#wowie zowie this one is sad

[gravedigginbbydoll]

last drop in the snow

Kas! Eddie and Reader Angst Blurb

Summary: Eddie has been gone for years...or so everyone thinks. The ache of being 20 forever while everyone grows up is weighing on him.

CW: MDNI!, angst angst angst, no comfort, suicidal thoughts, loneliness, blood, vampire?, loss of love, grief, heartache, suicide, depression, all the fun stuff that comes with immortality, missed relationships, etc

AN: I shocked myself with this one...yeah this hurt. Also, please read at your own risk; this is very depressing and tackles a lot of hard things. Please reblog if you enjoy it!

As Eddie peered through the window, spotting you laughing over a glass of wine with your spouse, kids - or nieces and nephews, his bitter heart still hoped - cradling babies, the season's joy making you shine like the stars, he felt a bottomless sinking pit in his stomach. Eddie could hardly remember the last time the winter felt comforting. Even his mother's face and voice in his mind were becoming a blur, leaving only raw heartache. He looked away, clenching his fists in bitter sorrow. 

Despite what mortals thought, immortality didn't leave one numb. It left you…aching. Hurt.

Eddie was a young immortal. He was only 58 years old, though it had felt much longer that he had been alive. He had seen his friends age and have children, and the little freshmen he once was able to look after went off to college and even got married and had babies. Eddie barely spoke to most of them. 

How could he blame them? 

Most of them were worried about their families and keeping them safe. Eddie was cursed to stay inside until dark, looked haggard and sickly, and couldn't stomach human food. He was kept at bay by the poor animals wandering the woods and the occasional blood donation theft. 

Eddie's back slid against the brick wall as he leaned his head against the house, his mind spiraling. He didn't know getting bitten by interdimensional bats in some freaky alternate Hawkins would lead to this. He had entirely meant to sacrifice himself, only to become a puppet for Vecna. And now that everything was said and done and Vecna was gone, he was a shambling mess. He was littered with chunks of flesh taken out and missing, with sunken red eyes and elongated fangs. He was a monster. 

He ran a hand down his face, regretting coming here. He did it every Christmas since 38 years had passed in him returning from the Upside Down. The routine just made the wounds fester and peel back the scars, the raw and red emotions flowing out like the life force Eddie loathed yet needed so much.

He just needed to know you were okay. You were the one driving force behind Eddie surviving this long. Uncle Wayne had been around for his first 30 or so years. But after he passed, Eddie found Hawkins was no longer filled with mysterious beings and strange happenings. And slowly yet surely, everyone started to trickle away from him. He had found himself yearning for you, his closest friend and probably first love. He had kept himself away from you for so long, fearing the hunger taking over or endangering you. But in that fateful 38th year, he couldn't stand it anymore. 

He had peered in through your window, knowing you had moved into your parents' house. He was moved to tears seeing you for the first time in years. You had aged, grey hairs had begun peppering your head, and he saw the smile lines and…sobbed. You had never looked so beautiful. He saw that you had lived and been happy, and it was evident that love and life shaped you well. You had kids around you, all probably 8 to 12, their smiles and even mannerisms a reflection of you. 

Eddie's heart had felt as though it was torn out of his chest but cradled in your hands. He had wanted that with you. Sure, he was fucked up and immature then, but he had loved you. Continued to love you. He missed your smiles and laughs and how you always knew how to cheer him up. He even missed you teasing him over girls like Chrissy Cunningham, completely oblivious that it was always you. He had always loved you. He knew you had grown but still loved the woman you had become, and it made him mourn that life you could've had together even more.

Eddie stood up, his heart aching again like that fateful Christmas day. He looked out onto the white snow, limbs numb from the cold. He lifted a hand, looking at the silver chunky rings you and Uncle Wayne had gifted him. He felt a tug at his heart, putting the hand down and sighing. He was tired. So very tired. 

He looked out onto the snow, seeing how the moon made it shine like diamonds, and felt his heart set on it. 

This was it. He was ready. 

He was not as cautious as usual when he trekked through the powdery snow to his trailer. No one had come into the trailer because he and Uncle Wayne dragged it far into the woods, hoping no one would go into it and find Eddie Munson alive and, indeed, the monster they all thought he was. 

Eddie grabbed a pen and paper and began writing his thoughts, feelings, and sorrows…He knew everyone would be texting or messaging nowadays, but old communication methods felt more raw. As he finished, he felt the ache dull. He was crying, the disgusting thick blood streaming down his cheeks and one or two drops marring the paper. But he felt…free…in a way. 

Eddie stalked out into the cold with the trailer keys, removing his boots to feel the snow against his bare feet. He headed to your house, seeing that the festivities had ended and the living room was quiet. Carefully, Eddie placed his note and key, along with his chunky cross ring, on the paper, leaving it in the flower pot at the front door. 

He trekked into the snow-covered forest near Lover's Lake and laid down, the cold unusually stinging for his immortal self. And as he laid, he thought of you. Your joy and laugh, the life you lived. He opened his eyes, looking up at the sky that began to turn a light shade of blue, the orange sun peeking up through the horizon. Eddie felt the warmth on his skin grow steadily until it felt like flames licking at the snow, finally being embraced by the sun and thought to himself. 

"Maybe in another lifetime…It could be me and you."

[majimasleftasscheek]

Hi, im very sorry if this has already been answered or established somewhere else but im curious, with your Kazumaji stuff, around what time did they start dating (i.e. after the events of Yakuza 0 and all that) and how?

tbh, I dunno!

I don't really have an established date for that cuz sometimes I'm like man they'd be really cute during y0 and then other times I set it between post y0 and the beginning of y1. The latest they would start me thinks is some months after the events of y1 but in general it sorta depends on how I'm feeling and what silly scenarios play in my head

ideas under the cut tho 👀

if we're talking y0: I like to think Kiryu has to go to Sotenbori for some reason, be it business or he's there with Nishiki for some partying. he sees Majima at the Grand being depressed and is like "damn girl those bags under your eyes makes my dick go *boing sound effect*" and asks him out 🥺 Kiryu gets rejected immediately cuz Majima's in this cycle of 'I deserve nothing but pain and suffering' but Kiryu can't read the room so he is persistently showing up at the Grand despite Majima very obviously wanting to kick his ass. eventually he relents and goes on cute™ dates with Kiryu and realizes oof maybe human intimacy be kinda gucci

if between y0 and y1: Majima's fresh in his mad dog era starting shit with people just to be annoying and Kiryu's one of his targets mainly due to the events of y0. he's kinda like "lol this goober really did some important plot stuff, huh?" and his curiosity gets the better of him because Kiryu is an enigma who eats bugs and Majima cannot suppress his need to get some sense of understanding on this weirdo. in this timeline, it's more one-sided affection from Majima that comes in the form of stabbing while Kiryu is desperately trying to fight the gay allegations and failing. eventually he caves but it's a sorta unofficial, on and off thing that Kiryu doesn't really know how to evaluate for himself. Majima doesn't really care what they are since he's high on life atm and has a cute dude with big boobs on his arm

if during y1: literally just everything Majima Everywhere. Goromi. GOROMI 😩💦 Kiryu is all: I LIKE PUSSY but everyone's like okay big man then why's Majima pole dancing for you huh. the two braincells he has start to click and he realizes maybe Majima wants to hold hands or something unthinkable like that. ngl I like to think Kiryu's thing for Yumi is like a demisexual bi thing where he's like, I do love her but she don't zap my brain quite like the bowlcut freak who knows how to punch me real good and it becomes sorta his personal introspective journey during this time. Majima is also floating in the space of am I doing this for his benefit cuz "training" or am I falling for this dork. he's pretty sad about it cuz of the Saejima reminder vibes but eventually Kiryu falls into his own person that Majima really meshes with and the two of them struggle to actually voice how they feel all the while their pants are down in some dirty alley

if after y1: (going to insert shit from a fic I'm working on) Kiryu's absolutely devastated with what happened in the Millennium Tower + now having to take care of Haruka that he's shut himself off from everyone and everything other than doing the bare minimum to live. in comes Majima being a menace like yo you can't like, let a child parent herself you gotta get outta this slump and Kiryu's all fuck you stop breaking into my house. so it's a long pain in the ass process to help Kiryu deal with his grief while Majima keeps unintentionally making googoo eyes at him and both of them are like boy I sure hope this doesn't awaken anything within me. there's also a lotta dadjima stuff going on and Kiryu's like wowie zowie so you do have a heart and Majima's like no way loser while being just 😳👉👈

[burgycreeper405-blog]

*passes the microphone to you* so what is your fav ii dark fic about m8

super duper glad tou asked and didn't have to make you asked that bcuz no one was asking me about it/hj djfh

but my fav darkfic is simple actually

it's about mephone4

shocker i know sjdhsj

i started reading this when i wasnt even that into mephone yet lol

i was still doing the mp4 stock image meme dance lol

i m very sad that im not sure if this would get updated cuz this was published in april and updated in april, just a few days and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i am hurt in two ways jfhdjddj

caution, there are gorey stuffs there that even if there's tags there, it still shooketh me that i was like, *"holy sh1t, what am i reading?!"* (but not in a negative way) snfhsjf

like it went from 1 - 100 real quick (spoilers, or, warning,, it's about a animal that made me go "wtf" bcuz they're robots, it's fine lmao, but animals mmmmmmmm not sure about that sirmadam djdhsjj, and it's in chapter 4)

anyways, my explanation is gonna be very messy and short so bare with me here, i just wanna get this out now bcux most darkfics are just bad/mid/weird

so, this fic is mostly a what if/au

and that what if is a "what if mp4 failed to escape meeple hq" and ii doesnt exist bcuz, mp4 never escaped,, and the sad part about it is mp4 doesnt try to escape again bcux he forgot about it, cobs made him forget everything that makes mp4 want to leave

did i mention cobs is an absolute bastard here/neg didhjs

like dude, at the start of the fic, he is drunk, and he gave mp4 a smol task

but mp4 failed that task and since he was hella drunk, he smashed mp4 using a wrench, almost breaking him permanently

the brotherly bond of 4 nd 4s really makes it feel all wowie zowie, the author wrote them greatly like holy crap bruv

there's more in that fic, i think theres like 9 chapters and it took me 2 hours to read it in one go djdha

and i think that's the end of my explanation bcux my brain is all over the place rn and i just wanna get this out so bad

i might add more in the future but sheezus, yall should read it if you haven't/nf

i want it to continue so bad but i think it’s forgotten maybe,, hopefully not cuz it was just getting more juicier jhgfj

long story short, i love this fic and im still geeking out about it, i hope i can do fanart for this soon bcux i very much want to but brain says do it later, and you should read it/nf

[grislyintentions]

[Thelxie event after-thoughts]

Since I primarily play the game with ENG subtitles and CN voicelines, there are subtle nuances in Freminet's speech that I really like.

His baseline speech patterns are soft-spoken, slow with quite a fair amount of pausing in between, much like one would be if they are socially timid and unsure of what how to say the 'right things' (hence the frequent spaces in my portrayal for his speech).

But as the event progresses, the amount of pausing in his sentences reduced significantly to reflect his confidence and determination to see things through. It's a nice change to see reflected!

ALSO ABSOLUTE PAIN AGONY I AM IN TEARS AND I LOVE THIS LITTOL LAD SM.

It is as sad as it is comforting and ultimately, I like the way it's handled even if reality doesn't always turn out as nicely as the one depicted there did. I used to hate the 'they're in a better place' saying that you typically hear when you are grieving the loss of a loved one. But given this context...it does provide comfort. I can see why reminders like that would help. And ultimately, I'm a lot more willing to try that myself. It's healing in an odd way.

On a side note, the lore drops??? incredible chef kith tasty fodder. The fact that Freminet's diving helmet has many functionalities is unexpected but incredibly neat! I absolutely would love to explore freminet navigating life through the Loneliness Syndrome afflicted kids along with Arlecchino before the twins showed up bc wowie zowie]

[mangosmoothiepussyv3]

im about to be so cringe hold on

also spoilers for fma brotherhood lol

you just get overwhelmed with emotions by the thought of your self ship???

like okay i self ship with greed from fma and i have two main aus for it (but theres more aus that exist bcus i cant stop thinking abt scenarios and circumstances)

theres one au which i call the sad au (which isnt to say that the other au is particularly happy)

i call it the sad au bcus my self insert knew the original greed and worked at his bar and they weren't dating per se but they cuddled and fucked and he treated her basically as a sugar baby with deep feelings

anyways she manages to survive the devils nest massacre (and a lot of bad stuff happens to her but not the point)

so stuff happens and she ends up being there for greed to be reincarnated through ling and shes like! ecstatic!

only to be crushed by the realization that he has no memories of his previous life so he doesn't remember her

like, shes so heartbroken about it! bcus the time spent with original greed meant everything to her but he cant remember the connection they had!

also in this au, bido wasnt the one to trigger greeds memories, it was her (she survived him trying to kill her due to....reasons. i wont explain here) so now she has a scar on her stomach which adds extra angst when they become a couple

he eventually remembers her!

i was gonna say more but im tired lol

idk where i was going with this, i was just filled with so much emotion for this dumb little au

if you actually read all of this....wowie zowie thank you! this mustve been so boring im sorry-

[demigirlboss2girlrotboogaloo]

The US has Hella culture actually most of y'all are just too Goddamn racist to notice like good God give it up for white people you somehow manage to be racist against yourselves. The US has such a rich tapestry of cultures and subcultures and as someone who isn't *from* the US and has never been within a continent of it, I LOVE THE VARIOUS US MIKUS. I LOVE LOOKING AT THEM AND GOING "WOWIE ZOWIE THAT IS *WONDROUS* THERE'S SO MUCH HERE AND SO MANY LITTLE THINGS TO APPRECIATE THAT ARE UNIQUE TO THAT REGION". Be it Michigan Miku or Maryland Miku or Ohio Miku I've loved every single one of those for the unique and wonderful look into the day to day lives of people in a country across the world, and looking at all of the Pakistani Mikus made me so sad because that's not how we usually dress! Give me a Pakistani Miku who's wearing her Chase Up se liye gaye shalwar kameez (yes I'm sindhi how could you tell) and has tastefully subtle gold ear piercings and is eating biryani out of a Styrofoam box in the back of her friend's car. That's a much more accurate picture of the average Pakistani girl than Miku in a gorgeous sherwani that probably cost more on its own than my entire wardrobe. So yes OP put your Washington Miku in a fuckmothering Red Leaf t-shirt, yes like the coffee chain apparently but I've never heard of it before cause they sure as shit don't got that here, because by far the best part of Miku Worldwide is getting a glimpse into what the actual average person on the other side of the planet *looks like.*

the 'miku as your culture' trend has really made me process that white americans don't have SHIT in that department. Like I already knew we didn't right but this has made it so very clear. There's customs and dialects but that's like it. We all dress the same. What would I do for a Washington miku. Put her in a red leaf shirt???? Fucking red leaf the coffee chain? They probably have those in other states. I don't even like coffee

[ihatebnha]

no YOU’RE the sweetest! it makes me so happy that you like ibiza so much. it just makes me feel… warm & fuzzy.. y’know? i’m doing good btw hehe. ANYWAY….. onto some dark & twisted ibiza family things <3 i haven’t fleshed out the mom and dad a whole lot since they’re not really that important to the story i have in my head but anyways.. ibiza’s mom unfortunately passed away when ibiza was young which left her with her dad who honestly wasn’t around much when the mom was alive. her dad wasn’t the best with money. by that, i mean he was broke as hell & in debt with some not so great people. he ended up taking ibiza out of the house her mom & her used to live in since he didn’t have enough money to afford it. they would live on the streets for a few weeks before her dad decided to start leaving her at orphanages while he went out to get money. honestly, he figured that she would be able to sleep in an actual bed & eat better food than what she would eat on the streets. he would leave her at one orphanage for like two weeks before coming to pick her up, spend some time with her & then drop her off at another orphanage for another two weeks. unfortunately, his debt caught up with him & he was murdered by the people he owed money to. originally, i made the dad like sell ibiza to the organization that made her an assassin (i need a name for it btw & would love to know if you have any ideas) to get out of his debt but i decided against that bc that felt…. wrong somehow. this is so long so i’ll stop there but YEAH… i’ll get into like the lies ibiza was told about her family & her name some other time! i love you SO MUCH bye bye

-oc anon

BLAHHHH sorry for not getting to this immediately, i had class in the evening, ended up eating dinner in my friend's room, and then had some hw to do... but i'm here now! and ready to discuss!!!

what i really love about this is the fact that: even though ibiza's dad is shitty, he's not necessarily abusive. i feel like there are so many narratives that choose to present the dad as a deadbeat who doesn't provide for his kids, or will even have him do horrible stuff to them... but this not only avoids that but also makes the whole thing a lot more bittersweet, too???

like, he doesn't really.... WANT to be a parent, but after losing her mom, he also can't bear the thought of his daughter having to fend for herself or suffer... so despite the debt he's in, ibiza's dad loves her enough to both TRY and take care of her, but also risk putting her in orphanages because he knows that's what's best???

PLUS................... ok hold on, plus, like....... the whole idea that ibiza finally trusts/gets to know her dad and waits for him to come back for her but he never ends up showing up BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHY (possibly, if u decide) makes me SCREAM.... like you mention how she gets lied to and stuff about her history later in life and this just makes that WORSE bc she (again, if i am assuming Correctly) obvs doesn't realize (or want to realize) the reason he wasn't coming WASN'T bc he left her or didnt love her but bc he COULDN'T ........ WWAHASDAKSFHJASJDK....

like, thinking about baby ibiza all alone waiting... growing up to be bitter about it, and then healing when she learns the truth..... fjdkl;lasdjknfll,asl AHHHHHHH....

what a fantastic storytelling choice tbh and...... wowie zowie overall. even if it does end up changing (bc i love switching around the story) just the angst + storytelling potential here, i love (and am sad because of) it...😭😭😭

ALSO i'd love to help name the organization if ur willing to give me more details abt it... my go to for stuff like that are usually acronyms LOL🥺👉🏻👈🏻

either way tho, i'm super excited to continue this hearing abt the lies she was told and her name, eventually. i remember you mentioned them once to me and i was honestly so touched u wanted my input that i wasn't able to repsond LOOL </3 smh me.

BUT YES, OF COURSE i love ibiza! it's hard not to... esp since this is like a little tv show for me that i'm able to get updates on the production of🥰

anyway, now it's my turn to stop myself from blahing on, but i love YEW too and i'm really happy to hear ur doing good!!!

[hunter-the-sad-skeleton]

Overwatch OC Character Interactions(Winter Edition!)(Part 2)

Ashe:

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Winter: Oh! You look like you know Mccree!

Ashe: In a way.

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Winter: Do you and Mccree know each other?

Ashe: Yeah, we do.

Winter: Oh, that was not a friendly 'yeah, we do'....

Ashe: Ya don't say.

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Winter: Oh my gosh you have a robot!

Ashe: Yeah, his name's Bob.

Winter: His name's Bob!!!!

Ashe: Are ya alright there?

Winter: Sorry, huge robot nerd and lover!

Ashe: Ah. Understandable.

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Ashe: So, how do you know Mccree?

Winter: Oh! I dunno!

Ashe: How can ya NOT KNOW?

Winter: I don't remember!

Ashe:.............What?

Winter: I don't remember how we met!

Ashe:......I'm sorry.

Winter: Oh, it's fine! I'm fine with it!

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Winter: Bob looks like a good teammate to have!

Ashe: Yeah, he's reliable.

Winter: That's good! It's good to have a partner you can rely on for help!

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Reinhardt:

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Winter: Wow, you're huge!

Reinhardt: Yes, that comes in handy when pushing an attack!

Winter: That helps being a tank!

Reinhardt: Indeed!

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Reinhardt: You're so small! How are you still alive? *Laugh*

Winter: Spite! Oh, and healers help too!

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Winter: Have you ever wondered why attacks can go out of your shield, but never IN your shield?

Reinhardt: Not....really, no. Because I'm too busy defending to think about stuff like that.

Winter: Understandable!

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Winter: I can handle being the shield this round!

Reinhardt: You would get squished, my friend!

Winter: It's for a good cause!

Reinhardt: No!

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Sombra:

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Sombra: Nice legs, bud!

Winter: Thanks! I dunno how I got them!

Sombra: I may have to hack into them at some point to see how they work!

Winter: HI, YES, PLEASE DON'T DO THAT.

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Winter: How do you hack everything so easily?!

Sombra: It takes years of practice, kid. It wasn't easy at first.

Winter: Oh, learning, yuck!

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Sombra: I heard you're a robotics nerd.

Winter: Yup! I know the ins and outs of how robots work!

Sombra: Hm. Impressive.

Winter: Yeah, I was hyperfixated on robots for a few years...

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Sombra: You're a robotics nerd, what about regular tech?

Winter: I'm pretty tech savvy, I like to think!

Sombra: That's good, being tech savvy is a good thing to be.

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Tracer:

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Winter: Tracer, you know how your catchphrase is "cheers love, the cavalry's here"?

Tracer: Yeah, what about it?

Winter: I've come up with one!

Tracer: Really? Wonderful! Let's hear it!

Winter: Dread, team! The sadness is here!

Tracer: WINTER NO.

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Tracer: Ya see Mccree as a big brother, Genji as a big brother, what do ya see me as?

Winter: The cool older sister!

Tracer: Aww!

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Winter: How cool is time travel, Trace?

Tracer: It's SUPER restrictive! I say that, but it's more of me being overly cautious cause if I'm not, I could screw up the fabric of time and I'll get a lecture from 76!

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Tracer: Winter, maybe someday I could take ya with me when I use my chrono-whateverer!

Winter: Sure!

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Ana:

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Winter: Whoa....You look cool!

Ana: That's good to hear.

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Ana: Winter, have you ever wanted to be a Support team member?

Winter: Nah...I'd just drag everyone down.

Ana: That's not a healthy mindset, dear.

Winter: I knooow...

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Winter: What should I call you for a nickname?

Ana: Well, everyone sees me as the Team Grandma.

Winter: Gramma!

Ana: That suffices, yes.

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Winter: How quickly acting are your darts, Ana?

Ana: Almost instant.

Winter: Gotta get me some of those for nights when insomnia is being rough!

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Orisa:

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Winter: Wowie zowie! You're so big!

Orisa: I suppose I am, yes.

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Winter: Ya know, because of your height, I feel like I should be scared of you, but I'm not! I actually feel quite...Comfortable around you!

Orisa: Oh, that's sweet!

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Orisa: I wish you weren't so small; then I could squeeze you without risking harming you!

Winter: Aww....You can do it anyways! I'll be fine!

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Zarya:

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Zarya: You are quite small for Overwatch agent, yet you seem resourceful for your size.

Winter: Nobody ever expects the small guys to pack a punch! Whether it be to the gut or otherwise!

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Zarya: You are full of spunk. I like you!

Winter: Full of spunk and more, baby!

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Winter: I can't quite wrap my head around how your abilities work, but that's okay! They work, and that's all that matters!

Zarya: Same with you.

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Zarya: Be careful. It looks like wild round out there.

Winter: I can handle myself, thank you!

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Junkrat:

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Winter: Oh hey, it's the explosives expert who finds out if something is an explosive by seeing if it blows up in his face!

Junkrat: I like ya already!

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Junkrat: I should show ya how to make mines someday!

Winter: No thanks, I'm fine with just my battery-water-bottle-and-grenade bombs.

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Winter: How're ya doin', bud? Blow up any civilizations lately?

Junkrat: I take OFFENSE to that! It's towns on weekdays, civilizations on WEEKENDS!! If you're gonna roast me, do it properly, come on!

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Winter: Maybe to help your cheeky wheel get more mileage, I can give it a boost and throw it ahead for ya!

Junkrat: That won't work, it'll blow up in your face.

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Roadhog:

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Winter: I met your pal Junkrat earlier.

Roadhog:.........

Winter: He's loud.

Roadhog: Agreed.

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Winter: Ya may be a tank, but I ain't scared!

Roadhog:............that's nice.

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Roadhog: I noticed you don't go with Junkrat on most missions, is there a reason for that?

Winter: Sensory processing issues.

Roadhog: Ah. Got it.

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Winter: Ya know, you and Junk are...Pretty cool. A little loud for my liking, but pretty cool nonetheless.

Roadhog:.....Thanks.

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Roadhog: You have Sensory processing issues, right?

Winter: Yeah, why?

Roadhog: Is it normally sound that acts as triggers?

Winter: Yeah...

Roadhog: Got it. I'll see what I can do to get you some soundproof headphones.

Winter: Oh! Tha-Thanks!

Roadhog: No problem.

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[fcat]

wait i have more to say

i really like how the public perception of celty is so ambiguous and how no one knows anything about her, a little sad the anime didn’t stick with that very well

also izaya’s introduction scene was so dark! wowie zowie! loved it so much tho, twas yummy to my tummy, the dialogue esp

reading the drrr!! light novels, currently on vol2. i really like the way the chatroom stuff reads, and i wonder how it’s going to go when a lot more characters get added to it (unless that’s an anime change). idk, i love the saika arc sm. i think (so far) it’s def a lot smoother and more linear than it was in the show, really enjoying it. the pacing in the novels is also a nice difference, it’s a lot faster than in the anime i feel.

overall: really good reading experience so far!! v1 was a super satisfying read, and i’m about halfway through v2, so i’m excited to finish it probably this week!! it’s so easy to read quickly because it’s so compelling, narita’s writing style is really neat

[jtzvintagetamadrums]

What does $50 buy on Facebook Marketplace these days?

Hello again and Happy New Year! I hope this post finds you enjoying a prosperous baby New Year. Hopefully all good things ahead in 2019!

Okay...so I’ve been away from the old blog and WAY away from drum parts and restoration for quite a while now. I gotta admit, it gets to be a pain in the ass tracking down orphan drums, sorting parts, tearing down, cleaning, cataloging and restoring...and most of all, fielding questions and parts requests from vintage Tama drum bros from all around the world. I’ve also taken a break from selling on eBay and Craigslist because we all know what a royal pain in the ass that can be...and with increasingly diminishing returns to be had nowadays. I seriously needed to step away from the game so no one got hurt!

So back to “biness”. I always enjoy adding a few extra bucks per month to the investment account from diligent drum parts schlepping...and lately my personal finance bottom line once again came a calling. I was feeling I needed something to jump start my epic return to the old grind. Maybe a cheap kit to restore? Nope...got too many of those and my wife would murder me in my sleep..again! Most likely a decent lot of roached orphan drums to part out and/or restore and flip. Well a few days ago I found just the ticket, oddly enough...on Facebook Marketplace.

So being the bottom feeder that I am, here’s what $50 bought me...

Yeah...I thought the same thing. At first glance, no big wowy zowy right? A roached King Beat snare and some other crap. 

Break it down one time!

(1) 81′ Tama King Beat snare

I was obviously into this deal for just the snare alone. This features a surprisingly complete KG parallel strainer assembly (shocker…both knobs are there!). I’ll need to remember to reassemble the complete strainer on the shell to ensure full functionality prior to scrapping the shell. Up close, overall this is not as shitty as it looks. The shorty coffin lugs (always in demand) don’t seem all that pitted nor do the PC die cast hoops. When I say “not all that pitted”, I mean typical of the era. There’s even a nice clean badge to boot. The big knob muffler is complete but the felt has disintegrated. Sure the shell is toast and is headed to an artificial reef but otherwise…parts heaven.

Cha-to-the-ching!

(1) 98′ Spitfire by Slingerland 22″ kick drum

Wait what? A Spitfire by whoesy whatsit? Yeah I sure as hell never heard of them either. Not much info on these drums as they were a part of the tail end of the sad Slingerland demise and much akin to the Chinese import “Swingstar by Tama” entry level junk of the era. The wrap is a bit bubbly on this drum and it is missing both spur sets. It’s also sporting a pair of roached, previously chrome and otherwise pedestrian Rockstar looking hoops that have been painted black. These originally came with matching wrap inlay hoops similar to the Taiwan level early 90′s Tama Rockstar hoops. Me thinks to myself…”Self…hey…I have pair of black inlay Rockstar hoops! I also have a pair of telescoping, diamond bolt pattern mount plate “Camco by Tama” (yikes!) kick spurs somewhere in the workshop that might fit the bolt pattern. Maybe I can smack this beast in the face, get it back into player’s shape and get $50 for it or donate it to the church for a tax receipt”. Win-win!

Here’s a pic from an old Guitar Center listing of what a “Spitfire by Slingerland” kit should look like. I guess it’s your basic, late 90′s, Korean firewood shell, entry level beater you’d buy for your kid at Christmas that he then stops playing a week later. Again, standard Taiwan Rockstar style matchy matchy wrap inlay hoops and typical telescoping spurs of the 90′s era. Still sporting the vintage style Slingerland lugs all around though. Hmm. 

(1) Mid 60′s 13″ Ludwig Keystone badge Rack Tom with Gold Sparkle Wrap

Okay so this one is a bit out of my wheelhouse. I’m no vintage Ludwig guy by any means, but this was kind of cool to stumble upon. Sadly painted black by some doofus from days of yore…there is clearly a vintage gold sparkle wrap that lurks beneath what looks like some black house paint hot mess. This drum does have the original tom mount intact, but is missing the bottom lugs and t rods so it is about 75% complete. I believe the bottom hoop was in the lot as well. The uber-fatty re-ring shell appears to be sound, in round and the “who knows how long it was exposed” bottom bearing edge doesn’t look all the bad surprisingly. The badge is a bit roached, but this drum is worth a re-wrap and resto by some eager Ludwig aficionado that has the parts and a shit load of free time on their hands. Heading directly to an eBay near you.

* 1/10/19 UPDATE! Upon closer inspection, what I thought was thick black paint turns out to be the same shitty contact paper/vinyl that is on the timbales mentioned below! I easily peeled some off this morning and the wrap looks pretty decent underneath.

So the plot thickens on this drum...resto or no?

(2) No name 60′s era Japanese 13″ and 14″ copper over steel Timbales

Ole!

Well now these are pretty f-ing cool. Listed as “no name concert toms” in the Facebook Marketplace ad, I was pleasantly surprised that these turned out to be steel shell timbales. Hell, who knows, they may be copper. Likely not…they look 60′s Japanese, which basically means they’re one step away from scrap steel. They’ve been wrapped in a flaking, deteriorated black contact paper (same doofus maybe?), but they appear to be your classic copper plate over steel finish beneath. I guess I’ll find out when I tear them down. Can’t really tell if it is all surface rust on the inside of the shells or just copper patina that gives it that “old penny” look. The lugs to me look like the pointy Japanese Star style lug common to the 60′s Star kits and similar Japanese stencil kits of the era. Regardless, I will likely keep these as I don’t actually own a set of timbales and they’d be fun to bang on. The t rods are pretty toasty so they’ll need to be addressed. Thankfully, the clip/slide mounts are intact as is the original dual mount that I can retrofit into something period correct or even a vintage Titan stand. If the shells are too crusty on the surface to recover the copper finish, I’ll have them media blasted locally and then send them to my nephew in Vermont to powder coat with a fun finish.

Also included was an orphan but nonetheless classic Ludwig dual tom mount whose length seems to indicate it was from a stand. Then again, WTF do I know about Ludwig hardware? Regardless…more eBay fodder for the Ludwig loonies.

Okay so it is time to break down the potential flippage numbers “American Pickers - Bundle Mania!” style. I’ll keep it on the lower end of the $ scale.

King Beat snare parts:

Coffin lugs, sold in pairs @ $15 clear, assuming 4 good pairs ( I’ll keep a pair) - $60.00

KG strainer assembly, hopefully complete, the original extended snares were coiled up inside the shell and bent so I’ll keep those and try to salvage them.- $75.00

Muffler - I have broken tone control arms with good felt so I’ll fix this one, keep it and sell a good one - $50.00

PC die cast hoops - generally fetch in the neighborhood of $45.00 each - $90.00

Imperialstar badge with or without salvage grommet - $10.00

T Rods and washers - two sets of ten at $10.00 each clear - $20.00

Snare total salvage - $305.00

Slingerland Kick drum:

Parts needed are zero cost, sell or church tax receipt donation - $50.00

Kick total salvage - $50.00

Ludwig 13″ Rack tom and mount:

Sell as is or attempt to remove the black paint with citrus stripper, then sell on an  eBay auction style listing starting at $25.00..maybe I’ll clear - $40.00

Tom mount is missing one L arm but in nice shape. might clear  - $15.00

Ludwig total salvage - $55.00

Timbales :

I’ll keep these, will cost a bit to restore, random value at $75.00.

Timbale total salvage value - $75.00

So the total comes in at around $485.00 on a good day. Backing out my $50 cash outlay and the $75 value of the keeper timbales…with a little luck, I could potentially clear at least $350 on this lot. Not too shabby, considering the seller pretty much brought the drums to me right around the corner from where I work.

Now all I need is some free time, a whole hell of a lot elbow grease and the boundless patience for the eternal agony that is eBay and Craigslist.

Thanks for taking a look and maybe I will post a follow up on this lot. Some fun stuff in this batch for sure!

Cheers to a Happy New Year!

- jt

[fb20212022]

-20-

You saw their clothes and then you cried

I say to you, you must be blind

What will you do if the people you knew

Fooled around with all those other guys

No need to feel lonely...

No need to feel sad

Wowie Zowie, baby

I can't say what's right or what's wrong

'Cause you don't even know what love is for

Yeah!

Yeah!

You're probably wondering

Why I'm here

Bop bop-bop bop-bop bop-BOW

Bop bop-bop bop-bop bop-BOW

Well I'm about to get sick

Hah-hah-hah-hah-hah-hah-hah-hah-hah-hah

Oh darling, it's important that you believe me

This is the voice of your conscience baby, uh...

I just want to check one thing out with ya, you don't mind, do ya?

Wishes/3

Maurevert - 12/2020 - 01/2021

[beedalee]

hey bee what's this superglue project i seeeeeeeeeee +3+

ohhh gosh ahhh -bashful shuffling- it’s nothing much yet but i’m so flattered you’re interested!!! it’s one part story idea i had when i visited @caiterprince with dye for the first time in jan 2015 (fuzzy feelings go here) and one part re-purposing of a sizable handful of old characters i made in my troubled late teens. it was a sad sad story about a bunch of queer kids because i was going through a hard time, but it was pretty melodramatic and undeveloped and i’m really not about that life anymore (i wanna write happy encouraging things more yknow?)

some of the characters i drew, scattered between 2010 (purple) and 2008 (the sketch)

wowie zowie look at that style flux?? from left to right we had dylan, olivia, ‘mercury’ (abagael), noah, everett, and tiffany. they were all super white/whitewashed and skinny! 😅 💦💦

Here’s a few of the newer drawings of some of them from around 2013?

tiffany is natifah, and abagael is still herself sans the random edgy nickname; these two were always sisters. i was really into multi-colored hair when i made them so it stayed for the 2013 art but it might change when i redraw them again hahaa. 

and another one here, lost n’ found i drew last year! she used to be olivia/olli up above. I plan on renaming basically everyone but I need to draw them again for it to really stick, since they’ll look so drastically different from what’s shown here. my inktober of lost n’ found is probably the style I’m going for for these guys, kinda cartoony, sketchy and exaggerated in places.. like teen titans proportions but sketchier? maybe! I feel like once I get everyone redesigned stuff will click into place better!

So now they’re all queer kids with super powers that spend the majority of their story rekindling their collective powers and friendship while also stopping bad guys. Hence… Superglue! ✨✨✨

[sammysdewysensitiveeyes]

So first off, I have been reading all of your takes on Marauders and how it is not doing justice to really any of the non Kate/Emma characters (and to some extent, even Kate is going off in a very different direction than some fans are used to seeing with her), and I totally agree.  I love your analysis about what is going wrong with the comic, and how these characters are being used. 

But Pyro is nearest and dearest to my heart, and yeah, I think you’ve hit the nail on the head here.  I don’t mind Pyro being, essentially, comic relief on the book.  He’s a classic villain, but he’s kind of a D-lister who’s almost always acting as someone else’s lackey, and he’s on a team with three Omegas.  I’m not expecting Pyro to be the star of the book, or to be the big hero who saves everyone.  But, the problem is:

1. The “humor” is largely unconnected with Pyro’s backstory, his history or how the character has previously been written.  Hell, I would have forgiven that ridiculous Jean Grey fantasy if it turned out that it was Pyro writing a self-indulgent story.  At least that would have been a nod to Pyro’s old career.  I honestly wonder if Duggan has read a single issue with Pyro in it before writing the character (or even Pyro’s Marvel bio), and kinda suspect that he just watched some X-Men Evolution and wrote a version of that Pyro.  It just feels very lazy and careless.

2. So far, comic relief is ALL that Pyro has been allowed to be.  In the last couple of issues, (19-20 issues into the series), we’ve only just started to get some faint suggestion of character development for Pyro, and it’s basically him realizing that perhaps he’s been too violent in the past, and that the X-Men represent a better way.  And frankly, Pyro already went through that kind of redemption arc while he was dying of the Legacy Virus, questioning his past actions and saving Kelly in an attempt to make up for it.  So the groundwork was already there, but Duggan has largely ignored it.  In fact, Pyro has not made a single mention of his Legacy-induced death or his actions to save Kelly, which would be understandable if he’s become disillusioned, and just doesn’t want to talk about it (especially given that dying a slow death of a terminal disease was probably kinda traumatic), but no one else has brought it up either.  I’m not looking for Pyro to turn into an angsty sad-boy, but it would make sense if he had some reaction to the Marauders delivering medicine, or Emma opening a hospital in Madripoor, or even Storm slowly dying of a nanobot-incuded virus (something that was happening in other books, but got completely ignored in Marauders) because of his past experience with illness.  Even a throw-away line about how he “doesn’t like hospitals” would be...something.  Like, I’m not asking for much, just an occasional intelligent or introspective moment from Pyro.  Let him use his investigative skills as a former journalist.  Let him do something cool with his powers - not on the level of Storm or Iceman, but something that forces him to stretch the limits of his abilities.   

Most of the time, Pyro is just there.  The only non-comedic lines he’s gotten before his “character development” in issue 19 are usually moving the plot along, or propping up other characters (as in, “Wowie-zowie, Storm is amazing!” or “Crikey Emma, how did you mind control all those soldiers!  Please explain your clever trick that I literally just witnessed!”)  I guess he’s supposed to be the violent loose cannon of the group, but that’s mostly been telling rather than showing.  We see Pyro blasting people with fire, but we never see the results - it’s not like when Bobby freezes and snaps a soldier’s arm off - we don’t see Pyro’s horrifically burned victims.  I guess either he’s holding back and not maiming people, or he IS maiming people, but Kate and the entire crew are okay with it.  He gets repeatedly warned not to kill (and he’s mentioned wanting to kill a few times), but he never crosses that line, or even comes close to it.  We don’t see Bishop or Bobby having to put Pyro in check because he’s gotten out of control.  In fact, Pyro has been a very helpful team-player, and almost suspiciously well-behaved.  I’m guessing that eveeeeentually, when Mystique turns on Krakoa, she’ll try to recruit Pyro and he’ll be torn between his old loyalty to Mystique and his new Marauder friends, and it’ll frankly be anti-climactic because Duggan hasn’t developed Pyro enough as a team member for it to mean something.  

On Simon Lasker: I’m honestly torn between feeling kinda bad for the character as an under-developed Pyro-copy who seems like he was created mostly to bang Bobby, and irrationally resenting him for “stealing” the gay storyline out from under St. John, who should be gay as God and John Byrne intended.  In an ideal world, they can both exist and be well-developed as separate characters and both be some variant of LGBT, but if it’s a choice between SImon existing, and St. John being allowed to be gay in canon, I’d Thanos-snap poor Simon out of Marvel continuity in a heart-beat.  Sorry, Simon.  I’m still waiting for some writer to reveal that they are related in some way, because at least that would explain why Simon looks exactly like a younger St. John. 

Speaking of missed opportunities, imagine a closted gay or bisexual St. John, who died in early 2000, coming back to life in a world that is much more accepting of homosexuality in some countries (with gay marriage even legalized in Australia), no apparent discrimination on Krakoa and Iceman openly gay.  And Pyro starting to slowly inch his way out of the closet, hesitant because he’s used to not feeling safe about it, and Bobby kinda gently helping with that.  Not really pressuring him because Bobby doesn’t want to force anyone out before they’re ready, just trying to make it clear that it’s totally okay and that no one on the team will judge him for it.  And in the process Bobby talks to Christian about it, and they dig into Christian’s own past experiences and trauma.  At least it would give all of them something to do beyond just existing in the background, and maybe further develop the Bobby/Christian relationship.  And maybe actual canon-bisexual Shinobi can be involved, too.

I dunno, I have a million ideas on how to better use Pyro in Marauders, and I’m guessing that none of them will ever come to pass.  The most I can really hope for is that maybe we’ll get more little Bishop/Iceman/Pyro scenes sandwiched into the larger storyline.  Even if they are underdeveloped, I like to imagine them being bros together. 

How Marauders Does its Characters Dirty Part 3:

Pyro

Cult favourite St. John Allerdyce makes his return in the Marauders and.... Well, it's like they know he was a villain and that he's Australian and decided that's all they needed to know about this character. He's almost entirely here as comic relief and rarely does anything that shows character beyond "feral Australian who drinks a lot".

They decided 19 issues in to finally give him some serious dialogue and it's all just the set up to a dick joke?

St. John is a perfect choice for a comic relief character. He's a former romance author turned inept terrorist. That's a comedic set up if I ever saw one. This isn't a case of "how dare they make fun of my angsty sad boy". It's just disappointing to see the humour mostly come from "lol dumb Australian man" and nothing from his actual backstory.

Seriously this appearance in Savage Avengers is better in-character comedy than anything we get in Marauders, even if it's a bit basic. Pyro being sectarian and confrontational but not so attached to his political principles to turn down a free drink? Yes. Perfect.

[theworstbob]

the thing journal, 7.9.2017 - 7.15.2017

capsule reviews of the pop culture i took in last week. in this post: i’m going to die alone, and i feel fine; 1000 forms of fear; count on my love; seen it all: the autobiography; satellite flight: the journey to mother moon; mind over matter; molly’s theory of relativity; certified copy

1) I'm Going to Die Alone, and I Feel Fine, by Jen Kirkman: It's always been fascinating to me how some people will get married and divorced without first starting a family. You basically break up with someone, but it's not just any break-up, it's a failed marriage, and you're suddenly single after planning on never being single again, figuring out your relationship with your married friends when your marriage was what led you to be friends with them. This performance dives into that, Jen Kirkman analyzing why her marriage failed and how she's adjusting to this weird life where she's still a person but occasionally being treated like a half-person. I really dug it! Jen Kirkman's one of the best, and I'm glad I finally got around to this!

2) 1000 Forms of Fear, by Sia: hey. hey guys. would you have ever guessed that sia was good at writing pop songs? she sure is. this is like late-breaking news, but if you only know sia from her work with zero 7, wowie zowie, you gotta check out her more mainstream stuff! Except for the back half of this album, the last couple songs on this album are sort of, to borrow a phrase from Quentin Tarantino, Great Lady Tour-like. "ennnnnnnnnh You've got a great voice, and you got it to show off, but I wanna see you ROCK." I wanted to swing from a chandalier, not look at my fucking eeelings, Ms. Furler! But yeah, no, Sia makes pop music! Who knew? Wonder if she writes for anyone else, I know sometimes these popsters will write songs for other people, maybe SIa's getting that paper?

3) Count on My Love, by Tessanne Chin: This album has two really cool reggae-influenced tracks, and if it had followed that arrow, we might have had something. But because this is an album by The Voice champion and no one but the Voice champion cares how this album does, it's filled with these corporate ballads about strength and power and how nice it would be if even one adult contemporary station found a home for the song. The Voice has never found an artist that found any meaningful mainstream success, but that's not really the artists' fault. If this schlock is what The Voice is pumping out, no wonder they can't find any traction. They're getting these songs from known songwriters that were rejected by more well-known artists, and you can hear they're getting lesser efforts. It doesn't work.

4) Seen it All: The Autobiography, by Jeezy: Jeezy was always one of the most reliable rappers; I don't know that I ever looked forward to a new Jeezy track or got amped when I saw a Jeezy feature on a track listing, but I always, always enjoyed him when he showed up. This album is just fun to listen to. It's weighty, but never feels like it's dragging that weight, always ready to bounce back from occasional dips into darkness. Jeezy sort of reminds me of Biggie, just in the way where I'm not hailing his lyrical precision or anything, but the way he can fit into the groove of any track and make the song feel complete, it's a special skill (if obviously not quite as pronounced as Biggie's), and Jeezy's ability to simply rap well is on full display, or would be if this weren't an album and was a thing that could be seen, hey bob maybe instead of calling yourself for being a bad writer,,, edit?

5) Kid Cudi Presents: Satellite Flight: The Journey to Mother Moon, by Kid Cudi: ...I was expecting this album to be certain things. I was not expecting it to be this? I don't know how I could have expected it to be this? This seems like a poor introduction to Kid Cudi. Like, instead of saying TWENTY FOURTEEN! and jamming this into the library, I should have thought about having like a Kid Cudi day and experiencing him like that. I know, if I get an album with actual music which is meant to be enjoyed, I'll dig it, but I got this one by chance, and that's disappointing. Like, when an album has two colons in the title, that's your signal to riun.

6) Mind Over Matter, by Young the Giant: This is an indie rock album that probably might have worked better for me if my mind weren't trying to figure out an LttP randomizer while listening to it. Or maybe it's just thoroughly whelming indie rock and if it were capable of grabbing me it would have grabbed me. Soi apologies to Young the Giant if I didn't give them the fairest chance, but I'm pretty sure I got everything I'm gonna get out of this album.

7) Molly's Theory of Relativity, dir. Jeff Lipsky: So this is a movie that exists. This felt like a really interesting play that someone decided could be a film if they aired some scenes out of chronological order and threw in a couple of well-composed shots. There's a lot of cool ideas in this film, and the woman playing Molly gives a wonderful performance (my favorite line reading in any film I've seen this year is her saying matter-of-factly, "My husband wants to fuck me in the ass."), but also it's about a bunch of well-off white people with problems together in an apartment? The movie begins with a man yelling at his father about his inheritance. I can get involved with that problem to a certain extent? But that's not a real problem.

8) Certified Copy, dir. Abbias Kiarostami: I was tooling around Hulu looking for something to fill the Saturday morning, and I saw this pop up. I sad, "Hey, I remember this being a topic of sume discussion back when it was released, I guess it found its way to me!" I can see why film internet was abuzz over this film. I actually didn't even realize that there was a pivot until I was reading about this film after I'd seen it, I just thought I missed something because I'm shitty at paying attention. "Oh, I guess they're married. They probably said so earlier, whoops." Nope! So this effectively splits the film into two different shorts that are united because they're about the same set of characters being copied (theme) into different situations. (Also, as someone who thinks a lot about whether or not originality can truly exist in 2017, I am so into a movie dealing with that very idea.) And that's this really cool thing, how both characters can be the same people in those two different situations, how the actors can still play them like the same people even after their relationship suddenly changes, and I want to blather on about what I think about this but I'm still trying to get a solid hold on my thoughts and might not be smart enough to meet this film on its level, like I listened to awful '90s house music after I finished this film, I need to give this film the think it deserves before I try to engage with it using words.