#wow . this is something to think about wtf....................
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Nina saying something about her childhood and Kaz just replying with "wow being an orphan child must have been real sad for you" and the Crows all just stare at him like "wtf dude" and he just kinda stares at them like "what I was just joking ya know like we do" and Jesper sits his hand on Kaz's shoulder and looks and to his eyes and reminds him that "dude you ARE an orphan" and Kaz just does one of those slow sleepy cat blinks, not connecting the dots at all before realizing "oh shit. you right" cause Kaz totally would be that way when he's sleep deprived like that and he totally DOES NOT think of Colm, Marya and Inej's mom and dad as his parents now. nope. not at all.
#six of crows duology#six of crows#kaz brekker#inej ghafa#kanej#jesper fahey#wylan hendriks#wesper#nina zenik#matthias helvar#helnik#the crows#and kuwei#hes probably there too#rarzo
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Arcane S2 thoughts
(spoilers, obviously)
Most of this was sent to my friend Penn @pennedinblood in discord first, but I wanted to share it + some more on here too.
Okay, I now that its been a couple days and I've had time to think properly, have some thoughts about Arcane. This isn't going to be as specific and nuanced as I'd like, but I'll need more time for something like that.
Here's the thing... What we did get was good and I liked it a lot - for the most part anyway - but like - it wasn't a very good finale imo...
Like -
In season one they had this just fucking masterful foundation for such a nuanced discussion of class and oppression, of the cycle of violence, of how desperate acts may seem evil to some but are not always as simple as they seem and that one person's actions may influence the narrative but that it is the systems in place - and the willingness to follow systems that harm a disproportionate amount of the population for personal gain - that are the real issue. There were no real villains in s1 imo. It was just people making good, bad, or neutral choices, and they all interconnected and effected not only the plot, but the audiences' understanding of the corrupt system in place.
It forced you (if you're paying attention) to understand with visceral understanding both those of the oppressed and the oppressors; and in the midst of all of that we had magic and science interplaying beautifully against the good and greed of mankind.
AND just vast, resonant, deep interpersonal connections and development that you could feel in your bones.
and then in season two... we just kind of went - 'fuck that here's jesus and a witch ~~~ Magic war tiiime' Like?????
It touched on a few themes for sure, and what Jayce had to say to Viktor about disability and the purpose of people, or the value in imperfection and the point of life - as someone who's struggled with their health and other personal things I don't want to get into on the internet, that hit so hard. I hated Jayce in S1, and he won me over in act one of this season and just - didn't let me down. His arc was beautiful and I really really appreciate it. His connection with Viktor means so much to me. screeches into the void
But lets be so fucking real - they kind of (majorly) chickened out of their mass commentary on the opposing classes and working towards a better system that doesn't harm its people. and instead like - Vi's arc got completely fucked?
Like - oh okay so you ditched everything you were going to say and just made her a strong war pawn who can hit good and is gay coolcoolcool (sobs). Like, act one was so promising it really felt like it was following up on everything they had been working towards, and i loved seeing Vi having to make hard choices; watching her become an enforcer as the only way she could think of to deal with two disparate parts of herself - one that needed to put an end to the monster she feels like she created (Jinx, obvi), and one that desperately needed to hold onto the only person she had left (Caitlyn).
And Cait's devolvement into fascism was so intriguing and dark and I hated it in a good way, yk? Like I was like "oh fuck they made Cupcake unrecognizable in a fucking believable way wtf that's rad bro"
And then in act two they were just like 'HAHA lets not show you anything but the highlights of Vi's inner tumoil, then - wow look Jinx is here to tell her about Vander! - let's just never actually take a hard look into Vi's issues or personal arc ever again teehee - oh! And Cait's on our side again yay!' Like EXCUSE ME???
Vi had stood as one of the most important characters in the entire show. She is the linchpin between Piltover and Zaun - one of only two hinges that connects the two cites (the other being Viktor to a far lesser degree bc his roots are never explored, Singed is the only undercity person we see him go back to interact with, etc etc leaving Vi to be the only 'real one') And they completely sidestepped that - especially how she's also so connected to Ekko and the Firelights - which was just - never touched again - Ekko didn't even get to fix his tree! I get it, bigger fish but ffs - it's not a blaming character thing, it's a writing issue. I understand why Ekko had to focus on smth besides his tree lmao - it's that the writers just dropped this thing that stood so strongly for Ekko's fucking roots man (pun intended). Like - He's representing what Vander wanted to do. What Zuan could be. He is literally making a part of Zaun beautiful and supportive, and standing resolute against the system and saying "both of you are wrong, back tf up and lets talk" and they just got rid of that. I think it says a lot that that in particular was punted into the void.
I'm just not over that we never got to see him and Vi interact again dude wth - and I feel like that really speaks to how much they removed Vi from her point and purpose in S1. It would make sense if she needed more time to reconnect -esp after how Cait betrayed her - but to never actually talk again? Just glimpsing each other in the finale?
Don't get me wrong, I loved some of the time-suckers this season. Mel for one (who I also wasn't a huge fan of in S1 (I didn't trust her lol)). Everything with Mel, Vik, and Jayce was sooo interesting, and Ambessa was a great villain. She was imposing and horrible and yet there were very small parts of her that you could understand - but there wasn't enough time. Not with everything else we were also touching. Not without loosing so much of what we had been working towards. And even with the large focus, The Black Rose was this jumbled mess of ideas that didn't really amount to much besides giving Mel a powerup and probably leading us into the spinoff :(
I've been having trouble processing all of this because I'm shocked and upset because narratively, I didn't like it.
And I HATE that I didn't like it. I liked the individual scenes. I liked the concepts at play. But none of it was fleshed out!
That impeccable no-crumbs-left writing was suddenly nothing but crumbs. A whole feast of them. Nothing was really held together and it left each arc feeling like a separate vaguely-connected vignette rather than a whole story - let alone a satisfying conclusion to the previous season.
I'm genuinely angry because I wanted so badly to love this season but I just don't; not as a whole, not as an ending. Again, the individual moments were largely great, but good moments don't make a good story.
I just feel like they were trying too hard to serve LoL lore. Originally Arcane wasn't cannon-compliant with the messy lore of the game, and then a few months ago they came out and said that it was now considered canon - and I was excited bc I thought that meant that whatever they did would influence League - but I was wrong. I think it's very clear that Canonizing Arcane had the opposite effect. I think it's why they chickened out of their societal commentary - I think it's why the Champion deaths were so 'no body, no proof'. I think that it undercut all the stakes for the writers and made them forced to bend to the will of a lot more oversight from the higher-ups at Riot.
I don't know guys, how are you feeling? I'm really glad we got CaitVi cannonized (but I have things I wanna say about that too, esp. how their sex scene played into the sidestepping of Vi's arc (not that it happened, but the way it did - I can talk more about this another time lmao)) and I loved getting a timebomb kiss (again more Vi arc things I wanna say *sobbing and gnawing on my cage bars*) but yeah - anyway I gotta stop typing before I get too into-the-weeds of my thoughts. I'll probably make a big post about the specifics of how I feel they fucked up Vi's story in another post bc I clearly can't let it go XD
But fr tell me ur thoughts too pls I want to know what you thing even if - maybe even especially if - you disagree with me :3
Idk I've got to rewatch it.
It wasn't bad TV, it's still better than most things coming out right now... I hate that I can't just love it entirely rn raaaaaaahhh auhfalwoiha (help D':)
#ltbd rambles#arcane#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#arcane thoughts#arcane s2 finale#arcane s2 thoughts#arcane vi#arcane caitlyn#arcane mel#arcane viktor#arcane ambessa#arcane jayce#arcane ekko#arcane jinx#arcane powder#vi#caitlyn kiramman#mel medarda#viktor#jayce talis#ambessa medarda#ekko#jinx
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posts about kim dokja kinnie antics are always funny as hell but they never really stick with me because i simply cannot picture anyone in orv knowing the word "kinnie" other than lee jihye and uriel.
#important to note: kim dokja IS effectively a kinnie i just dont think he'd have any clue wtf that means#he would have no awareness of any online kin antics or spaces or terminology. none zip zero zilch#now. jihye and uriel on the other hand. lmao. i just Know they do i can Sense it#they are responsible for any other characters who may know the word#like. jihye hears about kdj wearing a yjh face mask and goes 'wow kinnie much? lol' and everyones like ???#but just figures its some sort of teen insult these days and moves on#MAYBE kdj googled 'how to become a character' once as a kid#not because he thought it was possible but because he was sleep deprived and dissociating or something#but all the results were about like. Cosplay. lmao#beso babbles#orv
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i nearly anon'd the thorki non-con fic out of SHAME but in two weeks it's become my third most clicked-on fic of the year, behind only a multichapter fic and a bit of angsty sifki porn lololol
#this is about 560 hits btw which i know is not much for bigger fandoms and it's just that i tend to be in some weird niche but gosh!#i'd written thorki before but it wasn't e-rated so if the non-con tag really did work against it then wow no wonder ppl write this pairing!#you ever been to reddit where someone posts about how their latest fic only got 20k hits in a week and you're like “WTF”?#and it turns out they're in some hugely popular fandom and that's the least read fic for that pairing on the entire site by a mile.#that's like glimpsing a parallel universe. what a strange place. why would any fic ever have more than 1000 hits omg!#and 1000 would be for if you wrote something Surprisingly Popular. like e-rated thorki non-con apparently is.#meanwhile 'cockroboros' may only have 35 hits but every one of those 35 people agrees that i was right to write that thing!!#and me and the other 86 people who wanted to see missy interact with jamie moriarty are besties now <3#SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I TURN THE NUMBERS BACK ON OH NOOOOOO THIS WAY LIES MADNESS!!!#the sifki one had a bump recently which i must assume came from one of those 'recced it in a discord but never said a word' incidents.#those are increasingly common and i hope i am not alone in finding them ever so slightly creepy#if you're going to look at me you need to at least pat me on the head to cancel out the anxiety of that damn it!#*flashes back to when i hid that one ten'n'donna fic because nobody would tell me where all the readers were coming from*#fic related#anyway i think it's important to mention i wrote thorki non-con fic in case anyone following me thinks i am Unproblematic in some way.
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I feel weirdly compelled by this
#like the way jarno has to be on his tiptoes in the first gif#and the way adrian keeps grabbing him to try and placate him#THE LAST GIF ESPECIALLY#idk just very very interesting vibes#me when race car drivers argue: 😳😳😳#not that im being particularly shippy abt it. i mean i really dont even think these two have even interacted really before this point#but theres just something about it idk...compells me#i think its just because of the height difference that makes me go insane no matter the context#also why are they both kinda caked up-#honestly what a wild crash. its so funny bcs theyre here like this like:#jarno bitching at adrian x adrian trying to calm him down(even tho it was pretty much jarnos fault imo)#and then(not pictured on screen) fernando in the corner who also was taken out in the crossfire 😭😭#theres this pic where all three are walking to the pits#and its funny bcs they didnt even notice nano crashed so its like hey wait wtf are you doing here??????#well anyways this was captioned 'the girls are fighting!' in my race notes and its very apt#more gifs to come obv :D#f1#formula 1#formula one#2009 brazilian gp#jarno trulli#adrian sutil#*i am actually so blind wow. i said nano not pictured but he literally right there in the back 🤦♀️#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#season: 2009
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#AUIAGAHAIVDKFJFHDNSKXJ#sorry#don’t mind me#on tonight’s edition of i don’t have a diary so i’m using tumblr tags#I JUST. HMMMMMM.#sorry for the second day in a row lmao. at least today we got a fun fresh funky gender crisis instead of sexuality.#i’m literally about to leave for college where nobody knows me and it’s not like i was out to lot of people here but. idk#and whatever tf is going on w my gender has never even been spoken aloud lol#from like being kiiiiiiind of a little bit out here#which is. nothing bad has happened. nobody cares. it’s just my friends.#but goddamn#literally i keep coming to the conclusion that i. don’t want people to know. and i feel bad#not even as like a safety thing. or even#i don’t even know#there’s something in me that is so so so so scared#and i just. don’t want it to be something people know about me#but not even as like#UUUUUGGHHHHGGGH#i hate words#i don’t feel bad about it being a part of me. i just#i want it to stay like. with me. which doesn’t even fucking make sense#bc all i do is agonize in the middle of the night. it’s not even like. pride. just sheer#i don’t know#wow ok. goodnight i guess i was not expecting to think abt that tonight holy shit#i literally couldn’t even say it in this whole wall of fucking text wtf is wrong with me lmao.#ok 👍 cool 👍#night
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some people be saying the most batshit insane shit abt travis mcelroy
#dude. just saw 'it's so obvious the other 2 are annoyed and frustrated with him'#like. no? it's not? i dunno what kind of projecting you're doing but i can promise you that griffin and justin don't like#secretly hate their brother and are begging for release.#you can hate travis as much as you want (even though i disagree with that sentiment) i can understand being annoyed by his style or whatever#but i see it all the time of people saying that the other two should just do the show without him etc etc. and look.#maybe u haven't listened to so#the same episodes of mbmbam that i have. but i can hardly think of a single top moment that would be the same without all 3#if u want to see smth with just the other two just watch monster factory. don't make reddit posts about how it's 'so obvious' that#these people you DON'T KNOW. hate their brother. because they don't. sorry#siblings annoy eachother all the time. it's not an irredeemable crime. just listen to something else.#dunno if this is an unpopular opinion or what but i was a mcelroy fan back when taz was releasing and i just caught up to v dracula recently#and trying to look up discussion on the new season led me to a horrible vitriolic cesspit mostly directed at travis. which#(a simple miscommunication btwn travis and griffin that is quickly resolved in-canon without argument)#people: wow can't believe Travis would try and RUIN the game like that griffin clearly wanted to disown him immediately#like#there has to be some misconstruing lense they gotta be looking through. anyway. wtf
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been listening to lay me down since last night, thinking and crying about kaishin, and earlier today i found a sam smith and ben platt duet version of it and it made it all the more kaishin to me i can't stop listening to it im going so insane maybe i should just make a list of kaishin fics that made me feel like lay me down actually ✋😔
#it's so bad i keep playing it and singing it and thinking about kaishin yearning and pining wow FUCK#i need to exercise this out of my system somehow it's got me in a chokehold#LOOK OKAY SO WHEN YOU LISTEN TO THE SAM SMITH AND BEN PLATT VERSION RIGHT#IT MAKES ME INSANEEEE#so the starting verses where sam sings that's shinichi's pov like he's basically yearning to be by kid's side right likeeee#at first hes even hopeful that he will but by the end of it he's lost all hope maybe and gives up#cos kid probably disappearee on him or something idk theyre being dumb and in love!!!!!#and when ben's verse comes in it's kaito calling out to shinichi basically wanting the same thing#but he was stupid and scared but he's always wanted it too and#idk idk all i know is that when sam and ben sing the chorus together for the first time i fucking DIE and thats basically kaishin just#pining and yearning wanting to be together likeeeee#requited unrequited love cause theyre stupid and scared and insecure#BUT WHEN THEY SING THE LAST YCJING CHORUS AFTER THE BUILD UP OF THE BRIDGE OF THE SONG LIKEEEE#OH MY GODDDDD I SWEAR I CRY EVERY TIMEEEE#THATS WHEN KAISHIN ACTUALLY GOES TO FINALLY MEET AND SEE ESCH OTHER#AND MAYBE THERES SO DESPERATE BEGGING FROM KAITO'S END IDK EJSMSSJSJSK#BUT THERE'S SOME DESPERATE YEARNING KAISHIN THERE AND I LOVE ITTTTT#ughh this is not enough exercising out of the system i need more of lay me down kaishin wtf#maybe i should rly do that list LMAO#dc prattles
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HSR Jing Yuan actually made me lose my mind. I played the latest version and thought about him for like more than 1 sec and KABOOM. Like what do you mean he's the only one left??? WHAT DO U MEAN HE SAW TWO OF HIS DEAREST FRIENDS AND THEY'RE NOT AS THEY ONCE WERE!!!!!! im gonna be sick . .
hi anon I Get You ,,,,, from the highcloud quintet he's pretty much the only one left ,,, and the only one who had to clean up the aftermath too like 😭😭😭 he witnessed his friends Leave and his friends are no longer who they once were ,,, their previous times together only remain in his memory now ,,,,,,,,,,
#ask#wow i love jing yuan tbh#also receiving this in my inbox is a Shock#bc i never thought i would ever receive a hsr related q#BUT IM RLY GLAD#thanks anon#thinking about jing yuan makes me so Sick and Unwell#also thinking about who he managed to remain sane#like he's not mara struck which is crazy#how does he even do it#ALSO#reminds me of that voiceline about dh#something the one i wish to trace exists now only in memory soemthing#im going to bash a brick on my head#wtf
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How do you feel about trans hajime agenda
Same way I feel about most gender, sexuality, and neuro headcanons: not something I *personally* really need to talk about or name, but anything that makes people happy is a thumbs up from me
#That first part isn't a no either btw. It's just a 'i already barely understand my own gender'#'im not gonna talk about or project gender on other characters when idk wtf to even say lol'#Same with neuro stuff. I know somethings wrong with me but I (and therapists) dunno what#So what would I have to say about it in a narrative?#I just draw how I feel and when ppl are like 'omg trans swag' or 'real autism vibes' I'm like oh? Hell yea ok!#Tldr I'm dumb about many things so I don't really think about them#except polyamory BC I'm spiteful abt that one lol#Wow this got long. Uh anyway#If you get mad at anything I say consider: asking forclarification. I'm not always very comprehensible#Can you tell I am a MASSIVE overthinker
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doctors and nurses should be forced to work in retail before being allowed anywhere near patients
#had to tell the stupid nurse “if i'm not familiar with any of this why am i expected to know everything about it? it's your job to explain”#“i- but-” no no shut up. i'm done with these things. honestly. shut up.#put them in their place. don't be scared to raise your voice when they act allmighty#“you're old enough to-” shut up. would you tell that to someone who's +30?#just because i'm young it doesn't mean you can talk to me like that. at all. stay in your fucking place.#i did every fucking thing by the book. shut the fuck up. it's not my fault if you guys don't fucking communicate#and you know. this happened to me when i got surgery. one doctor told me to take idk what before it.#then the aneathesiologist gave a second dose to me. and i was like “hm. i think i already took that one tho”#“oh really? you shouldn't have”#sir?? it's your colleague's fault. he prescribed it to me. said “take it before the surgery” and i did#how was i supposed to know that the two of you don't communicate??#“what do you study?” “translation.” “ok then you know languages and this isn't your field of exp-” fucking exactly#so why the fuck are you coning at me?? i'm not saying anything#imagine pulling up to the hospital and a nurse decides to patronise you for being a patient?? uh??#sir your people told me to do this and that. wtf.#coming*#“say something if you get lightheaded” i'd rather fucking die than rely on you. this is between me and god now. shut up.#* anaesthesiologist. i can spell.#“ok but if you got a weak immune system you should have-” sir. sir. i do what you people tell me to. i can't fucking do whatever i please.#you prescribe me the wrong stuff & then complain when you make a mistake as if it were my fault?? wow.#medical malpractice
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been almost 3 yrs and i am still struggling with the whole mikachi first meeting thing. bye
#for zl its something simple. i just saw cute fanart of it with another ship [ p sure it was someones 2 ocs ] and enjoyed the idea#i lost my black umbrella irl but tbf it doesnt really matter because i always fucking forget to bring it anyways. so sometimes i get caught#in the rain. so idk zl lends me his umbrella bc. fuck! heading in the same direction and is like hey loser . . let me help you . .#cue immediate heart eyes bc handsome stranger helped her. like Wow Yuo Are So Cool... ♡#afterwards she mentions this interaction to her friend [ yun jin or hu tao .. unsure but they are both so silly so its hard 2 decide ] and#then they are like wait i know that grandpa you're talking about! let me set you up lalala theres this whole thing i'm lazy#i'll write about it Maybe bc i do want to write for my platonic f/os. and also cover all the [ firsts ] in my self ships#its just: i don't like feeling obligated to stick to things (like a series or theme or whatever) so maybe not. would be nice though..#nobody in this world is allowed to laugh at me i'll die#as for childe my plan was he breaks into her house and then shes like wtf who r u?!! they make eye contact and kiss + get married asap#no actually i truly dont know. zl's is slightly easier because he lives a mortal life. just chills#has connections with a lot of the liyue chars. literally just enjoying his retirement era now#ajax doesn't have many connections ( other harbingers but they dgaf about each other i think x ) and i just cant imagine that. idk#just fucking. bumping into him would lead to anything. maybe i should turn into a fish and have him fish me up and then i transform into a#girl and then we fall in love what do you guys think (losing my grip on humanity)#💭#mika ♡ ajax#mika ♡ zhongli
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mob psycho is really making me go insane
#I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE MOB AND REIGEN DOING GHOST HUNTING AND MENTAL HEALTH HELPING WHAT#i think i just finished s2 e8 and wtf was that ending#im like. vibrating in my seat just thinking about it WHAT IS GOING ON???#but besides that#shigeo <333 reigen <333 tome <333 ritsu <333 teru <333#the episode with reigen and the press conference... OOF#brainrot is neverending i need to draw something soon or i'll explode#ok. ok. wow.#hanancouldyounot#hanancouldyoupost
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wait a second i just realized that my professor is the first crush i've had in six years wtf..........
#that's crazy#WAIT THATS SO CRAZY DID I REALLY GO THAT LONG WITHOUT LIKING ANYONE....................#wow i knew itd been some time but wow.....#this is so.... woah waitttt this is so weirdddddd hold on#the last REAL crush i had was on one of my close friends and that was also crazy intense and somehow only lasted around 03 months when it#felt like FOREVERRRRRRRRR#i mayyy have liked one or two people after that but it was probably super super short.... like less than a month and probably infatuation#and not an actual crush.... no one comes to mind though so idk....#also . WAIT . WAIT . THIS IS CRAZY#he's the first guy ive had a crush on . like an actual real crush#ive thought about . my crush timeline GFDSGDFGDSFGSDF and like#it's so interesting because when i had crushes on guys it was mainly in elementary and middle school lmaooo and when i look back on it i#wonder if most of those even counted because i wasnt even FRIENDS with most of them . i think i just thought they were#really cute + liked the idea of them . i liked what i knew of them from what id heard of them bc i never got too close to them bc#i was so fawking shy and had horrible social skills back then....#and then when i realized i was bi my crushes were only girls.... and i even wondered if i was a lesbian actually....#there was . one guy . who i had a crush on in hs but idk if he counted . i only saw him a handful of times a year during the summer for may#two or three years#and i think i liked him but idk if i really did . i think i just thought he was fun to talk to LOL#wow . this is something to think about wtf....................#ss#i guess i do like men ......?
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god 🙏 grant me the grace 👼 not to get into english 🌍 pattern 🐝 piecing 🧩 because i'm fucking obssessed with rhys and his stupid adorable hexagon vest
#not enough of a sewist or garment-maker to know what its called when the hexies are only like draping over his shoulders or whatever#im sure something about mens suiting would tell me#but this is part of His grace where He lets me not know wtf all of that shit is (flagrantly covering for own neuroses)#so i never end up blacked out with 90 billion hexagons strewn around me#idk why but i was so tempted too to do like ice dyeing too (IN BLACK??? WOW) and arrange the hexagons in kind of a gradient#dunno if that would look good but hrgh sorting#i think this just sent me one step closer to doing it actually so mission failed successfully#c... can you do bleaching and dyeing at the same time...#the great and mighty legato sucker#rhys
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Thinking about that time in 6th when me and my friend at the time were just casually talking about how oh when we grow up we should just move to the French countryside together
#thoughts#oni talks#the closet was glass lmao#but also I have no memory for the context of the convo anymore but also it’s so specific and romantic for what??? we were just friends#this was just a random memory that popped up coz nostalgia brain? I remember she also made me a poster of artists I said I liked or thought#we’re okay (I was very weird/unsocialized at the time) and that was like the only poster I had on my wall iirc#omg I just realized something another memory I forgot she once put like a little ask out/confession note in my locker coz I was like#I don’t completely remember but I think I had been talking about how no one was interested in me or smth? but I like instantly recognized it#was hers? and called her out on it coz I thought at the time she was just trying to make me feel better but w/ hindsight#now I don’t think this was the case but if that was actually a confession oh my god my reaction would be so cursed#she was always talking about boys tho so pretty sure she was straight though our other friend at the time I’m fairly certain was gay#but I never knew for certain. Anyway it’s just wild looking back on old friendships like that now that I’m like older and out like#what in the hell was going on over there?? that isn’t even the weirdest gay childhood story shit that’s like how was I not out sooner lmao#that being said I may be older and out but god damn is the social stuff still hard as fuck#especially trying to make more queer friends or find a partner like why does it have to be so awkward & also I s2g#in the moment I never recognize anything but like way later I’ll mention it & bestie will just be like bro… thats flirting…#or I’ll wonder it later but even then it’s like my brain stalls like wtf do you even do#oni vents#tagging it that coz it’s more of a vent at the end coz wow sapphic self awareness may have improved but not by much god damn
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