#wouldn't feed it to my fiends

[slaanxsh]

Well it looks like you’re over making waterfalls for that Moose God. Thank God, I was about to offer you ice cream 🍨

"𝘗𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘴. 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳?"

[jamingbenn]

year in review - hockey rpf on ao3

hello!! the annual ao3 year in review had some friends and i thinking - wouldn't it be cool if we had a hockey rpf specific version of that. so i went ahead and collated the data below!!

i start with a broad overview, then dive deeper into the 3 most popular ships this year (with one bonus!)

if any images appear blurry, click on them to expand and they should become clear!

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before we jump in, some key things to highlight: - CREDIT TO: the webscraping part of my code heavily utilized the ao3 wrapped google colab code, as lovingly created by @kyucultures on twitter, as the main skeleton. i tweaked a couple of things but having it as a reference saved me a LOT of time and effort as a first time web scraper!!! thank you stranger <3 - please do NOT, under ANY circumstances, share any part of this collation on any other website. please do not screenshot or repost to twitter, tiktok, or any other public social platform. thank u!!! T_T - but do feel free to send requests to my inbox! if you want more info on a specific ship, tag, or you have a cool idea or wanna see a correlation between two variables, reach out and i should be able to take a look. if you want to take a deeper dive into a specific trope not mentioned here/chapter count/word counts/fic tags/ship tags/ratings/etc, shoot me an ask!

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with that all said and done... let's dive into hockey_rpf_2024_wrapped_insanity.ipynb

BIG PICTURE OVERVIEW

i scraped a total of 4266 fanfics that dated themselves as published or finished in the year 2024. of these 4000 odd fanfics, the most popular ships were:

Note: "Minor or Background Relationship(s)" clocked in at #9 with 91 fics, but I removed it as it was always a secondary tag and added no information to the chart. I did not discern between primary ship and secondary ship(s) either!

breaking down the 5 most popular ships over the course of the year, we see:

super interesting to see that HUGE jump for mattdrai in june/july for the stanley cup final. the general lull in the offseason is cool to see as well.

as for the most popular tags in all 2024 hockey rpf fic...

weee like our fluff. and our established relationships. and a little H/C never hurt no one.

i got curious here about which AUs were the most popular, so i filtered down for that. note that i only regex'd for tags that specifically start with "Alternate Universe - ", so A/B/O and some other stuff won't appear here!

idk it was cool to me.

also, here's a quick breakdown of the ratings % for works this year:

and as for the word counts, i pulled up a box plot of the top 20 most popular ships to see how the fic length distribution differed amongst ships:

mattdrai-ers you have some DEDICATION omg. respect

now for the ship by ship break down!!

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#1 MATTDRAI

most popular ship this year. peaked in june/july with the scf. so what do u people like to write about?

fun fun fun. i love that the scf is tagged there like yes actually she is also a main character

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#2 SIDGENO

(my babies) top tags for this ship are:

folks, we are a/b/o fiends and we cannot lie. thank you to all the selfless authors for feeding us good a/b/o fic this year. i hope to join your ranks soon.

(also: MPREG. omega sidney crosby. alpha geno. listen, the people have spoken, and like, i am listening.)

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#3 NICOJACK

top tags!!

it seems nice and cozy over there... room for one more?

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BONUS: JDTZ.

i wasnt gonna plot this but @marcandreyuri asked me if i could take a look and the results are so compelling i must include it. are yall ok. do u need a hug

top tags being h/c, angst, angst, TRADES, pining, open endings... T_T katie said its a "torture vortex" and i must concurr

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BONUS BONUS: ALPHA/BETA/OMEGA

as an a/b/o enthusiast myself i got curious as to what the most popular ships were within that tag. if you want me to take a look about this for any other tag lmk, but for a/b/o, as expected, SID GENO ON TOP BABY!:

thats all for now!!! if you have anything else you are interested in seeing the data for, send me an ask and i'll see if i can get it to ya!

[mywifealhaitham]

pre release boothill relationship headcanons!!!

a/n: I'm fiending off crumbs... I've wanted to read some x reader of him but theres none so I gotta write it myself. I hope the other 4 boothill fans enjoy

warnings: gn!reader, like 2 gendered pet names (pretty girl/boy), most of this is written with bias because we don't have alot to go off, obviously written prerelease, when we actually get content of him I'll definitely be rewriting

LEAKS AHEAD!!!

bc: Valentine_DD_ on twt

- Boothill is described as a righteous person if his bottom line doesn't get crossed, so he definitely treats you good. probably more on the protective side when it comes to you, he's probably not afraid to use his gun if someone is threatening you.

- and believe me he's intimidating. from his overall tough and "unruly" cowboy look to his mechanical body it leaves enemies just a little challenged. he lowers his voice too and probably has a more fierce look in his eyes too. after any threats have been delt with he probably turns to you and turns into the sweetest thing ever, a wide grin across his face and his hands on your cheeks peppering you with small kisses.

- Its said he's a bit sophisticated due to his experiences so I'd like to imagine sometimes he charms you with facts and details about other planets or just genuinely sharing some tips and tricks he's picked up from other cultures. he's also a person who can get along with others pretty well but he can easily give strangers an impression he's selfish and is a bad person.

- again this kinda feeds into he's basically you'd guard dog... but I mean who wouldn't want to be saved by a handsome and sweet cowboy. despite his unpredictable personality and looks he's a huge gentleman for sure. always opens doors and pulls out chairs for you, makes sure your behind him and okay if any danger approaches and practically listens to your every command (lowkey giving off my girl and I don't argue she tells me to shut up and I do)

- one part I'm so excited to see is what they mean by he's illiterate and using metaphors. it's probably just him using slang but it's still kinda cute. I feel like his cheesy and strange metaphors turn into pick up lines when talking to you. perhaps he'll pull a "did it hurt when you fell from heaven?" or something cheesier. Definitely a huge nickname guy, almost never uses your real name. I'm guessing he'd use stuff like doll, sugar, baby, pretty girl/boy and more teasing names. heavy on doll and sugar and just imagine him saying it in a deep southern accent... 😍 kicking my feet. also I imagine he loves making you giggle by not cursing (because he literally cant) and normally he'd get pissed if someone laughed at him like that if it's you he doesn't mind at all.

- that's pretty much it for like analyzing the leaks I saw but now the stuff up ahead is just bias yapping because I always project

- HE DEFINITELY IS A HAND KISSER. greets you by getting on one knee, holding his hat to his chest and kissing your hand. makes eye contact with you too and does that toothy smirk of his IM SWOONINGGG

- maybe he's a dancer! pulls you into his arms and places his hat on your head when a good song plays in taverns. even if your clueless on any type of dances then he'll pull you along to the beat whispering Instructions in your ear.

- gets so lovesick when drunk it drives everyone mad. any folks he's sitting with at a bar gets a whole speech on his wonderful beautiful darling who he owes his live and would happily die by their hand. and may God save you when you come pick him up because he'll be all over you. Immediately he wraps a arm around your waist as he slurrs his hello as he proceeds to tell you he loves you like 40 times. besides the mass amounts of kisses you'll receive once you both reach a private spot he let's some feelings that he might be too shy to share normally, holding your face as he calls you his pretty girl/boy and how he's so lucky to have you.

- honestly not the best for cuddling however unfortunately he needs to cuddle you to sleep so goodluck! his metal body isn't completely uncomfortable it's just cold alot. he tries to get around this by literally preheating himself with blankets before you go to bed.

very bad boothill brainrot atm... only a few more weeks until we get official content 😭 everyone hold hands we got this

here's the actual leaks if anyone is curious ^_^

[podcastenthusiast]

Interactions that would exist if all my followers had banter with each other:

Xel, Remi, Val, Kaidan and Lucien would have a book club

Khash and Gore are welcome to join if they want but they're still learning to read and would rather chill by the campfire while Khash braids his hair probably

Inigo and Kaidan commiserate about their days as violent skooma fiends in love with terrible women (bandits, cults, is it so different?) and how much better things are for them both now

Xelzaz would give Val coffee and immediately become Val's best friend much to Remi's chagrin (those are her besties! they can't just be besties with eacb other! Her neurodivergence wouldn't take it well but it's okay they'd talk it out)

Xel and Val would also have a lot to discuss re: Dunmeri culture and Daedra. Maybe the team needs a former Daedra worshippers support group too

I think Khash should pick up curse words in everyone else's native languages. Remi wants to learn Jel, but Khash? Ehh she already knows how to say fuck.

Kaidan is a bit envious of Xel's connection to the Hist and his people, of what a comfort it must be to know you belong to something so much larger like that, to have family out there. Even though he knows family is more than blood.

Inigo would show Khash, just by being himself, that it isn't so bad to be one of a kind

Something about Val loving the sea and Khash's fear of water. Dunno what but there's something there.

Xel does all the cooking basically but Gore will hunt specific animals if he or the player ask. Kaidan helps sometimes too. A lot of mouths to feed.

Gore tries to teach Lucien how to start a fire like a real woodsman and Lucien really tries his best but he just Cannot. Val sneakily lights it with magic, winks at Kaidan and Gore (reinforcements were needed), and is like "Wow! Great job!"

Remi and Lucien have long academic conversations that make no sense at all to most of the party. I also feel like Remi steals like a ring from him before she starts to feel kinda bad and returns it.

Inigo would either think Scrap is the best thing ever and want one too or be utterly appalled that Remi made a spider that is not squishable at all

Given Gore's khajiit admiration he would fuckin love Inigo but not in a lowkey weird academic way like Lucien at first (and Xel most likely lbr), he just thinks Inigo is super cool and he's correct

Gore refuses to believe Lucien gets along with his parents so well. Normal well-adjusted people from good and living families simply don't end up here.

[allied-mastercunt]

I love ur Yandere Ellen idea, please give me more, I’m literally on my knees 😭🙏

Yandere Ellen headcanons

Ellen is suffering so much more than the others. She's lonely, she's scared, she's clinging to her humanity, the only thing she has left.

She's doing so much for the others, and yet, they still treat her like shit (ekhem Ted ekhem).

The only ones treating her decently are you and Benny. And Benny... well, we all know how his mind is. He's barely even human at this point, it was more like a fondness an animal felt to a human who would feed and pet it.

But you, you were right in your mind! And you were kind to her! And oh, so sweet...

With how her life now was, nobody could blame her she started obsessing over you.

You were so nice to her, you protected her, you actually cared about her...

That means you love her, right? Right? You have to love her!

So she starts clinging to you. She tries to hang out with you as much as possible, holding onto your hand tightly whenever she can.

Whenever you rest, she's right next to you, clinging to you.

She knows she's powerless compared to the others, so she can't use physical strength against them.

Instead, she does her best to convince you to ignore them. To only keep your eyes on her. To only speak to her.

She'll pull you to the side as often as she can. She'll talk your ear off.

About how terrible the others are.

About how you're so different than them, you're so kind, so sweet to her.

About how much she loves you, how you're the only one keeping her sane, how she wouldn't want to live without you...

You become her anchor. Her therapist. Anything she can have you as, really.

She puts all her mental and emotional burdens on you. And as exhausting as it is, with how much she clings to you, you can't really let go.

And you know how terrible she has it. How she lets others use her, disregarding her own comfort. You can't take away the one thing that helps her cope!

Besides, shouldn't you hate the others? You should, for all they're putting her through. They're terrible, they're monsters, they're fiends!

(She uses that argument especially often with a female darling, "indirectly" making you feel guilty that she sacrifices herself so that you don't have to go through it all.)

She ends up making you hate the others eventually, especially since AM finds the whole thing amusing as hell, so he amps it all up, just to see how much sweet Ellen is willing to take.

Yes, AM gets off the toxicity here. Fucking cuck.

[cheolsfae]

𑁍SVT reaction to finding you asleep on another member's shoulder

Requested: Nope!

Genre: angst-ish?, fluff

Warning(s): Terms of endearment, slight swearing, not proof read

A/N: Got carried away with Coups! Oopsy! I swear I'm a loyal Vernon stan!

Feed back and re-blogs are appreciated! ✨️

𔘓Seungcheol (S. Coups)𔘓

He felt like he'd get into trouble if Seungcheol had walked in right now and saw that you, the leader's partner, asleep on his team member's shoulder. He was kind of nervous about it but he also didn't want to do anything about it considering you had finished rambling about how tired you were because you were not getting enough sleep. But his shoulder was tired what was he to do? He had two options: 1. Leave you here, resting on the hard bench, and have Coups get angry at him for leaving you like that or 2. Call him and risk having Coups get jealous/annoyed that you were resting on his friend. Either way, it wasn't a good outcome. Chan was so lost in thought that he hadn't realized that Seungcheol was standing right in front of him. The older of the two crossed his arms, obviously annoyed. He cleared his throat to get the younger's attention. Dino's head snapped up, "It's not what you think!" He half shouted/whispered. He didn't say anything and gave Dino the get-lost look. Dino lifted your head gently off his should and moved and made room for Coups to sit. After Coups was adjusted in the seat Chan split. He wanted nothing more than to leave.

𔘓Wonwoo𔘓

Yes, he'd seen you dozing off on the couch waiting for him to finish up his game before leaving the office but he truly thought he wouldn't be much longer. So, when he'd seen you asleep on Coups shoulder, he wasn't surprised. Last time he checked in on you, you and Coups had been laughing at Tiktoks together. Twenty minutes later, your passed out on his shoulder. Made sense. "Sorry," He whispered over to his friend. Seungcheol brushed him off, it wasn't a big deal to him. Wonwoo walked on over to you two turning around, getting low enough, "Help me get them up on my back." Coups did so and the two of you were on your way home.

𔘓Mingyu𔘓

It had been a long time since you'd last gotten some proper rest. Between school, work, and all the little things you had to do, there wasn't time for you to rest. He knew that you were pushing yourself too much. How many times had he told you over the past week to take a day or two to catch up on it? Too many to count. So, to find you fast asleep on Wonwoo's shoulder wasn't much of a surprise. He hated to admit it but he was a little jealous. Anyone who was in the proximity of the trio would know it the instant they looked at Mingyu. It didn't help that Wonwoo was also fast asleep too, his head resting atop yours. He sighed, not really know what to do when Seungcheol clasped his shoulder, "Their tired. Let them both sleep a little longer then you can wake them up." And that's exactly what he did, no matter how much that jealousy bubbled in him.

𔘓Vernon𔘓

You'd been staying up way too late, recently. Much more than usual. You'd been studying for your upcoming finals. So to see that you'd fell asleep on Mingyu wasn't that much of a shocker to him. Vernon didn't really mind it. You looked pretty comfortable. He didn't want to disturb you. Mingyu on the other had was busy taking cringey pictures of you. No, you weren't drooling or anything like that, just bad angles like the little fiend he was. Vernon wasn't stopping him, in fact, he was doing the exact opposite! He was egging him on! "Send me those! I wanna make it my wallpaper!"

𔘓Joshua𔘓

There the two of you sat. One of his earbuds in your ears, fast asleep on his shoulder with him also asleep, drooling slightly; his head against the back of the chair and his mouth slack. He quickly took a picture at the two of you. He would use it later to tease you both. He picked your head off of Vernon, putting it on his own. He plucked the ear bud from your ear, giving it back to Vernon. Feeling something land in his hand, he'd woken up looking confused and dazed. "Go back to the dorm, get some sleep." He didn't need to be told twice. Off he went, leaving you and Joshua in the lounge. Wasn't the best sleep, considering you'd woken up with a neck cramp but it was good enough for you. After you'd woken up, Josh had shown you the picture he'd taken of you guys. you'd never live this down!

𔘓Jeonghan𔘓

He sighed upon seeing the you passed out on his friend's shoulder. How long had he kept you waiting? Couldn't have been more than ten minutes. Yet, here you were asleep on Joshua's shoulder. "One minute they were talking about what you guys had planned, the next their asleep." Joshua was just as confused as your partner was. Well, you had mentioned recently that you hadn't been getting much sleep due to too much stress. "Sorry, let me get them." Joshua shook his head no, "Let them sleep." After a while, you'd woken up. Joshua had been long gone by that point. Somehow, you ended up on Jeonghan's shoulder. "Next time, tell me that you're too tired. We can just go nap instead of going out for a date." He ruffled your hair, you smiled sweetly and went back to sleep.

𔘓Jihoon (Woozi)𔘓

This was the second time this week that he had been running late on date night. So, late in fact, that as soon as he walked out of the studio you'd been asleep in Jeonghan's shoulder while he sat there scrolling idly on his phone. Jihoon sighed, "Let me get them. Sorry." Jeonghan looked up at him, "Hurry my shoulder has gone stiff. I don't know if I can move it anymore." He joked, obviously he didn't mind you sleeping on him otherwise he would have moved. Jihoon rolled his eyes, "Sorry Y/N, Jeonghan said your head is too heavy." You lifted your head, waking up, and seeing your cute partner. A sleepy smile lighting up your face. "You ready to go on our date?" Woozi chuckled, ruffling your hair. "Of course, let's go."

𔘓Seokmin (DK)𔘓

His jaw dropped at the sight of you, resting your sleepy little head on to Jihoon. You looked so cute! What was he to do with himself? He was trying his absolute hardest not to squeal at you! He didn't want to wake you up. Woozi rolled his eyes at his team mate, "They're just sleeping. What's the big deal?" Seokmin laughed, "They're drooling on you and it makes it all that much cuter!" Woozi clicked his tongue, lightly pushing you off of him.

"Let them sleep!"

"Not if they're drooling on me! Let them drool on you!"

𔘓Seungkwan𔘓

We know he's a little bit of a drama queen. We love him for that though! So when he saw you fast asleep on Seokmin's shoulder, pft! It was over for you. He felt like you'd cheated on him! How could you? After you'd woken up, he was being a little curt with you. Very short. Very passive aggressive. "Come on, how was I supposed to know I'd fall asleep on him? It was an accident and I'm sorry!" You immediately knew what he was upset about. You guys had been watching a movie and you'd fallen asleep. "I was sitting on the other side of you! My lap or shoulder were free!" You sighed heavily, this was spiraling. "I'm sorry. Really." He stayed silent, he was getting sulky now. "Fine, I'll forgive you. But if it happens again, you're sleeping on the couch." You wouldn't have this pouty man any other way.

𔘓Soonyoung (Hoshi)𔘓

Shocked, he didn't know really how to respond when he picked you up from studying with Seungkwan. This was definitely not what he was expecting. Seeing you laying on Seungkwan's shoulder fast asleep with you textbooks open and splayed out in front of the two of you. "I thought you said you guys were just studying?" He asked the younger. "We were, they just fell asleep. Come get them, their killing my shoulder." And that's exactly what he did. When you guys got home that night, he was all pouty, "Sleeping on Boo...Can't believe you."

"It was a boring topic! I couldn't help that I fell asleep!"

𔘓Jun𔘓

Soonyoung had facetimed him. "Look at your partner!" He whispered, careful not to wake you up. Jun chuckled a little. You looked absolutely adorable in his eyes. "Come get them or I'm leaving them here!" He focused the camera only on himself now before quickly hanging up the phone. Jun booked it as quickly as he could. When he arrived, he was completely out of breath from all the running. You were already wide awake. He looks between the two of you goofing off. He looked between the two of you, you two looked back at him. "Hi, hon! Why are you out of breath?" You asked, with concern on your face. "Because I thought he was going to leave you here." You laughed, "No! I wasn't going to leave them here! It was a joke!"

𔘓Minghao(The8)𔘓

You'd been so busy lately with work and other things. So when you fell asleep on Jun and he walked in and saw you, he was kind of upset about it. He really wished you'd taken better care of yourself. He'd been trying to get you to take some time for yourself but you weren't having any of it. This wasn't much of a surprise. "Thank you for taking care of them while I was busy." Jun's head shot up from his phone screen, looking at his friend. "No problem. They were excited to see you and then pft." He smiled, he was happy to hear that. What had he done to deserve you?

𔘓Chan𔘓

Pouty! How could you even sleep on another member's shoulder? This was one of the worst kinds of betrayals he's felt! It was a stab to the heart! That is until...he woke up from his dream. He was still in this mood when he walked into the kitchen where you were. "You owe me an apology." He glared at you. You looked at him with complete confusion in your eyes, what the hell was he talking about? You hadn't done anything to upset him, at least as far as you knew. "You cheated on me." Again, another confused look was on your face. "You were laying on Minghao's shoulder fast asleep! How could you?" When had that happened? "Did you have a dream or something? 'Cause I'm more than positive that didn't happen."

"Yes, I had a dream."

You rolled your eyes laughing a little bit, "I would never do that! Only to you!"

He sighed, "Better not."

[karniss-bg3]

The cult of the absolute doesn't strike me as necessarily caring about the quality of life of its followers given they can just-- brain wash them into thinking it's the best. What kind of living situation do you think Kar'niss was put into? After all-- they made an ogre stay in the same rooms as other races.

Without a doubt, the Absolute are dogshit at cultist accommodations. If they had a Yelp page it'd be one stars down the line. Although I hear the continental breakfasts have their perks; If you don't mind tadpoles in your oatmeal, that is.

When it comes to our dear baby boy I fear he may have it the worst out of anyone, or the best depending on how you look at it. I don't believe he lives at the tower full time. Driders are bloodthirsty and are required to consume blood at least every four days, otherwise their bodies begin to break down and they can die. Unless Ketheric Thorm had a steady system to meet these dietary needs it would require Kar'niss to go out on the hunt for meals. And if there is one thing driders are biologically wired to do, it's hunt...and often.

I believe Kar'niss spends most of his time at the camp where you first encounter him.

This area is large enough to handle his size and secluded enough to where he's rarely bothered. Stationed so close to the mountain pass it also affords him the jump on any foolish enough to enter the Shadowlands. If you enter through the doorway at the back you also find a lot of evidence that this could be his primary feeding nest.

Bloody drag marks, bodies in trees and rock faces and skeletal remains piling up in the cavern below, it's the perfect spot for a hungry drider to enjoy his meal in peace. He likely drags his victims to the tree, drinks them dry and discards the remains for scavengers or fiends to clean up.

I also believe this is the real reason he was given the moon lantern. Not because the Absolute actually favored him, but because out of anyone he would be required to venture into the Shadowlands most often. This elected him as the impromptu guide for any True Souls that wandered to Moonrise.

As for where he sleeps, I doubt he does much if at all. Drow only require four hours of rest with their trance ability, and Kar'niss is still labeled as a drow in his profile. Rest wouldn't come easy to him with so many voices bombarding his mind, vying for attention. So when he's not being tasked by the Absolute to act as a guide or some other side venture, he's either hunting or looming at the top of Moonrise tower to be closer to "Majesty". I have an idea as to how Kar'niss became so thoroughly mind fucked by them, but that's for another post.

If he does stay at the tower primarily it would be just as lonely as the pseudo campsite. Kar'niss is the Ned Flanders of the Absolute (with more murder), and everyone else is Reverend Lovejoy. Sure, they believe and follow faithfully, but Kar'niss is a bit too extra even for them. His constant ramblings, his fanatic devotion and how temperamental he can be make him an unpopular option to hang around. He's likely dismissed or outright ignored. In fact now that I think about it, I don't think a single NPC addresses him by name. The guard at Moonrise calls him 'drider' and that's it. Perhaps Minthara does but I can't recall to save my life. Sad.

Overall I think regardless of where he chooses to hang his web, it's a very isolated existence. The Absolute don't care about him, non-cultists don't care about him, and he has an invisible timer ticking down toward his expiration date. The poor creature is simply too brainwashed and broken to know it.

Thanks for the ask!

[blushblushbear]

Not a req but you are feeding us so well I envy ur ability to pump out so many asks so quickly 😭😭

OIJSODJASKLDFJAKSDJFLAKJBDNG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

I try, though I'm constantly questioning the quality and how in character everything is.

Like the volks headcanons that started this whole blog were all debunked by canon (happily! I like what Volks actually is a lot better and I want it so much for the other characters! VERY happy to have been proven wrong) but content is a slow trickle and my brain is buzzing with blush blush SO

honestly at this point I just vomit my thoughts onto tumblr dot com XD XD

I def wanna try and write a bit more like--- fully formed better stuff, BUT THAT TAKES TIME AND ENERGY AND FOCUS and I'm bad at all 3 of those lol

but I'm glad to hear you guys like it and I hope that some of it is actually a good read and not just content for content's sake! (though if it is I wouldn't blame you, I also am CONSTANTLY FIENDING FOR BLUSH BLUSH CONTENT lmao)

[cryptidsurveys]

Thursday, November 14th, 2024.

Do you like to cuddle with your S.O. or do you prefer your space? I'm not in a relationship, but I am a cuddle fiend. I do tend to prefer my space when sleeping, though. Maybe cuddle for a bit and then roll to our respective sides.

What TV shows do you watch on a regular basis?

What is the last thing you scribbled down on a Post-It note? Don't feed Peppercorn. :) Stuck it on a STOP: surgery tomorrow sign and slipped it in the silverware drawer at the shelter on Tuesday.

Do you care if your produce is organic or not? Not really.

Do you have any children? If so, how old were you when you had them? If not, do you think you ever will? I don't. I've never been all that interested in having them, and can't see myself changing my mind or developing that kind of relationship in the small window of time I have left.

Do you get enough calcium? I probably don't get quite enough.

Are you nosy? Yeeeah, but then it's also like, you know what…sometimes ignorance is bliss.

Are you happy with the size of your bedroom? Yeah.

Where was the last place you went that was totally new to you, as in, it was the first time you’d been there? It might have been Paja Jose's, a Mexican restaurant downtown. My parents and I went there for lunch while attending the Chili Festival last year. Well, they got lunch. I got a fried ice cream.

When was the last time you used someone else’s computer? I might have looked something up on my dad's computer within the last few weeks or so.

What’s the relationship status of the last person you talked to? Single/Divorced.

Do you say sorry first? It depends. I'm pretty good about apologizing when I know I'm in the wrong, but I'm not always the first to say it. Sometimes silly pride or whatever gets in the way.

Who will you be spending Christmas with this year? I will probably spend at least part of the day at the animal shelter. The rest of the day will be spent at home with my dad. I might also do something with my mom to celebrate, but not on the day-of.

Did you go to high school with your current best friend? No. I have known them since I was in high school, though.

Have you ever been a passenger in a semi-trailer truck? Yeah. As a child. My mom's car broke down on the interstate on the way home from a grocery trip and a semi driver stopped and give us a ride into town.

Whose was the last funeral you attended? Nick's father's funeral.

Do you avoid using public restrooms? No.

Have you seen any extended relatives in the last month? I haven't.

Do you like eggnog? Yeah.

Who is the person you dislike the most? My sibling. Normally it wouldn't matter because they have no influence on my life, but they decided to crop up in September and be a royal shithead, so…yep.

Do you take part in paying the bills for your household? Yeah.

Do you know anyone with celiac disease? I don't think so.

How many siblings do you have? Are they all full siblings? One. And yes.

What’s the weather like today? 51*F, sunny, no breeze.

How do you usually celebrate New Years? I don't do much of anything to celebrate. I might reminisce about the past year and make some casual resolutions for my future, but that's about it.

Do you currently have any alarms set? One on the microwave for the pecan pie I'm currently baking. It should be going off before too much longer.

Do you like whiskey? I don't really like the taste of any hard liquor, but it was never really about the taste for me anyway…

What type of milk do you like to drink? Almond milk or whole milk.

Do you have a first aid kit at home? I've got some band-aids, lmao, that's basically it.

Are your parents dog or cat people? Is that different or the same as you? They're both cat people, as am I.

What’s your favourite flavour of potato chip? Salt and vinegar, jalapeno, cheddar, bbq, etc.

Would you ever get a matching tattoo with someone? My mom and I have matching tattoos. It wasn't originally planned that way - I got mine some while before she got hers - but she asked if she could "copy me" and I was like, "go for it."

What is your Chinese zodiac animal? Snake.

What form of communication did you last use to talk to the person you're currently interested in? I'm not interested in anyone.

Do you want to see someone right now? No.

What was the last thing you looked up on YouTube? I think it was a video by Unnatural Vegan. I'm not vegan, but I do enjoy her channel/information.

Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any piercings? Yeah.

Do you actually love your parents? I love my dad very much. I'm not sure how to describe how I feel about my mom, but there's more warmth between us than there once was.

What pattern do the sheets on your bed have? They're just plain gray.

Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now? Walmart.

Do you feel uncomfortable sharing drinks with other people? Yeah. I don't want anyone's backwash. :x

Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far?

Do you spend more time outside or inside? Inside.

Would you rather give up the computer or the TV? I've already basically given up the TV. I don't think I've watched it since early 2020.

Last person to make you seriously mad? Alex.

Who have you recently made up with after fighting? I haven't fought with anyone recently.

What kind of toothpaste do you use? I think it's Aim.

What were you doing this morning at 1am? Sleeping.

Have you used a tissue today? Yeah.

The last person that slept in your bed gets arrested, what do you do? Nothing. I doubt I would even be aware of it.

When people ask "how are you?" do you say "good" even if you aren't? It depends on who's asking. I'll answer my dad and my therapist honestly, maybe even my mom depending on what's going on, but when it comes to coworkers I'm pretty much always "good."

How was your Friday? Wonderfully snowy.

Did you speak to your father today? Yeah.

What was the last thing you drank? Water.

How did you wake up this morning? I woke up naturally a little after 6:00am. My version of "sleeping in," lmao.

Some people were really destructive as a child, were you? I did a couple of things that could be considered destructive or cruel, but I wouldn't say I was an unusually destructive child.

Who was the last person you were in a car with? My dad. We went grocery shopping yesterday morning.

Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom. While watching Wild Robot. Except she couldn't see me crying because it was dark in the theater. :')

Do you know anyone that is gothic? Not really…? Maybe hints of that aesthetic, but not full-blown.

Have you seen UP? Yeah.

How is your mom? I haven't talked to her for a bit now… I should text her soon and see if she wants to get together next week during one of my days off.

Do you feel comfortable getting up and giving speeches? Naw.

Have you ever dipped french fries in a frosty? Yeah.

Would you prefer eating jello or pudding? Pudding.

Last time you ate a salad? I had a chicken salad for lunch yesterday.

Have you ever been described as “adorable”? Yeah.

Are you a moody person? Maybe a little bit.

What are you listening to? I'm not listening to anything at the moment.

What video game could you waste the most time on? I don't play any video games these days, but if I happen to get into Stardew Valley…we'll see…

[jacks-dark-oc-stuff]

Hurt

Cw: physical/verbal abuse

Summary: Adonis finds Rowan once more being abused by Gideon. He does his best to comfort the king.

“You pathetic whore! If you pull that shit again, I'll make your punishment worse, got that?” Gideon snarled as he slapped Rowan. “Fucking answer me!”

“...Yes.” The king murmured as he tried to hide the way his voice wanted to break. Rowan couldn’t let the old man know he was still the scared little kid he had first preyed upon.

“Tch, good.” The duke clicked his tongue as he tipped Rowan's chin up. “I push you, so you'll be a good king. You know I'm only doing this because I love you, right?” Gideon asked in a tone that made Rowan's stomach churn.

“Yes.” He felt defeated. Nothing he could do would get him out of this. He could only hope the old duke's fiend heritage had no effect on his life span.

“Hmph, good. Now, good night. I have a big day tomorrow, so this was a good stress relief session.” Gideon turned and left. Once the man turned the corner, Rowan's legs gave out.

“Rowan…?” Great, it was Adonis. He had seen everything, no doubt. It took everything Rowan had to not give into the beast right at that moment.

“O-oh, you saw that? I apologize…” Rowan strained to say as he swallowed the lump in his throat. He couldn’t look at the man behind him. Not after what had happened.

“No… no need to apologize… That guy's a piece ‘a shit, and he smells like musty metal.” It almost made Rowan laugh. Adonis was terrible at comforting people. “But, um, it's kinda cold out… so how's about we get you in where it's warm?”

“That… that sounds nice…” Rowan sighed as the man picked him up. Closing his eyes, the king leaned his head against Adonis’ chest plate. It was cold, but Rowan felt closer to his knight this way.

~~~

Rowan was acting distant more than he had before, despite the fact he hadn't let Adonis leave his sight. The knight was panicking internally. He knew of Rowan's curse, and he knew the king was close to cracking.

“Hey, I think you should eat something warm,” Adonis suggested as he watched Rowan lying in bed, staring at the canopy. He almost wanted to force the king to eat. “...C'mon, please?” If it meant begging, Adonis would get on his knees.

“I'm not hungry.” Rowan hadn't even turned his head to look at his knight once. Then, Adonis got an idea.

“Oh shit, I have training in the morning. I'll get Cora to look after you.” Adonis hoped he was convincing. He stood and turned to leave when Rowan called him out on his lie.

“You're a horrible liar,” Rowan said flatly. “I know your schedule. I know you have tomorrow off.” Of course, he would know his knight's schedule.

“Well, I'm leaving unless you eat!” Adonis stomped his foot like a toddler. He felt like a one with how badly he wanted to lie down while screaming and flailing.

“...Fine.” It seemed Rowan really didn't have much fight left in him. Adonis felt like shit for using Rowan's fear of abandonment against him, but he needed to eat.

“Okay. I'll call a maid.” Thankfully, Adonis wouldn't have to leave. There were servant bells in Rowan’s room. They were magic and alerted different people depending on what bell they held.

Adonis fumbled a bit, as he still had trouble reading, before finding the bell for the kitchen and ringing it. It wouldn't take long for a maid to come running. Soon enough, there was a knock at the door, and Adonis was requesting chicken soup noodle soup for Rowan.

~~~

Rowan wasn’t hungry. In fact, eating was the furthest thing from his mind, but it would make Adonis happy, and he knew his body needed it. After the stress he went through, Rowan knew his body was already losing strength.

“Here it is!” Adonis cheered as he pulled the bowl of warm soup from the dumbwaiter. “And it's still steaming.” Rowan didn't really have the energy to sit up.

“You'll have to feed me,” Rowan sighed. “My body is tired.” He could always count on his knight to help him when he was like this.

“Sure thing,” Adonis hummed as he helped his king sit up. “I like this soup. It's better than the stuff I ate at camp, but sometimes I miss it.” Rowan couldn’t understand how the man would miss the dried meat and gruel he claimed to eat.

The soup did make Rowan feel better. It warmed him and made some strength come back. He preferred the broth and chicken over the noodles. They were too slimy for Rowan's taste.

“I feel like I'm feeding a baby.” For some reason, Rowan let that slide. He always let the knight get away with dumb shit. After Rowan finished the bowl, Adonis put it on the bedside table.

“Stay tonight.” Rowan didn't want to be alone. Adonis nodded and tried to get comfortable in the chair he was sitting in. “Join me.” The knight looked slightly hesitant, but got in bed with him. “Thank you.” Rowan muttered as he rolled over and snuggled into Adonis’ side.

“Huh? O-of course!” Adonis stammered. Any other day, Rowan would tease the man for his shyness, but he was tired and just wanted to feel his knight beside him. Even if he didn't hold him, Rowan felt better curled up next to Adonis.

Then, carefully, Adonis pulled the king onto his chest. Rowan was too grateful for the affection to care about the surprise he should feel at the knight taking initiative. Adonis holding him was all he wanted at the end of the day. Now, despite everything, Rowan could sleep peacefully.

[laugtherhyena]

[Csm oc] Cherry

Back at it again with another lore rundown, this time for my boy Cherry! It's shorter than the girl's one but took a while to post because this man was quite challenging to edit in manga style. Before reading i recommend reading through this post, if you haven't already, since there i go into detail on how his powers work

Katana man arc

-Cherry is seen fighting zombies alongside the other fiends and devils of the 4th division. He's telling jokes to the zombies, a hoard of them charges towards him but before he even gets to the punchline their bodies crumble into piles of rotting flesh on the floor. Cherry laughs at his own joke while asking the zombies if they get it, he kicks one of their heads away which lands on Angel's shoe.

Bomb girl arc

-Makima assigns Cherry and Beam as Denji's temporary partners, as Power needs to get her blood drained. while Beam jumps to hug him Cherry stands behind Makima adjusting his tie, he wants to make a good first impression. It's only after Denji knocks Beam on the floor that Cherry approaches him, extending his hand towards his hero.

-When Beam goes to hug Denji again, Cherry does the same, nodding his head at Beam's words that Master chainsaw's orders are absolute.

-As Denji walks on the street the next day followed by the two. When it starts raining Cherry runs around after Denji as he looks for cover before leaning against him and using his arms to try sheltering Denji from the rain, Denji hits his chest with his elbow and yells at Cherry to back off.

-He then calls Cherry and Beam assholes and tells them to stop running around and be quiet otherwise they won't be able to walk around these streets anymore, Cherry nods and proceeds to hide in an alley while Beam goes underground using his powers.

-Later when Reze transforms and launches herself towards Beam and Denji, Cherry intercepts her by charging towards her and punching Reze square in the face while shouting her name, Reze gets knocked back to where she was before. Cherry goes to deal with her while Beam and Denji escape from the area.

-Cherry tries to keep a distance and avoid Reze's attacks while continuing to talk to her. He talks about school and how he doesn't see a point in attending one as a devil, he asks Reze if she likes school, what subjects she thinks are the hardest, what she would like to have for school lunch and how he wouldn't settle for anything less than torikatsu.

-While Reze does get affected by Cherry's power, shown by her weakened powers, reduced speed and skin becoming wrinkled, she simply triggers a full body explosion near him which not only reverts her body to its original state but also launches Cherry all the way down the hill.

-Three private hunters spot Cherry laying on the street, they approach him only for Reze to jump in, landing on Cherry's abdomen making the devil contort in pain.

-The trio reports the situation on a walkie talkie before Reze triggers another explosion which kills all the hunters and leaves Cherry far too injured and exhausted to follow her. He crawls towards the burnt remains of the hunters and feeds off their corpses to slowly regain a bit of strength.

International assassins arc

-Cherry, Beam and Prince were with Makima dealing with some of Santa's dolls in a building, she orders the boys to go help Denji and the two proceed to head to the department store to do so.

-When they arrive at the scene Beam pushes Long away from Denji and Cherry starts attacking her while the two begin making their way out of the building.

-Cherry throws kicks and punches at Long while asking her if she's been enjoying the trip to japan, Pingtsi frees herself from Power's grasp and uses her ability to analyze Cherry, She joins the fight telling Long that they need to cover up their ears as Cherry's powers only work if you can hear him clearly.

-Seeing as the girls have their ears covered, Cherry starts speaking louder while attacking more viciously. He asks them what places have they visited on the trip so far, if they've been to any good restaurants, if the hotel they're staying at is a good one, saying that the best hotels out there are the ones with room service.

-Cherry gets his arms removed by the Darkness devil, unlike the others, He expresses no reaction to that.

-Their fight is interrupted by Santa sending everyone in the building to hell via her contract with the Hell devil. Upon their arrival, Cherry stands up effortlessly and looks towards the horizon, standing completely still as his glowing eyes slowly disappear within the darkness of his skull. The look of someone who knows the end of this cycle draws near.

-Cherry and Beam give Denji their blood, he then positions himself behind Denji and pushes him to be in a sitting position as Beam pulls on his chainsaw cord. The Darkness devil sees this and slices both of them into pieces. Cherry's severed head lands near Beam's, their foreheads gently touching.

Gun devil arc

-Aki says that Cherry is dead as he lists the fates of the people who were involved in the last mission to Denji.

Control devil arc

-Cherry's body is seen in the corridor alongside all the other deceased fiends and devils from public safety, kneeling between Beam and Seraphim.

[cricketcampbell]

BIOGRAPHY • MUSINGS • INTERACTIONS

character name: cricket james campbell

nickname: chef, bug (by her mom)

age & dob: november 14, 1997 (27)

gender identity & pronouns: female, she/her/hers

sexual orientation & relationship status: bisexual, in a relationship (as of 2/14/25)

residential area: ocean crest apartments

occupation: personal chef

place of birth: tuscon, arizona

length of time in aurora bay: three years (as of jan 2025)

personality traits: + audacious, - naive

faceclaim: rachel sennott

FAMILY.

mother: libby campbell

father: unknown

siblings: mavis campbell

cousins: atlas nolan, scottie nolan

TL;DR.

tw power dynamic

grew up on the road at the whims of her generally unstable mother, who never could quite manage to settle down in one place...until she did, with a man who had no idea that she had children and essentially left cricket in the dust. after a nannying gig gone wrong (affair with her boss), realized her passion for taking care of people through food, and attended culinary school in california, where she returned after a brief european stint over two years ago to work as a local personal chef!

HEADCANONS.

is fully convinced that miley cyrus and hannah montana are, in fact, two entirely separate people and will not be accepting any criticism on her theory!

diet coke fiend, her go to caffeine fix more than anything else

sometimes lies just for fun, a habit she picked up in her childhood, especially when she knew she wouldn't be sticking around somewhere for long--not usually about anything major, just a little something to keep it interesting

only got her first cellphone a few years back but caught on very quickly; doesn't quite understand twitter yet but is fully addicted to tiktok and has recently started posting little day in my life as a personal chef videos as a sort of online journal

has absolutely zero clue who her birth father is and never bothered to ask, but thinks her middle name could maybe possibly be a homage to him

cooking for others is her love language but when it comes to feeding herself, it's either strictly the basics (kraft mac & cheese, pb&j, cup noodles) or she's ordering takeout! definitely pays for dashpass

recently adopted a street cat she's named caesar (after the salad ofc)

despite the lack of stability, the one thing her mom was serious about was school, so through a combination of both in person and homeschooling, cricket did get a high school diploma, and even managed to graduate early

personal chef is her main gig, but does offer a less expensive meal prepping service for some extra cash!

has a finsta @friendswholunch where she posts little photo dumps of pics she snaps of her friends when they go out/come over to eat! not only to document good meals but also good company 🫶

started and runs a cookbook of the month club! basically everyone chooses a different recipe to recreate from the same cookbook and then all meet up on the 3rd saturday of the month for a cute little potluck 🤭

CURRENT CONNECTIONS.

younger half-sister of @maviscampbell

locked in/is finally fully aware that she's in a relationship with @mackmontgomery

ocean crest mommy issues club founding members with @finnbrooks

her recipe tester guinea pig/not so reluctant sous @aidenxstevens

forever hiding from their awful third roomie with @lorelailewis

the older brother she (probably) never had @buddywellls

co-club head and dinner party coordinator for @samucl-kane's community garden

wants @paxton-brady's mom to adopt her

culinary school pals/used to run a pop up restaurant out of @solaadisa's apartment

london friends with @luckylewis

work besties to reg besties pipeline @helenasoarcs

@santiagodeleons used to date her mom

cool older sister vibes @thegillyxliang

cousin of @atlasnolan and @scottienolan

if @ravirussell has zero haters it’s because cricket’s dead!!!

personal chef for @vanessagable and @xaviermattthews

two dumb bitches telling each other exactlyyyy @ziggykyeons

WANTED CONNECTIONS.

clients (either personal chef or meal prepping)

someone who she sometimes enlists as a sous chef

blasts from the pasts from her time on the road/abroad

stable influence(s)

roomies

somewhat recent ex

someone (or someones!) she'd consider to be her best friend(s)

members of her cookbook club or the community garden!

someone she's decided to lie to for fun and it's just spiraled from there

friends who've had a falling out/frenemies/enemies

party/drinking/smoking friends

fans of her tik tok

neighbors

fwbs/one night stands/tinder dates

@aurorabayaesthetic

[kloudslog]

If I took him

"

If I had taken the chance

Then would he be back

Why do I miss him this much

He wasn't mine to grasp

Only knew him a month and

Yet I feel blank

Want to be asleep

Fight god and this plan

If only my parents could be honest, have said

We never want you back

Just go away

I want them to stop 

Lying to me

Running out of time

Wake up in the cold

My meds will run dry, then

What will that hold

Could barely keep thought

My focus is shot

I should have fucking

Adopted that dog

If i took him home,

Would things be well still

Why was this the breaking point

Of my will

He would have a bed

And he would be safe

He would see the snow- fuck-

He’d see all the states

We’d run on the beach

He would eat and eat

Id make it so 

The pain of the past would leave

He wouldn't be scared

He just needed time

Kept getting returned

Oh what a crime

Why does my heart burn?

This dog of a month, 

Never adopted to me

My parents decided I wasn’t worth the feed,

They called me a monster

Depressive fiend

They looked at my face and called all their faults

Tried to make it seem like it was all my fault

All my friends had bailed

My siblings had cried

They begged me to stay

Parents said i was a crime

what could I say?

And I was alone,

I was scared

I would snap at anyone who would come near and-

He was alone, 

And he was scared

And he would snap at us all out of fear

And I’m still alone

And I'm still scared

But I had stopped snapping at the people here

He wouldn’t stop snapping and people became scared

Would that have been me if I never cared?

I failed to save him but made sure to cry,

I knew it was wrong to not say goodbye

I watched him doze around, til he fell asleep

And he fell asleep right by my feet

And I said goodbye as he laid on that throne

Memories I had planned all burning in that stove

The doctors had quietly said “hes gone” 

And man what have I done

To the one thing I got?

I have no friends

My family forgot

I move to another state to restart

I cant call to Hel, but she keeps taking my mind

Keeps taking my focus

how I’m running out of time

I should have taken my best friend home

But I adopted his ashes and-

Home into my van

That the windows may leak

Looking at the one piece of him

That I can keep

I was to late

To take him with me

No snow on his feet

No simple life dream

My future was with him

And now its all gone

I shouldn't have planned it

On a shelter dog

A dog who would snap,

But clearly wanted love

He’d climb in my lap

Let me hold him and touch

he was given to another 

who swore to do such

She broke our trust 

brought him back without luck

It was his last chance,

I took to long to say

“Give him to me, he is my only way”

He’s all that I had

I had lost way to much

And now I had lost the one thing I could touch

The one guy that I knew 

my future would be with

And I had failed to save him 

They said I couldn''t take him 

I asked to adopt and they told me why

He had too many chances

But never could fight

The demons in his mind

That would cause him to bite

I failed him that night

Couldn’t save him alright

And now the one soul that I loved 

Had to die

If I took him

 

We’d play in the snow until dusk

Warm up by a fire

Give him tea to warm up

Given him all the toys and the best food I could buy

He’d get all the chances to chase birds

I would try

He’d have a throne next to me on my drives

He’d be able to sleep in his warm bed at night

I would read all my books that I had in supply

Read him so he’d know he was safe in the vans light

We’d go to the mountains, the sea, and to lakes

He’d fall asleep while the radio played

If ever the need id take him overseas

He was such a small dog I’d just fly him with me

The world is such a fucking scary place

He didn't need to be pushed away

He would have a home, full belly, a way

To escape all the horrors that he had faced

All he needed was a safe place

I would get a land in the future with ducks, with goats and with plants and it would just be us

He could chase the ducks

run around all day

My goal was to make him forget where he came

Just as he helped me forget the place I came

And yet

I had failed

To save my only 

"

{{ Recently I had to put down my dog, I wasn't able to adopt him as he was at the shelter I worked at. Originally he was adopted, and I was happy for him... but they returned him, having done the opposite of what we told her to do, and he bite her and her husband.

I should have taken him the moment he returned, but I hesitated, assumed he would still be here when my van conversion was done (I live in my van, and I'm still converting it).

three days off his bite hold, we learned he was to be euthanized.

and it became to late to adopt him, I tried but... I wasn't allowed to anymore.

I couldn't save him.

I have been dealing with this feeling since, its only been a week but mixing it with my current burnout and such... He was all I had, and planned my future on.

Wrote this, its not the best but it made me feel a little better. }}

[heartfullofleeches]

Eye Candy

Little blurb with my candy flavored fiend feeding you a late Halloween treat.

(Tw: [candy] Cannibalism)

"Y/n! Look what "eye" found!"

A few days after Halloween and you'd completely finished your supply of candy meant to last well into the following month. You were hanging out with your friend when you popped the last sweet in your mouth, your displeasure made known as you stared at the bottom of the bowl. Fortunately for you, the sugary devil wouldn't let their dear beloved go without their greatly desired treats and came prepared.

As you leave the bathroom, you're rushed by Sucrose - offering you something from their outstretched hand. It was a piece of taffy, about the shape and size of a human eye and decorated just like one as well.

"I had another piece of candy in my bag. Want it?"

You're unsure, but with how they press it to your lips you could tell you weren't getting out of this without taking a bite. You open your mouth, nearly choking as they shove it in your mouth, fingers lingering against your lips. It's slightly warm, but not to an unpleasant degree. Due to its size, it hangs out your mouth as you bite down. Sucrose licks their lips as your eyes widen.

It was filled with.. something. As the taste rolled around on your tongue, you realize it to be berry flavored jam. An odd combination, yet one that strangely worked. You chew and devour the entire thing, unaware to their squirms and the bite of their lips to keep any unwanted noise from leaving out.

"H... how was it, Y/n?"

You lick the jelly from the corner of your mouth. "Pretty good."

Sucrose blushes. You're not just a tease, but a flirt as well. They feel like they've gone to heaven, if such a place end exists. The pain from the hole in their head only makes it all more delicious. They practically drool as they asks.

"Do you want the other? Maybe a wax tongue? It's cherry flavored!"

They pant as they wait for you reply, hair falling from the side of their face as they experience a full body shiver. Meanwhile, all you can do is wonder why their left eyelid remains shut.

[dvilsdesire-a]

It had all been a trick, of course. He'd entirely planned on getting them both on the floor, and for Alaara to finally feel what it was like to be beneath him. A tease to himself, truly, for he wanted so desperately to taste her. She was, unfortunately... untouchable. And because of that, it only made Haarlep want it more. Such was the life of a fiend, always wanting what they couldn't have.

If it were a different time, if he had not become fond of her in his little incubus way, then he may have trapped her there, may have charmed her entirely to the point where she wouldn't want to push him from on top of her.

Conflicting feelings for a fiend, for instinct time him to do everything that he was made to do, and yet... he did not want to upset her.

"It is most definitely a win for me," he grinned, his voice a little hiss between them. "Though, I'd say it's a win for you, too, to feel me so close like this." The heat radiated off him, the warmth of the Hells themselves.

He pushed himself back, offering his hand to her. "To taste you would be a treat, Alaara. A forbidden fruit. I will not defile you when you have your heart set on another, but know that I do crave it from time to time. An incubus must feed, and your soul smells so sweet, as your flesh. The victory here, is all yours, my dear."

Alaara was caught by surprise by Haarlep's next move. She laid on the ground, stunned that she had quickly ended up underneath the incubus.

"You-" She blinked as she started up at him.

She wanted to be mad but she just couldn't muster it. She snorted in frustration, shook her head a little, but ultimately made no biting remarks on her situation. Instead she started to laugh.

"Clever bastard," she said. "Does this mean we've both won the fight? I took you to ground and you've come up on top? Or is this only a win for you? Surely this is your wildest dream come true?"

[lavenprinz]

pairing: childe x fem reader (it can be gender neutral if you ignore the use of she pronouns like once or twice! i can edit it to a gn or male version if wanted)

warnings: major character death, suicide, yandere themes, reader was kidnapped by childe, angst is the vibe #enjoy if u cry lmk <3

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word count: 1.7k (not fully edited because we die like real men)

when childe joins the tsarita at the front lines to rebel against celestia, you had no worries at all. though you were kidnapped long ago by the man, your days were filled with nothing but peace and adoration from the once intimidating man who now is more like an overgrown puppy in love to you. he even gave you an affectionate nickname that had made your heart flutter, being his солнышко. you had even placed a gentle goodbye kiss to his cheek of your own will as he left the front door of your estate, spending your free time alone and missing him with fondness in your mind. there were days in the past where you were afraid of your situation, calling him a kidnapper, a fiend who had taken you from your life! though now you knew, he had freed you from a life of working to relaxing in his arms, being spoilt with countless gifts and genuine love from childe. it had been a stark contrast from your life without others to share it with, always afraid that they would be gone due to the ongoing tensions in teyvat.

so when your maidservant delivered the most shocking news of your life, it had basically killed you.

"lord harbringer is dead."

it should’ve brought you joy as his captive but all you felt was dread. he’s dead? childe and dead don't belong in a sentence, you scoffed to yourself. though the serious look from your maidservant didn't disappear from her face and you felt your heart wrench against your will as your eyes begin to fill with tears. "no! that's impossible, he wouldn't have died, he- he can't." a hiccup broke through your arising heaving sobs as you mumbled incoherently, "he promised me, he wouldn't leave me here alone." you found yourself, collapsed against your bed like a war widow, sobbing into the sheets in fear and heart break, it felt as if your world was ending. you weren't even scared as your captor had left to rebel against celestia but now? the sky had decided to fall upon you and leave you to die without childe's hand to hold.

the days moved on without you knowing as you sat blankly on your bed, watching the sunrise to no news and sunset with lonesome emptiness. if not for your maidservant, you would've remained immobile, sat at your window sill as if waiting, for childe to appear and smile with boyish cheer, letting you know that it was all a silly joke. when you felt your memory of his face begin to slip, you'd walk to the room with the giant portrait of you two, seemingly in love. nobody knows the truth behind the painting beyond the artist, childe and your gone self who had struggled as childe kept you beside him. "i don't want a painting with my kidnapper!" "oh baby, what will we show our kids one day?" "you're sick! i'm never having kids with you, ever!" how you regretted those words as you missed that very man every moment since the news of his sudden passing.

though you desired so desperately to be with him, the estate was always escape and death proofed, just specially for you. back in the times when, when childe had still been around and afraid that you would strike out against him. as if you could've, falling for the man with his sly words and broken promises before you could've even tried to leave. hell, if childe had offered you a way out like his death, you didn't even want to take it.

so on your birthday, it hurts your heart to sit by the dining table alone, a grand feast in front of you but missing the greatest present of all you could've wished for this year. childe, alive, goofily feeding you a plate and joking of a future with your children or you loving him. tears fell from your face as you chose a dish from the spread, taking his favourite seafood soup that didn't taste the same without him. to your surprise however, you noticed that the cutlery included a knife for once. it had been a long time since anything like a weapon was near you and it almost seemed too opportune. what else could you possible as for this year other than to join childe by dying? nobody could stop you, after all, you were practically all alone and hysterical in the estate without him! just why, why did he have to leave you alone until you had to choose this method to finally join him? you've missed him so much that stabbing yourself in the heart doesn't even hurt as much as the knowledge that he had left long before you and now finally, as your tears fall down your face from the pain and heartache, you can reunite with him.

unbeknownst to you and the staff of the mansion childe had constructed just for you, your daily activities were recorded in case of his death and sent to none other than the tsarita. yes, he was reportedly dead. but only to a select few, he was alive and recovering. childe had kept away from you, observing you instead with love in his heart. he had missed you the entire battle though he knew, since teyvat was no longer the same, you may had wanted to leave. so he let them know that he was gone, so you could choose while he recovered. it surprised him when you had instead stayed, apparently writing long letters addressed to him daily and wait for him by the expansive windows he had installed just for you. childe found it so sweet, his солнышко, waiting for him though he was currently needing archon treatment for the aftermath of his delusion usage. he had planned a joyous return as a gift, a present for your birthday. when he strided into the estate, announcing cheerily, "i'm home солнышко!" only to be met with silence, had an eerie atmosphere and the sight that greeted the man made his heart stop.

like a sick version of romeo and juliet, you lay dead, heart pierced for his eyes to feast upon. though he had seen carnage of battle fields and sights that demons would shrink in fear towards, only this struck him with pure terror, his mind filled with alarms and heart racing as he ran towards your limp form to find no heartbeat.

“no no no no, this can’t be happening. солнышко, wake up, this isn’t some joke. i’m home, love, please, look at me! look at me god damn it!” he’d sit the stiff body up only to look into your lifeless eyes, face drained of colour and clearly unwell. his heart ached as he sank to the floor, head buried in his hands from denial. “why? it’s your birthday dear… i came home. why are you dead?” the guttural yell of agony could be heard across the estate, causing your maid servant to hurry into the parlor only to see an impossible sight of the lord harbringer on his knees as you sat like a skeleton above him, unmoving like you were less than an hour ago. "tell me! why is she dead? what happened here!" the rage in his voice told the agent that their next words would cost them their lives if the answer was unsatisfactory though the emotions coursing through childe's body only had one outlet at the moment now that you were gone. to kill. "my lord.. i had left her to eat not even an hour ago to let her meet you privately when you returned. this situation- had never occurred to me would happen."

childe, rightfully out of his mind, felt the impulse to throw a dagger at the maidservant's throat though was stopped by his thought of you, who would've plead for their safety and to not stain the dinner table with blood. his heart twisted at the very imagination of you, pained that you were now unreachable, body decomposing by his very face. "i came home too late didn't i солнышко? i'm sorry." with his pride abandoned by the loss of you, childe stood up shakily to scoop up your cold body in a gentle carry while walking towards your bedroom. "i'll.. help you sleep. for as long as you need, my love." the world had been robbed of light for childe as you departed, his colourful spring that had finally come because of you, returned to the black and white desolate winds of winter that reminded him of the abyss. the underlings of tartaglia could observe over the next weeks his deteriorating health, haunted by visions of you everywhere he went. the estate was sealed up, visitors forbidden and business terminated as the harbringer spent his time alternating your favourite spots, his study filled with secretly commissioned paintings of you full of life unlike his stark reality devoid of your existence, and lastly your grave in a glass greenhouse filled with eternally blooming gardens.

one agent recounts to others in a mournful tone of his experience on guarding the estate at night shift, spooked by the sounds of sorrowful cries echoing the halls and seeking out the source, only to find the lord harbringer in tears in front of a dimly lit portrait of his deceased lover in his arms. another underling speaks of the long hours their master spends sitting by your grave, as if entranced by something that eyes cannot see.

they don't know that childe is plagued with visions that he had imagined to himself with cheer in the past as he read the reports on your activity, only to see you miserable in the places you were in the distant past. you always seemed to plead to yourself for death, so you could be with childe. the words haunted him constantly, through every waking moment until finally childe reached a stage of grief he couldn't stand anymore. "if you wished so dearly to be dead so you could be with me, so do i солнышко." in the hours without the sun, the lord harbringer childe's life was ended by his own hands to join his deceased lover, reunited by death under the crestfallen moon.