#wth was i doing in 2020

[blood-inthefields]

In honor of those Yennaia gems season 3 got us...

A little recap of the fanfictions I wrote for the pairing, in case you’re new to the fandom and looking for some light, totally normal reading.

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♠ All we are (is dust in the wind) ¬ It takes four days for Tissaia to find Yennefer after the battle of Sodden.

♠ Pynk (is where it all starts) ¬ In which hot-shot lawyer Tissaia de Vries unknowingly walks into a strip-club and finds herself hypnotized by one of the dancers there. Not how she’d planned her evening to go.

♠ Get naked (i got a plan) ¬ The phone rang, drawing her attention. With a sigh, she picked it up. “Phil, is that you?” Distorted by the line, a muffled voice answered her. “Johnny got clipped.” Tissaia’s hand balled into a fist. “You know what to do,” she replied curtly. The line went dead. She hung up, ran a hand through her hair. A bath would do her good. And then she would go find Yennefer. 

1920s AU.

♠ I’m your sinner (and your whore) ft. JZXR7 ¬ Due to circumstances entirely beyond Tissaia’s control (Yennefer. Due to Yennefer), she’s found herself trapped in her bedroom with a human whirlwind during a minor pandemic.

She has decided, in all her collected wisdom as Rectoress, that the girl has ten minutes to stop talking before Tissaia takes drastic measures.

♠ Want you, yes i do (bet you never knew it) ¬ The first time that Yennefer considers throwing Tissaia on a bed is in Rinde.

♠ I’ll be loving you (til the end of the night) ¬ Tissaia comes home after a hard day at work to find that her girlfriend has a couple of surprises in store.

♠ The one where Tissaia is a freestyle dance teacher ¬ “It’s Tissaia,” Triss told her, concern evident in her voice.

“What’s with her?”

Now closer to the window, Yennefer leaned forwards and watched as her former mentor, way down below, was shaking her arms and upper body in very strange ways. Had the woman finally lost it?

♠ I will let you down (i will make you hurt) ¬ She feels the blade against her throat before she’s even done with her sentence. Tissaia remains calm, despite the cold metal piercing the skin ever so lightly. Something warm runs down her pale skin and she knows it’s blood. Still, her eyes never leave Yennefer’s.

“Why,” Yennefer begins, almost shouting, as she stalks forward until she’s all up in Tissaia’s face. “Why did you let them send me to Nilfgaard?”

♠ My immoral ft. thinkbucket ¬ What’s up preps, I’m Yennefer Fireball Darkness Purple Mist Vengerberg and I’m a teacher at Aretuza.

or, a parody of legendary fanfiction My Immortal.

♠ Didn’t wanna believe it (but now you are all I see) ¬ It’s on their third date that everything goes to shit. In hindsight Tissaia should have known crushing hard on the whirlwind that is Yennefer would mean her life would be turned upside down. However, she had never imagined it would land her in jail.

♠ And now the surface ripples ¬ She’s been scouring the Continent, desperate for a cure for her barrenness when word reaches her.

Tissaia de Vries is dead.

♠ Find my place (in the warmth of your embrace) ¬ A look at some entries of Tissaia's diaries about her ever-evolving relationship with Yennefer.

♠ Stay a while (and be mine) ¬  Post Sodden Hill, Yennefer and Tissaia are back at Aretuza. One night changes their relationship forever.

♠ After hours ¬ Could the torture be any worse? Yennefer wondered. It was bad enough to have to spend entire days with Tissaia stuck in a classroom together with noisy, dirty children but being around her after the day was over and the children and other teachers had left was pure torture.

♠ Wanna kiss you (til I lose my breath) ¬ The woman is not just a powerful sorceress, she’s an absolute witch and Yennefer tries to hide but it feels pointless. One look from Tissaia and she becomes an open book.

♠ I will reach for you (when you’re feeling low) ¬ Set in 2.03 after Yennefer shows up at Aretuza and gives Tissaia a gay heart attack.

They know, they all know what Yennefer means to her, how long she’s spent trying to find her.

[gyuuberryy]

No fucking way, that bitch accused you too? WTH

https://www.tumblr.com/aifairy/767667992231280640/not-sure-but-this-fic-genuinely-seemed-odd-when-i?source=share

LMAOO I CACKLED WHEN I READ THAT POST THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME KNOW😂 They're using free AI checkers online and claim that they "can tell if a fic was AI generated or not". These may not really be professional credentials, but I am a computer science student(IB Higher level that too!!) AND planning to pursue it in uni, so I know enough about AI. Using AI for unethical work is..well unethical! Which is why I've never used it for writing fanfics, a purpose that doesn't really hold a lot of importance in people's lives??? AI generates the same ugly, repetitive response everytime so I wouldn't even think about resorting to it, and I don't see how Fatal Trouble shows that pattern.

@aifairy claims that chatgpt generated a similar response to my fic. first of all, the images they've attached are not the same as what I've written at all. it's talking about sunghoon giving a bite mark on the reader's neck and her thinking about the night it happened. HELLO HAVE YOU READ THE FIC? he hasn't bitten her even ONCE??? there was just a suggestive allusion to it in the end. And seriously? They're using AI checkers like ZeroGPT and GPTZero for this? Hilarious.

I can assure you I've never wasted my time by using AI to write my fics like I couldn't even think about it. Here are some things about me which will hopefully make my intentions of writing on this platform clearer:

I've been writing online since the age of 13(2020) I don't think most of the population knew about generative AI. I used to be on wattpad before tumblr and my writing has improved quite a bit since then. I joined Tumblr in 2022 and wrote a fic about the show Wednesday(again, generative AI was not trendy, where I live atleast)So what I'm trying to say is I've been writing A LONG time before language modeling AIs became trendy. I've never switched to them.

Writing and reading has been a passionate hobby of mine since I was very young. I've received several academic proficiency awards for high level subjects in english literature, english language as well other languages at school, my works have been published in my school magazines and literary competitions multiple times. I have absolutely no problem in coming up with good content and am able to execute it properly as well.

I dedicate a good amount of time every week to writing. I only stick to fanfics online, because they're more popular and in demand than writing stories with your own OCs from my experience. I want to work on writing actual stories but I'm still a school going student so I don't have enough time for that. And at the same time on tumblr I get to connect with people who share the same interest as me :)

So basically what I want to say is I do not use and have NEVER used AI to write fics, I have not used it for Fatal Trouble or any other fics from my master list. I'm literally putting out fics I've worked hard on for FREE on this platform so others from the same fantom can enjoy it as well. Be respectful about it and stop being discouraging. DON'T LIKE IT DON'T READ IT. Writing on this account helps me improve my skills and get feedback. I don't care about what someone random online accuses me of, because ik that irl, my family, teachers and friends are aware about my skills and support me and I'm doing well in them as well :)) so I'm not going to be discouraged and stop writing<33

[blsshd]

your favorite girl group originally had five members, but nobody knew until now.

by [DELETED USER], 2023

apparently sm didn’t scrub the internet hard enough because i found some pictures of ot5 aespa ?? does anyone know how there was a fifth girl in the lineup and why she didn’t debut with them ??

[DELETED USER]: that’s wang chen ai aka chennai, she was an sm rookie! there’s a few pictures with her and ning i think.

[DELETED USER] replied: she’s so pretty, why didn’t she debut with aespa?

[DELETED USER] replied: didn’t some of the rookies leave because they didn’t fit the concept?

[DELETED USER] replied: she’s gorgeous, there’s no way sm would just let her leave smh

[DELETED USER]: i heard she was deliberately cut from the lineup for vaguely weird reasons and that she almost left with all the trainees that left in droves suddenly in like 2020

[DELETED USER] replied: wth what happened?

[DELETED USER] replied: no one rlly knows LMFAO idk where they all went but i do know some of the girls debuted in other spaces! but the fact that chennai stayed is crazy girl they don’t like you girl get out..

[DELETED USER] replied: iirc coella from velvetine was an sm trainee at the same time chennai was and she left pretty abruptly in 2020 too….

[DELETED USER] replied: yeah it was a whole thing glad she got out tbh

[DELETED USER] replied: sm got to have worst dirt on chennai than coella cause she’s lwk a weirdo but you didn’t hear that from me

[DELETED USER]: so where is chennai now?

[DELETED USER] replied: in the sm dungeon with red velvet and hopes of a full snsd reunion

[DELETED USER] replied: i hope all your chargers break in the charging port just for saying that you sick fucking individual.

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mentioned : @poemadeangels <3

[tellars]

this is a post of old ass art

this one is from 2020ish i don't really like it bc of anatomy reasons (wth are those feet hello) but i kinda like the vibes still. i should probably redraw it

next two are from 2020 too and the third one is from 2019 (?). anita and taursa were just to practice drawing on one layer and don here was one of his last redesigns

this one is from 2022 and it's the first ms sketch on my ipad : )

and this is from 2023. i was trying to remember how to draw my ocs after a flop of a project i was trying to do and dropped at the time

[juliapark13]

jungkook himself admitted in their early debut years that the hyung he feels most comfortable talking to is jimin. jikook have always been close on an emotional, deeper level than taekook ever were. and taekook were close at their early years; closer than they were in 2016-2020.

tkkrs say that jikook started doing fan service in what? 2015? 2016? when they (not) so 'suddenly' became closer and jk stopped pushing jimin away in front of cameras? ok then explain to me why jk has been sneaking into jimin's bed at night prior to 2015, even when him and taehyung were supposedly closer? why did jk go to jimin for comfort or when he needed a shoulder to cry on, or a listening ear to talk to, when tae was right there and they were supposedly the bestest friends at the time? or was teenager kook a liar doing fanservice at that time too?

i'll give you a hint, tae and jk are not on the same emotional wavelength. their friendship is superficial, they have fun playing together, hanging out with friends together. similar to jinkook i would say, minus the age gap. but when they (in this case, jungkook) need to really talk to someone, or just bask in the comfort of someone's proximity, they go to jimin. both of them.

jungkook used to sneak into jimin's bed as a teenager, he found the most comfort from talking to jimin. he feels the most connected to jimin on stage (his words from 2020 interview) and he still sneaks into jimin's room (2021 vmk vlive) past midnight and multiple times a day just sitting there doing nothing. it's almost like *gasp* he feels comforted by having jimin in his proximity!

almost every weverse live he did this year he looked... lonely. like he had a lot on his mind and didn't have someone to talk to. (if you're an empath that was easy for you to see) but tae was available, they went out all the time (with friends) and yet... jungkook came back home feeling empty, having a lot on his mind, and can only be comforted by army's presence (he said this himself i'm not making shit up). he spent 3 hours live wth armys on white day, and even cried at the end, but tae was in korea at the time. his mood was sour on the premiere day live, he spent over 15 minutes in silence, he didn't wanna look at the comments, he even got pissed at the aurora lights and turned them off; even though he was with tae a few hours prior. why couldn't he just talk to tae about whatever it is that was bothering him? how are armys, that he can only communicate with through a screen, gonna offer him more comfort than his supposed best friend (or boyfriend, according to tkkrs)?

i don't think i have to tell you whose comfort he actually needed at the time but that person—coincidentally—wasn't in korea on both occasions.

jk looked much brighter in his last live though, he looked happy, healthy, eating good, working out (again, his words), he even had his lights on! both the regular ones and the aurora lights! which is a rare sight to see. he did this live a day after his comfort person left korea, so as usual he came to hangout out with his second best. army. it's crazy what having an emotional connection with someone can do to your mental health.

FACTS

Thank you.

But I think Jungkook and Jin are emotionally closer than tk.

Jungkook and Jimin have unmatched emotional connection. ♡

[enmi-land]

Hi dia bb how are you doing I hope you're okay after what happened with your blog. I'm glad that you managed to get somethings back but still it's sad🥹💓.Idk if this is the right time but remember when i told you I was thinking of doing a song for Milana and NI-KI well I made the POSTERS not the song because the website for ai covers I was using is not free any more and I'm broke so I'm not able to buy a membership so yeah TT butt I hope this cheers You up a bit hehe😗💓

here it is

-I tried to go for a cyberpunk y2k theme something(?) and I actually like how they turned out i hope you like them as well

++++Idk if you are able to tell but behind the pictures I wrote their surnames(you can't actually see it 😭😭)and i noticed that the copyright thing is actually 2020 so I'm sorry but i just went to the be:lift official website and i copied this

-but Yeah i decided to do BTBT by B.I feat Devita

love you dia and I hope everything gets sorted out

-Mina💌

AHHHHHH THE WAY I SCREECHED WHEN I SAW THIS 🫨🫨🫨🫨 THESE ARE SAURRRR GOOD MINA WTH?? YOU JUST POPPED OFF WITH THESE GRAPHICS AND CALLED IT A DAY HUH??? 🥵🥵🥵🥵 I LUV YOU SAUR MUCH AND THESE EDITS LIKE MY GOSH 🤤🤤🤤 you’re so talented 🥹🤧🩷🩷🩷 i think i can make out the letters in the background so i get what you’re talking about!! but ahhh these designs are so pretty and nice to look at i’m in awe and shock 😭😭😭😭 i was lowkey feeling like discontinuing this fic not too long ago but seeing this just rekindled my love for it in a second and washed away all my doubts, like you have no idea how grateful i am that you sent this in when you did i’m so happy rn 🤧🤧🤧🩷🩷🩷 THANK YOU THANK YOU AND LOVE YOU SM 💖💖💖💖

EDIT: OMG I ALMOST FORGOT!! if you’re looking for somewhere free and quick to make your ai covers I actually have a recommendation!! you can install it for free on your computer and it’s actually so quick and easy to use once you have it!! the link to the tutorial i used to download it is here !! and the tutorial to use it to make ai covers is here !! I use it personally (because I’m also broke) and I haven’t run into any problems with it, so hopefully this helps you out!! 🩷🩷🩷

[tojiscrack]

HAPPY NEW YEAR SUMAYAAAAA

i've made my return to your inbox once more

'never sending asks to entitled mfs ever again 🫨'

dude yeah. anytime i send an ask to someone ab like nonrequest stuff, and they dont respond, i never send an ask again 💀💀💀💀

'bUT I’M NOT UNCULTURED I SWEAR 😭'

right... enjoy your beans and toast....

'i’m literally gonna hijack a plane going to canada, i swear 😕'

LMAOOO I SUPPORT IT

'i was younger, and now i’m older, but i mean irl. like yuji’s birth year (alongside his friends) is around 2002-2003.'

OHHHHHH OKAY THAT MAKES MORE SENSE! i was scared u were like 13 or something.............

i was also born a few years after yuji but considering that we're in the same grade equivalent that makes sense LMAO

'i’m literally gonna go out into society as an emo one day just for the feels 😭'

I WANT TO DO THIS SO BAD BUT NO ONE WANTS TO DO IT WITH MEEEE

'WHAT OTHER ABNORMAL CREATURE IN JJK HAS FOUR ARMS? HE’S SO GREEDY, LIKE WTH DO YOU NEED TWO OF EVERYTHING FOR? 🤨👎🏽'

LMAOOO JESUS CHRIST....

one of my friends is a huge sukuna fucker and everytime i send her an edit of him she goes feral- it's hilarious

'oh i’ve got smth all right 😭'

i'm so excited

'i still can’t get this one scene out of my head and i’m not even gonna tell you what it is ‘cause you probably wouldn’t know it'

unfortunately i think i know what ur referencing.... just cause i didnt finish the movie doesn't mean i dont know what happens in it....

'wait i’m not aware of how the us gpa system works. isn’t 91 still good???'

okay so. let me explain this. my school is weird bc we're a private college prep school so pretty much every other school uses a 4.0 scale and we use a percent scale but you can very easily have a 91 gpa while having 2 c's. it's rlly weird but it's true. and unfortunately that is my scenario.

'why would she touch a homeless-looking-m*le like you? the standard he had of himself is way too high 😀'

LMAO THATS CRAZYYYY

'STOP I LOVE INSTANT NOODLES 😟 I LITERALLY BOUGHT TWO LARGE PACKS OF THE BULDAK HABANERO LIME RAMEN ONES RIGHT AFTER THE M*N INCIDENT'

OMG THATS MY FAV BULDAK FLAVOR! I GET IT EVERYTIME I GO TO HMART W MY FRIENDS!

'lmk what you get for ur secret santa tho 😋'

I GOT 12 PACKETS OF SHIN RAMEN 💪💪💪💪💪

'no bc figurines shouldn’t be that expensive'

EXACTLY BRUH

'my catoru gojo plushie was like £15, and it’s not even that big so?? 😭'

inflation these days, man. i rmbr i bought my haikyuu plushies in 2020 (the oikawa one and a kuroo one) and they were so much cheaper than they are now.....

'they need to bring all these prices down bc rich ppl don’t even enjoy the same shit broke ppl do 🤨'

YEAH BRUHHH

now time for my life update!

within the first 30 minutes of 2025, i spent it reading through my old texts w my old situationship

and ive come to realize that when he breaks up with his gf, i will be first in line

AND ITS SAD

bc yes he treated me rlly well during our situationship BUT HE WAS ALSO TALKING TO HIS EX GF DURING OUR SITUATIONSHIP

but lowk i think he was just looking for whoever showed him interest first and i never blatantly told him i liked him (we would be dating by now if i had bruh)

BUT WHATEVERRRRR

how is your new years so far queen

i'm realizing how long my asks are LMAOOO

OH IM JUST NOW READING THE HASHTAGS!

'how did you come up with it?'

literally its the least deep username ever LMAO

i needed a username for ao3 bc my old one was too long and i planned on publishing so i was trying to think of somthing and i think i was drinking soup at the time so i wanted it to be soups but that was taken so it became seoups!

I ALSO LOVE GIFTS! thats why i have big birthday parties LMAOOO

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR ML 🫶🏽🫨

i love seeing you in my inbox, it’s soo 😋💞

and you’re just like me. now that ik tumblr does indeed have that feature, i’m not sending another ask to these celebrities 🤨

‘right… enjoy your beans on toast…’ — okay first and foremost, DON’T KNOCK IT TILL YOU TRY IT 😭 one thing about white english ppl is that their full english breakfast is so good 😔 they genuinely ate when making that

but i love cultural food ofc 😫 like asian spices over anything tyvm 😋 it has to be enough to keep me on the toilet at 3am regretting my life choices but knowing i’d do it again

‘i was scared you were like 13 or something…’ — omg no 😟 we’re the same age 😋 i turned 18 in october 🤧 i wanna be 17 forever, sigh

‘I WANT TO DO THIS SO BAD BUT NO ONE WANTS TO DO IT WITH MEEE’ — just do it on ur own atp 🥴 i changed my makeup style slightly so it’s more of a darker look. taking it step by step before i randomly turn into an emo and go into the streets of london, waiting to be hate crimed 💀

also ur friend being a sukuna truther is just pure betrayal by association 😀 i’m literally that (and worse) for gojo 🤞🏽😔

and the american education system will never not confuse me, and i feel like that has to be a trigger warning for LL, ‘cause i’m gonna have to mention their major exams at several points in the story 😭 just expect a note at the top going ‘yeah i’m still so lost with the US grading system, don’t expect accuracy, enjoy!’

‘OMG THAT’S MY FAV BULDAK FLAVOUR’ — literally same. i’ve seen so many ppl say it tastes like soap and i’m just so lost? like the lime flavour is so nice 😫 i pair it with cold cucumbers and it’s so refreshing

‘I GOT 12 PACKETS OF SHIN RAMEN’ — WOOHOO 🥳 but unpopular opinion, i don’t really like shin ramen ☹️ i have a buldak obsession instead :/

‘now for my life update!’ — 😋😋😋

‘within the first 30 minutes of 2025, i spent it reading through my old texts with my old situationship’ — ooh… 😧

‘and i’ve come to realise that when he breaks up with his gf, i will be first in line’ — girl stop, i’ve seen this movie before 😭

and i didn’t like the ending 😐 (is this ur taylor swift moment? 🥴)

‘be yes he treated me really well during our situationship, BUT HE WAS ALSO TALKING TO HIS EX GF DURING OUR SITUATIONSHIP’ — okay, so listen carefully, ‘cause us girls as a community can not, will not, and will NEVER lose another girly to the ugly m*le gender again… doesn’t matter how well he treated you in that moment, if he spoke to his ex during ur situationship, he never treated you well. he was treating himself instead 🤨 and i mean that in the nicest way possible!

‘but lowk i think he was just looking for whoever showed him interest first and i never blatantly told him i liked him (we would be dating by now if i had bruh)’ — YOU DODGED A BULLET THO 😭 LIKE THIS SHOWED YOU HIS TRUE COLOURS, LIKE IF THAT’S HOW HE BEHAVES IN ANY SCENARIO, HE’S NOT WORTH ANY GIRL’S (WITH SELF RESPECT) TIME 😟

yes indeed. whateverrr, leave him it in 2024 😋

‘how is your new years so far queen’ — so bland. i mean i entered tt and saw everyone going back to the 2020 anime pfps and ofc i had to join innnn 😫 but deep down ik that going back will never be possible. i’ve reached legal adulthood and back in 2020, i was just a teenage girl reading a shit ton of fanfics at 3am under the stars in my loft ☹️ i’m feeling homesick for 2020, and any time i check the date and it says we’re FIVE years past that, i wanna throw up 🤧

rant over 😟 sorry! 😭😭

‘i'm realising how long my asks are’ — and that is literally NOT A PROBLEM AT ALL. in fact, i encourage it, and i look forward to it 😇🫶🏽

I’VE ALSO SEEN SO MANY TUMBLR USERS EXPLAINING THEIR USERS THE SAME WAY YOU DID HAHAA

today i got a late christmas present from my friend’s mum (fuzzy socks and a set of makeup brushes)! but honestly, as much as i love gifts, i don’t mind getting a shit ton of food delivered to myself and calling that a gift instead 😋

or an iced latte sidjeijdiejdjehdhwh

[winwintea]

uhh and das a long ass ride

okay so the anon who said that wayzennies are eating up everything that is on the table is so real like I opened the comments of high five mv and the comments were a bit too much. they were blindly praising wayv for their back to back bops (sry) and on twitter all they care about is the leekbong (don't come after me pls I like wayv too)

2. winiwin, i hope he's doing fine and why did sm not release something more clear. they were like, he is injured went to hospital, that's it like be more specific???? what exactly happened for him to be rushed to the hospital

3. confession time....i drugged yn so she was hallucinating and killed everyone but how did renjun know it was her???? bro again is also quite sus

4. YOURE THE FIRST PERSON TO EVER MENTION QUOTEV LIKE WTF????? I'VE NEVER SEEN SOMEONE MENTION QUOTEV BEFORE OHMAIGADD I'MGONNA KISS U WTH I WAS A BIT OBSESSED WITH THOSE RPGS. THEre were these exo ones that used to read back in 2020 but sadly I didn't find nct roleplay quizzes. other fanfictions were also available. quotev is quite a lowkey website and not many people know about it but the quality is better than wattpad. most of the writers shifted to wattpad tho

FR LONG ASS RIDE MARK LEE!

oh yeah the glazing on the new album is just... i heard people say it was bad, was too busy in japan trying to vacation to have time to listen, heard the previews only really liked one song, it's honestly just sad. like i don't mean to be like glazing like if you think it's a good song then that's your taste. i mean glazing like "OMFG XJ KILLED THOSE VOCALS" he did not. he did the bare minimum basic that he's supposed to do as a vocalist. he sang some high notes. but not THE high note. now i don't have much of an opinion on rapping so i can't say anything for the rappers. (i will say this though ten is not a rapper stop giving him rapper lines he has a beautiful voice let him sing pls)

he's safe though! we're all good! hope he is resting and getting well. hope he gets well soon <33

oh?

quotev....... me and quotev go way back. but SHDJSDHSJD i wasn't roleplaying nct on quotev.... i was roleplaying like... danganronpa,, ninjago,, ddlc,, and unfortunately. dreamsmp. ( we don't talk about that though ) i have never written stories on there and i got addicted to it bc of a ticci toby fanfic lol. (we all start somewhere.) the roleplaying does help with my writing i'd think! i do miss it occasionally, the website is like broken now. they removed all aspects of chating and private messaging now. you can't see an activity home page anymore, groups are gone, and notifs are like broken. it just sucks and because of that so many of my interactions and roleplays with people are lost and i think that hurts the most. losing a part of your childhood or even identity bc a website took those things down is crazy. i had been on there since 2018 and was only semi-active from 2022. started when i was 16 !!!

[limited-time-imaginary-friend]

among us + boneless pizza + Lebron James + One chip challenge + chuck e cheese + creepypasta + horror monologue + reddit post + r/copypasta + cringe + Thomas sanders vines + 2020 + sr pelo + griddy + low taper fade + big back + Trevor Henderson creatures + sweet home alabama + dad went to get the milk + gummy bears + disney’s downfall + nostalgic + nostalgia + joe mama jokes + fortnite + andrew tate + name 10 books + gedagadegadagadieo man face chicken nugget + 3AM challenge + Trollface edit + gyat + mogging + edging + looksmaxxing + mewing + shrek + kinder egg videos + play-dough egg videos + I like my cheese drippy bruh + KSI’s new song + lunchly’s + I have 2 sides + grind + sweat + geek + goon + gooner + nerd + youtube shorts + tiktok slideshows + one cock edits + peanut butter on my sandwich + blippi harlem shake video + drop the soap + slang + homer simpson + online dating + toxicity + presidential debate + facebook mom(s) + soccer mom(s) + minions who will gru be tonight + india’s average water supply=💩 + africa’s average water supply=❔+ I ate 5 homeless people because I thought they were watermelons + snapchat filters + Hawk Tuah + Talk Tuah podcast + Prime + Still Prime + FDA approved + sigma + Alpha male + Beta + Ice Spice + Kai Cenat + Ishowspeed + stop the cap bruh 🧢 + you ate that + you sold + you’re selling + lock in + locked in + I forgor + dat boi + Nyan Cat + shaggy 0.1% power + Goku drip + Kendrick Lamar + Not Like Us + Drake + BBL Drizzy + P. Diddy + Quandale Dingle + Sophie Rain Spiderman Video + Drake Leak + Super Senior Gojo + Thukuna + Grimace Shake + Gacha Life Edits + Packgod + BellaTheWolf + Meowbahh + Internet beef + gang gang + Eminem + Donald Trump + Joe Biden + Kamala Harris + Ratio + Cope + Kys + throwing it back + Rizz + rizzler + rizzing them up + schizophrenia + Erm what the sigma + handsome squidward + spongebob + idksterling + mr beast + Mike Tyson vs Jake Paul + Shopify + Tiktok Trend + whats your power in rise of kingdoms? + doxxing + doxxer + doxxed + asf + asl + idk + wth + wtf + emoji reactions + discord mod + EDP445 + dr disrespect * Kris Tyson + Aura + Bro + Based + Basic + Banger + Fire + Cooked + BDE + Bestie + Taylor Swift + Bet + BFFR + Big Yikes + Blud + Boujee + Adolf Hitler + osama bin laden + 9/11 + the holocaust + 1800’s slavery + Bouncing on it + step bro i’m stuck + Bop + the sauce + glaze + Glazing + Family guy clips + fortnite montage + Brainrot + Fanum Tax + Bruh + Bussin + Bussy + fnaf song sus remixes + sus + sussy + sussy baka + baka + Caught in 4k + Clapback + Dab + Dap me up + you’re dead + dogs + grippers + sonic put those grippers away! + Drip + Era + Villan Arc + Winter Arc + glow-up + glow-down + Extra + random + you’re doing too much + Fit-check + Flex + dogwater + toiletwater + Finna + Gagged + stop ghosting me + Glizzy + G.O.A.T. + Gucci + Hits different + ICK + and I oop + VSCO GIRLS skskssksksksk + IPad Kid + It’s giving ____ + Iykyk + Jit + lil bro + Karen Behavior + yap + yapping + Lit + Rent-Free + bro thinks hes the Main Character + mid + Netflix and Chill + NPC + Nyaa~ + Ohio + ok boomer + oof + opp(s) + outta pocket + owned + humbled + stay mad + L + W + nobody asked + nobody cares + Period + Pick me + Pluh + Pookie + Queen + King + daddy + mommy + Red flag + Roman Empire + salty + secure the bag + just put the fries in the bag bro + sheesh + shook + sigma male + simp + slaps + slay + sleep on + get off my meat bro + meat-riding + meat-rider + snatched + stan + Dream face reveal + FNAF theories + mattpat + skill issue + Markiplier + OnlyFans + spill the tea girlie + tweaking + Touch grass + Understood the assignment + Valid + Vibe check + wig + yeet + zesty + band4band + ai covers + Baby Gronk + Livvy Dunne + Still water + adrenaline + noradrenaline + anger issues + balkan parents + english or Spanish + german stare + Balkan rage + jonkler laugh + phonk + mangos + 1000 yard stare + those who know=💀

"... what?"

[scibot9000]

top discovered albums this year. as in, top albums from not-2023 but that I found in 2023. i dont have spotify so i gotta do this manually.

rankings approximate. links and thoughts under the cut

hizmi - Soak (2021)

sometimes it's the technicalities that blow my mind. this is…… unmodified X68000 music????

Yeah listening to this has expanded my mind on what's possible with old FM chips. None of this sounds like the artist found any restriction with any aspect of the system.

"Rivulet" blows my mind every time. It's just an ilkae song. Like cmon.

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SDEM - ZNS (2020)

After AE_LIVE 2022, I went on a little bender, looking for anything else ae-esque.

I pretty much immediately struck gold. I had been digging through SDEM stuff anyway but man this is another level.

"dysp 0m" in particular is one of the tracks of all time. I keep coming back to it. it's HEAVY on headphones.

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Ssaladd - Ssaladd (2020)

This is a funny selection to land on a TOP8 because it's so understated. It even kinda feels distant.

But damnit that's why it stuck with me.

The use of wow and flutter is crazy good here!

It feels like carefully applied vibrato, an application of the expression MIDI CC. But completely unlike any other vibrato I've heard.

It feels like a pioneering mix of techniques. And I can't stop thinking about it.

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Cryptovolans - Passenger (2022)

Is it possible to have a wall of sound in MIDI?

No, not Black MIDI. Something prog.

I keep coming back to "Board Room" in particular because it's so... weird? Slightly beyond just SC, but not by much. Heavyweight album.

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Kid606 - GQ on the EQ++ (2000)

The textures on this absolutely blew me away.

"My Kitten Went To London" sounds insanely fresh. I can't believe it's pushing 23 years old!

That and "Dandy" really stuck wth me. The latter sounds a bit more era-appropriate somehow (maybe because of oval?), but still vibes really good.

This was actually me revisiting the album. I initially listened to it about a decade ago and didn't like it. Crazy to think I turned away from such gold back then.

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nagz - Good (2020)

nagz has been a longtime favorite and inspiration of mine. He's been making music from the future for years and years. Blowing my mind since 2006 or so.

One of his earlier releases, hringur, stuck with me for years. It had an atmosphere that I had never heard before or since.

…until now.

It's not actually a sequel, but it's got a flavor that I just. Don't know where else you can find.

If I were to highlight a single track: "I Like You But Not Too Much" hits astoundingly hard. It's what I imagine Earthbound music might be like if it were made today.

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DJ Technorch & 九十九音夢 – Strong Anthropic Principle (2016)

An absolutely mind melting early (found in January) favorite. Hard, hardcore, and psychedelic. And a bit silly.

"猫の気持ち 〜Cat's Mind〜 (Masayoshi Iimori Remix)" and "解熱鎮痛一撃必殺 〜Critical Arts〜" in particular stuck with me as great experiences.

I really really like the preview video, too. (nsfw warning?) (flashing lights warning?). It truly captures the vibe.

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AE_LIVE / elseq 6-10 / onesix

I had already listened to some of these, but around march, I found fanmade CUE sheets, and that brought a whole new level of love for this release.

And then I found fan edits with another set of fan titles. Two names for all of my favorite bits? Sure!

"ceramic / clipcon" i love that percussion! the ringmod in "(drunk) / probat emp2" is some of my fav ae work ever. having splits made me fall in love with the density of "sentinel / sinistrail casual"

and then I discovered the onesix sets and fan-cuts, giving a more ambient dive which I'll only mention briefly here. But man, "reflected / seven of twelve" is one I revisit OFTEN.

[phoenix-is-the-hottest-thing]

Ok so, I finished the level 13 of the ch34, where Mei finds herself again in a white self-space or some shit like this, and .... I didn't find any BIG problems, imo. Although, I remember everyone here were doomposting a mounth or two ago with posts like "wth fucking retcon", "Hoyoverse u murderer", "here lies Mei's character's developpement, d.o.b : july 2020; d.o.d : february 2023", "why would she be okay with Kiana sacrificing herself now ?!!!? hoyo wtf ?!!", but, if I understood it right, she's NOT okay with that, but it's more like.... IF IT WAS the only solution viable, she will not interfere because Mei still thinks (just like himeko did) that Kiana is the only one that can save the world from the honkai (and spoilers: idk how to put it in this askbox but, Kiana is completely fine, so we were worrying for nothing, they didn't have to do the worst scenario, wich is : kiana sacrificing herself and being ded on the moon) ///end of spoilers So, I would love if you could tell me what wasn't going right with this part of the story, because I'm a bit confused, maybe I didn't get something right

It’s fine if you like it, I liked some stuff of chapter 34 too, if anything I’m annoyed because of how utterly confusing that chapter is and how little I recognize Mei after it.

The gratuitous poetry does not serve her, and Mei’s earlier “sacrifice is fine actually” arc felt very forced considering… everything about her previous stance on the matter, but that was already messed up three chapters prior. It’s like, you establish strong characterization for a character, reinforce it with Kiana’s growth, and then go back on it because you have characters you need to kill off for the third time, just feels wishy-washy. This chapter’s reception just suffered from the fallout of that.

This specific chapter also feels clumsy I guess? Suddenly there is a twist (the Herrscher self stigmata thing) except it has zero consequences and the actual meaning isn’t clear. Not helped by Elysia dying a fourth and fifth time in the same chapter, and the very unpopular design of Mei’s new suit.

BASICALLY, in a vacuum it would’ve been an okay chapter, but… not a vacuum, and bogged down by unpopular/questionable writing decisions.

[wegonbealright-09]

i'm literally so glad i found your blog among all the delulus in the jkk tag!

i used to be a jkkr, and honestly there still are some moments of them, particularly up until 2019-2020 that are undeniable questionable... to say the least, but i feel things changed a lot since then, and if jkk were something indeed, i believe they aren't anymore.

jk always done the bare minimum for jimin and was praised and put on a pedestal, when the most relevant and ""boyfriend-y"" gesture he's ever made was gcf tokyo, but man ain't winning boyfriend of the year never. aside from gcft and maybe gcf saipan, i can't think of another single big gesture he's ever made towards jimin, and here we're talking about the man who flied from paris to seoul just to spend a few hours of jk's bday with him.

also jk's personality and behavior since this solo era started (and honestly, before ch. 2 too) are just so cringe wth. jokers spend so much time to deny that he's a fuckboy/jb wannabe just for him to go and prove them wrong. those papparazzi pics were the last straw for me. dude literally just sang a song about fucking, which, believe me, for the us public is just another tuesday, and already thinks he is the next justin bieber or something.

but anyway, i digress... the point is i'm so tired of how jokers became the new taekookers overanalyzing everything. i really hate this one theory that apparently is very popular among jkk spaces that jimin didn't do a live with jk because he "can't control himself" around him like what is that supposed to meannnn. i really hate it here and i'm so glad that jimin is keeping it to himself and letting jk and his crazy fans lead themselves to a massive fall very soon.

i just had to get this out of my chest lmao

That was alot.

Overall yes, yes and yes.

For the last part. What jokers refuse to see or acknowledge is the fact that jimin removed himself from jk. You can clearly see he's set some boundaries, him not wanting to do a live with jk it is because he knows it'll be awkward they'll have nothing to talk about, jimin would have to be the one initiating everything whilst his "boyfriend" acts like he was forced to be there.

And they have this whole theory or thing of jk building a mansion for him and jimin and the reason why there isn't alot of stuff in jimin's house it's because he's moving to the mansion with jk soon. LMAO

[grr-bark-bark]

Hey hearth . I think your fucking fakeing . Like wth ? You got the possesed DiD ? Black outs . Also ... yeah protectors are only people too , but like mo never complains . And others of mx friends dont complain either . Is it just you then ? But i realy your fakeing actually . Its just to weird girl/boy . Im angry actually about this . Like , stop complaining ? And work on it ? There are also special clinics for systems ? If you got that bad of problems go there . In germany there are so many specially for DID. Just work on it . Try comunicate besides the blog couse dosnt it hurt the fronter to fucking feel bad ? Stop that crap . Good luck boo .

I know who this is lmao I think you should kill yourself dawg <3 wth

Blackouts is a symptom of DID so maybe you're faking 😳 Idk what you even mean by "possessed DID" but sure gender of me. Me and my headmates don't even complain about half of the fucking problems we have, and shockingly, expressing emotions is healthy. If your headmates and your friends never complain, maybe they just don't trust you enough to tell you. I want to hear my system's and my friends' problems.

What the fuck are you angry about. You are in your 30s iirc. You have had plenty of time to work through your shit. And I know your situation, at least what it was back in 2020. I am only six months out of being fucking trafficked by my mother 💞 I am working on it as much as I can right now, and I am allowed to complain

Shockingly, dumbass, a good therapist is hard to find, especially for trauma. Especially for DID. Especially for HC-DID. And I am fucking poor

I really don't know what your problem here is. I do not believe that your fronters are never upset, or never complain. Or hey, again, maybe you're the one faking. Maybe don't randomly fakeclaim people for fucking normal behavior. Stop that crap. Good luck boo ♡

[neptuniadoesstuff]

Jellybug time. (A Jellyfish/Pillbug hybrid)

Btw before you ask, "Who da hell is this?", this is Que, (Short for Quirrel II). He's the son of Monomon (aka Amoeba in KoD) & Quirrel I (The original) & is the main assistant/partner of Dweller.

You can find some of his info here (Aka his "debut" project on screb).

I don't rlly draw much HK based content as much anymore (I drew a lot of HK content back in 2020 before I even had this acc this year)

But maybe this year I'll draw more HK based content again. (Bcs I am rlly obsessed wth MO: Astray & still is)

Also, I drew this last year, but Jellybugs are CUTE, DAMMIT!

Character: "Que" Minnaki (Mine)

Art: Mine.

Program: Screb/Scratch

Bubs' TOS: Plz don't repost/steal, trace, or recolor my art WITHOUT MY PERMISSION! If you do, I'll take yur femur and pelvis.. SO, DON'T THINK ABOUT IT! (The PNS on my Blog's pinned project clearly means "Please No Steal" plz follow that rule.) If you do post my art on anything like yur blog or somewhere else (With my permission) PEASE CREDIT ME!

[thestarlightforge]

One of my wildest instances of coming to terms with the ableism of my childhood was when a non-physically-disabled extended family member of mine, currently in high school, started talking to me about a slew of parties they had gone to. “Parties” as in plural. With alcohol. And music. And people hitting on each other. In real life, in the 2020s—not on TV. And their mom had already found out about it, so she confirmed they weren’t lying.

I didn’t even see that until college. I thought it was made up. I didn’t kiss anyone until the end of freshman year of undergrad, see a queer kiss in real life until junior year of uni (and it was staged/for a play), or drink with other people (outside of wine at a family holiday party) until graduate school.

But it was happening. I was capable of it. I just got left out.

I feel lucky to have Survived high school. Wth do y’all Mean.

True isolation is when everyone else is talking about their vibrant teenage experience and you’re like. I was just trying to survive

[ruminate88]

”Victim Mentality”???? 🥴❤️‍🩹

I often downplay my own experiences because most of it was by total strangers on the internet. No one physically touched me but ok, abuse of any kind is still abuse…

After my last relationship with my ex Andrew, I was beyond confused and hurt!!! I could not explain what happened. The breakup was so confusing because I’m the one who did it, yet Andrew treated me as if he’s the one who did it… I still very much loved him but only broke up with him becuase I had proof he was cheating AND he refused to say “he loved me” but he won’t break up 🥴😣💀 Sir, you don’t date someone you do NOT love… that’s just common sense. (I didn’t realize he didn’t wanna be the bad guy plus didn’t wanna lose his toy and motherly figure) He showed zero emotions when we broke up. I had no idea that’s a coping mechanism 😣 I just assumed he didn’t care about me AT ALL.

Annnnywaaaaay, I walked away like “WTH??? HES SO WEIRD!!!!” But I loved the version of him that I originally called “my boyfriend” there just so much fog and I’d go on his Facebook and he seemed normal but his actions didn’t match his words. I move on… I marry someone else. I can’t stop thinking of Andrew and it doesn’t take long at all before I feel totally disconnected from my new relationship. 🥺😔💔 I blame him…. My new man didn’t wanna go certain places with me after we got married even though he was going when we dated. That triggered me soo hard but I had no idea I was being “triggered” that word wasn’t even in my vocabulary 😝😝😝 I felt so distant from my new man and I’ve had to just go with the flow of it all. Just be in the motions. I told my mom there was a “disconnect” between my new man and me… she’s even questioned “why are you striving so much in your marriage” 😣

Whenever I first learned about emotional abuse, I right away started putting pieces of my past together. Took me almost a whole year just watching these videos on emotional abuse, feeling like I hopped in a loop and couldn’t escape!! I sometimes had to shut down all social media because it was draining and depressing.

I NEVER saw myself as a “victim” when I broke up with Andrew. I was just confused and frustrated. I just wanted the nightmare to end with him. He was hurting me over and over… I cried all summer over Andrew. Yet, it didn’t all just “go away”. The pain stayed, the confusion stayed and by 2020, my stomach suddenly has all these issues. I lose so much weight. I realize how much hair I’ve lost. My eyes slowly start to open to the truth.

Not quite a whole year after I even learned what emotional abuse is, I started this blog so I could find a private place to talk about all of it. Suddenly I’m on this weird and crazy “healing journey” and it’s bizarre 🤡🤡 It’s like I can’t get out of it and EVERYWHERE I read, it allllll says “HEALING…TAKES…TIME”!! 😓😓😓😓 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I constantly feel guilty like “well, no one actually touched me. Just cuz they used my naked photos and manipulated me.” 😣💀 I take accountability that I was immature and naive. I am the one who willingly sent my photos. I engaged in toxic relationships on my own will. I was lonely and motherly becuase I had been the family caretaker. It didn’t shake me to treat Andrew like a baby at times. He often acted like a 10 year old boy with me and it did not weird me or bother me. It bothered all of my online girlfriends and they would question me, “Why do you like this immature little boy anyway??” 🥴🥺 Andrew was too young for me to start with but I mean, I was the family mother. I mothered everyone around me so Andrew was just thrown into the mix. He just sorta fit into my daily life. It didn’t phase me. I saw nothing wrong until he started disappearing a lot and ignoring me days; leaving my messages on delivered. That’s when I started to realize that he’s hiding stuff and yet when I would express my feelings/sadness to Andrew, he acted scared and upset at me. I would mention “breaking up” and sometimes he would turn into a baby having a tantrum yet, asking me, “why do you feel this way?? I don’t wanna break up!!” BUT on his social media, he seemed like he’s extremely successful, popular at his college with his university staff and his peers. Always posing with “beautiful girls”. Was so weird and frustrating for me. He was two different personalities!!!!! How someone can get mad when I mention breaking up but he clearly looks like he’s cheating his brains out. Why are you always surrounding yourself with all these beautiful girls but calling me “babe”??!! Yet most of our conversations surrounded sex. Just sometimes he opened up and let me know him closer. It was rare though. I see all these videos about “not staying in a victim mentality” but these videos irritate me. I just ignore them. I never saw any of this before. Never saw “emotional abuse”. Never believed I was abused even though I was so confused and disconnected. There’s been many other issues that I just lately learned is impacts from the abuse. Stuff that was weird like “being super hot or cold.”, “Constant bumping into stuff and always being covered in bruises.”, “hormonal changes”. Sooooo many weird things happening that I couldn’t explain 😳😳😳😳 it Alllllllll adds up and makes sense.

These past couple of months, I’ve had little to no energy. There is another factor adding to it but every where I have read or watched videos on the abuse, they ALL say you need so much rest. Idk…. Sometimes I ask myself “Is this all so crazy???? Am I dramatic or crazy!??” I’ve also went through a season where I asked “was I the toxic and abusive one”??? I’ve went back and forward blaming them and myself. Moments I’m angry but then quickly defuse myself becuase it’s in the past and they can’t undo what they’ve done. So it’s hard to stay “mad” but I’m constantly “sad” over them. I have this “longing” over Andrew that doesn’t go away… ever. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I’m trying to figure a way through it all. Through the emotional barriers and over this wall blocking me.