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RO Quotes Beginning With ‘You Have No Idea’
Kade/Kara: “You have no idea what I’ve done these last few years. Have no idea what I’ve had to do in order to make myself feel better about seeing the sunrise without you. I will never compare what I went through with what happened to you, because they can’t be compared, but it was hell. It may not have been your version, but hell isn’t the same for everyone.”
Michael/Margot: “You have no idea how much I’ve yearned for you. How I’ve waited with bated breath for you to just smile at me. To look at me with anything akin to love in your eyes. You have no idea how important you are to me— I don’t think there are enough words in this world that will be able to express it. To express how much I love you, but it’s not enough anymore. My love isn’t enough anymore.”
Blaine/Blaire: “You have no idea, huh? You truly can’t see how much this is hurting me? I hate what’s happened. I hate that you lost so much, and if I could trade places with you in a heartbeat I would. I hate knowing that you’ve been in pain, and I hate that I haven’t been able to be there for you in so long, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to let you hurt me too.”
Wren/Wynn: “You have no idea what you’re doing! You don’t know what you’re messing with, and because of that you’re going to pay the price! And, I promise you, it’s a price that’s going to be way too high. It’s going to hurt, and it’s going to create a wound that’s so deep it’ll never properly heal, and all you’ll have is yourself to blame for it being there.”
Nicholas/Natalie: “You have no idea who I am! You haven’t ever truly taken the time to know me. Did you really think I would thank you? That I’d be happy about what’s happened? They’re my best friend, and I may never see them again, speak with them again, because of what’s happened today. You have no idea how much you’ve just broken me.”
#absentia#kade lewis#kara lewis#michael steele#margot steele#blaine ellis#blaire ellis#wren cassidy#wynn cassidy#nicholas paxton#natalie paxton#thank you Anon for the suggestions you sent 💞#ro quotes#small spoilers for later scenes#won’t happen exactly like this#but… you know#angst
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Talked w a friend for hours about so much friend group drama that transpired in December & I’m honestly so grateful to have her. She is literally so caring & receptive & understanding & such a breath of fresh air after a history of friends who fall off after the simplest conflict
#she legit went ‘people aren’t perfect. mistakes happen’#‘friendships won’t always be a smooth sailing and that’s okay’#literally just healthy open communication#which is exactly something like me w anticipatory anxiety needs to hear#her bday is coming up & im compiling a wholeass bday package for her bc she DESERVES IT#p
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Dancer! Sejanus, in which he is given the lead role alongside one of Marcus’s best friends, and Marcus can’t take his eyes off of him for the entire duration of the show
#he feels entranced and like he can’t breathe anymore as soon as sejanus comes on stage#he only realizes several seconds later that he has been unconsciously holding his breath#and it happens multiple times again that he unconsciously stops breathing for a few seconds looking at him#cause his movements paired with the lights and the music make him look almost otherworldly#marcus cannot truthfully say whether his friend was good or not cause he was too preoccupied with sejanus to concentrate on her performance#it’s fine she won’t know and he’ll make it up to her#after complimenting her after the show though he immediately asks her who the guy dancing with her was#you can bet he looked sejanus up on ig and google that same night#he also starts picking his friend up from practice sometimes#with the intention of yes hanging out with her but also of hopefully catching a glimpse of sejanus before they leave#sejanus starts noticing him too but he thinks marcus is dating the friend#“do you need a ride or is your boyfriend picking you up today as well?” “my boyfriend?“#marcus asking if practice is ever open to the public and when the next show will be#“what’s with the sudden interest marcus?”#she’s teasing she knows exactly what caused the sudden interest#her inviting sejanus to hang out with her and her friends#and trying to leave him and marcus alone together as much as possible#also i said “one of marcus’s best friends” and not “marcus’s best friends” because reaper marcus bestfriendism always <3#sejarcus#marcus tbosas#sejanus plinth
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It is Way Earlier than I am normally awake but I can’t stop thinking about the Wayne’s deaths, I need to write about it so bad like… who called the police? Was it Bruce? Did he have to explain to the 911 operator what happened? Was he too in shock to call himself so a random bystander had to do it? Do you think he tried to pick up all the pearls from her necklace and got blood all over his hands? Do you think Alfred had to help him wash it off hours later? Do you think Alfred was able to hide how the story and the picture taken at his most vulnerable moment was all over the newspapers for very long? Can you imagine having to go outside knowing that everyone knew intimately but not genuinely the worst thing that has ever happened to you?
#I need Bruce to be the loneliest but most media exploited child ever#I need it to be so ingrained in his soul that he physically has to make sure that doesn’t happen to Dick when his own trauma is publicized#of course he has to intervene when he sees a little black haired boy in the exact same situation he was like a decade earlier#he knows exactly what it’s like to be left too alone with everyone still watching#I also think that none of his kids ever really consider how bad it was for him#he won’t talk about it#but maybe they come across the old newspapers and things start to add up#like his protectiveness over their privacy and distaste of the press#anyway it’s sleepytown for me#I have to fix my sleep schedule before it causes me to suffer
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How'd Augusta end up being radioactive? :o
A second chance.
// suicidal themes below
Augusta originally worked as a part time astronaut at a Star Depot, which collected star Fragments and sent them back to earth to be used as fuel similar to nuclear power.
Augusta wasn’t really in a good place at the time while working there. She never had any kind of big ambition in life and wanted to live life peacefully, but knew that “getting by” isn’t enough for her to survive. People around her kept expecting so much of her that she didn’t know what to tell them.
Working as an astronaut helps take her mind off things at first, but then she starts to feel worse. She doesn’t get invited out to things, but she doesn’t really make any effort to try, and relatives are asking how she’s doing and she doesn’t know what to tell them without it turning into a lecture. and over time it piles up
First she starts asking for more shifts handling and shipping the stars. Then she asks to do overtime. And finally one day she finds a tiny Fragment on the floor.
The thing about Fragments is that they change your body and can make you very sick if youre near them for too long.
Tomorrow would be a holiday and the building would be closed. The Shift manager, who promised to close up, left early for drinks with coworkers. So she was the only employee working.
So she picks up the star and swallows it expecting to die. But instead her hair turns pink and the dust around her floats, and when she breathes no air comes out. The Star fused to her body and latched to her heart.
Basically, her suicide attempt gave her her own way to live and pink hair as a bonus lol
Here’s what her hair looked like before and after The Incident <3
#sorry if it’s not very comprehensive but that’s basically what she’s got going on lol. I tried to make it as shortened down as possible but#I did share this at some point and managed to bring the chat to their knees wjfjggs. sorry if this version doesn’t have the same effect lol#besides turning radioactive she also has minor antigravity powers and doesn’t need to eat. basically somewhat immortal lol#is it a healthy way of solving your problems? probably not. but she’s much happier now#after this happens she steals a ship and just Explores space for a long ass time before Meeting and eventually marrying Anton#she can still interact with others but she needs to be wearing her spacesuit to dampen the radiation. it won’t kill you but you can feel#Sick or Tores After being near her for like a couple days straight. Not her whole Body either just the chest and Torsi since the Stars there#*tired#I should also mention I don’t know exactly everything about radiation but enough to build this. so if it doesn’t sound like how radiation#works don’t worry about it cause I literally would not know and it’s for fun OC purposes anyway#thank you so much for asking btw’!!!! I’ve been itching to dump this LOL#Augusta#oc lore#yapping#txt#doodles#// suicide#tw suicide#suicide ment
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I wrote this a long time ago
After WTIT (can you believe it’s been over 2 yrs already?)😳
Anyway, you know how my brain doesn’t stop?
I think I was in spiral mode back then lol (it’s a bit angsty)
(And this is like worst case, I don’t think it will go down this way anymore) Enjoy!🤪
#my theories like to get away from me sometimes.#the reason I don’t think this will happen is mostly because of the length of time the finale will be#I was expecting a total breakdown crash and burn and then a rise from the ashes#that may still happen but now I more expect Thomas to apply his problems to like Lego metaphors or something lol#it’s still angsty but in a fun way? I guess#?#ok mostly it never happens the way I think it will#so it might pull some elements from my theories here but it won’t happen exactly like that#I mean of course it won’t#I think what I’m saying is I’ve let it go so I won’t be disappointed when it inevitably doesn’t happen lol#that was a lot of explanation huh? I’m such a nerd for this show#thomas sanders#sanders sides#roman sanders#sander sides#logan sanders#ts roman#patton sanders#virgil sanders#ts logan
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I fucking hate miya I fucking hate miya I fucking hate miya I FUCKING HATE HER SO MUCH I HATE HER SO FUCKINH MUCH someone is gonna have to sedate me before I EXPLODE
#hey look it’s one of those rare times I post about roots and not PDBC#I fucking hate miya have I mentioned that already#she makes me SO MAD so FUCKING MAD she’s the worst character#finally caved in and read the previously-lost-media-pages that explain what her deal is due to my brother’s constant begging for me to do so#(I was going to do it on my Own time but I’m sick of being pestered about it)#and I hate her even MORE holy shit#genuinely trying to tone down my language so this post doesn’t get marked as mature or something#she is SUCH A BITCH SHE I CANT STAND HERUHLSIHIUSNUSLINSUILUNLSNDLUNDNUIDL#don’t go read roots to see why I hate her. don’t do it genuinely don’t do it you’ll get pissed off#MIYAAAAAA 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕AAUUGHHHHH#I know this post won’t make sense to anyone I just need to get it all out because screaming makes my throat hurt#and full disclosure I Did scream about it. I got very heated over it (this is normal behavior) (no it’s not’#my brother has the NERVE to say she’s like leif. they are nothing LIKE each other#miya will be the end of me I hate her So Much#have I mentioned that she was needlessly rude to Kurt like wha the fuck#Kurt did nothing wrong and she just was so mean to him for no reason. appalling behavior#this bitch miya has the nerve to act all morally superior to everyone else when she’s just as bad#something something glass houses something something the entire conflict is Miya’s fault#roots my beloved but also I have never felt this much genuine hatred for a fictional character before#she legitimately caused the main conflicts‼️ she’s horrible!! and not even in a funny way!!#I’m not gonna pretend finch isn’t a total jackass just because I think he’s funny alright? he is#but he’s ENTERTAINING he at least DOES HIS JOB AS A JACKASS well#I Love villains but not when they’re ACTING LIKE THEYRE NOT ONE. COUGH COUGH MIYYYAAA 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕#miya is such a horrid. horrid thing#I’m needlessly heated over this but this hatred has been brewing for a year now#exactly a year now in fact. happy one year anniversary of the start of my unhealthy hatred of this fictional character#I need to calm down I need to calm the FUCK down#she is SO STUPID like ACTUALLY she could’ve fixed the cause of the main conflict before it even happened#but she Didn’t she DIDNT I need to CALM DOWN#if miya has zero haters then I am dead
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do u know what wld fix me. some intense gay sex + then we play all of jeff buckley’s album Grace + smoke a joint together
#IM BEING SERIOUS THIS IS EXACTLY WHERE I WANT TO BE RIGHT NOW#LIKE WHY AM I NOT DOING THIS#WHY DO I SPEND ALL MY TIME TALKING ABT GAY SEX BUT NOT DOING IT#the closest i will get to this is going to my friends house and smoking a joint + listening to his album#gay sex is not on the table ☹️☹️#although… the friend i’m referring to IS the same one who said she wanted to eat me out#so u know the possibilities are there#but no it won’t happen
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oh, random thursday in october, i wish you’d go fuck yourself <3
#anyways i’m depressed today#and i’m not gonna jump ahead and be all ‘i’m in a depressive episode’#bc the jury’s still out on that one#but it’s not often that i a have a random day of depression that isn’t followed by a full episode#which is great!#granted i could also be coming on my period#bc i do feel bloated and also just all round gross#but also could maybe be both#that happens at times#my period doesn’t discriminate against my depressive episodes#when she comes she comes she doesn’t care#i also don’t know if it’s gonna be a full manic episode again#or like as bad as it was back in june#bc i was really bad in june#like at least the mania back in february gave me a break#june was just none stop horrors™️#why has this year been the longest year of my fuckin life#and that literally includes the years i was going through severe medical trauma#i’m really really lonely also#but i feel like i’m bothering everyone#what fuckin else is new?#sorry to everyone i say i’ll be there for and then i’m never there ✌🏻🤪✌🏻#i’m not exactly the safe place i wish i could be#i’m not even a safe place for MYSELF#so you’re probably better off#i don’t know if i deserve to ask ppl to talk to me when i won’t do the same thing x#okay but the thing is i know i can get through this bc i always do#i just wish i didn’t have to#bc shit’s fucking exhausting to constantly go through every few months#like we get it i have a depressive disorder 😒
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HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!
Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED
#asks#crack-a-lackin-max#honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead?????#Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart-#-their character more!!!#however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC#i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho……#modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if-#-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left#A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories#So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure-#-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you?#wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane?#sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS#sun and moon show spoilers#tsams#bloodmoon#xero thoughts and rambles#bc of my tags LMAO
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my opinion on season 11 is that ian and mickey were all over the place from episode to episode and i ultimately wasn’t very happy with where it ended for them
#just felt kind of incomplete and boring in terms of their getting an apartment arc#like mickey was still genuinely very unhappy about it and they just left it like that?#and obviously i didn’t love how they did the terry stuff.#i think. there’s something to it because you can never truly predict how you’re gonna feel about something like that#even if it’s a piece of shit who you truly hate like. feelings happen.#and that could have been interesting to explore but it wasn’t done in a way that felt interesting#it just felt like a waste of time when we could’ve been doing other stuff with their screentime#and the beginning was so good i was having sooo much fun when ian was like yeah let’s steal an ambulance and yes we can have guns again.#let’s fuck in the ambulance. etc.#that was so hot and then they ruined it both in that scene that i wanted to SEE and with where they took the story after#like how quickly ian jumps back to ‘well we won’t do crimes then :)’ i thought he was having FUN doing crimes#like are they still doing their security shit? are they still working with stolen equipment?? i want them to do crimes :(#(when i lay it all out like that i’m like perhaps ‘ian being exited about doing crimes’ is not a Good Sign for him. but#it really wasn’t presented that way in context. like i don’t think that’s what they were going for there#and he can be doing better and still have fun doing stupid shit#a la their little outing before he got arrested by the military#yes that was like. 5 years earlier but i’m still like what happened to THAT ian he got boring#and i’m not saying like. him being healthy is boring. i’m saying let him be healthy and also have fun.#anyway.)#also like. signing a lease on the spot against mickeys wishes. kind of fucking impulsive and reckless. but no it’s bc he wants#to have a better life or whatever so it’s fine.#idk i just want to see them steal shit and fuck in an ambulance#and i mean like OVERALL ian has not been as much of a Crime Guy as others. certainly not compared to mickey#like he’s DONE crimes obviously but not in a. it’s his lifestyle way. i guess?#so idk why i’m like i want him to go BACK to that if that wasn’t exactly what he was doing in the first place#but he LIKES doing shady shit with mickey and having fun and idk why they bothered showing us that#if they were gonna drop it by the end of the season that i can only assume they knew would be the final season#it just felt like they didn’t know what to do with the two of them all season and they ended the season in a less satisfying place#than they started#r.txt
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poly nagireo thoughts again 🧘🏻♀️
#saw one (1) edit of their breakup era and whEWW#i feel like they’ve been through a lot together so by the time you’re all in a relationship & they fight it’s so intense yk#especially so since it’s not really your place 2 intervene ?? you’ve only been around for some time#&& u can tell that their fights go way back in time actually so u feel so helpless#and yeah they love you a lot & would die for u but sometimes seeing them so down bc of each other#makes you realize that u won’t ever make up 4 the time they’ve shared :( sobs#like.. they get in an argument & nagis silent treatment rubs off on you too#reo is entirely too snarky#you’re caught up in all the mess that’s not THAT serious to begin w/ but it’s exactly what makes it so much worse#you act as their mediator just this once but then they see you cry and are just standing there like 🧍🏻#cause it’s one thing 2 hurt the other. they’ve done it before & worked it out each time#but you don’t deserve that#and best believe they WILL try to make it up to u :( & try not to let this happen ever again#SIGHHHHH they’re both so intense i love them together#they come in a pack alWAYS there i said it#nagi#reo <3#nagireo x reader
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to anyone who needs to hear this: let that shit go
#yesterday at church they sermon was about forgiveness#the*#i’m not religious but. . yeah#and then today my friend was venting to me abt a situation where she just chose to let that shit go instead of letting it fuck her up#it’s shit in the past and now that i gotta let go and i’m starting to do exactly that#don’t force shit. let that shit go how it’s gonna go#say your peace and leave it alone#you don’t gotta forgive#cause i’m not forgiving#but i am letting go#up at night thinking why it won’t happen the way i won’t it to happen after i’ve said my leave#peace*#fuck thattt!#you can’t force things or people so let it all go#if it’s not gonna happen then it’s not gonna happen and stressing yourself isn’t doing anyone harm but you#and yeah that shit from the past hurts like a bitch#and it makes me so angry#but it’s affecting my mental and they don’t deserve to affect me anymore than they already have#let that shit go yall#if you made it this far ily#let it go ‘ fr.
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You know… I think I’d enjoy bridgerton more if it engaged in its stakes more than it engaged with its payoff. You know. Like all the jane austen’s novels it’s trying to chase through charm
#like. idk. it’s fun but it’s disenchanting bc it doesn’t engage with class social structures in any meaningful way#also where are the fucking soldiers??? shouldn’t there be some colonels running around?#it’s regency what does everyone not know that the napoleonic wars are happening#like this is what I’m saying it won’t engage with any of the history and then try to pass off small gestures as the things that love is#made of. like. did you not read p&p??? god sakes#and what’s worse is that a good portion of other copypastes in this genre that I have seen do exactly the same thing#i mean even sanditon which I would accuse of similar crimes still manages to talk about colonialism and race in a way more meaningful way#even if it does seem a little far fetched#and I’m glad penelope is finally getting an arc but even still its like. it never wants to really penetrate the fatness issue#like it’s not the crux of why she’s so socially outcast and rather make it about her being a wallflower#and yeah maybe I’m too close to this one and I care a little too much bc I have been in her position before (and spoilers it didn’t end well#but all of this is to say is that the pure wish fulfillment kinda bores me ngl. like put the characters through their paces for gods sake#and ofc I’m saying this coming off game of thrones so ofc my outlook is bleak but like. romance can be more fun and maybe it would have#a better reputation than it does if we didn’t just act like its happening in a vacuum
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hello one more bitch for the road 😔✌🏾terf is not a synonym for transphobe. terf is an acronym. tme trans people can be terfs. next scheduled bitchfest is between me our heavenly father amen or to annoy you specifically ❤️
#girl what happened to just saying a person is transphobic… i promise your transphobic uncle tim is not a trans exclusionary radical feminist#evidence of life#i had coffe for the first time in god the almighty christ knows uwu teehee#coffee*#so i might be worse than usual 😔😔#like wow it is definitely affecting my body slay i guess the gap changed my tolerance?#anyways point is i have never been tipsy in my entire life i thought i’d be a light weight given my body type but like nope#that’s pretty weird to me because i’m fake straight edge [special occasions if they have what i like] and that’s been rare in the last bit#i haven’t had alcohol at all this year and i think the last time was once last summer at a backyard family friend party thingy#i’m not trying find out what tispy and drunk feels like though#so like huge gaps and it doesn’t do anything but this coffee which is more regular than alcohol (but that’s not saying much)#and baby i am feeling it like that is caffeine huh wow#ophelia over sharing on the internet cw oph won’t stfu cw hi :3 ->#i’m having it because i couldn’t take my anti psychotics that also help me sleep because i had a late night and an early morning#and i couldn’t risk sleeping in#not that i actually wake up at like 6 or 7 or even 5#fastest wake up time was in bed after 10pm woke up at exactly 12:36 am#the good thing is i feel significantly more rested and have more spoons than i before it and before it made the cycle consistent#well the whole cocktail works well together but shout out to her she’s my babygirl for real <3#also this just reminded me i didn’t take my morning meds its still morning it’s fine :3 i just should really get a regular take time for#morning like i do with the night ones it is all a critical science but night ones must be as consistent as possible or i face certain death#<- lie hyperbole#did i reread this [the tags] absolutely not <3#bitchfest presented by oleta ophelia
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#wait crikey my brain has been so fried by everything in the last day that I kind of forgot to make the connection#of “out of the oven into the microwave” aka living the same disaster again but in speedrun mode with the same results#(and maybe actually learning your lesson seeing it all happen so quickly)#<- is basically EXACTLY what happened to me last summer with me resigning a crush of two years that I finally realized would only#break me worse the longer I held out hope#and then ju s t as I was getting out of that I fell headfirst into another crush where basically all my fears from the past crush came true#(i mean every. single. one)#(won’t elaborate on what they were but just know that it was kinda scary how specifically it matched)#but in the space of three days instead of two years#and because of that horrific weekend and the embarrassment I brought on myself I decided to just. not look at boys at all this year#or for as long as possible perhaps#and like. wow#OUT OF THE OVEN AND INTO THE MICROWAVE FR#elly's posts#elly oversharing hours dhhdgsgs
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