#y’all i’m fucking going through it

[ranjxtul]

*sadly reads lesbian smut on ao3*

[bluesgras]

RAHHH THERES 1000 OF YOU WOOOO

i don’t even know what to say but thank you all so so so so so so much. that’s like at least 10 of you. that’s a lot man

ANYWAY DTIYS RULES OR WHATEVER

#bluesgras1k so i can see it, you can tag me if you’d like to as well!

uhh it can be anything vaguely similar or themed around the photo and SD leo? yeah i think that’s it. no deadline, though i guess if you want one, the end of november. other then that go wild tumblr

and thank you

[moldypoff]

I think I kinda gotta get this off of my chest without getting too deep into it (or else the voices will tell me to not get it out altogether).

I am struggling. Like a lot, like more than I realize anyone my age or anyone in general should struggle with. I think I’m desensitized to the really bad parts of it all (will not disclose those to anyone ever unless they’re a licensed professional) but today I think I’m gonna pump the breaks and say this shouldn’t be my normal. Nor should struggling daily be your normal either.

A big part in why I haven’t gotten help is because when I do it’s usually never the kind that actually helps. Shout-out to my at-school-therapist who’s tried their best to help me but can’t because they’re inexperienced and cannot give me help outside of what the district allows them to help with.

Anyways, in short I don’t want my mental issues to affect my academic performance and relationships anymore.

That’s never going to be as easy as it sounds, but I have goals to reach by the time I graduate and I need to have my shit together to get there. Which starts with tackling with my biggest hindrance to success, my unaddressed mental disabilities.

[emjee]

Staring at the wall trying not to think about how the last time I got laid was a one night stand with a queer guy that was somehow better than all of the sex in my 1.5 year previous relationship and that only happened because of Hinge but I will not re-download an app, re-downloading an app is the mind killer etc etc and besides they don’t even work anymore

[softestepilogue]

full offense but fandoms are unbearable because y’all are unlikable. y’all are so weird and i will die on that hill.

this is like the third time i’ve been in a fandom where a white male SIDE character is heavily favored by the fandom and they start jumping through hoops, and grabbing reasons out their asses, to prove why the main poc character is a terrible person. they will also ignore any wrongdoing of the side white male character.

it’s so fucking weird and exhausting.

[melodiousoblivionao3]

USWNT hiding comments with trans and pride flags on the KA post…

[isame-allen]

The child of the punished

[nashdoesstuff]

LITERALLY, sighz

i’m genuinely so fucking furious with op and anon. screw them both [sorry not sorry]

[c-nan]

if i stay over the weekend to help on a student film set, i won’t go back to my hometown which will upset my mom (and also cause me mental distress) but if i go home (mom happy, me happy(ish)) i’ll miss out on the opportunity to learn more about working on film sets (somethign i’ll have to do next semester for my own film) and i’ll reinforce in my brain that i’m not capable of doing literally anything and that i’m a fuckifn loser

[stealingyourbones]

Ok so here’s my list of videogames I’m going through rn:

Half-Life series

Batman Arkham

And now Zelda

All of which I know jack shit about the stories or spoilers. I’ve started Batman Arkham Asylum and I’m in the middle of Half Life 2 Episode 1. So far I’m having a blast

[caterpillarinacave]

Just took a nap but the entire time I was having this really vivid dream that was made up entirely of Matthew Fairchild struggling with a modern day waffle iron

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

[cyarskj1899]

Like most men, they need impaired states (physically, emotionally, mentally) to obtain what they want from women

like he’s a PREDATOR … purposefully targeting her under the influence add 70 more years to his sentence

And the people (MEN) still being apologists blaming it all on her. I hate ya! Kys immediately

[melvika]

(House daughter anon) Sevika's three drinks in by the time Mel and co. decide to roll in. She's feeling.......not better, but more sociable.The tightness in her chest's loosened up a bit. She's done this before. Gritting her teeth and making nice with people that she doesn't know, but knows that they're judging her.

She wants a cigar like no one's business, but she also knows that she can't just smoke freely in this woman's (nice ass) house. Not house, palace. She can't smoke in these people's palace.

(The balcony's free game to smoke on though. If she's desperate enough.)

Mel's entrance does not escape Sevika at all. It also doesn't escape her that Mel looks a little lit. Looks like she's not the only one here who's putting on a show for others' benefit. Well, free entertainment for her if the princess decided to act messy in front of her company because she can't handle her alcohol.

She continues to observe her and her entourage and.......damn, for such small girls, they sure can throw back the drinks. Well,the others are. Mel hasn't really drunk anything since she came in. A guy brought her a shot and while he was throwing back his, she quickly threw her shot over her shoulder and into a nearby plant. A true actress. No wonder she's Noxus' best mediator.

Eventually,it gets too much for Sevika and she makes her escape to the balcony to have her (much-needed) cigar. Unbeknownst to her, Mel's anxiety is increasing the more she talks to her party guests and she badly wants an out. And who should suggest she get some fresh air on the nearby balcony other than Elora (who noticed Sevika making a break for that same balcony).

(I'm picturing Mel's portrait gown looking something like - (https://64.media.tumblr.com/c9ad15b8fd65bbd11ee41715b11f543b/ca8cda02fe764b11-d1/s1280x1920/f717adffeb94802078ab74edbc9a2bdeaed79a39.jpg)

And her party dress being - (https://64.media.tumblr.com/32486de699ddfb1ec8dfc2b69852a708/eaed7d25b7587f12-0d/s640x960/5206578b5907f14339ac021156613fb1bc10d369.jpg) but in gold. With her figure..........this would eat so hard.)

(This is so long, Jesus.)

wait cause i love this 🤧💕 mel throwing the shot over her shoulder kshdksks i’d do the same thing if a man handed me a drink smh (i don’t even drink but still). you’re absolutely cooking with these though. mel doesn’t really wear blue so i’m imagining this in blood red, dark green, or white mhmm 🙂‍↕️

for the party dress i can definitely see it in gold but without the fishnets

[butteryunlikelylady]

it was never my life to live and he didn’t fall for the real me… he fell for an accessory and thought he could just change the label while things stayed the same

[starbuck]

Obligatory: i am still very delicate. be gentle with me.