(67) Days of Whatever the Fuck that Was (Epilogue)
Summary: Chenle wasn't interested in committed relationships until he met the one. The problem is that now she is the one who doesn't want to commit to him.
Pairing: Werewolf! Chenle x Siren! Female reader
Warnings: Toxic behavior, unhealthy relationship dynamic, smut, angst, daddy Chenle supremacy, breeding kink, overstimulation...probably other stuff too, I don't remember.
AN: This is to give our toxic couple a happier ending. But you know me, I needed some angst. Things work out this time though, so I hope you guys enjoy it!
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“I can’t take you anywhere,” Chenle reprimanded you as soon as you both entered the penthouse. He took his shoes off and loosened his tie, glaring at you indignantly. “What were you even thinking?!”
“You told me to try to enjoy myself,” you replied nonchalantly, taking off your high heels and walking past him.
He grabbed your arm and you sighed. It meant he wasn’t done talking.
“Is that how you enjoy yourself? Getting wasted and flirting with my pack brother who, I cannot stress this enough, was the groom?!”
“I was sober,” you corrected him.
“Would it kill you to behave for once?” he groaned. “The entire pack was there–fuck, this is so humiliating–”
“Then stop trying to make me attend events and fit in your life, Chenle–”
“You are part of my life!” he exclaimed. “We’ve been mated for 3 months, Y/N. Get over it!”
“Because of a connection that you forced,” you spat angrily, pulling away from him and making your way to the bedroom.
“Oh, there you go again,” Chenle groaned, following you. “I tried to do things right with you, but you’re the one who started this fucked up dynamic we have!”
“Blame me all you want,” you said calmly, sitting in front of the dressing table and taking your earrings off. “It doesn’t change the fact that I didn’t choose to be stuck here with you.”
Chenle’s furious eyes met yours in the mirror. He then glared at the handmade seashell necklace that adorned your neck. “What happened to the necklace I gave you?”
You pointed at the closet vaguely and he opened it to find a paper bag full of little boxes with all the jewelry he kept giving you.
“I like this one better,” you said, taking the necklace off and placing it on the table gently. “It was a gift from my best friend, who I don’t get to travel with anymore because of you,” you commented passive-aggressively.
“It covers my mark,” Chenle complained.
“Perfect. That was the idea,” you said, turning around and staring at him challengingly.
Sex with Chenle always started with a fight. At least that’s the way things have been since you two became official. You kept provoking each other until one of you would snap and pull the other into a kiss, which led to rough, angry sex.
Today was no exception. The stunt you pulled at Doyoung’s wedding made him turn red with anger and jealousy. He didn’t want to ruin the event so he laughed it off in front of the others and gave your thigh a warning squeeze under the table. But once you were finally home he could release all that pent-up frustration by pounding into you relentlessly.
Now your hands were tied behind your back with his belt and your chest was pressed on the wooden surface of the same dressing table you were sitting at earlier. You both were still fully dressed; you with your tiny dress pulled up so the fabric rested wrinkled on your back and your panties had been moved to the side to allow the pleasurable intrusion. He was still wearing his half-unbuttoned shirt and his pants and underwear pooled on the floor around his legs. There had been no time to get undressed. When you both were this angry you needed each other fast and rough.
“That’s right, princess,” he grunted when he felt you tightening around him. “I’m the one who gets to take you home and fuck you this good.”
You wished you could scoff at his arrogance but he was fucking you good.
“Right t-there!” you moaned instead, trying to communicate that he was hitting the perfect spot to have you cumming in seconds, but he already knew that. He knew your body very well. You were incredibly compatible in bed.
…If only you were compatible in other ways too.
“O-oh…,” your voice shook with pleasure. “Don’t stop, don’t stop–”
“Bossy, aren’t we?” he teased, but he complied. And with a few more thrusts he had you coming with a loud moan.
“Who do you belong to?” he asked when you were coming down from your high, admiring the multiple hickeys and love bites he had left on your neck and shoulders.
You lifted your head with difficulty and locked eyes with him in the mirror. “I…,” you croaked weakly, “I belong to no one.”
Chenle pulled you by your hair making you hiss.
“What did you say?”
“I’m not fucking yours,” you spoke through gritted teeth.
A subtle smirk formed on Chenle’s lips. He pulled out of you, despite not having had his release yet, and forced you to sit back down on the chair.
“We’ll see about that,” he said, casually walking away.
“Aren’t you going to untie me?” you asked with a scoff, watching his movements in the mirror.
“Who said we were done?” he replied with another question, turning around to show you what he had gone to find in his nightstand drawer: a hitachi wand.
“Chenle,” you warned him, trying to give him an intimidating glare, but he either didn’t notice or he didn’t care, pulling a chair to sit right behind you, spreading his legs to fit you between them, and placing the vibrator dangerously close to your crotch.
You locked eyes in the mirror.
“Anything you wanna say?” he asked with fake innocence. “Do you finally want to admit that you’re mine? Or do you maybe want to apologize for being a brat at the wedding?”
You defiantly clenched your jaw.
He arched his eyebrow expectantly.
You didn’t say a word.
So he turned on the toy and pressed it against your clothed cunt harshly.
You gasped and quickly closed your thighs but you ended up trapping the vibrator between them and increasing the stimulation.
“Chenle!” you breathed out, squirming defenselessly with your arms still tied behind you while he held you against his chest with one of his arms around your waist. “You…Y-you asshole!”
“Who do you belong to?” he asked you again.
“No one!” you yelled.
“Wrong,” he countered, turning up the intensity.
You don’t know how many times he made you cum like that. He kept going until your body was glistening with sweat, and your brain had turned into mush. Your spent body was leaning pliantly on his chest while he teasingly grazed the wand against your clothed clit.
He moved his hand from your waist to your chin, to make you look at his reflection in the mirror.
“Who do you belong to?” he whispered looking into your dazed eyes, but your eyes rolled back as another orgasm hit you before you could respond.
Chenle chuckled. “You look so cute like this,” he murmured. “So docile. Now all you have to do is say you belong to me and you’ll be my perfect little princess.”
You let out a soft whimper, but that wasn’t the answer he wanted. It was cruel how he placed the wet toy on your abused pussy again and started moving it in circles. A silent scream escaped you, followed by pathetic sobs.
“My poor Y/N,” he whispered, kissing your tear-stained cheek. “Let me help you. All you have to do is say ‘I’m yours’. C’mon, princess, say it.”
“I-I’m y–...haa,” you babbled incoherently.
“Almost there, Y/N, you’re doing so well,” he praised you without stopping his hand from tormenting you with the vibrator. “Say ‘I’m yours.’”
“I’m y-yours…,” you choked out.
“Louder,” he groaned, nibbling on your neck.
“I’m yours,” you sobbed, trembling because of a new orgasm approaching.
“Louder!”
“I’m yours, daddy–,” you cried, with a breathy, high-pitched moan, squirting all over the toy and his hand.
Chenle’s eyes widened and he dropped the hitachi wand in shock. Did you just call him daddy?!
He released a breath he didn’t even know he was holding and he slowly untangled his arms from your body to make three discoveries:
He had come untouched. A generous amount of sticky white liquid decorated the back of your wrinkled dress.
You were about to pass out, so he quickly untied your wrists and picked you up to take you to the bed.
He had marked you. Again. As soon as he gently lay you down he saw a fresh wound on your neck, barely an inch away from the one he gave you months ago.
He quickly went to grab a wet towel to clean you up with one hand, while holding his phone with the other to call Jaemin.
“Hello?” Answered Jaemin’s sleepy voice.
“I bit my mate,” Chenle blurted out anxiously.
“…Yeah,” the older wolf’s voice replied after a moment of silence. “That’s what we do…”
“I mean—I bit her again. I gave her another mark,” Chenle explained.
“Congratulations,” Jaemin yawned.
“She’s gonna be okay, right?” Chenle asked nervously. Jaemin was a healer so he surely knew what to do in this case.
“Chenle, it’s fine. We only need to mark our mates once to bond them to us, but an extra bite or two is not unheard of.”
“…So it’s not dangerous?”
“It’s not,” Jaemin assured him. “Now, calm down and go to bed. It’s 3 AM.”
Chenle mumbled a ‘thank you’ and hung up the phone.
He continued cleaning your body carefully. Then he changed your clothes into something more comfortable; one of the silky PJs that he had bought you and you refused to wear. Finally, he removed your makeup and applied some ointment on your sore wrists while you slept peacefully.
Trying to not wake you up, he lay down on his side of the bed after taking a shower. He was about to fall asleep when he felt your body’s warmth closer to him and one of your arms hugged his waist.
“Y/N?” He whispered, but there was no reply. You were asleep.
Chenle sighed and turned to his side to face you, gently accommodating you in his arms and caressing your hair. It wasn’t the first time that you got close to him in your sleep.
He only wished you acted like this when you were awake too.
A couple of days later you received an unexpected visit.
You were coming out of the shower when you heard the bell ring followed by distant voices. You assumed they were Chenle’s friends who you weren’t interested in meeting so you continued getting dressed and drying your hair nonchalantly until Chenle entered the room.
“Can you come out when you’re ready?” He asked quietly.
“Why?” You asked back monotonously.
“Taeyong hyung and Doyoung hyung are here.”
Ah, yes. You remembered them; the one who’s about to be a dad and the one who just got married.
“So?”
“They said there’s something they need to discuss with both of us.”
You sighed. “Do they also want to tell me off because of what happened at the wedding? It was a harmless joke.”
“I don’t reckon they’re here to give you an award,” he deadpanned.
“I don’t wanna hear it,” you shrugged, going back to applying lotion on your legs.
“Y/N,” he paused to take a deep breath in and exhale slowly, trying to avoid an argument in case his pack members heard. “Please,” he said through gritted teeth.
You sighed and muttered an annoyed ‘fine’, finishing your beauty routine while Chenle went to entertain the guests. You heard the sound of their animated talk and laughter, but it stopped abruptly when you came out of the room to join them.
Taeyong was the first to see you. His mouth opened in shock and his eyes widened. Right after, Doyoung looked your way and gasped. Finally, Chenle followed their eyes and understood what had caused such commotion: your tank top exposed all the recent marks Chenle had left on your body. From the purple and greenish bruises all over your neck and chest to your still reddened wrists.
He quickly stood up and dragged you back to the bedroom.
“What are you doing?!” He whisper-shouted.
“You told me to join you,” you reminded him.
“When you’re ready.”
“I am ready,” You replied confusedly.
“I mean—,” he sighed defeatedly. “Can you cover up, please?”
“Cover up?” You scoffed.
“Unless you want to show off my marks.”
“As if,” you deadpanned.
“Then put on a proper shirt before you join us,” he said, leaving the bedroom to go back to his guests.
There was an awkward silence in the living room.
“It’s not what it looks like,” Chenle finally said.
“Looks like you mauled her,” Taeyong commented.
“She could easily convince the police you kidnapped her with those wrists,” Doyoung added.
“It was just…sex stuff,” Chenle quickly assured.
“Even the extra bite?” Doyoung asked skeptically.
“Google says it happens sometimes,” Chenle defended himself with the knowledge he gathered from the internet. “Jaemin said so too.”
“If you’re feeling desperately possessive, yes,” Taeyong nodded slowly.
Before the younger could reply, you joined them again, this time wearing a t-shirt that covered you a little better. You sat down on the same sofa as your mate but in the opposite corner.
“Hey,” Taeyong greeted you with a polite smile. “I don’t know if you remember us. I’m Taeyong and this is Doyoung. We’re Chenle’s pack brothers.”
“How’s it going, Y/N?” Doyoung asked, smiling too.
You thought about it for a second. Should you tell him you hated your life here and while Chenle googled if it was okay to bite his mate more than once you googled how to get rid of the mating bond?
“All good,” you said instead.
“Is Chenle treating you well?” Taeyong asked this time.
“Of course I am,” Chenle scoffed.
“I’m asking her.”
You paused again. To be fair, he cared for you a lot. He was always making sure you ate and trying to remember the things you like to get them for you. The only problem was that your only form of communication was arguing or yelling at each other.
“Yeah, fine,” you shrugged.
Taeyong and Doyoung exchanged worried looks before Doyoung spoke up.
“Okay…don’t panic but this is an intervention.”
“A what?!” both you and Chenle shrieked.
“We know that the way your relationship started was…unusual,” Doyoung explained, choosing his words carefully. “But we were hoping you would be getting along by now.”
“And you’re not,” Taeyong declared. “It’s been months and you don’t seem to be able to stand each other.”
“Because we hate each other,” you agreed.
“No, we don’t,” Chenle contradicted you quickly. “We’re just going through a rough patch.”
“This entire relationship is a rough patch!” you rolled your eyes.
“Maybe if someone wasn’t so stubborn–”
“This is exactly what I mean,” Doyoung intervened. “Even if you imprinted on each other…maybe you two–...”
“Maybe you two shouldn’t be together,” Taeyong said with a sigh.
There was a dead silence in the room.
“That’s ridiculous,” Chenle murmured. “I imprinted on her.”
“I know,” Taeyong nodded with sad eyes. “But maybe you shouldn’t have.”
Chenle opened his mouth and closed it dumbly again. Taeyong, a hopeless romantic who firmly believed in imprinting and destiny, was telling him that you two were the exception. Your relationship was bad enough to make him question The Moon’s choice of mates.
“We’re already mated,” Chenle insisted.
“There are ways to undo it.”
“Do you want me to suffer to death?” Chenle finally snapped. “You know damn well a wolf can’t survive for long if they part with their mate.”
“There are wolves who have never met their mate and they live a good life,” Taeyong informed him.
“But we already met!”
“That can also be undone.”
You, who had been quiet the entire time, finally spoke up. “...What do you mean?”
“It’s…uncommon,” Doyoung spoke cautiously. “Memory-erasing spells are against the law…But there are cases in which a partial memory block is allowed if taken to court–”
“What are you talking about?” Chenle growled, glaring at Doyoung like he had just insulted him.
“If you two forget you ever met, the bond will break easily and you two can go separate ways,” Doyoung explained.
“No,” Chenle shook his head stubbornly. “We’ll fix our problems ourselves.”
Taeyong sighed before turning to you and calling your name softly. “Y/N, what do you think?”
You stared at him blankly. You had been actively looking for ways to break the bond but losing all memories of Chenle was so…permanent. You looked at Doyoung, and then at Chenle, who was watching you intently.
“And then what?” you finally asked. “My crew left a while ago and I don’t know anyone here. What becomes of me once I forget the reason I’m here?”
“You could contact someone you trust—a friend or family member, and we can wait until they get here to take care of you before proceeding,” Taeyong said. “If you want to proceed, that is.”
You nodded absentmindedly, under Chenle’s incredulous eyes.
“If this is something you both want to do, I’ll handle your case myself,” Doyoung assured you. “I know a few people that could speed this up a bit.”
“But,” Taeyong added, “you must understand that once it’s done there’s no way back.”
You nodded again. Chenle remained silent.
“Can I think about it?” you finally asked.
“Of course,” Taeyong said. “This is a very important decision, so please take as much time as you need.”
You thanked him. Chenle didn’t.
Even when they were finally gone, Chenle wouldn’t speak. It was only when you were lying in bed, your eyes closed as you tried to fall asleep that you heard his quiet voice from beside you.
“I can’t believe you’re considering it.”
You turned your head to the side and opened your eyes. He was staring at the ceiling.
“Is it really that surprising? All we do is fight,” you said.
When he didn’t reply for a whole minute you assumed the conversation was over and turned to lie on your side, staring at the wall.
“I don’t hate you,” you heard him murmur after a while.
“I don’t actually hate you either…,” you replied, not daring to look at him. “I just say stuff sometimes.”
“Sometimes I can be…mean, too.”
You smiled bitterly. “Quite the pair we are, huh?”
“Could be worse.”
“Have you seen worse?” you asked, turning around again to look at him. He was already staring you back.
“...No,” he admitted.
You snorted and he laughed softly too.
“We suck,” he said lightheartedly like the situation was so bad all he could do was laugh.
“But at least I’m quite good at sucking,” you teased him.
“Can you not give me a hard-on right now?” he groaned. “We were having a moment.”
“Not my fault you’re not as good at sucking as me,” you shrugged.
His eyes lit up and you could distinguish the hint of a smirk on his face despite the dim light in the room.
“Yeah?” he breathed out.
Sex with Chenle always started with a fight. This was probably the only exception. Both of you playfully pleasuring each other with no aggression driving your actions was just new. But you definitely didn’t hate having your mouth on his cock while he had you sitting on his face.
You swirled your tongue around the tip, determined to make him come first. He gasped and his hips chased your mouth, but when he heard you giggle he quickly focused back on his task of getting you off first. He licked long stripes up and down your pussy and you moaned around him. Now was his turn to chuckle.
“Having fun?” you breathed out, pulling him out of your mouth momentarily.
He hummed, flicking your clit with the tip of his tongue playfully.
You let out a choked moan. Cheeky bastard.
But you weren’t going to lose. You quickly took him back in your mouth and deep-throated him as far as you could, trying to ignore the uncomfortable stretch. He moaned loudly, but soon retaliated, grabbing onto your ass cheeks and pulling you down forcefully towards his face.
Your eyes rolled back as you moaned, bobbing your head up and down. He was equally desperate, moving his head up and down, and then side to side to let his tongue stroke your cunt in all the right places. Soon you both lost control; you rode his face mindlessly, and he fucked into your mouth eagerly; both of you holding onto each other’s thighs and letting out lewd, wet, loud sounds until you saw white and were trembling with pleasure.
“F-fuck…,” he whispered when you both were lying side by side, trying to catch your breath.
“You didn’t have to go that hard,” you mumbled, still unable to stop your legs from twitching.
“You sucked the soul out of me,” he countered.
“I won by the way,” you said.
He quickly turned to look at you, frowning. “You did not. You came first.”
“Ha! You wish, pup. You came first.”
“You fucking liar!”
…Sometimes, sex with Chenle also ended with a fight. And then your relationship would go back to being as unpleasant as usual.
Until it got worse.
“I talked to Yeosang,” you casually said one day, interrupting the awkward meal you were sharing.
“Who?” he asked, uninterested.
“Yeosang,” you repeated. “One of my crew members. My best friend.”
Chenle hummed. “The one who worked with you at the bar?”
“Yeah. He’ll be here in about three weeks.”
“He’s visiting?”
“Sort of,” you murmured. “Taeyong said it would be better for someone I trust to be near when we…you know…”
Chenle’s entire body tensed. He stared at you in surprise before his expression turned cold.
“We’re not doing that,” he said curtly.
“Chenle–”
“I said no,” he declared going back to eating.
“I made up my mind,” you said.
“So did I.”
“I already told Taeyong.”
“Wha–” he choked on his own words, looking betrayed. “This is something that concerns both of us! You can’t– Damnit!”
“All we do is fight, hurt each other, and fuck, Chenle,” you sighed.
“So you decided to forget it all?! Forget you ever met me?”
You blinked your tears away. You didn’t want to forget Chenle, but you also couldn’t continue in a relationship like this.
Chenle mistook your silence for an answer and decided to end the conversation by standing up abruptly and leaving the apartment.
He came back at about 4 in the morning, trying not to make too much noise so he wouldn’t wake you up.
He mumbled a dry sorry when you sat up in bed to watch him enter the room.
“It’s fine,” you said tiredly. You hadn’t been able to sleep because you were worried something had happened to him. “Come to bed.”
He wasn’t in the mood to fight anymore, so he obeyed. He took a quick shower and put on something more comfortable before sliding into bed with you.
“I won’t stop you,” he croaked. His voice sounded like he had been crying.
“Hm?”
“I’ll sign the documents,” he explained. “Jisung told me not to do it…but I’m exhausted,” he sighed defeatedly. “Do whatever you think will make you happier.”
“We’ll both be happier,” you corrected him. “Thank you,” you added softly.
He didn’t reply so you closed your eyes, ready to finally fall asleep when he spoke up again.
“Jaemin’s gonna be a dad,” he blurted out.
“Jaemin? The healer?”
“Yeah…his mate’s pregnant. Well, she’s also Jeno’s mate, so maybe Jeno’s gonna be a dad. Not sure how that works. I think they’re both the dad…” he trailed off.
“They can’t both be the dad,” you said, frowning.
“Not biologically,” he shrugged, agreeing with you. “But they don’t seem to care about that.”
“Weird, but good for them, I guess,” you conceded.
“Taeyong hyung’s pup will be born soon too,” he rambled, and you swore you heard his voice crack. “I never cared much for kids, but–,” he paused.
You silently stared at him, noticing how he quickly wiped a tear away with his hand.
“I didn’t even know I wanted to be a dad…but when I met you I thought– I d-don’t know, I thought that maybe–” he broke down and sobbed, not being able to hide his sorrow anymore.
“Oh, Lele,” you called him the nickname that you rarely used, pulling him into a hug. He hugged you back tightly, crying into your chest loudly.
“W-why couldn’t we m-make it work?!” he lamented.
You kissed the top of his head, gently patting his back. “I’m sorry. You’ll have your own family one day, just–”
“Not with y-you?” he hiccuped.
“Yeah,” you whispered sadly and your voice cracked too. “...I’m so sorry.”
You both cried yourselves to sleep holding onto each other like you were afraid one of you would be gone in the morning. Because it was going to happen soon anyway.
There were no more fights after that night. But the reason may be that you weren’t talking to each other much anymore. Now that a decision had been made, you were both feeling…empty. Just waiting for the separation day to come.
It wasn’t until almost two weeks later that you fought again.
Chenle entered the room to see you restlessly looking for something. His eyes followed you as you opened each drawer again and again until he finally dared ask what the problem was.
“My necklace,” you replied quickly.
“Which one?”
“My favorite one!”
“The one with seashells? You wore it yesterday,” he reminded you.
“I know, but now I can’t find it,” you said, opening the nightstand drawer.
“You already looked there–”
“It has to be somewhere!” you said, irritated, trying to think of places you hadn’t searched yet when a dark thought crossed your mind. “Chenle. Did you throw it away?”
Chenle, who had opened his nightstand drawer to help you look for the lost item halted.
“...What?” he asked quietly.
“You said it covered your mark,” you accused him.
“You can’t be serious right now.”
“You hated how I always wore that one instead of the ones you gave me.”
“That doesn’t mean I’ll throw your stuff away! What am I, a child?!” he asked, offended.
“Is this your way of getting revenge because I accepted Taeyong and Doyoung’s offer?” you insisted.
“Oh my god–I didn’t touch your ugly ass necklace!” he yelled exasperatedly.
“THEN WHERE IS IT?!”
“I DON’T KNOW! It’s not my fault you don’t take care of your stuff!”
You took a deep breath in. “Chenle,” you spoke more calmly. “If you have it, just please give it back. I won’t be mad–”
“I said I don’t have it!” he exclaimed. “Why do you always assume the worst of me?”
“What else am I supposed to think of the person who forced me into a relationship with him?” you spat pettily.
His eyes widened but he looked down before you could catch the sadness in them. In silence, he dragged his feet to get out of the room, closing the door behind him and leaving you alone.
You huffed angrily and continued looking for your precious necklace until exhaustion took over you and it became obvious that it wasn’t in the room. The warm water of the shower helped calm you down, and as your thoughts became more coherent you regretted the way you had talked to Chenle. He may be an ass sometimes, but you knew it was unlikely that he would purposely do something that hurt you. So you decided to apologize to him as soon as he came back.
But he didn’t.
You lost count of how many times you practiced the apology in your head, but your mate didn’t show up for you to say them out loud.
It was way past midnight and it was raining heavily outside. You started to worry, so you called him, but the faint vibration coming from the living room guided you to his forgotten phone on the sofa.
Now you were straight out panicking. He was out there in this weather, probably not thinking clearly after your fight, and with no way to contact him.
After a minute of hesitation, you grabbed a random hoodie and went to find him, but as soon as you opened the door you bumped face-to-face into him. His drenched clothes were sticking to his body and droplets of water slid down his face and neck. You noticed he was shivering slightly, but he took off his shoes and walked past you and into the bedroom without sparing you a glance before you could ask anything.
You only reacted when you heard the sound of the shower running. You walked into the bedroom too, nervously trying to remember the so-practiced apology to recite when he came out.
“Chenle I’m so–”
“The park,” he interrupted you curtly, again walking past you and sitting on the bed.
“What?” you mumbled, confused.
He pointed at your nightstand. “It was at the park.”
You looked at where he was pointed and saw your cherished necklace, completely wet but in perfect condition.
“Y-you…went to find my necklace?” you stuttered incredulously.
He ignored your question, getting into bed and lying on his side, turning his back to you.
“In this weather?” you continued your interrogation, still getting no answer from him. “Chenle, that park is huge!”
Still no reply.
You sighed, understanding that he was surely very hurt and needed some space. “Thanks…And sorry,” you whispered, getting into bed and accepting the silent treatment as a very deserved punishment as you tried to fall asleep.
But a couple of hours later you were woken up by a constant rowdy noise coming from Chenle’s side of the bed. As you slowly opened your eyes and got used to the darkness, you noticed that he was shivering.
“Chenle?” you whispered, reaching for his shoulder and shaking him softly. “Chenle what’s wrong?”
He didn’t reply, nor did he stop trembling, so you sat up and turned the light on, taking a closer look at him. His face was flushed and covered in sweat, his body was also sweaty and trembling and you finally registered that the constant noise was his teeth chattering.
You muttered a curse under your breath and hurried to get a wet cloth, placing it on his forehead and pulling the covers off his body. He whined, annoyed at the sudden coldness hitting him but he remained pliant, letting you take care of him. Thankfully you had some leftover medicine from a nasty cold you had gotten during your first month together. Chenle had nagged at you back then but he made sure to nurse you back into health, and now it was your turn.
When the medicine kicked in and his temperature started going down, you were able to make him sit up so you could get him out of his wet pajamas and put on a pair of clean, dry boxers. He groaned and half-complained the entire time but he let you do as you wanted.
He was kinda cute, with that faint blush on his cheeks and his lips forming a pout, while he mumbled incoherent words.
Not everything was incoherent though.
“I don’t want to forget…,” he whispered as you changed the wet cloth on his forehead.
Your movements halted for a second before you continued nursing him until he drifted back into sleep.
“I don’t want to forget you either,” you admitted. “I’ve questioned my decision many times in the last couple of weeks. I know we fight a lot but it’s not all bad…That night when you said you would sign the papers it felt like we were finally trying to understand each other and it got me thinking that if we opened up more often, maybe we could make it work…but then I ruined it again by accusing you of something you would never do. I’m so fucking sorry, Lele. I love you, I really do, but–” you paused when you noticed a faint smile forming on his lips.
“You’re not asleep,” you deadpanned.
He chuckled and opened one eye to look at you. “Go on, keep talking.”
“Looks like you’re feeling better,” you rolled your eyes, about to stand up but his warm hand grasped your wrist.
“It’s the first time you've said it,” he said with a weak voice, but somehow sounding relieved. “That you love me.”
You blushed and looked away. ���Yeah, well. Hard to find a good time to say it when we’re always yelling at each other.”
“I love you too,” he said, as his thumb caressed your wrist. “I love you so, so much.”
“That doesn’t mean you should spend hours in the rain looking for something I lost,” you reprimanded him, with a sigh. “You hate that necklace anyway.”
“But you like it,” he said like it was so simple.
“Idiot,” you tried to sound like you were mad, but you didn’t look very intimidating with the tears that inevitably escaped your eyes. “You got sick because of me.”
“But now I got a sexy nurse taking care of me so I think I’m the real winner,” he joked, making you snort.
He sat up slowly, ignoring the cloth that fell off his forehead and his hands cupped your cheeks. “Sorry for worrying you,” he whispered.
“Sorry for blaming you,” you sniffled.
“Sorry for yelling at you.”
“Sorry for…the wedding thing. And all the other things I’ve done to embarrass you…”
“Sorry for forcing you to stay,” he finally said, looking into your eyes sincerely and with sorrow.
“Sorry for using you,” you sobbed, addressing your behavior before you became official.
His lower lip trembled and he pulled you into a hug. “Don’t forget me,” he begged. “Give us one more chance…”
You nodded, clinging to him and wetting his neck with your tears. “We can try.”
He slowly pulled away, holding you by your shoulders to look at your face. “Wait, really?” he asked hopefully.
You nodded again.
Chenle was about to speak again when he noticed something he hadn’t seen before. His eyes went from your face to your body. “Is that my hoodie?” he asked.
Oh.
You had hastily put on whatever hoodie you found on top of your pajamas when you had tried to go out to find him, and then you had absentmindedly gone to bed without taking it off.
“Sorry,” you mumbled, blushing and trying to take it off.
“NO!”, he quickly said, grabbing your hands to stop you. “No, god–...keep it on…,” he murmured, wondering if he was dreaming. You had said you loved him, agreed to give the relationship another chance and you were wearing his clothes? This had to be the… “Best day of my fucking life.”
You blushed even more and tried to stutter an answer, but his lips were suddenly on yours, and, fuck it, nothing else mattered. His lips were hot and wet as he pressed them on yours for a slow but heated kiss that became nasty too fast. You were both so lost in the feeling that you didn’t have it in you to even feel embarrassed at the string of saliva that connected your mouth to his when he pulled away, looking dazed.
In the blink of an eye, he was kissing your neck wantonly. That’s when you remembered that he was sick.
“Lele, we can’t,” you tried to be firm but it came out as a moan. “You need to rest.”
“I’m fine,” he assured you, weakly trying to pull your body closer but whining when his strength failed him.
“Lele,” you insisted. “When you feel better, okay?”
He groaned. “This will make me feel better. Please, you can’t wear my hoodie and not expect me to get super hard.”
You looked down and gulped. He was indeed hard and leaking through the thin material of his boxers.
He once again tried to bring you closer but he was weak and agitated, but he felt like he could cry because of how badly he needed you. “Please,” he repeated.
You pushed him back so he was lying on his back again and he whined pathetically at what he thought was a rejection, but that whine turned into a shaky moan when you straddled him and sat on his crotch. A shiver ran down his spine and his cock twitched under you. He looked at you with wide expectant eyes, which rolled back in bliss when you rocked back and forth slowly.
“F-fuuuuck,” he sobbed, placing his hands on your thighs. “I love you, I love you–Oh!”
You bit back a whimper. You had never seen Chenle this needy and it was doing things to you.
“I love you too,” you replied and he moaned. Like it was the nastiest dirty talk he had ever heard.
“Wanna…b-be inside you…,” he whispered, looking desperate. “Please.”
You kissed him on the lips sweetly before getting off him to take off his boxers and your clothes. He let out a distressed sound when you tried to take off the hoodie once again and you understood that he wanted to fuck you while you wore his clothes.
You slowly lowered your body and felt him entering you, stretching you delightfully. He trembled and groaned, lying down pliantly, and letting you be in charge. The fever was making his body incredibly responsive to your every touch, everything felt too hot, and the fact that he also felt incredibly happy was making his cock jerk excitedly.
“Stop,” he suddenly gasped and you froze, thinking that this had been a bad idea after all, but he quickly explained what the problem was. “I’m so close I–...I d-don’t know why I’m so sensitive, but I…,” he gulped. “If you d-don’t stop I’ll…uh…inside–”
You bounced on his cock unexpectedly, making him release a broken moan.
“Then do it,” you said. “Cum inside.”
His mouth dropped open and his stomach spasmed. He quite literally forced himself not to come at your words.
He had only come inside of you months ago when he mated and marked you. You had gone to get the morning-after pill right after and you had had quite a big argument about how it would be a terrible idea to have a child in your toxic relationship. His wolf instinct wasn’t happy about it, but he had agreed not to cum inside of you again and he had kept his promise, always pulling out before you two made the mistake of making an innocent baby miserable.
“Y/N,” he spoke through gritted teeth. “Are you sure?”
You resumed your pace, fucking yourself on his cock slow but sensually, and making him tremble with pleasure.
“I’m sure,” you purred.
“Y-you…Mmh–ah…,” he moaned weakly, watching you fuck yourself on his cock with lidded eyes. “Could get p-pregnant–”
“Fill me up, daddy, please,” you moaned.
Chenle saw white. His eyes rolled back and his mouth hung open in a silent scream as he shot a gush of his seed into you…and then another, as the endless pleasure made him shake from head to toe and sob.
If he was sensitive before, now he was in heaven. The implications of your words were very clear: you were staying with him.
He breathed agitatedly as he tried to come down from his high, which seemed to never end. Weirdly so, he felt like the room was getting hotter and hotter, and he was still very hard.
Oh. Oh right. It was that time already.
“Y/N,” he called your name, with his voice still trembling.
“Yeah?” you asked, caressing his chest and looking at him lovingly, satisfied despite not reaching your orgasm.
“Y/N, my rut,” he breathed out.
“Your–,” you gasped when you finally noticed that he was still hard–maybe even harder– inside of you. “Now?!”
You don’t know how he suddenly gained all his strength back, but you didn’t have time to question it when he suddenly had you on your back with him hovering over you.
“Now,” he confirmed, giving you a hard thrust that made you both moan.
He built up a steady pace immediately. He had your permission to breed you so he was going to do just that. As many times as possible.
The sight of you on your back, wearing his clothes and opening your legs so willingly for him to fill you up, looking at him with so much love was driving him crazy. It felt so different this time. It would be different.
“I love you,” he moaned urgently.
“I…uh, lo-ah, ah!” you tried to say between his sharp thrusts. “Love…y-you–ah, ah–Ah!”
“My p-pretty princess,” he murmured, mesmerized. He squeezed your clothed breasts, your waist, your soft thighs. “Want daddy to breed you?”
“Y-yeah,” you moaned, pulling the hoodie up a little, only enough to show him how deep he was hitting. “Daddy, here–”
A choked moan left his lips when he saw the outline of his cock appear and disappear in your belly.
“Of course, princess. Daddy will fill you up right…” he murmured, pulling out until only the tip was inside and grabbing onto your hips before he rammed into you harder than ever before. “...here.”
You tossed and turned aimlessly under him when he started pounding mercilessly. He fucked you desperately but somehow you felt so adored under his loving eyes.
Feeling your climax approach, you used one of your hands to reach for your clit, but he was faster than you.
“No, no, no, princess,” he cooed gently pushing your hand away to do it himself. “That’s daddy’s toy, okay?”
You nodded dumbly and whined when he stroked you fast from the get-go. Not knowing what to do with your hands, you ended up groping your chest clumsily, adding to the already unbearable pleasure.
“Mmm,” he hummed in delight feeling a stronger release about to hit as he watched you being so fucked out because of him. “You love this,” he declared, amusedly. “You love me…”
You suddenly tensed and your back arched, hit by a mind-blowing orgasm that had you squirming helplessly. “Oooh….oh, fuck fuck fuck—daddy…daddy, I love y-you—”
He groaned at the way you tightened around his already sensitive cock. His movements became even more relentless as he fucked you further into madness. “Daddy loves you t-too, princess…,” he spoke hurriedly. “Loves you s-so much–gonna….gonna pump you full–Haa…so full o-of pups,” he continued reciting delirious promises as his knot started forming, catching inside of you. “Shit– Y/N…y-you’re my mate, y-yeah? You’re staying…Mmmh oh, oh yeeess… you’re staying with me, right?”
“I’m–,” you gulped, dazed, still pleasure drunk. “I’m stay…staying w-with you…”
Chenle’s chest filled with pride and adoration. He was going to be the best mate for you. You would be so happy together.
He hid his face in the crook of your neck and he bit you, again, before he could stop himself. But this mark was different. It felt real.
Because you loved him back.
You whined at the pleasurable pain of his fangs piercing your skin, and his cock pumping you full of his cum at the same time. His body spasmed for each gush of cum that jerked out of him, but even the overwhelming pleasure didn’t stop him from whispering the sweetest promises.
Sex with Chenle usually started with a fight. But sometimes it could start–and end–with a love confession.
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stepping stones to hell ch. 5 (ronance fic)
hello!! all previous chapters can be found here!
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Robin splashed cold water over her face then dried it with a towel. Sleeping on the tour bus was so hard which made waking up when she was able to sleep in her own bed rough. She stared at herself in the mirror, studying the bags under her eyes. She was supposed to meet Nancy at one and not intended to sleep until eleven. It just sort of happened.
She brushed her teeth then made her way back into her room. As much as she loved touring and playing shows, she loved being home.
The band had been fortunate enough to start making very very good money. The first thing she had done was buy a small house on a bit of private land. She had put a lot of thought and work into decorating her space so it really felt like her home.
Her bedroom consisted of various things. She had a king sized bed with black silk sheets and red pillows. She had a large framed movie poster for Back To The Future with the same guitar Marty played at the prom mounted on the wall next to it. On the left side of the room was a large dark brown wooden dresser.
On top of the dresser was a jewelry box shaped like a coffin, a gift from Eddie that he handmade himself. On the inside of the coffin were places to hang necklaces and earrings. But on the door he had painted the date she had joined the band in small pink numbers.
Though she wasn’t the greatest plant mom, she did have a small cactus sitting in the window sill as well. Succulents didn’t need much attention so it was easy to keep this alive while touring.
Her closet was a decent size which was good since she collected lots of silly t’s while on tour. Anytime they were able to stop and explore a city she always looked for some sort of cheesy shirt or hat.
Typically though, Robin would have chosen her favorite David Bowie shirt because she wore it everywhere. However she didn’t wash the shirt before they left for tour. So, she instead grabbed some jeans and a Goonies t-shirt.
She brushed out her hair and decided to wear a navy blue ball cap free of bad jokes. She was about to head out the door when her phone started to ring. She hurried to the kitchen to pick it up, “Hello?”
“Hey!” Steve’s voice came from the other end. “I just wanted to let you know that I love you, and I’m proud of you. What you’re doing today is a big deal.”
Robin’s posture softened and she managed to choke out, “Thanks, Steve. I love you, too.”
“Okay, well. Be safe, I’ll see you in a couple days. Call me if you need anything, bye!”
“Bye,” she said before hanging the phone back on the wall.
She took a few minutes to water her plants that weren’t succulents which by some miracle had also survived while she was away. She really needed to make friends with the closest neighbor so she had someone keeping an eye on things.
She heard the clock in the living room ding which meant it was twelve. She had an hour until it was time to meet Nancy and had about a forty minute drive. “Shit,” she sighed, grabbing her car keys off the wall.
Robin never really got better at driving. She actually hated it and reminisced frequently on the days Steve chauffeured her around. She hated being behind the wheel with so many cars on the road. Too many people honking, not enough people using blinkers. It was stressful.
The one thing that got her through driving every time was her trusted cassette. The Cranberries’ album Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Can’t We. She never changed it. It was her true comfort, not to mention she believed now that if she tried to change it she would wreck or something wild would happen. Not that that surprised her, she had been superstitious since she was a child. However, being self aware of that fact didn’t mean she could change it.
The closer she was to arriving at Petey’s, the more anxious she felt. Even though it was a cool day outside her palms were sweating. She gripped the steering wheel tighter. This is the right thing to do. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to shout your truth.
Robin reminded herself that every single person she truly loved already knew and they still loved her. She hated that she even felt like this was a struggle. She was proud to be herself. Though it had been a long and hard journey, Robin loved herself. It was just the things instilled in her when she was younger that left herself under lock and key.
She took deep breaths as she pulled into the parking lot. You are okay. She reminded herself.
She stared at the building and watched a small group of people leave. At least this would be in Nancy’s hands. Though they hadn’t had a continued friendship through the years, Robin knew she could trust her.
She got out of the car and looked around the parking lot. She wondered what Nancy drove or if she was here yet. “Robin!” She heard her name being called behind her.
She turned to see Nancy standing at the door, waving. “Hey!” Robin followed her inside the cafe.
Robin forgot how much she missed this place every time she came home. She looked around, admiring the new menu. The last time she had been in was spring time so the chalk menu had flowers, easter eggs and was done in bright pink and purple colors. Now that they were on the cusp of Fall the menu was brown, red and orange. There were pumpkins in the bottom corner of the menu with a ghost in the center.
“I have a table in the back,” Nancy stated as they walked through the establishment.
Nancy already had her pen, paper and voice recorder out. They took their seats and Nancy smiled at Robin, “How was sleeping in a real bed?”
Robin groaned, “You have no idea how awful those stupid tour beds are.”
“I know how much I hate sleeping in motels for work so bus beds have to be worse.” She sipped at the white mug on the table.
“Do you drink your coffee black?” Robin asked, a bit disturbed after noticing the contents of Nancy’s mug lacked any color.
Nancy raised an eyebrow at Robin, “How do you drink yours?”
“Definitely sugar and half and half. I prefer a fun little flavor, maybe like mocha or something.”
Nancy nodded her head, “That checks out.”
Robin scoffed, pretending to act offended. “What is that supposed to mean?”
She laughed and shook her head, “Nothing. It’s just.. Well, you look like someone who couldn’t stomach black coffee.”
Robin rolled her eyes but smiled as a woman approached their table, “Good afternoon. Would you like to order anything?”
“Just a coffee, lots of cream and chocolate please.”
The girl nodded before parting quickly. “Now, Robin Buckley, drummer of sensational band Corroded Coffin who, if I may add, is taking the world by storm. What are the things you must tell me?”
Robin was enjoying the side of Nancy. The times they had spent were during scary and traumatic events. There was little room for humor then so this change was nice. “Right into, huh?” Robin asked, starting to feel nervous again.
“Well I’m just so curious what it is that has you wanting to waste time with me on your two days home.”
Robin tilted her head, “If I wasn’t here I’d be home alone watching the same movies I always do.”
“Fair enough. I guess I’m just curious.”
The waitress came back with a purple mug and handed it to Robin who thanked her. She sipped on the coffee for a moment, debating on how to start the conversation. She tapped the handle of the cup before taking a breath. “Okay, so. I know the article is about me being a woman and my success but also the struggles I’ve faced just because I’m a woman.” She paused and Nancy nodded for her to continue.
As Nancy tapped the ink pen against the page Robin noticed her nails were painted green which was Robin’s favorite color. She wondered what Nancy’s favorite color was. Then she knew she was distracting herself instead of just saying it. “Okay. Fine. It’s more than just being a woman in the industry. It’s being a queer woman. I’m gay. I’m a lesbian. And I know, I know I haven’t been out. So, I know it’s unfair to say I’ve faced struggles as someone who is in the closet but I have had my own obstacles. I know how hard it is to be gay during times like these. I have been terrified to speak my truth and be myself. You and Steve both said yesterday to just be me and I can’t do that if I’m too much of a coward to say it. I have been at protests and I’ve labeled myself an ally but it is so so much more than that.”
Robin paused to take a breath. It felt good to say it. Nancy was staring at her, pen unmoving. She blinked slowly then nodded her head, encouraging Robin to continue. “I have been scared my whole life of living my truth and I’m done hiding. I want people to know. I want my fans to know that I’m proud of myself and them. I want them to know if they’re gay it isn’t abnormal. It isn’t all the cruel things people say in the media. It just is. C’est comme ça.”
Nancy took another drink of her coffee. Her eyes told Robin she was searching for something to say. “This is a big deal. So let me say, I’m proud of you. Let me also say-“
Robin couldn’t help but interrupt her. She was scared Nancy was going to shoot the idea down. “I know this is a sensitive topic. I know that it can cause a lot of backlash to She Supremacy. I know this but Nancy, this is so important to me.”
“Robin, this is important to me too.” She laid a hand over her heart, “I am honored you trust me with this. You’re right, this is a sensitive topic. It’s your livelihood and of course you are going to receive backlash. However, we all have. It’s part of it. But, the good it brings will outweigh anything bigots say. You will be happier. You can love freely. And also, you have the ability to save people with this information. I know you know how scary being gay can be simply because there are people who hate you just for existing. She Supremacy is a safe space. We will run your story. I just want to make sure this is what you want. This is your privacy. But, like I said, you sharing your story could help so many people.”
Robin let out a breath of relief. Nancy seemed to understand so well. “I’m hoping it does. I know what having Elton John did for me and I just want to be able to help.”
“I think it’s very brave of you. I would love to write this in.” She paused for a drink of her coffee, “So, do you want to come out in the article or casually mention that you’re a queer artist? We can do the big thing or be subtle.”
Robin closed her eyes in thought. She had never been good with words. But, Nancy Wheeler was better than good with words, she practically owned them. “I… Think you should write it. I think however you can word it best. I want to be out. I have been to a few protests and stuff but, I want them to know I’m fighting for them and me too.”
“I have some ideas. It will take me a couple of days to write and I know you will leave soon. Here,” she ripped off a scrap of her paper and scribbled a number down on it. “Call me by Tuesday, it should be done by then. I’ll be home after two, so anytime after that. I’ll read it to you and you can let me know what to do.”
Robin pocketed the phone number and sighed. She leaned back in her chair. She had never felt so free in her life. She was going to finally be herself.
Nancy packed up her things into a brown satchel. “I’m really excited for this. I think it’s going to be a hit. And, not like in the way I want to profit off you,” she started to rush her words. “I don’t mean that. I just want it to reach more people because what we do is important.” She squeezed her eyes shut then laughed lightly. “Sorry, I just wanted to be clear. I didn’t want you to think I was using you or something. This story, your story, is very important to me.”
Robin smiled genuinely, “Thank you, Nancy. This means so much to me.”
She stood from the table, taking both of their receipts. “Thanks for agreeing to meet today. I’ll talk to you soon?”
“Soon, sure.” Nancy gave her one last smile then stood from the table. “I can get my coffee, Robin.”
Robin shook her head, “You get it next time.”
Nancy threw her bag over her shoulder then shrugged slightly. “Right, well. I look forward to your call.”
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