#will i ever excape?

[ralibo14]

TPN Brainrots part 1:

Another TPN manga panel redraw, but this time everyone goes down with me (because it's sad).

Also part one of my 'wonderful' tpn theories and head canons. It'll be long😅. There will be manga spoilers so please, read at your own risk😊.

First character I go through is... Ray.

He is one of the most complicated characters I ever saw (all tpn characters are, tbh). I always thought that people who have photographic memory are so lucky. Ray showed me that it's both a blessing and the curse.

Like in the picture above. You can clearly see that the first 2 kid waving at his direction. It's strange to know that there was a time when the Trio were one of the young kids and not the older ones. My first head canon is that Ray tried to save more kids, not just Emma and Norman when he was younger. When the blond haired boy leaves (first panel) he looks like he is about to cry (also the Trio is around 4 or 6) but when the other kids get 'adopted' Ray keeps his head low most of the frames (I'm convinced that when the second kid left he was already working as Isabella's spy.)

Ray coloration explained:

Purple eyes are self explanatory to me. I started draw him with purple eyes as soon as I found out he is Isabella's son. Purple in the hair and freckles? Well... I'm still very, very convinced that Leslie didn't die (at least not when he left the House). I always think about his situation, like what Norman got into with Lambda. The Ratri-clan is big but they need outsiders, to be soldiers, scientists, etc. And since girls from the Houses can only become Sisters and Moms... maybe some boys can become scientists and soldiers. (I can't believe I'm writing this but think about Andrew🤢... he was 100% not Ratri yet he could become an adult). So by this logic I believe Leslie could grow up too and (because I'm a sucker for happiness) he met Isabella again at some point.

Ray turning away:

On the second frame he is not looking at the girl who is leaving, but to the opposite direction. Why? Notice something else? Yes, Norman is missing too. Gilda has her winter jumper on so I figure Norman got sick again. Ray priorities his friends safety over everything else.

Also notice how Emma and Norman slowly get into the middle of the frame while Mom/Isabella get out of it? Pretty strong metaphor. It's the perfect example of 'Blood related family ≠ real family'. And while I'm a RayEmma shipper (obviously aged up version) I would never forget about Norman. He is as important to Ray as Emma. This Trio sticks together no matter what.

(older manga colouring ⬇️)

Now onto the hearth breaking stuff:

Ray's relationship with Isabella:

This deleted scene with Ray and Ayshe lives rent free in my head. Like there are two people with similar family situations and the one who lived int the middle of nowhere with a demon parent thinks positively about their parent, while the other, who grew up in a comfortable home like space with a human parent, thinks the opposite.

"But to me, she was always a monster"– Ray.

Like ufff... This sentence hits real hard. And it's low-key true from Ray perspective. He studied and read all the books in the House, not because he was interested, but because he had to. Norman is a genius, Emma learns real fast, Ray does everything he can to always get max points on his tests. But he also secretly planning his friends excape. Collects scraps of technology to build the device which makes them able to excape, plans his own 💀 carefully, so no one else will get hurt and on a top of that he is 'spying' for Isabella. Sacrifices people he wanted to protect. I can't imagine that inside panic when he didn't get max scores to that one test. I'm sure he was happy because Norman and Emma got their regular scores, but deep down he felt like he failed.

My head canon here is that Ray always gets nightmares if he is alone or in an unsafe place. And 'thanks' to his perfect memory his nightmares build up from actual memories (like we see that in the Seven Wall Arc). Also he doesn't get sick often but when he does... it's like a memory fuelled fever dream, with hallucinations and etc.

Ray's healing journey starts after the Jailbreak Arc. As soon as Mom is not around anymore, he ever so slowly starts to let down his guard and starts to show more and more emotions. His relationship with Yuugo/Mister is like a greatest archivment in his case. The playful, sarcastic 'arguments' and the way he openly said his opinion on things in front of Yuugo and Lucas. Shows how much he changed and opened up.

Isabella on the other hand... her change of heart and feelings were a mistery almost to the very end. To be honest I hated her most of the time, until the Back to Grace Field Arc. (Older manga colouring again⬇️😅)

Two things in this page which are very important.

1: Ray's guard is up again in no time, when he sees Isabella, while her emotionless mask is cracking. This is the first time we get a little inside of how she really feels about Ray.

2: Flashback of the two most important things that connects them. The song and the way they were forced to sacrifice others to stay alive.

The lullaby is very important, because it's calming and feels very intimate (like a normal parent-child relationship should be).

You also can't convince me otherwise that Ray didn't hummed this lullaby at least once in the B06-32 shelter to help the youngest kids fall asleep.

And now... onto the last picture. Their goodbye.

Saddest part ever! Never forgiving for this decision.

Ray and Isabella were never allowed to talk even two short sentences with each other without any consequences. In the House they had to play their assigned roles. Then they didn't see each other for almost 2 years. Finally they had to save half of the team from getting unalived... And they moment they would have time the last twist happens... leaving us with a sad ending.

Epilogue and Human World Arc...does little to compensate. Although I can't get over the fact that Yuugo's, Conny's and Isabella's 'ghosts' helped Ray found Emma in the Human World.

Speaking of finding Emma. My last head canon for Ray is the following;

When they found out that Emma lost all of her memories from the Demon World. Ray couldn't help himself but whisper a "I wish this happened to me". And everyone looks at him with an understanding smile thinking he blames himself for this... But in reality he really just selfishly thought (only for seconds) that he could forget everything happened on the other side.

Okay. That's all. Sorry for the supper long post and I'm forever thankful if you read through my brainrots 🥰😘. Also let me know if I should cover more characters like this. I'll obviously do Emma and Norman but if there any other characters you want to see please let me know🥰🤩💖.

[onyxonline]

I have a couple questions 1: are we ever going to see any situations for the space Riders versus the cultists one on one like for example say dogday gets captured buy the cult and he has to excape or something 2: do you take any commissions for free or do we have to pay you because i have a character that I can give you the rights to and finally 3: are we ever going to see how many Celestegels there are because I like to think the there are 5 like the five stages of grief

I dont know, probably not

No, i don't do requests, I need to do this thing called Paying Rent and Buying Necessities because i am An Adult living in a Late Stage Capitalistic Nightmare, So No Matter How Many People Try To Beg for Their Ocs to be Drawn for Free i don't Do It.

what the fuck is a celestegel.

[simp4konig]

FLUFF SCENERIO

Reader with cuteness agression that bites and hits random things out of nowhere because they thought of something cute or see König

And it gets to the point where even he's confused on why we're hutting things and acting aggressive

OMG 😭😭

idk if i can do a wholeass fic for this hilarious idea but i can write headcannons??? 😳😳

König with a S/O who has ✨cuteness aggression✨ headcannons

This post is a COMPLETE contrast to the long-ass angst fic I published and immediately went to sleep after 😭😭 LOL a dose of crack and fluff after all that angst 👍

*No pronouns for reader aside from "You"

*Crackcannons lmao

• Imagine König's utter bewilderment when you started kicking wildly, punching the soft cushion next to you after he put his phone in your face and showed you a sweet puppy doing sweet puppy things.

...

• You had always had cuteness aggression. Simply put, seeing cute things made you instinctively act out. You couldn't control it! You'd go FERAL after seeing a wholesome video of some random cat online and start thrashing in your bed like an excaped lunatic asylum patient in restraints 😰

• To say König was confused would be an understatement. The man was SHOOK. 😨

• Poor König's immediate thought was that you hated animals, yet seeing your goofy grin and hearing you cackling like a maniac made him feel conflicted?? Like?? Schatz, are you okay?? Do you need an excorcist 💀

• When you told him, he wasn't relieved at all — if anything, he was really concerned? Like, you could hurt yourself doing that, please calm down 🥺

• Googling to learn more about this strange condition didn't reassure him either, as it revealed that a human's urge was similar to an animal's instincts, in the sense that it is in their primal nature to *kill* cute things so they stop being cute... ☹️

• It was safe to say König tried to manage your aggression, and limited your screen time.

• God FORBID the two of you ever got a pet in the future... He would be CONVINCED you'd suffocate the poor mutt when cradling it aggressively in your arms...

[redhatmeg]

I came back from Despicable Me 4 and I have some thoughts:

when Gru Junior started to pop the balloons with safety pin just to mess with his dad, I've realized something: he has a similar mean streak as his father. Which also means that Gru Senior probably acted the same when he was a baby.

Maxime Le Mal maybe was supposed serve as foil to Gru on some level. He's a villain with foreign accent (French, not Slavic) and this brief scene when he freshly excaped prison and talks to his cockroaches, he acts towards them the same way Gru acts towards Minions. Also I don't think we ever see Maxime Le Mal's lair the same way we see the lairs of other villains, he has only a cockroach plane, so I will have to work with that.

I'm so glad that Mega Minions have, like, only three-four scenes and most of the movie is still focused on our boy Gru.

Lycee Pas Bon is an interesting concept and I wish we would delve into this enviornment a little bit more. Honestly, I want the third Minions movie taking place there, so we would see how teen Gru receives his villainous education (I know there is, like, a whole children book series about school for villains, but I think that Despicable Me universe is very unique, so I'm really curious how a villain high school would look like).

Speaking of Lycee Pas Bon - in the principal's office there is a picture of her and doctor Nefario, so it indicates that they know each other. Therefore I have a headcanon that Gru got to this school thanks to Nefario's connections.

Generally I wasn''t expecting to see Nefario in this movie due to controversies with his VA, but he shows up in the end to turn Junior back to normal; and later when whole Gru family (Marlena and Dru included) are shown together having a grill party.

The "Everybody Wants To Rule The World" scene is just wonderful, especially because I expected to see antagonists from main Despicable Me movies (Perkins, Vector, El Macho and Balthazar Bratt), but at some point the Vicious Six (minus Wild Knukcles) came out of their cells and there is even a scene with Overkills at the prison audience.

In fact this sequence has some finality to it. As if the creators wanted to say goodbye to us by showing us all the villains together and then ending on Gru family.

[britt-kageryuu]

Clips from various VTurtles! Streams!!

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Mikey is cooking on stream, and suddenly the pan catches fire. Fully engulfed the pan.

Mikey just steps back, not surprised what so ever, and watches while the fire goes out a few seconds later.

The food in the pan is not burnt, infact it looks perfectly cooked.

Mikey silently removes to pan to plate the food.

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Donnie and Leo are playing a 2 Player Excape Room/Puzzle Game.

"I think I found the answer to the puzzle." Leo announced..

"Relieved Sigh. Good what is it." Donnie asked while moving over to Leo's character.

"One of us needs to instruct the other on the order we need to move things."

"I will just memorize the answer thank you very much."

"I give you the wrong answer One time, and I suddenly can't be trusted!"

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Leo is chatting while playing Pokémon.

"So I was watching Demon Slayer, pretty awesome, cool sword fighting all around." Leo says with a smile, "But, but but! So help me if I can remember any of the characters names past Tanjiro, Nezuko, Inosuke, and whatever the blonde dudes name is! I know it starts with a Z, I literally just read it, but I can't tell you what his name is!" He says while waving his arms around.

The chat on screen where making fun of Leo during this.

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Raph is playing a rhythm game and focusing very intensely.

So focused he didn't notice that Mikey climbed onto his shoulder, and starts setting up a jenga stack on Raphs head.

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Donnie is putting together a mech model. Shelldon is helping hold parts in place.

"So Shelldon found this game that he just leaves on in the background, The Longing, I believe it's called."

"Correct Dude!"

"The games character moves at such a slow pace that it take a literal real world hour to cross the map. Shelldon has been playing this game for months, and has only achieved a third of many possible things in game." Donnie pauses to check which piece is needed next, "And he's only achieved this because he's an AI who has all the time in the world to play this."

"I almost got everything for an ending I want to get!" Shelldon says with pride.

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The stream is having a hard time picking up what's going on, but Leo and Usagi are having a sparing session. Apparently they couldn't think of anything else to do.

They're mostly just a blur of blues, with green and sparks from the swords colliding.

Someone donates to have 'Just Fuck Already!' censored as 'Just Mate Already!' play over the speakers in the room.

The two stop to just stare at the camera with looks that scream 'mind your own damn business.'

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Donnie is playing Infinite Craft.

They have multiple things ready to combine on screen.

Suddenly they discover 'Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles'

Donnie looks around the room, and messes with stuff.

"Am I on some kind of prank show? How is this a possible discovery?"

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Masterpost

Some of these were random ideas that I just couldn't figure how to write more than 500 words, at best, for. So now they are snippets of random small ideas.

[sakiblack]

Soft yandere Kiri x reader

Kiri x reader

Kiri with a human mate would be just the best.

Lets say you are Spiders sibling making you older then her. Eather your male or female your smaller then her.And she loves that.

From ever since you two were young she would always want to be with you. She was not a fighter but somehow she felt like she would save you from anything.

As you two grew older she would start to realise her feelings which would make her just more shy. To you being human you would always be at the camp making her able to keep her eyes on you. Spider would be the first one to notice something between you two making him talk to you or her about this. Weather you would tell him you like her or not it does not metter cus she would go full on confessin mode when he asked her about you.

»Y/n is just perfect i dont see why i would not be in love with them«

She would not hide it in front of anyone other then you.

Why you? Well you cant know how she feels untill she is 100% sure you feel the same. But untill then she would act normal. Like every girl in love with their crush would.

Being protective of you is a thing only with strangers. Her siblings and clan already know about the spacial something blooming between you two so she would not be protective of you there. But going to the metkayina clan oh Eywa help.

To you being human the first encounter would be strange. Ronal would not be a fan. She would pull your hands up showing the whole clan what you are. And thats not fun for Kiri to watch. She would hiss at Ronal not caring about her parents giving her the looks. Your hers and noone has the right to touch you.

After the clan would see you mean no harm and exept you in oh you better watch her. Tsireya is being nice to you wanting to learn about the humans? She is glaring at her. Aonung is teasing you about being a demon? You bet she will be glaring at him. You minght need to talk to her about it. Tell her she should calm down. During that talk she may or may not let it slip out that she loves you.

»You dont get it. They wont treat you like this not even Tsireya. Even if she is nice to you. Your mine and she will not have you«

Take it or leave it i think her confessin would slip out one way or another. It would not be planed , no the words would just excape her.And when they do not even Eywa can help you.

She would be next to you 24/7. Touching you at all times. And if you have anything to say about it she will make you want her.

»But y/n i love you so much. Please just let me hold your hand.«

She is soft and nice but if she has to she will call her ikran to eat someone up.

You cant stay in the water for long so when ever you do go in she would make it fun for you. Fish would be swimming around you in seconds you enter the water. She wants you to be happy , to have a goot time with her.

But as much as she likes being in the water with you her favorite place is probably somewhere in the forest , laying in the grass just holding you in her arms. The forest will always be her favorite place( after you ofc). Sometimes you two would just lay there saying nothing as her face is buried inside your neck.

But now you might be asking how would she kiss me if you have a mask on? Well dont worry about that. She is Eywa herself that is no problem for her. At first she would kiss your mask where your cheeks or lips are but in some time she would need to feel her lips against yours. And so she did it. 5 seconds. Thats all you two get before you have to put your mask back on. 5 seconds of her lips on yours. But it was not enough for her so she found another way. Eather her finding a place where humans can actualy breath or doing her »magic« on you to make you able to breath. And when that would happen oh you poor thing.

You two probably havent had any other intimacy other then her lips on yours but now youll have to get used to more. She waited long enough for this and you will give it to her.

She wants to feel you and tast you so why would you even think of stoping her. She would start of as calm and slow but would end up being a mess. Male of female she would love to tease you. Before and after you two would have your time alone. I think she would be the top but if you want she would gladly switch. She is not a fan of people hearing you two. If they hear her sure why not but you? No your moans are only for her to hear.

All in all she would be by your side at all times after all your hers and hers only.

[peachjagiya]

https://www.tumblr.com/peachjagiya/747729196053348352/httpswwwtumblrcompeachjagiya7477141691256176

“also it’s been a couple of years that he haven’t spent too much time together except from work schedule. but the two of them were enjoying themselves without me, going to movies, concerts, skiing, private villas, playing games at home or eating home cooked meals, or doing video calls in between. “

I would be too embarrassed to type this if i were you because taekook had to wait until Jimin was busy with his album to do all these things while Jikook did all these for years even though Tae was right there.

Wasn’t Tae right there when Jk choose to go hang out with Jimin at night? Jk even knew Tae wanted someone to come help with his Live but he still stopped Jimin from going. Wasn’t Tae right there when Jk was traveling with Jimin, going to movies with him, going ice skating with him, going shopping with him, going to excape rooms with him, going bowling with him, going to karaokes with him etc? Wasn’t tae right there when Jk chose to hang with Jimin and his friends on white day? Wasn’t tae right there when Jk went to hangout with Jimin, hobi and Her in 2022? Wasn’t Tae right there when Jk chose to be with Jimin at 4am on his birthday? Tae was always there yet for years we only ever saw Jk with Jimin almost everywhere and then the first time we started seeing Taekook together alot was the one time Jimin had moved in with his producer for 10 months to work on his album. Did y’all ever stop to ask yourselves why we only saw taekook hang out the most we ever saw in all their years of being BTS only when they were the only two not busy and Jimin had alot on his hands? Even Namjoon said on Live that Jimin was always busy hence they couldn’t meet up much and now we know from the last bangtan bomb that he was working on two albums at once plus onlike Tae, how many times did we see Jimin hangout with pple anyway? We know he sometimes played online games with Hobi, and we went out to eat with suga b4 he enlisted and went to a museum with RM, and went to visit Jin with Hobi. How many times did u see him out and about? Didn’t you hear suga ask him what he does when he isn’t working and he said he just stays home and watches movies? So how tf do you know him and Jk didn’t spend time at home? Do u think all hangouts must be going to musicals or premieres? How would u know if Jk and Jimin ordered chicken and bear and ate at home while watching movies? If Jimin didn’t tell us how much time Jk was spending in his room while they were in LA wouldn’t u have sworn they didn’t hang out because their hangouts weren’t public? We only got to know Jimin, tae and Jk were at Jeju together because of Tae and not because Jimin or Jk ran to announce to us, we only knew Vmin were going to hangout with Jk that one time because tae started a live, would we have known otherwise? So they hung out and according to Jk even went out but no one spotted them and we only knew they even went out because Jk told someone on one of his fan calls. Besides , i wonder how Jimin kept singing “peuriri” to Jk so much that Jk was worried he was going to sing it on stage if they never saw each other. I wonder how two people who don’t care to see each other except when working planned, applied and enlisted together as buddies where they will see each other everyday for 18 months when they could have just enlisted separately. The facts just never go with your delusions.

If you really think that Jk and Jimin don’t care about each other that much yet Jk sits his ass down to watch Jm content for over an hour, makes sure to keep up with and publicly support his album more than he did for anyone else including his “boyfriend”, asks Jimin to let him come over for a Live and shower, and enlists with him when he could enlist alone, then u must think Jk is the shittiest person alive.

Y’all constantly pick and choose what to drag jikook with every time opportunity presents itself but when Jk does something that shows how obviously he loves and cares about Jimin, you go back to “they are bestfriends” that’s all. But the next moment, u are debunking Jikook by saying how Jk doesn’t even care to save Jimin’s number (which isn’t true btw) or you are talking about Jk ignoring Jimin at a concert, or talking about Jk not knowing where Jimin’s tattoo is. If this things really happened the way you said, then Jk doesn’t like Jimin and you know damn well that Jk wouldn’t pack his ass there watching someone he doesn’t like don’t you? You know he wouldn’t keep up with everything Jimin did in chapter two if he didn’t like him don’t you.? You know he can’t concentrate on anything he doesn’t like yet he sat there watching Jimin and asking fans not to comment.

It’s also funny how u list all these things taekook did and even added somethings we have no context of because that is what taekookers are good at. Taekook did a tiktok at paradise hotel. How does that translate to them spending time there? You literally only know that they were there but u don’t know why they were there and who they were there with. Same thing y’all did with atomix which blew up in ur faces. Seeing a single picture and making a whole date outta it.

All these things you named that taekook did together in chapter two, how many of those did they do while they were alone? So they carry tae’s wooga to every date they go on? How many of those do we know that ended with them both going back to their houses or one of them being left alone at a ski resort? Here you are bragging about Jk hanging out with Tae and his friends like normal friends do and to you this means more than finding out that while these two don’t seem to care about spending any alone time together because there is almost someone with them whenever we know that they hungout, we know that Jk almost always is with Jimin alone and mostly in private when we find out that they were together. What is groundbreaking about Jk playing games with Tae and his friends in his house? Yes that is proof of a relationship as if they haven’t been bandmates for over a decade and didn’t live together for most of that time. Even when we see Tae in Jk’s house, we have Hobi right there, at one of these concerts u are boasting about, Jk sat behind with a bighit staff while Tae sat together with Hyunsik and even at the end of the concert we saw tae and hyunsik way ahead walking away while Jk was skipping behind with staff💀. How romantic. I wouldn’t brag about outings that always happened with 50 other people present in public and that ended with Jk and tae not even going back to spend some alone time together after that because we know for sure that they went their separate ways after hanging out in public.

Also if i were you, i would seriously question why the most we got to see taekook hangout together in almost 10 years was in that one moment where it was convinient because neither of us was doing anything or much of anything, and the person everyone has seen Jk hang out with for years (not just a period of time) was kinda not available because he was working on his album. Immediately taekook both got busy with their individual work, we stopped seeing the monthly outings altogether but we still all saw them hanging out with their separate friends. If this doesn’t tell y’all that those outtings were out of convinience and opportunity, nothing will.

Everyday taekookers sit and call other shippers jokers and mock them for not seeing how clearly Jk is with Tae because you know, “can’t you see how he packed his ass on Tae’s laps infront 50000 people” or can’t you see how he was hugging Tae instead of Jimin during the love song at Harry styles concert” and that is how i know that you lot do not bother to look beyond the side of the picture that fits your narrative. It is so groundbreaking to you that Jk sat on Tae’s laps as if we haven’t seen bts members hitting each other in the balls all the dam time, as if we haven’t seen them all cuddling, as if we havent seen Jk cuddling Hobi with his knee on Hobi’s damn crotch. What is new about Jk sitting on a members laps? Are y’all new here? And to the person in the replies talkinga bout taekook doing a naked facetime call. Yes it was so private to them ad that is why Tae shared it on his instagram with 60+ million pple. He didn’t mind the rest of us seeing his boyfriend’s very private boobies too. I guess we should arrest Jin for going to squeeze on Tae’s boyfriend’s nipples to wake him up from bed. I guess it was an abomination that Jk and Jimin took a picture where they were both shirtless with Jimin’s hands on Jk’s body. I’m sure tae was PISSED! “jimin, how dare you touch what is mine”!!!!! Acting like boys are not almost always shirtless anyways. Y’all don’t have brothers or male friends in your lives? We have heard so many times that Jimin is always naked down to his underwear when ever he is in the comfort of his home, hell they even spoke about it being Jimin’s default on that Vminkookhope Live in 2022 so what u should really be worried about if u think Tae and facetiming with tits out is an issue, worry about what might be going on in that room that Jk goes to know at 1am with a Jimin who is most probably only in his underwear or maybe even naked. And worry about the fact that this is the person Jk has chose to spend “most” of his nights with. You know, a person whose default is nakedness and mostly only always has his underwear on. That is what u should really be worrying about.

I also really wonder how Jk feels about Tae laying in bed “naked” with his wooga friends all untop of him and mind you, this is someone who has said he does not like someone else peeling perilla leaves off for his s/o but u think he will be ok with Tae laying there shirtless while having a bunch of men on him, and taekookers screaming about Taekook wearing the same shirt like please, if i were you, i will worry more about Tae and his wooga friends. He was matching hoodies or Jackets with Hyunsik while they were driving together, he let one of them stay in his house for months, while he didn’t bother to go see Jk on his birthday, he made sure to be there for wooshiks. Y’all arw screaming about seeing taekook do a tiktok at paradise, when we started seeing tae with his friends at paradise since 2019😭😭😭. How many trips has he gone on with them? Even on his last day as a civilian, he was with them and only got up in the morning to catch up with Jk on a face time call. While he is away in the military his wooga squad have access to his home. In 2019, he chose to spend his vacation time travelling with his wooga squad while he didn’t even bother to see his own boyfriend on his birthday. I can get that maybe he wanted to spend time with his friends, that is normal but even on Jk’s birthday he didn’t even bother to be there?

Look, as time goes on, relationships change and evolve or devolve and there is a good possibility that Jikook were just not in the same place during the solo era but taekook probably spending more time together than jikook did will never mean that taekook is real and Jikook wasn’t. This is something y’all don’t seem to understand. Looking at taekook’s past, there is nothing in it that could point to them being a couple isn’t that why y’all were always complaining about taekook being hidden or being “privet” because you literally almost never saw them together and more than not seeing them together, they themselves confirmed not being together at important moments. The only thing y’all had to backup ur ship was the over analyzed slowed down videos on youtubed portraying their “jealousy” or “sexual tension” or straight up lying about hangouts or meetups even though they themselves literally always debunked y’all. It is so weird that these are two pple u claim to bias but you don’t understand their dynamic which is the same as it has always been since the damn beginning. Y’al l are the ones still shocked by the fact that taekook are the touchy two. You are the ones still screaming about taekook sharing songs as if in a group of friends some pairs tend to relate to or bond with certain things more than others. Taekook have always bonded with music and Jk has always bonded with Jimin in their shared time together on most nights. We know this and even the members know this and that is why you didn’t hear hobi say “Tae and Jk always stay up together” he said “Jimin and Jungkook always stay up together” and he should know. He knows them personally, you don’t.

Jimin bonds with namjoon very differently and that is who he has the most mature conversations with. He bonds with Suga in a different way as he considers Suga someone he looks up to as it was Suga who encouraged him that he had all it took to become an idol when he doubted himself. Hobi is like his best friend whom he goofs around with and also spends alot of time with and Hobi is probably the one who knows all of Jimin’s secrets. Jk bonds with RM in a very different way too and looks up to him. Hobi to his is like a bro whom he adores and also looks up to. He respects Suga and is also a huge fan of his work and thinks Suga’s opinion on his art is valuable. Jin is to him like a big brother and those two have the most uber realistic sibling dynamic. My point is, all these boys have different dynamics and relate to each other in very different ways so ofcourse there arw certain thing Jk will prefer doing with Tae over Jimin and vice versa. He doesn’t have to think Jimin is the best at everything for Jimin to be his boyfriend or he doesn’t have to want to go show his song to Jimin first for Jimin to be his boyfriend and judging from the fact that it wasn’t tae who heard his song 3D first, they probably don’t care too much about who hears it first. Maybe it is just familiar to let tae hear it first because that it what they have always done and that doesn’t in anyway mean what you think it does😭😭😭😭 cuz if it was that important to them, Suga and RM wouldn’t have heard 3d first and Hobi wouldn’t have been the one who heard Tae’s first album first would he?

Why. Are. You. Here. Do you get any joy out of being here? Like, why are you doing this? I don't agree with your assessment. A fair few people who comment here don't agree with your assessment. Does it feel like a place you're going to be happy in? You clearly read the comments and get irate about being called a joker. Why not go find jikook spaces? Why are you bothering?

But I'll bite:

You want to talk about times they were all available to hang out? JK arriving with Tae to Yoongi's show, not saying hello to Jimin, then going home with Tae. How about that?

You want to talk about Wooga? How come JK invites Woogas to his party but not Taemin or any of Jimin's friends?

Or despite the fact we've caught JK seemingly lying about knowing where Tae was at Inkigayo, you take them all at their word, right?

Jimin himself stated he saw/spoke with Yoongi and Hobi most. Why would he lie, you say? But according to you, it must be true cos they couldn't possibly be just saying stuff or exaggerating or repeating stories. No, according to you, every word they say is indisputable despite proof to the contrary.

And you're brave to bring up the military considering it's basically smoking gun proof that they aren't a couple.

These examples put a nail in the jkk coffin for me.

It doesn't for you. That's cool. We're not going to agree. Difference between you and I is that I don't mind what you believe. It doesn't threaten me or bother me. I'm content knowing you think that and I think this opposite thing. It makes you look insecure to be so obsessed by what Taekookers think when most of us just don't care what Jikookers are up to.

I'm not posting anymore asks that I think are from you, wordy anon. You're kind of rude and people have to scroll six miles and it's generally a bummer to read the anger you have.

Depart these strange shores, wanderer. You're lost.

[real-sanemi-shinazugawa]

(Thanks to a chat that I discovered on Character AI, I ended up developing an OC which lead me to develop some variations of a story for her and now I got the idea of using one of them here).

Good afternoon! I apologize from now as I feel like I might make you uncomfortable. Anyway, so I had a thought.

What if hypothetically Genya never joined the Demon Slayer Corps and instead after the death of your family he started living with a relative (let's say that your dad has a younger brother called Riku who is actually a nice, responsable and patient person unlike his brother). Now one day you are doing whatever you would be doing at your estate when a slayer comes to you to deliver a letter from someone he says indentified to himself as your younger brother under the name Genya. After some nervous and quick explanations about how they happned to meet and Genya asked him if he ever heard of someone with your name and then asked him to deliver you the letter, the slayer gives you his farewells and leaves.

Eventually, as soon as you have time, you sit down and read Genya's letter. After some greetings, introductive formalities and an apology for how he reacted that morning all those years ago, he tells you about his life since then. He tells you that after the funeral he had been taken in by uncle Riku who treated him like the son he never got to have. He basically tells you about how him and Riku had some great years only the two of them untill his very recent death. He talks about how in these years Riku managed to homeschool him in some basic stuff like reading, writting, basic math etc., had him help with all sorths of tasks Riku couldn't do due to his bad leg, got a job as kitchen help at the restaurant ran by Riku's best friend who acts as a unofficial uncle to him (and who might encourage him when he feels like causing mischief) and made some friends that are greatfull for him and that he is apreciated throught the village for all the help he gives around. Overall, he describes himself as happy and content with his life, except that he wished to get the chance to see you again as he misses you a lot. I imagine a letter like this would make you satisfied as it sounds like your brother has gotten to live the life you envisioned for him, safe, happy, surounded by loved ones and with no knowledge of demons. Such good news is exactly what you needed after the anouncement about Kyojuro's death.

You turn the page to see what else did Genya wrote you about just to see that the last page is not from Genya. Instead, it is from the slayer who brought you the letter. The slayer wrote about how, despite Genya asking him not to give you the details about how the two of them actually got to meet, he can't withold such information in good conscience. He tells you about how he found Genya while he was wounded and running away from a demon. Fortunately, he managed to behead the demon before he could kill Genya, but Genya still ended up needing medical help due to some slashes the demon left along Genya's back while he tried to excape. He also mentions helping Genya get to his wretched home where the shredded and maimed body of uncle Riku was laying on the floor. He assures you that Genya is mostly alright as he now lives with uncle Riku's best friend and his family and his wounds were aparently not fatal but will surely let behind some ugly scars.

(To Esha: Sometimes I like to think of hypothetical situation and what ifs for stories that I like and the Shinazugawa brothers still live in my head rent free. Anyway, when you get to answer this when you are done with your exams I will be glad to see you back. Hope it all went well and that you are ok, especially since I remember you mentioning being predisposed to some health problems aside from having a lot on your plate. Lots of hugs!🤗💕)

That'd be nice... A world where Genya is safe and sound and loved and alive. It's all I've ever wanted for him.

That's all he has to do: live his life, the best he possibly, so that he can make up for what the rest of our family never got to do.

It's a shame about Uncle Riku but Genya will cope, like he always has.

And I'll keep fighting, I'll keep him safe from a far distance so that nothing ever gets close to him again.

(From Esha: Anca, my babyyyy! I've still got three exams left and I have one of them in a few hours but I was so happy when I logged into this account and saw your message! It really energised me and I just had to answer everything, I couldn't wait any longer! Health-wise, I'm doing much, much better, and my acne's finally cleared up, just gotta get rid of the scarring now! I got my prom dress, too, so I'm super excited!)

[copper-dragon-in-disguise]

Ik you like talking about this and I’m actually like rly interested so what’s the aids quilt and triangle shirtwaist factory fire?

(It’s in your bio and as you probably know I hate looking stuff up and prefer talking to people-you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to)

*jumps up like the human equivalent of !!! and sprints to the computer to answer this properly with sources and shit* !!!!!!!!!!!

YOU WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THE TRIANGLE SHIRTWAIST FACTORY FIRE AND THE AIDS QUILT?????????? !!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE GOING TO REGRET THIS SO MUCH ASTER I'M SO EXICTED I'M NOT GOING TO SHUT UP FOR LIKE AN HOUR THIS IS AMAZING

(you have unlocked the Special Interests and now i won't shut up ever. :DDDDDDDDDD)

....well. I wasn't going to put a cut and then it got really, really long, so there's a cut about halfway through for the sake of peoples dashboards.

first up:

The Triangle Shirtwaist Factory Fire

(tw/cw: intentional endangerment of workers, death, suicide (unplanned/unintentional), graphic depiction of death)

short version: the triangle shirtwaist factory fire was one of the deadliest industrial disasters in US History and, I believe, the deadliest industrial disaster in the history of New York City. It was a key point in labor rights & union movements, and 146 people died, almost all recently immigrated women and girls between the ages of 14-23.

long version: at ~4:40 pm on march 25th, 1911, a fire broke out in a scrap bin under a cutting table in the triangle shirtwaist factory, which occupied the 8th, 9th, and 10th floors of the Asch building in new york city (manhatten, greenwich village specifically).

the factory produced shirtwaists, a popular kind of women's blouse. (it was a sweatshop, which is relevant for future reasons). It was owned by Max Blanck and Issac Harris, who had previously had four (? possibly 3) fires at other factories, and been investigated for them (it was suspected that one or more of those said fires were the result of arson by the owners). the workers were, for the vast majority, recently immigrated jewish & italian women and girls, from age 14 and up, but most were between 14 and 25. The oldest victim was 43. (of the victims whose ages are known). They earned $7-12 a week (approx. $190-326USD in 2020 dollars), or approx. $3.65-6.29 per hour in today's money. at the time of the fire, there were approx. 600 workers in the building.

the asch building was 10 floors in total, and the top 3 were occupied by the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory. The doors leading to the staircases were locked, to prevent workers leaving early or taking breaks. There were supposed to be 3 staircases, but there was only two; the city had allowed the owners to build a single fire escape in lieu of the third staircase. this fire escape may have been broken before the fire, and it was certainly broken afterwards. one of the staircases managed to be unlocked, but it became impassible either up or down within 3 minutes of the fire's start.

when the fire flared up, the first alarm was sounded by a passerby outside, who saw smoke coming out the windows at 4:45 pm.

the fire department arrived shortly after, but their ladders could only reach the 7th floor (the fire start on the 8th). some workers excaped via the roof (several years ago I heard a story about a guy who was teaching in the building next door and him and his students saw the people on the roof and were able to help them get over to the building the professor was in and not ontop of the burning one, but I can't find it again to validate it so take that with a grain of salt), and some got into the elevators while they were still working. the elevator operators were able to make 3 trips before the elevators stopped working from the excessive heat (the steel beams holding them bent and made it impossible to attempt).

inside the building, people on the 8th floor were able to warn people on the 10th floor by means of a telephone, but with the staircases locked there was no way to warn those on the 9th floor, and a survivor said (paraphrasing): ''the first warning of the fire arrived at the 9th floor at the same time the fire did''.

146 people died. 123 women and girls, the vast majority between the ages of 14-23, and 23 men and boys (I cannot find a clear age for them). 61 people died from jumping to their death or falling to their death out of the windows of the building. the fire department had nets meant to catch people, but velocity is velocity and the nets did nothing. people jumped out the windows hoping that the nets would catch them or they might survive, or that at least that had a better chance of survival than remaining inside the fire. 20 of these were on the fire escape & attempting to use it when it collapsed, dropping them 100ft to the sidewalk and killing them.

36 people died in the elevator shaft, after it started to break. (they attempted to jump/slide down the cables, and it did not work).

49 people burned to death or suffocated in the smoke.

the entire fire took 18 minutes.

The bodies of the victims were taken to Charities Pier (aka Misery Lane) to be identified. All but 6 were, and those 6 were buried together in the Cementer of the Evergreens in brooklyn (they were later identified by a historian named michael hirsch in 2011, after 4 years of research). they are now all buried together there, underneath a monument to the tragedy.

it caused a surge in the efforts of the International Ladies' Garment Workers Union, and eventually resulted in the passing of ~38 new york state labor laws.

The AIDs Quilt

(tw/cw: regan (referenced), death (nowhere near as bad as above))

The AIDs quilt is a memorial quilt commemorating those who have died of AIDs (at any point, not just during the AIDs crisis (fuck you ronald regan)), with panels sewn by family members and friends. It was begun in 1987 in San Fransisco by Cleve Jones. It is considered the largest community folk arts project in the world, and consists of nearly 50,000 panels honoring approx. 110,000 people.

Each panel is 6' by 3' (about the size of a standard grave), and four of them are sewn together to make large blocks that are then sewn/tied together. sometimes it goes on display, the most recent time in june 2022.

there is an interactive online version of the quilt, which you can find here.

here it is zoomed out as far as I could get

here are some of the larger blocks of the quilt

and here are some individual panels.

that's mostly all I have to say about it, but its incredible, and my favorite art project of all time.

(i don't have the spoons to add image descriptions to the photos, I am sorry, I will try to do it later when I remember)

[culttvblog]

The Hardy Boys/Nancy Drew Mysteries: The House on Possessed Hill

I've never read any of the Hardy Boys books. The reason for this is that our headmistress subjected Enid Blyton's books to the same unfounded criticism levelled at the Hardy Boys books in the US: that they weren't proper literature and would stop the kids reading any proper literature. On this basis she banned the books completely from school premises and systematically shamed anyone caught with them. Of course the result was that Famous Five and Secret Seven books were passed around surreptitiously like the contraband they were and nobody at my school read the wildly successful Hardy Boys/Nancy Drew because they weren't banned.

I did, however, manage to watch the TV adaptations later, in my teens. Perhaps I should clarify that this post is about the 1977 to 1979 ABC series starring Parker Stevenson, Shaun Cassidy and Pamela Sue Martin or Janet Louise Johnson. I loved the mysterious theme tune and the plots. It's a show of the genre that I like to think of as aspirational for early teens: the kids are definitely kids but just older enough that they have a freedom the viewers don't have so that it can prompt dreaming, hero worship, or even crushes. This was never the effect of the Famous Five, which was clearly set in a world which didn't exist and where the kids had a freedom that no kids in human history have ever had. In the books Frank and Joe are permanently 16 and 17 respectively, which is probably just the right age to get this effect, They're probably a bit older in this series but still apparently free of the adult responsibilities of earning a living, studying, family, and so on.

The House on Possesed Hill is an absolute superb episode which basically takes the plot of a horror film and twists it slightly to fit in into the mould of the show. Joe and Frank come across Stacey, a young woman who is running away from a baying crowd who are after her. She wants to shelter from them in a mysterious house and she says the townspeople are after her because they think she is a witch: their evidence for this is that she foresaw an accident a friend had.

The show plays her psychic abilities very straight, at no point questioning what she says. In fact it seems uncanny.

Rightly, I think, at the beginning the townspeople just keep their distance from the house and don't give any excuse to Joe for being after her. This is somehow much more scary than the classic horror film tropes where she's either excaped from the local Nursing Home for the Insane Daughters of Gentlefolk (Matron: Jessica Fletcher) or she is the ward in court of the town sheriff who for no apparent reason doesn't want to go back to his house. We hear them talking amongst themselves and they do believe the house is cursed.

In fact the local sheriff doesn't help at all, saying that there's nothing he can do because it's not illegal to want to speak to someone and demanding that a crime be committed or else the Hardy boys had better shut up or leave his town. But then, ACAB.

In fact I'm slightly embarrassed to admit that on first viewing I completely missed that the house Stacey and Joe escape into is of course the house from Psycho. Since realising its identity I have seen that it's been used endlessly in film and TV since obviously a boy's best friend is his mother. I was going to make a quip that the only show it hasn't appeared in is Murder, She Wrote, but of course it's even made an appearance in that. Damnit this show follows the old dark house trope to the extent of having a mysterious hand pull out the telephone wire just as Joe tries to make a call.

The show returns to the world of the classic horror film when Joe and Frank take Stacey home and she's met by the family doctor, who is utterly creepy. Despite Stacey having been seen by specialists in New York who couldn't make head nor tail of her, Dr Creepy then does some kind of regression in the show which mysteriously reveals everything that has happened in her life. Medical ethics, anyone?

If you want a criticism of this episode you might possibly feel that it's got an embarras des richesses in the multiple possible explanations for what's going on in the house leading to a conclusion where it turns out it's several at once. However since the point of this episode is to draw from about every old dark house film ever, that's the point. There's also my enduring query about this show that Parker Stevenson was too old for the role he plays.

This is an excellent episode drawing on the rich horror film tradition.

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[dwtdog]

ah i've been lurking on tumblr for quite some time, but never truly excaped twitter (and don't know if id ever will...). im trying to mean the whole hell that we unfortunately in rn, reading your blog makes me feel a bit safer and calmer, so thank you for this, for being here. -that refugee anon (also i mostly lurk but im not sure if i'll ever send another ask but on thing about me is that i like seals not that it matters)

ahhhww this made me tear up fuckalkdjhl thank u for the fact about urself :') <3

[meatman-the-ace]

im fucking tired of starfield, its message combined with its gameplay is so fucking vile, boring, and hopeless that i never want to play another bathesda game knowing now that this is the message they sent out with the game that so many people have put so much time and effort into creating its fuckign sickening. its a space game with humans as the only sapient beings, dispite that i think its one of the most anti humanity games ever made. it may be technically competent (for a bathesda game) but it is one of the most morally bankrupt and soulless narratives ive experienced in a videogame.

its a pointless fucking future, a whole farm upstate where humanity goes to after we excape a ruined earth, any morning of this lost earth is assigned to one group of rich people who throw charity balls, its a future for nobody, a dead future of unending consumption, struggle, and inequality but it is portrayed like "this is a good future for humanity, nothing wrong with how this system works at all, go find magic rocks with your billionaire funded group of idiots and bootlickers".

mankind may have excaped its earthly consequences by fleeing to the stars but to call them mankind would be wrong for they have become the systems that they live in, like some sort of fucked up ineffective and self defeating hive of eusocial insects that do nothing but reap and sew misery for the unkillable ruling class to come down and greadly munch apon . the folks that wrote this game are hopelessly imprisoned by the pleasures of the false world and instead of thrashing against the walls till somthing gives they take pride and respite in the fact that cage they were born into does a good job of keeping people out

tldr. starfield is a world where it is metaphorically, culturally, politically, and physically impossible to hurt or even impede rich people. its souless neoliberalism packed into a bland popcorn bucket of a game. as a lifetime fallout and elder scrolls fan i now never want to see fallout 5 or ES6.

[afuckinglittlesunflower]

jump start my heart

This is pretty much something I came up with on a whim. It's an AU about the Wanderer and Y/N who met again after Scaramouch's existance got ereased by Irminsul. The song "Hero" - by Alan Walker and Sasha Alex Solan inspired me to write this. Enjoy!

It was as if all the waves of unknown emotions came crashing down on you once more. The heavy and uneasy feeling that has been weighting you down lifted itself as you starred at the back of a... stranger. At least that is what your memory made you to believe. The cloudy day on which you were suposed to intoduce your newly found friend- Collei- to Dehya, your best friend, was left in the dust as soon as you spotted a little silhouette of a man in the middle of the grand balza. The mumbled sound of Collei's voice was drowned out by your overwhelming desire to capture this man and bask in his presence. It felt as if you already knew what he would sound like, what his touch would feel like and what his eyes portrayed. Yet, before your thoughts could catch up with what your heart kept telling you, a soft touch on your shoulder made you flinch. "Is everything alright? You seem really out of it." Dehya's booming voice suddenly sounded all but comforting like it usually did. You did not know why but your heart craved to hear a calm sound filled with more emotion than any you had ever heard. While your hands were shaking from the force of your own heartbeat drumming heavily in your ears, your head moved to look for a certain someone again- your eyes frantically searching for the person that got you into this mess to begin with. Your typical chirpy voice sounded anything but steady as you tried to assure your friends you were fine. The pitying look they gave you made it fairly obvious that neither believed you. Nevertheless, they decided against pushing you. A sigh escaped the green haired girl's lips. Your eyes widdened as you realised that whoever it was that made you crave... something was not there anymore. Tears prickled in your eyes and before you knew it a waterfall broke. Heavy sobs excaped your lips as you desperatly tried to mumble them with your hand. Big, ugly tears ruined the happy face you were wearing just minutes ago. Without another word Dehya took your unoccupied hand and took you with her. You could barely hear Collei's footsteps behind you as your sobs wrecked your body.

Even once you reached the little house you were calling your own- which always felt too empty and too big- tears were still flowing down your cheeks. Dehya sat you down on the king sized bed. It had always felt too much for you. Who would need such a bed while living alone? Without knowing why your chest started to tighten. It was a suffocating feeling. "Do you want to tell us what's wrong?" Although the Firemane's voice was much more calm than what was typical, it did nothing but frustrate you more. You loved your friends, you truly did, so why could you not find comfort in their gentle embrace? Why did Collei's arms around your shaking frame feel like it was simply not tight enough? Why did you desire Dehya's nose to be scrunched up? Why did you want them to face the other way while gently patting your head and hugging you? "Stop crying. It makes you look ugly." Your head seemed to be playing tricks on you. While snot and tears covered your hands and cheeks you could not stop yourself from cuckling slightly. Who would want to hear something as hurtful when crying? It all seemed surreal. Your tears slowly started to lessen and your sobs quieted down. You started at your friends. Your heart seemed to play out an entire scenario. You wished for a face you did not know. Desired an embrace you have never felt. Longed for a voice you have never heard. With all the strength you could muster you told your friends about your all too confusing feelings. "I- I don't know what- or why it happened. It all started so suddenly. I saw someone and then- I feel like something or someone ripped my heart out of my chest and took it with them." All you recieved were yet again pitying looks. Puffing out your cheeks and furrowing your eyebrows your gaze fixated on the window to your right. Outside was your garden and a few birds flew around. "Did you maybe inhale some of the essance in Master Tighnari's room?" Almost like a menace Collei pulled you towards her. "As if", you scoffed, "you know exactly I don't go in there alone. I don't have a deathwish."

The sunset has never looked so lonely before. You were in your garden on a little swing you put there long ago. Time seemed to pass slowly. Dehya and Collei had already left before dinner. Not like you would have eaten with them anyway. Your heart felt heavy and your eyes were puffy and red from all the crying. Now all that was left was pure emptiness as you sat there all alone. The space next to you unoccupied as usually, yet it felt wrong. Everything felt too much- too big- too... lonely. A sigh fell from your lips. You would cry if you could but it seemed all the tears had left you. Knees close to your chest and head resting on your palms you could do nothing but stare as the sun bathed the entire sky in colours of red, orange and purple. At least that was what you thought. You blinked once, then twice, then a third time. Slowly you rubbed your eyes with the back of your hand. Was your heart and the sun playing tricks on you? A figure seemed to appear on the far away horizon. Before you knew it you were already on your feet starring straight ahead. It felt as though you've been here before. In front of your little swing and in front of your porch. The figure seemed to become bigger. Were they walking towards your house? Although you should be more than concered, as you lived at the outskirt of Sumeru City where not many poeple come by, your heart could not help but start racing. Without realising it, you raised your hand and waved to the unkknown person. At this point you were sure of it- you knew this person. Waving at them all while smiling like a lovestruck fool- it's in your muscle memory and you were pretty sure about that. The shilouette came to a halt. Unmoving, the shades of red seemed to paint them like a masterpiece. A true magnum opus. Your feet carried you to them. Slowly at first, then you picked up the pace. Unable to stop yourself you broke out in a run. Stumbling around as you almost fell, you managed to reach them at last. For a moment you couldn't help but wonder if he would catch you if you fell. You came to a stop in front of him- as you could clearly see now. "I recognise you!", you said as you gave him the most gentle smile you swore you ever wore. "There- There's something in your eyes", was the last thing you said before truly taking him in. A hat that almost seemed to big adored his head. His clothes were tinted in shades of green, blue, white and black. It looked uttmost comfortable. His arms were crossed over his chest as his eyes locked with your very own. His face seemed emotionless, yet you somehow knew that it was all but that. The way his shoulders relaxed just the slightest bit, the tiniest twitch of his lips and the dim sparkle in his eyes explained more than enough to you. "Is that so?" As you had expected, his voice seemed to be from another world entirely. It sounded calm and monotone yet it was laced with more emotion than you could ever muster. It almost felt as if he caught your breath with a tilt of his head and only allowed you to take it back when he desired. And unsurprisingly, you felt content with it. Your entire being had longed for this man without knowing him. You did not know him, yet, he felt more familiar than your cold and lonely home. You moved one step closer all while knowing he won't back away. As you thought, the man stayed still and was now mere inches away from you. Should you take one more tiny step you would undeniably be connected. "I won't let you go this time", you annouced with more confidence than you had ever felt before. The smirk which appeared on his face seemed to dizzy your pretty little head. He truly was gorgeous. Without much thought you leaped into his arms and burried your head in his chest. Almost too hastily he wrapped his arms around your shaking frame. With sparkling eyes you asked him. "Say, can you jump start my heart?"

[thornpuck]

A diary entry.

Apologies for those that are just here for the art, but I use this as a diary sometimes just 'cause I need a place to vent. I tag it with self/text so if you wanna flag it I think you can. (Unless you can't.)

So without tooting my own horn too much, I think it's honestly pretty impressive how far I've come in these past few years. It's come gradually but also sorta in an all-at-once sorta way. I've gone from being a right piece of work to someone who's actully trying to be a nice person. I feel like I'm in some weird sitcom about a guy who used to be a bad person try to be a good person - it's almost comical at times.

It's been such a big chunk of character development for me: I overcame being an abrasive online troll to become like, on ok decent guy. Not a great guy, but someone who doesn't get aggressive/insulting to others anymore.

But it's also ... the toughest thing I've ever done. I seem to just be an arrogant twat by nature lol so reclibrating that behviour has been hella hard. I still slip up. I don't want a medal but I feel like that crying cat meme, like the bare minumum is being an ok decent guy but I clawed my way from hell to get to the ground plane.

I dunno why I'm verbalizing all this. it's been on my mind. I guess a part of me also is publishing it 'cause I feel like it's hard to excape being an asshole for so long. I don't expect forgiveness, but I do wanna be like, "I'm not that guy anymore soz about all that :/" AHEM now that that's all out of my system, some other news:

I now refer to myself as an ex game developer

Sticker/merch work is going well, family members are keen to help me out so that's pretty good. I'm really enjoying drawing things inspired by my hometown. I know tumblr is more rainbow-barfing-dogs and less dusky-moorhens but I'll probably lean towards drawing things that are appealing to me rather than try to chase notes etc.

Feel like I've gone from 0-100 REAL quick art wise but I don't think it's anything to worry about? I think for so long (a decade?) I've had feelings of needing-to-study-ankles or needing-to-be-better or needing-to-draw-good but now I'm all: I'm going to sit in the corner and draw my funky little animals and that seems to have alleviated my art burnout.

I've gotten really into tea, like gong fu style shit and I'm like teetering on the edge of geeting pueh which I know will be a whole other step.

[praise-suns-and-chill]

Okay, I found a Picrew that actually works well enough for creating a reference to my Fallen Hero Sidestep, Puppet and OC!

I love these games. I just couldn't resist xD Sooooo, under the cut -

Sindy Beaumont, mixed gal in her early 30s, my Sidestep/Jekyll. Why not Hyde? Well, she hides as her normal self already, her villian self is, weirdly enough, more herself in ways then her civilian persona.

Although I should probably say Antihero instead of Villian. She has a no killing policy (though, depending on if anyone ever threatens Ortega or Mortum, that may change, or if she meets anyone from the Farm again) and even got Steel to doubt if she is a proper villian, even if unintentionally. An anarchist that wants the truth out there, and maybe a bit of revenge, eventually, if there is the opportunity. But yeah, mostly #ReGeneRights

She smokes, is dealing with her suicidal thoughts as well as she can, given the circumstances, and just has a lot of confused feelings. I think the reason for the chosen background here is obvious

John Doe. Puppet and pretty bastard. Sindy thought he was soulless, the whole coma thing, so she dyed his hair ginger.

I like to think he'd chuckle at it. If he isn't secretly evil. And even if he is, he might just agree and chuckle anyways.

Aaaaaaaaaand OC. Only known as Fox. Also an excaped ReGene, though of the more grey-blue skinned variety. The Farm tried out a modified version of the hero-drug for the first time, it did not quite go as planned, Fox got the power of precognition and suddenly five scientists were dead and she had blown a hole in the wall. And they just can't catch her again because... well. Looking into the future, knowing literally every way to avoid trouble, makes the whole catching business a lil bit difficult.

Link to the picrew in the first comment in the notes!

[laremsworld]

The last Marauder

Just when he‘s about to reach the part of the forrest which Dumbledore declared „save to apparate“ towards him, he meets with one of the werewolves - also in human form.

„Where have you been?!“, Remus yells, his voice sounding husky and weird after all these months of not using it.

„Haven’t you heard?“ asked the other one lazily, „the war ended. The Lord lost. There‘s no need for us to stay here and plan a fight.“

„Vol- The Dark Lord is gone?“

Remus can’t believe what the werewolf is telling him. If this is true, it means that it‘s finally save for him to go and see his favourite people in the world.

Sirius‘ little flat in Edinburgh is his first destination, but his friend doesn’t seem to be at home.

Of course, Remus thinks, he‘s probably spending every second with James and Harry.

So, Godric Hollow is his next destination. Remus has missed Harry‘s birthday because of his mission. The little boy is probably almost a toddler now. He wasn’t walking yet, when the Gryffindor last saw him, but he was already keen to talk. „Moo-i!“ he exclaimed every time he saw him and it‘s by far the sweetest thing Remus has ever heard. „That‘s right Harry“, Lily would proudly smile at her son, „that‘s your uncle Moony.“

Remus feels a little dizzy when he arrives kn Godric‘s Hollow. Normally it doesn’t cost him this much energy to apparate, but he missed a meal or two in the past four days (due to the missing werewolves), so he’s not at his best strength. But Mrs. Potter (Lily is not fond of being called that, James loves it) will probably feed him like ten kilograms of food anyway, so he shall be okay within the next hour.

The first thing Remus notices is the funeral. A large group of people is gathered outside the graveyard. One of the old muggles in the town must have died - he hopes it‘s not Mrs. Holloway, she was always so nice to him.

But the nearer Remus walks toward the Potters‘ house, the dizzier he starts feeling. Something is off, like very off, in this town.

A humongous amount of power was released here. A power so dark that it makes him shutter. Remus feels the outcome of that power before he finally sees it. The upper part James and Lily‘s house is completely gone, shattered like something exploded in there. One window is lazily hanging on the almost completely broken ceiling, swaying back and forth with the wind.

Remus‘ head immediately turns back to the funeral and that’s when he sees, when he finally notices all these familiar faces. Hagrid‘s face is red and swollen due to excessive crying, but it‘s nevertheless still Hagrid. How could he not notice Hagrid??

Remus runs fastly towards the croud, without even realizing it. An ushered „No“, excapes his lips, „no, no, no, no.“

When he finally reaches the crowd, it‘s Dumbledore’s face that greets him.

„Remus“, the headmaster says, refusing to look into his face.

A scream espaces Remus‘ lips, an animalistic howl that all the grieving participants will remember for years. „NO!“

Do you want a part 2??