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RO Quotes Beginning With ‘You Have No Idea’
Kade/Kara: “You have no idea what I’ve done these last few years. Have no idea what I’ve had to do in order to make myself feel better about seeing the sunrise without you. I will never compare what I went through with what happened to you, because they can’t be compared, but it was hell. It may not have been your version, but hell isn’t the same for everyone.”
Michael/Margot: “You have no idea how much I’ve yearned for you. How I’ve waited with bated breath for you to just smile at me. To look at me with anything akin to love in your eyes. You have no idea how important you are to me— I don’t think there are enough words in this world that will be able to express it. To express how much I love you, but it’s not enough anymore. My love isn’t enough anymore.”
Blaine/Blaire: “You have no idea, huh? You truly can’t see how much this is hurting me? I hate what’s happened. I hate that you lost so much, and if I could trade places with you in a heartbeat I would. I hate knowing that you’ve been in pain, and I hate that I haven’t been able to be there for you in so long, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to let you hurt me too.”
Wren/Wynn: “You have no idea what you’re doing! You don’t know what you’re messing with, and because of that you’re going to pay the price! And, I promise you, it’s a price that’s going to be way too high. It’s going to hurt, and it’s going to create a wound that’s so deep it’ll never properly heal, and all you’ll have is yourself to blame for it being there.”
Nicholas/Natalie: “You have no idea who I am! You haven’t ever truly taken the time to know me. Did you really think I would thank you? That I’d be happy about what’s happened? They’re my best friend, and I may never see them again, speak with them again, because of what’s happened today. You have no idea how much you’ve just broken me.”
#absentia#kade lewis#kara lewis#michael steele#margot steele#blaine ellis#blaire ellis#wren cassidy#wynn cassidy#nicholas paxton#natalie paxton#thank you Anon for the suggestions you sent 💞#ro quotes#small spoilers for later scenes#won’t happen exactly like this#but… you know#angst
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Talked w a friend for hours about so much friend group drama that transpired in December & I’m honestly so grateful to have her. She is literally so caring & receptive & understanding & such a breath of fresh air after a history of friends who fall off after the simplest conflict
#she legit went ‘people aren’t perfect. mistakes happen’#‘friendships won’t always be a smooth sailing and that’s okay’#literally just healthy open communication#which is exactly something like me w anticipatory anxiety needs to hear#her bday is coming up & im compiling a wholeass bday package for her bc she DESERVES IT#p
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Dancer! Sejanus, in which he is given the lead role alongside one of Marcus’s best friends, and Marcus can’t take his eyes off of him for the entire duration of the show
#he feels entranced and like he can’t breathe anymore as soon as sejanus comes on stage#he only realizes several seconds later that he has been unconsciously holding his breath#and it happens multiple times again that he unconsciously stops breathing for a few seconds looking at him#cause his movements paired with the lights and the music make him look almost otherworldly#marcus cannot truthfully say whether his friend was good or not cause he was too preoccupied with sejanus to concentrate on her performance#it’s fine she won’t know and he’ll make it up to her#after complimenting her after the show though he immediately asks her who the guy dancing with her was#you can bet he looked sejanus up on ig and google that same night#he also starts picking his friend up from practice sometimes#with the intention of yes hanging out with her but also of hopefully catching a glimpse of sejanus before they leave#sejanus starts noticing him too but he thinks marcus is dating the friend#“do you need a ride or is your boyfriend picking you up today as well?” “my boyfriend?“#marcus asking if practice is ever open to the public and when the next show will be#“what’s with the sudden interest marcus?”#she’s teasing she knows exactly what caused the sudden interest#her inviting sejanus to hang out with her and her friends#and trying to leave him and marcus alone together as much as possible#also i said “one of marcus’s best friends” and not “marcus’s best friends” because reaper marcus bestfriendism always <3#sejarcus#marcus tbosas#sejanus plinth
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How'd Augusta end up being radioactive? :o
A second chance.
// suicidal themes below
Augusta originally worked as a part time astronaut at a Star Depot, which collected star Fragments and sent them back to earth to be used as fuel similar to nuclear power.
Augusta wasn’t really in a good place at the time while working there. She never had any kind of big ambition in life and wanted to live life peacefully, but knew that “getting by” isn’t enough for her to survive. People around her kept expecting so much of her that she didn’t know what to tell them.
Working as an astronaut helps take her mind off things at first, but then she starts to feel worse. She doesn’t get invited out to things, but she doesn’t really make any effort to try, and relatives are asking how she’s doing and she doesn’t know what to tell them without it turning into a lecture. and over time it piles up
First she starts asking for more shifts handling and shipping the stars. Then she asks to do overtime. And finally one day she finds a tiny Fragment on the floor.
The thing about Fragments is that they change your body and can make you very sick if youre near them for too long.
Tomorrow would be a holiday and the building would be closed. The Shift manager, who promised to close up, left early for drinks with coworkers. So she was the only employee working.
So she picks up the star and swallows it expecting to die. But instead her hair turns pink and the dust around her floats, and when she breathes no air comes out. The Star fused to her body and latched to her heart.
Basically, her suicide attempt gave her her own way to live and pink hair as a bonus lol
Here’s what her hair looked like before and after The Incident <3
#sorry if it’s not very comprehensive but that’s basically what she’s got going on lol. I tried to make it as shortened down as possible but#I did share this at some point and managed to bring the chat to their knees wjfjggs. sorry if this version doesn’t have the same effect lol#besides turning radioactive she also has minor antigravity powers and doesn’t need to eat. basically somewhat immortal lol#is it a healthy way of solving your problems? probably not. but she’s much happier now#after this happens she steals a ship and just Explores space for a long ass time before Meeting and eventually marrying Anton#she can still interact with others but she needs to be wearing her spacesuit to dampen the radiation. it won’t kill you but you can feel#Sick or Tores After being near her for like a couple days straight. Not her whole Body either just the chest and Torsi since the Stars there#*tired#I should also mention I don’t know exactly everything about radiation but enough to build this. so if it doesn’t sound like how radiation#works don’t worry about it cause I literally would not know and it’s for fun OC purposes anyway#thank you so much for asking btw’!!!! I’ve been itching to dump this LOL#Augusta#oc lore#yapping#txt#doodles#// suicide#tw suicide#suicide ment
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I wrote this a long time ago
After WTIT (can you believe it’s been over 2 yrs already?)😳
Anyway, you know how my brain doesn’t stop?
I think I was in spiral mode back then lol (it’s a bit angsty)
(And this is like worst case, I don’t think it will go down this way anymore) Enjoy!🤪
#my theories like to get away from me sometimes.#the reason I don’t think this will happen is mostly because of the length of time the finale will be#I was expecting a total breakdown crash and burn and then a rise from the ashes#that may still happen but now I more expect Thomas to apply his problems to like Lego metaphors or something lol#it’s still angsty but in a fun way? I guess#?#ok mostly it never happens the way I think it will#so it might pull some elements from my theories here but it won’t happen exactly like that#I mean of course it won’t#I think what I’m saying is I’ve let it go so I won’t be disappointed when it inevitably doesn’t happen lol#that was a lot of explanation huh? I’m such a nerd for this show#thomas sanders#sanders sides#roman sanders#sander sides#logan sanders#ts roman#patton sanders#virgil sanders#ts logan
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do u know what wld fix me. some intense gay sex + then we play all of jeff buckley’s album Grace + smoke a joint together
#IM BEING SERIOUS THIS IS EXACTLY WHERE I WANT TO BE RIGHT NOW#LIKE WHY AM I NOT DOING THIS#WHY DO I SPEND ALL MY TIME TALKING ABT GAY SEX BUT NOT DOING IT#the closest i will get to this is going to my friends house and smoking a joint + listening to his album#gay sex is not on the table ☹️☹️#although… the friend i’m referring to IS the same one who said she wanted to eat me out#so u know the possibilities are there#but no it won’t happen
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oh, random thursday in october, i wish you’d go fuck yourself <3
#anyways i’m depressed today#and i’m not gonna jump ahead and be all ‘i’m in a depressive episode’#bc the jury’s still out on that one#but it’s not often that i a have a random day of depression that isn’t followed by a full episode#which is great!#granted i could also be coming on my period#bc i do feel bloated and also just all round gross#but also could maybe be both#that happens at times#my period doesn’t discriminate against my depressive episodes#when she comes she comes she doesn’t care#i also don’t know if it’s gonna be a full manic episode again#or like as bad as it was back in june#bc i was really bad in june#like at least the mania back in february gave me a break#june was just none stop horrors™️#why has this year been the longest year of my fuckin life#and that literally includes the years i was going through severe medical trauma#i’m really really lonely also#but i feel like i’m bothering everyone#what fuckin else is new?#sorry to everyone i say i’ll be there for and then i’m never there ✌🏻🤪✌🏻#i’m not exactly the safe place i wish i could be#i’m not even a safe place for MYSELF#so you’re probably better off#i don’t know if i deserve to ask ppl to talk to me when i won’t do the same thing x#okay but the thing is i know i can get through this bc i always do#i just wish i didn’t have to#bc shit’s fucking exhausting to constantly go through every few months#like we get it i have a depressive disorder 😒
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HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!
Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED
#asks#crack-a-lackin-max#honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead?????#Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart-#-their character more!!!#however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC#i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho……#modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if-#-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left#A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories#So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure-#-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you?#wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane?#sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS#sun and moon show spoilers#tsams#bloodmoon#xero thoughts and rambles#bc of my tags LMAO
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my opinion on season 11 is that ian and mickey were all over the place from episode to episode and i ultimately wasn’t very happy with where it ended for them
#just felt kind of incomplete and boring in terms of their getting an apartment arc#like mickey was still genuinely very unhappy about it and they just left it like that?#and obviously i didn’t love how they did the terry stuff.#i think. there’s something to it because you can never truly predict how you’re gonna feel about something like that#even if it’s a piece of shit who you truly hate like. feelings happen.#and that could have been interesting to explore but it wasn’t done in a way that felt interesting#it just felt like a waste of time when we could’ve been doing other stuff with their screentime#and the beginning was so good i was having sooo much fun when ian was like yeah let’s steal an ambulance and yes we can have guns again.#let’s fuck in the ambulance. etc.#that was so hot and then they ruined it both in that scene that i wanted to SEE and with where they took the story after#like how quickly ian jumps back to ‘well we won’t do crimes then :)’ i thought he was having FUN doing crimes#like are they still doing their security shit? are they still working with stolen equipment?? i want them to do crimes :(#(when i lay it all out like that i’m like perhaps ‘ian being exited about doing crimes’ is not a Good Sign for him. but#it really wasn’t presented that way in context. like i don’t think that’s what they were going for there#and he can be doing better and still have fun doing stupid shit#a la their little outing before he got arrested by the military#yes that was like. 5 years earlier but i’m still like what happened to THAT ian he got boring#and i’m not saying like. him being healthy is boring. i’m saying let him be healthy and also have fun.#anyway.)#also like. signing a lease on the spot against mickeys wishes. kind of fucking impulsive and reckless. but no it’s bc he wants#to have a better life or whatever so it’s fine.#idk i just want to see them steal shit and fuck in an ambulance#and i mean like OVERALL ian has not been as much of a Crime Guy as others. certainly not compared to mickey#like he’s DONE crimes obviously but not in a. it’s his lifestyle way. i guess?#so idk why i’m like i want him to go BACK to that if that wasn’t exactly what he was doing in the first place#but he LIKES doing shady shit with mickey and having fun and idk why they bothered showing us that#if they were gonna drop it by the end of the season that i can only assume they knew would be the final season#it just felt like they didn’t know what to do with the two of them all season and they ended the season in a less satisfying place#than they started#r.txt
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poly nagireo thoughts again 🧘🏻♀️
#saw one (1) edit of their breakup era and whEWW#i feel like they’ve been through a lot together so by the time you’re all in a relationship & they fight it’s so intense yk#especially so since it’s not really your place 2 intervene ?? you’ve only been around for some time#&& u can tell that their fights go way back in time actually so u feel so helpless#and yeah they love you a lot & would die for u but sometimes seeing them so down bc of each other#makes you realize that u won’t ever make up 4 the time they’ve shared :( sobs#like.. they get in an argument & nagis silent treatment rubs off on you too#reo is entirely too snarky#you’re caught up in all the mess that’s not THAT serious to begin w/ but it’s exactly what makes it so much worse#you act as their mediator just this once but then they see you cry and are just standing there like 🧍🏻#cause it’s one thing 2 hurt the other. they’ve done it before & worked it out each time#but you don’t deserve that#and best believe they WILL try to make it up to u :( & try not to let this happen ever again#SIGHHHHH they’re both so intense i love them together#they come in a pack alWAYS there i said it#nagi#reo <3#nagireo x reader
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to anyone who needs to hear this: let that shit go
#yesterday at church they sermon was about forgiveness#the*#i’m not religious but. . yeah#and then today my friend was venting to me abt a situation where she just chose to let that shit go instead of letting it fuck her up#it’s shit in the past and now that i gotta let go and i’m starting to do exactly that#don’t force shit. let that shit go how it’s gonna go#say your peace and leave it alone#you don’t gotta forgive#cause i’m not forgiving#but i am letting go#up at night thinking why it won’t happen the way i won’t it to happen after i’ve said my leave#peace*#fuck thattt!#you can’t force things or people so let it all go#if it’s not gonna happen then it’s not gonna happen and stressing yourself isn’t doing anyone harm but you#and yeah that shit from the past hurts like a bitch#and it makes me so angry#but it’s affecting my mental and they don’t deserve to affect me anymore than they already have#let that shit go yall#if you made it this far ily#let it go ‘ fr.
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So you choose not to step through the door, after all why mess with nonsense when you're already in nonsense? You check the items in your pockets, your phone you shut off to conserve power, the dog tag, key and top clink together but offer no help, and when you fiddle with the walkie-talkie you manage to get it to turn on, excitedly you call out to the void but only static responds, which is disappointing but predictable, so you put the items away and hunker down for the night, looking at the sky you can see that the stars seem strange, though you're no expert, and the moon seems to have a second smaller moon near it which looks pretty cool but is a stark reminder of how not on your own world your predicament has landed you.
In the morning you begin looking through the nearby bushes and plant life taking note of anything strange, you notice the berries you had been picking before you stepped through the door are also growing around here, they look and taste the same, and some other plants seem pretty similar to the forest from before as well, although the further away from the door you go the more unfamiliar plants you come across (of course that may just be your lack of familiarity with plants) and the few animals you have noticed are bizarre in a way that you can't explain, like the people from town, they seem almost perfectly familiar, just a little off and the noises they make have you thinking they wouldn't be able to communicate with their counterparts either, brushing aside another branch you come across a strange funnel made of metal which you pocket and what looks to be a regular whistle, you wipe it down and blow but hear nothing aside from the air going through, you consider it is either broken or maybe a dog whistle, as you go to put it away you hear something big running in your direction, before you can decide how to react a large creature storms out of the bushes and stops in the clearing before you, it's huge as a horse with paws and sharp teeth it licks as it looks around and spots you, it shakes its head again reminding you of a horse, then steps closer before turning and staring expectantly, you get the feeling it's waiting on you, impatiently, and you realize it seems to expect you to get on its back. Do you get on?
Yes.
#I am a terrible terrible Irish child#Clearly all those folk tales whose only moral was “don’t climb on the strange horse” were lost on me. Technically not a horse though. So. H#Uh please don’t run into the bog with my on your back strange horse thing.#…This may be one of my worse ideas#On one hand moving away from what appears to be the only connection my world doesn’t sound like a great idea#Back through the door is logically the the best bet. However I’ve already explored the area#The only thing to do would be to just sit there for hours and that will get me nowhere. The things that do have leads like the walkie-#Sputtering are things to pay attention to but not things that are likely to change if I don’t move. The whistle is the newest thing-#And let’s be real I’ve been in the bramble for like 14 hours without the neurospicy meds I am teetering on dangerously antsy#Probably better to get on the horse before I come up with something more stupid#It’s interesting my world flora seems to surround the door. I wish I’d payed more attention before I stepped through#If the nearby flora on the other side seemed like it would come from this world it would suggest that the door just leaks between universes#In two ways. If it’s earths flora then it’s either only leaking one way which we could no from one step through#Or - which we will not know but should pay attention for if we step into some other world - if the earths flora shows up around EVERY porta#Which would suggest earth is the base in some way#It might be beneficial to climb a tree to try and see farther out#Though I don’t exactly get many opurtunited to haul myself up a tree so I would put to much stock in a)my upper body strength#And b) my ability to chose a tree that won’t kill me#It’s defintley worth taking in as much info as possible. I’ll try and notice things like different winds gravity tempature ect#What should i tag this all. Help I got lost in a blackberry bush? Anon who takes me to alternate planes of reality?#I know#Guys I got lost in a bush#That’s a good one. Nothing weird there at all.#FINE I’ll rage it “guys I got lost in a blackberry bush”#I wonder what makes things so familiar. Perhaps this world exists very closely to the other. Perhaps they’ve crossed paths before.#Perhaps they’ve shown up in our dreams. Perhaps I have bad memory and my brain gaslights itself into thinking everything’s familiar#I wonder maybe the horse is a horse/dog thing- that would explain the likeness to the dog whistle (?)#This can’t get any worse I say doing something that could very much make it worse#Eh what’s the worst that can happen. At least I don’t have to pay taxes in this world#Guys I got lost in a black berry bush
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I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around the way people are responding to what's going on in Gaza right now. And listen, ex political science major here - I do know why. I understand the political implications, the complex chokehold a certain country has on the western countries and why that is. Intellectually, I'm fully aware of why we're in the place that we're in. Why the rhetoric is what it is.
But.
They told them to evacuate, and then bombed the evacuation routes that they told them to use. They've all but said they want this to be a g*nocide. There are at least 45 generations of Palestinians that have been wiped out this week. At least 600 children have died.
They're restricting access to power to not just civilians, but hospitals. There is no clean water left in Gaza.
They're restricting access to power so that the people who live there cannot document what is happening to them. They're using chemical weapons with no regard for the innocent people who might get caught in the crossfire. I mean for fuck's sake, half of those 2.2 million people who live there are children under the age of fifteen because the life expectancy for that area is fucking 30 years old. It is internationally known as the worlds largest open air prison.
T*rrorism is wrong. Killing civilians is wrong. But this is a completely disproportionate and inappropriate response to what happened. And frankly, it just seems like they've been waiting for an excuse to do this.
My brain is having a hard time understanding the cognitive dissonance that allows people to post pictures of Gaza and Palestinian children with the caption "pray for [blank]” and then delete it when they find out what/who the pictures are actually of. Like... why are they different? How can you claim to be inclusive, to support things like BLM, but do this?
Again, I understand politically why and how we ended up here. I understand why people in power are hesitant to openly denounce these actions. I can even understand why and how Jewish people can be in support of this. Generations of (let's call it what it is) propaganda is going to be hard to unlearn. They've spent their whole lives being told that they're the enemy. The government talks about Palestinians like they're animals and not real, tangible humans.
Two things can be true at once: I can love my Jewish friends and family and grieve for the people who lost someone to a terrorist attack, while also acknowledging that this is wrong. And I don’t want to be silent about this. Especially not when I’ve seen multiple videos from people in Gaza begging for the rest of the world to not let them be forgotten, and to not take our eyes off of this. They’re not asking for help because they know it won’t come. They’re just asking us to bare witness to them, and that we don’t let history forget them.
So, to those of you who are staying off of social media this weekend in an effort to avoid the coverage of this event: don’t. Avoid the graphic videos and pictures, but don’t do them the disservice of burying your head in the sand. They’re not even asking for help. They just want to be seen.
#I don’t even know what to tag this. I’m just so sad and angry and heartbroken.#there are no bomb shelters there because the borders are closed and the government that controls the borders won’t let cement trucks in.#I’m intentionally not saying the name of the other country btw#I don’t want to argue with anybody I don’t want to debate anybody because a government is not the entirety of a religion#or ethnicity of people and my feelings about a government are not reflective of their religion#like I am the most ride or die for my Jewish loved ones and in general because I know how y’all have been targeted and are still targeted#and I am physically incapable of standing by while that shit happens so I am just… baffled by the silence of so many people#the situation as a whole is complicated yes sure. but THIS? this isn’t that complicated.#and if you think it is you’re being fed exactly what they want you to see and nothing more#personal#genocide TW //
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You know… I think I’d enjoy bridgerton more if it engaged in its stakes more than it engaged with its payoff. You know. Like all the jane austen’s novels it’s trying to chase through charm
#like. idk. it’s fun but it’s disenchanting bc it doesn’t engage with class social structures in any meaningful way#also where are the fucking soldiers??? shouldn’t there be some colonels running around?#it’s regency what does everyone not know that the napoleonic wars are happening#like this is what I’m saying it won’t engage with any of the history and then try to pass off small gestures as the things that love is#made of. like. did you not read p&p??? god sakes#and what’s worse is that a good portion of other copypastes in this genre that I have seen do exactly the same thing#i mean even sanditon which I would accuse of similar crimes still manages to talk about colonialism and race in a way more meaningful way#even if it does seem a little far fetched#and I’m glad penelope is finally getting an arc but even still its like. it never wants to really penetrate the fatness issue#like it’s not the crux of why she’s so socially outcast and rather make it about her being a wallflower#and yeah maybe I’m too close to this one and I care a little too much bc I have been in her position before (and spoilers it didn’t end well#but all of this is to say is that the pure wish fulfillment kinda bores me ngl. like put the characters through their paces for gods sake#and ofc I’m saying this coming off game of thrones so ofc my outlook is bleak but like. romance can be more fun and maybe it would have#a better reputation than it does if we didn’t just act like its happening in a vacuum
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hello one more bitch for the road 😔✌🏾terf is not a synonym for transphobe. terf is an acronym. tme trans people can be terfs. next scheduled bitchfest is between me our heavenly father amen or to annoy you specifically ❤️
#girl what happened to just saying a person is transphobic… i promise your transphobic uncle tim is not a trans exclusionary radical feminist#evidence of life#i had coffe for the first time in god the almighty christ knows uwu teehee#coffee*#so i might be worse than usual 😔😔#like wow it is definitely affecting my body slay i guess the gap changed my tolerance?#anyways point is i have never been tipsy in my entire life i thought i’d be a light weight given my body type but like nope#that’s pretty weird to me because i’m fake straight edge [special occasions if they have what i like] and that’s been rare in the last bit#i haven’t had alcohol at all this year and i think the last time was once last summer at a backyard family friend party thingy#i’m not trying find out what tispy and drunk feels like though#so like huge gaps and it doesn’t do anything but this coffee which is more regular than alcohol (but that’s not saying much)#and baby i am feeling it like that is caffeine huh wow#ophelia over sharing on the internet cw oph won’t stfu cw hi :3 ->#i’m having it because i couldn’t take my anti psychotics that also help me sleep because i had a late night and an early morning#and i couldn’t risk sleeping in#not that i actually wake up at like 6 or 7 or even 5#fastest wake up time was in bed after 10pm woke up at exactly 12:36 am#the good thing is i feel significantly more rested and have more spoons than i before it and before it made the cycle consistent#well the whole cocktail works well together but shout out to her she’s my babygirl for real <3#also this just reminded me i didn’t take my morning meds its still morning it’s fine :3 i just should really get a regular take time for#morning like i do with the night ones it is all a critical science but night ones must be as consistent as possible or i face certain death#<- lie hyperbole#did i reread this [the tags] absolutely not <3#bitchfest presented by oleta ophelia
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#wait crikey my brain has been so fried by everything in the last day that I kind of forgot to make the connection#of “out of the oven into the microwave” aka living the same disaster again but in speedrun mode with the same results#(and maybe actually learning your lesson seeing it all happen so quickly)#<- is basically EXACTLY what happened to me last summer with me resigning a crush of two years that I finally realized would only#break me worse the longer I held out hope#and then ju s t as I was getting out of that I fell headfirst into another crush where basically all my fears from the past crush came true#(i mean every. single. one)#(won’t elaborate on what they were but just know that it was kinda scary how specifically it matched)#but in the space of three days instead of two years#and because of that horrific weekend and the embarrassment I brought on myself I decided to just. not look at boys at all this year#or for as long as possible perhaps#and like. wow#OUT OF THE OVEN AND INTO THE MICROWAVE FR#elly's posts#elly oversharing hours dhhdgsgs
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