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Everywhere, Everything: Chapter Four
Chapter Summary: Azriel meets Elainâs new boyfriend at Nyxâs birthday party. Graysen has some questions about Elainâs âfriend.â
Word Count: 4.4K
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A/N: chapter four already!! Thank you to everyone thatâs read this fic and commented or interacted in anyway! Iâve had the loveliest messages come through and itâs been such a joy to chat with you guys about this. Iâm a little extra nervous to post this chapter, please keep in mind that this is a bit of a slow burn and we must suffer a little before we get our reward. Alternate title is âGraysen Slander (Azrielâs version)â
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Flying back home to Velaris had caused Elain a level of anxiety that had previously been unknown to her.
There used to be a time where she enjoyed seeing her city from the birds-eye-view of an airplane window. She loved to look down and admire the twinkling lights on either side of the sprawling river that split her hometown in half. She liked to scan the buildings as they came into view and point out each place that held a space of her heart because of the special memories attached.
There was her elementary school, the movie theater parking lot where she had her first kiss, and her favourite library. There was the ice-cream shop located a few blocks from their childhood home that she and her sisters would sneak out to at all hours of the night for their cookie dough fix, not bothering to change out of their robes and slippers. Sheâd look out for the small park where she and Nesta spent their Saturdayâs sprawled in the grass, reading books and gossiping. Her heart ached as she spotted the rose and sculpture garden she and Azriel liked to stroll through early on Sunday mornings, hot cups of coffee warming their hands as they walked and talked, Azriel leaning in close to tell Elain that the roses there had nothing on the ones that she grew in her garden.
She hadnât bothered to point any of those places out to Graysen as their flight had made its descent. Hadn't really felt the need or desire to share those parts of herself with him. Sheâd just sat quietly, staring straight at her own reflection in the little screen in front of her as she took deep breaths to try and ease the rapid beating of her heart.
Her anxiety had calmed a little once theyâd landed and disembarked, emerging from their gate to Nyxâs loud squeal of her name which brought her back to reality just in time for her to drop her bags and catch his tiny body as he ran towards her at full speed and flung himself into her outstretched arms.Â
âHi, baby!â Sheâd hugged him tight, overwhelmed by just how much sheâd missed him.
âHi, Lain!â Nyx giggled, his little face tucked tight against her neck.
She hadnât questioned the nickname, one her nephew had never called her before, because she had been too distracted breathing in the scent of his hair - the scent of the same watermelon shampoo that her mother had used during bath time when she and her sisters were kids. It was comforting and familiar and exactly what she needed to push past the worry that had rendered her useless for the past few hours..Â
The initial introductions had gone as well as she couldâve hoped.
Graysen had defaulted back to the easy charm that heâd used back in the day to talk Elain into a drink and it seemed to work on Feyre and Rhys well enough that the drive back to their house and the late dinner that followed were easy and painless. The only hiccup was that Nyx refused to even greet Graysen and had thrown him the most menacing looks he could muster up each time Graysen so much as attempted to hold Elainâs hand.Â
âHeâs jealous,â Feyre had laughed nervously, embarrassed by her sonâs behavior after heâd insisted on sitting next to Elain at dinner. âHeâs always been a little territorial when it comes to her and since he hasnât seen her in a few monthsâŠâÂ
Graysen had laughed it off but Elain had caught the annoyance in his demeanor at the idea of having to share her. Even if the person he was sharing her with was just her soon-to-be five year old nephew.Â
Elainâs anxiety returned in full force the next afternoon when guests began to arrive for Nyxâs party. No amount of rearranging balloons or organising the treat station could keep her attention off the front door each and every time it opened. It was only a matter of time before he showed up and the wait was torture. In the years sheâd known Azriel, heâd never once missed an important event when it came to his friends and there was no way heâd start now.Â
âSoâŠâ Nesta appeared next to her suddenly, head cocked to the side as she leant against the table and watched in amusement as Elain straightened the goodie bags for the seventh or eighth time that hour. âGraysen seems nice.âÂ
âYeah,â Elain nodded, not bothering to look up from the little cellophane bags full of treats that sheâd been busying herself with for the last ten minutes. She didnât need to look at Nesta to know her true feelings. She could hear it in her voice. âHeâs great.âÂ
âHeâs very⊠passionate.â Her sister studied her nails as she fought to hold back the teasing smile that played on her lips. âAbout work. And golf. And work. And his car⊠Did I mention his work? Because he certainly did.âÂ
âOkay, okay.â Elain groaned, casting a fleeting glance across the room where Graysen was still chatting to Rhysand.Â
She sent a thank you to the universe that Feyre had married a man that had the talent and patience to talk to absolutely anyone. She couldnât say the same for Cassian, who had quickly maneuvered out of that conversation and over to the backyard to terrorize the kids, instead.Â
âHe just loves his job,â Elain shrugged, finally turning to face her sister.Â
Nesta raised a perfectly manicured brow, fixing Elain with a pointed look. âYou mean he loves money.âÂ
There was a reason Elain had never introduced a boy to her family and the reason was standing directly in front of her, all perfectly coiffed hair and dangerous eyes. Feyre could find a way to see the good in anyone and the boys would say they were okay with whoever Elain dated as long as she was happy. But Nesta - Nesta had always had a knack for seeing straight through any of Elainâs lies and sheâd never been afraid to call her out when necessary. It was a quality Elain had come to appreciate from time to time but she didnât appreciate it today.
âI mean⊠he does work in finance.âÂ
âElain.â Another pointed look was thrown in her direction.
âNesta.âÂ
âHe looks like he pays more for a haircut than I do.âÂ
âNesta!â Elain hit her sister on the arm, unable to stifle the laugh that bubbled to the surface. She knew exactly how much Graysen paid for his hair cuts and Nesta was right. âHeâs nice.â
âYou know whoâs nicer...â Nesta said it under her breath but Elain heard her loud and clear.Â
âStop,â Elain lowered her voice. âPlease. You promised.â
âI promised I wouldnât tell the boys and I havenât,â she replied without missing a beat. âI never promised we wouldnât talk about it at all.âÂ
âNesta, please. I canât talk about this now.â
What Elain really wanted to say was that she couldnât talk about this ever, but she knew that would only result in more back and forth and right now all she wanted was for this conversation to be over.
âHeâs miserable, El.â Nesta lowered her voice to match Elainâs. âHeâs very good at acting like heâs fine but heâs not. You just left and I know youâve cut him off completely since and -â
âI havenât spoken to anyone, really. Itâs not like Iâve only stopped talking to hi-â Elain abruptly stopped speaking, standing up straight and plastering a smile on her face just as she spotted Graysen beginning to make his way towards them.
He didnât have a chance to say anything, had only just managed to sling an arm around Elainâs waist when the front door swung open and Shadow came flying through. She was nothing but a black blur, ducking and dodging around furniture as she ran straight through to the kitchen. She paused in front of Rhys for a quick hello before she made a beeline towards where Elain stood with Nesta and Graysen by the dining room table.Â
Her long tail wagged furiously, whipping against the wooden leg of the table. Shadow was seemingly unbothered, too busy flailing around happily between Nestaâs legs before she finally came to a stop in front of Elain. Her long snout nuzzled into Elainâs open palm and her lean body leant heavily against her thighs.
Much like Nyx, Shadow paid Graysen little to no attention other than to sniff in his direction just once which Elain thought quite strange given that Shadow loved meeting new people and sheâd famously always favored the company of men.Â
âHi, Shadow girl!â Elain cooed, crouching down to properly greet the dog that had come to feel like her own over the years. Sheâd gone with Azriel the day heâd picked her up and brought her home, had even helped name her. âLook how gray youâve gotten!â
âSheâll be nine next week.â
The timber of his voice hit her at the exact same time as the familiar scent of his cedar cologne and Elain was suddenly grateful that she was already on the ground because if sheâd been standing, she was sure her knees wouldâve given out completely.
Elain swallowed her nerves, raising her eyes from Shadowâs sweet salt and pepper face to look up at Azriel only to find that every bit of his attention was focused solely on her.
âHi, Lain.â
There were a couple beats of silence before Elain got a hold of herself and stood up. She stepped forward and before she could stop herself, she raised onto the very tips of her toes and wound her arms around his neck. Azrielâs arms wrapped around her waist in turn, tentatively at first before she felt his fingers flex against the middle of her back as he relaxed, readjusting his grip to pull her tight against his chest as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Probably because it had been at one point in time.
âHi, Az.â She whispered into his neck, breathing in the divine scent of him. The scent of home.
âHey, Azriel!â Nesta said loudly from behind them, effectively breaking the trance that Elain had unwittingly found herself in.Â
She let go of Azriel quickly and took a large step back, bumping into the dining table, as Nesta took her place in his arms.Â
She was only just aware of Graysen staring at her in her peripheral, his hand once again heavy against her hip.
âWere you planning on introducing me?â He asked her as Azriel and Nesta separated and Azriel turned to face them again. Elain hadnât noticed that sheâd been staring dumbly straight ahead - directly at Azrielâs chest.Â
He was wearing an oatmeal coloured fishermanâs sweater that sheâd told him she loved on him more than a few times and a small, stupid part of her wondered if she crossed his mind when he slipped it on this morning.
âOh, yes!â She shook her head, laughing nervously. âUm, Az⊠this is Graysen, my uhâŠâ
âBoyfriend.â Graysen finished the sentence for her, extending his hand towards Azriel. âAnd you areâŠâ
âThis is Azriel. MyâŠ. Azriel.â Elain stuttered as she watched the two men shake hands.
She allowed herself the tiniest shake of her head to ease the frustration she felt towards herself. She sounded like an absolute idiot.
âI think Iâve missed something,â Graysen looked between Elain and Azriel, eyebrows lifting slightly. âHow do you know each other?
âWeâre good friends.â Azriel answered at the same time Elain said âHeâs Rhysâ best friend.â
Jesus. Fucking. Christ.Â
She couldnât possibly have handled that any worse.
âSo youâre Rhysâ friend or Elainâs friend?â Graysen asked, the slightest hint of a frown forming on his lips.Â
Any hope that Elain had of him dropping this topic evaporated in front of her eyes.
âWeâre all friends. We met through Rhys when he started dating Feyre and we all spent basically all our time together.â She answered quickly, briefly meeting Azrielâs eyes.
Another mistake.Â
All she saw was hurt. No one else wouldâve noticed because the emotion was there and gone in a flash but Elain saw past the mask. She saw the hurt sheâd caused him. Hurt at being reduced to a friend of a friend, as if he wasnât so much more to her. As if they hadnât spent years of their lives seeing each other almost every day. Trading secrets. Letting each other see parts of themselves theyâd never allowed anyone else to see.
âItâs nice to meet you,â Azriel smiled politely, redirecting his attention to Graysen. âIâm gonna go find the birthday boy but Iâll talk to you guys later, Iâm sure.â
He didnât look at her again before he walked away, Shadow obediently following right behind him. Even Nesta quickly excused herself so she didnât have to be around to witness the uncomfortable tension that had settled heavily between Elain and Graysen..
She had absolutely no idea what had come over her. She thought sheâd been somewhat prepared to see him again but nothing couldâve prepared her for the reality of him standing in front of her. Smiling at her. The feel of his arms around her - strong and sure and familiar. Nothing could have prepared her for seeing him walk away from her, disappointment lingering behind his eyes. Sheâd done that to him and she hated herself for it.
She silently cursed herself for ever thinking that bringing Graysen back here would be a good idea. Mere minutes had passed and sheâd already fucked up. She had no idea how the hell she was supposed to make it through this day, let alone survive an entire weekend of this.
âWhat the hell was that?â Graysen muttered as Elain turned in his arms, once again plastering on a smile in a last ditch effort to rectify the mess sheâd just made of that introduction.
âNothing,â She shook her head, leaning in to kiss his cheek. âThat was nothing.â
âŠÂ
When Azriel walked into Rhys and Feyreâs house earlier and caught a glimpse of Elain for the first time in four months, she was wearing another one of those dresses that threatened to send him to his knees.Â
He loved each and every one of her dresses but the one she wore today was a pale blue with delicate straps that tied at her shoulders and draped elegantly over her frame in a way that just about teased at each dip and curve concealed by the lightweight, silky material. It was perfectly demure for a childrenâs birthday party but something about that dress on her was downright sinful.Â
Maybe if the circumstances were different, heâd be able to steal a glance every now and then and attempt to carry on with his life, but the circumstances were not different and Azriel was cursed to get through this afternoon looking at Elain in that dress with some other guyâs arm around her waist.Â
He hadnât been able to get her out of his head. Even if he had no right to think of her in that way. Not when sheâd made it abundantly clear not once but twice now, that she didnât want him like that. Still, he couldnât help that the memory of her kneeling on his bed and tracing a path across his hips with that pretty mouth of hers came rushing back to the forefront of his mind in the ten or so seconds that sheâd been on her knees in front of him, patting his dog and looking up at him with those big, brown eyes.Â
Any satisfaction that heâd gotten from that memory or simply from seeing her and having her in his arms again, disappeared the second she stepped back and heâd been introduced to her boyfriend.
He knew there was something off with the way they interacted within the first few minutes of watching them together that afternoon. Azriel knew that the smiles she gave him werenât genuine because they never quite reached her eyes. Elain evaded Graysenâs touch, swiveling out of his grasp each and every time he went to put his hand on her hip, ducking her head so the kiss he intended to give her landed on her forehead instead of her lips.Â
He wondered how no one else seemed to notice it when he could see it so clearly. He was in tune with her every emotion, knew her better than he knew the back of his own hand. Heâd had time to hone that skill and right now, the piece of his brain that was dedicated solely to her was screaming that something wasnât right.Â
Azriel hated the way she acted around him. Hated the way Graysen acted towards her. Actually, Azriel just outright despised Graysen.
Heâd come into this day wanting the best. He genuinely wanted to see Elain happy even if the notion of her being with anyone else made his chest constrict in a way that couldnât possibly be healthy. But he knew she wasnât happy and one handshake was all it took for Azriel to know exactly what kind of guy Graysen was.
His grip had been firm but his hands bore no evidence of ever doing anything more difficult than swinging a heavy golf club. Graysen had a smile befitting of a politicianâs son - charming but edged with insincerity, like heâd do or say whatever was necessary to get what he wanted. He carried himself with the ease of someone that had had things handed to him on a silver platter for his whole life and there was a certain arrogance to him that had Azriel wondering what Elain could possibly see in him. He knew her well enough to know that it wouldnât have been the expensive clothing or the twenty thousand dollar watch on his wrist that had piqued her interest just like he knew that the glittering diamond tennis bracelet circling her wrist was for Graysenâs benefit and not hers.
Heâd endeavored to try and find out if the guy had any redeeming qualities at all to help Azriel come to terms with them being together but heâd been stopped every time heâd tried to approach Graysen.
Azriel almost found it amusing the way Elain had been running what could be considered award winning interference between himself and her boyfriend all day, somehow managing to keep them well away from each other in and amongst entertaining her nephew and his flock of tiny friends. But now that all Nyxâs friends and their parents had gone home and the sun was beginning to set, there was very little Elain could do to keep them from speaking.Â
Graysen had started the conversation as they sat on the couch next to each other, just behind where Elain was sitting on the floor helping Nyx unwrap the copious amounts of presents heâd received today. Graysen asked Azriel about how he had met Rhys and Azriel explained that theyâd met when they were kids and Rhysâ family had all but adopted him as one of their own. The topic had turned to Velaris and Azriel had sat through mind-numbing comments about how the river looked nicer in pictures, how things closed too early, and how there was no real potential for growth.Â
Heâd just nodded and shrugged wherever he thought appropriate and heâd failed to get more than a sentence in but then Cassian had asked if Azriel was still planning on staying at their place after dinner with everyone the next night and when Azriel had answered that he would as long as he managed to finish the ring heâd been working on, Graysen had suddenly had a lot of questions.Â
âSo you set up a little stall at what? ⊠Weekend farmers markets? Sell jewelry to old ladies and teenage girls?â Graysen asked after Azriel patiently explained exactly why he was making jewelry. âAnd you make money from that?â
Azriel noticed the way Elain stiffened at the condescending tone of Graysenâs voice. The snide way he laughed as he reduced Azrielâs work to the equivalent of a childrenâs roadside lemonade stand. She set down the toy sheâd been unboxing for Nyx and swiveled around to face them.
âHeâs not making jewelry with dollar store plastic beads, Gray.â It was maybe the most fed up Azriel had ever heard her sound. Heâd always known her to stay quiet and avoid confrontation. He didnât even need one hand to count all the times heâd seen her snap and each of those times had been at Feyre or Nesta so he didnât really count them. âItâs his business and heâs done really well.â
âItâs fine, Lain.â Azriel said softly, his heart swelling in his chest at the way she defended him even if he was unbothered by Graysenâs comments. It was nothing he hadnât heard before from his own father or brothers. He continued to speak, confidently taking Graysenâs questions in stride in a way that Elain hadnât quite been able to.âI actually work in data security but I make jewelry in my spare time and sell custom pieces online. Although, I did have some pretty successful mornings at farmerâs markets when I was just starting out and -â
âI thought you didnât like being called that.â Graysen interrupted him, calculating eyes shifting from Azriel to Elain.
âWhat?â Elain asked, eyebrows furrowed in a way that Azriel wouldâve found endearing in any other circumstance.
âHe calls you âLain.ââ Graysen replied. âYou told me you hated when I called you that.â
âI just prefer âEl,ââ She shrugged, picking at the sleeve of the cream cardigan sheâd thrown on over her dress. âAnd he isnât the only one. Nyx has called me that all day today, as well.âÂ
Azriel stayed silent. He knew exactly where Nyx had picked that nickname up from but he wasnât about to expose himself for cornering his friendâs kid into multiple conversations with the secret agenda of trying to siphon information about what Nyxâs Auntie was up to these days.Â
Graysen huffed, crossing his arms like an overgrown child as he sat back. Heâd dropped his line of inquisition for now but Azriel had a feeling that wasnât the last Elain would hear of this topic and the thought made him sick.
Heâd been carefully watching all afternoon - noticing the way Graysen spoke about Elain and the possessive way he touched her as if she was something to have or to own. It had turned his stomach, memories of the way heâd seen his father treat his mother seeping into his mind despite his best efforts to keep them at bay.
Azriel paid extra attention to him now, picking up the way Graysen acted towards Elain as he continued to answer questions about his jewelry. He cringed at the scowl that found a home on Graysenâs lips each time her attention was pulled away from him and the way that scowl only deepened at each passing remark that hinted that maybe Azriel and Elain had, in fact, been closer than what she mightâve alluded to earlier.Â
He wasnât sure exactly what sheâd told Graysen about him. He had a feeling she hadnât told him much at all. But he saw the wheels turning in Graysenâs head when Azrielâs craft came up again and Azriel explained exactly what type of jewelry he made and Graysenâs eyes had drifted to the chain that had faithfully stayed clasped around Elainâs neck year after year.Â
His suspicions were confirmed an hour or so later when Azriel rounded a corner, making his way towards the powder room at the foot of the stairs only to stop halfway there when he was distracted by a pair of low voices coming from Rhysandâs office across the hallway.Â
It was just a simple hushed whisper but his ears perked up at the voice heâd come to find grating over this very long, very tortuous day.Â
He could hear his motherâs voice in his head telling him that it wasnât polite to eavesdrop, that nothing good every came from it, but he couldnât help himself as he stood there - still as night, locking in on the hushed conversation and blocking out the raucous laughter coming from the kitchen.Â
âYou know what I find most interesting about all of this?â Azriel heard Graysen ask. âIn four months, Iâve heard about your sisters and their husbands but you havenât even mentioned his name once.â
âHeâs just a friend,â Elain answered quietly. âI swear.â
âRight,â Graysen scoffed. âAnd I suppose heâs the friend that gave you that necklace?â
Azriel swallowed, his eyes pinching closed at the animosity - the clear jealousy - that laced Graysenâs question. He could hear the malice in the way he spat out the word âfriendâ. He could only imagine the way heâd be glaring at the little gold oval that Azriel knew Elain would be clutching in between her thumb and index finger.
Graysen had asked her about the necklace, that thin gold chain Azriel had gifted her all those years ago that sat faithfully around her neck every day since. It was his only sign, as delusional as it mightâve made him, that she still thought of him. After everything that had happened the year prior, Elain still wore that small, handmade pendant and even if they didnât speak, even if his messages had gone unanswered⊠Maybe her continuing to wear that necklace meant that she didnât completely despise him.Â
Azriel kept moving, not allowing himself to so much as breathe until he was safely behind the closed door of the powder room. He had wanted to keep listening but he knew he shouldnât. He didnât think he could stand to hear her answers to Graysenâs questions. Didnât want to know if sheâd attempt to explain to Graysen whatever this thing was between them or if sheâd continue to insist that he was nothing more than a friend.Â
But Azriel wanted an answer. He deserved an answer. He just didnât want to get it by eavesdropping on a conversation he wasnât a part of. He needed to hear it directly from her. He needed to talk to her.
#elriel fic#everywhere everything#my writing#elain x azriel#elain archeron#elriel#modern au#acotar fanfiction#elriel fanfiction#elriel fanfic#posting this and going tf to bed bc im NERVOUS#why is posting updates the scariest thing in the world
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time after time [6]
series summary: After what starts out as a fairly normal mission, you find yourself stuck in a time loop. Which would already be bad enough in itself if it didnât also mean having to watch Bucky die over and over again.
pairing: bucky barnes x f!reader
word count: 12.8k
chapter warnings: maybe reacquaint yourselves with the story premise, it's been a hot minute; characters refusing to be honest with themselves and each other; violence against side characters, minor injury descriptions; strange is still annoying
a/n: this is quite possibly the scariest fic update i've ever made. a lot has happened since the last chapter was posted, and i won't bore you with all of it. suffice it to say, i missed sharing this story. thank you for being patient with me.
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six: butterfly effect
Working with Sam and Bucky was different than working with Natasha and Steve had been.
At the Compound, it had felt terrifyingly easy to find your place, to slip into the new role they granted you as if you were always meant to fill it. Youâd felt that way before, and it hadnât turned out quite so well. Maybe that was why you used to dread the end.
Now, however, for the first time in a while, you constantly had to prove yourself in order to not be left back in that dark place theyâd found you in, alone and trying to make sense of any of it. And you liked that. The challenge was something you could live with, something you could enjoy more than the ever chilling anxiousness that things were simply too good to be true.
So when Sam called you on for a follow-up mission shortly after the first one, you jumped at the chance.
It didnât matter that you barely talked about anything but work, even when you were hanging out in your spare time; in fact, you much preferred that to digging up the past. You even learned to find a wicked sort of enjoyment in provoking Buckyâs initial dislike of you to the point of where he would barely speak to you at all unless it was to snap at you.
You werenât sure what you wanted him to do, but it was fun to watch the time bomb tick.
It wasnât as easy to get under the new capâs skin.
"Youâre making us sound like weâre partners in a law firm," Sam said, a smile clearly audible in his voice even though his eyes didnât betray it. Bucky didnât even dignify you with a clench of his jaw.
"What?" you said, crossing your legs. "Every newspaper in the city calls you 'Wilson and Barnes'. Donât you ever read the articles about yourselves?"
"Unlike some people, I donât have all the time in the world," Sam said, leaning back on the couch with his eyes closed.
"Pity. The Bulletin called you the 'nationâs new dynamic duo' last week." You looked at Bucky, your eyebrows raised in amusement. "Youâve officially been downgraded to a sidekick, Barnes."
He answered with an empty glare of his own. "And what does that make you?" he said, but not like a question.
"Nothing at all," you still grinned. "Everything is right in the universe."
The reporters had yet to pick up on your addition to the team, which was proof enough that your powers still sufficed to fly under the radar. Combined with the fact that you were actually regularly talking to people againâand people who werenât your therapist or your customers no lessâ, things almost felt like they were settling into a new kind of normal. Still somewhat weird, and still a struggle each day, but somewhat hopeful, nevertheless.
Youâd almost forgotten what that could feel like.
âRight. Youâd prefer people not knowing about your creepy powers.â
"Aww." You tilted your head to the side happily. "You think Iâm creepy."
Bucky scoffed into his mug, refusing to look at you like he always did, and then he strolled off again.
In truth, you couldnât blame him all that much. Youâd lived with your powers all your life and still found them unsettling sometimes, particularly when they got away from you and left you trapped in a universe that refused to move.
That was none of his business, though.
Besides, Bucky had taken to moving around so quietly you could never tell he was there until heâd cough and youâd flinch, usually dropping whatever you were holding in your hands. Youâd already cracked your phone screen twice.
Not that heâd know, or care if he did. It gave you great satisfaction to erase his amused smirk from existence.
"Give it time," Sam said without moving. "He doesnât like new people."
"Neither do I," you murmured, and he snorted. "What?"
"Pretend with me all you want, but maybe do a bit of introspection there."
You crossed your arms with a pout. "You sound like my therapist."
"Mhm," Sam hummed, opening one eye to look at you. "You owe me fifty bucks for that."
"Fuck you."
"Oh, would you look at that, the price just went up."
He chuckled as you flipped him off and went to look for the coffee pot.
Of course, your way got blocked. The downsides of not hating having people around.
Bucky was leaning against the counter, considering you. "You go to therapy?"
"You should try it some time," you said distractedly, reaching around him to get your favorite mug. Bucky recoiled like he was afraid youâd burn him. You shook your head in annoyance. "Helps with the stink eye."
"Is that what they told you?"
"They told me I needed to process my grief, but I decided to focus on some more achievable goals." You took a sip of your coffee, sighing in comfort. "We came up with a compromise."
Bucky scoffed, pushing his hands into the pockets of his jacket. He still hadnât taken his gloves off around you.
"Sounds like a way to drag it out," he said.
You frowned into your cup. "Itâs not a race, Barnes. Thereâs no finish line for this shit."
Something odd went over his face, but he went back to avoiding your gaze when you tried to make it out. You knew him well enough by then to get the hint, and so you left him alone.
What was it to you if he didnât want to warm up to you. That had no bearing on the fact that overall, your situation wasnât all too bad anymore.
It was something, you supposed as you curled up in your spot on the couch with your book later that day, slipping in and out of time to keep your company a little longer because deep down, you knew you were sick of being alone.
It was weird and different, yes, but it was still something anyway. Something to do with your afternoons again.
A reason to get up in the morning.
*****
"What are you talking about?" Bucky asks quietly, carefully, but he makes no attempt to pull back from your embrace. It allows you to take another shuddering breath, inhaling his scent until it makes you dizzy.
The fact that you probably wonât be this close to him again any time soon makes you press into his chest even harder, hard enough to feel his heart flutter against your forehead, the shock of the situation making it pick up speed.
For a split second, you slip into a sort of vacuum, your thoughts quieting as he keeps mumbling to you, and in that blissful moment, your situation doesnât seem quite so dire anymore, more like a bad dream. Youâre safe now, arenât you? How could you not be?
But then you blink back into reality again when Bucky sits you down on the closed lid of your toilet and slowly makes you let go of his shirt, kneeling down in front of you. The blue of his eyes is devastating, even though you have to keep blinking to keep him in focus.
You donât want to have to do this, you realize once your gasps for air start calming again. Youâre not sure if you can bear it.
But nothing in this loop has been about what you wanted.
And so your resolve is made, with your heart sinking until itâs hidden away deep, deep inside of your chest. You ball your hands into fists to keep your fingers from twitching.
Two or three times he watches you inhale, start to say something, halt before you can, almost choking on it. Like your body is refusing to go through with it.
"How do you know when Iâm lying?" you finally ask, and your voice sounds oddly clear in your small bathroom.
Buckyâs face goes from concern to confusion, his frown deepening. You want to smoothe it away with your thumb.
You close your eyes so maybe the temptation goes away.
"What?" he asks, and he still sounds so damn gentle.
"Iâve never been able to lie to you," you say. "Whatâs my tell?"
You can feel him move away from you and the ache of it makes you look again. His shirt and his hands are covered in his own blood, and youâre sure thereâs some fucking metaphor in the way it stains the golden inlets of his vibranium arm crimson but for the most part, you canât unsee the damn irony of it all.
Because youâve pissed him off now.
"You scared the shit out of me, Y/N. And Sam, too." Thereâs the sharpness in his voice you know all too well. You havenât heard it in a while. "What the hell is going on?"
"Iâm trapped in a time loop," you say, squeezing your fists more tightly. "Iâve been reliving this day for weeks, my powers arenât working, Iâm the only one who can stop time from completely collapsing, I canât do that without my powers, and youâre gonna die later today. Am I lying?"
Itâs maybe the worst way youâve ever told him, because watching Buckyâs face change is almost too much. This is exactly why youâre doing it, though; as long as youâre going through this loop with a giant guilty knot in your stomach, youâre not going to make any progress. And you need to put an end to all of it.
So you meet his gaze, almost unwavering, and you donât blink.
His shock bursts free as an incredulous laugh. "What?"
"Iâm stuck," you say again, slower, nodding at his hands, his blood, continuing to push, "and you keep dying."
Bucky looks down, then, before his gaze falls back onto you and he sits back on his heels. The pause lasts for way too long, heavy and smelling of iron, and youâre pretty sure youâre suffocating. He only says one word, and it sounds so defeated. "How?"
You swallow heavily. "You got shot on a mission," you say, but he shakes his head, the fire returning to his eyes.
"No. How did you get stuck?"
"I âŠ" You blink, because youâre not prepared for this question, because you can never predict what heâs going to say, because he keeps doing that to you, because somehow, and not like youâve expected, you feel like youâve been here before.
How did it happen? Thatâs not ⊠Okay.
"It was an accident," you finally say, helplessly, defensively.
Thereâs a flicker of something in Buckyâs eyes. "What happened?"
"You died. You died that first time and I didnâtâI couldnât âŠ" You swallow the sob that threatens to shake your voice again. Damnit, youâre supposed to push him away.
He moves his arm, then hesitates, as if he wants to reach out to you but changes his mind at the very last moment.
Right. He doesnât normally do that.
Except he has.
He has held your hand and pulled you closer and written on your arm and let you lean on him with the full weight of your body, as if to him, you weighed nothing at all. Heâs been offering to carry your load so many times, and he doesnât remember a single one of them.
"Please donât look at me like that," you say tonelessly, watching Bucky retreat.
"Like what?"
"Like Iâm gonna fall apart at any moment. And yes," you add when his mouth opens, "IâI know I just did, Iâm aware of the irony, but this is exactly why I canât keep telling you, I donâtâI canât stand it." You press your wrists against your temples, ignoring the buzz of the whirling time symbols against your skin, the stinging in your eyes. "You shouldnât evenâI mean, are you even the slightest bit worried about yourself? Because I feel like Iâm the only one here, and I shouldâve justâ"
You stop yourself, shaking your head. Your hands are very clammy all of a sudden, and when you tug at your rings just to do something, one of them slips off your finger and clangs against the tiles as if to punctuate the silence.
When you reach down, you move your wrist in a way that makes you hiss in pain and flinch back. Buckyâs eyes flit between your own and your hand, his frown deepening in a strangely soft way. "Did you break it?" he asks quietly.
"Iâm fine," you mumble, and he looks at you disapprovingly. "Youâd grabbed my hand just before âŠ"
His jaw twitches as the blame settles in again, and you would do fucking anything to finally make him understand that none of this is his fault. That you should be in pain for what youâre putting him through.
"It shouldâve been me," you tell him, because itâs true.
Even earlier in the week, you wouldâve taken great delight in seeing Bucky Barnesâ face fall at something youâd said. Hell, youâd have probably enjoyed it on Thursday, because there used to be this easy sort of gratification that came from riling him up, from catching him off guard.
Seeing it now, though?
It makes your fingers twitch.
"Donât say that. Not even as a joke."
"Iâm not joking." You can feel your pulse in your ears. "They aimed a shot at me, and you pushed me out of the way, and you died. So by all accounts, if your instincts werenât so damn noble all the time, it shouldâve been me, and if I werenât such a fucking coward, Iâd have gone back and switched places with you weeks ago."
The thought terrifies you, even though itâs true. No part of you wants to go through the things Bucky is, but if someone gave you the choice between either one of you right now, you wouldnât even have to think about it.
Maybe thatâs the most terrifying thought of them all. You would die for him. Once, twice, however many times are necessary if that meant that heâs safe.
"Iâd like to see you try," Bucky says, and something slams into your chest as an old familiar shiver runs down your spine.
Thereâs a pained edge to his gaze, contemplative and heartbreaking and âŠ
"Youâre doing it again," you say, your voice barely above a whisper.
"What am I doing?" His hand brushes your knee, and your skin is left searing.
You swallow heavily. "Being noble."
Bucky chuckles softly, and his eyes leave yours for just a moment. "Donât exactly feel like that."
Heâs beautiful.
Itâs a new thought, despite everything. Even when youâve noticed it before, youâd roll your eyes at the fact and move on, because this was Bucky. So what if his face was delectably handsome?
But it seems like you havenât known it at all, because right now, you feel the knowledge of it, of him, surge through you with all its facets. You canât even begin to put it into words, because where would you start? How do you explain what he makes you feel when he hasnât been there himself, not in any way that matters or sticks? And if itâs never happened at all, if time keeps unraveling like this, how can it even be real?
So itâs pure instinct that makes you move, like someone would pinch themselves to ensure theyâre not asleep, even though youâre very aware that this isnât just a dream. You need to confirm that Bucky is real, though.
The air stands still when your fingertips trace along his cheekbone, leaving a delicate flush behind in their trail, barely touching and yet âŠ
And yet.
His breath hitches when they dip lower, almost reaching the place youâve watched dimple when he laughs, but he doesnât move away. He doesnât laugh, either.
Thereâs a scraping sound at the closed bathroom door, followed by a short knock. You flinch backwards.
"Iâm leaving the first aid kit on the bed," Sam calls from the other side. "Just ⊠holler if you need me."
"Thanks, Sam," Bucky says coarsely, and you can hear steps receding. The scratching continues, though. That damn cat.
Finally, he breaks eye contact, clearing his throat.
"Do you want me to help you clean up?"
You shake your head. Youâre not sure you could stomach more of this. "Iâm good, donât ⊠Donât worry about it."
Bucky drags a hand through his hair, muttering something to himself you canât quite make out. Slowly, he gets to his feet again.
"We need to come up with a plan," he says, and you want to cry except ⊠youâre tired. Tired and sick of this.
"I need to come up with a plan," you correct him. "We have been trying to do this as a team for weeks, and it doesnât change anything except waste time and âŠ" And hurt. "I canât do it anymore, Buck."
There must be something in your voice that thaws his defiant glare a little. "So whatâs the plan?"
And with a sigh, you fill him in on everything thatâs been going on with Strange and your powers. Again. One last time.
You have to do this alone.
Bucky ignores your insistence that you can manage just fine and sets your wrist while you talk. Alpine, now free to roam wherever she pleases again, has decided the bathroom isnât quite that interesting after a short look inside, and is now taking a nap in the spot of sunshine next to your bed.
"New deal," he says once youâre done, once heâs thought about it all, and you raise your eyebrows. "Donât do anything stupid."
"You know me," you smile, checking the makeshift dressing around your hand. The green symbols are hidden by the layers of gauze.
Bucky doesnât bite. "Iâm serious, justâdonât."
"How would you know?"
"I wouldnât," he says, snapping the first aid kit shut so vehemently Alpineâs tail twitches. "But I trust you."
Your head whips up at his words, even though his back is still turned to you. He doesnât see your face as your heart is jostled into a new rhythm, so violently and unexpectedly that you lift your hand without thinking, pinkie outstretched.
"Promise."
He smiles when he notices, and you wish you could take a picture to carry with you through the rest of this nightmare.
That day, he dies with your stupid nickname on his lips, twisted into something that looks strangely close to that earlier smile. This one doesnât have time to reach his eyes, though.
***
Thereâs been a change in the weather.
Not literally, no; of course not literally. Fuck, you long for a single cloud, a raindrop, a damn hailstorm to break the streak of endless perfectly sunny days that donât fit your mood in the slightest.
But thereâs a tinge to the sky that makes your stomach turn. Itâs not very obvious to anyone who hasnât looked at the exact same sunset for weeks on end, just a single strip of color across a storybook horizon. It looks like a crack.
"Do you see that?" you ask warily when you notice it for the first time, ominous and yet almost completely hidden by the trees and the buildings. Just dancing around the edge of your vision like another mockery.
"What?" Sam asks, eyes not leaving the path ahead.
"That ⊠thing in the sky. What is that?"
Bucky stops and squints at where youâre pointing. "Itâs called a cloud," he says dryly.
"With that color?" you murmur, but continue walking when he stops to turn to you, your wrist tingling. His stare is searing your neck, but you ignore that, too.
The best course of action, youâve learned, is to shut your brain off as soon as you get out of the quinjet and just go through the motions, trying to ride out the mission like youâve done dozens of times before. Thereâs a sort of autopilot youâve fallen into after a couple of days, and itâs the only thing keeping you somewhat sane. Most days, it means itâs all over quickly, and you canât help but feel glad about that.
Youâve given up trying to change your own actions to get him through the day.
But this âŠ
Itâs something new, and in all this monotony, that thought is both frightening and exciting. It distracts you enough to get you off script.
"Lovely interior design," Sam mumbles like he always does.
"Remember how this was supposed to be a day off?" You kick one of the pebbles in your path with a sigh. "What happened to 'donât worry, Y/N, after training the day is all yours'?"
"Occupational hazard," Sam says, checking his map for the thousandth time.
"You know what I mean."
"Donât you have tomorrow off?" Bucky says over the intercom.
Tomorrow. "Right." It comes out somewhat strained, your fingernails digging into the palm of your hand. "And why do you know that?"
Sam shakes his head and thereâs a brief crackle of static in your ear. For a fraction of a second, you nearly dare to hope Bucky will give you an answer, even though you have no clue what it would be.
"Theyâre heading your way now," he says instead, "so get a move on."
And just like that, youâre back on track.
Quickly clearing your throat of the lump that has formed there, you say tonelessly, "I probably only have one reset left. Two, if weâre lucky and you two arenât being stupid again."
Itâs taken you a while to get used to it. To the constant lying.
Youâve worn fingerless gloves on missions before, so thatâs not raised any questions from the others yet, and your rings stay hidden away. Youâve been more reluctant to take them off since the one you lost on your bathroom floor vanished into thin air.
The other thing youâve picked up on while endlessly repeating this day is that Bucky is less likely to catch you in a lie if he canât see your face.
So youâve made an effort of spending as little time as possible with him.
Itâs surprisingly easy to stay in your room for the majority of the day, because he doesnât remember it ever being any other way. Even todayâs little exchange will be lost to the loop soon enough, just like that little pause he made, just like the bullet through his heart.
Still, when you wake up with a start on Friday, July 4th, you look at the sky first. Its perfect blue doesnât soothe the sinking feeling in your stomach at all.
Youâve been waiting for something to change for weeks, and now that itâs here, you donât like it at all.
"What did you expect?" Strange says with an infuriating composure once youâve nervously recounted your experience. "I told you, time isnât supposed to get stuck in this way. Of course your reality was going to act up sooner or later."
"I really feel like you should be more concerned about this," you mutter, letting a ball of green energy pass from your left hand to the right. Itâs about the size of a quarter now.
"Honestly," Strange answers, "I thought something like this would have happened a while ago." He taps his fingers together. "Again. Slower."
"So what am I supposed to do then, just ignore it?" The green ball pulses with your indignation, turns around itself once and then sinks into your palm again.
"In all likelihood, itâs a one time glitch. If everything is back to normal today, I wouldnât worry about it."
Your thumb rubs across the empty space on your finger. "Easy for you to say if youâre not the one whoâs stuck in an endless hellscape."
"Arenât I?"
You both roll your eyes at each other, but then you bite the inside of your cheek again, unable to shake the feeling of a whole new shade of dread. "What if itâs not just a one time glitch?"
The corners of Strangeâs cloak roll up on themselves, and he doesnât meet your eye when he says, "Weâll cross that bridge when we get to it."
Itâs still early when you return to the present, too early for Bucky to be back from wherever heâs always going, so you decide to venture out of your room again, stretching your tired limbs. Youâre pretty sure at this point that waking up on the floor is never going to feel fun.
Sam is in the kitchen as always, reading something on his laptop. Heâs still sitting down, which means that itâs even earlier than you expected. You miss these early parts of the day, the calm before the storm.
If today were only made up of these few hours, you suppose, it might not be half so bad.
You pull up a chair next to him and lean a cheek against your hand. "Whatâre you doing?"
"Research." Sam sighs, rubbing his temples. "Remember that ULTIMATUM group?"
"Never heard of them," you say with a small yawn. "Is that an acronym? What does it stand for?"
Sam gives you a glare and your mouth twitches slightly.
"Anyway," he continues, turning his laptop so you can see the article heâs reading. "Theyâve been more active again lately. Acquired a couple thousand dollarsâ worth of lab equipment through one of their contacts and then went underground again."
Of course, you know all this. Youâve been over it again and again, back when you were all still trading information like it could save Buckyâs life. Like there was a deeper meaning behind any of this damn loop other than the fact that you, and you alone, fucked up.
Useless.
You close the mental door on those thoughts and take a deep breath. You hate to admit it, but all of this sitting around with your thoughts bullshit youâve been doing has actually helped you to clear your head somewhatâif only to make it through the parts of the day you canât avoid.
"And now what?" you ask, pretending to just have reacquainted yourself with the topic.
"Now," Sam says, taking his laptop with him as he stands up and strolls over to the kitchen island, "Iâm waiting for Torres to get back to me so we can decide our next steps once weâre all recovered." He gives you a meaningful look and you scowl.
Then, slowly, his words register in your brain, and you stare at his back as he stretches and then moves to make some coffee, wordlessly taking one of your mugs out of the cupboard as well as his own.
"You donât seem too worried," you say hesitantly.
Sam shrugs. "Until we have a proper lead, thereâs not much we can do. And I doubt theyâll be doing any actual damage any time soon. Theyâre a lot more covert than the Flag Smashers ever were."
"Right," you say, more to yourself than in response.
"Try that again, less convincing?"
"I donât know," you mutter, slowly following him to lean against the fridge. "Just ⊠what if Torres did find something? Should I be getting ready?"
Sam frowns. "Are you not telling me something again?"
You try to shake the thought, pulling your arms around you. "Forget it."
You donât, though.
It keeps bugging you, because that day like any other day, he knocks on your door at 4:32 on the dot, and you go on that mission anyway. And even though this has been happening for weeks, youâre just starting to suspect that you are, in fact, still not getting the whole picture.
***
Catching a glimpse of Samâs phone turns out to be more difficult than you first thought.
Youâre still trying to get the timing exactly right a couple of days later, and you miscalculate enough to catch Bucky on his way upstairs.
"Hey," he says, his shoulders tense when he looks at you. Thereâs a restlessness to him that heâs not quick enough to hide; or maybe youâve just grown more perceptive when it comes to him.
"Hi," you say, crossing your hands behind your back. "Whereâve you been?"
He shrugs. "For a walk."
You already know he wonât elaborate if you try poking, so you donât. "Was it good?"
"Lotta people." He hesitates when you continue to not meet his eye, and then he says, "Do you want to talk about it?"
You swallow, ignoring the tingling sensation on your wrist. "Not particularly. Do you?"
Buckyâs jaw twitches. "Nah."
Somehow, you feel like thatâs also a lie. Once again, youâre left wondering.
The silence between you stretches as you continue to not quite look at each other, until you finally clear your throat, nodding at the front door. "Iâm getting coffee, do you want something?"
Honestly, itâs just an excuse as to why you need to leave before he notices something off again somehow, but Bucky tilts his head in amusement.
"Didnât you just get some this morning?"
"So? I like coffee."
"Really. I never knew."
"Screw you."
You can hear him huff behind you, but thankfully the door falls shut before you can do anything stupid. Like turning around to face him, for example.
You miss his eyes.
Why wonât you look at me?
When the elevator doors open, you almost yelp into your delivery guyâs face. He stumbles a half-step backwards, somehow managing to keep a hold of the boxes precariously balanced on his arm while heâs reading something on his phone.
"Oh my god," he lets out, "Iâm sorry, Iâm so sorry, I was just âŠ"
"Early." You blink.
"Sorry?"
"Nothing," you say, frowning only a little. "Wait, let me get that."
You quickly sign for the delivery and open the door with your keycard, holding it open for him. Youâre not exactly afraid of burglars these days, and besides; you know this guy by now.
"If you could just go straight ahead and to the right, thatâs where the kitchen is."
"Sure thing," he shrugs. "Thanksâ"
His mouth snaps shut and he blushes a little as if he wanted to say something else but thought better of it.
Youâve introduced him to Sam enough times you know heâs going to be fine, so you just smile and wave him in.
When you step out on the street, you instinctually look up at the sky. Itâs outrageously blue, blatantly perfect for an endless Friday, and even when you squint, you canât make out any irregularities.
Itâs a tiny relief, but a relief nontheless.
Lucy is leaning against the wall just out of sight of the storefront, an unlit cigarette dangling between her lips as she rummages through her pockets. Her colorful makeup has begun to melt off in the sweltering heat, making the red-white-and-blue stars on her cheeks bleed into each other to look somewhat purplish.
"Are you off or on break?" you call over.
She lifts her head, the glare vanishing when she recognizes you. "Counting the seconds," she says. "Donât you have anything better to do?"
You sidestep a couple of pedestrians hurrying to cross the street and join her. "Not really."
"I hate you." She finally fishes a lighter out of her back pocket, sighing contentedly as she takes her first drag. "I swear, this day just wonât pass."
Fine. Maybe your chuckle is a little shrill. "Iâm sorry."
Lucy waves you off with a gesture crude enough to make a young dad with a stroller send the two of you a dirty look. "You without your shadow today?" she asks, inspecting her nails.
You blink. "My shadow."
"You know. Your friend whoâs been in here eight thousand times and still gets confused when he orders." A cloud of smoke vanishes into thin air. "Kind of the lingering type, isnât he?"
"Heâs old," you say, because for some reason nothing else comes to mind.
"Not that old."
"No," you agree, "not that old."
For a moment, youâre afraid sheâs going to ask you to pass her number along to him, and youâre already scrambling to find an answer somewhere in the depths of your brain, coming up empty. Thatâs the problem with being able to unhave entire conversations; you donât usually really have to deal with reactions if you donât want to.
Without your powers, though, youâre stuck, and itâs making you wish you hadnât come here at all.
Instead of any of that, she pulls a flyer out of her other pocket. "Sorin and Cass are doing a gig in Brooklyn next week, do you wanna come with? Theyâre still terrible, but they got a new bassist who seems alright."
You take the flyer, staring at it. "I didnât know theyâre in a band," you admit.
The truth is, youâve never paid that much close attention to the people you work with. Maybe thatâs been a mistake.
Lucy shrugs. "Youâre always doing your own thing." It stings, even though youâre pretty sure she doesnât mean for it to. "Itâd be fun if you came, though."
"Iâll think about it," you say, and your smile is a little unsure, but genuine.
So is hers.
"If you donât want to hang with us all night, you can bring some friends, too." Her emphasis hangs in the air between you like a dare.
You snort. "I feel like this isnât quite their scene."
"You feel like or you know?"
"Isnât that the same thing?"
"No." She puts her cigarette out on the wall behind her. "Knowledge is based on experience. On memories. Your feelings donât sit in your head. And so they donât make sense and theyâre not necessarily true." She winks.
"Youâre weirdly smart," you say, shaking your head.
"I know. Itâs a curse." Lucy sighs. "Anyway, think about it. I gotta get back to hell."
"You know," you say with a grin, "I could really do with a frappuccino right about now."
"You know what you could do?" she answers in her sweetest customer service voice, pointing you down the street. "Get in a trash can."
Damnit. You might actually grow to like Lucy.
She taps her fingers against her temple and then shuffles back inside, a hot rush of air blowing out of the AC as the door opens. You fold the flyer up to fit into your back pocket, hoping youâll make it to that concert one day, and then you walk on, aimless again for the moment.
***
Time passes while itâs standing still.
The problem is, at least for the moment, that by all appearances youâve reverted back to square one. Going through your day as though any of this is even remotely normal, counting the hours and minutes to reenter the astral plane and feel some semblance of control again.
Itâs been nice, really, if youâre ignoring the constant underlying feeling of dread.
Which youâre getting better at.
You wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume.
Rinse and repeat.
You wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume.
Even on days when youâre sure youâre making progress with your powers, every reset makes it just a little harder to keep dragging yourself onwards.
You wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume.
"You look like shit."
Your head rolls to the side slowly, allowing yourself a glance while Bucky is still distracted with his arm. Concentration makes his brows knit, and something warm spreads in your chest.
"Iâm so tired," you say, voice barely above a whisper.
He doesnât look at you, but youâre grateful for it for once. Your eyes are stinging a little.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Yes. Yes. Yes.
"Not particularly."
"Do you want to talk about something else?"
You almost smile. "Like what?"
Bucky shrugs with one shoulder. "Like the fact that you just planted Sam into the mat head-first and yet made a face like you killed a puppy?"
Sometimes you wonder how he still manages to slip in without you noticing, no matter how many times he does it.
"Did I?"
"Did you kill a puppy? Iâd hope not."
Your bodyâs been getting stronger, anticipating Samâs every move. At this point, itâs not so much training as it is an exercise in muscle memory; but how would he know that?
It still isnât enough. Itâs never enough.
You pitiful, selfish, useless bastard.
"Youâre doing it again," Bucky says and you blink.
"Doing what?"
"I donât know, but I donât like it."
Something inside you twinges uncomfortably and you wrap your arms around your knees, pulling them into your chest. "That might just be me, period."
Bucky huffs. "Take the towel on the right," he says. "I already used the other one."
So you do.
And then you wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume, and then you wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume, and then you wake up with blah, blah, blah.
"I canât do this anymore."
Strange watches you, but you donât get up from where youâre lying, blankly staring at the ceiling, feeling like your chest is about to explode.
You donât want to feel like something is tearing you apart every single time, even though you know itâs not permanent. Thereâs always the tiniest glimmer of hope that this will all be over soon.
Or maybe itâs dread.
"Maybe you canât," Strange answers.
You blink, sitting upright. "What?"
"Maybe you are actually incapable of cleaning up your own mess. Youâve never had any training before, after all. Maybe youâre too weak."
Useless. Not good enough. Waste of time.
"If this is reverse psychology, itâs not working," you say through gritted teeth, pressing your eyes shut so tightly they donât burn anymore.
Strange ignores you. "Maybe youâre going to be stuck in this loop forever. If thatâs the case, thereâs no point to keep trying either. Maybe we should just call it a day."
You can feel your breaths coming in shorter.
"Maybe youâre just going to keep failing to save anyone for the rest of your life."
"Stop it!"
An explosion of power goes through your body, bouncing off the walls and bathing the room in a ghostly green light. You cough and curl into yourself as you watch it billow, still echoing the words back at you, "too weak", "stuck in this loop forever". Your bones are heavy with exhaustion.
Strange crouches down next to you and a cup of fragrant tea draws itself up to the side of your face.
"Youâre drawing the bulk of your power from pain. From a desire to fix things that you think you alone are responsible for when the truth is that each and every one of us is constantly creating reality."
"Fuck you," you mumble. When you sit up, your head is still swimming.
"You cannot keep this up."
"If Iâm such a lost case, then why do you bother?"
"Iâm trying to tell you that youâre not." He points at the walls, still covered by that greenish fog. "This is the strongest display of your powers Iâve seen from you yet, and it only happened because you were lashing out. Pain is not a sustainable source of energy. Imagine what you could do if you could be in control."
Do as I tell you.
"Thereâs no way to control my powers on a larger scale. Itâs impossible."
"You keep telling me that, and yet you keep coming back. Why?"
You push yourself up to your elbows, wiping at your face. "Because I have to hope, right?"
"And there it is."
You take a sip of your tea and some feeling returns to your translucent fingers. Strangeâs cloak draws itself around your shoulders.
The wizard himself stays quiet for another minute or two, before he asks, "Why do you think Iâm talking to you right now? Helping you, even, nevermind your constant whining and your insistence that this wonât work, after youâve spent your whole life running away from anything resembling actual responsibilities."
"I didnâtâ"
"Answer the question."
"Because I created a time loop?" you guess.
"But you already know that this loop is just one point on the timeline. A single day, repeated endlessly, but going exactly like it was always supposed to, once resolved. So, without the time stone and my privileges as the Sorcerer Supreme, and with your protections still in place, how would I have found you?"
He knew exactly where and when to look for you. But heâs right, that shouldnât even have been possible unless âŠ
"I came to you," you realize. "Or, I will, once I get out of this." The relief that washes over you makes you want to sob. "So there is a way out?"
"Of course there is," he says, surprisingly gently. "Time isnât supposed to get stuck."
You sit with that for a minute, hiding your face in your hands as Strange stays silent. Finally, you take a deep breath and look at him again with newly sharp focus.
"So why donât you just tell me how to do it?"
He raises an eyebrow. "You know thatâs not how it works."
"Yes. It is. Itâs literally what I do all the time."
"What you do is leaving realities you donât like by turning backwards."
"Thatâs not true."
"Just because your motivations arenât entirely selfish doesnât mean youâre right."
Youâre so damn exhausted. The frustration of this whole thing is really starting to scratch at your sanity, and thereâs an ache in your chest as you stare at your own sleeping face, biting the inside of your cheek, thinking.
Strange snaps his fingers to get your attention back.
"Iâm not a mind reader," he says. "Out with it."
"I want to see him," you say, getting up. The cloak flaps around you in a very satisfying way. "Bucky. Itâs early this morning, right? Just before the loop starts again. That means heâs upstairs."
"And whatâs seeing him going to do?"
You ignore him and walk towards the door, reaching for the handle. Your hand goes right through it. You try it several more times, to no avail.
"Heaven help me," Strange mutters behind you.
Shutting your eyes, you take a deep breath. The circle of green tingles around your wrist.
Then, you walk through the closed door.
You fully expect to crash into the wood head first, but instead you feel the door moving through your noncorporeal form, and then youâre standing on the other side.
With a startled hum, you turn left, not waiting to see if youâre being followed.
You only hesitate in front of Buckyâs bedroom door. Youâve never actually been inside his room since heâs moved in; well, apart from that time he patched up your feet and you woke up in the astral plane for the first time. It feels odd to consider entering without him actually being aware of it.
Then again, thereâs quite a few things at this point that heâs unaware of.
Before you can make up your mind, the door swings open just a little, and you automatically take a step back. Alpine sleepily slinks through the gap and trots off in the direction you came from, probably to sit in the kitchen and mope until FRIDAY activates the food dispenser again. On the stairs, she passes Strange who raises an eyebrow at you.
"Changed your mind?"
You glance into the room.
At first, you canât find him. The bedding looks untouched, and thereâs a brief flurry of panic that makes you step inside before you can keep questioning yourself.
Bucky is lying on the floor next to the bed, his hands balled tightly into an old throw blanket. Itâs haphazardly draped across his torso, like heâs been trying to wriggle free during the night. He grimaces in his sleep.
Try the floor.
You canât help but wonder when heâs last tried the bed.
"Can he hear us?" you ask quietly, not needing to look over your shoulder as you sink to the floor next to Bucky.
"No," Strange says. "Not until you put in a lot more work."
"Would he remember if I did?"
"I donât know."
You do look back at him, then. "You know, considering your position you donât know a whole lot of things."
You concentrate on your own hand until youâre starting to feel cool metal underneath your fingertips, ignoring the throbbing of your head. Carefully, you touch the crease between his brows, smoothing it out tenderly.
Bucky sighs a little in his sleep, but doesnât stir. Doesnât stop quietly murmuring in his dreams.
"You feel better?" Strange asks.
"Not really." Youâve already reached out to him without it having any repercussions too many times. "But that wasnât the point."
"What was?"
"Just âŠ"
Comfort. He brings you comfort, even when he doesnât know it. Itâs the same reason you keep waiting for him to arrive in the gym in the mornings, even though you could probably hurry up and miss him.
Even if the loop never ends, itâs still good to see that itâs bringing him back like itâs supposed to.
How incredibly selfish, you think as you continue looking at Bucky and letting a quiet, hesitant wash of calm come over you.
And then, all of a sudden, his eyes open.
You flinch backwards, but even though youâre almost face to face, he seems to stare right through you, his breaths heavy.
"Did I do something?" you say quietly.
"No," Strange answers. "This is just when he wakes up."
You watch as Bucky drags a hand over his face and then gets up with a determined tick in his jaw, grabbing a notebook from the nightstand. He scribbles something down, hastily, like itâs threatening to get away from him if he doesnât hurry. You donât have to read it to know it has something to do with what heâs seen in his sleep.
When the words stop flowing, he sits on the edge of the bed for a minute longer, but the tension doesnât leave his shoulders. Finally, he rolls his left arm a few times before pulling on a shirt and his running shoes.
He always goes for a run in the morning. Youâve made fun of him for it before, but you hadnât put together that while Strange was trying to get you to clear your own head through sitting still, Bucky might be doing the exact opposite to get the same result.
The door clicks shut.
"Are we done with the spying, then?" Strange says.
"No need to get weird about it," you mumble and take his outstretched hand.
***
Something changes once you know that your situation actually has an end date, even though Strange either cannot or will not tell you how many more loops youâre going to have to go through until then. Even so, thereâs a new assurance to your every step again, a determination grown from the knowledge that all this isnât for nothing. That there is an out.
You can cling to that.
"What would you do if you were stuck in a time loop?" you ask, letting your legs dangle over the ledge of the roof.
"Ew, no," Lucy replies, shaking the few remaining ice cubes in her cup emphatically. "My shift was long enough as is, and Iâve been looking forward to my Sunday off all week."
"Fair point," you concede.
Itâs early afternoon then, and youâve found a quiet spot on the top of the Tower. If Lucy was at all confused why youâd shown up at the store right when she clocked out and asked her to hang out, sheâs not showing it. Over the past couple of loops, youâve learned that she really likes to go with the flow, and you appreciate that.
"If itâs not today, though," she continues, like sheâs thinking aloud. "Imagine the books you could read. You could try out all that stuff that you say you want to do, and then you never have the time to actually do them."
Itâs a good thought, but a lack of time has never really been an issue for you. "Nothing you do would really stick, though."
She squints against the sun. "You realize thatâs a pro, right? No consequences whatsoever. I could cut my bangs again and theyâd be gone the next day."
"You used to have bangs?"
"Never, and Iâm willing to state that in a court of law."
You smile and lean back on your elbows. "If something good happened, thatâd be gone, too, though. You donât get to keep that, either."
"Yeah," Lucy says thoughtfully. "Iâd still remember it though, right? It still happened. I could make it happen again."
"Maybe." Your thumb scratches the empty space on your pinkie. Even though youâve turned your entire bathroom upside down, your ring is still gone, like it just up and disappeared from this reality. You canât help but wonder if that rift in the sky from a few todays ago has anything to do with that.
"What about you?"
"Hm?"
Lucy takes another slurping sip from her almost empty cup. "What would you do in a time loop?"
You canât help but laugh. "Iâd try to keep making the good things happen, I guess."
"Sounds like a lot of work."
It is.
"Are you out of your damn mind?" someone shouts behind you. "Itâs in the fricking nineties today and youâre baking?"
"Technically, we are baking," you say, nodding at Lucy and leaning back further so you can look at Sam upside down. "And weâre baking for you."
"Hi, cap," Lucy says, pulling her sunglasses off.
"Hey." Sam crosses his arms and fixes you with a very cap-like glare. "Why are you baking for me."
"Y/N said itâs for your birthday."
"Myâ" He cuts himself off, rubbing his temples. "My birthdayâs in September."
"Whoops," you say, your grin just believable enough. "My bad, cap."
"Youâre not funny," Sam says, "I hope you know that."
You know.
Of course, today isnât actually his birthday, not even if time were allowed to pass normally. It is day forty-fucking-nine of the loop, though, which makes it your fiftieth time living through this crap and frankly, you all deserve some damn pie.
Itâs not going to make a difference in the long run, of course, and yet you canât help but feel like keeping count of those little markers of time helps to hold your head above water. Making the good things happen, even if they donât change a thing and no one but you is going to remember.
So you simply say, "Itâs turtle pie," because you know that itâs Samâs favorite. "Hey, whatâs the time?"
"Oh, it better be," he says, holding his phone up for you to read and then marching out of your field of vision.
Sadly, youâre just about a minute early.
"He couldâve stayed," Lucy says when you let out a frustrated huff.
"He has that thing at the Garden," you tell her distractedly, taking a mental note to stall Sam a little longer next time.
"There you are."
You flinch at the sound of Buckyâs voice, barely daring to move your head when he sits next to you, his back to the brink.
He never comes up here. Thatâs the whole point.
"Hi?" you say carefully, and a grin tugs at his mouth.
"Not you," he says, nodding to the ground in front of him.
You turn around fully to find Alpine taking a nap just a few feet behind you, her snowy tail wrapped around a flower pot.
You let out a relieved breath and ignore the small sting in your chest. Of course heâs not up here because of you. Why would he be?
"Gee, thanks," you murmur, quietly shifting around so your hands are hidden underneath your legs. "You sure know how to charm the ladies."
You glance back at Lucy, but sheâs looking at her phone, her eyes once again indecipherable behind the large sunglasses.
Bucky raises an eyebrow. "Think you could handle my charm, Y/L/N?"
He might has well have doused you in a bucket of ice water. Youâre suddenly very aware of every single cell in your body, and you donât like the challenge sparkling in his eyes.
So you do what you always do and you block it out. Dismiss and distract.
"Does Alpine seem weird to you?"
He tilts his head, his jaw tight. "Weird how?"
"I donât know," you say, staring at her. "Sheâs just been acting ⊠odd, lately. Today, I mean."
And following you around in a way youâre pretty sure sheâs never done before. Not before the loop, at least.
Bucky sighs. "Did you make her scratch you again? Because Iâve told you before that Iâm not getting rid of her for enforcing her boundaries."
"First of all, I never make her scratch me, she does that well enough on her own."
"Thatâs victim blaming," Lucy says without looking up. Bucky snorts and you almost roll your eyes.
"Second of all, sheâs up to something. I know it."
"Oh, yes," Bucky says dryly just as Alpine makes a small noise in her dreams, her nose twitching. "Thatâs the embodiment of evil right there."
"I donât trust her," you mutter.
"And yet the catâs the weird one."
"I hate you," you mumble, standing up. "Iâm gonna go check on the pie."
"Thereâs pie?" Bucky says.
"Not for you!"
You turn at the door to see Lucy leaning in to show Bucky something on her phone; the frown has disappeared from his face, his shoulders relaxed. If heâd pull off his glove right now, itâd almost be like sitting in a park.
Thatâs good, you tell yourself as the door slams shut behind you with a bit too much gusto. Reminds you that thereâs nothing special about you in particular, which is much needed, really.
Canât wait to punch that one out of your system later.
Again and again and again and aâ
"Whoa, whoa, you alright?"
You blink. Riff slumps to the ground in front of you, body limp.
Bucky stares at you in concern, his hand still on your shoulder. His lip has split open and thereâs the usual bruise already forming on his cheekbone. You canât help it. Your gaze is drawn down, your breathing shallow.
You screw your eyes shut to snap yourself out of it, but when you open them again, Bucky hasnât moved an inch.
"Never better," you whisper, and for a split second, you almost believe it yourself.
Liar, liar, liar.
***
At least, you suppose, reality seems considerably less broken these days. No more cracks in the sky.
You get your wake-up call when you wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY âŠ
"⊠FRIDAY?" you say into the silence of your room, your heart pounding wildly. This cannot be happening. Not now.
Not yet.
He got shot again yesterday.
A pleasant jingling sound rings out. "Good morning, Ms. Y/L/N."
You look at the clock on the wall. Ten to eight, just like every morning. "What day is it?"
"Today is Friday, July 4th."
You can taste bile in your mouth despite your relief. Thereâs an impatient thrum to the symbols around your wrist, like a noose thatâs tightening.
What did you expect?
"Rise and shine, McFly! Time to get your ass kicked!"
"Didnât you set FRIDAY to wake me?" you ask Sam as youâre climbing the stairs, nerves on edge.
He looks at you weirdly. "I did. Youâre up, arenât you?"
You bite the inside of your cheek. "Didnât sleep well."
That much, at least, is still true. Full nights of sleep are a long distant memory from before constant back-to-back repetitions. The only time your body shuts off is when you manage to sleep for a little bit in between your astral visits and the mission call.
"I hope you donât think thatâs an excuse," Sam says, bumping your shoulder, and you manage a tired grin.
"You wish."
Today, you let him win, even though your ankle makes an odd crack when you land on the mat. Youâll take care of it later.
"You look like shit."
Grief and relief, youâve learned, both taste like salt and iron, but the latter is so much easier to swallow.
"That makes two of us," you say, sitting up slowly. "How was your run?"
"Good," Bucky says, putting the cloth away and stretching his fingers out. They catch a ray of sunlight. "Whatâs wrong with you?"
Not this again.
"Later, okay?" you answer, because thatâs not a lie. "Letâs just ⊠not, right now?"
"Alright," he says.
And, oh, you want to tell him again. Because he doesnât press it. Because you miss having someone to share things with. Because you miss telling him the whole truth. Because youâre scared, and tired, and sick of losing him.
But those are egotistic thoughts, and so you keep them all to yourself and take the towel on the right.
Thereâs one good thing about this today. You make it to the living room just in time to finally catch a glimpse of Samâs phone right when it pings with Torresâ message.
I can check it out on Monday if youâd like.
Thatâs it. No urgency, weirdly proper spelling, not even an exclamation mark.
In other words, youâre not sure what you expected but youâre no closer to answers than before.
"What does it matter?" Strange sighs when you tell him all of this with a frown.
"It matters," you reply, "because if we hadnât gone on the mission, Bucky wouldnât have died that first time and none of this wouldâve happened."
"So what?" he says. "Itâs already done."
"But if I could prevent itâ"
"It already happened."
"I can make it not happen."
"You and what powers?" Strange says sharply. "Even if you did that, it wouldnât stop the loop."
"How do you know that?"
"Because youâve already seen first-hand that itâs bound to you and your powers, not to whatever you do or donât do during the day. Karma is a fairy tale for those who donât want to take responsibility for their actions."
"Do you really still think this is me not taking responsibility?" Thereâs a green flare that goes through you, hot and seething and making goosebumps crawl down your arms.
Strange smiles at the sight. "Letâs find out."
He extends his arms and slowly opens his fists until orange symbols dance across his shaky fingers. The band around your wrist prickles at the weight of his magic flooding the air.
Strangeâs cloak nudges you towards the center of the room and your heart gives a heavy thud. "What, right now?"
"Would you prefer being stuck for a couple weeks more?"
"Of course not itâs justâI donât feel ready."
"No one ever feels ready until they try."
And maybe itâs because it reminds you of something Steve once said, but it makes you step up, falling into the stance youâve practiced over and over again. You breathe in deeply and close your eyes.
The pull comes easier now. Your powers have just been resting, nestled somewhere deep inside your bones like glowing embers, waiting for you to call upon them.
When you look at your open palm, the green wisps of your powers have curled up to the size of a ping-pong ball. You take another steadying breath and let it glide to the tips of your fingers, carefully letting it balance itself out for a second before moving your other hand.
"Good," you can hear Strange say quietly.
Slowly, carefully, you let the threads untangle until theyâre just about to touch the green band circling around your wrist. You can feel the electric tingle of it, the soft beat of each passing second contained within, and you push past it.
Youâve done this before, so youâre not surprised when you feel the energy drain from your body almost immediately. Up until now, though, itâs just been trial and error, not expecting anything to happen. This time, you have Strangeâs magic feeding some of his strength into you as well, and so instead of hesitating, you press on, your heartbeat speeding up.
The band around your wrist does the same.
"Donât lose your focus." Strangeâs voice sounds very far away, almost warped.
Very funny, you might have said, but youâre too busy watching it all unfold.
The whirring inside of your head grows louder as the circlet of time keeps rotating with accelerating speed, faster and faster until your eyes start tearing up and thereâs something that looks almost like a crack.
You gasp quietly. At first, you think you might have just imagined it, but then the split starts growing, the symbols growing farther and farther apart as the band itself keeps spinning. Your pulse is beating in your ears. Your wrist feels like itâs being set on fire.
There are voices, then, quiet and fast, like youâre watching a sped up movie, music and noises and chatter and birdsong and a whooshing sound like something flipping right past you. Then, something like distant shots.
Iâm getting Bucky out of this, you think as the green band continues rotating until suddenly, there is a shockwave of green light that takes up your entire field of vision.
You close your stinging eyes, keeping your feet firmly planted on the floor as your powers rush through you once more and then, with a shudder, settle down again, exhausted. The glare subsides. Something like a trickle of sweat runs down your noncorporeal neck.
"Did it work?" you ask, your voice rough, not daring to look for yourself. Thereâs no answer, though. "Doc?"
Slowly, your eyes readjust to the gloomy darkness of your room in the astral realm. The only source of light is the glowing green band continuing to circle around your wrist, the rifts stabilizing again like itâs clicking back into place.
You swear under your breath and turn around to ask what went wrong, but Strange is no longer standing beside you.
Youâre all alone.
***
Three, two, oneâ
"Iced grande extra whip caramel macchiaâshit!"
You catch the plastic cup before it drops onto the suit of the business man standing in line in front of you. "Here you go, sir."
He grabs his drink with a grunt and hurries back outside. One of these days, you might ask him why heâs in such a hurry, but itâs not today.
Youâve grown to adore the noise of the pre-noon rush. The cacophany of the whirring machines, the AC and the people is just loud enough to make your head calm down a little. Besides, being alone in a crowd has never been easier than when you know for a fact they are not going to remember you.
The drinks are starting to pile up at the hand-out, and because you feel bad for your colleagues, you start handing them out to people. Youâve been here a lot, after all.
"Tall hazelnut latte for Misty!"
Plus, it helps to keep your mind from wandering back to everything thatâs going wrong.
Strange still hasnât returned.
The astral dimension feels different when you return the day after your experiment, like someoneâs been pulling invisible strings to make everything just slightly more disordered and dark.
Itâs cold, too. You watch your body shiver in her sleep as you wrap your arms around yourself. The books are still there, shimmering slightly with the magic they contain.
"Doc?" you call out, and the vibrations of this place hum it back at you. Thereâs no answer.
The book at the top of the pile is still opened to a page, as if itâd just been left a moment ago, and you pick it up. The words glide around like they are looking to jump back into an inkpot, and you have to squint to make out any of them.
Incursion, the section header reads. Result of a contraction in a universeâs timeline. Can cause premature disintegration or collapse of any one reality within the multiverse.
"Just great," you say, slapping the book shut again. "I get it, alright? You can come out now."
But thereâs no sound apart from your own heartbeat.
Your noncorporeal head is swimming with pressure as you pass through the closed door and into the hallway. The walls seem larger than usual, the stairs warping ever so slightly underneath your feet so that you canât look at them for too long without feeling seasick.
Upstairs, the air doesnât feel quite as heavy. The silence follows you, though, lingering in the grayish morning shadows like the remnants of a nightmare.
Bucky still mumbles in his.
You canât make out what he is saying, and you wouldnât have understood the words, anyway, but thereâs sweat on his brow again. His fingers are tightly clutching the thin throw blanket like itâs shielding him from whatever heâs seeing in his dreams.
You take a step closer to him, desperate to do something, anything, when you notice movement out of the corner of your eye.
Alpine is perched on top of the bed, complacently tucked into herself on one of the fluffed up white pillows like itâs really her room, not Buckyâs.
And sheâs staring right at you.
You take a step to the side, then another. Alpine tilts her head, her large eyes fixed on you. They follow your gestures as you wave your hand.
A quick glance tells you that Bucky is still sleeping. You take a deep breath and conjure up a small dot of bright green light, letting it dance across your fingertips. Alpine uncurls herself in interest, her tail twitching.
"You can see me," you whisper, and the little spec of your power disappears.
The cat meows in disappointment.
Carefully, you move closer to the bed, reaching out your translucent hand until you place it on Alpineâs head.
She rubs against your palm.
You chuckle incredulously, scratching behind her ears. "You little devil."
Alpine seems particularly pleased with herself. She starts purring.
This is simply bizarre, you think as you continue petting her soft fur. Youâre expecting a sarcastic comment from behind your shoulder any minute now, but it doesnât come.
So, you lower yourself down on the floor next to Bucky, the tips of your fingers not quite grazing his arm as you swallow heavily.
And then you wait until he gets up.
Itâs possible, you think as you watch him leave and then make yourself wake up too, that Strange is simply messing with you for the hell of it. You donât like the timing of this, though. Your day still continues on and on and on, like it always does, but it seems just a little too pointed that this would happen right after you had your first hopes of getting out of here in a long time.
It doesnât help that the reality glitches have decided to return with a vengeance.
Every day is still July 4th. You wake up with a start, you train, you get coffee, you fight over lunch, you take your astral visit, you go on that damn mission. Itâs the details that start to get ⊠fuzzy.
In the beginning, every single thing around you was the exact same every single day. Now, though, there are sometimes details that are just wrong. A different mug left on the drying rack. A mess all over the tables in the lab. Weird noises all over the Tower.
You donât know what to make of any of it, and so in general, you follow Strangeâs rule of thumb and simply ignore the things that are wrong one day and then right the nextâwhich, thankfully, is all of them. You just go with it, telling yourself that this is simply reality malfunctioning a little, like a machine that needs oiling.
Weirdly enough, that doesnât reassure you in the slightest.
But what else can you do?
You lose a few hours here and there, time seemingly speeding up at random sometimes now. One morning, Bucky isnât in the gym like he usually is, and you work yourself up over it so much you nearly have a panic attack. In the end, you almost crash into him outside of his room, and a rush of reassurance floods through you with such force you canât even look at him.
That time, Sam is there when Bucky gets shot, and itâs his cry that follows you into the next day. Your hands are clean this time, and somehow that feels worse.
Everyoneâs back to their usual stuff again, and thatâs that.
Another time, youâve barely rolled out of bed and into your bathroomâ"Rise and shine, McFly!"âwhen youâre suddenly jolted forwards and you wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume. Your stomach feels like itâs still turning, nauseous, as if youâd sat up too fast.
That feeling still leaves a bad taste in your mouth, sticking to the back of your mind like the blood you havenât even had time to wash off.
The thing that demands most of your attention, though, is the pile of books waiting for you in the astral realm. Since you donât have any control over the loop itself, you pour all of your energy into trying to understand the theory behind your powers. Itâs giving you a constant headache, and it takes a lot longer than you would like to admit, but at least you feel like youâre doing something thatâll last.
Nothing else will.
Thereâs one last lonely cup sat on the counter next to your own, which signals that the rush is over for now. You can see Lucy wiping her forehead as you wave your goodbye, picking up both drinks on your way out and handing one of them to the guy just hurrying back downstairs.
"Here you go," you say without stopping, glancing at your phone. You havenât stayed this late before.
"What theâ" you hear behind you, just before the doors glide open and youâre greeted by the sound of traffic and a hot breeze of air.
If youâre lucky, you can make it back to your room without anyone seeing you. Youâve moved on to a particularly hefty tome about relativity, and youâd like toâ
"Hey! Miss? Hold on a second!"
You look over your shoulder to see the delivery guy has run after you, cup still in his hand. His bike is leaned against a lamp post nearby, his cap dangling off one of the handles.
You found out a couple of weeks ago that he takes his break just after dropping off your order, but you donât usually make eye contact anymore.
Now, he holds out his cup accusingly. "Thatâs my drink."
You smile. "Good for you."
"No. No, thatâs notâI meanâhow did you know it was my drink?"
And because nothing really matters and you really want to go home, you say, "It has your name on it, doesnât it?"
You expect him to look at you with wide eyes, just like people normally do when you know things youâre not supposed to. His mouth will drop open, speechless, his frown will deepen, and you can wink at him and continue on your way so he can spend the next couple of hours wondering what just happened.
The cup falls out of his hand, but somehow he manages to catch it before it hits the sidewalk. When he looks up at you again, and his expression is unlike anything youâve seen coming.
"But thatâs not âŠ" he says quietly. "Do you remember me?"
And then itâs you whoâs speechless, because the shock on Peter Parkerâs face is more than you bargained for.
*****
"Honestly, Iâm not sure what I was expecting, but it wasnât this," you said quietly, looking over the rim of your glass at the crowd.
"You complaining?" you heard Samâs voice say over the little earpiece you were wearing.
"Not at all."
Apparently, people connected to terrorist organizations threw incredibly fancy parties.
You hadnât felt this glamorous in a while, if ever, dressed up to the nines in a dark green jumpsuit with an incredibly flattering cut that youâd never had a reason to wear before. Despite your initial doubts about this whole thing, you felt great, for the first time in way too long.
"Are you gonna move any time soon?"
Well. Mostly.
At least Barnes cleaned up nice, you supposed; it almost made up for his grouchy demeanor.
With a sigh, you downed the rest of your drink and got back to work. You let the crowd swallow you up, seemingly on your way to the restrooms, and then you stopped it all to slip upstairs unnoticed by prying eyes and cameras.
You didnât hold it for very long; you had to rattle some doors, after all, and despite your espresso martini, it was still hard to tell if you could manage several redos back to back. After all, youâd only been back in the game for a couple of weeks.
It took you a few tries to find the right office, and locating the files was comparatively easy with what you already had access to. There it was, proof that ULTIMATUM had managed to secure most of the Flag Smashersâ previous supporters as well as some high brow weapon dealers.
While you copied everything onto a flashdrive, your eyes caught one of the designs. You frowned.
Even though you couldnât pinpoint what it was, exactly, something about it seemed just slightly too highbrow for an organization of the international bad egg committee that was supposedly still mostly underground. Your gaze started drifting through the rest of the office, noting the usual boring books and glass awards in the bookshelves on the far wall. You pulled open one of the desk drawers.
"You almost done in here?"
"Fuck!" You slammed the drawer shut again, getting your pinkie stuck in the process. "Damnit, where did you come from?"
Bucky pointed over his shoulder.
"Fuck me," you murmured, your eyes stinging at the pain.
Bucky looked nonplussed. "Canât you just undo it?"
"Great input, thank you." The flashdrive beeped softly and you shut everything down again. At least you were definitely sober now. "What are you, anyway, my babysitter?"
"Wouldnât have to be if you could check in on time," he answered, checking the corridors, then nodding for you to follow.
"Timeâs a social construct," you murmured, but followed him, the flashdrive hidden in your fist.
You didnât even make it to the staircase.
"Didnât I tell you?" a voice said right before several triggers clicked and you both froze. "I knew Iâd recognized that arm. And who do you have with you here, Winter Soldier?"
No one, you thought, and then you yanked time backwards so forcefully you stumbled into the desk, your heart still racing. The copy sat at 57%.
You felt almost seasick with the rewind, but there wasnât any time. "Keep going upstairs," you said into your earpiece.
"What?" Bucky said.
"Iâm fine. Donât come get me. Just keep going," you gritted through your teeth, trying to calm your breaths. 70%.
"Exit plan C, then," Sam said.
Bucky didnât answer. You looked at your hands. There was a slight tremor to them, but nothing too bad. If you could get the nausea under control, you could probably make it past the cameras one more time.
You shouldâve eaten more.
As soon as the flashdrive was done, you ripped it out and forced everything to a halt again. Your palms were sweaty as you hurried out of the office and in the direction of the staircase, your lungs burning. This didnât feel like a good sign.
You stumbled over your damn heels and the noise returned for that moment you lost your concentration.
Not good enough.
Sweat pearled on your forehead as you and the universe held your breath again. You could feel your hold slipping with every second that wasnât allowed to pass. Time was impatient with you.
A small crowd had assembled at the bottom of the stairs. As you closed in on them, you felt a jolt go through you and suddenly found yourself surrounded by people as time attempted to right itself again. Your nails dug into the skin of your palm so hard you could feel yourself draw blood.
It went quiet again and you moved through them, almost blindly. Everything seemed to be spinning.
Behind your shoulder, you could hear several people talking, interrupted only by the world stopping around them every now and then.
"âdâyouâsee thatâ"
"âcouldâveâsworn thereââ
And with time stumbling and flailing around in confusion, you made it out of the building and into the waiting cab.
chapter seven
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Choose 1, or 2 or 3 (or all of them) from the following lists and send them to fellow Happy Pedro Hours partakers to get to know them better and to have a good laugh!! (We kindly remind you of the Tumblr etiquette back in the day which is that if you receive an ask, it's customary to send one back to the person so they get to answer one (or two or three) themselves)
Don't forget to tag all your replies #happypedrohours !!
June 22nd updates: added questions to Would you rather and Get to know me lists, new Either Or list at the bottom of the post
Would you rather list
Have mint ice cream or chocolate gelato
Have blackberry sherbet or lemon popsicle
Drink Coca Cola or Pepsi
Eat a pizza with mushroom or pineapple on it
Spend one day in a spaceship or one day on an icebreaker
Visit Mars or Saturn?
Live in a little cottage surrounded by frog pond or fields of horses?
Road trip through the US or Australia?
Spend a day wearing no make up or wearing too small shoes?
Learn how to make sushi or noodles?
Eat a hamburger dipped in chocolate or fries dipped in fluff?
Hike an active volcano or a rainforest during a storm?
Cuddle a bear cub or a litter of baby squirrels?
Go on the Orient Express or trek to Victoria Falls?
Sleep under the stars by a swamp or in a hammock hanging from a cliff?
Have universal respect or unlimited power?
Swim in a pool full of Nutella or a pool full of maple syrup?
Spend a week in the forest or a night in a real haunted house?
*updated list*
Always have to tell the truth or always have to lie?
Run your tongue down a NYC sidewalk or press your tongue into a stranger's nostril?
Be in the real-life version of "The Walking Dead" or "American Horror Story"?
Have the hiccups for the rest of your life or always feel like you're about to sneeze but can't?
Use sandpaper as toilet paper or hot sauce as eye drops?
Be sticky for the rest of your life or be itchy for the rest of your life?
Pedro Boys edition
Would would win in a hand-to-hand fight? Dave York or Din Djarin?
Who's the better parents? Din Djarin or Mrs Flores?
Who would win the race? Frankie Morales or Din Djarin (Razor Crest edition, no space jump allowed)
Who would win in a fight? Oberyn Martell or Marcus Moreno?
Who the better cuddler during wintertime? Javi G or Marcus P?
Who's the grumpiest when they show up at their surprise birthday party? Joel or Javi P?
Who has more fashion sense? Javi G or Oberyn Martell?
Who has the best aim with a gun? Joel or Dave York?
Who has the scariest intimidating scowl? Javi P or Joel?
Who is better at reading bedtime stories? Din or Marcus Moreno?
Whoâs the best movie night buddy? Dieter or Javi G?
Whoâs the best at barbecuing? Frankie or Joel?
Who would win in a eating contest? Marcus P or Max Philips?
Get to know you list
If you could go back to any time period, where would you like to go and why?
What's your favorite color and the first thing that comes to your mind when you think of it?
If you could be transported in any fictional universe, where would you go?
What's a song that reminds you of your favorite season?
Do you read books and if yes, what's your favorite genre?
Do you cook and what's your favorite dish to make?
What's the one place in the world you have always dreamed of visiting?
What is the first concert you attended to?
What did you want to be when you were small?
Whatâs your favorite swear word (in any language) and why?
Are you a morning person or a night owl?
What was/is your favorite subject in school?
If you could only wear one color for the rest of your life, which one would you choose?
Who was your first celebrity crush?
Whatâs a weird smell that you really enjoy?
Do you have a favorite kind of flower?
Which meal is your favorite: breakfast, lunch, or dinner?
Do you collect anything?
*updated list*
What color is your toothbrush?
What's your favorite summer activity?
What's the strangest thing you've ever eaten?
What's the sexiest animal?
What is the worst job you could have?
If you could paint anything, what would you paint?
Who is your favorite cartoon character?
Who's your favorite superhero and why?
*New category*
Either or
Museum or carnival?
Horror movie or romcom?
Tea or coffee?
Friends or How I Met Your Mother?
Cat or dog?
Left side or right side of the bed?
Bath or shower?
Paintings or sculptures?
Summertime or wintertime?
Hugs or kisses?
Apple juice or orange juice?
Unicorn or mermaid?
Apple or Android?
Netflix or Disney+?
Instagram or TikTok?
Cereal or toast?
Burger or tacos?
Dinosaurs or dragons?
Greek mythology or Egyption mythology?
New York City or Los Angeles?
Crossword puzzles or jigsaw puzzle?
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Hello! My name is Halie (Pronounced Hay Lee), my pronons are She / It, I'm 31 years old, I'm pansexual normally(but right now Iâm Asexual. Not aromantic though!) but a bit demi with it, and this post is about who I am! While I'm here, if you're a terf, go away <3 If you're a minor you're on thin ice, just DNI. Otherwise, I wouldnât bother flirting atm, but if you feel the need, just come into it with literally 0 expectations of a response. There's a solid 75% chance I'll delete or ignore horny posts, even if I do like you. That said, feel free to send prompts of any kind into my box, especially for stories of some kind. The weirder and more genderfucky, the better.
Owner is @thewhorehome Love you Daddy <3
These're my gender graphs. I would love to consolidate them all into one graph, but IDK what program that would be or what that would even begin to look like considering how many variables there are, so, ya know, I did my best. These are not gender graphs that are a "one size fits all", they are mine. If you feel like associating with them feel free, but if you want to know why [Insert gender thing for you] isn't on here, it's because I have no opinion on it, don't know it exists, or don't think it applies to me! I associate with demons a lot (as the graph says) but I recently discovered that the type of demon I am is the Acedia Demon, or Noonday Demon. Aka, the demon of depression. Basically, I murdered the host of this body and replaced him. Now Iâm making it my own body. I strongly feel like Iâm not the original host, but I have access to those memories.
Now for a little bit more about me. CW: my BDSM test, A master list to my different writing projects, some selfies (SFW only), and maybe a few other things.
It's funny, a year ago that "Dominant" was at 7%, and switch was sub 20%. Sadist was also at a sub 20%, and voyeur was... sub 40% I think? I've gone through some things, most of which is from one off dates.
Now, for the Master list! If you're from The Old Times (there's like.... 4 of you, idk if you're even real, but w/e.) you MIGHT recognize this. It's been 8 million shwillion years, and I've decided to update. Don't go thinking that this means this blog is going to go and get serious though.
First up, the major projects!
Do not read this on phone. The footnotes DO NOT WORK in a decent manner. I'm sorry.
Layla is a transgirl space scavenger mechanic, an anarchist from Mars where Hypercorps run everything, and she's just hit a minor jackpot; an empty cargo ship filled with material that can not only earn her a lot of credits, but also reputation. There's just one problem; there's no pilot, there's no destination, and there's nothing to indicate what really happened.
Set in Eclipse Phase (A Transhumanist Sci-fi TTRPG), Hive's Story is a horror, about the scariest parts of being early in transition; not knowing who you are, or who you'll become, and how people abandon you. It's still a work in progress, naturally.
Charm used to be human... before she died, anyways. She's wound up in another world, and she feels different, but it's difficult to say how exactly! She doesn't remember NOT being a Hellsworn, even in her old life, but there weren't exactly Hellsworn there. She's lost, confused, and worse, she seems to be hated by anyone who isn't a hellsworn as well, and now she's being forced into the slums outside the city! Slums that are roiling with deceit, and love, and a fomenting rebellion that major players in the slums are trying to prevent. But she's not the only one who's been isekai'd; John's still trying to run the rat race; he figures he can start small, just be a mason, try to live a quiet life. He didn't think he was interested in a loud life... but something is wrong. He was doing that in his last life... and died for it! He's alone, surrounded by people who tolerate and use him, but he doesn't know what to think anymore.
Hellsworn Charm is a story about a girl on an upwards trajectory from the bottom and finding a ceiling of oppression, and about a man who is on a downwards trajectory from... well, not the top. Both struggle with their lack of purpose, but where one gets a support network, the other does not, and the two's trajectories are on a collision path. The story is more world-building than plot, and once i realized I didn't really have one, it sputtered out.
Next up, some minor projects! Some have been dropped, some are still being worked on.
This post goes into what what it is, as well as explains where it's from ^.^
WHEW. The OG. The one that... almost started it all. There were a few versions of AOM before this, but goddamn, this is the one I put the effort into. It's got some notes in it from when I was trying to rework it, which I still might do, but this version is better than the newer one, even still.
I still want to work on this one, tbh. It's a story about an apocalypse of magic (AOM), with the main character, Rhea, waking up in a hospital, having survived a magical plague in 2020 (I swear, I wrote this in 2012 or something, cut me some slack) that turned her into a Kitsune, and her brother into a Giant. At first, it's all about survival. Later, it's about realizing the depravity of humanity.
The other OG. Lesbians witches who hate each other, and also have to deal with their country falling apart. One is the princess, the other a rebellious peasant. I used prompts to get started on each part.
Honestly, don't know that I'll ever pick this one up again. I like their dynamic, but the world just wasn't it, I think. I've tried reworking it, like, 4 different times.
My very first ever long story, and also my longest even now. Almost 90 pages! I got so far! And god, my pacing was terrible. Fun though. It's FILLED with my annotations.
Aisleigh is a very poor woman who just got invited to Chile to go to a very rich mans party. She gets experimented on midway, and it goes from "Poor girl being uplifted to high society" to "kind of super-hero origin story, except she's now a brilliant fox girl". Listen, young Halie was cooking, but she did NOT know what she was doing.
A super hero origin story, except in this one, the main character began to lose her emotions. Can't really talk much about this one, pretty sure I was writing it while feeling dysphoric and worried about the apathy that was consuming my life :)
That's pretty much all of what I'm willing to share from my projects these days, but I've got a few more I'm still working on. I may add more to this over time. As of September 2024, these projects are a Mecha story, a post apocalypse mage who is so lonely she's disassociating, and whatever else happens to catch my attention.
Anyways, here's me
Also, since I'm here, I might as well talk about what I'm even into, fandom / hobby wise (besides writing)
In no particular order
She-ra, House, The Owl House, Sewing, Music, Signalis, Art (even if I can't draw y.y I love looking at it), Cooking (Is there greater joy than cooking for people and making a delicious meal? No.), TTRPG's, RP, FF14, Metroid (I've never played a single game of it, but I love Samus and always have and always will), Halo (I had every book at one point), Starfinder (I have a lot of books! I'm still trying to collect them all. Don't get to play it much though y.y), Eclipse Phase, Homestuck, and Traveller's Tale! I also love astronomy, the deep ocean, spiders, castles, knights, witches, dolls, empty spaces versions of those a little bit, fashion, goth fashion and especially pastel goth, and some others but that's all I can think of.
Thanks for reading!
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Jungwon (ENHYPEN) Relationship Role Tarot Reading
Disclaimer:
All celebrity readings have purely entertainment nature
I donât know any of the celebrities personally
Donât base life decisions purely on tarot readings
I can never guarantee any of whatâs said in the reading
Feedback: Feedback is very important for content creators and for me itâs even more important. Please, let me know whether the tarot readings resonate. If thereâs anything you dislike or find off about my readings (like wording, topics, focus), just tell me. I donât want you to write 1000-word feedback, very simple comments will do for me to stay motivated. I donât know why I have to keep repeating this but this is something I do for you, guys, and when I donât feel motivated to do tarot readings, I have many other things to do. The more motivation I get, the more readings you will get to read. The logic is very simple but itâs two sided.
Reading Info:
Rating: 18+
Reading Type: Single - Couple
Requested: Yes - No
Requester: /
Deck(s): E. A. Poe Tarot
Spread: Relationship Role
Questions:
Friend
Boyfriend
Lover
Husband
One-Night-Stand
Celebrity Info:
Full Name: Yang Jung Won
Stage Name: Jungwon
Group: ENHYPEN
DOB: 09.02.2004
Blood Type: AB
MBTI: ISTJ
Sun Sign: Aquarius
Chinese Sign: Wood Monkey
Life Path Number: 8
Masterpost: Enhypen
Yang Jung Won
Jungwon (Enhypen)
Deck: E. A. Poe Spread: Relationship Role
Friend - 8 of Wands, 10 of Wands
Jungwon is likely to be a very dynamic, busy and fast moving friend. His mind is likely to be way too quick for his friends to comprehend. He might lose focus and get bored easily and heâs always looking for new hobbies and activities to explore with his group of friends. Heâs likely to be overwhelming sometimes, maybe even too wild. Heâs likely to be the one friend always rushing the rest.
Boyfriend - XIII The Death, 10 of Cups
When it comes to dating, Jungwon is a completely different person. He becomes compassionate, loving, caring and joyful. Heâs both a romantic and faithful boyfriend. Heâs a ray of sunshine and makes every day feel special and new for his significant other.
Lover - Knight of Cups, King of Wands
Lover Jungwon is courteous and romantic. He knows how to set the right mood for the night and thereâs no creature in this world that could resist his seducing. Heâs also a goal oriented lover and his goal is the pleasure of his partner. Jungwon knows how to transform ideas and dreams into reality and he takes love making seriously. Thereâs nothing he wouldnât do for his lover to make them feel special and at the top of the world.
Husband - 5 of Pentacles, 10 of Pentacles
Jungwon might be rather pragmatic about marriage. The cards suggest strong material influence. Itâs possible Jungwon wouldnât have a problem getting married in order to unite two families and their wealth. For him, the institution of marriage is a serious matter. He wants to leave something behind, a legacy for next generations. And he will work for it.
One-Night-Stand - 7 of Pentacles, Knight of Wands
Jungwon is not very likely to be into random love affairs. If he ever slips, itâs more likely due to his recklessness and ill judgement of the situation. He might see it as a way to cope with stress but afterwards he will probably think it was a mistake and will try to bury the memory of it.
I have promised to post this reading again, once Jungwon is legal, which happened in February.
First of all, Jungwon, welcome to adulthood - the scariest hood. đ
Also, this reading was done in March 2022 so if it doesn't resonate that much, Jungwon might have grown up or matured over the time. I don't follow ENHYPEN so you have to tell me whether an update is needed.
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I love mind control tropes, I love Black Friday, and arguably the most moral characters in the play Tom and Becky being turned by Wiggly into selfish, callous, ruthless antagonists is one of the scariest parts of the play for me. So I ended up writing a little glimpse into Tomâs mind when heâs completely in Wigglyâs thrall, falling deeper and deeper. Iâm posting it in case anyone in this fandom shares my love of scenes like this. Itâs set right after he leaves Becky and Hannah for dead.
Update: now on AO3 with a second chapter adapting the âIf I Fail Youâ scene.
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Tom ran. His footsteps thundered across the eerie, deserted courtyard. The mall was still swarming with brutal cultists, cultists headed by Linda Monroe at that. Most of them had blood on their hands from the rioting earlier. They would tear him to shreds for the cloth and foam he was clutching. Not to mention Becky would be furious when she woke up - he was sorry, but he couldnât help that he needed Wiggly more than her, and it was her own fault for sedating herself and becoming dead weight. The sooner he was out of here, the better. The air was thick with tension. Acidic storm clouds were gathering in his stomach, the sense of foreboding that the situation in the mall would only get worse, and he didnât want to stay to find out how lest hell rain down upon him.
Hell. Wasnât that kind of funny? All hell breaking loose, over a random toy.
A good toy though, he would admit. His throbbing stab wound made him slow to a walk and he took the time to reexamine his prize. Wiggly really was cute, with his big fuzzy eyebrows and little fingers like twirly straws and soft, fluffy body. Stroking his tumsy-wumsy did feel satisfying.
Hello Tom. Iâm so glad you found me. I was afwaid I would never get to play with you.
Whoever designed this little guy knew what they were doing. And the marketing was great. He still couldnât get that song out of his head. So the mania and murderous cult wasnât justified, obviously, he wasnât saying that, but⊠maybe it was understandable. Maybe Tom could understand all hell breaking loose.
(It didnât occur to him to be confused that Wiggly knew his name and was saying things besides his scripted lines. It was impossible to be suspicious of anything said in such an endearing voice.)
âMy sonâs gonna love you,â he muttered.
Timâs smile beamed in his mindâs eye, so close and ever closer. His face lighting up as he realized why his dad had really left, his laughter as he played with his new toy, a proper embrace between them for the first time in far too long. Tom might have failed his wife and his sister-in-law and his old flame, but he wouldnât - couldnât fail his son too. He was still a good dad. He was, dammit. And this would prove it. He had to come through for Tim, no matter the cost.
If he couldnât even be a good dad anymore⊠he was nothing. And what kind of parent would he be if he wasnât willing to do anything for his child?
A failure.
See? He totally needed Wiggly the most! Wiggly was what Tim wanted and as he said, Tim would definitely love him.
Of course he will. Everyone loves me. Everyone wants me, so youâve got to hold onto me. And Iâll hold onto you too. Thatâs what fwends do, isnât it?
What a nice thought: a toy that loved you back. Maybe hell on Earth wasnât that bad if it meant magic was real.
He nodded at Wiggly in agreement. âNo way am I letting you go.â
Thatâs right. Just hold on; never let go. Youâre my fwendy-wend now, and youâre going to play my game. This will be so much fun!
âYeah. Thanks to you, everything will be perfect,â he breathed, and putting it into words felt like finally sliding a round peg into a circular hole. A beacon of happiness crystallizing in a world of chaos, pain and misery. He had what he needed. It would all be okay. He and his son would live happily ever after, just like life was a story being written for them, with hope building in every subsequent word.
Wigglyâs laughter echoed around his skull. Now Tom didnât even notice that it wasnât the same as the recorded version or pay attention to exactly what was said next. Why should he? He already knew that heâd agree with it, because Wiggly was about the only thing that made sense anymore. He was so glad heâd found him. Even the bitter sting of leaving Becky behind faded into sweet oblivion, eclipsed by the joy of a Tickle-Me Wiggly secure in his hands. For the first time since heâd lost Jane, he was getting what he wanted. He was in control of his life again.
Youâve settled right in in Drowsy Town, Tom. Keep enjoying your sleep. Soon itâll be forever and ever and ever.
He had never been happier.
#okay now watch the whole âif i fail youâ scene that comes after this#itâs one of my favourite scenes in the show because a) SONG GOOD and b) such aawesome powerful inner strength and character development#tried to show his motive slipping from âtim is all that mattersâ to âwiggly is all that mattersâ#also âno matter the costâ is a reference to âno matter the cost idle the threatâ#i hope i got wigglyâs dialogue right#he has a very unique voice#starkid black friday#black friday spoilers#tom houston#wiggly#wiggog y'wrath#hatchetfield#hatchetfield series#hatchetverse#mind control
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The Blood King and his Queen [7]
Pairing: Bakugou x reader
Romance, Angst, Drama
Word count: 2.4K
Summary: Â From being a mere servant girl to marrying the scariest prince in existence, your world changed right before your eyes. Exchanging places with the princess, you knew, wasnât going to be easy. But could you have found love on the way? Or was it never meant to be?
A/N: I hope you guys really enjoy this chapter because I think its my favorite chapter so far! FYI, if I don't update this series in a while, it'll be because I am working on an 18+ oneshot for a collab for Bakugou's birthday. So if that does happen, the regular uploads will happen after Bakugou's birthday. And let me tell you, its going to be S P I C Y~
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Your heart physically dropped when he said that. You felt sick. Your palms were sweating and shaking. The air around you grew dense and you felt like you couldnât breath. You couldnât move for that matter.
Ruin?
What would he do to you if he found out that you werenât really a princess? That you were a fake lying to him this whole time. It made you sick, just imaging every cruel thing he could do once he found out. But then you remembered, he wasnât like all the rumors you heard. He was different. He was kind and understanding. He wouldnât really ruin you if he found out, would he? You shook away the thought. The more you think about it, the more you were likely to get caught.
You were completely exhausted from all that labor you produced in a weekâs time. Town after town, you were able to help his people even if it was just a little bit. But it sure depleted a lot of energy out of you. You donât know if youâve ever been this drained before in your entire life. Itâs not like you had to do hard physical labor back at the palace. This experience was hard on you but also gave you insight on the prince and his kingdom.
Completely drained of your energy, you sat down on one of the tree trunks his soldiers brought for you at the camp not far away from the village you were at. The impoverished village didnât have enough shelter as is, so you were left with no option but to set up your own shelter. It wasnât a big deal to you anyway since thatâs how youâve been spending your nights so far.
All the soldiers had gathered around to take a breather for the night and drink away the stress. You werenât a drinker, but enjoyed the atmosphere the soldiers created: fun and rowdy, like they didnât give a care in the world. They were dancing on tables, clinking their drinks together, singing songs while hooking their arms around each otherâs shoulders.
You laughed at the sight and stretched out your arms. How you wanted to continue the night away but your muscles were soar and aching. A physical exhaustion that you werenât used to and didnât want to get used to.
Bakugou was watching his crew from the door, arms crossed and enjoying his crew have fun. He was never the one to be center of attention, so he had his own fun from the back. He saw the way you extended your arms, faced wincing from how sore you were. Cute. It was your last night of volunteer work, why not end the night with something special?
You felt the Blood Princeâs breath sneak up behind your neck, sending chills down your spine.
âTired?â he asks.
âMaybe just a little,â you admit. You look up at him and heâs giving you those soft yet piercing eyes. He goes to sit next to you and everything is just⊠peaceful. In that moment you felt content. You felt free. If this was how life was out of the palace, if this was more to life than just serving a spoiled princess, then you didnât want to leave.
âI am impressed, princess,â Bakugou spoke. âThis whole trip, you never, not once sat out. You helped the whole time. Are you sure youâre a princess?â he side eyed you.
âIf I am not a princess, then what am I?â you asked back. (y/n), what are you doing? You could expose yourself and everything would be ruined! But for some reason, you wanted to be selfish. You wanted to know his reaction and how he would respond. Maybe you would give up your whole mission for him.
âAn innocent and hardworking beauty that is not a princess. She is my future queen who will help me restore this kingdom.â He came closer to you, meaning every single word. Your eyes softened and you got emotional, almost to the point of tears. Heâs smiling at you, but suddenly gets up. But gestures for you to take his hand. Of course you did.
âI want to show you something,â he says and leads you away from the crowd of people and into the woods.
You two were walking for a while, your hand in his the whole way. He hadnât told you where he was leading you to but it had to be something special if he was dragging you to what seemed like all across the country to get to your destination.
âYour highness, are we almost there yet?â you asked, fatigue hitting you once again.
âAlmost,â he responds, continuing to look ahead. You huffed and held on tight to his hand so you didnât get lost or left behind. After a few more minutes of walking, you felt the air get hotter and thinner. Bakugou smiles in front of you, looking excited.
âWeâre here,â he announces. He pulls back these huge leaves, revealing a natural hot spring. The water was clear enough that you could see right through it, steam rising from the water, and rocks surrounding it, creating this gorgeous, peaceful atmosphere. Your eyes lit up and a loud gasp escaped your lips.
âHow did you find this place?â you asked, getting closer to the hot spring.
âYou like it? None of my men know about this place,â he says.
âItâs beautiful!â you continue to gasp, feeling the water with your hands. The heat of the water made you giddy and you couldnât wait to hop in.
âYou deserve it,â Bakugou comes up to, whispering in your ear. His statement made you blush, but this time, you didnât hide it. He smirks behind you and you heard something falling to the floor. You dare turn around to see Bakugou shirtless, discarding his clothes one by one. As if your face wasnât hot enough, steam was coming out of your ears with embarrassment.
âWhat are you doing?â you freaked out, turning around immediately.
âGetting in,â he said in the most obvious tone of voice.
âTogether?â
âYouâll be on one side and Iâll be on the other,â he points out a huge rock, separating the hot spring into two pools. That seems a little better, but the idea of soaking in a hot spring together with the prince was nerve wracking.
âPrincess, you can enter first, if that makes you feel better,â he suggested. When you turn to look at him, he already had his back turn out of respect for you.
So you undress and enter the heated water, noticing that all your muscles relaxed and the aches started going away as soon as you hit the water. You lean the back of your head on the rock and allow yourself to fully relax and destress. You could hear water splashing from the other side of the rock, indicating that Bakugou had also entered the water. Humming in satisfaction. You grew deeper and deeper in the hot spring until your nose was sitting on top of the water.
âPrincess, I realize that I donât know your name,â Bakugou spoke. Your name? You stayed silent. Was it wise to use your own name or should you continue to play as the princess?
â(y/n).â you decided.
â(y/n),â Bakugou repeated, elongating your name as if he stopped saying it, itâd disappear from him forever. The way your name left his lips felt like butter to him. He couldnât help himself from repeated your name over and over again in his mind. You giggled and looked over the rock, arms crossed and head resting over them.
âYour highness, allow me to scrub your back,â you offered. Bakugou waved his hand while shaking his head.
âNonsense. You shall not attend to me. Weâre here to relax,â he had to remind you. But you insisted.
âBut I want to, Prince Bakugou,â you pouted, jutting out your bottom lip.
âThe high and mighty princess wants to wash the blood Princeâs back?â he questions playfully. He glances back to see you resting on top of the rock, giving him your big doe eyes.
âIf you insist,â he gave up. He turns his back again, making sure to give you the privacy you needed to be able to come over to his side. You make your way over to him, covering your breasts in case. When you got settled behind him, you started washing his back.
You expected Bakugou to have scars from his many battles heâs had, but you didnât expect his back to be covered in decolored and deformed wounds. Unknowingly, your hands went up to caress each scar.
âDoes that frighten you?â he asks.
âNot at all,â you tell him honestly. âI think it makes you very brave.â
A comfortable silence fell upon you. Only the sound of water running and insects in the background could be heard. That was until you felt poke your butt. The hairs on your body hiked and you screamed as loud as you could, rising from the water in panic.
âPrincess!â Bakugou instinctively put protection mode on, shooting up from his place to see what the danger was. You immediately clung to him, Bakugou wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you close. What Bakugou saw wasnât an enemy but rather, a wild Japanese macaque monkey poking his head out of the water.
âShoo!â Bakugou scared the monkey out of the water and back into the forest. Bakugou grunted and relaxed his shoulders. âDamn monkeys. I thought they only came out during the winter season. Are you okay, prinâŠcess,â he looked down at you only for you to look up at him with your exposed chest fully pressed against his chest. Now this could easily be the most embarrassing moment of your entire life. Your face heated up with embarrassment and you let out another scream, using all your force to slap him across the face. Bakugou wasnât expecting such a reaction and it caught him off guard. You put for much force into the slap that Bakugou flew back and fell into the water. You ran out of the spring, covering up as fast as you could.
Bakugou had never been so flustered in his life. He was a blushing mess and now the image of your naked breasts on him could not escape his mind. He needed time to calm himself down and a certain friend from getting too excited.
When you both had returned back to the rest of the crew, everybody had been knocked out cold from the alcohol. Thank goodness, because they couldnât see how awkward you two were at the moment. That night, you slept in the tent again while Bakugou camped outside.
But you couldnât sleep. How could that situation happen to you, out of all people? You werenât sure how much he saw of your naked body. Maybe he didnât see anything at all. But you saw the expression on his face, he definitely saw something. You covered your chest and closed your eyes. To think that a man saw your body and it wasnât even your wedding night.
You felt the wind enter your tent, the chill making you shiver. If it was cold inside the tent, it must be extra cold outside. Bakugou was sleeping outside. You bit your lip in confliction. You wanted him to be warm but that means you had to confront him. Ah, fuck it. You opened your tent and saw Bakugou resting on the grass with his cape wrapped around him. And it wasnât doing a very good job because you could see him shivering. He couldnât hide it no matter how hard he tried.
âWould you like to come inside?â you invite him in.
âItâs for you, princess,â he reminded you.
âI understand. But itâs too cold to be sleeping out here. Please. I insist,â you urged. He opens one eye and sighs.
âAs you wish, princess,â Bakugou gave in. You scooted over to make room for the large man to sleep next to you. Bakugou made himself comfy but he was a tad too tall for the tent that he had to have his legs hanging out. The opening of the tent revealed the big, bright moon overhead.
âIâm sorry for hitting you,â you apologized. Bakugou just lets out a breath.
âItâs whatever. I didnât see anything, by the way,â he reassures you. Embarrassed again, you unconsciously covered your chest.
âYou sure?â
âErased from my mind,â he says as he closes his eyes and moves his hands around his head, as if he was erasing his memory. You laugh at his antics, more comfortable with the mood that was created. Bakugou laughs with you and turns to you, meeting eyes. This is the nth time that his heart leapt when you stare at him with those innocent, childlike eyes. He clears his throat and all of a sudden, his ears got red.
âThe moon is beautiful, isnât it?â Bakugou professed. You blinked in confusion. You werenât sure why he said that. Glancing up at the moon, you guess you could say that it was beautiful. It was a full moon, and shone brightly above your heads. You werenât versed in the poetics so you couldnât comprehend the message the Blood Prince was trying to get at you.
âThe moon is especially beautiful tonight. But isnât the moon beautiful every night?â you responded.
Bakugou looks are you in mortification. Fuck, did he just get rejected? His ears got hot and he covered his mouth with his hands.
âYeah⊠yeah it is,â he agreed, embarrassed. He took a deep breath in and back out again to calm his beating heart. You look over at him to see him a little distressed. You softly smiled, another side you got to see of him. It was cute. You could feel your heartbeat starting to pick its pace up and thatâs when you realized. Gathering up all the courage you could muster, you leaned over to kiss him on the cheek you slapped.
âGood night,â you quickly say, then turned over to face away from him. Bakugou stops everything in his tracks and is frozen. He couldnât help but smile and fall asleep next to you.
The moment you made the decision to kiss him was when you knew that you wanted to be selfish. You wanted to become his queen and rule his kingdom together. You were going to forget your past life. You were going to forget this mission you were on. You were the princess now. That was his truth and you werenât going to change it.
A/N: For those who don't know, the phrase "the moon is beautiful, isn't it" or æăç¶șéșă§ăă is a more poetic way of saying "I love you" in olden Japanese. And then the response to that would be "I can die happy" or æ»ăă§ăăăă. Just for reference.
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iâm not even into overwatch anymore but i just wanted to say I ADORE your art style and hope to develop my own into a similar semi-realism leaning...have you made a post about your art journey? Iâm assuming I just need to buckle down and do anatomy studies but any tips are very welcome!! Ty for your time <3
Oh man thank you! Iâve never made a comprehensive post about how I got to *gestures* whatever this point in my art this is, and I definitely sat here wondering what âart journeyâ means for me since I always feel like Iâm stumbling around so Iâll answer as completely as I can. But a great way to develop a realism-minded eye is to draw from photos and life. Everyone in the world has said it over and over but it really gets it done, itâs not any more complicated than that. Itâs how I started when I was little and itâs not something I planned, but the Legolas posters were right there so how could I not? Your own non-realism âstylisticâ touch will bubble up whether you want it to or not and thatâs a beautiful thing. Itâs not something you need to look for because it happens on its own, whether itâs you seeing something another artist is doing that you like and assimilating it into your work, or itâs your own unique way that you absorb information from the world and use it to solve problems in the drawing in front of you. Some new artists also still have the idea that using references is cheating-- Iâm not blaming them, sometimes this weird thing is circulated by more established people as well-- but this is a very small minority. Please use references. Iâd be lost without them. The Castlevania team has a giant collection of references for faces of every character from every angle, props, etc. and I always have a second screen up with 10 different sheets of whoever Iâm drawing. Feeding yourself info is essential to getting better. Look at how other artists handle something youâre having a problem with too. If theyâre doing a similar pose or something, study their drawing and ask yourself what specifically, extremely technically about that drawing is convincing-- what marks are where, and what is the quality or direction of the strokes? Try it out on your own drawing. If youâre stuck, become aware of if youâre holding on too tightly to what you think something should look like. I have to remind myself this as well. Really try to let go of the idea you have in your head about how something works and simply try instead to draw what you see, even if it feels weird. The results are often pleasantly surprising.Â
I have a funny relationship with studies. You seem to be looking at them like a chore and I feel the same way. Itâs impossible for me to sit down and just draw something over and over, disconnected from emotion or a larger narrative. I think a wonderful way to âstudyâ is to incorporate those studies into a project that you wanted to do anyway. Iâve used my minicomics to get better at background painting or specific figure poses that I needed for the story but wasnât sure how to do. Iâm a very âoops I need it now better learn TODAYâ kind of artist, if that suits you better than buckling down and doing anatomy studies for hours. Both are great ways to improve, but you have options for how to get there.Â
In terms of how much time I spend drawing.. well lol itâs a lot. I almost typed âbut I donât do it every dayâ but yes, my jobs have made sure that I do (I tend to separate personal drawing and job drawing). But the truth is, to get better, a lot of very focused drawing time is important; how much of it is up to you and your schedule. You can sit down for 6 hours and doodle or you can sit down for 3 with an extremely critical eye. Itâs about the volume of time as well as focus and I donât have a clear answer for it, but I can point to one specific year in my life where I made artistic progress like Iâve never seen from myself since. I drew a comic with regular updates during that time and, looking back, the art was not good. But the point was, I was drawing for 7 hours a day after work, at least 5 days a week, and actively looking to draw things that I hadnât done before or knew that I wasnât good at, and the result was that every single update was almost like it was drawn by a different person-- readers noticed and commented on the progress as well. It was very much an art bootcamp and I wouldnât have the skills I do at this point if I hadnât done it. Itâs important that youâre loving what you do if you do it for yourself! Thatâs how you get through big projects and continue to be excited with where you are. Love is one of the most important motivators and discipline-keepers in art, in my experience. Draw what sets your brain on fire and attack it wholeheartedly even if itâs really weird or niche, not what you think you should be drawing, and youâll improve a million times faster.
Art journey in terms of what Iâve done with my life (if this is what you meant from the beginning IâM SORRY Iâm just trying everything you might have meant) uhhh I havenât been to art school. I have no idea what my relationship with art would be like now if Iâd had any formal training and I donât really dwell on it. I could either be a testament to being able to get by without it or an example of someone who has no idea what sheâs doing at all and lacks many basic foundational art skills. I have an architecture degree. I love architecture, I love the language of space we build for ourselves, and Iâm truly, deeply glad for that eye-opening and often grueling experience, but I think my current field is a much better fit. Before animation I worked as a graphic designer mainly drawing storyboards for commercials and internal-industry stuff-- lots and lots of quick colored sketches (one of our main clients was a big glass company and my god I never thought Iâd draw so much glass in my life). I was able to do that job due to the skills I developed through personal work. Maybe Iâd be a hundred times more powerful if I went to art school! Maybe Iâd be completely burned out and bitter and not drawing anymore at all! I just donât know. I have friends who have had both experiences. Whether you choose art school or not itâs best to keep tabs on if the art youâre currently making brings you joy. Joy and struggle arenât mutually exclusive. Oftentimes Iâm drawing something I care deeply about but itâs VERY FUCKING HARD and Iâm frustrated but itâs worth it.
I also do everything while being very scared of the thing. I have a lot of deep-seated anxiety that Iâm constantly trying to root out and my brain compulsively twists things around into why I canât do something, why people secretly know Iâm below-par and are just too nice to tell me, how Iâm âtrickingâ people into thinking Iâm better than I am, etc. Itâs so bad that my first thought when I was initially offered the art test for my current job was to say no; not because I didnât want it so badly it hurt, but because I thought Iâd be too much of a disappointment. After completing the test I spent an hour figuring out the most gracious way to apologize for not being enough. Itâs common, but not something to accept and weâre all working on it. I just thought it was important to mention because art is also a mental journey and forces you to do all this navel-gazey shit in order to advance, and feeling like you are Not Enough is rife in the creative community. The work feels entangled with my value as a person because art is a massive part of my life. Something Iâm learning is that I donât have to be confident or sure of myself all the time. This ensures that the process is usually painful and frightening. Often thereâs no way to make it less painful or frightening, and I just have to hold my breath and do it. An oddly comforting thing to me the past couple years is to remind myself that the scary thing Iâm about to do wonât be the scariest thing Iâll ever do. I implies both that this isnât the pinnacle of my progress and also that I will inevitably get over it. If you continue with art youâre going to run into things like this and I guess if it was me it wouldâve been helpful to know Iâm not alone in it.
I hope that maybe answered some of your questions, maybe? If you have some specific questions feel free and Iâll try my best. Hope you have a good day/night!
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Kuromyu 2021 asks
ăResponse to post: Kuromyu âSecret of the Boarding School Arcâă
Dear everyone,
As many of you have already seen, MKP announced a new Kuromyu after 3 years! âThe Secret of the Boarding School Arcâ. I have received some asks about this, so allow me to answer them here one by one ^^
Dear Anons,
Yes indeed! âSecret of the Boarding School Arcâ is going to be a thing! Erm... well, as you must have seen, no Sebastyun anymore. The announcement is official.
I donât know Tateishi beyond the most surface level, but from what I do know, he can sing. Thatâs at least one thing that is promising! But otherwise I have no estimate of him whatsoever. We shall see.
I hope this time the Kuromyu fandom wonât be as nasty about him as they were about Matsushitaâs calling him âa helium balloonâ or âhe sounds like a girl.â And then about Furukawaâs nose at first... =v= I mean, everyone can complain about an actor, but if thereâs nothing substantial you can complain about then.... ugh never mind.
ăResponse to: Werewolf Arc as most likely candidate?ă
Dear Anon,
Yes, I did, but I feel like it is useless to answer that specific part of your question now (âœÏâŒ;) So letâs skip to your following questions.
Well, I wouldnât call this post a prediction, but indeed, my reasoning that the Werewolf arc would be the most likely next candidate for Kuromyu is obviously wrong, and dramatically so! Here we are, Kuro Potter arc, even though I really thought it would be the LEAST likely one.
But, just like I have explained in the post from October 2019 about a hypothetical Potter Kuromyu, I canât say Iâm really hopeful without lying. I am interested, but not hopeful. All my concerns I spoke of at the time are still my concerns right now.
I worried about Kuromyu becoming Tenimyu, and the musical is mostly likely going to be Tenimyu. Nothing wrong with Tenimyu as such, but Kuromyu is just never made to be like a Tenimyu.
I worried about KuroPotterâs story not suitable for stage adaptations and an expensive cast... and well, indeed, no expensive cast anymore. But then, how will Kuromyu2021 sell their appeal without much of Sebas and Undertaker????
I worried about a different Sebastian inevitably going to be compared to Furukawa, and judging from my Japanese twitter feed, that prediction is not going to be off.
Japanese twitter isnât even being mean about Tateishi, most people just go: âeh? Suddenly switching out the current prince of the musical world and the Sebastian praised so highly by sensei?â âThose are crushing expectations!â âWill Tateishi be alright? Will he be able to perform outside Furukawaâs shadows?â
All are VERY legit things to say! The scariest thing for Tateishi is not just having to play Sebastian - the perfect demon butler. Nor is it having to compete against Furukawaâs Sebastian. No, he needs to compete against Furukawaâs reputation as âthe prince of the Imperial Theatreâ no media outlet can NOT emphasise, and the Sebastian declared above canon by Yana herself, and the man who made the highly critical Editor K go gaga for. - Talk about pressure!
But yessss, in short, I am interested and concerned.
Dear Anon,
Grell is not even in the arc... so no, no announcement for any Grell, old or new.
As for Izumi Shuuhei, the thing about supervising the script of Kuromyu2021, that was Izumiâs retweet of Yanaâs tweet, not his own. Yana is asked to return for the supervision of the script and the costumes.
There is no reason for any producer to ask an ex-actor to supervise a script for a musical he is not going to be part of.
For anyone interested in what Yana wrote:
In fresh wear that is befitting of a new season called âspringâ, it has been decided that there shall be a new musical âKuroshitsujiâ! This time too I was called to supervise the script and the costumes, and I shall humbly partake. Please look forward to future updatesăTobosoă
Dear Anon,
YES APPARENTLY THERE IS GOING TO BE, I AM ALSO SHOCKED!! ÎŁ(ĂAĂ)!
About the new cast, I donât know ANY of these new actors except 2 from the most surface level, namely Sebastian and Redmond... so I have no idea. Just from instinct though:
đ«Tateishi (Sebastian): You poor... poor man, your life is going to be so hard for at least a short while... Like I said above, Furukawa left impossibly large shoes to fill to begin with, but being made to compete against his reputation as literally the highest rank performers can achieve in Japan is just unfair.
Good luck to you, young man! You seem to be capable of singing, so I hope they at least capitalise on that!
đ« Konishi (Ciel): ... I already thought 16 year old Sakamoto was too old for Ciel in 2009, and now thereâs a 20 year old adult man playing a 13 year old baby-face O.o? Iâve looked up a bit of his acting, it seems decent!
After everyone being used to really young Ciel actors since 2010, and especially with the super small and adorable Reo though... I think this man too is going to have a really hard time getting accepted as Ciel. Though to a lesser extent than Furukawaâs crushing reputation, Reoâs reputation as Ciel really is very pressing too...
But yes, no judging before actually seeing! We shall see.
đ« Ueda (Undertaker): Like I said in this post, Undertaker really has almost NOTHING to do in this arc, so I donât have any opinion about Ueda. I have never heard of him before this announcement, but they could have cast an android for Undertaker and the damage would still have been minimal. (I stand by my old point; why bother adapting this arc at all??? Well, at least Ueda is unlikely to be overworked from studying his script.)
đ« Sana (Redmond): Iâve only known him from Patalliro!, but I never watched it. But for Patalliro! Sana was cast because of his beauty and flair for Maraich. So I am sure Redmond will be just within Sanaâs field too!
đ« Tazuru (Greenhill): NO idea, never heard of him, but he LOOKS the part!
đ« Satonaka (Bluer), Godou (Violet), Furuya (Clayton), Nakajima (Edward), Taguchi (Maurice): Idem.
đ« Fukuzawa (Chesslock): Never heard of him either, but he REALLY REALLY REALLY looks the part (âœâœâŒ) His face just screams: âbruh, whaddya got, loser!?â
đ« Uchino (Hearcourt): Never heard of him, he looks VERY cute... MKP, couldnât you cast this youngest actor for Ciel or did he just lose the audition of Ciel? Oh well, he looks appropriately Hearcourt I guess! We shall see.
đ« Hayakawa (McMillan): Never heard of him, but from the photos I could find he does not really look like what Iâd expect of a 3D McMillan. But then again, neither do Furukawa and Uehara, and we all know how much I love them. Looks are just looks ^^ Acting is more important.
đ« Yamaguchi (Derrick): Never heard of him, looks the part, Iâm sure heâll be fine.
đ« Agares (Takahashi): Never heard of him, but from his photos he really does have that energy, so Iâm sure heâll be fine!
đ« Okada (Soma): I..... am actually REALLY surprised, and even right now Iâm not sure I found the right guy. Is this really the guy?? Not just a different guy with the same name? I mean, I am sure he is a great actor, but this man is 20 years older than the actual Soma.
They already got 15 young men, they really couldnât find another one? Oh well, Iâm sure heâs a great actor. And otherwise, the role is so incredibly small, any potential damage is limited.
Dear Anon,
Yes, my day is lovely, but also flabbergasting because I spent most of it thinking about this announcement. But I hope your day was lovely too^^
Erm.....about a potential anime adaptation. As has been proven, I am not very good at predicting stuff! So perhaps I am not the right person to ask stuff.
Even though the Universe is probably going to prove me wrong again, I THINK the chances are a bit low for the Boarding School Arc being adapted?
Let us not talk about the Mansion Murder arc, and just look at Circus and Campania arc. Those two are unambiguously the two most popular arcs, but when they got adapted the budget was so horrifically low it was almost embarrassing to look at.
As discussed in this post, Book of Circus was also aired at the weirdest possible times, and that was one of the two MOST popular arcs... as explained before in this other post, the Boarding School Arc is the least popular arc among the main/Japanese fandom... so I personally think the chances for this to get an anime adaption to be fairly low.
Just my thoughts since you asked. The Universe has proven me wrong more often, it might again.
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Ep 201: The Disappearance of Frederick Valentich Part 3
âI am prepared to swear on oath or submit myself to any lie detector test to substantiate this, my statement.â
â Don Cox, who observed a triangle-shaped UFO for 45 minutes from his yard in Adelaide, 385 miles northwest of Valentichâs last known location, just 28 minutes after his radio fell silent.
Description:
As we wrap up our coverage of the Frederick Valentich story in Part 3 of our series, we'll continue our conversation with Melbourne resident Chris Tyler about his research into the case and other possibly related UFO incidents around the same time and area. We'll also examine the Australian Department of Transport accident report's remaining findings and discuss its conclusions. As you begin to reach your own conclusions, it's essential to keep several factors in mind which make the usual mundane explanations seem inadequate. The high number of independent sightings of aerial phenomena occurring in proximity to the disappearance suggests Valentich wasn't alone in witnessing it. The distance a Cessna cowling was found from a potential crash site and the lack of definitive markings makes its discovery inconclusive. Even if the cowling did come from Valentich's plane, it still doesn't account for what caused him to ditch, let alone other missing debris and Valentich himself. Perhaps the most surprising revelation comes from the summary of the report itself. Rather than dismissing the possibility of a UFO entanglement, an official government statement lists it as one of four likeliest scenarios. Remember that Valentich himself never suggested he interacted with a UFO in his last transmission, despite being painted as obsessed with them by his skeptics. When these factors and more are taken together, it's no wonder this incident is one of the most baffling and tragic in the phenomenon's history and leaves us all to wonder, what happened to Frederick Valentich and where did he go?
Location:
Moorabbin Airport, where Frederick Valentich took off from on October 21, 1978, headed for King Island across Bass Strait.
Reference Links:
âUFO suspicions still cloud disappearance of Frederick Valentichâ from Melbourneâs Herald Sun
The strange noises heard on Valentichâs last transmission, posted on Facebook by A.U.F.O.A. â Australian UFO Action
âHow the 40-year-old mystery of a UFO in New Zealand lives onâ from news.com.au, about Quentin Fogartyâs UFO experience
The UFO Documents Index on NSA.gov
Cape Otway Lightstation
âWhat is the Aurora Australis?â on Universe Today
The Green Flash
âThe Disappearance of Flight N3808H, Puerto Rico, 1980â blog post by âkarl 12â on AboveTopSecret.com
âDisappearance of flight N3808H 28th of June, 1980â with pilotâs radio transmission on YouTube
âUFOs, USOs and the Island of Puerto Rico.â by âkarl 12â on AboveTopSecret.com
âJet Fighters disappear as they approach UFO in Puerto Ricoâ section of a documentary on YouTube
âTwo F-14s kidnapped by UFO near Puerto Ricoâ forum thread on unexplained-mysteries.com
âThe Valentich Disappearance: Another UFO Cold Case Solvedâ by James McGaha and Joe Nickell on Skeptical Inquirer
âSpooky Space âSoundsââ from nasa.gov
âWhat Is This Flying Object??? Occurred at Cape Hatteras Lighthouse - 1/7/2021â on YouTube by Wes Snyder Photography
The âPPRuNeâ forum or âProfessional Pilots Rumour Networkâ discussing Valentich's radio transmission
The Melbourne Marvels podcast and their episode on âThe Unresolved Disappearance of Frederick Valentichâ
â10 Truly Bizarre Incidents From The Bass Strait Triangleâ from Listverse
The Unsolved Mysteries Wiki on Fandom.com for the Frederick Valentich episode
âLost yacht mystery continues 30 years onâ from abc.net.au
Sydney to Hobart Yacht Race on Wikipedia
âRace Tragedy Tale / Oracle CEO tells all to St. Francis Yacht Clubâ from SFGate.com
â'Holy grail' or epic hoax? Australian Kelly Cahill's UFO abduction story still stirs passionsâ from ABC South West Victoria news
âCapturing the Lightâ â The true story of Dorothy Izatt on Amazon Prime
Close Encounters of the Third Kind feature release date information on IMDb
The Frederick Valentich case on the original Unsolved Mysteries, Season 5, Episode 2 on Amazon Prime
âLast Light: the Valentich Mysteryâ from The History Listen with Kirsti Melville on ABC.net.au
âDisappearance of Frederick Valentichâ on Wikipedia
âWhat Happened to Frederick Valentich? Possibly the scariest UFO case everâ by OzWeatherman on AboveTopSecret.com
âValentich Case Files Finally Releasedâ by Kandinsky on AboveTopSecret.com
âThe Valentich Abduction/Disappearance: 40th Anniversaryâ by MirageMan on AboveTopSecret.com
âThe Abduction of Fred Valentichâ from The Unexplained Files on Discovery UK â YouTube clip of Melbourne Flight Advisor Officer Steve Robey describing his radio communication with Valentich
Complete episode on the Valentich disappearance from The Unexplained Files on the Discovery Channel
Cessna 182 âSkylaneâ
Valentichâs missing aircraft report online, from the National Archives of Australia
Download of Valentichâs missing aircraft report as a PDF
Bass Strait
Moorabbin Airport
â'Truth' was out there after all âAn accidental discovery sheds new light on the mysterious disappearance of a pilot in 1978, writes Miles Kempâ from The Advertiser
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Heart of Glass, Mind of Stone, 1/? (Jiji, Methydoll) - Ella
summary - When Crystal envisioned her life as a law student, she daydreamed of topping her classes and the inevitable sleepless nights that it would come with. What she didnât expect was to be so tied up to a high-profile murder case that it was next to impossible to get herself out of it.
a/n - welcome to my first ever multichap! ive been planning this for almost a month now, so glad that itâs finally out here! thank you so much to the amazing and talented @imalwaysaslutfordrag for beta-ing! thank you to v as well for helping me sort out some concerns, sheâs really really cool :>
feel free to hmu here on tumblr @dawningofdrag or maybe, if you have the time, give this a read on ao3 as well! enjoy some lawyer gays, folks
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There was a dead body lying on the floor and nobody. dared. to move.
âWe killed her,â Crystal spoke, voice so hoarse from the screaming just moments ago that her throat ached.
Her eyes were blown wide- just like everyone elseâs -as she stared at the corpse lying lifeless on the dark herringbone floorboards. The bright fluorescent light of the lamp posts that stood outside the property peeked through the sheer curtains of the living room they stood in, almost perfectly framing the bleak expression of the cadaver resting in the middle of the circle the Latina and the rest of the group had created.
A breathy scream broke the silence and Crystal traced the sound back to Gigi, who dropped to the floor in sheer terror. Her green eyes barely broke contact with the body, short erratic breaths escaping her bare pink lips through the pale hand that covered it. Crystal instinctively ran over to where the blonde now sat on the floor, wrapping her arms around her lean frame in an attempt to calm her down.
âSheâs dead,â Gigi gasped out, bloodshot eyes still refusing to tear away from the body laid out in front of her. The Latina grasped the blondeâs hand, squeezing it to offer some sense of comfort despite the horrifying circumstances.
The room fell silent, a thick, heavy air resting on their shoulders as they all collectively just stood there, allowing their actions and its repercussions to settle into their conscience.
âWeâre murderers,â Gigi whispered through her hiccups, and all Crystal could do was nod. They killed her. They committed murder, and all of a sudden it felt like it was much, much harder to breathe.
- three months before -
Crystal shot the rest of her now lukewarm coffee down her throat in a quick motion, slamming the warm thermos down on her incredibly small desk with a loud thud. She exhaled, setting her bag on the floor next to her chair before inserting herself in it. Her hands grazed the chipped wood that made up her armrests, a soft smile appearing on her painted lips.
First day of law school, totally not the scariest thing in the whole world. Not like she dreamt of this day since she was a little girl, you know?
Crystal could now proudly declare to the world (and her extremely judgemental tiaâs and tioâs) that she was studying law at the best law school in the country, sitting in a lecture hall ready to attend a class spearheaded by the sole individual who made her realize she wanted to pursue a law career in the first place. How she wasnât fully freaking out right now was just as much of a mystery to her as it was to everyone else.
She set her laptop on the desk attached to her assigned chair, flipping through the thin folder of her academic roster with curious eyes. She quickly glanced over her classes, the professors teaching them, taking into account the buildings they were held in and when they started.
The sound of a cough diverted the Latinaâs attention, bright green eyes meeting hers.
The woman was clad in an olive green pantsuit and a plain black blouse that seemed to fit her like a glove. It seemed perfectly tailored, almost as if the suit was custom-made. Her short blonde hair was styled to be pin straight, meticulously tucked behind one ear to show off her strong jawline. Her green eyes were narrowed, staring into the Latinaâs eyes as if she was guilty of a crime she didnât commit.
Crystal almost laughed at how hard the woman tried her best to look intimidating.
âCan I help you?â She questioned in a sing-song tone, a perfectly shaped eyebrow raised in confusion. The blonde rolled her eyes.
Crystal narrowed her own. Okay, Elle Woods.
âYouâre sitting in my seat.â The woman tapped the sole of her black Louboutin on the tiled floor repeatedly, impatiently waiting for a response.
âPretty sure I sit here, Ms. Woods.â
âHow original.â The blonde scoffed, pulling out a digital image of the assigned seating from her phone to show the Latina who still sat comfortably in her seat, showing no willingness to move whatsoever.
âI sit in the sixth chair from the right.â She stated matter-of-factly. Crystal didnât even bother hiding her amusement.
She chuckled, turning her body to point at the vacant seat next to her. âI sit in the fifth seat from the right.â Crystal grinned a mischievous smile. âYouâre one off, Woods.â
She watched as the blonde womanâs cheeks flared up in embarrassment, quickly taking a seat next to her while keeping her head hung low.
âYouâre a law student and you canât even like, count correctly?â The brunette mocked the woman next to her, nudging her side softly to lighten the mood.
âIâm smart in other ways.â The blonde rolled her eyes once more, but her cold facade faded away just moments after doing so, and a grin started to creep up on the edges of her glossed lips.
âGeorgina Goode, Columbia.â She greeted Crystalâs lighthearted gaze with an extension of her arm, hand out for her to shake. âGuess I should master the art of counting before I try to act like I know my shit.â
âWell, you learn new things everyday.â The brunette grinned. Of course she was a Georgina. She reeked of water polo lessons and summers in a beach house in Miami. It further supported Crystalâs initial hypothesis that Ms. Goode, she was definitely an Elle Woods type. You know, the privileged but woke white kid who believed they deserved a medal for recognizing their privilege. She met a couple of them back in pre-law, and they were all so incredibly annoying.
Gigi seemed slightly less annoying though, so sheâll reserve the need to have an opinion until she actually got to know her.
âJust call me Gigi, though.â
Crystal nodded at the information, extending her arm out to receive the open hand.
âCrystal Harness, Yale.â
Their hands collided, a firm couple of shakes and soft smiles before they both pulled away, shifting away from each other to set up their table (seriously though, why were they so small? She wasnât paying forty grand a semester for her lecture desk to support the weight of half her laptop).
âSo, what brings you here?â Crystal couldnât help but question, starting a conversation between the two and sparking the interest of the woman next to her. It never hurt to make friends in law school.
âI mean, if you were already in Columbia. Donât they like, top the bars all the time?â
âOh, easy.â Gigi scoffed at the question as if her answer was so painfully obvious, briefly pointing to the professorâs desk situated just a couple of rows in front of them. âHer.â
I mean, that reason was fair enough. Crystal would be lying if she told you she didnât also take the attorney into mind when choosing a law school. If she really had to tell the truth, then yes, Attorney Jaida Essence Hallâs teaching position was the sole reason she chose Middleton for law.
Could you blame her though? She was Black, gay, female, and an absolute fucking legend. Harvard Law Valedictorian, record-breaking LSAT score, and built her whole reputation from the ground up. She was a whole ass celebrity in Crystalâs eyes, and hearing that Jaida had a teaching position in Middleton was all the information she needed to choose the university.
âI get it.â Crystal replied after a brief moment, finally relaxing against the back of her chairâs deflated cushions. âI kind of wanna be her.â
âYou and every other woman in this class, Crystal.â The blonde mumbled, smirking at her snide remark. âYouâre not special.â
Well, she wasnât wrong.
The booming sound of high heels clicking against the tiled floor almost startled Crystal, immediately turning her attention towards the woman who just entered the room.
âGood morning class, my name is Jaida Essence Hall-â
She set her black Hermes bag on top of the wooden professorâs table with a loud thud, flipping her long dark hair past her shoulder so effortlessly that she had Crystal, Gigi, and the rest of the class absolutely mesmerized.
Professor Hall turned to face the class in one swift motion, sporting a welcoming grin before continuing her entrancing introduction.
â- and welcome to Criminal Law 100.â
Crystal swore under her breath, taking everything in. The reason she wanted to pursue law was standing twelve feet away from her, leaning against the table with her arms crossed around her chest.
The Latina couldnât even force herself to focus on the rest of Jaidaâs probably really inspiring opening monologue, mind still busy trying to wrap about the idea of breathing the same air as Jaida Essence Hall. Was she overreacting? Probably. Did she care? Absolutely the fuck not. Let her have this.
âIf you have been keeping yourselves updated on local news, Iâm certain that you have crossed the ongoing case regarding the murder of Brianna Heller.â
That sentence pulled Crystal out of the trance she found herself in, the wording of her statement incorrect in her honest opinion. You didnât need to watch the local news to know about it. If you lived in Philadelphia for a solid five minutes youâd know about the case of Brianna Heller. She was a Middleton undergrad who went missing for a whole month before her body was found two days ago in the basement of an abandoned warehouse, a spot frequented by undergrads looking for their dose of illegal thrill. Each and every aspect of the case felt like it was pulled right out of a murder mystery book, down to the alleged suspects and their relationships with each other. The press was having a field day milking the case dry for any information they could publish. Â
Jaida went back and forth across the platform, one hand on her hip as she continued. âJust this morning, I was asked to represent one of the main suspects, Jamie McKenna.â
The woman clicked on her remote, displaying a photo of the woman on the projector screen.
I mean if you were gonna ask Crystal, she thought Jamie did it. After quickly scanning the case a couple of nights ago when she had absolutely nothing better to do, she had a gut feeling the blonde committed the murder. They both had rather large online followings due to their theater backgrounds, but Brianna had much bigger numbers in comparison to Jamie, even though in Crystalâs opinion, Jamie was a much better singer.
There was a very clear motive and intent. All they needed was to find the murder weapon and the case was closed.
The class erupted in loud whispers once the photo displayed itself on screen, Gigi visibly unfazed next to her. Everyone has had a conversation about the case with friends, family, strangers. Talking about it felt redundant and unnecessary, and if you were going to ask Crystal, the conversation was getting really boring.
Jaida paused for a brief moment, allowing the murmurs to die on their own before speaking further. âAnd although both my associates are very capable individuals, the publicity surrounding the case is unbearable, which means I cannot make one single mistake.â
Crystal narrowed her eyes, confused as to the relevancy of her announcement until it hit her.
Oh my fucking God.
Jaidaâs gonna need a team.
âWhich means Iâm gonna need a team.â
Holy shit.
âFor the next week, I will be paying close attention to how you all work during my lectures. My associates will be in attendance, watching from the sidelines, and observing each and every one of you. We need the best of the best so that those chosen will be more of an asset rather than a burden.â
Crystalâs eyes were blown wide at Jaidaâs words, her head still spinning as she tried to grasp how big of a deal this actually was. Her eyes met Gigiâs, who was equally as taken back as the Latina, jaw slacked open in shock.
âYou will be meeting my associates tomorrow, but make a lasting first impression on me and you might find yourself in the list of people I consider. Am I clear?â
Crystal nodded absent-mindedly, her mind sprinting a million miles a minute as she automatically started to come up with ways to stand out of a class of sixty people.
âAlright, now that thatâs all cleared up,â Jaida turned on her heel to fiddle with her laptop, displaying the assigned reading on screen before turning to face the class once more.
âDoes anyone want to summarize the case of Commonwealth v. Polachek for me?â
Crystal had never raised her hand quicker in her entire life. It was game on, I guess.
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Crystal fumbled to pull out the keys of her front door from the pocket of her cross-body bag, feeling the contents with her fingers until she felt the metal touch her skin. She walked past her neighbor, flashing a nervous smile the womanâs way before she stopped just in front of her apartment.
âWerenât you in Professor Hallâs class today?â
Crystalâs head whipped around to face the woman who stood a couple of feet away from where she stood, leaning against the doorway of the apartment just next to hers.
The Latinaâs eyes met the other girlâs equally dark ones, wavy dark hair framing the womanâs face perfectly. She was clad in a tight-fitting black turtleneck tucked into a high waist black pant, dark plaid blazer and gold jewelry breaking the monochromatic fabrics and causing her jet-black hair to stand out against the blazerâs tweed fabric. Â
âYeah. â Crystal stumbled over her words, running her free hand through her thick curls. How was every single woman in her Criminal Law class so fucking pretty? âMiddleton Law too?â
âMhmm.â Her neighbor smiled, taking a couple of steps forward to close the rather large distance between them both.
She reached out her hand. âJackie Cox. Harvard Medicine.â
Crystal has never shaken so many hands in such a small period of time. The second they all entered law school everyone became so pathetically professional that it almost humored her.
âCrystal! NYU.â She grinned, shaking her hand before catching onto the words that filled Jackieâs introduction. Â
âWait, medicine?â Crystal questioned, pulling her arm back and tucking it into her jean pocket.
âYeah.â Jackie shrugged the question off with a rather confused tone, acting as if her circumstances were a normal occurrence. âMedicine got really boring, so did Harvard, so I thought Iâd give law a shot.â
The Latina didnât know how to respond. âWoah thatâs uh, really cool.â
Crystal wanted to wince at herself for sounding like a fucking four-year-old. She stepped back, shifted her body away, and lifted her key to the lock. Her mind ran in circles, deciding whether or not to invite Jackie to the dinner she and her roommate planned to have later that night. Making friends in law school had many more benefits than it had consequences, and having an incredibly smart medical student-turned-law student on your side sounded like an incredible asset to have in future study groups. Plus, Jackie just seemed really fucking cool.
âWell, uh, my roommate Heidi is coming tonight and we were planning to get to know each other over dinner at 8 oâclock.â The Latina smiled, meeting Jackieâs eyes once more. âDo you maybe wanna join?â
As if on cue, Crystalâs front door burst open to reveal her roommate, who greeted her and Jackieâs startled dispositions with a toothy grin and bare arms spread wide, ready to envelop the Latina in a warm hug.
âOh my god, Crystal itâs so nice to finally meet you!â Heidi ran a couple of steps to tackle the smaller woman into a tight hug, rocking from side to side as if they were long lost sisters who had finally been reunited. âI canât believe weâre here!â
A laugh escaped from deep in Crystalâs chest after her new roommate knocked the wind out of her with an overexcited hug. She paused for a quick moment, still taken back by the sudden action, before wrapping her arms around the shorter woman. âHi!â
âItâs so nice to finally meet you!â Crystal pulled back a couple of inches, reciprocating the infectious energy her new roommate put out for her to receive.
Crystal had never met Heidi before, theyâve only been exchanging a handful of texts and semi-professional emails just to get their living situation all sorted out before they moved in. The brunette never would have thought that the woman behind the meticulously worded emails she was receiving over the week was an extrovert who would rather give out hugs over a professional handshake. The duality of man, I guess.
She and Heidi exchange introductions, Jackie joining in on the conversation after a while as they talk about their dinner plans together.
âThat sounds great!â Jackie grinned at the invitation, beamed almost, unlocking her door with a twist of a key, pushing it open with force. âIâll bring some baklava for dessert.â
âI have never heard of baklava! Is it like a Middle Eastern thing or sumân?â Heidi questioned, her fingernails mindlessly picking on the lint of her wool sweater.
Jackie nodded, a soft laugh coming out of her mouth as she did so. âYes it is, you hit the nail on the head.â
âWell, it sounds delightful.â The Black woman smiled, arm wrapped around Crystalâs waist like they were all of a sudden the bestest of friends. She honestly didnât mind having someone like Heidi as a roommate, the loving and positive energy just radiating off of her warm skin was a great juxtaposition from the cold and professional people she was probably going to encounter throughout her law student experience.
They bid their goodbyeâs, setting up their final dinner plans before they entered their respective apartments, Heidi already chatting up a storm as they turned to leave.
Crystal waved as Jackie disappeared into her apartment, a small grin resting on her painted lips as she turned to swing her front door open. âSee ya, Doc.â
-
âGigi, if you fucking scream one more time I swear to god-â Jackie spoke through gritted teeth, knuckles turning white at how tight she gripped the metal bat in her hand.
Her dark eyes scanned the room, pausing at the surrounding windows to check if anyone was peeking through them. Jackie dropped the bat with caution, afraid that the collision of metal on wood would startle anyone that was currently inside the house. She crouched down to inspect the lifeless corpse that separated her from the rest of the group, delicately grazing the pale skin and dead blue eyes with her trembling fingers. She closed the bodyâs eyes before meeting Crystalâs brown, much more alive ones.
âWe have to get rid of the body.â
âAre you fucking insane?â Crystal scoffed, guiding a very distraught Gigi to sit against the armrest of a lounge chair not far by. She made sure the blonde was much calmer than she was just moments ago before shifting her gaze to the Persian across the room.
âYou want us to go out on a Friday night? after finals week?â The brunette spat out, her uncontrollable fear turning itself into annoyance and frustration at the sound of her friendâs suggestion.
âAre you dumb?â Jackie hissed, the heels of her boots clicking against the wood as she looked around for a way to clean up the blood slowly pooling around the corpseâs body. âOur DNA is on her skin, Crystal. Under her nails, on her clothes, on the fucking gun.â
âWe go to an incinerator and burn the body.â Jackie reasoned, pulling a handkerchief from her bag and getting on her knees as she soaked up the blood from the floor like it was nothing serious. âWeâll classify the remains as animal carcass.â
Crystal stood in place, jaw slacked open in awe of Jackieâs lack of disgust towards the corpse as she dragged the previously clean fabric across the wooden floorboards. âGet rid of any evidence. We can say she ran away. Theyâll believe it, her case was a clear loss anyway.â
The Latina groaned in defeat, pulling a handkerchief from her winter coat as she crouched down to join Jackie in cleaning up the mess they had made together. âFuck you, Doc.â
âCanât help that I know my shit, Mistress.â
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I grew up in the Bay Area at the height of AIDS panic, and all of that eraâs sex paranoia remains burned into my brain, repurposed for Covid-19 and the act of commingling wet breath. A few weeks into this crisis, I found myself having a ten-foot-distant conversation with my neighbor Patty, both of us incredulous at people who still tried to talk to us in-tight face-to-face, like we weren't all suddenly barebacking reality with everyone they'd chit-chatted with that day and everyone in their lives, etc. Patty allowed that she should be able to strike people she considered a threat. I mentioned Florida's attitude toward this legal principle and firearms. I suggested she become militant. I tell that to a lot of people, but I attenuate the humor of it for the audience. I tell every teacher I know to strike.
There are more sirens now. It's hard to tell, because unlike New York, everything isn't quiet. Cars are out on the roadâfewer, but enough that hearing a siren can still be vehicular idiocy and not a more sinister house call. But I still hear more of them.
I donât know why Luke asked me to write about Coronavirus in Florida. I mostly stopped writing last year when a good friend dropped dead in front of his family. (Subscribe to my Substackâwe don't update regularly!) Before that, I felt increasingly overborne by events. Things ground to a halt in 2019, but the machine began to break down long before. I ended the 2016 campaign periodically sitting under my desk, high, feeling secure because I wasn't writing anything stupid and feeling good because I was appropriately afraid of everything, but people thought I was exaggerating when I mentioned it. Â
I wish I could say my seriousness about the novel coronavirus stems solely from believing in science and peer review and that I would take it seriously regardless, but my spouse is immunocompromised, and my father, who lives out in the Bay Area, had Covid-19, back in March or early April. He didn't tell us kids until he was out of the woods, but for days he had fevers over 103Âș. My stepmom, a former emergency room nurse, couldn't get him admitted anywhere, because he wasn't having respiratory problems. He woke up the same every day: It felt like someone had parked a Volkswagen on him.
We're supposed to say he's out of the woods. I'll believe that when he dies of old age, or something more reasonable that kills men in my family, like colon cancer or car accidents. Sometimes I think about him dropping dead like my friend, only from whatever post-Covid-19 effect triggers the brainâs forgetting to tell the lungs to breatheâor from the one that leads to storms of strokes, like a brain's blood vessels recreating the burning energies depicted on a CRISS ANGEL MINDFREAK poster. Then I wonder how I would die, or my wife, or my friend in Atlanta, or my brother. I think about drowning in open air, alone in a hissing world, and being incapable of saying the overdue apologies I ran out of time for.
After a while I realized that basically all Luke wanted was to hear from a coward living in the mismanaged kleptocracy of Florida, and the thing is, I can do that! Iâm frightened right now!
I considered opening with, Every day I wake up frightened, to throw a fucking jolt into a piece about facing down a pandemic in a place where they have a paradise just for the cheeseburgers. But the joke is, I'm not wastin' away here in Coronaville. Sometimes I wake up and just have to pee, on the rare days when I don't wake up from the sensation of my son elbow-dropping my head becauseâhow rude of meâit's 6:45 already.
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As I have said, I am frequently awakened by my son, whose full name is My Beautiful Five-Year-Old Son Maitland. He is a treasure who spends quarantine within earshot of 24-hour news, regurgitating West Wing Democrat observations of mine with five-year-old precocity to harvest follows for Instagram. Maitland is an influencer already on record as supporting LâOrĂ©al, opposing Medicare For All, and, when I first read him the shaggy start to this piece, he said, "Not a good look." He's a natural.
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I am one of the people who is Taking It Seriously. Seriously Taking It Seriously, thoughânot the people who say they're taking it seriously and then tell you about:
âą Going to a recent indoor birthday party.
âą Having a multi-course dinner at a fancy restaurant, "But it was okay because it was [extremely not-worth-a-life celebration]!"
âą A full-contact playdate their kid had recently with two other children.
I abhor these people. I have an existential loathing of these people, and a granular scientific indictment. I enjoy reading new articles to learn new ways in which they are a danger to me. My apprehension is rich and exquisite. May their friends shun them, and may they be abandoned by their gods.
Sooner or later, every day, I think of the threats arrayed against me and my family. Each day, I see the most recent thing said by my governor, Ronald Fuckface DeSantis, in which he explicitly endorses and declares his intent to pursue actions that all available data say will kill Floridians by the thousands. Each day, I think about how, if I do so much as suggest fostering a free exchange of ideas about the proportional value of using every means to stop him, I will be arrested.
Every day, I bounce the "Evil or Moronic?" debate around my brain. I check in with an alumna buddy in Atlanta to see whose governor has shown more recent determination to murder his citizens. I gotta give Brian Kemp credit, because he's really holding his own. Naturally, this leads to wondering if either of them have a natural or acculturated advantage in terms of idiocy and malevolence. DeSantis' enrollment at Yale and Harvard and service in the military problematizes the idiocy narrative only for as long as it takes to remember all the people you've met who've gone to any of them and were dumber than dogshit. It would seem like fate to be murdered by an oaf, but I don't know that it's not merciful to at least be murdered purposefully rather than contemptuously and indolently.
Eventually, this leads to spending some time thinking about DeSantis as a kind of lethal bro angel. It's hard not to see his shitchyeah, brah, people are dyin', it's classic! expression and recognize that the state's chief executive resembles a lout you don't want to run into walking alone at FSU after a home loss. I prefer my jokes about the governor, but my friend David Roth nailed it when he said that DeSantis seemed like a person who would describe himself as âkind of a DUI guy.â
I know there's supposedly a culture war out there. There's a truck in my neighborhood with a Q sticker, and another with a Three-Percenter sticker, and there are more than a few neighbors of the "easily victimized white dude who owns a $50,000 truck he rarely takes off the pavement and who becomes physically belligerent when you correct him" variety, but there's a reason why you really only see âwarâ shit on YouTube. Few Americans are hostile to general safety protocols, and even fewer act out against them. I live where hate groups and old fashioned unaffiliated redneck trash drive in from the county to make a show of rebel flags, rolling coal and honking to intimidate protests, but people line up six feet apart at Home Depot, wear masks at Publix and get takeout at the pizza place outside without insisting on barging in. Most wars donât need one side of them to be this manufactured.
Most of my friends and colleagues from this gig live in New York, so I've already sat through weeks of descriptions of streets silent except for ambulances, and Iâve already woken for weeks to the half-twilight of nightmares where friends died in a spare white hallway. There aren't a lot of surprises in store for Florida, and no images I can describe that would make you want to turn back now. It's like we're waiting for the rolling premiere of a franchise blockbuster. The dead won't really start packing them in for a few more weeks, but all the scariest shit hit YouTube when it opened in New York a thousand years ago. The coronavirus as an image, what it functionally is, as a horror, feels as familiar as the Scream mask, and the context that makes that scary as hell already feels dangerously been-and-gone, like an apprehension that Florida had for too long before the actual scare came.
There's a hope that all this will come to little again. Despite Governor DeSantis' refusal to take the initiative on shutting down the state until the last dollar was wrung from the last snowbird, the original shellacking never came. The Tampa Bay Times sampled smartphone data and concluded that Floridians overwhelmingly took the initiative to stay home, and they were aided in their quarantine process by the fact that Florida is car-dependent and atomized.
The heartbreaking realization, as you gradually run across more people who are Not Taking It Seriously or are Expressing Moronic Skepticism, is that for a month there about 80 percent of America was on board with doing the right thing. We, a people who suck at doing the right thing even for the wrong reasons, stood on the side of doing the harder thing if it helped people who weren't even us.
I really can't tell if I feel more anger than sadness at the fact that those who were meant to encourage us in safety, to serve us by offering difficult guidance, wasted our sacrifice and our trust. They squandered the patience given by a beggared and exhausted people. All they had to do was the right thing, and if they weren't sure what that was, they could have erred on the side of saving peopleâs lives and hoping it counted, and they failed. Â
Instead, more people will die, and we'll be shut down again, and we will realize we are fundamentally unequipped for life with Covid-19. Florida is built on enclosed air-conditioned spaces: It's dependent on divorcing yourself from Florida as a climate and place. Asking Floridians to generate a public life under the unshielded rage of Godâs angriest sun and baked from beneath by a sprawling pave-ocalypse requires asking them to rebel against everything their infrastructure has taught them for as long as they can remember. It is a car culture to the flesh and bone, and a restaurant relocating indoor tables to a road patio would park its diners inches away from eternity.
A picnic day like that is months off, again. It's time to go back inside and resume Inside Time. Inside Time melts away. I saw a headline around the Fourth of July, from the New York Times, that read, "In the Covid-19 Economy, You Can Have a Kid or a Job. You Canât Have Both," and I remember seeing colleagues tweet, mmmm, so true, and, gets at something crucial we aren't talking about, and shit like that, and I was like, "Buddy, let's get in the DeLorean and visit March." I have nowhere to go, anyway, and all life is timeless.
We have no family in the area and have had no break. It's the three of us, like No Exit, but if most of the dialogue was the word "no" and a lot of stuff about poop and butts and farts, good guys and bad guys, and what Lego Star Wars would do, but with a lot of excruciated pleading for silence because Mom and Dad Are Working Right Now and We Love You Very Much but Jesus Christ Please Stop for the Love of God I Will Give You a Dollar If You Go in Your Room and Be Quiet and Play That Kindle App That Teaches You to Read That You Pay Attention to More Than Us Even Though I Would Read You a Fucking Novel If You'd Just Shut Up and Sit Still.
I'm resigned to staying in here until 2022. Iâm screaming, but I will do it. I'm lucky in that I have access to a community pool and a neighborhood where my son and I can roam around on bikes and romp and look at water and birds and turtles. When we're lazy, we have a porch where we can feel nature without feeling exposed. We have a dependable (ok!!! haha!!!) income, and I can do irregularly scheduled work that allows me to be Parent rather than Employee. Exercise, meals and stories take up enough hours that I might as well lean into it.
But weâre lucky. We have a house and prescription mood-altering drugs and one thousand years of undersleep, but we are in less immediate danger than most. The state, almost reflexively, reaches out to open more doors even as Covid-19 blows past reopening benchmark after reopening benchmark.
The inexorable march for commerce doesnât even come from malice in many cases; people in charge just donât know how to do anything else but extort and scold people into working under any conditions, so long as it devours most of their time. All the exploitive principles are expected to work the same even if the world they built is fraudulent. We feed meat and the virus into the machines, irrespective of what the data says, and pray for rain. Watching Florida government on the state and local level is like watching two parents bring an alcoholic home after he got kicked out of rehab and deciding that the best course of action is leaving him with $5,000 in an apartment up the street from a dive bar and then going to Cancun for the week. It was on the calendar already, there wasnât any choice, he looked very healthy at the time!
We have friends who are teachers, and we are scared for their spouses and kids. I don't know what Florida's plan for its teachers is other than to murder them. Again, I don't know if DeSantis is an idiot for flirting with giving enormous bipartisan sympathy to arguably the most effective labor group in the state, or a genius for flirting with finally eliminating a lobbying obstacle to conservative governance by simply liquidating its members as a class.
I worry if I start listing all the things I'm scared of, they'll never stop, but every day I see my son reach for something he should be able to reach for, and I either have a low-grade panic response and stifle it, or I have the panic response and yelp at him to get his attention and tell him to stop, startle him, and add another layer of gun-shy haunting to his day. I'm afraid he'll eventually become an animal in a Skinner Box in which all the buttons and levers are electrocuted, and there are no prizes.
I'm afraid that my son will always be emotionally arrested at two years behind the development of people the same age who had siblings in their house, or who, like many kids in my neighborhood, had parents who thought kids were invincible to Covid-19 and let them play with whomever they wanted. I worry that he may pay a price year after year even into adulthood because other kids got to practice socializing as we rode past. They got to hang out with people their own age and run around and do vitally stupid shit and say "butts" a lot, and he got look at me heartbroken and knowing empirically and epidemiologically that he couldn't play with his friends anymore but still needing to know why, and knowing that I couldn't tell him anything more sophisticated and anything less terrifying than, "So we don't get sick."
The other day he started crying and then screaming, "I hate the sickness! I hate the sickness!" repeating it in a higher and higher register, until he was up even past that piercing birdlike screech that prepubescent boys make whenever trying to sound like lasers or dinosaurs or squealing brakes. Every day I worry that I see another little bit of his capacity for happiness is dyingâthat the same awkward process of terror that took me from happy little kid to profoundly unhappy teen to scarred adult is even more rapidly at work, and each day another sparkling and joyous little light of childhood winks out in him, replaced by fear as a necessity of life.
I know that there is no plan for us. Conservatives don't want to be taxed or have their businesses lose money, so people are being kicked off unemployment and sent back to work with no test and trace protocols, irregular access to PPE, overwhelmed hospitals and often limited access to any care. We're doing all this as Florida blooms scarlet like paint being spilled into a mold shaped like the state. We're sending the men in the gasoline suits right at the heart of the fire.
It's a cruelly lazy little culling genocide of the working class, a Wall Street gamble that the blow to the labor force won't be more than a blip on the Dow and, a little recession aside, the One Percent will come out ten years later owning an even greater percentage of the United States. To the extent that there is a plan, that's the plan, and whether you land on the dead or the living part of any of those exchanges is more of a Your Problem than a Their Problem.
For now, it's enough to be hermits and hope the rest of Florida goes on strike by going inside and staying there and writing letters to representatives threatening to never come out. Cooking the same things, getting the same exercise in the same places, having the same awkward conversations on VOIP delay, and living every moment outside like we're three drinks in so weâre ready to get belligerent with anyone who is getting too close. Living every moment with some low-level neurasthenia that grows spine-deep and for the rest of our lives sends shuddering disequilibrium at the thought of air that never seems to move, hallways that lengthen without exits, and objects that seem both unavoidable and unclean. Itâs fine. Weâre all fine, here, now. How are you?
I feel a sudden Git Offa Mah Land thing about my son, a resolute commitment to homeschooling for the foreseeable future and to keeping the gummymint away. It sucks so much. I was so happy to send him to the public school just a few blocks away, instead of the shitty little charter schools nearby, but now that itâs Plague or Parents, heâs got his parents. Between us, he'll have access to 1.5 first-class educations. I still have my grandpa's service weapons from WWII, the last time America was in a war with fascism, when we took the opposing side. I'll empty a couple magazines into anyone who comes onto my property and tries to stop me from teaching my son critical race theory, Howard Zinn, and Leonard Levy's Jefferson and Civil Liberties: The Darker Side. I refuse to turn my back on the heritage of my youth, of watching thousands of hours of MASH, by refusing to wear a mask outside or in fact any time I am doing anything other than drinking gin that I made in a tent.
Outside, records fall and progress rolls on. A governor whose go-to pejorative for opponents of all ages and sexes is very likely still âqueefâ watches as even the president concedes that a Republican National Convention here would be too lethal, as the state repeatedly sets records for daily deaths, beats out all of Europe in terms of new daily cases, leads the nation in cases per day, then tries to set them again. And then, every day, our governor makes his ahegao-but-for-ethnic-cleansing face and psychotically clangs a bell indicating that Florida just became the 15,000 customer at Leadshoe Larryâs Kicked-in-the-Dick, and itâs time for all us lucky winners to line up and drop our pants.
Floridaâs lethality is so tacky that itâs almost camp, but there is no satisfaction in being right about how wrong everything is. Nobody gets a prize for correctly guessing the surplus death toll. All you have to do is look someone else in the eye working in life under Covid.
Iâm old now, so I have Humiliating Injury Syndrome (HIS), and somehow in the month between the Super Bowl and the pandemic, I tore a rotator cuff, a labrum, or both, by throwing a (mini!!!) football with friends. After four months, I broke down and went to get an MRI. I skulked down corridors and lurked in a corner of a waiting room, like playing spies with an opponent who was the air. Even the clean and modern fixtures felt miasmic and corrupted, like they were a parking garage in an Alan Pakula film.
Eventually a nurse emerged from an office, crinkled her brown eyes, waved and surprised me by asking after my family by name. She lives three blocks away from me and had hosted me at a party once. Later that day, as my car coasted down the approach to my house, I saw a garage door open and my neighborâs son walk out on his way to his shift at the same grocery store that I treat emotionally like a Superfund site.
I thought about how much I unconsciously held my breath where they work, and how I unconsciously associate those places with poor choices. The danger of the world outside is so massive that I reflexively need to cordon off the threat into areas of blame and blamelessness. In a moment of crisis, years of conservative rhetorical conditioning in the discourse have taught me to reflexively pathologize those in harmâs way. There is less chaos if someone is at least responsible for something. There is less risk to me, if it turns out someone elseâs epidemic is someone elseâs fault.
But it is someone elseâs fault. And itâs not some poor fucker doomed to sit in a box somewhere and accept paper money and hand metal money back and point at where toilets are, because thatâs how he keeps the lights on. Itâs not the person consigned to some life-sucking task that, on the best of days, is too humiliating and cruelly impoverished of purpose to ever be a reason why someone should die. Itâs not the person around whom you hold your breath because you donât know where theyâve been. Itâs the person and people who put us all in position to suddenly feel like weâre suffocating together.
I hate that I sometimes unconsciously hold my breath around strangers, and I hate that they have heard it. I think of my neighbors, and of the workers on whom weâre dependent, and the permanent uncertain shortness of breath I feel, and I want every moment of their anxiety and mine gathered up and then rained on those who shepherded it into being, those who nurtured it and feasted on it, those who profited from it and were indifferent toward it. Those who consider themselves DUI guys and those who pay to elect them and give them sinecures and who are simply too rich to be arrested for boating under the influence anymore.
I think of how I hold my breath near good people and near vulnerable people in places I am wary of and that we all need to share, and I wonder if we will simply hold our breath for the rest of the year, and if weâve bargained for standing near each other and holding it for all of the next. And I wish so eagerly that all our suspended futures and the air between us might catch at the throats of those who put us here. That justice for a man like Ron DeSantis might be a permanent and sucking terror: stuck always in an involuntary startled gasp at the sight of responsibility, afraid at the approach of every stranger, incapable of drawing a full and restful breath, and never knowing peace again.
Jeb Lund used to write about politics for Rolling Stone, The Guardian and Gawker, and a bunch of other places, and was the Spectacle of Trump Editor at 50 States of Blue. He and David Roth have a podcast about Hallmark original movies that is mostly funny and exasperated and not unkind, and it's not ultimately about the movies anyway. It's fine and people enjoy it. Don't make it weird. He also has a podcast where he watches every Dennis Quaid movie in a row. That is also completely normal.
Ok hereâs me again with a couple more things.
Youâll want to read this in the New York Times today about a forthcoming documentary on ICE. After it was completed the filmmakers were apparently threatened with legal action by the agency over the inclusion of parts that made ICE look even worse than they already look doing literally everything else they do.
Some of the contentious scenes include ICE officers lying to immigrants to gain access to their homes and mocking them after taking them into custody. One shows an officer illegally picking the lock to an apartment building during a raid.
At town hall meetings captured on camera, agency spokesmen reassured the public that the organizationâs focus was on arresting and deporting immigrants who had committed serious crimes. But the filmmakers observed numerous occasions in which officers expressed satisfaction after being told by supervisors to arrest as many people as possible, even those without criminal records.
âStart taking collaterals, man,â a supervisor in New York said over a speakerphone to an officer who was making street arrests as the filmmakers listened in. âI donât care what you do, but bring at least two people,â he said.
Hereâs one disgusting detail among many.
They followed Border Patrol tactical agents who took pride in rescuing migrants from deadly dehydration even as the agents acknowledged that their tactics were pushing the migrants further into harmâs way. They showed how the government had at times evaluated the success of its border policies based not only on the number of migrants apprehended, but on the number who died while crossing.
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The Truth Is The Scariest Part
Hi! Iâm here with something that no one requested but the concept was stuck in my head because Iâm Chenry Trash.
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Everyone had given it a shot and told their best scary stories to no avail. Henry was still unbothered and bored sitting in the Story Tank. After Piper took her turn, she went back to the table with Charlotte and Jasper to help them put Henryâs steaks back into the Bromaha box. They wouldnât be needing them.
âCan I take this thing off?â Henry whined.
âNo you can not!â Ray exclaimed.
âUGHHHHHHHHHâ Henry groaned. âJust face it Ray, I won this challenge.â
âI will not face anything! I WILL be chowing down on those delicious steaks.â Ray declares.
Henry simply rolled his eyes in response.
âWell I have a story for you, but itâs not mineâ Schowz says with a sly look on his face.
âOkay? Whatâs the story? Iâm sure that I wonât be scared.â Henry replies with the utmost confidence.
âCharlotte told me a great story earlier this week about a guy.â
âAlright. Whatâs the story about? This guy a ghost or something?â Henry asks.
âNo. Just some guy in her class. And he is definitely alive.â
Whatâs so scary about a guy in Charlotteâs class? Henry thought.
âWhoâs alive?â Ray wonders.
âJust a boy that Charlotte was telling me about. She says that heâs super cool.â
Through the immersion, Henry sees an image of Schowz and Charlotte on the Man Cave couch.
âSo what did you want to talk to me about Charlotte? A new device? An update for a old device?â
âNo, I just wanted to tell you about this super cool guy.â
âOh, alright girl. Tell me more. Spill the coffee as you kids say.â
âYou mean tea?â
âTea, coffee they both have caffeine. Whatâs up with this boy? Is he your boyfriend?â
While Henry is in deep thought and not paying them any attention, Schowz walks over to the Story Tank monitor to check on Henryâs Fear-inol levels. The levels were rising slowly.Â
I knew that would work! Iâm a genius! Schowz thinks to himself.
He looks over at Ray and gestures to the monitor with a slight nod in its direction. Schowz then gives Ray a wink to signal for him to play along. Ray winks back to let him know that he understands.
Theyâve both noticed that Henry has been a little more attentive to Charlotte than usual lately. Standing over shoulder while sheâs at the console, invading her personal space, bringing her food from the AutoSnacker, riding in the same tube with her when Jasper takes the other. He is not subtle at all. He definitely has a big, fat crush.
The entire interaction goes unnoticed by Henry who is still pondering Schowzâs earlier statement. Charlotte thinks that someone is cool? Thatâs new. She usually thinks that everyone is lame. Including me. Is this a real guy?Â
âCharlotte said that? What else-â Henry clears his throat and tries but fails to sound nonchalant, âUh, what else did she say?â
âAre you guys talking about Brayden?â Ray cuts in. âBecause Charlotte also mentioned this guy to me. She went on and on about how handsome he wasâ Ray adds helpfully.
âRay, guess what?â
âWhat?â
âI think that I know someone who could beat you in the Handsomest Man in Swellview Competition this year.â
âBlasphemy! No one can beat this face!â
âNope, I really think he could win.â
âOh yeah? Who is this guy?â
âMy friend Brayden.â
âShow me his picture.â
Charlotte pulls out her phone to show him.
Schowz checks the monitor again, there was a spike in Fear-inol AND Urinol after Ray backed his play. Ray walked over to the monitor and saw the increase as well.
âHenry doesnât stand a chanceâ he whispers quietly to his shorter friend.
âAbsolutely not.â Schowz agrees.
Brayden? Debate team Brayden? Charlotte thinks heâs cool? And handsome? She said that he barely brought anything to the team except for a pretty face. I thought that was an insult to his intelligence. But maybe it was a compliment on his face?
âDid Charlotte tell you about her date with him?â questions Schowz.
Date? What date? Charlotte is dating Brayden now? When did that happen? Why am I just hearing about it?
âUm, theyâre going out? Like in real life? And she told you this?â Henry asks disbelievingly.
âShe suuuuure did. I heard he was taking her out this Saturdayâ Ray says with a goofy grin on his face.
Fear-inol levels were now reaching the precipice of the Startled Zone but werenât quite there yet. Schowz motions to Ray to keep going, letting him know that their scare tactics were working.
Henry takes off the helmet and whips his head over to Charlotte who is sitting at the table with Piper talking animatedly. Jasper is now at the auto snacker ordering more candy and popcorn.
I wonder what theyâre talking about. Is it about this so called âdateâ? Does Jasper know too? Am I the only one who didnât know? Why didnât she tell me?
âThat-thatâs cool. Charlotte has a date. Whatâs so scary about that?â Henry plays it off but there is a glistening of sweat forming on his brow bone.
âOh, nothing. I just thought that youâd want to know. Put the mask back on.â
Henry follows the direction without protest. Itâs as if heâs in sort of a trance.
âYeah Henry, isnât Saturday you and Charlotteâs official Movie Night night?â Ray asks.
In the Story World, Henry and Charlotte are in his room watching movies when they hear a knock on the door. After going downstairs, Henry answers the door to see Brayden standing there with a small bouquet of daises that he hands to Charlotte. She takes the daisies and gives them a big whiff before passing the flowers off to Henry. With a big smile on her face she turns to Henry and says, âDonât wait upâ. She then walks out the door hand and hand with Brayden. Henry is left alone looking down at the daisies.
âIt is.â Henry muttered glumly.
âWeellllll, sheâs gonna miss that. I heard that they are going to Nacho Ball.â Schowz adds.
Back in the story world, Charlotte and Brayden are sitting on the same side of the booth talking and giggling. They seem to be in their own little world. Charlotte wipes some nacho cheese off the corner of Braydenâs lip with a napkin. They actually look good together.
Henry feels sick to his stomach. âShe hasnât cancelled movie night for this weekend, how do I know that you arenât just saying this to bother me?â Henry questions Ray and Schowz.
âShe probably just hasnât gotten around to it yet. Too busy thinking about her date with Brayden.â Ray mocks.
âBother you? Does the fact that Charlotte has a date bother you?â Schowz inquires.
âUh, no it doesnât bother me. Why would it?â Henry mutters while scratching the back of his neck.
âYou tell us Henry? Are you upset that Charlotte is going on a date?â Ray asks while stepping closer to the tank.
âPsssh, what? No. Iâm just upset that sheâs going to miss movie night.â Henry says nervously.
âReally?â Ray countered, squinting at Henry in suspicion.
Henry mustered up all his bravado and put it into the next word, âReally.â
âWell Iâm sure if you ask her, sheâd be willing to reschedule the date for earlier that day.â Schowz suggests as he checks Henryâs Fearinol levels again. The levels are now in the fully in the Startled Zone and creeping to the precipice of Scared. Schowz mouths to Ray, âAlmost thereâ.
âGood. And then at movie night, Charlotte can tell you ALL about her date and how great it was.â Ray taunts.
Henry sees a vision of himself and Charlotte in the living room while Charlotte chatters excitedly about the date she just got back from. They havenât watched one movie yet. They had been talking for an hour about Brayden.
âHe was such a gentleman Henry, I think I really like him. Heâs so cute and smart and nice and handsome and tall and kind. And did I mention that he was handsome?â
âYou sure did Charlotte. Only about a hundred times.â
âSorry, Iâm just so excited that Brayden asked me out. And weâre going on another date tomorrow. I hope we last.â
âMe tooâ Henry replies in a false cheery tone.
âI wonder if theyâll kiss? What do you think Ray? Think theyâll kiss?â Schowz questions.
âOh definitely. One thing I know about is teenage boys. I used to be one not too long ago! If I was this guy, Iâd definitely shoot my shot. Charlotteâs a catch.â
âTrue. Sheâs so smart and pretty. What guy would turn her down?â Schowz adds.
âI donât know. A chump probablyâ Ray alleges.
âDo you think that Brayden is a chump Henry?â the foreigner probes.
Now the Story Zone shows Brayden and Charlotte in front of her door after the date.
âI had a great time tonightâ Brayden tells Charlotte. Â
âMe tooâ Charlotte answers shyly while looking down at her feet.
âHey Charlotte?â Brayden whispers.
âHm?â she says while looking up at him.
Instead of responding verbally, he looks into her eyes and tucks a stray piece of hair behind her ear. Stepping closer, he glances down at her lips and looks back into her eyes that are locked onto his. They both start leaning closer to each other.
Right before imaginary Charlotte and Brayden touch lips, Henry rips the helmet off his head. Heâs breathing harshly and looks uncomfortable.
âThatâs enough! I-Iâm goodâ Henry rasps out.
Checking the monitor, Henryâs Fear-inol levels were offically in Scared terrority now and steadily increasing. His heart rate is also off the charts.
âHa! I knew that I could scare you!â Ray gloats.
âI started it. It was my storyâ Schowz whines.
âYeah, yeah yeah. Give me those sweet, sweet steaks!â he walks over to the table to collect the meat and then goes through the sprocket door.Â
Henry gets out of the Story Tank while Schowz chases after Ray. âI thought we were supposed to be sharing those!â
Sighing, Henry looks over at the table to see only Piper sitting there on her phone. It looks like she hadnât moved in quite some time.
âWhereâd Charlotte and Jasper go?â
âThey went upstairs awhile ago to help some customers.â
âOh okay. Nice. So were you on your phone the whole time or....?â
âYeah, Iâve been in a Twitflash beef with Jana Tetrazinni for the past thirty minutes.â
âCool cool cool cool,cool.â
âStill totally heard the fact that you were scared by Charlotte going on a date in a fake scenario.â
âI wasnât scared! And fake scenario? What do you mean fake scenario? Charâs going out with Brayden this Saturday isnât she?â
âUh no dude. The only reason those guys even know about Brayden is because Charlotte was complaining about how he almost made them lose a debate this week. She hates that guyâ Piper says as she gets up from the table and walks towards him.
âOh.â Henry says with obvious relief.
âYeah, âohâ. You need to go and ask her out before you give yourself an aneurysm. Iâm not visiting you in the hospitalâ Piper says sarcastically and pats him on the arm as she passes.
âHa ha very funny Piper. I donât see Charlotte like that, weâre just friends.â
âThatâs not what your Fear-inol levels say buddy.â
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League of Extraordinary Geniuses || Chapter 6
Iâd been trying NOT to, in case others wanted to read this story, but at this point, Iâve only seen fans of these fandoms interact, so there will be things mentioned that if you didnât watch the shows, youâll be lost about. So sorry if there are others here now, but I am mostly writing for those who have interacted and let me know their thoughts and feelings about this story and theyâve all been familiar with Lab Rats, Henry Danger, and The Thundermans, so⊠this chapter in particular has some things that it would be much too much to explain it all, from LR canon and a bit from HD too, and Iâm sorry if there are readers unfamiliar with that, but yâall havenât let me know that youâre here.
Yâall probably didnât expect another update this soon, but what had happened was the last chapter would have been too long, so I found a point to cut it for that one. Also, a story line that I wanted to touch on this story, but didnât realize how I would incorporate it until @kiddangers made a post about it either her or on her Instagram, canât remember, and she sparked the topic and now it is a major story arc in this fic, which might be hella hurtful at some point, but... If youâre in for the ride, youâre in for it, Friends.Â
@verified-dumbass @just-a-j-reallly Iâve decided not to continue tagging anybody else that hasnât interacted, out of courtesy and just feeling awkward about tagging people that are nonresponsive to it.
What if Iâm the Monster
Conspiracy theories were running wild and fortunately, all of the communities that had reason to think that they might be able to be linked to this scandal quickly took action to try to clear their records and discover who the real guilty party was. The bionic, supers, and non-super communities all began their own investigations as to what might have happened while the collaboration of Dystress, Shoutout, Thunderstrike and Chase Davenport were on the ground, assessing the scene themselves. Of course, Chase was the spokesperson and mission leader. That would put everyone at home at better ease.Â
âMyself and a team of trusted heroes have been working practically nonstop since the torpedo attack to figure out what took place here. There were some recent developments that Iâm not at liberty to speak about, which Davenport Industries had been handling, and one of our facilities was going to be attacked, when fortunately, a superhero stepped in and managed to save it and all surrounding innocents that might have been caught in the crossfire. We have recovered several remains, but they are as of this moment inconclusive. What I can assure the public of is that my current team and the Davenport brand will be working hard to get to the bottom of this tragedy and keep the citizens of Jamaica safe from any further threatsâŠâÂ
He and Shoutout left the press conference and returned directly back to the crash site that Dystress and Thunderstrike were at. Thunderstrike had telepathically tunneled a lot of the water, froze it in pillars, and Dystress used her scanning systems for wreckage. With this tactic, they had found numerous parts of the jet and some torpedo shrapnel, but it wasnât until Chase returned, with his hypersenses that they found the first possible remains of an assailant⊠âI donât know how to say this,â he said.Â
âWith your words, perhaps?â Max offered.Â
âThatâs an androidâŠâ He sighed. Max unfroze the pillar, and Chase telepathically collected the android remains to them. The four looked down at it for a while. There was very little human DNA left to him. Some hair and facial components, a few fingers, and everything else was charred and shattered metal. âTheyâre starting to enlist them against their brethren,â Chase said sadly. âI donât know why I didnât think about that happening. Of course they would! Who better to go toe to toe with them than their own kind?âÂ
Max and Charlotte noticed that he was really upset about this. Charlotte beckoned over some Davenport analysts to quietly collect this, so that the three of them could inspect the body later. She also decided that they had been working too hard and would need a break. At the very least, Mika would, so she dismissed her and told her to try to get some rest.
âAnd, you probably should too. Youâve been out of your chamber for days,â Charlotte observed. Chase folded his arms and watched as the employees took the android away.
âI want to begin studying him, right away.â
âI do too, but weâre only human. We do need to rest.â
âWeâre not ONLY human,â Chase argued.
âNo, but we still need rest and weâve earned it. You, especially.â
âWhy, him especially?â Max asked. Charlotte just threw him a look. It was so smart of her to have a mask that covers her mouth instead of one that covered her eyes, because those looks were a weapon of their own. âFine. But, if heâs resting, we all should rest and let the androids keep watch while the Davenport searchers keep collecting samples.â
âIs that agreeable, Chase?â Charlotte asked.Â
Chase sighed and reluctantly nodded his head. He knew that she wanted him to get some rest and she had a point, afterall. The three of them went to the safehouse and tried to calm their nerves and settle in.Â
You wouldâve thought that they would be so drained that they would immediately all fall to sleep, but all were restless. Max passed by Mika and knocked on the door, âHey. You gonna get some sleep, or what?â He asked. She furrowed her eyebrows and looked at him, the expression gesturing to the fact that she was clearly on a call. He waved his fingers at Chapa, on the screen and then pointed at Mika, âSleep in, if you need to in the morning, but try to at least lay down for the night. You can talk to your girlfriend some other time.âÂ
Mika scoffed and shook her head, âGoodnight, Max.â
Chapa asked, âHe thinks weâre girlfriends? Awesome.âÂ
Mika replied, âHe said that just to be annoying.Â
Max smirked to himself as he headed for the shower. Charlotte was in the bathroom, brushing her teeth and washing her face and such. She usually did that before getting into the shower, so he said, âIâm goinâ in,â and she nodded. It didnât bother her, but he liked to at least be clear. He was in the shower, sort of zoned out and thinking while she sprayed her locs with oils and finished up her preshower things. They crossed paths switching up who was in the shower and didnât even have the energy for some risque joke about it.Â
Charlotte knew that it had to be just as heavy on their hearts as it was on hers⊠They freed the androids and now it seemed that at least one or some of them not only didnât appreciate it, but might make it hard enough that they could be in serious trouble for even attempting it.Â
When she came out of the shower, Max was still in the mirror, doing his thing. This was the one of the quickest times either of them had ever taken in a bathroom before. He was just staring into the mirror, holding his toothbrush, though. âHey⊠You okay?âÂ
He blinked and then looked at her in her robe, holding a jar of body butter. He smiled and nodded. âHow can I not be. Iâm in the best place in the world - with you.â He came over and kissed her on the forehead. âItâs gonna be okay.â
She sighed, âIt better be. You and Chase let go of a lot to be here.â
âI canât speak for him, but a lot is here for me.â He cupped her face and pressed his forehead to hers. âIâm gonna make sure Mikaâs got everything she needs, then Iâm crashing in your room, if thatâs okay.â
âI was gonna crash in Mikaâs room,â she said. âShe has nightmares sometimes after a stressful day and the last few days have been hell for me, so I can only imagine what theyâve been for her.â
âYou could very well imagine. Youâve been a hero for a while, now.â
âI forgot how this felt. When something serious and dangerous is staring you in the face and you literally donât know if youâre about to die. I feel⊠triggered. I hate that she has triggering memories now, and one of the scariest days in her life has taken place because sheâs here for me.â
âMika is where she wants to be. We all are. We chose you, Char. Come on. Letâs check on the kid and get to bed.â
They peeked into Mikaâs room and Chase was in there, moving around. âWhat are you doing?â Charlotte asked in a whisper.Â
âShe was having a nightmare. I kept hearing her whimpering, so Iâm trying to calm her down or something,â he said. He looked tired and irritated, but he was also concerned. Charlotte rubbed his back and took over. She put on some music, sprayed some fragrance, handed Mika her beloved plushie, rubbed some oils on her feet, tucked her in and strummed her scalp. After a moment, she was snoring and the trio left her to it. Charlotte would be back, but she had this grave nagging feeling that she needed to make sure that they got to bed too. She felt like this was her fault, no matter what Max said to try to smooth her over. They had followed her into this and this had become tricky.Â
âIâm going to try to get us a bigger space when I have time, so that you two donât have to squeeze into the same room,â she said, not knowing what else to say.
âItâs fine. I put my chamber in your room, so Max can have the spare to himself.â
âNice try, but Iâm crashing in her room. Sheâs got all the good sleepy time stuff like candles and⊠stuff and Iâm sleeping in there, as well.â
âItâs fine. You two are always welcome to crash in my room. Iâll set the mood for you.â She similarly fixed the room as she had done for Mika, programmed some things into Chaseâs chamber and when both her guys were asleep, she ducked out of the room and into a video call with Jasper and Henry.
âChar! Thank goodness! Weâve been trying to reach you for days. I was starting to think that the footage of Dystress on the news was altered and youâd been taken into some underground prisoner chamber!â Jasper worried.
âNope. Just been taken to depression town. Was hoping you had some feel good stories about the kids or something to help me cheer up.â
Henry nodded, âSay no more. Jasperâs been making all of these musical fan videos of the kids and putting them on our DingDong account.â
âOooh, Iâm gonna check those out.â
âALSO⊠We got the uh⊠shipmentâŠâ Henry said and looked more serious now. âTheyâre in the Dome. Wasnât sure if they were capable of being at Budding Flowers.â
âTheyâre not defected. Theyâre free, and want to work with children. Your charity is one of the most successful ones in the world, currently. Androids are people too.â
Jasper winced, âOnly⊠They arenât⊠and⊠wellâŠâ
âRay is freaking out about the recent news that androids now have autonomy, because if you remember, a Piper from the future came back to tell us that hell on Earth was a road paved by a robot takeover. They created ones that looked like children. Jasper and I just donât feel comfortable, at the moment letting androids interact with kids that weâve vowed to protectâŠâ
âWow. You two think that Iâve kickstarted the end of the world?â She asked, feeling absolutely worse than she had before she called them.
âNo. We think that you would do anything to help others and to fix the world and that there are others out there who will take advantage of that, if they get the chance,â Henry offered.
Jasper added, âSchwozâs friend from Davenport was telling us all about an android rebellion that once almost took place. His ex girlfriendâs models are the same ones that you designed yours after. Come ON, CharlotteâŠâÂ
âShe intended for them to be used for evil. Thereâs a big difference in our work and the results. Wow⊠Iâm going to go check on Mika. Have a good night.â
âCharâŠâ Henry said.
âGood night, Henry!â She hung up, frustrated and ready to cry. Not because she felt like they were being mean or hard on her. Because, they had a point and she couldnât believe that her messiah complex had allowed her to miss it beforehand. They didnât even KNOW about the android remains that were found. Oh God, what if she was the figurative first horseman? Conquering the academic world, looking like a savior to all because of her penchant for improving lives and society and her solutions that help and bring about peace⊠only to also be the reason that war and bloodshed roll in, and then famine and disease and death⊠How on Earth she got from messiah complex to I am literally the antichrist, she was unsure, but that was where her mind was whenever she began to doze off.Â
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Mika woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare. She was gonna get some warm milk with lavender honey and maybe a patty, if there were any more in there. She found Charlotte, sitting on the patio, asleep with her head on her laptop. She went to get Max, but neither him nor Chase were in their room, so she checked Charlotteâs and there they both were. Chase in his chamber, Max in Charlotteâs bed, covered by pillows, with a sleeping mask on and the smell of candles and incense heavy in the air. She woke him up, âCharlotte fell to sleep outside.â
âWhat?â He asked, half asleep, but jumping out of bed, anyway. He collected Charlotte. Mika collected her devices and they put her back in her bed. Mika felt left out, and grabbed her blanket and stuffie and came into Charlotteâs room too. With her in Charlotteâs bed, Max made a little fortress on the floor and quickly went back to sleep. Mika was awake for a while, but Charlotteâs arm draped around her and she fell back to sleep.Â
Charlotte got up and looked around the room. She didnât remember coming to bed and now, she had Chase in his chamber, Max on the floor with half of her pillows, Mika in her bed and her own head was spinning, because, as she just recalled, sheâd cried herself to sleep. Still, she was the first person awake and she started her day without waking any of the others. Eventually, Max and Chase came into the lab, where she was evaluating all of the diagnostics on the remains, listening to music, and talking on the phone, âWell, if I can get those remains sent to me, it will help me to determine how likely the root of that issue is and to ease your mind and maybe others,â in the process.â Chase looked at the screen and Max went straight to the autoblender. âOkay. Thank you for your cooperation, and tell Douglas to learn to keep his fat mouth shut when heâs in the room with MY people.â She hung up and looked up, âGood morning.â
âWhatâs that about Douglas?â Max wondered, while Chase breezed through all of the research.Â
âHe was talking to Ray and Schwoz about Giselle Vickerâs plans to use androids for a hostile takeover and now, one of THEEEEEEEE STUPIDEST powerful men has ideas in his head about the free androids and a robot rebellion and⊠Anyway, Schwoz is gonna send me the remains of a robot from the future so that I can study it.â
Max and Chase both stared at her blankly, then looked at each other. âHow long have you been awake, Charlotte?â Chase asked.
âI got enough sleep,â she snapped, shaking her head. âIn another, idk 20 years or so, maybe less⊠there is supposed to be a robot takeover inspired by the Terminator movies. Thanks to Douglas having a conversation with Ray, he now thinks that Iâve somehow set things in motion for that to occur.â
âWell⊠If you have, itâs done now. Besides, the fact that you have a robot from the future to work on is all the proof you need that it was gonna happen anyway,â Max said, making a smoothie. âI wanna see the robot, though. Let me in on that.â
âYou and I need to keep searching for remains,â Chase reminded him.Â
âThatâs not gonna take us the rest of our lives. By the way,â Max said to Charlotte as he poured the smoothie, âTold Mika to sleep in. Marx arrived today, so you can get him to do anything that she was gonna do.â
âWho arrived?â Chase wondered, because he was supposed to approve anybody that anyone was trying to bring into the loop and he hadnât spoken with Max about anybody.Â
âHis personal android assistant,â a male voice said from the doorway and Chase gasped and prepared himself to attack.Â
Max rushed to jump in front of Chase and said, âSorry, sorry, sorry⊠It was supposed to be hilarious, but then things took a turn and I didnât get a chance to explain to you. This is my personal android assistant, Marx. I made him in the Marcus model form to fuck with you, but I promise, heâs of no actual ties to your Marcus.â
âThat you know of,â Charlotte said. âI tried to talk him and Douglas OUTÂ of this.â
âDouglas missed his sonâs face and had some regrets and I wanted a personal android assistant. I thought it would be quite humorous to have him walk up to you one day, but fate had other plans,â Max said.
Chase was staring at the android. It looked JUST like Marcus. Why would Douglas allow this and not tell him? What if Leo had seen this thing? Marx was staring back at Chase, but he had a polite semi smile on his face. âKeep it away from me,â Chase said.
âMarx uses he/him/his pronouns,â Max said and patted Marx on the shoulder. âThey/them/theirs, at the very least.âÂ
Chase smiled tightly, âKeep him away from me, and I MEAN that, Max Thunderman!â He stormed out of the lab and Charlotte shook her head. âI asked you to give Marx a different face.â
âI didnât have time!â
Marx said, âIf it pleases you, I could work on some programming to change my face, however, I donât prefer to do so.â
âNaw, keep your face. Just⊠stay away from the little guy.â
âFrom Mr. Chase Davenport. Got it.â
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Chase was livid. How could that POSSIBLY be seen as a joke? If he knew about Marcus, he HAD to know about all of the pain and terror he caused the family! That only made him feel a resurgence of hostility towards Douglas. Sure, they were on pleasant terms, but some part of him would always hold on to, at least a little bit, the things that he had been willing to do to his own. Really, he was the reason that Marcus was so terrible, then he just left him, for Giselle Vickers to find and⊠Chase was getting extremely furious thinking about this. Marcus had been one of the first major betrayals done to him. He thought they were friends, and not only were they actually enemies, but that was his brother who his father had turned against him and he hated that Max Thunderman would casually try to prank him by showing him such a face.
After a while, Max joined him, silently at first, but they both felt the tension there. They were silently working. A few times, a question came up in one of their minds, but neither of them wanted to break the silence, because it was uncertain whether it would relieve the tension. Finally, Max had to break. âIt was messed up of me to make a Marcus model android with the intention to shake you up. I knew a little bit about the situation and not whatever it was that your memory tapped into back there. And, I really didnât know you at the time, either. I didnât think about how it would affect you like this and I certainly didnât think you and me would be on the terms we are on right now. So, I hate that I took a joke so far, but it was all me. Douglas really just liked the feeling of seeing his sonâs face again. And Charlotte, of course told me the entire time that it would be harmful. I just go too far sometimes.â
Chase was breathing heavy the entire time. Waiting on Max to actually apologize, not just list what happened. But, then again, why would he? He was obviously the type to get pleasure out of peopleâs pain and not even care about their personal trauma at the expense of a stupid laugh. He was much too smart to just ânot realize itâd be that harmful,â so Chase wasnât eager to listen to him and definitely not going to trust him.Â
âI guess the perks of being raised in a picture perfect family donât include having some respect for others who werenât so privileged,â Chase said. And that was all he felt like he needed to. To dive deeper, heâd dig deeper into his own problems, and he still had work to do.
âMy family wasnât perfect, but I wouldnât have wanted somebody to make fun of our problems either. Thatâs what Iâm trying to tell you. Iâm sorryâŠâ Max said, and it really sounded genuine. Chase almost let his guard down. But, he knew that heâd let his guard down with Marcus⊠With Sebastian⊠Heâd been let down basically any time he ever let his guard down and Charlotte was the one exception to that thus far. He was fine with that fact. âApology accepted,â he lied, and didnât want to speak of it again.Â
Max felt horrible. Chase looked like an angry little sad puppy. Like⊠Seeing Marcusâ face REALLY did something to him. There wasnât a lot of information, so he only knew the highlights that had been shared with him from Douglas, and it honestly sounded like, from what heâd been given, that Marcus kinda got the shit end of the stick. Max was starting to see that Chase probably got those types of ends more than his persona of perfection revealed. âIf anybody ever tried to do something bad to you, Iâm gonna have your back. Iâm shitty sometimes. I do mean stuff. I donât always prove to be the best sort of human, but⊠Youâre a good person, despite how annoying you can be and Iâm still probably gonna let you down and give you shit, but⊠I honestly do have your back,â Max said. Â
Chase sighed, âMy back is fine. Can we please just finish this up?â Max got back to work, but he heard Chase mumble, âIâm not gonna be fooled again.â
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All three of them were looking at what they knew to be EVERYTHING that could possibly have been left behind, while the other agencies went through the waters and the islands to double and triple check. Androids were surveilling them, to ensure that nobody planted anything, though Chase at this point trusted the androids about as much as heâd trusted the bionic army.
Max rarely trusted anybody, but he was trying not to waiver in his faith in Charlotte.Â
Charlotte was simply defeated and trying to think. âIf I have to spend the rest of my life preventing it, I will.â She looked at a chip that was more advanced than her work, but definitely carried her signature and held her emblem. The robots from the future⊠The ones that would revolt and enslave humanity? They were connected to her work. She threw the chip across the lab in frustration and stormed out.Â
Max and Chase waited. They looked at each other and Max wondered, âWhat do you think?â
âI think that itâs the androids. I think that they have autonomy and that humanity wonât allow harmony and that they will rise up against them after theyâve gotten tired of being oppressed. What I will never believe is that Charlotte is responsible. She wanted to do right for someone. It wouldnât be her fault that they betray her.â He fumed and groaned, âAndroids never should have been created.â
Max scoffed, âWe could say the same thing about bionics! And how do we know that it isnât something that a human tried to do? They always try to harm anybody different, especially if they read as more powerful. It could be one of the thousands of geniuses weâve sought out over the past few weeks, or one of the⊠of her trusted employeesâŠâ Max tugged his hair a little and said, âWhoever it is⊠Weâve got to stop them. This canât be the legacy forged for Charlotteâs good deeds.â
âI agree with that,â Chase said, and he meant it. He summoned the chip to himself and said, âIâm going to use every skill that I have to try to find a link to someone or something that answers these questions. But first, weâve gotta make sure our woman is okay.â He set it down and Max nodded his head. They found Charlotte near the Man Copter, hugging Mika and sending her away, for her own safety. Mika was crying and begging her not to do this, but Charlotte was definitely in a mode right now. There was no way she could let whatever was happening tarnish this bright young girl that she loved and cared so much for.Â
âI wonât leave you out. Iâm sharing everything with you. I just want you out of range until we figure out who tried to attack the place, okay?â
âOkay,â Mika said, ugly crying and nodding. She added, âBut as soon as itâs safe, I come back, right?â
âAt the very instant!â Charlotte told her.Â
âOkay.â She waved at Max and Chase, who she saw watching, then strapped herself in.
âSheâs going to one of my safehouses with the twins and their nanny, and will be working remotely. She felt like I was punishing her for this.â Charlotte shook her head. âListen⊠I need some physical gratification now. Iâm sorry if that seems toxic or foolish, especially considering how things are going at the moment, but I have to have release. I have to feel something primal and satisfactory. So⊠Iâm going to head to Dystopia for a little bit, but Iâll keep contact with you.â
âDystopia? Whatâs in Dystopia that will give you what you need that you canât have here?â Chase wondered.
âHer boyfriends,â Max said, sadly.Â
Charlotte wiped her face, âI just⊠Need to connect and I need it ASAP. Iâm sorryâŠâÂ
âDonât be. We understand,â Max said. She could tell that he was furious, despite his words, but everyone knew that Henry and Jasper were where her home is and she did love Max and Chase, but they didnât know how to handle everything she was currently experiencing. Plus, she owed the Defenders an apology, for questioning her, when it turned out that despite the fact that the idea came from a sensitive place, the worries were valid.
âWeâll come too,â Chase said. âWeâll stay out of the way, but I donât think that the three of us should have that much distance between us right now. We need to stick together.â
âI agree,â Max said.Â
âYeah. Of course, if you two still are in it with me.â
âCharlotte, you may not realize this yet, but⊠Max and I are yours, too.â Chase said. He had blurted it out, and didnât want to follow it up, but he meant it, and fortunately, Max didnât argue with him. âSo, to Dystopia, I guess.â
âIâll show you around while theyâre having their reunion. You only ever got to visit during crises, right?â Max said, relaxing a little as he turned to Chase, feeling closer to him right now than Charlotte, after this no matter how unintentional, but all too familiar form of rejection from her.
âYeah.â
âI have some roots in Dystopia. Weâll have a Maxâs World Day Out, yeah?â Chase didnât want to do that at all, but he shrugged his shoulders in surrender, anyway. âTo Dystopia,â Max said and wrapped an arm around Chaseâs shoulder, walking him away from Charlotte. She gave them a smile, and for a moment, felt like maybe she didnât need to visit Dystopia and see the guys⊠But then again, that little moment of complete comfort elsewhere? Well⊠Sheâd at least owe it to Henry and Jasper to let them know that maybe her heart had moved on...
#Henry Danger#Lab Rats#The Thundermans#Chasing Thunderbolts Fic#League of Extraordinary Geniuses#LOEG Update#Nesha Fics#Multiverse Fics
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MY TESTIMONY
Hi Everyone!
This is JG, again.
I will be writing to you about my experiences in life until I have none to talk about. Later, I will give you the daily updates of my life in the blog.
TODAY
I will be talking about how I overcame my anxieties and fear as an 8-year-old kid.
Many of you might not believe and accept the message which I will be sharing but it is what it is. ^^
When I started going to my new Big school. I had 60+ classmates in 3rd grade. Each day was nerve-wracking. I'd get so nervous that I would pass out almost every single day in the morning assembly even before my classes began. Before joining this environment, I was habitual in a completely different one where nothing felt unusual and difficult. It was not the academic which was tough, it was facing those unfamiliar faces and the fact that I knew literally no one out there.
Some mornings, I would cry and whine around my parents and ask them if I could skip school that day. Some days my parents would understand and agree to it but some days I had to go to school, most of those days, I would pass out in the assembly or end up not talking to anyone and having a terrible day. Also, my teacher was extremely loud and one of the scariest one in the school.
Those days felt extremely difficult to get through :/
One morning, I woke up and I asked my dad(heâs a pastor) if I could skip school that day, he asked me "Why?" I answered, "I'm scared". He then told me lots of encouraging things but one thing which is still stuck inside my head is a Bible Verse which he showed to me.
Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for i am with thee: be not dismayed; for i am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. (KJV)
These words (of God) led me to my salvation.
The relief i felt at that moment when i knew that God is always there for me and i have nothing to fear of, I felt stronger than before. I didn't feel lonely and terrified to face the bigger world anymore because I was not alone.
To my readers, i hope that you too realize that you are not alone and there is always someone who loves you and is thankful for your existence. An 8 year old kid won her battle of anxieties and fear with God. I sincerely hope you do too.
- I am a saved person - I am stronger than before. - I am still unshakable in my faith.
The next post will be up soon, stay tuned!
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Some Retrospective Thoughts on Gen 7
Galarâs making me go nuts. You already know. Letâs look back on Alola because why not. I feel like I have stuff to say about it. Also, I just watched the last episode of the Alolan Anime, so thereâs that.
Whenever I first think back to Gen 7, I think âEh, it was alright. Nothing special, I guess.â The Pokemon were decent, apart from being almost universally slow, apart from like 3 speed demons, the starters werenât much, the story was alright, the location was alright, etc. etc.Â
Then, I ACTUALLY think back, and I realize⊠I have no idea why I was thinking that. This generation was actually amazing.
First of all, they finally put the motif of the Sun and Moon into game types. Itâs definitely a breath of fresh air after they tried to use the fucking dimensions in 3D space for titles in Gen 6 (Loved that gen too, but seriously âLifeâ and âDeathâ would both be more fitting and not as strange. Maybe they donât want âDeathâ as a title tho). Really fits in with how naturally themed everything is too, which is obviously for the best, since this is the most ânaturalâ game to date. Even though we technically already had an America-based region in Unova, Hawaiâi is so unique in its own right it definitely fits for a region. Iâm usually the type who doesnât like super overt themes in things, and kind of just wants a very generalized experience, but itâs probably for the good of everyone that they donât actually follow through with that idea.Â
Probably the biggest thing to come out of this generation is the new habit of them posting short little videos on Youtube revealing new Pokemon/features/etc. Obviously they were super trigger happy with them then, but now it seems theyâve taken a step back a little. I do love this idea, though, because it actually hypes me up more than anything else ever could. I remember before, even though I was kinda-sorta trying to follow the updates on Gens 4-6, I never really felt like I could, and even though I was going to get the games no matter what, now I realize I really want to know what Iâm getting into.Â
I remember exactly where I was for some of the major announcements. For the starters, I was in my high school geometry class, where I watched and re-watched that video dozens of times just so I could keep looking at them. I started off on Rowletâs side of course, but once I realized he was getting all the attention and ol Popplio was getting basically none, I changed my allegiance and stayed there to this day. Ignoring the fact that I donât really like any of the final evolutions enough to actually use them in game, I LOVE Popplio himself. Itâs seriously a shame that he didnât become some clown seal like everyone was speculating. Unlike how it seems, I really, really like ânormalâ clown characters (as in, not âhorrorâ clowns), so he couldâve easily become one of my favorites in that case. Decidueye is definitely my favorite of the final forms, and Incineroar I think is still underrated. Sure, whatever, heâs bipedal, and itâs weirder than it otherwise would be, but for some reason I love how his mouth was an actual modeled mouth and not just an image slapped on there like most Pokemon. It really made him more expressive than the average Pokemon. Plus, the animation for Darkest Lariat is really cool, with his hands flashing against a flat back background for a second before actually doing the move. Even better, itâs great meme potential when hacked onto other Pokemon, like Wailord.
I donât remember if Solgaleo and Lunala were introduced in that first trailer too, but either way I love both of them. I was a bit more drawn to Solgaleo at first, but Lunala has since grown to be one of my favorite legendaries of all. The starry wings, golden rims, and white skeleton-y body are such a great combo. And yeah, sure, Solgaleo wouldâve been more fitting as a fire type or whatever, but since stars form the heavy metals that make it onto planets itâs fine. I wonât accept that Lunala shouldâve been a dark type, though. The Moon is a major embodiment of light in the night sky, so if anything it shouldnât be related to darkness. As for Necrozma, I love his base form a lot. Itâs such a strange look, especially how the back of his head is transparent. Itâs the perfect âevil prismâ pokemon. I really just wish Ultra Necrozma had more detail to him, though. He looks so flat for such a major figure in the games⊠At least he had a good battle and an even BETTER theme song, hot damn
Guess thatâs a good transition to talk about the music, and I guess tangentially about Team Skull, since they were probably the best possible departure from the usual âEvil Teamâ formula. Them just being random hooligans causing trouble instead of a formal organization trying for world domination is a good change of pace, as pretty much everyone agrees⊠It wouldnât have been so great if they didnât at least try to incorporate rap/trap music into their themes. Theyâre probably the most music-oriented Team canonically speaking, so theyâd have to have a great theme. Also, the idea that they feel left behind by the traditions of the Trials really makes sense, since something so important in their culture would definitely make someone feel left out if they couldnât get through it.Â
Other themes for the more calm situations, like Hauâoli Cityâs night theme, are also extremely good. I didnât even realize how much I loved that track until I heard Insaneintherainâs cover of it. It almost sounds like something out of Steven Universe, for how pleasant it is (apart from the piano). Lillieâs theme still gives me the warm fuzzies every time I hear it, too. I donât think a single game before this has ever done the credits so well, too. Apart from the fun artwork, the last shot of Lillie and the gameâs legendary actually just kills me every time. Sheâs such an adorable, pure soul, itâs crazy to think that when she was first revealed, we thought she was the secret supervillain of the game, just because she looked kinda peeved in her official art. We werenât far off, though, with the Aether Foundation and all. I love both the calm theme of the Paradise itself AND their evil battle theme. Even though one is obviously an evil theme, it does feel like it came from the same source. Same goes for Lusamineâs theme. I really love the Aether Foundation as a whole too, where we can now have âGoodâ Foundation archetypes to counter the Evil Team archetype. Plus, their designs all involve white with gold accents, which is basically my brand. I tried to design my own Aether outfit the instant I saw them, since I love their look so much.Â
As for battle themes, I love how jazzy Galdionâs battle theme ended up. It made him so much more interesting than just a generic edgelord. The Elite Fourâs battle theme might actually be the scariest theme to date for some reason, and yet all I can picture when listening to it is Acerola bobbing joyfully back and forth⊠Basically the same way, the Tapu battle theme is also pretty crazy, with tribal chants in the back of it. The Tapus are probably the coolest group of legendaries in the game, considering how unique they are, with their oddly wooden shells that represent animals. It really makes them feel like spirits brought about by the people of Alola themselves, instead of just some being that came out of nowhere. Probably the one theme that is the most nostalgic (yes, I know it was only 3 years ago, you can still feel nostalgia damnit) for me is the Kahuna battle theme. It was probably just some random comment on Youtube, but somewhere someone said that it was the perfect theme because it starts off intimidating, but quickly switches into a super fun melody, because ultimately, the Island Challenge is for fun. I just love that. Iâm always looking for âFunâ stuff in pretty much everything, so I like a theme that represents that. Also, itâs just super catchy, and even expanded upon in Pokemon Masters. Let it be known that Hapu is the best Kahuna by the way. She cute. Also, watching her become the Kahuna is the best world building you could possibly muster up for this kind of setting.Â
Of course, Iâm intentionally leaving out a certain groupâŠ
You know what I think of when I think of Hawaiâi? Pearly white sand beaches⊠Palm trees⊠Fruity drinks⊠oh, and letâs not forget fucking interdimensional aliens.Â
The Ultra Beasts are the exact type of thing Iâd want to insert into the Pokemon world, and thatâs why I love them. Theyâre so weird in the best ways possible. When they were introduced in a trailer, I had the same reaction as I did with Type: Null. They put him up on the screen for a bit and was like âHaha hereâs âType: Null,â okay nextâ like EXCUSE ME? YOU CANâT JUST SHOW ME A POKEMON CALLED âType: Nullâ AND NOT EXPLAIN WHATâS GOING ON. Of course, thatâs kind of what the games were for, but it was seriously a shock to the system to see Pokemon with code names instead of actual names. You also canât convince me that Pheromosa wasnât designed after Lusamine, and to a lesser extent that Xurkitree wasnât designed after Guzma. I think itâs canon that Lusamine styled Lillie after Nihilego in her crazed state, but the uncanny likeness between those other two is pretty darn notable. I think from the first batch, Celesteela was my favorite of them all, being like a rusted copper rocket ship or something, who can even smack you with her two giant rockets. Also, Pokemon directly based on folktales are always welcome, no matter what. Meanwhile, with the Ultra games being the first sequels to introduce brand-new Pokemon, Blacephalon easily took top spot. I did say I liked clowns, didnât I? Plus, the biggest evidence that heâs best boi is that in the anime when he appeared, he didnât even try to attack anything. He just wanted to show off (specifically, believe it or not, by moonwalking⊠Whoeverâs idea that was needs a raise). I also love detachable heads, which is a great idea to mix with clowns, and I guess also fireworks in this case⊠I just love him. I really hope that there will be future instances of Ultra Beasts, since itâs apparently super easy to just make them however the hell you want them, and since youâre not limited to a regionâs natural environment. Lord knows whoever designed Buzzwole didnât have any limitations. Exploring his, and really all of their worlds in USUM was extremely fun. Itâs a damn shame Blacephalon and Stakataka (again, what a name) didnât get the same privilege.Â
As for the Pokemon as a whole, like I mentioned, off the top of my head I donât feel super crazy about many of them, even though thatâs a total lie. Shiinotic appealed to my inner mushroom-character-lover so much that I basically designed a character that looked identical to him. Heâs easily the best mushroom Pokemon to date, where he looks pretty cute while also being just slightly creepy enough, with those souless eyes. The concept for Araquanid is amazing, where heâs a reverse Diving Bell spider. I mightâve designed him a bit differently, but he still looks super cool. The ideas behind Oranguru and Passimian are also cool, since we havenât delved much into intelligent ape Pokemon enough. Wishiwashi is another great concept, and probably the best fish Pokemon in my opinion because of it. Lurantis and Minior are total cuties, the latter being one of those Pokemon that isnât always in the forefront of my mind, but the instant it is it reclaims its place as one of my all-time favorites. Golisopod and Kommo-o are two of the coolest Pokemon designs to me, the latter being my all-time favorite Pseudo-Legendary. Vikavolt looks awesome, despite being deceptively slow. Dhelmise looks weird until you realize itâs actually insanely large (like, Wailord large). Mudsdale is just an all-around good-looking horse. Oricorio also looks really cool, especially in her fiery form. Tsareena is, well⊠Tsareena⊠Thatâs not even including the adorable Magearna and Marshadow, who are in generational limbo⊠Also, I think Mimikyu might be the overall best addition to the franchise ever. No Pika-clone could ever compare.Â
I mean, specifically as far as a single Pokemon goes, Mimikyu is definitely the best addition to the franchise. Meanwhile, as far as concepts go, the absolutely HUGE idea of Regional Variants is the best addition. Again, I remember where I was when I heard the announcement: it was some sort of weird fantasy house, with a ton of cool details in it to make it look like a setting in some movie or something. It was awesome there, even if we were staying for only a night or so I think. Either way, the concept of different Pokemon adapting to different conditions in the region is the most perfect way to bring attention back to older Pokemon, and Iâm so glad they seem to want to keep the idea for all future generations too. Itâs especially fitting for Alola, since itâs a super remote island. I love how goofy Alolan Exeggutor is, especially because everyone else seems to love his goofiness too. Same sort of goes for Dugtrio, since his hair is actually based on a real thing⊠Marowak becoming a spiritual fire dancer is definitely the best possible iteration for him. My favorite might be the colorful Alolan Muk, though, even if Alolan Vulpix is infinitely cuter and better than fiery Vulpix in every way. I cannot be convinced otherwise.
Also, sheâs a perfect fit for Lillie, so I guess Iâll use that as my transition into talking about the characters/anime. Iâm just gonna be real with you. Iâm not going to hold back. Alola has some of the cutest girls in the entire franchise. But first of all, letâs divert that train and instead lust after a man who is easily the hottest professor in the games yet, Kukui. What self-respecting researcher wouldnât wear his professor-mandated lab coat without any undershirt? He needs his bulging abs as target practice for his Pokemonâs moves, people. He needs to let them breathe. Also, I was kind of enamoured with Sycamore before him, but you canât deny the tinted skin gets to you a little. Burnetâs a lucky gal, letâs just say.
Okay, now that weâve established that my pants donât discriminate, we have to talk about Wicke. So now that thatâs covered, can I just say I love Mina? Iâd say she deserves more attention, but she was the only Alolan to make it into Lets Go for some reason, so I guess sheâs well off? First of all, I love hippie-esque girls (idealized hippies, at least), so thatâs a major plus⊠I mean, I should probably stop using the word âcuteâ altogether because it applies to every girl in the game, but yeah. Lanaâs highly deserved spotlight in the anime made me love her too, where she was a perfect combination of extroverted while still more soft-spoken. I donât know if that kind of charactersâ an anime trope, but lord knows itâs not in western media, so I love how unique her personality is. Her interacting with Mallow and Lillie in cute, girly ways felt so wholesome. If the animeâs anything, itâs wholesome.Â
One sec, though. I have to mention that I really like Hau. Heâs obviously the one pinned as âBoo, heâs not a giga-asshole! That means heâs bad!â because I guess the fandomâs hive mind has collectively agreed that the only good rivals are assholes now. Like I said before, this stuffâs more about fun now. Hauâs a fun friend to fight, to the point where you beat him as the Champion you kinda feel bad for knocking him down so much. You feel bad because you like him, you know. Also, I forgot to mention this earlier but even though he isnât entirely difficult himself, the trials in these games are actually both a difficult and interesting challenge. A 2v1 where youâre at the disadvantage is a great boss battle idea, especially with the strategies set out by a Pokemonâs different abilities and moves. Probably the best was Totem Lurantis, who of course summoned a Sunny Day-based Castform to activate her Chlorophyll and buff her Solar Blade, while adding a diverse fire type into play. It was really difficult, to be honest. Those who say it wasnât either got lucky or have insane standards that cannot be met because theyâre Pokemon Veterans who know every little thing about everything. Iâm pretty much in that camp, and I still had to actually plan during the fight. Same goes for Totem Araquanid in USUM. I literally had to poison (not toxic, base poison) stall that guy because I couldnât do anything to him otherwise. He was pretty much one-shotting everything I sent out, anyway, so I had to stall however I could. You canât argue that that means it was âeasyâ because I knew how to beat him. Itâs only âeasyâ if you can just send out pretty much whatever and do whatever and still win. Then thereâs the Rainbow Rocket episode in USUM, which is just crazy⊠Thereâs not much to say that isnât obvious there. It was fun seeing the villains that were victorious in a different dimension.
Anyways, for the anime, I also have a similar stance. It really seemed like the only people who started off hating it were anime nerds who had no concept of an in-between frame. I will say that it was a step down from XY/XYZ though, but those seasonsâ quality was unusually high. Compared to the animation quality of every other season, it was so much better. First of all, I really donât even like âanime styleâ that much, so a slightly more western style was very welcome. Like pretty much every show ever, the animation quality is seriously high where it counts, so thereâs not much to be said about that, but Iâd say the overall animation quality is a step up in general. The more simplified style only really looked weird in Ash because weâre so used to his more pointy style. Every other character looked totally fine, in my opinion.Â
As for the story, I will say I wouldâve wanted the scope of the plot to be much larger, like how with the other seasons Ash was going on an adventure, whereas here it was very contained, and centered around the Pokemon School. But, still, like I mentioned, I did enjoy the casual wholesomeness of it all. Not only do I just like mindless fun, but it made the crazy shit feel even crazier. The episode where Faba was trying to catch Nebby is a perfect example. It begins with a nice fun game of all the Pokemon and people jumping rope and having a good time, with some slapstick humor with Faba failing to capture Nebby. Then he does, and shit goes down. First of all, heâs torturing the little thing. Then, ASH (not his Pokemon, Ash himself) tackles Faba. Tell me, what other season had humans fighting other humans? I honestly canât think of a single time when fighting was done with fists and not Pokemon (although surely Iâm forgetting something, thereâs gotta be at least one other example, right?) Then, Lillie re-experiences her past trauma of almost being abducted by Nihilego, except now her mom gets abducted in her place⊠Like, what happened? It was so cute a second ago. Thatâs always the selling point for any cartoon, for me. Stay casual for a decent amount, then break it with some uncharacteristically high tension. The same goes for the segment where Ash goes into Guzzlordâs post apocalyptic dimension. As for mega-feels, Itâs great that they made Litten/Torracat an actual character instead of just some random Pokemon, with Stoutland and whatnot. The episode where they go into Tapu Finiâs mist and Mallow meets her mother, and Torracat meets Stoutland just destroyed me. It was strategically remedied by Lillie and Gladion not seeing their father, suggesting heâs still alive. There were some really great episodes in the season, for sure.
So, yeah⊠Alola was a good time. Donât deny it. Galarâs gonna be great too. No gameâs ever going to be perfect, but that doesnât mean it wonât be fun.
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