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The people hath spoken
Now feast your eyes upon my unedited, not peer reviewed set of timelines I wrote in my notes app three years ago:
(Spoilers, miss spelling and bad grammar galore)
Presenting
TMA TIMELINE AND CHARACTER AGES BUT I MADE IT BECAUSE JONATHAN SIMS HATES ME:
Michael Shelly:
Timeline:
(1) began working at the institute at 19 in 1977 (would have been 58 as of 2016, the start of the podcast). likely died around 25 years old assuming the Great Twisting occurred in 1983 (spiraled at 51 assuming it occurred in 2009). This would be most accurate only if Gerard Keay was born in the late 70s and Eric quit by ā82 <almost completely impossible unless we are thinking in terms of Gerard timeline 2 (the mike timeline)>
(2)began working at the institute at 19 in 1984 to replace Fiona Law after her death presumably earlier in 1984 (he would have been 51 as of 2016). Likely died around 25 assuming the Great Twisting occurred in 1990 (spiraled at 44 assuming it occurred in 2009) . <most accurate due to the idea that he worked with Eric Delano, Gerardās father, who quit soon after Gerard was born circa 1983 (quit around 1985/1986>
Timeline 2.5: 80s and their part time hiring + lying about age (the fact this is now a part of my timeline makes me almost angry lmao): okay so, letās say Michael was 12 years old in 1984 but he was taller and was able to pass off as being 14, so he snagged a part time, weekend internship at the magnus institute (because he lost his homie to the spiral and was like āwhatās all this then). This would put him at 44 in 2016. He would have been spiraled at 18 assuming time took place in 1990 (if spiraled in 2009 he would have been 37). <also quite accurate due to Eric recalling him as being āfar too young>
(3) began working at the institute at 19 in 1994 (would have been 41 as of 2016). Likely died around 25 assuming the Great Twisting was in 2000 (would have been spiraled at 34 assuming it occurred in 2009) <unsure, has little to no supporting details>
(4) began working at the institute at 19 in 2003 (would have been 32 as of 2016). Likely died around 25 assuming the Great Twisting occurred in 2009. <semi accurate according to in podcast dates ???? (Michael being hired to replace a previous assistant who passed in 2003<might have been earlier>)
As a person Michael holds a characterization of NaĆÆvetĆ© and ignorance (which though possible in an older character would make more sense if he was younger).
<update Fiona may have died earlier, will make the 1990s suggestion or even the 80s for him due to content of the episode (167) even though Gertrude was said to have lost all her assistants by 2011 which doesnāt line up with my most accurate timeline>
****side note**** I am open to shifting and altering the Great Twisting from 2009 to something far earlier to retain accuracy and so forth, I hate this godforsaken timeline; working dates for The Great Twisting per time line 1-4: (1)1983 (2) 1990 (3) 2000 (4) 2009
All above dates would put Michael between the ages of 24/25 which I feel works best with his young, naĆÆve, and ignorant characterization. However I will lend the more canon accurate dates and ages all the way down
Random info related in the twisting: all of Gertrudeās assistances had been dead by 2011 (ep 126), of cording to this the Great Twisting should have taken lave some time after October 2009, however it is said that Michael had already been distorted before Agnus Montague had died (which was in 2006), all of this to say, I decided all the details because Iām more consistent
Further details:
He was sacrificed by Gertrude Robinson to the Spiral, more specifically āThe Distortionā to stop the transcendence of the Spiral/ the ritual (The Great Twisting), in which he kinda combined with and ābecameā it though Michael Himself ceased to exist/died. āHeā remained āThe Distortionā until season 2/3 when āheā was replaced by Helen Richardson.
He Was Gertrudeās archival assistant, supposedly worked with Eric Delano (as found in Ericās statement tape with Gertrude taken after he had died), and was said to have been āfar too young to be in this professionā when he started (found in 167).
Gerard āGerryā Keay: (his timeline is actually also shit apparently but this is my thoughts)
born circa 1983 (would have been 33 at the start of the podcast in 2016). Died a year prior to the start of the podcast (2015) at age 32 of a brain tumor that had remained undetected until shortly before his death. He died on a trip to America with Gertrude Robinson where he was binded to a book by Gertrude; that book has previously belonged to his mother. Gerardās page in that book was eventually burned by request by Jon āThe Archivistā Sims and Gerry was āreleasedā to death.
Gerard was with his mother into his 20s when she essentially killed and mutilated herself to become more powerful through the same book we find Gerry binded to. He was in jail for her murder for a bit (despite him not doing it) but was eventually released after evidence was tampered with. Her death was in 2008 which would have made Gerard about 25 years old.
To escape what was essentially his motherās ghost he came to Gertrude Robinson who burned Gerardās motherās pages-causing him to be free from her at last. This was in 2013 placing Gerard at 30 years old.
His parents are Eric Delano and Mary Keay: Eric worked in the archives with Gertrude and Micheal but quit (by gouging his eyes out to escape from his patron) to raise his son. However, soon after Mary killed him in his sleep and used him to practice her ābook bindingā; Mary eventually gave Ericās page to Gertrude.
Gertrude Robinson: Iām gonna assume she was 27 when she started and Iām gonna say she began working there in 1964 because she worked there for 50 years. This would put her at 77 in 2016 when she is shot and killed by Elias Bouchard (technically Jonah Magnus but itās like a whole thing).
Gertrude spent her entire career hunting and destroying rituals of many different entities and their avatars. Including the rituals of āThe Scorched Earthā (The desolation), āThe Silenceā (The Lonely), and The Great Twisting (The Spiral). Before her death she had be researching to stop the workings of āI Do Not Know Youā/ āThe Unknowingā (The Stranger), but died while still investigating, thus passing that responsibility into her predecessor Jon Sims.
Eric Delano: married to Mary Keay and his son is Gerard Keay, who he refers to in podcast as āmy son, Gerryā. He began working with Gertrude soon after her promotion to Head Archivist, after the death of previous Archivist Agnus Stacy, the 1960s (I say 1964). He worked along side Fiona Law, Emma Harvey, and supposedly Michael Shelley. He had Gerard with Mary Keay circa 1983 and two years later gouged out his eyes in order to sever his connection the the Eye and quit his job at the archives to raise his son. However not too long after that Mary decided she had no use for Eric after Gerard was born, seeing as she could no longer bear children, and he had blinded himself, so she killed him in his sleep with a pair of garden shears and binded him to her book, thus sealing his soul to later be summoned by Gertrude after Mary gives her his page as a gift (July 3,2008). After Eric gives his statement he asks Gertrude to burn his page so he can finally be free and she obliges (July 21, 2008).
Mary Keay: mother of Gerard Keay she was obsessed with the power of the entities and eventually tried to bind herself to her book. She took loads of painkillers as to not feel any pain as she wrote on her skin, peeled it off, and hung it on hooks. She attempted to enlist the help of her son but he ran out due to fear (2008). She blames him for being unable to finish her ritual so she could be above death and torments him before she is burned by Gertrude Robinson in 2013 after Gerard came to her with his issue. Mary was born in either 1924 or 1946, but due to the nature of her and Ericās relationship in the 60s/70s and Gerardās birth in the 80s along with the fact she was stated to still be āyoungā in 1955 when she found her first āstrange bookā, 1946 is more likely. That would put her at roughly 26 or so upon meeting Eric and 37 at the birth of her son. She would have been about 62 at the time of her death in 2008.
#tma#tma podcast#the magnus archives#michael shelley#gerard keay#gertrude robinson#eric delano#mary keay#Iām fighting Mr sims in a back alley#why would be push my hand#why would be make me do this
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Good Morning, World.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#'Good Morning World' because to wwx the jiang household is what grounds him. It is his burrow and blanket.#The familiar soup and banter is his home. The familiar arguments and tension are also his home.#Notice how quickly he throws LWJ to the side once he has JC back in reach! 'He was so boring; I wish *you* were there!'#WWX is very quick to constantly remind himself that he fits within a very specific power structure and role.#He pushes boundaries but almost always only the boundaries that he knows he can push against.#Sitting here now and realizing that if WWX did take life more seriously and act more diligent he would totally usurp JC.#Because the contrast with Them (tm) is wwx is the one that gets in trouble and JC is the one that sticks to the rules.#That responsible appearance especially in contrast is the thin line that holds JC's self-esteem together.#And lets be fully honest. From JC's perspective the last week was also extremely intense and stressful.#It truly was a feat to travel so far so fast despite also being exhausted. Never knowing if it is all in vain.#JC said with his actions 'I would move mountains for you and dig through stone with my bare hands if it meant reaching you.'#and WWX said '[read]'#It's about wwx chronically asking 'why would someone care for me? I'm always tool to be used' than accepting that people love him.
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watched the 2004 punisher movie yesterday with pixie and honestly i had fun š some stuff was good some stuff was eh some completely irrelevant stuff made me mildly annoyed. but most of all it was funny and they had frank hang around with his tits out for multiple scenes so i mean how could i not have a great time tbh
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#its also the movie that has the frame that i found like. on a wiki or something? and that pushed me down the punisher rabbithole#maybe im insane but i REALLY liked how frank looked in that movie. lost. confused. profoundly sad. bare chest glistening with sweat#whats not to like honestly. i also felt incredibly bad for thinking this the entire movie because im actually going. a little insane#like lately i just feel generally bad for liking frank in that way at all. as in both romantic and sexual. just. im sorry frank really#so the entire movie id hide my face in my hands every couple of minutes going 'oh god hes so hot im so sorry hes so hot im sorry'#what the fuck is this kid doing#anyway the thing i also liked on a more serious note was that the death of maria and his son was dragged out#because it like. like it kept going. and going. and with every second we both just felt this sense of like. dread and helplessness yk#like you KNOW theyre going to die anyway. and yet you watch them struggle and. its such a specific emotion#my least favorite horror story from a book i had invoked the same emotion in me but worse#and it was called sth like 'the torture of hope' so like. thats the best description i can give#also the thing that annoyed me for no reason was joan being blonde. why is she BLONDEEEEE#SHE JUST LOOKS LIKE MARIA LIGHT THIS IS SO. STUPID#also poor third neighbour but i assume in this movie he had the same role as in the comic (none) because its the 2004 one#i liked daves vibe. seemed like the type of guy my friend karol would have us smoke weed with on her birthday#and also he was just like me fr
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The weight of the world is a heavy burden
Especially for a child
(Or, in slightly less dramatic terms ā I imagine that the first of her past lives that Avatar Suiren [who is the Avatar after Aang instead of Korra in my AU, and also Ghazan and Ming-Huaās daughter] gets to talk to is Yangchen, because she is too plagued by memories not her own [including Jetsunās death, fun fact]. And Yangchen wouldnāt want another child to go through what she did on their own)
(Or maybe someone just needed an excuse to draw @katkastrofaās latest obsession in a context that interests them as well, just in time to maybe cheer her up a little? You canāt prove anything)
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#Avatar Suiren AU#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#yangchen#original character#sotrl suiren#if youāre wondering what the context is. Suiren is around 8 or 9 here. already having revealed herself as the Avatar to her parents#and it has been Hard. because as much as they try to maintain a sense of normalcy for her. itās clear that things have changed#they never accounted for their daughter turning out to be the Avatar. they hoped Aang dying on the night she was born to be a coincidence#all of their plans now have to be rethought and put on hold because her safety is more important than anything else#she is never blamed for anything. she is still just as loved. yet thereās now a heaviness in their gazes whenever they look at her#the Avatar as a concept should not exist. it is too much power and responsibility for one being who is ultimately human#thatās what Suiren was taught. so what do those teachings mean if sheās the Avatar?#basically.. a whole lot of cognitive dissonance and she hasnāt even been alive for a decade yet#and all her life her head was filled by strange memories and dreams. fragments of lives not her own. sometimes nightmares#and usually her mama would comfort her through it but tonightā¦ she just wants to be alone#so she wanders off. not too far. but enough that she wouldnāt be heard. and just softly cries#because itās too much. because she doesnāt want to be the Avatar. why her? why not anyone else?#and as she whispers that she wishes she wasnāt the Avatar. her mind is assaulted by memories of previous Avatars saying the same thing#it really is a never ending cycle of too much burden being placed on a single person. but that realisation is anything but comforting#she begs for it to stop because that grief of life over life spent pushing a boulder uphill is just Too Much#and before she knows it. it ceases. only to be replaced by a blue glow visible even through closed eyelids#and a feather light touch of hands on her face. it doesnāt feel exactly like human hands by virtue of belonging to a spirit#that helps her relax a little. reminding her of mamaās touch. she looks at the person who appeared before her. her mind supplies the name#āAvatar Yangchen?ā. she whispers. but the woman is nowhere near as stoic and peaceful as sheās shown to be in every depiction of her#she looks.. sad. concerned. as burdened by grief as Suiren herself is. sheās not just a legendary figure from a time long gone#not yet another past life Suiren would never measure up to. sheāsā¦ human. capable of human emotion. just like Suiren is#Iām not sure how their conversation goes and have no inspiration to come up with anything. but I just wanted to draw them interacting
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tb is making takes so dumb they have me defending king jaehaerys ššš
#āviserys is sooo generous for allowing alicentās childrenās dragons! unlike jaehaerysā#maybe thatās why jaehaerys never had a civil war in his hands. maybe#maybe if viserys got out of his ass and married the targtowers to good houses there would be no dance#aegon would thrive as a lannister consort. tell them#he wonāt push his rightful claim heās too busy drinking wine in lannisport and getting more gold jewelry#helaena? chilling in the riverlands talking to the children. aemond? bickering with maris (his sil) at stormās end. daeron? heās sailing-#-with the redwynes.#see my vision
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@bad-theory say sike right now bro i always wished to be powerful enough to . influence someone's Affection Levels for a Character like that š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ
#i felt such a sunburst of glee DO YOU UNDERSTAND#bc i'll see other ppl vouch for their faves and say all these smart things and draw crazy good stuff#and eventually it wins other people over to that char's fanbase and. wow. isn't that so nice#(scoops more people into the basket of creating content for that char. just entering the cycle of feeding each other)#i didn't think i would ever help yakumo's case LOL i'm just dunking on him all day#you walk onto my blog and it's just me violently shaking his shoulders like#[WHAT ARE YOU. YOU ARE HOPELESS. I HATE YOU. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THJIS.#YOU HAVE NO ASS OR TITS. YOU'RE THW BEANPOLE-EST OF THE NOTHINGEST OF THE BL GENRE. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO STAND UP FOR YOURSELF#WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOUR YAOI HANDS. GETOUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *throws him into a lake*]#...#then again#i feel like if someone else were to start smacktalking yakumo and they said the exact same things as me#i would turn contrarian like YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. NO I DID NOT JUST SAY THE SAME THING. IT'S DIFFERENT#(it was not different.)#look i'm gonna shut up before i go on a whole nother. rant. about nothing#but thank u for your tags.... people actually liking my interpretation of a character is amazing to me#I HAVE A VERY SPECIFIC VIEWPOINT AND A VERY SPECIFIC SET OF LIKES. ALL OF WHICH I WILL PUSH AS AN AGENDA (quite conspicuously)#the tags tho
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among the boundless billions zaniness like laugh track as it definitely has that moment of expressing "rolling my eyes as The Left makes a kerfuffle of Acting like they have a stance as a veneer over the true belief that [xyz] is cool & chill actually" like what, approximate 0.000% chance wendy isn't, as usual, given the Objective Stance of "yeah yeah ohh we are cancelling involved parties talking about how we Don't watch this But. we all love this damn epic movie & already have it memorized so shut the fuck up, kids today" like. don't wanna really delve into how much billions thinks taylor or anyone is "really" trans / nonbinary like not too much benefit of the doubt in this material including what does provide info abt that specifically
& the general like [head in hands. what do you think any of this could possibly be about (you're the one that made your show at all about Power)] of "yes, it's bad/wrong to be someone that someone has done something to / victim of something" like that to be anti misogyny All Women Must Be Epic Winners b/c there's something to be proved: that they don't Deserve to be victims (of misogyny), not taken as a Given. while when we see some epic winner men stepping on other men (who need not all be guaranteed Winners so as to say misogyny is wrong), that's often Good, well beyond any assumption that various forms of basic disrespect / violation / patterns of emergent/entrenched power difference as Bad (for being things done to people, not for there being people they're being done to), & generally billions has to take an extra step when ppl get shitted on & tell us the Specific Cases when it was undeserved actually & someone was being mean to a specific person who didn't deserve that. & the specific cases when hey guess it wasn't that bad(tm) or when hey It's Okay that you're someone something was done to, in this case. & tell us what we were supposed to know all along like when someone who something was being done to (wrong Of Them, whether b/c they inherently deserve it no matter what, &/or b/c they failed to be someone who could make it Impossible to do anything to them, which, how do you do that besides being The Authority / Superior yourself, exactly? nonrhetorically? what if the in group vs out group / fascism / authoritarianism protected Me?) was actually being treated Too Well b/c ah well the abuse meant you were getting any attention, maybe it meant you were claimed as any superior's property, maybe it meant you weren't Already disposed of, as all Losers were in the end, You're Welcome.
obviously referring to winston where it's spelled out all the abuse towards him was deserved, & More than he deserved in the case of rian having more access & taking advantage of that, all for billions' enjoying its own sendoff there of, again, maximizing violation & violence short of [real violence is physical & leaves bruises / draws blood / Literally kills] which would be distasteful in general But doesn't it make wags look like the winner & winston the loser is that the former's completely unrelated completely impersonal ego blow gets way amplified taken out on winston, the most vulnerable recurring character when spyros as [first & ultimate Everyone Hates Him role] is more entrenched in there & billions still magnanimously pities tuk, as it does winston too, just not quite as much. again that like completely surface level realized power fantasy of forcing the mirror up to the Inferior so they're like nooo my inferiorityyyy & in doing so like, the projection in that lmao, we get it re: the valuing of & need(tm) for such Power Tripping & Reaffirming My Superiority & My Ego Restored; Everyone Claps like good god. & then for all ben & tuk are the slightly softer Two Too Nice Boys duo to the rian & winston quant duo, also like too nice i guess but not as much, ben is in charge of tuk but Any instance of rian being in charge of winston outstrips them in that "yay interpersonal abuse" dynamic, like then in the end billions may be like "yeah it's possible to be mean to them unlike how being mean to winston is actually Nice b/c he deserves everything he gets, we only vicariously enjoy it vs Feeling Bad for tuk & ben sometimes (still magnanimously & it's Not That Bad / just goofin)" like ben & tuk still Fail by not being people it's impossible to do anything to. & not Exceptions who anyone is really being Too Mean to. like if they were women, in which case, no problem surely with a "positive" kind of victim blaming where there is something Inherent that Will be victimized so hey how about to cancel that out there's this special Paternal Protection you Need always, Or Else? :) but instead they are men who are asian & is ben gay & w/tuk & winston nobody mentions glasses or fatness but billions doesn't really do much or very in depth textual mentioning of Anything, even w/nonzero mention that there may be gender & race in this world. a gay man, once. no disability. we just Know who are the inferiors who deserve it when they're treated inferiorly, or if they don't, they start deserving it when they fail to stop/avoid it, but if you start mentioning the factors behind who we all totally agree is inferior like whoa nobody was Saying any of that? being the real agent of oppression on the basis of the factors only You spelled out, much? nonbinary? i never say anything about the Gender Binary when i'm subscribing to it, sounds like You've created & enforced it. obfuscation & deflection onto [so Just Normal nobody has to label, explain, or argue it] couldn't serve a purpose & protect the existing power differences as they are. maybe You're the problem? perhaps you brought it upon yourself & now you're causing too much trouble standing up for yourself while everyone else's criticism is laser focused on you as the prior & continuing negative actions done to you are taken as a given / unquestioned / covertly protected to overtly encouraged?
anyway so wild if the Completely Normal(tm) Victim Blaming is uncritically recreated & oft embraced for "if you're watching this & don't wish you were axe / find him appealing" [billions as a sequence of vicarious power trips] purposes in this series....but a bit wild considering like this is your multiseason show that wasn't just purporting to be those power trips for [enough demographic & apparently specific personal tastes overlap w/creators] & was at all purporting to question the matters of power at play in the material, or yknow, at least to not be completely superficial material while said material is textually & thematically all about power difference being leveraged, how, the consequences, & so on. thus i will have to intermittently talk about it forever like this like lord unbelievable. & the funny little & sometimes less funny less little characters it has trapped in there so that those of us who were never meant to be in the audience can be cursed with this knowledge. like i have some feedback. "imagine not victim blaming" & "imagine adjusting your perspective can go beyond superficial layers added to politely defer to some other ppl while they're present but really like cmon do they deserve that. am i not just saying what we're allll thinking"
#another random night another Verbal Effusion of [forehead to hand]#winston billions#who needs actual questions about power or the consequences of getting to consider others Lessers & acting accordingly#when we can last minute be like uh wendy is god actually. take it away wendy (wait she just does whole other shit half the season)#okay Now take it away wendy i guess b/c the series is dead set on you being the Moral Center#if mostly b/c gosh everyone either loves owning you as pseudo wife or correctly recognizes & defers to your superiority#the scene i couldn't bear to sit through at the start of s7 way too long sequence of wendy Going To Work to the ''cuz im awesome'' song#i was like. lol. i was like okay that is wendy's mood / perspective then. Wrong. it was billions conveying Fact to the audience. rip#abt as great setup for ''the only other shoe that finally dropped was that of Yeah It's This Completely Surface Level'' as possible (:#prince has exactly the same attitudes & actions as wendy does? uh well you see. it's just bad when he does it#if only more wendys were in charge. if only we go ''well even if it's bad if wendy does it? or axe or whoever? Could Be Worse''#nothing to analyze in the [but at least it's not worse] dead end re: justification of Power Leveraging & minimization of its consequences#tl;dr just the victim blaming embraced everywhere & the idea that everything that Deviates from the Norm Too Ethically Mindedly#is just that veneer slapped on overtop of [haha but truly: the norm] like no but seriously we all know It's Not That Deep(tm)#even for the characters written to exercise this [my Extra Mile Ethics] trait regularly it's expressed as this Polite Addendum#to the [what's Really at play] normal. the And Enbies tacked on; that's that on that & it Is an extra veneer to the norm#prince asking if taylor's changing up their pronouns; no more Meant a red flag than him immediately shitting on winston i'm sure#yet yknow why tf suppose taylor more than anyone else would Change Pronouns. taylor who the series also only ever shows as being#misgendered As A Woman. whose drag / cisguise As A Woman is not treated in the same way a man's would be / is#whose emotive / expressive affect isn't either. billions like [the genders are m/f] to [perhaps also amab/afab] Tacked On#as something politely Extra you do to their face that doesn't actually change (threaten) your idea of what's just Normal & True#like it's normal & true that ugh god don't you hate the autistic people around you? don't you wish you could go sicko mode on them#so that they couldn't be around you anymore & they'd have brought it upon themself & really it was good of you b/c The Group Cohesion#thanks you & b/c you just gave them free ABA? yes yep Surely Unquestionably#problem isn't abuse & concomitant violation in & of itself. it's Bad to be someone that's done to. we will announce Exceptions#rest of you either you brought it upon yourself or you failed to Correct that you're not someone who inherently deserves it#that is: someone who just can & will Stop It if done to them. well so you see winston pushing back is ignored or treated to further#backlash & then he withdraws (expression of his experience / creation of a consequence which tells the other Stop Doing This)#&/or otherwise conveys displeasure / being hurt (same as before. ''uh well push back / express xyz'' ppl did & were steamrolled/ignored)
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Okay no idea if tattoo's were a thing in ancient greece but regardless imagine penelope and odysseus having an olive branch tattoo around their hands that connects when they hold hands.
#epic the musical#The odyssey#It works for both so I'm tagging both#Odysseus#Penelope#Odypen#odysseus x penelope#Tattoos#hand tattoo#Olive tree symbolism reaching every part of their lives#Literally anybody in their lives: you know that just because you met under an olive tree#Doesn't mean you need to make it your whole personality#Odypen: no I'm going to#Literally .5 seconds of googling says tattoos were for criminals#So probably not but it's my fandom space so š¤·#Half of me wants to be like oh nvm they were actually good rulers so they probably didn't want pretty visible tattoos like that#The other half of me thinks they would want it even more due to the crime#Okay okay nope I've fleshed out this headcanon as I've rambled in the tags so#They talked about getting a interlinked matching hand tattoo before but always decided it would be worth the push back#UNTIL#odysseus has to leave for troy. And then they sat down and tattooed the interlinking olive branches onto each other#(And they took the complicated route and made it so the olive branches always line up no matter what way they hold hands)#Odysseus shows up to the war meeting with fresh tattoos marking him a criminal and his wife's dresses#This is half of why Athena had to spend half the odyssey changing odysseus's appearances was to hide the tattoos#*the dress thing came from another one of my posts#Do I think odysseus would have crossed dressed....maybe in private probably not before the whole 20 years odyssey thing#But post-canon? Absolutely
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there is no way the ikevamp guys are being such assholes in jean's route i must be dreaming
#auburn talks ikevamp <3#like idk dont take it from me but first sebastian lies to her about there being vampires#then they lie to her AGAIN saying the mansion is on fire just so they can get her out of her room#jean fucking BIT HER and comte did NOTHING to ensure her safety#MOZART gives her sass and then shoves her so hard into jean's room that she lands on her hands and knees#and then pulls out the āi wont let my friend be so misunderstood.ā LIKE HE DIDNT FUCKING BITE HER#let me tell you if i played jean first i would have hated EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this FUCKING MANSION aside from isaac#comte. get me a new residence immediately please. i do not want to live with you and your ASSHOLE SONS#why are they treating the absolute WORST in jean's route is what i want to understand. like you are quite literally pushing her-#-around as you lie to her. she is nothing but a punching bag for you.#AND MAY I REMIND YOU she is a WOMAN in a mansion full of MEN.#and there is not even a SHRED of sympathy for her situation from these fucking idiots.#jean's route is just. ugh. it's not vibing with me. i hate it so far. stop treating this poor girl like she's nothing but garbage-#-under your shoe. have some human compassion you absolute barbarians. im disappointed in all of you.
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Sorry, not watching any more American media until we can get a hero who parries a tiger attack by launching the animal at someone else.
#why did no one tell me RRR 2022 is so batshit incredible. Iām having such a good time#the balls of this movies choreography and art direction. how can they fly through the air when theyāre so MASSIVE hello????#Iām only halfway through too. the film that keeps on giving.#also. I am just weak in the knees for a goofy die eyed hero who becomes a stone cold fighter when pushed to far. I am basic yes.#*doe lol#these two leads. theyād better hold hands and walk off into the sunset at the end.#also also suddenly missing my old daycare coworkers. I rmeber that was the first time I encountered the Indian head waggle.#which lead to confusion at first since in America thatās a āmaybe/kinda/sortaā gesture#I would ask them to do things and theyād waggle their heads and I would think that meant nah but they were saying yes and weād both end up#doing the direction since I thought they wouldnāt and theyād be confused why Iād ask them to do it if I was just going to go ahead and do#it myself
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Hi ive been trying to find the post you mentioned saying February 18th - 24th is supposed to be a march week, do you have a link by any chance (my search engine is failing me)
i do, yes! it was posted on Bisan's instagram 3 days ago (as of Feb 18 2024, when i answered this)
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#palestine#i want to clarify i'm all for strikes for palestine and im not against this one i just have doubts that it's actually going to do very much#there was the whole world pushing bisan's is why that one worked the way it did#it's my genuine belief that you could do more good by attending a march like she's asking. add visible numbers to the streets#rather than just empty booths in businesses#striking only works for so long. when government doesnt listen either way we need to actually be hands on#edit: i thought the date & caption would be worthwhile to add
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siiiiiiigh
#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here#my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another#she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something#upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this#and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it#today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i#had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything#and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin#myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission#and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless#i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down#even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me#but i also fucking hate it#maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily#i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already#and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there#i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me#i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao#people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something#nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why š#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me#i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics#i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it#one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly#all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't#have to go back#sealene.txt
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hey so yk how in itsv Gwen pleaded with her dad to not shoot/arrest her. Yk how she said he was the last person she had left and he told her to you have the right to remain silent. Yk how MK and Wukong will most likely fight. Yk how Wukong might have to choose MK or the worš„š„š„š„š„š„š„
Ah, who doesn't love a classic "one person vs the world" type trolley problem. Me when MK is one of the only people Wukong has left, and Wukong loves MK so much, yet he might be forced to make an impossible decisio-
#Like I can not believe this is the direction the show's going it's literally so awesome#Everything I could have wanted and more tbh#like whatever way they do it it'll be so good#honestly though let's be real SWK is NOT choosing the world lol. Not when it comes to MK (probably)#I love how we're really gonna push the ''leaving the world better than you found it'' philosophy to it's limits in s5#Like do it Wukong do it pull the trigger against MK do it we know you won't. do it doom the world#And then Macaque being there while that sort of choice is made by SWK of all people. CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE#''Every choice has consequencesāfor someone.''#HAHA YEAH IT DOES#WE WILL LITERALLY HAVE IT ALL.#lmk#lego monkie kid#SWK V MK#asks#lmk SWK#maybe I sound a little too confident but otherwise it's like. Why bring in exchange as a theme at all you know. Why do it#Why bring up ''I get it! I would do anything for my friendsābut at the cost of the world?'' like why do that#Like the main gang is gonna have to make a ''their loved one'' vs the world type choice.#rubbing my little hands together. laughing mischievously
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This is causing me more mental distress than Faut being in relationships with other people. And this is because this is my own shortcoming. Like I have the capability. Yet I don't fucking get it! This is unfortunately making me really fucking depressed rn.
#i hate that someone else understands you more than me. i dont hate them. i hste myself for what i cannot achieve.#what kind of lover would i be if i didn't understand your whole being#i know this is of the past you wish to push away. but darling. if i cannot accurately dissect you then i should not be allowed to#have your angelic body in my hands. if i can't understand every bit then.#then what am i?#you are a core part of me. and if i dont understand you. then I'll feel even emptier than i usually am.#please#please. please.#i plead. i dont know who I'm praying to. neither do you.#our cries will go unnoticed. ahah. well no. they will understand yours. i wont. i wont. i wont. i wont. i cant.#why cant i? the cries are such a beautiful sound you make. but i can't discern any melody.#i. i don't deserve to be. to be? to exist?#i dont know.#help me. doctor.#but you cant.#im sorry.#girl what you on??#silly doctor man
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many many many thoughts about shadowbringers and lightwardens and sin-eaters. a little thing i've been working on while i go through the expansion..........
#my doodles#c: nai naalfa#we just lost y'shtola and now thanks to a certain bringer of chaos have her back again.#anyway. i will finish this probably this week and then i already have an idea for a next doodle.#it's not as....... er dramatic or complicated as this. but fuck man shadowbringers really inspires me.#i have so many ideas!!!!!#danwtrail is going to make me draw hours after hours waiting for queue to pop#anyway anyway!!! this is a doodle/work inspired by y'shtola not recognizing us when we meet her again.#i can see where the game is going with this. 3 more lightwardens to defeat and already our friend says we're full of Light..........#may explain why emet-selch is content just watching it unfold. but on the other hand why would he help us get shtola back?#pushing us to our doom probably???? idk i can't read the fucking dude.#he was making the weirdest faces again when discussing shtola. he looked almost sheepish????#it reminds me of the expression dogs make when they look at you sideways LKFLDSJFMLDSKJFDF#anyway wtf i'm yapping about Him'(tm) in a work not even related to him. please sen#send help#oh another thing forcing myself to learn how to draw hands by only drawing pieces where i'm forced to draw hands. is it working? idk
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got COCKBLOCKED in my own HOUSE (both literally and figuratively š¤)
#f.txt#the house is my dreams. but the dream was in my house#ANYWAYS I HAD A DREAM. WHERE I WAS GONNA FUCK ANAKIN. BUT I DIDN'T BC DGSKDHSJHD#MY MOM CAME INTO THE ROOM ššš#so it started with anakin and me in a room. anakin was on a desk with his back to me working on some stuff on a computer#he was wearing s shiny tight leather jacket and jeans. and FUCK did he look delicious. just incredible#so i go to him and i like lift up his jacket from behind and start grabbing his waist.#and then i grab his crotch and start rubbing it (he had a tiny dick <3) (AND I STILL REMEMBER THE FEELING OF IT šššš)#at first he doesnāt want to and he kinda resists. but we all know im into that shit.#but then actually he does get into it and wants to. so i take him and push him into the bed#OK DGDJHF actually there was someone else who wanted to fuck him too in the room with us#idk who it was and for some reason all i remember is that it was spiderman (but i go like BITHC IM gonna fuck him)#(actually i think we agreed to both do it or smth idk) so then there's like some dick grabbing action going on#and then. my mom comes in.#and I'm like. girl. why. why would u do this to me. how could u fucking do this to me. do u not see me having THE moment of my life.#so she uhh sees us. and she's like uhhhh. and we make like if we weren't doing anything ahaaa whaat nothing weird going on here.#so in a desperate attempt to continue i grab anakin's hand and take him to the other room. where apparently there's my brother.#and i want to cry. bc CANT A GIRL HAVE HER PRIVACY PLS (like i get it irl but NOT EVEN IN NY DREAMS šš)#anyways so instead we just like. lay in bed. im between his legs bc no one's gonna fucking get me out of ther now lmao#and we start playing clapping games. bc what else are we supposed to do. and my mom COMES IN HERE too#to u know check up on what we're doing. and the position is uhh not innocent but we're like hey we're just playing.#so she leaves. and then we get up and run in circles lmao.#but anyways yeah that was the end of the anakin fucking ššš#then it was hours of me having to listen to my mom and aunt talking about life hardships or smth#OH BUT THE END. i had another lil dream about exo/specifically kai. SPECIFICALLY about his thighs.#like there was a comeback or smth but his thighs were incredible. and then there's like a dance scene but he's mini tiny shorts#and when he moves u can See Things š³š#anyway that is the story. no anakin fucking for me šššššš#i feel like this dream is so. representation of my Life. like yeah. this is literally my life.
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