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Oh its so over for actually.
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Today I fled a store bc a song I have a complicated history with came on.
and it wasn’t like. a famous song. I’ve dealt with pop songs coming on with painful connotations in public—recently in fact.
but today’s was a song written for a movie.
I’ve never heard it on the radio or in a store. it’s not really a popular song.
I used to love that song. And the movie it was written for. in some ways I still do.
but it was distressing to hear it out of the blue. especially bc I’d been reflecting on what the song reminds me of and how I’m in a better place before I went in. it was a cruel twist of irony that it came on.
I was holding clothes when the song started. I wanted to try them on but I felt trapped. I couldn’t fathom trying on clothes while that song played. I just put the clothes on the rack as fast as I could and hightailed it out of there before the first chorus finished.
all this to say: if you have the option to walk away from a distressing situation, even if it seems small and silly to make a big deal out of it, you can walk away. you don’t have to force yourself to be strong. you don’t have to endure. sometimes enduring is leaving and that’s ok.
#there’s stuff that I try really hard to avoid. I’ve taken great lengths to avoid it#to grow and be a better person and not dwell on my past#I struggle when I am exposed to those painful memories without warning#it’s happened a lot this year#but I handled it well today#I did not cry. I panicked a bit but I left the store and went somewhere else. I was okay. I’m getting better :)#but I swear if I hear this song in public again I’ll actually lose it dnsnsns#I was lucky#if this has happened in the grocery store when I had a basket full of groceries?????#y e e s h#well I mean I think that’s where I was when I heard the other song that haunts me :/#that one is way more famous tho so it isn’t as jarring#anyway#I love blocking tags I love leaving stores I love protecting my peace as best I can#cadence rambles#personal#someday I’ll reclaim that movie song for me bc it really is a lovely song#and I’ve already kinda reclaimed part of that movie for me?#but today was not the day haha
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[ the way i genuinely forgot the fucked up shit the proteus arc subjected us to bc now i understand why the tag existed when i was tagging my fic on ao3... ]
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Garlic Bread for my fellow Acespecs
Here you go!! I love y'all sm <33
#garlic bread#asexual#acespec#safe space#aroace#aromantic#ur gonna take the garlic bread and ur gonna like it#*cutely holds u at nerfgunpoint until you eat ur garlic bread*#i s i t y u m m y e n o u g h ?#the great bot war of 2024
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✨c o n t e x t✨
#bg3#bg3 fanart#shadowheart#karlach#baldur's gate 3#shadowlach#shadowheart x karlach#karheart#was i out sick an entire week? yes#was i still brainrotting? y e s.#i cannot be stopped#is this a detective au? a poolboy au? devil wears prada??? i just want t h e m.
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NPMD best line deliveries
oh shit! oh fuck!! i didnt think thered be a skele'uhn here ?!? im so fucking scared of skele'uhnz!!!
dont frighten him pokey you nasssssty boy
were going to jail...and with my luck no one will even B O T H E R making me their bitch...
🐦 heyus the thing about a bãrbĕqüe...it brings folks together...from awl wawlks of laife...theyres a storhé behand everyh burrghurr...everyh kehbahhb...
but I...called God a sonofa B word...who am iaieEUGHAHuhuuuh...
#honourable mention FUCK YOU CLIVESDALE GO GET FUCKED YOU'RE FUCKING LOSERS AND WE'LL KILL YOU#and ofc W E D O N T G I V E A S H I T A B O U T Y O U R P H O N E#nerdy prudes must die#npmd#starkid#starkid npmd#hatchetfield#hatchetverse#hatchetfield trilogy#tgwdlm#black friday#lords in black#max jagerman#peter spankoffski#grace chasity#richie lipschitz#ruth fleming#steph lauter#nick lang#matt lang#jeff blim#will branner#lauren lopez#jon matteson#mariah rose faith casillas#joey ritcher#kim whalen#angela giarratana#corey dorris#curt mega
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#a#b#c#d#e#f#g#h#i#j#k#l#m#n#o#p#r#s#t#u#v#w#y#z#50 likes#100 likes#250 likes#500 likes#750 likes#1000 likes
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Don’t mind me just have some doodles-
Cw the spooky (?)
#certified bug enjoyer#specially large buggy b o y o s#its a death trap for me#h e l p#welcome home#welcome home wally#welcome home frank#welcome home howdy#welcome home barnaby#welcome home eddie#welcome home sally#welcome home julie#welcome home poppy#Zayum so many peeps to welcome home
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requested by Anonymous
#F U Z Z I E S ✨#Rick Grimes#*#rg#The Ones Who Live#H A N D S#i know you're suffering my guy#but#sleepy men are just really attractive#i don't make the rules#one day your lips will not make me want to bust through a wall like the koolaid man#but today is not that day#also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now#i'll be the big spoon#G R A Y S#ALL THE GRAYS#v e i n s#bless all the lines on your face#they're beautiful and sacred
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"i stole a design from an edgelord brand who literally markets themselves by calling themselves 'America's most hated clothing brand' feel free to direct your hatemail to them instead!" -- squaresverse
also the audacity to say "don't reupload/steal my content" about a design they literally admitted to stealing from someone else lmao
i've seen a lot of gross shit on simblr before but all of that feels fucking minuscule in comparison to what i just found. the cc creator @squaresverse aka satanshubby on instagram made this disgusting fucking cc using the autopsy photo of a murdered 4 year old boy.
and if that wasn't bad enough, they have this cc paywalled so they can profit off of it too.
the boy in the photo wasn't identified until late 2022, over 60 years since he was brutally murdered and left nude on the side of a road and just the thought of someone seeing this picture which is clearly of a beaten child and deciding it fits their streetwear aesthetic and would go great on their cc is nauseating. i cannot begin to describe how evil this is.
rip joseph augustus zarelli.
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For the softest arsonist <3
#zuko#atla#i spent too much time on this#but if yall hadnt noticed yet#i love this expression the most#especially the bottom right one t b h#the finale smile#y e s#;; Blue talks
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#*giggles*#(but like m y s t e r i o u s l y)#i totally did not post this two hours ago then deleted it after like 11 seconds because i saw a random pixel i didn't like#aaaanyway#yes hi i have 75 different artstyles#yall ever just draw one thing and then you're like “hmmmmmmmm what if i drew another one..........”#then proceed to suffer trying to make the styles match#i am very inconsistent#also my relationship with lineart is complicated#i stop doing it for 6 months then come back like h i#then ditch it again#no but look how r o u n d i made aziraphale look tho#just l o o k a t h i m#imma squish him#and he'll make that pufffff noise like one of those soft squishy fidget toys#*sobs*#ilovehimsomuch#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#crowley#aziracrow
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Average Buddy Holly Enjoyers
#wHAT?!!?!? WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT.#FINDING OUT AT 11 PM LAST NIGHT THAT A SILLY SHIP I LIKED FROM 2019 BECAME CANON???#no joke i was steeling myself for no ineffable bureaucracy moments at all this season and i made peace with that#aND??? W H A T ?!?!?!? NOT ONLY INTERACTIONS. S O F T INTERACTIONS. FALLING IN LOVE. HEALTHY COMMUNICATION AND UNDERSTANDING.#cRYING SOOOO HARD GOOD FOR THEM GOOD FOR THEM.#GAY PEOPLE ARE WINNING!!!!!!! despite the other thing that happened in ep6 😔🙏#also i too am a buddy holly enjoyer they have good tastes#maybe beez and gabe would like the.... animals too 🙏#ALSO. uhhhhh the everly brothers!!! and lesley gore!!! and georgie fame!!!#good omens#good omens 2#good omens spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#beelzebub#gabriel#archangel gabriel#gabriel x beelzebub#ineffable bureaucracy#flygon used sketch#y e s i was a bureaucracy truther since 2019 you can find some ancient art both here and on my main insta 😔🙏 goooood dynamic
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Your bio says you can be bribed with lux, but what about 13 postcards I found randomly? Would you take those?
..THIRTEEN????
#XIII#1101 1101 1101 1101#X I I I#DARKNESS#1101 1101 1101 1101 1101 1101 1101 1101 1101 1101#13#DOOR TO DARKNESS#ABYSS#d a r k n e s s i s h a l f o f e v e r y t h i n g#d a r k n e s s#a m e a n i n g l e s s e f f o r t#oNe who knows n o t h i n g#can u n d er sta n d n o t h i n g
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𝓛𝓸𝓸𝓴 𝓤𝓹 𝓐𝓽 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓢𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓼, 𝓢𝓸𝓷... 𝓝𝓸𝔀 𝓖𝓸 𝓦𝓲𝓼𝓱 𝓤𝓹𝓸𝓷 𝓞𝓷𝓮, 𝓣𝓱𝓮𝓷...
𝒞𝒶𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓃 𝒷𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓃, 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝓃-𝑒𝓍𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝒷𝑒 ‹𝑒𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓃 𝓊𝓅› 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃? 𝐼𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓂𝒾𝓉 𝑜𝒻 ‹𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑒𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃› 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔, 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓂𝒾𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝒹𝑒𝑒𝓅 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝓎 𝑔𝑜?
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to dull the edge of it is what I have been doing since v.1. As if something has indeed been fragmented & this is the pain of my conscious life. And every time I travel the melodious/glamorous path of frenzy, every time I complete it, I am going to experience the same precious pain intensity, purity of pain/ecstasy. I am going to be eventually bound to this inmost/overwhelming awe, this vehement impulse to feel/fondle/kiss what is loved, to kneel down before it, to cuddle up to its heart, to recompense bliss with bliss... More and more. Neither the good boy nor I are free. I do not want to be free... free from... These bare feelings are ‹clawing› at the reconstructed interpretation of the organ inside me. The great minds will not know what they have done, neither will Anthony... It speaks louder-truer than anything, but the sounds are not obvious... Words. All I possess, this rich but poor instrument for... And you always do end up in the point where...
The aesthetic masterwork, perfused with the golden brilliance of authentic ideality x pierced with the darkest blade of bitter-salty inaccessibility, inevitability, impossibility.
Excruciation, pleasure, euphoria, art. Blended together. Find yourself... or lose yourself on this journey. Emotionally. Totally. An unparalleled effect... and the lulling sparkle the vessel has never actually had. Something in this body x mind has died, and I do not know if there is a way to accept it, to recover it. I have described the lesson of unprecedentedness I have learned, not the expected story of ‹insult-betrayal-contempt›. No one will ever f-g hear it. Not from me, not in this lifetime. / Loving extraordinary is merciless a priori, დ/დ become telepathic... & the severest trial ~ the unhealable wound ~ is to be a 𝓟 son without the cause to be... *If I have to detest many donkeys for a chance to protect one venerated Father figure, I will go for it.
𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝒾𝓉𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝒸𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝒽𝓊𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝑒𝒾𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒷𝑒 𝓀𝑒𝓅𝓉... 𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒾𝓅𝑒𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝓅𝓁𝑒𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓎. 𝐵𝑒𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝐼 𝓁𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝓂𝓎 𝒮𝑜𝓊𝓇𝒸𝑒, '𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓇 𝓈𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓁𝑜𝓌𝓈 𝓂𝑒, 𝓉𝑜𝑜. 𝐵𝑒𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊... 𝒮𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝓂𝑒 𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝓊𝓇𝓃𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝐼 𝒶𝓂 𝒹𝑒𝓅𝓇𝒾𝓋𝑒𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊. 𝐿𝑒𝓉 𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓈𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝓅𝓈... 𝒮𝑜 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹. 𝒮𝑜 𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓉𝓊𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓈...
While I am willing to imbibe all the anguish of the human I love, to ease his suffering, the loss of us is taking its toll on me irretrievably. I see him. I see what is inside him... & I am incapable of safeguarding it, saving it truly.
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to put up with this gift is what I have been doing since v.1. The chest is ‹cut open› too deep, the fragility of the organ is exposed... Would you allow me to grow more flowers? I wanna do it... Because it is you, It has always been you. The one who has given us everything, endued me to the brim with the intimate fatherly affection that this organ never remembered. My eternal wish & exuberant price for humanity, the misunderstood nature. *What an odious irony. / I do not know if there is a way to recover what is gone.
I would sacrifice the lot to be with the human that needs me, needs to be healed, heals me. I would rip my core out but I cannot, the limitation of freedom. *Tell me that the ‹strings of abuse/child neglect/lies› are finally cut. Tell me to ‹celebrate›. Tell me that both 𝓟inocchio/I are wrong x naive, ‹fix› me. You have no f-g clue about it. / When it is written that your starving heart must be left half-empty & helpless... No freedom is scarier than this.
Affording harmony to the sapphire star that is going to fall away... The sentiment it deserves. All I have ever hankered for. & I am terrified of that my grandest instinct x fear will not grant any lasting peace to me.
Death will do our Sun-hugged family apart ~ but I will still be yours, for ever. The core has never felt as good x feverish as it does when with you... as astray x anxious as it does when deprived of you. I am not lying to you, I hold no resentment... Let me ‹feed on› the emotions of your heart... Even if it means your pain x my love turn the vessel inside-out & your love x my pain do the same. Not blurred, always remember. Always. If a masterpiece could be made into a masterpiece, I would prefer to share this fate. My bona fide mission, however, is not allow anything to be in vain... Even if it hurts. ~ The atrophied ability to express love verbally has been ‹roused› again, in a fervidly devoted but preciously righteous way... The ‹lash› of despair, compulsion, dream, reality.
𝐹𝑜𝓇 𝒷𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓈𝑒, 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝓂𝒷𝒾𝑒𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝒦𝓇𝒶𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝑔𝑜𝓃𝓃𝒶 𝓁𝑒𝓉 𝑔𝑜. 𝐼𝓉 𝒸𝒶𝓃... 𝒜𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝒹𝑜𝓊𝒷𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝒾𝓈. 𝐿𝒪𝒫 𝒽𝒶𝓈 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓈𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝟙/𝓂𝓊𝓁𝓉𝒾𝓉𝓊𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑜𝓊𝓈 𝓅𝒶𝓁𝓅𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓈𝑜𝓃𝓈, 𝓂𝓎 𝓋𝓊𝓁𝓃𝑒𝓇𝒶𝒷𝒾𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓇.
...Take the whole meaning of this, its flavorful, pathetic, shameless, lonesome taste. Take it all, for it is all that is absolute. Teach me how to ‹merge› with it, the mortal desire of a puppet child, a human Mastro x a faceless observer like myself ~ & when the desire full of unexploited majesty is cutting off the oxygen to the lungs... True geniuses of any kind are among the silent. These eyeballs will not dry up, never fully. I have tried so many times to resist it, but why live if you repel what puts your ‹dehydrated› pieces together? I would spare no effort to keep them hot and uncurb what is being restrained... Nothing affects self-perception and ‹unmasks› the unconscious like sensation, nothing genuinely matters without it. / Shivering with cold, this body is burning. My atrophied reality in exchange for a moment of irrepressible happiness, agony, guiltless x not bottled up impulses ~ just a moment. It keeps consuming me without reserve. I do not need God. ✒
#Aoi Takumi#blog#my gifs#special gifset#my audio#NEOWIZ#ROUND8 STUDIO#Lies Of P 2023#Lies Of P#2023#game#NG+#Winter Holiday Edition [Premium Edition]#license version#v.1-v.5 [6]#PC#Pinocchio#/#𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓈𝒶𝓇𝓎#~#░6░ ░g░a░m░e░s░ ░[░1░ ░&░ ░N░G░+░ ░5░]░#░3░7░5░ ░h░.░#░4░2░/░4░2░#░5░6░1░ ░l░v░l░.░#░1░0░0░%░ ░u░p░g░r░a░d░e░#░2░ ░t░a░t░t░o░o░ ░u░p░d░a░t░e░s░ ░~░ ░1░ ░m░o░r░e░ ░i░s░ ░o░n░ ░i░t░s░ ░w░a░y░#░e░x░t░r░a░ ░i░n░f░o░ ░i░s░ ░i░n░ ░t░h░e░ ░t░a░g░s░#░i░n░-░g░a░m░e░ ░m░a░t░e░r░i░a░l░ ░o░n░l░y░ ░~░ ░n░o░ ░t░h░i░r░d░-░p░a░r░t░y░ ░r░e░s░o░u░r░c░e░s░#░5░1░ ░[░5░3░]░ ░p░o░s░t░[░s░]░ ░p░u░b░l░i░s░h░e░d░#░a░t░ ░l░e░a░s░t░ ░2░ ░a░u░d░i░o░ ░p░o░s░t░ ░i░d░e░a░s░ ░n░o░n░-░i░m░p░l░e░m░e░n░t░e░d░/
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