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Gd hypersensitivity to noise sucks and really makes me contemplate law guidelines. The people below me decided to have a 2000/2010s themed party. The regulation is not over 35 decibels during the night and they actually remain a nice between 20 to 25 db I'd hazard. But I can hear every single word and their unharmonious sing-along. It sounds as loud as what I would play during the day in my own apartment. The person who thought 20 db at 1 am is fine, actually 35 db should still be ok should be shot or at least try to sleep like that every night.

And you know what ? Fuck the people downstairs, too. I can hear my neighbors to the left and right move around because no one can sleep. "But it's the weekend, everyone can sleep in !" Actually Andy, everyone else is dogtired from their work week. Andy, I have a dog and chronic pain, I can't sleep in. Andy, my neighbor has acute burnout and struggles with self-harm ideas triggered by noise. Andy, Andy, my other neighbor had three strokes this year. Andy, turn down the fucking David Guetta !

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I can’t stop thinking about the uhc shooter and what a wild experience he must be having right now. Idk how much you can look at the news or scroll the internet while on the run for murder, but man. Imagine. You spend who knows how long planning a brazen public assassination, cleanly pop a dude in the middle of one of the busiest downtowns in the world, bike away fueled by nothing but the thrill of vengeance and some Starbucks, and spark one of the largest manhunts in recent history. And when you finally go online to see what you’ve wrought, the entire world is laugh reacting NYT headlines and has collectively decided that you’re off the hook this time, king.

Then pictures of your face get released 24 hours later and everyone is like actually this guy did nothing wrong AND he’s hot.

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no way daily mail posted this expecting people not to find it funny as hell

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if this is actually his backpack and actually the contents in it, he just became a million times cooler holy fuck LMAO

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*through tears* ladies and gentleman, they got him

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NYPD are like uuuuh we still haven't found the killer but we did find footage of a different, equally mysterious man with rogueish charisma and a dazzling smile. If that helps

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do I keep throwing my original art into silent, dark waters or do I dedicate my tumblr blog to just fan art to get traction🧍

Anyway, I have thoughts on labor and burnout and healing and quitting and endings and beginnings yaddayadda that I throw into my pieces. I'm not eloquent with words but yeah.

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This post took a turn that I agree with but OPs problem is that most people don't seem to understand that many of these mental health tips don't really work for nt people who go through a rough patch or a seasonal depressive episode. Mindfulness is a tool for anxiety, disassociating, etc., self care (or temporary isolation) is for burnout, especially in nd people. Making new friends and going out there would actively harm me as an autistic anxious person. We are social people made to live in groups but self-reliance and individualism is the only way for me to survive. The mental health sector has adopted strategies from therapeutic interventions without accouting for a difference between people who need therapy and people who, generally speaking, are well-adapted people without deep-seated psychological issues.

The only thing that has ever improved my mental health in any measurable capacity is making more friends. That's literally it

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Sometimes I want to comment something like "dicks out for ancient Sweden" on a post about history but I catch myself in the last second and remember I'm not on tumblr and that they wouldn't understand our ways(TM)

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I feel like a fucking Sims character. So hungry but I can't make myself something to eat because I'm too hungry. Clicking the fridge to consider what I have available but I'm not doing anything besides yelling and gesticulating about how hungry i am until I faint and die right in the kitchen.

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thought i was the outcast in my friend group because i was too boring and vanilla until my best friend threw the first stone with "you're difficult to be friends with because you're so weird" and from then on it was fire at will with everyone telling me how strange i was.

thought i said something normal and got hit with the "you're on the spectrum, aren't you?". devastating. back to the how to be a normal human drawing board we go

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finally, another unhinged tumblr-sexy phenomenon. we hadn't had one for some time, it had gotten quite grim and overly serious around here.

you're not innocent.

oh I'M not innocent? i never did anything. i'm not the one writing tetris sex manifestos all over a perfectly legitimate public survey. i bet you sickos want me to draw the tetrimino gijinkas more. you're all sitting there thinking things like 'i wish topsy would draw I/T toxic yaoi and post it' as if that's a normal thing to think. well FINE

this is insane. you people are all insane

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damn and here people were making jokey fics and manips of trump and biden. what kind of weird porn is going on in that man's mind ?

probably one of his most truthful tweets

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Had to bite the bullet and use a free, ad-supported streaming service and on breaks it would always show me an ad that goes "this is the perfect moment to take a break ! download our casino app now !" Ma'am, I'm already taking a break from my day watching a movie I was eager to see, I'd rather do that than play a gambling game ?!