitch in your mouth. You tongue was so tired, and you weren't sure breathing was even something you remembered how to do anymore.

"Gonna--fuck-- gonna cum. Gonna paint your fucking throat," he groaned, letting noises fall from his lips as you saw it finally overtake him. You were so far gone that you could barely feel your wrist from the amount you were moving it. You could barely feel anything except his cock tensing up inside your mouth. His orgasm burned through him like a wildfire, and, based on the loud gasp that ripped from his chest as the first shot of cum hit the back of your throat, he was losing himself in it. It was bitter, so salty, but you barely tasted it as it slid straight down your tongue. The next spurt hit you, and his hips thrust sharply into your wet, hot throat, but the cum stayed on your tongue this time. It was thick and tasted like a more intense version of his precum painting your mouth. Anakin rode out his orgasm, still buried inside you, then gently pulled his cock out and let go of your burning scalp.

You looked up at him with the best doe eyes you could, then stuck your cum-covered tongue out for him to see. His eyes were half-lidded, but curious. You wanted to badly to make him desperate for you again, to make him need you the way you needed him. Then you took it back in, and made a show of swallowing all his cum.

He groaned, giving you a fuck, baby as he recovered from both the image and his orgasm, and you registered, somewhere far away in your mind, that it was the first time he had called you that outside of sex, and that you wanted to hear it more.

His warm hand trailed your jaw, a bit tentative, holding you like you might shatter in that moment. And, you were. You were shattered, horny beyond belief and desperate to be taken care of. Every joint and part of your body ached, but nothing mattered other than having him inside you as soon as possible.

"Please, Anakin, I--I. I need to be fucked--I need you inside me, please," you begged, still on your knees for him. Anakin offered you a hand up, then helped you get off your sore joints. For a moment, you wondered if he'd leave you alone with your dripping, aching pussy, as some revenge for something. For some sin you'd committed years ago. But then he spoke, his deep blue eyes boring into yours with a heady mix of sincerity, sweetness, and something else. Something deeper.

"I'll take care of you, don't worry. But, first, you're gonna go upstairs and tell everyone you're going home, but you'll wait for me by the entrance. Then, when we get back, I'm going to fuck you on my bed until you can't walk straight."

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Tag List (please let me know if you'd like to be added! i'm also searching for beta readers for this series, just to tell me if you like the concepts of each chapter, so message me if you'd like to chat about that): @skywalkercinema @throughparisallthroughrome @anak1ns-wife @radiantvader @eloquenceinpurple @rosekillerdaughter @doblasftcisco @rhiannonhippiegirl @mistress-amidala @mortalheartache @xorilixx @sunnytotheend @olivia091108 @aniiuv @sotal3rsa @springnaiad @bettysgardenswift @ursogorgeous13 @avalovesjoe1 @anibeaar @anisluvrgirl @johnbassplayercutie @mcdonaldshelppage @usuck @sythethecarrot @lovrsm

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love love love these social media aus. i am obsessed. would love to see a soft launch with carlos maybe of him showing her spain and his home? carlos just screams old money european vibes and i love it

old money | carlos sainz social media au

pairing: carlos sainz x reader a class in soft launching 101

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carlossainz55 didn't know it was a crime to love my mum

username so yall be yelling about y/n but not telling us who she is and why she matters

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f1wagsupdates: it's all but confirmed!! after a pretty solid soft launch from both carlos and his new lover y/n y/ln, her latest post was captioned "keeping the operation smooth", playing on carlos' iconic theme song. our sources state that the driver and socialite poet have been together for as long as six months but after other relationships and relative platforms, both were determined to take it slow. what do you think?

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landonorris finally i can interact without having a year long argument with carlos

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carlossainz55 as much as you are annoying landito, thank you for these ❤️

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username lando just starts domestics in these comments and i love that for him

note: sorry this one is a bit short, but i hope you enjoyed anyway!!

#f1 #f1 x you #f1 instagram au #f1 x reader #f1 imagine #carlos sainz x reader #carlos sainz imagine #carlos sainz f1 #carlos sainz x you #carlos sainz instagram edit

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seethewiredsouls · 3 months ago

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I need to talk about Sweetpea. Particularly, AJ and Rhiannon. BIG SPOILERS AHEAD FOR THE FINALE.

Y'all... I am fuckin sad. It's been awhile since I've been affected by a TV character's death like this, and I think it's worsened by the fact that I feel kind of... betrayed by Rhiannon. I'm still trying to process my feelings, so instead I'll look at it from a narrative standpoint.

It had to end like this. There was no other way to end it. Rhiannon was in a spot where it seemed like her life had overall improved, and she wasn't going to kill anymore. There was MAYBE a chance of her getting caught but for now, she was getting away with it. Murdering people had majorly improved her life.

That being the takeaway or moral of the story was obviously not going to work. The writers had a moral obligation to condemn murder, and I say this because of how clear Ella has been in her press tour stating "KILLING IS BAD." They don't mean to inspire young serial killers by sharing a successful I-killed-my-bullies-and-lived-happily-ever-after type of story. Meaning, there had to be consequences for Rhiannon in some capacity.

This could've been done by having her caught and arrested, or even left in a spot where it felt like she was right back where she started (where she loses AJ, Craig, Julia, her house, maybe even her job)... But instead they decided to rip our fucking hearts out and stomp on them. I hate it, but you know what? It was effective as fuck.

Rhiannon truly believed she was in the right murdering those three men because they were "bad" people. She had some remorse about the first victim until she learned enough information about him to justify it to herself. They were bullies, so she did a Good Thing. She's not a monster because the murders were justified in her eyes.

But AJ? The sweetest dork who noticed her when no one else did?? The one person rooting for her the whole time??? She chose her OWN FREEDOM over the life of this objectively GOOD man that she supposedly cared about. How can she possibly rationalize this murder and feel guilt-free?? Her reason for killing was entirely selfish, and she tries to delude herself (muttering "I'm not a monster"), but you can see the guilt. It completely broke her.

And that's her punishment, the consequence of murdering people - hurting the people that care about you. Being called a monster by AJ, the act of killing him and losing him at the same time, and ending up alone and alienated at the end of it all... It was more of a punishment than jail time could've ever been.

And frankly, it was very well executed. The story came full circle. Rhiannon's automatic response quoting AJ from their initial meeting ("nice piece of kit") being the trigger for his realization was done beautifully. You could FEEL the shift - her panic realizing she gave herself away, and him in stone cold fear and denial. And the initial stab... It was obviously coming, and yet I was hoping SO HARD that it wasn't. Like maybe, just maybe she'll let him go... And she doesn't. And it makes her completely irredeemable in my eyes. It was the one last step off the deep-end into psycholand.

It hurts, but it's goddamn good writing. RIP AJ, our beloved dork.

not me rationalizing the writing choices to numb the pain of a fictional character death

PS it's not working I think I need to write fic

#sweetpea #sweetpea spoilers #rhiannon lewis #aj #does he have a last name

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hainethehero · 10 months ago

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So I made the mistake of stumbling onto the NOT STEVE ROGERS FRIENDLY tag today and..

You have to be a special type of delusional to be this obsessed with a character you don't like!??

Over 2k fics have the tag and are almost entirely Tony Stark-centered fics. I'm assuming these are the "fans" who totally buy into the MCU canon and don't know any other Captain America lore outside of what Feige and Whedon have done. Or, they're the "fans" who refuse to understand the politics behind Steve's character and how he was inherently undermined throughout the entire ten years of the MCU by the directors and writers for most of the films.

Because the arguments in most of these fics for being "not Steve rogers friendly" are really surface level shit like:

1) "Steve refused to sign the Accords and broke up the Avengers" (he was right & he didn't break them up, an overemotional Tony did when he refused to listen to Bucky's side of the story).

2) Steve fought Tony and almost killed him (yeah, like Tony didn't blast Bucky's arm off and shoot his repulsor rays directly at Steve).

3)Steve is homophobic (y'all are just making up reasons to hate this man atp)

4)Steve is racist (Steve hated racists & you'd know that if you read the comics, or you guys are just that deluded that you're making Steve racist & trying to project it as canon and therefore a "reasonable" explanation as to why you hate him)

5)Blaming Steve for Rhodey's accident (WHICH WAS TEAM TONY'S FAULT!)

6)YALL, THEY MADE STEVE THE BAD GUY IN A BROCK RUMLOW/BUCKY FIC! I stg I cannot make this shit up💀 Steve's bad for wanting Bucky to be Bucky again, but somehow Brock's the good guy for wanting Bucky to be the Soldier...

Steve left Bucky for Peggy (we'll get to this soon)

There's a hundred more irrational reasons for the Steve Rogers hate, but let me get to the WORST part.

THERE ARE BUCKY STANS WHO ARE ANTI-STEVE ROGERS.

And I'm sorry, no. I don't accept that you love Bucky Barnes but hate the one person he loves the most in the world.

They argued in a couple fics that "Bucky also went rogue after Siberia but he didn't want to associate with Steve, Nat & the rest of the team- WHO HELPED RESCUE BUCKY & EVENTUALLY EXONERATE HIM- but rather, he went off on his own & eventually Tony finds him, they hash it out and become friends to lovers."

Helppp???? Wdym Bucky isn't gonna stick with the one man he's been keeping diaries about to try and get back his memories? But he'll go to the one guy that re-traumatized him by blowing out his arm again?

Not only that, but Bucky absolutely hates Steve in some of these fics and the reason will be, "he left Bucky to go back to Peggy." Like, you cannot be a serious fan if you're still going with the Endgame canon. For a majority of us, we recognize Endgame as being nothing but terrible writing and mischaracterizations. Why are yall not analyzing and interpreting media critically? The MCU has never been on Steve's side and have always diminished his character in an attempt to make Tony the ultimate hero of the OG 6. Don't yall know the discourse? It's embarrassing atp.

And this is my stance on the entire thing: there's nothing wrong with writing fics about characters you don't necessarily like or aren't interested in. It's OKAY if you don't like Steve Rogers- but you've gotta be rational about him, instead of hateful. Most, if not all of these "anti-steve" fics are written in bad faith. Bad understanding of the character and pure, shameless mischaracterizations which just makes these types of fics fickle and weak- hilarious to read though cos that Brock one had me deadddd😭💀.

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blac-ivy · 1 year ago

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You know what I love? A break from the monotony of regular fics where the reader mc is a victim.

I love when the reader is the unhinged one. I love it when they're so deluded, so far gone that you as sane as you are (which can't be alot if you're on tumblr lol), that you start to see their point and even root for them.

It's like the ultimate girl power thing for me in like a screwed up way, to have the reader be the pursuer, the predator. It's so rare to see Yandere! Or obsessive! dark fics from that perspective.

I love seeing the common themes in dark fics, with a female reader as the instigator,

like the misogynistic "you're going to be my housewife and have my kids whether you like it or not" thing turned to " I'm just trying to be a good housewife for you and give you a family, I promise you'll love it" or " just let me make you feel good, I know you need it even if you don't know it yet" vibes

I love that. I'm going to eat it up everytime

If y'all know of any go ahead and comment. And to any writers who come across this don't be shy to self promote.

My preferred fandoms the MCU : the avengers, Captain America, TFAWS.Harry Potter, Twilight (which is dead as fuck)

Any C. Evans works, or S. Stan

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lovemyromance · 6 months ago

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My opinion on Gwyn:

I like her, she's fine. She is Nesta's friend and while she does have a tragic backstory, so does everyone else in ACOTAR, and I am far more interested in the other characters than I am in Gwyn.

My opinion on Gwynriels:

lol

If they just said "I hate Elain and like Azriel with literally anyone else" or "I like Gwynriel because they're cool and I ship them more"... I think we'd all respect them and their ship infinitely more

It is actually crazy how instead of just saying the above, y'all decided to reduce ACOTAR down to ONE bonus chapter and delude a small portion of very loud people into thinking that a ribbon and sparky sparky glow glow means MATES and ENDGAME when the characters haven't shown a scrap of romantic interaction in a series where males are intrinsically unable to stay away from their mate, especially when they are in danger (which has happened twice now, if we're counting)

My opinions on Lucien:

He was my favorite character in Book 1. Lost my respect for him when he wouldn't stand up to Tamlin and help Feyre, or go after Elain himself.

I don't care about him.

I don't wish him ill, ideally I want everyone to get a happy ending but he is not dear or dead to me in any way.

Very much like Elain, I am indifferent to his fate

My opinions on Eluciens:

The fact that Elain & Lucien are mates makes this ship legitimate and I will respect that. I'm not calling Eluciens delusional for hoping their ship gets together because they very well could 🤷🏻‍♀️

I hope they don't, because the way SJM has written the pairing this far, only shows how Lucien is unwilling to fight for her even though she's his mate. And Elain can't stand to be around him

I understand the "SJM writes enemies to lovers" blah blah excuses, but this is not enemies to lovers even. This is a case where two people don't want each other.

Eluciens shipping this couple does not bother me if they admitted they like Lucien more or they are mates so they'll end up together

What bothers me about Elucien is that people who ship them tend to dismiss Elain's feelings with a simple "she'll get over it" or worse, "she doesn't know what she wants/she's in love with Lucien and being childish". It feels degrading to act like a woman can't make her own decisions

If Elain were to warm up to Lucien in the next book, I would get on board. But as of right now, Elain doesn't want Lucien. It is crazy that Eluciens won't admit THAT.

I don't think that screenshots of deleted Facebook and Pinterest posts count as evidence for ANY ship unless SJM is verbatim saying they are endgame - which she has not.

I dont appreciate Eluciens calling Elriels delusional when Elain has more interaction, and romantic interest with Azriel than her mate. They have more romantic scenes, actual sexual tension, and an almost kiss, etc.

If you want to ship Elucien because you like fated mates, that's fine. But why are you denying what is on the page?

#elriel #acotar #elain x azriel #elain archeron #azriel #pro elain #elain #antielucien #antigwynriel #pro elriel

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hrtbrkrz · 22 days ago

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SO, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN 2021 ... ?!

Well, look no further, because we have all the answers to all your questions.

In 2021, KRUSH was at the top of their game. Coming off the heels of a massively successful comeback and gearing up for one of their most iconic releases yet, the girls were simply unstoppable. But there was one member who had the biggest star power of them all that year: Kaleina Jung. Her viral solo debut in January took the industry by storm, positioning her as one of BigHit's most profitable artists and the bar for the rest of KRUSH's solo debuts. However, despite Kaleina's career success, not all was well.

Privately, she was going through it. After publicly coming out during one of KRUSH's concerts just two years prior, GGBs were split straight down the middle at how they received the news. Half of them loved it, and the other half hated it. They called for BigHit to kick her out the group, wrote letters to her, burned her merch, trended #KaleinaOut and #KRUSH_Is_3, tried to delude themselves into thinking her bisexuality "wasn't real," and even boycotted the entire group. Obviously, Kaleina saw all of it.

Driven to depression and diagnosed with anxiety disorder, she was almost placed on hiatus in early 2020. That never happened, though, as Kaleina was adamant on finishing her activities with KRUSH. As the year dragged on, however, everything just got worse for her, and it all came to a head in 2021.

So, just what happened during that fateful year? Well, ask no more. All your questions will be answered right here, right now.

( TW // HOMOPHOBIA ... lots of it + BRIEF MENTION OF HYBE )

It's June 2019. KRUSH has just finished their show in Los Angeles, a small part of their massive world tour. That night, Kaleina does something rather bold for an idol of her caliber. She comes out as bisexual in front of a crowd of thousands, pulling out a flag from inside of her pocket. Despite the love from the crowd and support from her fellow members, a small part of the internet is about to tear Kaleina to shreds.

First it started with an outcry of "disappointment," but then it escalated to the letters. These are a few written by K-GGBs in 2019. One of them reads, "I cannot support an idol who thinks engaging in this type of sin is right. Kyung-ja has betrayed her fans' trust by doing such things, and as long as she's still a member of KRUSH, I will not be pouring my time and energy into them any longer. BigHit, make the right choice and remove Kyung-ja from the team. She is poisoning the rest of the girls."

One of Kaleina's largest fansites, @/LEINAISMS, shut down following Kaleina's announcement. They returned a day later to call for Chanhee's appointment as KRUSH's new leader, promising to rebrand as a Chanhee fansite... but that never happened.

As the year closed out, the "discourse" surrounding Kaleina's sexuality began to take a toll on her. In screenshots obtained from her private Instagram stories, she expresses just how sad she is at the divide revealing her sexuality has caused. And to whoever leaked these, you kind of suck, by the way.

Screenshots of the leaked stories. There was another that reportedly read "what will my fucking company think," but that was quickly deleted and the leaker wasn't able to attain a screenshot. There was also one that read "like y'all are trending HASHTAGS to get me KICKED OUT MY GROUP," but the leaker wasn't able to attain that one, either. After these screenshots began circulating, Kaleina quickly deleted her story and deactivated her private account. It was down for nearly a year.

Koreaboo later reported that a source close to Kaleina told Dispatch that she had such frequent panic attacks that she was almost unable to complete a performance or step in front of a camera, which led to her aforementioned anxiety diagnosis. She began expressing doubts surrounding her capabilities as a leader, something she had never done before, and was "very upset" that something that she was excited to share with fans was turned into something so ugly.

This report quieted things down a bit, but in no way did it satiate KRUSH's oddly homophobic fans. In fact, they only doubled down, sharing pictures of them burning Kaleina's merch and physically cutting her out of group photos. It got to the point where her own family had to respond.

The year came to an end, and publicly, Kaleina was looking fine. Everyone knew that she wasn't, though. especially considering the month long "sort of hiatus" she was put on during Test Drive promotions back in November 2019. Throughout 2020, one of KRUSH's biggest years career wise, the Kaleina hate train never truly stopped, but since it was considered "old news," it didn't get too much attention from GGBs anymore. However, that certain subsection of "fans" didn't want their message to fall on deaf ears, and they got the perfect opportunity to be as loud as possible by Kaleina's solo debut.

A video was posted to YouTube by a now deleted user in January 2021, showing Korean fans screaming "leave," "we don't need you," and "you've committed a sin" during Kaleina's performance of "Cobra." The video went viral, garnering over two million views in the three days that it was left up. After those three days, however, the video was taken down and the user who posted it was mysteriously deleted. That same day, BigHit released a statement notifying fans that they would be taking legal action against any malicious comments or actions directed at Kaleina, and that anyone involved in the "cheering" that was seen in the video would be blacklisted from any upcoming KRUSH events, which included music show broadcasts.

"Hello, this is BigHit Entertainment. It's recently come to our attention that the hate leveled against Kaleina has gotten to levels that we can no longer ignore. Since 2019, Kaleina herself has informed us that she wishes not to take legal action against malicious commenters and the individuals who spread misinformation against her. However, regarding a recent incident that occurred at KBS Music Bank, we can no longer continue to let these issues go unheeded. After discussing this with Kaleina, she has agreed to allow us to take legal action against anyone who thinks cyberbullying our artist is a good idea. Anyone who does so will be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law, and will be required to answer to the corresponding District Court. Additionally, anyone who took part in the KBS Music Bank incident will be blacklisted from any official KRUSH activities (concerts, fan meetings, showcases, broadcasts, etc.) from here on out. We, BigHit Entertainment, and Kaleina ask you for your sincere support and understanding. Thank you."

BigHit finally issuing a statement did cause the situation to briefly die down, but the timing of this video surfacing was definitely interesting considering what would happen next. Dispatch would rear its ugly head once again, and they would release an article that would change everything. So if you thought for a second that everything was over, then you are sorely mistaken. Shit would truly hit the fan now.

February 2nd, 2021. Only a few short weeks into Kaleina's promotions for "Cobra." All is (somewhat) well in KRUSH-land for a while, until Dispatch does what they always do. The second the article read around the world hit the internet, Kaleina's dating "scandal" went down as one of the most prolific ones in K-pop history.

The article was pretty cut and dry, sharing alleged photos of Kaleina and an unknown female choreographer at a restaurant together, supposedly looking closer than regular friends or colleagues would. According to the source who witnessed it, the unspecified female in question (known as Female A in the article) was placing her hand on Kaleina's waist, kissed her on the forehead, and apparently, they also held hands (oh, the horror) and kissed. On the lips. And in the split second that Kaleina forgot to put her mask back up, the anonymous source caught a picture of her. It was basically confirmed: Kaleina had a girlfriend.

But, how did said source know that it was a choreographer specifically? Well, apparently they could "tell." Verbatim, they said that, "the other woman just had that vibe to her."

...Okay.

A couple of days later, Dispatch obtained another photo, this one being of Kaleina and the choreographer boarding a private flight to Los Angeles. Allegedly, it was for a solo schedule that Kaleina was meant to attend, but oddly enough, she was going with Female A. Seeing as she was a choreographer (apparently), this made sense from a work standpoint, but as always, netizens spun it to mean something else entirely, especially since Female A and Kaleina were literally both seen together just a few days prior. The same source as before was also the one to feed this information to Dispatch, and they'd allegedly obtained Kaleina's flight information by paying airport employees. Unfortunately.

Another couple of days later, though, the initial article was updated. This time, with another batch of leaked photos. And these ones were something else.

All the photos that were leaked. The worst part? They were taken from Kaleina's iCloud, which was reportedly hacked by the leaker in question. The fact that these were the only nine they released means that they were searching, and only God knows if they could've released more. The photos (one of which—second in the middle row—was taken by Aeri and sent to Kaleina) were grainy and looked edited to hell for some reason, and no one really knew if the other woman was who they were thinking, but some eagle-eyed GGBs were certain it was.

Just a few hours later, more photos were released. At the rate that all this was happening, make no mistake that this was the story of the week. Stans were up and down Twitter wondering what was going to happen next. One half was happy for Kaleina and wanted the breaches of her privacy to stop already, the other half wanted her head on a pike.

The photos that were leaked were more Instagram stories, one from Kaleina that was accidentally uploaded to her official Instagram account, rather than a separate account (which was another private account speculated to possibly belong to her girlfriend). The other was from Sienna Yoon's official account, dating back to early 2019.

Wait... Sienna Yoon?

Apparently, Female A's identity had been revealed.

Now, the first photo apparently dated back to late 2020, which is when a lot of people think Kaleina and Sienna began dating... and the photo definitely reinforces their suspicions. The second photo, as mentioned before, dated all the way back to early 2019. Mind you, Kaleina wasn't even publicly out yet, and at the time, she and Sienna were widely known to be close friends.

However, GGBs also knew that they tended to act closer than "close friends" should.

They would be together almost all the time, with the other members of KRUSH even outwardly joking that outside of practice, they spent the most time together. Even during practice, Sienna would heap the most attention onto Kaleina, and they would get oddly touchy with each other, even while on camera. One major thing is that Sienna would frequently call Kaleina "baby girl," which... is something Sienna herself admitted that she just does. A lot of GGBs simply chalked it up to them being really close or labeled it as something south of fanservice, but within BigHit, everyone could tell. There was tension. And if you were a GGB and particularly observant (or just insane), you could tell, too.

Following these leaks and sometime in March, Kaleina sent a series of texts to her bandmate and famed best friend, Aeri Yamamoto. In them, she expressed her (understandable) frustration towards the situation, and ended the conversation by saying that if the texts were also leaked, she wouldn't be surprised.

Surprise, surprise. The texts were leaked, revealed by none other than Koreaboo. Shortly afterwards, Kaleina was seen with a new phone outside of M Countdown, as KRUSH had just made their comeback with their fourth full album, Heartbreak's Daughter. She was serious.

Now, GGBs were calling for the leaks to stop. They were trending #LeaveKaleinaAlone and #BigHitDoSomething practically non-stop for weeks. Others were calling her a crybaby and "someone who wasn't fit for fame," and even Aeri was getting dragged into it. But even with that, Kaleina's "dating scandal" was still the one thing on everyone's minds.

By now, Sienna's name was 100% attached to the so-called "scandal." However, could anyone really verify for sure that Kaleina's girlfriend was actually her? The aforementioned Instagram story was posted two years prior, and it looked like exactly what it was: a friendly outing. Maybe Sienna and Kaleina really were just friends, and the unknown girl was someone else entirely.

But you know what would change everyone's minds?

That infamous Twitter thread.

In the thread, the user @/leinanator (who, at the time, was one of Kaleina's biggest fan accounts), known commonly as Carlie, starts off by pointing out a lot of things that GGBs were already aware of. However, she then began going into things that no one even noticed, which really sealed the deal for a lot of people. For one, back in October 2020, Sienna was seen wearing Kaleina's bisexual flag bracelet that she made in July 2019 in a choreography video posted by YGX. That was definitely interesting, considering that Kaleina never let anyone wear the bracelet, not even her own bandmates.

Other pieces of evidence from around this time period included the multiple instances where they were at the same place at around the same time, Kaleina's posts showing her at the YGX dance studio, and even a few instances where Sienna would talk about Kaleina in ways that friends would not talk about their friends.

Carlie would go on to point out some of Kaleina's lyrics, dating all the way back to September-October 2020 to as recently as January 2021, when Cobra was released. During a live in September 2020, she shared a page of her notebook, where she wrote an unfinished song about an anonymous girl, describing their first meeting. In the live, Kaleina said it was a song she wrote "on a whim," and that it could "possibly be a love song." A lot of lyrics penned by her in some of KRUSH's B-sides point to Kaleina's attraction to women, with clear, often repeated details across nearly every song.

Immediately after being posted, this thread went viral. Within the first hour, GGBs were all over it, with many posting other supposed connections and others claiming that the thread was posted in bad faith. Which... was it? Well...

Apparently, Carlie was so big that she actually kind of knew Kaleina herself. She was very vocal about knowing of Kaleina since her Produce days and attending nearly every KRUSH-related schedule since their debut, and supposedly, Kaleina actually followed her shortly after the account launched all the way back in January 2016. They were nowhere near close friends, but they were at least familiar with each other, and had been for five years at that point. Which makes that thread just a little worse.

At least Carlie didn't air out any more personal information.

But it would only get even worse from here.

A month went by with nothing but pure speculation going on and a few Koreaboo articles here and there, and throughout all of it, Kaleina was still actively promoting with KRUSH, looking as unbothered as ever in public. In May, however, Deuxmoi of all websites suddenly got involved.

On May 6th, just two days after Kaleina's 21st birthday, a blind item was sent to Deuxmoi claiming that Kaleina was definitely, 100%, no speculation needed dating Sienna. However, what proof they did have weren't surface level connections. Apparently, they knew what was going on behind the scenes. They knew Kaleina and Sienna personally.

"I've known Kaleina Jung personally for a while, and everything you guys are saying about her relationship with Sienna Yoon is true. They've been dating for nearly a year now, and they've been close since early 2018, around January at least, and a month later, that was the first public mention of Sienna as KRUSH's choreographer. I prefer not to share them here, but I do have Twitter DMs between Kaleina and I discussing her relationship with Sienna dating as far back as March 2018 and as recently as late 2020. I've also spoken to Sienna before, and she's not exactly subtle regarding her feelings towards Kaleina. They're definitely dating."

'Til this day, GGBs are still trying to figure out who was the one behind the Deuxmoi blind item. However, their prime suspect has been Carlie for years. Although nearly two months passed in between her original thread and the blind item, the fact that the anon behind the latter was (allegedly) as close to Kaleina as Carlie was... it's definitely interesting.

Right after Deuxmoi posted, Carlie tweeted that Kaleina had supposedly unfollowed her. Since then, GGBs were quick to turn against her, unfollowing her en masse and bombarding her with hate. As June began, @/leinanator disappeared. Carlie had deactivated.

The aforementioned Carlie tweet. Although no one in the fandom will truly know who was behind that blind item, Carlie's reputation's as one of Kaleina's first and biggest fan accounts has forever been tainted.

Once Deuxmoi presented this as fact, it was basically over. The hatred for Kaleina reached its peak, with antis calling for her removal, shouting the most vile things known to man at her, boycotting KRUSH, and flooding her comments with hate all over again. Twitter's searches ranged from "Kaleina leave" to "Kaleina bad leader," and it even got to the point where antis were accusing her of prioritizing her relationship over her group... again.

In June, Kaleina disabled her Instagram comments. For the next six months, it was nothing but complete radio silence.

Sienna has been mentioned at least a thousand times so far, but who is she? Well, if you're an idol or at least a well-versed K-pop fan, there's a good chance that you know who she is.

Sienna Yoon (also known as Yoon Seo-yeon) was born on March 4th, 1996 in Seoul, South Korea. Although born in Korea, she was raised in San Antonio and New York City. As a child, she was placed in dance lessons by her parents in order for her to find some sort of hobby. When she entered middle school, Sienna became interested in K-pop, getting into groups such as Baby V.O.X and Wonder Girls. In 2009, she moved back to Korea with her mother, looking to join a training academy. A few months after she did, though, she was scouted by JYP Entertainment.

Sienna trained at JYP for a year and was placed into Miss A's lineup due to her dance skills. What's insane is that she actually ended up debuting with the group, but shortly after the release of "Good-bye Baby," Sienna went on hiatus due to an injury. That hiatus soon turned into her permanently leaving Miss A, and she would pretty much disappear for the rest of 2011. However, in 2012, it was revealed that she had joined CSJ Entertainment's subsidiary, Verse Creative, and was preparing for her re-debut in another girl group.

In May 2012, Sienna debuted again in the 5-member group Queen. The group's debut single, "Dancing Queen," (off of their debut EP of the same name) did well in Korea, replacing their labelmate DI-VERSE's recent single at number one on the charts for a few weeks. For a few years, Queen was almost comparable to DI-VERSE in popularity and were viewed as the former's "big sisters," (despite being their juniors) and as the group's main dancer (plus she was a former Miss A member), Sienna was among the most popular members.

However, as DI-VERSE began to vastly eclipse Queen in popularity, the group was gradually forgotten by the public. Their second to last comeback, released in late 2014, was their worst performing release. In 2015, it was announced by Verse Creative that Queen would be disbanding after releasing their final album in 2015. In April 2015, they officially disbanded. Ironically, their last release was one of their most successful.

Now, what happened to Sienna, you ask? Well, in 2016, she interestingly re-signed to JYP Entertainment. She kickstarted her highly anticipated solo debut with the single "Like that," off of her debut album, SEOYEON.

Sienna's debut did immensely well, selling over 16,000 copies within its first week and topping every chart in Korea. For the next two years, she would have pretty consistent comebacks, would start acting, and she even became somewhat of an influencer with the launch of her personal YouTube channel, SiSiSeo. However, in early 2018, it was announced that Sienna had terminated her contract with JYP and had effectively retired from music, preferring to focus on her career as a dancer. Sienna became one of the first talents signed to YGX, and she soon established her own dance team, KillaQueen. Over the next six years, Sienna became a renowned choreographer, working with artists such as Itzy, BLACKPINK, Somi, Aespa, Sunmi, NewJeans, her former labelmates DI-VERSE... and of course, KRUSH.

More recently, Sienna has choreographed dances for Katseye, BABYMONSTER, and MEOVV. In February 2023, she became one of The Black Label's creative directors, and was appointed as one of the creative directors for MEOVV in 2024.

Eventually, YGX folded in 2024, but with such a stacked roster and her years of experience, Sienna remained under The Black Label and dedicated most of her time to her dance group, and she established her own dance studio, Killa Studios. In 2023, she and KillaQueen competed on Street Woman Fighter 2, ending up in third place by the end of the show. Everyone already knew Sienna before, but everyone really knew her now.

And all of this made her dating "scandal" with Kaleina even crazier.

Throughout all of this, Kaleina is still promoting with KRUSH. She refuses to go on hiatus, but it's kind of clear that she doesn't want to interact with a lot of GGBs right now. During award show season, she's clearly fidgety and uncomfortable, a clear contrast in comparison to 2019 and prior. On stage, though, she's as "Kaleina" as ever. She gives some of her best performances of the year, but that's because that's her job. She kind of has to perform well.

Netizens are petitioning for Kaleina and even KRUSH as a whole to be blacklisted if she isn't removed from the group. They're sending letter after letter to broadcast stations, and reportedly (according to Dispatch), said stations are emailing BigHit and asking them to place Kaleina on hiatus until the entire thing blows over. Obviously, their suggestions go unheeded, and Kaleina remains with KRUSH for the rest of the year.

You're probably wondering: where was Sienna in all of this? Well, after getting dragged through the mud herself, she stopped posting earlier in the year, shortly after the situation escalated. She disabled her own Instagram comments, which was seen as some sort of "admission," but everyone already kind of... knew, and I would disable my comments too if I had a bunch of homophobes and freaks harassing me and my girlfriend and constantly trying to pry into our private lives.

However, in November, Sienna would finally break her silence in her first post in seven months. A rather lengthy statement, it read:

"Hi, everyone. Long time no see, right? First off, I want to apologize for being gone for so long. As you all probably know, it's been a tumultuous last couple of months. Although I would like to go into detail about how all of this has affected me, the purpose of this letter to you all is not to highlight me. Over the last few months, I've seen many of you wonder where I've been and why I haven't been publicly defending Kaleina. For one (and I have gotten permission to say this), she had advised me not to come out and say anything, as she feared that the harassment she'd been receiving would be directed at me. Recently, though, since she's turned off her comments and has been limiting her time online, she's allowed me to speak for her in a way. As of now, Kaleina is okay for the most part. She's been focusing mostly on promoting with the rest of KRUSH, since the girls are currently on tour, as many of you might know. However, her anxiety has also worsened since this year began, and it's become harder and harder for her to complete performances. Clearly, this is because of the relentless malice that's been directed at her over the last two years. To whoever's been participating in the hate train leveled against her, I kindly ask you to stop. Calling for her removal from KRUSH and harassing her because she is trying to be her authentic self gets you nowhere. It will not get you a better job, nor will it make you feel like a better person. Like her family, her members, and the staff at BigHit, I've seen the toll this has taken on Kaleina. It's not cute, so please, cut it out. As for me, I'm fine. I won't go into detail on my mental state since I'm clearly not the one in the public eye in comparison to Kaleina, but what I will say is that this situation has made me significantly unhappier and much more stressed out. It has also affected Kaleina and I's friendship in ways that are distressing to the both of us. I wish that I could wake up tomorrow and all of this will be over, but unfortunately, nothing's ever that easy. I want to end this very, very long letter by saying that I love you, my aegi-deul, so much. Even though I wont be posting as often for a multitude of reasons, that doesn't mean I suddenly hate any of you. Like the past few months, I just need to take a bit more time away. Plus, you can still find me on YGX's channel, so don't worry too much. This has gotten incredibly long, so I'll end it here. Like I said, I love you so much, and once again, please find it in your heart to give Kaleina some grace and leave her be. It'll be better for all of us. And to Kaleina, even though I can call you and say this, just know that I will always be here for you. Goodbye for now. - S <3"

Notably, Sienna's comments were no longer disabled, but limited, and back then, a lot of people were wondering what made her "change her mind." But that's not what's important right now. In response to Sienna's statement, GGBs got "#ThankYouSienna" to the top of the trending page, along with "#WeLoveYouKaleina." In a staggering display of love that Kaleina hadn't felt since 2019, the latter would trend practically nonstop for the next few months, and it really did look like things were actually starting to simmer down this time.

So 2021 drew to a close, and in came 2022. At the start of January, Kaleina suddenly re-enabled her comments, although like Sienna, not just anyone was allowed to camp under her Instagram. But, some progress was better than no progress.

And then, it happened.

On January 12th, 2022, BigHit released the statement that shook the industry to its core. In the big year of 2022, saying that something like this was "unprecedented" was honestly sad, but it really was. This was truly a first.

"Hello, this is BigHit Music. After careful deliberation and extensive communication with our artist, Kaleina, she has allowed us to publicly confirm her relationship with Sienna Yoon. After getting to know each other after the last few years, Kaleina and Ms. Yoon have been seeing each other romantically for a while now. We will not disclose much else on our artist's personal life, and we kindly ask you to not try and find out yourselves. Any breaches of privacy will be considered criminal, and you will be prosecuted as such. We, BigHit Music, and Kaleina sincerely ask you for your utmost respect, kindness, and understanding going forward. Thank you."

Needless to say, the reactions to this were insane. Tweet after tweet, news article after news article... this was at the forefront of every K-pop stan's mind for weeks. It had taken over Twitter timelines like the bubonic plague. But, surprisingly, unlike 2019, reactions were a lot more... tame.

Now, people were praising Kaleina and Sienna for being so open about their relationship, lauding Kaleina's choice to go public. One of the industry's biggest stars acknowledging her relationship? Crazy. Said star acknowledging her same sex relationship? Batshit.

A week later, Kaleina would take to Weverse with a statement of her own. For the first time in nearly a year, she had broken her silence. It was cause for celebration.

"Hello everyone. Kaleina here. I know, I've been sort of 'gone' for a long time. I apologize for that. It's been one terrible year, but I don't need to tell you all that for you to know. Anyways, a week ago, my company announced my relationship with Seoyeon. I've seen the reactions, and I thank God that most of them have been positive. I'll admit, During the conversations with BigHit, I was terrified. There were multiple times where I almost backed out, mainly because of the reactions I witnessed following our Los Angeles concert three years ago. But then, I realized something. The reason I came out in 2019 was because I didn't want to have to hide. People like me have been told our entire lives that our identities are things to be ashamed of. That we 'don't have to make it a big deal.' But that's exactly why we have to make it a 'big deal,' especially since I'm an idol. I don't want to put on a mask or live in a lie simply because I'm a celebrity. I want to live my authentic self to the best of my ability. I came out back then because I didn't care what others thought of me. Why should I care now? Of course, some of the reactions I saw back then nearly scared me back into submission. There was a reason I went on my brief hiatus back during our promos for Test Drive, and there's a reason why I didn't bring it up as often afterwards. But, now, since I'm three years older, I'm choosing to focus on the people that support and appreciate me. My teammates, my friends, my family, and of course, my girlfriend. If you don't like me, that's fine. But all I ask is that you respect me. But if you can't do that either, then you don't have to force yourself to support my group. One thing's for certain, though. I won't leave KRUSH because a few of our so-called fans refuse to accept me for me. I won't desert the girls I've trained for years with, I won't pretend to be someone I'm not, and I won't break up with Seoyeon. There's no changing my mind. To the GGBs who have supported me nonstop for three years, I can't even begin to express how thankful I am. You have made me feel so loved, even on days where I felt like the entire world was against me. You fought for me when I couldn't fight for myself. You tried your hardest to shield me from the hate, and for that, I am eternally grateful. I love you all so, so much. To my teammates, my family, and my friends, thank you for standing by me. Thank you for validating my identity and constantly reassuring me that what I did wasn't a mistake. Thank you for being there when I needed you and being my shoulder to cry on when this leader couldn't take it anymore. Everyone goes through tough times, but you put your struggles aside to help me get through mine. I'm crying all over again just thinking about it. And finally, to Seoyeon. To my wonderful girlfriend who I love so dearly. These last few years with you have been some of my best, even though I cried more often than I would've liked. Even though all of this made us go through a pretty rough patch, you've stood by me every step of the way, and you were there when I wanted nothing more than to just disappear. You're the greatest girlfriend I could've ever asked for, and now, you're still here while I'm staring millions in the face and telling them that I don't care anymore. You've gotten me to this point. I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I can say it a million times, to be honest. This is getting very long and very corny, so I just want to say thank you again. You all's boundless love for me has gotten me through this mess. Don't worry, a happier, stronger Kaleina will be back soon. Happy new year, by the way. Once again, thank you and I love you. Bye for now. <3 (And, because I know you're curious, Seoyeon and I have been dating since August 2020. You all can calm down now.)"

Immediately following her statement, Kaleina took to Instagram, and surprisingly, with her comments turned back on. She would post what is probably the cutest picture ever to her story, but what was even cuter? Sienna would respond.

Sienna responded to Kaleina's story just four minutes later, pretty much softlaunching their relationship to the world. Eagle-eyed GGBs took to noticing that the picture Sienna took was from some sort of vacation, most likely the one that Kaleina mentioned a year prior. And if you looked even closer, their new profile pictures were from the same vacation.

In the days following this, antis were quick to "push back," still petitioning for Kaleina's removal from KRUSH and still saying she was prioritizing her relationship over her group. They even started protesting outside HYBE's building. However, these protests were quickly shut down, and the Twitter thinkpieces were either ignored, criticized to hell, or reported.

Antis would try to keep going, spamming hate all down Kaleina's Instagram comments and trending "#KaleinaYouBetrayedUs" for days on end. What they failed to realize is that it wasn't 2019 anymore, and with KRUSH's much larger fanbase, all of that mess was quickly drowned out by much more positive comments/trends. Even into February, "#KaleinaWeLoveYou" and "#KRUSH_Is_4" occupied the first two spots on the trending page, and her comment sections from her Twitter posts to her Instagram to her Weverse updates were spammed with red hearts. It all came to a head during a live where GGBs spammed "we love you Kaleina" and those same red hearts all down the chat. The sheer outpouring of love brought Kaleina to tears.

By February, BigHit kicked the lawsuits up a notch. The accounts that been organizing protests, camping under Kaleina's posts, or just being straight up homophobic on Twitter dot com were all hit with a lawsuit of their own, and within the next few days, they were all gone. If it wasn't clear that BigHit was serious, it was clear now. Eventually, the 3-year-long hate train finally slowed to a stop.

In July, right after the release of Juicy, Kaleina and Sienna were seen outside of Music Core holding hands. Surprisingly, the fans there were all for it, and one of them even asked them to kiss. They didn't do that (unfortunately), but it was a far cry from the mess that was 2021.

And as for those antis? Well, no one really hears from them anymore. Guess it's hard to hate on someone who refuses to respond.

So, where are we at now? Well, aside from Kaleina and Sienna's sudden breakup during the Bad News era and the former's very brief relationship with a certain someone (which is a whole other can of worms), they've never been better.

In 2023, right after they got back together, Kaleina began showing up on Sienna's YouTube channel a lot more often. That same year, she was a guest on Street Woman Fighter 2. By early 2024, Koreaboo reported that the two had bought an apartment together in Hannam, and were living with Sienna's two cats and Kaleina's dog, Kyung-ah. And just last month, they launched their very own YouTube channel together, SeoKyung. There, they look like the blissful, homey couple they've always wanted to be, rather than two celebrities that just finished going through hell. Needless to say, it was a welcome surprise for Sienna and Kaleina's fans alike.

Moral of the story? Well, being a hateful freak isn't cute. If you spend most of your time screaming and crying because someone else is living their life, you should probably go find a hobby.

I can't believe this still needs to be said (and I hope Sienna proposes).

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maeumi & me - ch 29 : outrageous conclusions

a/n : the wait is finally over y'all!! i'm so sorry ik it's been almost a year since i updated this sgtsbdkdks. make sure to go read the previous chapter(s) as a recap since it's been so long :3

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Jungwon hadn’t been home when you had gone over in the morning to see Maeumi. You were a little disappointed, because you’d been looking forward to your usual weekend routine – taking Maeumi to the dog park together and watching him play while you both sat and talked at one of the benches. But more than the disappointment, worry had started to eat its way up your stomach – was he okay? Why had he left so abruptly the other day? Why hadn’t he contacted you since? And then you saw Jay’s tweets, and you were both relieved and concerned. Relieved that whatever it was, he wasn’t as bad off as your wild imaginations had proclaimed, and concerned because he did still seem upset nevertheless.

Now you stand in front of his door, uncertain.

What exactly are you gonna say or do when you don’t even know what the problem is? You kind of just showed up here without much of a plan. Sure you could ask him, but you don’t wanna push if he’d rather not talk about it. And how will you even know if he just wants to be left alone? He’d probably be too polite to say so. Ah, whatever. You’re here already, you might as well try. You take a deep breath and ring the doorbell.

Jungwon’s eyes widen in surprise for just a second before quickly reverting to implacable indifference. “Did you leave something?” he asks in a stiff voice, looking back into the house as if to check, but not really checking. Huh. Very subtle why are you here. You’re not used to him being like this.

“Umm no, I came to see how you were doing?” you reply, slightly offended.

He looks past you at the lamppost outside. “I'm fine.”

“O. . . kay.” You stand there awkwardly, not really sure you should do this anymore. You study his face as he keeps his eyes fixedly on the spot behind you to avoid meeting yours. Maeumi comes out to greet you then and you scoop him up, eager to dispel the awkwardness. At least someone's happy to see me, you think. Then you remind yourself why you're here. Maybe he's just feeling grumpy because he's in a bad mood; you probably shouldn't take it personally.

You let Maeumi down after giving him a few scratches and clear your throat. “You don’t seem fine, Won,” you start again, reaching out and taking his hand. “I mean you left kind of abruptly the other day and you haven't responded to any of my calls or texts . . . Whatever it is, you know you can talk to me right?”

He clenches his jaw. God, you’re making this so much harder for him. It feels so painfully good to have his hand in yours. He wants to lace his fingers with yours but instead he pulls away – you can't keep doing this. “You don't have to do this anymore.”

“Do what?” you demand, trying not to think about how it stung to have him snatch his hand away from yours.

He finally looks you in the eye, a mix of resignation and determination in them. He knows that if he wants to get this over with as soon as possible he has to be firm and harsh, like ripping off a bandaid. There's no other way. He can't let this continue. He has to set clear boundaries. “Look, I don't know if you're doing it on purpose or if I have just horribly misunderstood everything and deluded myself into some fantasyworld and if it's the latter I apologise for all that I've said and done when I was under the impression that you liked me too. But if you did do it all on purpose out of some twisted sense of gratitude because you feel like you owe me or some shit or for fear that I wouldn't take as good care of Maeumi as I have been until now if you didn't reciprocate my feelings then rest assured that I am not that kind of a person. I will continue to take good care of him for your three years of university like I promised so please, you can stop pretending you like me.”

What . . . the actual fuck? You're so confused at first that it takes a few seconds for you to process what he just said. Your anger steadily rises as the words sink in. What exactly is he insinuating?

“Excuse me?” You glare at him, waiting for him to retract, say he was mistaken, anything, because you still can't quite wrap your head around all that you've just heard but he just returns your stare, unflinching. “Did you hit your head somewhere? Who fed you all this bullshit?”

“Bullshit? Fine, if that's what we're gonna call it. But you said it yourself so I don’t know what else to think,” he snaps, his icy stare still not leaving yours.

What the hell is he talking about? “Said what myself?”

“It doesn't matter.”

“Well I beg to dif–”

“I heard what you said to Heeseung the other day. That you don't like me. That you just feel bad because I’m sweet to you and take good care of Maeumi. That ring a bell?”

You go red in the face, partly from embarrassment - he heard that? - but mostly from rage. You most definitely did not say you felt bad for him although yes, you had said you didn't like him. But was it not obvious that you didn't mean it? Did the past few months mean nothing to him? You had almost kissed the night before for God's sake! And yet his immediate conclusion upon hearing it was what, that you had just faked it all for your own selfish gain? Shouldn't he have talked to you first before jumping to such outrageous conclusions?

You clench your teeth. “I lied to Heeseung.”

He blinks, his face going blank like he hadn't considered that. “What?” The determined look from earlier falters, replaced by a flicker of doubt.

“I said I lied,” you snap.

“And you expect me to believe that?”

“You know what Jungwon, I don't care what you choose to believe. Clearly coming here was a big mistake. But for what it's worth – not that it's any of your business listening in on us like that – yes I did lie then because maybe I just wasn't ready to admit the truth to him or to myself, you ever think about that? Maybe feelings are complicated, and maybe I was overwhelmed because I haven't ever felt so much for someone before, and maybe I needed some time to sit with it before going around proclaiming it to everyone. Of course, he ended up seeing right through me anyway but you know what? Now I'm not so sure it was a lie anymore. I can't believe that's what you thought of me after everything. I came here thinking that maybe you needed some help cheering up after seeing Jay's tweets but this has been very enlightening. Thank you, Yang Jungwon for this eye-opener.” With that, you whip around to leave. You're not quite sure what you're going to do about the Maeumi situation just yet but you'll figure that out later.

Jungwon stays frozen in his doorway for a few seconds watching your retreating back as the gears in his head turn. Well fuck this is BAD. Why did the possibility that you could have lied never cross his mind? I mean, all the signs did say you liked him too up until that point. God, you must think he's such an asshole and he can't even blame you.

“Y/n, wait!” He shuts the door behind him and runs after you.

You trudge on ahead without responding, still fuming.

“Y/n, please just hear me out!” Jungwon picks up his pace to catch up with you. He doesn't know what the hell he's going to say or how exactly he's going to fix this. All he knows is that he can't let you go like this.

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