#wrecking ball feels

[okamirayne]

thanks for letting us back into the BTB universe. I can't wait for the next update when it comes, and Im still super geeked for your original stories when they are ready! People love the worlds you build and I know I can't wait for more! Ive been reading your works for yeeaarrss now, and I love how you've blossomed in your writing and inspired so many!

Gosh, thank YOU for stepping back into that universe @virginhawks. 💜🥰 It wouldn't be without its readers. It would be stuck up in my head or saved in a file on my laptop with no one to share the madness with. That's why I so insanely appreciate the feedback and engagement from readers like yourself. Gods Bless you tenfold for that. 😍

Im still super geeked for your original stories when they are ready! People love the worlds you build and I know I can't wait for more!

Oh god, I can feel the overwhelming surge of FEELS upon me...seriously, one day there will be words to express how it makes me feel when someone expresses interest in my original works...that day shall come...

This day I ugly cry into my teacup instead. But they are happy tears. So thank you, lovely. 😘💕

Ive been reading your works for yeeaarrss now, and I love how you've blossomed in your writing and inspired so many!

💕 I appreciate you so much. Thank you. The crippling anxiety I've been feeling just got wrapped in a weighted blanket, which is much better than the straitjacket. 😅 😘💕 Immense gratitude coming at you, luv.

[blamemma]

what a privilege it is, that my two favourite guys, are each others favourite guys.

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Chapter 110 is 13 pages long welcome to hell!!! so in a lot of ways this is just more fuel for a theory that I've had for a few weeks now, that's only gotten stronger with each recent season 5 episode, which is that the last episode of the season is gonna end on 110, and that Asagiri/Harukawa and Bones have been collaborating to make this happen, specifically because it's a major turning point that would be the only good place to end the season on.

When we started getting especially long chapters again (like from 25-35ish pages, with the exception of 107.5, the last two being some of the longest we've ever had), at first I just assumed that Asagiri/Harukawa got freed up from some other obligations they'd been having to cause the extremely short/half chapters, like promotional stuff for the anime/Beast movie, or working on light novels. But then 109 happened, with the "supposed" death of Dazai, and heavy emphasis at the end on how literally everyone is at their lowest point right now, and I got to thinking. 11 episodes is a strangely specific number for an anime season -- why not 12, or 13, or even 10, like you'd usually see? Why have we gotten suddenly gotten two 35 page chapters out of nowhere, that's almost unheard of at this point? They're both beautiful chapters, don't get me wrong (as always), and maybe A/H simply just didn't want to cut them in halves because they felt like the full emotional impact wouldn't hit/that there were no good cutoff points in them, but you can't deny that it's surprising, after all the shorter chapters we've been getting. Why has the anime been going at such insanely breakneck pacing for the most part ever since around the Sunday Tragedy chapters, even more so than it has in the past? So much so that it feels dangerously close to overtaking the manga?

Well, maybe, just maybe, it's because..... Asagiri decided a long time ago that whatever happens in 110 is the only point that feels "season finale"-worthy enough, in an arc that still isn't anywhere close to being completely wrapped up, and so both the manga and the anime have been specifically coordinated to reach that part within 2 and a half weeks of each other?

I've seen a lot of people now think season 5 will end with 109, and as much as my sadistic side would find that hilarious, I honestly don't think they'd do that and realistically don't want it to happen; it'd be so cruel to cliffhanger the anime for years like that, and just doesn't feel like a season cliffhanger BSD would do, a series that is ultimately hopeful and uplifting. Seasons 2 and 3 had a positive, conclusive ending; the only reasons seasons 1 and 4 didn't was because they're technically not really full seasons of their own, and are more like the first cour of another "season" that also came out that same year (seasons 1 and 2 both aired in 2016, so they're more like one big season, and seasons 4 and 5 have both aired this year, so they're also more like one big season, again taking into account how episodes 12 and 50 are not satisfying finales like episodes 24, 37, and hypothetically, 61, are). I really can't see season 5 ending with Dazai and Fukuzawa's supposed deaths, Sigma being unconscious and maybe close to death, Atsushi being vulnerable and limbless again, everyone we love still vampires, and the entire world being basically doomed; that's just too depressing and not like BSD at all. However, having said that, if it doesn't end there, there really isn't any good place to end the season before that, either, that feels in any way satisfying or like a finale at all. And so, to me, that only leaves after 109: chapter 110.

I think things are really gonna turn around next chapter. Like I said, everyone is at their lowest point right now, it cannot possibly get any worse, the framing of Dazai, Fukuzawa, and sskk at the end of 109 is telling us that; this is the time for the heroes to finally start winning again, with Aya being so close to pulling out the sword, and for all the thematic reasons other people have talked about to death that I don't need to go into here again. This upcoming chapter being so short again makes a part of me wary of 110 being "the one", so to speak, I won't lie, but at the same time, it's very possible that it needs to be that short because that's all the final episode of the season will be able to reasonably fit in, since it's already gonna be VERY close if they do make it all the way to 109. And at the end of the day, I don't doubt at all that Asagiri and Harukawa can make these the most monumental and game-changing mere 13 pages ever if they wanted to; a chapter does not at all need to be extremely long in order to be an important and impactful one, even if short ones we've gotten in the past haven't felt the most important.

An additional thought I've had, though this is much more crack territory than all this already is, is that since we know from Anime Expo that a Stormbringer movie at some point is highly likely (judging from Asagiri's reaction when someone brought it up), it's possible that chapter 110 and thus the final episode will involve the long-anticipated return of Verlaine and/or Adam, or at least some other major reference to Stormbringer, that would naturally and smoothly lead into a Stormbringer movie to explain things to people who haven't read the novel. It would make a lot of sense, especially since the s4 OP has the Old World sign behind Chuuya, which might be a hint that this has been in the works ever since seasons 4/5 were first in planning with Asagiri. We also know that Dazai and Chuuya's voice actors apparently struggled to record their lines together this season, which probably relates to 101 and possibly 109, but it could be 110 too.... I could be very wrong, as I'm no expert on this kind of thing, but I kinda doubt they would bring Chuuya's actor in for just the vampire growls, and Asagiri placing heavy emphasis on Chuuya's importance this season in that one interview gives me the impression that he's talking about much more than just 101/109. But that's the least solid evidence I have, that's just mostly based on vibes I get.

So basically, I think a lot of factors -- the unusual episode count, how close the anime is to catching up to the manga with three whole episodes left, the seemingly arbitrary recent chapter lengths, and the climactic events of 109 -- can tell us that 110 might be a very, VERY big deal. Again, there's of course no way this arc is anywhere near close to being finished, with so much left to address and resolve, but since it is currently incomplete in the manga, unlike the previously adapted arcs, if the anime was going to adapt it at all, they'd have to find a place that feels satisfying enough to end this season, knowing there won't be more anime for a long time after this, and so I think they specifically planned for that, from both Bones' and A/H's sides. 10 episodes might not have been enough to reach that point, but 12 or 13 might have been too many it wouldn't have been if Bones actually decided to slow down and let the story breathe the way it needs to, but this post isn't meant to criticize the anime, so maybe 11 was just right. And maybe Asagiri and Harukawa specifically pushed to make recent chapters longer than usual, in order to make sure that the manga reached the story content in 110 the monthly release right before season 5 was to end.

Is this just copium? Absolutely. Am I going to look like an absolute clown in two days when this post ages like milk? Probably. But the evidence is There, so let me just enjoy my delusions until Sunday, okay 🥂🫡

[dumblr]

Don't you ever say I just walked away,

I will always want you.

[u-x-o]

Something dumb I though of on a long car ride 😭

I need to draw more goofy scenarios like this lool

[littencloud9]

i love u nekoma & karasuno i love you SO MUCH

[bookinit02]

ok im about to post 8.6k of e-rated fic. everyone who does not want to see please look away🙂

[leonsliga]

so funny that they wanted to ease manu into it and give him a low stakes game and then all of THAT happened

It was all shaping up wonderfully.

A nice, peaceful match. Minimal disturbances for the return of our prodigal son. The ideal setting for a comeback. After all, who’d ever heard of SV Darmstadt anyway?

But then

BUT THEN

A WILD JO KIMMICH APPEARS

Entirely boyfriend-less and ready to throw the match into complete disarray

Which he did, with a beautiful red *ahem* parting gift

And just like that, Manu went from this

To this

And we may never know what happened in that locker room at the half, but I think we can safely assume Manu (or Thomas on his behalf) threatened to ground his rambunctious, misbehaving kids. After all, perhaps shaken from the record 3 sending-offs, they basically spent the opening 45 minutes playing tiddlywinks and giving Darmstadt way too much leeway. They owed Manu a better performance, and they seemed to know it too. They charged into that second half inspired, and waltzed their way to an 8-0 victory, restoring balance to the force and crinkly smile to their illustrious goalkeeper’s face.

tldr: Manu’s son got sent off a mere 4 minutes into the match. And pretty much 90% of his kids disappointed him throughout the rest of that first half. But it’s ok, because they made it up to him with an 8-0 victory and now we have happy Manu back 🥰

[ineveryspaceandtime]

miles just replied to my comment on ig 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[mauv-the-bluest-cat-ever]

man the evil x brainrot is about to settle in for realsies i now interpret a third song in a row as something that can relate to ex ( aka imagining animatics hopelessly ) </3

[hyunpic]

hyunjin on bubble: kkami is happy to meet his hyung

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

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[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

[unnonexistence]

hermann gottlieb WOULD play magic the gathering

[glitter-soda]

The two types of Wrecking Ball players:

Borderline immortal and impossible to pin down unless your team has multiple forms of CC. Annoys the shit out of everyone with constant pile drivers and is great at spin-to-win. Has his ult every team fight

Overextending asshole who does nothing the entire game but feed and get the occasional mine kill

There is no in between

[mathematical-blasphemy]

These last two weeks:

Found out *during* the conference I was traveling for that my application for university funding had been canceled bc our department finance guy failed to approve it in the system.

A pipe broke above my apartment while I was traveling, causing water to flood into my bedroom, opening a hellmouth in the ceiling and destroying my bed, among other things. My apartment is now uninhabitable, I'm stuck in a mire of insurance claims/ living in temporary housing. Won't be able to move back in until probably the end of July.

Don't wanna get into the specifics here, but the three-week trip I went on was, on a number of levels, a personal disaster.

The startup disk in my laptop has somehow become corrupted, and now the hard drive seems to have disappeared (???), so I am just crossing my fingers at this point that I haven't lost everything. Hopefully will find out better news tomorrow when I bring it to the Apple Store (since I cannot currently log in to set an appointment or get tech support, as my apple ID password is saved only on my currently-unusable laptop).

My cat has been throwing up non-stop for the last 24 hours.

I am not sure what lesson(s) the universe is trying to offer here, but at this point I feel a genuine sense of hostility from it.