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I got $1,000 on Cephandrius/Hoid inventing the job of the Kingâs Wit waaaaayyyyy back in Rosharan history just so he could assume the role again & again every time he comes back.
I could cite some evidence and postulate more closely on theory in order to convince you⊠but come on⊠we all know I donât need to.
This is the most absolutely in-character thing he could do.
Like who else would come up with a position at court, similar to the court jester but without the goofy clothing & other humiliation, where all you do is insult people without consequences?!?!?
#roshar#stormlight archive#wit#cephandrius#hoid#hoid cosmere#cosmere#made a nice lil cozy spot in society for when he needs to take a break#brandon sanderson#if thatâs not the case then this is the one and only chance brando has missed#fun headcanon#even though its completely canon#i will not budge on this#dragonsteel#tor books#next arcanum unbounded addition?#just wit going around planet to planet doing things that are really just for him#another inclusion should be what he was up to in Kholinar during the siege#also his first encounter with the midnight sorceress#and how he met sigzil#speaking of which#WHAT THE FUCK DID BRANDON DO/IS GONNA DO TO MY POOR SWEET SIGZIL!?!?!????!!!#suddenly very scared about Knights of Wind & Truth#why isnât Nomad=Kaladin?#i could live with that#would still hurt#but damn!!!
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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
Plain-text version:
Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
#hlep#original#mental health#my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need.#the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it#i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support#and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist.#the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28!#a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents.#they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of#huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the#longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong.#and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives.#you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead?#or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of.#no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow.#i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel#i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong.#just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop
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okay but a like post-series fic i want that's like: steve harrington being the only man left in hawkins fighting monsters
and not like a 'everyone died, last man standing' way but just. they beat it back, the story ends, nice little tie-up and neatly concluded, eleven loses her powers because their world is completely cut from the other. and life goes on. eddie (yes, eddie lives au don't fight me) goes off with his band, robin-nancy-jargyle off to separate cities for college. the kids go to high school, graduate high school, and scatter across the country. joyce and hop buy a beach house far-far-far away from goddamn hawkins indiana.
steve though. steve stays. he does it too without comment, takes all their calls telling him all these amazing things. the years pass. the calls are fewer and far between. he's mostly in contact with only dustin and robin. except robin's out of country doing some crazy temp job in some remote country, she never catches him at home right now so just leaves him messages. and it takes a couple of weeks for dustin to realize he hasn't gotten steve on the phone.
frantically he calls around "have you heard from steve???" except the most people talk to steve anymore is like phone calls during holidays and holy shit what could have happened??
and what if it's back?
cue everyone who can in that moment, rushing back. eddie hopping on a flight from fucking london direct to indianapolis somehow, heart in his throat. he manages to meet hopper in the airport and they pick up max and dustin at the bus station.
they get to hawkins that is even more different that what they left. a smaller town, a town that shuts down completely when the sun sets. it's creepy and deserted.
except for the fucking upside down monsters of course.
and they're in their stupid little rental in front of this demogorgon and they're screaming but then the thing just goes splat on the concrete and steve fucking harrington is blinking owlishly at them.
"Oh, hey guys!" he calls jogging up to the driver's side window. "Wow, what brought you back down this way? You should have told me, I would have told you about the curfew!"
turns out steve just forgot to pay his phone bill that month, didn't even realize he was missing calls and he's been fighting monsters the entire time because actually they WEREN'T cut off from the upside down at all and he's just been casually fighting monsters for the remaining hawkins residenceâthe whole town knows now and steve's the guy you call when you have a monster problem
sidebar: WAYNE still lives in hawkins, and he and steve are best friends, eddie munson you are gonna LOSE YOUR MIND
#stranger things#steddie#because who am i if i don't make things about steddie#the steve harrington whump being left behind and abandoned again of it all#who's been spending christmas with him????#dw he actually probably had a grandma rotation + wayne BUT STILL#steve who is thriving in adversity best he can but rightfully hurt about being the last one there i can have both#'i don't need you to have a fulfilling life but it sure would have been nice if any of you had stuck around'#okay im done thank you for coming to my elevator pitch#shush mal#if this fic exists you're legally obligated to send it to me#i'll sue you if you don't#my steddie ideas
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What do you think of Rook's savanaclaw card? <333
I didn't get him (and I need to save my keys for Silver's birthday, sob) so I looked up his groovy, and I'm not over how incredibly dramatic and epic and cool it looks in direct contrast to the absolutely ridiculous context. just look at that dynamic action and his majestic sparkling tears and keep in mind that this is pretty much right after a bunch of characters have been dance battling for his soul.
and then even the actual moment of the groovy is just like
this is NOT a negative in the slightest, I love it all, this truly was an incredible update in so many ways
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 8 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 8 spoilers#to be fair it's not COMPLETELY wacky there is actual drama going on#but that's inbetween rook's dream-vil and neige being totally hilarious at each other#'i shan't let you hurt this beautiful child!' 'vil no! if they were to harm your beauty i would be crushed by sorrow!' <- actual dialogue#also neige seeing vil as a mother figure. it's WONDERFUL and i hope real-vil never finds out because this would kill him#just like he killed neige multiple times in his own dream! :)#there was so much wild stuff in this update and not in the least was that the second time vil realized he was in a dream#his reaction was to KILL EVERYONE and cackle maniacally about it#god forbid a queen do anything i guess#anyway i also love the contrast between what i assumed savanarook would be like and what he was actually like#'he looks so wild...what kind of dangerous dream will this mighty hunter have...'#oh no he's actually just an adorable movie geek who is SO EXCITED to share his hyperfixation with us#somehow less intimidating than regular rook#and yet still a delightful little freak. his BEDROOM#the background artist went SO ham on it. truly the magnum opus of twst backgrounds#there are a bunch of little details it is SO worth zooming in on#(including a tiny little picture of che'nya! which...actually i think that implies rook may have stolen an rsa yearbook or something)#(that's our rook! /sitcom laugh track)
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Minthara says âin Her nameâ when you first meet her and sheâs following the Absolute but when you recruit her and she expresses that she no longer follows any god, but she still has an intact paladin oath, and she says âin your nameâ occasionally because sheâs no longer Lolthâs paladin or the Absoluteâs paladin, sheâs your paladin
#đ#she might not think youâre a god or whatever but youâre the only one that ever came to save her#and if you let her read your mind youâre the only one she knows has no intention to hurt or use her#like I feel like what Minthara wants most of all is to not have to look over her shoulder or wait for the shoe to drop#like every relationship sheâs had as a lolthsworn drow has come with the caveat that everyone will take her out if they have the chance#and if it benefits them even a little#lolth literally encourages this so long as you arenât obvious about it#and lolth will 100% punish you the second she has an excuse to#and then the absolute like while she was being controlled probably felt more like genuine love than Minthara ever experienced#but it came with Orin and punishments for failing#and her being literallly mind controlled into her#so itâs still violent and threatening even if the extent of that is only realized after sheâs pulled out of it#but then thereâs you who pulled her out of that#who can clearly and plainly show her that you have no intention of hurting her even if it benefits you#and who went out of your way to rescue her when no one else she was devoted to ever would#and you offered her the means to not only stay safe from the absolute but to get revenge on it#of course itâs âin your nameâ now youâre the only person that gave Minthara a reason for her to follow you#that wasnât threats of violence and suffering#you literally gave her the opposite#sheâs YOUR paladin it doesnât matter if arenât a god#you could be tho#Minthara#minthara baenre#bg3#baldur's gate 3
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willingly unloved
#ethan winters#leon kennedy#lethan#resident evil#rebhfun#resident evil fanart#roomate au#hello everpony welcom back to crumb cuptoast speculating how re8 and re7 would have changed ethan as a person#hashtag trust issues hashtag paranoia#ok but everyone ethan has ever loved and put his trust into has hurt him#chris hurt him and mia hurt him twice i feel like if he survived re8 he would be way more closed off#i feel like he would also be more aggresive in arguments#in re8 when mia miranda raises her voice at ethan he apologizes and changes the subject but i feel like after constantly being kicked down#he would be a lot angier at the world#hes still sweet but if someone argues with him he will defiently be very defensive
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in a blink
#alien stage#alnst#alnst till#alnst luka#alnst mizi#alnst ivan#alien stage round 7#alnst round 7#BLINK GONE#so long yaoi boy#had a feeling it would go in this direction and it still hurts#ouch ouch ouch
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My biggest fear when I was younger was forgiving those who have wronged me, because it meant I moved on.
#there was a longer version of this convo but i shortened it down <3#anyways- here's a brief concept I though of#it's a conversation between Ford's younger Uni self and Ford's older self (<- A DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN)#how kind do you think the twins would be to their younger selves#we've seen them meet one another's younger counterparts- how do you think they would be with themselves?#the duality of someone who's had the time to work it out and learn to forgive VS. someone whose wound is still so raw and fresh#they can't help but keep poking at it until it gets infected#and the irrationality of holding onto your anger and keep feeding it even though it's doing nothing but hurt you#doesn't necessarily mean you have to forgive- but in the context of the twins- it really isn't doing any good#the fear of letting go meaning that you lost- and the other won#the pointlessness of it all- O! is it not poetic?#anywho <3#my art#gravity falls#grunkle ford#gravity falls ford#ford pines#stanford pines#this is literally done so lazy but i had to get the idea out of my head
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you were raised in comparison.
it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.
you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.
you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.
what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.
it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.
you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.
you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?
a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.
you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.
it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.
something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.
#writeblr#warm up#my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky#i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles#yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help#for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT#and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen#than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say#''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help#i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.''#bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't#actually offer fair support to everyone#we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less.#and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help#bc i DID have it better than other people#and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help.#we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn#instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself
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(nature au) you said that while dale dislikes dev using a cane in the house he doesnât really care too much, but what if dev used a cane in public? i canât imagine dale would be okay with that at all. heâd be pissed, like confiscate the cane kind of pissed
Originally the gag here was just going to be Dev clinging onto his dads arm for dear life while he shivers like a chihuahua but he is just. So small.. I couldnt get it to look reasonable
Bonus:
#The horror of putting Dev in a situation where he would 100% be wearing his sunglasses#Like NOOO the perfectly construction expression of horror I was going to give him#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop dev#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#fop dale#fop peri#art#digital art#fanart#I cant tell if I got the tone right with this one#Theres a very careful balance I try to strike with comedy vs horror and Im not sure if I got it#I also try to keep a sort of balance when depicting characters that are just straight up awful#I dont like depicting characters as cartoonishly evil but I also dont want to make him seem overly sympathetic#or like he's 'deep down a good person' because he's straight up not#He's awful and selfish. What he's done to his son makes him deeply uncomfortable with himself#but that discomfort means absolutely nothing when he refuses to change or become a better person#and he does refuse to change. changing is hard#he still keeps hurting Dev at every turn and maybe to tries to justify it to himself as being for Devs own good#but regardless he is still refusing to listen to him and hurting him even more in the process#idk im rambling#I like to keep the abuse balanced out with these nothing little concessions on Dales part#tbh even this concession didnt come from the good of his heart he just wanted to avoid making a scene#also because the visual of Dale deciding CARRYING him everywhere is better than just letting him have his cane is very funny to me
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Perceptive kid, I wonder just how much they pretend not to overhear.
#ignooore that a5 bonnie doesnt get the nice resolved versions of their discussions with sif.. i still think they can navigate it eventually#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat loop#isat bonnie#lucabyteart#the dialogue in this kicked my asssss. trying to balance loop's evasiveness and layered meaning...#to spell it out: it's not that loop is actually *that* worried they'll hurt bonnie. it's that they think siffrin is being a fucking idiot#and being extremely sloppy in their protection of their party by trusting them to not be a loose cannon. THEY simply wouldn't#be that irresponsible if it were them!!! hmph!!! ... because they care. and because they maybe Are a little worried.#they don't want that responsibility. they gave that all up. stop making them responsible again. stop stop stop#and as for the other half of the meaning here: get called out idiot. not on purpose of course. bonnie doesn't know (yet).#but it's a brisk reminder of the hypocrisy (since even if loop makes sly reference to their identity to sif all the time... one must wonder#how often it actually sinks in that that's true....? it must be hard to get your head around when you refuse to admit that your habits and#demeanor have changed so drastically since then. like wtf thats not what i would do! clearly a different guy ! faker !! and yet...)#but yeah idk i think about loop and bonnie's relationship a lot. the one party member i dont think loop could ever bring themselves to be#mean to. because cmon. thats a kid. but still... the emotional distance probably stings even worse than usual.#and once bonnie finds out.... ! well. that emotional distance probably stings. even worse. than usual.
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This post wouldn't leave my mind.
Error and Ink meeting before they completely become themselves is so....
á(àČ„çàČ„á) HHHHHHH
#if anyone remembers ye olde days of error and ink#of the lawlessness of 2016#then you would recall CQ saying âif error's beginnings had been anything else. ANYTHING ELSE-â#hehe#*collapses to die*#i know its highly unlikely that this would still be applicable today#but error was pretty stable before ghost sans dropped in#anyways for lil headcanons i believe Ink's enthusiasm of the AUs they visit#would curb MOST of error's destructive tendencies temporarily. emphasis on temporarily.#i still believe it can go wrong ekkfjej lets say ink here gets hurt cuz im pretty sure he has near zero way to defend himself lmfao#maybe meeting ____ alters his last thoughts enough before he becomes an error. who knows?#i believe in happy endings and outcomes sorry#junie art post#errorink#error sans#ink sans#inkerror#error x ink#ink x error#error sans x ink sans
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Unpleasant Revelations - DPxDC Ficlet Idea for the Stillborn Au
"Have you met my youngest, Damian, Mr. Masters?"
Its only from twenty years of long, hard experience and practice that Vlad doesn't increase the room temperature from 'borderline uncomfortably cool' to 'unbearably hot' the moment Bruce Wayne pulls his youngest and "only" biological son out in front of him.
He puts only in quotations because twelve year old Damian Wayne looks scarily, uncannily like one Daniel Brown. Jack and Maddie's foster son, second victim of their foolishness, and only other halfa in existence. Second only to him.
It's nauseating how similar they look. From the scowl and terrible glare on the young boy's face, to his brown skin -- which was only a few shades lighter than Daniel's, the shape of his nose, and even the strange winged edge of his eyebrow. Something that Vlad has long since come to find endearing on the child he considered a son of his own. The only difference was that Damian had dark, sharp green eyes.
Daniel's eyes were blue. The same glacier shade as his father's, who stood behind Damian with a proud, oafish smile on his visage.
It was infuriating how similar they look. Vlad might not have rapidly swung the room temperature from one extreme to the other, but he can't stop himself from letting the fury burning within his core from slipping out and raising the temperature up a few degrees.
Because it really only meant one thing.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were related.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were brothers.
Standing in front of him, it was clear as day. He can already picture a phantom image of Daniel standing beside Damian, the same scowl written on his face, the same glare carved into his eyes. The only difference being the dark, exhausted circles beneath them that seemed to be permanently painted onto his skin. The only thing missing being the permanent loneliness and vigilance permeating his being like a scar.
This, if revealed, would be enough to ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation. Or, at the very least, darken it quite a bit. The great philanthropist Bruce Wayne with another secret blood child? One related to his youngest? One that had been put into foster care? Seemingly thrown away?
It would be a firestorm.
One that Vlad is not keen on starting.
It would ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation, yes. But it would hurt Daniel in the process -- the harassment he would face alone might just be enough to break that fragile child completely. That was just not something he could allow. Or, even worse, bring him into his biological father's care and custody -- something Vlad was even less willing to allow.
It's not out of kindness to Wayne that Vlad will keep mum about this.
His grip on his champagne flute tightens, just a bit. He's still aware enough of the world around him to not let it shatter in his hands. His plastered, pleasant smile tightens around the corners, and he forces his focus to slide from Damian to Wayne.
"The resemblance is uncanny, Mister Wayne." He says, slanting his smile to the side slyly. Although he's not talking about the resemblance between Wayne and his son. Rage simmers beneath his skin, burning coal and embers in the core of his chest, nestled between his lungs, as he meets the man's eyes.
Wayne swaggles his head proudly, his ditzy smile widening as he squeezes his son's shoulder affectionately. Bastard, Vlad wants to spit.
He breathes in through his nose, and exhales out through his mouth. The champagne in his hand cools, and stops its unusual bubbling.
The Damian boy scoffs under his breath, his mouth still coiled upward into a scowl. With the revelation of his blood relation to Daniel evident, Vlad's not sure if he should find it endearing or not.
He is not Daniel, so he decides that it's just simply irritating. He decides to ignore it.
"And you said he was your only biological son?" He asks, voice lilting and head tilting. He knows its a suspicious question at worst, insulting at best. But considering Wayne's past proclivities, he can hardly call it an unexpected question.
Damian puffs in great offense, face twisting angrily. It reminds him of Daniel when Vlad insisted that he was wrong about something or other, and for a moment his heart swells, fond.
But this is not his child, and so the feeling quickly crashes and burns, simmering back into rage. This was not Daniel -- this was his replacement. A replacement that Wayne was free to keep.
Wayne chuckles, idiotically, as if he'd said some funny joke. Vlad's other hand, the one gripping his cane -- something he's required ever since he was dispatched from the hospital all those lonely years ago -- tightens instead. He grinds his teeth -- him and Jack Fenton would get along like a house on fire, he hates it.
"I can understand why you'd ask that, Mister Masters," Wayne says, squeezing Damian's shoulder again, "but yes, Damian is my only biological son. Although that doesn't mean I don't love my other children any less."
Bastard.
For all his posturing and flouncing about caring for his city and his children, Vlad never would have thought the Prince of Gotham capable of abandoning one of them.
But, well.
They all have their dark secrets.
And what one man throws away, another man picks up. If Bruce Wayne didn't want the treasure child that was Daniel Brown, then Vlad Masters was more than happy to take him instead.
"I see."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc au#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc ficlet#dpxdc fanfic#i was hit with this idea two hours ago and was hit with the intrinsic need to write it down#parental vlad masters#protective vlad masters#vlad is currently going 'OH? OH YOU ABANDON AND REPLACE **MY** SON??? MURDER. DEATH. BEES UPON YOUR FAMILY'#but he's also still like. evil. much less of a creep! but evil. so he comes off a bit possessive. which was intentional.#vlad's reaction is kinda valid if it was accurate and bruce DID willingly and knowingly abandon danny. except he didn't. he has no idea#danny is even alive. vlad doesn't know that tho. we all love a good reasonable misunderstanding :]#hc that vlad needs a cane as a human because the ecto-acne that killed him fucked his nerves up a bit as a result and now he's got a bad le#and is also immunocompromised. which had a slight hand in his 20 year isolation thing.#stillborn? no still born au#stillborn danny au#stillborn danny#vlad masters#this may or may not be canon to the au im still thinking about it#vlad acknowledges that danny is formiddable but he's also not wrong that a media shitstorm like that would hurt him considerably.#diamonds are the toughest known material to man and yet it still shatters like glass when put under pressure. vlad's right he's fragile#ummm anyways yeah Vlad finds out first and promptly decides to go 'oh okay so fuck you personally actually. keep your replacement child'#he has No Plans on telling Danny what he learned mostly for the obvious selfish reasons and also bc yeah. this is gonna hurt danny#ITS NOT FUN IF IT ISNT A LITTLE TOXIIIIC#i absolutely know that vlad only swears in deserts which is why its important that i have him call bruce wayne a bastard directly.
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Marcille telling Chilchuck that healing magic can be used to torture people only to use it as such a few days later...
It's like she's warning him about what she can and will do if he doesn't cooperate. I find it interesting.
We know they're friends, but he doesn't want to talk about it. They all know that. Chilchuck is not a fan of talking about his life and they aren't usually pushy about it. The one problem is when Marcille wants to know. Because she's curious and has her head full of romantic novels and she just finds out her friend has some delicious and controversial love story. She's not going to let herself not know about his life. Even if he doesn't want to talk about it. For better or worse, she takes advantage from his injuries to make him talk about it, to force him to open up about this. She quite literally tortures him (just a little bit but still) to get this info out of him.
I have just realized about all this, but.. yea, Marcille, that's a kinda fucked up thing to do to your friend.
#i know she does it because not saying anything has put him in dangerous situations previously#but still#why torture my little boy (he's 50)#am i reading too much into this?#who knows#dungeon meshi#chilchuck#dunmeshi#chilchuck tims#delicious in dungeon#marcille#marcille donato#if my friend was hurted for not talking about himself i would be annoyed too but i doubut i would torture them for information#this two have a wierd dynamic#my shit
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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It didn't matter how much Steve explained. Not one member of the Party was going to get it.Â
Tommy and Carol would, but then, they were no longer on speaking terms. A fact that hurt even if it was for the best--particularly in times like these, because they got it.Â
They understood how he had been ensnared with the very same wealth people mocked him for. What it meant when his parents demanded Steve drop everything and go on vacation, his own plans be damned.Â
They knew, because their families had done much the same, and so the lives they led also were tethered to leashes made of their parents' design.Â
Dustin, whose mother bent over backwards to try and better her kidâs life, didnât even have a frame of reference for this kind of thing, let alone sympathy.Â
"Do they not understand you have a job?" Dustin asked incredulously, and Steve didn't have the emotional bandwidth to explain that his parents didn't consider working at Family Video to be a real job.Â
As far as they were concerned, Steve could quit if he had to, and then go find another job when they were done using him to play the nice, All-American family.Â
Likely for business purposes.
"They aren't the type to care." Steve said instead.Â
It was easier than getting into it.
(Easier than explaining the BMW wasn't in his name, but his parents.Â
How his money went into a bank account they had access to.Â
That practically everything he owned was actually owned by Richard and Stella Harrington, and both were quick to remind him of that fact the second they felt Steve was acting out of line.Â
And boy, had he been acting out of line.Â
 Getting into fights.Â
Turning their punishment of working a job they picked specifically for the humiliating outfit, into the far worse public embarrassment of being involved in a mall fire--an embarrassment because Steve had "lost" the keys to the BMW, had "put himself in danger" playing hero instead of letting the perfectly capable firefighters do it, then âparaded aroundâ with bruises all over his face, racking up medical bills.Â
Truly a sin for someone who hadnât made it into college.)Â
So no, this vacation they demanded Steve drop everything for was not anything close to a reward, or even something they were doing to spend time together. There was a reason they needed Steve, and as far as they were concerned, Steve was at their beck and call until he shaped up and got his life back on track.Â
His own plans be damned.Â
"That's not fair though!" Dustin burst out and Steve sighed in relief, because here at least, he knew what to do to distract his younger friend.
 âWe planned our trip months ago!â Dustin continued, looking two seconds away from giving in and stomping his foot.Â
The kid might have been smarter than Steve--smarter than most people really--by a hell of a lot, but he was still fourteen.Â
Smarts, Steve knew, didn't exactly equate to emotional intelligence, and it definitely didn't stop rampaging hormones.
Ice cream on the other hand, was a great aid in both areas.Â
"You better be making this up to us." Dustin threatened thirty minutes later, spoon wedged deep into a sundae. âWe canât do, like, half the stuff we were going to do without you!âÂ
âI'm sure you guys didnât need me to play ghost runners or whatever.â Steve said, but was quick to back down when Dustin nearly threw his spoon at him.Â
Rather than antagonizing him more, Steve dutifully raised his hand to put over his heart. "I swear on your mom that Iâll make it up to you.â Â
Dustin rolled his eyes, but otherwise, finally, let the whole thing go.Â
Stupidly, Steve thought this meant the worst was over.
He was wrong.Â
xXxÂ
Mike hadnât cared.Â
El and Will hadnât really either, though both expressed some sadness that Steve wouldnât be participating in the camping trip that the Party as a whole had been looking forward to for the past few months.Â
Erica had simply snapped at him, making him promise much the same as Dustin had that he would be making it up to her sometime in the future. Likewise, she had been bought off by ice cream (even if she insisted it didnât count because Steve owed her ice cream anyways.)Â
Max was the surprising emotional standout.Â
"You can't tell them no?" She demanded, arms crossed over her chest.Â
Lucas was hovering awkwardly at her shoulder, shooting "what can you do?" vibes as hard as he could at Steve as his (currently on-again) girlfriend outright dressed the elder boy down; her shoulders creeping up higher and higher until she seemed to realize she was visually giving away her upset and forcibly relaxed them.Â
Unlike Dustin and Erica, her tirade was very out of character and Steve was growing more concerned by the second that something was wrong the more she spat at him.Â
âI mean for fucks sake, didnât you tell them you had plans!?â She finished, eyes narrowed in rage.Â
Which was rich coming from someone whose stepdad had Billy Hargrove running all over town before heâd run off after the guyâs death, but then, Steve knew better than to bring all that up.
(The image of Max, unresponsive in the hospital with casts on almost every limb, was still too fresh.Â
Even now he didnât like to push her, even if the Party as a whole did their best to take notice when one of them was isolating themselves again.Â
Max, though she was down to one crutch, was still inclined to use it as a weapon and very much enjoyed practicing her swings on peopleâs ankles.)Â
âI did indeed. They donât care and theyâre not giving me a choice, but for what itâs worth I am sorry.â Steve tried to keep his voice even and out of angry-shrieking range, and vaguely prayed it was working. âI swear, I will make it up to you guys, even if we have to go on a second camping trip.âÂ
This was clearly not the correct thing to say.
Though judging by the murderous rage being aimed his way, Steve was pretty sure nothing short of âYou know what youâre right, let me go tell my parents to fuck off!â would make Max happy.Â
âSo youâre seriously just going to drop everything, all our plans, your job, us,â She took a very threatening step forward and despite her being a full foot shorter than him, Steve had to fight not to take a responding step back. âSo you can go play rich boy in the Bahamas?âÂ
âWeâre not going to the Bahamas--â Steve tried, but was interrupted with a loud âugh!â of disapproval.Â
âWhatever makes you happy, Steven.â Max spat, and then turned on her heel, storming off towards the rest of the Party (who had taken one look at Maxâs face and fled into the arcade so she and Steve could âtalk.â) âIâm sorry us peasants werenât good enough to hang around!â Â
âSorry man.â Lucas apologized quietly, on his way to run after Max.Â
Steve just scrubbed a hand through his hair and sighed.Â
xXxÂ
âThe kids are mad at you.â Nancy announced, appearing across the Family Video counter like a phantom.Â
Steve swore, nearly dropping his stack of VHSâs, while Robin (who had clearly seen Nancy approach) cackled at his fumble.Â
âYeah, I did get that memo.â Steve said, after he stabilized his stack, safely moving them from his arms to the counter.Â
Nancy peered around them, her face giving away nothing. âIt is kind of shitty to cancel at the last minute like that. We were relying on you to drive.â
An old fury shook itself awake in Steveâs chest, taking an interest in the conversation the second Steve realized what Nancy was here to do.Â
He took a deep, shuddering breath, and pressed it down, back into the box heâd slammed it in all those years ago.Â
âIâd leave the keys to Robin here, but unfortunately, someone failed their drivers test.â Steve said instead, jamming his finger over his shoulder and blatantly attempting to pass the buck.Â
Robin, who absolutely knew that was what he was doing, faked a gasp and kicked at his ankles.Â
âThat crotchety asshole failed me on purpose!â She protested, spinning to face Nancy. âHe made like, three misogynistic comments before we even got in the car!âÂ
âPointing out that he knew the car wasnât yours wasnât misogynistic, he was just surprised to see me letting you use the Beemer.â Steve shot back, rolling his eyes. âI donât exactly let a lot of people drive it.âÂ
Unspoken was that Steveâs BMW was one of the townâs more unique cars, and thus easily identifiable by the locals at large.Â
âHow is that better!?â Robin returned, but Nancy cleared her throat before they could successfully get the Steve-and-Robin show on the road.Â
âThe point is that we--but really, the kids, were counting on you.â Nancy said, dipping into her patented âIâm upset with youâ tone.Â
A year ago it would have cut Steve to the bone, even if he didnât show it.Â
Now he just stared tiredly at her back.Â
âIâm sorry, Nance, but it is what it is.â He said simply, hoping the apology (even if he knew it wasnât so much a real apology as it was something he said to keep the rage from breaking out and wrecking havoc via his mouth) would soften his ex. âI donât know what else to tell you.â
Given the abrupt narrowing of her eyes, it very much did not help his case.Â
âFor someone who was so vocal about trying to change I have to say this is pretty disappointing.â Nancy said simply, but with just enough of a tone that Steve had to close his eyes for a second.Â
Feel the way that old anger, the one that had powered King Steve, hit the bars of its cage.
Robin stilled immediately next to him, her head ping-ponging between Steve and Nancy both as she too, clocked that Nancy was pissed, and here to chew Steve out about it.Â
âUm.â She said, voice going high in discomfort.Â
Steve grit his teeth. âI donât exactly get a say in these things, Nancy. You know that.âÂ
He had to work to keep his voice even, fighting against the ice that wanted to sharpen his own tone.Â
It was just---Nancy did know.Â
Steve had told her all those years ago, in the safety of her arms, about his parents' expectations. Their predetermined path, the way they dictated large swathes of his life.Â
How theyâd allowed him to pick which sports he played, but required that he play a sport no matter the time of year.Â
That the pool they had installed wasnât for him, he just got to use it as much as he did in part because heâd joined the swim team, and the kind of mental mind games he and his parents played about things like that.Â
Apparently either Nancy had forgotten, or simply hadnât taken it in to begin with because she wasnât backing down.Â
(Not that Steve had ever seen Nancy Wheeler back down.)Â
âI know you have trouble juggling your parents' plans with your own.â Nancy said, and her tone was absolutely icy now. âI certainly remember waiting for a date that never happened.âÂ
Steve sucked in a breath through his teeth, knowing immediately what Nancy was referring to.Â
âI told you they came home unexpectedly.â He said, arms now crossed against his chest, nails digging into his arms as a way to help himself stay grounded. âThey wouldnât let me use the phone until the next day and I apologized.â
âAnd I recall having a lovely conversation with your mother where she said otherwise.â Nancy said, her words punctuated by another high pitched âUhhhh.â from Robin.Â
âFunny how you believe my mom over me.â Steve said and whoops, yup, he definitely sounded mad now.Â
So much for all the effort heâd put in to staying calm.Â
âBecause I look at actions, Steve. Patterns. The same ones you kept repeating.â Nancy was clearly about to escalate, and Robin, bless her, had had enough.Â
âHe-eeey.â She said, wedging herself in between Steve and the counter Nancy was starting to lean over. âI totally get it, youâre both upset, but this maybe isnât the venue to fight about it? There are customers in the store and--sorry Nancy--but I do kinda need Steve for work, soâŠâÂ
She trailed off, glancing nervously between the two of them.Â
Nancy took a breath, blasting it out of her mouth like an academically inclined dragon. âYouâre right. Iâm sorry Robin.â
She then turned on her heel, making her way to the doors. She paused before them, and Steve prepared himself because he knew whatever she was going to say next, it was going to hurt.Â
âI wouldnât care if it was just me, Steve, but the kids donât deserve you pulling this shit. Not after all theyâve been through.â With that, Nancy pushed through the door, head held high as she stormed to her car.Â
As was typical for Nancyâs aim, she scored a direct hit.Â
Steve, somehow, resisted throwing things.Â
âCan you believe her!?â He said, the second the doors were closed and Nancy safely out of eyeshot. âComing in here like that!?âÂ
He ran his hand through his hair, once, twice.Â
A third time for good measure.Â
âYeah, that was seriously public for her.â Robin agreed, sliding up next to him. âLike really public.âÂ
Steve shrugged, because well. Not really.Â
Not anymore.Â
But Robin didnât know that, just like Robin wasnât entirely familiar with the depths Steveâs parents went to save face. They hadnât exactly had time to really dig into it all, given how fast the Vecna situation had hit after Starcourt and the sheer PTSD both incidents had caused.Â
Most nights they spent together was spent trying to avoid reliving nightmares, not discussing ones they were currently still living in.Â
A fact that Steve was more than happy to bring her up to speed on, but to do so involved a lot of backstory, and backstory involved Nancy, and God, he was fucking pissed at Nancy.Â
Soon it was an hour into his rant and he hadnât actually gotten around to the sheer level of shit his parents would pull, too busy with Nancy and old echoes of âbullshit.âÂ
 He only stopped when Robin put a hand on his shoulder, shaking him ever so slightly.Â
âDingus. You know I love you, and I know youâve changed, but you do gotta admit, canceling at the last minute is kinda shitty and I get why theyâre upset.âÂ
It was like the carpet had been pulled right out from under Steve, yanked so quickly heâd have to pinwheel to keep his feet.Â
âWhat?â He said, eyes round in sheer surprise.Â
âI just mean like, I get your parents are dicks but,â Robinâs face screwed up, looking like sheâd sucked a lemon. It was her âIâm going to say something you donât like faceâ and it hit Steve like a punch to the gut.Â
âOur shiftâs almost over and no offense, youâve started to repeat yourself about Nance, and I get it! I do, memory shit is hard!â Robinâs hands moved as she talked, her bracelets jingling as if punctuating her point.Â
âBut I also think admitting you double booked yourself on accident and just taking responsibility for it would help smooth things over. Middle ground, you know?â Robin waggled her hands in a gesture that, for the first time in a long time, Steve didnât understand.Â
He found himself suddenly struggling to breathe.Â
âAre you--are you saying you think I didnât tell them I had a trip already planned?âÂ
Steve wasnât sure how he managed to get it out. Wasnât sure how he was doing anything, given the heat that was shooting through him, a hot mix of confusion and betrayal as Robin fidgeted to his left.Â
âNo! Okay well,â The lemon face got worse for a second. âIâm just saying you did kinda forget to pick me up that one time, and you do kinda blame your parents when stuff like that happens.â She bit a nail, peering at him out of the corner of her eyes. Â
âI donât--â Steve said, completely knocked adrift. âIâŠâ
Robin didnât believe him.
His Robin.Â
Who wasnât--wasnât exactly siding with Nancy, but wasnât saying she was wrong either, or that she understood that this shit was out of his control, and in fact, was kind of implying that Nancy was right more so than Steve was and---and--
There was a ringing in Steveâs ears he wasnât sure actually existed.Â
âIâm sure a lot of it is your brain injury. The doctors said your short term memory can take a while to fully come back and I totally get why you donât wanna say that, I just, I think it would be better if--Steve?â Robin jumped back as Steve finally found his footing, swiping his jacket and punching out before she could catch how badly his hands were shaking.Â
âIâm leaving.â Steve told her, his own words a million miles away, entirely uncaring if Keith fired him.Â
Keith was likely going to fire him anyway, given Steve was about to ask for a week-long vacation not even four months after the whole Vecna ordeal.Â
âWait, Steve, hey--Dingus! I wasnât done, I mean, I had more to say I, dammit Steve--!â Robin called after him frantically as Steve bolted for the door.Â
Steve ignored her, aiming for the Beemer and swinging himself numbly into the driver's seat when he got it open.Â
Put the car in park and avoided Robinâs face entirely as he backed it out, punching the gas far harder than he needed to.Â
The Beemer roared in response, nose rising as it shot forward.Â
Robin was his best friend. His fucking--platonic soulmate, as she kept calling him. The very idea that she agreed with Nancy in general was a blow but in this?
Against his parents?Â
Nausea rolled angrily in Steveâs stomach, matching the sudden wetness that coated his eyes.Â
Angry and needing an outlet, Steve stomped hard on the gas, taking the next corner far too sharp and making the beemer fishtail, tires squealing .Â
He didnât know where he was going.
He figured heâd find out when he got there.Â
xXxÂ
Given what Steve knew about the universe at large, (nevermind Hawkins) it probably wasnât the smartest thing to hang around the Quarry at night.
But then, summer was in full swing. Kids were home from college and itching to find a place to party without parental overhead.Â
Deep to the left side of the water, around a few bends and tucked oh so neatly out of sight, was a place where one could do just that.Â
Party.
This stretch had long been claimed by the college kids of Hawkins, and guarded zealously for it.Â
With the sheer number of drunk people whooping and hollering around the bonfires below the ridge where everyone parked their cars, Steve figured he was safe enough.Â
Even if he was up with said cars, sitting alone.Â
Not like it mattered. If a demodog or demogorgan or demo-fucking-dragon decided to come along, Steve had half a mind to just let it have him.Â
It felt easier than trying to fix the current mess his life was in.Â
So he sat up here, blowing through the alcohol heâd purchased from the one gas station that never carded, drinking his problems away.Â
(That also wasnât the best course of action but with his parents home to spring the whole âvacationâ ordeal on him, it wasnât like Steve had a choice.)Â
He hadnât grabbed a lot--had been so damn upset and struggling to hide it that heâd picked up a four pack of wine coolers instead of the intended beer heâd wanted. It was all he had though, and so he chugged the last bottle with a wince and wished he was a hell of a lot drunker than he felt.
Then promptly caught sight of the person walking towards him, and wondered vaguely if he was drunker than he felt.Â
Of all the people to come and offer him a can of beer, Steve would have never expected Tommy Hagan.Â
He eyed it and his old friend both, before slowly reaching out and taking the can.Â
âHeard you and your parents are doing CoHo this year.â Tommy said casually, leaning up against the front of the Beemer like it was old times.Â
âYup.â Steve replied, drawing the word out.Â
âAngie Tidemanâs parents are going, theyâre bringing her ith .â Tommy said it casually, and had the good graces not to grin when Steve audibly groaned.
âOh god.â
Tommy sucked on a lip, nodding absently. âYeah.âÂ
Then; âIt gets worse.âÂ
Steve, who now knew what this conversation was about, instantly began tearing into the beer can. âHow can it get worse? You know what Angieâs like.â
Angie, whose full name was Angelina, lived a few towns over. Born to wealthy parents who doted on their beloved only child, Angie had more in common with your average shark than she did her fellow humans.Â
A comparison that, frankly, was unkind to sharks.
She was without a doubt the most selfish person Steve had ever had the misfortune of encountering, and the mere idea of being trapped in a room with her made his skin crawl.Â
Their parents were business buddies though, and god forbid he ever insult a business buddies kid,Â
âShe goes to Purdue, you know, with me and Carol.â Tommy said, instead of answering directly. âWe cross paths a lot, party wise.âÂ
Steve stayed silent.Â
Knew how Tommy talked, how his stories meandered. Especially the juicy ones.Â
âSheâs been talking a lot recently. Given you donât look all that informed, Iâm gonna assume the one person she hasnât talked to is you.âÂ
Steve gripped the can of beer, a sudden, sick fear blooming in his gut.Â
âTommy.â He said mildly, not loud enough to really interrupt, but with enough force to let his former friend know to get to the point, now.Â
âGot all super fancy right before we left for summer break. Hair done, whole new wardrobe, nails, you know.â Tommy waggled his fingers playfully, but dropped them when Steve just stared. âWent full whore on us. I swear she was making out with any guy who even looked at her--âÂ
âTommy.â He repeated, this time a hell of a lot firmer.Â
Done pushing, Tommy let go of the proverbial bombshell. âApparently youâre planning on proposing to her this summer. Sheâs gonna return next year as an engaged woman, with you in tow, because apparently, you got into Purdue. Congrats by the way.âÂ
Tommy clapped him on the shoulder, right as Steveâs mouth went dry.Â
For the second time that day, he found himself fighting the burning heat of embarrassment and fury as it rolled through him.Â
âIâm proposing.â Steve said, as if saying it out loud would scare the very idea away. âTo Angie.âÂ
âYeah we kinda figured you didnât know.â Tommy said with a snide little grin. To the average outsider it was mocking, but Steve knew better.
Tommy was uncomfortable, because Tommy had understood what Steveâs parents had done.Â
âWhat Iâd like to know is just how much Angieâs parents paid to get you into Purdue. Thatâs gotta be a minimum fifty thousand dollar donation at least.â Tommy removed his hand, to instead lean his shoulder against Steveâs. Like this was the old times, before theyâd fought. â I didnât think they had that kind of money to throw around.â Â
A past conversation with his father struck Steve, running through the front of his mind like a bad horror movie.Â
âThey sold the estate.â Steve said vacantly, the implications not quite hitting. âThe one theyâve been trying to get rid of forever, over in Cape Cod.âÂ
âOh shit.â Tommy said, blinking as he too, recalled what was likely his father telling him the very same news.Â
âThey sold the place on Cape Cod, and they used part of the funds to fucking buy me like a toy.â And yeah, saying it out loud, it definitely sounded bad. âI didnât think Angie even liked me.â
âDoes Angie like anyone?â Tommy asked, incredulously, but nudged Steveâs shoulder again when his joke didnât net him the laugh he wanted.. âI mean, you had to know your old man had plans to straighten you out. He keeps getting mad at my dad, because the ass won't stop making jokes that Iâm going to take over the company instead of you.âÂ
âAnd this is it. Attaching me to Angie.â Steve said vacantly. âBecause they know if I get marriedâŠâÂ
Heâd put his wife first. His family, first.Â
The one heâd wanted, dreamed of, since he first realized he didnât have one.Â
Heâd been playing checkers the entire time, too busy fighting fucking monsters and Russians to realize his parents had upgraded to chess.Â
In a dizzying array of mental connect-the-dots, Steve replayed the last years worth of conversations. All the odd little things theyâd said. All the dumb things Steve had just ignored.Â
 Theyâd warned him.Â
Had told him he better shape up, or theyâd be forced to do something drastic.Â
That his parents hadnât wasted all this time, effort, money on him, for him to throw away his life like he was.Â
âYou better start acting right and figuring out how to get your life back on track, because you wonât like what happens if I have to fix it for you. You get a month Steven, and after that? Well. Just remember you forced my hand, Steven.âÂ
They knew. They knew him, and what made him tick.
âI think the real question is what Angieâs parents see in you.â Tommy teased, but then they both knew the answer to that puzzle.Â
For all that Steveâs mom complained about her husband, the guy was a shrewd and calculating businessman. Those weekends, then weekdays, then more and more time away hadnât just been so he could go screw his secretary.Â
Richard Harrington had fast tracked his business to the point where it was now getting attention. The business journal, âTop 50 Companies to Watchâ kind.Â
Even if Steve fucked up entirely, he was set to inherit a fortune and a business that would continue adding to it, for some time to come.Â
Provided he did what his parents wanted.
Such as marrying Angie.Â
Thing was, if his parents did what they always did, and held their wealth (his car, his home, his life and all the little things in it) against him like a gun to his head, if Angie got that ring around her finger?Â
 Steve would bow to their whims.Â
 Because they could fluster him into proposing so he didnât embarrass Angie, and her parents and anyone else whoâd undoubtedly be watching. Theyâd make a spectacle of it.Â
Because once he did propose, they wouldnât let him back out, burying him under guilt trips and veiled threats until he was marched down the aisle in a groomsman suite and told to stand.Â
Because against all common sense, Steve wanted a family who loved him so desperately heâd chase it like a dog if he was presented with the opportunity and told to make it work.Â
It didnât matter that Angie was selfish.Â
Steve would try anyway.Â
His parents were maneuvering him as easily as they had back when he was a kid, using love as a tool to get him to do what they wanted and even seeing the nose hanging from the rafters, they knew just the right words to get him to place it around his neck.Â
âThought youâd wanna know.â Tommy finished, pushing himself off Steveâs car. âBefore your parents sprung it on you.âÂ
âSonofabitch.â Steve hissed angrily, a million thoughts racing through his head, the heat of being caught in a trap blasting down his spine.Â
âYeah.â Tommy added, rather unhelpfully. âBut hey, given that youâre about to go on vacation to propose, why donât we consider this,â here Tommy swept his hand, gesturing to the party below, âyour proposal party?âÂ
It was a downright horrible idea.
But then, Steve didnât exactly have a better one.Â
Not when the world itself seemed against him, grinding its heel into his back and laughing about it.Â
He knew the drill. If he went down there, arm in arm with Tommy, then it wouldnât matter that half those kids were from a few towns over, driven in by new college buddies. Â
Theyâd see him as a reason to get wild, absolutely uncaring that they didnât know who the hell he was.Â
Steve needed that.
People who werenât mad at him, buying into the easy lies his parents wove, or who didn't understand the games played against him.Â
âFuck it.â He announced, standing up from the hood of his car as Tommyâs grin morphed into something he used to see in the days of old, back when they were sneaking drinks from their parents' alcohol cabinets. âThis way at least I get a party.â
Not like his parents were going to let him have an engagement party. Or a bachelor party, or likely let his ass back into Hawkins.Â
No matter how long the engagement.Â
Tommy cheered, raising his arms to the sky and Steve grinned wildly with him.Â
Heâd figure out how to get out of all this later--but for now, he wanted just a few damn hours where he didnât have to think.Â
Not about his parents, or Angie, or possible attempts to force him into marriage, like this was the yee olden days and Steve was a Victorian maiden who needed to be brought to heel.Â
Likewise he didnât want to think about the Party, or Russian torture, or how Nancy could be so damn smart in some things and downright stupid in others.Â
He absolutely didn't want to think about Robin.Â
âHey boys and girls, look who I drug up!â Tommy yelled as they approached and soon, word had spread.
This was Steveâs proposal party, and he was here to get absolutely smashed (while encouraging everyone else to do the exact same, in his honor.)Â
Which would be how Eddie found him a few hours later.
Still at the quarry, crossfaded off his ass, a forty in one hand and a lawn dart in the other.Â
âAre you kidding me, Steve?â Eddie grit out, desperately trying to wrestle the lawn dart out of his hand. âYouâre fucking partying with Tommy Hagan!?âÂ
Steve blinked at him a few times, finally catching on that Eddie was in fact, actually there.Â
âWhen did you show up?â He asked, though given the wince on Eddieâs face and just how hard it had been to move his lips, Steve correctly assumed heâd slurred the shit out of the question.Â
Somehow, Eddie understood him anyway.Â
âRobin called me a while ago, gave me a list of places you might be. Almost skipped this one until I stepped out of my van to take a piss and heard the party.â Eddie explained, and somehow while doing so, heâd successfully gotten a hold of the dart.Â
He was now working on removing the 40 ounce.Â
Steve frowned, using his newly freed hand to grip it closer to his chest.Â
âHarrington.â Eddie warned, and oh, wow, they were back to last names huh?
Well why not, it wasn't like his night could get worse.Â
âThis is mine, Munson.â Steve fired back, putting as much vitriol into Eddieâs last name as he could.
This did not detour the metalhead.Â
âCome on man, give me the bottle.â Eddie said firmly.Â
Steve shook his head stubbornly, enjoying the way his hair whipped at his face. âNo.â
Another man stumbled over, a guy Steve absolutely did not know. He frowned, looking between Eddie and Steve.Â
For two seconds, Steve thought they might have trouble, and given the way Eddie was tensing, he clearly thought so too.Â
Instead, New Guy just kind of rocked on his heels. âHey, shove off it, buddy. Itâs this guy's bachelor party, let the man drink!âÂ
Eddieâs face did something complicated then, pulling the sort of expressive looks only he could manage.
It was both adorable and hilarious, and if Steve hadnât just been reminded of the very reason he was drinking, heâd have told Eddie so.Â
âYeah!â He said instead, raising his hand in the air, toasting his bottle of forty against the other guyâs red solo cup. âItâs my proposalengagmentbachelor party!âÂ
Given the second, adorable-slash-hilarious look on Eddieâs face, Steve assumed those words hadnât come out right either.Â
âOkay.â Eddie said hands on his hips in a stance Steve was pretty sure Eddie had gotten from him. âHereâs what's going to happen. Youâre going to put the bottle away. Then youâre going to give me your car keys, and then the two of us are going to my house to sleep whatever is happening here, off.âÂ
At least, that's what Steve thought he heard. It was a pretty un-Eddie like speech, and Steve maybe, might have been the one to say it, because he maybe, might have been mocking what Eddie had actually said.
Maybe.
It was hard to know, given that Steveâs thoughts were a thick soup on a bit of a time delay, and he was having a hard time figuring up from down, let alone what Eddie had been actually saying.Â
Speaking of;Â
 âWhen did I get into your car?â Steve asked, blinking as the vanâs passenger seat appeared before him.
âJust now.â Eddie said, helping him in.
âHuh.â Said Steve, and then he maybe passed out a bit, because once again, he found himself awake and alert at a place that wasnât where heâd just been.Â
âCome on.â Eddie said gently, one of Steveâs arms over his shoulder as Steve leaned heavily into him, guiding the jock up the stairs and into the small house he and Wayne now called a home.Â
The guy might have muttered a few things about bachelor parties along the way, but Steve was too focused on walking straight to really take notice.Â
Part Two
#lol remember when I said I wasnt posting parts to stuff until they were finished#THAT SURE LASTED LONG#pre steddie#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#0o0 fanfics#This is very Steve focused#TW his horrible parents#VERY hurt#comforts later#with eddie!#I really wanted to explore Steves Parents#in proper Rich Asshole Controling fashion#TW forced marriage#or mentions of#I also wanted to explore a lot of how the kids#and Nancy and Robin (who are also STILL kids#would react because sure they came up against monsters and the government#but neither of those things want you to like them#theyll let you know theyll eat you#Steves parents#like many rich dicks#want to isolate#want you to think theyre amazing#and its often the inner circle who knows whats up but are also caught in their own chokechain#hence the title of this fic#whiiiich is chokechain#stranger things#tw drinking
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